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Oh here.

- Later.

- Hi Mom, we're out of milk.

- I get my card filled
tomorrow, I'll pick it up then.

Yes ma'am.

- Ms. Nubar left
her cat out again.

Yeah?

- I just don't think some people
take it seriously you know?

Owning a pet.

- Oh honey nothing
people do surprises me.

Sweetie seriously?

Because Jesus said so?

Because Buddha or
Muhammad told us to?

These are pretty important
people in history,

we should listen to him right?

I'm gonna let you in
on a little secret.

They weren't the first people
to say it, nor will they be

the last, why do we do good?

Because it's the
right thing to do.

It's in our DNA.

It's not spiritual,
it's necessary.

- She never had a life.

Of the three of us girls, Lori,
Mom was the hardest on her.

She had it the hardest.

I just don't understand, why
God would allow her to be shot

to death in a parking
lot by some whore.

- Jamie.

- I don't care.

- Well we have to figure
out what to do with Dawn.

- She's gonna need
some place to live.

At least till she
finishes her senior year.

- We hardly know her.

I mean, Renee would
never let us see her.

- Couldn't she stay with
her sister or her father?

- I think we all know
the answer to that.

- Yeah.

- Now Lori and I, we've
already raised our kids,

we flat out cannot
afford to take her in.

Especially with the
tuition we're paying.

We just the figured the pastors

in the family would want her.

- I wanna take her.

- Could we talk about
this in private?

- She's family.

- Can we talk about
this in private?

- Her mother was just
murdered, how can we possibly

think about ourselves?

- Let us not forget Renee,

loving mother,
sister and friend,

loved by many and she
loved all in return.

- What a joke.
- Let us close in prayer.

- Who is he talking
about, you'd think this is

Mother Theresa's funeral.
- Lifting up our dear Renee

before the Lord.

- Why'd they have
to cremate her?

And honoring
her with our thoughts.

- I wanted to see her again.
- Dear Lord.

- Mother would hate this,

there's not a drink in sight.
- Please protect.

Bestow peace and
mercy upon the family.

I don't even know Aunt Jamie.

- Dawnie, I...

Protect the family
in their time as it mourns.

- Well Jack said no.
- The loss of Renee.

- But Jack likes me.

- You're gonna love it
at Jamie and Willem's.

They've got that
house and money.

And God.

You know I want to, I'm
just not in a position.

- Don't worry about it.

- We'll meet you
back at the house.

Girls, we loved your
mom, I'm so sorry.

This is your room.

I hope you like it.

I was thinking that
in a couple of days,

we could go shopping for
maybe some more pillows,

or a new bedspread or
something, whatever you want.

- This is fine.

Maybe some new paint.

- Oh I'll do that.

- Okay.

We'll go shopping.
- I'm gonna get a job.

- I just want you guys
to know that as soon as

I graduate, I'm gonna get
a job so I can move out

and I won't be a
burden for long.

- Dawn, I want,
we want you here.

You're not a burden.

- I want my mom.

- I hate my sister.

- No Renee.

When you grew up the
way that we grew up,

why would you choose to
repeat all that same crap?

- Hurting people, hurt people.

- At some point in your life
you've gotta get over it

yourself, especially
when you have children.

- She wasn't capable.

- I was.

Why did she did get to
have children and I didn't?

- Jamie, we've all
had a rough, long day.

- I'm sorry.

- It just wasn't
meant to be for us.

- I know.

I'm just emotional.

We've gotta show Dawn what it
is like to have a good home.

Will you help me do that?

- Okay got it.
- Ah.

The last thing I need is to
go down the cookie aisle, so.

- No, I'm not going there.
- Okay, thank you.

What's next on the list?

- Tomato paste and
then Parmesan Reggiano.

- If it really says that
I am gonna puke right now.

- No it does see, it's his
famous lasagna, everything

has to be authentic.

- The one about the clothing
exchange for the women

at the church.
- Yeah.

Yeah I don't know.

- Oh!
- No.

I am so busy with Dawn
and I just, I don't know.

- What's not to love about it.

We bring our unwanted
clothes, we go through them,

we take what we want, and
the rest goes to charity,

it's a win-win.

- No, I do like the
recycling part, I just uhm...

Okay just, I don't, no furs!

- Oh, who owns a fur
anymore, seriously.

I'll put it all
together for you,

you don't have to do a thing.

- Go insane.

- I would.
- I know.

- Parmesan Reggiano.

- Take this.

And go ahead and
put a little in.

- With lasagna sauce you
don't measure, you just feel.

Go ahead.

Now we let it simmer for a
few hours, and then taste it.

- You sure know a
lot about cooking.

- No I don't, but I
make a great lasagna.

You ready for the
big day tomorrow?

- I'm nervous.
- I know.

It sucks starting a new school,

even under the
best circumstances.

We're home.

- We got your Parmesan Reggiano.

Are you an expert
at making lasagna?

- Connor, come on in.
- Oh, thank you.

- Yes.

- Do not encourage her.

- Wanna know the secret
to a great lasagna?

What's that?

- Lots of fat.

- Oh well he means it.

- Speech, speech.
- Oh all right.

To our first family
function together.

- Yes, there's a blessing
in everything if you look,

and after everything that
we've all been through lately,

I think we've become
a closer family.

- Cheers.

Cheers.

- Let's do, good
thing, bad thing.

- It's something I used to do
all the time with my family

as a kid, you say one good thing
that happened to you today,

and one bad thing, so I'll
go first, uhm good thing.

I hear that Connor is walking
Dawn to school tomorrow.

