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I have to go out here now.

Thank you.

Thank you very much.

Thank you very much, ladies and gentlemen.

Do we have married people with families?

Now, I've been married...

I'm not even sure.

I think, a long time.

And I have a son...
who is about my age.

What I've noticed about the family

is pretty much trouble free.

How many of you have had
the same experience?

Families, I think it's safe to say,
pretty much trouble free.

Am I right, ladies and gentlemen?

Yes, pretty much trouble free.

By the way, this is the Nate Holden Center
for the Performing Arts.

Are you aware of that?

A beautiful facility.

A lot of times you go to theaters...

If you go to New York City,

the Helen Hayes Theatre.

It's a beautiful theatre also.

You know, Helen Hayes doesn't
get to go to the theater

because she's dead.

They do that.

They name stuff; theaters, edifices,

and this is a beauty by the way,

and I'm told that it gets
great use in the community

And it's the Nate HoldenTheater.

What do you think?

This is a silly game to play, but...

Dead or alive, what do you think?

He is alive, ladies gentlemen, he's here.

Nate, come on out, by God.

Take a bow. Where are you?

Nice to see you, my friend.

Just come on over.

It's so nice to see you again.

This is our second time here.

I used to live in California.

Knew nothing about the theater,

knew nothing about Nate.

You were a City Councilman
for a long time?

That's correct. Sixteen years.

Many great accomplishments.

What was the thing?

You said until the early '70's,

a woman could not get a
mortgage from a bank

unless she had the signature of a man.

And you got that changed.
Do I have that correct?

That's correct.

We celebrated Dr Martin Luther King's
birthday the other day.

I'm the author.

The state of California
was the first state in the nation

to honor Dr. Martin Luther King
and the civil rights movement,

and I'm the author.

Congratulations.

Thank you, sir.

Nice guy, who spent his life
in public service...

doing tremendous things

that we take for granted.

So, I'm pleased and honored to be here
in this building.

Anybody have any idea
who's with us tonight?

Judd Apatow.

Really?

You'd actually get dressed up

and come out to see Judd Apatow?

This guest tonight is...

and I know a lot of famous people,

I mean...Pat Sajak...

So you see...I know

I get blue chippers...

Just take a guess.

It's not Judd Apatow.

We couldn't get Judd. I'm sorry.

I'm right here!

Wait a minute. Is he right there?

Holy shit!

Judd, have you wandered away
from the house again?

How did you know he was here?

Was he handing out photos in line?

Alright.

That's all I got.
Goodnight everybody.

So, we're going to bring this person
out here.

I think you're just going to love this.

So, do me a favor now.

Please welcome my next guest, Jay-Z.

Come on out.

How are you?
It's a great pleasure to see you.

Thank you.

Can we sit?

Yeah you can sit.

Thank you so much for being here.

I don't want to make you nervous.

I don't want to make you uncomfortable,

but Judd Apatow is in the audience.

You look...fantastic,

and thank you.

It means a great deal to me

that you're here.

Thank you, that's beautiful, man.

I'm torn. I don't know whether

to start tonight by kissing up to you.

-Or if I should...
-Go ahead...Just, first...

How many, is it 21 Grammys you've won?

-Yeah.
-My God.

Twenty

How many albums?

Thirteen.

I'm told your wife is also
in show business?

She's starting.

BEYONCE KNOWLES

-She's just starting.
-She's starting.

That's pretty good.

I was talking to a journalist,

a music critic,

and he said,

"Jay-Z in popular cultural music

is Picasso...

called you Picasso.

And me...

because I'm not dumb,

I said, I made the connection.

I said, "Who would be his Matisse?"

You see what I'm saying?

Yeah.

So, what do you think

There's so many great people.
It's hard to...

We'll let's start with a list of
great people.

Okay.

Biggie Smalls, of course, Notorious BIG.

Tupac, of course.

Rakim.

Big Daddy Kane, Slick Rick...

There's so many great,

so many great artists,
so many people I love.

Are there guys,

men or women, who are successful,

but are not good

at what they're doing?

Yeah.

All the time.

Just like everything else.

I'm dying to know somebody who...

can't really rap.

Come on, man.

All right, how about this?

Who's on TV late night...

right now, that's not even
remotely funny?

Okay, let's just say,

The other thing I wanted to
start here with

is Marcy Projects.

How long were you and your family there?

How many in your family?

Welcome to
MARCY HOUSES

I'm the youngest of four.

So, your mom, your dad and...

my mom and dad in the beginning then my dad was gone when I was about 11,

so it's five of us in total.

