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You go to a party? I beg your pardon? A party?

Good food, good drink, good sex.

What?

You and me.

No, no, I'm just, I'm waiting.

For a bus?

On this block?

Good to see you. Hi, Pete. You too.

Are you okay?

You look a little... I'm fine.

I mean, I really appreciate this.

For a stand-up guy like you, it's my pleasure.

Listen, I gotta make one stop up here.

Pick up a little something.

You're real lucky today. This is the best.

Come on, you're under arrest.

Anything you say, can or won't. Hey!

Hey!

Mrs. Cavallaro.

Yes? I want to make sure you understand clearly the terms of your son's

probation. Now, he's to see his probation officer every two weeks.

He's not to leave the township without the permission of the probation officer.

Under no circumstances is he permitted to enter Chicago.

Now, any violation of any of these terms, and he will be remanded to

juvenile custody for the remainder of his year's term.

Okay? Yes.

Is Dad here?

I don't know.

Bobby?

Hey, ref.

Hey, bro.

Psych!

Daddy's at work.

Is Dad here?

Back in the garage.

Hi, Dad.

Dad, I'm sorry.

I mean about lying to you about where I was.

I'm sorry I got in trouble.

I guess you want to know what happened. I want to hear.

Well, I just thought... I'm talking.

The men in this family are men.

You'll abide by that or leave.

That's him.

Did you hear?

What? He got busted for drugs.

He got caught

in a restaurant too, you know. No, that's not what happened. He got busted

in a gay bar.

He's in a bathroom wearing a dress. In a dress?

He's a fag. I can see him in a dress. Oh, he's wearing a dress.

Hey,

Molly.

It's up to me, Mrs. Johnson. That boy will be out of here in a minute.

It isn't up to you, is it, Mr. Arnold?

Oh,

I'm

sorry. I touched him. I touched him. I'm dead.

Bobby, wait.

Now.

You didn't call me when you got back. I didn't know what to say.

Just to say hi.

I didn't know if you'd want to see me after what happened.

You mean during vacation?

Yeah.

Is it true that you spent vacation with a bunch of... Fags?

No.

Just one.

No.

No what?

I'm not gay.

And yes, I did.

Did what?

Sex. I guess you don't want to see me anymore?

I don't know.

Do you?

Yes.

I don't know.

Because of what happened?

Is that it?

Just tell me. It's just...

ugly it's okay um it's cool i'll see you around

Come on, Gary. You let a faggot beat you, man?

You got something to say to me?

Huh?

No. No, man, no.

You're damn right you don't. Hey, come on, come on. It's cool.

Um... Coach?

You wanted to see me?

Yeah, I do.

I don't kid around with you, Caballero.

Some of the boys came to me asking me to kick you off the team.

Now, I'll tell you what I told them. I don't care what you are in private, as

long as you keep your hands to yourself.

I care can you swim.

Now, you get your time down to 1.25.

You help us beat Lohman High. You get to the league finals.

You can go with every gay in Chicago. It doesn't bother me.

Just nothing here, okay?

Now, get out of here.

Can you evaluate this integral for any values of m and n? Can you do it? Well,

I can get up there. Come on, let's go.

Well, this is a beta function.

Uh-huh.

Well,

what are those, Greek gammas?

Gamma is intractorial.

Uh-huh.

Equals. Five factorial.

You sure?

Yes, I am. Your example would be five factorial.

Which equals 120.

All right!

Bobby, I missed you after class today. The forms for the Wilson math contest

will be coming in soon. Are you planning to enter?

Wilson's for really advanced people, isn't it? Bobby, you're doing college

math right now.

Yeah. I'll let you know when the forms come in.

You ever thought of going to school somewhere else?

No, not really.

Well, why not?

There's plenty other good schools.

Yeah, like ballet school.

Hey, Bobby.

I'm real sorry about those books getting knocked down on the ground.

Pick them up, Bobby.

Wait a minute.

Hey, take it easy. You're gonna hurt the guy.

What a mess.

Well, Bobby, how about it?

Hey, Bobby, I see you fell down.

Why don't you get your books?

Who asked you to butt in, Cleary?

Come on, I'll give you a ride home.

Hey!

