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Miss astronauts here.

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>> I'm sorry I haven't been around.

>> Sorry.

Well, it's it's been on my mind, but

what with work and

life, you know?

>> So, I was looking through old

photographs and it's weird. All these

years that I've known you, I find only

the one photo of us from work together.

This snap someone took. I mean, you're

>> you're the exact same. But I got all

this hair, right? It's like the darkest

blackest hair. It's like it's been

painted on. Thank you.

>> You want a bowl of something?

>> What if cereal?

>> Yeah.

>> Uh, no, I'm good.

>> So, are you okay?

>> I mean, you look all right. You don't

look too bad. And maybe a little

scruffier.

That's it's one of the many benefits of

being retired, I suppose.

So, what do you do all day in here? You

uh

>> you read all those books you always

wanted to

>> I watch television and drink gin.

>> And that's it. You don't do anything

else.

>> I walk around and try to locate the

Twinkies.

>> All right. So, a little bit of exercise,

too.

>> Yeah, a little.

>> But don't you miss the business at all?

>> No.

Yeah,

>> you do.

>> No, I don't.

>> You want a drink?

>> It's 9:30, Mr. Newton.

>> Is it?

>> Yeah. Yeah, it is.

>> Oh,

>> in the morning. It's 9:30 in the

morning.

>> So late.

>> Look, anyway, I'm sorry it's taking me

forever. I uh Oh, I feel bad. You know,

I could swing by next week if you wanted

it. I'd like to. You wouldn't uh you

wouldn't mind me looking in.

>> I was sitting here in the middle of the

night

and the television went off

and I saw something come out from the

darkness. Michael,

it's a scene I couldn't think about for

years. And it came to me the way most

things do in these pictures.

It was morning time and I was sitting at

home with my wife and son and daughter

and nothing special happened, just small

talk between us. I can't remember now,

but I was there at home

for a few moments with them.

It was cruel in a way.

>> You need to talk to someone, a doctor.

>> No.

>> But don't you remember the person you

were? Your life outside.

>> That was before.

>> And it's gone. All of it.

>> Of course, it's gone.

>> This isn't living for a man like you.

Eating Lucky Charms, living on Jin and

[ __ ] Twinkies. There's nothing of the

past.

It left.

This is it now.

Right.

So you never see her.

Did you hear me, Thomas?

Do you ever see Mary Lou?

>> Only in my head.

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You up here. I'm in heaven.

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I've got scars that can't be seen.

I've got drama can't be stolen.

Everybody knows me now.

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Look up here, man. I'm in danger.

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I've got nothing left to lose.

I'm so high it makes my brain whirl.

I dropped my cell phone down below.

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They're just like me.

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By the time I got to New York,

I was living like a king

and I used up all my money.

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I was looking for your ass

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this way or no way.

You know I'll be free

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just like that blue bird.

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Amen. Just like me.

Yeah, I'll be free.

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Just like that blue bird.

Oh,

I'll be free.

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Ain't that just like me?

>> So what's he like?

>> Sort of sad. Sort of unknowable in the

way you imagine reclusive, rich,

eccentric men to be.

>> Sounds amazing.

>> Is he good-looking? He's kind of

freakishly youngl looking. Had a

shitload of work done, I guess.

>> Oh, so you're attracted to him,

obviously.

>> Oh, yeah. My life is so starved of

good-looking men, it would be impossible

not to fall in love with him after two

days.

>> You [ __ ]

>> So, is he with anyone?

>> Not now. He was once. He's uh lost. A

little strange, too.

>> So, it's just you.

you him. His maid.

>> His assistant.

>> Oh, his assistant. Right. Yeah, you

assist him. Got it,

>> [ __ ]

>> Well, I just want to know what my wife

is doing at work. I think that's fair,

>> right? Don't talk to me like that.

>> Jesus Christ.

>> Like what?

>> My wife.

>> [ __ ] it, Ellie. You are my wife.

>> Yeah. Yeah, but you referred to me as my

wife while looking in my face.

>> You know my wife? This is my wife.

>> He knows that you're a wife, right?

>> Yeah. I may have moaned about it once or

twice.

>> What? In that wifey way.

So, will you stick with it?

>> What? The job?

>> Yeah. Do you think being an assistant

will fulfill you?

>> Right. I know you think my resume has

been written by squirrels. Well, your

love of information technology has been

handed down from Moses. But will it

fulfill me, Zach?

>> Well, maybe it will. I I hope it does.

>> And why do you hope that?

>> Because I want my wife to be fulfilled.

I mean, obviously not romantically

fulfilled with Thomas [ __ ] Newton.

>> You know, maybe I'm romantically

fulfilled with you.

>> Absolutely. I'm a very attractive man.

And you are a beautiful and

compassionate wife.

>> Yeah, I'm a terrible wife. When was the

last time we had sex?

>> So what?

>> It was two months ago, Zach.

>> It was 10 weeks, actually.

>> In what area of my life have I ever been

successful?

>> There are plenty of areas. There's

hundreds.

>> Oh, give me one.

I have to do something. I used to have

dreams a long time ago. Do you remember

that? Used to have a sunny personality.

Now I'm a shitty pool.

>> Don't.

Come on.

>> I'm going to load the dishwasher and

when I return, I think we should try and

have sexual intercourse.

>> Sounds good.

Yeah, I'll probably need a sandwich

first.

>> Yeah, me too.

