All language subtitles for Alone Australia S4 Ep6 - Episode 6.en

Oh, feels good.
Jesus, I've got a fish.

Oh, no, he got off.

You little bastard!

I officially have no food left.

I'm just really, really rattled.

Bastard.

Fucking hate this place!

I'm feeling pretty good.

Whoo-hoo-hoo!

Have a look at this.

Things can change so quickly.

I haven't done a poo now for 15 days.

Oh, yeah, this could be a problem.

There's a net.

Holy shit, that's a fish.

I could use that as bait.

That is game-changing.

Exciting!

The hunger is kicking in.

Maggots everywhere on this.

Ohh!

I really feel like giving up.

I'm okay.

Still no fish.

I'm hangry and I'm desperate.

But I'll do anything
to win this thing.

If I had the chance, I would just
take all these communication things,

I would just throw it in the lake.

Hello?

Arash? It's the doc.

Med checks.

His sat phone's here.

All his safety equipment's here.

Where is he?

He's gone.

This hasn't happened before.

Spread out and comb the area.

Arash?

- Arash?!
- Arash?

Arash?!

Arash?!

Arash, mate, med checks.

Arash?

He's missing.

Arash?

Hello?

Arash?

(INDISTINCT RADIO CHATTER)

No sightings to the west.
No sightings.

Arash!

Have we checked the shoreline?

We checked. He's not here.

He's definitely not here.

He's actually gone.

To walk away like this, it hurts...

..but I guess the only person
that I can blame is myself.

It's very hard to accept, to survive
so many things in real life,

and to come and grab a beautiful,
great opportunity like this,

and make a blunder.

Because I grew up in a war zone,

and I crossed seven countries
with no document.

I've lost in the sea,
slept in the jungle, and...

I think this experience
activated a survival mode

that I know the best.

And when I get on that mode,
rules do not matter.

I rely on myself.

All I was thinking
is just to survive.

But I guess I made a mistake, and
I take full responsibility for it.

That will stay with me
for the rest of my life.

Look at this.

It's really stiff.

See these crinkles?

You have to push them out.

It's icy.

It's a stiff blueberry sack.

Crazy.

A very clear seasonal change
the last two mornings,

and this morning especially.

It's frosty as.

Going into new terrain.

It's pretty exciting.

Med checks.

They're here.

Hey, Jasper, I'm Rich.

Let's start off,
we'll do jacket and gloves off.

Yeah.

We'll do your pulse
and your oxygen levels,

and then we'll do
your blood pressure, alright?

Yeah, sure.

I've been doing really well so far.

I've got cambium, berries, mushrooms.

It's really not a terrible diet,
but I am running out of time.

As soon as it snows, my diet options
just shrink drastically.

At the moment,
you're medically okay to continue.

You're not really having any symptoms
of weight loss, which is great.

But at some point, as it's getting
colder and colder now,

you're going to need to increase
your calorie intake.

How's your eating been?

Eating?

Lots of dreams about eating.

Plenty of berries still.

So I have two or three cups
of berries a day.

Mm-hm.

And my reindeer skin,
I've started chewing on that.

- That's been really good, actually.
- Mm-hm. Mm-hm.

I'm so hungry, I feel sick.

Oh, don't tell me that's a med check.

Morning, morning.

Morning, Dougy.

I've only got the one health concern,
and that's my weight.

I've got baits in the water,
I've got my net,

fishing morning, noon and night,

and just nothing.

Everything's moved
into the deeper water.

And I don't blame it,
it's bloody freezing.

How are your hands and feet,

as temperatures are starting
to drop now?

They're fine.

Yeah, I know how to manage it.

So any numbness or tingling
in the hands and feet?

Just when I'm cold, but now I just
warm them up and swap socks and

shoes and all that.

Keeping the feet really dry?

Yeah.

That's great.

Just keep a really close eye.

You probably do this already, but
in the evening, check them for any

signs of whiteness, redness, numbness
or tingling that goes on once

you've warmed up
back in the sleeping bag.

There is a risk now of a cold injury
in the kind of environment we're in.

Just keep an eye on it.

Yes.