Hey, this isn't the way to my house. Hey, what do you think? I don't know

that. I want to show you something.

What do you mean?

No, no, no. It's nothing like that. It's just a place. The place I got.

Come on.

Oh, wow.

Yeah, that's not bad, huh?

Mr. Turret?

You fixed this all up yourself?

Nah. Anne-Marie helped me a bit.

My woman.

Where did you get this?

Built it.

What does it run on?

Uh, well, got a couple of squirrels in there running around.

Nope. Oh, no, thanks.

So they still talk about me over at Barrett?

Oh, yeah.

What do they say?

Cleary Biggs, man.

He punched out Coach Rourke in gym class.

Got his butt expelled.

They say why I hit him?

I remember.

He made you do laps.

Yeah. You ever seen me do laps?

Huh?

Funny, huh?

Brooke thought so.

Thought I'd be good for a couple laps.

Nobody laughs at Cleary Biggs.

Hey.

How did you know about me?

That's the greatest thing about being an outlaw.

You get to go everywhere and see everything.

I know who's doing what to whom.

I've been watching you.

How come you helped me out back there?

I should say I noticed your limp.

Here you go.

What? What is that?

It's the cutest place.

Use it anytime you want.

You know, people say that I'm gay.

Well, people say that I'm a jerk. So what?

hi hi

and

we just walked off he's big he's huge i

don't know if he lives at the shack he goes with this woman named ann marie and

she's she's older she's like 25.

wow she lives down on crane is this it

Yeah, it doesn't look like he's here.

Come on, I'll show you inside.

That's something, huh?

It's great.

You know, I've always dreamed of a hideaway in the woods.

You know, somewhere I could go to whenever I needed to be alone.

Oh, now you have one.

Come on.

I mean,

you know, we're just fooling around.

Have you ever made love?

You're the only boy I ever went with.

Have you?

To a woman, no.

Do you want to?

Do you?

No.

That whole thing with that man, Bobby.

I love you, but... Do you want to talk about it? No.

I don't know.

It's just so... Disgusting.

I don't know. You know, maybe we should talk about it. Maybe it'll make it less

awful, but...

It's Cleary.

Hey, guys, how you doing?

Cleary. Thought you might be out of here.

Oh, um, I hope you don't mind.

This is Beth Lund. No, no, not at all. How you doing?

Look, come on, I'm going over to Anne-Marie's.

I want you to meet her.

Huh? Huh?

Beast. Think you can handle her?

Definitely. All right.

Beth, baby, you ride with me, all right? All right.

Hey Marie, am I doing this right?

That's right.

Thumb and forefinger steady.

You don't have to go fast, just steady.

That's right.

What do you do with all these pots and things after you make them?

Couple times a year I put them in the van, head out for the craft fairs and

sell them.

You make a living this way?

Hell no.

I work.

I teach crafts at Women's House of Detention.

Like I was saying, there's always room for a good mechanic, but if me and Emory

ever get itchy, we always rev up the old bikes and take off.

To where?

Anyplace looks good.

Come on!

And he's got these other guys on the team to go along with him.

Well, why do you think he's doing it?

Well, if he gets rid of me, he gets rid of the competition on the team.

It's more than that.

She's some of these he-men types.

Scared silly that they might be gay.

So they hassle gays to prove to themselves that they're real men.

That's scary, all right.

So, what are you gonna do?

Take it?

Get through it? For what? Prove some point?

Hell, if it was me, I'd get a damn two-by-four.

Walk up to him in a cafeteria and knock him in the head.

Walk out a free man.

No. I think he's right for what he wants to do. What do you want to do?

Well, you know, he's a whiz at math, and Mr. Geffen, the math teacher, said he'd

help him get a scholarship at Wisconsin where he went.

College? Oh, hell, come on.

No, I want to go.

Nobody in my family ever went to college.

College grad? Well, whoopee.

And then what, man the cash register at the local supermarket?

No. Hey, it's a sucker's game, and you're a sucker if you play it.

It's not you.

He has a thing about things like that. He'll be all right.

I'll get up there. All right, easy.

Hey,

Bobby. Ron.

Dad, can I talk to you?

We're working here.

Just for a minute.

Watch your finger.

Well?

Look, I know you're taking a lot of stuff about me.