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But you know

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the siloets and shadows

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watch the reolution

no more.

She steps to heaven

and it's no

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foreign.

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I am God

from the evil.

I really don't understand

the situation

and it's no

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documentaries Refugees

couples against the target

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of rock against the road and it breaks

into pieces.

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The lines on

so much scarier.

Put a bullet in my brain and it breaks

all the papers.

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You want to

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You are.

So where's the moral

when people have their fingers broken

to be insulted by these fascists?

It's so great

and it's no

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struggle.

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And in this sleep of death, what dreams

may come.

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A little piece of you

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in

This is not

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Blossom fails to bloom this season.

Promise not to stare

too long.

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There was a time

a storm that blew so young.

This could be the

biggest

I could have the faintest

idea.

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America

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la

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spirals to the

ground.

>> So bloody red tomorrow's clouds.

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A little piece of you.

The little piece in me

will die.

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For this is not

a marathon.

Never was a time.

A wind that blew so pure.

This could be the

biggest guy.

I could have the faintest

idea.

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This is not America

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la.

>> This is not American.

No,

>> this is not

>> Do you need any help?

>> Some help? Yes.

>> Do you know what happened?

>> Yeah, the floor hit me.

>> You should replace it with another

floor.

It's

>> good thinking. I'll do that.

You want a drink?

No thanks.

>> Oh, a tea totler,

right?

So, what's your name?

>> I don't know.

>> You don't have a name?

>> Well, I must have a name, but I can't

remember it just now.

>> You seem incredibly calm about that.

>> Yeah, I know. It's odd.

>> You don't close. You really look sick.

>> You're not dying, are you?

>> A little bit every day.

I'm a dying man who can't die. Actually,

>> that's a joke, right?

>> Yes. Not being able to die is a joke. A

[ __ ] terrible joke.

Apologies for the f word.

>> You know, your apartment smells a little

bit.

>> Maybe if you got a scented candle or

sprayed a little glaze.

>> Sorry, but what exactly are you doing

here?

>> Well, right now I'm talking to you.

>> No, no. You think you're talking to me.

>> What do you mean?

>> You're not real. I feel real.

>> Well, you're not. My brain's just making

you up, which will come as a terrible

disappointment. But you're just another

dream, a delusion. A chemical belch

inside my head. Moments ago, Mary Lou

was dancing inside that television,

which is impossible.

>> Do you hear that?

>> What?

music.

>> No.

>> Incredible.

We passed upon the stair.

We spoke of was and when.

Although I was not there.

He said I was his friend.

Which came some surprise.

I spoke into his eyes.

He must have died alone.

a long long time ago.

Oh no, not me. I never lost control.

You're face to face with the man who

sold

the world.

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I laughed and shook his hand

and made my way back home.

I searched for form and land

for years and years. I roamed.

I gazed a gazly stare

at all the millions here.

We must have died alone

a long, long time ago.

Who knows? Not me.

We never lost control.

You're face to face with the man who

sold

the world.

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Ellie

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Hey,

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Ellie. Can you hear me?

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Who knows? Not me.

We never lost control.

You're face to face with the man who

sold the world.

Oh no, not me. I never lost control.

You're face to face with the man who saw

the world.

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>> So,

when did you get here?

>> I just turned up. Before that, I don't

remember a thing.

>> So, you've talked to him?

>> Yeah, a little. Who is he?

>> You already know. You know everything

about him.

>> I do.

>> You'll see.

>> So, what do we do exactly?

>> It's a lot of showing up and listening.

>> They're all a bit messed up and tortured

and stuff, but you figure things out for

them and give them hope. Then you get to

leave once the work is finished.

>> He's a bit strange.

You don't think I can work with someone

else?

>> No.

>> Hi.

>> I was going to wait outside, but your

neighbor, Mrs. Weler. She suffers with

insomnia. Well, she was outside of her

apartment and she invited me to hers,

which was really nice. Stop talking. We

had a good conversation about insomnia

cuz, you know, I too don't sleep too

well. You know, it depresses her a

little, but I prefer to be awake.

Anyway, I uh I pretended I was your

brother and she gave me your spare key.

Look,

>> if you don't leave, I'm going to call

the police.

>> But is that any way to treat a friend?

>> Yeah, you're not my friend.

>> [ __ ] [ __ ]

>> Oh, the the phone's dead, huh? You got

to remember to turn off Bluetooth. Look,

if this is about money, I can write you

a check.

>> My god, this is so unlike you.

But when we were kids, we were

inseparable, right? I mean, everybody

presumed that we were brothers, and I

stood by you when you told your family

that you were a gay man. Do you remember

all that?

>> What are you saying?

>> All those people that we grew up with in

uh in Tinto Falls, they just turned on

you. But I was there in spite of feeling

uh uncomfortable about your life choice.

Look, this this is just a stupid

mistake. I am not the person that you

think I am.

>> Yes, you are.

>> No, I'm not. For one thing, I am [ __ ]

straight.

Now, get the [ __ ] out of my apartment.

You know, I don't remember ever being

rude to you, Mike.

I never told you to f off. I didn't I

didn't call you names. I didn't make a

judgment about you. So now you're acting

like like you want to pull yourself out

of this situation like you have already

decided that I am not a good person when

actually Mike I am not altogether a bad

person you know

Jesus

I'm sorry

I'm sorry just uh I'll go I'll go in a

few minutes just just just give me a

second to collect my thoughts. I go I

mean this is this is completely out of

character. I mean, this is just crazy

and we apologize.

