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- I remember when I was
13 years old,

It was national
"coming out" day.

As I was running out the house
with my friend,

I turned to my dad,

And I screamed to him
across the house,

"dad, I just want
to let you know I'm gay."

And he's, like,
"okay. Bye"

And I was, like, "bye."
that was it.

- Coming out to my mom
wasn't as easy

As coming out to my dad.

- My mom looked at me
and she said,

"I always thought, Nik,

"that you were in love
with your college roommate,

And you struggled with that."

And she was right.

- I did grow up
in a very religious household.

My grandmother, it took her
probably, like, five years

To say the word "lesbian."

- When I told my parents,

It was one of the scariest
things I had ever done.

- With my family, it was easy.

Once I knew who I was,

I really didn't give a fuck
about what anyone else thought.

- I said, "you know, mom,
I met somebody.

She's a woman.
Her name is Kelly."

My mom's face dropped.

And, I mean, it's a face

I never really want
to see again.

- I didn't really care about
what other people thought,

But I always felt like
I was doing something wrong.

It's like, literally,
that catholic guilt.

- I felt like I was
almost disappointing

The most important person
in my life.

My parents said things like,

"we want you to be happy.

"but we're gonna need a second
to just get used to it

Because it's not the life
that we thought might live."

- The only thing
that was a little odd was

My grandmother,
'cause she couldn't identify

With "who are you
making out with,

And who is just your friend?"

So I wasn't allowed
to have anyone in my room

After I came out,
which is kind of a bummer.

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- ♪ it was just
the other night ♪

♪ I don't want to think
about it ♪

♪ I don't want to start
a fight ♪

♪ I don't want to think
about it ♪

♪ every time I take
a step, left, right ♪

♪ I think I'm gonna sleep
real good tonight ♪

♪ you'll find a way
to make me crazy ♪

♪ hazy ♪

- Previously on
the real l word...

- We're going to make it rain.
We're talking 20 fucking grand.

We're coming down to the wire,

And this is definitely
the biggest production

I have ever done
for fashion week.

So we're looking
to pull in some dollars

To try to raise some capital
for this tenting.

And now 15,000 turns into
$20,000 in one second.

How are we gonna pull this off?

- I am so ready
to go to San Francisco

And leave this girl drama
behind.

- Have fun.
- See ya.

- The whole thing is
ridiculous.

I have no commitment
to Whitney at this point.

She can do whatever she wants.

- I've let people in
and trusted them

Only when I know that
they feel more for me.

For a moment, I actually
looked at Sara as, like,

Okay, when I'm ready
to be in a relationship,

She's somebody I could
potentially be with.

But now, I'm starting
to reconsider.

- Message sent today.

- So we're waiting to hear back

From Camilla,
the wedding planner.

- I'm very glad you guys decided
to go with us.

- You can't back out now.
You better love me forever.

'cause she's very expensive.

Check that off our list.
Now we're on to dresses.

Mama, they have to do
some things to this.

- Oh! What's not to like?

I want it to feel right and know
that I'm making a wise decision.

- Come in this weekend?
- Yeah.

- Your mom's on Facebook?

- Yep.
I friend requested your mom.

- Let me see.

- She's gonna be my friend
on the Internet,

But not in real life.

Tracy's been out
for five years.

I think she's at a point
where she needs her mom.

We all want our mom's support.

- Hi, mama bear.
- Hi, sweetie. How are you?

- I think I have the flu.
I don't really know.

I think Stamie's kids
gave it to me.

- Um...Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- Nat, slow the fuck down and
relax for a second. Seriously.

She's screaming and yelling
at me.

- I'm so frustrated.
Like, I was frustrated...

- Let me fucking unwind
for a second!

If she wants to be bitchy
and snappy and angry, fine.

But now I'm getting
a free pass.

- Exes!

- I'm about to have one
after all this.

[laughter]

- What's up, bromance?

- I haven't seen you
in so long, fool.

Since dinner last night.
No, I'm not in trouble.

The only way I get in trouble is
if you get all drunk one night,

You're, like,
"remember the strippers?"

- So how was last night?
What happened?

- That was on someone's tit.

I was sandwiched by breasts.

It was the two strippers...
that's four breasts.

And then Danielle.

So two and a half sets
of breasts.

Fuck no. You guys, nobody bbm,
twit... nothing. Tweet.

Nothing... twatter...Nothing.

- She'd be cool with it.

- No, she would not
be cool with it.

We had this conversation.

But I didn't do anything wrong.

And so if it does make
or break us, that's retarded.

- Let's say Natalie had
a night like that.

- No.
[laughter]

No.
- Double standard.

- I don't give a fuck, dude.
- It's not okay.

- No, but I'm curious.
I'm just curious.

Let's say that did happen.
How would you react?

- Are you kidding?
It's not gonna happen.

I'll put her ass out
for, like, a while.

- She'd be a Puerto Rican
husband.

- No.

- No, double standards.
That's what causes problems.

- Fag, I'm not double standards.

I'm just saying, like,
I'm growing up.

You know?

Here's the thing.
Like, normally,

I probably would have did

Some bad stuff
with the strippers.

But now I'm, like, cool.
I had fun.

And it was innocent.
No one did anything.

- So you acted well?
- Yeah. Totally.

- She didn't touch.

It touched her,
but she didn't touch.

- It slapped me on the forehead,
but that was cool.

[laughter]

- Knock knock.

- Just the two of you?
- Yeah.

- Yeah. Why would we bring them
with us?

- Oh!

- I hang out with my family
a lot,

So I have two sisters out here.

So tonight,

Everyone's coming over
to have dinner

And watch a movie.

- I like this.
- I just got it.

- You do look like
your dog, dude.

- I look like Tracy's dog.

