All language subtitles for alone_-_s01e04

I knew there were going to be animals
here, but I didn't think I was going to

be stopped.

I'm kind of glad I'm going home.

I have no way to defend myself. I'm not
sleeping here under a piece of canvas

with a bunch of wolves behind me. That
was enough for me.

Hello, bear.

You stay on your side.

I got a big problem. I lost my ferro
rod. I can't keep this fire going

indefinitely.

Rude.

Oh.

Hey, bear.

I think I found a way to filtrate water
without fire.

Bottoms up.

Look back at your life and think, where
did it go? Just poof.

When you get alone, all of it comes up,
every mistake you've ever made.

You wonder if the people in your life
really know how much you love them.

This is going to be a bitch.

We have to film it, and we're totally
alone.

Nobody knows what it's like here, except
for the ten guys out here doing it.

There's nobody here but me.

It's so hard doing this.

I'm scared to death right now.

I feel like I'm starving.

I'm ready to try to stop Hooger and
Paul.

The last man standing wins $500,000.

I don't want to go home. I want to win.

It's the chance in a lifetime, but it's
not worth dying over.

Hope I didn't scare you too bad.

All right.

This is my little calendar.

I've got some notches on that bad boy in
case I start to forget.

Look what the weather's done to me
blade.

Constantly wet.

It's dripping right now. I actually
ought to put on some rain gear.

Sky don't look good.

I knew that coming here and doing this,
my mind would be my biggest enemy.

And let me tell you, brother, it is
ripping me apart. My brain is just in a

thousand different directions.

I really don't want this tide to come
in.

When it comes in all the way, it's about
a few feet from the greenery here.

I wish I could stop it.

While the tide comes in, I can't use
this beach. I can't have this open air.

I have to get back into the dungeon.

And it's driving me absolutely freaking
insane.

It's so claustrophobic inside there.

But just working in there and walking
around is absolutely depressing.

Everything in there is eating itself.
It's just turning to mush. Every tree is

being bombarded by moss.

and it's just, I mean, it's almost
completely mush.

I mean, you can walk up to a stump and
just put your hand on it, and your hand

goes straight through.

It's just so wet in here.

I mean, look at that. Mushrooms growing
out of the top of the trees.

I mean, physically and mentally, this
place will drain a human body.

And I've spent a lot of my life in
places where it was just absolutely

horrible.

I'm a retired military and currently I'm
a trainer in Africa.

Hello.

You know, I've done this enough over the
past 15, 20 years through all my

training and military training and time
in combat and my job in Africa now.

One thing I know is that some of the
toughest people just snap.

Their emotions can just go take hold of
them and they're done.

I'm hoping that my training is going to
help me survive for as long as possible.

But that flipping jungle, it's
mentally...

Eating my brain.

Part of that could be dehydration or the
beginning stages of dehydration.

The tide's out, so I've got this
semi-fresh brackish, hopefully fresh

water that's been pumping out for a good
while. And I don't want to take it too

early because then all the salt water
doesn't get pulled out and I end up

drinking salt water and then I really
will be hallucinating.

So what I'm going to do is I'm going to
go down here and grab some water.

And I think I found a way to filtrate it
here without fire.

It's my wife's two-quart pot.

She came to the marriage with this.

I'm borrowing it.

I'll return it, hopefully.

It sure cleans it up nicely.

Bon appetit.

This is intense.

That forest is so dense.

It's so extremely hard to navigate
through it. You have to constantly be

climbing. It's really intense.

I'm just having a hard time being here.

I'm starving.

I want to eat so bad.

I kind of have like a clock over my head
right now, like a starvation clock.

It all depends on if I can get fish over
here, yes or no.

Eagles.

Look at that.

Salmon.

Yeah, that's why the eagles were here,
for the fish.

I think I just hit the jackpot.

Look at the size of this river.

Oh, man.

I just found a salmon river that goes to
the mountains, that's thick and pure,

that has fish in it. That's exactly what
I've been looking for.

I'm going to set the net up low so I can
try to catch the crab walking by.