Yes, you mentioned that your dad left.

What were the circumstances of that?

I thought he just left.

As a kid, I had a bunch of...

anger towards him.

But, as I grew up, I realize that...

the things that he went through
in life was very difficult.

His brother had gotten killed...

in the projects, and someone would
call him and say,

"I just saw the guy
who killed your brother,

and he would get up from his bed,

in his bed, with his children.

And he'd take his gun and he'd
leave the house,

and at some point, my mother
was like, "Man, you have...

a family here."

But she didn't have the language
that she needed

to speak to him like,
"We love you,

we don't want to lose you as well."

She didn't have that language.

So her fear came out almost like

an ultimatum to him.

And he's like, "My brother...

my blood brother?"

And that kind of like
splintered their relationship,

and then from there it was just like
he was in deep pain.

He started using heroin,

you know, things like that.

There are so many...

I'll say, unbelievable,

It's not the right word,

facets to your life, to your early life

and to where you are now,

and you have kids of your own

and you must think every day

of the difference of both in in terms

of distance and...emotionally

that your kids have from what
your upbringing was.

BLUE IVY CARTER
JAY-Z'S DAUGHTER

It must be gratifying and also

heartbreaking for God's sakes

that you had that.

I'm not heartbroken
at this point in my life.

I feel grateful everyday.

I wake up, I look around, look at my kids.

They're healthy, they...

Me and my daughter talk,

I told her to get in the car
the other day,

because she was asking
a thousand questions,

and we had to leave for school.

I got in the car,
and I'm faced this way.

I'm just painting a picture of how
healthy my children are

at this present time.

So we're driving, and then
I just hear a little voice.

"Dad?" I turn around, she said,

"I didn't like when you told me

to get in the car the way you told me..."

She's six.

"It hurt my feelings."

I was like...

"That's the most beautiful thing
you've ever said to me."

I have those moments with my son also,

but when I was that age,

there was no discussion
to getting the car,

-Just...
-Yeah.

And that was just fine.

What kind of music did your
mom and dad play in the house?

Was it radio, was a records?

Did they have a record collection?

No, big record collection.

Prince, Michael Jackson, Stevie Wonder...

The Isley Brothers,
The Brothers Johnson...

Bootsy Collins, Ohio Players.

Yes.

Dewey Brothers...

All that.

Was it something for you there?

Did it speak to you, did it move you?

I think that's the reason
I make music now..

You can either grow up in a family
that plays instruments.

Or you're just exposed to so much
Stevie Wonder...

just exposed to so music at a young age,

that it's just in you,

just becomes who you are.

-Yeah, yeah.
-Yeah.

What I've tried to do here,

for me, it's all selfish,

is establish things
you and I have in common.

Yeah.

When I was a kid about your age...

I had a paper route,

-and I'd be delivering papers.
-I had a paper route too.

Right away.

It's like I have a twin.

But I want to ask you about...

the circumstances that led
to you selling crack.

That was my paper route.

That's what I was talking about.

-I see...
-Yeah.

Twin.

Now, I can remember when...

there was a big crack epidemic,

and I'll be honest with you,

I don't exactly know what crack is.

When I lived in Los Angeles,

there was stuff called free-basing.

That's crack.

-Yeah, pretty much.

Where would you get it?

How old were you when you did this?

Like 16, I started,

and it was everywhere in the neighborhood.

For me, it was a guy...Spanish Jose

He owned a bodega.

His family owned a bodega
across the street,

and he saw me and he was like,

"You're a cool guy, you and your friend.

I like how you carry yourself."

And he recruited us. And from there,

it started the enterprise.

So, it was good for the family
to have money,

but what you were doing was

-some element of danger, obviously.
-Yeah.

And you went to New Jersey,

to Trenton to do this?

How much would you come home with

at the end of a day?

It started out really small.

A couple thousand dollars, and then...

it got really big.

At 16, you're bringing home $2,000 a day?

Yeah.

My God, that's...

Dd your mother know where this
money was coming from?

She knew.

We didn't talk about it,
but she knew.

What was the reason you decided
to give up selling

and go back to writing rhymes?

I would like to say the idea
of being in the street,

because at some point,

no one survives that.

You're either going to jail
or you're going to get killed. That's that's just how it was.

Period.

But for me, I think the love of music
kept pulling me.

Even when I was out there,

and I was selling drugs and everything,

I was still rapping on the corner.

That would be out
in the middle of the time,

when people were coming

and we were conducting business,

every free second I had,
I was either writing...

you know that's how that's how I
developed a talent of

doing music without writing it,

because I would write all the time,

write on paper bags and just
stuff it in my pocket.

