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- I'm going to work in Woolworths.
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- When I grow up I want
to be an astronaut.
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- When I get married I'd
like to have 2 children.
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- My hearts desire is to see my Daddy.
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- I don't want to answer that.
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- This is no
ordinary outing at the zoo,
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it's a very special occasion.
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We've brought these
children together for the
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very first time.
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They're like any other children except
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that they come from startlingly
different backgrounds.
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- Stop it at once.
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- We've brought
these children together
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because we wanted a glimpse
of England in the year 2000.
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The shop steward and the executive
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of the year 2000 are now 7 years old.
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- In 1964
WORLD IN ACTION made 7 Up.
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We have been back to film
these children every 7 years.
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They are now 35.
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- Give me a child until he is 7
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and I will give you the man.
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- Is it important to fight, yes.
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I want to be a jockey when I grow up,
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yeah I want to be a jockey when I grow up.
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- At 14 Tony
was already an apprentice
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at Tommy Gosling's
racing stables in Epsom.
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He left school at 15.
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- This is a photo finish
of when I rode at Newbury.
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I'm the one with the white cap.
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I was beaten a length and a half a third
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and had a photo finish.
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So I took it out of the box
and kept it as a souvenir.
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My greatest fulfilment in
life, when I rode at Kempton
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in the same race as Lester Piggott.
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I was a naive wet behind
the ears apprentice.
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All my years from 7, all
my ambitions fulfilled
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in one moment and I
eventually finished last.
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Tailed off obviously but it
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didn't make any difference to me.
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Just to be part of it,
be with the man himself.
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Couldn't buy it, that was the
proudest day of my whole life.
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- Tony's now 34.
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At weekends he takes
his girls to a stables
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where the family keeps a couple of ponies.
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What's it mean to you when
you see the girls on a horse?
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- There are times you
look back and you look at them
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and you see yourself in them all the time.
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Wait come here.
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- Got down first didn't I.
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- Yeah.
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When I was a kid right,
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no one ever ever showed
me how to ride a horse.
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I had to go out and do it myself.
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Just walk him, hold them
legs nice and properly.
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When I see them riding I sort of like
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"Oh I taught them that"
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and I see them doing this and
I show them in another way.
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Then once they learn it I sort of like pat
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them on their bum
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sort of put them on
automatic pilot you know
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and they're on their own.
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But that's what life's all about isn't it?
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Giving your kids all the opportunities
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that give them the benefits
that you never had.
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Don't be afraid, never
be afraid, they know.
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Horses were my whole life,
flesh, blood, in my veins,
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it was you know all the smell everything.
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Princess Anne to her
horses and Lester Piggott
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to his that's how I felt.
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- And you let it go?
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- I let it go.
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- Sometimes on Saturday
morning I go to the pictures.
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Sometimes with my friend
and sometimes with him.
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- You don't.
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- I do.
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- She don't, I don't ever see you.
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You go to a different pictures.
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- Have you got a girlfriend?
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- No.
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- Would you
like to have a girlfriend?
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- No.
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You understand the Four F's, Find them,
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Feed them and Forget them.
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The other F I'll let you
use your own discrimination.
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I mean, this one, I
tried to do the Three Fs
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but I couldn't forget her.
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- I used to work in a pub
just on a Friday night.
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Barmaids, barmaiding
and from there one night
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I went to a discotheque.
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He was in the pub earlier on
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and that afterwards we
went to a discotheque
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and Tony was down there and I just,
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from there I just that was it.
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Couldn't get rid of him.
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- We have our ups and downs,
no more than anyone else.
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- I think you got to work at a marriage.
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I think all marriages go through stages,
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you can't stand each
other, you go through,
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I think, oh God, I hate
him I wish he'd get out.
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I do and I'm sure he does about me.
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- I been in positions you
know and it's hard to say
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in front of Debbie but
it's true, it's tempting,
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you take the bait.
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You know I go on holiday once
a year with the boys type
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of thing to Spain, Magaluf
and we have a golf holiday.
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All against Debbie's will but it's true,
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I get in situations out there that you,
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life is for the living.
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And I come back, "Oh I know
what you've been doing out
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"there, you've been
meeting all them birds",
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and whatever and they
look at you as if to say
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"I know, and I don't want to know".
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That's how it is.
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- Who's to say in another 10 years me
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and him might have split up?
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- Quite possible.
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- You know, you don't know.
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- If you were to break up
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what do you think it would be over?
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- Yeah, I think it's be the other party.
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It wouldn't be for the
kids cause the kids they're
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everything, without
anything prior to that.
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Isn't it, I mean it'd break my heart.
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Knowing that another
man could come in here
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and bring my kids up.
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There's only one ambition
really, I want a baby son
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and if I see my baby son
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then I'll see my ambition fulfilled.
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No one knows that, only you now.
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- Tony and
Debbie had a son, Nicky,
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who is now 13.
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They have 2 daughters, Jody and Perry
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and the family lives in North London.
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- Now listen, on Saturday
Tottenham have got the Arsenal.
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- One, I was expecting on
28 UP wasn't I when you were
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filmed that but I lost that baby.
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I didn't feel that I could have any more.
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I really didn't want any more.
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But then anyway I did and I had Perry.
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They are naughty, very naughty.
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They're the naughtiest kids I know.
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Nicky's like me, he's more
placid but Jody's like
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how he was when he was 7.
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I do discipline them,
you know, I smack them,
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I put them in their rooms,
I take things off of them.
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I do it, I discipline
them and he undoes it
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so I'm fighting twice with
them, it makes it harder for me
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because he's too soft with them.
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- Why do you think
you're too soft with them?
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- Cause I love them so much.
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- Do you bring them up the way
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that you were brought up?
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- The upbringing I
had I saw more dinner times
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than dinners without any questions
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and I did have my brothers
clothes on my back for
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you know hand me downs.
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It's never done me no harm.
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- I wouldn't have
got away with my parents
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what my kids get away with me.
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- Yeah but in saying that you do
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give them everything possible.
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All these designer clothes type of thing,
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the Naff gear and Reebok
trainers now my Nicky
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plays football and she'll say
"Oh Nicky wants some trainers
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"have you got £70"?
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and I'll say "What £70
for a pair of trainers,
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"hold on there's a stall around there,
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"same quality trainers
for £24 or something".
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She'll go "£24, oh no" she'll say
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"He can't go to school
wearing that rubbish".
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She'll give them
everything, got an old bike,
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wants a chain putting on and a
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few nuts tightening or whatever.
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"Oh can't have that bike, get a new one"
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then in the next Christmas comes up.
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- Only cause you don't put
the chain and bolts on.
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- Oh, I'm not having that one.
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- What will you do if you don't
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make it as a jockey?
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- I don't know, if I know I couldn't be one
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I'd get out of the game.
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- What do you
think you would do then?
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- Learn taxis.
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- At 21 Tony
was on the knowledge learning
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to be a London Cabbie.
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- If there's any
person who thinks I can't be
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a Cabbie then they're wrong.
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I'm going to get that badge and I'm going
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to put it right in their face.
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Just to tell them how wrong they can be
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and how underestimated I am.
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- At 28 he had his own cab.
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- Surprising who you pick up you see.
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I once met Kojak I picked
him up and Warren Mitchell,
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Alf Garnett you know.
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Debbie's working in
the day so Debbie'll be
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on her way home by 4
o'clock, the kids'll be
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coming home for tea.
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Debbie'll stop the cab outside,
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come in and cook the dinner.
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Then I'll sit down with the
kids till about 7 whatever,
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then I'll start the cab up
because we work the same cab
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and I'll go to work till
about 1 until it goes again.
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She's got a great mind.
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She does the knowledge
which is less than 2 years.
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For a woman with 3 kids, the pressures,
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running a family that's remarkable.
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- You get a lot of resentment
still from other cab drivers.
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Some of them they just give you abuse,
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some of them just sit there
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shaking their heads when they see you.
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I get told to go home and
do the dishes or go home
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and do your husband's dinner.
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I went to a Knowledge School
and there I met other girls
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doing the Knowledge and
we became quite friendly,
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we meet on a certain rank at Knightsbridge
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and we go and have a cup of
tea we have a look around
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Harrods, get a sandwich,
use Harrod's loos.
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Have a little look around, spray
the perfumes and lipsticks.
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- Does he do his
fair share of the housework?
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- No, he doesn't do a thing.
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He doesn't even bring a cup from one room
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to the other I do everything.
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- Sounds awful don't it?
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- Terrible.
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- I'm not chauvinistic,
don't get me wrong you know,
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it's not a question of that.
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I've a very luxurious life indoors right?
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And I'm not proud to say
it or ashamed to say it
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I'm just the way I am.
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I mean I work as hard as I can outside
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and when I close that door the feet go up
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and I feel I deserve a rest.
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- Would everybody
please sit round now
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and get on with their work.
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I don't want to see any backs to me.
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Shouldn't be anybody turning around.
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Tony do you hear as well?
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Get on with your work in front.
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Tony, don't turn round again.
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- So what advantages
do you think you've had
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over some of the other
people that we filmed?
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- Academically they've
probably had more advantages
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over me owing to the fact
they've had prep schools
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at a very early age you know.
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They've benefited by it which
you know it tells obviously
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in this film but as far
as you know the stability
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and the background you
know with their parents
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they've missed out on that.
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It was February the 9th
exactly 10 minutes past 9.
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Mothers having her last, well
at the time we never knew,
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her last breath, and she just died
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with me holding her hand
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and it was the worst moment of my life.
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With respect to Debbie,
she was and still is
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the best girl in the world.
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I'm sorry but Eastenders
they're all close to their mums
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and you know like everyone else wherever
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you come from but my mom and I,
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I've made it clear from when we done 21.
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I just loved her, that's why.
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That's what I think isn't it.
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- I've never met anyone
like his mum in my life.
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I doubt I ever will.
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She was a lovely lady,
she was a friend to me
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she wasn't a mother in law and we used
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to go everywhere together me and his mum.
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- I know the old man
from the time of his life
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afterwards he died there and then
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but he walked around
until September this year.
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- When you buried him what
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did you put in his coffin?
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- I put 3 cards and I put
crown and anchor dice,
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oh and a betting slip and a pen.
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Because that was my dads whole life.
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I'm at the graveside, I'm talking to her,
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I've got all images running
through my mind saying like
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"Tony go downstairs get
me five weights you know,
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"and one and a penny" and
I used to go in the shop.
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She used to throw the
cotton in a hair curler
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over the landing and I
used to tie the cigarettes
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on this bit of cotton and
she used to pull them up
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and you'd see her in the end,
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"Thanks Tone see you
after school be good".
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And that's the way it was, and
all little things like that.
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Mother having a drink in
the pub, singing, don't care
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a monkeys she used to say,
don't care about nothing.
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The poshies, "Oh yes, oh yes, oh yes".
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They're nuts, just have to touch them.
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Yeah well they can get
what they want can't they?
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If you've got to work for it
and it's them, they can just
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ask for money and they get it.
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They can buy what they want.
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I'm not a politician so let them worry
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about whats coming for the next day.
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All I understand is dogs,
prices, girls, knowledge,
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roads, streets, squares
and mum and dad and love.
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That's all I understand, that's
all I want to understand.
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- How long are you
going to be a cab driver,
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is this what you want to do
for the rest of your life?
301
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- Well at the moment, I'm
very happy in driving a cab
302
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but I always considered owning
our own pub so obviously
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I think with two or three
years, once I get finally,
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financially straightened
out I'm going to have a go
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at being a publican.
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We did eventually get a pub
about 18 months after wasn't it?
307
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- Yeah.
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- And we went in partnership
with my brother in law
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and I saw the pub going in one direction,
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he saw it going in another one and after
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about eight months or a year wasn't it?
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We decided to call it a day.
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Next time it's hard work out there.
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- You're not reaching me yet.
315
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- At 28 Tony
was taking acting lessons.
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- Be bigger, dominate me.
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- Son, son it's a big world out there
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and obviously I'm not.
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I can't get into it Brian.
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- All right, all right.
321
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- Pardon the expression but
could you do my inside leg.
322
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- He now works as an extra.
323
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- I'll have a go at
anything, especially acting,
324
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but talent, who am I to say?
325
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I'm not going to say I
haven't but then again
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who's to stay anyone has?
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I promise you, it's just
the job, no more no less.
328
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All that big ideas for
stardom probably happened
329
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14 years ago, I mean, but
not now, don't mean nothing
330
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believe it or not.
331
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I don't want to change because if I change
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it proves the other Tony
Walker was all fake.
333
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I know, and I've always said
it, there's never ever a thing
334
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in my life I've never set out to do
335
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that I've never achieved.
336
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I wanted to be a jockey thank God,
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I rode in a race with
Lester Piggott and I did it.
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I wanted to be in the
film game, I got in it.
339
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Working with Stephen Spielberg for 2 weeks
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on one of his films.
341
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I made it happen on my terms
342
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and no one can say "I helped him"
343
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and I'm a lot stronger in that respect.
344
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- But you didn't pull it off.
345
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You didn't pull a jockey
off, you haven't made it
346
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as an actor, you didn't pull off the pub.
347
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- Well, it's better to
be a has been than a
348
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never was wasn't it?
349
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My ambitions have gone out the window now
350
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cause I'm running a family,
I'm playing a role now.
351
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That is my role in life
I feel, but in saying
352
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that coming to the age of
34 I've done everything
353
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what I wanted to do.
354
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I've got no regrets other than
not making it as a jockey,
355
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that is my only regret but we
all live on dreams sometimes
356
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If they don't come off unlucky,
you go again some time.
357
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- Tell me do you
have any boyfriends Suzi?
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- Erm, yes.
359
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- Tell me about them.
360
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- Well he lives up in Scotland
and he's I think he's 13
361
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and I'm rather lonely up
there because he usually goes
362
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to school but we used to
play till about half past 6
363
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when he comes home from
school, then we go in
364
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and then he goes home to do his homework.
365
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- Have you
got any boyfriends Suzi?
366
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- What is your attitude
towards marriage for yourself?
367
00:18:32,721 --> 00:18:33,961
- Well, I don't know, I
haven't given it a lot
368
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of thought cause I'm very
very cynical about it.
369
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But then you get a certain
amount of faith resorted in it
370
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when I mean, I've got
friends and their parents
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are happily married and
so it does put faith back
372
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into you but me myself
I'm very cynical about it.
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- When I last saw
you at 21 you were nervous
374
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you were chain smoking you were uptight
375
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and now you seem happy,
whats happened to you
376
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over these last 7 years?
377
00:19:03,961 --> 00:19:07,321
- I suppose Rupert, I'll
give you some credit.
378
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- I'm now chain smoking.
379
00:19:14,441 --> 00:19:17,281
- I think you can't just
walk through marriage
380
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and think once you get
married it's all going
381
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to be roses and everything
for ever you know you have,
382
00:19:26,441 --> 00:19:29,241
well everybody has had their
rows but we've never yet
383
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had a row that we haven't
managed to sort out
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and I reckon really we've got a pretty,
385
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pretty good marriage.
386
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When I get married I'd
like to have 2 children.
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I'm not very children minded at the moment
388
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I don't know if I ever will be.
389
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- What do you think about them?
390
00:19:50,481 --> 00:19:51,841
- Well I don't like babies.
391
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- What was the
biggest shocks to you
392
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when you suddenly were
confronted with a small baby
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that you had to be responsible for?
394
00:20:00,601 --> 00:20:02,481
- Panic set in I think.
395
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That I wasn't going to be able to cope.
396
00:20:05,001 --> 00:20:07,041
- Is it everything you wanted?
397
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- For the moment yes,
I mean I don't think I'll have
398
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any more for the reason
that I will get pleasure
399
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out of these two but I can't
see me going on and on and on.
400
00:20:16,641 --> 00:20:17,561
- Mummy.
401
00:20:17,561 --> 00:20:18,401
- Yes.
402
00:20:18,401 --> 00:20:19,241
- Laura wants you.
403
00:20:19,241 --> 00:20:20,121
- Very little has changed.
404
00:20:20,121 --> 00:20:22,561
My life is probably very
much the same as it was then.
405
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I've had another baby, we've moved house,
406
00:20:24,961 --> 00:20:26,001
and that's about all.
407
00:20:27,801 --> 00:20:30,281
Thomas is at a prep
school now he's a day boy
408
00:20:31,601 --> 00:20:33,241
which he enjoys.
409
00:20:33,241 --> 00:20:34,561
Oliver's at school
410
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and Laura's just started this week.
411
00:20:38,241 --> 00:20:40,321
- Is discipline important?
412
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- Yes, it must be, I
wouldn't want to bring up
413
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3 unruly rude children.
414
00:20:45,681 --> 00:20:50,041
I'd hate people to look at
my children and think ugh,
415
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they don't want to have
them for the day cause
416
00:20:52,921 --> 00:20:54,681
they're so badly behaved and rude
417
00:20:54,681 --> 00:20:56,761
but then you know some days
you can spend you whole day
418
00:20:56,761 --> 00:20:59,881
just shouting at them because
they're behaving so badly.
419
00:21:01,041 --> 00:21:02,001
- Would you like having a nanny
420
00:21:02,001 --> 00:21:04,041
to look after them or do
you want to look after them?
421
00:21:05,361 --> 00:21:08,641
- No I want a nanny to look after them.
422
00:21:10,081 --> 00:21:12,481
We didn't have a third child because
423
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we desperately wanted to have a daughter.
424
00:21:14,881 --> 00:21:16,641
I mean you know, there's
no point doing that,
425
00:21:16,641 --> 00:21:19,241
but it was lovely when she was a girl
426
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because I feel the boys will
go off with Rupert fishing
427
00:21:21,721 --> 00:21:24,161
and stuff and I shall be left on my own
428
00:21:24,161 --> 00:21:26,241
so it'll be nice to have
a girl around the place.
429
00:21:30,001 --> 00:21:33,361
Oliver's a very volatile child it's him
430
00:21:33,361 --> 00:21:35,601
and I that have the problems.
431
00:21:35,601 --> 00:21:36,761
Right from the minute
432
00:21:36,761 --> 00:21:38,921
he was born he screamed day and night
433
00:21:38,921 --> 00:21:40,401
and he's never got any better.
434
00:21:44,081 --> 00:21:47,721
He's got learning difficulties,
dyslexia may come into it,
435
00:21:47,721 --> 00:21:48,641
we don't know yet.
436
00:21:49,881 --> 00:21:52,161
I think he would benefit
from being at a school
437
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where he's where he can cope better.
438
00:21:56,241 --> 00:21:58,761
- As a teenager,
Suzi spent her holidays
439
00:21:58,761 --> 00:22:01,281
on her fathers estate in Scotland.
440
00:22:01,281 --> 00:22:03,161
What sort of things do you do?
441
00:22:03,161 --> 00:22:06,481
- Ride, swim, play tennis, ping pong.
442
00:22:08,761 --> 00:22:11,201
I might play croquet, things like that.
443
00:22:14,801 --> 00:22:19,281
- What about the
social life, whats that?
444
00:22:19,281 --> 00:22:20,641
- What in Perthshire?
445
00:22:20,641 --> 00:22:21,441
- Yes.
446
00:22:21,441 --> 00:22:22,281
- Mm, quite fun.
447
00:22:22,281 --> 00:22:25,681
I came to London when I
left school after Paris
448
00:22:27,521 --> 00:22:28,841
and at the moment I could
never live in the country.
449
00:22:28,841 --> 00:22:33,841
I'm happy down here I mean
the country's nice for 4 days
450
00:22:34,201 --> 00:22:36,841
to go for long healthy walks but I mean
451
00:22:36,841 --> 00:22:38,361
I could never live up there now.
452
00:22:41,201 --> 00:22:42,521
- This is a wonderful atmosphere
453
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to bring up children.
454
00:22:44,281 --> 00:22:45,841
Do you think in some way it might be
455
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too secluded and safe for them?
456
00:22:49,041 --> 00:22:49,881
- It could be.
457
00:22:49,881 --> 00:22:52,041
That's something that
slightly frightens me
458
00:22:52,041 --> 00:22:54,321
that it is it's a very cosseted
life that they have here
459
00:22:54,321 --> 00:22:57,361
and they've got to hit
the world at some point.
460
00:22:57,361 --> 00:23:00,881
I just hope that I can
help them cope with it.
461
00:23:02,481 --> 00:23:04,641
It is the most carefree time of your life.
462
00:23:04,641 --> 00:23:07,081
I'm not saying it is for all children.
463
00:23:07,081 --> 00:23:10,761
Well any child going through
their parents splitting up
464
00:23:10,761 --> 00:23:14,161
aged 14 you're at a very
vulnerable age and it does cut
465
00:23:14,161 --> 00:23:18,161
you up but you know, you get over it.
466
00:23:19,641 --> 00:23:22,401
There's no point them
staying together for me
467
00:23:22,401 --> 00:23:26,081
because it was worse I
mean the rows, it's worse.
468
00:23:26,081 --> 00:23:27,561
If two people can't live together
469
00:23:27,561 --> 00:23:29,241
there's no point making yourself.
470
00:23:30,321 --> 00:23:35,041
I hope by Rupert and I giving
them a close family unit
471
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that they'll keep their
heads and won't feel
472
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that they're slightly lost like I did.
473
00:23:41,721 --> 00:23:45,481
Where I wasted time was
in my middle late teens
474
00:23:45,481 --> 00:23:47,481
and I think at that stage I didn't care.
475
00:23:48,561 --> 00:23:50,681
I just let those years
go really, I drifted
476
00:23:52,081 --> 00:23:53,961
and it's too late now to look back.
