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‐ That workshop,
if I hadn't taken it,

I'd be so fucked.
‐ Well, you have me now.

24‐hour service.

I think something bad
happened to me

a long time ago
when I was a child.

Well, I have to
get out of here.

‐ You mean leave right now?
‐ Yeah, I'm gonna

talk to Harold, we'll get
our things together.

- Where are we going?
- Back to New York.

‐ To the compound?
‐ I'm taking it back.

‐ Eddie's hired an SL.

Secular Liaison.
She's a publicist.

‐ I have decided to
take down the guard booth.

If anyone's here,
it's time to come out.

He is just a kid.
We can help him.

‐ My husband's away and I need
to keep my family safe.

There was a bomb threat
in Spring Valley.

‐ Look, the kid is not
building a bomb.

‐ My life's work is studying
new American faiths.

‐ I recently
came across something

that Steve used to use.

The Hypoxian Cleanse.

Listen, if the
Hypoxian Cleanse is in there,

who knows what else there is?

‐ I enjoyed the other night.

‐ Me too.

‐ Because you seemed, uh...

I couldn't tell if‐‐

‐ I really did
have a good time.

‐ Great.
Good.

Maybe we can do it again
some time.

It's not just academic,
my interest in you.

I just needed to say that.

‐ Thank you.
‐ Oh, shit.

This is a lot harder
than I thought.

Maybe my assistant can‐‐

‐ No.
No assistant.

I'd rather not get
anyone else involved.

‐ Okay, no assistant.

What is this, anyway?
‐ Uh, just something

I found in an old box
in my mom's basement.

I didn't know anyone else
with a projector

or whatever it is
you need to play it.

‐ Mm‐and you didn't want
anybody else

to know you were watching it?
‐ It's probably just

some home movie or something,
you know.

I'm not expecting
to find anything.

It's just that
it's my mom's private stuff,

so I wanna be respectful
of that.

Okay, there.

I think I got it.
‐ All right, cool.

‐ Okay, you ready?

They were so young.

- Who are they?
- Some of the originals.

They climbed Huayna Picchu
with Steve.

- Huh.
- That's my mom.

‐ She looks like you.
She's beautiful.

Dad, this is...

I don't recognize that place.

- ‐ Like this?
- Yes.

But get on your knees.

- Sitting this way hurts, Lil.
- It should.

‐ Who is he talking to?
‐ A woman? I don't know.

‐ It's definitely not
my mom or Felicia.

Can you just pause it?
‐ Mm‐

Sure, I'll try.

‐ Can you just rewind it
and then...?

- Like this?
- Yes.

But get on your knees.

‐ Sitting this way hurts, Lil.

It should.
It will.

Now, focus.

‐ Well, whoever she is,
she's in charge.

‐ Seriously.
Who could she be?

Life is one long struggle
in the dark.

‐ Life is one long struggle
in the dark.

‐ Uh...

‐ Sarah?

What are you thinking?

Shit.

Um, I‐I have to go.

‐ Okay.

Everything okay?

‐ Thank you.

Uh, sir, can I have
your name, please?

‐ Where's your father?
He should be here.

‐ He's inside,
talking with the police.

‐ Well, somebody needs to
tell us what's going on.

‐ That's exactly what
he is going to do

as soon as he's finished
talking with the police.

‐ He let a Nazi onto our campus

and now there's a bomb threat.

I want answers.

‐ Hi, can I have your name,
please?

All clear.

- It was a hoax.
- You sure?

No bomb.

Wow.

All right, in the morning,
we should

gather everyone
in the meeting room

and I will give them
the lowdown.

‐ What will you say?

‐ That it's safe to go home.

And if they ask you if it
has something to do with Logan?

‐
I don't know.

Okay, the police don't know.

Hate crimes are on the rise
everywhere.

‐ Don't tell them that.
‐ Why?

What do you want me
to tell them?

