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- You gonna help me?

- Of course.

Do I need to know anything about your dad

before we start?

- No.

Okay.

Dear Dad,

I love you

and thank you so much for everything.

Happy 70th.

- It's great. It's short.

It's sweet. - It's perfect.

- Yeah, I know, it's perfect.

Yeah, no, I love it.

I love it.

- We're surrounded by pirates.

- Who is that?

- It must be my dad.

One minute.

- He died in his sleep.

I'm sorry.

- Hey, hi.

- Hey.

- I'm Linda.

- I'm Aaron.

- Hey.

I'm sorry. - Okay.

- About your dad, I'm sorry.

It wasn't supposed to happen like this.

And I know we've only been together for a few months,

but

I'm here for you.

- Okay.

Thank you.

- Yeah. Anything.

- We should go inside. - Yeah, yeah.

- How are you?

- Well, I'm okay.

You're all grown up, huh?

- This is Aaron.

- Hello. - Oh, hi, Aaron. How are you?

Welcome to Belize. - Nice to meet you.

- What about Ben? - Uh, I don't know.

- You haven't reach him? - No.

I will call him right now.

- So Mara says you're like a second mother to her.

- Yeah, she was just a tiny little thing, yes.

But I'm glad that you're here for her.

- Yeah, me too.

- So, Ben is

coming in from Placencia? - Yeah.

- Ben's her brother, right?

- Yes, he is. - Yes.

- Have you two been together long?

- Almost a year.

- A year?

That's nice. - Yeah.

- Shit.

You got sosa beans in the kitchen?

He's a vegan.

- I can fix him a plate.

- Sorry, thank you very much.

- Thanks. - You're a vegan? Why?

- That's not a good story.

But,

the fact that I am a vegan is a good thing.

And--

- You're kind of strange, aren't you?

- Here you go. - Thanks.

No.

Well, maybe, but

I know myself, and I know that I need rules, and

I know that with structure,

I can stay away from all the bad stuff, so,

it's easier.

- I understand. - Thank you.

- When they first came here,

she was just a little thing. - Yeah.

- She was small for her age,

her and her little brother.

They were so troublemakers.

- Still a troublemaker.

- Used to give her dad a hard time.

There were many stories for her.

- Didn't you two had a playhouse

somewhere on the tea farm? - Mm-hm.

- Ah, it used to drive him crazy.

- Mara.

Maybe we can work out the arrangements

later, like when Ben reaches. - Sure.

- Yes, but I already made arrangements with the neighbor

for his wake.

You know what a wake's-- - I don't think Mara and Ben

would wanna, you know, stay up all night.

I mean, it might be too much for them, Ma.

But that's how you can honor your father.

- He's not from Belize.

- Well, he made his life here.

We've got to have a wake.

Remember my uncle?

- Uncle Clarence? - Yes, Uncle Clarence.

You know, when I was a little girl and he died,

I didn't go to his wake.

- Wakes here last all night.

It's the way that we take watch, so the spirits

don't bother us. - He did not let me rest.

Every day.

At dusk he would come and knock at the window.

- I can't believe we're going to his birthday party.

- My condolences. - Thank you.

- Your dad was a great man.

We worked many years together. - The hospital?

- Yeah.

- Okay.

- Nice to see you. - Nice to see you.

- You need any help?

- No, we're good, thanks.

Come here.

- You okay? - Yeah.

Okay.

Hang on.

- I wonder if he died in that bed.

- We could sleep in the other room.

Come here.

Wait.

Wait, wait, wait.

Wait, wait.

I don't think this,

this is hard.

- Why? - You're wasted.

I think I'm just gonna put you to bed, yeah?

- Is this

just AA stuff?

- Maybe.

Why do you lie?

Hmm?

Why do you lie about us for?

You lied about me.

Lying doesn't work.

You know that.

- We just lie here?

- Yes.

We just lie here.

Till we fall asleep.

- Whoa, whoa, whoa! - Dad's bed, huh?

- What? - Get out!

- You could have fucking told me, Mara.

- You should get dressed. - Why?

- People coming to set up, but

I think you already knew that.

- Sorry Ben.