Medically, you're okay for now.

We'll see you for the next med check.

Yes, thank you.

We're late afternoon now.

Still ice on the ground.

That has not been
like that since we got here.

So the cold weather,

she's bloody coming.

She's coming.

Don't worry about that.

I'm reasonably
happy with where I'm at.

And I've caught a few fish.

Caught a lot of fish.

So I haven't really
gone without food.

I feel like I'm travelling alright.

How's your health been?

Yeah, good.
I've been eating every day.

Any issues at all
that spring to mind since...?

No. No.

Only, I haven't been to the toilet.

How long has that been?

It's been two weeks now.

Two weeks.

What I would like to do

is just have a feel of your tummy
while you're kind of flat.

Lying flat.

I don't know if it's dry enough.

If it's dry enough here
and you don't mind.

Okay.

Just nice and relaxed.

Hands down by your sides.

I know it's a bit uncomfortable.

I'm just going to press
a little bit deeper.

Yeah.

If you start getting
really bad tummy pain...

Yeah.

..throwing up without any reason,

or just generally
not passing any wind at all...

- Yeah.
- ..or feeling unwell,

you need to get in touch
with us and let us know.

Yeah, okay.

Hopefully I can sort that out.

Bloody oath.

That's really starting
to stress me out a bit now.

If he comes back next time
and I still haven't had a shit,

I'm in all sorts,

I reckon.

I've come home from berry picking
to visitors.

Hey, Dylan.

How are you doing?

Yeah, good, thanks.

Here to do your med check again.

Where's good? Outside?

Good to go outside?

Outside, yeah. Inside's a mess.

I'm making a fireplace.

- There's no room.
- I know.

If we do your weight now.

I'm only concerned about
how much weight I'm losing.

I built this massive
freaking shelter.

And it's been using a lot of energy.

Just hope the amount of berries
I've been eating have been enough to

keep my weight up
while I've made this hut.

You have a seat.

I'm just going to go and have a chat
about your health in general with

the team and I'll come back and
have another chat to you afterwards.

(WHISPERING INDISTINCTLY)

You are starting to lose
quite a lot of weight now.

Medically, your vital signs are okay.

But if that kind of velocity and
weight loss carries on,

you'll get to a point
where you start to get dizziness,

tiredness,
not being able to continue.

So we need to get some fat
and protein to try and sort of arrest

that decline in your weight.

Yeah.

I will see you in the next check.

- Good to see you.
- Thank you.

There they go.

I don't want my weight
to take me out of the game.

I really, really,
really want to stay out here.

I need to try and get
that net in the water.

I need to set more lines.

I need to fish, fish, fish, guys.

I haven't had much luck yet,
but I've got to keep trying.

All right, let's do this.

I'm putting the net back to a similar
place of where I found it because

when I found it,
there were fish there.

So I know that's where the fish go.

And that's the best I have right now.

If there's nothing in it
after a few days, we'll go deeper.

OK.

Let the float end out.

It's cold, guys.

That rain is coming down like ice.

Oh, it's coming onto me
and then freezing.

I can imagine
you can just think about

how cold my hands are doing this.

It is uncomfortable.

That's well set.

It's not the most massive length
of net,

but it's absolutely better
than nothing, guys.

That's hot.

Die down, you bugger.

Day 27, and I've just been outside
there, and it's freezing cold.

This is making us laugh.

Poking the fire with this.

It's really good.
It's a really good fire poker.

You know, you just want to get stuff
just, like, just around a bit.

You know, bring the embers
in the middle and put some stuff in.

It's a mighty piece, isn't it?

Look at this.

Us Geordies aren't blessed
with big willies,

but we do have
huge amounts of pubic hair.

Oh, yeah.

Oh.

Right.

We are off officially fishing.

It is bitter cold,
but I don't give a toss,

because I need to catch fish.

I need to get out on this lake,
and that's what I'm doing.

There's my kayak.

It's the one thing
that's got me worried.

This whole thing is ice.

Look.

And my entire kayak is ice.

Is it going to split?

Is it going to crack
when I sit on it in the water?

Because it's just plastic.

I don't know.

Just going to gamble.

