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What exactly makes a plus-size
girl attractive to me is

the ultimate million-dollar
question, because I don't know.

Open your eyes,

look at what you see,

and if it tingles, it's right.

Back in '99,
my parents took my brother and I

for a five-week round trip
across the US,

including Disney World
in Florida.

And all of a sudden,
in the aquarium section,

there was this super-sized girl
just walking around.

I was obviously way too shy
to talk to her,

I had my parents in tow,
so I would never.

But there was a wake-up moment.

It was like, "OK,
this is what I want."

Pearadise on three.
One, two, three.

Pearadise!

How do you wanna do it?

- Take your dress off.
- Take it off!

Look at the people that are
at the house right now.

It doesn't get any more
beautiful than these girls.

Yeah, struck, struck, struck!

This right here is
the message of Pearadise.

You're afraid of the judgment.

You feel like, "I'm fat,
I'm gonna die alone."

But it's never the truth.

I'm fat, but I'm not ugly.

Five years ago, there's no way

I would have been able
to do that.

My whole intention
with Pearadise was always

just to bring positivity.

I can confidently say
the effect that it has had

on so many people

is priceless.

Pearadise is not a safe
and positive place.

Kimmi, aka, Piggy Stardust,
is a complete stranger.

Somebody who never met me,
never talked to me,

never interacted with me,
never been to the house.

Quick recap.

I made a TikTok that led
to many women coming out

with SA allegations
against Pearadise.

Her sole intent...

He needs to be
stopped and removed--

...make Pearadise disappear,

at any cost.

You don't guilt-trip--

The things that
they've done to me,

the things that they've done
to people around me,

it has ruined everything.

I need to finally tell my story

because I need this

to end.

Before I...

grew into the person
that I am now,

I would just do whatever
he wanted.

No questions asked.

But you get to the point
where it's like,

"Why am I still
protecting this man?"

I know my truth.

There's nothing
that's gon' stop me.

I've lived in fear
of this man for too long.

When we met, I was,
I wanna say, 21, 22.

He was in his mid-40s.

Since the very beginning,
the day we met,

we were friends
with benefits.

And he was actually
really funny.

He's a total nerd, which
I actually liked at the time.

June 17th, 2020,

I was working six days a week

and was so crazy tired.

I'm in the hot tub.
Eventually, Stefan joins me.

I was like, "Ugh, I really hope
he doesn't wanna have sex."

And I made that be known.

But if he wants to have sex,

you're going to have sex
with him,

whether you want to or not.

His favorite line is like,
"You? You wanna say no?

You're gonna say no?
You never say no."

So I'm in my swimsuit.
He's trying to take it off.

And I was like, "Fine."

I help him take it off,

'cause I'm at this point
just fed up.

"Stop touching me.
Just stop touching me."

By the time he's done,

I'm disgusted.

I don't wanna look at him.
I don't wanna talk to him.

I didn't even realize
what had happened

until I was telling
my boss about it,

and she's like,
"You were sexually assaulted."

It made me angry.
I was angry.

When I conferred to him
about it,

I told him, "Once a woman
says 'No', it's a no.

"But that's not good
enough for you.

You don't stop till you get
what you want."

And he's like, "Oh, no,
I don't feel that way."

It went so far that he was
showing what happened to me

to all the women he had
in the house

from the recording,
from his security cams.

OK, ready?

The security cameras are
incredibly dangerous.

Take your time--

There are multiple viewpoints

in the living room,

multiple viewpoints
in his office,

multiple viewpoints of the pool,

and all of them are
audio-enabled cameras.

He constantly would use
his camera footage

in a way that is so toxic
and manipulative.

The whole situation with Cece,
honestly, in Stefan's eyes,

he had to show them
the proof that he had,

that he was innocent.

Come on in.

I have full control over
the entire house from here.

We have the cameras in all
the public areas and outside.

Um, there's no cameras
in any of the bedrooms

or in any of the bathrooms,
of course.

Yeah, that's a temporary one

that we sometimes use
for making private content.

All I can say is, like,
me and Cece, whatever happened,

happened.

There was a time when her and I
really talked it out

like adults.

And we agreed that like,
you know, everything was good

and we hugged it out
and actually cried a little bit.

