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- Previously on...
- Cheers to girls' days

and getting out of the house
every once in a while.

- Yeah.
- Cheers!

We probably
look like every other family

in the neighborhood,
but the truth is

everybody's hiding something.

I have a double life.

I am known as Tammy to a lot of
my friends, family,

but I also make adult content
as Erika Swingz.

♪ Mwah ♪

I used to be a high school
English teacher,

but we were
struggling financially.

I decided to try
something different,

and my life completely
flipped upside down.

Scandal rocks a small town
as a Missouri woman is fired

from her teaching job.

What's the deal
with this party anyway?

- Who is coming?
- Megan and Tyler are coming.

I don't really
consider us friends anymore.

I hope it doesn't,
you know, boil into something

that it doesn't need to be.

Megan and I were very close.

What happened?
I-- I really have no idea.

We're not really
like friends anymore,

and we just grew apart.
I don't know what I did wrong.

Bri did something that
I'm still trying to get over.

We've been hiding
like this huge secret.

I get it.
I've pretty much accepted

that I'm losing all my friends.
- I'm really scared.

I've been undercover
as an adult content creator

for three years now, and what
makes this very difficult

and complicated is that
my dad is a pastor.

Thank you, Jesus, for this food,
all of your blessings, amen.

Amen.

I don't know
how they're gonna respond.

What are you, you like
struggling with coming out?

I feel like I'm ready.

- Over here.
- They're kicking us out here.

Are you serious?

They don't wanna be
associated with Bri.

This is really freaking scary

Coming out, I'm probably
gonna be judged

and treated like I'm not human.

And I don't know
if I'm ready for that yet.

Shut the cameras off now.

Let's go outside,
and we'll have a conversation.

Let's go.

- You got everything?
- Yeah.

- Yeah.
- OK.

This is my gym.
I come here five days a week.

So, I'm shocked that we're
getting kicked out of the gym

because somebody recognized
Bri from adult content.

We didn't do anything wrong.

We were literally just
stretching and working out.

And listen, I know for a fact

that there's other
content creators at that gym,

but they're not kicked out.

I am mind-blown right now.

Can they legally do that?

That just happened?

- This is real life again.
- Are we-- are we in 2026?

Are we in...

like, are we still burning
women at the stake?

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

I really can't believe
that we literally

just got kicked out of the gym.
- Just because they Googled you?

How can they do that?

Our subscribers are not
what you would think.

They're not always the people
in their mom's basement.

They're neighbors.
They're doctors.

They're lawyers.
They're normal people.

But some of them
are very hypocritical

'cause they don't wanna
own the judgment

that we feel every day.
- Mm-hmm.

- What do you think other people
do outside of this gym?
- I don't know.

Yeah, exactly.
They're probably a subscriber.

- Hi, [bleep].
- Hello.

Anyway.

- So, anyway.
- I feel like
at this point

I'm so used to it.
Like, I'm so...

Like, has this happened
to you before?

Oh, I've been
kicked out of banks.

- Are you serious?
- I've been-- oh, yeah.

- Banks closed our accounts.
- What?

Yeah.
There's so many.

- I feel so jaded to it anymore.
- I'm sorry.

Like, this is why
I don't go out in public.

This is why I've built,
like, such a close community.

You know, we do
hide under the radar a lot

still for fear of this type
of thing happening.
- Yeah.

Everybody's got secrets,
everybody's got baggage.

We're out here like being moms
trying to live normal lives...

- Yeah.
- ...and just trying to have like

the same luxuries
as everybody else.

- Right.
- Who ever thought
it would be a luxury

just to walk into a gym?

I was so shocked
and baffled whenever

she told us we had to leave,
that we were being kicked out.

I was just like, "This is not
real life right now."

- I mean...
- 'Cause I'm sure,
like, whenever I come out,

like, things like this
might happen.
- Yeah.

Yeah, it's not going to
be the same.

No.

I'm just like,

I'm not a bad person.
Like, I'm not a criminal.

It really breaks my heart.

I will never, ever, ever

treat people the way that
I have already been treated.

Hey, let's go see Dad.
Hey, babe.

- How are you guys doing?
- Not too bad.

You didn't have to bring that.
Thank you.

You're welcome.