- Yep.
- You're a good man.

- Okay, and my bad thing.

I am going to eat way too
much of this lasagna tonight.

- Goes right from your
lips to yours hips.

Uh, exactly.

- My good thing is that
our youth group at church

raised enough money for our
summer trip to the beach.

- Yes which Dawn,
you're invited to.

- Of course, yeah, I'll
introduce you to all the kids

this Sunday.
- Thanks.

- And my bad thing, oh, I
have a math test tomorrow

that I'm totally
not prepared for.

- Oh I hate math.

- You can go next.

- Good thing is, I start
a new school tomorrow.

Bad thing is, I start
a new school tomorrow.

- Oh you'll be fine, I promise.

My good thing is, I worked
out four out of five days

this week.
- Ugh.

- Victory indeed.
- Boom.

And my bad thing is, I cannot
find my reading glasses.

Well, okay Mark your
turn, and your bad thing

better not have
anything to do with me.

- Well now I don't have anything
to say, that's not fair.

Let's see, the good thing
is, I slept in this morning.

- Nice.

- Bad thing is, no I
don't have anything to say

because Lori said I can't
say anything about her.

- Unbelievable.
- Oh, in trouble.

- My good thing is that I
only have good things to say

because each and every one of
you is here with me tonight,

so thank you.

I love you.

- Hey, I just wanted to
say thanks for tonight.

- What can I say,
it's my lasagna.

Why did you give a toast
instead of saying a prayer.

- Have I committed some
terrible pastor faux

- No, I just, I thought it
was an interesting choice,

I mean we are pastors.

Okay nevermind,
I'll see you in bed.

Did you make me a list of
the things you want me to get

from the store?

Oh that must be Connor.

Have you had anything to eat?

- Yeah I just ate.

- Right on time young
man, very impressive.

- I try.

- Hey Dawn I wanna
get a picture of you

for your first day at school.

- Okay.
- Oh I know, here we go.

Oh, okay Connor you
get in there too.

- Oh okay.
- Both of you guys.

One, two, cheese!

Oh all right, off you go.

You don't wanna be late.
- Have a good day.

- Oh don't forget
your lunch Dawn.

- Thank you.
- You're welcome.

Bye guys.

- Good job.

- What was that, what
is that, oh, what?

- You can ask me.

- About my mom, it's okay.

- I know she died.

- She was shot to death
in a bar parking lot.

- I'm sorry.

- It's the first time I've
ever said that out loud,

I'd appreciate it if you didn't
spread that around school

too much.
- I got your back.

Hey, did I tell you it's
National Don't Be Sad Day?

- No but I saw it on my
calendar this morning.

- Good, we're on the same page.

So first off, I guess
I'll take your homeroom

and introduce you to
your teacher, Ms. Kurtz.

Otherwise known as
the Bucktooth Wonder.

Yeah, of course all the
other teachers prefer to say

she's alignment-challenged.

- They do not!

- You're right, they call
her Bucktooth Wonder too!

- Hey!
- Hey.

- It was good.

Kinda scary.
- Sit.

Look what I found, pictures
of me and your mom.

- Look at you guys.

- I know, look at this one,
we were just like rebels

without a cause.

I remember that day, I
could not find your mom

and I looked out
in the backyard.

And she was just laying
there on the green grass

and just watched the clouds
go by for like an hour.

I always wondered what
she was dreaming about.

- No!

Okay.

Okay you need to slow
down first of all.

- What, no church talk
today, no shop talk.

I'm taking the day off.

- There's just always something
that needs attending to.

- I know I know let it go, okay.

Did you happen to notice
anybody in particular

that I invited over here today?

I think he's rather attractive.

- We've met.

- And don't you wanna go
over there and talk to him?

Cindy come on, it's time.

- No don't push me Jamie.

- Don't be so pricky, come on.

- I'm fine where I am,
really, I'm, I'm, I'm good.

- Thanks for coming.

- Thanks for inviting me.

- I hope you had fun.

- Oh I had a great
time, really great.

Hey, my buddy Charlie
he's throwing,

well we're going
bowling next Friday and,

would you'd like to go with me?

- Yeah, I'd love to go.

- Okay, sweet.

I'll pick you up at seven.

- Seven it is.

- Seven it is.

I guess I'll say goodbye now.

- Bye.

- You know what put that
on the top shelf babe.

- Oh.

- Because I think
we're gonna reuse that.

- Okay.
- For the church picnic.

- After much deliberating
to find the best family plan

you are the proud new
owner of a cellphone.

Thank you Willem, thank you.

Thank you!

Get out!

- Calm down Dawn.

- Get out of my room!

- You're taking
it the wrong way.

We're okay--
- No!

- Calm down.
- Get out!

- We're good.

- Dawn honey open up please
let's talk about this.

- Why don't you
ask your husband?

- I did, he said it was
all a misunderstanding.

- It was a misunderstanding.

I understood I was moving
into this great house

and then my uncle comes onto me?

- Willem wouldn't do that.

Dawn...

Dawn wait up.

Dawn will you talk to me,
please don't go, Dawn please!

We're a family.

- You're gonna make yourself
sick, will you come to bed?

- Yeah in a minute.

- Wait, well what if we
move women's journey night

to the 16th?

And you are not listening
to a word I'm saying.

You have to let
this Dawn thing go.

You didn't make her leave.

- I know.

- Being raised the way she
was, she doesn't know what

else to do but run.

- But why would she say
what she said, I mean?

What could it possibly get her?

Willem isn't even
attracted to young girls?

