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Love, I'm still waiting
for your Christmas wish list.

- I'm fine, mum. Whatever you like.
- What about me?

Don't I have to do my wish list?

You always ask for colourful socks...

Or some weird product for the garden.

Right, no need for a wish list.

By the way, Leah, have I ever told you
what one lettuce said to another?

A million times?

Dad!

Things can suddenly change.

ONE YEAR LATER

- Morning.
- Hey.

Weren't you leaving soon?

Yeah, but I liked dinner so much
that I had to try breakfast.

The buffet is open.

If I eat too much, someone's
not getting their present tonight.

- Really? What happens tonight?
- It's Christmas Eve, you idiot.

What?

- Hi, mum. Happy Christmas Eve.
- Why didn't you answer the phone?

- I thought you'd have choked.
- Always looking on the bright side.

Any room in the freezer?

Aren't they chilled?

Axel, love,
weren't you in charge of that?

Yeah, I know.

Check the top shelf,
I think there's room for them.

I told you I should've dealt with it.

- Don't ever let him help again.
- Have you ever heard of ice, Dad?

- And Happy Christmas.
- Happy? Hardly.

- We could just not celebrate.
- Please, cut it out.

Tonight's going to be tough for all of us.

Alright?

Take these to your brother.
I can handle this myself.

- You sure?
- Yeah.

Okay.

Alright.

There we go.

You've just arrived
and Dad's already pissed off. New record.

Hi, how are you doing?

Aren't you fed up
with my brother already?

I know loads of nice, single mates.

- I could introduce you to them.
- You know, I'm not trying to replace him.

"Love is blind", they say.
If you saw his jumper...

Didn't you bring
one of your girlfriends tonight?

So you scare them off
with your dad jokes?

Yeah, I'm sure
that's what would scare them off.

Open the door. We'll handle this.

- Hi.
- Hi.

- Food's ready. Drinks are nearly chilled.
- Great.

How's my favourite person?

Our lives changed 20 years ago,
when the Joneses...

came from the other side of the world
to become part of our family.

Oliver and I have been
very close friends since we were little,

but that car crash
that took their parents' lives

brought us together
in an unbreakable bond.

Ready?

- It was delicious, Miriam.
- Thank you so much, love.

I did my best, but without your mum...

It didn't turn out the same.

As you all know,

we've been celebrating Christmas
together as one family.

Today, all of us...

miss your parents more than ever.

A toast to them,
and may this always be your home.

- Leah! Leah, wait.
- I'll go.

Damn, dad. You sure are
the life and soul of the party.

That's you, son.
You never take anything seriously.

I was taking Christmas seriously,
but it seems we have the Grinch at home.

- Cut it out, please. We're celebrating.
- Yes? And your brother's the clown.

Pack it in already, dad.
Let's celebrate peacefully.

Peacefully? Don't make me laugh.
I'm going home. My stomach hurts.

Axel, for God's sake!

I'll get him.

It's fine, mum.
No, it wasn't your fault.

We all agreed on it,
we thought it was the best, but...

I guess it wasn't, after all.

- Is Oliver angry?
- No, he's with me, at home.

We're having some drinks.
He'll pick Leah up later, alright?

- Alright, love. We're here.
- Okay. Love you, mum. It's fine.

Hey there.

Sorry for what my dad
put you both through.

It's okay.

It must be a rough time for him too.

What were you going to tell me?
You really threw me earlier.

I've been offered a promotion.

That's amazing, man.
When were you going to tell me?

- It's not that easy.
- Really? How come?

Do you have to do
anything special for your boss?

If I say yes,
I'll spend nine months in Berlin.

And what's the issue? I can visit you.
You know what the music scene's like there.

Yeah. Leah's the issue.

What's with her?

What's with her?
She can't come with me, man.

I can't just take her away
from her life.

Maybe that's what she needs.

I don't know. I'm not sure...

She's struggling after retaking a year.

And I want her to go
to university next year. To a good one.

Like I did, thanks to my parents.

And to help her,
I need more money.