I feel like the real-life
Morticia Adams.

Growing up
in a funeral industry,

my mom was the embalmer
for the funeral home

and now my husband works there.

I don't think Tyler expected
to work in the funeral business

whenever he was younger,
but then he developed

this passion
and this love for it.

Oh, we've missed you so much.

Stop laughing at me.
God.

He's my person,
he's my best friend.

Megan and I had met
freshman year of high school.

I was a football player.

She had came over and asked me
if she could be my cheerleader.

There was one that
I was hoping would ask me.

Unfortunately, Me--
no, I'm just kidding.

Megan did, and then I think
it was month four

that we first said,
"I love you" to each other.

I've been saying it ever since.

Thank you, babe.
I've missed you too,

and I'm so happy
to see the boys.

Yeah, they've been driving me
crazy all night.

If you want?
I'll take them with me.

We'll throw them in the back.

- Let's do that.
- No!

What we're coming up on
is our 14th year of marriage.

It's hard to see
a life without her.

- Thank you, guys, for the lunch.
- Thank you.

- Love you.
- Love you too.

We have two boys,
Greyson and Bennett.

They are ten and eight,
and they are, I mean,

the most important
little people to us.

Love you, boys.
Bye.

- Air ball.
- This is rigged.

It's rigged?

- There you go.
- Finally.

I've wanted to be a teacher
pretty much my whole life.

I have two master degrees,
one in English,

one in teaching.

And I taught
high school English.

That was how I was
impacting the world.

Kids are the future,
and you want them to grow up

and, you know,
be great citizens.

And so that was
very fulfilling to me.

Oh, look, Dad's coming home.

As a teacher, I was making

$37,000 a year.

Thanks.

- Love you.
- Love you too.

Even with Tyler's job,
we were struggling.

We had a mortgage
and car payments,

and then we had this massive

$130,000 student loan
payment coming due.

Bailey!

Bailey will get up for treats.

My student loans were
keeping me awake at night.

On a teacher's salary,

I was very worried
about making that payment.

I don't want her
to bite my finger off.

She won't bite
your finger off.

And so I started thinking
about different ways

to earn money,
and I found out

there was
adult content creation,

but I was hesitant
because of my job.

You know, I'm a wife,
I'm a mother, I'm a teacher.

It's something
I'd never considered doing.

Good girl.

Tyler and I talked
about it for a while.

I mean, we made an account
under an alias.

Didn't do anything
with them for quite a while.

But all of the bills
were coming due,

and there was
no other choice at this point

that I had to make that choice.

And so I started with an iPhone,

and I started doing content.

♪ Someone said I gotta do ♪

♪ That thing that
will make him move ♪

♪ Now I'm back,
'cause you know it's true ♪

♪ I'm your type ♪

I was anxious
when I made my first post.

It's one of those things where
you're like, "Oh, my God,

I did it." And it started
with feet pics,

and it started with panties.

And the money really
started coming in

from my content creation.

And so I was able
to pay my bills,

start paying back my loans.

And then it also
spiced up our sex life.

It was exciting and spicy.

It really helped
my self-confidence.

It made us bond more.

But I like to say,
"It was one foot in

and then your whole
[bleep]'s out."

At the beginning,
I was 100% behind scenes.

I am to today,
I pretty much still am.

I would take pictures, videos,
I'd help out wherever I could.

Occasionally might get called
upon and there's that.

Hi babe,
I've missed you today.

You ever get jealous, Tyler?

No.

Because at the end of the day,
I'm hers and she's mine.

I mean, I feel the same way.

If there's something that makes
one of us uncomfortable,

we talk about it.

When a client says something
like, "I love you,"

for example,
that's one of our boundaries.

We don't want
to encourage that.

And so we generally try
to shut it down.

Hey, boys,
you guys wanna go play?

I was gonna talk
to mom a little bit.

- Yeah, sure.
- Cool.

- Play VR?
- Yeah, you can play VR.

When I first
started making content,

I didn't want people
to figure out who I was.

So I never showed my face
in my content.

But then about a month after
Bri was caught, I got outed.

Scandal hits Franklin, Missouri
once again tonight.

A second teacher
is pulled from the classroom

when her adult content site
was found.