I felt bad.

Who wants to be accused
of rape?

A month, month and a half
after that,

I actually found out
I was pregnant

and I found out
I was having twins.

I was already expecting
when I was sexually assaulted

by Stefan in his hot tub.

My biggest fear was being
a single mother.

I wanted my kids to have
a father that's present.

Every decision I've made

was for them.

So after they were born,

I was at the house
every weekend.

Hey.

Hey.

There was Heather, Kass, there
to help me with the boys.

There was...

no arguing, there were
no fights.

And the boys had
everything they needed.

But I knew the truth.

Hey.

When it comes to fun,

you're basically his property.

He thinks he's entitled
to our bodies.

Hi, everybody.
My name is Savy.

I want everyone to know
this is the truth.

This is nothing but the truth.

Me and my friend Ally
visited in April of 2021.

Her and I had
the same experience.

Stefan was playing
with our stomachs,

touching my butt.

I was supposed to stay
for two weeks,

but I could not stomach
being there

and I left four days early.

'Cause we can all agree
that that's--

We get in contact with Kimmi.

We say, "Here's our story,"

and she's like,
"Y'all are 100% valid.

This is insane."

And then I was like,
"Well, now,

now I have to talk."

I made videos breaking down
everything that happened

at the house.

If the same thing happened
to you in a workplace,

what would it be called?
Crickets.

Sexual Assault.

I had no idea that it was
gonna blow up in my face.

The girls had gone public,
and then Kimmi,

aka, Piggy Stardust,

became the megaphone for them.

And it was going viral.

You touch me
without permission?

You touch anyone
without permission?

That is assault.

I got a call from Stefan saying,

"You need to get here now."

What the [bleep] do I do now?
What the [bleep] do I do?

This could, I'm not gonna
say wreck your life,

but it could [bleep] your life
for a while.

It can.

He had Ivy there.
He had me there.

He had basically rallied
the troops behind him.

You need to go
after this girl.

Loyalty is key.

My job was to...

protect Stefan at all cost.

In that moment, I didn't
truly feel

that I was doing anything wrong.

Plus-size girls are raised
to be as small as possible.

There was a lot of times
I didn't get to speak out.

And as an adult, there's
more times where I'm like,

"I have to speak out."

I knew when I made the decision
to come out against Stefan

that it was going to be war.

How are you doing, Stefan?

How's that heat
you're feeling right now?

It was the beginning of

probably the most chaotic
six months of my life.

You're gonna need
a lot more toilet paper

for the shitstorm
that's about to hit you.

Kimmi's videos really were
a problem for Stefan,

so I reached out to her.

I mean, what do I have
to lose, right?

Maybe I can persuade her
to take the videos down.

We should be loud and speak up
for those victims.

She didn't take
the videos down.

Over 300 videos were made.

Three, four, five videos
a day sometimes.

And it just kept going.

He's not a good guy.

I was pissed.

And it kept getting worse,
and it kept getting worse.

My name is Keneta Allen.

I lived with Stefan
for about nine months.

I hate you so much!
Ugh!

I was literally right there
when the whole thing happened

with Ally and Savy.

We were very affectionate
with each other,

very touchy-feely.
All of us had been.

And she said that was
sexual assault.

Face value,
it's sexual assault.

Kass and I are both pissed
because we had both been

sexually assaulted before.

Like, we'd both been raped.

She didn't believe that
what happened with Ally and Savy

was sexual assault in comparison
to what had happened to her.

These girls are making
a mockery out of something

that is so triggering.

I had already been in Pearadise
for a couple weeks

when Piggy started posting
these videos.

And that was the first time
I saw Kass, like, sob.

She had friends texting her
saying that if she was

gonna keep being with Stefan,
then they didn't wanna be

her friend anymore.

The only reason I'm sitting
here next to Stefan

speaking up for him and against
these ridiculous allegations

is because I was here.

It wasn't...

it wasn't an assault.

She cared for him deeply,

and it definitely took
its toll on her.

Kass doesn't care
about body positivity.

She cares about herself,
her money, and her fame.

Kass was attacked
and harassed by Piggy.

