All language subtitles for Alone S02E04 Hungers Grip

Something as stupid as cutting myself
with an ax took me out of this

unbelievable experience of a lifetime.

That's the catch of the day. Some kind
of gnarly looking seaweed.

If I don't start catching fish soon, I'm
gone.

Oh, it's a bear.

All right, bear, you stay over there.
Please stay away from my camera. Thank

you. They don't call this alone for no
reason.

It's like a whining and a really deep
sniffing right here at the back of my

head. Get on out of here!

Who are you when everything's been
stripped away?

You're out here in these woods.

I have not had a serious meal in a week.
I can't get a player, and I can't stay

here. It's always in the back of your
mind. Well, I can tap out.

Putting up with a filming booth?

We're running into a predator. It's not
an if, it's a when.

Get the hell out of here. I see you. Get
out of here.

I'm living a hand-to-mouth existence.

Yes!

$500,000 is a lot of money. It's just
going to keep getting harder.

It's not the world that needs to change.
It's me that needs to change.

Get the hell out of here. I see you.

Get out of here!

Go on, get!

Oh, man.

That is a cub.

I couldn't figure out what in the hell
it was. I've never heard noise like that

come from an animal.

Turned out it wasn't one animal, it was
two.

It was mama and a cub.

The mama was making the huffing noise
and the baby was making the neighing

noise.

The baby is okay.

God.

Oh.

Now this just brought back the rage
monster that I had. I hate that part of

me. I can't stand that part of me.

Being good at violence is not good.

And it kills me that that's exactly what
the hell I reverted back to here

tonight.

I hate to do it, but I'm going to tap.

It's just starting to feel peaceful
here, you know?

That quietness, you know?

Hi, Tracy.

Hey. How you doing? I'm rattled, I'm not
gonna lie.

When I saw the little bear, it was just
this feeling of remorse hit me for being

so aggressive over it.

Because that's the way I've always been.
I've just been uber aggressive.

And I just felt really bad.

My heart aches for tapping because I
feel like I quit and I don't quit stuff.

I feel like I'm leaving a little bit
undone.

It's just that I know that I don't want
to be in physical confrontations anymore

in my life.

That part of my life is gone, and it's
over. I can't do it.

Mother Nature's going to bring
everything out, and maybe this is her

way of telling me it's my time to go
back. I don't know.

As they say, one hell of an amen.

Last night, well, I suppose about
midnight, I was sound asleep

and dreaming.

I don't know what I was dreaming about,
most likely Barbara.

But I felt her kiss me.

And so I kissed her back.

Then I woke up.

And a slug was crawling across my lips.

And I kissed a slug in the middle of the
night thinking it was Barbara.

That's nasty.

And I hope that didn't scar you for
life.

Got myself all fed.

I had fish because of the gill net.

I've got plans for my shelter.

And I can't wait to get on them.

You know, I want to build the drying
rack over the fire.

Everything is so super wet, firewood
won't burn.

It'll just be a matter of driving in
four stakes and then tying two

poles to that.

And then the racks crossed it.

and just have it all above the fire.

So on long rainy days, I can be busy
drying out wood like this.

So I've got the basic three piles going
here.

The bigger wood sticks about that thick
and then

sticks not quite as thick.

And then much skinnier, thinner sticks.

That's just me. I'm a neat freak.

I just like everything orderly. I like
to know where stuff is, and I don't want

stuff in the way.

And if it's all disorderly, then I don't
feel at peace or at rest with it and

don't know why I'm that way. Perhaps it
was being in the orphanage and having so

few things and wanting them just so-so.

My mind needs to stay busy.

This morning laying in bed, I started
thinking about tacos.

Oh my goodness, tacos.

And that's the two things I've missed
the most, fried chicken and tacos.

I get thinking about this bucket of
chicken, and I just can't stop thinking

about it.

Yes, I'll have four original recipe
thighs, the potato wedges,

and a big old Coke. Oh, yeah.