I loved teaching.

I miss it every single day.

If I could go back in time...

If I could go back in time,
I wouldn't do it.

I wouldn't make content.

I'm such an ugly crier.
I'm sorry.

But I do feel that hole
in what's missing.

- How you feeling?
- I mean, I am excited,

but I am really nervous about
seeing Bri for the first time

since the hoedown.
- Yeah.

Tammy is having a barbecue,

and she wants
all of us to come.

She is kind of like
the mama bear

keeping the group together.

I feel like what's
happened has, like,

caused like a giant hole
on our friendship.

There was a time that Bri
and I were super close.

We went to each other's
kids' birthday parties.

We went on vacation together.
Bri was my best friend.

Once I got outed and put on
leave, Bri was there for me.

We talked all the time.
She listened to me cry.

We grew really close.

But now it is very awkward
to interact with Bri.

And so it's really hard for me
to be like,

"Oh, we're still best friends,"
or like, oh, you know, like--

- I get it, I get that.
- You know what I mean?

Like, the barbecue, like,
I don't want any confrontation.

And I don't, like, I just feel
like it's gonna be awkward.

Yeah, I completely agree
with that.

What is going on
with you and Bri?

When it comes to Bri and I,
I would rather not speak on it.

You don't wanna answer?

I would give you more detail
if we could turn the mic off

and I'll step out of camera
and I will tell you, like,

I'll just, I'll say this--

I think she did
something horrible

and I am not comfortable
speaking on it.

I think we go there with every
intention to have a good time

and see what happens.

My name is Heather.

I am a mom, I'm a wife.

My husband, Shawn,
he's the milkman.

I have my very secret office,
it's a locked door.

I only go down there
when everybody's in bed.

Hey, guys.

Man, you're not cooking
that to temp.

That's only 89 degrees.

Drew and I's barbecues
are very easygoing.

We're all focused
on friends and family.

Our problems are our problems,

and we don't need to air them
out with everybody.
- No.

It doesn't have to be
confrontation to communicate.

- With you, it does.
- OK, Megan.

She can't tell the truth
and be held accountable.

It was just an excuse.

Here we go.

Do you need
some help with that?

That was heavy, Bridgette.

Yeah, it has
all of my clothes in it.

My name is Heather.

I am a mom, I'm a wife,

and I'm a director of admissions
for a skilled nursing facility.

My husband, Shawn,
works for a milk company.

He's the milkman.

Let's get some food
before I door dash.

No, we do need something.

We have four kids.

Bridgette is my oldest daughter.
She's 18.

Brooke is my second
oldest girl.

Brody is my oldest boy.

Brandon is my youngest son,
and he is a lot.

The lawn bar guy?

Bro.

- Did he just fart?
- No.

My mother-in-law lives with me.

I gotta leave here in about
45 minutes to go to work.

Oh, you're gonna miss lunch.

It's not an inconvenience
for us.

I mean, she's helped us
out throughout the years.

- And, I mean, it's not--
- She likes to sit outside
a lot, too.

Yeah, she's getting older,
so she likes to sit

outside a lot.
She feeds the birds.

So...

Hey, stop screaming!

- People's ears.
- is stupid.

- Stop.
- It's not working.

It's very noisy and chaotic
in my house all the time.

It's loud.

Never a dull moment.

If you don't hurry up
and decide,

she's gonna get hangry.
- I mean, you're not wrong.

- And she's already hangry.
- She's already screaming.

No, I'm not there yet.

But I will get hungry,

and I will start
getting irritated.

Shawn and I met when I was 17.

One of our mutual friends
introduced us,

and he pulled up
to my house.

And he was selling
Rainbow vacuums

out of his grandma's van.

They were like vacuums
that have water in them.

That lasted like two weeks,

'cause I was not going around
to random old people's--

You came back to my house
and showed me how they work.

Yeah, I did.

But your parents
didn't wanna buy one.

But so.
Well, they didn't.

Let's all take a 40-minute break
while mom fixes fish.

No, I'm not eating fish.

Instantly, I thought
he was very attractive.

We fell in love
and we were inseparable.

One night he stayed the night
and didn't make it in to work.

To work and I got fired.
Anyways.

How do you lose your phone?