Kass and I were just trying
to navigate the rough waters

of this relentless,
never-ending shitstorm.

Piggy Stardust is basically

like comparing me to Epstein
or to Adolf Hitler.

Like, you know, what the [bleep]
is wrong with her?

I've never really been able
to present all the evidence

that I have that basically shows
that most of the allegations

are completely fabricated.

All these messages,
Savy sending me nudity.

There was three months
of hardcore flirting

and naked video chats
and all sorts of stuff

leading up to this.

Because of the conversations
and the excessive flirting

that they had had,
Stefan took that as consent.

At the time, I could see
Stefan's position.

He said, yes, he did touch her.

He didn't realize
it was a problem.

So these are literally
just like, you know, recordings

that I had saved from the time
that these people were here.

Like, look, people are piled
on top of each other,

touching each other.

The girls were all like, "Hey,"
slap the butt and say,

"Oh, nice booty."
Like this one here.

Right there.

Savy just decides out of
the blue to just slap Kass.

Why wasn't that a problem?

It really brought up
the question of consent.

Kass was like, "Oh, well,

"then does that mean
that they assaulted me

when they smacked my ass
in the kitchen?"

Nice booty!

Why are you singling me out?
Because I'm the only guy?

I ended up on a FaceTime call
with the two girls

that were affected.
I apologize.

Both girls at the end said,

"OK," you know, "We're good."

Maybe I should have not touched
these girls or whatever.

At the end of the day,

I would not consider that
sexual assault.

I honestly, like, I didn't
even quite know

because my--
my mind was so blown.

The apologies had happened.

I thought everything was
kind of squared away.

It was Piggy who kept putting
fuel in the fire.

And I am done being nice.

Done.

Be afraid.

She built a whole hate army
that kept coming after me.

I wanna [bleep] torture him.

Like, "Come here, Stefan.
Hit me up."

These, like, brainless zombies
come on my channel

and post my full address.

Stefan was getting
death threats

and getting harassed daily.

It was terrifying because

it wasn't just like my safety,
it was also the safety

of all my friends
at Pearadise, too.

There was a point that Stefan
climbed on my lap

and wrapped his arms
around me and said,

"If I have ever done anything
to make you feel uncomfortable,

I am so sorry,"
and started sobbing.

How can you not wanna
protect that?

There was this sad tension
in the house for a long time.

And in my head, I had
overstayed my welcome

to that point.

So I had to go.

The drive home felt
a little just kind of

solemn and strange.

I was just living for like six
weeks in a house

with only plus-size women.

And now I have to go back
into the real world.

But because of how online
the house is, there was

a part of me that felt like
I was still there.

And I turn on TikTok
and the first thing

that shows up is
the Pearadise Live.

I wanna be left alone.

I want to have fun
with my friends.

I honestly had no idea
what to do.

The friends around me
all came to me and said,

"Your only way out is legal.

Get a lawyer."

OK, let's file a suit
for slander and defamation.

It was the 5th of July.
I open my bedroom door

and I see a big packet.

I pick it up and it says,
I've been served.

I'm a broke college student.

I got no money, and I'm being
sued by a millionaire.

So I got officially served.
I did pick up the papers.

So he sued myself, Savy,
Ally, and I was like,

"Let's fight this.
Let's go."

I call a lawyer.

He's like,
"I can file an anti-SLAPP.

"There's two criteria
that you have to meet.

"You have to believe that
what you're saying is true,

and you have to be trying
to protect the public."

I never thought I was gonna
be sued for this.

You're doubting yourself.

Still to this day,
I find myself like,

Was it really sexual assault?

Was I right to even
call it that?

Because a lot of people were
telling me that I wasn't.

[bleep] no.
I would not take it back.

The only thing we can do is
to continue to spread the word

so that every person we reach
knows what exactly

they might be getting into
if they go to his community.

There were a lot of women
coming out in my comments

regarding the red flags
they had seen.

There is so much more
that people don't realize

that this man has been
able to do.

To me, this is a cult.

He puts himself
in a position of power,

creating a situation where
these people will do

anything for the leader.

You have to prove yourself
to him.

This is a case of, "I consented
and now I regret it,"

so I'm gonna call assault
because I regret it."

