All language subtitles for Alone S02E04 Hungers Grip x264

That is a cub.

This feeling of remorse hit me for being
so aggressive. You know, I hate to do

it, but, yeah, I'm going to tap.

I'm determined to make this happen. I
got one. How am I going to keep this

going 24 hours a day?

Fire blower helps me basically bring a
fire back to life, even if there's just

a tiny little coal remaining.

There is nothing in my gill net.

If I can't get fish, I'm not going to
make it. Oh, my God. The bears are here.

Not good.

Who are you when everything's been
stripped away?

It's scary out here in these woods.

I have not had a serious meal in a week.
I can't get a player and I can't stay

here. It's always in the back of your
mind. Well, I can tap out.

Putting up with a filming booth.

Running into a predator. It's not an if,
it's a when.

Get the hell out of here. I see you. Get
out of here.

I'm living a hand-to-mouth existence.

Yes!

$500,000 is a lot of money. It's just
going to keep getting harder.

It's not the world that needs to change.
It's me that needs to change.

Ah!

This is almost definitely the dumbest
idea that I've had

since I've been out here. But it has the
potential to be the funnest idea.

Now, I just need to attach

a handle.

This is one of those things that serves
no practical purpose whatsoever.

But the one purpose that it does serve
is huge out here. The hardest part is

really the mental aspect.

And every single time I swing out, it
puts a smile on my face. That's huge out

here.

Oh my God, this is the funnest thing
ever.

That's part of life too. You've got to
have things that you enjoy. You've got

to have things that are fun. You've got
to have things that make you smile.

And that's what this rope swing has
given me.

My net didn't do too well out here in
the surf. My other stake pulled out.

I am very disappointed

in the performance of this net. It has
caught nothing in a week or so that it's

been up.

Man, head rush.

Bent over, stood up.

I have to learn not to do that.

So far out of the ocean, I've just had a
couple meals of limpets and a lot of

seaweed.

Every campsite needs a place to sit.

It doesn't have to look like a chair. It
just has to be a nice, comfy place to

sit.

Chilling on a log and waiting for low
tide.

That's what I'm all about right now.

I'm hungry.

I'm really hungry.

I feel like crap.

I don't have a headache. It doesn't hurt
anywhere.

It's not pain. Hunger is a different
kind of thing.

Physically, it feels like apathy.

If that makes any sense at all.

Get myself motivated and get myself
moving is just a very hard thing to do.

I have a sat phone.

I can leave this experience at any
moment.

Stepping out of this suffering is
literally a phone call away.

There's that half million dollar prize.

And I think that that would be a life
changing amount of money for me to win.

I'd love to have something to give to my
kids.

I'm sick of being the dad that always
has to say no.

Hey, can we go out? No, you can't.

No, you can't.

Can't afford it.

Can't afford it, can't afford it. It's
like a knee-jerk reaction with me

because I've been so broke all year.

So yeah, that prize money would be huge.

There's just no way I can go home. I
can't go home.

So whatever it is I have to endure out
here, I have to endure it. Whatever it

is I have to put up with, I have to put
up with it. Whatever it is I have to

figure out, I have to figure it out.

I have to finish this.

You know, whatever you do, do it all in
the glory of God.

I want to do well.

It's really dark in here with my
headlamp off.

So I went down and checked my gillnet
today, and there was a mom and two cubs

down there.

The bears are here.

Oh, mama bear just stood up on her hind
legs.

Not good.

That was really exciting.

There's a lot of bear activity right
here.

And, you know, predators aren't
something to trifle with.

And I wasn't going to go disturb them.

Hopefully those bears will stay on their
side of the river.

I slept great last night. Oh, my God.

Went to bed really early.

I got up a little earlier than usual
this morning.

Nap did a couple things and walked
around.

Peed.

I gotta go check my gill net.

I'm guessing it'll be empty just because
salmon aren't running yet. But one of

these mornings, they'll be running.

That'll be a glorious day.

I'm going to go this way, just in case
the bears are coming out that way. I

don't want to totally shock them.

I'm not afraid of the bears, I just
don't want to scare them.

You know, because then they get scared,
and then scared animals in general do

stupid things.

There are big splashing in the water.

Checking out this tree line.

Looking for, oh, there they go.

Birds are alarming over there, there's
something over there.

Holy crap.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God. It's big.

It's beautiful.

There it is.

Glad I went with the big gill net.

All right.