I don't know.
It's somewhere.

- It's literally right here.
- Oh.

I was 18 when I got married
to Shawn.

I actually ended up pregnant
about three months later.

So, after having
the fourth kid,

I was feeling
a little down about myself.

All the body changes,
your stomach, your boobs,

if you breastfeed--
was really hard for me.

Shawn knew that I was feeling
not great about myself,

so he started just posting some
pictures of me on social media.

I wanted her not to be
so down on herself.

I was like,
"Look at all the likes

and all the comments."

You know,
it started raising my ego a bit,

and I was feeling
good about myself.

And then somebody
reached out to me.

"I saw your profile,
and I think you would actually

make some money off of this."

- I don't think they deliver.
- Yes, they do.

- Do they deliver?
- Anywhere delivers, really.

I was making $16 an hour,
and we just had our fourth kid.

To be able to feed four kids,

I mean, that runs
you $400 or $500 a week anyways.

- Are we all doing cold subs?
- I don't know.

Two foot-long.
Two foot-long.

Because we didn't get
to go to college,

we just really wanted
to make sure that our kids

had the opportunity to do that.

Bridgette, she knew from
a young age she wanted to go.

There was no way we could tell
her that we couldn't afford
college for her.

Yeah, there's no way
we could tell her that--

"You're not going
to college because

our regular jobs
couldn't do it."
- Weren't enough.

And Brooke wants to go to one
that's like $70,000 a year.

I started thinking about
part-time content creation

a little bit more.

We had talked several more
times throughout the years.

And finally, we decided
to give it a try.

My first video was of me
on my bed in lingerie,

and I was saying
the first day it made $100.

I was instantly excited about
thinking about all the things

that I could pay for,
like extra groceries.

Our kids ate a lot.

You want a cold club?

I actually had three kids
by the time I was 21.

We work all the time,
we have kids.

We really didn't have
any hobbies or friends.

So now, being a spicy content
creator has been fun.

It's let so much more excitement
into my life that I otherwise

would not have had.

My Hella HotWife site

It's my sexier me,
my more fun vibe.

Let me know
what you think in the comments.

My content room
is down the stairs,

through the basement,
through the garage.

It's a locked door.

I only go down there
to do my content

when everybody's in bed.

Hey guys.

Are you done with your bed?

- Let me put hose here-- OK.
- Yeah.

And one.

It's very difficult
to live a double life

because I'm normally
a pretty honest person,

and I am tired
of having to hide it.

I've kept this secret
for six years.

My mother-in-law, my work,
my kids,

none of them know
that I make adult content.

I got your Mother's Day gift.

- Close your eyes.
- Thank you.

Then I can't see what it is.

- She has
to open it anyway.
- No.

Shawn and I's concern
is not about ourselves.

We're really concerned
about backlash going

towards our kids.
That's our main fear.

"Thank you for being
the amazing person, amazing--"

I can't even talk,
"...amazing person you are

"and raising me.

"You are my inspiration
and aspiration for the kind

"of woman I want to be.
I love you so much.

Bridgette, happy Mother's Day!"

That's so sweet.

We're never gonna tell anybody.

- The kids--
- The kids don't know anything

because they don't need
to know anything.

It's really none
of their business.

We might tell people
if there's a show airing.

But...
- I'm just saying maybe
go into a little bit more detail

before the show comes out.
- I don't think it needs to.

We just really haven't wanted

to face it yet,
if I'm being honest.

Would you like
to go meet the pony

you're gonna ride today?

All right, let's go see him.

- He's so soft.
- He is soft, isn't he?

We're gonna have
to come back.

Oh, yeah, you're definitely
gonna have to come back.

I'm not going to let her down.

Nope, she won't let
you forget this.

But I feel like I wouldn't
have been able to do it

before I could barely
pay my bills.

It's not a life that your--
a mother would choose

for their daughter.

Ah!

Look at that horse.

- Oh!
- Oh, it's so pretty.

I'm here today
with Blakely and my mom,

and Blakely is going
to have her first ever

horse riding lesson.

Would you like to go meet
the pony you're gonna

ride today?
All right, let's go see him.

You wanna see him?

Hi, Elliot.

- Hi.
- So cute.