- They both have boyfriends.
It's cute.

- Hi, how are you?

Nice to see you.
- Nice to see you.

- We're close in age,
and just close in general.

Amy is a year and a half
younger than me,

And Audrey is
five years younger.

And since I came out,
Amy seems to be taking

A little bit of time
to kind of come around.

And Audrey, she was out
at gay bars more than I was,

Which was really interesting.

Especially since she's
the straightest girl I know.

So what's new, girls?

- How was your trip
with your mom

When you went home?
- It was really nice.

- Did she ask about me?
- No.

- No? Weird.
[laughter]

- Do you guys think
mom's gonna love Stamie?

- I don't know.
- I don't know.

- Wait, I didn't
see expressions.

I love every time
we bring it up,

It just gets, like, heavy.
The air just gets, like, boof!

All right, let's talk
about your mom

And how I'm gonna dress up
to impress her.

No.

- "you're okay."
- what?

What do you think?
She'll be, like...

- It's your boyfriend.
Put a muzzle on him.

Amy...You're scare me!

- You're scary, right?

- Yeah, you get
these expressions,

And I'm, like, "told you."

I don't know Amy very well,

But I've hung out
with her a bunch and, you know...

But I haven't really
sat down with her

And had, like,
a one-on-one conversation.

Amy, you are scary,
I have to say.

I do think if I keep trying,
I can win her over.

- I'm hungry, and I want food,
and I want to order.

- Come here.
Let me breast feed you, baby.

- Seriously, Blake,
give me the phone number.

Can I call and get
these people to shut up

So they can eat,
and we can just move on

And watch the show?

This is kind of very irritating

For me right now.

- This is a terrible place
to order food from.

- It's so yummy, though.
- What, you need a break?

Really?
- You never see me.

Are you being serious?
- She's dead serious.

- Tracy misses you.
- You guys can cuddle.

Go on.

- Amy is the middle child.

And we've done everything
together our entire lives.

I moved out here
and she moved out here.

So I think she was used
to me, you know, dating guys.

And the day, you know,
that I sort of

Broke the news to her,

In a way, she was just
sideswiped.

- Baby.
- What?

- Are you okay?
- It's frustrating.

It's just, like,
a weird energy.

- Well, it's family.

- It's family, but like,

We haven't seen each other
in a while,

And it's weird...
You know?

- Mm-hmm.

- That is so adorable.

- It is. It's so cute.

- Jill and I needed
to sit down at dinner

And talk about our wedding.

So we've set up
a private dining room

For ourselves at bastide.

- Thank you so much.

- Enjoy, ladies.
- Thank you.

And now that Camilla's
on board,

We have to find a venue
for our wedding.

I'm getting nervous a little.

- Are you?
- Yeah.

- You having second thoughts?
- No!

- I feel like there are
so many things to do,

But I think, you know,
once the place is booked,

Everything will just unfold.
- Right.

Then start writing checks.
- Right.

- Do you feel like it's Malibu?
- I do.

- I mean, I feel like
it could be Beverly hills.

I feel like it has to feel
like the right house.

- So along those lines,
I think we just make a pact

That every decision we make...
the house, the caterer...

Everything...
no arguing.

I'm not suggesting
you are the arguer.

I'm just saying
we're not gonna argue.

- Okay, no arguing.

- Nik and I both realize

That wedding planning is
stressful.

I think that we're just
starting to develop

Stronger opinions about stuff.

We both have
strong personalities too,

So when those opinions
aren't aligned,

We can kind of
butt heads a little bit.

Are we agreeing
that we're gonna have

Just a best man
and a best woman?

- Yeah. I don't want
to have bridesmaids.

I don't feel like it's necessary
unless you tell me otherwise.

- Are you gonna have your mom
walk you down?

- Yeah, I'm having a hard time
with that whole thing.

- I know.
- You know?

- You want to talk about it?

- I mean, look, I want my mom
to walk me down the aisle.

I do.
I just feel like...

My dad should be
walking me down the aisle.

I feel like my dad is very set.

He's afraid to go outside
of his comfort zone.

As long as I've known him,
he's never been on a plane,

And I haven't had
much of a relationship with him

Since my parents got divorced.

- I mean, because
that's tradition?

I mean, if you're
gonna play by tradition,

Then I should be a man.

Right? Right?

I mean, our whole relationship
is about

What's right for you...

What feels right
for your heart.

So this is our wedding,
our union.

So whatever feels best for you.

- But you know, you grow up
and you have an idea

Of your wedding.

And then you also have an idea

Of who you think
your parents are.

And then when they turn out
to not be the people

That you think they should
have been...

It's been very disappointing
for me to not...Have...

A father in my life
as an adult.

My parents got divorced
when I was in my 2os,

And that was really hard
for me.

And the last time
I heard from my father

Was when I appeared on Oprah
in 2006.

I'll never forget
the phone call

That he made to me
after the divorce.

At the time,
I was married to a man.

I was married very young
in my 2os,

And it was a show about women
who figured out they were gay

After they were married.

Then what I remember he said
was, over the phone,

"I was in my house the other day
and turned on Oprah

"and saw a beautiful woman.

"and I thought to myself,
'what a waste of a woman'

"when I heard
the subject matter.

And then I realized
it was you."

My mom will walk me
down the aisle,

And it will be
a little bittersweet.

- I know.

- Nik is one of the most
loving individuals

I have ever met.

She's never done a thing wrong.

She's never done anything
but love him.

And it's a shame that
she doesn't have that back

From her dad.

So we're just gonna
plan out our wedding.

- Okay. Deal.
- Yeah?

- I love you.
- I love you too.

- So much.

- I have a pretty small family.

I have one sister, Alexis.

She actually lives
in L.A. Now.