You know, just every free second I had,

I was creating.

This is the kind of thing
that fascinates me,

because it happened to me.

There was a moment when I went
to high school,

and I did not get good grades,

and it didn't look like I was

going to be successful academically,

but there was a moment for me

when I took a public speaking course

and that changed everything.

I was a sophomore in high school.

I know...

your love of words...

had to be fueled somehow early on.

What was that moment?

Yeah.

I had a sixth grade teacher,

her name was Miss Lowden.

RENEE LOWDEN
JAY Z'S 6TH GRADE TEACHER

I just loved the class so much,

Reading the dictionary...

and just my love of words...

I just connected with her.

She took us to her house on...

a field trip,

and she had ice...

in the refrigerator, way back
when no one had it.

And I thought,

"Man, I might be an English teacher."

We need to pay our teachers more.

Yeah.

But it's so interesting that that dynamic,

and then here you are who you are,

thanks to Mrs. Lowden...

and her ice machine.

Yeah.

Tell me the story about you and a buddy

who had been signed and went
on a trip to London,

that actually, in some way, may have
saved your your life.

And you were just a kid then.

Yes, he came from Marcy Projects,

We call him Jaz-O.

Jaz-O

He had a record deal early on
with EMI Records.

They sent this guy
from Marcy Projects to London.

The wanted the association
from the same producers

who made...that's how the music business
worked at the time.

it wasn't about the music,

it was like, "These produces that made
parents don't understand,

are going to produce your record.

They don't know Jaz from anything.

So, of course It didn't work.

But for two months,

we were in London,
recording with these guys,

or fake recording.

And during that time, It was like a secret indictment,

and they swept up and grabbed
30 of my friends.

Everyone got locked up and went to jail.

One of my closest friends
went to jail for 11 years.

A guy I was with every day.

We wouldn't be talking to you now,
would we?

No, no way.

Yeah.

Amazing.

By the way, the East Coast-West Coast
thing...

-that's over.
-Yeah. Done.

The idea of rap and the battle,

this rap beef that it is today, it really started as...

like a...

competitors, like basketball.

We would play each other.

In order for me to get on the mic

and rap in front of the crowd,

I had to be great.

I had to be the best, so you would say,

"Okay you say your best rhyme,
I'll say mine."

It wasn't a hostile thing.

It was just...

Let's make each other better,

you say something,
I'll say something.

Next time I come,
I'll say something better,

and we weren't even rapping for ourselves.

In the beginning, you were rapping
for the DJ.

The idea was you were supposed
to keep people interested in the DJ.

It was like,
"My DJ's good, my DJ's great."

That's why all the DJ's names came first.

Eric B. & Rakim,

Jazzy Jeff and The Fresh Prince.

The MC wasn't...

at the forefront.

He was just the Master of Ceremony
"MC".

He was there to say,
"Check out how good the DJ is."

And that battle spawned from that time.

And then it got into a place
where it got really ugly.

And now I think
everyone's learned the lesson

of what that can really do

and how far that can really go,

and we lost two amazing people
behind that.

I think everyone took a step back
and said,

"This is not what it's about.

This is not what hip hop is about."

Let me talk about

one of your peers, Kanye West.

Are we friends?

Or are we not friends?

That's my brother.

We're beyond friends.

Like, literally, my little brother
is Kanye.

And like your little brother,
things happen sometimes.

Tell me what happened.

It would be like... Do you have siblings?

-Yes. Two.

You guys ever have a falling out?

I'll let you know when it's over.

Exactly.

And it's like that.

But that's still your sibling forever.

That's my brother.

We don't come from the same mom and dad,

but you know I've watched Kanye...

from without an album.

The thing I respect about him,

is he is the same person.

He interrupted our studio session

and stood on the table
and started rapping,

We were like, "Could you please get down?"

He was like, "No, I am the savior
of Chicago."

I was like...

He didn't even have a record.

Would he sit here and chat with me?

One hundred percent.

He's brilliant.

I don't know if I can talk about this.

I'm gonna talk about it,

and you tell me if I can talk about it.

That's how conversations work.

Okay.

What I'm getting to here,

and forgive me for being
a dope about this,

is the use of the n-word.

And I even feel silly saying "n-word",

because...

Don't say the real word, Dave.

No, no, no...

This shit is going so good.

But...

I hear it...

-with great frequency.
-Yeah.

When someone has used a word

to down your entire culture...

What hip-hop did was take that word
and...

flip it.

and use it as a word of empowerment.