Just tell him I did it for the fun and the clothes.

You say the guy conned me.

Dumb kid, just looking for the high life.

Is that true?

Yeah, it is.

You know, never in my family was there anything like this.

I mean, never.

It's like, girl... But who are you?

Would my son do something like this?

Hey, Bobby.

Are you, uh, gay?

No.

Then that's what we'll tell everybody, huh?

Let's get on with it.

Hey, Pop.

Why don't you go talk to him?

And say what?

I don't know, just talk.

What is it?

Nothing.

Joe.

Tell me.

I don't know what to do.

Bobby.

You know, Donnie said that she talked to him.

I want to kill him for what he did.

I mean, the family, you know?

It's like he spat on us, but we are.

Thank God.

Thank God my father isn't alive.

And he went to jail, the strike of 54, for the family.

These people, I mean, these gays, you know, I mean, they spit on the

family.

They go with this one, they go with that one, they talk about their rights,

freedom. You tell me, what right do they got to spread that disease?

God forbid.

Please don't. And he goes with one of them, too.

Why do you think he did?

Ask him.

This thing that he did.

It's terrible.

But I don't blame him, Joe.

Bobby's a good boy.

He always has been. He doesn't do drugs. He doesn't steal cars and things like

that.

That man lured him into it.

I don't blame Bobby, Joe.

I'm not going to punish him for it. And you mustn't either.

Oh, really?

Since when do I talk to the boys about sex?

Come on, Joe.

You made the rules.

I know, I know.

It's just, I mean, a thing like this, you know, it makes me... Joe, he wants

to talk.

And it's time.

I don't know.

He's always been so far away, you know. He's always been so quiet.

You know, like he had a secret.

Do you remember when Donnie was small?

Right? Everyone used to pick him up, and I could throw him up in the air, right?

I'd laugh. We'd have a terrific time.

And then when I did the same thing with Bobby, he'd just look at me like there

was something wrong with me.

Joe, he is different from you, but not against you.

He loves you.

He made a terrible mistake, but it's over now.

You have to let it be over.

The shepherd loves all his flock.

Yeah?

Oh, come on, Rosie. Give me a break.

He was God. And we're made in his image.

Look, just show us the stuff and get it over with, huh?

No, I don't want to force this on you. You're not forcing it on me. I am.

You said you don't want to talk about him. This is all about it. Sooner or

later, I have to face it.

Beth.

I didn't even think you would be here today. You said you had to study.

Otherwise, I never would have brought this.

So let's just forget the whole thing and pretend it's not even here. I can't

pretend it's not here.

Frankly, neither can I.

Expensive place.

He likes good food. How many times you go there?

Three or four.

He likes it. You like it?

Well, it's no tiny's pizza, but... Hey, snob.

What do you want? I had to go.

No, you wouldn't want to offend the man, right?

Look at this. Heavy leather, huh?

God, top of the line.

Is this what you wore to all those expensive places?

Sometimes.

I had other stuff, too, but I left him.

Is that him? Yeah.

Mark. You want to tell us how it happened?

You really want to know?

Sure.

Well, I went into the city to a computer center where they had this terrific

computer they just put in.

and I was having trouble accessing his program.

And he showed me how to do it.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

He told me his name was Mark Reed.

I want to thank you for helping me on the program.

Sure. I couldn't have done it otherwise. No problem.

Thanks.

Wait a minute.

Look, I have some time before I have to go back to the office.

Would you like some lunch?

Oh, thanks.

I was just going to take the bus on home. Well, still, you have to have

lunch. I was thinking maybe Gordon's.

Gordon?

Like in The Gordon?

Yeah. Have you ever been there?

Oh, sure. We go every Thursday.

Maids stay off.

Well, you curious?

I don't know.

I mean, there's something about numbers and the way you can play with them. You

can make them into different things.

I mean, yeah, I studied.

Well, with math, it's not like studying.

It's like being in a... What kind of sauce is this?

Bearnaise.

It's delicious.

My teacher, Mr.

Geffen, he gives me these books to read.

And they're books on, like, theory.

And I read them, and you know what?

I understand them.

I mean, it's like... It's like eating lunch here.

I know I want to do something with math.

