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[club music]

I think I'm gonna go to the bathroom.

What?

I'm gonna go to the bathroom.

You good?

We're going to tell him when we're going?

He knows. Oh, he knows.

How the fuck does he know?

There's a map.

Ahh he knows.

Yeah. Technology.

He fucking knows.

Fun time tonight? Mmmhmm.

How long you two been together?

Why, man?

You guys got that spark.

I don't know... people who uhhh

know each other a long time

they don't have that spark.

Well we met

for the first time–

when was it baby?

It was.

It was today.

Yeah, that's right, it was today.

You guys met on Tinder?

Fuck no, dude.

Kinda.

Something like it.

JPay.

Ohhh... JPay.

Wait, you know JPay?

Yeah

my brother's kid is in prison.

What? Yeah.

Two Rivers.

Shudder Fucking Creek!

Okay, wait wait wait.

You have to close your eyes.

Close your eyes.

Close my eyes.

Yeah. Just trust me.

Okay.

One step. Two.

Three. Yeah.

Okay. There's a couch right here.

Yeah.

Okay. Okay.

Wait,

waaaaait.

Surprise!

Oh my gosh.

What the–.

What is this?

Uhhhhh–.

Look at that.

What's wrong?

I just I never had a surprise party before that's all.

It is a little sad isn't it?

No, it's not sad.

It's– it's– it's awesome.

Thank you.

But there's... supposed to usually–.

Supposed to be more people sort of thing.

You know?

Aren't you going to look in the basket?

Ah man, I need this.

This would have been worth so much just yesterday.

A million fucking bucks.

Uh, for Jack.

What is this?

You told me how much you like pickles.

I did?

Yeah.

I don't think I did, but I do like 'em.

I'm 100 million percent sure you told me, but–.

Okay.

What the–.

Do you, uh

want a beer or something?

Yeah. Okay.

Okay.

Ummm

I think I'm gonna.

I think I'm gonna get dressed.

Are you, uh

are you cool out here by yourself or.

Yeah. Why wouldn't I be?

I don't know.

You're a singer?

What?

You never told me that.

Nooo. I'm like.

I'm totally tone deaf.

I'm horrible.

I promise.

I don't know.

You look like you're pretty good.

Why don't you sing for me?

Well, what do I sing?

I don't know.

Sing what's.

Sing what's in the picture.

Sing what you were singing in that photo.

Whatever you want.

You really want me to sing for you?

Okay, um mm mm

♫ Spi mladyenets, ♫

♫ moi prekrasný ♫

♫ bayushki bayu, ♫

♫ tikho smotrit ♫

Fuck you, man!

You wanted me to sing, okay?

What does that even mean?

I don't know.

What language is that?

Well, my grandmother used to sing it to me to sleep.

It's an old Russian lullaby that,

It's working.

Hmm?

It's putting you to sleep.

Yeah.

What's wrong?

Nothin'. Nothing's wrong.

You want to be here, don't you?

Yeah, yeah, of course I do.

Then what's wrong?

No, just. No no, just –.

Can you stop with all the fucking questions?

Look, it's just been–.

It's been a lot tonight.

It's been a lot of fun, but it's been a lot.

Fucking dancing and the Uber, and that sign

like you're my wife.

Okay.

I can go and I should.

Where would you go?

Look, you can–.

You can stay here, okay?

It's fine. I get it.

It's a lot.

I'm a lot.

So.

[♫ loud music and partying in the next room ♫]

So you get like a whole lot of kick–

like,

kick before, you know

yeah, like and that, and that too,

that like transition where

you like do the whole, like, hook.

Now I'm spinning really far

sorry, ahhhh!

That, is like... ugh!

You just have such good contact already with people on stage

and stuff like

I feel like that's like, what sells your.

Yeah. Yeah.

Like stuff because you're not really into like,

super crazy moves or anything like that.

You like always have somebody

at the end of the night who's like.

“I felt a real connection with you.”

[laughter]

Why is he in bed? Why are we out here being like–.

It's fun being out here with you.

And I like being out here with you and stuff but, like

I would have expected you to like not even be answering your phone today.

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah.

[laughter]

I can't help it I don't have strength.

Yes you do.

You just gotta like squeeze it in your armpit.

It's about believing in yourself.

Come on, I got you.

Yes. Yes.

No no no.

You're resisting.

Okay. Let's do another one.

And this is a good one.

And then we can wake him up and you can just be doing this move

so that you're just fucking ready

when he wakes up.

Oh fuck it. Alright.

Watch your hands.

Hey!

Surprise.

I didn't know you were out.

How would you?

You never came to visit.

You changed your number.

And did you even open the hundreds of letters

I wrote after you stopped writing me?

I'm not mad, though

I'm not.

That's not what I came here about, though.

Why did you come here?

You look so fucking beautiful.

Hey, buddy.

Wilder, stop!

Hey, I got you something. I got you, I got you a truck.

I'm just trying to meet my fucking kid.

I'm just trying to meet him for the first time. Right?

And you're scaring him.

No, actually, you're scaring him.

I'm just trying to make a good impression.

Look, I am your dad, dude, I'm your dad.

Look, Wilder, I'm getting married, okay?

He has a dad.

He already has a dad.

You're really confusing him.

Confusing him? You're fucking–.

You're getting fucking married?