I'm starving.
I'm gonna eat this ketchup.

Our relationship is,
for the most part, great.

She's one of my best friends.

I have her name tattooed
on my arm.

I love her more than anybody
in this world.

Um...

I have enough...
Drama from my mama.

Actually, I've been doing
a good job not doing that.

- It's not the weekend yet.
- No!

I swear to God,
I'm doing this thing

Where I'm, like, so
brutally honest with girls.

Like Romi, for example.
I'll be, like,

"I know you're out
with Sara this weekend,"

You know what I'm saying?

And she looks at me
and she's like,

"I can't believe
I'm talking to you."

- That's good, 'cause
if you open up

That kind of conversation,
then it's...

- But I am so open about it.

No secrets. "you know
I can't be in a relationship.

"and, like, I'm not ready.

"so if you want to still
talk to me

And deal with me
in this way, you know this."

- All right, well, that's good.

- And so it makes me feel
like, wow...

I should have been
doing this all along.

[laughter]

'cause it actually is good.
- Yeah.

- I mean, I'm being honest,

But I just leave out
pieces of information.

Or I just think
it's none of their business,

And then it hurts in the end.

But now I'm, like, so honest.

Honestly, I've kind of
cleared the air with everybody.

So things are good
with Romi and I.

I realize now

If I lay all my cards out
on the table...

At this point, if you choose
to still want to

Associate with me, be friends
with me, sleep with me,

Have feelings for me,

That is all you.

I talked to dad the other day.

- Really?

- Yeah. Why?

- Because I haven't heard you
say that for, like...

Nine months.
- Why?

- I thought I was the only one
who talked to him anymore.

- I called him.
- Good.

- Well, it's not like
he calls me, okay?

All these years I harbored
resentment for my father

Because when I was younger,
he ended up

Having an affair on my mom.

- No, my conversations
with him lately

Have been very good.

- And he doesn't have a job.

He can call if he wants to,
but I called him.

- It's not a matter of time.

- What is it a matter of?

- Being used to calling people.

- He calls his friends.

Women love him,

You know, I used to be
on the soccer field,

And literally, my father would
be sitting in the bleachers

Surrounded by the soccer moms.

None of them would be
paying attention to the game...

At all.

And I'd look over, like...
and it pissed me off.

And you know, basically, today,

I see common characteristics
between my father and I.

But honestly, it's not
something I'm proud of.

Like, it's really not.

[jet engine whines]

- Bye!
- You're, like, "bye!"

Where's our...
where's our van?

I think we're over here.

In addition to producing
Los Angeles fashion weekend,

We also produce an event
in New York twice a year.

It's called the gallery NYC,

In which we bring out
a handful of L.A. Designers

To meet the New York press

Before they hit the runway
in L.A.

- Hello.
- Hello.

How are you today?
- Pretty good.

I'll take it.
- Oh, thank you.

But it's important
for these brands

To be recognized
on the East coast...

To really garner a ton of press

Before fashion week.

So we head straight to the
New York showroom right now.

We're going to set up,

And we have a lot of ground
to cover today.

- Hi. Good morning.

How are you?
- Hello.

- I'm Shanna.
- You're Shanna? How are you?

- Nice to meet you.

- And I will get a steamer
out for you

In one second, okay?

We bring a lot of
L.A. Designers out to New York

So they have an opportunity
to meet these New York editors

Face to face.

Because the big press editors
are all in New York,

And unfortunately, with problems
with the economy,

A lot of the West coast offices
of these big publications

Have been laid off,

So they don't have
an opportunity

To reach them directly.

Um, starting at 9:00,
we have editor appointments

All day long here today.

So I'm really excited,
and I think

If we can get a lot
of editors in this morning,

We're gonna be doing
really good.

[indistinct conversation]

- I quit my job
at the hair salon I was at,

And now I'm gonna be working
with rose.

I want to look good
and feel good for this new job,

So my sister Leslie and I are
gonna get our nails done.

Ooh, I like that.
That's a pretty purple.

Is that called calamari shrimp?
I don't think I want that.

It doesn't open.
It's not meant to be.

Leslie is my older sister.

There's five of us...
three girls, two boys.

And three of us are gay.

Leslie, myself,
and my younger brother Steven.

- How was your weekend?

- I snapped at rose on Saturday

Because I was mad.

You know I told you about
that lesbian wedding?

So when I was driving
to the wedding,

She gave me the right
directions,

But because I was
so frustrated,

I was reading them wrong.

And I'm, like, "what the fuck?

You gave me the wrong
fuckin' directions!"

I just snapped. I lost...
like, I was just pissed.

I snapped at rose because
it was very stressful

Quitting my job.

You know,
I think every couple...

Like, we have our four weeks

That we can be in love,
and that one week

Where we're just kind of off.

I'm happy that we can

Get through all the silly stuff

Because we're gonna be
working together

In the same office.

Dude, this morning I felt
like such a housewife.

Rose was leaving, and she said,

"could you iron this
for me, please?"

She was running late.
"and then, after you're done,

Here's the card...
go shop your little heart out."

- Uh-uh.

- I'm like her, like, wife.

The baby mama.
- Yeah.

It's kind of just in my nature

To just be attentive.

I have all my sisters.

I've always wanted
to be married,

Younger rather than older.

I think mom would think
rose is funny.

- You should plan
a dinner first

With you, mom, and rose.

- You too.
You have to be there too.

Rose feels really comfortable.

Like, you're like her safety.
- Really?

- Yeah.

Leslie and rose, I think
they've known each other

For, like, four or five years
due to, you know,

Leslie djing and being
in the same scene

And stuff of that sort
before I ever came along.

I live with rose.
I think it's important

For mom to know, like,
what my life is about.