Okay, well, this is it.

I caught my first fish in my net.

I'm not exaggerating. It's this big.
It's two feet long.

I've got to make sure I get it without
cutting my gill net.

I need something to whack it over the
head really hard with like a stone.

All right, sweetie.

Here we go.

This is just too big.

Cutting the head off really is the best
idea.

I don't want to keep it from misery.

I know.

Try to stay. I know.

Gosh.

We're severing the spinal cord real
fast.

There'll be a lot of blood in this
water.

Just need to get through.

Oh, there we go.

Oh.

The scales are really bright red. Just
looking out for bears because they're

going to smell blood.

It's not really windy today, which is
good.

There we go.

Oh, my God, it's heavy.

This is like a fish.

I wish there was someone to share this
with.

It's like, it's really heavy.

It's a big fish.

Colton, these eyeballs are big.

They're like three quarters of an inch.

You would love these eyeballs, Colton.
Look at those.

Got great eyeballs. My son Colton would
love that. When he was little, someone

told him that if you ate the eyes of a
fish, you could see underwater.

And he totally believed that. The size
of my thumb, that eyeball.

I'll cut it out. I'll eat it in honor of
you.

So slippery.

Oh, look at the male.

I see semen.

See all that semen in there? See that?
Yeah, this is all.

That's all semen right there.

Got to make sure there's nothing there.

Watching for bears. They like it right
here.

All right.

There. That opened beautifully.

Just beautifully.

Ta-da!

So I've got the center part done.

All right, just cutting right along the
spine to flatten this fish out. Oh, my

God, it's beautiful.

All right, no bear free.

We're all competing for the same thing.

And the salmon haven't run yet, and the
salmon are late. So the bears are

hungry.

Oh, my God, it's so heavy.

It is so much meat.

So I've got two huge fillets on either
side. Got the center spine.

I didn't get right up as much to the
spine as I would have liked, so I'm

going to eat that too for sure.

Okay, I'm going to go clean all this off
and bring it up to camp and get a fire

going.

Let me show you this smorgasbord I've
got going.

Salmon in the pan.

Salmon that I put between two tripods
that I've got fresh cedar sticks

smoking. I'll move it over the fire when
the other ones are done to smoke more.

The smoke is going right into this piece
of fish, which is going to be great.

Later, I'll move it right over the fire.

But this fish that I have now, I can eat
just for a few days and just keep eating

off it as long as I keep it out of the
hands of the bears.

Be really careful to keep it all right
on this board and not to spill any.

Because what I don't want are predators
coming around. So I'm going to

make sure that I don't leave anything,
that I burn anything, and the rest goes

way deep into the ocean.

There's my salmon.

And I'm just going to eat.

Because it's really good.

Oh, my God.

I can't believe I'm eating this well
here.

Hi.

I'm a happy, happy girl.

Today, the priorities are going to be,
I'm going to work out a little bit.

Just to get my cylinders firing.

Because they're not right now at all.

I'm not a huge gym buff.

I'm not like a bro guy.

But I enjoy working out. So what I've
done is I've built basically a gym.

We've got two new additions.

To the gym, a.k.a. Muscle Beach.

It's a beach and it's the gym.

First, we brought over the chain that I
found.

And also, my new pull-up bar.

Yep, that happened.

It's not the same.

I enjoy being physically active, you
know, and I think that it's an

underrated part of survival.

I look at survival, especially long-term
like this, as living.

You know, I work out in my normal life.
Why wouldn't I work out out here?

I think some of this comes from being in
the military for so long as well.

I'm not going to do it to the point to
where, you know, I'm expending so many

calories that I'm just draining myself.

It keeps my motivation levels up. It
keeps, you know, kind of everything up.

Finding things that you can enjoy even
though the weather's horrible or, you

know, it's kind of a miserable existence
makes a huge, huge impact rather than

just kind of sitting there waiting it
out.

I think when I get back, maybe I should
start a...

The survival workout program.

It's not going to happen.

I never realized sea otters were such a
big creature.

They're like the size of a small dog.

What a happy life. You float around on
your back, go down, eat seafood, come

back up, float around on your back, swim
around, play with your buddies.

That's a cool animal.

I'm thinking what I need to do is catch
some of those sea otters and train them

to bring me fish.

They have my cove all figured out.

This cove is my universe, and I have to
adapt myself to it.

I just have to make use of what is here
and figure it out and just stay alive.