>> All right. All right. Look, it it's all

right. Just take a moment

and then go. Oh, sorry. Can I Can I just

sit down for a bit?

I made the mistake of uh of not eating

today or at least, you know, not eating

very much. And,

you know, I got to remember to watch my

blood sugar. I'm such a doofus about

that stuff.

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Well, this is a lovely apartment, by the

way.

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There's no music here. I'm lost

in streams of sound.

here and I know where now

wherever

I may go. Just where

just there

I am.

All

of the things

that are my life,

my desires,

my beliefs,

my mood.

Here is my place

without a plan.

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here.

Second Avenue,

just out of view.

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Here

is no traffic here.

No plan.

All the things that are my life, my

moods,

my beliefs,

my desires,

me alone,

nothing to regret.

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This is no place,

but here I am.

This is not

quite

yet.

You asked me earlier what I was doing

here.

>> I did.

>> Well, I'm supposed to help you in some

way.

>> Well, you could help me find another

Twinkie.

>> I think it's supposed to be help in the

caring sense of the word, Mr. Newton.

like a very small nurse.

>> Yeah, maybe. I don't know.

>> So, you know my name?

>> Yeah,

you're Thomas Jerome Newton.

>> And what else do you know about me?

>> That you're not from our world,

which is a little weird, but true,

right?

Only a few people know that.

You were sent here from another planet

and you never got back home to your

family.

You got real rich, started a bunch of

companies,

and then you tried to leave once before.

But these people did experiments on you

and they hurt you really bad,

turned you crazy,

and you wouldn't prove what you were to

them, so they stopped you leaving.

And you're in love

with this woman called Marylu,

but she left years ago. And you're still

stuck here drinking gin and not being

able to die or leave.

That's why you're headsick.

You're heartbroken over all that stuff.

I know your whole story and nothing of

mine.

>> What are you doing?

>> Oh, I'm sorry.

>> You have clothes of your own. I've seen

you wearing them and you're being paid.

>> Well, this isn't your blouse, right? I

mean, if it is, that's fine. If you want

to do dress up in the safety of your own

apartment,

>> mine,

>> right?

So, why'd you keep it? Just as a

reminder of someone.

>> I don't need her things to remind me of

her.

>> Is she dead?

You don't have to answer that.

>> I don't know.

>> So, she just left

>> a long time ago. Did she love you?

>> Yes.

>> And did you love her?

>> So many questions in such a small amount

of time.

>> I spent a summer doing market research

for Macy's. I can ask 30 questions in

under a minute.

>> Wow.

>> It's the only thing I have a talent for.

>> So,

did you love her?

>> Yes,

very much.

Well, um I think it's only fair you get

to ask me a question.

>> Don't you have someone to go home to?

>> Yeah, I I guess I have a husband,

>> right?

Then you should go.

>> What's it like to feel that much love

for someone and to be loved back?

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It's the darkest hour. You're 22.

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The voice of youth, the hour of dread.

The darkest hour, your voice is new.

Love is lost. Lost is love.

[Music]

Your country's new, your friends are

new.

Your house and even your eyes are new.

Your name is new and your action too.

But your fear is as old as the world.

[Music]

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Say goodbye to the thrills of life.

Where love was good, love was bad. Wave

goodbye to a life without pain. Say

hello.

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Love is lost.

Oh, love is lost.

Oh, love is lost.

Oh, love is lost.

Say hello

your secrets

lot.

Oh what have I done? Oh, what have I

done?

Love is lost.

You love so much.

You refuse to come, but you think like

that. You cut out your soul and the face

of foot. Oh, what have you done? Oh,

what have you done?

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Still

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waiting for

my time running wild. A million dead end

streets.

Every time I

got it made, it seemed the taste was not

so sweet.

So I turned myself to face me,

but I never caught a glimpse

of how the others must see the fakers.

I'm much too fast to take that test.

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>> Turn and face the strange changes.

>> Don't want to be a richer one.

>> Changes.

>> Turn to face the strange changes.

>> Just going to have to be a different

one. Time may change me,

but I can't race time.

I watch the ripples change their size,

but never leave the stream. A form of

permanent end. So the days flow through

my eyes, but still the days seem the

same.

And these children that you spit on as

they try to change their world

are immune to your consultation.

They're quite aware of what they're

going through.

>> Changes

to face the strange changes.

>> Don't tell them to grow up and out of

it.

to change it.

>> Turn to face the strange to change it.

>> Where's your shame? You've left us up to

our next time may change me,

but you can't trade that.

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Strange fascination

fascinating

me.

Changes

are taking

the pace I'm going through.

Turn the string changes.

Look out you rock and roller

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t

now you're going to get older time may

change me but I can't time

that time may change me

but I can't

>> I just figured out why I'm I don't want

to talk right now.

>> You don't have to talk. You want to hear

my plan?

>> No.

>> I'm here to get you out of this

apartment. Get you home to your planet.

I think we should build a rocket.

>> [ __ ]

>> You think it's a good idea?

>> A rocket out of what?

>> Stuff.

>> So, this isn't a rocket that will propel

me through space.

>> I haven't worked out the details.

>> I've tried rocket building before. You

know that with actual engineering? Yeah,

I know all about that.

>> Right. You know everything about me and

nothing about you.

