All language subtitles for alone_s03e03_eternal_darkness

Oh, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid.

One split second takes everything away.

What is that?

Sounds like something in distress.

So I'm getting my vitamins and minerals,
but I definitely need protein.

Okay,

I'm not planning on being out here and
not being comfortable.

Building a shelter here will work really
good, but heading up and down that hill

every day will be a real challenge.

Get some water right now. My pot has
this delicious continual undertone of

fish.

We call it a fish-a-tay.

Mmm. The undertones of scales and

fish guts is additional.

I'm feeling super motivated today.

So I'm going to work on my permanent
shelter.

The design for this shelter is kind of
like a makeshift cabin.

We have our main structure here.

The roof is going to come down and
attach to ridge poles that go along

there, which debris walls will then be
built up right along the edge there.

I think that weather is a really big
part of this journey.

And I've heard, you know, in certain
areas of Patagonia, the wind can blow,

you know, 100 miles an hour for a week
straight.

That's brutal.

I'm really hoping to be able to create a
really comfortable home space so I can

escape the elements.

All right.

Get to work.

We're going to take two posts and hammer
them in, and then we're going to fill

this inside with debris.

If I had to kind of peg down my survival
philosophy or strategy, it would be

creating a home, you know, is going to
be the environment in which I

will thrive.

So the debris is going to act as an
insulation, too, for the walls.

I'm kind of going opposite directions,
so they kind of lock together.

I think I really learned to love to do
projects like this from my mom.

She kind of instilled in both me and my
brother a sense of creativity and

beauty.

I'm going to wait to move in until I'm
fully done.

And I don't want to move into a
half-finished home.

All right, yes.

Yay.

Well done.

I was sitting here laughing at myself
about the first time we went to a

wedding and my son was dancing.

He would go just like this, no matter
what the song was,

or what the tempo was.

Or whatever.

He was just like this. He was content
too because he knew he was getting it.

He was the first time on the dance
floor, and that was my little man right

there cutting it up.

I laugh so hard every time I think about
it. I'm in the middle of the woods

laughing at myself doing it. He is so
funny.

That one was for you, Campbell.

It's a brisk day.

We're sliding into winter.

Food's going to be getting scarce for
everybody.

I caught my first fish, a nice 14-inch
rainbow trout.

First fish is key for my plan going
forward to try and survive, hopefully

thrive, as long as I can.

So it's time to get to work.

I'm going to cut it up and chum the
water.

It's really odiferous, and that smell
wafts around, and it brings around the

animals that want to eat.

I'm going to put this little heart on my
hook as well, just to sweeten the deal.

Be still in my beating heart.

It's crazy.

I guess that's what happens in the ER
when they compress your heart, it tries

to pump back.

I just scattered a chum on the floor out
there.

Maybe I'll get some luck today.

We put out several more fishing lines
all around this cove.

I can still see my chum scattered on the
floor out there.

Ooh.

Success. Success.

Uh-huh.

Look how pretty that is.

Look at that.

Beautiful, beautiful.

I see splashing down there by my line
again.

The fish keep coming.

Number three.

I just can't stop laughing.

Maybe I've cracked the code on fishing.

Ready, guy? Thank you very much.

My chum idea is working like magic.

If I continue catching fish like this
and I can't eat them all, I've got to

figure out a way to preserve them for
longevity in case times start getting

thinner.

I'm just going to get this fire going,
just so it doesn't blow up.

It's a little smoky in here, but the
more smoke, the better. I just kind of

want to mask any scents in here.

Hopefully I don't have any visitors, but
who knows.

I'm going to get ready for bed.

There's definitely something outside.

and wild boar.

I just don't know how aggressive the
males can be in the winter.

Hopefully not too aggressive.

I heard they're quite territorial, but
hopefully I get one before it charges

me.

I hope it doesn't come back to me.

Last night was crazy.

I have to go pee.

I didn't want to get up in the middle of
the night and run into something.

Yikes.

This is only about 10 meters away from
my shelter.

Fresh cat.

I'm pretty sure it's a wild boar.

I don't feel completely secure in the
shelter right now, just with a tarp.

What I'm going to do is work on just
really securing the outside perimeter of

the shelter today.

So if there is something out there that
is trying to get in as a predator, I

will hopefully have a bit of time to
react.

Safety is my number one concern.

I have children and a husband.

Some of these are heavy.

Well, hopefully that animal doesn't come
back tonight.

That's pretty good.