That I made
a bunch of mistakes,

first by removing security?

‐ No.
‐ Look, I want you to know

that I still believe that
I was right about that kid.

He could've been helped.
‐ Okay.

Calm down.
I know that, okay?

‐ Look,
The Light is supposed

to guide my decisions.

The Light is in my instincts.

But apparently,
The Light's instincts are shit.

And so
my instincts are shit.

And now I have to go out there
in front of everybody‐‐

in front of Sarah‐‐
and eat crow.

‐ No, don't do that.

Don't eat crow.

Since "sorry"
won't satiate them,

it won't diminish their anger.

In fact, it'll make it worse.

You're the prophet
who walked through fire.

Go out there and be just that.

The situation is now resolved.
Everyone can go home.

And if someone has
a problem, guess what?

The gates are still open
and they can walk the hell out.

Tell them you take
your orders from The Light.

And stay away from "sorry."

I want to thank everyone
for coming out this morning,

after what I'm sure
was a very long night

for each and every one of you.

I want to start this off
by saying that...

I'm sorry.

I truly am.

I made rash decisions,

ignored the ODE,
the system...

and that was a mistake.

I hope that all of you
at least

were able to sleep
a little bit last night.

I know that's unlikely,
but all through the night,

I was in contact
with the police

and they assured me that it is
safe to return to the compound.

The threat that we received
was a hoax.

Your safety
and your own sense of safety

are very important to me.

I hope that you believe me
when I say that.

It was the wrong time
to take down our security gate.

But I'm gonna make sure
to reinstate those measures

as soon as possible.

Now, if anyone has
any questions, I'm‐‐

‐ What if something like this
happens again?

‐ I truly believe
that will not happen.

Does it have anything
to do with Logan?

I heard he failed the ODE.

‐ Look, it has nothing to do

with the boy that we know of.
Okay?

Are they gonna find out
who did it?

Look, I asked
Officer Banks that same thing

and he told me they don't...
‐ What's going on?

- ‐ Bomb threat on the compound.
- Like discussing much

during the investigation,
but he will keep us updated

as things move forward.

Please, I want to answer
any question...

- ‐ Sarah?
- That anyone wants

to ask, but this
has to be done orderly.

‐ Cal.
Mary.

Please, one at a time.

What brings you back?

- ‐ It was time.
- The police are not

discussing the investigation
at this time.

But like I said before,
I really don't believe

that Logan had anything
to do with this.

‐ Of course he did it!
‐ Well, I trust that the police

are looking into everyone.

‐ What do you think
about all this, Cal?

You hear about what's going on?

‐ Sounds like everyone's
had quite a scare.

Now, look, it's obvious
and understandable

that tensions are running high.

That makes complete sense.

Where've you been, Cal?

‐ The wilderness.

Florida.

‐ I'm sorry, who are you?

‐ Cal Roberts.
‐ Cal, well, this meeting

is for Meyerists only,
and I think we've answered

all the questions
we can for now.

Buses are waiting outside and‐‐
‐ No, no, it's‐‐it's okay.

Cal is an old friend of ours.

‐ People can be so foolish,

so misguided.

But what those without
The Light try to do to us?

They want to hurt us.
They want to scare us.

But they can't.

They can't
because of who we are.

And who we are

is a reflection

of who we follow.

And who we follow
is Eddie Lane.

I‐I tried to live
outside The Light,

but I heard the call.

I was able to hear the call
because Eddie

took down the walls
that surrounded Meyerism.

He flung open the doors,
he threw open the curtains,

saying to anyone
who would listen,

"All are welcome.

Even those who have strayed."

And the bravery that took
is immense.

My family heard
Eddie's call,

and we dropped everything.

We drove straight here.

And I‐‐and we...

Would like to stay.

If that would be okay, Eddie.

‐ Of course.

‐ Who is it?

‐ It's Eddie.

‐
‐ Hey, man.

‐ Hey.