I've spent a year working part-time

so I could be there for her,
and I'm running out of money.

If you need some,
just ask for it. I can help you out.

No way, Axel.

It's too much money.

How can I help you, then?

I've been weighing my options.

Maybe she could stay at your place?

- Leah, you mean?
- Yeah.

She can't stay at your parents'.
Look at the scene your dad made.

- Yeah, I agree.
- I'm not close to your brother either.

I can work from here
one week per month,

so you'd only have
to look after her whenever I'm not around.

I see you had it all planned, huh?

I know it's such a huge favour,

but I need the job.

I have no choice.

Oliver, man, I'm not...

You're the person I admire
and trust most in the world,

and I wouldn't ask
if it weren't important.

Alright, it's fine. I get it.

I can't just dump it on you, I know.

I'm just being selfish.

But I've run out of options.

Would you do it for me?

I'd do anything for you.

Deal.

Deal?

How could I say no to you?
You're my brother, man.

Thank you so much.

- You'll take care of her.
- You bet.

- I'll go down to pick her up, then.
- I'm coming with you.

- I had a date with Elena after dinner.
- Really?

- Is it serious?
- Not at all.

We just have a nice relationship
where we don't ask for explanations.

I see. Is she aware of it?

- She's a free spirit, you know her.
- Great, then. Just great.

Shall we talk next week and sort it out?

- Yeah, sure.
- Perfect. Let's go.

Ready?

Trust me, it'll all be fine.

You'll love it here in a couple of days.

And don't give Axel a hard time, please.

He's doing us a huge favour.

- When are you leaving?
- In a few hours.

- All set?
- Yeah.

Good to know.

- How's it going?
- Good.

My house has never been this clean.

Leah, take this.

An old business phone.

You can call me whenever you want.

Come here for a goodbye hug.

I can go to Berlin instead of you.
You're going to miss the flight.

Yeah, right. Right.

I'm heading home,
still need to drop the car off.

So this is my pad.

It's usually a bit messier, though.

Make yourself at home.

You can use and touch whatever you want.
There are loads of books, music...

Even a record player.

Have you ever used one?

They're cool, yeah.

Oh, and there's a bit of everything
in the fridge, but if you want...

something in particular, we can buy it.

Right, your room. Here, please.

It was my storage room, which was a mess.

If you're up for it, we could go
for a bite to eat in the village.

Well...

I'll let you settle in.

I'll be outside if you need me.

Sorry for making you come.
I didn't think it'd rain this much today.

- It's fine.
- Say hi to your brother for me.

He's vanished since he got married.

I'll let him know. See you soon.

Leah?

I ordered a pizza. Want some?

Leah?

OFF TO THE BEACH.
I'LL BE RIGHT BACK

I had always seen Leah as a little girl,

until Oliver and I came back
from 4 wild years

living on the university campus.

- Bye, guys. Enjoy the surf.
- Thanks, Douglas.

Did you get the motorbike keys?

- Didn't you have them?
- No. I left them in the jacket!

Okay.

Did you do this?

Yeah.

Is it bad?

Quite the opposite.
It's just... different.

- You're kidding, aren't you?
- Not at all.

Why'd you think that?

Because my dad
asked me to paint this vase,

and I did this,
which is something completely different.

Well, it's... your own version.

Do you really think so?

- I got them! Let's go!
- Coming!

I have to go.

Keep it up.

I forgot I had a flatmate.

I don't want to be a burden.

Be a burden?

You must be starving.

I don't know
how long you were in your room.

Fancy some avocado on toast?

- It's really tasty.
- No, thanks.

Shouldn't you get ready for class?

I didn't sleep well.

I'd probably just make up
some lame excuse not to go.

You don't have to go, really.

- You can stay home.
- I'll get dressed.

Are you cycling,
or shall I give you a lift?

Hi, Leah.

How are you?

Going to class?

- Leah, wait.
- Belén, I'm late.

Just a minute, please.

Look, I...

I'm sorry you had to repeat last year.