Because this river is loaded with dead
fish, and they love to eat on that

stuff. They love to eat on stuff that's
just on the bottom, flesh and all that.

So they're going to come walking up this
river to where they smell the dead fish,

and then they're going to run into my
net.

Now I'm going to put rocks along the
bottom. My weights are holding down in

the middle, but I just feel better with
rocks on it as well.

Give me an extra weight.

I take a big grip up, and the current
tries to take my net. I don't have to

worry about it. It's weighted down.

So I'm going to check my net tomorrow.

Hopefully we've got some crabs.

A fish would be nice, too.

Right now, it's just dead calm.

Tide's going out.

It's like Christmas every time this tide
starts to go out.

I got all kinds of bull kelp washed up
here.

It snaps.

It wasn't as crisp as I'd like.

It should snap like celery.

It smells fresh.

Now what you want to do is pull the skin
off, like a carrot or a potato,

and then you can just eat it.

Definitely salty.

It'd be all right if I boiled it.

I don't want to eat too much because
it's a risk of getting

dehydrated.

But it doesn't really taste like much at
all except seawater.

It's got to have that good crunch
because you can't eat it. It's

decomposing.

There's just wood everywhere.

The resources here are unbelievable.

You know, these logs just break loose
from the logging. They just wash up.

It's unbelievable.

I don't see any reason to have to chop
wood up in the bush. I mean, if I can

get it up out of this tidal flat, get it
somewhere where it'll start to dry out,

even still I can split it up and it'll
burn wet once you have an established

fire. But the fire is the hard part.

If I can get a fire going, I know I'll
be okay here in the long term. I know

this is a competition between me and
myself, and maybe that's why I'm so

frustrated by not performing better yet.

Everything but the fire is fine.

If I can get a fire going, I know I'll
be okay here in the long term.

I know this is a competition between me
and myself, and maybe that's why I'm so

frustrated by not performing better yet,
but...

I'm

busting my friggin' arm right off this
mound of... It's like concrete.

There's the board I was too busy looking
at instead of watching where I was

walking.

Real nice telephone pole theater.

I'm going to go over here, dig out this
and get it up where it won't wash away.

Stupid. It's too heavy.

Definitely having one of those, be
careful what you wish for, you might

just get it.

Casting for the show started over six
months ago.

And it's all I could think about.

I just really wanted to do it.

I'd be, like, super afraid.

Because you're afraid of the dark.

I'm afraid of the dark.

I'm not afraid of anything on the island
other than myself, really.

There's no boogeyman that's just out
there murdering people.

What about, like, bears?

We have bears here.

Day to day, it's just going to be
keeping focused on what I'm doing at the

moment. You have to be in the moment.

It's like when you're running a race.

You can't think about the 26 miles ahead
of you. You got to think about what

you're doing at the moment.

You know, when it gets cold at night and
I'm at home, I can put an extra blanket

on the bed or snuggle up with my wife or
my dogs.

And here, I don't have anything.

It's just me and this camera I'm talking
to and nobody else to do anything, you

know.

Anyways.

enough feeling sorry for myself and
thinking about home.

Here's my pot of water.

Now that I've gotten water and my net
has been out, my biggest problem right

now is getting fire out here. I am
beating up my ferro rod.

I can easily get a fire with one strike.
I mean, I've probably done hundreds so

far, so I have to slow that down. I have
to figure out how to get this started

and way less strikes.

Nice. There's my rolling boil.

I'm going to gently take this off the
fire.

I'm going to let that cool down, and I'm
going to have a drink.

I just had an amazing idea.

This is cedar bark. If I scrape it with
my knife, like kindling, you can see it

puffs up really well. I've tried to get
flame in my ferro rod with that. It

hasn't worked.

But my fishing hooks go in this tin.

I'm going to pack this cedar bark in
here.

And I'm going to put this in my fire and
char it. You can do that with cloth

called char cloth.

This should work the same.

If this works, It will take a single
spark from the back of my knife or from

my ferro rod and give me an ember right
away.

That would be amazing.

That would be a total game changer.

All I got to do is char it up and see
what happens.

See the smoke coming out of the middle
of the hole?