Nice X for do not deter.

Okay, so just for my own reference,

pace count is when you figure out how
many paces it takes you to walk a

certain amount of distance.

So if I step on my left foot, I got one.

Right foot is none.

Two is my left foot. You got it to a
full stride.

67 strides is 100 meters for me.

So I can count from here back to camp.

It's going to give me a good estimate of
how far I am from camp.

It's just going to help save calories.

I am seriously the laziest survival
person in the world.

You have the people who are going to
come out here and work super hard and

make all this stuff and go above and
beyond, in a sense, and it's just

against the overall goal of this.

Even from other seasons, I think people
making sinks and making a nightstand

with a drawer.

Come on.

You know, that's what knocks them people
out.

I just want to win so bad.

Be the last one.

Hopefully one day I'm sitting here, like
day 52 would be nice. It's a nice number

in my head.

And they come in and Brooks with them
and they say, hey, you're done.

Man.

It's so far away, though.

So far away right now.

I'm from Monte City, Pennsylvania.

Currently, I consider myself a full-time
bushman.

I think I'm most proficient in trapping
and just the overall art of being able

to resource what I have at the time.

These are possums, skunks, raccoons.

I really feel like I'm at a crossroads,
you know.

I lost my job, and I always had this
passion for the outdoors and survival

and bushcraft.

I was always like, why do I do all this
stuff? And it just, like, came to a head

when I had this opportunity to go and
prove myself now here in Patagonia.

I'm leaving behind my wife, Brooke, and
my 2-year-old son, Jax. So you're going

to miss me when I'm gone?

Yeah. Yeah?

Is Daddy going to win?

Yeah! Yeah!

Right? At times I feel, ah, maybe I'm
being a bad husband or a bad father by

doing that right now.

But me doing this and being successful
benefits all of us.

I want to win so bad it can almost take
your breath away.

I have a lot of ideas and things I want
to do with my life. And I always did,

but I just always felt it fell short a
little bit because Maybe I didn't have

the resources or I didn't have the
capital.

So that's a huge driving factor for me.

Man, I could cut trees at home.

I'm usually pretty good.

Lack of calories are rocking me.

That's for sure.

All right, let's do it.

Push through.

And that's how you fell a tree.

Bam!

Rainbow trot up in this bitch.

Look at that.

Went down to check my line.

I was a little bit pessimistic, but I
went down, I gave it a tug, felt the tug

back. I was like, oh, hold up.

Oh, hold up.

Going to have fish dinner tonight.

Look at this guy.

He was like, please, Britt, eat me.

I know you're hungry.

Look at that. It's a good, I don't know,
that's a good maybe two and a half

pounds.

Now I got food. Now I got bait.

My chum idea works.

I keep chumming. The fish keep coming.

I'm working on a way to keep my fish
refrigerated because I obviously don't

want to eat it all at one time.

So a nice little depression that I can
lay my fish down in there.

And I'm going to allow the water to
continue flowing over to keep it cold.

Put this here so they don't float away.

So there's one.

There's two, and then all I'm going to
do with these, I'm going to seal it off,

kind of like a grate, just to keep
anything from getting down into it, keep

them from washing away.

I'm loving this Hanya bamboo stuff.

It's awesome.

So multi-purpose.

And it's all submerged, completely
refrigerated.

My goal now is to get them out of the
water and get them in here as quick as

possible so they stay alive until I'm
ready to eat and I won't have to clean

them until I'm ready.

Got so much fish.

I can't believe it.

Day 10.

Ending on a high!

is gather some stones for the hearth.
I'm feeling a little chilled, so I want

to get my blood going.

So we're going to start the day by
moving rocks.

So I came down here. I noticed the first
sign of snow on the mountain.

Feels like winter is definitely nigh.
I'm definitely excited that my permanent

shelter is coming along because it's
taking me a little bit of time.

Okay, so we've gathered quite a bit of
stones here. We're probably going to

need at least double this, but we're
going to start building

the hearth.

Because as they say, home is where the
hearth is.

Or every hearth needs a home.

Every home is a hearth.

I don't know what they say.

But they say something about homes and
hearths.

So I trust them, whoever they are.

We're going to take a break from this
part of the project.

Give my back a break.

So now what we're wanting to do is fill
in these sides.

So I'm going to take more bamboo, lash
them together.

And then weave some debris.

It's looking very tiki hut.

Oh, yes. Will you join me for some pino
colada in my tiki lounge?