I've heard that...

your brother's working abroad
and you're living with Axel.

If you need anything,
whatever, even though we've not...

seen each other for a year,
you can count on me.

Okay?

- Okay, thanks.
- We could hang out someday.

Even if it's not like before.

- Maybe.
- Well, then... we can do something new.

Maybe.

- I'll call you later.
- I don't have a phone anymore.

Leah.

Leah?

Leah, wake up.

The waves are great today.
Come on, let's test them out.

It'll do you good.

Thanks, but I don't want to.

You might not feel like going,
but trust me, it's definitely worth it.

Leah, look.

You and I...

You and I are
like an Indian tribe, alright?

Like the ones from the movies.
And I'm the chief of the tribe.

Got it? And the chief says
that mornings are for surfing.

Why do you want me to go?

And why do you want to stay?

Chief waits outside. You come quick.

It was silent and peaceful there.

I finally felt safe from my memories.

Memories of the life I lost.

Sit down.

Nice and slow.

There we go. Breathe, calm down.

Deep breaths.

- Alright?
- Yeah.

Breathe.

There we go.

That's it.

Fuck, Leah.

What just happened?
What are you...? What...?

No, Leah, no...

Calm down. I'm sorry, alright?

Take it easy. Breathe.

There, there...

Breathe with me.

Breathe.

That's it, breathe.

Breathe. Take it easy.

Breathe. Take a breath.

Let it out. There.

There we go.

That's it.

That's it.

- That's it.
- Sorry.

- I'm so sorry.
- Easy.

It's over now.

I'm going to get changed.

Feeling better?

Thank you.

I'm going to lie down.

Wait, please. I want us to talk first.

Do we really have to?

Oliver's coming tomorrow,
so I'll leave you alone.

You'll be back next week, though.

We'll spend a lot of time together,
and there's so much I don't know about you.

I should have asked you before,
but I didn't know how.

Do you have friends?

- You're kidding, right?
- Not at all.

People your age are always hanging out.
Do you have friends or not?

- Yes, I do.
- Why do I never see you with them?

I don't feel like it.

Oh.

For how long?

I don't know.

How's school?

Fine, I guess.

- You don't seem sure.
- I am sure.

And why do I never see you study?

- It's none of your business.
- Leah.

Your brother hasn't gone
thousands of miles away

to loaf around, you know that, right?

He's in Berlin...

so you can go to the university next year.

He's busting his gut out there...

for you, so you can carry on.

We need to tell him
what just happened at the beach.

- Why?
- Because it's important.

- It was nothing.
- Excuse me? Nothing?

It was everything.

This is too much for me, alright?

I know, but it's done. I'm fine.

I clearly remember
the day I became aware

of what it meant to be in love with Axel.

- I got them! Let's go!
- Coming!

I have to go.

Keep it up.

- Want me to drive?
- Sure.

That's what platonic loves are like.

No matter how far they go,
they stay with you forever.

No matter how hard
my head tried to get those feelings

out of my heart.

I'm going to get some air.

I'll be back soon.

I'll go with you.

Despite living
on my own for years,

and being used
to managing time and space as I pleased,

for the first time,
the house felt empty.

I missed
the mystery that surrounded her.

For over a year,
I'd felt selfish and useless,

unable to move forward,
hiding beneath a raincoat

to keep the pain from soaking me,

but Axel had pierced it
in just three weeks.

Hi.

Hi. You alright?

Yeah.

- Can I sit here?
- Of course.

Make yourself comfy.

I want to ask you something.

Alright.

Go ahead.

Are you happy?

Happy?

Yeah, I'd say so.

What about you?

I think I used to be happy.

You think, or you really were?

Sometimes I can't remember
how things used to be.

Do you think I'll ever be happy again?

Of course you will.

Do you want to?

I miss you so much, Leah.

What?

I miss the girl you used to be.

The girl who loved painting.

The girl who always laughed.

But I'm sure she'll be back someday.

In the meantime, I'll make dinner.
I'm so hungry I could eat a horse.

We forgot to buy pancakes.