I've got an idea for active fishing.

I can see that there's fish swimming in
the kelp just below my point here. And

this is the first time I've actually
seen fish of the size that I can eat

swimming in my waters.

So that means I have to try and catch
some of these fish.

Okay, now the secret to doing a cane
pole is you don't just tie the string

onto the end of the pole.

You tie yourself a safety line back
below

so that if the end of the pole breaks
off, you don't lose everything.

I am desperately hungry right now, and I
want to eat.

That's pretty much the end of the story
for me.

Oh man, that one stole half my bait.

They're hitting it though.

Yes!

Two weeks out here and no fish to show
for it. That's embarrassing.

I'm sorry. I'm at the point now of total
embarrassment that I have not caught a

fish.

I'm hungry.

I'm really hungry.

Yes.

Yeah, baby.

Oh, yes.

That's a big old fish.

I'm going to have a meal.

I'm going to have a meal.

Oh, thank you, Lord.

It is a lot easier doing this waist high
than down on the ground.

I'm a happy man.

This has definitely taken away that
hollow feeling that I've had for the

last several days.

It gave me hope today. It really did. It
really gave me hope.

I just want to do well at this thing. I
just want to make my kids proud and let

them see their dad persevere and tough
it out. I can feed myself here, and I

need to do that on a regular basis to
stay here as long as I possibly can.

Thank

you,

Lord, for this food.

That is good.

Lost my ferro rod.

I wanted to go home.

I need to get my head back in the game
if I'm going to do this.

I can't just sit around and hope for the
best. I need to take action.

I'm going to start on a permanent
structure today.

I'm going to do it using two different
structural pieces to hold it all

together. I'm going to be pounding
posts.

into the ground and then i'm going to
take a piece of cord and i'm going to

wrap the cord around each of the posts
to be able to just hold it all together

and then the other way is i'm going to
actually notch each of the logs sort

of log cabin style i'm doing this for
two reasons you know one obviously

having a long-term shelter and having
some comfort is gonna improve my

It's going to just make me happier.

Also, too, winter is coming.

This is one of those projects that is
going to require a lot of energy.

It's a lot of work going on very, very
little food.

I haven't really eaten any meat, so I'm
definitely running pretty low

on fuel.

Got my trot line out.

Interrupt. That's my first real attempt
at getting some food.

But I need to have a consistent source
of food.

The process of doing this without
anybody else, the isolation, you know,

is difficult.

It does get to you.

You just start to...

Search for things to communicate with,
even if it's yourself.

You know, like you start having
conversations in your head where you're

talking to yourself and you're saying
we.

I'm like, all right, well, what are we
going to do today?

We? What am I talking about? There's no
we. It's just me out here.

That is arguably the most difficult part
of this journey.

These are the walls on the inside.

I can barely even see.

Turn the infrared.

That's as high as my back wall is going
to be. It's basically just a log cabin

lean-to, essentially.

Here's what it looks like from the
outside.

Amazing.

The process has been definitely
laborious and exhausting, and it's

taking a lot of calories out of me.

I'm hungry.

All right.

I've got to get moving.

It's a little chill in the air.

I could see my breath last night when I
went to bed.

It's really feeling like the rain is
coming.

And I have a feeling once the rain
comes, we're just in for the rain. It's

not going to stop. So, getting ready.

This is the front of my shelter.

So I've started to put a door in. These
are my final, this post on the left and

this post on my right are my final two
beams.

This thing leaning in here is going to
be my door that will come in and

out.

There are some big storms that come
through here.

I know that the storms are going to hit
really soon and the rain is going to

just be...

The door fits pretty snugly.

Now I'm reinforcing the front of this
structure to make sure that the whole

thing is covered.

Hopefully this will keep both the warmth
in and the cold out, but also the wind

out as well.

Perhaps we'll see rain tonight.

40, 50 mile an hour wind, easy.

Oh my God, it's crazy.

I've never seen this rough.

This water is really calm, passive.

The wind

has been going crazy

fast, like tornado.

I don't know. I mean, I'd say probably,
you know, 40, 50 mile an hour.

Just ticking.

And now it's raining.

I got to go back to camp.

It's not leafing at all, and we have had
intense rain, so I feel really snug.

It is really dark, so I'm getting ready
to go.

I've got my raincoat on, and I'm going
to go check my gill net.

And the storm's been whipping around.

My gill net is way underwater.

Look.