>> You're stuck here heartbroken over Mary

Lou. I know that much. You forget her

and you can start making something else.

>> Like a rocket in my apartment.

>> When you're stuck between two worlds,

it's only right that you try something

incredible

>> or something [ __ ] insane.

I need to sleep. Just leave.

>> You don't think I want to leave? God,

>> I have no idea who I am or how I got

here, but you're all I've got.

>> You're not a real girl. You're not here.

You're inside here.

>> What are you doing?

What girl? Who are you talking to?

>> She's nobody. Nothing.

>> I'll be back with reinforcements.

>> I need to stay the night.

I can't explain it. I I don't want to go

home. I'll keep out of your way. Is that

all right?

>> What's wrong?

>> I'm frightened.

>> Why?

>> When you're not here, I'm seeing you

still.

Others, too. This man,

if I haven't already, I think I'm about

to break further.

Well, what can I do to help?

>> Nothing.

It's too late.

>> Stay if you like.

>> Thank you.

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had to get the train

from pot plots.

You never knew that

that I could do that.

Just walking the dead.

[Music]

Sitting in the jungle

on buster.

A man lost in time

near Card

just walking the dead.

[Music]

Where are we now? Where are we now?

[Music]

Where are we?

>> The moment. You know, you know, you

know.

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20,000 people

crossers are broker.

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Fingers are crossed

just in case.

Walking the dead.

Where are we now? Where are we now?

>> Where are we?

>> The moment you know, you know, you know.

As long as there's sun.

>> As long as there's sun.

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>> As long as there's rain.

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>> As long as there's rain.

>> As long as there's fire.

[Music]

As long as there's file.

[Music]

>> As long as there's me.

[Music]

As long as there's you.

[Music]

Heat.

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Heat.

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Remember

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when he sold all his companies? He's

incredible. He used to be the biggest

name. Everything he touched turned gold.

Now he's nothing. It's like he never

existed.

>> It's amazing. Really?

>> It's old, huh? You just found it and

torn up like this.

>> You and your uh your girlfriend, you're

very good-looking, by the way.

>> Oh, thank you.

>> Have you been together long?

>> About a year. Getting married in a week,

actually.

>> Oh, congratulations. That's exciting.

>> Yeah. Oh, hey, sweetie.

>> Just talking to this gentleman.

>> Oh, hi there.

>> Hey. Uh, this is my Ben, by the way.

>> I have a Valentine.

>> What a nice name. I was just saying

you're a very uh very beautiful couple.

Very striking and uh uh congratulations

on your upcoming nuptuals.

>> Well, thank you very much. It's

something Ben likes to share with

everyone.

>> St. Valentine is actually the patron

saint of our fiance's couple. So

>> Oh, really?

>> So, how did you guys meet?

>> Um, you really want to hear about it?

>> If if you don't mind.

>> He's kidding.

>> No, no, no, no, no. Honestly, oh, I'm a

hopeless romantic. I just go do li over

that stuff.

>> Me too. Completely. Well, tell him the

story. He loves telling it anyway.

>> Well, don't say it like that.

>> It's true. It's sweet and it's a little

weird, but tell it.

>> Well, um, I was in a cab

>> and we'd stopped at the lights and my

was in the cab beside mine and

we looked at one another through the

windows and there was just this big

connection,

>> right?

So, um, lights turn green, my cab goes

straight on, while my turns the corner.

>> Oh, god. You can imagine I was

destroyed.

For the rest of the journey, I was sort

of aching with what felt like a love

lost. Now, I was going to Brooklyn to a

colleague's house, a house I had never

visited before.

>> Oh, [ __ ] [ __ ] [ __ ] off.

Jesus Christ.

What?

>> What? What do you mean? What? Your your

hair. When did you decide? What the

[ __ ]

>> So what?

>> Is it something you've been thinking

about?

>> Nope.

>> Well, was it an accident?

>> Well, don't you like it? I don't care if

you do or don't. It's not about you. It

feels good.

>> Well, it it looks terrible.

>> [ __ ] you.

>> You look You look like a lady smurf.

>> No, I don't.

>> A smurfett. You look like a like a

freaking Smurfett. Smurfs have blue

skin, you stupid [ __ ]

>> Are you Are you trying to upset me?

>> Well, you don't think it's possible for

me to act out something without ever

thinking about your opinion?

>> You didn't think about anything? You got

blue [ __ ] hair.

>> I know. I read the bottle.

>> What in the Smurf Village?

>> I'm late.

>> Is this about new?

>> You'd love it if it was. Well, is it?

>> You know, that's all you ever talk

about. Every other conversation is about

whether I'm attracted to him or whether

I'm [ __ ] him.

>> Are you [ __ ] him?

>> Huh?

You're spending a lot of time in his

house.

>> I work there.

>> You stay over.

>> No, I don't. You

>> stayed over last night.

>> No, I did not.

>> You You can't remember that. You're a

liar.

>> [ __ ] it. Are you looking after yourself?

>> Shut up.

>> You're not taking your pills.

>> You want me to talk to your doctor?

Because this [ __ ] isn't normal behavior.

>> No, no, no, no, no. Don't be scared.

It's only a wig and costume.

>> We're going to do a play based on your

past.

>> It's autobiographical.

>> Um, I've only had a day's rehearsal, so

don't go too harsh on my impersonation

of you. I'm sorry I'm so late. I'm late.

You didn't know. It doesn't matter. Do

you want me to fix you a sandwich?