When you're this hungry, food like that
grabs a hold of your brain. It just

doesn't let you go.

Starvation really does get to you.

And I am starving.

A lack of food has really put me at a
low burn. I just don't have the energy

to do anything.

I'm just numb with hunger.

I haven't eaten in what days? I haven't
even been counting.

It's terrible.

I've got to pack my gill net.

Disappointing. Nothing.

Just a big, hollow, sucking sound from
my mouth.

It mocks me.

I'm not really impressed with that gill
net.

The mesh size on it seems very small.

Fish would just bounce off that net.

If I can't get fish, I'm not gonna make
it.

It's day 276.

I've learned how to communicate with the
animals.

So, yeah, I'm going to take a walk,
check my net. I know there's not going

to be anything in it, but I'm going to
check it anyway.

Already my stomach's growling.

I'm really hungry.

Getting stuff from the water is going to
be tasking because the fish aren't just

running up and jumping in your arms out
there.

We

got

a fish.

We got a fish.

Oh, you're an ugly b****, aren't you?

Ah, so the net actually worked.

I brought hammock.

Transition from using the hammock as a
hammock to a gill net.

Anything that I use for survival
situations, I try to have at least two

uses for it. And it is the military type
mentality of survival.

No idea what kind of fish that is.

So we need to cook him up pronto.

I know there's people out there laughing
at how I'm

belaying this fish.

This is definitely not my strong suit.

And in case any of you are wondering,
like, does this dude only bring shorts?

No, I have pants.

Just like wearing shorts.

My legs and my feet don't get
necessarily as cold as the rest of my

body.

Quite a bit of meat there. I'd say
probably 30, 40 grams of protein and all

the fats and fish oil.

I'm going to go over, try to get a fire
started so we can cook this fish.

Not a bad first meal from the sea.

About done.

that I cut my drying rack over the fire
itself.

I'm going to build an elevated platform
for my kitchen fire.

I'm kind of tired of sitting on the
ground.

I'm going to build it up, I don't know,
maybe three feet.

And then I can just work with my fire.

I love these little kinds of projects.

They gave me something to do to keep my
mind occupied so I can make it for the

long haul.

I'm looking at this for a full year.

All right, so I got the four poles
driven in.

Now I'm lashing the cross pieces that
will support the plank upon which I

will put gravel and a rock and build the
fire.

My uncle was big time into outdoor
bushcraft and survival skills, and he

turned me on to it.

And I'm very thankful for it.

I got my bucket of gravel just from the
beach here for cooking.

So it'll withstand heat for quite a
while.

That's my stove top.

It's a one burner.

That's all I need though.

Very nice.

Very nice indeed.

I feel like charmed or something because
everything is just going so well.

All right, I'll finish, and I'm ready to
wash up.

I built a hands-free, foot-operated,
gravity-flow water

faucet out of a gallon jug and some
cord.

I tied this stick to the tree, and then
I tied the one-gallon bottle that

washed up here on the beach right here
to the stick.

Then I tied this longer stick here
around the bottle, and I extended it

that far so that the line would come up
and over and then down

to the pedal.

You just step on this lever down here.

It'll tip it up, and then the water
flows out, and I can wash my hands.

It's not pretty, but it gives me running
water hands-free.

You know, the projects keep me busy
throughout the day, and so time just

flies by because of that. And so I'll
need to keep thinking of projects in

order to maintain that feeling out here.

Yeah, so I got my fireplace, my drying
rack over the fireplace, my kitchen over

there.

And, you know, my water is simple. I
don't have to work for it. Just simply

walk over there and fill up my
containers.

So right on.

I have achieved modernity here.

I

just

need Barbara.

Protein, man, I just, I'm still
perplexed about the whole fishing deal.

I'm not Lucas. I'm not going to make a
canoe.

I'm not going to make a yurt.

I'm not Alan. I can't eat just whatever
freaking crawls by.