I don't know. I don't know what.

I know I don't want to teach.

I don't want to work in industry.

But I don't know if I'll ever be really good enough to get into one of those

think tanks.

Wow, this is a great place.

And he made me feel really at ease.

And he didn't have that tone, you know, of always giving orders.

Are you famous?

Oh, I do all right.

Hello, Mr. Reeve.

Your messages.

This way.

You've got to be famous.

Did you make this?

No, I designed it. A model maker built it.

Correct.

Who's the girl?

Oh, that's my daughter.

Oh, she's pretty.

What's her name?

Maria.

Where's she going to school?

Boarding school, California.

I just don't believe this whole thing.

Now, this one gives you a top view of a section of the building.

Press the next one.

And you get a closer view of that room you're designing.

Press that one, and you get an isometric top view.

Now, how tall are you?

5'6". Right. Well, press this one, and you'll get a perspective from 5'6",

looking from the living room out through the window.

I print that last one.

And you complete the image. And he had me sign a printout of my design. And

then he put his architect stamp on it. Like, I don't know, he respected what I

had done.

It was like he was treating me like a fellow architect.

This is ingenious.

By the third weekend, I had to start making up lies about why I was going

into this city. Come on. No, come on. I don't know. I just...

I just knew my parents would never understand.

It's great, huh? Uh-huh.

Well, try it on.

What for?

Oh, for fun.

Oh, go on. It's okay.

Come on.

Good to read. How are you?

Oh, that's perfect.

Oh, man.

Terrific. Take it.

It would take me a year to pay this thing off. No, no, no, no. It's yours.

Oh, my treat.

No.

Well, why not?

I can't do that.

Okay.

No problem.

No, no.

No problem.

I suppose you've guessed it already.

Yeah.

What?

That you're gay?

Yes.

But you have a daughter.

Who has a gay father.

I was in the closet for years.

And then I just couldn't keep living that way anymore.

So I...

Divorced her mother and came out.

Look, that business with the jacket was really stupid of me. I'm not...

I never was out to seduce you.

I like you.

As a friend.

These past few weeks with you have been so important to me.

I'd never do anything to spoil them.

Even if it meant not seeing you anymore.

Not see me?

Well, I... I just wouldn't want you to think...

I don't know what to think.

I've never...

Been friends with a grown man before.

It's like the whole world opened up to me.

I don't know what to do.

It was very painful, I mean, for both of us. But I trusted Mark because he was

honest with me.

I didn't come into the city after that, but I was miserable.

Until I couldn't stand it any longer.

Hi, Mark.

Yeah, it's me.

You're gonna think I'm really stupid, but I... Yeah, I would.

That would be fine.

How do you feel?

Guilty? It's wrong.

I love you.

Do you love me?

Yeah.

Well, it's an expression of love.

How can that be wrong?

I have a girlfriend, you know.

Well, great.

Oh, what's her name?

Beth.

Well, tell me about her.

Well, we met last fall in history, and, uh, I don't know what happened just like

that.

Um,

and, um, she's not too tall, but, you know, she looks pretty tall.

And she's kind of pretty in a plain sort of way.

And she likes me because I'm quiet, and so is she.

And we talk a lot between each other. I mean, you'd be surprised.

She knows a lot about a lot of different things. And she's very smart with

people.

And I don't know if she knows for sure.

Mark and I went places.

Movies, shows, art galleries.

I met people I never dreamed I would. I mean, like Teague Mitchell.

Well-known ball player, right?

He treated me like a real person.

But it just couldn't last.

What were you talking about?

Sports. Oh, crap. He was trying to pick you up. Oh, come on. He had Kevin with

him. You made a date with him, didn't you? No. You took his phone number. I

saw you.

So what? What is wrong with that?

What's wrong is that he's famous for stealing his friend's friend.

Then why did you even invite him?

Because... Because he's famous and an athlete, and I thought you'd like that.

And I did, talking to him, period.

Why do you think I'm here?

For you. But if you're going to get crazy at every little thing... Because

you make me crazy. I can talk to whoever I want to. I forbid you to see Teak

Mitchell.

You what?

I forbid you.

You don't forbid me anything.

You are not my father. I will go wherever... I want to go. I will talk to

who I want to. Fine. You want to go to him?