- Yeah, totally.

- Rose is a big part
of my life.

I would love for my mom
to get to know

Rose and my relationship.

- That's a pretty color on you.

- I had a bunch of changes
this morning.

- Are we good?
- No, we're fine.

We still have a bunch
of editors

That are gonna come tomorrow.

And we have a lot today.
- We do?

- We just have people
that are changing to tomorrow

On top of everything else.

- Okay.
- We're fine.

We have lots today, but there's
just, like, some of the majors...

- What time do
our appointments start?

- At 9:00.
- Okay.

Alison Kennedy is
an amazing p.R. Woman.

We always partner up
for these media events.

So how we work is
I handle the production,

And I hire her
to book appointments

With the New York editors.

- Good.

- So our 9:30 missed,
and our 10:oos are late?

- No, she's not missing, babe.

Don't... don't go there.
- Okay.

You know how I get
stressed out.

- Don't be negative.

Negator.

- We've had three
or four editors

Miss their appointment
this morning.

Now I'm super stressed out.

It's already 10:30,

And we haven't had
any editors walk in.

This is not a good start
to a press event.

Everybody's looking at me
and wondering

"where are the editors?"

Let's try to keep people happy.
- I know.

- We've had a 9:30 appointment,
you know, two 10:oos.

Nobody's showed up,

So I just want to know
what's going on.

- I will not let you guys down.
- Okay, great.

- Because...I live for this.
I really do.

- But I want you to go through
the list from 11:00 on

And just start confirming
some people, and I'll...

You go from 11:00 to 1:30,
and I'll do 2:00 to 5:00.

- How you feeling today?

Feeling good?
- Yeah. You know...

- You need some coffee?
Did you get coffee yet?

- No, I'm okay.
- You sure?

We have some right here.
- I'm an OJ kinda tea girl.

- Speaking of OJ,

I'm a champagne-OJ kind
of girl.

All good days start
with a mimosa.

Definitely nothing bad
can happen

Once they start drinking.

The only thing I really know
how to do in this situation

Is try to get everybody
in a good mood.

So when the editors come in
later this afternoon,

Everybody feels like
they're having a good time.

Mimosa?
- Oh...

- Oh!

That's the expression
I want to hear

When you hand somebody
a cocktail.

Salud!
- Thank you very much.

- Cheers.
- Cheers.

- Here you go.

- Thank you.
- You're welcome.

Lindee? Mimosa?

- Um, I'm okay.

- You're okay?
- For now.

- Water, soda, juice?
- I'm good, thank you.

- Straight orange juice?

I just hate having my clients
not being very happy

About what's going on.

And, you know,
having a slow start

Is kind of, for me, like, the
worst thing that could happen

Because they possibly are
thinking in their head,

"fuck! Is this what
fashion week is gonna be like?"

- Are you cocktailing already?
- Of course.

- Hi. Whatcha doing?

- Do you want to go
to brunch tomorrow?

Okay, cool.

After movie night, I decided
to call my sister Amy.

I am hoping to connect with her

And make sure
everything's okay.

Oh, my God.

I'm kind of happy mom asked,

But I'm a little bit bummed
she didn't ask me,

And she goes and talks
to you about it.

Amy mentions that she got
a call from my mother

Asking about Stamie.

I think it's a huge step.

These are things
we never talked about before.

And even if she's talking
to my sister about it,

That's a step forward for me.

I don't think it should be
any different.

My mom should come to me.

She should come straight
to the source.

It's weird.
I mean, it's great to hear

That she's talking to you
about it,

But it's something like...

I'm sort of waiting for her
to come to me.

You know, ask me about Stamie.

Even though Amy's sort of
dealing with this

At her own pace, she knows that

She needs to sort of help
get my mother there.

She is the middleman.

Yeah, it is a big step for her.

All right, bye.

- Today, nik and I are
heading up to Malibu

To look at an estate
where we might be able

To have our wedding.

This is our celebration
of our love,

And I want it to be perfect.

- Wow!

- Can we just say "I do"?
- I do!

- We don't need flowers.
Who needs flowers?

Wow.
- Whoa.

- Wow.
- Whoa.

- Hi, I'm Nikki.
- This is Marissa.

- Nice to meet you.

- Hi, I'm Jill.
Nice to meet you.

- Hi...

- Shall we begin?
- Absolutely.

- Oh, my goodness.

- Oh, it is so beautiful.

These homes are so beautiful.

This house is unbelievable.

It's everything and more
than I thought it would be.

Wow.

I love the flow of this house.
The indoor, outdoor.

This is fantastic.

When you're in the house,
the house doesn't even

Need art on the walls.

It's just incredible.

I really...
is my mouth open?

Like, I can't... I...

It's better than I ever,
ever, ever expected.

- Oh, Nik's done.
Nik is sold on this house.

I could tell.

She trusts her instincts
a little bit more

Than I trust mine.

- This is absolutely to die.

- Our last party,

They used this as cocktails.

And they they staged
their whole sit-down dinner

And dancing
over at the sport court,

Which we'll show you.

- The grounds are beautiful,

And then there's another spot

Where we'd have dinner
and dancing.

And there's two acres' worth
of parking.

And it's just, like, insane.

Done. I have to have
this house.

- So you had 150 people
in this area...

- Yes.
- For a sit-down?

- Oh, easily yours would fit.

Yeah, it's eight tables of ten.

- I'd love that we have
the wedding over there.

You know, in that area
with the view.

I already saw the wedding.

And I saw Jill
walking down the aisle

With her parents.

I mean, I saw the whole thing.

The only dislike
about this house

Is that I don't own it.

It's sickening.

- Do we have to leave?

- Thanks, you guys.
It was a pleasure.

Oh, oh, right.
Okay, right, right, right.