I just, I am what I am, you know. I'm
trying the things that I know how to do,

and that's all I can do.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do for
protein. It's kind of perplexing.

I set up my gill net.

and my fishing line, but they haven't
given me anything.

It's like everything else in this place.
Nothing comes easy.

Nothing comes easy.

Today, I want to make a spear of some
sort, just in case I do see something

while I'm climbing along these rocks at
low tide. I'm not just, oh, hey, there's

something. Too bad I didn't have a
spear.

Hard on your forearms.

And I'm not very good with my right
hand.

Survival here is not easy.

It's work.

It's just everything takes time.

There's just never enough time in the
day. If I got proper rest, proper food,

you know, maybe it wouldn't be that big
a deal. But I think it would be. This

terrain is insane.

This spear shouldn't be this hard.

Only in this freaking place is a spear
like this this hard.

Oh, my God.

So I split it down the middle. Then I
just start taking sections off like

slices of the pie.

I'm just going to

shove these.

down inside these little slots.

But you've got to force it down in here.

There's one.

I'll do another one.

The object is just to spread these
fingers out as much as possible.

So you can see it's starting to spread
out a little bit.

God, I wish I'd get a fish.

Freaking starting to get hungry.

Like, really hungry.

Like, that's all I can think about is
food hungry.

I've never been this hungry ever.

Done.

Now I've got a spear point for when the
mammoth comes.

And then I have more of a shotgun
approach, or if I ever see a fish or a

crab that's big enough to utilize the
spear for.

And all the while I'm doing these
projects, my mind is just racing.

I don't know, man, I just, I'm doing the
best I can, and sometimes it's just not

good enough.

I've got to solve the food problem. I've
got to learn how to pick here.

I'm missing substantial calories.

I could be drinking a beer and having a
burger in about two hours.

Well, I'm going to check my gill net,
but the bears are here.

I definitely want to give these bears
their space.

Kind of shocked at how little I'm
getting done, to be quite honest.

I had envisioned being farther along in
the process than this.

I've got to solve the food problem. I've
got to learn how to fish here.

I'm going to make another gill net.

That should produce fish.

Thinking about said dump cross there.

Once I get it built, get two nets
working for me.

In my opinion, the gill net is probably
the number one food producer out here.

And I could only take one gill net.

Nothing says you can't make a second
one.

That's what I'm going to do.

Probably my best find so far on this
beach has been rope.

I have to kind of take it apart to get
the inner strands of it.

In order to make my gill net, I have to
have a large volume of fine thread.

So this is the exciting world of
wilderness survival.

A guy sitting in a beautiful forest
playing with old rope.

Mic check.

Microphone. Microphone. Yeah, I got a
microphone. Good.

The net needle I made out of cedar.

I carved that a couple days ago.

The first step of the process is to tie
a series of loops all the way down the

net. And then I'm going to come back and
start netting to them.

Back and forth, switching sides on the
net. Back and forth, just going and

going.

To tie the knots, you have to pass the
entire ball of string through the loops.

And that's what the net needle is all
about. It holds all the string you're

working with and allows you to pass the
giant coil of string through the knot.

Tired, underfed, and dehydrated.

Making net.

I need to eat food.

Now, this is going to be an ugly gill
net, and it will probably only catch

ugly fish.

But that's okay.

Okay.

Empty net needle.

Now, I just got to refill it and keep
going.

It's a long process.

Had so many high hopes.

I'm doing so many cool things.

I just feel like I'm just treading
water.

Oh, my God.

I got something in my gill net, and
rather than wait till tonight to get it,

I'm hoping I can race and beat the tide
and get it right now.

Oh, my God. I'm so thankful. I had no
idea.

Ty's coming in fast.

Okay. I get to have a good meal.

I'll probably fillet him up.

It's a little baby fish.

Oh, and I let him go.

I should have waited until freaking low
tide. Damn it.

He squeezed right through there.

Damn it.

I better get out of here before the tide
gets me.

The aloneness and the hunger kind of
compound to make it way more difficult.