Go. You want your freedom? Go.

Okay, I will.

Go on.

Hello? Teak?

And, as they say,

the rest is history.

If you hadn't been arrested, would you have gone with Teak?

You mean slept with him? No.

I just... I needed a place to stay.

Yeah, Mark was too insecure to hack it, right?

Yeah.

Everybody says what I did was wrong.

But I loved him, and he loved me.

Who did I hurt?

No one.

But you hit the big T.

Taboo. It's men with men and women with women.

Who's gonna make the babies?

Holy cow, the end of the human race.

Come on, Cleary. Gays are 10% of the population.

How are they gonna take over? By recruiting. The way Mark did with you.

Mark didn't recruit me.

Oh, no?

No. I liked him.

You slept with him.

When I decided to.

Then maybe you are gay.

Looking for a man.

She saw the chips and I knew I had a chance.

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I can't do what?

Don't ever touch him again.

What's the matter? What are we doing? Never mind.

We were just playing, Dad.

You go to your room.

Go on.

Not ever again.

What does he think? I'm going to do something to my own brother?

It's crazy.

I mean, what do I have to do just to get this guy to give me a break?

Nothing.

There's nothing you can do.

Hey, look, from birth, my old man had it in for me because of my leg.

I was just this runty little cripple, and he didn't want to have anything to

do with me. No way.

Whatever I did, he beat me.

Then something happened, and neither of us figured out.

I grew into this absolute moose.

Last time he took a swing at me, I was 13.

I whipped his butt all over the house.

Well, great, but then what?

Moved out, got a job after school.

Bingo, free man.

I don't know.

I mean, I would need a crowbar just to whip my old man.

Move out where?

Here.

Well... Hey, no, really, why not? I mean, I'm pretty much staying down at

Marie's anyway.

It'd be good for me to have you here kind of looking after the place.

I don't know. I do.

Either move in here, or you gotta invest some money in a crowbar, right?

Hey, you got any clues?

You ready to say goodnight?

Yep.

Okay.

All right, in you go.

Listen, son.

How about today?

I didn't mean to yell at you.

It's just, uh... I know.

Okay.

Sleep well.

I don't know.

I mean, I do everything.

Donnie will bring home C's from school.

The old man is all over him with A grade.

I bring home A's, and I get, yeah, okay.

I mean, I offer to work on that lousy car.

I kill myself just to get on the swimming team.

Nothing.

And I hate swimming.

I mean, he's my father.

He's supposed to love me.

I've been thinking about today.

I don't care what you did.

You're still my brother.

Look, we can still fool around. Just when Dad's not here, okay?

Okay.

And I won't laugh so loud so no one will know to tell him. You laugh as loud as

you want. It'll be okay.

Bobby? Can you tell me something?

Sure, what?

Are you gay?

Russ, what if I was?

Would I still be your brother?

Yeah. But are you?

I don't know.

Hi. Clearly he's not here. He's not at the bike shop either.

I know.

Come on in.

Call these guys.

Uh, no thanks.

How come Cleary gets so worked up about college?

Why do you ask?

Cleary's a genius, you know? Got one of them sky-high IQs. He'd die to go to

college. But he can't stand for anyone to tell him what to do.

And that's what teachers do.

Tell you what to do.

So he'll never go?

No.

I think I might be gay.

But I don't know. I mean, I'm attracted to Beth.

But I feel all of these things going on in me, and... I think I

need to talk to someone.

Oh, Bobby, that's not my line.

But listen, there's a shrink that comes out to the prison.

He gives different workshops for the girls.

Let me have a talk with him and see what he says.

A shrink?

Nobody in my family ever went to a shrink. That makes you a pioneer,

doesn't it?

Come in.

Bobby Caballero?

I'm John Hamill. Well, yeah, but I'm here to see the psychiatrist.

I'm a psychologist.

You? Stay registered, board certified. Come in.

Ann Marie told me about you.

How can I help?

What if I am gay?

What if you are?

It would be terrible. Why? Because I cannot live that way. Bobby, how old are

you?

Sixteen. Sixteen.

You feel a lot of things going on inside you?

Yeah. Like what?

Like somebody has just blown me up with a hand grenade.