That's exactly what I want.

Once it stops immediately, I take it
off.

Okay, let's see what we got.

See if it cooked enough.

Ooh, it did.

Look at all that char material.

All right, let's try a little bit of it.

It worked.

I have a nice ember. I'm gonna put that
inside my tinder bundle.

Yes. This looks very promising.

I think I finally cracked the code,
buyer-wise, to this place.

This has been quite the journey.

Life will get easier every day.

I've been having a lot of cramps,
stomach cramps. It's just this gut

-wrenching, like, tensioning of my
stomach muscles.

Anyway, I'm going to crawl back into

this sleeping bag and see if I don't
feel a little bit better.

Also, I'm seeing these flashing lights.

Every now and again, I'll see a flashing
light out there.

Is it lightning?

I don't have lightning bugs here. What
in the heck is it?

I guess you see things when it gets as
dark as it is here.

You see things that you wouldn't see
anywhere else.

It's freaky.

It started making me think while I was
laying here. I wasn't sleeping, but I

was thinking about the water.

Is the water fresh?

As it pumps out of this marsh, you know,
makes me wonder if I'm ingesting

seawater.

If I'm drinking salt water, I'm going to
go insane.

So, I had a pretty horrible night. I
didn't

sleep any until a little bit this
morning.

I've been having a lot of shakes,
extreme shakes, which is, I'm not, I

wasn't hungry, I wasn't thirsty, I
wasn't cold.

So, I really don't know what that's all
about.

Fact is, I'm thirsty, but I'm just
bloated. I feel like I just don't even

know if I have room in my stomach for
water.

That's not a good sign.

Shakes in the middle of the night
without hypothermia is not a good sign.

I'm concerned about this quality of this
water, this freshwater source.

I don't know what else it could be other
than this water.

And I'm looking at it right now, and the
water coming out of here is brackish.

It's actually saltwater mixed with
freshwater. I can see the tint that it

produces.

And I drank about 10.

Probably about 10 quarts of it
yesterday.

It could have higher levels of sodium in
it. Plus, it's got extremely high

amounts of bacteria because of the
temperature of this water. It's got to

be in the 50s. It's got to be in the
perfect range for bacteria growth.

So I've been drinking from basically a
brackish pond here.

I have been waiting until the tide is at
its lowest for this creek to drop out so

I can get the freshest water possible.

And then I filter it through
spanglemoth.

But it doesn't really appear.

I mean, just based on the way I feel, I
think I possibly have some type of...

Oh, that stinks. Oh, my gosh.

A dead fish rotting on the side of the
bank.

This is a nausea I have never felt
before.

Exhausted out of energy.

Oh my gosh.

This is one big sandwich.

And I'm the only one here to take a
bite.

Oh, there it almost came.

Today's a great day.

On the hike, I found chanterelles.

And not just a few, quite a bit.

Some of these are beauties.

Look at these guys.

I might just have to have mushroom soup
for the next two days, which is fine

with me.

What a find.

Couldn't be happier about it.

I found this bull kelp laying here, so
I'm going to give it a rinse and have a

nibble. I'm going to roll that up like a
mini burrito.

Mmm,

mmm, delicious.

Mmm.

I'll tell myself that that's the number
21 down at the Mexican restaurant.

Today is a pretty special day.

It's the hardest day for me to be out
here by far.

It's my little girl's birthday.

She turns four years old today.

And it wounds me to be out here.

We're proud of daddy, huh?

He's so strong.

He is very lovely.

You want to cook one now?

You're welcome.

I'm sorry I'm not with you on your
special day.

I miss and love you both.

Happy birthday, pumpkin.

I'm not sure when I'll be home

I went to bed with pretty good spirits
last night, and then I don't think I

slept more than a couple hours.

The solitude and the quietness of it.

My heartbeat was waking me up in the
middle of the night.

I actually hallucinated.

I'd wake up to flashes of light.

Middle of the night, it was dark. I
mean, when I say dark, it's dark.

And I look up at the top of my tent, and
as clear as day, I can see these

symbols. In the roof of my tent.