477
00:23:54,921 --> 00:23:59,401
When I leave school
I'm down for Heathfield
478
00:23:59,401 --> 00:24:03,161
and Southover Manor and
then maybe I may want
479
00:24:03,161 --> 00:24:06,641
to go to a University but
I don't know which one yet.
480
00:24:07,601 --> 00:24:11,481
I'd like to do maybe shorthand typing
481
00:24:11,481 --> 00:24:12,321
or something like that.
482
00:24:12,321 --> 00:24:14,801
I left school when I was 16, went to Paris
483
00:24:18,041 --> 00:24:20,721
went to secretarial college and got a job.
484
00:24:20,721 --> 00:24:22,161
- What made you decide
485
00:24:22,161 --> 00:24:23,801
to leave school and go to Paris?
486
00:24:25,561 --> 00:24:27,201
- I just wasn't interested in school
487
00:24:27,201 --> 00:24:28,601
and just wanted to get away.
488
00:24:30,001 --> 00:24:32,401
- I was a partner in
a quite a big law firm
489
00:24:32,401 --> 00:24:35,761
and I resigned from that
set up my own company.
490
00:24:37,921 --> 00:24:41,161
I tend to specialise in
refurbishing old buildings
491
00:24:41,161 --> 00:24:42,801
and converting them into offices.
492
00:24:44,481 --> 00:24:46,801
- Well if Rupert's
still got his property company
493
00:24:46,801 --> 00:24:50,321
in this present economic
climate, I'd like to get
494
00:24:50,321 --> 00:24:51,521
more involved with that.
495
00:24:52,961 --> 00:24:54,641
It was a very difficult time when Rupert
496
00:24:54,641 --> 00:24:56,641
was deciding to leave.
497
00:24:56,641 --> 00:24:58,081
He's got a lot of responsibilities
498
00:24:58,081 --> 00:24:59,401
with all of us and it's not easy
499
00:24:59,401 --> 00:25:00,681
just starting off on your own.
500
00:25:00,681 --> 00:25:03,081
- Do you ever
worry that the roof might
501
00:25:03,081 --> 00:25:06,881
fall in and you'll be
out of this and whatever?
502
00:25:06,881 --> 00:25:09,481
- Yes, it crosses my mind.
503
00:25:09,481 --> 00:25:12,481
Last year, it's quite,
504
00:25:12,481 --> 00:25:15,481
it's crossed my mind
quite hard that we might,
505
00:25:15,481 --> 00:25:18,721
you know we could lose this
if things don't pick up.
506
00:25:20,401 --> 00:25:23,641
- When she was 28
Suzy's father had just died.
507
00:25:24,881 --> 00:25:27,681
- It's very hard to describe to somebody
508
00:25:27,681 --> 00:25:29,641
how you just take the loss.
509
00:25:29,641 --> 00:25:32,601
It is terribly hard, even
now I still can't believe
510
00:25:32,601 --> 00:25:33,961
my fathers not here.
511
00:25:35,001 --> 00:25:37,721
It's still sinking in I think.
512
00:25:39,081 --> 00:25:41,961
The death of one of your
close family is probably
513
00:25:41,961 --> 00:25:43,521
something you don't ever get over
514
00:25:43,521 --> 00:25:47,121
and it's a different kind of
problem than anything else.
515
00:25:48,761 --> 00:25:50,921
- Tell me about your mum.
516
00:25:50,921 --> 00:25:53,841
- She was diagnosed before
Christmas as having lung cancer
517
00:25:55,241 --> 00:25:57,721
but she's strong, she's tough
518
00:25:57,721 --> 00:26:00,521
and hopefully she'll pull her way of it.
519
00:26:01,561 --> 00:26:06,521
She's just had a horrendous
operation, she's still in
520
00:26:06,521 --> 00:26:08,521
hospital now in a lot of pain.
521
00:26:09,561 --> 00:26:10,921
You see someone in pain like
522
00:26:10,921 --> 00:26:13,801
that it's especially someone that you love
523
00:26:13,801 --> 00:26:16,041
and care for, it's it's very hard.
524
00:26:18,561 --> 00:26:22,401
Somehow I think when
you're faced with it you
525
00:26:22,401 --> 00:26:23,641
just find inner strength.
526
00:26:23,641 --> 00:26:27,241
I think you think
beforehand something awful
527
00:26:27,241 --> 00:26:29,721
you can't cope with it but
somehow when it's there
528
00:26:29,721 --> 00:26:31,481
you just get on.
529
00:26:32,721 --> 00:26:36,401
Someone somehow gives you
inner strength to cope with it.
530
00:26:36,401 --> 00:26:39,001
- What do you think
about making this programme?
531
00:26:43,401 --> 00:26:44,241
- I just think it's ridiculous,
532
00:26:44,241 --> 00:26:46,081
I don't see any point in doing it.
533
00:26:46,081 --> 00:26:49,961
The first year or two after 28 UP came out
534
00:26:51,241 --> 00:26:54,041
you know I'd meet people,
or people in shops
535
00:26:54,041 --> 00:26:57,041
would ask me whether I was the
girl that did the programme
536
00:26:58,081 --> 00:27:00,641
and that's quite hard
because it's churning up
537
00:27:00,641 --> 00:27:03,281
all happy memories, sad memories,
538
00:27:03,281 --> 00:27:06,801
and it all comes flooding back, parts
539
00:27:06,801 --> 00:27:08,481
that I'd rather forget and it's all
540
00:27:08,481 --> 00:27:09,881
there for people to see.
541
00:27:10,961 --> 00:27:13,041
Although most people are
quite nice about it you get
542
00:27:13,041 --> 00:27:18,041
the odd one who's fairly
rude and I just think they're
543
00:27:19,321 --> 00:27:21,921
lucky then they didn't have
to have it done to them.
544
00:27:27,881 --> 00:27:31,441
I've had a very privileged
life compared to some people.
545
00:27:31,441 --> 00:27:36,161
I've never really had to
struggle to make my way
546
00:27:36,161 --> 00:27:38,361
but I don't think I've taken for granted
547
00:27:38,361 --> 00:27:39,561
what I've had either.
548
00:27:40,721 --> 00:27:42,081
This may sound very arrogant
549
00:27:42,081 --> 00:27:46,801
but you can't if I let it
worry me I mean I'd worry
550
00:27:46,801 --> 00:27:49,841
myself to death, I can't
change what I was born into.
551
00:27:54,641 --> 00:27:59,641
- Well, going to Africa
and try and teach people
552
00:27:59,641 --> 00:28:04,641
who are not civilised
to be more or less good.
553
00:28:05,321 --> 00:28:08,241
No I don't want to be a missionary
because I just can't talk
554
00:28:08,241 --> 00:28:09,201
about it to people.
555
00:28:11,401 --> 00:28:12,721
I am interested in it myself
556
00:28:12,721 --> 00:28:16,241
but I wouldn't be very good at it at all.
557
00:28:23,561 --> 00:28:26,601
- So is this your
missionary dream come true?
558
00:28:26,601 --> 00:28:30,361
- Well not exactly, I'm
a teacher now in London
559
00:28:30,361 --> 00:28:33,761
and I've had the opportunity
to come here for a term
560
00:28:34,921 --> 00:28:37,881
and it just so happens the
school I am in has great links
561
00:28:37,881 --> 00:28:42,241
with this part of the world
and you know I've come here
562
00:28:42,241 --> 00:28:46,841
to find out about the
background of many of the boys
563
00:28:46,841 --> 00:28:48,241
that I teach back in London.
564
00:28:49,921 --> 00:28:52,641
- At 35 Bruce
is working in Sylhet,
565
00:28:52,641 --> 00:28:55,481
a town in the north east
corner of Bangladesh.
566
00:28:58,921 --> 00:29:00,961
- Well I'm earning my
keep by teaching maths
567
00:29:00,961 --> 00:29:03,081
and helping the teachers here,
568
00:29:03,081 --> 00:29:04,961
helping them design courses of study.
569
00:29:06,401 --> 00:29:09,681
I'm also teaching them English,
they've all got quite good
570
00:29:09,681 --> 00:29:13,361
English but practising
and improving their English
571
00:29:13,361 --> 00:29:16,321
and then I've also got the
chance to learn a bit of Bangla
572
00:29:16,321 --> 00:29:19,721
which is very difficult and
I'm not doing very well at all.
573
00:29:19,721 --> 00:29:22,881
- Bangladesh,
Bangladesh, Bangladesh.
574
00:29:22,881 --> 00:29:24,121
- Bangladesh.
575
00:29:24,121 --> 00:29:25,081
- Bangladesh.
576
00:29:25,081 --> 00:29:25,921
- Bangladesh.
577
00:29:25,921 --> 00:29:26,761
- Mango.
578
00:29:26,761 --> 00:29:27,961
- Mango.
579
00:29:27,961 --> 00:29:28,801
- Ahm.
580
00:29:28,801 --> 00:29:29,641
- Ahm.
581
00:29:29,641 --> 00:29:36,881
- Vasto, Vastos, vastat,
vastons, vastones, vastat.
582
00:29:37,481 --> 00:29:38,801
- Yeah speak up.
583
00:29:39,881 --> 00:29:42,321
- At 7 Bruce
was at a pre-preparatory
584
00:29:42,321 --> 00:29:47,321
boarding school, at 14 St
Paul's school in London.
585
00:29:48,361 --> 00:29:52,241
- They don't sort of
enforce being upper class
586
00:29:52,241 --> 00:29:55,961
and things like that at St Paul's.
587
00:29:55,961 --> 00:29:58,601
They suggest that you don't have long hair
588
00:29:58,601 --> 00:30:00,241
and they do get it cut if.
589
00:30:02,721 --> 00:30:05,281
They teach you to be
reasonably well mannered
590
00:30:05,281 --> 00:30:08,121
but not to sniff on the poorer people.
591
00:30:09,401 --> 00:30:11,321
- At 21 he was in his
592
00:30:11,321 --> 00:30:13,601
last year at Oxford reading maths.
593
00:30:17,401 --> 00:30:19,361
- You can show that this is irreducible
594
00:30:20,321 --> 00:30:22,841
then you do a transformation
on this polynomial,
595
00:30:22,841 --> 00:30:24,241
x equal to t plus two.
596
00:30:24,241 --> 00:30:27,241
- Good, that's a nice way of
doing it, particularly using
597
00:30:27,241 --> 00:30:29,001
Einstein down here.
598
00:30:29,001 --> 00:30:30,761
His test is very powerful.
599
00:30:30,761 --> 00:30:32,521
- I won't carry on with mathematics,
600
00:30:32,521 --> 00:30:34,361
I don't think I'll be a teacher.
601
00:30:34,361 --> 00:30:35,761
Chris Soarabe.
602
00:30:35,761 --> 00:30:36,601
- Yes sir.
603
00:30:36,601 --> 00:30:38,481
- At 28 he was teaching,
604
00:30:38,481 --> 00:30:40,681
immigrant children in East London.
605
00:30:40,681 --> 00:30:42,721
- And to here, 25.
606
00:30:42,721 --> 00:30:43,881
Now it cost you 24, now
you're not going to.
607
00:30:43,881 --> 00:30:46,081
- It's so different
from your own education
608
00:30:46,081 --> 00:30:48,481
where you're teaching now, why?
609
00:30:48,481 --> 00:30:52,801
- General education is
better for society I think.
610
00:30:52,801 --> 00:30:54,681
Public schools are divisive,
611
00:30:54,681 --> 00:30:56,801
that's with no statement
about my education.
612
00:30:56,801 --> 00:31:00,121
My education was academically excellent
613
00:31:00,121 --> 00:31:02,161
and I was very grateful for it.
614
00:31:02,161 --> 00:31:04,401
I think there is a class society
615
00:31:04,401 --> 00:31:09,401
and I think public schools
may help its continuance.
616
00:31:11,441 --> 00:31:13,121
- At 35 in Sylhet
617
00:31:13,121 --> 00:31:14,921
he is teaching the older students.
618
00:31:15,841 --> 00:31:19,361
- I see education as
a key to it all I mean once
619
00:31:19,361 --> 00:31:23,161
your population becomes
educated it can think for itself
620
00:31:23,161 --> 00:31:25,881
a lot more and create wealth
and create opportunities.
621
00:31:25,881 --> 00:31:29,441
Good, because you've
got to get an x squared.
622
00:31:31,481 --> 00:31:32,601
Now when we come to the village we're
623
00:31:32,601 --> 00:31:34,201
definitely going to go swimming.
624
00:31:34,201 --> 00:31:36,441
- What do you like about Sylhet?
625
00:31:36,441 --> 00:31:39,241
- Well I think mainly the
people and their hospitality.
626
00:31:40,121 --> 00:31:43,961
A couple of weeks ago I
went on a visit to a family
627
00:31:43,961 --> 00:31:46,121
with a teacher from this school.
628
00:31:46,121 --> 00:31:48,441
They lived in a one room
flat but we were immediately
629
00:31:48,441 --> 00:31:51,641
invited in and we sat
around having food with them
630
00:31:51,641 --> 00:31:54,281
and that's what hospitality means.
631
00:31:54,281 --> 00:31:56,801
If I was back in England and I turned up
632
00:31:56,801 --> 00:31:58,481
say at a friends an hour before
633
00:31:58,481 --> 00:32:02,041
lunch with three people
they'd never met they'd say
634
00:32:02,041 --> 00:32:04,001
well lets go down the pub or something.
635
00:32:04,961 --> 00:32:06,601
I didn't agree with the Conservatives
636
00:32:06,601 --> 00:32:09,721
about what they were doing
with the black people,
637
00:32:09,721 --> 00:32:11,321
you know, racial policy.
638
00:32:13,481 --> 00:32:16,441
Everybody has the capacity
to be racist wherever
639
00:32:16,441 --> 00:32:17,801
you are in the world.
640
00:32:17,801 --> 00:32:21,241
I think it's a natural
human condition to be afraid
641
00:32:21,241 --> 00:32:24,641
of something that's slightly
different to you I think
642
00:32:24,641 --> 00:32:25,761
that that's the basis of it.
643
00:32:25,761 --> 00:32:28,401
I mean I know academically it's defined
644
00:32:28,401 --> 00:32:30,441
as prejudice plus power.
645
00:32:30,441 --> 00:32:32,121
When you've got the power to do something
646
00:32:32,121 --> 00:32:36,441
about it you can turn it
into something very damaging
647
00:32:36,441 --> 00:32:38,721
to the person who's receiving it.
648
00:32:38,721 --> 00:32:41,881
I think if you recognise that
as an emotional condition
649
00:32:41,881 --> 00:32:45,121
maybe you can use your
intellect to check yourself.
650
00:32:47,281 --> 00:32:49,601
- Has a country
like this got any future?
651
00:32:50,641 --> 00:32:52,641
- I think it needs an awful lot of help.
652
00:32:52,641 --> 00:32:55,721
The amount of general
poverty I think is growing.
653
00:32:55,721 --> 00:32:58,961
You see so many children
working I mean it used to be
654
00:32:58,961 --> 00:33:02,641
a rich area 200 years ago
and more people would call it
655
00:33:02,641 --> 00:33:04,561
the Pearl of the Bay of Bengal.
656
00:33:04,561 --> 00:33:07,401
People wondered at it
and it's not that now
657
00:33:07,401 --> 00:33:12,401
and that's not unconnected
with the British rule here.
658
00:33:13,001 --> 00:33:16,201
Basically we don't care
that many countries
659
00:33:16,201 --> 00:33:20,241
are incredibly poor, we
simply don't care I mean we do
660
00:33:21,761 --> 00:33:24,881
raise money for charity and
so on, which is excellent,
661
00:33:24,881 --> 00:33:28,841
but it's simply not good
enough at the end of the day.
662
00:33:28,841 --> 00:33:33,841
Well my girlfriend is in
Africa and I don't think
663
00:33:34,601 --> 00:33:37,681
I'll have another chance
of seeing her again.
664
00:33:37,681 --> 00:33:39,521
- Have you got any girlfriends?
665
00:33:39,521 --> 00:33:44,521
- No, no not yet, I'm sure
it will come but not yet.
666
00:33:45,081 --> 00:33:49,201
I mean I do think a lot of
people think too much about it.
667
00:33:50,441 --> 00:33:53,161
- What happened
when you burnt your fingers?
668
00:33:54,241 --> 00:33:59,241
- Erm, I'd rather not talk about it.
669
00:34:01,961 --> 00:34:05,401
Well no, I don't really mean
that I mean I don't mean
670
00:34:05,401 --> 00:34:06,721
that I don't want to talk about it just
671
00:34:06,721 --> 00:34:09,321
that I'd need quite a long
time to think about it.
672
00:34:10,281 --> 00:34:14,001
I think I'd very much
like to become involved
673
00:34:17,401 --> 00:34:18,401
in a family life.
674
00:34:18,401 --> 00:34:19,881
My own family for a start.
675
00:34:19,881 --> 00:34:23,521
It's a need that I feel I ought to fulfil
676
00:34:23,521 --> 00:34:26,281
and would like to fulfil
and would do it well.
677
00:34:26,281 --> 00:34:29,361
Yes I haven't got married
or whatever and I suppose
678
00:34:29,361 --> 00:34:32,281
that would've been something
which I hoped would happen,
679
00:34:34,521 --> 00:34:38,321
you know I suppose lots of reasons really,
680
00:34:38,321 --> 00:34:40,681
I don't suppose I've met the right person.
681
00:34:40,681 --> 00:34:41,681
Well about 10 minutes.
682
00:34:41,681 --> 00:34:43,881
I mean you just read out an article.
683
00:34:43,881 --> 00:34:46,721
I'm still a bit shy and
awkward, still have a bit
684
00:34:46,721 --> 00:34:48,081
of growing up to do sometimes,
685
00:34:48,081 --> 00:34:51,401
I think I'm a little
bit immature sometimes.
686
00:34:51,401 --> 00:34:56,361
I can have quite sort
of teenage like crushes
687
00:34:56,361 --> 00:35:01,361
on people and I can see
myself falling into it
688
00:35:02,801 --> 00:35:04,721
and know exactly whats
happening but sort of unable
689
00:35:04,721 --> 00:35:05,921
to do anything about it.
690
00:35:07,401 --> 00:35:10,881
I've had affairs, sometimes they've ended
691
00:35:10,881 --> 00:35:13,881
quite naturally with
goodwill on both sides.
692
00:35:15,241 --> 00:35:18,041
Maybe I just haven't met the right person.
693
00:35:18,041 --> 00:35:20,561
- Well you're getting
on a bit aren't you worried?
694
00:35:20,561 --> 00:35:23,561
- Well not particularly,
I'm always optimistic.
695
00:35:23,561 --> 00:35:27,281
Who knows who I might
meet tomorrow but I think
696
00:35:27,281 --> 00:35:29,001
that's the trouble with reserve.
697
00:35:29,001 --> 00:35:31,721
You're not rejected but you
never know what might have been.
698
00:35:31,721 --> 00:35:35,041
But I'm getting better
you know, year by year.
699
00:35:35,041 --> 00:35:36,641
I think we all grow up.
700
00:35:38,161 --> 00:35:39,001
- What are the qualities
701
00:35:39,001 --> 00:35:39,841
in a woman that you look for?
702
00:35:41,561 --> 00:35:45,081
- Well, somebody I get on with
I suppose not particularly
703
00:35:50,121 --> 00:35:52,921
attractive or whatever,
I don't want this to turn
704
00:35:52,921 --> 00:35:55,881
into a sort of a dating agency video.
705
00:35:58,201 --> 00:36:03,121
My hearts desire is to see my
Daddy who is 6,000 miles away.
706
00:36:04,321 --> 00:36:06,561
He died about three years ago.
707
00:36:06,561 --> 00:36:08,561
He was 72 I mean we did
708
00:36:08,561 --> 00:36:12,201
drift apart because he
was in Rhodesia, Zimbabwe
709
00:36:12,201 --> 00:36:14,801
as it now is, he did come back to England
710
00:36:14,801 --> 00:36:17,761
and retire and I did used to
go up to Yorkshire and see him.
711
00:36:17,761 --> 00:36:20,921
Not as often as I should've
done, I mean I'm sure
712
00:36:20,921 --> 00:36:23,321
he had a fond feeling
for me and I'd have liked
713
00:36:23,321 --> 00:36:25,001
to have returned that in some way.
714
00:36:26,401 --> 00:36:28,041
- Do you miss him?
715
00:36:28,041 --> 00:36:30,721
- Well I'd like to have
been able to miss him,
716
00:36:30,721 --> 00:36:34,161
I'd like to have got closer
to be able to miss him.
717
00:36:34,161 --> 00:36:37,561
I regret that chance of not
getting closer at that time.
718
00:36:38,481 --> 00:36:42,401
You always need people
to care for you because
719
00:36:42,401 --> 00:36:45,001
if you disappoint yourself by acting badly
720
00:36:45,001 --> 00:36:47,841
in a particular way you
tend most to hurt the people
721
00:36:47,841 --> 00:36:51,481
who love you and where would we be without
722
00:36:51,481 --> 00:36:52,801
having people to love you.
723
00:36:55,241 --> 00:36:57,641
- At 28 Bruce was
living in a council flat
724
00:36:57,641 --> 00:37:00,961
in East London, he's now
in primitive lodgings
725
00:37:00,961 --> 00:37:02,201
in the middle of Sylhet.
726
00:37:05,601 --> 00:37:07,081
- Is money important to you?
727
00:37:07,081 --> 00:37:09,321
- Well not really, I
have enough to live on.
728
00:37:10,601 --> 00:37:13,681
I don't know whether
teachers deserve more money.