Yeah, and actually, we have somewhere. We have to be right now.

We can't do this.

If you want to meet him, you got to plan it out.

You can't just show up like this, okay?

Dude. Tess.

No no no no.

Hey! Hey, wait!

Hey, dude, roll down the window, please.

I want to be in his life.

I deserve to be in his life.

I deserve to be able to fucking try.

It takes more than trying. Okay? - What?

And I would have known because the internet.

The internet. You would've known fucking what?

It said you'd get out in March.

I got out because a good behavior

that and-that and overcrowding.

Jack. Jack, Jack, Jack. I will see you – Tess!

Oh. Is that something he sent you?

Yeah, I know,

That's funny.

Hey, Riley.

Hi!

How are you tonight?

It's so nice to see you.

It's so nice seeing you, too.

You're always amazing.

Um, I hope you don't mind me waiting for you.

Would you like to go down to the corner diner and have coffee with me?

That's so sweet, maybe next time.

Come on, let's talk.

Let's just talk, that's all I wanna do.

Just give me 5 minutes of your time.

You can't give me 5 minutes of your time? - Stop!

After all the money I spent on you? You can't give me 5 minutes of your time?

Wilder! Stop it. Stop!

That's what you get you old fucking perve!

So this is your girl!

You're in love with a fucking whore!

What are you smiling about?

This fucking game, man.

It's a trip.

I mean I trip out on my life, it's like I'm like the fucking Lone Ranger, you know?

And I just got to. I just got to put up with this shit.

How was seeing your kid today?

He's beautiful.

Well, you know what would be fun if we, like.

Got him for the day and we drove to the coast or maybe we

drove up to Seattle or something.

Yeah, maybe.

Do you want to dance?

There's your fucking pole.

Please.

No, dude.

And I fell right in the fucking hole.

And it gashed me so bad.

And the barbed wire ripped me right on my leg.

And it hurt like fucking hell.

This one my brother gave me.

Doing what?

He bit me.

He fucking bit you? - Yeah.

Bit me so hard that that it drew blood.

And um.

This one I told you about actually.

What do you mean?

Oh.

Yeah.

I'm sorry.

No no no no no.

It's okay, come here. Come here come here.

Hey hey hey.

We're having fun. I um.

Can I touch it?

You want to touch my scar?

What do you think fucked you up so much when you were little?

That's one way

to fucking ruin the moment.

No wait wait wait.

Okay, man.

Okay, no, maybe we don't have to talk about your childhood.

What makes you think that I'm so much more fucked up than you, huh?

That's not what I meant.

You know that everybody is fucked up.

Everybody is.

I wasn't calling you out specifically.

I was just saying

we're all fucked up.

You. You though You're one of the most surprisingly,

one of the most sane people I've ever met. Surprisingly.

Surprisingly.

Yeah

considering how we met.

Surprisingly, dude.

Well, what made you so fucked up then?

Like, one thing.

Okay. Like,

when I was a little boy, I found a condom in a park

and thought it was a balloon.

What?!?!

I picked it up, and I blew it up.

My dad fucking flipped out.

That's fucking disgusting.

Yeah, I know, I still can't fucking laugh about it.

You think that moment defines you?

Well now when you say it like that

I hope not.

God, I don't think one moment defines you or anything.

I think it's like a lot of built up moments.

I walked in the garage once.

My mom,

she's sitting in a car and she's revving the engine,

and she's.

It's closed. She's filling it up with smoke.

I don't know how she could do that.

I mean, if if I had

had Jack, I think I would have found a way to pull my shit together.

I have to be better for him, you know, ?

Don't put that on your kid,

you know, because you– you can't get

you got to get clean for you, you know, you got to get good for you

and nobody else. Don't put it on your kid,

okay?

Hey. You need anything? I'm off in a few.

You got coffee?

Yeah.

Nick, you good?

She's something else, isn't she?

Woman like that.

She's worth doing anything for.

Yeah, that's my – That's my boy's mom, dude.

That must mean there's something pretty special about you, too.

That's all right.

You still love her?

Excuse me?

Wait, I'm sorry. But who the fuck are you?

I got a kid by my last wife.

She don't even let me come around anymore.

Last time I saw her or my baby girl

she shot me.

Bullet went right through here.

She fucking shot you?

Yeah.

Luckily, I didn't hit any bone.

The force was so strong

spun me around

sent me in a whole different direction.

I just wish she could see

how far I've come, you know?

At least let me see my little one... except

she's not so little anymore.

I support it, is what I'm saying.

We all deserve second chances, right?

You have a nice time.

Coffee's on me.

What's that hanging from the windshield of your car?

It's nothing... Hey!

It's just my stripper friend's

kinky shit.

Nice! C. - Yeah

I mean, I probably wouldn't of guessed Shakespeare, but–

I said I was kidding, man.

Yeah, it was actually the best thing for me.

I was. I was in there.

We did these rehearsals for, like, two months,

and then they, they said we could invite people to come see the play and shit.

It's kind of wild.

Look at you.

And cultured and shit. - Right?

I know, I mean, it was a whole different thing.

So who'd you have come?

Hmm?

You said. - They said you could invite people.

Who'd you invite?

I thought maybe you'd have Jimmy or

Blake or one of them.

No man.

I do not talk to those guys anymore.

How's your mom? Have you talked to her?

