All language subtitles for Afsos - S01E01_SDH [English] (SUBRIP)

There was a time

when I thought that I was the
most important person in the world.

Maybe everyone thinks this way.

But, if we look at the sky once,
we realize that we are nothing.

I am nothing.

Regards, Nakul.

[Dog barks and snarls]

Shoo! Shoo!

[Man snarls]

What? What do you want?

Give my pillow back.

Go away.

Look at your audacity.

Huh?

You'll steal my property?

Huh?

[Train honk]

Hey! Are you mad?
Do you want to die?

Yes! I want to die.

Commander, attack!

Hey, give my pillow back.

You mad man!

You want to rob me... robber.

Let go, let go off it,

[Alarm beeps]

Sometimes I think...

There are times when I think...

I don't think.

[Call rings]

[Call disconnect tone]

Uncle, uncle, please pass the ball uncle.
Please pass the ball, uncle.

Sorry, uncle! Please pass the ball.

Sorry uncle. Please give us the ball.

Uncle uncle, ball please, uncle.

Uncle, please hurry up, uncle.

What, uncle. I am right here
and you kicked the ball there.

You don't even know how to kick a ball.
What a loser, uncle!

Your name, Sir?

Nakul.

Nakul,

I have some pictures for you.

I mean, you should know

what would've happened
if you'd come under that train.

Hmm?

Walking, standing, lying down, sitting.

You realize how difficult
all this becomes only

when your backbone breaks.

Nakul, I understand your state of mind.

I really do.

It's very natural.

Everyone goes through
this kind of phase.

I have also had low phases.

But that doesn't mean that
I'll kill myself.

How did you get injured?

- This is fun.
- I also want...

Someone help me!

Help!

Lay him down.

Easy, easy. Take it easy.

Compress his chest...

Mahadev! Mahadev!

Where is Mahadev?

Can't see him.

What happened to Mahadev?

Because of him.

Because of you, our Mahadev is gone.

So, this was your eleventh attempt?

Is this the real deal, right?

This is the real deal.
You won't come back.

Dude, are you okay with this?
Selling poison to people.

What poison? To hell with poison.

It's Viagra.

Once he takes it, he'll be too
embarrassed to come back anyway.

Okay, Nakul.

Here is what we need to do.

You have to fight back.

Ok?

You have to visualize your future.

Quitting is not an option.

Quitting is never an option.

But, why not?

Hmm?

Why is quitting not an option?

I left my job to become a writer.

Then I found out that
I'm not really good at writing.

It took me six years
to write one story,

but no publisher has
a single second to read it.

My story is lying disregarded
in some office, lifeless like me.

I joined a job once again.

And, I was fired again.

I have been fired
a total of four times from my job.

And, each time,
they were right to fire me.

I have fallen in love thrice,
but all three women left me.

And they were right to leave me as well.

There is only one person
in this world who talks to me.

You.

And I pay you to talk to me.

Money that I didn't have.

The money that
I got by selling my vehicle.

The vehicle which my parents
had given me.

The same parents
who are paralyzed because of me.

And my brother doesn't let me
enter his house.

So, why not?

You know, Ms. Shloka,
when I was a child,

and I was having a bad day,
I would go to sleep early.

So that the bad day would
end quickly.

I want to do the same thing
with my life.

This is my gut feeling,
and gut feeling is always right.

Ok, Ms. Shloka, I get it.

Some people have good days
and bad days.

But there hasn't been
a single good day in my life.

My life story is so poorly written
that I feel like I've written it myself.

There is no other solution
for my godforsaken life.

I will have to die.

But, every time I try to kill myself,

some good Samaritan comes
and saves me.

Don't they have better things to do?

What do they know about me?

They don't know me,
they don't know anything about my life,

but they come, save my life
and go back to their own lives.

Then, what's the point of saving me?

You don't genuinely care
about me either.

You just want to feel good
about yourself,

and that's why
you are doing all this.

Everyone should die along with me.

Really...

What do you think?
Everything will be okay after you die?

Yes. Maybe, maybe
everything will be fixed.

Here, take this.
Take it.

Cut your wrist.

Take it.

You should've thought of this first.
It's so common.

It will all be over in thirty seconds.

You tried to kill yourself
so many times,

how come you didn't think of this?

Please do it, I won't stop you.

I just want to help you.

Do it!

Don't worry about dirtying
the carpet and all, I'll get it washed.

Come on. Just do it.

Nakul,

if you really wanted to die

then you wouldn't have been looking
for a pillow on the railway tracks.

You wouldn't have yelled out,
"Help! Help!" while drowning in the pond.

You wouldn't have yelled,
and in fact you would be dead by now.

But, every time,
your survival instinct kicks in,

and you don't die.

You know why?

Because, you don't want to die.

Son, when will the power be back?