729
00:37:13,681 --> 00:37:16,321
My gripe's has never been
about money, it's always been
730
00:37:16,321 --> 00:37:17,921
about horrid conditions of work.
731
00:37:19,241 --> 00:37:22,561
I find it horrible that people
care so much about money.
732
00:37:22,561 --> 00:37:25,601
There are many more finer
things in life than that.
733
00:37:25,601 --> 00:37:27,761
You know, people who bought the shares
734
00:37:27,761 --> 00:37:31,481
in the privatisation issues
just to make quick money.
735
00:37:31,481 --> 00:37:34,721
I just thought well, what
are you about in life?
736
00:37:34,721 --> 00:37:35,801
Is that it?
737
00:37:37,841 --> 00:37:40,121
You know, I didn't want any part in that.
738
00:37:44,961 --> 00:37:47,121
- This film
is about opportunity,
739
00:37:47,121 --> 00:37:50,201
do you think you've made the
most of your opportunities?
740
00:37:50,201 --> 00:37:52,841
- My opportunity was to do what I wanted
741
00:37:52,841 --> 00:37:54,241
and what I found fulfilling.
742
00:37:55,361 --> 00:37:59,561
And I had a great variety
because of my background, yes.
743
00:37:59,561 --> 00:38:01,921
I've made the most of my opportunity
744
00:38:01,921 --> 00:38:03,281
because I've found something to do
745
00:38:03,281 --> 00:38:06,401
that I find rewarding and
that was my opportunity.
746
00:38:19,321 --> 00:38:22,801
I see education as being
very important you know,
747
00:38:22,801 --> 00:38:25,881
which is why I'm distressed by something
748
00:38:25,881 --> 00:38:28,561
which I see in Bangladesh,
the young kids working
749
00:38:28,561 --> 00:38:32,401
so hard they need to bring
the money in for their family.
750
00:38:32,401 --> 00:38:35,801
I'd say education is a
right, the more they learn,
751
00:38:36,681 --> 00:38:38,161
the more choices they have in life.
752
00:38:38,161 --> 00:38:40,641
Life should be a rich experience.
753
00:38:45,041 --> 00:38:48,401
- If we did all love
Geoffrey and we all wanted
754
00:38:48,401 --> 00:38:51,241
to marry him I think I
know the one that he'd
755
00:38:51,241 --> 00:38:54,001
like the best and that's her.
756
00:38:55,761 --> 00:38:57,241
- Plenty of boyfriends but not one.
757
00:38:57,241 --> 00:38:58,841
- Yeah, not one in particular.
758
00:38:58,841 --> 00:39:01,321
Friends with plenty of boys you know.
759
00:39:01,321 --> 00:39:06,241
- We had a teacher at school,
his favourite ploy was
760
00:39:07,641 --> 00:39:10,721
all you girls want to do
is walk out, get married,
761
00:39:10,721 --> 00:39:12,641
have babies and push
a pram down the street
762
00:39:12,641 --> 00:39:14,681
with a fag hanging outside your mouth.
763
00:39:15,881 --> 00:39:19,401
- Women are expanding into
so many different areas now
764
00:39:19,401 --> 00:39:22,601
that it must be getting
easier, I mean I could still
765
00:39:22,601 --> 00:39:25,081
be working now and have
a family if I wanted to.
766
00:39:25,081 --> 00:39:27,961
The number of people in
my situation, single,
767
00:39:27,961 --> 00:39:29,961
not single parents as such but divorced
768
00:39:29,961 --> 00:39:32,641
single parents is unbelievable.
769
00:39:32,641 --> 00:39:34,321
And the people of my mum's generation,
770
00:39:34,321 --> 00:39:37,361
it's still rare, very rare.
771
00:39:37,361 --> 00:39:39,801
- If my mum was to contemplate
leaving my dad was far,
772
00:39:39,801 --> 00:39:42,161
I mean I don't even know
what she would've done.
773
00:39:43,161 --> 00:39:44,841
Because she never dreamed of
working until the youngest one
774
00:39:44,841 --> 00:39:47,401
went to school so I
couldn't I couldn't imagine
775
00:39:47,401 --> 00:39:49,361
where she would've gone
or what she would've done.
776
00:39:49,361 --> 00:39:51,241
- We haven't got that problem.
777
00:39:51,241 --> 00:39:54,241
If a relationship is not working then
778
00:39:55,761 --> 00:39:59,121
it's acceptable in society to bail out.
779
00:40:01,041 --> 00:40:03,961
- Well I know he is hers and he loves her.
780
00:40:04,961 --> 00:40:07,601
- I don't I love him.
781
00:40:07,601 --> 00:40:11,281
- I don't think I'd get married too early,
782
00:40:12,801 --> 00:40:15,561
I'd like to have a full
life first and meet people
783
00:40:15,561 --> 00:40:20,001
before you commit yourself to a family.
784
00:40:20,001 --> 00:40:22,681
- Sue was 24
when she married Billy,
785
00:40:22,681 --> 00:40:24,921
they had two children,
William and Katherine.
786
00:40:25,881 --> 00:40:28,201
- I think that to get married
young there must be things
787
00:40:28,201 --> 00:40:32,361
that you miss, you must
miss that crucial stage
788
00:40:32,361 --> 00:40:35,041
of being yourself, because
the minute you get married
789
00:40:35,041 --> 00:40:37,681
you're no longer a single being,
790
00:40:37,681 --> 00:40:40,641
you're a partnership and that
should be the idea behind it.
791
00:40:42,081 --> 00:40:44,241
Go on then, you go first, turn it over
792
00:40:44,241 --> 00:40:45,481
and put it back in the same place.
793
00:40:45,481 --> 00:40:48,761
Just after we made the
last one I had Katherine
794
00:40:48,761 --> 00:40:52,961
and then she was about a
year and the marriage started
795
00:40:52,961 --> 00:40:56,441
to sort of dissolve around
us really and we decided
796
00:40:56,441 --> 00:40:59,241
to go our separate ways.
797
00:40:59,241 --> 00:41:00,281
I've never sat down
798
00:41:00,281 --> 00:41:05,281
and thought what was it,
was it this was it that.
799
00:41:05,641 --> 00:41:10,641
I just knew it wasn't
working and the discussion
800
00:41:10,641 --> 00:41:15,081
really was the best way of
splitting up rather than
801
00:41:16,081 --> 00:41:17,241
why are we splitting up?
802
00:41:17,241 --> 00:41:21,961
It was really strange, I
think it seemed so obvious
803
00:41:21,961 --> 00:41:25,481
to both of us that it was probably easier
804
00:41:25,481 --> 00:41:26,961
to do than it should've been.
805
00:41:28,561 --> 00:41:32,561
I have a regular one night
a week when I can go out.
806
00:41:35,961 --> 00:41:39,921
It just happens to be that in
this particular circle most
807
00:41:39,921 --> 00:41:43,001
of them are separated or divorced.
808
00:41:44,841 --> 00:41:48,201
You have common problems
so sometimes it's easier
809
00:41:48,201 --> 00:41:51,281
because you recognise each
others problems with babysitters.
810
00:41:51,281 --> 00:41:53,521
You know it's not always possible
811
00:41:53,521 --> 00:41:55,041
to drop everything and go out.
812
00:41:56,521 --> 00:41:58,641
I think that women want
more out of life now,
813
00:41:58,641 --> 00:42:00,601
that is basically why they won't put up
814
00:42:00,601 --> 00:42:03,521
with a less than happy marriage.
815
00:42:03,521 --> 00:42:06,561
- Are you ready
for a long term relationship?
816
00:42:06,561 --> 00:42:09,721
- I don't think you're ever ready
817
00:42:09,721 --> 00:42:11,801
for a long term relationship
either it happens to you
818
00:42:11,801 --> 00:42:13,961
or it doesn't really.
819
00:42:13,961 --> 00:42:16,281
I certainly wouldn't kick one
820
00:42:16,281 --> 00:42:21,281
in the teeth if it crept
up on me, yeah, why not?
821
00:42:22,121 --> 00:42:23,241
- Did you meet enough men
822
00:42:23,241 --> 00:42:25,641
before you decided who to marry?
823
00:42:25,641 --> 00:42:28,801
- I've been married a year
and a couple of months.
824
00:42:30,361 --> 00:42:32,561
And you do think Christ what have I done?
825
00:42:34,801 --> 00:42:36,241
- See I still got my kids.
826
00:42:36,241 --> 00:42:37,761
- And I'm being honest about it.
827
00:42:38,961 --> 00:42:40,241
And Russ thinks the same.
828
00:42:40,241 --> 00:42:43,001
At times you think
Christ what have I done?
829
00:42:44,761 --> 00:42:46,961
- Lynn married Russ at 19,
830
00:42:46,961 --> 00:42:48,761
he works for the Post Office.
831
00:42:48,761 --> 00:42:51,001
They have two daughters, Sarah and Emma.
832
00:42:52,081 --> 00:42:56,521
- I'm very much geared to the
family unit, I mean us all.
833
00:42:57,601 --> 00:43:01,081
We do things together all the time.
834
00:43:02,561 --> 00:43:04,561
I mean there are times
when Russ and I obviously
835
00:43:04,561 --> 00:43:07,201
we like to leave it all behind
836
00:43:07,201 --> 00:43:09,841
and go out just the two of us.
837
00:43:09,841 --> 00:43:11,841
Now as the girls are
getting older we've actually
838
00:43:11,841 --> 00:43:13,241
started taking them with us.
839
00:43:14,561 --> 00:43:16,281
I'll say, oh we haven't done very much
840
00:43:16,281 --> 00:43:17,841
but when you look back we have.
841
00:43:19,081 --> 00:43:21,841
It might only just be playing
games or going swimming
842
00:43:21,841 --> 00:43:25,561
or going for a walk
we're doing it together.
843
00:43:25,561 --> 00:43:27,721
- If you think that getting married
844
00:43:27,721 --> 00:43:28,721
as far as we're concerned
845
00:43:28,721 --> 00:43:30,361
is a case of going to work, coming home,
846
00:43:30,361 --> 00:43:32,801
cook tea for hubby,
going to bed, getting up,
847
00:43:32,801 --> 00:43:35,041
going to work you're totally mistaken.
848
00:43:35,961 --> 00:43:38,321
- Jackie married
Mick when she was 19.
849
00:43:40,281 --> 00:43:42,081
- I'm not sure I would recommend it.
850
00:43:43,081 --> 00:43:47,561
I think if but again you're generalising,
851
00:43:47,561 --> 00:43:52,041
I would say on average
19 is probably too young.
852
00:43:53,481 --> 00:43:57,481
We decided ourselves, I mean
just between the two of us,
853
00:43:57,481 --> 00:44:01,881
we knew it wasn't going
any further we both knew
854
00:44:01,881 --> 00:44:04,201
I think at the end of the
day we would be happier
855
00:44:04,201 --> 00:44:05,641
leading our own lives.
856
00:44:05,641 --> 00:44:09,481
Whether that involved other
people, you know was to be seen.
857
00:44:09,481 --> 00:44:13,921
But no, you've got to bear
in mind we had no children
858
00:44:13,921 --> 00:44:17,281
to worry about so really the only people
859
00:44:17,281 --> 00:44:19,081
that were getting hurt by us was us.
860
00:44:20,001 --> 00:44:23,921
- If I could have 2 girls and 2 boys.
861
00:44:25,201 --> 00:44:26,961
- And what about you Jackie?
862
00:44:26,961 --> 00:44:30,041
- My mom, cause she got five girls she has
863
00:44:30,961 --> 00:44:32,641
seven years bad luck,
864
00:44:32,641 --> 00:44:35,041
that's why she's got five girls.
865
00:44:35,041 --> 00:44:38,401
I'd like to be able to
have a happy family,
866
00:44:39,441 --> 00:44:42,401
I mean I know it's not possible
to be happy all the time
867
00:44:42,401 --> 00:44:44,521
but as much of the time that was possible.
868
00:44:45,561 --> 00:44:48,961
Go through there, that's
the nursery, hah hah.
869
00:44:48,961 --> 00:44:50,001
- Got any plans?
870
00:44:50,001 --> 00:44:50,841
- Do me a favour?
871
00:44:50,841 --> 00:44:53,801
- At 21 Jackie
had moved into a new house.
872
00:44:53,801 --> 00:44:57,481
By the time she was 28 she had
decided not to have children.
873
00:44:57,481 --> 00:45:00,121
- Basically I would say
because I'm far too selfish
874
00:45:01,401 --> 00:45:04,841
and I enjoy doing what I want
when I want and how I want
875
00:45:04,841 --> 00:45:09,841
and certainly at the moment I
can't see any way around that.
876
00:45:12,561 --> 00:45:15,841
That's not to say that's
a forever decision.
877
00:45:20,161 --> 00:45:22,961
This one on, here we go, oh yeah, yes.
878
00:45:25,121 --> 00:45:27,401
I had a brief but very sweet relationship,
879
00:45:27,401 --> 00:45:29,081
the result of which was Charlie.
880
00:45:29,081 --> 00:45:31,241
Cor blimey, Charlie, you're
supposed to clean your teeth,
881
00:45:31,241 --> 00:45:32,321
not eating the brush.
882
00:45:32,321 --> 00:45:34,601
It's the best thing that
could've happened to me
883
00:45:34,601 --> 00:45:37,441
and I would never have believed I could've
884
00:45:37,441 --> 00:45:39,961
enjoyed a child as much as I enjoy him.
885
00:45:39,961 --> 00:45:43,161
I actually sat down and sort of thought
886
00:45:43,161 --> 00:45:47,561
about should I have him or not.
887
00:45:47,561 --> 00:45:51,161
I thought about what I was
going to do if I did have him.
888
00:45:51,161 --> 00:45:52,801
How I was going to keep him.
889
00:45:54,241 --> 00:45:57,001
But it comes back to the
same old story, the family.
890
00:46:02,241 --> 00:46:06,281
My fathers only comment to
me was it is your decision,
891
00:46:06,281 --> 00:46:08,961
you tell me what you want to do
892
00:46:08,961 --> 00:46:11,321
and then we'll take it from there.
893
00:46:11,321 --> 00:46:13,281
And they've totally rallied around me.
894
00:46:14,161 --> 00:46:16,721
Anybody that wanted to know
just got told I was pregnant
895
00:46:16,721 --> 00:46:18,961
I wasn't with the father, end of story.
896
00:46:20,281 --> 00:46:22,001
People that know me know the full story
897
00:46:22,001 --> 00:46:23,321
and that's all that matters to me.
898
00:46:23,321 --> 00:46:25,721
And Charlie will know when he gets older.
899
00:46:26,961 --> 00:46:29,441
- When I got married
the primary reason was
900
00:46:29,441 --> 00:46:32,041
because I wanted to have a child,
901
00:46:32,041 --> 00:46:33,921
the two to me went together.
902
00:46:35,881 --> 00:46:37,721
- Why did you have a child out
903
00:46:37,721 --> 00:46:39,321
of a marriage that wasn't working?
904
00:46:39,321 --> 00:46:42,481
- Because I wanted
to have more than one child
905
00:46:42,481 --> 00:46:44,961
and it was a thing about
being an only child myself.
906
00:46:44,961 --> 00:46:48,761
I was always jealous of other
children that had brothers
907
00:46:48,761 --> 00:46:51,561
and sisters when I was
growing up and I didn't want
908
00:46:51,561 --> 00:46:54,801
to have more than one child
with two different fathers.
909
00:46:54,801 --> 00:46:57,201
I think that brother and
sister should have the
910
00:46:57,201 --> 00:46:59,761
same mother and the same
father, that is my ideal.
911
00:47:02,641 --> 00:47:05,041
I would hate to think it
was tough on the kids.
912
00:47:06,761 --> 00:47:10,081
William used to say why isn't
daddy living here any more
913
00:47:10,081 --> 00:47:12,641
and I would say to him,
well you know how you
914
00:47:12,641 --> 00:47:17,081
and Katherine argue and
get on each others nerves,
915
00:47:17,081 --> 00:47:20,481
well that's how daddy
and I are we just find
916
00:47:20,481 --> 00:47:24,321
that we're happier if were
not living in the same house.
917
00:47:24,321 --> 00:47:26,481
- I'm going to work in Woolworths.
918
00:47:27,561 --> 00:47:30,961
- At 21 Lynn was
working in a mobile library
919
00:47:30,961 --> 00:47:32,801
in Tower Hamlets in East London.
920
00:47:34,401 --> 00:47:37,001
- I've not stamped yours, Sleeping Beauty.
921
00:47:38,161 --> 00:47:42,081
Teaching children the beauty of books
922
00:47:42,081 --> 00:47:45,441
and watching their faces as books unfold
923
00:47:45,441 --> 00:47:48,081
to them is just fantastic.
924
00:47:48,081 --> 00:47:49,601
To work with children
of that age you've got
925
00:47:49,601 --> 00:47:51,521
to love them and I love children.
926
00:47:52,601 --> 00:47:55,241
The last 10 years of
government have actually
927
00:47:57,281 --> 00:47:59,321
in my opinion brought this country
928
00:47:59,321 --> 00:48:01,401
much much further downhill.
929
00:48:02,721 --> 00:48:05,721
We have lost an awful lot of
our National Health Service,
930
00:48:06,641 --> 00:48:09,321
an awful lot of our education system.
931
00:48:09,321 --> 00:48:13,001
I'm actually on the
governing body of two schools
932
00:48:14,201 --> 00:48:15,881
and I want the best for those kids
933
00:48:19,081 --> 00:48:21,081
that the system can provide.
934
00:48:21,921 --> 00:48:22,841
And if the systems not good enough,
935
00:48:22,841 --> 00:48:24,921
then we better the system.
936
00:48:24,921 --> 00:48:26,601
What would you do if
you had lots of money,
937
00:48:26,601 --> 00:48:29,081
about two pounds?
938
00:48:30,081 --> 00:48:33,161
- I would buy myself a house a new house,
939
00:48:33,161 --> 00:48:37,321
you know, one that's all nice and comfy.
940
00:48:37,321 --> 00:48:39,121
- Do you get
depressed by money problems?
941
00:48:39,961 --> 00:48:41,961
- No, why, why should you?
942
00:48:43,201 --> 00:48:44,721
If you can manage on what you've got.
943
00:48:44,721 --> 00:48:45,561
- It's easy to get
depressed over money.
944
00:48:45,561 --> 00:48:48,721
- It's so easy to but why should you?
945
00:48:48,721 --> 00:48:51,401
- When we've reached the
18th day of the month
946
00:48:51,401 --> 00:48:52,881
and my mortgage is due on the 20th
947
00:48:52,881 --> 00:48:54,481
and there's nowhere near
enough money in there
948
00:48:54,481 --> 00:48:56,321
I get depressed about it obviously.
949
00:48:57,241 --> 00:48:58,041
What money?
950
00:48:59,241 --> 00:49:01,601
- It was hard first of
all when I gave up work
951
00:49:01,601 --> 00:49:06,601
from having a fairly high
salary to nothing was hard but
952
00:49:08,481 --> 00:49:11,081
you get used to whatever
your circumstances are,
953
00:49:12,001 --> 00:49:13,641
you live in them, you get used to them
954
00:49:13,641 --> 00:49:15,641
and you cope, everybody does.
955
00:49:16,961 --> 00:49:20,041
- Sue now works
part-time for a Building Society.
956
00:49:20,961 --> 00:49:22,361
- Everything's
changed for me cause I'm now
957
00:49:22,361 --> 00:49:26,681
supporting myself a lot
more than I was a year ago.
958
00:49:26,681 --> 00:49:27,521
- How did you feel
959
00:49:27,521 --> 00:49:29,361
about living off Social Security?
960
00:49:29,361 --> 00:49:31,161
- I hated it, really hated it.
961
00:49:31,161 --> 00:49:33,321
Perhaps it's old fashioned values, I mean,
962
00:49:33,321 --> 00:49:36,041
Mom and Dad have certainly
never been in that situation
963
00:49:36,041 --> 00:49:38,481
but then my mom and dad have
never been single parents
964
00:49:38,481 --> 00:49:41,401
either so you have to do what's
965
00:49:41,401 --> 00:49:43,361
best for you and the children.
966
00:49:43,361 --> 00:49:44,561
- Thanks very much.
967
00:49:44,561 --> 00:49:45,801
- Bye.
- Bye.
968
00:49:47,561 --> 00:49:50,001
- I took a year off when I had Charlie
969
00:49:50,001 --> 00:49:52,561
and the state kept me for that year
970
00:49:52,561 --> 00:49:55,081
but I went back to work and although
971
00:49:55,081 --> 00:49:58,241
to be honest at the time I
pay everything out I'm not
972
00:49:58,241 --> 00:50:00,201
that much better off but I feel better.
973
00:50:01,321 --> 00:50:03,881
You take it from there,
can I get through this week
974
00:50:03,881 --> 00:50:05,601
or can I get through this month?
975
00:50:05,601 --> 00:50:08,081
Can I get Charlie the things he needs?
976
00:50:08,081 --> 00:50:10,481
Somewhere along the line
you get the money you need
977
00:50:10,481 --> 00:50:15,321
for whatever you need and as
it goes at the moment we're
978
00:50:15,321 --> 00:50:18,321
working and were trying to keep
our families as best we can.
979
00:50:23,761 --> 00:50:26,121
♪If I said that I love you. ♪
980
00:50:26,121 --> 00:50:27,321
- Why is it that you three
981
00:50:27,321 --> 00:50:29,041
haven't changed so much do you think?
982
00:50:29,041 --> 00:50:31,721
- Perhaps we haven't grown up.