Give him a pat.
Oh, that's so nice.

- Hi.
- He's so soft.

He is soft, isn't he?

I may look like a girly girl,
but growing up on a farm,

I used to break wild cows.

I mean, I would take them
from running around

all over the place to,
like, being tame and docile.

I was in the mud.
I was in the cow [bleep].

Having the time of my life.

- His mouth is dirty.
- His mouth is dirty?

- You see his teeth?
- Yeah.

He's got funny-looking teeth,
doesn't he?

I grew up in a small town

of about 7,000 people.

I went to church
every single Sunday.

It was very strict,
and I was rebellious.

I could never get on board
with those ideals.

We're gonna pull ourselves up
and swing our leg over.

Nice.
There you go.

Good.
And off we go.

Oh, he says, "I'm ready."

So we're gonna
have to come back.

Oh, yeah, you're definitely
gonna have to come back.

I'm not gonna let her down.

Nope, she won't
let you forget this.

It's just really,
like, special and important

that you are here.

And, like,
showing up for Blakely

and being here
for her riding lesson.

She's a little
miniature version of you,

so I get to watch that
all over again.

Yeah.

I wouldn't have been
able to afford stuff like this

when I was teaching,
and Phillip was laid off, and...

Oh, I get it.
It's tough.

Life is tough sometimes.

It's definitely, like,
why we do what we do is, like,

trying to provide, like,

a good life.

I wouldn't have
been able to do it,

before I could barely
pay my bills.

Becoming content creators has
changed so many relationships.

My mom was shocked at first.

And I mean,
it's definitely hard,

like, seeing your child go
through something like that.

And everyone's calling her,
gossiping to her, too.

So she was kind
of thrust into it as well.

But I think she approached
the news from a place of love

and understanding instead
of a place of judgment.

She often, like, talks to me
about loving people

like Jesus would do.

She's doing really good.

So when I was put
on leave at the school,

I did call my mom.

She said,
"Well, it's not gonna be

on the 5 o'clock news,
is it?"

I said, "No-- I don't
I don't know why it would be."

Scandal rocks a small town as
a Missouri woman

is fired from her teaching job.

It's like famous last words,

because it was
on the news for weeks.

I don't know if I expressed
my gratitude enough.

You didn't turn
your back on us.

So that's really
important to me.

It's not our place to judge.

I mean, I get
why you're doing it

to give Blakely things
that you didn't have, but...

it's not a life that your--

a mother would choose
for their daughter,

but again, you guys
are adults and...
- I know.

I can't make
those decisions for you.

I know.

As a parent, you may
not always like the choices

that your children make,
but that's her life,

and I'm still gonna
love her no matter what.

It's hard to watch your child
grow up and then do this.

And, you know,
they're still people.

They still have feelings in
the way that people treat them.

Is...

it was heartbreaking.

There's just, you know,
a lot of people cut them--

cut them out of their lives.

And we're not the ones
to be judging anybody.

There's much higher person
that's gonna judge all of us.

And I'd do anything
for Blakely and you.

It's not like

totally ideal, I know,
but it's also like

for now just like weighing
the pros and cons of like

just providing a good life
for us. I don't know.

Hopefully it's not
a forever situation.

Yeah.

No, I mean,
I can't do it forever.

I'm not gonna
be doing granny porn.

- Can you imagine?
- No.

No.

No.

- Hi.
- Hey.

- So good to see you.
- Good to see you.

- How are you?
- I'm good.

- How are you?
- Good.

- It's been a while.
- It has been a while.

- How are the kids?
- They're doing good.

So Bridgette, our oldest,

you know, she's actually
home on break.

- Aw.
- So, yeah.

- That's great.
- It's really exciting.

I really love Megan
because she's so down-to-earth,

and she's really relatable.

And I haven't really had anyone
that I've been able to talk to

about my double life
and coming out.

She's already been
through all of this before,

what I could
potentially go through.

So hopefully,
I can find some more out.

How's just life in general,

content, like everything
going well?

It's good. It's so busy.
Like, my work is so demanding.

I was waking up at
like 4:00 in the morning

just to work on my pages
before going into work.

Wow.

- Crazy.
- Yeah.

It's very difficult
having to juggle both jobs.