I was gonna tell you. - Yeah.

When, today?

The day of his wake?

I have to find out

in the middle

of the night at a fucking bar

through the fucking Belizean grapevine.

Can you imagine that, Mara?

"Hey, mon, I'm really sorry about your dad."

- Well, I don't know why it's such a big deal.

It's not like you've spoken in years.

- Who's this? - Aaron.

This is my brother Ben.

Ben, this is Aaron. - Hi.

- Would you like a coffee, or a tea, or anything?

- I'd love some tea.

She didn't tell you about me?

- Not everything's about you, Ben.

- Ouch.

So, you know how he died?

- Grace wouldn't tell me. - No?

- Said he died in his sleep, or something?

- Mm-hmm. Alone.

- I don't know, I would assume so.

- When's the last time you saw him?

- How are you possibly gonna use that on me?

- You know, you probably shouldn't start this right now.

- You fucking live here.

- Yeah, and?

- I've been busy. - Yeah.

I can see that.

Sorry.

Tell me your name again, man.

- Aaron. - Aaron.

Great to meet you, man.

What's your deal?

Where you from, what do you do, what do you love?

Tell me everything.

- I'm sorry about your loss, man.

- It's alright. - Aaron.

- Yeah.

- I wanna show you something.

- Fucking paradise.

- Wanna come?

- Whoo!

Yeah.

C'mon, man, get in the water.

Get in.

In the water. - Stop it.

Stop!

- Fuck you stop.

- Stop it!

Stop it!

Stop it!

Fucking stop it!

Stop!

Fucking stop!

No!

Stop it!

- Mara! - Hey Aaron!

You gotta come here, man, check out these bats.

Come on, don't be scared.

Got your rabies shot, right?

Cool man, just messing around.

Pretty sure that's why my dad bought this place.

- Because of the bats?

- Swimming hole, this cave.

It's primordial.

A return to the essential self

and the healing powers of nature.

You know, that kind of thing.

- What kind of healing powers?

- You don't know, huh?

- I don't know much.

- Mom died when Mara was 11, and my dad lost it.

He moved us down here.

- Sounds like an interesting guy.

- Yeah.

- What's this all about, man?

- Just trying to understand.

- Where were you?

- Your brother showed me the cave.

- Did you like it?

- Yeah.

I like bats.

- You do?

- Mara.

Mara.

Linda's here with the will.

So, let's speed up whatever it is you're doing.

- He's right here?

- Yeah.

Mara's busy.

- Well, I guess I can leave this with you now, right?

- Okay, good.

Well, it could be awhile.

I could make you some tea.

- Well, we have--

Yeah.

- Did I hurt you?

- No.

It's like high school.

It's like junior high school.

- Do you mind if I have a minute?

- No.

Take your time.

- Aaron and I are going into town.

Can I get anyone anything?

- With what car?

- You don't need yours, do you?

- I think you should go check out the plot

that me and my mom picked out.

- Cemetery plot? - Yes.

Tomorrow's the funeral.

- Why does it matter where he's buried?

He only went to mom's grave once.

- Yeah, a burial doesn't make sense.

Just burn me up,

cremate me,

spread me in some compost.

- People will be eating you.

- But I'll be dead.

- I know when my dad died,

my mom just wanted a place to visit.

But, you see a grave, you know?

You do get a sense of closure.

- Yeah, that's really good to know.

- People need rituals, you know?

There's a reason why people come together when

someone dies.

- What's this?

- It's the will.

Linda's the executor.

- Of course.

- She lives her, Mara. - So do you.

- It's true, but I'm okay with it.

- I'm okay with it.

Dad bought the tea farm.

- What?

- Yeah, I know.

I was shocked when he first told me.

- Should we go?

- What?

- We don't need to do everything all together.

- What about the will? - Ben, quiet.

- People will soon be coming.

- Yeah, what do we need?

Lights? Natural lights.

- You're not driving anywhere, you're too fucked up.

- What? - You're on something.

It's obvious to everyone.

- You're not making any sense.

- You're not making any sense. - I can drive.

- Thank you.

And thank you very much for taking care of everything.

- What does he mean?