She literally says--

Ivy was one
of those ones who was

battling me at the beginning.

Anyone who goes
against Pearadise

would become the enemy.

Makes me [bleep] laugh.

We, as his inner friend group,
were pressured and asked

to make videos defending him.

It absolutely felt like
he wore us as a shield.

Listen, man, these aren't
thunder thighs.

These are thunderstorm thighs.

Anytime I was in the house,

he would ask if I wanted
to have sex.

There was one instance where

he very sneakily put
something inside me.

I didn't know what it was,

but I was like,
"OK, it's probably just

lube or something."

He would say,
"Oh, it's just a kitty treat,

it's OK."

Kitty, it's Stefan's creepy,
weird way of talking

about a woman's vagina.

But I got itchy,
and I went to urgent care,

and they were like,
"Yeah, you're just having
an allergic reaction."

Ivy came to me and said

she had a reaction to something.

I knew what it was.

A Kitty Treat is basically
a tampon applicator

with spermicide inside of it.

I had no idea that
he was using it on people

and they had no idea
what it actually was.

It's really gross.
Like...

I deserve so much more
than that.

And to have somebody do
something to me

that I don't know about
without even asking

is deplorable.

To my best knowledge,
I educated everybody on these

and I would never, I would have
never just like put something

in somebody without even
like, you know, how?

I mean, that would
have been a problem.

Sorry about--
sorry for laughing about that.

That would have been a problem.

Ivy didn't really wanna come
to the house anymore.

That was the final straw
for her.

When Ivy came forward
regarding her story,

this was the first time really
that someone was like,

"I was against you,
but now I'm with you."

We're looking close
to 20 different women

who have come actively forward.

You have people who talk
about the mental abuse.

There's women who say that
they were non-consensually

touched or pressured
to sleep with Stefan

or who have been so drunk that
they couldn't give consent.

This is a man
who is a predator.

I don't know how to start.
I never know how to start.

How do you, um,

how do you publicly

become a victim?

My name is Alex,
and I go by Porkchop.

I'm 32 years old, and I was
at Pearadise for eight weeks.

Porkchop looking good
in her mermaid getup.

- Who said that?
- Meow, meow.

In my life there are many times
that I just feel very desperate.

Desperate for a good friend,

somebody who's like truly there.

I suffer bad from depression
and crippling ADHD.

Being a part of his community
online, Stefan, he was like

shouting from the rooftops,

"Come into the safe space."

Oh, we would love
to have you here, Porkchop.

When I went to Pearadise,
walking into his house was just

like I was walking through
the screen of the computer.

I gave him a big hug,
a big squeeze,

and then immediately after
we hugged, it got handsy,

it got touchy,
it got uncomfortable.

Look the lit-- back there,
the little meat right here!

Little belly meat.

I think it was on

the third night
that I was there.

I was drinking that night

and said,

"All right, time to get
into that tub."

I was, at this point, drunk.

One of the women there,
she was like, "I don't know.

"I think you're too drunk
to get into the hot tub.

Are you sure you wanna get
into the hot tub?"

And I was like,
"Uh, yeah, I'm sure."

I just didn't know that
getting into the hot tub meant

to have sex.

Then Stefan comes and joins.

All three of us got
into the hot tub.

And they actually both
physically take my bathing suit

off at the same time.

I just kind of felt like I was
just being, like, ripped apart.

Then she just leaves,
and Stefan proceeded

to have sex with me.

I didn't stop him,

say anything, or do anything.

When I woke up the next day,
I didn't know how to feel.

I was taken advantage of,
but I didn't wake up

thinking I was assaulted.

And then my mental health
slowly declined

over the next couple weeks.

I remember saying, like,
"Why am I here?"

It came to a point
where I experienced

a full-blown panic attack,

where I was just sobbing.

And then eventually,
Stefan, he grabbed my hand

and pulled it close to him.

He led me to the pool to where
then he undressed me

and everything and had sex
with me in the pool.

I was not thinking.
I couldn't think.

I didn't have room to think.

For some reason,

I just felt paralyzed.

I walked away from that,
feeling attacked.

When I came home,

I felt defeated.

I wanted to never see him
again, never have

to deal with him again.