But I'm worried that
if I quit my full-time job,

we won't be able to survive
on the content alone

because Bridgette
is in college.

And then, on top of that,
the content creation world

doesn't carry any type
of insurance for you,

and we have four kids.

- You're afraid of getting outed
and losing your job.
- Yeah, yeah.

- I went through it, so I get it.
- Yeah.

I wouldn't wish it
on my worst enemy.

So how does it affect you
with your family?

My mom refuses
to really talk about it.

OK.

I lost my aunt.
We were always really close.

But she started posting
on my Facebook, you know,

I'm disgusting and, like,
just hateful things.

Your own aunt?

That's rough.

Her situation is actually
one of my greatest fears.

I've seen people attack
the family and kids as well

as the people doing it,
and I'm hoping that

that doesn't happen.

Have you heard about Drew
and Tammy's barbecue yet?

Oh, yeah-- do you know
who all is going yet?

Jim and Macy.

She said she was gonna
invite Bri and Phillip.

I have always been curious.

How did you find out that

you guys were both
doing the same thing?

Bri and I and then a couple
other of our teacher friends

went to teacher night
at a Cardinals game.

And afterwards,
we weren't ready to go home,

so we went to
this little dive bar.

And one of the other teachers
was talking about

how she would
sell feet pics and, like,

her socks and stuff.
- Yeah.

And Bri and I were just
sitting there, like,

not saying anything.

And, like, I just,
like, caught eyes with her,

and I just said, "You're doing
it too, aren't you?"

- That's so funny.
- And she went, "Yeah."

She was outed,
and then about a month later,

the investigation
started for me.

I know.
I saw that all come out,

and I was like, "Oh, my gosh,
that's so terrible."

Like, that's awful.

Teaching is my passion.
I didn't want to be outed.

I didn't wanna lose my passion.

I genuinely thought that
I was not gonna get caught.

I was so careful.

I never showed my face
in my content.

But then I received
an email from a newspaper

asking about me doing content.

And regardless
of if I give a statement or not,

they were putting
out the story.

And I told him, like,
"You do realize

this is career-ruining?"

And he said, "Unfortunately,

It is what it is."
Like, it's a story.

At that point, I pretty well
knew it was over.

So were you and Bri
able to go through it together

at least?
- We did.

We really leaned
on each other...

During your-- during yours.

Well, we've kind
of had a falling out.

I'm sorry.

- Because you guys were
really close, right?
- Mm-hmm.

Tammy's barbecue is the first
time that we're going to be

getting together
since the hoedown.

And I am very anxious
about seeing Bri.

Our kids are going to be
at the barbecue

and I don't wanna fight,

but she better not
come in and confront me.

- Are you all right?
- I just feel really
uncomfortable

with Megan here.

Megan is acting like
she doesn't even know me.

It's ridiculous.

I need to put an end to this.

I see both sides of the story.

I'm not clear on anything.

Do you know things
that I don't know?

Clearly missed something.

- Still trying to figure out--
- I think everybody's missed it.

Our friendship
has been gone for a while.

I'm just gonna run some stuff
out to the garage real quick.

- You guys stay in here, OK?
- OK.

People will be here soon.

- You'll have some friends
to play with.
- OK.

OK.

So 64 degrees for the high.

He has like
a random number generator

that he gets dressed with.

One of the decisions I don't
wanna make every day

is what I'm wearing.

So I know exactly how many
shirts, how many pair of pants,

how many pair of shoes
that I have.

And then I go to
my randomizer app.

12, 14, 16.

So that no matter what
the randomizer lands on,

it should look
at least presentable.

Should.

OK, I'm gonna get
the tables outside all prepped

for the food
while the kids play.

Hey, be good for mom.
You guys got it?

- Yeah.
- OK.

Drew and I's barbecues
are very easygoing.

There's no content.

We're all focused
on friends and family.

We've had so much going on
lately with Bri and Megan

and getting
kicked out of the gym.

It's just been a lot.

But my house,
it's always a safe space.

We are not judged.

And that's not usually
how it goes in real life,

so I'm just ready for a fun,
relaxing time.

OK, whoa.
OK, stop.

- Wanna carry
these out for me?
- Yeah!

Two hands, I'm gonna
get the door for you, OK?