You fucked up?

- I don't know.

I don't know.

- Well, I'm not comfortable with you driving.

- I took a Xanax.

- Just one?

- Yes, just one.

- I'm not doing this.

Just let me.

Thank you.

- I don't need a sponsor.

- You're careful.

- Sorry.

- I understand.

I just can't sit and watch you do it.

Is this the tea farm?

- Part of it.

- Looks different in here.

- This was all his.

I don't know if you or Mara would want any of it.

- Turn here.

- What's this?

- So, I took more than one Xanax or Klonopin.

There are extra pills in there.

I'm just really tired.

- You lied again.

- Yeah, well, I'm telling you now.

- No, no, no, no.

Not like this.

Look at me.

Look at me.

- Okay.

- How long has it been?

- Two hours, I guess.

- Oh, fuck.

- What the fuck is wrong with you man?

- Don't fucking touch me.

- Ben just lie down, lie down, Ben.

Just lie down.

- I'm good.

- Ben, have a seat. - Stop touching me, man.

- What'd he take? - I don't know.

I just saw him drinking.

- Folks are arriving any second.

- Where's Mara. - Look at me.

- Ben?

- Come on.

- I don't want this.

All these people coming over.

- Hey.

- Hey.

- Has this happened before with Ben?

- Yeah, it's not the first time.

- When are they gonna come back?

- I don't know.

- Do they usually come back?

- Sometimes, but other times, my mom have to go after them.

- Mara.

Mara.

- Hey. - Hey.

You okay?

- Yeah, I'm gonna take a minute.

I'll come find you. - Yeah, good.

- Okay.

- Your father was a great man.

He helped save my son.

He was in an accident.

Your father was a saint.

- Thirsty?

- Yeah.

- I get it, man.

I've been there.

I know what it's like.

- Yeah, I know, man, I think we covered that.

- The thing is,

all this pain that you have,

it's gonna kill her, too.

- Yeah, man.

You're right.

You're right.

- We have to worked together now.

- How?

- The tea farm.

John left the tea farm for me,

well, for Trowey.

I just wish that they would have seen him how I see him.

♪ I was once was lost ♪

♪ But now I'm found ♪

♪ Was blind ♪

♪ But now I see ♪

♪ Amazing grace ♪

♪ How sweet the sound ♪

♪ That saved a wretch like me ♪

- To John.

- To John.

- I love that man.

Moved out here to the jungle

with two small children.

Mara,

Ben,

your father is exactly-- - Don't forget about Linda.

Karl, don't forget about Linda.

She's 30,

or 31,

so my mother was definitely-- - Mara?

- Yes?

- Mara, Mara!

Go and lie down. - Why don't you say it?

Just say it. - Say what?

- Mara? - You and dad?

You, you all, does everybody...

Does everybody here know my sister, Linda?

Before he moved us down here,

my dad would come on fishing trips.

He met Grace.

- Mara?

- Stop, please.

- Alright, well, I, you know.

I wanna tell a story.

I'm gonna tell a story.

Okay.

Here's one.

My dad was gonna teach us how to drive,

and...

Sorry.

It was Ben's turn, and he was like 15...

No, he was like 11 or 12, and he was really nervous, because

my dad always made Ben nervous.

And he tried to put it

in gear, and he keeps stalling the car,

and it was really funny at first,

'cause the more,

the more

he'd fuck up, the more nervous he'd become,

and the more nervous he'd become he'd fuck up.

My dad didn't--

I'm just telling a fucking story.

So the,

the more nervous he'd become, the more he'd fuck up,

until finally, he just totally fucks up.

He just totally, like, "Mom, the car won't start."

And Ben's like freaking out.

And then, my dad

loses it, like totally loses it.

- Get yourself together, girl.

- He takes Ben our of the car, and he just starts

thrashing him on the roof

of the car, just thrashing him, and I,

I had to get out and get between them, because I,

because I wanted to protect him.

Because I love him.

Anyway,

I got this, this happened.

- Don't.

- And then-- - That's enough.

- And then every time it happened, he would give us stitches

in the kitchen-- - Mara!

- Because he's a doctor, you know, Linda.