And who's going to put you back together?

Your mom?

Your dad?

Me?

No. What's the hurry?

People are pressing me.

Is that your problem or theirs?

Let me tell you a secret.

You're going through adolescence.

Adolescence is rough. And you have a right to do that at your own given speed

and your own given way.

Your confusion is not unusual amongst kids your age.

No? No.

If I am gay... Then you're gay. But it is sick.

So who?

Everybody. No.

The top shrinks in the country say it's not deviant, not perverted, not sick.

It's just another way of living.

Period.

Really?

A lot of straight people accept gays now.

More and more every day.

Not where I come from.

I mean, Father Puglia... Look, don't get me wrong.

What I do here, I do on my own.

It has no connection with the church, except that they let me use the hall.

I used to make this big speech, but I got bored with it, so I typed up

this list.

Great Gays in History?

Read it.

Michelangelo?

Leonardo da Vinci?

My dad would croak.

Why? Because they're Italian.

I've got a group session starting in a few minutes.

You want to sit in?

Sure.

What?

Can I ask you something?

Are you...

Gay? No.

Just celibate.

You know, sometimes I think that would be a lot easier.

Sometimes.

I just wanted to tell you Gary's doing it. The whole thing.

What whole thing?

The poster on the petition.

What petition?

That he kicked out of school.

What? Yeah.

He got in with some anti-gay group, and that's their slogan.

Tech children.

Life being seduced by a gay.

And now the petition's circulated.

Hey, are you all right?

i feel real bad about the other night i didn't mean what i said you forgive me

there's nothing to forgive i'm sure oh

no mr arnold

how can

you

permit this this witch hunting rag It's outright persecution.

Based on what? That the boy is gay?

Well, maybe he is, maybe not, but doesn't he have the right to an

education like any other child? Of course he does.

That's not the issue. They have the right to petition. That's part of their

civil liberties.

Civil liberties?

Well, what if it said, let's burn Bobby Caballero at the stake? Would you stop

it then? But it doesn't say that.

It says expel him. And what if a majority of the kids sign it? What'll

you do then? What? I don't know. Stop the damn thing! Herb, you stop.

I appreciate your concern, but really, it is none of your business.

But it is.

If that kid gets forced out of this school, I'm taking it to the school

board myself.

And we carry it out in binary numbers.

All right.

We'll continue this one tomorrow.

Bobby, can I talk to you for a minute?

Yes, sir?

Sit down.

You know how long I've been here at Barrett?

No, sir.

17 years.

17.

That Elm III was a sapling when I came here.

Seventeen.

I love teaching.

I love math.

I did a very dangerous thing earlier.

And I'm about to do another.

I've lived with the same man for 22 years.

His name is David. He's a court reporter.

We live in Chicago.

Play handball, go to the theater.

Eat Chinese on Thursdays.

Our quiet life.

And we like it.

I've never told that to anyone in this school.

Why not?

I'd be fired if it came out.

Aren't there laws against that?

The law would have nothing to do with it.

They'd trump up some charge. I'm sure your friend Gary would be willing to say

I made a pass at him.

Something like that.

Why are you telling me?

I know what you're going through. I want to support you in it.

I don't know if I'm gay or not.

It doesn't matter. You're being treated as if you were.

Whoever the man was you were involved with, the way it worked out must have

been very sad.

It doesn't have to be that way.

If you do decide you're gay, you can have a good life.

You pay a price, but it's worth it.

I think that's why I'm telling you all this.

I have a good life.

What we have here, Mrs.

Cavallaro, is a situation in which Bobby can only suffer more harassment and

humiliation.

I think for his own good, we should arrange a transfer to another school

nearby. Where his history isn't known, and where he can pursue his education

unhampered by this sort of thing.

How do you feel about it?

How do I feel?

I feel you're treating him like a criminal.

Those boys are attacking him. What about them? I'll deal with them. Will you kick

them out? I am not kicking anyone out. Oh.

You are asking my son to leave.

We have a situation here, Mrs.

Cavallaro, that... I haven't done anything wrong.

What? This is my school as much as anybody else's. I haven't done anything

to be kicked out for.

So, I don't plan to leave.

I think you should have taken the offer.

What, transferred?