If I can get this done today, I will
feel mighty accomplished

and happy.

Oh, my gosh. I am very excited to move
in.

This is going to be sick. So good for
winter.

It's such a tiki lounge.

Minus the sunshine, the Mai Tais, the
tan men

giving me back massages, and everything
else that comes with a tiki lounge.

It's pretty much the only thing that
makes it a tiki lounge is the bamboo.

At least we got that going.

I wonder if I'll see a glimpse of the
sun tomorrow, if it was behind all that

haziness and cloud and stuff, or if it
just doesn't ever come onto the side of

the lake.

You see over there in the mountains,
through the trees, that it's back that

way.

We'll see.

Starting to work on my trail to where I
can make my upper shelter.

I'm going to have to come along here and
then go up and switch back and switch

back. There's about, I don't know, I've
got to go up about 100 feet or so.

to get to where I'm going to make my
shelter.

Winter is coming.

I have to get my shelter built.

You step on that bamboo as you're going
downhill, you might as well step on a

slip and slide.

It's a little on the dangerous side,
right here.

Coming along here and down this.

That goes down like 20 or 30 feet.

I'll have to put a railing up.

I don't want to go off the edge of that
one these days.

I think I'm going to try and build a
retaining wall with bamboo and jab some

bamboo in and then weave bamboo across,
which is like called wattle fencing.

So I should be able to fairly quickly
get a passable trail that I won't be

able to slide off down the hill right
there.

I've dug it out now, and a nice flat
pathway.

A little bit of fence to bounce off
should I stumble.

I've got a lot done, but man, this is
going to take a long time.

So beautiful.

So happy to be here.

It'd be really cool to go up there.

First priority before I do any big trips
is to get my shelter built.

Draw my circle.

I want to make what I call stacked
debris walls, which means I need some

vertical support.

And I need two sets of those. So there's
an inner wall and an outer wall.

And then the space in between gets
filled with debris for insulation.

And I've noticed that there's a lot of
tall, thin saplings.

And I'm going to try weaving the walls
together, which I'm finding awesome

because I like to weave baskets.

I live in Edna Bay, Alaska, and most
recently my job has been in

construction.

I started in survival skills at a really
young age.

My strong suits are in shelter and
basketry.

I imagine I'd make something like this
when I'm on the trip. It'd be very

useful to have a pack basket.

Doing something creative makes me feel
better, and so I expect I'll use that as

a tool while I'm out there to keep me in
the mindset of going the long haul.

I've always wanted to spend up to a year
in the woods doing survival skills.

I feel like the closest adventure I've
had is when I hiked the Pacific Crest

Trail through Washington State.

It was just over 500 miles.

I feel like that was a really good
precursor to this trip.

I'm leaving my boyfriend at home, Tyler.

I'm leaving his family.

I'm leaving them behind, yet I have all
their love and support.

What I want my experience to be is that
I am out there loving and enjoying as

much time as I possibly can and being
the person that never taps out.

I don't foresee there being a point
like, oh, I've experienced everything I

want to experience because part of what
I want to experience is being that last

person.

I want to create a home.

Hopefully one that is really strong and
will withstand as long as I can be out

here.

If it rains for days, I can hole up in

here and stay dry.

I'll start leaning up raster poles and
add some small branches.

And then I'll put debris on top of that.

Adding debris will also help my
shingling effort because it'll mean more

things for rain to catch on.

Thinking about family and loved ones.

Wishing I could invite someone over to
my house.

See how awesome it is.

My walls are strong.

Strong enough to climb on.

Home sweet home.

My shelter roof collapsed.

It was really disappointing.

That's a lot of hard work that I'm going
to have to do again.

I'm really starting to feel the energy
drain.

I think I'm just in a low spot right
now.

I'm hoping that it doesn't last too
long.

Every time I settle in, I kind of feel

really peaceful and still.

I touch base with that part of me that's
missing.

I'm missing Tyler.

I'm missing being able to reach out and
call my family and friends.

I just feel sad, but I can't share this.

With them right now.

The best I can do is.

Reach out.

Energetically. Spiritually.

Pass my love on.

Try to pass on what I'm doing.

Sad at the moment.

Just to be expected with being out here
on my own.

It'd be nice to have some coffee.

Yeah, can I have a large coffee with
cream, three packs of sweetener, and

bacon, egg, and cheese on a croissant,
two sour cream donuts.

Man, I can't wait till that day again.

I can tell I'm hungry already today.