983
00:50:31,721 --> 00:50:34,081
- We've all had a stable background
984
00:50:34,081 --> 00:50:36,561
with stable relationships
all the way through.
985
00:50:38,481 --> 00:50:41,401
- The same people are there
now that were there then.
986
00:50:41,401 --> 00:50:42,681
- She initially went into hospital
987
00:50:42,681 --> 00:50:46,121
for an exploratory operation,
they found out she had
988
00:50:46,121 --> 00:50:50,081
cancer although at that stage
we didn't know how bad it was.
989
00:50:51,961 --> 00:50:56,521
She was ill at the time,
they started chemotherapy
990
00:50:57,601 --> 00:51:02,601
and radiation treatment
and she was just so bad.
991
00:51:03,801 --> 00:51:06,481
Mom badly wanted to
come back to the family
992
00:51:06,481 --> 00:51:08,241
and the family needed her here.
993
00:51:10,321 --> 00:51:13,761
She then spent nine months of hell
994
00:51:14,881 --> 00:51:16,721
I wouldn't have wished on anybody.
995
00:51:21,401 --> 00:51:26,401
- She sat down on the settee
and she died, just like that.
996
00:51:27,961 --> 00:51:30,681
And we were up in Norfolk
with my in-laws at the time.
997
00:51:31,881 --> 00:51:35,201
And so all we got was
a phone call from Dad
998
00:51:35,201 --> 00:51:38,521
to say that mom had died.
999
00:51:41,161 --> 00:51:42,761
- And how did you deal with it?
1000
00:51:42,761 --> 00:51:44,361
- I'm still dealing with it now.
1001
00:51:55,561 --> 00:51:58,241
But then although she's
not with us in body
1002
00:51:58,241 --> 00:51:59,721
she's still with us in spirit.
1003
00:52:04,841 --> 00:52:07,321
She was a great friend
to me as well as a mom,
1004
00:52:07,321 --> 00:52:09,321
probably the best friend I'll ever have.
1005
00:52:11,321 --> 00:52:12,561
And as you see it still makes me
1006
00:52:12,561 --> 00:52:15,241
very emotional now, it's only 2 years.
1007
00:52:17,281 --> 00:52:19,841
To some it's probably
seems oh it's a long time
1008
00:52:21,401 --> 00:52:23,321
but it's not very long.
1009
00:52:24,561 --> 00:52:26,881
- The poor, if you don't help them
1010
00:52:27,081 --> 00:52:29,961
they probably die soon wouldn't they.
1011
00:52:30,001 --> 00:52:30,801
- Some people are just born into
1012
00:52:30,801 --> 00:52:32,401
rich families and they're lucky.
1013
00:52:33,361 --> 00:52:34,921
- I don't see why they should
have the luck when people
1014
00:52:34,921 --> 00:52:37,641
have worked all their lives
and haven't got half as much
1015
00:52:37,641 --> 00:52:39,041
as what they have.
1016
00:52:39,041 --> 00:52:40,481
It just don't seem fair.
1017
00:52:40,481 --> 00:52:43,601
We only had a limited choice
any way, truth be told.
1018
00:52:43,601 --> 00:52:46,601
We didn't have the choice of education
1019
00:52:46,601 --> 00:52:48,801
because they couldn't have
afforded it anyway so we
1020
00:52:48,801 --> 00:52:50,881
just went to the school we wanted to go to
1021
00:52:50,881 --> 00:52:52,881
and we made the best of
it when we were there.
1022
00:52:52,881 --> 00:52:55,841
That is something perhaps
when it comes to our children
1023
00:52:55,841 --> 00:52:58,241
that we would say why not go further?
1024
00:52:58,241 --> 00:53:01,241
- All I am interested in
and probably the same as
1025
00:53:01,241 --> 00:53:03,921
the other two is what is good for me,
1026
00:53:03,921 --> 00:53:06,761
what is good for my son and that's it.
1027
00:53:08,761 --> 00:53:12,001
I don't sit there envying maybe
what Suzi could do for her
1028
00:53:12,001 --> 00:53:13,521
children that I can't do for mine.
1029
00:53:13,521 --> 00:53:17,881
Yes, I'd love the money to
be able to put him all round
1030
00:53:17,881 --> 00:53:19,961
the world, I'd love to be able to do that
1031
00:53:19,961 --> 00:53:21,081
but I haven't got it.
1032
00:53:21,081 --> 00:53:24,321
And at the end of the day
I'm going to do what I can.
1033
00:53:26,201 --> 00:53:28,081
At this precise moment
in time is probably one
1034
00:53:28,081 --> 00:53:30,641
of the best times of my life.
1035
00:53:30,641 --> 00:53:33,081
Come here, come and put your top on.
1036
00:53:33,081 --> 00:53:35,401
I think probably because I've got Charlie,
1037
00:53:35,401 --> 00:53:38,921
he's totally transformed
my life a lot of the times
1038
00:53:38,921 --> 00:53:41,841
I obviously pull my hair out
but certainly for the better.
1039
00:53:42,801 --> 00:53:44,961
So yes, I'm a lot happier within myself.
1040
00:53:46,041 --> 00:53:47,961
People around me have noticed that.
1041
00:53:47,961 --> 00:53:49,321
So it's a good time for me.
1042
00:53:50,561 --> 00:53:52,001
Give us a cuddle.
1043
00:53:52,001 --> 00:53:54,481
I don't really want Charlie to be an only,
1044
00:53:54,481 --> 00:53:56,681
I'd love him to have brothers and sisters,
1045
00:53:56,681 --> 00:53:58,161
but not necessarily loads of them,
1046
00:53:58,161 --> 00:54:00,721
just one would do actually.
1047
00:54:02,121 --> 00:54:03,601
I think Charlie would like that as well.
1048
00:54:04,721 --> 00:54:05,841
I think Charlie would love it.
1049
00:54:08,001 --> 00:54:10,761
- A year ago Lynn
started having black outs,
1050
00:54:10,761 --> 00:54:12,721
she took medical advice.
1051
00:54:12,721 --> 00:54:15,801
- They stuck all these tubes up inside me
1052
00:54:15,801 --> 00:54:18,001
and discovered that I'd
got these veins here
1053
00:54:19,561 --> 00:54:20,761
that shouldn't be there.
1054
00:54:21,721 --> 00:54:22,521
- In your brain?
1055
00:54:22,521 --> 00:54:23,361
- Mm-hmm.
1056
00:54:24,241 --> 00:54:25,961
- And what can they do about it?
1057
00:54:25,961 --> 00:54:27,561
- Not a lot at the moment.
1058
00:54:27,561 --> 00:54:29,681
They're investigating other...
1059
00:54:32,361 --> 00:54:34,801
treatments but the surgeon
1060
00:54:34,961 --> 00:54:39,961
said that he doesn't want
to operate at the moment
1061
00:54:39,961 --> 00:54:42,881
because the risk it's
too near the optic nerve
1062
00:54:42,881 --> 00:54:45,521
and there's an 80% chance
of hitting the optic nerve.
1063
00:54:47,281 --> 00:54:48,401
- So is it frightening to know
1064
00:54:48,401 --> 00:54:49,881
that you have this condition?
1065
00:54:49,881 --> 00:54:54,081
- It was for about
a week but it got itself
1066
00:54:54,081 --> 00:54:58,961
into its own place within
my system where sort of
1067
00:54:58,961 --> 00:55:02,481
amongst my rungs of priorities
1068
00:55:03,441 --> 00:55:05,401
and I overcame the fear of it,
1069
00:55:05,401 --> 00:55:06,961
now it doesn't worry me at all.
1070
00:55:09,921 --> 00:55:12,201
- We've all got
little secret dreams.
1071
00:55:12,201 --> 00:55:17,041
I mean I loved drama at
school, I loved to sing,
1072
00:55:17,041 --> 00:55:18,401
along with millions of others,
1073
00:55:18,401 --> 00:55:21,401
so I would like to have
carried that further.
1074
00:55:21,401 --> 00:55:23,841
It was discussed at one
stage, you know going
1075
00:55:23,841 --> 00:55:27,361
to drama school and
pursuing it but I really
1076
00:55:27,361 --> 00:55:29,361
at the time didn't have the bottle.
1077
00:55:29,361 --> 00:55:34,361
Didn't want to give up work
and income as a young person.
1078
00:55:34,881 --> 00:55:37,481
I was quite enjoying myself.
1079
00:55:37,481 --> 00:55:40,921
Didn't want to risk all
that to follow the dream.
1080
00:55:44,081 --> 00:55:45,961
- So are these good times Sue?
1081
00:55:45,961 --> 00:55:48,241
- Not particularly no.
1082
00:55:48,241 --> 00:55:50,561
I've got two lovely children now
1083
00:55:50,561 --> 00:55:51,561
but it's just another
crossroads for me now.
1084
00:55:51,561 --> 00:55:52,681
I don't know which way I'm going to go,
1085
00:55:52,681 --> 00:55:53,801
whats going to happen.
1086
00:55:54,801 --> 00:55:57,721
I'm on my own basically,
I'm starting again.
1087
00:55:59,401 --> 00:56:00,281
- Are you changing?
1088
00:56:00,281 --> 00:56:01,801
- I'm just growing up.
1089
00:56:02,681 --> 00:56:05,041
I don't think you ever stop
growing up the circumstances
1090
00:56:05,041 --> 00:56:07,721
are changing so I'm just adapting.
1091
00:56:11,801 --> 00:56:15,641
- When I grow up I'd like to find out all
1092
00:56:15,641 --> 00:56:18,321
about the moon and all that.
1093
00:56:18,321 --> 00:56:21,401
- At 7 Nick
a farmers son was at a
1094
00:56:21,401 --> 00:56:24,081
one room village school
in the Yorkshire Dales.
1095
00:56:26,241 --> 00:56:28,441
- I said I was interested in
physics and chemistry well
1096
00:56:28,441 --> 00:56:29,881
I'm not going to do that here.
1097
00:56:29,881 --> 00:56:31,801
- At 14 he
was going to a Yorkshire
1098
00:56:31,801 --> 00:56:35,961
boarding school and at 21 was
reading physics at Oxford.
1099
00:56:35,961 --> 00:56:38,121
So what career are you going to pursue?
1100
00:56:38,121 --> 00:56:40,281
- It depends whether
I'll be good enough to do
1101
00:56:40,281 --> 00:56:41,841
what I really want to do.
1102
00:56:43,241 --> 00:56:47,721
I would like if I can to do research.
1103
00:56:47,721 --> 00:56:50,481
The gap in these
experiments is a temperature
1104
00:56:50,481 --> 00:56:52,121
comparable with that of the sun whereas
1105
00:56:52,121 --> 00:56:54,361
in a power reactor it
would be maybe 10 times
1106
00:56:54,361 --> 00:56:55,681
the temperature of the sun.
1107
00:56:55,681 --> 00:56:58,241
- At 28 he had moved to America
1108
00:56:58,241 --> 00:56:59,681
and was doing nuclear research
1109
00:56:59,681 --> 00:57:01,441
at the University of Wisconsin.
1110
00:57:01,441 --> 00:57:02,721
So how's it going Rich,
1111
00:57:02,721 --> 00:57:04,321
tell me about the current drive.
1112
00:57:06,841 --> 00:57:08,961
Ok so your all looking
at this thing expectantly
1113
00:57:08,961 --> 00:57:11,161
so maybe I'd better
say something about it.
1114
00:57:11,161 --> 00:57:14,401
The first one is basically
saying that the rate of change
1115
00:57:14,401 --> 00:57:18,241
of crystal momentum, it's
DDT at this quantity H bar K.
1116
00:57:19,481 --> 00:57:22,001
That is equal to Laurent's Force.
1117
00:57:22,001 --> 00:57:23,001
- He is now an associate
1118
00:57:23,001 --> 00:57:24,641
professor at the University.
1119
00:57:26,681 --> 00:57:28,241
Is Madison a friendly place?
1120
00:57:28,241 --> 00:57:29,641
- Yes very friendly.
1121
00:57:29,641 --> 00:57:33,321
It's a fairly small little
community and you get deer
1122
00:57:33,321 --> 00:57:35,841
and things running through
here so it's kinda nice.
1123
00:57:36,761 --> 00:57:39,241
You know you notice if
you walk into a shop here
1124
00:57:39,241 --> 00:57:40,881
or a store as they would call it,
1125
00:57:40,881 --> 00:57:43,841
people are much more polite to
you than they are in England.
1126
00:57:43,841 --> 00:57:46,641
And it's not in a it's not just a matter
1127
00:57:46,641 --> 00:57:49,721
of being obsequious, they just try
1128
00:57:49,721 --> 00:57:52,001
and be reasonably
friendly and smile at you.
1129
00:57:52,001 --> 00:57:53,601
- Do you have a girlfriend?
1130
00:57:57,801 --> 00:58:00,561
- I don't want to answer that,
1131
00:58:00,561 --> 00:58:04,801
I don't answer those kind of questions.
1132
00:58:06,641 --> 00:58:09,041
I thought that one would
come up because when I was,
1133
00:58:09,921 --> 00:58:11,921
when I was doing the
other one somebody said
1134
00:58:11,921 --> 00:58:13,321
what do you think about girls
1135
00:58:13,321 --> 00:58:15,001
and I said I don't answer
questions like that.
1136
00:58:15,001 --> 00:58:16,801
Is that the reason you're asking it?
1137
00:58:17,801 --> 00:58:19,321
Yeah I thought so.
1138
00:58:22,801 --> 00:58:24,401
The best answer would be to say
1139
00:58:24,401 --> 00:58:26,361
that I don't answer questions like that
1140
00:58:28,001 --> 00:58:30,281
but you know it's what
I said when I was seven
1141
00:58:30,281 --> 00:58:31,201
and it's still the most sensible
1142
00:58:31,201 --> 00:58:34,081
but I mean, what about them.
1143
00:58:34,081 --> 00:58:36,801
- Nick was only 17 when I first met him
1144
00:58:36,801 --> 00:58:39,641
and I knew he was a nice person.
1145
00:58:39,641 --> 00:58:44,641
I find him very attractive
and he used his intelligence
1146
00:58:45,441 --> 00:58:48,361
in his relationship with
me which is very important.
1147
00:58:48,361 --> 00:58:53,361
- She felt that she wasn't
portrayed at all like she is
1148
00:58:53,881 --> 00:58:57,001
and that she felt foolish
as a result of it all.
1149
00:58:57,881 --> 00:59:01,281
She was really taken by
surprise by how she came over
1150
00:59:01,281 --> 00:59:06,281
and she really wasn't sure
why she came over that way
1151
00:59:06,921 --> 00:59:10,561
but she was very unhappy
with everybody involved
1152
00:59:10,561 --> 00:59:14,721
and so didn't want to be
in that position again.
1153
00:59:14,721 --> 00:59:15,881
- Is she difficult?
1154
00:59:15,881 --> 00:59:17,561
- At times yes.
1155
00:59:17,561 --> 00:59:19,521
Whenever we have an argument
she does have a tendency
1156
00:59:19,521 --> 00:59:23,601
to explode I suppose to get,
no to get really miserable.
1157
00:59:25,641 --> 00:59:29,561
- We've only been married 4
years, anything could happen,
1158
00:59:29,561 --> 00:59:30,841
we could easily drift apart,
1159
00:59:30,841 --> 00:59:34,361
there are so many pressures
on people you just.
1160
00:59:34,361 --> 00:59:35,721
- People saw the last film
1161
00:59:35,721 --> 00:59:38,201
and thought this marriage
isn't going to work,
1162
00:59:38,201 --> 00:59:39,841
this marriage isn't going to last,
1163
00:59:39,841 --> 00:59:42,081
did you get that response?
1164
00:59:42,081 --> 00:59:44,561
- Well, it's actually such a mystery to me
1165
00:59:44,561 --> 00:59:46,401
what they thought they were talking about
1166
00:59:46,401 --> 00:59:48,881
that I really just don't
relate to it at all.
1167
00:59:48,881 --> 00:59:50,961
I have no, I just don't
why they said that,
1168
00:59:50,961 --> 00:59:55,961
I mean the sorts of things
you were seeing was us trying
1169
00:59:56,641 --> 00:59:59,441
to be very honest about it.
1170
00:59:59,441 --> 01:00:01,561
That may have been the place
1171
01:00:01,561 --> 01:00:04,601
in 28 where we probably
were working hardest
1172
01:00:04,601 --> 01:00:07,201
about really describing what
things were like instead of
1173
01:00:07,201 --> 01:00:11,281
I was just saying I
sometimes just am very dull
1174
01:00:11,281 --> 01:00:14,401
and neutral and show too much of myself.
1175
01:00:14,401 --> 01:00:16,641
Well in that I think we were
just trying to be really
1176
01:00:16,641 --> 01:00:19,721
upfront and say this is what
it's like and we're working
1177
01:00:19,721 --> 01:00:22,441
very hard at it and
hopefully it'll work out.
1178
01:00:23,521 --> 01:00:27,721
If that sounds to somebody
like it's in jeopardy
1179
01:00:27,721 --> 01:00:30,801
well that's their problem.
1180
01:00:32,121 --> 01:00:34,121
- The big issue
for us at the moment
1181
01:00:34,121 --> 01:00:39,121
is how were going to manage to
have kids and run 2 careers.
1182
01:00:39,441 --> 01:00:40,641
- In those early formative years
1183
01:00:40,641 --> 01:00:41,481
would you be happy
1184
01:00:41,481 --> 01:00:44,041
for your children to
be brought up by Jackie
1185
01:00:44,041 --> 01:00:46,921
and Jackie not to be able to
give them the full attention?
1186
01:00:46,921 --> 01:00:48,441
- Well it's not I mean that's putting it
1187
01:00:48,441 --> 01:00:49,841
in a rather strange way,
- That's him, he's bringing
1188
01:00:49,841 --> 01:00:50,721
them up too you know.
- I mean this is an area,
1189
01:00:50,721 --> 01:00:52,321
- It's not just me.
1190
01:00:53,241 --> 01:00:55,881
- I pay lip service to the
idea of equal shares on this
1191
01:00:55,881 --> 01:00:57,401
and it remains to be seen whether I would
1192
01:00:57,401 --> 01:00:59,161
actually live up to my intentions.
1193
01:00:59,161 --> 01:01:00,721
- There are several things
I think to be said here,
1194
01:01:00,721 --> 01:01:03,521
I don't want to be the
person to be left behind
1195
01:01:03,521 --> 01:01:06,881
while Nick flies in and
shares an adult life
1196
01:01:06,881 --> 01:01:09,441
with his children at college and working.
1197
01:01:09,441 --> 01:01:11,441
I want to be there too.
1198
01:01:13,041 --> 01:01:16,081
- Nick and Jackie
now have a 1 year old son Adam.
1199
01:01:16,081 --> 01:01:20,401
- On the subject of
Adam, I enjoy doing this
1200
01:01:20,401 --> 01:01:22,761
for the most part but I don't
want the sins of the father
1201
01:01:22,761 --> 01:01:25,881
to be visited on the son in
this case so we've sort of
1202
01:01:25,881 --> 01:01:28,841
decided that we want
to keep him out of this
1203
01:01:28,841 --> 01:01:31,001
to some extent, well to some extent
1204
01:01:31,001 --> 01:01:33,121
essentially all together.
1205
01:01:33,121 --> 01:01:36,961
When I grow up I'd like to find out all
1206
01:01:36,961 --> 01:01:39,641
about the moon and all that.
1207
01:01:39,641 --> 01:01:41,961
- Where did you
get all this brain power?
1208
01:01:42,921 --> 01:01:45,801
- All this brain power, I don't know.
1209
01:01:45,801 --> 01:01:48,041
This is one that we were quite proud of,
1210
01:01:48,041 --> 01:01:50,881
glow discharges between
a couple of metal plates
1211
01:01:50,881 --> 01:01:53,121
where there's an ionised gas in between.
1212
01:01:53,121 --> 01:01:55,721
I suppose I'm very
ambitious in terms of trying
1213
01:01:55,721 --> 01:01:59,001
to get my research to go forward.
1214
01:01:59,001 --> 01:02:02,121
I'm also trying to train students so that
1215
01:02:02,121 --> 01:02:04,201
they can actually acquire
some useful skills
1216
01:02:04,201 --> 01:02:07,001
and can go out and just be
really useful contributors
1217
01:02:07,001 --> 01:02:09,841
themselves and push back the frontiers of
1218
01:02:09,841 --> 01:02:11,321
what we're capable of doing.
1219
01:02:12,401 --> 01:02:15,161
They'd like to come out for a holiday
1220
01:02:15,161 --> 01:02:17,241
in the country when we'd like,
1221
01:02:17,241 --> 01:02:19,841
when I'd like to have
a holiday in the town.
1222
01:02:20,841 --> 01:02:22,521
I've been to Leeds a couple of times
1223
01:02:22,521 --> 01:02:25,841
and haven't been to Manchester.
1224
01:02:30,601 --> 01:02:33,241
I went to London with the other programme,
1225
01:02:34,641 --> 01:02:35,601
when you did the first programme,
1226
01:02:35,601 --> 01:02:37,881
but that's the only time I've been.
1227
01:02:37,881 --> 01:02:42,281
In my position I don't feel
that I'm letting England
1228
01:02:42,281 --> 01:02:44,761
down because I don't think
that England particularly
1229
01:02:44,761 --> 01:02:47,841
wanted me there doing what I was doing.
1230
01:02:47,841 --> 01:02:49,561
So how can I feel that
I'm betraying a country
1231
01:02:49,561 --> 01:02:52,841
when it doesn't want me to do
what it's trained me to do?