Yeah. Why not? You want to graduate one school as good as another?

No way.

What, do you want to some cause or something?

They're the creeps over there. The hell with them. Yeah, maybe they're creeps,

but they're my creeps.

I'm not going to let them push me out.

What, is that proving a point?

Why do you always have to prove some point?

Tell them to go to hell and walk out of there. No, Cleary, that's your way.

You get a little heat, you just take a walk.

You're going to do that all your life?

I see a little goody two-shoes.

What if you end up an outlaw, huh? Because that's what gays are. No matter

what they say, what if you do end up that way? What are you going to do then?

Well, I'm not going to run, I'll tell you that.

Drop dead.

Yeah, like what?

This guy, Mark, he was about your age?

No, older.

Like in his 30s?

Yeah. And he really had his act together. A great apartment. Took you to

great restaurants, right? In the beginning. Was he more like a friend,

maybe even a father to you?

Yeah, he was.

And then you had sex with him?

Yes. So this man, who treated you like a son, had sex with you?

Yes. What kind of a father is that?

Face it, man, you were the chicken, and the chicken is basically there for sex.

That is not true.

We talked before or after.

After. Hey, what is so funny?

Well, Bobby, you're 16 years old. How many deep conversations are you going to

have with a 35-year-old man?

Sex was the game, and you knew it.

No, I never thought of it like that.

I think about my girl when I think like that. Oh, whoopee, he goes for girls.

But do you dream about boys?

Do you get worked up in the locker room looking at guys?

Hey, did you have sex with your girl?

You shut up! Hey, hey, hey, hey, everybody, everybody is here for a

reason.

Shut up is no answer.

Well, how about...

I don't know what was going on.

I just freaked.

Oh, Bobby.

My boy.

Bobby, no.

Stop!

You're hurting me!

Go!

Bobby, wait!

Come back!

It's you.

Can I come in?

It's awfully late. I need to talk to you.

Well... Oh, please.

Wait, wait.

You look awful.

What's the matter?

Come on, sit down.

Did you love me?

They say you only wanted me for sex. Is that true?

No, we had a relationship.

Like father and son?

Well, something like that. Bobby, what's this all about?

Fathers don't have sex with their sons, Mark. I never pushed you to sex. You

offered it. Because I knew you wanted it. What are you doing? Building a case

against me? Because you were the father and I didn't want to make you angry. I

wanted to please you.

Because I'm an expert on trying to please fathers. I would have done

anything to please you, and you knew it. No. Oh, come on, Mark. Don't lie.

He's very fatherly, but he needs his sex, too.

He's not mean or anything. There's just nothing he can do about it.

I thought I told you to stay put.

How could I resist?

An ex-lover?

A midnight spat?

He really is a very sweet man.

Uh huh.

Say we go bring him home.

He's my teacher, Mr. Geffen, and... He's not listed.

Hey, Bobby, you know the police catch you down here, you're gonna go straight

to juvenile, right?

Hey, what happened to all those big plans of yours?

Hey, what the hell do you care?

We're all here, right?

Bobby, please come home.

We got one of those new cherry pickers for our crew.

Oh, yeah? No kidding.

Any good?

Yeah, it's one of those things where you can feed the line right through it, so

you've got better control.

Dad, I'm swimming this Friday.

I'm ranked top.

It's the big meet against Lohman High.

Can you come?

It's 5 p.m. after work. At 5?

Well, if my sodality meeting is over, I'll come.

Dad, can you?

Uh, yeah. I mean, if I don't have overtime, I'll be there, you know.

Joe,

over here!

I think.

I quit!

You quit? What do you mean you quit?

Hey Bobby, wait a minute.

I did it. I stepped on it.

Kineski! I finally put an end to his dumb jokes.

Oh, Rodney Broden.

Oh, I really kicked his butt.

Who's a faggot now, huh, Kineski?

He knows now.

Nobody messes with Joe Cavallaro about anything.

Is he home yet?

No. He's at the swim meet.

Did you go?

Well, I would have been there.

But Konesky, you know.

I don't know.

Who am I kidding?

Whether Konesky says it or not, the kid's queer is a $3 bill.

Where is he?

He's coming.

Okay.

We'll wait for him.