>> No.

>> Let's get started.

>> It's your last conversation with Mary

Lou.

>> And why are you doing this?

>> It's your therapy,

>> right? Good.

>> Lights and sound. Go. You won't ever get

back home. You know that, Tommy. You've

got everything here in New York.

>> You've got me. This is your home. Now,

>> why would you tell me you don't belong

here when I know you don't really think

that?

>> Why have you done that?

>> What do you mean

>> to your hair? Why have you done that to

yourself?

>> I don't know why.

>> Next line. Come on.

>> I know you have your family. But by the

time you travel back home, even if you

could, they'll probably be dead. Tommy,

>> don't say that, Mary.

That's a terrible thing to say.

>> Well, if you still want to leave, then

you have to prove what you are to those

people. They think you're just crazy,

but you can leave if you show them that

you're not one of us.

>> You proved enough to them. They just

tried to to hurt me and and uh

[ __ ] What's the line?

>> I've gone as far as I can.

>> Then you're going nowhere and you'll be

stuck in this apartment with me and I'll

always know you didn't want to stay.

Not with me. You don't. Not for me,

Tommy.

You can't be in love with me anymore. Is

that what you're telling me?

>> Why are you making me go when I know you

still love me?

>> Because I have to.

>> You're going to rot like a [ __ ]

animal up here. You know that? Just an

animal. A stupid creature. Why don't you

tell me what's going on?

>> Because I can't.

>> Please, Tommy. I'm right here.

>> I don't want you to call me that.

>> That's what she called you, right?

>> Stop it, Ellie. Don't. Please.

>> I'm sorry.

I can't explain.

>> Right, we're done.

>> Tell me something I've told to no one.

>> Like what?

>> A good memory I have.

You had a daughter

my age.

Your wife and son would stay at home.

And you and your daughter used to walk

together.

You'd walk to this hill near your house.

And reaching the top of the hill, you'd

sit in the same place and watch the sky

filling with stars.

You'd make up stories about traveling

through space.

And anytime you'd pause a little, your

daughter would say, "Speak some more and

we'll travel on.

>> Thank you.

[Music]

>> You knew you'd end up like this.

That's why you let Maryl go.

You don't have to stay here any longer,

Mr. Newton.

I've nothing much to offer.

There's nothing much to take.

I'm an absolute beginner.

But I'm absolutely sane.

[Music]

>> As long as we're together,

[Music]

>> the rest can go to hell.

>> I absolutely love you.

But I'm an absolute beinner

>> with eyes completely open

[Music]

>> but nervous all the same.

If my love song

could fly over mountains,

could laugh at the oions

just like the films.

There's no reason

[Music]

to feel all the hard times

to lay down the hard times.

It's absolutely true.

[Music]

Nothing much could happen.

Nothing I can't change.

Oh, I'm an absolute beinner.

with nothing at

smiling.

There's nothing more I need.

[Music]

I absolutely love you,

[Music]

but I'm an absolute beinner.

But if my love is your love,

we're certain to succeed.

is all the song

could fly over the mountain.

[Music]

[Applause]

Just like the s

[Music]

reason

[Music]

to feel all the hard times

to lay down the hard.

[Music]

If I don't go on, you'll have to help

me.

>> So, what is it you want?

>> To be back in the stars.

>> Then that's where we'll go.

[Music]

I was walking past your building and

something inside me told me to stop and

and it felt like somebody needed my

help. And I step into the lobby and I

see you

coming out of the elevator and and I see

that you're crying, right?

So,

do you love someone? I mean, you don't

have to answer that, but is that is that

why you were crying?

Oh,

I think it might be

you

and Mr. Newton.

It's about the two of you.

I've only ever been raggedy with my

life.

out of nowhere I get this job and it

gives me some reason to get up in the

morning.

But the more I stay in his apartment,

the less I remember of the old me. And

and only a week passes and it feels like

years and I'm I'm standing there with no

personality of my own, with no idea of

who I want to be.

And I can feel Mary Lou.

walk over and take me as her.

I'm dressing in her clothes and she's

taking my voice even.

And then I'm wanting him.

I want him. And there's no real logic to

this love. It's not a real love, I know,

but madness only.

And yet I don't want my old life back.

Cuz to lose the her that is still here

might lose me a possibility of a new

life.

It's a new life that I want.

>> What name do you want me to call you?

>> Mary Lou.

>> Mary.

>> Do you think you could get me an

introduction? Maryl. Oh. Oh, he's very

careful about who he meets.

>> Oh. Oh, me too.

[Music]

Something like tobacco road

living on a lonely road.

But I won't just you out there.

We will go to Finchley Fair.

[Music]

I will buy you feather hat.

[Music]

I will steal a cricket bath.

Smash some windows. Make a noise.

We will run with steady boys

[Music]

when the sun goes down.

When the sun goes down the dest

you have no choice.

We will run with 30 boys.

[Music]

We all go mad. We all want you.

Me and the boys, we all go through.

You have to learn to hold your tongue.

Same for moon. This is burning sun.

When the sun goes down,

when the sun goes down, the dye is cast.

When the die is cast, you have no

choice.

We were all dirty boys.

>> What are you doing here?

>> Hi, I'm a friend of Mary Lou. I

understand that you get privacy, but it

was the oddest thing. I was walking past

your building and Mary Lou is very upset

and I should stop talking.