Let me fix this first, aunty.

[Cellphone rings]

Yes, Dwivedi.

In the ashram?

I'm on my way.

Come here, sir.

Here, take these stairs, sir.

Twelve monks are dead, sir.

And, one is missing.

Such a big crime has never happened
in Harsil before, sir.

For the first time I feel like
we are policemen.

Yes, sir.

I'm scared,
but I'm also excited, sir.

There were thirteen monks, right?

So, one is missing.

Mahabuddhi Maharaj,
Bhola, Trilochan, Mridu...

Jagat Guru, Pashupati, Saumya.

Gambhir Maharaj, Paramjyoti.

Fokatiya!

Fokatiya is nowhere to be seen, sir.

Hmm.

Whoever has killed all these monks
was looking for something.

[Man] Hey! Get out!

[Man] Are you blind!

Bloody Idiot!

Hey, move!

What are you upto?

Keep it uncle.
Your life will change.

Look, it's really simple.

First you were on this side of life,
and now you have to go to the other side.

You've seen life on this side,
what did you find?

Sadness, misery, shock,
unemployment, nothingness!

Now experience life on the other side.

See? How beautiful it is.

What happens is,
you have decided to do something.

There is a reason behind it.

Take it easy...

What the hell is this?

Listen, I can't do this work.

Why? You did it right.

Look, Maria it was alright till
we were a hitman agency.

That work takes guts.

But there is no respect in killing people
who are not able to commit suicide.

I feel guilty.

Where is the guilt here?

People are sad, they want to die,
but are unable to.

So, we are just assisting them
with a solution.

In a way this is like,
what do you call it? It's like euthanasia.

And even if we get caught,

what will happen?

We assisted in suicide.

I'm telling you, Vikram.
This is the perfect loophole.

Look,

my daughter is growing up now.

And, you will also have
a family one day.

For how long will you work as a hitman?

But this model is not sustainable.

How much money is there?

More than sustainable!

Okay, every year,

approximately eight lakh people
attempt suicide.

Okay?

Even if we take hundred rupees
from each person,

we'll have an annual turnover

of eight crores!

And we are a team of three,
which means 2.5 crores per person!

But, all those eight-lakh people
aren't in India, right?

We aren't taking
hundred rupees either, right?

Look at this as well.

How would you like it?

Shoot.

Shoot?

Okay, where?

In the head.

In the head.

Okay!

Where?

In the head.

No.

I meant in your house, or in your office,
or in the neighborhood park?

In my house.

In your house...

Do you want us to inform anyone?

Yes.

Ok, thank you so much, Nakul.

As you know,
we have an advance payment policy.

So, if you can transfer
the money by this evening,

then the job will be done by tomorrow.

- Yeah?
- Ok.

Ok, now we have to
take a photo so just one minute.

Just stand straight.

Shoulder is drooping, straight.

One smile please.

Thank you. Okay!

- [Annie] Mumma...Mumma
- Oh baby, hi!

Mumma, mumma,
Miss Fonseca gave me a gold star.

You are my gold star!

See, say hi.

Hi.

My daughter.

She also wants to become a writer.

Go inside and play.

Okay, Ms. Maria.

Yes?

I've tried many times before this and...

This will work, right?

Will this work?

This is done.

It's done.
This is done.

It's done.

I am giving this job to Upadhyay.

Now even the Indian Army can't save you.

Upadhyay, who?

A friend.

But I am not giving you any false hopes

Upadhyay is really by far,
the best in the business.

Once she takes up a job,
even death won't be able help you.

Really.

Really. Relax, relax.

[Church bell tolls]

Freddy Lawrence...

was such a good friend.

I remember, I was about to get married.

I was broke.

Freddy broke his Provident Fund

and gave me 20,000 rupees.

Too bad,
the marriage did not last a week.

But my friendship with Freddy sure did,

until his sudden heart attack.

May he now rest in peace.

Amen.

[All] Amen.

Anyone else?

Yes ma'am.

Ouch!

Aah!

How rude she can be...

Please.

I wish I had met him earlier.

Amen.

♫ It's a feeling that you chase ♫

♫ It's where... ♫

♫ I find my grace but
when you got a job to do ♫

♫ The world is a business
just them and you ♫

♫ It takes a bullet, just one ♫

♫ Or a sharp object I'm just having fun ♫

♫ To make... ♫

♫ Me smile ♫

♫ Nothin, no nothin ♫

♫ Nothin ever beats the kill ♫

♫ The kill, the kill, the kill... ♫

♫ The only thing that I love still ♫

♫ The kill ♫

[Cellphone rings]

Hello.

Nakul?

Yes.

I'm calling from GGG Publishers.

GGG Publishers?

This is regarding that story
that you submitted.

Could you meet us tomorrow?

Tomorrow?