All right, nobody start eating until we're all together, huh?

Shall I say grace?

Get away from this table.

But do you like my outfit?

Mom's earrings are perfect, don't you think?

Did you hear me?

Oh, I hear so much from you, Dada.

But I didn't hear from you at the meet today.

Nor did I see your little face.

Poor Dada, having to sit there with all those terrible men whispering.

That stops father.

The fag's dad.

That's enough.

Oh, what an idea. A movie.

Father of the Faggot.

One more chance.

No, Dada.

Not one chance at all.

To you, I was always strange.

Queer. So here I am, Dada.

Just what you always thought I was.

Your living nightmare.

We... Come on!

I'll bash your head in! Come on!

You and your macho crap.

What are they going to say when your own faggot son kills you? Get out of this

house. I will.

But not until I tell you something. And I'll tell you. You were always afraid of

me. You were always afraid.

You ducked me. You put me down. No.

Just because I wouldn't pop up your lousy ego like Donnie. Donnie loved me.

No. He served you. And I loved him. I love you all.

Crap. All you ever cared about was people saying that big daddy joke.

He sure put out a great crowd of kids.

But you didn't. This is what you could have.

You're a fag.

You're a rotten little queer.

Maybe I am and maybe I'm not, but I'll decide, not you. Because you are not man

enough.

Hi. Hi.

I heard you coming.

You built a bed.

Yeah. Cleary helped me.

New Bobby.

How do you live?

Oh, I got a job.

After school, down at Wonder Mart.

And I don't pay rent.

Well, that's great.

Have you heard from your family?

Oh, that's all over.

What's wrong?

I got my term paper back from Mr. Arnold.

And he gave me a D.

Bobby, I've had nothing but A's my whole three years of school.

He's never given me anything but A's.

I can't go to college without a...

Fellowship, but I love you, but they're fooling with my future.

I know You gave me an F

Listen

Beth You know with my job and

school and everything Time's getting really tight

I was thinking maybe we ought to cool it just for a little while.

You know, and we can always get back together later.

Oh, Bobby.

I feel so horrible.

I know I let you down. I'm sorry.

No. No, you didn't.

You hung in there real fine.

You're real style.

Joe Cavallaro? Yeah.

I'm John Hamill.

Hello, Father. I know your son, Bobby.

Can we talk?

Go on. I'll be right back.

I saw Bobby this week.

He's okay.

Back in the workshop, really working at it.

You know, aside from being bright, he's honest, he's disciplined.

Excuse me, but you don't know what I'm talking about, do you?

I run a workshop on sexual orientation.

I'm sorry, I thought you knew.

Did he send you here?

No.

Does he know you're here?

What do you want, brother? I want you to know that whatever's happened between

you and your son, and I know it's been bad, the door's open now for the two of

you to talk.

And did he say that?

No, but I think he wants it.

He raised his hand to me.

I'm not the one who sinned. He did.

He went against the church. He went against his family.

You're a priest, Father. What do you say about that?

Hey, kid, it's all right. Forget it. No, not forget it. He can't forget it. What,

forgive it?

How about accept it?

Father, if Jesus in heaven came down today and said, Joseph, accept this

thing, I'd be hard put to do it.

This thing is wrong!

Okay, you say it's wrong, then what?

There's still a boy out there in pain.

There's still a boy out there who needs you.

Your son.

what's that for i just thought in case he came back

now

the wilson mathematics award for the first time to a student at barrett high

the winner robert caballero

I want to thank Mr. Geffen for his help.

And I want to say something.

Some of you people think I'm this. Some of you think I'm that.

Well, I will decide what it is that I am.

And whatever it is, the one thing that I hope to be is a decent human being.

And I know that some of you would like me very much to go away.

Well, I have gone here for three years, and I want to tell you that I intend to

graduate from Barrett.

Thank you.

He got her going.

Yeah.

Got her purring like a kitten.

Good.

So this is the place, huh?

Yeah.

This is it.

Nice. Nice.

Good.

Nice trees here.

I heard you won the math prize.

Yeah.

Good.

How you doing, son?

Fine.

And you?

Bobby.

Your mom.

Donnie and Leslie.

They miss you very much.

They want you to come home.

Yeah.

And so do I.