- I found porn on his computer.

Well I wouldn't put
too much on that.

- He's the pastor of a church.

- And he's also a man.

- That doesn't make it okay.

It makes me wonder
if maybe he did it.

And he shut her down, and
this is her way of getting

back at them, you don't
know what she's capable of.

- I don't know who to believe.

- Willem doesn't need this.

He's the pastor of a church
with hundreds of people

depending on him and this
pubescent girl from a bad home

comes along, threatening to
destroy everything he's built.

And you don't know
who to believe?

- I built that church
just as much as Willem.

- How do you know he's not
attracted to young girls,

I mean then who is he attracted
to, someone more like you?

Oh...

- Willem tried to tell
you not to take Dawn in

and you, as usual
didn't listen to him.

- You're my best friend.

- You never listen to
him and support him

the way a man in
his position needs.

- We were going to tell you
and then Renee got killed,

it was gonna be clean.

- And then you insisted
on taking Dawn in

and it messed everything up.

- How long.

- We're in love, what
does it matter how long?

- I'm so sorry Jamie--

- I have to find her,
I have to find Dawn.

- Hey, go on come
on, get in here,

hey come on, get in here.

What can I do for you?

- Hi Dad.

Holy crap look at you,
you're all grown up,

come on in, come on
in, Shana get in here!

Shana this is my daughter
Dawn, Dawn this is Shana.

- Nice to meet you, thanks.
- You too.

- You want a beer,
get her a beer Shana.

- I uh, okay, I'll have a beer.

- Wow.

- The house looks the same,
just different.

- Well yeah Shana here, she's
always painting something.

Aint that right babe?

Looked pretty shabby
before she moved in.

- Have a seat.
- Yeah come on in.

Make yourself at home.

We sure were sorry
to hear about your mom.

- Oh yeah, that was terrible.

Your mom was a good woman.

I'm sorry I didn't
come to the funeral.

- I wish you would've.

- I know, then I was
gonna send flowers,

but I thought,
probably best not to.

I'm not too popular with
your family you know.

So I hear you're living
with your aunt Jamie.

Your aunt Lori told me.

- Do you guys have
anything I could eat?

- Yeah.
- Of course we do.

- Yeah, thanks.

Things aren't great Dad.

- I know it was a shock
losing your mom like that.

That's just gonna take time.

- It's not just that.

Is there anyway that--
- Here you go.

Don't be shy, there's more.

Oh honey you must be starving?

- I'm not loving with
Aunt Jamie anymore,

it didn't work out.

- What do you mean
it didn't work out?

She wanted you to move in there.

- It wasn't Aunt Jamie.

- Well where are
you staying then?

- Honey did you tell
Dawn about our news?

- Well of course I haven't,
I haven't had a chance.

- Your dad and I are
gonna have a baby,

I'm three months pregnant.

- That is news.

- I've already painted the
room, do you wanna see it?

- No, thank you.

- So are you staying with
your sister then, right?

- No, Jack said no.

Oh...

- We just have the one
other room and it's gonna be

for the baby, so, I'm sorry.

- It's okay, I'll be fine.

- How about I grab
you some more pizza.

- Why don't you grab some
other stuff while you're

in there too huh?

Watch this, this is funny.

Yeah now watch
what he does here.

Hey where are you going?

You just go here.

- I should go, I don't
know what I was thinking.

- Wait.

You take this.

Can you believe I'm
gonna have another kid.

I mean you know.

Hopefully I'll be a better
father this time around.

- Hopefully.

- Well uh, give me a hug.

All right now.

- Where'd she go, she
didn't get her food.

- Let it be, I'm gonna
get another beer.

- I told Cindy how
upset I was with her,

this is not how this
should've happened.

- All those years that
we counseled couples.

You never once said anything.

- That was wrong of me.

- My best friend, you couldn't
have picked any other woman.

You are a liar.

And you are not a godly man.

- Jamie, I haven't
believed in God for years.

- I think the congregation
would be very interested

in hearing that.

- I know where you're going.

I'd watch myself if
I were you Jamie.

You're overwrought.

Your sister was just murdered,
now your niece runs off,

that's enough to push
anyone over the edge.

Everyone at church is
very concerned about you.

- Hi.

Have you seen this girl?

- No I'm sorry, can't give
out any personal information

about our guests.

- No, keep it.

I really need to find her.

- You can leave a message
for her on the message board

if you like.

- Do you guys need any help or
anything like serving dinner

or anything that way, I
don't know, I'd be here,

in case she came in.

- Well you'd need to fill
out a volunteer application

online first.

- Okay, how long will
that take, how long does

the processing take.

- Well you just fill out
the application online

and somebody will be
in touch with you.

- Okay, thank you.

- Hey.

What's your name, I'll
look into it myself.

- Jamie, Lynder.

- David.

- It's nice to meet you,
thank you, that's Dawn.

- I got it.

- Hey.
- Hey!

- No.

- Yeah.

- Isn't it a little bit
early to be having a drink?

It's your house.

- Yes it is.

You wanna fix dinner with
me, Mark's coming home soon.

- I can't, I have to
fill out an application.

- No.

I went by the mission today
to see if Dawn had stopped in

or not and they couldn't
say anything about it

because of privacy issues, so,
I am going to volunteer there

that way I'll be
there if she stops in.

- You need to
apply to volunteer?

Oh Woody finally
called me back today.

- What, why didn't
you say anything?

What did he say?

- Okay calm down, he saw her.

- No, and she did not tell
him where she was going

when she left.