I'm not going back in there.

Leah!

What a coincidence!

Hi. I'm Belén.
Well, we have met before.

- Nice to see you...
- Belén.

- Belén, right.
- Yeah.

Popping out, right?

- Yeah.
- I'm off to the Peach for a drink.

They still make
those banana milkshakes you used to like.

We could go together sometime.
If you're up for it, that is.

Of course she is.
Come on, it's on me.

Alright.

And take the trolley back.

So, how's living with Axel going?

Fine.

I heard your brother's doing great
in Berlin. Is that true?

Yeah.

And...

do you still have feelings for Axel?

No.

I'm sorry, that was out of line.

How far away that time seemed,

when I spent all day with Belén,

pretending to be grown-ups,

and telling her how much I loved Axel.

How's catering school going?

Good. Great, in fact.

There are times when I get home exhausted.

Standing for hours can be tiring, but...

- That's what you always wanted to do.
- Yeah.

It is, and I love it.

Do you remember how I used
to leave my mum's kitchen?

I'd always make a mess.

In a month, I'm celebrating
my 20th birthday at a really cool place.

Would you like to come?

I don't think I can.

It's fine.

I had a great time!

Why did you do this to me?

Can you be a bit more specific?

Wait here.

While you were with her,

I went ahead
and got you something. It's over there.

It's a surprise. No peeping, got it?

No peeping!

Okay, you can come!

Ready?

Do you like it?

No.

No?

I can't.

Only for brief moments.

But I felt something
lighter inside me.

But that was scary too,

because it meant something could change.

- Hi!
- You good, Belén?

- Yeah, thanks. Glad you made it.
- Yeah.

- I'd love to celebrate my birthday here.
- Yeah, it's amazing.

It was my grandparents'.
My dad rents it out for events now.

I'll ask you for his number later.

- I'll be back from the village in 2 hours.
- One hour.

I'm leaving and I'll be back in two hours.
Need anything? Just call me.

- Have a good time.
- See you.

Shall we?

It's fine, we're just hanging out here.

Want one? I didn't offer you one.

- I didn't know you smoked.
- Every now and then.

Do you remember?

Yeah, I do.

All yours. It was your idea, after all.

Whenever you're ready,
we can carry on with the list.

Alright.

I'm sorry for being away so long.

It's okay, Leah.

You're here now, that's what matters.

Can I give you a hug?

Sure.

I have to pee.

Coming along?

I'll get something to drink before, okay?

Alright, let's go.

Come on.

Awe, thank you so much!

Let's see...

- No!
- You like it?

- Thank you!
- No problem! You deserve it!

It's so pretty!

Hey.

Why so lonely?

I can leave if you want.

Or you want anything?

- Excuse me, got a light?
- No, sorry.

I know who you are.

Wasn't the house
at the top of the mountain yours?

Yeah, it is.

Mate, that place is perfect
for a proper party.

If you're up for it, I have a pal
who uses this trailer of his...

as a DJ set, and it's fucking amazing.

He hitches it up to his car
and sets it up wherever he wants.

- And then badass music starts playing.
- Wait.

- What the fuck, man?
- Sorry?

- The fuck are you doing, dickhead?
- You came quick.

- Let's go.
- Is he your boyfriend?

Or your father?

What the fuck were you thinking about?

I wasn't doing anything.
I just wanted to...

...feel something again.

With some asshole you don't know?
That's not the fucking way.

Sorry, I don't feel so good.

Hey, hey...

Come on, move.

Leah.

Hey, take it easy.

- Go take a shower.
- I'm sorry.

It'll do you good. Go.

I'll clean this. Don't worry, okay?

- I'm sorry.
- It's fine.

How come you've never noticed me?

Mum,

what's self-love?

Why do you ask?

I don't know,
it's something I just don't get.

Above all, self-love...

is about your own freedom.

About letting go of what isn't meant
for you, without fear of losing it forever.

About leaving,
even though you'd rather stay.

About recognising your power,

without needing to see it
in anyone else's eyes but your own.