At first, my first thought was they were
watermarks.

Because, I mean, the thing is they were
random. They kept changing.

I don't know, they're like perfect Mayan
or Indian symbols or native symbols. I

don't know.

Now, was that dehydration?

Or was that the beginning stage of
insanity?

You know, I just felt unsafe.

Physically, mentally unsafe.

It's driving me insane.

I mean, literally.

I don't think I can close my eyes again
in this place.

I think I'm too far gone.

I called for a medic.

This journey may be coming to an end
abruptly.

There's no way that even something as
beautiful as this is worth dying for.

I never feared for my safety the way I
fear for it in that jungle.

It is the craziest thing I have ever
seen. It really is.

I'm getting nauseous.

This place has completely beat me down.

Here's the boat.

My guts are turning inside out, and my
nerves are shot.

What about when you're getting your
water from this creek right here? Once

it dumps, when it dumps out, when the
tide goes completely out?

This is not safe.

How much of the water do you think?

At least 10 quarts.

It's hard, dude. It's hard.

I've been in some hard places.

I've been in combat.

I've worked in some of the worst places
in the world.

I will not spend another night in there.

I was petrified.

I couldn't stay out here tonight.

I can't stay out here tonight.

I don't think I can go any further. You
sure? Yeah.

You're done? Yeah.

I'm tapping out. I'm done.

I'm not a bushcrafter. I'm not a
frontiersman.

You know, I believe in military
survival.

You do what you got to do to stay alive
and you get off the egg.

Girls, I'm coming home.

The isolation is a killer to me.

Until you've really been by yourself,
completely alone in something that's

harsh, it just completely broke my
spirit. It broke my will.

So goodbye to my cove, McGee's Point,

and hello to my rescue.

I think of myself pretty strong
mentally.

It's chewed me away just, you know.

There is no dry kindling in the forest.

You find fuel and you process it down.
That's the only way to get dry stuff out

here.

Processing wood is almost therapeutic in
a way.

It's really easy in this type of
environment when the rain is pouring

down and you're hunkered down in the
shelter to become your own worst enemy.

And that's the last thing that I want to
do.

Fire also gives you a big sense of
security.

There are a lot of predators in this
area.

You know, bears, heard the wolves
several times.

And the highest density of cougars in
North America.

There was actually a cougar attack in
this area about three weeks ago.

Guy was de-kayaking, you know, got out
to go to the bathroom or something, and

a cougar attacked him.

I think he had to be airlifted out of
there, actually. It was a big deal.

But, yeah.

It's just a matter of always, always
being aware of your surroundings.

And I think cougars are afraid of fire.

I just heard a twig snap.

a skunk i'm not afraid of bears or
cougars or any of that stuff getting me

in the night but i spent some time in
northern arizona and uh i woke up face

nose to nose with the skunk terrified of
skunk

I am hungry, and my body is reminding me
it's late.

Man, I want to eat so bad, I'm starving.

Okay, so my net has been out for a
couple cycles of high tide and low tide.

Let's go see if we got anything.

Here's my net.

Looks like there's a bunch of seaweed or
something.

Are you serious right now?

I see a huge fish on my net.

Look at this fish.

It's monstrous.

I hear a strange noise.

That was a weird sound. I didn't like
that sound at all.

That sound was bizarre.

It was like something was pulling its
paws out of the mud or something.

I hope that wasn't a predator.

I'll just take everything and run. I
don't even care about pulling in nicely.

I'm just getting out of here.

That was not cool.

My net's going to take a beating
dragging over all these sharp rocks and

everything, but I don't even care.

I just want to get back to my camp and
be safe.

Out here in the middle of the night, it
is really dangerous.

There's a bear in the area. There's a
cougar in the area. There's wolves in

the area.

It's not a joke.

That was a weird sound. I didn't like
that sound at all.

I'd take everything and run. I don't
even care about pulling it nicely. I'm

just getting out of here.

That sound was bizarre.

It was like something was pulling its
paws out of the mud or something.

I hope that wasn't a predator.

That was not cool.

I just want to get back to my camp and
be safe.