- Well you know she probably
didn't get that warm

of a reception, not if
Woody got a whiff of any

kind of responsibility
coming his way.

- Why didn't you
post these flyers?

- Because Dawn's not missing.

She chose to leave.

- I see.

I'm really glad that Mom's
not around to see all this.

- Are you gonna be
responsible for Mom now too.

- Someone has got to
be the responsible one,

life isn't about just
doing whatever you want.

- You're not the only
one who's in pain, Jaime.

Renee was my sister too.

- Try losing your
husband on top of it.

- Okay can we just
stop this please?

- I'm not gonna be told
that I'm wrong for caring

about my niece,
I'll put these up.

- You know what I hate
about living in the city?

Can't see any of
the stars at night.

I mean they're,

they're out there
just twinkling away,

and no one ever
notices 'em you know.

I guess I feel sorry for 'em.

Basti.

- Dawn.

I never heard that name before.

- Hah, yeah.

It's short for Sebastian.

My mother's French.

- You're French.

- Oui, and I find you.

- So how long ago did
you run away from home?

- Because I used to be you.

And I know that, you
don't deserve whatever
happened to you.

Family sucks.

- You have no idea.

- Here, take this.

- No thank you.

- No take it, it's just,

a friend who understands,
trying to help.

Go ahead, get yourself
something to eat.

- Thanks.
- Yeah, you're welcome.

So what's your plan
Dawn, what's next?

- I'm gonna get a job,
maybe go back to school.

- Well it's a plan,
and a good one.

You'll see, you're gonna
need to get an apartment.

And that's gonna cost a lot of
money Dawn, now how the heck

are you gonna do that?

- I'll figure it
out, I'm not scared.

- Dawn, Dawn if you're not
scared you're a damn fool.

You don't know these streets.

You need someone
looking out for you.

Do you have a place
to stay tonight?

- Yeah.

- Hah, okay.

Good.

Tell you what Dawn.

I'm gonna keep an
eye on you okay.

- Hi.
- Hey.

- Sorry I'm early.

- Yeah well if you think
I'm gonna be impressed

and increase your
salary, forget it.

That was a joke.

Okay are you ready, I
thought I'd have you hang out

with me today.

Street missions.

Okay.

- Bye you guys, I'll see
you later, keep it real.

- Thanks.

- I thought you said you had
somewhere to stay last night.

- I did.

- No, no you didn't.

- Thanks for your
concern but I'm okay.

- Do you have enough
money left for lunch?

Don't answer that.

What are you doing today?

- I'm gonna go look for a job.

- Do you mind if I hang out
with you for a little bit?

- Sure.
- Great.

So first thing's first.

We've gotta get you cleaned up.

Don't look at me like that
I'm not gonna bite you.

You can shower at my place.

I'll introduce you to
Rachel, you'll love her.

I'll text her right now, let
her know we're coming over.

- You're awfully quiet.

- Oh I'm, I'm just
taking it all in.

I mean I co-pastor
at church, you know.

- Yeah well God wakes us
up at different times.

It was nice to have you
out there with me today.

It can get kinda
lonely out there.

I mean, have you always
ministered on the streets?

- It's 10 o'clock.

- I know that, Blaire.

- The party was at seven,
your son is in bed.

He really like
his birthday card.

Especially the part where
you wrote, you couldn't wait

to show him how to use
the we got him.

But what you should've
written is that you're sorry

you missed his 10th birthday.

But it was more
important to get drunk.

- Poor Blaire.

Poor, poor, Blaire.

Do you have any idea
what Gerald did today?

- I don't care what
your boss said.

You're an alcoholic.

- I'm not an alcoholic,
alcoholics go to meetings.

I had a few drinks, it doesn't
mean I don't love my son.

- It means you're
a horrible father.

I'm sick and tired of
hearing your excuses,

I don't wanna hear it.

Just, go drink some
more, I don't care.

- I'm gonna go tell
him happy birthday.

- No you're not, he was upset
enough when he went into bed,

he doesn't need a
drunk waking him up.

- Fine.

- You can't drive.

- Happy birthday Jordan.

- I'm leaving you David.

I'm not gonna let you
do this to us anymore.

Don't come back.

I walked out the door and didn't
look back for a long time.

- Do you still see your son.

- No, he won't have
anything to do with me.

So tell me more about you.

So you co-pastor at
church with your husband?

- Yeah.

Unfortunately we're
separated right now.

I'm sorry.

- We have our issues
like most couples, so.

- Yeah.

Her mother Renee is my sister
and when she was killed

we took her in.

- Wow I'm sorry,
how was she killed.

- She was shot in a bar parking
lot by a jealous girlfriend.

- It's how she was raised.

It's all she knows,
is, is to run.

Nothing
happened at home?

- Nah-ah, no.

Wait, Dawn, Dawn,
that's Dawn, Dawn!

Oh...

Who in the world was that guy?

- Basti.

- I thought you weren't
coming home till later.

- So I guess you
didn't get my text.

Hey come here don't worry
about her, it's fine.

Go get yourself something to
drink, I'll be right back.

Come here.

- We don't need her.

- I want you to go out there

and you're gonna be nice to her.

- No.

- Okay.

Why do you make
me like this huh?

After everything I've done
for you, you can't help me.

Don't you know how much
I love you, don't you?

- Yes.

Good okay.

Then trust me.

I'm always looking out
for you, all right?

Help me do this.

I'm gonna go out there and
I'm gonna get Dawn, okay?

Rachel.

This is Dawn.

Dawn, this is Rachel.

Rachel's gonna help you
find some clothes okay?