How about that guy at the diner?

I mean, you're really serious about him? - What?

You fucking love him?

Don't do that.

I don't want to talk about that–. That guy.

We're not here to talk about that.

What, we can't talk about anything else?

We we we can't talk about these things?

Only Jack.

Okay.

He just doesn't seem like your type, that's all.

Sorry. Sorry. Jack.

Is he in school?

He's six.

I know how old he is.

He's in first grade.

Is he good?

He's okay?

They're not going to, like, hold him back or anything?

No.

What's he like?

He remind you of me?

Every now and then.

Is he into skating?

He like girls?

He's six!

Yeah I know, there can be six year olds who are motherfucking

lady killers.

Okay. What do I know, man?

I don't know, I guess not very much.

Ooh. Nice one.

Dude what?

What the fuck's going on?

Nothing.

You make me nervous.

I'm trying to be open to the idea of you being in his life.

Of course, but.

Those last six months, we were together.

If you started seeing shit.

Dude, it was six years ago.

I don't know,

I'm not going to make promises about how I'm all better and shit.

Okay? I'm not going to do that. I, but I do–

I do know that I got it, I, I know that I gotta.

I got to do some fucking work.

I got to rebuild your trust. I know that.

And that is going to take time.

I mean, that takes time.

I know that. Fuck, I sound like a fucking cliche right now,

but I mean it.

I'm not expecting you

to walk out of here feeling all good about me,

but I just want a chance.

Earn back your trust. Eventually. Okay?

At your pace, Tess, not mine.

I'm not. I'm not doing this because I'm trying to fucking win you back or anything.

I just want to. I want to be a father,

Jack.

I mean,

I just want to take care of the both of you.

I can take care of us just fine.

I didn't say that you can't

I didn't mean that.

I just mean that I want to.

You're my fucking family, you know that.

It's always been that way. You know it has.

You can't even take care of yourself.

I just barely got out.

I know.

Okay, where are you moving to?

How do you know I'm moving?

You staying nearby?

You like going across the river?

Across the fucking world? What? It's not because of me–

Wilder, how did you know we're moving?

I needed some of my stuff.

You broke into my house?

No, it's not like that.

I just need my clothes. The back door was open.

You broke into my house. You didn't even lock the back door.

No, I did not break into your house.

I'm surprised you stayed as long as you did with your mom and shit.

You can't do that.

You can't just do whatever the fuck you want.

Do you know that?

Jesus Christ, do you know how

free I felt when you went away?

I didn't have to deal with your shit anymore.

I could just live my life for me, for myself.

Without having to worry about you.

I don't – I don't like you, Wilder.

I don't, so don't act all likable. Don't do this.

I don't like you.

I fucking hate you. I really fucking hate you.

I have– so many nights. I have had dreams.

These beautiful fucking dreams of murdering you, killing you

slitting your throat, strangling you, and watching the life escape your body.

So don't act like we're friends because we're not friends.

Okay? Don't do this.

Okay. No, that's fucking fair.

That's fine. If that's your feelings, that's fine.

I deserve that, okay? But.

But that is for who I used to be.

No. I'm serious.

Those feelings are for who I was. I've changed.

I know you don't want to hear that, but I'm a better person now.

Nobody ever gets better in prison.

Nobody ever– in the whole fucking world.

No, don't think so.

What? Come on.

What if I'm an exception to that bullshit rule.

Sure. What if– I can't– I can't do this.

We can't do this.

Dude, you– you don't have to fucking go.

And I jumped up on the table and I'm like, all right everybody,

all right, let's see who's going to win a prize for keeping their cool.

Simon says everybody hands down, hands down.

Get down! Noses on the floor.

They all go down I look around, I find, like,

the most important dude I'm like you, you, you, sir, you do us the fucking honors.

And he's like, trembling and shit, I'm like, put the cash in this bag.

You're going to have an amazing story, buddy.

Tell your friends.

Pull out my fucking gun

or you're going to have a tag on your toe.

He's like, he does it.

He hands it over, I'm out of there.

But my guy outside, it's

it's not good.

I feel like in fucking Thelma and Louise right now.

Shit. You've seen that movie?

Yeah.

Yeah,

I saw it

I thought it was a really cool way to rob a bank.

So I stole that too.

I reckon you did.

I just didn't get away very good.

Yeah, it only takes one time.

You get caught. My fucking get away

he realized he hadn't gassed up the car and he thought he had two minutes.

But let me tell you, it was two minutes

too fucking late.

So I pulled an old lady out of an Oldsmobile.

An old lady?!

Mmhmm.

I was kind. I was like, excuse me.

I'm sorry, I got to. I got to steal your car.

I'm sorry.

Took her, like, five minutes to get out because she was, like, 80.

Oh my god.

And from there

it all went downhill

down the freeway, like, five cop cars are behind me, and I start

I start throwing money out the window, and I was like,

they call me Robin Hood in the papers

but I don't even know what I was doing

because I was so fucking high out of my mind.

Well, Robin Hood.

You ready to do this?

And I don't know, man.

I don't know if I can.

Well, you don't even have to, like, do anything, like.

Just chill and like, watch me.

You know, you don't even have to join.

There's like, no fucking pressure.

You know, we'll just. We'll make money.

That's the fucking point.

Okay, Robin Hood.