And then when he was trying
to sue the girls,

I did see an opportunity
to prove that

what they are saying is true.

Over the week, we filed
a new response

to our anti-SLAPP motion.

In that document

is a new witness statement.

When she explained
what had happened,

I was enraged.

I was...

just sick to my stomach.

So this is Alex's statement.

"I was crying with tears
streaming down my face.

Then Wilhelmy approached me
and said,

'You know what would
make you feel better, Porky?

If we [bleep] in the hot tub.'"

Porky was sitting outside
with me and saying, like,

"Why are you not
interested in me?

"Why don't you wanna
[bleep] with me?

"Why don't you wanna
hook up with me?

Am I not good enough?"

She was [bleep] begging for it.

And now she's going on record
in a court document

saying I assaulted her.
That's like...

Hello?

So, Porkchop, I feel like

I didn't do anything wrong.

She gave consent.
She gave explicit consent.

She confirmed multiple times
that she's not drunk.

At what point do you take
that person's word to say,

like, she's an adult, she is
verbally agreeing to this?

Like, it couldn't have been
more verbally, explicitly,

violently consensual than that.

And then

I have a text message from
mutual friend that was here.

And she says, "When you two
hooked up,

"she told me about it
the next day

"and was all giddy about it.

Funny how the story changed."

When she says that I seemed
giddy that morning,

I was trying to feel normal.

I wanted to fix it.

Four years later, I am deathly
afraid of speaking against him.

But I want the truth
to be out there.

Consensual sex takes
two people.

And this man watched me
frozen, not responding,

while he was getting
what he wanted in silence.

He thought that was
a good time.

You go into that environment,
you're coming out hurt.

As more allegations came out,
he was so hyper focused

that he couldn't do anything
except for talk about it.

Every person that came
in the house,

he started from the beginning
and had to tell them

the entire story.

I gently, like, tap her booty
in a , like, in a nice,

caring way, and then
I walk away.

The more that Stefan
talked about it,

the harder it became for Kass,

rehashing her own trauma
over and over.

Stefan's relationship with Kass
was incredibly toxic.

And I think that he
encouraged her and enabled her,

especially during
all the allegations,

to do a lot of things
that were not healthy for her.

I did not know
until I stayed at the house.

But I found out that Kass was
on a lot of dating

and fetish apps

that were bringing in
viewership to Pearadise.

She was filming herself
having sex with people.

Some of it was Stefan.

Sometimes it was her
having sex with other people.

People would fly in to come
meet her, to lay on them.

It's literally just like
the feeling of weight on them.

A squashing session is where
somebody will lay down

and you're laying completely
on top of them to make them feel

like they're being suffocated
by somebody who's fat.

Stefan used to take a cut
from payments for people

who did squashing sessions

while they're staying with him
at Pearadise.

Kass was also making
her own content

on these fetish websites,
dating websites.

A big one of these is Feabie.

Kass, among some of
the other women,

they would post videos
of themselves eating.

Say if a man sent you $50

and said, "Hey, spend this money
at the Chinese restaurant

"down the street and send me
a video of you eating it,

and then I'll send you
$50 more."

You don't notice
the weight gain,

until it's too late.

For Stefan, even if you're
500 pounds,

you're still not big
enough for him.

And he'll tell you that.

The amount of times
he's told me, like,

"You're so tiny,
you should eat more."

And you think it's so normal

because everybody else
around you is that big.

For some of the individuals
that are into feeding

and feederism, it really is
about that power play

and that control of an other
and control of their body.

On Feabie, there's
levels of extremism.

Feeders can write out,

like, their own little
role plays and desires.

Being fed to the last breath,
getting to 1,000 pounds.

For some, it is a desire
to get them in that bed

so they never get out.

Death feederism is the concept
of feeding someone

to the point that they die.

Back at home in New Orleans,

I could see what was happening.

Kass went from that
really bubbly girl

to someone who was just
really taken into a dark space.

Kass had gained
a lot of weight.

She was doing more content
of eating or weighing herself.

I don't think Kass would have
engaged on feederism

at the level she did
unless it was for Stefan.

All I know is that
when Kass walked into my life,

she was a confident big girl
that was like ready

to show herself to the world.