All right I'm gonna let
you two get acquainted.

- Whatever your story is,
I don't feel sorry for you.

I'm not interested in how
much your parents didn't

love you, or how many
times your mom's boyfriend

got too friendly, okay?

- Okay.

- Couple of things,
don't steal from me,

and earn your own keep.

Basti's with me, and we're
gonna keep it that way.

Now let me see if I can
find you something to wear.

- I'm gonna go back
out there tomorrow.

I've gotta keep looking
for her that guy is a pimp.

- Well be careful,
take David with you.

- Yeah.

- I'm gonna watch TV,
hopefully in peace.

- Hey.
- Hey.

- Bad, most of them want
a high school diploma.

- Jerks.

You know I bet if they
knew you they'd hire you

in a heartbeat.

- Right.

- That's just what I think.

- Ah she's working.

- Have you ever used
chopsticks before, do you know

how to use them.

- I tried it once,
but I couldn't do it.

- Oh come on it's easy, look.

You put one, you hold
it just like that,

press it against your
thumb, and the other one

moves it, this is the
only one that moves.

That's what nobody gets.

- Let me try.

- Can I ask you
why you ran away?

- My mom was killed.
- Oh, damn.

- And I went to go stay
with my aunt and uncle

and my uncle...

You know.
- Yeah, yeah I know.

It's like I said Dawn.

You need someone, someone
there to look after you.

Okay, look.

I'm not gonna lie to you,
I think you're beautiful.

And I really like you and
I would like the chance to,

to take care of you
the way I should be.

- I thought you
were with Rachel.

- No no, what, is
that what she said?

- Yeah.

- No I have never felt about
her the way I feel about you.

Sorry, that probably
sounds so stupid.

- No, you can't
help how you feel.

- Yeah you're a real smart girl.

Do you mind if I kiss you?

Let me take care of you Dawn.

I know what it's like to
be let down by a family.

We're one and the
same you and I.

Oh, I got you something today.

Don't get too excited, it's not
that expensive, it's just...

It reminded me of you.

Here, I was thinking that maybe

when you wear it,
you'll think of me.

- Dinner smells
great I'm starving.

500, not too bad, some
guy gave me a huge tip.

- How you doing David, haven't
seen you in a few days buddy.

- My good shoes got stolen.

- Yeah it's rough out
here, come in and see me

at the mission, we'll
work something out.

- Yeah uh, do you have a
few bucks you could give me?

- You know I can't do
that, come in and see me.

- Yeah well, oh well.

- So how long were
you on the street?

- Ah years, on and off.

Yeah, I'd happen to manage
to get a job every once

in a while and a room
somewhere, but I'd always end up

getting fired and be
back on the street again.

Wait, okay Dawn is
right over there.

- Yes she's right,
ssshht, come here.

Please let me go
talk to her alone.

If you go there she
might run again, please.

- Okay, okay.

- All right I'll be right back.

- Go, go go go go, go.

- Where's the furthest
you've ever been?

- I almost went to
Disneyland once.

But my mom canceled the trip.

She didn't have
enough money saved up.

- That totally doesn't count.

- I haven't really
been anywhere I guess.

- I'm gonna go to New York.

Basti too of course.

- Someday.

I wanna go around
Christmas time,

shop at Saks, Fifth Avenue.

See The Rockettes at
Radio City Music Hall.

I am not going to spend
the rest of my life

in this lousy town.

It's why I'm doing
what I'm doing,

just to make some money
and get outta here.

You should head back.

I'm gonna be a few minutes.

Don't worry, I'm fine.

- Yeah.

- My name is David I work at
the Rescue Mission, downtown.

You know Jamie's really
worried about you.

- Tell her not to be.

- Actually Dawn
was just leaving.

- I didn't get your name.

- No you didn't.

- If you or Dawn ever wanna
talk, just give me a call.

- Hey.
- Hey.

Hey can you grab me a beer?

- Yeah.

- Come here.

I needed this thank you.

- Somebody stole
my wallet today.

- Yeah.

- Had the rent money in it.

- Oh my God I'm so sorry.

- Hey.

We stick together no
matter what right?

- Right.
- Yeah.

This isn't good Dawn.

If we can't pay the rent
we're on the street.

- You know if I had the
money I'd give it to you.

- I know you would baby.

But maybe you can help.

I mean it's not...

It's a lot to ask but...

It's just, I don't
know what else to do.

- I'll do whatever
you want me to do.

Our families abandon
us, and abuse us.

This is how we fight back.

We're survivors.

Just look at how
beautiful you are.

I have so much respect
and love for you.

You're gonna make me so proud.

- The first client's
always the hardest.

- Hey, you wanna eat lunch, I
could fix some for both of us.

- Later yeah come sit.

Come sit.

Wanna open it?

- Why the sudden
interest in my mail?

- Honey your husband
filed for a divorce,

you don't wanna look at it?

I'll look at it later, I've
got a lot on my plate, and...

- For starters.

Why are you so
negative about her?

- I am the one who has been
here from the very beginning

of this whole mess.

- Is that how you
see me, as a mess?

- You know what I mean.

- For all intents and purposes
I became Dawn's mother

and that responsibility
doesn't just go away

because my life is a mess.

- Honey you can't save Dawn.

Only Dawn can save Dawn.

- I'm a trained counselor, so
I know that sometimes people

just need a little bit of
nudging before they get help.

- I'm sorry your
husband cheated on you.

I'm sorry that you didn't
get the dream that you

worked so hard
for, little sister.

You can't deal with your
present until you deal

with your past.