- Today, we haven't had
any big editors walk in.

I want to make everybody happy.

We have a lot riding
on this event.

Did you meet
some good editors today?

- I don't know.
It's hard to tell.

I mean, it's, um...
I hope so.

- Yeah.
- I hope so.

- I just get really stressed
when we have lulls in our day,

And it's just, like, fuck, man!

You just want the editors
to get here already.

We had about eight editors

That missed their appointments
this morning.

When a morning starts
like that,

I start freaking out.

- It's gonna be okay, but I do
know that crazy fucking feeling

Where you're,
like, "oh, my God."

And that's why I'm just
trying to talk to you because...

If the situation was reversed,
there's nothing

I would be able to say to you
to make you feel better.

- That's why I'm trying
to, like, manage you,

Because I'm trying to tell you,
look, I hear what you're saying,

And I want you to feel better.

And it's like I want to
do something to help you.

- I know you want to.
And I know you can't

Make people appear
out of nowhere.

You know, we're all doing
the best that we can,

But of course
I'm gonna be stressed.

- Of course you are.
Believe me, I've been...

- I'll see you tomorrow.

- Diane, Diane!

- Always real.
- I don't understand.

Glad you made it.

See you tomorrow.
- See you tomorrow. Bye.

- So we're wrapping up,

And I was really hoping
that there'd be

A little bit more
top-tier magazines.

I think that's
what the hope was.

- Ladies...

- Back to reality!

- I'm dying to know
what you ladies thought.

- Absolutely exquisite.

I am obsessed with that house
in Malibu.

From the moment that
I got out of the car with Jill,

I knew that this was where
we were getting married.

Now I need Jill
to be persuaded.

You go up to it
and it's so grand.

- Yes. Very impressive.

- And the outside is
so fantastic.

I'm kind of feeling like
that's the wedding.

And it's there.

I feel like I like that spot.

I'm done.
But I really liked it.

You know, I've suffered
from anxiety

And was diagnosed with that
when I was in college,

And didn't know
that my father had it,

But because I don't want
to be like him

I just took that anxiety
head on where he didn't.

So I became a very strong,
brave person

And someone that knows
what she wants.

- Where are we pricewise?

Was the initial price
what we were talking about

They wanted for just a day?

- They wanted more,
but they negotiated it down.

- They wanted more...
- Yes.

- For 24 hours?

It's about the likelihood...

If it's triple, you know,
our budget for the night,

For the week... I mean,
don't fall in love yet.

You can't.

- Well, I mean,
if it's triple our budget,

Then we will serve pizza,
right?

- Yeah, I mean,
it was gorgeous.

I just... I think for me
the make or break

Is gonna be, of course,
whether or not we can afford it.

When I was young,
I wasn't sure of myself.

I'd always worry
about what others think of me.

I have an older brother
and my father,

And they dominated everything.

So my nature is to just be
a little unsure

And self-doubting when it
comes to making a decision.

Really unlike it a little bit

Just to be flexible.

- Girls, were you in the same
place that I was in today?

- Yes!
- Were you?

- You know, we can only
move forward at this point

Trying our best to find
the fit.

And it may be the house
we saw today, it may not.

- Yeah.

- Come on, guys.
- Come on, bitches.

- Let's go, bitches!

It's been a long day and I need

To just really wind down

From all the crazy, chaotic
stuff that's been going on.

And there's just nothing
more interesting to me

Than being in New York
and going to a tranny club.

- I love lesbians.
They're so nurturing.

I wish I was a lesbian.
It'd be so much easier.

They just have so much fun.

There's, like,
no, like cattiness.

Like, there's like lots of cunt,
but no cuntiness.

I mean, you know what I mean?
Like, I love them.

Like, lesbians are my favorite.

[dance music]

- She's not even
gonna wait for me?

We're all kind of bummed out.

I definitely am disappointed.

But tonight, just too much
to deal with.

All I can do right now
at this point

Is just have a cocktail.

Whoo!

♪ ♪

There's so many amazing,
great trannies dressed up.

It's gorgeous.
Everywhere I look around.

I love it.

Raquel would die
if she was here

Considering when I first
met her

I thought she was a tranny.

She cornered me against a wall

And tried to choke me out,
wouldn't let me in the club.

That's pretty much
how it went down.

Whoo!

♪ ♪

- It's disgusting.
I probably shouldn't do that.

- What did you do?

[laughter]

- Lilo. Do it again.

- That's not what you did.

[laughter]

- She licks the back
of my throat.

- Yes, she does.

She also probably eats poop.

[laughter]

- What? She's farting.

- Yeah, her ass.

- Just think about it
this way, tor.

The space from her asshole
to her mouth is only this big.

So you know that smell
that smells like poop

Coming out of her mouth,
that probably is poop.

- I don't want anything
from Whitney.

Like, this is the way
she is with chicks,

And I don't have time
for you and your games.

It's like guarantee you,
she's probably just gaming me.

- I need love.
I'm having a rough day.

- What happened?
Whose heart did you break today?

- Shh!
- [giggling]

Tor, come punch her
in the face.

- I'd be glad to punch her
in the face.

- Hey!
- Come and punch this face.

- Tor is obviously
upset with me,

And I honestly, I feel bad.

I'm just feeling
disappointed in myself.

- Do it then.
Punch me then.

I was totally joking.

- I just want her to get it
out of her system

'cause I see it in her eyes
every time she looks at me.

- Hey, you got
a cute puppy, though.

- I know, right?
Look at this.

Mwah.

[horn honks]

- [slurred] voulez-vous
coucher avec moi?

Whatever that mean.

Uh, I drank a little bit
too much with the trannies.

- How many great trannies
did you see today?

- A trillion.
- A trillion?