You know, um, the longer
that you are parents,

the more you'll learn that

teaching consequences
is critical.

You cannot betray
so many people's trust,

disappear, then show back up
as if nothing happened.

‐ No, I'm not pretending
nothing happened.

‐ To be completely honest, Cal,

I don't even know
if you deserve to be

let back into this community
at all.

Much less be let back in
with this amnesia

you wish that we all had.

You will not be allowed
to enjoy the same

privileged status you had
before you left.

‐ I know what it looks like.

But I'm sincere.

All right, we tried to live
without this place.

But we couldn't.

‐ Yeah, it's true.
We‐‐we couldn't

and we want our son
to be raised here.

‐ Great.
Then you will be willing

to accept the consequences.

You and Mary and Forest

will be assigned to Dorm Seven

on the East Campus
with the Novices.

And from day one,
you will be included

in the work detail rotation.

- From day one.
- Why?

Why are you being
so vindictive?

‐ I'm not being vindictive.

I'm righteous.

He is the one who kept score,

secrets,
kept everyone in the dark.

No, it's okay, Mary.

‐ And speaking of
raising your son, here.

Forest will need
to be Embraced.

‐ What?

‐ You were.
‐ I didn't have parents.

- ‐ Sarah was.
- But you‐‐your children‐‐

‐ Russel was.
‐ Hawk wasn't.

‐ It is an act
of commitment.

A gesture of humility.

Submission.

Those are my terms.

And those are
your consequences.

Yes,
but get on your knees.

You found the film in
the box of clothes for Summer?

‐ Yes.
And do you recognize the voice?

‐ Why are you‐‐
‐ I was curious.

Would you recognize that, um...
that place?

Is it on our campus?
‐ I've never seen it before.

‐ But the woman who's talking,
it's‐‐it's odd.

It's like
she's commanding Steve.

‐ What is this about, Sarah?

‐ You don't know who it is?

‐ You're asking me
if I recognize some voice

from over 40 years ago.

No.
‐ Okay, listen again.

All right? It sounds like
he calls her "Lil."

- Like this?
- Yes.

But get on your knees.

Sitting this way hurts,
Lil.

‐ All right.
Did you hear that?

Lil.
Did you know anyone named Lil?

‐ Maybe it's Lilith.

It must be Lilith.

‐ Who's Lilith?
I've never heard of her.

‐ That's who it has to be.

Because she would talk
like that to him.

‐ Who is she?
‐ I think originally,

she was a patient of his.

‐ Of Steve?
‐ Yeah, she was disturbed.

Unwell.

She was in love with him.

She was obsessed, really.

All I remember is,
the last time that she visited,

it was sometime
in the late '80s.

She was erratic and angry.

And she made some
crazy claims about Steve.

‐ Well,
what kind of crazy claims?

‐ I can't remember.
They're just crazy.

It happens, you know,
just like Eddie

got called a cult leader
on a billboard last month.

Why don't you ask your dad
when he gets back?

He has a much better memory.

I think I'll make hlelem
tonight.

‐ Come in.

‐ I need to talk to you.

‐ Look, Nicole,
I know you're upset.

Okay, you've made that clear
and I understand.

‐ I know you do.

You know what
the end looks like.

Look, I'm not here about Logan.

I am here about the end.

The end of a marriage.

Russel gets back
from Peru next month

and I think when he does,
I want us to...

end.

‐ All right.
When he gets back,

- we will sit down.
- You don't understand.

It's been hell
since I unburdened my affair

with Sam Field.

And Russel acts polite,
says all the right things,

but he hates me.

Hates me.

And I thought
I could live with it

or I had no choice
because of the kids,

but now that he's been away,

I see I can do it.

I will be able to get by
without him.

‐ Nicole,

you two have been together
for 20 years.

‐ And now I'm done.
‐ All right, look,

I don't feel comfortable
talking about this

without Russel being here.