I'm gonna be making real money tomorrow.

I have that interview.

Okay.

Like real money, though.

Not fucking minimum wage ass shit.

You know, like you can buy your own fucking car.

You could, like, save up for a place

on your own where you can, like,

you know, have Jack and.

Come on. Come on come on

I can just, uh.

I can just I can just lay here.

I want to do anything.

Not like that.

That's fucking stupid.

But sure.

Hi Hellbound Loser.

Hi Hardwood6969,

Yeah, I'm in Portland.

And you're from Texas?

That's fun. You're like a cowboy or something?

No. Well,

my friend here is kind of a cowboy himself.

Isn't that right?

But we're just.

We're just friends.

We're just.

He's my roommate actually.

He wants you to join.

Do you want to join?

I don't know.

It's okay.

Wait here.

I got it.

Oh, fuck me.

Are you okay?

I, I can't get fucked up like that anymore.

Well, don't beat yourself up about it.

We had fun right?

And it was.

It was just one night, you know, just one night.

Yeah.

Look, you didn't do anything wrong, okay?

We had fun, and we made good money.

I don't know what the big deal is.

Hey.

I'm running late, man. - Okay. Oh.

I'm sorry, I just I just want to, do what's right.

I want to give you this.

What is it?

I want to provide for my kid.

Even if I can't see him, I just I just want to help.

It's not much. It's

I don't want your money.

Come on. I got a job, and I'm.

It's like child support.

Come on. No strings attached.

I'll get out of your hair if you take it.

I'm not going to say thank you.

Okay.

Don't. That's.

That's fine.

Text me when you get off work.

You can come meet him.

For real?

Just say you'll come before I change my mind.

Okay. Yeah, I'll come.

K

Excuse me.

Yes?

I'm Wilder Larson.

Oh, hi. Good. You made it.

All right, Wilder,

got your paperwork here.

Okay. Paperwork, I-9, and I need two pieces of I.D.

from this list to make a copy of. Your W-4.

This is our got your back contract.

Basically, if you do something unsafe, I'll let you know.

Vice versa.

If I see you doing something unsafe, I'll let you know.

And here's our employee manual.

You keep this, but you're going to sign that page and leave it in the file.

I'll see if the guys are ready for you.

Hey. Yeah, I got Wilder Larson here.

Are you guys ready for him?

Uh, sure. Send him in.

All right, will do.

Okay, Wilder. Come on in, I'll send you back.

All right.

Like I said before, steel plate and coil,

that's our bread and butter.

After that is processed for railcars, cranes, barges,

high rise buildings, you name it.

Anything that uses steel.

We also do some coil pipe over there

for the gas and oil companies up the river,

but I don't think you'll be touching any of that, so don't worry about it.

Okay.

I recently passed the tests and shit, so I should be good.

All right.

Clean this out.

That'll be yours.

Put your gear on and head into the break room. Niel will put you to work.

Whoah, hold on. I'm like. I'm like, starting now.

When did you want to start?

Dude, to be real.

My P.O. told me just to show up.

I thought this was like, interview time.

You got something better to do?

Nope.

Now is good.

My cousin, he was wearing his wedding ring.

Put his hands down on the table.

Somebody struck an arc, and it was a gold ring, and it actually lit up.

It turned bright red on him, so he had a nasty burn.

He had to try to strip that thing off. He got lucky.

He took it off without peeling his skin because it was literally a full on glow.

So making sure no jewelry is definitely a must here.

If it's like a wedding ring.

What if...

I have to take this off.

Yeah, something like that, even.

Because if you're welding and you're leaning over

and it's free hanging and it's caught on to the steel or anything or machinery,

it can actually pull you down in, or can,

you know, if it's caught on steel and it arcs out, it could glow up

and definitely burn you pretty bad.

So we want to make sure there's no jewelry hanging or freestyle.

And, you know, at the end of our our days, we want to make sure you have

all your ligaments still attached so that you go home to your family and,

you know, and that they can see you all in one piece.

And instead of having to see you

at the hospital with, you know, not a missing finger or,

you know, something completely crushed to where you cannot be able to walk or,

you know, have to be in a sling for a very long time or in a brace,

like I said, you know, make sure that you go home to your family,

you know, girlfriend or whoever you're going home to to make sure

that you have all those attachments still as you came in in the first day.

Yeah.

So. All right.

Being safe is is what we'd like.

Yo. Hey. - What's up?

Dude, I've been calling you like a.

No, I'm. I'm.

They've got me working today.

I like, am on

a fucking shift.

What that means is

that I've got your car all day.

Yeah.

Okay. Cool.

Fucking sucks.

It feels like I'm still locked up and shit.

Dude, I keep thinking about that fucking web cam, and I swear to God,

everybody I talk to, it's like they've fucking seen it, I'm like paranoid.

Yeah, okay.

If they watched it, they're the fucking perverts.

Okay.

[Toilet flushing]

I gotta go.

Thank you for the opportunity.

Jack, he's here!

Come on! He's here!

Hey.

Jack, this is Wilder, your dad.

Hello.

Hello.

Want to come in?

Yeah.

Come on, bud.

Come on,

come on.

Don't you want to come meet your dad?

Come on.

He came a long way.

Come on.

Hey, buddy.

Scoot over, bud.

Come on. Scooch.