Yeah,
it's kind of top-heavy like that.

You've got to walk.

Jesus.

Dangerous.

You fall in there, you're fucked.

Oh, God.

Oh.

And we're off.

Net first.

Net first, then fishing.

Energy, energy, energy is zero.

And I'm paddling 300 meters
with one oar in a homemade kayak,

made by a sparky.

Whoa!

Jesus.

It's so tippy.

Right now, I'm going
through a bit of a body shock.

Massive hunger.

I've never felt anything like it.

Your stomach and your intestines
are just like shrinking and feel like

they're just fucking hurting.

The worry is it's going to have
any permanent damage, you know?

So this net has been soaking
for four days in the water.

Here's the net.

Just don't lean.

Don't lean.

Just get your arm over
and just grab it.

Right, that's it.

In you get.

The whole thing's
coming in like this.

Fuck me.

Nothing in the net.
Nothing in the net.

This lake is just fucked.

What am I supposed to do, you know?

I've done everything right, you know.

I haven't gave in.

I just keep trying.

I just keep fishing.

And then the fish have just stopped
feeding

and I just can't figure out why.

They're just lying dormant there
until the ice comes?

I don't know.

Oh, come on, rain, go home.

Fucking hell.

See the problem I've got here?

Just everything's against you.

Raining, cold, no fish in the net.

Right now, it just feels hopeless.

Oh, my God, fuck you!

The rain is actually
running down my pants into my boots.

It's just so hard doing this here.

Fucking hell.

I'm going to go back in and get dry.

I'm too wet and cold.

I'm freezing.

I can't feel my fingers.

I can't feel my hands.

I can't feel my feet.

That was a miserable experience
if I've ever had one.

Nothing.

What more can I do?

I don't know how long it's going
to take for this lake to freeze,

but I don't know
how much longer my body's got.

Give me a look at that.

Looks like a bloke
that hasn't shit for 14 days.

That's what it looks like.

Bloody clown.

Right, fish time.

Doesn't look like much food.

I've got a frame.

Looks like a grayling.

And I've got a whole perch.

It's just dried fish, not fresh fish.

So, Stella,
I'm having a feast for you, darling.

Move that out of the way.

The main promise that I've made
for this challenge is to not quit

because you miss your family.

But yeah, it's definitely been a day
where I've probably felt like I

want to be at home, especially
for my daughter's birthday.

I know there's a lot of people
out there saying, "Mate, get over it.

"You're on Alone, you're in Finland,
jeez, what else do you want?"

But I don't know.

Just how I feel.

Big 9th birthday.

You know, I want to be there when she
wakes up and when she goes to bed.

I want to spend
the whole day with her.

She's a wonderful kid.

She always writes me letters, but,
you know, she wrote me a good letter

for this trip away, which really
choked me up a bit, to be honest.

"Dear Dad, I'm going to miss you
so much, and the truth is I was

"actually crying a bit
when I wrote this.

"You are the best dad in the world.

"And when you're away, I'll be
thinking about you every day."

Makes me a bit upset
reading this letter.

I can tell.

Even the week before coming away,
she's like,

"Oh, Dad, can you just lay with me
in bed

"and just cuddle me
until I go to sleep?"

You know,
I don't ever want that to change.

I know it will, obviously, but, jeez.

She adores her dad.

And I adore her.

I'm not an emotional guy at all.

Like, if anything, I'm probably
a bit hard on the outside.

But when it comes to the kids,
I'm generally a bit softer.

And today's a hard day.

And this is my feast, Stella.

Dried perch and grayling.

I'm pretty comfortable at the moment.

Like, I'm travelling pretty good.

Not too bad.

This is more mentally for me.

That could bring you undone.

How long this is going to go for?

Is it going to go 100 days?

Am I prepared if it does?

Don't want to look at this.

I bloody miss 'em.

All right.

Not sure.

You can see that this lake
is actually frozen.

Oh, it's thick!

It's really thick.

Look.

Ahh!

Ahh!

Since I've got no blueberries
to pick, maybe we can eat some ice.

(LAUGHS)

My hands are cold.

I think I need to go back
to the shelter and stay warm.