- Thanks for seeing me.

- You're welcome.

- You look great.

- I know you're sorry David,
I got all your letters

when you were in rehab.

- He's good, you're still
working at the mission?

- Yeah, associate
pastor doesn't pay much.

Do you have a picture of
Jordan you could give me?

- Is the number you texted
me from your right number,

I could send you
a senior picture.

Yeah when's
the graduation?

- He already graduated David.

- Oh, I'm sorry to
have missed that.

- Well you didn't really
expect an invitation did you?

- I guess not.

- After you left, I used to
tell Jordan that his father

graduated college
top of his class.

And that he came along
and swept me off my feet

and married me.

- And on the night he was
born, his father stayed awake

all night, just staring
at him, at this miracle.

I told him those things
so that he could feel

like he came from something.

So that he could ignore the
fact that we were on food stamps

and that his mother had to
borrow money from her parents

more times than she could
remember, and that his father

was lying drunk
somewhere in the streets.

Jordan doesn't want
you in his life David,

I'm not sure that he ever will.

- I'm believing he will.

- Well the odds aren't good.

- Will you tell Jordan that
I'm going to be at this

exact coffee shop
at this exact table,

next Tuesday at 5 p.m. sharp.

And if he doesn't come then
I will be here the next

Tuesday at 5 p.m. sharp
and the Tuesday after that,

and the Tuesday after that,
until he decides to see me.

- I'll tell him.

I don't think you realize how
much damage has been done.

It's our teacher,
it's our friend.

Trust in your innate
ability for goodness,

ask the universe what your
lesson is and move on,

there are no mistakes,
there are only opportunities

for growth, Jamie.

- Good morning.

It's amazing how fast we
all feel like strangers

actually, I'm sure that
you've heard by now

that Pastor Willem and
I are getting a divorce.

And that's probably
come as quite a surprise

to you as it did to me.

My marriage and a
precious friendship

that I thought were
authentic, were not.

But change is seldom welcomed.

It imposes itself on us
and forces us to wake up.

I set myself as the example
of what a Christian woman

and Christian wife
would look like.

But I'm not the example.

Forgive me.

I don't know what's next.

But I know that I am
gonna continue to wake up.

And I am gonna be wishing
that for all of you too.

Thank you.

- Uh...

Give me just one minute please.

- I thought I'd check in with
you, I didn't see Dawn today.

Don't you have better
things to do with your time?

- I lied to you.

- Hmm-mm.

Willem and I aren't just
having marital issues,

he's having an affair
with my best friend.

And Dawn left because
Willem made a pass at her.

- I appreciate your honesty.

- You sound like a counselor.

- I am.
- Me too.

If confession is good
for the soul then why do

I feel so lousy?

My life is falling apart and
I have no idea what to do.

- It's okay to be vulnerable,
it's when God does

his best work.

- Please don't get
all religious on me.

I don't
believe in religion.

- I don't know what
I'd believe right now.

- I am helping you
because I want to.

Now I need to, somehow I hope
it helps me get my son back.

I'm sorry about your husband.

- Yeah.

Sucks.

- I'll pray for you.

- Thanks.

- I don't know what it's called.

- I never heard of it.

- Yeah.
- Oh man that's so weird.

But so good though.

- Yeah good for
too huh?

- Why isn't there
cheese in Chinese food?

- Because they don't
want it to taste good.

- Hey.
- Hey.

- You want a burger,
you should get a burger.

They're good here, they have
real cheese and everything.

None of that processed crap,
you don't wanna be putting

those chemicals into your body.

- Yeah and the patties they
just come from one cow.

- You know that some patties
come from over a hundred

different cows?

Okay you remember how
I told you to talk less

and listen more?

- Yeah.

- Well I was wrong, what
is that crap, 100 cows?

No!

Hey, , Miss Sunshine?

Why the long face?

- Nothing.

- Do you mind ordering
me more fries?

He took all of mine.

- I think I'm gonna
go back to school.

- And what kinda
school would that be?

- I don't care, I just
wanna finish my senior year.

- Well, I guess that
means we should go get you

some school supplies.

I'm sorry does this look
like I'm running a daycare?

- No.

- Why would anyone
wanna go back to school?

- Hi Mom.

- Hey baby, be a doll and
make me another drink?

Oh and grab a rag or
something because clumsy me

I spilled something.

And how about
Chinese for dinner?

I won 20 dollars on the
Scratch-It and I'm feeling rich.

- Is there anyway I could get
some money for PE clothes?

- Honey you know I
can't find a job?

How was school?

- It was school.

- You're still getting good
grades, you're not skipping

or nothing?

- I have all As, except for PE.

- You have such beautiful hair.

My Mama used to say that
your hair was spun of gold.

About the nicest
thing she ever said.

- I miss Grandma.

- I'm proud of you Dawnie.

You know my mom never
said that to me?

She said, the only thing
I would ever become

was a drunk like my father.

That's what she said to me.

Promise me you'll finish school.

I expect more of you.

- I only have a few credits
left, it would only take

a couple of months.

- Okay listen, you're
not going back to school,

so just get that outta
your mind, this is school.

Life.

And it costs money.

- I was not really
popular in school.

- Shut up.

- Yeah it is.

- Really that's surprising.

- I thought girls like you,
they're usually incognito.

Don't want your mom to find out.

Later.

- Hey I'll catch up
with you guys in a sec.

- All right.

- See ya.
- See ya man.

Dawn?

- Hi.

- What are you doing
at my old high school?

- A buddy of mine
from church goes here.