Drew's the grill master,

'cause I would burn everything.

I can make lasagna,
and that's about

the only dish
that I can make.
- Lasagna, cereal, toast.

That's her menu.
You don't wanna eat it.

- Hello.
- What's up?

- Glad you guys could make it.
- Boozy over here.

Let me take
this out of your hands.

These are for you 'cause
I know they're your favorites.

OK, spicy drinks are
gonna go in the fridge.

Thank you for
taking care of me.

You're welcome.

It was really hard
to hear from Megan.

Everything that
she's been going through

since she's been outed
really scared me, so...

I am so grateful that I met
Tammy and Drew

and that they introduced
me to the rest of the group

because I don't really know
what I would do

without having them
in my life now.

- Yeah, it's OK-- hey.
- Hello.

- What's up?
- Here, I'll take
your stuff here.

- Yes, I brought goods.
- Thank you.

Ooh.
Heather and Shawn.

- Hey.
- Hey, it's been a minute.

- Yes, how are you?
- I'm good.

- How about you?
- Good.

Well, more people
should be coming here soon.

You can start meat if you want.

- Yep, I'm ready.
- And I'll do the mac and cheese.

Ready to hang out outside.

Man, you're not
cooking that to temp.

- That's only 89 degrees.
- Outside.

Oh, look, they already
got sidewalk chalk out,

corn hole.
- Hey, what's up, guys?

- Yo, what's up, dude?
- You're cooking up
, buddy?

I'd shake your hand,
but it's covered in

hot dog juice.

I've got to get myself
a little drink so far.

I haven't drank any water.

I've been prioritizing
coffee today,

and it is gonna catch up
with me.

So I'm kind of worried that
we're going to have another

issue with...

"Why wasn't I invited
to the gym?"

Oh, with Megan?

Megan said some things
about that get together

at your house.

She was offended because
she didn't get an invite.

And, like, just be mature
enough to understand that...

Not being invited doesn't
always, like, mean that

people are feeling
a type of way.
- Right.

- We don't talk.
- So...

Like, we haven't talked
in months, you know?

I mean, are you gonna
bring it up to her here?

I always do the reaching out
and it's not being reciprocated.

Maybe this would be
a good time just to, like,

rip the band aid off
and figure it out, right?

- Yeah.
- Like, a solution or at least,

like, a step on the right
direction to fixing that.

Before any of the content
creation or scandals,

Megan was the person
that I was closest to.

Our friendship,
like, really was so strong

and we had such a good bond.

I feel like I deserve
a conversation

about what's going on.

Hey!

- Hello!
- Hola.

- What's up, Megan?
- Hey, how are you?

- Good, how are you?
- I'm good.

Hello.
How are you?

All right.

Hi, Megan.

- Hi.
- Sorry, I was trying to beat
my way through the crowd.

- How are you boys?
- Hello.

I don't know if she said hi yet,
but Brooklynn couldn't wait

for you guys to get here.

She just wanted friends
to play with.

Coming into today,
I'm very concerned

that Bri and I are going
to have a conversation

about what was going on.

I don't feel like
that's family friendly.

I don't feel like that's what
the point of this barbecue is.

So what happened
the other day at the gym,

it was a lot mentally.
- What happened?

Somebody came up and told us
that we had to leave

immediately because
someone recognized Bri.

All three of us
were being kicked out,

me, Bri, and Tammy.

We're not doing
anything illegal.

Really made me think
about me coming out.

We live in a small town.

Your last name
carries a lot of weight.

It definitely is nerve wracking
knowing that this coming out

just from me being
a pastor's daughter

could negatively affect him
and his reputation

and people that I really love
and care about.

But it makes me thankful
that we have, like,

I don't know,
the community that we do

and the friends that I have,
like, within all this

because I don't know

if I will be able
to do it, like...

Just because you don't agree
with it or you frown upon it,

like we have to get kicked out,
that's not OK.
- Yeah.

- It's embarrassing, too like...
- Yes.

- Are you all right?
- I feel really uncomfortable.

- With what?
- It's so uncomfortable
with Megan here.

I don't want you to feel
like you're not welcome.

It's just uncomfy.
It's just so uncomfy.