That cheered me up a bit,
to be honest.

I don't know what day it is.

Could be a Friday.

Could be a Saturday.

What are you up to, Sia?

Making a fire.

What's for dinner, Sia?

We might make pad thai now.

(LAUGHS)

We might have pad thai.

Temperature dropping.

I definitely have to keep an eye
on my frostbite on my toe.

Keep like a pair of socks inside
my jacket, so as soon as I feel

like my feet are really cold,
I either warm up in the fire...

..but just bring out that warm socks
I've got inside my pocket

and then swapping them around.

That's what I've been doing.

I got frostbite during one
of the races I did in the Arctic.

Five days race, 230km, and you're
running on snowshoes and you run on

frozen lakes and Arctic tundra
and the mountains.

The coldest temperature we had
was minus 35 in the wind.

And it was so extreme.

So extreme.

I got stuck in a snowstorm as well

and the snow was up to my hips

and I was really scared
because I thought to myself,

I was going to tap out.

I was going to tap out,
I was going to give up.

But I finished that race.

What happened there made me realise
that when you push your body to the

extreme, something really deep
within us, it comes out.

Just right here, right now,
survival is the same.

This weather,
you have to keep moving.

You have to keep moving
because it's cold.

I've got my fantastic net.

Where do we begin?

You know when you run those extreme
races, you spend so many hours,

thousands of hours,
inside your own mind.

You go into a really dark,
dark place.

Ultra marathon runners,
we call it pain cave.

I'm so hungry.

Pain cave is where we hit the wall,
we sit in the darkness and all

the demons and darkness
come into our cave.

I just want to catch a fish.

And we just have to learn
to be okay with it and sit in it

and accepting being uncomfortable.

I think I fixed it.

And once we have dealt with all
our darkness and demons, we get the

chance to get out of that cave
and move forward.

I don't want to tangle anything.

It's all about pushing, isn't it?

There's no mushrooms,
there's no berries.

Let's do this, let's do this.

But I'm a runner.

I know hard work, I know hardship.

And I just don't know how to give up.

Bird's laughing at me.

It's like, "Look at that loser.

"Look what she's up to.
Hey, what a loser.

"Look at her.

"Soaking wet, getting no fish."

Whoo!

Chimney.

That'll go up that way.

Okay,
that's a good spot to work with.

I can do this.

After the med check yesterday, the
doctor said that I can't keep losing

weight with that same velocity.

But it's getting colder,
it's going to keep getting colder.

So it's important that I get this
fireplace done

because I need to be
able to get warm.

I need to be able to boil water
whenever I need.

And that is a priority for me.

Yeah, pile of mud to work with.

And I'll select some rocks.

This clay is not
for structural purposes.

It's just to make sure
the smoke goes up the chimney

and not out the sides of it.

My dad was a bricklayer
since before I was born.

He'd take me along to the building
sites and I'd just hang out there

all day just watching him
and the other fellas build.

I loved it.

I don't know if he knows
how important it is to me.

I don't think I've ever told him.

I'm absolutely not a tradie.

And I'm just making this up as I go,
best I can.

I hope he's maybe a bit proud
of what I'm doing.

I don't get to see him
as much as I really would like to.

The loneliness makes you crave
that connection again.

I realise that I spend
so much of my time working.

And, you know, we've got to
at the moment

because we need the money for IVF,

but I really want deeper connections
with my friends and family, hey.

It just really drives it home
out here.

Oh, man.

I honestly don't know how much longer
I'll be out here,

but I've got to win this thing
because we need the money.

The week before I came out here,

we found out that it's going to be
really expensive

for Gem and I to try again.

We are a rare genetic mismatch.

Just got to take
organ transplant medication,

immune therapy medication,

go over the top
with all the hormones.

The emotional toll's hard enough.

Financial, it's just crazy.

So I've got to keep going,
get that done.

As soon as we've got that,
it's family time.

There we go,
a little tiny hole at the back,

just in case
the wind's changing directions.

Now I've just got to wrap it up
and hope it works.

All right, guys, pray for me.

What are you guys seeing outside?

Is it going up?