Out here in the middle of the night is
really dangerous.

There's a bear in the area. There's a
cougar in the area. There's wolves in

the area.

It's not a joke.

Can't believe the size of that fish.
That thing's huge.

I'm almost there.

All right, back at camp.

Time to get a fire going ASAP.

Got a number.

Put that inside my Tinder bundle.

Huge fish.

What a blessing.

All right, so I'm going to start working
on him and get him ready to be cooked.

I need to make a proper footprint table.

Flipstick.

I'm going to make quick quarters like
this.

Okay, so I'm going to just try to put a
knot in this without breaking it.

If I can.

Just like that.

And then go through here.

I'm going to do that again.

Okay, it's not the prettiest job I've
done on this, but it was quick. It was

at night.

Basically, the stick holds the fish up
like a sail, holds it all spread out.

So I'm going to just let that roast.

I think this has been the longest day
since I've been here.

And I think they'll probably get longer
once you get more things figured out.

And just kind of, it's like anything in
life. You set routines. Even animals

have patterns, routines.

And then it seems more monotonous.

You know, the newness.

The first couple days was enough to keep
you where it was just moving along, but

I can feel it starting to slow down
today.

If you spend a lot of time alone in the
wilderness, you better like yourself.

Better be good company.

This is about survival and everything
else, but to me, it's about living here.

It's about becoming part of the
landscape.

Nature here is a powerful force, and I
don't want to disrupt that.

I don't want to fight nature.

You know, I just hope that I'm able to
find myself and find a...

Find an inner peace here.

It's definitely the largest fish I've
ever done with this method.

Infrared's not going to do it any
justice, but that is golden brown

delicious.

Heavenly Father.

Thank you for this amazing meal I'm
about to eat.

Thank you for this beautiful fish on my
behalf.

I thank you for all that I have, all
that I will have, all that I've had in

the past.

I thank you for all that is.

I thank you for this amazing planet that
we live on.

Love and miss very much.

Amen.

I can't wait to eat.

I mean, it's like I've actually cooked
meat. Oh, my God. That's got to be five

pounds of meat right there.

Epic.

Let's taste it.

It's still juicy.

So it just dripped in my pants, so I
wiped it off right away.

I want to smoke this.

This fish is just knocking it out of the
park, though.

This is crazy.

Things have changed quite a bit.

I know I can find fresh water now.

I have tons of food out of nowhere.

I am very thankful for the turn of
events.

Because I wasn't doing well.

Things have changed.

Pretty sure I just saw a cougar about 10
feet from my front door.

Definitely the biggest fish I ever
caught.

It's time to dig in.

I

just

tried to stop Cougar about 10 feet from
my front door.

Two bright flashing eyes.

When my headlamp hit its face, it moved
really fast out of the way, silently.

All my gear is outside the filter right
now.

I think I hear it out there.

That's crazy. That's like a 150-pound
cat.

You know, it's like your house cat at
home.

Can't hide anywhere, super stealth, and
jump on top of the fridge, stand still,

and like crazy ninja, right?

But now I have a 150 to 200-pound ninja
running around in the woods.

That's feral.

That likes to eat meat and attacks
people for sure.

That's kind of like the most insane
predator I've ever heard of.

I have a flare in my hand, and I have my
knife.

Everything is buttoned up, and I'm going
to try to get some sleep.

We'll see what happens.

If I die tonight, I just want my wife,
Crystal, and my daughter, Sophie.

I know. I think of them every day.

My father.

I'm glad he's my father.

secret i want to build a boat to do some
fishing i've never built a canoe i've

got to see if this actually floats this
might be it for me absolutely miserable

weather Been in a pretty good mood since
I got here, but not so much today.

And I've got to hurry. It couldn't have
rained at a worse time, but here it is.

It's going to get colder and wetter. The
storms are going to come more frequently

as time goes on. The temperature's
dropping. It's driving me insane.

The sky looks evil. 45 mile an hour
winds and rain all night. Welcome to the

Pacific Northwest.

This is way out of my area of expertise.
I am scared of these conditions because

this is dangerous.