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Previously on "Dare Me"...

That's why I gave you RiRi's
part-- more time to shine.

Never feel guilty
for wanting things.

People will always make you
feel guilty for wanting things.

- Just tell me the truth
for once in your life.

Addy, were you with her
last night?

- This is about regionals,
but this is about you.

- This is about you.
You just smile,

and then you stab me
in the fucking heart.

- Nothing's ever enough
for you.

- What is it about her?
- She isn't you.

- If you care about me,

you will do what I ask
and leave.

Stand down!

- Do you even see me?
Am I even here?

- This is my life
that we're talking about.

- You are my life.

- It's bad, Addy.

- I never gave anything
to anyone before.

Not like this.

I never was anything
to anyone before.

Not like this.

I never was before.

Now, I am.

- He kept texting me.
He wouldn't stop.

He said he couldn't
live without me,

that he had no reason
to keep going.

That's what he said.

It was all falling apart and
he didn't know how to fix it.

I didn't know what to do.
That's what he said.

What was I supposed to do?

I mean, I was asleep,
so I couldn't do anything.

I couldn't even call.

Finally, Madison went to sleep.

And Matt took a sleeping pill.
And so I came.

I said I would come, and I did.

And there he was.

I couldn't believe it.
I couldn't believe all the...

I almost slipped in it.

I didn't though.
I didn't touch him.

Addy.
Addy, do not touch him.

Don't.

I need--
I need to fucking think.

I need to get my head in order.

Wait, what is that?

- My phone.

- Addy, who's calling you?

- It's a text.
I get them all the time.

- In the middle of the night?

Addy, who is texting you
in the middle of the night?

- The squad group text.

It's nothing.

What is that?

Those are his teeth.

He did this?

He did this to himself?

- Those texts he sent me...

- I didn't think he meant them--
not like this.

- Are they on their way?

Are they coming?
Did you call 911?

- No, of course not.

- What?

Please, no.

Don't touch anything.

We can't be here.

We can never
have been here at all.

We need to go.

- Are you gonna leave him?

- Someone else has to find him.

It's over now.

- Did you see that?
- What?

Nothing's there.

- Where's your car?
- I caught a taxi.

My car's in the shop.
Where's your car?

Pull over.
Right here.

- But your house is over there.

You think Matt's up?

- No.

- Are we gonna
call the cops now?

It'll be all right.

- They'll find him.
- Who?

- Someone.

His landlord.

One of his men.

- But it was us.

- If we call,
they're gonna ask

what we were doing there
in the middle of the night.

Everything will blow up.

My life...will blow up.

Just forget about this.

Okay?
Go home.

Pretend it didn't happen.
It's gonna be okay.

- I promise.

This doesn't have to touch you.
You get that.

I'm so sorry.
I was just leaving.

No one saw me.

- You're my friend, Addy--

the only friend I ever had.

You're okay.

You're okay.
You're okay.

- It's what you wanted.

You said "faster."

- Come on, man.

- Kill. Kill.

- Heard the big news.

- What?
- Yesterday.

That your life changed
forever, right?

Wanna make me say it out loud?

Regionals, girl.
Best in the states?

Congratulations, right?

- Thanks.
Sorry.

We just went a little overboard
with the celebrating.

- Yeah, for a minute,

I thought you might've
landed on your head.

No.

- Hey, also, tell me--
how does it feel to actually--

I don't know--
win something that matters?

Because football hasn't been
to state since I was born.

Addy?
Addy!

Hello?

- Hi.
- Hey.

Seriously.

You okay?

- Yeah.

It was just a lot.

No Sarge Will today?

- Nah, I guess he's at
some other school.

He has a whole territory
to cover or something.

- Bitch, where you been?

- You too good for us now that
you slayed at regionals?

- Hey.
- Hey.

- You guys, did you see it?

- It's up?
Where?

- This way.

- Come on.
Let's go.

- Let's go.

- Someone didn't sleep
last night.

Still, you never
texted me back.