What are you guys seeing outside?

I want to see.

Oh, there's smoke coming out.

There's smoke coming out.

I made a chimney.

Shit, yeah.

Fuck, yeah.

Yeah!

Fuck, yeah.

Yeah, what's up?

I made a dope-ass fireplace,
that's what's up.

Oh, I'm so happy about that.

That's a good thing.

My little cabin's coming together,
guys.

It's going to keep me warm.

And maybe help me stay here
long enough to win.

But I need to get
some fat and protein.

I need some fish.

Fish.

Fish, come here.

I have a hook for you.

With a bit of foot callus on it.

Just come over later this evening
or tomorrow morning.

Got to let them know.

You have to let them know.

I can definitely put
more fishing effort in.

But, man, fishing,
it was hard before.

And now when it's cold,
everything's just slowed down.

The bugs are gone.

I haven't seen any activity at all.

So today, I'm going to go
and pick some reindeer lichen.

And then I can have an additional
food in my pot,

which is pretty exciting.

See you when I'm back.

It's a good source of carbohydrates,
which is not fat, but your body

can convert it to fat.

Might hold off the skinny for a bit,
you know.

Who knows how well I've been doing at
foraging compared to everyone else.

Harvested the whole friggin' valley
pretty successfully.

Going to try and get as much
mushrooms as I possibly can,

because they won't be here forever.

That's my bag of mushrooms.

I don't know if anyone's ever

credited a lone success
to the majority of mushrooms,

but I might be that guy.

I want something more than mushrooms
in my diet, so I'm going to try out

harvesting a bit of pine cambium.

Check that pot of food out.

Oh, yeah, some good berries.

Check it out.

Food getting stored, early days.

135 handfuls of berries, that is,

I've just sorted through.

Let's just see if I can find a place
where lichen is the happiest.

I think it's kind of everywhere.

It's pretty good here.

I'll just go wherever.

# And I will stay as long
as I can go

# My body and my mind

# So I'll eat it up

# All the lichen

# In the whole damn place

# The reindeers be like,
"Now I gotta go somewhere else"

# And I'm like, "Sorry, ma'am

# "Doing what I can

# "To live in this land." #

Ah, good haul of lichen.

Not too bad.

Right, time to get in the shelter.

Cook up some food,
call that a day, I reckon.

Looks like wind and rain coming.

It's going to get real cold.

It'll be a hard time.

I've never even seen snow,
let alone lived in it.

I'll show you what I got.

Reindeer lichen, the other one.

And then chunks of mushroom in there,
too.

Big black ones.

Good stuff.

All right.

Reindeer lichen
has a sort of bitter taste to it.

It's quite nice.

I should have been eating
reindeer lichen from day one.

Great.

They call reindeer lichen
'Sapmi spaghetti'.

(BURPS)

Holy shit.

It's friggin' snowing!

There's ice falling on me.

God!

Holy crap, this is so cool.

Oh, wow, it's beautiful.

It's snowing! It's snowing!

Whoo-hoo!

Whoo!

Ha ha!

Oh, man.

The things that happen to me.

Boy from Margaret River.

Just hanging out in Sapmi snow.

Wow.

Well, well, well.

Hasn't the game just changed?

Oh, this is awesome.

I can't believe
how quick it came down.

(LAUGHS) Boom.

I wonder what it's going
to be like tomorrow morning.

I'd better find some of my stuff
and make sure it's not going to get

buried under the snow
or I'll never find it.

Day 27.

Shit's getting real.

Oh, it's so beautiful.

It's so much nicer than rain.

But yeah, it's cold.

I've been camping and hiking
in the snow before

and all that sort of stuff.

I've worked in some really cold
conditions,

but trying to survive in
another country in the Arctic Circle

when it's snowing -
that's a different story.

Oh, wow.

Going to need gloves.
Going to need gloves.

This whole place
is going to change now.

Well, it's starting to settle now.

Termination dust,
as they call it in Alaska.

Termination of the summer.

First snow.

Not really prepared for that yet.

The door's not finished.

Could have waited another day.

Looks like things are changing.

Hopefully changing for the better.

I want this lake to freeze
so I can get out fishing.