There's going to be people that disagree

and agree with this, which is fine.

It's cool...

nice for people to have

great discourse with one another
about this word.

Some people are highly offended

from another generation,

because they believe that it's
the last word that people heard

before they died.

So, they have a really strong
emotional connection

to people using the word.

But it's not the word.

It's actually the intent behind the word.

People who are inherently racist,

they'll just replace it
with a different word,

or a different way to express racism.

I'm not offended by it.

You should be.

But I know I can't use it.

-No.
-Yeah.

I see what you mean.
I should be. I am offended.

Yeah.

I'm not offended when I hear you say it.

I understand.

But, if my son came home,

well, that's it.

No dice there.

You still beat your kids?

How many times were you at Def Jam?

Were you there
shortly after the beginning?

Once you were the president...

As an artist, I was there from '97

until 2003 or something like that,

then I became the president.

Then you started your own company.

I came into the game
as executive producer

and the owner of the label
of my first album.

I wanted to do more inside the building

and it was like, this...

structure that was just so...

I think a lot of them forgot...

why they were in the music business.

The goal is to make forever music.

For me, try to make music of the time,

music of the moment.

That works, people enjoy it,

but the music I listen to today,

still is Off the Wall,

and Prince music,
Songs in the Key of Life,

and Shuggie Otis...

These songs were made...

fifty years ago.

This was popular when I was a kid...

and now it's been 50 years.

When you're creating, you try to make...

The goal is to make something that
will last forever.

Shangri La Studio
Malibu California

SHANGRI LA RANCH

Shangri La Studio is currently owned by
music producer

and Def Jam co-founder Rick Rubin.

Rubin has worked with Jay-Z, LL Cool J,
Beastie Boys, Johnny Cash, Tom Petty Adele, U2 and countless others.

Here's the man right here.

Hi.

I'm Dave Letterman.

-Pleasure.
-Pleasure to meet you.

-Thank you very much.

Rick Rubin
Music Producer

Yeah. This is lovely,

and thank you for your generosity
of spirit

and your hospitality.

Thank you so much for coming.

This place.  I mean, good heavens.

What else do you want? Nothing.
This is it.

-This is it.
-Yeah.

It reminds me of like the way you
had your old show

in the Ed Sullivan Theater.

There are certain places
where you feel a certain energy,

because a lot of good things happen
over a long period of time.

This is one of those places.

When did it become officially
a recording studio?

I think it became a recording studio
in 1976.

Robbie Robertson and The Band,
built a studio...

And from from what I...

Again, it's all lore.

I don't know what really happened,

but, supposedly, Dylan lived
in a teepee on the lawn back there.

That was his tour bus,

got converted into a studio.

Did you check out the bus yet?

-Haven't been to the bus.
-Let's go to the bus.

Awesome.

My goodness.

And now it's a bona fide
recording facility.

We mixed half of Yeezus in this room.

Kanye's album before the last one.

When I was talking to Jay-Z,

he said, he defines excellence

as one, two, three decades

of very, very high-quality output.

And he certainly is
the personification of that.

He is.

And I've seen you working with him,

and he just walks in,

no notes no nothing,

and starts doing this.

"99 PROBLEMS" MAKING THE VIDEO, 2004

When I first heard it,
I was ignorant about all of this,

because I was busy with
my own nonsense on TV.

But this but this stuff...

it's very sophisticated.

Absolutely.

There's wisdom in his lyrics.

I don't know how he knows
all that he knows,

but he knows a lot.

-Very smart man.
-Yeah.

Tell me more about yourself.

When you were a kid,

what did you listen to?

I listened to The Beatles--

First thing I remember listening to
was The Beatles.

-Beatles and The Monkees.
-Yeah.

I think Let It Be was the first
album I got as a little kid.

And then kind of went
backwards from there.

Were the Beatles a big deal to you?

Huge!

I mean...

Here's the great thing about the Beatles
for me, Rick.

The country...

was...dark.

It was just dark, it had gone dark.

The assassination turned the lights out
on the country.

And then, like in February,

we start hearing
"I Want to Hold Your Hand"

is now being played on the radio.

By the time I was a senior in high school,

the exchange student,

a lovely, young high school kid
from England,

was in our high school, and we dated.

So, I got to spend one year
with this beautiful girl

with a British accent,

and...

the background music for
our high school romance

was the Beatles,

-Unbelievable.
-It was cool.

It was about the coolest thing

that's ever happened to me, honestly.

But I'll take it, for God's sake.

And why not?

The other thing
that I find interesting is,

hip hop is all biographical.