We were just gonna shoot
some hoops, where did you go?

I've been asking
at church about you

but nobody knows, and I went
to your aunt and uncle's house

but your uncle said you went
to live with your father,

did you?

- She wasn't there.

You don't know?

- Your aunt Jamie
left Pastor Willem,

it's big news at the church.

- I didn't know that.

- Why didn't you tell
me you were gonna leave?

- I was in a hurry.

Do you go
to school here now?

- Connor have you ever
put your mom to bed

because she was too
drunk to do it yourself?

- No.

- Have you ever gone to
bed hungry because your dad

quit paying child support,
or have you ever told your

friends that you
needed to get home

because your mom's
worried about you,

but the truth is she doesn't
care when you come home,

you just tell them that so
they'll think that you have

a parent who cares?

- No.

- I didn't think so.

- Do you think that's gonna
make me think less of you?

I care about you Dawn.

I thought we cared
about each other.

- You're a really sweet
boy, who has no idea

what life is like
for a person like me.

So go home and tell your
parents over and over

and over again how grateful
you are that you don't

have to have a
childhood like mine.

- Just because you have
a bad start doesn't mean

you have to have a bad ending.

You matter Dawn.

And if to no one else,
you matter to me.

- Stop.

- Basti please just calm down.

Don't don't--

Huh, huh?
- I didn't take them.

- I didn't take them!

Basti I didn't, please
you're hurting me.

- Where did they go,
did they just disappear?

Just disappear huh?

It's okay, it's okay.

Why don't you sit down?

Hey?

- Yeah get me a beer.

You okay?

- Never better.

- He thinks I took his Oxy.

But I didn't.

I mean he took 'em a while
ago, he's just so high

he can't remember.

- I'm so sorry Rachel.

- Me too.

I'm sorry you're here.

I should've told you what
Basti was going to do to you.

- Dawn, you're not the
first girl to be here okay?

Basti didn't lose his wallet.

He knew you were sucked
him, he knew that you'd do

anything for him,
he doesn't love you.

Or me.

- He has thousands of
dollars hidden away

in this apartment.

- Yeah.

- None of your business.

- Let's steal it and run away.

- No!

Do you have any idea what
Basti would do to us?

- He won't catch us.

Let's go to New York,
let's steal the money

and let's go to New York,
it's what you've always wanted

let's go!

- I'm too scared.

- First thing in the morning,
while Basti's sleeping it off,

I'll get the money and you
and I will get out of here.

We'll get the money
and we'll go okay?

- Okay.

- It's in the hall closet,
it's in a shoebox on

the top shelf.

- You go outside, I'll
be there in a moment.

- Okay.

Come on you don't think
I'd be stupid enough

to leave thousands of
dollars in a box do you?

- Ah somebody help me, Rachel!

Get off of me, get off of me!

No, no get away from me!

Ah you little tramp!

That's right!
- Rachel!

- Hello.

- If you wanna help Dawn,
you'd better get here

really quick, she's
gonna get hurt bad.

- Hi.
- Hi Basti.

Could I speak to Dawn please?

- Uh, no, there's no one
here by that name sorry.

- I'm here.
- Go to your room!

Man we're fine, just
a misunderstanding.

I'm trying to teach her
about healthy boundaries.

- Dawn would you
like to go with me.

- Yes.

- Where are you gonna
take her, uncle pervert?

- Let's go Dawn.

- She's not going
anywhere, she owes me.

- We seem to be at
an impasse don't we,

you know what it's
not a problem,

now I'm just gonna
call the police

and I'm gonna get 'em over here,

they're gonna
settle this for us.

You wouldn't have a problem
with that, would you Basti?

You don't have any
nasty warrants out

for your arrest do you?

- Hi.

- Yeah she's being admitted.

- Okay, why didn't
you bring her to me,

I mean she should
be with family.

- She didn't wanna
come to your house.

I'm sorry but we gotta
meet her where she is.

- All right, well, who
do I need to speak to.

- Yeah, Hope's Ladder
isn't easy to get into,

I had to pull a lot of
strings to get her here.

- We really appreciate
all your help, David,

hi, I'm Lori, I'm
Jamie's sister.

- Nice to meet you.

- Well you can say a quick
hello, but her therapy team

will decide when she
can have family visits

once they have talked to her.

- Oh great.

- Well at least we know
she's in a good place.

Jamie this is a
huge step forward.

- Yeah I know, you're right.

So I don't understand, how long?

- Six weeks to six months.

- Everybody's different, could
be anywhere from six weeks.

- Oh Dawn, oh honey.

Your aunt Jamie
never stopped looking for you.

Not for a second.

Huh?

- Dawn needs to get
settled in her room now.

- Okay.

- I'll let you know when
she can have visitors.

- Well I'll be back okay,
just as soon as they say okay?

- Bye.

- I'm gonna come in
tomorrow and check on you.

- Hang in there honey.

- Did you get
settled in all right?

- Yeah.

- Can you tell me why you
didn't go to group this morning?

You know one of the
requirements for staying here

is you attend all
group meetings.

- I wasn't feeling up to it.

- Can you tell me why you
weren't feeling up to it?

- I was having a bad hairday.

- Look I understand
that you're angry Dawn,

you've been through a lot.

But just talking--

- You see the problem is,
I don't wanna be here,

but I don't wanna leave.

I don't wanna be high, but
I don't wanna be sober.

I don't wanna wake up, but
I don't wanna go to sleep.

So far things haven't been
working out so great for me.

And if this is all
that life is then,

I'd rather just skip
out on the whole thing.