Can you scooch for your mom?

I'm gonna sit on you.

How you doing, buddy?

How was your day?

It's okay.

I'm, uh

welding a bunch of stuff.

It's great you got a new job already.

Yeah.

Yeah. I'm grateful for it.

I mean, they've got me doing all this welding

and it's above minimum wage,

and I get to keep my prescription

because benefits kick in 90 days. So.

Yeah

don't want to let that drop off.

Hey, Jack.

Can you tell me something about yourself?

How about something you're uh

you're into?

Something.

You want to tell them about

how you like riding your new bike?

You like riding bikes?

Right? Yeah?

I used to ride bikes when I was little.

You know, one time, me and my

buddies, we built a wooden ramp

and we carried it down to the river.

All of us had to.

It was heavy. We had to really carry it.

And then we'd,

we'd launch off of it

into the water.

And we'd see, we'd see how far we could go,

who could get the furthest.

It was really cool

because you were, like flying like Superman

when you hit the ramp,

you're like up in the air, like

woaaahhh

pssshh.

You want to tell him about all the fun stuff

you like to do?

You like to do all kinds of stuff, right?

Your favorite toy–.

What's that toy there?

That's

panda bear?

Yeah,

yeah.

Purple panda?

That's just panda.

Okay.

Does Panda like to ride bikes?

You've got something on your shirt.

[laughter]

You want to look at some photos?

Yeah.

Should we show him some photos?

Yeah?

You want to show him the pictures of your long hair?

What?

Long hair Jack?

I can't wait.

You want to go grab my phone?

Go grab my phone.

Come on.

Come on. Not too shabby.

I didn't find it.

You couldn't find it?

Plugged into the wall? - All right

will you stay here with Panda and I'll go get it?

Hop up.

You got it?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

All right. Here we go.

There you are

in my belly.

That's about the time you went away.

And in the bath.

So cute.

Yeah.

Oh my gosh, look at you man

that's a funny face.

Can you show me that face now?

Okay.

Dude's first music festival.

Nice.

All decked out.

Wow. Nice hair.

How long did that take to grow?

I think like

six years.

[laughter]

Whoa.

What's going on?

Uh, I broke my arm.

I think I was, like, at the park

and I like, fell off

something

and my hand

and my, like right here

landed somewhere on my knee.

That really hurt?

Yeah. Although it was my right arm

that did it.

But you were real brave right?

Mmm hmm.

I only cried, like

when it first happened.

The rest

I was like just saying it really hurts.

Yeah. You were just like ow it hurts, it hurts.

I didn't even know it was broken.

It was very scary.

Hmm.

There you are again.

The beach.

Can I play my video games?

Your dad's here to hang out with you

and you want to play video games?

That's okay.

If you want to go play

that's fine with me.

Thanks for hanging out with me, though.

Okay?

Sorry.

Yeah.

Why would you do that?

Because.

Wilder, why would you do that?

Because–

you and I should be getting married.

Not this fucking guy. You don't love him.

I know you don't.

You gotta leave.

No. Wait a minute, okay–

I just have to be honest.

You can't just give me 50 bucks and expect that to solve everything.

Okay, but we're family, the three of us.

No, we're not– I want us to be.

You don't get to decide that.

You don't get to decide. Okay? - Okay.

I have to be honest about my feelings because if I'm not–.

If you wanna have him in your life you can't do this.

You gotta go. I need you to go.

Get the fuck out.

Okay. Okay, I will–.

Just leave.

You know how I feel. I will keep it to myself.

This wasn't supposed to be about you.

This is supposed to be about him.

Just just just think about it.

Just go. Jack. I'll see you later buddy,

Go!

Okay.

Yeah.

Whoa, whoa, wait–.

Who is this?

Uh.

Okay, okay.

Yeah, yeah. I'll be–

I'll be right there.

But, dude, just fucking chill, all right?

Fucking chill.

You checking in, man?

No. I got, like, a friend here.

You Wilder? Yeah. She okay?

Jesus fucking Christ, man.

Hey, let's go find out.

[baby crying]

I had covered her up.

The fuck is going on? You okay?

Can you hear me? What happened to her, man?

Hey, I don't know man.

You want to take a guess?

Hey. Hey. God damn it, you just left her here like this?

It was either that or call 911. Is that what you want?

Can you help me get her dressed, man?

Hey, I got to get back to work.

Oh, fuck.

Look, man, there's no prostitution in here.

How the fuck do you know she's a prostitute?

Them guys. They called down.

They were like, yo, this hooker, she just OD'd.

I think that was my first clue, alright?

Clean her up and get her out of here.

Get the fuck out if you're not going to help, dude.

Hey! Wake up.

I'm going to take you in here.

Come here. Come here.

Come on.

You're going to be fine.

You feeling better now?

We just got to get you back

to the fucking car in a minute.

You'll be fine, man.

Tess.

Ugh dude, I–

I know I'm.

Who's that?

I know, I know, I

I thought about it.

I should– okay, I'll shut up.

I'll shut– go.

Yeah, I can watch him.

Dude, I.

Mmmhmm mhmm.

I know man, I was,

I was selfish, I was,

I shouldn't have done that I, I crossed the line I know I shouldn't have done that.

I was selfish, I got to do what's best for him.

Tomorrow at 3.

Yeah I will be there. Thank you.