Am I right about that?

No.

It's meant...

it pretends to be.

A lot of guys are just telling stories.

Very few people are telling

their real true life story.

-Yeah.

Even in the beginning,

when kids were just starting out?

Yes. They're lying.

Sorry.

That's delightful.

Yeah. Nine out of ten.

I find that very funny, actually.

I remember reading something, where...

you play with your lyrics,

and it's very complex stuff.

"Where I'm From" 2012

I mean, to listen to it once...

You know, get in line again.

You're going to have to listen to it
over and over again,

because there are references about the life, made up or true,

and then there are references that apply

and exist only in that culture,

and then there are personal references.

So, it's very complicated.

-It's flying around.
-It is flying around.

When you're doing that,

how do you know when you're done?

Great question.

It's a feeling.

It's really a feeling of...

trying to have some sort of structure,

a beginning middle and end.

You try to have some...

Whatever you're creating, has got to have

some type of structure.

Whether you happen upon it by accident,

or you have intention to do it.

Again, it's just a feeling.

You know when it's completed.

and this is a stupid comparison,

but look who you're talking to.

When I used to write jokes...

sometimes, they would just...
appear in my head,

and then sometimes you would actually
have to go and...

work and work and work.

But, at the end, the effect was

either method would produce a laugh.

Is it similar with writing hip hop lyrics?

Yeah.

Sometimes it happens immediately.

Songs happen in three minutes
sometimes, literally.

And then songs...

"Forever Young" took me
about a month to finish.

It's like, "I can never finish this song."

And it never turned out the way
I wanted it.

And it went on to be
really successful song for me,

but I can't even like...

It still bothers me that I didn't

finish it the way I wanted to.

Here's something
that happened the other day.

My son and I are driving in the car,

and he starts this...

And I'm so dumb, I'm thinking...

-it's a problem with his stomach.

And I said, "Harry, what the hell
are you doing?"

He said, "Dad, you've interrupted
my flow."

Yeah.

What is "the flow"?

It's...

You know the flow very well.

You've told jokes and stood on stage

so many times,

and you just know
when you're in the rhythm,

where one joke leads to another
and another.

That's what defines a great comic,

someone who can stitch together

moments and then bring it back.

It's just when you catch a pocket,

and you just keep taking that thing,

and it goes further and further.

Yeah.

I'd like to agree with you.

That has not been my experience.

The idea that...

I watched some early video of you,

and it's hard work.

"AIN'T NO"
1996

Yeah, it's a lot of things
working at the same time.

You can have a great voice,

and you can just almost say anything.

I think Snoop Dogg has a great voice.

He can say, "One, two, three
and to the four..."

And it's like, "My God."

It just sounds good. Right?

It just sounds really good.

Or you can be someone like Eminem,

and just have amazing cadence.

And it's almost like this syncopation.

It's like...

You almost become... it's percussion...

inside the music.

So there's multiple ways
to be really good.

Some people just have it all.

What can we do today?

What can you help us with today?

Let's go inside.

There's a new artist, named Madison Ward

who has a beautiful voice.

MADISON WARD
SINGER/SONGWRITER

That's nice. Yeah.

You want it a little faster than that?

No, that's great.

MICAH NELSON
LUKAS NELSON AND PROMISE OF THE REAL

Would you guys mind if we did one more?

We missed one of the notes there.

LUKAS NELSON
LUKAS NELSON AND PROMISE OF THE REAL

Let's roll back on the tape.

-Hi Madison, I'm Dave Letterman.
-Nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you.

Thank you very much
for letting us do this.

Why is it you and Rick are here?

Rick's having me work through

this song that I recorded a while back.

-I did.

We just got started not that long ago,

and we're working through,

all these things that I've written.

We're coming together,

and I've got this amazing band here

to help me,

and we're just
seeing what we can do.

What is your objective in music?

Just to be honest.

And move people in a way,
that they've never been moved before.

That's really it.

As long as it moves you...

isn't that pretty much
the end of the project?

With this song in particular, yes.

This moves me pretty much.

I hope everybody else
will feel the same.

I would like...

I like a lot of echo.

-Is it "compression" or...whatever.
-Both.

-Yeah.
-Give you both.

We'll just try a few like that...

and decide. Okay?

Yeah. Perfect.

I'm an idiot.

And then...

The Nelson boys,

are are they over in there?

Don't talk to them.

Everybody good in there? Let's do it.

One...two...three.

It's good. Felt good.

I didn't... Can I talk?

I didn't know we were just going
to sit there and sing it.

I thought you had to go to a thing

to sing it somewhere else.
I'm sorry.