- A trillion
great trannies tonight.

- I saw, like,
really amazing trannies.

- Best trannies I've ever seen.
Better than the trannies in L.A.

I've got the drunk slur
going on.

I'm in so in trouble 'cause
I've been drinking tonight.

I'm in trouble!

- Okay, I'm ready for bed.
How about you?

- Yeah, no.
- Let's take the shoes off.

- I'm a little bit scared
about tomorrow.

I'm scared for tomorrow.
- Why.

- You need to wake me up
at 8:00.

- Mikey, I already set
the alarm.

Bedtime now.
Good night.

- Oh, yeah.

Heading to
the Agent r.E.D. Showroom.

Where we're having gallery NYC
press event, day two.

And I'm meeting Alison there,

And hopefully get
some great editors in today.

Mikey's still in the room.

She's gonna be
getting ready soon

And heading over herself.

Hi, honey.

- Good morning.
- How are you?

- Good. You?
- Good, thank you.

Hey.
- Good morning.

Hi, how are you?

Mikey's down for the count.
She's not feeling too good.

And I think
she's gonna take it easy.

But I've been rallying
since 7:00 A.M. This morning.

I feel good.
I'm a little tired.

But, um, I'm still ready to go.

- Okay, over here we have
tough love,

L.A. Based designer.

[indistinct conversation]

- Mom opens up a lot more
to you than me I have to say.

- Okay, well, here's the thing.

She... she wants to know
that you're okay.

Whether it be
with a man or a woman.

She would prefer
that you're with a man,

But knowing
that you're with a woman,

She wants to know a little bit
about that person.

- But she's not ready
to ask me questions?

- No.

- At this point, it's like,

I'm gonna be really patient,

But patience wears thin,
you know?

Where... no, no,
I'm still respectful.

I'm still gonna be...
don't attack me, I know!

But I don't necessary want to
walk on eggshells anymore.

I don't necessarily
want to be like,

"hey, mom,
how's the weather?"

And when she asks me
where I'm going,

It'll be like,
"uh, laundromat." really?

- She's still taking
baby steps.

So I think that her wanting
to know a little bit,

Even if it's coming from me,
you know what I mean,

Is moving
in the right direction.

- It would be a lot easier
if my mom just talked to me,

But she doesn't
necessarily open up

Or share her opinions
or feelings with me.

My sister tends to
take that on for her.

It's almost like a game
of telephone.

Think about it.

Amy, you're in a relationship
in Blake.

Let's say mom didn't
approve of Blake,

But you love Blake.

You're head over heels
with Blake, right,

But, like, mom doesn't approve.

How long would you go

Worrying about
how it affected mom?

- As long I need it 'cause
she's 3,000 miles away.

- I get it, but I have
one life to live,

And I'm really happy.

If I wasn't happy,
it'd be a different story.

If I was hurting somebody,
it would be a different story.

You know what I mean?
What?

- Well, I mean, hurting.

- I'm not hurting mom.

Like, you know...

She's very emotional.

- It's something that my mom
just needs to deal with already.

It's gone on long enough.

I think that I've spent
the last five years

Hoping that my mom
could catch up to me,

And I think I just need to reach
back and pull her up with me.

I need to, yeah,
knock some sense into her.

- Hello?
- Gary?

- Yes.
- It's Nicole.

- Hi, Nicole.
How are you?

- How are you?
- Good.

- I have a dear old friend
of mine

That I grew up with
in Philadelphia

Who's almost like family.

And by chance,
he reached out to me

On Facebook the other day

And asked about
my wedding plans.

And I said, "oh, my God,

I wish you were here
because you could marry us."

He's now a rabbi
in Philadelphia.

Look, I know that it's
an expense to have you

Come all the way here
from Philly,

But it just would mean
so much to us.

- I think that
would be so special.

- It would be.
- Anything for you.

- Oh, thanks, that's so sweet.

- We both grew up Jewish,

And especially because
it's not legally recognized

By the state or the country,

You know,
if we can get recognized

In the Jewish religion,
it would be very meaningful.

- All right, sweetheart,
well, I will call you

After shabbot over the weekend.

- It's all coming together
like puzzle pieces.

- For real!
I mean, within days.

- Yeah, like we can have
a wedding tomorrow.

- [whispering] except
we don't have a place.

- Yes, we do have a place.

Please let me call Camilla
and tell her...

- No, not ready.

- Please, I'm ready.
- No, I'm not that ready.

- Ready.
- No.

You really are
a very quick decision maker.

- I already see it.
I see it. Chk!

- You tend to make decisions
very quickly

And very gut-based,
and I dwell.

- I want that house.

- I'm not... I just would like
to look a little bit more.

- Look where?

- I fell in love
with the Malibu house.

You don't show me that kin
d of a house on day one,

'cause there just won't be
a day two.

In my mind,
I'm writing the check

For the house right now
and signing the contract.

But I just have to respect
my lovely fiancee.

So I think I should pull out
my kneepads and start begging.

- Baby, please!
- Nik, I love you.

We're just gonna look
a little bit more.

- I don't need to look anymore!

Do you want to look
by yourself?

- I'm not ready to book
the house just yet,

But it's number one on my list.

But I just want to look
at something else.

I just want to know
what other options are.

I feel like it's hasty.

We don't know
what else is out there.

- It's hasty?
- Yes.

- We have to do it now or else
it's not gonna be there anymore.

- Oh, really?

- Listen, if we don't
jump on this for real,

It will be gone,
or she will reconsider

And raise the price,
which I am concerned about.

- Okay.
- I really am.

- Now you're being unfair.
- Why?

- Because you're just coming up
with reasons to pressure me.

I feel like I've hit the point

Where I don't want to
continue to be pushed.