Self-love, dear, is about
not giving up on everything you deserve.

About listening
to yourself before anyone else.

About knowing your worth,
regardless of what others see.

That's why self-love is so powerful.

You decide your own worth,

and how much love you deserve.

Does it make any sense?

I think so.

You clever girl.

Are you painting?

I wanted to apologise,

and I thought this was the best way.

- It's...
- Awful, right?

No, it's wonderful.

It means a lot to me
that you've started painting again.

You've left this here.

It's meant to be like that.

Oh.

Leah, we can't blur the lines.

Last night wasn't right.

We have to forget it, okay?

From now on, last night never happened.

Is this yours?

It might have got a bit wet,
it was in the washing machine.

I'm not sure if what was written
has come off. Is it important?

Kind of, yeah.

Can I see?

- Oh, can't I have a look?
- No.

- How come?
- I don't want you to.

That's a shame.

It was a list Belén and I started ages ago.

Interesting.

Was it a shopping list?

Very funny.

It's a list of things that made us happy.

What did you write
that you won't show me?

I can't remember, and now it's gone.

Did you do them all?

I can't remember either.

We can fix that.

Time for a new list.

Come on.

- Now?
- Do you have any better plans?

- I was planning on dinner, I'm starving.
- We'll do it and I'll make you dinner.

Deal. Alright. One:

"Dunking biscuits...

in milk...

and eating them afterwards."

But loads of biscuits.

Imagine a biscuit porridge. Like...

a whole tray of biscuits, all together,
overflowing the glass of milk.

See what I mean?

- Yeah, but does that make you happy?
- You have no idea.

But with chocolate or just milk?

Chocolate makes it next level.

Your turn.

I don't know.

I don't know,
bouncing on the sofa? No, on the bed.

Or... dancing with no sense
of rhythm at all.

Totally arrhythmic
and uncoordinated, like robots.

Yeah.

I don't know, Axel. It's hard for me.

Thinking of happy things?

Yes.

No, I mean... I don't know.

I don't know.

Come with me.

- What?
- Come with me.

- Where?
- Leave the list and come.

- Now.
- Right now. Chop chop!

Over here.

- It's dark, Axel.
- Come on.

- Hurry up.
- I'm barefoot, look.

Here. You can stop.

Close your eyes.

- What?
- Do as I say.

You're such a pain.

So, what are you feeling?

I don't know.

How can you not know?

Close your eyes and focus.

What do you feel around you?

I feel my feet.

The wet grass tickling me.

The light
of the lighthouse on my face.

There we go.

Go on.

I can feel the sea breeze.

Your hand.

All this water on my face.

Fuck.
Stop feeling, run! Hurry!

Dang it.

What is it?

It's nothing.

It wasn't bad, right?

Yeah.

Now I'm starving too.
I'll get the lasagne out of the fridge.

- Why don't you set the table?
- Okay. Would you like some beer?

How about a glass of wine?

- This is something for us to celebrate.
- Can I have one, too?

It'll be fine, we're at home.

I'm not messing up like the other day.

Alright, you're an adult now,
so I can't stop you.

Your brother was there, protecting me,
and he was hit right on the nose.

- No!
- He nearly broke it.

- No way.
- But he saved me, at least.

I really love your stories.

And we've got thousands.
We've been through everything.

Want that bit? Come on, all yours.

No, I'm full. I'm about to explode.

- Same here, but it's so tasty.
- It is.

- Give me the list. Let's continue.
- Alright.

- Go ahead.
- Let's see.

"Walking barefoot...

in the deep night...

until it starts raining."

- There we go.
- Check.

Your turn. No excuses.

Okay then.

Dancing with my eyes closed.

I like it.

What else?

Going out on a boat... Maybe?

The furthest I've ever been
from shore was on a surfboard.

- It was my turn.
- Sorry.

it's fine, I like it.

A friend of mine has
a sailing boat, so he could...

- Really?
- Yeah.

What else? You're on fire, keep it up.

I want to get drunk.