-That was crazy.
-It's all good.

Like, "Oh my God.
She's singing it right here.

I'm going to screw it up somehow."

That was beautiful.

-Just beautiful.
-Thank you.

So, did we we like that?

Yeah, okay, alright?

Well, yeah.

Should I walk you out

I don't know what to do.

That was...

scary.

You guys allright in there?

Okay.

Yeah, you heard we're not paying you.

You're beautiful. That was lovely.

I believe the reason why it's called...

the universal language, music,

is like, the more I know about you,
the more I can,

relate to you.

The more I can have compassion
about what you're going through.

If you know about my family

and all the things that happened

and things that happened
with my dad and my mom,

grew up, single mother,
four kids at 20.

I'm sure Harry is driving you nuts.

You've got a whole full staff
in the house, and a wife.

You're not supposed to talk
about the staff, Dave?

The point is...my mother...

four kids, 20...

That's her experience.

And there are people out there
that say,

"My mom had a baby when she was 15."

Now, people can relate to my story.

So, back to the original point.

So that conversation that's
being had is drawing energy

in one place

of like-minded people,

who've gone through the same experience,

or if you haven't gone through it,
you're like,

"I thought that this guy was some

asshole with a big staff.

But he actually is a regular, nice person

who went through this, this, this
and that.

Like my dad, even my dad...

Now that I look back on it,

I relate.

I have compassion
for what he went through,

which was anger...

my whole life...

Like, 30 to 36 when we got a chance to...

How old were you when he left?

We'll just call it ten. Ten, 11...

Ten, 11.

I look at my son, and I think about...

families that come apart,

And it's a fact of life.

Yeah.

And it just...

I don't know

Ten or 11. Think about when your son
is ten or eleven,

if you weren't around.

It would kill you.

That's right. Yeah.

Your mother on the album 4:44...

-Smile.
-Smile. Yeah.

-That's beautiful.
-Thank you.

-Just beautiful.
-Thank you.

She wrote the coda to that piece.

-Yeah.
-Yeah.

GLORIA CARTER
JAY-Z'S MOM

My goodness, your mother is a lesbian.

I guess you knew

that she was gay early on.

The only thing about that experience
for me, is her.

Imagine being...

imagine having to live your life
as someone else.

And you think you're protecting your kids.

This was a time...

It's not like now.

Now everyone's more accepting
to everyone's lifestyle.

And there's still people out there.

who are living in a different time.

But we look at those people as,

"You're living in a different time."

And for my mother...

to have to live as someone that she wasn't

and hide and protect her kids,

and didn't want to embarrass her kids,

for all this time.

And for her to sit
in front of me and tell me,

"I think I love someone."

I mean, I really cried out.

That's a real story.

I cried, because I was so happy for her

that she was free.

You know? It was like...

How old were you when that happened?

This happened eight months ago,

when the album was being made.

She just told me.

I made the song the next day.

I'm sorry. This is when you learned
your mother was gay?

No, I knew, but this is first time
we had the conversation,

and the first time I heard her say
she loved her partner.

Like, I feel like I love somebody."

She said, "I feel like..."

She held that little bit back, still.

She didn't say, "I'm in love."

She said, "I feel like I love someone."

And I just... I cried. I don't even
believe in crying because you're happy.

I don't even know what that is.

What is that?

Were you scared before you
had your kids?

Yeah. I was... terrified.

I was worried about being a good father.

Yeah.

We'd never seen that ever...

There weren't very many examples
for us growing up, of that.

We had a high IQ for other things.

I could tell you, somebody walked
in the room was

plotting or something
from a mile away.

I could see that person in the corner,

and be like, "Okay. They got a gun
in their pocket."

Okay, we should probably leave

because this is happening."

But... emotional IQ was like...

minus...

a hundred.

So, the second your daughter is born,

boom that all goes away.

-And it just clicks in.
-Yeah.

-It's strange.

And then I always follow
this sentiment up with...

"Why isn't that emotion transcendent
in the world?"

You know?

-Because everybody has kids.
-That's right.

So, why doesn't that work beyond?

-Fear.
-Yeah.

Most times you find that people have
been hurt.

and they build this...

Again, it's like breaking down

to the very basic of who we are,

you and I.

We both have the same fears,

we both have the same...
We're twins, right?

We both have the same angst

about our children growing up.

We both have the same...

you know...

whatever...

We're both excited Judd is here.

You know, those basic emotions...

things that are invisible,

that are really important,
that we really...

You know, love...

and loyalty and integrity

and all these things.