1232
01:02:54,321 --> 01:02:55,241
- Do you get lonely here?
1233
01:02:56,241 --> 01:02:59,161
- You just tend to get stuck
into your everyday routine
1234
01:02:59,161 --> 01:03:02,881
and you don't think about
it but when you call home
1235
01:03:02,881 --> 01:03:07,641
then you realise how far
away you are and now it seems
1236
01:03:07,641 --> 01:03:09,841
acute because both our families are
1237
01:03:09,841 --> 01:03:12,881
getting older even if you think in terms
1238
01:03:12,881 --> 01:03:16,401
of seeing them once every two years.
1239
01:03:17,241 --> 01:03:18,081
- That's not so many times.
1240
01:03:18,081 --> 01:03:20,201
- You're thinking only about 10 times
1241
01:03:20,201 --> 01:03:22,761
and that's awful when
you think in those terms
1242
01:03:22,761 --> 01:03:25,401
you realise you really are in exile.
1243
01:03:27,041 --> 01:03:28,641
- Do you miss England?
1244
01:03:28,641 --> 01:03:29,961
- An awful lot yeah.
1245
01:03:31,281 --> 01:03:34,281
My parents managed to get
over here a couple of times
1246
01:03:34,281 --> 01:03:36,761
in the last two years and
Andrew my middle brother
1247
01:03:36,761 --> 01:03:39,161
was here about two years ago so that's
1248
01:03:39,161 --> 01:03:41,601
pretty good going in way
that they got over here.
1249
01:03:45,121 --> 01:03:47,681
Christopher is the brother
who is deaf as you know
1250
01:03:47,681 --> 01:03:50,001
and his language skills are getting better
1251
01:03:50,001 --> 01:03:52,601
but be certainly didn't get a flying start
1252
01:03:52,601 --> 01:03:55,081
from the education system
that he went through
1253
01:03:55,081 --> 01:03:58,241
so you know he really is
still getting to the point
1254
01:03:58,241 --> 01:04:02,441
where you know, he can't hear essentially
1255
01:04:02,441 --> 01:04:04,041
at all so you can't
really have a conversation
1256
01:04:04,041 --> 01:04:04,881
with him on the phone.
1257
01:04:04,881 --> 01:04:06,801
He'll get on the phone and tell you
1258
01:04:06,801 --> 01:04:08,481
a bunch of stuff and you can understand
1259
01:04:08,481 --> 01:04:10,921
most of it so that's really nice.
1260
01:04:10,921 --> 01:04:13,361
- Is it painful for you?
1261
01:04:13,361 --> 01:04:16,721
- Well the thing that was
emotional to think back on
1262
01:04:16,721 --> 01:04:19,801
was the situation when he
was probably a year old
1263
01:04:19,801 --> 01:04:22,001
and it was really becoming
clear to everybody
1264
01:04:22,001 --> 01:04:25,561
that despite the fact that his doctor
1265
01:04:25,561 --> 01:04:28,401
has originally insisted no he wasn't deaf
1266
01:04:28,401 --> 01:04:30,841
that it became pretty clear that he was.
1267
01:04:30,841 --> 01:04:34,561
And you know at the time
I just desperately was
1268
01:04:34,561 --> 01:04:38,921
hoping it wouldn't be
true, that somehow some
1269
01:04:38,921 --> 01:04:41,241
sort of miracle would
happen and he would turn out
1270
01:04:41,241 --> 01:04:46,001
not to be, so but then I told
myself well if he weren't then
1271
01:04:46,001 --> 01:04:47,961
he wouldn't be the same
person and it would be wishing
1272
01:04:47,961 --> 01:04:49,841
that the person didn't exist so
1273
01:04:50,721 --> 01:04:54,081
that wasn't the appropriate
way to think about it.
1274
01:04:59,041 --> 01:05:01,761
- Do you think
you can build a life here?
1275
01:05:03,241 --> 01:05:05,121
- Well you know, one is trying to
1276
01:05:05,121 --> 01:05:07,881
but it is very difficult
being in a place where
1277
01:05:07,881 --> 01:05:11,641
you're a long way away
from all your background
1278
01:05:11,641 --> 01:05:13,641
and you don't have any
sort of support network.
1279
01:05:13,641 --> 01:05:17,721
It really does, I mean you
have to fend for yourself,
1280
01:05:17,721 --> 01:05:20,401
you keep thinking for yourself,
1281
01:05:20,401 --> 01:05:21,841
you're really being called on
1282
01:05:22,881 --> 01:05:24,961
to show pioneer spirit every
now and again it seems.
1283
01:05:27,801 --> 01:05:28,641
It don't have this urge that you
1284
01:05:28,641 --> 01:05:31,001
sometimes hear people
saying that I want my child
1285
01:05:31,001 --> 01:05:32,161
to have all the things that I didn't.
1286
01:05:32,161 --> 01:05:35,081
I don't look back and
think I was deprived.
1287
01:05:35,081 --> 01:05:38,601
There were things that
I had in a certain sense
1288
01:05:38,601 --> 01:05:40,841
as a child which were not material things
1289
01:05:40,841 --> 01:05:45,561
that I had but situations
I was in and experiences
1290
01:05:45,561 --> 01:05:48,281
that most children
wouldn't have growing up
1291
01:05:48,281 --> 01:05:50,881
on a farm and actually working on a farm
1292
01:05:50,881 --> 01:05:53,081
and being in a situation of being told,
1293
01:05:53,081 --> 01:05:56,161
clean out that calf
shed really has made me
1294
01:05:56,161 --> 01:05:58,561
very determined to get things done
1295
01:05:58,561 --> 01:06:01,201
and not give up half
way through something.
1296
01:06:01,201 --> 01:06:04,961
It develops a streak of
stubbornness that can be useful now.
1297
01:06:04,961 --> 01:06:07,281
The trouble with me is that
I tend to take the streak of
1298
01:06:07,281 --> 01:06:12,281
stubbornness too far I have
to try and mellow out a bit.
1299
01:06:15,361 --> 01:06:16,401
- Have you
travelled a long way since
1300
01:06:16,401 --> 01:06:19,761
that seven year old in
his big muddy boots?
1301
01:06:19,761 --> 01:06:22,241
- I suppose an awful long way yes.
1302
01:06:22,241 --> 01:06:25,361
I mean I'm sure there's
lot of the same personality
1303
01:06:25,361 --> 01:06:27,641
that was in there is still here.
1304
01:06:27,641 --> 01:06:29,801
Still easily embarrassed and confused.
1305
01:06:30,601 --> 01:06:34,481
I mean I think that you
can see the saying give
1306
01:06:34,481 --> 01:06:38,881
the boy until he is seven,
I'm quite prepared to accept
1307
01:06:38,881 --> 01:06:40,881
there's a lot in that.
1308
01:06:40,881 --> 01:06:44,961
If you could look at me at
seven and see through the
1309
01:06:44,961 --> 01:06:46,801
sort of superficial things
and the silly things
1310
01:06:46,801 --> 01:06:49,921
I was saying you could see
what made the child tick,
1311
01:06:49,921 --> 01:06:51,401
there was probably an awful lot in
1312
01:06:51,401 --> 01:06:52,721
there that's here now yes.
1313
01:06:58,441 --> 01:07:01,521
- I read the Financial Times.
1314
01:07:01,521 --> 01:07:04,201
- I read the Observer and the Times.
1315
01:07:04,201 --> 01:07:06,761
- What do you like about it?
1316
01:07:06,761 --> 01:07:09,641
- Well I like, I usually
look at the headlines
1317
01:07:09,641 --> 01:07:14,001
and then read about them, about it.
1318
01:07:14,801 --> 01:07:17,161
- What's the point of the programme?
1319
01:07:18,361 --> 01:07:20,841
- The point of the programme
is to reach a comparison.
1320
01:07:20,841 --> 01:07:21,841
I don't think it is.
1321
01:07:23,641 --> 01:07:25,441
We're not necessarily typical examples.
1322
01:07:25,441 --> 01:07:26,961
- And I think that's what people seeing
1323
01:07:26,961 --> 01:07:29,401
the programme might think, falsely.
1324
01:07:31,281 --> 01:07:33,121
- Yes, they tend to typecast us.
1325
01:07:34,441 --> 01:07:37,361
- So everything we say they'll think oh
1326
01:07:37,361 --> 01:07:40,321
that's a typical result of
the public school system.
1327
01:07:42,081 --> 01:07:43,881
- It's certainly true
that more people know
1328
01:07:43,881 --> 01:07:46,081
they have more options
or imagine they have.
1329
01:07:47,321 --> 01:07:50,801
I think in practical terms the difference
1330
01:07:50,801 --> 01:07:55,481
in numerical number of
options isn't that great.
1331
01:07:55,481 --> 01:07:58,081
- But the mere knowledge
creates an option in itself
1332
01:07:58,081 --> 01:07:59,961
so I think we do have more options
1333
01:07:59,961 --> 01:08:04,681
and it is undesirable but it's
very difficult to correct.
1334
01:08:04,681 --> 01:08:07,081
- I don't think it is
undesirable at all I think
1335
01:08:07,081 --> 01:08:09,561
whats undesirable is
people who have had options
1336
01:08:09,561 --> 01:08:12,481
don't take best advantage of them.
1337
01:08:12,481 --> 01:08:17,481
When I leave this school
I'm going to Collet Court
1338
01:08:20,241 --> 01:08:23,001
and then I will be going to
Westminster Boarding school
1339
01:08:23,001 --> 01:08:24,241
if I pass the exam.
1340
01:08:26,401 --> 01:08:30,201
And then we think I'm going
to Cambridge in Trinity Hall.
1341
01:08:32,401 --> 01:08:34,561
- John went
to Westminster School
1342
01:08:34,561 --> 01:08:37,521
and read Law at Christchurch Oxford.
1343
01:08:37,521 --> 01:08:39,761
- I do believe parents
have a right to educate
1344
01:08:39,761 --> 01:08:41,801
their children as they think fit.
1345
01:08:41,801 --> 01:08:44,561
And I think someone who works
1346
01:08:44,561 --> 01:08:46,921
on the assembly line in
some of these car factories
1347
01:08:46,921 --> 01:08:49,281
earning huge wage could
well afford to send
1348
01:08:49,281 --> 01:08:51,961
their children to private
schools if they wanted to.
1349
01:08:53,481 --> 01:08:56,441
- At 21 we asked him
what career he would pursue.
1350
01:08:57,481 --> 01:08:58,561
- Might be at the Bar.
1351
01:09:00,641 --> 01:09:01,801
- Doing what?
1352
01:09:03,001 --> 01:09:04,681
Perhaps Chancery practise?
1353
01:09:04,681 --> 01:09:06,921
I now have a career, I'm a barrister,
1354
01:09:08,681 --> 01:09:11,601
other than that life chugs
along in varying degrees.
1355
01:09:12,601 --> 01:09:14,321
- John entered
the Chancery division
1356
01:09:14,321 --> 01:09:17,681
of the High Court and
specialises in company law.
1357
01:09:17,681 --> 01:09:20,921
- How wonderful, have you told Alexandra.
1358
01:09:20,921 --> 01:09:23,401
- When I leave school I'm going to
1359
01:09:23,401 --> 01:09:27,961
The Dragons School I might and mummy's
1360
01:09:27,961 --> 01:09:31,761
and I might go to after I
might go to Charterhouse,
1361
01:09:31,761 --> 01:09:36,641
Marlborough and I can't
remember the other places
1362
01:09:41,601 --> 01:09:45,161
because mummy's got so many
but there's some of them.
1363
01:09:45,161 --> 01:09:46,841
- What about university Charles?
1364
01:09:46,841 --> 01:09:48,601
- I might go to Oxford.
1365
01:09:49,721 --> 01:09:51,281
- Charles went to Marlborough
1366
01:09:51,281 --> 01:09:53,081
but he didn't go to Oxford.
1367
01:09:53,081 --> 01:09:55,241
Instead he went to Durham University.
1368
01:09:56,481 --> 01:10:00,601
- I'm pleased I didn't
because it's very much
1369
01:10:00,601 --> 01:10:04,121
a sort of set from Marlborough.
1370
01:10:05,401 --> 01:10:10,161
Prep school, Marlborough,
Oxbridge conveyor belt.
1371
01:10:11,561 --> 01:10:13,041
Shoved out at the end.
1372
01:10:14,041 --> 01:10:16,121
- And what
did Charles want to do?
1373
01:10:16,121 --> 01:10:21,121
- Hard to say, probably
scribbling away in some basement
1374
01:10:21,401 --> 01:10:24,321
for some London newspaper or something.
1375
01:10:24,321 --> 01:10:26,361
- Charles did
scribble away for an
1376
01:10:26,361 --> 01:10:30,001
East London newspaper and
then moved onto the BBC
1377
01:10:30,001 --> 01:10:32,001
where he is now a producer.
1378
01:10:32,001 --> 01:10:33,881
He married last year.
1379
01:10:33,881 --> 01:10:36,041
He prefers not to be on television.
1380
01:10:36,921 --> 01:10:38,681
- I'm going to Charterhouse
1381
01:10:39,881 --> 01:10:44,801
and after that Trinity Hall, Cambridge.
1382
01:10:46,321 --> 01:10:47,721
- Andrew went to Charterhouse
1383
01:10:47,721 --> 01:10:49,921
and Cambridge where he read Law.
1384
01:10:51,161 --> 01:10:55,121
- I'd like to be a solicitor
and also fairly successful.
1385
01:10:56,241 --> 01:10:58,361
- At 28 Andrew was a solicitor
1386
01:10:58,361 --> 01:10:59,721
in a large London firm.
1387
01:10:59,721 --> 01:11:02,441
What qualities do you think
it needs to be successful?
1388
01:11:03,881 --> 01:11:06,601
- Well you have to have a
legal ability in my business
1389
01:11:06,601 --> 01:11:09,561
obviously and you have to
have a sort of bedside manner
1390
01:11:09,561 --> 01:11:11,841
as far as your clients are concerned.
1391
01:11:11,841 --> 01:11:14,481
It's no good being brilliant if you can't
1392
01:11:14,481 --> 01:11:16,921
communicate with your clients.
1393
01:11:16,921 --> 01:11:19,841
- At 35 he had become a partner
1394
01:11:19,841 --> 01:11:21,681
in the same company.
1395
01:11:21,681 --> 01:11:24,601
- Well I work in the corporate
department of a large firm
1396
01:11:24,601 --> 01:11:27,601
of solicitors in the city
that is dealing with things
1397
01:11:27,601 --> 01:11:30,881
like mergers and
acquisitions, joint ventures,
1398
01:11:30,881 --> 01:11:32,561
general corporate advice,
1399
01:11:32,561 --> 01:11:35,721
putting deals together for clients.
1400
01:11:35,721 --> 01:11:36,561
- What do you think
1401
01:11:36,561 --> 01:11:37,841
about girl friends at your age?
1402
01:11:39,161 --> 01:11:42,321
- I've got one but I
don't think much of her.
1403
01:11:42,321 --> 01:11:45,841
- I don't think I financially
come from the same background,
1404
01:11:45,841 --> 01:11:48,641
Andrew didn't go for a haughty deb,
1405
01:11:48,641 --> 01:11:50,881
he went for a good Yorkshire lass
1406
01:11:50,881 --> 01:11:53,641
but I mean obviously
he knew what he wanted.
1407
01:11:53,641 --> 01:11:56,161
- At 28 Andrew had married Jane.
1408
01:11:57,081 --> 01:11:58,481
- I suppose the most important
thing that's happened is
1409
01:11:58,481 --> 01:12:01,921
that we've had two children
one five years ago,
1410
01:12:01,921 --> 01:12:04,681
Alexandra and then a couple
of years later Timothy.
1411
01:12:05,921 --> 01:12:09,361
We've also moved out from
central London over to Wimbledon.
1412
01:12:10,201 --> 01:12:12,081
We decided we should
look somewhere there was
1413
01:12:12,081 --> 01:12:14,561
a bit of green space so we moved out here.
1414
01:12:15,881 --> 01:12:17,721
- What was the biggest surprise
1415
01:12:17,721 --> 01:12:18,841
about having children?
1416
01:12:21,161 --> 01:12:22,641
- That our ideas of
bringing them up may be not
1417
01:12:22,641 --> 01:12:25,161
necessarily coincide with each others.
1418
01:12:26,681 --> 01:12:29,721
- When I see the
children playing together now
1419
01:12:29,721 --> 01:12:32,401
I realise how much fun they have together
1420
01:12:32,401 --> 01:12:35,681
and it's probably what I
missed being an only child.
1421
01:12:35,681 --> 01:12:37,641
- When boys go around
with girls they don't
1422
01:12:37,641 --> 01:12:40,241
pay attention to what they're doing.
1423
01:12:40,241 --> 01:12:43,241
Yes my grandmother had an accident because
1424
01:12:43,241 --> 01:12:46,601
a boyfriend was kissing his
girlfriend in the street.
1425
01:12:48,201 --> 01:12:51,161
The most important thing is
that I've gotten married.
1426
01:12:51,161 --> 01:12:52,961
- He married
Claire, the daughter
1427
01:12:52,961 --> 01:12:55,121
of a former Ambassador to Bulgaria.
1428
01:12:56,321 --> 01:13:00,481
- Recently I think this
charity Friends of Bulgaria
1429
01:13:00,481 --> 01:13:02,761
is something that's very
important in my life.
1430
01:13:04,641 --> 01:13:09,041
I became involved in all this
to channel aid to Bulgaria.
1431
01:13:10,641 --> 01:13:11,961
It is a great pleasure
to welcome you all here
1432
01:13:11,961 --> 01:13:14,681
tonight on behalf of Friends of Bulgaria.
1433
01:13:14,681 --> 01:13:17,361
My mother in fact is from Bulgaria,
1434
01:13:17,361 --> 01:13:19,801
and that explains why for me Bulgaria
1435
01:13:19,801 --> 01:13:21,041
is an especially important place.
1436
01:13:23,761 --> 01:13:27,241
We decided for our inaugural
event it would be a good idea
1437
01:13:27,241 --> 01:13:32,241
to have a concert and as
I'm a barrister I'd hoped
1438
01:13:33,321 --> 01:13:37,561
I'd be able to get access
to one of the halls
1439
01:13:37,561 --> 01:13:38,401
of the Inns of Court because
1440
01:13:38,401 --> 01:13:40,561
they are very magnificent buildings.
1441
01:13:41,961 --> 01:13:45,881
- It is coincidental that
we met but its obvious
1442
01:13:45,881 --> 01:13:50,721
that the Balkan connection
was a strong mutual interest.
1443
01:13:51,561 --> 01:13:54,841
- I think it's not a bad
idea to pay for schools
1444
01:13:54,841 --> 01:13:59,081
because if we didn't schools
would be so nasty and crowded.
1445
01:14:00,241 --> 01:14:02,321
- So do I think so.
1446
01:14:02,321 --> 01:14:04,961
And the people in the schools wouldn't.
1447
01:14:04,961 --> 01:14:07,601
- And the poor people
would coming rushing in.
1448
01:14:07,601 --> 01:14:12,281
- And the man in charge of the
school would get very angry
1449
01:14:12,281 --> 01:14:13,481
because he wouldn't be able to
1450
01:14:13,481 --> 01:14:15,481
- And he'd get bankrupt.
1451
01:14:16,721 --> 01:14:20,401
- pay all the masters if
he didn't have any money.
1452
01:14:22,601 --> 01:14:24,881
- At 7 the boys
are singing Waltzing Matilda
1453
01:14:24,881 --> 01:14:28,281
in Latin at their exclusive
private school in London.
1454
01:14:30,961 --> 01:14:33,161
- An education is very important,
1455
01:14:34,561 --> 01:14:37,881
I mean you can never be sure
of leaving your children
1456
01:14:37,881 --> 01:14:40,481
any worldly goods but
at least you can be sure
1457
01:14:40,481 --> 01:14:42,961
that once you're given
them a good education
1458
01:14:42,961 --> 01:14:45,121
that's something that
no one can take away.
1459
01:14:46,281 --> 01:14:48,561
The important issue is
drawing the distinction
1460
01:14:48,561 --> 01:14:52,041
between allowing people to
spend the money they earn,
1461
01:14:52,041 --> 01:14:55,001
in other words low taxes,
and also putting enough money
1462
01:14:55,001 --> 01:14:57,281
into the infrastructure,
things like education,
1463
01:14:57,281 --> 01:14:59,481
health service, transport system.
1464
01:15:00,521 --> 01:15:02,401
And that's a very
difficult balance to draw
1465
01:15:02,401 --> 01:15:03,561
and I'm not sure that were doing
1466
01:15:03,561 --> 01:15:04,401
the right thing at the moment.
1467
01:15:04,401 --> 01:15:07,041
I think more should be being put into that
1468
01:15:08,121 --> 01:15:10,601
and I think people would be
prepared to pay higher taxes
1469
01:15:10,601 --> 01:15:12,641
to pay for that sort of thing.
1470
01:15:16,441 --> 01:15:18,721
- Yeah just a bit late there.
1471
01:15:18,721 --> 01:15:21,921
- All this talk about
opportunities, something I did
1472
01:15:21,921 --> 01:15:24,641
slightly object to in the programme,
1473
01:15:24,641 --> 01:15:27,081
we were all shown at the
age of seven outlining
1474
01:15:27,081 --> 01:15:30,241
the academic sort of
career that most of us did
1475
01:15:30,241 --> 01:15:33,321
in fact pursue but it didn't
show the sleepless nights,
1476
01:15:33,321 --> 01:15:35,081
the sort of pouring over our books.