Have you had thoughts
of taking your own life?

- Not really.

- Often if we have
suicidal thoughts,

we just want the pain to stop.

And what we're going to try to
do is give you some tools you

can use to help face these
struggles in a constructive way.

- I'm gonna need a lot of tools.

- That's okay, because God
never runs out of tools.

John 3:16 says, "For
God so loved the world,

"that he gave his only son.

"That whosoever believes
in him will not perish

"but have eternal life.

"For God sent not his
son to condemn the world

"but that world through
him might be saved."

God's love for us
never runs out.

He is the God of second,
third and fourth chances.

If you need a new beginning,
you've come to the right place.

- Give me your wallet.

- There's no money in it.

- I said give me your wallet.

- Could you, man could
you please just give me

the picture of my son?

You don't look so good,
what happened to you buddy?

- I think it would
be better if I died?

- No that's not the way to go.

- I walked out on my family.

I haven't seen my boy in years.

God knows all, and he
still cares about us.

There's no sin so deep that
God's not deeper still,

none of us deserve
his forgiveness,

but he gives it to
us as a free gift.

Totally undeserved,
you know God says,

"Taste and see that I'm good."

Will you pray with me?

- Yeah.

- Pray after me.

Jesus, I know I have
done wrong in my life.

- Jesus, I know, Jesus
I know I've done wrong.

- I wanna change.
- I wanna change.

- Please forgive me.

- Please forgive me.

Please take away
the burden that I bear.

- Please take away, please take
away the burden that I bear.

- Come into my life
and my heart, and be
my lord and savior.

- Please come into
my life and my heart,

and be my lord and savior.

- Amen.

- Amen.

- Okay well why won't
she see me this time?

- She didn't say.

- Well this is the fourth day
in a row that I've been by

that she won't see me.

- I'm sorry but you can leave
her a message if you'd like.

- Hey, you found me, come in.

- What have you
been saying to Dawn?

- I've been by there
the last four days,

and, she won't see me.

- I know nothing about it,
she didn't say anything to me.

- Well somebody has
been saying, something!

- You know what she's
working through a lot,

why don't you give
her some time?

- I'm not the bad guy here!

- Hey, wow back up,
nobody said you were.

- Yeah, I am.

My husband has an affair,
and I lose my marriage

and my church, he makes a pass
at my niece and I'm to blame.

You know I made the right
choices, I didn't drink,

or do drugs, I don't deserve
this, I went to college,

I married a pastor, I
co-pastored a church.

- Okay Jamie now God sometimes
works through adversity

in our lives to try to bring
us into a closer relationship

with him.

That's good.

I spent my entire
life serving God.

And I got nothing, now I
didn't abandon my family

and drink my brains out on the
streets, I didn't need to go

work at the mission to
try to earn my son back,

I served God!

Do I know him?

My whole life has
been about God.

- I'm not gonna go
see Dawn anymore.

Look at this room,
I love it it's so much light.

- Yeah it really does
have a lot of light,

it's great I love it.

Wow, okay, so first
and last rent?

- Yes.

- I'll take it.

- I thought today we'd
talk about the importance

of forgiveness.

Tell me why you're
responding the way you are.

- You're saying we
should just forgive?

You know what the way
my boyfriend treated me,

he should be the one
begging for my forgiveness.

- My stepdad kicked me out
of the house when I was 15.

He said he'd wish I
had never been born.

I wish he'd never been born.

- You know if they don't
ask for forgiveness,

there's no reason to give it.

- Yeah that's right.
- Yeah.

- I mean we didn't
do anything wrong.

- Okay, okay.

You're right, we don't
have to forgive, nah-ah.

So if we hold on to all of
the anger, and resentment,

who are we really hurting?

- So I should say to my
boyfriend hey babe it's fine

that you beat me for no
reason all those times

because I forgive you,
can I fix you some dinner.

- Yeah.
- I mean get real.

- No one is saying
what they did is okay.

And they don't
deserve forgiveness.

But you deserve to be free.

- I can't live locked
up like this anymore.

I want a better life, but
that life isn't possible

with all this hate that
I have inside of me.

I'll try, I'll try to forgive
if that's what it takes.

But I, I can't live with
this hate my whole life.

- Dawn!

Where are you going?

- Don't worry I'm
just getting some air.

Why!

Why?

Hello God are you there?

Please!

God I'm here.

God I want to trust you again.

God I'm here.

God I'm listening.

God I want to know you.

- David!

Hi.
- Hey.

- I've been looking
everywhere for you.

I thought you could use
some company out here

it gets kinda lonely.

- I'd love it.

Good.

I wanted to thank you for
everything that you did

for Dawn and for me.

- You don't have to thank
me, it was my pleasure,

but you're welcome.

- I heard you saw your son.

- Yes I did how about that.

Wow that's great.

- Yes thank you.

- I'm really happy for you.

I'm also really sorry
for what I said to you

about your drinking and...

- Yeah, well I'm not gonna
say that didn't stink

because it did, but, I also
knew you were really hurting

at the time.

- Still I shouldn't have
said that, I'm really sorry.

- She's really good actually.

Yeah there's, there's
a light about her

that just wasn't there before
it's, it's really miraculous.

Do you remember
what you said to me?

I didn't know what
you meant at the time,

but, I think I do now.

I mean whatever it is that
you and Dawn have, I don't.

I've spent my entire life
in the church, but I don't

know him, not like you and Dawn.

Tell me how?

- They look good so good.
- Oh oh they're coming!

- Good, good, good, good.
- They're coming!

- Oh my God!

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