All right, this is something
the two of you

would need to decide together.

‐ I've decided I'm going to let
him know when he comes home.

‐ Well, if you've decided,

then what are you doing here?

‐ Because you're The Guardian.

I tell you and then
you give me your blessing.

Or advise me otherwise,
or punish me.

No, we don't‐‐we don't have
punishment anymore.

Oh, I...

I know marriage is the
cornerstone of The Movement.

‐ Nicole, I'm not gonna be
doing any of those things.

‐ That's what Steve did.

‐ I'm not Steve.

‐ But I will pray on this
for you.

‐ I don't just want
your prayers, Eddie.

I want you to tell me
what to do.

‐ I'm not living
in Dorm Seven.

All right, we are not
living in Dorm Seven.

And why the hell does Forest
need to be Embraced?

You're the only father
that he needs.

Yeah, I'm the only father
he'll ever have.

But, uh, it won't come to that.

‐ Really? 'Cause Eddied
seemed dead set to me.

- ‐ Yeah, well, I have a plan.
- Talk to Vera?

What's she gonna do?
And who is she, anyway?

‐ Well, Eddie listens to her.

She's important, apparently.

‐ More important than Sarah?

Nope.
Oh‐‐oh, yeah.

I‐‐you know, I don't know.
Um...

I don't think Sarah has much to
do with Eddie these days.

‐ How do you know?
‐ I don't.

‐ You two seemed awfully happy
to see each other.

I mean, for people
that hate each other's guts,

you were all smiley‐smiley.

I guess you worked out a lot
when she came down

with that
cease and desist letter.

‐ We did.

‐ Or have you seen her
other times?

I mean, did you
keep in touch with her?

‐ What?
No‐‐Mary, what is this?

Did you see her when
you went with Harold to Boston?

I'm not gonna talk
about this anymore.

‐ Because you came back
from that trip strange

and that's when
you told me about Steve

and that's when
all this started,

the wanting to come back.

‐ You know, I‐I am with you.

I have a plan for us.

I know what to do now.
All right?

But you have to trust me.

‐ Hey.
How you feeling?

No one's ever really, like,

kicked somebody's ass
for me before.

‐ You mean gotten
their ass kicked for you.

But you're welcome.
‐ Yeah.

Is everything okay
with the bomb threat?

‐ It was just a hoax.

Yeah, how are the Musa kids?

‐ Oh, um...
got some worried parents.

But, uh,
I'm smoothing things out.

Hopefully.
‐ Yeah.

But it was so bright.

It was one of those
crisp, clear, bright days

that belied the fact
that it's cold as hell.

It was, it was cold as hell.

And, uh, we were going to
the hardware store

in that old Army jeep
they used to have.

It didn't even
have real windows.

But the heater actually worked
pretty well.

I remember very
distinctly us talking about

how toasty we were in there.

"Toasty."
Yeah, that was a Steve word.

‐ Sorry, where's this going?

‐ Oh, there's a point.
‐ Can we get to it?

Because I'm really busy and...

and Eddie, whatever he told you
the conditions were,

those are the conditions.

He's in charge
and I can't change that.

‐ Anyway, a couple of minutes
down the road, we saw a man.

A middle‐aged man
up ahead on the road,

walking on the shoulder.

A hat on, all bundled up.

But he‐‐he was freezing
his ass off.

I mean, how could he not be?

It was nine degrees outside.

Um, he didn't look up at us
when we passed him.

He was just going
where he was going.

But then Steve slowed down,
pulled over,

and‐‐and asked him
if he needed a lift.

So‐‐so Steve told me
to climb into the back,

the man got in,
and off we went.

He was on his way to work
and he...

Kept his hands

in front of the heater vents
the entire time.

And they‐‐they made small talk,

but not much was said.

And when we got
to his restaurant,

he was incredibly gracious
and thankful.

And Steve said it was
no trouble, you know,

happy we could help,
that sort of thing.