I want to be respected.

I want to be allowed
to go about this

The way that makes me
feel comfortable.

- What else
are you looking for?

- I don't know...

- Tell me
what you're looking for.

- Are you in sales?
- Yes, I'm in sales.

- Jesus.

- Baby, it's the most
ridiculous house.

- No, not yet.

This is supposed to be fun,

And that's what I get back
to having that pact.

It was...This is supposed to
be a positive thing,

And if we're gonna scream
and yell like shit,

We shouldn't be doing this.

This is supposed to be
enjoyable.

- Negotiating with you sucks.
I'm done.

- You are selling ice
in the arctic.

- Okay.

- It unites three elements.

- Thank you.

- We have three gold ones,
which is a line that...

- This one's fun too.
I'll show you in the black.

- Very wonderful.

- Yeah, feel how soft this is.

- They're an L.A. Based brand,

And they, you know,
do a little rock n roll

Sort of chic-y situation.

The intimates lingerie
collection.

- Can I...
- Yeah, please, help yourself.

- Where is Mikey?

- From what I hear,
she was involved

In a debaucherous evening
last night.

And she went crawling back
to her... her hotel room.

The poor thing.

- I'm really disappointed
in myself

For drinking so much last night

And missing the event today.

It's really unprofessional.

My clients are the number one
most important thing to me.

Without them,
I would have no business.

Good morning.

Or afternoon.

- Good day, good day.

- Hey.
Where's Alison?

Oh, you look gorgeous.

- We're gonna talk about this.

- The fact that I drank too much
and acted like a total Nimrod,

It's very unprofessional.

Right now, I need to jump
through some hoops

And try to make things happen.

I have so many people
counting on me

It's ridiculous.

Hey, good morning.
Good afternoon, I should say.

Hey, how are you?

You missed a good night
last night.

Let me see you.

- Well, you guys
didn't say anything.

- I had not idea

Where we were gonna end up,
let me tell you.

I'm really stoked with Shanna.

She did a great job
filling in for me.

She definitely
rolls with the punches,

And I could've never
done this without her.

Fucking tired.

Gee, I wonder.

- I remember this guy.
He's from New York.

- That's right.
You are too.

- That's right.
I remember you.

So a bunch of us going
to Crocker club

To have a good time.
Whoo!

Now that the drinks
are flowing,

Your typical L.A.
"let's go out, get drunk

Rock and roll."

It's just such a good time.

There has definitely been
some drama recently,

But, you know, tor and I,
we're getting along pretty well.

I mean, I can't help but want to
put my arm around her.

The next thing I know,
I look over

And tor and Scarlett
are nowhere to be found.

Alyssa is telling me
that there might be some

Attraction between
Scarlett and tor.

- And then they went in
together, so I don't know.

- After Alyssa tells me
she just planted the seed

Of Scarlett and tor,
at that exact moment,

Tor and Scarlett come walking
out of the bathroom.

- You look pissed.

It's okay to be upset.

- She can do what she wants.

You know, honestly,
I'm not in the best mood

From the whole
Sara whatever thing.

Now Scarlett and tor.

I'm not really sure
what's going on,

And I just need a minute
to sit with it.

- I'm... I'm kind of shocked
your mom's meeting us.

- I'm not surprised at all.

My mom has always
wanted to hang out.

- Natalie, her sisters
and her mom are very close,

But Natalie just recently
came out to her mom,

And, you know, for the first
few months of our relationship,

I was her boyfriend Robert.

- It's so cold.

- I need a glass of wine.
- Yeah.

- Go head.
Don't be scared.

- It's nice to have dinner
with my sisters and my mom

She's been in and out
of the hospital

For the last six months,

So she's been
going through a lot.

- Where do you want
your mom to sit?

- She can sit across from me.
- Yeah.

Natalie and I, you know,
had our rocky moments

Here and there,
but we're working on it.

We're working on it.
I love her to death.

She's a great girl.

Contrary to popular belief,
I want her in my life.

Hey! How are you guys?

- You look pretty.

- Hey! How are you?
- Good.

- Hi, how are you?
- You look pretty.

- Thank you.
It's the hair.

- See, I didn't even do
my hair.

I just... I was running late.
- You look pretty.

Oh, that's for you.
Here you go.

- Thank you.
- Aren't those pretty?

- Oh, my God, they're adorable.

- My mom really just wants us
to be happy

And loving who we love,

And she's supportive in any

And every decisions
that we make in life.

- One of the tidbits she did
get into the conversation

Was like, "okay,
so he's... he's 35."

And I didn't say
anything, but...

- Then the day I went
to her office,

I'm like,
"I don't have a boyfriend.

"I have a girlfriend.

And I live
with my girlfriend."

And she's like...

"okay. Like, okay, well,
thank makes me feel better."

- I knew it.

- I think you always knew
with Leslie.

- I did.
When I found out about Leslie,

'cause Leslie was really young.

She was 14.

Really?
- Yeah.

- Wow, that was young.

- You know who had a really
hard time was my mom.

And I-I broke down one day
and I started crying,

And I said to my mom,
"you know what?

If you don't have anything
to say about my kid,

"Don't talk about my kid."

You know, people that have
a problem with it,

And that was including my mom,
I thought, you know what?

Well, too bad.

This is my kid,
and I love my kid.

- My grandma had a hard time
for like a year,

Then she got over it.

- Her and and her grandma
are really, really close.

- My grandma raised me
since I was a little girl.

- Oh.

- My mom was a young mom.
She was more like, you know...

- Do you hang out
with your mom a lot?

- No, we kind of have
a little bit

Of a strained, you know...

- They don't have
a great relationship.

- She's a young mom,
so we're kind of like

Are more like sisters.

She's a good person, you know,

But we just clash.