She did it at Pearadise.

She never intentionally
gained any weight at the house.

They want to make me look like
an abuser when in reality,

I'm just a fat admirer.

So he says his body type
is a woman over 500 pounds,

so like six feet, like
that's his preference,

but active,

which means that when
they stop being active,

he kind of loses interest.

Over 500 pounds, there's
not many people that are

extremely active,
except for younger women.

She said, like, "I can't be
in public anymore.

I can't make any more videos."

That's really kind of
when their relationship

started to change.

Was Kass replaceable?

Unfortunately, yes.

I think that ultimately
everybody was

replaceable to him.

When Kass had
her 27th birthday,

he did tell her that she was
getting old for him.

I was in New York, and Kass was
calling me all the time,

having almost panic attacks
and everything.

She was getting
more and more depressed.

I feel like I'm sure there's
a lot of people out there

that are in the same

place right now as I am.

I told him, "I need you
to please be, you know,

"more gentle with her
and, like, have patience

because I can see
her mental health declining."

So I was home,
and I receive a text from Kass

saying, "I love you
and I'm sorry."

And as soon as I read it,
I knew what it was.

I knew that it was, um,
you know, a goodbye, basically.

I texted Stefan right away.

And I called K Bug
and I told her,

"Go immediately to Kass's room.
Please, check on her."

Stefan goes running
upstairs all of a sudden,

tells me to come up.

And when I saw her,
she was on the bed

completely unresponsive.

K Bug and I were both
in the bedroom with her,

laying on my bed, and we were
like, "Kass, wake up."

She had taken a bunch
of Benadryl

and a bunch of Valium.

Stefan was just panicking.
He didn't know what to do.

I was on the phone with them.

I was like, "You're gonna
need a lot of people.

She's big.
She's over 500."

OK.

K Bug had called me.
She tells me that

Kass is in the hospital 'cause
she tried to take her own life.

And I just break down.

People were gawking
left and right.

She deserved better.

It was a complete joke.

She was back in the house
the next day.

And I knew because
Stefan sent a selfie

of him in the couch
with Kass sleeping.

I told him, like, "I told you
this was gonna happen."

Everything in that moment was
so emotionally charged,

whether it was a video
against Stefan,

whether it was a video
against Kass.

Kass can pretend
all she wants,

that she's a positive person
for the plus-size community--

The whole situation
basically put her

in fight-or-flight constantly.

Kass and I split,

and she moved out.

She actually just said, like,
"I can't-- I don't wanna be

"on your lives anymore.
I don't wanna be in content.

"I don't wanna be...

I need to be away from this."

I just wanted to come on here
and tell you all, like,

I am no longer affiliated
with Pearadise

or anything like that.
We're all moving on.

Um, thanks.

She stayed with me
for a couple months,

but she kind of had
a hard time, like,

doing her own thing.

You're such a fatty.

Yes.

The whole time she was
in my house, like,

Stefan and her
didn't stop talking.

It was very frustrating,
and we kind of

broke off the friendship.

I gotta be careful,
because I'm naked.

Uh-oh.

Not TikTok appropriate.

Kass was never free.

She never got out.

I'm gonna be in Vegas
at the end of January,

hopefully.

She made plans to come visit.

She showed up at my doorstep,

like, January of 2024
or something.

- Say hi, Kass.
- Hey, y'all.

But, like, she was
100 pounds heavier

than she was when
she left my house.

What exactly happened
in between, I did not have

any control over,
and I don't know what happened.

She was a lot bigger.

A lot, lot bigger.

She had a lot harder time
walking around.

The fact that she had
to start using scooters,

that's not the Kass I knew.

She had like a little bit like
some respiratory issues.

My last text exchange
with her was

the last night,
the night before.

She had asked me if she can
send clothes to my house

and I had told her on June 26th,
"Yeah, that's fine.

Use my address.
Send your clothes to my house."

And I woke up June 27th

to a text message.

"Kass passed away."

I asked, "Is it real?"

Like, "Is she really gone?"

She, like, went through
so much in the house together.

I wholeheartedly believe,

had it not been for Stefan,

had it not been for Pearadise,

Kass would be alive today.