And we drove off
feeling good about ourselves.

At least,
I felt good about ourselves.

And‐‐well,
not five minutes later‐‐

‐ Okay, Mr. Roberts, I‐I have
to ask you to wrap it up.

‐ Yeah, we're almost there.

So, uh...

About five minutes later,

we start hearing this, uh,

yeah, ca‐thunk, ca‐thunk,
ca‐thunk, ca‐thunk.

And then...

The engine dies completely.

We can coast
to the side of the road,

but the jeep's dead.

It's just dead.

Never to be resurrected.

And‐‐and wouldn't you know it,

now we're the ones
bundled up,

hands in pockets,
freezing our asses off,

walking on the side
of the road‐‐

‐ This is a very sweet tale,
but it's really long

and I have a life
that's getting short.

‐ And Steve's got
a great attitude about it,

but I'm less cheery.

Now I'm ten.
I'm kinda pouty.

But after about,
I don't know, five minutes,

literally, the very first car
that passes

pulls over and asks
if we need a lift.

It was a nice, older woman
in a white Mercedes.

Steve sat up front
with her

and, uh, small talked a little
bit as she drove us home.

But never saying one thing
about the roles being reversed.

You know, ten minutes earlier,
not one word.

I remember her making
some reference to me

as Steve's son.

And‐‐and him
not correcting her.

Which...

at the time,
that made me feel good.

But then she dropped us off
back at the compound.

And we were incredibly
gracious and thankful.

And she said it was no problem,
and we said our good‐byes.

And she drove off feeling good
about herself, I'm sure.

‐ I don't‐‐I don't get it.

Just help me here.

‐ Who would?

I did ask him,
later that night,

you know, when we were
in our sleeping bag.

And he said that
that was our experience,

shared with that man‐‐
just the three of us‐‐

‐ Wait, wait.
Did you‐‐

did you just say, "When we were
in our sleeping bag?"

‐ I did.

‐ So you‐‐
you're trying to tell me‐‐

‐ That Steve was
an exceptional man.

Who‐‐he‐‐who taught me
many, many things.

And we‐‐we also...

often, uh...

slept in the same sleeping bag,
yeah.

Till I was about, uh...

‐ You're accusing Steven Meyer
of molesting you?

‐ Accusing?

Molesting?

Neither of those words
feel quite right.

But, uh, yeah.

‐ You're fucking lying.

You're just trying to blackmail
me with your lies, all right?

‐ No, I visited Steve
when‐‐when he was sick.

And he‐‐he insisted on
giving me

a box of letters that we wrote
to each other over the years.

But I‐I didn't‐‐um...

No, I couldn't look through it
until recently.

I didn't go to Eddie
with any of this

because he's a good soul.

And he did the right thing.

You know, not bury this
like everyone else

in his position would.

Oh, no, no, no, not him.

No, he'd, uh...
he'd hang a lantern on it.

He'd take this tragic situation
out of the shadows

and into the light.

That would, of course,

absolutely destroy
The Movement.

Forever.

You know that.

Catholics can figure out a way
to justify

some priests being pedophiles‐‐

which is pathetic and horrible
and whatever‐‐

but if Jesus himself
was proven

to be that breed of monster...

uh...

it'd probably be
a deal breaker.

‐ What do you want?

‐ I want what I had.

He can be the‐‐the‐‐
the good Jesus.

I just wanna be the CEO.

I wanna be out in front,
speaking for The Movement.

‐ Well, I don't know
how to make that happen.

‐ I don't know either.

‐ Why?

Why would you want to be here

if that horrible stuff
happened to you?

‐ Because...

it's cold out there, Vera.

It's toasty in the light.

Hey.

Cal went to Boston last month.

Did you two see each other?

‐ Do you wanna sit down?
‐ No.

No, I just‐‐
I wanna know what's going on

between the two of you,
because he came back

from that trip shattered.