Right now, it's the freaking hunger,
man.

It's always in the back of your mind.

Well, I could tap out.

I could be drinking a beer and having a
burger in about two hours, probably.

Missing substantial calories, and I
can't deal with it too much longer.

It is day, I'm really glad I made this
because I don't know what day it is. I

think it's day eight.

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven,
eight.

No, it is day nine.

So I am going to cut a notch, my morning
ritual, into my

counting stick, which apparently I need.

Feels like it's time, but I need to
start thinking about bigger food.

The limpets and the seaweed and the
little crabs, banana slugs, and the

mushrooms, you know, they're all
delicious.

But I want real big food.

That's the way that I'm going to make
it.

My plan is to put my gillnet up today. I
have a log out there to tie one end of

my gillnet to.

And then on the other end, I'm actually
going to need to pound a piece of wood

into the ground itself.

So I'm going to use cedar because it's
water resistant.

It's a pretty nice morning view, I've
got to say.

Bears were just there yesterday.

Right behind those two logs.

It looked like they were fishing, so
that's where I'm going to put my gill

net.

I've never set a gill net before. It
means I probably won't catch anything

with the first go.

It's really nice to see Samister
actually running.

I may not have time to set this. We'll
see.

I'm running out of low tide.

And I guess I waited too long.

That was wet.

And I just got water in my boot.

The tide just came in.

Oh, man.

Oh, that was like bad timing.

Crap.

All right. Well, it's not perfect, but
we're going to see how it does.

I can't remember one. It looks pretty
terrible.

I'm hoping at least when the tide comes
in, that top line will float a little

bit more.

I'm going to see. We're going to leave
it.

I am very badly dehydrated right now.

We've had several days now without rain,
and that would sound like a blessing,

but the problem is my rain catch is dry,
which means I have to boil water now to

stay hydrated, which takes a lot of
effort to do that.

The lethargy from dehydration is
absolutely the worst. You just can't

move. You know, your body can metabolize
itself, consume body fat and muscle

tissue to make energy.

But it can't do that to make water.
You've got to put it in.

I don't even feel hungry right now
because I'm thirsty.

That's a bad sign.

I have to boil a gallon of water every
day or I get dehydrated. And if I get

dehydrated, I have no energy. If I have
no energy, I don't get the work done.

Part of the fire making process is
having loads of wood in camp. But the

other part is that initial flame and
getting a flame going.

And the best way to do that in this
environment is with cedar bark, which

has been shredded finely, and spruce
resin, which has been mixed with the

shredded cedar bark.

I've got several spruce trees here,
which are gigantic. They're huge.

This is bleeding, oozing sap all the way
down the side of the tree. So this is

the most amazing thing.

And I can come down with the axe and
scrape all this stuff off.

Cedar bark lights readily, but it
doesn't burn very long. And the spruce

resin burns a long time, but it's kind
of hard to light sometimes.

So when you mix the two, the cedar
lights up the spruce resin, and then you

have a long-lasting flame.

And this is really sticky stuff, which
is the good thing.

And there's a lot of resin in there, so
that little bit should burn a good long

time, long enough to get these twigs and
things going.

There we go.

See how much easier that was?

Now get this on top.

Get these on top of that.

But once I get some liquid in me, I'm
planning on getting a lot of fuel in the

shelter here.

I'll probably work on my net. It's high
tide now. It's almost dead high tide. It

won't be low tide again until this
evening.

Really, really, really looking forward
to having a belly full of liquid.

The thirst has to go.

The dehydration has to go.

No!

The thirst has to go.

The dehydration has to go.

No!

I did not need that this morning.

I did not swear on camera.

That was good. That was good. That was
restraint.

That was discouraging.

And now I have to do this whole thing
over again.

I just don't have any way around it
today. I have to hydrate. I have to

drink water.

I am too stinking tired, underfed, and
dehydrated to get it together right now.