Thank you.

Right.

Let me go.

Just hold on.

Set me down!

Come on, Jack. I can't do this right now.

I don't want to go!

Can you open the back door, please? - Yeah. Hold on.

Set me down!

Here. - Okay.

You're just going to hang out with your dad for a little while.

No!

It's fine buddy,

See you later

you're going to have fun.

You guys are gonna have a good time, I promise.

Okay.

Have him home by ten?

Does that sound reasonable?

Watch your hands, buddy. Okay?

Yeah. Yeah.

I don't want to go with you! I don't want to go!

Hey, it's going to be fine.

Thank you very much.

I mean it, this means a lot to me.

Have fun!

Hey, just just calm down, buddy.

Just. Just take a deep breath, okay?

Take a deep breath.

So, you

you do anything cool today?

What did you have for breakfast?

Cereal.

Cereal? Nice, I like cereal. What?

What kind?

Frosted flakes.

Frosted flakes!

Alright.

I haven't had that in a while, but I remember liking it quite a bit.

So you, you, like, going back to school soon?

Yeah.

Excited?

I don't know.

You don't know.

Okay, buddy, I'm going to,

I'm just going to make a quick stop so just wait here a second, 'kay?

Uh huh.

You're not going to run away or anything.

Stay right here.

Mmm hmm okay.

Be right back.

You. You hungry man?

Uh, I don't know.

You don't know?

Okay, well,

we'll figure something out,

let's go have some fun, man.

Hold on!

Woohoo!

Yo, who's ready for some food?

Jack? Jack,

you ready for some food, buddy?

Sprite.

You know what? I got to take a piss.

Just stay right here.

I'll be right back. You stay right there.

What are you going to do?

Stay right here? That's right. That's right.

All right,

I'm starving. Man.

Look at this.

What, you.

You're not going to eat?

What, dude? You said you wanted.

You said you wanted food.

You're just going to waste it now?

Mom cuts it up for me.

Come on. Just.

Just pick it up.

Just pick it up and eat it like a man.

Just pick it up and take a bite.

What? You ever eat it like this? Just pick it up.

Take a bite. You're a man, right?

Pick it up like a man.

Okay.

This is going to get messy.

But I'll give you

I'll give you little bits.

Cut it up for you.

Just like mom.

Here. We'll just.

You can kind of have this cheese and patty.

Okay? That's messy, but dig in, man.

Come on. I.

What about.

What about fries?

Yeah. - There you go.

There you go.

Is it good?

It's good.

So, I heard you guys are moving.

You guys are moving to a different house.

Do you – Jack. Do you know where you're moving?

Mom says not to say.

Whuh.

Oh, my God, of course she does.

Oh, buddy are...

are you okay, you.

You're not gonna

fucking cry are you?

No. It's okay.

Hey. Just, look look. Be tough. We gotta be tough.

We can't let people see our weakness. Okay?

Okay. Just. It's okay.

It's okay if you can do anything in the whole world right now, what would you do?

You want to go to the park? You want to.

You want to play video games?

I don't know, you said you you played them at home the other day.

You want to?

I know this place.

Do you want anything to drink?

Milk.

Milk? Okay. Okay.

Why don't you go, go find a game to play,

and then I'll come.

What can I get ya?

Whiskey. Well.

And a milk.

Sure.

Cheers.

Okay.

You, you ever shot a gun?

No.

K this one's reload.

If you need to. Triggers right here.

That's how you shoot. Use this thing.

This thing is a sight.

So you got to look along that line.

When you see a buck. Shoot.

What's a buck?

A bucks a deer. A deer with with big antlers and shit.

Let's get this thing going.

Nice. Nice. Yes.

Where is it?

Just wait. Be calm.

There you go. Good shot, good shot.

There you go. Nice dude.

Side three.

Last one, buddy!

Last one. There you go. Shoot smart. Nice!

Or they can just act dumb.

Yep. Take your time.

There you go. Easy.

Very good.

Oh. Good shooting, dude.

That's how you do it!

That's exactly how you do it.

Maybe like, it goes that way around, the ball and goes into the tower and.

Exactly, it comes up over the tower

and then it can go.

It looks like it goes in there.

And that was.

You won't even believe this.

Look, it's just like down here. I'm going to lift you again.

Check this out.

Yeah. I'm just gonna lift you over and look.

See the tunnel?

Let's load this thing in. Yep.

Just soft right there.

Boom! It'll grab it. Oh, take it back out.

Try it again.

Okay. Just one easy fluid push.

Yep. Boom.

Good job.

Yeah.

Tell me when.

And one, two, go. These pedals are the buttons on the side.

Each one. Ding ding ding ding ding.

Yeah it's coming.

You're racking up points up there.

Nice one.

Yeah. Shoot it up. There you go.

Shoot it out!

Shoot it out.

Oh. Nice save man. Nice.

Oh, hey, get away from me, you horde!

Get it. Yeah.

Get away you zombie horde!

Nice. Get it up.

I think I have one more.

Wait how many points did we get?

You know I think I gotta go take a piss.

Will you just stay here for a minute?

You good?

Yeah.

Put this up here.

Put this stuff on top.

You have a clean hit.

You can aim up

right at this cue and hit it as hard as you can towards all those.

Nice job.

Okay, my turn.

All right. 13 up top.