>> Just so you know, I am not the sort of

man who would roll back into the streets

and tell the world who lives in this

apartment.

>> There is no Mary Lou.

>> Right. Right. Absolutely. Although

apparently there is right now.

Did you put this up here? What? The the

uh the photo? Yes, sir. And where did

you get it?

>> Oh, no. It's a ridiculous story. I've

seen you before.

>> No, I don't think so.

>> It's Michael. I know I have. This is

Valentine.

>> He needs to go get him out of here.

>> Oh, what's happening to the floor?

>> Did you hear what I said?

>> Did you do this?

>> What?

>> The drawing?

>> No.

>> Well, then who did it? What is it?

>> It's going to be a rocket.

>> What are you talking about?

>> We're making a rocket.

>> Oh, with this girl.

>> An actual rocket. Right.

>> Got it. I mean, you did this once

before, didn't you? I mean, I was I was

a boy at the time, but I remembered. I

mean, of course I do. Everybody does.

>> Please go.

>> You built a rocket cuz cuz that's what

rich guys do, I guess. And and and they

wouldn't let you launch it, right?

>> Well, this is less expensive.

Definitely. But you still have this this

this interest in rockets. And And why is

that?

>> Because I don't belong here.

>> What do you mean in the world? What? You

don't belong in the world? Why would you

say something like that, Mr. Newton?

Because none of this matters anymore.

You're building a rocket to go back to

your own planet. Is that it?

>> Yes. That's how it sounds. [ __ ]

leave.

>> Hey, it's the girl here now, Tommy.

>> Stop calling me that. I want you to

leave. Both of you just go to help you,

sir. You can help me by getting out of

my apartment. I'll continue paying you.

Just take him away and go home. Please.

>> I can't go home.

>> I don't need you anymore.

>> You are losing your mind, Tommy. Of

course you need me. Maybe there could be

love even.

>> What are you saying?

>> We're staying, Tommy. We're trying to

help.

>> I staggered through this criminal rain.

I'm not in love. No phony pain creeping

through this tidal wave. No warm

embrace, just a lover's grave.

This simp

I' got a handful of songs to sing to

sting your soul to [ __ ] you over

this furious array

[Music]

I'm falling Man,

I'm choking man.

I'm fading man. I'm the broken life.

I'm falling man.

I'm choking man.

I'm fading man. Just killing a little

time.

[Music]

[Music]

I love the sound of an empty room, the

screams of night, the end of love. Two

beating hearts, one labored start, one

open wound wasted and drawn.

No sympathy.

This furious rain.

[Applause]

I lay in bed. The monster bit. The body

fled. I turned and said, "I get some of

you all the time.

All of you some other time

this race in me.

Get away from me.

[Music]

I'm falling mad.

I'm choking man.

I'm fading man. I'm the broken life.

I'm falling man.

I'm choking man.

I'm fading man. Just killing a little

time.

[Music]

This is funny.

[Music]

Get away

from.

[Music]

[Applause]

There are so many things that make the

world such an ugly place to live in

and I've seen them

and you have too, I guess. Well,

it can be truly horrible, right?

And beautiful things like like like

friendship and

falling in love

can turn sour. And that sourness can

turn a person blue. And and you can see

that with you, sir.

But

I have always thought there has to be

something more beautiful than what we've

been given down here. That it's possible

to to rewrite this bad world and and

escape it.

And so

I mean if I can offer you anything at

all sir, it's the help and support that

you need towards finding a more

a more peaceful place than this.

Well, I can do that

and I know I can.

What did you do to him?

>> I'm sorry. What do you mean

>> to Michael?

I saw something.

>> Really?

Well, I think your head must have just

imagined it.

>> When do you think I can leave? It has to

be soon.

>> It will be.

>> And this rocket we'll build is

happening,

>> right?

But what happens next? Is there an end

to it?

>> You'll be free.

>> But how will that happen? What makes you

know that?

>> Hope.

>> Hope.

>> Right.

>> Then I'm held by that hope. Only that

word. There's nothing else.

You're not tricking me. You didn't send

that man to hurt me.

>> No, of course not.

>> And soon I'll be in the stars.

>> I have to go.

>> No, I don't want to be alone.

>> I'm close by.

>> Don't.

[Music]

It's a god awful small aair

to the girl with the mousy hair,

but her mommy is yelling no.

And her daddy has told her to go

and her friend is nowhere to be seen.

Now she walks through her sunken dream

to the seat with the clearest view

and she's hooked to the silver screen.

But the film is a saddening bore

for she's lived it 10 times or more.

She could spit in the eyes of fools

as they ask her to focus on sailors

fighting in the dance hall. Oh man, look

at those cavemen go.

It's the freakiest show.

Take a look at the man beating up the

wrong guy. Hulk man. Wonder if he'll

ever know

he's in the bestselling show.

Is there life on

[Music]

America's

[Music]

tortured brow

mouse has grown up a cow.

Now the workers have struck for fame

cuz on sale again.

See the mice in their million horse.

From my youth to the north broad

is out of bounds.

To my mother, my dog and clown,

but the film is a saddening bore.

For she's wrote it 10 times or more.

It's about to be written again.

As I ask you to focus on sailors

fighting in the dance hall. Oh man, look

at those cavemen. Go.

It's the freakiest show.

Take a look at the man beating up the

wrong guy. Oh man. Wonder if he'll ever

know.

He's in the bestselling show.

Is there life on Mars?