- You're already drunk.
- Right, but so are you. A bit, at least.

Seriously. It has to be something proper.

Look inside yourself.

I want you... to kiss me.

- Now.
- Leah...

- It's not a big deal.
- Yeah, right. Come on.

- It's your game.
- A stupid game, in fact.

Just forget about it.

Alright, I will.

What was that for?

I want to know how it feels.

- Besides, you kiss anyone.
- You aren't just anyone.

- Can't you ask a friend of yours?
- No.

I bet no one kisses like you.

So do I.

So I'm right, then?

I was just being honest.

Alright, I guess I'll never find out.

That's it.

Okay.

- We'll do it. Just once, got it?
- Really?

Just once.

And, tomorrow morning,
we won't remember it.

Deal.

Close your eyes.

- What was that?
- What were you expecting?

- A real kiss, of course.
- Leah, don't piss me off.

Are you scared?

Maybe you're not as good as you think.

Leah...

Go to bed.
You've got a first-period lesson tomorrow.

Axel.

I'll be back later.

Dinner's in the fridge.

Can we talk about tonight?

What happened was fucked up.

You're not serious.

I am, I really am.

I kissed you,
like you wanted, and I screwed it up.

I never thought
you'd end up blurring the lines.

I didn't.

You did. You really did.

But it's on me.

It was a real one.

It was a real kiss.

Just face it.

- Are you alright?
- Yeah, yeah.

Are you sure?

I... I don't feel so good.

It's okay. Let's get some rest.

Good morning.

Well, feeling any better?

- Were you able to rest?
- Yes.

Are you in a hurry?
I was going to make some breakfast.

Not today, okay?

What's the matter?

I'm fine.

I'm no fool, Axel.

Is it about Leah?

What? No.

Are you fucking her?

Have you lost your mind?

Yeah, I have.

Sure. I don't know which is worse,
being a liar or a coward.

You could've told me
you weren't coming home.

I said I'd be back.

But I didn't think this late.

I was worried sick.

I'm here, aren't I?

Where were you?

At Elena's.

Did you sleep with her?

No, we spent the night playing chess.

Go fuck yourself.

- My little angel!
- Hey.

- Where'd you get that jumper?
- Like it? Thank you. Shall we go?

So, where's Axel?

- He's asleep, I think.
- Oh, I see.

- Let's get moving.
- I was asleep. Past tense.

- Hey, man!
- What's up?

- What's with that face?
- I didn't sleep well, you know.

And you? Looking after him?

- Of course.
- Good.

We're leaving.
See you tomorrow at your parents'.

- We're having lunch together.
- Right.

- Great. Come on.
- Let's go.

- Allow me.
- Thank you.

I brought some snacks
to get you ready for the meat.

Looks great, mum.
You haven't made Olivier salad in ages.

I hope you like it.
It has no peas, as you like it.

Thanks, mum.

So, Oliver, any news in Berlin?

Not really.

I'm always thinking about coming back.

I can imagine. We'd love to have you back.

Want some?

The weather there must be awful, I bet.

I'm always wearing tights under my suit.

- Do you want some, dear?
- Yes, thanks.

Axel, man,
the university staff sent me a message.

The university open days are
in two weekends' time.

If you can, you could take Leah
and show her around the campus.

- Sure, no problem.
- Great.

- You're going to love it.
- Just pretend you don't know these two.

- They probably hid a corpse in there.
- No.

- We weren't that crazy.
- I need to loo.

Alright.

There've got to be
some photos by the entrance.

Are you leaving?

I'm going for a walk.

We'll go to the university tomorrow.
We'll leave early, it'll take us two hours.

I'll be busy.
Oliver will take me next week.

Are you going to sulk forever?

You're being childish.

- Oh, am I?
- Yes.

Do you really think so?

I do.

You don't know why I'm like this.

Spit it out, then. Tell me.

Do you think I'm like this
because that kiss...

meant something to me,

and you immediately slept
with someone else?

Well, you're wrong.

What's this all about, then?

I've been in love with you my whole life.