Boom.

Oh, you can hit the

11 into the ten again.

You see that?

That's how you shoot.

My turn still.

Here we go

boom!

Your dad's on fire.

Boom!

How many is that, four?

Five?

I dunno.

Boom.

You getting bored over there?

Get used to it.

I sink this, I win the world. Alright.

That means you lose the world.

No fucking way.

You win. Okay, give me that.

Give me that cue ball.

Now, how many does this one take?

I think 4. Yeah.

You do two.

Yeah,

yeah.

Okay, now I want you to look.

I want you to look as handsome. Get in here. Look as handsome as you can.

I don't want you making me look bad. Okay?

Hold on. Okay, okay. Smile.

Look funny.

Another funny,

serious.

Really cool.

Now do whatever you want to.

Do whatever you want.

Dude,

Let's go get em.

Okay, alright.

I need to go to the bathroom.

No we can go when we get home.

Just just just hold it. Thank you.

Yeah, have a good one. - You too.

Just hold it dude.

I have to go to the bathroom.

Bud, we're almost home. Just hold it.

We're going to be home in just a second.

Just, just hold on one more minute.

I'm gonna call her.

Ah, fuck.

I'm cold.

What? Where's your jacket?

It's in the car.

Wait, what is that smell?

Yeah.

Just follow me, man.

[dog barking]

Through here.

[dog barking]

[dog barking]

Come here.

Okay, take it easy, you got it.

I'm coming.

Okay, you just–

just sit right there while–while we get this going.

We gotta make sure that the temperature is good, alright?

God damn it.

How does this thing fucking work?

Okay, let's uh–

uh, let's get your clothes off.

Hands up.

Yeah.

It's stuck on your head.

Okay, we got to get these pants off.

Oh man, you peed.

You peed a lot.

It stinks too, huh?

Okay, we're just going to keep those on.

Let's go.

Okay.

How's the temperature?

It's a little hot.

A little hot?

Okay. You want to, uh–

this feel okay?

Feel it.

Okay? Uh yeah.

Okay, come over here I gotta I gotta rinse off your pee.

Yeah. Get down there. Here.

Come on, come on.

It's like–

uh– soap.

All right.

Okay.

Okay.

Uh, why don't you just rub around your, your,

you know, rub by your underwear and shit?

Yeah, yeah.

I mean, do we just–.

Let's just wash you, huh?

Mom uses the cup.

The cup? Where's the cup?

Uh, it's over there.

This one?

Mmm hmm.

Oh, that's a cool one.

Okay. Get ready.

Eyes shut.

All right, one more.

Maybe some soap up there?

Oh, fuck.

I kind of used a lot, man.

Keep your eyes shut.

Sorry. Okay.

We're getting that pee right off you.

Yeah.

Like it never happened.

Good job, bud.

Hey, let's just put your head under here.

Lean down, lean down. Yeah.

Further, further. It's okay.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Stay there.

Oh, the bubbles are coming into your face.

Oh, my gosh man–

I think they went up my nose.

Oh, no.

Yeah, they went up my nose.

Should I put some in my nose to be even?

Do you want me to?

Okay. Look, you do it.

Put them on my nose.

No. They're right. Yeah.

Let's go.

Oh look. Where we're we're

Santa Claus. When–

ho ho ho, Merry Christmas.

Merry Christmas, buddy.

Okay. More water.

Yeah. It's good.

You all right?

Yeah. Okay.

Okay. Can you–.

Can you put the toothpaste on yourself?

On myself?

On the toothbrush, dummy.

Can you?

Okay.

But only–

only because

only because you're super tired.

Okay. How long do you usually brush for?

Two minutes.

Okay, I'm going to start a timer.

It's going.

15 down.

Hey, can you do that out there for a minute?

Why?

Because I gotta take a piss.

You go a lot.

Yeah, I-I drink a lot of liquids.

Okay. Come back in.

All right.

That's good enough. Spit it out.

Good job.

You wanna feed the crocodile?

Good stuff.

Let's go to bed.

Can you read?

What do you mean can I read? Of course I can read.

I mean, can you read me a bedtime story?

Oh, story?

Uh, okay.

This one?

Mmm hmm.

Do you have another family?

No.

Of course I don't.

Mom said when I was little

that you wanted to be with us, but you couldn't.

Yeah.

That's true.

I wanted to be with you every day.

Why didn't you?

I couldn't.

What bad things did you do?

I–

I made a lot of mistakes.

You know, people, everybody makes mistakes.

I mean, sometimes it's just a matter of time

before you make a fucking mistake.

But, the good thing about it is, you can–

you can look back and you can see

ah, what you did wrong and try to do it better

you know?

Start here.

Gerald simply froze up.

He was rooted to the spot.

They're right he thought,

I'm useless.

Oh, I feel like such a clot.

So he crept off

from the dance floor and he started walking home.

He never felt so sad before.

So sad and so alone.

Listen to the swaying grass

and listen to the trees.

To me the sweetest music is–

the branches in the breeze.

So imagine that the lovely moon is playing just for you.

Everything makes music

if you really want it to.

With that, the cricket smiled

and picked up his violin.

Then Gerald felt his body

do the most amazing thing.

His hoofs had started shuffling, making circles on the ground.

His neck was gently swaying– and his tail

was swishing around.