1477
01:15:37,241 --> 01:15:38,081
All the sweat and toil
1478
01:15:38,081 --> 01:15:40,241
that got us to University.
1479
01:15:40,241 --> 01:15:42,521
It was presented as if it were part
1480
01:15:42,521 --> 01:15:44,721
of some indestructible birth right
1481
01:15:44,721 --> 01:15:45,641
that we went to all these places
1482
01:15:45,641 --> 01:15:47,041
and I thought that was unfair.
1483
01:15:47,041 --> 01:15:50,121
It didn't show having to do
beastly jobs in the holidays.
1484
01:15:50,121 --> 01:15:53,081
If I had a son I would like to send him
1485
01:15:53,081 --> 01:15:55,601
to Westminster where I went.
1486
01:15:56,561 --> 01:15:58,801
Where I suspect the public schools
1487
01:15:58,801 --> 01:16:03,121
or the major public schools
win over the state schools is
1488
01:16:03,121 --> 01:16:06,281
in the quality of the
staff that they attract.
1489
01:16:06,281 --> 01:16:08,441
I mean certainly at my school the teachers
1490
01:16:08,441 --> 01:16:11,401
were absolutely first
rate but on the other hand
1491
01:16:11,401 --> 01:16:14,321
we had very little in
the way of facilities
1492
01:16:14,321 --> 01:16:16,921
and computers and language laboratories
1493
01:16:16,921 --> 01:16:21,401
that are taken for granted
in many state schools.
1494
01:16:21,401 --> 01:16:24,961
And I think when people
talk about more resources
1495
01:16:24,961 --> 01:16:29,081
they often mean more money
being spent on these things
1496
01:16:29,081 --> 01:16:32,241
which in a sense are
inessentials, and less money
1497
01:16:32,241 --> 01:16:33,561
is being spent on what really matters
1498
01:16:33,561 --> 01:16:35,721
which is the quality of the teachers.
1499
01:16:35,721 --> 01:16:37,641
- The rich children always make fun
1500
01:16:37,641 --> 01:16:39,841
of poor children I think.
1501
01:16:39,841 --> 01:16:42,441
- The acquisition of
sacks and sacks of money
1502
01:16:42,441 --> 01:16:46,321
is not something that I
set much importance by.
1503
01:16:47,321 --> 01:16:49,921
I'm not money minded I
would say in that sense.
1504
01:16:49,921 --> 01:16:52,161
On the other hand it would be hypocritical
1505
01:16:52,161 --> 01:16:55,201
to pretend that a lot of
the things that I take
1506
01:16:55,201 --> 01:17:00,201
for granted and my lifestyle
is dependent on having
1507
01:17:00,361 --> 01:17:03,081
a fair amount of money but I can't say
1508
01:17:03,081 --> 01:17:06,081
that the acquisition of more money is one
1509
01:17:06,081 --> 01:17:08,401
of my main aims in life.
1510
01:17:08,401 --> 01:17:11,201
We now have a house in
the country which takes up
1511
01:17:11,201 --> 01:17:14,801
a lot of our time and
energies and I seem to spend
1512
01:17:14,801 --> 01:17:16,801
an awful lot of my time
gardening furiously,
1513
01:17:16,801 --> 01:17:20,401
trying to tame the wilderness
that we inherited there.
1514
01:17:20,401 --> 01:17:22,961
I'd have laughed if 10
years ago you'd have told me
1515
01:17:22,961 --> 01:17:27,961
that I'd spend most of my time
digging herbaceous borders
1516
01:17:28,281 --> 01:17:30,481
but that's what I seem
to do and I enjoy it.
1517
01:17:32,161 --> 01:17:34,361
One good thing about
having quite a large house
1518
01:17:34,361 --> 01:17:37,521
in the country now is that I've
taken up playing the piano.
1519
01:17:38,641 --> 01:17:40,881
I've always had a piano
in London but with work
1520
01:17:40,881 --> 01:17:43,561
I never had time to practise
and now we've got room
1521
01:17:43,561 --> 01:17:46,561
to house a piano in the
country and I find I am now
1522
01:17:46,561 --> 01:17:50,601
practising quite a lot and
beginning to get it back a bit.
1523
01:17:50,601 --> 01:17:52,201
- Certainly I can never
tell the difference
1524
01:17:52,201 --> 01:17:54,041
between you playing and the CD playing
1525
01:17:54,041 --> 01:17:57,241
when I'm out of the
room, you're very good.
1526
01:17:57,241 --> 01:17:58,721
- Well she's very diplomatic.
1527
01:17:59,881 --> 01:18:02,321
- Does money concern you a lot?
1528
01:18:03,241 --> 01:18:06,201
- I think as long as one
has enough to be comfortable
1529
01:18:06,201 --> 01:18:09,361
that's really what one should aim for.
1530
01:18:12,561 --> 01:18:14,801
We took the children skiing
for the first time last year,
1531
01:18:14,801 --> 01:18:18,761
at least Alexander, and
he really enjoyed it.
1532
01:18:18,761 --> 01:18:21,361
- Is the family
unit the most important thing
1533
01:18:21,361 --> 01:18:25,521
in your lives, more than
your own ambition or?
1534
01:18:25,521 --> 01:18:28,241
- I'm not sure that I
have any ambition as such now
1535
01:18:29,161 --> 01:18:32,321
I mean just to progress
with my work and so on.
1536
01:18:32,321 --> 01:18:33,441
- I think ambition probably changes once
1537
01:18:33,441 --> 01:18:36,521
you've got children, your
outlook on life is no longer
1538
01:18:36,521 --> 01:18:38,401
the same as it was before.
1539
01:18:38,401 --> 01:18:40,681
And you can still have
ambitions and the fact
1540
01:18:40,681 --> 01:18:42,481
you want to be successful in your work
1541
01:18:42,481 --> 01:18:44,561
but the end result is
that if you're successful
1542
01:18:44,561 --> 01:18:46,601
in your work then you can enjoy
1543
01:18:46,601 --> 01:18:48,961
your success with your children.
1544
01:18:48,961 --> 01:18:50,841
And hopefully with your wife as well.
1545
01:18:52,801 --> 01:18:56,721
- I think the more you have
out of the country the more
1546
01:18:56,721 --> 01:19:00,041
privileges you're born with
the greater your duty is.
1547
01:19:01,481 --> 01:19:04,281
I still feel as I did when
I was 21 that it's important
1548
01:19:04,281 --> 01:19:08,321
for people who have had advantages to try
1549
01:19:08,321 --> 01:19:12,641
and put as much back and to
help others less fortunate
1550
01:19:12,641 --> 01:19:15,441
than themselves if they can.
1551
01:19:17,561 --> 01:19:20,961
In England as we all know
there is a perpetual debate
1552
01:19:20,961 --> 01:19:23,961
about the National Health
Service being starved
1553
01:19:23,961 --> 01:19:26,481
of resources but people who go on
1554
01:19:26,481 --> 01:19:29,441
about the government butchering
the National Health Service
1555
01:19:29,441 --> 01:19:31,001
I think should come over to Bulgaria
1556
01:19:31,001 --> 01:19:35,201
to see what being kept
short of necessary supplies
1557
01:19:35,201 --> 01:19:36,881
and funds really does mean.
1558
01:19:37,961 --> 01:19:42,001
What were doing round
delivering drugs firstly
1559
01:19:42,001 --> 01:19:45,081
that we've managed to purchase with monies
1560
01:19:45,081 --> 01:19:49,361
so far raised by our appeal
and also at the same time,
1561
01:19:49,361 --> 01:19:51,721
trying to find out what it
is that they really need
1562
01:19:51,721 --> 01:19:54,241
so that we can be sure we're
getting the right things
1563
01:19:54,241 --> 01:19:57,481
through to the right destinations.
1564
01:19:57,481 --> 01:20:00,161
We've been told that in
some places its impossible
1565
01:20:00,161 --> 01:20:02,921
to do even operations,
albeit that they have
1566
01:20:02,921 --> 01:20:05,321
the operating theatres and
they have excellent doctors,
1567
01:20:05,321 --> 01:20:07,201
for want of simple anaesthetics.
1568
01:20:07,201 --> 01:20:10,321
In other places, for instance,
1569
01:20:10,321 --> 01:20:12,841
the children's home at,
they're even lacking
1570
01:20:12,841 --> 01:20:15,441
such simple things as soap and detergent.
1571
01:20:16,321 --> 01:20:19,001
These are things that
we can supply in England
1572
01:20:19,001 --> 01:20:21,641
very painlessly and yet here they really
1573
01:20:21,641 --> 01:20:23,561
make a lot of difference.
1574
01:20:24,801 --> 01:20:28,241
- The Bulgaria that I
have known coming back
1575
01:20:28,241 --> 01:20:32,721
with John has been a
much more varied country
1576
01:20:32,721 --> 01:20:37,001
and it has been very enriching to travel
1577
01:20:37,001 --> 01:20:40,001
around the country with John and to have
1578
01:20:40,001 --> 01:20:44,401
the extra dimension of
John having investigated
1579
01:20:44,401 --> 01:20:48,881
to a great degree his family tree down
1580
01:20:48,881 --> 01:20:51,801
through many generations
and many centuries.
1581
01:20:52,641 --> 01:20:55,401
- My great great grandfather who was the
1582
01:20:55,401 --> 01:20:57,601
first prime minister of
Bulgaria when the country
1583
01:20:57,601 --> 01:21:00,361
was liberated from the Turks in 1879.
1584
01:21:05,401 --> 01:21:07,161
Well I think everyone
needs to have a feeling
1585
01:21:07,161 --> 01:21:08,521
that they belong somewhere.
1586
01:21:09,721 --> 01:21:10,641
There's a plot of land
1587
01:21:10,641 --> 01:21:15,481
or somewhere they hail
from and their roots are.
1588
01:21:18,161 --> 01:21:21,481
Within the last month a new
agricultural law has been
1589
01:21:21,481 --> 01:21:25,641
passed returning land to
its former proprietors.
1590
01:21:25,641 --> 01:21:28,521
We think that some part at
any rate of this property
1591
01:21:28,521 --> 01:21:30,561
will become back to us and I for one
1592
01:21:30,561 --> 01:21:33,321
am very excited at that prospect.
1593
01:21:33,321 --> 01:21:36,481
It belonged to my
grandfather, his brother.
1594
01:21:38,001 --> 01:21:39,481
And they farmed it in the whole estate
1595
01:21:39,481 --> 01:21:41,601
and partnership with my great grandfather.
1596
01:21:42,921 --> 01:21:44,801
Looking at it with a professional eye,
1597
01:21:44,801 --> 01:21:47,361
I've dealt with worse than
this in North Hampton.
1598
01:21:47,361 --> 01:21:48,201
I don't think there's anything
1599
01:21:48,201 --> 01:21:53,041
that couldn't be sorted
out given six months or so.
1600
01:21:54,041 --> 01:21:56,081
And a couple house guests to stay.
1601
01:21:57,881 --> 01:22:00,441
- Do you think you
and Claire could live here?
1602
01:22:00,441 --> 01:22:02,161
- Ask me that in 7 years time.
1603
01:22:03,921 --> 01:22:05,841
I don't think much of their accents.
1604
01:22:05,841 --> 01:22:06,681
- Neither do I.
1605
01:22:06,681 --> 01:22:07,521
- What's been
the effect of being
1606
01:22:07,521 --> 01:22:09,001
in these films on you?
1607
01:22:09,001 --> 01:22:11,401
- I don't think really there
has been any effect really.
1608
01:22:11,401 --> 01:22:13,881
From time to time I meet
someone who I've never met
1609
01:22:13,881 --> 01:22:15,801
before who says I think
I've seen you somewhere
1610
01:22:15,801 --> 01:22:20,681
before haven't I and I say perhaps.
1611
01:22:20,681 --> 01:22:22,361
I try not to talk about it.
1612
01:22:23,601 --> 01:22:25,641
- You've got three minuses in a day.
1613
01:22:28,161 --> 01:22:31,601
I must say I mainly laugh
when I see myself at seven.
1614
01:22:32,761 --> 01:22:34,161
Obviously I said some shocking
1615
01:22:34,161 --> 01:22:37,481
but extremely funny things in retrospect.
1616
01:22:37,481 --> 01:22:39,681
It has to be said that I bitterly regret
1617
01:22:39,681 --> 01:22:42,041
that the headmaster of
the school where I was
1618
01:22:42,041 --> 01:22:45,001
when I was seven pushed
me forward for this series
1619
01:22:45,001 --> 01:22:47,361
because every seven years
1620
01:22:47,361 --> 01:22:50,041
a little pill of poison is injected.
1621
01:22:51,641 --> 01:22:52,601
- Well no.
1622
01:22:52,601 --> 01:22:57,081
- Well it's the truth, I dislike intensely
1623
01:22:57,081 --> 01:23:00,481
being on television, I
refused to do this programme
1624
01:23:00,481 --> 01:23:03,161
last time round and I'm
only doing it this time
1625
01:23:03,161 --> 01:23:06,001
because I see this as an opportunity
1626
01:23:06,001 --> 01:23:10,001
to draw the attention of
viewers in this country
1627
01:23:10,001 --> 01:23:17,081
to the awful problems
in Bulgaria in the hope
1628
01:23:17,241 --> 01:23:19,281
that they may wish to do something
1629
01:23:19,281 --> 01:23:20,921
to help the situation there.
1630
01:23:24,401 --> 01:23:29,321
- I don't like big boys hitting us
1631
01:23:29,321 --> 01:23:33,001
and the prefects sending
us out for nothing.
1632
01:23:36,001 --> 01:23:38,481
I know I prefer to be alone really.
1633
01:23:38,481 --> 01:23:41,641
I find it hard to express
emotion most of the time
1634
01:23:41,641 --> 01:23:44,841
although I'm getting on
top of that more now.
1635
01:23:46,561 --> 01:23:48,961
Just the simple things
to say to sort of Susan,
1636
01:23:48,961 --> 01:23:51,161
you know I love you something like that,
1637
01:23:51,161 --> 01:23:52,921
I mean I can tell you about it
1638
01:23:52,921 --> 01:23:55,561
but I really haven't been able to say it
1639
01:23:55,561 --> 01:23:58,881
freely to Sue you know.
1640
01:23:58,881 --> 01:24:00,521
- What was it
that you fell in love with,
1641
01:24:00,521 --> 01:24:01,841
what is it about him?
1642
01:24:01,841 --> 01:24:04,401
- His helplessness I suppose,
1643
01:24:04,401 --> 01:24:06,001
it was the motherly instinct in me
1644
01:24:06,001 --> 01:24:07,601
to pick him up and cuddle him.
1645
01:24:08,601 --> 01:24:09,721
He's also very good looking I think
1646
01:24:09,721 --> 01:24:11,401
but he doesn't agree with me.
1647
01:24:12,601 --> 01:24:15,321
In the summer he's got this
cute little bum in shorts.
1648
01:24:16,401 --> 01:24:18,481
I mean I can tell quite a few stories here
1649
01:24:18,481 --> 01:24:20,881
but the one that really
irritates me the most is
1650
01:24:20,881 --> 01:24:23,001
that when we have an argument
he says that's it, leave me.
1651
01:24:23,001 --> 01:24:25,761
And I say fine, all right I will one day.
1652
01:24:25,761 --> 01:24:26,921
But that's it you know after all
1653
01:24:26,921 --> 01:24:28,121
these years of marriage,
we've been married for
1654
01:24:28,121 --> 01:24:30,361
what 13 years now or something
1655
01:24:30,361 --> 01:24:32,401
and he still say you're leaving me.
1656
01:24:32,401 --> 01:24:34,721
Well one day I might
just pack my bags and go.
1657
01:24:37,081 --> 01:24:38,601
- At seven, Paul was at a
1658
01:24:38,601 --> 01:24:40,201
children's home in London.
1659
01:24:42,841 --> 01:24:45,801
Were you happy at the
children's home in England?
1660
01:24:45,801 --> 01:24:47,921
- We didn't mind that
really cause we didn't know
1661
01:24:47,921 --> 01:24:51,081
what was going on cause
we were a bit young.
1662
01:24:51,081 --> 01:24:53,961
My mother and father got,
well they separated originally
1663
01:24:53,961 --> 01:24:58,801
I think they eventually got divorced,
1664
01:24:58,801 --> 01:25:00,321
I went to the Boarding school for one year
1665
01:25:00,321 --> 01:25:02,321
and we emigrated to Australia.
1666
01:25:03,961 --> 01:25:05,441
My father got remarried.
1667
01:25:07,881 --> 01:25:09,721
- How do you get
on with your step mother?
1668
01:25:10,601 --> 01:25:14,961
- Pretty well but like I said
before I'm just not close,
1669
01:25:14,961 --> 01:25:17,001
I'm not really close to my father either.
1670
01:25:21,681 --> 01:25:22,681
- Do you have
any regrets about the fact
1671
01:25:22,681 --> 01:25:25,081
that you weren't closer to
him when you were younger?
1672
01:25:25,081 --> 01:25:27,161
- Yes I suppose, I
mean it's all wasted time
1673
01:25:27,161 --> 01:25:29,001
in a way I suppose.
1674
01:25:29,001 --> 01:25:31,681
He was always there, I could always talk
1675
01:25:31,681 --> 01:25:34,601
to him but it was different.
1676
01:25:34,601 --> 01:25:36,081
- A lot of people that
go out to Australia,
1677
01:25:36,081 --> 01:25:37,961
these English people,
they go out without family
1678
01:25:37,961 --> 01:25:40,601
you know and all of a
sudden Paul's come here
1679
01:25:40,601 --> 01:25:44,321
and he's got all this family
he sort of half knew existed.
1680
01:25:46,921 --> 01:25:49,361
- So Paul brought
Sue and his two children
1681
01:25:49,361 --> 01:25:52,641
Katy and Robert to visit the
family for the first time.
1682
01:25:53,961 --> 01:25:57,281
Do you think about England
much when you're in Australia?
1683
01:25:57,281 --> 01:25:59,401
- Only when the crickets on.
1684
01:25:59,401 --> 01:26:00,281
- I mean I'm in awe of everything I see
1685
01:26:00,281 --> 01:26:01,721
because I've always
wanted to come to London,
1686
01:26:01,721 --> 01:26:04,721
I always thought it would
be great thing to do.
1687
01:26:04,721 --> 01:26:06,561
And all of a sudden I'm here
1688
01:26:06,561 --> 01:26:09,281
and I'm having a great time
and Paul and the kids are just,
1689
01:26:09,281 --> 01:26:12,641
I'm just dragging them along
behind like come on we're off.
1690
01:26:12,641 --> 01:26:14,001
But no, it'd be really interesting
1691
01:26:14,001 --> 01:26:15,241
because I'd had lots of family.
1692
01:26:15,241 --> 01:26:18,761
And I know I love this sort
of stuff, bit of a showpony.
1693
01:26:23,361 --> 01:26:26,281
- When the crunch came
and we were coming over here
1694
01:26:26,281 --> 01:26:27,561
I didn't want to do it.
1695
01:26:27,561 --> 01:26:28,441
It's just something in me
1696
01:26:28,441 --> 01:26:30,921
that holds me back I just it's shyness
1697
01:26:30,921 --> 01:26:32,201
or something I'm not sure.
1698
01:26:34,161 --> 01:26:36,841
I'm not really good at
meeting new people I guess.
1699
01:26:38,561 --> 01:26:39,801
- Is there
any way you would want
1700
01:26:39,801 --> 01:26:42,481
to be a father any
differently from the way
1701
01:26:42,481 --> 01:26:43,841
your father was to you?
1702
01:26:45,041 --> 01:26:48,081
- I'd like there to be more contact
1703
01:26:48,081 --> 01:26:51,241
close actual physical contact close.
1704
01:26:51,241 --> 01:26:53,961
My dad and I are exactly the same like
1705
01:26:53,961 --> 01:26:58,401
that we you know if we hug it's unusual.
1706
01:26:58,401 --> 01:27:00,921
- When we had Katy when
she was born Paul said
1707
01:27:00,921 --> 01:27:02,601
to me oh I'm glad I've got a daughter.
1708
01:27:02,601 --> 01:27:04,921
He said when I'm an old man at least
1709
01:27:04,921 --> 01:27:05,761
she'll be able to come up
1710
01:27:05,761 --> 01:27:07,601
and give me a kiss and a cuddle.
1711
01:27:07,601 --> 01:27:09,321
- Would you
like to get married Paul?
1712
01:27:10,241 --> 01:27:11,241
- No.
1713
01:27:11,241 --> 01:27:12,601
- Tell me why not.
1714
01:27:12,601 --> 01:27:16,681
- I don't want like them
say you had a wife they,
1715
01:27:18,081 --> 01:27:22,161
they say you had to eat
what they cooked you
1716
01:27:23,041 --> 01:27:27,201
and say I don't like greens, well I don't,
1717
01:27:27,201 --> 01:27:32,201
and say she said you have
to eat what you give.
1718
01:27:32,881 --> 01:27:35,841
So, I don't like greens say she gives me
1719
01:27:35,841 --> 01:27:37,241
greens and that's it.
1720
01:27:39,281 --> 01:27:41,001
- Divorce was something new to me.
1721
01:27:42,081 --> 01:27:43,041
I figured what Paul's been through,
1722
01:27:43,041 --> 01:27:44,721
I mean Paul doesn't say it's very bad
1723
01:27:44,721 --> 01:27:47,321
but I wouldn't like that for my children.
1724
01:27:47,321 --> 01:27:49,281
- What keeps
this marriage together?