Why bother hiding it
when we both know, anyway?

- Leah, don't say that.
- I fell in love with the brave Axel.

The Axel who acted
without considering the consequences.

The Axel who followed his gut
and what he felt in the moment.

I really loved that about you.

Because it was real.

You sleeping
with someone else did hurt me, but...

I'm already over it.
It's something I've dealt with for years.

That said,
that kiss clearly meant something to you.

We both know, don't we?

You're right.

Of course it did.

It really turned me on, Leah.

I had to hold back
from ripping your clothes off there.

I didn't know a kiss like that could exist.

But it's impossible.

There are too many reasons
why we can't take it any further.

Do you understand?

Axel!

I'll go with you to the university,
but I'm not getting up early on Sunday.

This is the best place
to spend four years.

Especially doing what you love.

I don't want to be on my own here.

You'll make friends as soon
as you arrive, trust me.

The best years of my life,
and your brother's, were here.

It scares me a little, though.

Feeling like that
at the beginning isn't weird.

You'll see everyone else is just like you.

It's their first time fleeing the nest too.

That's not helping, you know.

Alright, I'll take you somewhere else.

Just promise me not to tell your brother.

- Deal.
- Deal?

And what exactly did you learn here?

Here you learn how to live.

Don't listen to him.

Ramón!
I thought you'd be retired by now.

And I didn't think I'd see you again.

- It'll be just a moment.
- You always say that.

- Doing fine?
- Great, in fact. You?

Same here. What are you having?

See that cocktail named "The Artifact"?

Your brother and I made it
using the trial-and-error method.

I don't get it.

- Nobody does.
- It's clever humour.

What is this?

It's an evolution. Don't you like it?

No.

Cheers.

- It's great.
- Is it?

Mamihlapinatapai.

Sorry?

"A meaningful silence between two people

sharing the same thoughts or desires".

It's a word from Patagonia's natives,

said to be
one of the most precise words in the world.

That's exactly what just happened to us.

Who knows?

Axel, I'm sorry
for making everything worse.

You already had your own problems,
including dealing with me at home, and...

now all this mess.

Trouble is my middle name.

This song...

...was Belén's favourite.

Mine too. Have you ever listened to it?

No.

Whenever I'd sleep at Belén's,
this song was always blasting out.

One of us would play the role of a boy,

and we'd dance
while imagining what it'd be like to do it

with our knight in shining armour.

We were crazy back then.

Do you want to dance?

You mean it?

Wasn't dancing
with your eyes closed on your list?

It was, yeah.

- Alright.
- Okay.

Let's give it a go...

Close your eyes.

Let it happen.

Leah... I can't.

See? It's fine.

Take me, please.

You're going to drive me mad, Leah.

I'm ready.

- You sure you don't want a lift?
- No, it's fine.

I'm going by bike, alright?

- Okay.
- Bye.

I made you lunch.

Thank you.

Haven't you forgotten something?

Doesn't this all feel a bit weird?

It does.

But it's not.

- See you later.
- Bye.

Would it be possible
to go around the world on this boat?

Definitely.

Edgar brought it
from the Dominican Republic.

Really?

Yeah, even though he went through
a pretty mad month.

You could ask him to tell you about it.

Leah, could we talk about what's happening?

We could... not.

But we have to.

Alright then.

What did you have in mind?

What are we going to do?

I have no fucking idea.

I see you're ready.

I'm serious, I...

Maybe we could...

keep this going a bit longer.

Getting to know each other
without jumping the gun.

And after that, well...
I have no idea what to do next.

I try not to think
about it or I'll lose my mind.

No more thinking, then.

This is pretty fucked up
for me, you know.

I'm sorry.

Hey, don't. You don't have
to apologise at all, it's just...

I've never felt this way before.

But you've been with loads of girls.

I can promise you
this is the first time I've felt like this.

This is new for me.

I want it to last.

This is for you.

A present for getting me out
of that awful place I was stuck in.

Thanks for bringing
my old self back to life.

I love you, Leah.