A lot of it's flowing, but I can't get
to it. It's way too... It seems like the

water is really just flowing in.

It's just like the waves are coming and
making it hard to get to that area.

I'm just watching it today.

Yeah, it's really raining.

I'm going to head back to camp.

And before I get gestured away here.

I came out to the beach this morning to
check things out.

This is about as high tide as high gets,
and the surf is amazing here. I've never

seen this rough.

That's where I clean my fish, on that
flimsy looking thing where the surf is

shooting down right now.

If I was to go fishing, that's where I
go fishing, all the way out there.

I would have to cross all that water to
get to my fishing spot.

Normally, at low tide, I can walk out
there. Look at it now. It's just dirt.

This is as rough as I've seen it.

It's murky and evil looking.

This is a tragedy, people.

My giant, twisty kitchen thing is
drifting out the sea.

That is the most important feature of my
beach, and it's leaving.

Come on! Don't go!

No!

No!

It is really crazy. It's not raining too
much, but the wind is just going nuts.

Don't really have much to do.

In the way of chores or work,
everything's pretty much revolving

around food.

And tide's about halfway up, so there's
no food

to get.

I might just hunker down in here.

You know, over the course of active duty
in the military, years of my life have

been spent in isolation.

You're sitting in a tiny hole with, you
know, a couple other guys for three,

four, five days. You're pissing it in a
bag, you know.

You learn things to do to kind of
entertain your mind.

and gentlemen, the moment that probably
none of you have been waiting for other

than me, the installation of the kelp
urinal.

When I first saw this bad boy, I was
thinking, that is a tube, and

I can use the tube for a lot of cool
stuff.

And hopefully we can give it a little...

Little test drive here And

that is a win

No longer do I have to leave

the comfort of my room to urinate in the
middle of the night

Believe it or not. It's a pretty big
moment

Rainy day, windy day, very windy day.

Wouldn't want to be out at sea on a day
like this.

Walk over to the fish net, see if I can
rescue it.

Let's see what the situation is.

A lot of stuff in the net, like kelp
pieces and whatnot.

You have to go in the water to basically
clean it and make it work again.

That's the last darn day a guy would
want to be waiting in the water here,

but it's hard to see how deep it is.

It's already past a little deep here.

I'm going to drown here like an idiot.

And the wind picks up some more.

What a tangle.

Walk you up.

Oh, man, I could do without these waves,
I tell you.

There's a salmon in here.

Lordy.

Well, that's a reward.

Salmon.

Not too big, but not bad.

I don't know if you folks can even hear
anything.

Because it's raining about as hard as it
can.

But... I'm eating salmon.

So I don't care.

I'm having the best meal I've had since
I've come here.

So the salmon are coming towards the
coast. They're looking for places.

I need that big harvest.

Any long certain plans that I have is on
that.

It's another beautiful day here in
British Columbia.

What else can I say?

I'm going to walk down and I'm going to
check my traps.

Trap number one.

Not triggered.

Elevator's gone.

Man.

I need to figure out a way to make this
way more sensitive.

I think I'm going to try to start eating
these slugs.

I don't want to, but I'm getting pretty
hungry.

Triggered. Do we have anything to show
for it?

Oh, my God, look at that.

My first bit of meat in 14 days.

What I like to do is just singe all the
hair off.

That's good. It's all singed.

And then you could just, you don't need
to spend too much time skinning him or

anything. You just sort of peel the
singed hair off.

I'm super excited to eat this right now.

You just peel open the stomach to take
out the guts. But I leave in like the

heart, the liver.

Delicious.

I'll just throw them directly on the
coals there.

Just let them cook.

I feel like I'm starting to find my
pace.

Starting to connect more with the land.

But I'm just not pulling in any fish.

So I don't know.

I got to try some new fishing
techniques.

I got to try to make a living off the
sea.

Because when winter comes here, animals
are going to be holed up and might not

be there. So I got to figure out a way
to get some fish.

That's the only bit that's left.

Just the teeth.

Your teeth are just too hard.

of Champions, sir.

If I end up in the drink and swimming,
then it'd be the end of my journey

today.

You build and you build and you build.

When you run out of things, then you
just throw left here.

The mouth is completely destroying my
gear. I swear to God, if that thing

chews my sleeping bag up, I'm blowing
this place up.

I've never been alone through this long
before.

I am craving human companionship. I
really miss my loved ones.

Oh.