- I figured you were mad at me.

- Who says I'm not?

We got bigger drama to mine.

- It's on.
Come on.

Eagles!

- Fourth place at regionals.

Having two states
for the first time

in our school's
storied history.

Our cheerleading squad!

Proving that Sutton Grove
Eagles do know how to fly.

Listen, you guys,

the stories I could tell
from the front, all right?

The tales of victory,
of carnage--

these young women
killed the competition.

These young women
are bloodthirsty,

and they have a win at states
in their sights.

And they will not be stopped.

They will not be stopped
until they have

slaughtered every single
person in their path!

Okay, now, we all know
the woman behind these women,

the queen,
the master and commander--

hell, I just refer to her
as the general...

Let's give
a rousing round of applause

to the indomitable
Coach Colette French.

Coach French!

Coach French?

We have-- no.
We don't have Coach.

Okay, well,

if anyone has earned a day off,
it's Coach French, right?

Whatever she's doing,
it's well-deserved--

probably laying the bones

of the fallen squads
from regionals behind her.

But let's give her
one more cheer wherever she is

and make sure
she feels the love.

Coach French!

- Should've been
wearing your hamsa.

- What?

- Your hamsa bracelet?

The one I gave you?

Bet if you'd been wearing it,
you wouldn't have fainted.

- I fainted?

- They tried to call your mom,
but no luck.

- Probably out
on official police business,

you know, violating rights,
forcing confessions.

It's a good thing
your BFF was here

to come and look after you.

Come to think of it,

I haven't seen you wear your
hamsa in a good, long while.

I wonder where it ran off to.

- I think it's at home.

And I don't need protecting.

I just forgot to eat.

- Well, lucky for you,

I saved you
some celebratory cake.

- You girls and your bodies.
All you do is abuse yourself.

I abuse myself
at least once a day.

This one--
her body's a holy temple.

She could probably do with
a bit more abuse--

relieve some of that stress.

She looks aggrieved,
doesn't she?

- Your heart's racing.

I'm gonna try Mom again.
- No.

Don't do that.
I'm fine.

- You don't look fine.
I'm going to get you some juice.

- I bet some cake would help.

Seriously.
You should actually eat some.

You look like
death warmed over.

So,

splitsville.

Right?

I knew it was gonna implode.

- What?

- Will and Coach.

C'est fini.

Swan song.
Curtains.

Sayonara, baby.

He's not at
his recruiter's table.

And she's not here
on the biggest day

of her pathetic career.

Something big must've gone down.

- You know,
he's probably just...

At another school.

Um, maybe she's sick.

- Lovesick.

I had another dream--

like the pyramid,

except it was just us.

And it was raining
like that night.

Remember? Come on.
You must remember that.

- Yes, I remember.

- We were at Lanvers

and we were doing
toe touch jumps

at the edge
of one of the overlooks.

And then we heard this noise

like something falling

a long way down.

So we went to the edge
to have a look,

but it was dark.

It was so dark that
we couldn't see the bottom.

There was no bottom.

And it was scary.

All echo-y black--

this endless abyss,

like it was calling out to us,
Addy.

You said that
it was calling out.

And then I started to slip.

So you grabbed my wrist
to try and pull me up,

but it hurt.

My wrist-- it was bleeding.

And then you did it.

- Did what?

- You let go.

Just like always.

You had my wrist,
and then you didn't anymore.

You let go.

- Why am I always doing
bad things in your dreams?

- Guilty conscience?

- There she is.
- Hi.

- Girl dove straight
to the floor, stone cold.

- I hadn't eaten.

Did Nurse Faye give you

the "Understand Your
Eating Disorder" brochure?

- Or the self-love speech?
That's Beth's favorite.

That's a good one.

- You're gonna swell up.

- Could be permanent damage,

like those NFL players
who kill people.

- Don't worry.

I've got a great
plastic surgeon.

- Hey, has anyone
seen Coach yet?

- Maybe she's out tying one on
post-regionals?