Ice fishing.

Alone, season four - the Arctic.

Ha ha!

It's on like Donkey Kong.

The ground is so frozen.

Have a look.

Oh, wow.

You guys see this?

Look at this.

The lake has started freezing.

It's officially started freezing.

One day.

This is crazy.

(QUACKING)

The birds.

Hear that? The geese.

They're thinking,
"Stuff that. We're out of here."

The next 27 days are going to be
a lot harder than the first 27,

that's for sure.

Everything.

Being out in the bush, surviving,
and obviously the emotional side.

Being away from my family.

It's going to get harder and harder.

Look at the ice forming
around that line that's in the water.

It's pulling it really tight, so
I think I'd better pull that one out.

Once the lake starts to freeze
and it's frozen around the outside,

you can't put your lines in

because they'll just freeze in
and they'll snap

and then you've got no fishing gear
left.

Oh, jeez, she's frozen.

But yet, the lake
isn't frozen enough to fish on,

so it's that in-between stage
where you can't do anything.

Starting to ice up.

You can't fish, you can't spearfish,

you can't walk out on the ice,
you can't do anything.

That's the stage that's hard.

None of these lines are tight.

They wouldn't be liking this
because it's real cold water.

The baits haven't even been touched,

so I can't see the sense
in leaving lines in here.

Pulling the plug.

Alright, that's him.

Hey,
it was good while it lasted here.

Thank you, area,

for what you've kindly provided me
while I've been here.

Things are changing.

It'll be interesting to see
what the next 10, 20 days brings.

The end of an era.

Well, the remnants of last night's
snow is still here, frozen solid.

But look at the day.

Crystal clear sky.

If it stays like this all day,

tonight is going to be the mother
of all nights.

It's going to be bloody freezing.

So, we need to get our A into G quick
and get this door finished

and get some heat sealed
in our shelter,

otherwise we're going to die of cold
in the night.

Door is top priority.

Eh?

Right, let's get into it.

Oh.

Yes, I know I've got bugger all
to eat.

I've got nothing to eat.

But as it gets colder and the nights
get longer and longer and longer

and it gets snowy and icy
and everything else,

I'm going to be burning
a lot of calories.

Would you like to go on my door?

Yes, I would.

And if you're not prepared,
life's going to be a bloody misery.

So, we're going to have to lock
some heat in here.

Oh, it's not looking
too bad from this angle.

A little bit rustic.

But it suits the whole...
the whole thing, doesn't it?

You know, whenever I'm building
on the farm, or when the kids used to

be at home, we used to always
try to involve them a bit.

Kids love that sort of stuff,
you know, pottering around.

They might just be sawing a bit
of wood or banging a few nails in

or whatever it might be,
but they love to get involved.

But now they've left home,
of course, so, they're on their own.

It's a funny old thing.

In the younger years or early teens,
you just sort of think,

"Jeez, I'm looking forward to when
these little buggers leave home.

"I'll have some peace and quiet."

And when they finally go,
it's like, "Oh, shit.

"What do I do now?"

You know, you miss them.
You can't help but miss them.

Yeah.

They leave a big hole in your life.

And I'm still trying to figure out
how to fill that.

You know?

You can't help but think,
"Well, what's next?"

You know?

It's been 20 years
bringing the kids up.

They leave home,
go and do their own thing.

What do you do next?

Those years certainly go fast.

It's incredible.

It just flies by.

I know it's hard when they leave
home, that kind of thing,

but sometimes change in life,
I think,

gives you a new direction,
a new purpose.

I'm not sure what's in store
for me yet,

but hopefully a bit more adventure

and probably not so much
on my own.

It's quite neat to have a bit
of company, my wife and I, and kids.

I've done in my years solo.

I think that's going
to be pretty bloody good.

It's going to be a cold one tonight.

Wow!

Snow last night.

And it is beautiful.

I love snow.

Love snow.

Snow makes me happy.

I'm going to be enjoying
the snow today.

Woke up this morning.

Felt great.

Went for a walk.

I could feel one of my toes
felt funny.

Not the existing frostbite one,
another one on a different foot.