Those are the things
that we have in common.

And then, fear...

Okay, you're white,
I'm a black guy.

You have a beard.
I have a beard on my head.

All these things that are different,

that separate us, are fear based.

There was...

I guess it was in the Op-Ed section
of the New York Times.

A piece that you wrote
not so long ago.

JAY-Z: THE CRIMINAL JUSTICE SYSTEM STALKS
BLACK PEOPLE LIKE MEEK MILL

about a friend who was violating...

theoretically violating his parole

because he was doing wheelies
on a dirt bike.

Yeah.

I know it sounds ridiculous...

-The kid's name is...Meek Mill.
-Meek Mill.

MEEK MILL

How did you get into his life?

How did you know about this?

What are you doing for people
who may fall prey to this?

We manage him currently,
like right now.

This judge felt the need

to violate him for two to four years...

for two things.

One, he was shooting the video,

and he was riding a motorcycle
and doing wheelies.

And two, there was a guy
who asked him for an autograph,

and...

he was like, "Man, I'm leaving,
I got a flight."

And the guy got mad and started
hitting his friend,

so he pulled the guy off his friend.

And the case got dismissed on that,

because they had the camera
and they saw that,

"He didn't start any trouble.

He was actually trying to leave,
the guy hitting his friend..."

His friend is a little guy,
who actually

had a head injury.

So the guys hitting his friend,

and he pulls the guy off his friend.

He's in jail currently.

There's a documentary about a kid named
Kalief Browder.

-Yeah.
-Tell me about that.

That was the most heartbreaking project

I've ever worked on.

A young kid, he was16 at the time.

KALIEF BROWDER

They pulled him up randomly,

accused him of stealing a backpack.

They locked him in one of the most
notorious jails,

which is Rikers Island,

and they held them there

for three years without a trial.

So, this kid never...

had the benefit of due process?

He didn't...

he wasn't convicted of anything.

Three years, he was
in solitary confinement

180 days.

And they call solitary confinement
"The Bing," because after 40 days,

they say your mind just bings.

It flips over.

And at the end of all this, he gets out.

He goes, he's taking his GED.

I met with him.

I called him, and said,

"I just want to give you some comfort."

and like anything you need.

If you need any help on anything..."

And he left the office.

I thought this was a good story,

the way it ends,

I was like, "Man that kid's been through
so much,

and he's...going to make it."

I get a call maybe two weeks later.

He killed himself.

He killed himself, he couldn't take it.

It's like, his mind...

just a really heartbreaking story.

We went to Sundance

and we premiered this film,

and it was an audience
pretty much like this.

There was a girl in front,

and she just was crying, and like shaking.

And I was like, "Man, I know."

And I went over to her and I hugged her.

And she said, "The same thing
happened to my brother."

So, he's not even this outlier

that everyone would like you to believe.

It happens more than...

I mean...one in three.

That was the number.

One in three, Black or Latino males
are in jail.

One out of three.

That's like.

One, two. That's you.

You know what I'm saying?

Could have been you also years ago.

Matter of fact. One, two, definitely me.

My bad.

I don't have the statistics,

but my guess is, this happens

more in communities where there are...

-black people...
-And Latino.

And Latino.

Not so much in communities
where there are white people.

No, the numbers are disproportionate.
It's unbelievable.

Currently, someone today...

is going through this.

And your scholarship fund is to...

like a concierge that will help the kids

get through high school,

get into college.

The idea is if someone has the grades...

Because life gets in the way
a lot of times.

If you're motivated and you
want to go to college,

and your parents just don't
have the means or something,

we have a scholarship to help them out.

My mom's been running it for 10 years.

She goes on the bus tours,

taking kids to different colleges,

and just preparing them for college life.

And we have graduates now.

It's a beautiful thing to see.

I'll be honest with you.

I've lately grown...

I'm beginning to lose confidence in the Trump Administration.

I don't know.

What is...

What do you think of that?

I think it's actually...

a great thing.

And here's why.

I think that what he's
forcing people to do

is have a conversation

and people to band together
and work together.

You can't really address something

that's not revealed.

He's bringing bringing out an ugly side
of America

that we wanted to believe was gone.

And it's still here, and we've
still got to deal with it.

We have to have the conversation.

We have to have tough conversations.

We have to talk about the n-word.

We have to talk about why

white men are so privileged
in this country.

I completely agree.

And I'll tell you what... I think...

and I've said this a thousand times.

We don't need any more evidence.

It's not like, "Did you hear
what happened today?"

I mean, is he a racist,
is he not a racist?