He threw his legs out sideways

and he swung them everywhere.

Then he–

felt.

Then he did a backward somersault

and leapt up in the air.

Gerald felt so wonderful,

his mouth was open wide.

I am dancing.

Yes, I am dancing. I am dancing,

Gerald cried.

You asleep?

Please leave a message for–.

Where were you?

I was worried.

You don't need to worry about me anymore, Jack.

I'm Wilder, Jack is in there.

[laugher]

You know what I mean.

Did you– did you kill him?

Yeah. I slit his throat.

Oh no–

I'm going to go check his pulse.

He's sleeping.

Hi, baby.

I'm home.

Were you sleeping?

Sorry I'm home so late.

That's okay.

You know how much I love you?

Mmm hmm.

How much?

As much as the neighbor's dog loves butts.

That's a lot.

And it's true.

Hey, hey.

What?

Did you have fun tonight?

Mmm hmm.

What did you do?

I drove around, I ate food.

I played pool

and I shot shotguns.

That's only partially true.

No, it's fully true.

You shot shotguns?

Mmm hmm. Yeah.

Real shotguns.

Giant ones?

Mmm hmm.

I love you so so so so so so much

I love you so so so so so more.

Sweet dreams baby.

Sweet dream, baby.

[laughter]

What?

I'm sorry but she sounds like a shit show.

Well she's–.

Who isn't, though?

I mean, really–

I just don't want you to get involved in anything that's gonna, you know,

compromise your– Wait wait.

You were the one who was always all progressive

that fucking sex work is real work, right?

Absolutely. It is. It's not

it's not the sex work that bothers me

she sounds like an addict.

I–I don't think you or I are really ones to judge her

for that.

You jealous?

Mmmh nmm.

You're fucking jealous.

I'm not jealous.

I'm not.

How long you guys talking for?

A couple months towards the end.

Go back and forth all the time.

I'd call when I could. We did a video call.

You know, right before I got out.

Well I'm glad.

Why?

I don't know, I just glad you had

someone to talk to.

I know it was probably

pretty hard.

What?

No, what?

We just haven't done this

in a really long time.

Yeah.

And I think I had too much to drink.

What were you guys doing?

We just had a little

thing with the girls

party thing.

Oh, what was the occasion?

Some of them think you're cute.

Oh, yeah?

Yeah.

Do I know any of them?

No.

I showed them some of our old pictures.

I could introduce you.

No fucking way.

I'm good.

No? Why not?

I'm fucking joking dude.

Wait. So are you–.

Are you happy?

Happy?

Yeah.

With your life and shit.

Well, I can tell you one thing.

Nick doesn't think there's people hiding under the floorboards in the closet.

So that's a start.

Come on, man

I'm being real.

Don't bring that up.

You've done a really,

really good job with Jack.

He's amazing.

I know that that– that wasn't easy.

Come here, come here.

[laughter]

Shhh. Jack.

He'll be fine.

Okay.

I fucking missed you.

How do you get this thing off?

I'm stuck.

Jack, Jack's gonna come in.

He's gonna come back.

[laughter]

Wilder, wake up! You have to go.

Hmmm.

Get up. What? Get dressed.

It's time to go.

What's– what's going on man?

I said it 50 fucking times, dude.

Get up!

What's the– what's the fucking problem?

Huh?

Dude, what's going on?

Nick's here. We're moving.

Wait dude, today? Yeah.

You were, where are you going?

Brooklyn.

Wait, what? You're going to fucking Brooklyn?

No, no, no, you cannot fucking do that, dude.

Fuck that shit. You cannot fucking do that.

Wilder just helped me out with Jack last night– What's all this?

And he just– he just spent the night, he crashed out.

Hold on. What the fuck's going on? He just slept on the couch.

Wait I slept on the couch?

Do not play like that. I did not sleep on the fucking couch.

Is he being serious right now, Tess?

Wow. This is what I get for being the nice guy, huh?

Wait, Nick. This is what I get for being a nice guy?

It's not what it seems.

Okay, well what is it?

There's an explanation for this?

Tess–.

What's going on?

What's going on is–.

This is my fucking family, dude.

That boy is my fucking kid, and I am not

letting you fucking take them to the east coast.

Tell him he's got to go.

Tell him to get out Tess.

I'm not gonna be some guy in a diner in 15 years– Tess.

I'm not playin'– telling somehow how I fucking lost them.

That is not me. I love them so fucking much dude– Tess–.

You have never loved anybody as much as I love them.

No, man. It's time to go, I get it.

I fucking lost them myself. Tess– tell him– but get the fuck out–.

Get your hands off me, man. Fuck you. What the hell's wrong with you, man?

What's wrong with me? You're not– this is my family.

Don't touch me, man.

Get the fuck off.

I am not going to risk losing my fucking family again

by hitting a piece of shit like you.

Fuck you know about family, huh? I know a lot.

What do you know about anything? What the fuck?

Just because you got her pregnant when you was high on meth–

that don't make you no fucking father.

Okay, get the fuck out of my house. Man–.

Get the fuck out– Stop it–.

Are you okay?

Are you okay? Yeah.

I trusted you, Tess.

I put my trust in you.

Did you really sleep with this dude?

I'm sorry.

Wow, that's fucked up.

Nick, wait.

Please. Please wait.

[muffled conversation]

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