And I'm feeling the other toe
as well.

My big toe is tingling.

And it's red.

Yep.

Two on each foot...

I don't wanna go...

Not ready.

(LINE RINGS)

Hello, Sia. You OK?

I have frost nip on my other toe.

Hello, Sia.

Hi.

Do you mind coming to sit a little
bit this way so I can take

a look at your toe?

OK.

This was the one that was the worst?

Yeah.

Can you feel that now?

No.

This one?

No.

Here?

Start to lose a bit,
losing feeling there.

Mm-hm. And this one is...?

- No.
- Mm-hm.

There is definitely
some cold injury to your toes.

I am pretty worried about frostbite.

I would like to now put them
in warm water and see how they react.

And if they recover, this feeling
of numbness is reversible.

And then we'll make a decision

after we've kept your feet
in warm water for a bit of time.

Yep.

- Is it too hot?
- No.

How are they feeling now?

- I just don't have any feeling.
- Mm-hm.

This one you said?

- No.
- Nothing?

At this point,
I am very worried about your toes.

And I could buy you one more night.

But the risk is very high
if the toes freeze again overnight.

Because if they refreeze,

there is for sure
going to be permanent damage.

Well...

I know what the outcome is.

You know, like, I just know
frostbite creeps up really easily.

With the temperature dropping,
all I have to do is just managing it,

managing it,

I wouldn't get anything done here.

I would take out all this experience
I came out here for.

I'd rather go today
than push it for one more night

and have a permanent injury.

Yeah. I'll call it a day.

I'll call it a day.

That's it.

I'm ready.

It is what it is.

Yeah, I'll dry my feet.

Being an ultra-marathon runner,

I'm just so used to push through
the pain.

For each challenge,
I always get broken.

But when you get broken, you get
to rebuild a new version of you.

A stronger version of you.

I am definitely changed
after 28 days.

I really hope that my time here
have inspired people,

especially women that look like me,

to live the life that they want

and to show the world

what Southeastern Asian women
are capable of.

How strong and resilient we are.

Oh, my.

Kayak looks a little cold.

Today, it's going to be about fish.

The lake hasn't frozen over yet,
so I'm going to check the lines,

put some more bait out, and pray
a fish finds any of it interesting.

All right.

Oh, my God.

This is such a beautiful day.

Right now, I'm fishing on a lake
in the Arctic on a sunny day

after a snowy day.

Grateful for that.

See if anything's in our net.

Hopefully.

And, boy,
it's covered in snow and ice.

Holy fuck.

Is that a fish?

(GASPS)

Oh, my God.

Yeah!

Whoo!

I got a fish!

Oh, my God. It's real.

I got a fish.

Ahhhhh!

Oh, yes!

Yes!

Oh! Oh!

We're eating fish tonight.

Yeah!

Shit, yeah.
We're having fish for dinner.

Oh, thank you, lake.

Holy fuck.

There's another fish.

Two fish!

Holy...

Oh, my God, guys.

I am over the moon.

I'm ecstatic.

It took me this long
to catch some fish.

You guys are probably thinking
I'm the worst fucking fisherman ever.

I got two fish now, guys.

I got two fish.

This is important for me.

I might have a chance
of making it all the way through.

Oh, wow.

Wow, wow, wow, wow, wow!

Wow.
The temperature has dropped a heap.

Have a look at this.

Condensation.

I need to dry this shelter out.

It's wet. It's very wet.

There's a light. (COUGHS)

Shit.

My shelter is just full of smoke.

(COUGHING)

Ah!

Jesus!

That could literally end me.

Guess what?

Washed up on the beach
was a handful of fish guts.

I haven't had any protein
for a month,

so my mouth is watering
as I think about it.

All right, let's gut some fish.

This is important for me.

Cheers.

You feel like you can go the distance
when you've caught a fish.

Oh, that is good.

Hope there's not another month
until my next fish.

Oh, shit. Oh, shit.

I've got no food to stoke the boiler.

I've been having
massive dizzy spells.

Oh, my God.

I'm going dizzy. Oh, my God.

Ooh! Jesus Christ.

Oh, man, this is not good.