[Music]

He's not just saying all that [ __ ] to

make me leave. Like, it's his way of

saying that he's regretting employing

me.

>> Are you joking?

>> It's possible.

>> But he's making it all up.

>> I mean, I can understand if he was. He

makes out like he's talking to this

invisible girl and in this stuff about

another planet like like he stepped out

of the National Inquirer.

>> Can I can I ask you a question? You're

employed by Mr. Newton on the basis of

what?

>> What do you mean?

>> Have you ever shown any compassion for

anything?

>> What? You think he's an alien? You

actually believe that [ __ ]

>> I'm not going to make a judgment. Do you

have any idea how destructive that is

having someone decide that that you're a

[ __ ] lunatic to brave you with their

[ __ ] Can't you show a little bit of

kindness? Maybe. You know, it's pretty

easy to uh to stamp a person in the

dirt. Any [ __ ] animal can do that?

But to allow a man his chance to find

hope where there is none, that is real

goodness.

shitty second avenue.

>> I want to be surrounded by love.

>> I really do.

>> Yeah, me too.

[Music]

He raped all night about his suicide. I

kick in the head when he was 25 on that

speed dive. Don't want to stay alive

when you're 25.

Lucy ceiling from my lockers. Freddy got

the spots from ripping off the sauce in

his face.

Funky little boat race

stand the television

crazy saying we're juvenile.

Oh man, I don't need TV when I got

brother.

[Music]

All the young sever.

[Music]

tears

carry

[Music]

the tears

car

looks sweet though he dresses like a

queen and he can kick like a mule it's a

real

that we can love.

>> Oh yes, we can love

the [ __ ] home with the bills and

stones. He never got up on all that

revolution.

What a drag.

Too many scring

fine. Got to raise some civ.

Oh, is there concrete all around or is

it in my head?

again

to me.

[Music]

Car.

[Music]

[Applause]

[Music]

Stop it.

>> Funny thing you here.

>> Did we mention we'd be in this place?

>> Uh, no. I don't think so.

>> Just a coincidence. You know,

>> you were ignoring us in there.

I mean, both you and Ben were. Why was

that? We didn't mean to.

>> Yes, you did.

>> I'm sorry.

Well, this is my fiance, Ellie.

Would you like to hear the story of how

we met?

>> Sure.

>> Well, Ellie loves a love story. You want

to be the one to uh to tell it to my

>> No.

Well,

it was the strangest thing.

I

was in a cab

and we pulled up to the lights and uh

and Ellie was in a cab beside mine. And

you know, we looked at one another

through the uh through the windows and

well, I just knew in that moment that

there was this

big connection.

So the uh the lights turned green and

you know my cab went straight while

Ellie's turn the corner. And for the

rest of the journey I was sort of you

know aching a little with what felt like

a love loft. Oh hey Ben.

So

I was on my way to Brooklyn to a

colleague's house. the house I never

visited before. And the uh the cab pulls

up to the corner. I I pay the driver. I

get out.

I pay the driver. I get out. And as I

do, another cab pulls up to the corner

and Ellie gets out. Just incredible. And

we look at one another with complete

gratitude.

The universe conspired to bring us

together.

>> Do you think that's funny?

>> No, no, no. I don't think it's funny at

all. I think it is a lovely story about

about two people finding love together,

but you tell it much better than I do,

honestly.

>> I think it's best if you both just

leave. Why?

Why are Ellie and I not good enough to

be around all this all this happiness?

Huh? Do we spoil it in some way? Well,

you're spoiling it now.

>> Yeah,

I guess.

[Music]

No, no, no.

[Music]

I will sit right down. Waiting for the

gift of sound and vision.

And I will sing. Waiting for the gift of

sound and vision.

>> Come on.

Come on.

[Music]

Every chance,

Every chance that I take,

[Music]

I take it on the road.

[Music]

Those kilometers

and a red light.

I was always looking left and right.

[Music]

Oh, but I

always crashing in the same car.

[Music]

Jasmine,

I saw you peeping.

[Music]

As I put my foot down to the floor,

I was going

round and round.

The hotel garage

[Music]

must have been touching close to 94.

Oh, but I

Oh, it's crashing

into far.

[Music]

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

[Music]

Heat.

Heat.

[Music]

None of us choose the heads we're born

with.

>> Sure.

I can't seem to point mine in the

direction I want it to go.

I'm scared.

I'm always scared.

>> There's nothing I can do.

>> Yeah.

You need someone easier,

someone better.

[Music]

[Music]

Valentine's told me who to go.

[Music]

feelings he's tre

[Music]

the teachers and the football stars

[Music]

in his tiny face

in his scrolly hands

Valentine's soul to soul

He's got something to say.

Valentine's Day.

The rhythm of the crowd.

Too

down.

[Music]

Valentine sees them all. He's got

something to say. It's Valentine's Day.

[Music]

[Music]

Valentine tells me how it feels. La

[Music]

>> when all the world is under is here la.

>> We're stumbling through the mall.

See his tiny face.

See his scrawny hands.

Valentine knows it all. He's got

something to say. It's Valentine's Day.

[Music]

Valentine

[Music]

Valentine Valentine

shed house

day Valentine Valentine

house

it's the lady day Valentine

Valentine.

[Music]

[Laughter]

Oh,

would they have you celebrating?

Well, that seems a bit cruel.

And Mia and the girl's not here.

>> You do know she's not a living girl.