I'm telling you,
if you're having a debate over

whether a guy is a racist,

chances are that guy is a racist.

But that doesn't do any good.

It really doesn't do any good.

Case closed, no more calls,
we have a winner.

The humanity that this country
has to represent,

has been
refueled by this dumbass.

And because I don't have
any answers for this,

I keep saying,

"I think this problem will take care
of itself."

I don't know what that means,

but I think it will take care of itself.

You know

We can't continue.

I think as far as physically, now

it takes people like you speaking out,

and especially all the young people
across the country

to say, "No, this ain't right.

I don't feel like this."

This is not...

I don't represent what he represents,

and I'm going to change that.

I believe that it's going
to get more people,

especially young people,

more active than ever.

I think we'll see record breaking
numbers next election.

I think we will break every record.

You and I have one other thing in common,

and...

I have to be cautious
how I articulate this,

but a few years ago...

I got myself into some trouble.

And the situation was my responsibility

and my fault.

I did something that I had
no business doing.

And I regret it, and since then I have

tried to acknowledge that mistake

and be a better person.

You can only stop behavior

that was hurting people and

apologize for it, and try to continue

-to be a better person.
-That's right.

-At least that's all I know what to do.
-Yeah.

But I like to think...

maybe this is flattery
that I can't afford,

that I'm a better person.

-Not the person...
-Right.

that caused so much pain
for so many people.

But...

at the time, the pain
that I caused myself was the fear that I had
blown up my family,

that I was going to be in a situation

where I would see my son every two weeks,

my wife would be

dating Scott, the dentist from New Jersey.

You know Scott?

And I would go to therapy,

and I would tal to people
about this situation.

And they would tell me various things

to just get me out of the office.

But I never talked to a person

who had been in that situation.

And I'm wondering...

if this rings a bell with you?

-The pain of, "Have I done something...
-Of course.

to blow up my family?"

Yeah, you know for a lot of us,

we don't have...

especially where I grew up,

and men in general...

We don't have emotional
cues from when we're young.

Our emotional cue is,
"Be a man, stand-up. Don't cry."

I made a song called,

"I never seen a cry rolling down my eyes

So I gotta make the song cry."

You know, the idea of not
seeing it coming down my eyes,

"but I've got to make the song cry,"

is my way of saying,

"I want to cry. I want to be open.

I want to have the emotional tools

that it takes to keep my family together."

And, much like you,
I have a beautiful wife

who was understanding,

and knew that I'm not the worst
of what I've done.

And like you, I did the hard work
of going to therapy and,

you know, like really...

we love each other.

So, we really put in the work...for years.

This music I'm making now

is the result of things
that have happened already.

Like you, I like to believe that
we're in a better place today,

but still working and communicating
and growing.

I'm proud of the father and husband
that I am today,

because of all the work that was done.

It's...hard work.

In saying that I don't mean, "I'm heroic."

Yeah.

But it's...

-as scared as I've ever been in my life.
-Yeah.

Not to discount the pain I caused others.

But I can't imagine not coming through it.

I can't imagine not having...

The end result is...
still a work in progress,

but I now know,

I'm a different person,

and I'm not going to...

My worst fear is not coming to pass.

That's real.

So, you're like Frank Sinatra?

You're going to be doing this

till when you're 70, 80 making music?

I didn't think so, but I may be.

Long as I have the truth.

As long as I have truth to say
and information to give.

Like, that conversation right now.

Things that you lived through
to share it with others.

And it's difficult,

but you have information
that when you share,

someone at home is like,

"I was thinking about giving up.

Let me let me stick with this and come
through the other side.

I see how that looks.

I know what that looks like."

All we've seen were people fleeing.

My dad left when I was 11,
my uncle left.

We've just seen people give up.

The divorce rate is 50%.

We never see people like, "Okay...

Let's work through this.

I love you. I love my family.

Let's work through this."

So, back to the point,
is the next iteration

of whatever I'm saying.

It's going to be...

another challenge, which is great.

I love you.

Thank you, man.

That was great.

I have a question. That was beautiful.

Did you originally write that as a duet
with a female voice?

No. I just wrote it on my own,

but when she got here yesterday,

and we were working on the song,

I thought this would be incredible
as a duet.

It was tremendous.

That was great.

Nice going everybody.

-That was cool. Thank you.
-Thanks.

I'll be in here if you need anything.

Ladies and gentlemen,
please welcome my next guest,

Tina Fey.

It's not too common a name.

It is to sort of like a prostitute name.

If you ever see a character
named Tina in a movie,

it won't be a heart surgeon.

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