1725
01:27:51,321 --> 01:27:54,641
- Learning to keep your mouth
closed at times, I don't know.
1726
01:27:54,641 --> 01:27:57,801
- Tolerance I think, I mean we
don't stew we have arguments,
1727
01:27:57,801 --> 01:27:59,561
big arguments like anyone else
1728
01:27:59,561 --> 01:28:03,321
and we have spoken about this before.
1729
01:28:03,321 --> 01:28:04,721
We don't tend to stew over it
1730
01:28:04,721 --> 01:28:09,561
for any length of time, we
can be unbelievable together,
1731
01:28:09,561 --> 01:28:12,041
you know biting each others heads off
1732
01:28:12,041 --> 01:28:16,561
but we don't never go to the next day.
1733
01:28:18,401 --> 01:28:20,041
- This is the one thing
that the shows done to us is
1734
01:28:20,041 --> 01:28:22,561
that it makes you analyse
things a bit more you know
1735
01:28:22,561 --> 01:28:23,601
like maybe if the show hadn't have
1736
01:28:23,601 --> 01:28:26,041
been here we may have split up.
1737
01:28:26,041 --> 01:28:30,201
You think well we can see what
we were like a long time ago
1738
01:28:30,201 --> 01:28:33,081
and it brings it back
to you, you think well,
1739
01:28:33,081 --> 01:28:37,201
we had this then, often a
lot of people grow apart
1740
01:28:37,201 --> 01:28:39,801
and can't see what they had originally.
1741
01:28:39,801 --> 01:28:41,841
- I don't think the show could
actually hold you together.
1742
01:28:41,841 --> 01:28:43,841
- No, no but what it's showing you is
1743
01:28:43,841 --> 01:28:45,201
what you had in the past.
1744
01:28:49,801 --> 01:28:52,241
- In their twenties,
Paul and Sue sold up,
1745
01:28:52,241 --> 01:28:55,641
bought an old van and
travelled through Australia.
1746
01:28:55,641 --> 01:28:57,681
- I think it brought us closer together,
1747
01:28:57,681 --> 01:28:59,201
we got to know each other,
1748
01:28:59,201 --> 01:29:00,801
we relied on each other so much.
1749
01:29:02,081 --> 01:29:03,201
It gave us our own peace
of mind that we could
1750
01:29:03,201 --> 01:29:05,161
settle down and now have a family,
1751
01:29:05,161 --> 01:29:08,641
that we had done something,
we hadn't just been nobodies
1752
01:29:08,641 --> 01:29:10,641
and lived in suburbia all our lives.
1753
01:29:10,641 --> 01:29:12,641
We'd done something that we were proud of,
1754
01:29:12,641 --> 01:29:14,361
that we'd accomplished on our own.
1755
01:29:15,801 --> 01:29:20,721
Being together so much it was
hard but then we settled down,
1756
01:29:20,721 --> 01:29:21,881
and must have settled down really well
1757
01:29:21,881 --> 01:29:24,801
because I got pregnant so something
1758
01:29:24,801 --> 01:29:26,361
must've been going right.
1759
01:29:27,521 --> 01:29:28,721
- The family settled down
1760
01:29:28,721 --> 01:29:30,841
in a working class suburb of Melbourne.
1761
01:29:33,081 --> 01:29:35,001
Are you ambitious for your children Paul?
1762
01:29:35,001 --> 01:29:37,561
- I said something about wanting Robert
1763
01:29:37,561 --> 01:29:40,481
to be a brain surgeon but that was a joke.
1764
01:29:40,481 --> 01:29:42,681
I mean if like if he's
a brain surgeon good
1765
01:29:42,681 --> 01:29:44,881
and well but it'd be nice to let them go
1766
01:29:44,881 --> 01:29:46,961
one step up from us I think.
1767
01:29:49,401 --> 01:29:52,641
At the moment I'm pretty happy with Katy,
1768
01:29:52,641 --> 01:29:54,401
I'm not having a go at
Robert but I've got fears
1769
01:29:54,401 --> 01:29:57,881
for Robert cause he's
struggling a little bit.
1770
01:29:57,881 --> 01:30:00,641
He's only been at school for two years
1771
01:30:00,641 --> 01:30:03,921
and grade one and he's
had three teachers already
1772
01:30:04,921 --> 01:30:07,161
say they don't know how to motivate him.
1773
01:30:07,161 --> 01:30:09,161
What does University mean?
1774
01:30:09,161 --> 01:30:11,401
- When the last show
was on I said to Robert
1775
01:30:11,401 --> 01:30:12,561
do you think you'll go to university?
1776
01:30:12,561 --> 01:30:14,561
He goes well what's university?
1777
01:30:14,561 --> 01:30:15,521
It just floored me.
1778
01:30:16,841 --> 01:30:18,801
It just proves that high education
1779
01:30:19,721 --> 01:30:22,281
isn't a major point to us,
just getting him out of
1780
01:30:22,281 --> 01:30:24,521
first grade was a major importance to us
1781
01:30:24,521 --> 01:30:26,641
and so university seems a long way off
1782
01:30:26,641 --> 01:30:29,401
and so we just take each year as it comes.
1783
01:30:29,401 --> 01:30:30,881
- I was going to be a policeman
1784
01:30:30,881 --> 01:30:34,841
but I thought how hard
it would be to join in.
1785
01:30:36,121 --> 01:30:37,961
I just haven't made up my mind yet.
1786
01:30:37,961 --> 01:30:39,241
I was going to be a phys ed teacher
1787
01:30:39,241 --> 01:30:42,961
but one of the teachers told me you had
1788
01:30:42,961 --> 01:30:44,601
to get up into university.
1789
01:30:46,121 --> 01:30:48,361
- At 21 Paul as
working as a junior partner
1790
01:30:48,361 --> 01:30:50,921
for a firm of bricklayers in Melbourne.
1791
01:30:50,921 --> 01:30:54,481
By 28 he'd gone out on his
own as a sub-contractor
1792
01:30:54,481 --> 01:30:56,081
but it didn't work out.
1793
01:30:56,081 --> 01:30:59,481
Since then he'd had a variety
of jobs in the building trade.
1794
01:30:59,481 --> 01:31:00,841
- Well I'm more of a trades person
1795
01:31:00,841 --> 01:31:02,561
than a business person you know,
1796
01:31:04,081 --> 01:31:05,361
I've never had any business training
1797
01:31:05,361 --> 01:31:09,241
and if I've got natural ability
I probably haven't used it.
1798
01:31:10,201 --> 01:31:11,961
Where do the problems go?
1799
01:31:11,961 --> 01:31:15,401
I mean did I lose it because
of it or did I never have it?
1800
01:31:15,401 --> 01:31:17,361
I think the confidence was never there,
1801
01:31:18,641 --> 01:31:21,441
it might run I the family sort of thing.
1802
01:31:21,441 --> 01:31:24,081
- I think maybe it's the lack
of security maybe he felt
1803
01:31:24,081 --> 01:31:25,921
when he was a child, perhaps,
1804
01:31:25,921 --> 01:31:28,201
that's my theory, my theory alone.
1805
01:31:28,201 --> 01:31:30,201
I mean that's the old thing isn't it,
1806
01:31:30,201 --> 01:31:32,401
when one of your parents are taken away
1807
01:31:32,401 --> 01:31:34,561
from you you lack security.
1808
01:31:35,561 --> 01:31:38,481
- The monitors up in the
washroom sends the nurse
1809
01:31:38,481 --> 01:31:41,721
out well there's no talking
well I wasn't talking.
1810
01:31:41,721 --> 01:31:44,321
- Katy now has this saying,
oh you know me I'm hopeless
1811
01:31:44,321 --> 01:31:47,281
and it's just Paul you know,
oh you know me I can't do this.
1812
01:31:47,281 --> 01:31:48,801
And it's sort of like this
defeatist attitude type
1813
01:31:48,801 --> 01:31:51,241
of thing but oh I don't
know I just ignore it
1814
01:31:51,241 --> 01:31:54,201
and go along my merry way I suppose.
1815
01:31:54,201 --> 01:31:56,361
He has got better, I
think as you get older
1816
01:31:57,321 --> 01:32:00,401
maturer you know, confidence
does come to a point.
1817
01:32:01,921 --> 01:32:04,801
- I really went through
a stage it's so stupid
1818
01:32:04,801 --> 01:32:07,961
because I was only a
bricklayer like I failed.
1819
01:32:07,961 --> 01:32:10,001
Something happened with
that job and I started
1820
01:32:10,001 --> 01:32:12,081
to maybe I did start
to look at what we had
1821
01:32:12,081 --> 01:32:14,401
and think what do you want out of life?
1822
01:32:15,401 --> 01:32:18,681
What's so bad about what we got?
1823
01:32:25,081 --> 01:32:27,841
- Do the two
of you have a dream?
1824
01:32:29,681 --> 01:32:32,561
- I've always wanted
to move to the country.
1825
01:32:32,561 --> 01:32:34,681
I wouldn't mind a small property,
1826
01:32:35,961 --> 01:32:37,321
doesn't have to be big or flashy.
1827
01:32:37,321 --> 01:32:38,761
It's more relaxed style
1828
01:32:38,761 --> 01:32:42,161
of living, an attractive
sort of lifestyle.
1829
01:32:44,361 --> 01:32:46,041
- We've just been
together for so long we're
1830
01:32:46,041 --> 01:32:48,921
just sort of plod along together.
1831
01:32:49,841 --> 01:32:53,801
I enjoy his company and he
enjoys mine most of the time.
1832
01:32:55,241 --> 01:32:57,481
I know that he's going to
come home to me every night,
1833
01:32:57,481 --> 01:32:59,481
I'm going to have someone there.
1834
01:32:59,481 --> 01:33:01,521
He's very secure that way.
1835
01:33:03,241 --> 01:33:05,841
- She does put up with a lot.
1836
01:33:05,841 --> 01:33:08,681
I can't be that easy to live with.
1837
01:33:09,681 --> 01:33:12,921
I'm nice but I'm not easy to live with.
1838
01:33:18,961 --> 01:33:22,321
- Well we pretend we've got swords.
1839
01:33:22,321 --> 01:33:24,161
We make the noises of the swords fighting
1840
01:33:24,161 --> 01:33:26,361
and when somebody stabs us we go aargh.
1841
01:33:28,161 --> 01:33:30,121
If think if you're healthy
and have good friends
1842
01:33:30,121 --> 01:33:31,441
you can get on perfectly well.
1843
01:33:31,441 --> 01:33:33,041
Everybody would like to be rich.
1844
01:33:34,561 --> 01:33:39,561
I came to London and contacted
an agency for squatters
1845
01:33:40,241 --> 01:33:44,361
and they were able to give
me an address of somebody
1846
01:33:44,361 --> 01:33:46,921
who was able to help
people who were looking
1847
01:33:46,921 --> 01:33:49,561
for accommodation in the London area.
1848
01:33:49,561 --> 01:33:51,721
- But you've
kicked against the stability.
1849
01:33:53,241 --> 01:33:56,641
- I don't think I ever had any
stability to be quite honest.
1850
01:33:57,761 --> 01:34:00,721
I can't think of any time
in my life when I ever did.
1851
01:34:00,721 --> 01:34:02,601
I don't think I've been
kicking against anything
1852
01:34:02,601 --> 01:34:05,281
I think I've been kicking in
mid air the whole of my life.
1853
01:34:06,641 --> 01:34:07,961
I've been moving about a bit
1854
01:34:07,961 --> 01:34:10,721
between difference places
really, a bit unsettled
1855
01:34:10,721 --> 01:34:14,561
but I'm very shortly
moving to live in digs.
1856
01:34:15,841 --> 01:34:19,001
- At 28 Neil was
roaming around Britain.
1857
01:34:19,001 --> 01:34:21,761
We found him on the
west coast of Scotland.
1858
01:34:21,761 --> 01:34:22,641
- If the state didn't give us
1859
01:34:22,641 --> 01:34:24,081
any money it would probably
1860
01:34:24,081 --> 01:34:27,401
just mean crime and I'm
glad I don't have to steal
1861
01:34:27,401 --> 01:34:28,481
to keep myself alive.
1862
01:34:31,081 --> 01:34:33,561
If the money runs out
well then for a few days
1863
01:34:33,561 --> 01:34:36,721
there's nowhere to go to
that's all you can do,
1864
01:34:36,721 --> 01:34:39,201
I simply have to find the
warmest shed I can find.
1865
01:34:41,081 --> 01:34:43,721
- At 35 he's
living in a council flat
1866
01:34:43,721 --> 01:34:45,081
in the Shetland Islands.
1867
01:34:47,601 --> 01:34:48,721
- The nice thing about
here is that you can cut
1868
01:34:48,721 --> 01:34:51,521
yourself off when you want
because there are people
1869
01:34:51,521 --> 01:34:53,921
living around but they're
pretty quiet people.
1870
01:34:55,001 --> 01:34:57,321
It's an environment which
sustains me it's one
1871
01:34:57,321 --> 01:34:58,801
in which I can survive.
1872
01:35:00,161 --> 01:35:03,561
I still feel my real place is in the world
1873
01:35:03,561 --> 01:35:07,961
of the world where people are doing
1874
01:35:07,961 --> 01:35:09,521
what the majority of people do.
1875
01:35:11,721 --> 01:35:13,481
And the reason I don't feel safe is
1876
01:35:13,481 --> 01:35:14,561
because I think I'm getting more
1877
01:35:14,561 --> 01:35:17,161
and more used to this lifestyle
1878
01:35:18,081 --> 01:35:20,161
which eventually I shall have to give up.
1879
01:35:21,121 --> 01:35:23,361
- How do you
manage for money these days?
1880
01:35:24,761 --> 01:35:27,521
- Social Security still, I wish it wasn't
1881
01:35:27,521 --> 01:35:28,921
but I'm afraid it is.
1882
01:35:30,721 --> 01:35:32,121
I've no desire to be putting
1883
01:35:32,121 --> 01:35:36,241
the taxes up and drawing money
off people who've earned it
1884
01:35:37,441 --> 01:35:41,081
themselves but that's the way it is.
1885
01:35:42,721 --> 01:35:44,921
Well I'm going to take
people to the country
1886
01:35:44,921 --> 01:35:47,721
and sometimes take them to the sea-side
1887
01:35:47,721 --> 01:35:51,601
and I'll have a big loud
speaker in the motor coach
1888
01:35:51,601 --> 01:35:54,801
and tell them whereabouts
we are and what we're going
1889
01:35:54,801 --> 01:35:59,801
to do and what the name of the
road is and all about that.
1890
01:36:00,281 --> 01:36:02,681
- Neil was brought
up in a Liverpool suburb,
1891
01:36:02,681 --> 01:36:04,601
went to a local comprehensive school
1892
01:36:04,601 --> 01:36:06,601
and Aberdeen University.
1893
01:36:06,601 --> 01:36:08,321
He dropped out after a term
1894
01:36:08,321 --> 01:36:11,241
and at 21 was working on
a building site in London.
1895
01:36:15,241 --> 01:36:17,361
At 28 he was homeless.
1896
01:36:18,561 --> 01:36:20,041
How do people regard you here?
1897
01:36:22,081 --> 01:36:24,481
- Well I'm still
known as an eccentric
1898
01:36:26,241 --> 01:36:31,121
as I have been since
about the age of 16 or so.
1899
01:36:33,081 --> 01:36:35,321
- Do the days seem long for you?
1900
01:36:35,321 --> 01:36:36,161
- They can do.
1901
01:36:42,761 --> 01:36:44,481
- Do you have
any friends anywhere?
1902
01:36:44,481 --> 01:36:46,561
- I've some good friends still in England.
1903
01:36:49,641 --> 01:36:50,761
- Neil settled down
1904
01:36:50,761 --> 01:36:53,441
in the Shetland Islands
a couple of years ago.
1905
01:36:55,161 --> 01:36:56,641
- Hello Neil how are you?
1906
01:36:56,641 --> 01:36:59,121
- Is the
community important to you?
1907
01:36:59,121 --> 01:37:01,441
- Yes, it has to be, this is where I live.
1908
01:37:02,521 --> 01:37:03,841
It's been very good to me.
1909
01:37:04,801 --> 01:37:08,921
People have been especially
kind in many areas
1910
01:37:08,921 --> 01:37:11,801
and I'd like to be putting
something back into it
1911
01:37:11,801 --> 01:37:13,041
and we'd be putting something back
1912
01:37:13,041 --> 01:37:16,241
into the whole of Shetland,
not just into this area.
1913
01:37:18,041 --> 01:37:20,121
I'll take 2 pints of milk please.
1914
01:37:20,121 --> 01:37:21,121
- There we are Neil.
1915
01:37:22,041 --> 01:37:24,001
And how's the pantomime then?
1916
01:37:24,001 --> 01:37:24,961
- Not so bad.
1917
01:37:24,961 --> 01:37:27,201
- Oh that's good, no traumas?
1918
01:37:27,201 --> 01:37:29,201
- Not on my part but people could do
1919
01:37:29,201 --> 01:37:30,721
with learning their lines a bit better.
1920
01:37:30,721 --> 01:37:31,801
- But you're alright.
1921
01:37:31,801 --> 01:37:34,081
- Well I shouldn't speak too soon.
1922
01:37:34,081 --> 01:37:36,481
When I grow up I want to be an astronaut
1923
01:37:36,481 --> 01:37:38,601
but if I can't be an astronaut
1924
01:37:38,601 --> 01:37:40,321
I think I'll be a coach driver.
1925
01:37:41,481 --> 01:37:42,481
This probably linked up with the fact now
1926
01:37:42,481 --> 01:37:44,241
that I want to travel I mean my thoughts
1927
01:37:44,241 --> 01:37:46,201
haven't really changed that much
1928
01:37:46,201 --> 01:37:47,761
but I definitely wouldn't
like to be a coach driver now.
1929
01:37:50,801 --> 01:37:55,241
I suppose I would, yes, well
I would like to be somebody
1930
01:37:55,241 --> 01:37:58,961
in a position of importance,
I've always thought this
1931
01:37:58,961 --> 01:38:00,801
but I don't think I'm
the right sort of person
1932
01:38:00,801 --> 01:38:03,041
to carry the responsibility
for whatever it is.
1933
01:38:03,041 --> 01:38:07,521
I've always though well I'd
love to be possibly love
1934
01:38:07,521 --> 01:38:11,041
to be in politics or something like this
1935
01:38:11,041 --> 01:38:14,801
but I'd probably find that just as tedious
1936
01:38:14,801 --> 01:38:17,961
as all the other jobs I've done so.
1937
01:38:19,521 --> 01:38:21,841
What were the things I
always thought I could do.
1938
01:38:23,561 --> 01:38:27,321
I could give lectures on erudite subjects
1939
01:38:27,321 --> 01:38:31,841
that I'd read all about or
I could work in the theatre,
1940
01:38:32,921 --> 01:38:37,761
perhaps lighting or directing a show.
1941
01:38:42,121 --> 01:38:43,241
- And is all that lost to you?
1942
01:38:43,241 --> 01:38:44,441
- Does seem to be yes.
1943
01:39:02,241 --> 01:39:06,441
- The village pantomime
1990 Beauty and the Beast.
1944
01:39:14,401 --> 01:39:15,801
- Matthew Matthew
1945
01:39:23,801 --> 01:39:25,761
Your house sir is needing some repairs.
1946
01:39:27,761 --> 01:39:29,161
I think the attendance
at last years pantomime
1947
01:39:29,161 --> 01:39:32,001
on the Saturday night
was the biggest crowd
1948
01:39:32,001 --> 01:39:35,041
of West of Shetland folk
I'd ever seen in one place.
1949
01:39:35,041 --> 01:39:37,681
And you know and we think they enjoyed it.
1950
01:39:42,561 --> 01:39:45,201
We had good receptions in other
parts of Shetland as well.
1951
01:39:45,201 --> 01:39:46,841
We did tour one play.
1952
01:39:46,841 --> 01:39:47,681
I think were moving
1953
01:39:47,681 --> 01:39:50,721
into an age when there's
going to be more stress
1954
01:39:50,721 --> 01:39:51,961
on the community.
1955
01:39:51,961 --> 01:39:54,001
When bigger policies are fairly set,
1956
01:39:54,001 --> 01:39:56,881
are fairly predictable, and the emphasis
1957
01:39:56,881 --> 01:39:59,561
is gonna fall on local organisation.
1958
01:40:01,881 --> 01:40:03,561
- You directed it last year
1959
01:40:03,561 --> 01:40:05,441
and you're not this year why is that?
1960
01:40:07,081 --> 01:40:10,161
- Well the specific reason is that we had
1961
01:40:10,161 --> 01:40:12,401
a preliminary meeting and
I was, my name was not
1962
01:40:12,401 --> 01:40:16,121
put forward as the one they wanted so.
1963
01:40:20,681 --> 01:40:22,001
- Why would that be?
1964
01:40:23,561 --> 01:40:26,881
- Probably because I like
to do things in my own way
1965
01:40:26,881 --> 01:40:29,601
I'm perhaps quite an
authoritative director
1966
01:40:29,601 --> 01:40:32,761
I have my own idea of the performance
1967
01:40:32,761 --> 01:40:35,201
before we even start
and I don't like people
1968
01:40:35,201 --> 01:40:36,921
to deviate from that and during the course
1969
01:40:36,921 --> 01:40:39,081
of production of course people
come along with suggestions.
1970
01:40:39,081 --> 01:40:41,321
No I accept suggestions,
I don't just go along
1971
01:40:41,321 --> 01:40:43,881
without listening to people
but I know how I want the thing
1972
01:40:43,881 --> 01:40:46,161
and once I deviate once from that idea,
1973
01:40:46,161 --> 01:40:47,601
the whole thing actually falls apart.