>> I don't care.

>> Why? Why? Because she's here to help.

>> That's what she said.

>> Something from inside your head spat out

and and sent to save you.

>> Maybe she is. I don't know.

Everything is separated

and what's in the past is cut free.

And then there's an apartment

pinning you down

and a drawing of a rocket offering you a

lie

>> and a pretend girl stirring up what

exactly? Oh, it feels like hope

>> from all of this mess it does.

>> There's nothing else.

>> Not just your mind playing tricks on

you. Because it is only right to assume

that the brain would throw something

together that looks like hope.

>> Then I'll take that.

I need her.

I've seen what you are.

Right.

I wanted to help do something kind.

There'll always be another love to kill.

I hear them saying that to me always.

Oh, hey.

I brought you a balloon.

Oh, you're a bit older than I thought

you'd be. The balloon seems foolish now.

In fact, any sort of present at all is

completely wrong.

So,

do you have something to say to Mr.

Newton?

>> Yeah.

>> So, then say it.

>> Come on. Go ahead. Don't be shy.

>> I was alive once.

I was a real girl.

>> And what else?

I was cut down a mile from my house and

buried in the ground.

I'm not properly dead. I was lying

there, my eyes closed with no real

future.

I opened my eyes and I'm walking down

Second Avenue and I see you there

standing at your window.

I came to you that first time.

I'm sorry, Mr. Newton, but it's not me

who's going to get you into the stars.

But it's you who will help me die

properly.

>> No,

>> I can't stay here. Look,

>> she can't stay. She can't. Look, it'll

only be a moment.

[Music]

>> No, I can't do it.

Look, maybe it's as you said, and you

were once alive and caught now between

worlds like me and just an idea of a

girl. But you're real to me. You're my

last hope. There is nothing else but

you. You're a real hope to me. And how

can I kill that?

>> You have to save me,

>> please.

You knew just everything

[Music]

and nothing at all.

Now the luminous dark

feels like pain again.

You could feel my breath.

You opened my eyes

for I could not see.

[Music]

When I met you,

when I met you, I could not see.

>> You opened my mouth. You opened my

heart. My spirit rose. The marks and

stains. Could not.

Now it's all the same. It's all the

same. The song is gone. It's all the

same. When I met you, when I met you,

when I met you, when I met you,

>> when I met you, you were when I met you.

When I met you, when I met you, when I

met you, I was the walking dead. I was

kicked in the hips. It had become

the center of my world.

The scenes of my life,

the streams of debris.

Neither homes of a friend,

nor the kiss of a foe.

The peck of a black and I

for the crowd.

When I met you, I could not speak.

I met you. When I met you, my spirit

[Music]

could not exist. And I miss you.

[Music]

>> When I met you, when I met you, when I

met you, when I met you,

>> when I met you, when I met you, I was

the walking. I was kicked in the head.

It was such a time. It was such a crime.

I was crushed inside. I was born inside.

When I met you, when I met you, I was

too insane. Could not trust a thing. I

was off my

filth. It was not before I left you.

No,

no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

And I am not of this world

and not yet marked by this place here.

Not pinned down in this apartment.

Not divided into days

and praying for my death

and bullied by my breaking mind.

And before all of that happened to me

and before my journey down here to wake

in the place I was born

and to be up there

and to feel the simple love of family

and to be there in that home.

My sad past

rewritten now

for my daughter wakes.

Wake up.

Oh, one last time. Wake up. Wake up.

Wake up.

and half asleep and her arms about her

brother. She talks his dream from him

and keeps him in that sweet unreal

place.

And holding now her mother

and each of them the same smile.

Small words pass between each other as

our planet turns.

and turning

and walking to you

and being held and wanting time to stop.

And yet a plan was made between us,

remember?

We walk

and the door opens to our garden

and far in the distance the hill

and we walk to it.

Countryside disappears beneath our feet.

It's just us two

in that hill

on the blue sky.

This isn't happening. I'm still inside

my head.

>> Yes.

and pushed further into my madness,

trying to turn these old words into

something new.

I'm done with this life.

And so, a new universe I'll dream big up

there. And although always stuck inside

my breaking mind, I've stepped off the

earth into a better place,

an imagined world.

My new family.

>> Right.

Your new family.

>> I found out my name's Marley. Mr.

Newton.

>> Marley.

>> Do you think we'll get lost in these

stars?

>> Speak some more

and we'll travel on.

I

I will be king

and you

you will be queen.

Though nothing

can drive them away,

we can beat them

[Music]

just for one day.

Oh, we can be heroes.

Just for one day.

[Music]

And you

you can be mean

and I

I drink all the Cuz

[Music]

we're free now

>> and that is a fact.

>> Yes, we're free now.

And that is Dutch.

[Music]

>> I

I wish I could swim

like dolphins.

Like dolphins can swim.

Though nothing

nothing will keep us together,

[Music]

we can beat them

forever and ever.

[Music]

Oh, we can be heroes,

just for one day.

[Music]

I

I will be king

[Music]

and you

you will be queen.

[Music]

We're nothing

[Music]

and nothing can help us.

Maybe we're lying.

Then you'd better not stay.

But we could be safer

[Music]

just for one day.

[Music]

We can be heroes.

>> We can be heroes.

[Music]

We can be heroes.

[Music]

We can be heroes

just for one day.

[Music]

Heat.

Heat.

Round.

[Music]

Heat. Heat.

[Music]