I love you, Axel.

Hi, sweetheart.

I tried calling you,
but your phone was off.

We got here a bit late,

because your dad
forgot to get gas...

as usual.

But who remembered
your sketchbook?

Come on, you'd left it lying around.

As usual, too.

Leah, I'm painting something wonderful.

I know you'll love it.

It's different. Totally your style.

Oh, and I opened
those new jars I bought you.

Hope you don't mind.

As usual, too.

Honey, in the end,

the three of us are going
Christmas shopping together.

Looking good, sis.

You too, bro.

No, I'm serious.

I was scared as hell when I left.

I didn't know how you'd work it out.

But every time I come back...

I see you better.

You've done it, squirt.

Maybe I learned to appreciate the present.

You sound just like Axel.

We spent too much time together.

Leah...

Do you dream about them?

About dad and mum?

No.

I don't think so.

Honestly, I've never thought about it.

Neither have I.

And I try to.

I go to bed every night,
thinking about them,

so I can see them again.

But it never happens.

Do you know
what the last thing Dad said to me was?

A joke.

- A joke?
- Yeah.

"What did one lettuce say to another?"

- "Lettuce enjoy every minute".
- "Lettuce enjoy every minute".

Yeah.

I'd do anything to see them one last time.

So would I.

I'm going for a drink.
Do you want to come?

I'm meeting Belén at her place today.

- Okay.
- Yeah?

- I'll pick you up later.
- Great.

Lettuce enjoy every minute.

Lettuce enjoy every minute.

Not anymore.

Is it free?

Oli! It's so nice to see you!

- How are you?
- Great. You?

- Good.
- Are you visiting, or settling in?

No, I've still got three months left.

It's not that hard anymore
for me to leave since Leah's doing better.

Right.

Take a seat.

Thank you.

What are you doing here?
There are a few beers in the fridge.

How could you do this to me?

Oliver...

I love her.

Don't bullshit me.

- Do you know what you've done?
- I really love her.

If you did,
you wouldn't have let this to happen!

Want to know what she told me?

She's not going to university.

She wants to stay here with you.

I spent a year far from her,

working my arse off,
and you come to screw everything up.

What about the consequences?

What if things get difficult

and you leave her,
like everything else?

And I'd have to pick up the pieces.

No one else made me feel like this.

Don't tie her down to you.

She's nineteen.

She must live,

go to university,

meet people, have new experiences,
live her life as it comes.

Don't take that from her if you love her.

I don't know if I can.

You owe me that.

I put you in charge of looking after her.

Leah's everything to me.

She's all I've got left.

We just couldn't make it work.

No.

Leah...

We didn't just bump
into each other in a bar.

I didn't ask for your phone number.

We never went on a date.

We never walked down the street
holding hands.

I've never waited
outside your door to kiss you.

Our problem is...

all that we never were.

And I don't want
to take you away from your brother.

I don't want to make you live my life.

You're wrong.

I'd just hold you back.

I'd just become baggage
you'd never know how to let go of.

At least not without hurting each other.

Staying here won't make me lose anything.

Oliver loves me,

and he'd eventually accept
the idea of me living with you, but...

...he probably wouldn't forgive you for it.

And now...

...if I want to become
who I'm meant to be, I have to...

go far away from here,

distance myself from certain places...

...and certain memories...

...so one day I can come back
and enjoy this place again.

I'll miss you so much.

I'll miss you too.

Thanks for teaching me how to feel.

No.

Thank you.

If I'm here like this,

it's all thanks to you.

We've really helped each other.

You know I love you so much, don't you?

It'll never be the same with anyone else.

I'll never feel this way.

I know.

Because I won't either.

I have to go.

And I'm staying here.

Mum was preparing me
for a moment like this.

She gave me the power
to decide on my own

my worth and the love I deserve,

without needing to see it
in anyone else's eyes but my own.

Here and now starts my new life,

far away from who I was
and from everything I loved,

without knowing if I'll ever forget Axel,

my platonic love.

my first love.

TO BE CONTINUED...