1974
01:40:47,601 --> 01:40:49,401
It's not a work of art any more.
1975
01:40:49,401 --> 01:40:51,641
I'm not claiming that I
produce marvellous works of art
1976
01:40:51,641 --> 01:40:53,441
but I do know what I'm aiming for.
1977
01:40:54,361 --> 01:40:59,361
Alas poor master, still
sleeping, shall I awaken him.
1978
01:41:00,881 --> 01:41:02,521
I think everybody wants to be somebody
1979
01:41:02,521 --> 01:41:03,921
and when you can't actually be anything
1980
01:41:03,921 --> 01:41:06,721
in your ordinary life if
you feel there's a sphere
1981
01:41:06,721 --> 01:41:08,961
in which you can excel then it's great.
1982
01:41:08,961 --> 01:41:12,241
I mean I know how much pleasure
people who take photographs
1983
01:41:12,241 --> 01:41:14,001
get when their work is praised
1984
01:41:14,001 --> 01:41:17,321
and that's perhaps it's
much the same thing.
1985
01:41:18,321 --> 01:41:20,641
- We'll just taking take
a quick look at your plan
1986
01:41:20,641 --> 01:41:21,641
and see how it stands.
1987
01:41:21,641 --> 01:41:24,201
- What I have done is
taken lists of all the
1988
01:41:24,201 --> 01:41:26,881
community halls in Shetland
with their capacity.
1989
01:41:26,881 --> 01:41:28,321
- Neil is trying to organise
1990
01:41:28,321 --> 01:41:30,481
a professional touring theatre company.
1991
01:41:30,481 --> 01:41:33,001
- If a hall only seats
60 people it may not
1992
01:41:33,001 --> 01:41:35,241
be worth putting on a show there.
1993
01:41:36,241 --> 01:41:37,201
- I mean what was your
response at the fact
1994
01:41:37,201 --> 01:41:38,881
that only 4 folk turned up at the.
1995
01:41:40,201 --> 01:41:42,041
- Disappointment, it was disappointment.
1996
01:41:42,041 --> 01:41:44,561
I was disappointed but I
think it proves the point
1997
01:41:44,561 --> 01:41:46,321
that I've been trying to
make that you can't just
1998
01:41:46,321 --> 01:41:48,881
except people to turn up for
a group from outside Shetland
1999
01:41:48,881 --> 01:41:50,481
when they don't know
what the things about.
2000
01:41:54,161 --> 01:41:56,001
I've had an instinctive
feeling that I was a writer
2001
01:41:56,001 --> 01:41:59,281
since I was 16, I never really
wanted to be anything else.
2002
01:42:00,561 --> 01:42:02,241
I would actually pay to
have something published.
2003
01:42:02,241 --> 01:42:04,481
I think that's important I
think if I could find somebody
2004
01:42:04,481 --> 01:42:06,801
that would recognise,
there must be something
2005
01:42:06,801 --> 01:42:07,641
in what I've done.
2006
01:42:07,641 --> 01:42:08,801
I don't think it's all useless.
2007
01:42:08,801 --> 01:42:11,561
I probably am overvaluing it
but I know how much effort
2008
01:42:11,561 --> 01:42:14,721
went into some of it and
on that strength alone
2009
01:42:14,721 --> 01:42:16,401
I just can't believe it's useless.
2010
01:42:17,521 --> 01:42:20,241
With each successive play
I don't know who I'm trying
2011
01:42:20,241 --> 01:42:23,161
to speak to and what I'm
trying to say to them
2012
01:42:23,161 --> 01:42:25,961
and whether they're
listening I just keep going
2013
01:42:25,961 --> 01:42:28,241
because that's what I
feel I should be doing.
2014
01:42:28,241 --> 01:42:30,561
In the winter, if you live in the country,
2015
01:42:30,561 --> 01:42:32,961
well it's just all wet and
there wouldn't be anything
2016
01:42:32,961 --> 01:42:37,961
for miles around and you'd
get soaked if you tried
2017
01:42:38,041 --> 01:42:41,001
to go out and there's no
shelter anywhere except
2018
01:42:41,001 --> 01:42:42,521
in your own house.
2019
01:42:42,521 --> 01:42:44,041
But in the town you can go out
2020
01:42:44,041 --> 01:42:46,841
on wet wintry days cause you
can always find somewhere
2021
01:42:46,841 --> 01:42:49,361
to shelter because there's lots of places.
2022
01:42:51,041 --> 01:42:53,521
I don't think I've been
typical of the environment
2023
01:42:53,521 --> 01:42:54,561
in which I lived.
2024
01:42:54,561 --> 01:42:56,161
What my background has given me
2025
01:42:56,161 --> 01:43:01,161
is a sense of just being part
of a very impersonal society.
2026
01:43:03,121 --> 01:43:05,441
You finish the week you come home you plug
2027
01:43:05,441 --> 01:43:07,081
into the TV set for the weekend
2028
01:43:07,081 --> 01:43:10,161
and then you manage to get
back to work on Monday.
2029
01:43:10,161 --> 01:43:13,161
And it seems to me this
is just a slow path
2030
01:43:13,161 --> 01:43:15,801
to total brain washing and if I you have
2031
01:43:15,801 --> 01:43:18,321
a brain washed society
then you're heading towards
2032
01:43:18,321 --> 01:43:20,121
doom there's no question about that.
2033
01:43:21,401 --> 01:43:23,321
- Well it weren't too
bad last night anyway.
2034
01:43:23,321 --> 01:43:26,121
- It was better than it's
been for a while I think.
2035
01:43:26,121 --> 01:43:27,521
- There was enormous
reaction to you in the
2036
01:43:27,521 --> 01:43:30,321
previous film what do people
see in you do you think?
2037
01:43:31,321 --> 01:43:32,921
- It's seemed that I was representing some
2038
01:43:32,921 --> 01:43:36,321
kind of successful escapism or somebody
2039
01:43:36,321 --> 01:43:39,041
who'd managed to be totally himself,
2040
01:43:39,041 --> 01:43:41,961
hadn't given in to pressure of society
2041
01:43:41,961 --> 01:43:45,361
to conform and people
flooded me with letters
2042
01:43:45,361 --> 01:43:46,201
and people seemed to think
2043
01:43:46,201 --> 01:43:48,001
I could solve their personal problems.
2044
01:43:48,001 --> 01:43:50,801
And I was quite frightened
because I knew I couldn't
2045
01:43:50,801 --> 01:43:53,041
but what really bothered
me was people seemed
2046
01:43:53,041 --> 01:43:56,201
to see something in me that I
hadn't been aware of myself.
2047
01:43:56,201 --> 01:43:58,561
All I was aware of was that
I didn't have anywhere to go,
2048
01:43:58,561 --> 01:44:01,281
I had nothing to do I'd no money,
2049
01:44:01,281 --> 01:44:03,921
I felt let down by quite a lot of people.
2050
01:44:03,921 --> 01:44:05,481
I didn't think my life was a success
2051
01:44:05,481 --> 01:44:07,321
but suddenly everybody seemed to think so
2052
01:44:07,321 --> 01:44:08,921
but the most nagging
thing was that whatever,
2053
01:44:08,921 --> 01:44:10,601
even if a million people had written to me
2054
01:44:10,601 --> 01:44:12,881
it wouldn't have made any
difference to my own situation.
2055
01:44:12,881 --> 01:44:15,801
When I get married I don't
want to have any children
2056
01:44:16,841 --> 01:44:20,801
because they're always
doing naughty things
2057
01:44:20,801 --> 01:44:24,321
and making the whole house untidy.
2058
01:44:24,321 --> 01:44:28,001
I always told myself that I
would never have children.
2059
01:44:30,601 --> 01:44:32,081
- Why?
2060
01:44:32,081 --> 01:44:37,081
- Because, because, well
because children inherit
2061
01:44:37,481 --> 01:44:39,281
something from their parents.
2062
01:44:39,281 --> 01:44:40,641
And even if my wife
2063
01:44:40,641 --> 01:44:44,241
were the most high spirited and ordinary
2064
01:44:44,241 --> 01:44:47,641
and normal of people the
child would still stand
2065
01:44:47,641 --> 01:44:52,321
a very fair chance of
being not totally full
2066
01:44:52,321 --> 01:44:54,641
of happiness because of what he
2067
01:44:54,641 --> 01:44:57,921
or she would've inherited from me.
2068
01:44:57,921 --> 01:44:59,601
- Have you given up on women?
2069
01:45:02,281 --> 01:45:07,001
- Well, what how shall
we say, all but you know.
2070
01:45:07,001 --> 01:45:08,841
I mean there's always, everybody always,
2071
01:45:08,841 --> 01:45:12,081
every unmarried man and
every unmarried woman hopes
2072
01:45:12,081 --> 01:45:14,401
for somebody who will actually come along
2073
01:45:14,401 --> 01:45:15,721
to change their life.
2074
01:45:15,721 --> 01:45:18,001
But the practical reality
2075
01:45:18,001 --> 01:45:19,961
is the chances of my finding somebody
2076
01:45:19,961 --> 01:45:24,961
who would put up with me
in my integrity is are few.
2077
01:45:31,401 --> 01:45:33,921
- What would
you look for in a woman?
2078
01:45:33,921 --> 01:45:35,481
- Well I might look for various things
2079
01:45:35,481 --> 01:45:36,641
but what's probably more important is
2080
01:45:36,641 --> 01:45:38,161
what somebody would look for in me.
2081
01:45:38,161 --> 01:45:40,001
I can't offer reliability.
2082
01:45:40,001 --> 01:45:41,961
I mean most women looking for a husband
2083
01:45:41,961 --> 01:45:44,761
or a steady man wants somebody
2084
01:45:44,761 --> 01:45:46,641
who is reliable in some way or other.
2085
01:45:46,641 --> 01:45:48,361
I cannot offer that.
2086
01:45:48,361 --> 01:45:49,201
Because I don't know
what I'm going to be like
2087
01:45:49,201 --> 01:45:50,641
from one day to the other and
it would be foolish for me
2088
01:45:50,641 --> 01:45:53,681
pretending you know that I
could offer something like that.
2089
01:45:53,681 --> 01:45:57,561
I can offer sincerity,
I can offer compassion,
2090
01:45:59,761 --> 01:46:04,761
willingness to do my part
to put my wife's interests
2091
01:46:04,921 --> 01:46:08,721
as high as my own, no doubt these are,
2092
01:46:08,721 --> 01:46:09,961
I'm sure these are important.
2093
01:46:09,961 --> 01:46:12,321
But I cannot say look in
2094
01:46:12,321 --> 01:46:15,721
10 years time I'll still
be bringing in a wage in,
2095
01:46:15,721 --> 01:46:19,641
especially if I don't start
in that situation, you know.
2096
01:46:19,641 --> 01:46:21,801
- Do you
worry about your sanity?
2097
01:46:25,161 --> 01:46:27,441
- Other people sometimes worry about it.
2098
01:46:28,961 --> 01:46:30,721
- Like who?
2099
01:46:34,241 --> 01:46:38,641
- As I said, I sometimes
can be found behaving
2100
01:46:38,641 --> 01:46:43,041
in an erratic fashion,
sometimes get very frustrated,
2101
01:46:43,041 --> 01:46:45,721
very angry for no apparent reason.
2102
01:46:45,721 --> 01:46:47,401
For a reason which won't be apparent
2103
01:46:47,401 --> 01:46:48,681
to other people around me.
2104
01:46:52,041 --> 01:46:53,401
It's happened from time to time.
2105
01:46:56,721 --> 01:46:57,961
- Are you
getting better or worse
2106
01:46:57,961 --> 01:46:59,561
do you think your state?
2107
01:46:59,561 --> 01:47:02,201
- I don't think there's any
significant change in me,
2108
01:47:03,041 --> 01:47:04,801
I said I haven't been so depressed
2109
01:47:04,801 --> 01:47:06,561
since I've been in Shetland,
2110
01:47:06,561 --> 01:47:09,241
I suppose my basic personality
is not a lot different.
2111
01:47:10,241 --> 01:47:12,121
- Are you having
any medical treatment
2112
01:47:12,121 --> 01:47:13,561
for your mood changes?
2113
01:47:13,561 --> 01:47:16,041
- No I haven't for many
years because I wouldn't like
2114
01:47:16,041 --> 01:47:20,201
to be dependent upon man
made substances for a cure.
2115
01:47:21,641 --> 01:47:23,641
- Do you ever
think you're going mad?
2116
01:47:23,641 --> 01:47:26,481
- I don't think it I know it.
2117
01:47:26,481 --> 01:47:31,481
I, well we're not allowed
to use the word mad
2118
01:47:33,641 --> 01:47:38,001
but you know, I think
most people are mad here
2119
01:47:40,041 --> 01:47:41,641
but I think it's a mad world.
2120
01:47:41,641 --> 01:47:45,841
I think I remember walking
in London 12 years ago
2121
01:47:45,841 --> 01:47:48,881
and just walking through the city
2122
01:47:48,881 --> 01:47:50,561
and they were digging up the drains
2123
01:47:50,561 --> 01:47:52,961
and there were cranes
knocking down buildings
2124
01:47:52,961 --> 01:47:54,601
and there were cars trying to get down
2125
01:47:54,601 --> 01:47:57,841
impossible narrow alleys and
having to reverse out again
2126
01:47:57,841 --> 01:48:00,601
and policemen doing all kinds of things
2127
01:48:00,601 --> 01:48:01,921
and I thought this world
is just mad you know,
2128
01:48:01,921 --> 01:48:03,921
this world is just mad.
2129
01:48:03,921 --> 01:48:05,721
Yes I'd say I believed in God.
2130
01:48:05,721 --> 01:48:07,161
- Are you religious?
2131
01:48:08,441 --> 01:48:10,841
- Well I go to church with
my parents on Sundays.
2132
01:48:11,801 --> 01:48:14,561
I don't know even know whether
I do believe in God or not.
2133
01:48:14,561 --> 01:48:17,321
I thought an awful lot about it actually
2134
01:48:17,321 --> 01:48:20,481
and I still don't know
but I still led to believe
2135
01:48:20,481 --> 01:48:21,561
that it was absolutely certain if one was
2136
01:48:21,561 --> 01:48:24,561
to survive in the world
one had to believe in God.
2137
01:48:24,561 --> 01:48:26,481
- And how's
he been treating you?
2138
01:48:27,641 --> 01:48:29,921
- Well I said to somebody last week
2139
01:48:29,921 --> 01:48:31,721
that I preferred the Old Testament
2140
01:48:31,721 --> 01:48:35,601
to the New Testament because
in the Old Testament God
2141
01:48:35,601 --> 01:48:40,161
is very unpredictable
and that's I think how
2142
01:48:40,161 --> 01:48:42,881
I see him in my life.
2143
01:48:42,881 --> 01:48:45,561
Sometimes very benevolent,
2144
01:48:45,561 --> 01:48:49,361
sometimes seemingly needlessly unkind.
2145
01:48:49,361 --> 01:48:52,841
Well after I'd tried every
remedy one could possibly
2146
01:48:52,841 --> 01:48:55,961
think of for my personality disorders,
2147
01:48:57,161 --> 01:48:59,281
I thought well I'm going to trust God
2148
01:48:59,281 --> 01:49:02,201
because other people
have done so seemingly
2149
01:49:02,201 --> 01:49:04,881
with positive results.
2150
01:49:04,881 --> 01:49:08,601
I can't say the moment I
trusted God my life was fine
2151
01:49:08,601 --> 01:49:10,961
and I can't say all the time
2152
01:49:10,961 --> 01:49:14,881
that I think I've found
the answer but I can say
2153
01:49:14,881 --> 01:49:17,161
with some certainty that
once I started believing
2154
01:49:17,161 --> 01:49:21,961
that there is actually a God
who has something of a design
2155
01:49:21,961 --> 01:49:24,841
for the world, who is working
in a certain way in the world.
2156
01:49:24,841 --> 01:49:27,761
After that some things
became clearer to me,
2157
01:49:28,801 --> 01:49:30,761
I really can't say much more than that.
2158
01:49:32,201 --> 01:49:35,601
- Coloured people we
don't like them very much.
2159
01:49:35,601 --> 01:49:40,001
- No it sounds like
ghostly coloured people,
2160
01:49:40,001 --> 01:49:42,041
you think of a sort of purple person
2161
01:49:42,041 --> 01:49:44,641
with red eyes and yellow feet
2162
01:49:44,641 --> 01:49:48,881
and you can't really think of
what they really look like.
2163
01:49:50,001 --> 01:49:52,401
I find it hard to believe
that I was ever like that
2164
01:49:52,401 --> 01:49:53,841
but there's the evidence.
2165
01:49:54,801 --> 01:49:57,521
Probably when I was seven I
just lived in a wonderful world
2166
01:49:57,521 --> 01:49:59,161
where everything was all sensation
2167
01:49:59,161 --> 01:50:00,721
and them I could be happy like this,
2168
01:50:00,721 --> 01:50:02,721
I could be miserable the next one.
2169
01:50:06,281 --> 01:50:08,881
I don't have a yearning for
any past time in my life.
2170
01:50:08,881 --> 01:50:10,961
Perhaps in my subconscious
I could recall a time
2171
01:50:10,961 --> 01:50:12,601
when everything was a lot happier
2172
01:50:13,481 --> 01:50:15,921
my teens were terribly unhappy years.
2173
01:50:18,321 --> 01:50:19,801
- If we come back in 7 years
2174
01:50:19,801 --> 01:50:22,601
how would you like us to find you?
2175
01:50:24,281 --> 01:50:27,321
- In a job from which I
was getting satisfaction,
2176
01:50:28,401 --> 01:50:35,601
married, probably with
children, with a good salary.
2177
01:50:38,281 --> 01:50:41,241
Enough to as I said before to be able
2178
01:50:41,241 --> 01:50:44,961
to live fairly comfortably
and with friends
2179
01:50:44,961 --> 01:50:48,001
who I could contact when I wanted them.
2180
01:50:48,921 --> 01:50:50,721
- So do you
think you have failed?
2181
01:50:55,521 --> 01:50:56,561
- Can't really judge.
2182
01:51:00,041 --> 01:51:02,201
- Do you feel
you've failed yourself?
2183
01:51:03,481 --> 01:51:04,801
- Well my life isn't over.
2184
01:51:11,201 --> 01:51:13,241
- Can you think what you'd like
2185
01:51:13,241 --> 01:51:16,761
to be doing in the year 2000?
2186
01:51:16,761 --> 01:51:18,801
- I can think of all kinds of
things I'd like to be doing.
2187
01:51:18,801 --> 01:51:23,161
The real question is what
am I likely to be doing?
2188
01:51:29,081 --> 01:51:31,441
- What are
you likely to be doing?
2189
01:51:31,441 --> 01:51:32,881
- That's a horrible question.
2190
01:51:34,481 --> 01:51:37,401
I tend to think most likely the answer is
2191
01:51:37,401 --> 01:51:39,281
I will be wandering
homeless around the streets
2192
01:51:39,281 --> 01:51:42,641
of London but with a bit
of luck that won't happen.
2193
01:51:46,841 --> 01:51:50,081
I always feel that somehow
a good fairy has waved
2194
01:51:50,081 --> 01:51:52,361
a wand over me and saved
me from that because
2195
01:51:52,361 --> 01:51:55,721
that seemed very much what
the end would be for a while.
2196
01:51:55,721 --> 01:51:59,801
That's why I cling on here,
I know how tempting it is
2197
01:51:59,801 --> 01:52:02,441
to escape into fantasies, to believe
2198
01:52:02,441 --> 01:52:04,721
that I already am a successful writer.
2199
01:52:04,721 --> 01:52:07,121
To believe that I've got lots of friends,
2200
01:52:07,121 --> 01:52:09,441
to believe that if only I had
done such and such my life,
2201
01:52:09,441 --> 01:52:11,761
would've been different but I
mean the most difficult thing
2202
01:52:11,761 --> 01:52:15,761
is to accept the reality, to
be what we are in a situation.
2203
01:52:16,761 --> 01:52:17,681
That's terribly difficult.
2204
01:52:26,401 --> 01:52:27,681
- No not intentionally.
2205
01:52:27,681 --> 01:52:31,361
- I must you, I'm a
moustache fellow, a beard.
2206
01:52:39,041 --> 01:52:40,961
- At the end
of their very special day
2207
01:52:40,961 --> 01:52:45,281
in London after their trip
to the zoo and the party.
2208
01:52:45,281 --> 01:52:48,321
We took our children to
an adventure playground
2209
01:52:48,321 --> 01:52:50,361
where they could do just what they liked.
2210
01:52:53,161 --> 01:52:56,441
Those from the children's home
set about building a house.
2211
01:53:01,121 --> 01:53:02,041
There's Nicholas.
2212
01:53:09,241 --> 01:53:14,241
And Tony.
2213
01:53:17,281 --> 01:53:18,121
Andrew.
2214
01:53:23,721 --> 01:53:24,561
And Bruce
2215
01:53:30,961 --> 01:53:31,801
John.
2216
01:53:39,361 --> 01:53:40,201
Suzi.
2217
01:53:48,321 --> 01:53:50,201
Jackie and her friends.
2218
01:53:56,121 --> 01:53:58,961
Give me a child until he is seven
2219
01:53:58,961 --> 01:54:00,441
and I will give you the man.
2220
01:54:09,841 --> 01:54:13,001
This has been a glimpse
of Britain's future.
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