But I have to because the leading cause
of death in wilderness survival

situations are hypothermia and
dehydration.

I screwed up.

No excuses.

I'm human.

I admit it.

It's a good thing you folks didn't hear
what I said after I shut off the camera.

You'd be shocked at what can come out of
this good Christian man.

The bears heard, the cougars heard, and
the wolves heard, but they don't speak

English, and that's a good thing.

This place is just one big rotten log.

Kind of disappointed in myself.

And yet on the other hand, I haven't
done everything I can do, but I mean,

I've tried, man. It's not like I've been
screwing off.

I am getting minor food.

Limpets and those stupid periwinkles.
God, I'm tired of those.

But it just blows me away. Why is there
no fish here?

There's nothing in my gill net.

I'm just not going deep enough, I think.

I've got to check my stationary line.

There's got to be fish here.

I got something on my line.

I've got to be careful I don't let it go
like I did that little one on the gill

net.

Ha, ha, ha.

What kind of fish these are?

To me, they're called dinner fish.

What do we have here?

My goodness.

Hello, good sir.

Hello, good sir.

Another dude.

Another double.

Wow. Another one.

Don't you start to fight on me, you son
of a gun.

I'm going to be skewering a lot of fish
tonight.

Spilling that pot of tea this morning,
emotionally, that kind of set me back.

I was already dehydrated.

Mouth was dry.

I'd done all that work to get the fire
going, and bam, the thing falls over.

Oh, my goodness.

You know, kicking myself. How could I be
so stupid? I was just not paying

attention.

I've not eaten a single fish since I've
been here.

My dad always said, if you want to catch
big fish, use big hooks and big bait.

And he caught big fish. My dad was an
excellent fisherman.

Why did I not pay attention to the man?

I'm just not a fisherman.

But that can't be an excuse. That is now
the problem I have to overcome. I have

to learn how to fish these waters.

And that's a major, major problem for
me.

The reality of the aloneness part of it
is kind of starting to sink in.

Everything is on me and my skill set.

There's nobody to fall back on who has
greater expertise.

Having talked to anybody in nine days
and knowing that that's going to

continue and continue and continue, it's
starting to sink in.

I can just pick up that phone at any
moment and say, take me home.

That bucket of chicken is a phone call
away.

Oh, this meal means so much to me, just
psychologically, just knowing that there

are fish out there in that sea.

I mean, I knew that there were fish, but
just that there were fish that would

come in right there.

Okay,

what I did is I filleted the fish.

Okay, that wastes a lot of meat.

So what I did is I took the carcasses
and I cut them up,

bones and all, and that will be my stew.
And I'll have a super rich broth to eat

for breakfast tomorrow.

Two meals back-to-back like that, man,
that should really help me out.

Wow, how lucky to catch four fish today,
man.

Every line that I put out had a fish on
it today.

How freaking awesome is that?

Well, I'm going to check my gill net.

I want to make sure that I don't miss
the salmon run.

Hopefully they're holding up here,
getting ready for the run.

I hope they run up front of these
rivers. That would be wonderful.

Still on?

Hey, you are, you're on.

All right.

Oh, the bears are here.

I really want to go check my gillnet,
but I definitely want to give these

bears their space.

My gillnet is to the left, right in line
with them. The bears are right to the

right. So they're really close to my
gillnet.

I'm not sure what to do.

I don't want her to be nervous.

I'm going to let them know that I'm here
and just see what their reaction is.

safe. Your babies are safe.

I need to go check my gillnet.

I need to eat.

See if I go just a little closer. She
does.

Oh, mama bear just stood up on her hind
leg.

Not good.

Oh, my God.

I'm searching for a sense of place here,
and I'm struggling to find it.

That twisty branch, that's where I clean
my fish.

It's leaving.

Come on.

40, 50 mile an hour wind, freeze,
tornado.

I got to go back to camp.

I can leave this experience at any
moment, but there's that half million

dollar prize.

I'm out.

My first bit of meat in 12 days.