It's cool out.

and I know I need to fix some of my
lines.

I'm going to go down by the water, so
it's going to be even cooler down there

and work this morning.

If I catch a fish, it's going to be
huge.

I have the lines out by my camp, and
honestly, they never really produce too

much.

They get so crisscross and tangled, I
don't know what it is.

Untangling. This is like my official
hobby now.

Now what's that?

There's something on this line.

There's definitely a fish on here.

I could see him out there.

And he is tangled.

I'm hoping, if I'm working it a little
bit at different angles, I can get him

loosened up.

I'm a big guy. You know, my body needs a
lot of calories to trudge forward. And

they usually say in a survival world,
you know, the big guys are the ones that

always tap out first because their
bodies can't sustain itself plus a

workload. Start working and my hunger
pains hit me a little bit.

It's like that agitating hunger pain.

I could see where I'm hung up.

But now it's just... Totally bind it up.

I'm just going to go in for it.

I'm a little hesitant because, you know,
all you need is to go under and get that

cold water in your ear.

You're shot.

But I honestly never went this long on
this minimal food.

It's eating at me inside that that fish
is out there.

A little bit deeper than I thought.

All right.

So let's do this.

I really want to get in there and get
out. I don't want to be in there any

longer than I need to.

Got my fish.

Man, oh, man.

I'm almost happy that I had to go
through the last couple days with no

food because it made me realize that I
can be out here for days without food.

I just want to win so bad that it almost
makes you feel sick.

There's nine people between me and
$500,000.

I'm going to stay here.

With every last ounce of energy and
stamina that I have, every last

bit of mental endurance that I have, and
I'm just not going to give up.

I just can't quit and leave here.

That'll haunt me the rest of my life.

We'll do a little bit of this and a
little bit of that. A little bit of this

and a little bit of that. A little bit
of this and a little bit of that.

A little bit of this and a little bit of
this.

You get the point.

We're going to do some of that.

My shelter is coming along great.

I'm super happy with the progress.

We started on the hearth, which is
coming together.

We made hangers so we can hang our
clothes.

Cozy bed.

We also built a shelf.

Tonight, I'm moving in.

This is a momentous moment.

It's been a lot of hard work.

And I'm proud of the work I've done.

And I'm going to go get my stuff.

And I'm going to organize.

I'm going to take some coals from this
fire and

move them to my other fire so I don't
have to make a new fire.

First fire in the new shelter.

So grateful for life.

Grateful for a warm fire.

For a cozy cabin, tiki lounge.

But it feels good to be warm inside a
home.

I'm so happy. A home is everything to
me. I am a total creature of comfort

and I love making home.

I'm a homesteader. So having a permanent
space like this is,

it's everything.

Oh, man.

It is like so sunny out today, like over
there and across the way

and on the mountains.

I'm feeling so tired.

I need food.

I'm going to head down, check my fishing
lines.

I just thought of something.

See the shadow there in the distance?

I think that's the shadow of the
mountain behind me blocking the

sun from hitting me.

I will not be receiving sun at my

location the entire time I'm here.

It works its way around behind me,
shining on everything else.

Kind of bumming me out.

It's like sitting there and watching a
pepperoni pizza on the other side of a

crevasse.

And you can't get to it.

And it's getting cold.

But I can see it, the sun.

Right there.

Some parts of this are so hard.

All right, so I noticed the sun.

It's coming through the tops of the
trees back there, and it might even be

hitting on top of that hill that crests
over to where I want to put my shelter.

So I'm hoping there's a little glimpse
of the sun up there, a spot where it's

coming through the trees, and it's not
just hitting the tops of the trees, and

I might be able to soak up some rays for
a minute.

So I'm sitting around and waiting for
the food energy to hit me.

I'm packing up, and I'm going to head
right up there and see if I can't catch

some rays.

I'm hoping I can get up there before it
slides away.

Oh, man.

This is the hike.

Come on, just a little further.

There's the sun.

Oh, thank God.

It's the first time I've been able to
stand in a ray of sunshine, even the

littlest one, for days and days now.

I've been a vegetarian against my will.
I'm curious how much weight I'll

actually lose.

I've got a hawk taking the bait out of
my snares. Unless I get the hawk, I

won't get the pigs.

So there's a duck out here, and I'm
going to try and get a head shot on him.

Got it! This is the first day I've
really felt alone.

I talk about getting out of here like
I'm in jail. I don't really know how

much longer I can keep going.