That he's a doctor, and so.

- What the fuck!

Throwing me under the bus wasn't enough,

you have to fuck with Linda, too?

- People have to

know what he was really like. - Why?

He's dead, it's over.

- Is it?

- You don't need to share this with anyone else.

We have each other.

- Why, because we're both doing so great?

- What's that supposed to mean?

- Please?

- Do you think,

you think anyone

will understand you like I do?

- Huh? - Ben, Ben?

- That fucking guy?

Mr. AA Wisdom?

Fucking Earnest Prettyboy, you think he's gonna understand?

You think he's gonna fucking save you?

- Stop. - Huh?

There's no one

else.

- Please, let's go.

- It's okay, it's okay, it's okay.

It's okay.

It's alright.

You're okay, okay?

Okay? Listen.

Look at me. - No. No, no!

- Look at me! - No, no!

Look at me!

Listen to me.

Mara, look at me.

Look at me, I see you.

I see you.

Whatever happened, okay, it's not your fault.

I'm gonna take care of you.

I'm gonna take care of you, alright?

I'm gonna take care of you.

I'm gonna take care of you.

Stop kissing me.

Stop, stop, stop!

Stop!

- It's not right.

It's just not right what she done.

- What not right?

- He was grieving.

No man's perfect.

- You know?

And you not do nothing?

They not have no ma.

They had you.

- Hey.

- I don't think he would wanna be buried.

I don't think he'd wanna be trapped underground.

- You're all wet.

- We need to let him go.

Let's do it how he would like.

Let's do it how he would like.

Let's honor him, and

we can do it how he would like.

- I've got you.

- You're gonna what?

It's just not done.

It just isn't done.

- We'll sit with him all through the night, like you wanted.

- But his spirit,

his spirit-- - Spirit will what?

Haunt you?

That's already happened.

I'll help you.

- Great.

♪ Well, once I lived the life of a millionaire ♪

♪ Spending my money, I didn't care ♪

♪ Takin' my friends out for a mighty good time ♪

♪ Buyin' boot-legged liquor, champagne and wine ♪

♪ Then I began to fall so low ♪

♪ Couldn't find me no friends, had place to go ♪

♪ If I ever get my hands on a dollar again ♪

♪ I'm goin' to hold on to it ♪

♪ Til the eagle grins ♪

♪ I said, nobody knows you ♪

♪ When you down and out ♪

♪ In your pockets ♪

♪ You ain't got one penny ♪

♪ And your friends, you didn't have any ♪

♪ Just as soon as I get up on my feet again ♪

♪ Everybody come and say that they're ♪

♪ Long-lost friends ♪

♪ For, Lord, without a doubt ♪

♪ Nobody wants you ♪

♪ Nobody needs you ♪

♪ Nobody wants you ♪

♪ When you're down and out ♪

♪ I say ♪

♪ Nobody wants you ♪

♪ Nobody needs you ♪

♪ Nobody wants you ♪

♪ When you're down and out ♪

- What are you doing?

This is,

this is...

This why you do this?

This is what you're doing?

Is this what you want?

- No. - Say it, say it.

You can say it. - Say what?

- Don't fucking touch me.

- No, please.

- Don't touch me.

- I can explain. - You ruined it.

You ruined it. - I'm sorry.

- What was I then?

You ruined it.

- Please, please.

Please.

- This is what you want.

- I'll fix it.

Let me go with you,

let me go with you. - No.

- 'Cause I want you.

I want you. - Don't.

- Please take me.

I want you.

I want you.

I want you.

I love you.

- This is not love.

- I love you.

Love you. Please.

Please don't leave, please.

- Say something.

- Go ahead.

- No, that's not how it goes.

- Come down here.

- I love you.

- Then fuck me.

- What?

- You still love me, Ben? - No.

It's not like that. - It's what you want.

You love me.

- No! It's not like that.

It's not like that.

I would never do that.

Stop!

Stop!

- Do it again.

Do it again.

Do it again like him.

- What are you saying? - Do it again!

Do it again! - Stop!

Stop, stop, stop!

Please, please, stop.

Stop.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

- It's over.