We're so much alike,
so we like... pssh!

The fact that Natalie is
so close to her mom

And they have
this great relationship,

You know I do have
a little bit of, you know,

"hey, I wish I had that
with my mom."

You know, that's kind of
making me think

About things
a little differently.

- I really want to
meet your family.

- You should.
We have to have a...

Take your mom to visit, um,
my grandma and my Uncle.

- Yes, you would love
her grandma.

- No, you would love...
you would love my Uncle.

We should do this
every couple weeks.

- Mommy, I love you.

- I love you too, mommy.

- Cheers!

- Cheers to all us hanging out.

- Cheers, yes.

- Are you interested
in tor, period?

- No, I'm not.
I'm not.

- Tell me...
- I'm fucking telling you.

I have no reason to lie to you.

If she presented something,

It's something I'd want to
clarify with you.

- I can't, like,
control anybody,

And I would never block
anybody from hooking up

Or whatever
if they're not my girlfriend.

So I have zero place.

- And I have zero desire.

- No, that's not true.

- What? Were you guys
shit talking about me?

Both: Yeah, big time.

- I wouldn't be surprised.
- Yeah, right.

- I let Scarlett know
if she was interested in tor,

I have no ownership of her.

You know, I'm not a Saint.

I've done things.

It's not like
we're in a relationship.

If she wants her
and tor wants Scarlett,

You know, more power to them.

What's the situation about?

- What are you talking about?

- I don't know. Nothing.

Scarlett and you
and everything.

Forget it. Forget I even
talked about it.

- Wait. With me and Scarlett?

- No! I'm saying,
forget about it.

- What did we do?
I don't get it.

- Forget I even said anything.

What I'm talking about,

But I think she might've
been playing dumb

A little on that one.

- After all this,
I deserve to... grr!

- After all what?
- Everything.

- Go ahead, choke me.

After everything what?

Because I've been
so bad of a person.

- Shh!

Shh.

- I'm a horrible a person.

- Which is why I'm
getting a job and leaving.

- Really?

All right.

- Where you gonna go?

- [chuckles] I have no idea.

I'm not exactly sure
who this girl is,

I don't even know
the whole story,

But that outline of it
right now looks just like

Friggin' wack.

- There are two other girls
at my house.

Apparently, they're
friends with Scarlett.

Definitely had many drinks.

- Tori's looking hot.
You want to fuck her.

[laughter]

And then you don't want to
get in-between

Because of the other...
other shit.

All righty, I'm analyzing.

You need to be honest
with her, you know?

Tell her what's going on,
you know?

Be honest.
[laughter]

You want her.

She fucking is jealous

Because the other one
is fucking off,

But you know what?

She's fucking awesome,
and she's so hot that, like...

- I love this.

- Just doesn't even matter
'cause she's so hot, like...

- What? The peanut gallery?
What's going on here?

- Maybe I have to be.

- Why?

- Because.
Are you fucking kidding me?

- I mean, I know I'm just
coming into it, like, right now,

But it's, like, why...

Why do you have to be done
with her right now?

I mean...I want to know.

- You want to know.
Stay tuned.

- Yeah!
I wanna see more.

[laughter]

[soft laughter]

[indistinct conversation]

- I'm tired.

I lay down on the little
chair there in the kitchen

While tor and Scarlett
are looking at pictures online,

And as far as I can tell,
flirting.

- Look, just look.

- I'm laying there innocently.

All of a sudden,
tor turns around

And out of the blue jumps
on my lap and straddles me.

[chuckling]

- Don't be a douche about it.

- I'm not being a douche.

How am I being
a fucking douche?

- Because you have been.

- What is wrong with girls?
I don't know.

Maybe it's me.
Is it me?

Like I said,
I'm not in a fucking...

Obviously in a position
to be in a fucking relationship.

And, like, obviously
I have feelings for you.

I do not want to have things
fucked up

For the potential of the future

Because I'm telling you
I was not...

- Okay, well, you already...

Everything that we...
such an asshole.

I want fucking kill you.

- You know,
the thing about tor is

I have feelings for her,
but I can't sort them out,

Because the fact is
she put me in my place.

She really did.

And you know what?
I'm gonna be honest.

Like, people don't put me
in place enough.

And it's kind of nice
to be put there.

Jump on my back,
jump on my back.

- No!
- Hold on.

- Can we kiss?

- No. Of course not, no.

- Let's go.

Heading back to L.A.
Thank God.

Very exhausted.

I think we all need to
get a little sleep.

I think Shanna did
an amazing job

Wrapping up
the whole event actually

And coming through
like a champ yesterday.

Thanks for closing everything
up yesterday, by the way.

- It was my pleasure.
How do you feel today?

- I still feel
like I need to stay in bed.

- Really?

- Yeah, the older you get,
let me just tell you...

- You sound much better
and look much better.

- I thought I was gonna die
yesterday, for one.

- [chuckles]

- I think a little part of me
inside did.

Or a big part.

- What a disaster.

New York was definitely
a letdown.

And...I didn't even know
what to say.

- Yeah, apparently
sober people don't like it

- Really?

I bet they don't like it
when you pretend like

You're not drunk.

- This is the last time
this can happen to me.

It's not like I'm an alcoholic.

It's not like I have
a drinking problem.

It's just not the reality

Of what can happen
in my business.

Can't be putting myself
in a position

Where I'm missing work
or I'm not 100%

Because I'm team leader
of my business,

And if I don't feel good,

I'm bringing the energy level
down with my employees.

I really need to be 100%.

- Let's go get mimosas.

- Wow.

- ♪ you can be perfect ♪

♪ in an imperfect sort of way ♪

♪ you will reveal all ♪

♪ and then you put it
all away ♪

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