- I agree.
- Like, why does
it have to be that way?

- Did you guys
talk at all?
- No.

Megan acting like she doesn't
even know me is ridiculous.

If there's something going on,
I wanna know about it.

So we need to have a talk.
I need to put an end to this.

I just...

Hey, I have
to interrupt this real quick.

- Megan, Macy, Bri, Heather.
- Yeah.

I need to borrow
you guys for a minute.

We're going on a walk.

We definitely wanna respect
the fact that there's kids here,

and we would never have
those adult conversations,

you know, around the kids.

So I just decided to take
all the girls down to the end

of the cul-de-sac
to resolve the conflict

between Bri and Megan.

I just wanted to be--
I just wanted to be away

from the kids, and this
might not all be, like,

relevant to, like, everybody,
but as far as our friend group,

it's just inevitable
you're gonna have--

you're gonna have clashes.
- Right.

Well, it's already happening.

I'm very frustrated
at this entire situation.

Megan, you are offended
because us three

got together
a few weeks ago.

That is something that
we would talk about alone.

No, that's-- this is
the point of this conversation.

I'm feeling ambushed because
it seems like now every time

we go somewhere I'm going
to have a confrontation with Bri

and it's not OK to me.

Our problems are our problems

and we don't need to air
them out with everybody.
- No.

You told me our problems
were because you weren't invited

to a day with the three of us.

I am aware 'cause I didn't
want to get into it,

and I don't think
this is the appropriate place

with children here
to have a conversation

with you about it.

OK, Megan.

Kids weren't around.
It was just an excuse.

If she can't tell the truth
and be held accountable,

why are you here?

Well, you're the one
that can't communicate,

apparently, and confront
issues head-on.

I'm non-confrontational.

It doesn't have to be
confrontation to communicate.

- With you, it does.
- Not true.

- Check your tone, then.
- Well, you're frustrating me.

I'm sorry you feel that way.

I've asked you multiple times
what's going on

with our friendship, and you
just lie to my face every time.

I have not lied to you once.

- I have text-message proof.
- Lied to you about what?

"You will always be
one of my best friends.

You're always my best friend."

Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
Lies.

Our friendship
has been gone for a while.

I think you're just
the one that didn't realize it.

I'm just feeling
embarrassed and shocked.

I don't know
what to say about it.

I don't know, obviously
like this is between you guys,

but like it just kind
of breaks my heart a little bit

because I'm still friends
with both of you.

You know what I mean?

And so like, I see
both sides of the story, right?

What side are
you seeing of hers?

Cause I'm confused,
cause I'm not clear on anything.

Do you know things
that I don't know?

- No.
- Like what?

She's just like...

We used to have
each other's backs and now

every conversation
just feels like a fight.

Clearly missed something.

I just am trying to figure out
how we got here.

I think everybody's
missed it, so.

Huh?

I believe that Bri outed me to
the newspapers three years ago.

That's what blew my life up
and made me lose the job

that I loved.
She took that from me.

When you have
a calling and a passion,

it's really hard to lose that.

In the life everlasting, amen.

The new church
that I'm attending today

does not know that I do content.

How can I feel safe
at church walking in

not knowing if I'm gonna
be kicked out again?

The pastor called me.

He said, "I don't understand
how you could like

what you see
in the mirror every day."

I'm making
world's best sandwich.

OK.

My name's Emily, and I'm a mom
of four children, six cats,

one dog, 23 snakes.
And I live with my husband.

He's definitely
my emotional support animal.

At Bill's birthday party,
I had a better time

than I thought I would.
I really liked Megan.

And we're gonna
go to brunch.

Maybe it could be the beginning
of my peopling journey.

Trying to make friends

with an existing group
of friends is very difficult.

Gonna dip some toes,
see how it goes.

Tammy's barbecue.
You guys all go?

Yes.
Yeah.

- So tell me
all the stuff.
- Oh.

I feel like you're almost
kind of talking,

like, you're close
with us, but you're not.

This group isn't
just friendship to me.

And I don't want
Emily to ruin that.

"Our friendship
was over so long ago."

That made me just feel like,
"What did I do

that was, like, so terrible?"

I feel like I'm ready to,
you know, confront Bri.

I know this is something
that we both need.