Day drinking
with the booster moms?

- Shit.

- About time.

- Where you been, Coach?
You missed the celebration.

- So, we did it.
We made it to states.

The clock is already ticking.

So why are we wasting
our first day on celebration,

on sugar-soaked cake

and back-slapping speeches
in the cafeteria?

Motion drills.

On my count.

Five, six, seven, eight.

Stop.

- Your shoes, Addy.
Where are your cheer shoes?

- I forgot them, I guess.

- You know the rules.

You don't walk into my gym
without the proper shoes.

Come here.

Fifty push-ups.

With claps.

- You have to go.
You cannot be here.

- Not happening.

I can't.

Fine.

I can stand here for
the whole goddamn world to see!

Or you can let me in.

Either way, I'm not leaving.

- She's asleep.

Daddy's shirt
always does the trick.

He had to go out of town
this morning-- some work thing.

- We need to talk
about last night.

I'm in this now,
and...

I need to know everything.

You owe me that.

- Things have been not great

for a while.

Will-- he had problems.

I mean, you saw him
that afternoon he came here,

how he was.

- Yeah.
He wasn't himself.

- Life was always hard for him.

He came apart.

We both did.

Does things to you.

Darkness never really
goes away.

It's always
at the corners of things,

and I don't know.

For Will, maybe those corners,
they were...

Closing in.

- You must have some idea

what would make him
do something like that.

- The last time we saw
each other, we were kids.

He had a girlfriend.

I...

Had guys.

We liked to fuck.

Things with Matt

were horrid after I moved here.

And it just kept building
and building--

all of those things that we
weren't letting each other see.

And then one night, it was...
Just too much.

I lied.

I said that we were out of milk

just to get out of the house,

just to go somewhere, anywhere.

And there he was,

this guy,

standing in the middle
of the store,

drinking milk out of the carton
like a kid who couldn't wait.

I couldn't
take my eyes off of him.

And then he looked at me.
And he said my name.

It was that voice-- so familiar,

as familiar as my dad's.

Full of smoke.

And we started talking.

And he said the funniest thing.

He said, "You look so lonely."

And I told him he was wrong.

I wasn't lonely at all.

And he smiled and said,
"I'm sorry.

Guess I got it all wrong."

But he hadn't.

I was lonely.

Confused.
Desperate.

But not as desperate as he was.

- What happened?

- It seemed...

I thought you were in love.

It was supposed to be an escape

for both of us.

I don't--

I don't even know what
he was trying to get away from.

I never even thought about that.

Not once.

I just-- I--

I needed a break
to think things through.

We were going to regionals.
That's when the texts started.

At first, I ignored them,
but he just kept texting me,

and when I finally responded,

it just seemed to make
everything worse.

He said that he had to see me.
He was scaring me.

Matt was asleep.

Everyone was.

So I--

I called a cab,

and I sat outside and I waited.

And it was so still
and peaceful.

And I just wanted to stay there
and look at the stars.

- After all this, I ended up
right where I started--

just wanting to be alone.

- So you went there,
and you found him.

- Yes.

- But, Coach,
why did you call me?

- I don't know.

I couldn't handle it on my own.

I needed a friend.
I needed someone I could trust.

I--

I needed you.

Let's go do something, Addy.

I have to go do something.

- I'll get 'em.
I'll grab a bunch.

- Coach?

- Coach.

- Come here.

- I can't believe he's gone.

I'm so glad that
you're here with me.

- Me too.

- We walked into
the darkest place there was.

But we did it together.

And when the night was over,
I remembered

how bright it was,

how it shines everywhere,

even the places
you don't want it to go--

into the cracks and corners
and weak places,

how after a little while,

it makes you miss the dark.

- It's like what Beth told me
that night at Lanvers Peak,

the one she dreamt about.

We were high.
So high.

And she was looking into
my eyes and seeing me,

saying,

"When you gaze
into the abyss, Addy..."

- "The abyss gazes into you."