You know, it turned up
a lot of bad things.

Things from his past that
you wouldn't know about and‐‐

I just wanna know if you still
have feelings for him.

‐ No.

‐ Then why would he come back
if it wasn't for you?

‐ I've been wanting to ask you
the same thing, Mary.

Why did he bring
all of you back here?

Whatever you think exists
between me and Cal,

it's not real.

There's nothing there.

He didn't come back for me
or for you.

He came back for himself, okay?

Don't forget,

whatever Cal does,

he does for Cal.

Musa's moved
all their stuff out.

Should I not have said
Gandhi was cooler than Jesus?

It was supposed to
be a joke.

‐ Um, no, I'm sure there's some
other explanation, Joy.

It probably has nothing
to do with you.

‐ Nothing to do with me?

Thanks, Hawk.

Then why isn't he answering
any of my texts?

‐ Um, I don't know.

‐ Well, he hasn't reached out
to you at all, has he?

‐ Uh...

no.

‐ Cal's good at doing
all the parts of the job

that you don't wanna do.

He can make
this entire experience

so much better for you‐‐easier.

Then you can just put
your focus

exactly where you wanna put it,
Eddie.

‐ Right,
so you have the opposite

point of view as Felicia.

‐ Look,
this isn't an ideal situation‐‐

that's obvious‐‐
but the community

is fractured at the moment,
clearly.

‐ Mm.
‐ And welcoming Cal back

will help the community heal,
prodigal son and all.

If you take punitive action
against him and his family

and his baby and put them
in the dorm with the others

just to humiliate him,

you will look weak
and petty.

Now, it's unfortunate, yes,
that Cal made a show of us

coming back,
but people liked what he said.

‐ Mm.
‐ They needed it.

He‐‐he was just...

He was Steve's protégé, right?

Like, some kind of
heir apparent?

‐ I guess.

And he fucked it up.
‐ Cal is a snake, Vera.

He's a liar.
‐ So am I.

Which means I can protect you

from his
less‐than‐useful trait.

- ‐
- You are the one.

You have the thing, Eddie.
‐ It is not about that.

‐ It's always about that.

You have what it is
that he wants.

And he can't take that from you
because it is you‐‐

‐ Look, he fucked my wife.

My ex‐wife.

‐ Um...

I'm sorry.

I didn't know that.

I think Cal
is good for Meyerism.

But I had no idea
things were this personal

between the two of you.

And if you don't
want him around,

I understand.
I'll‐‐I'll back off.

But if there's any way‐‐

if there's any way you can put
that history behind you,

then...

then just let me know.

Okay?

‐ You're not a snake,
by the way.

‐ I‐I come from bad stock.

If you come from monsters,
does that make us monsters?

‐ No.

‐ No?

‐ Look, we make ourselves
who we are.

We decide.

Just like you decided
to be a good person.

Somehow,
that much I'm sure about.

‐ Let's see, Felicity.

Best and final.

I hate babies.

So you can leave and
take the baby or you can stay

and the baby leaves alone.

Either way, baby has to go.

‐ Did you get drafted
or did you enlist?

By your dad, I mean.

‐ I volunteered.

‐ It's good to see you, Hawk.

‐ You can get out here.

‐ I know you've been pulled
in a lot of directions

between your mom,
your dad, and me,

but, uh, one day‐‐
soon, I'm sure‐‐

you'll be your own man.

And I very much look forward
to meeting that man.

‐ To the truth.

Hey.
‐ Yeah, thank you so much.

- I really appreciate this.
- Yeah, sure.

I can't stay long, though.
I've gotta pick up my kids.

‐ It's all right, it's just
that I can see it

so much better from the film
than I can on my phone.

Okay, sure.
I understand.

It's funny, actually.

I think that
my ex‐wife has a date.

‐ Huh.
That's hard.

‐ Heh, yeah,
I guess it is hard.

But it's great, too.
I mean, I‐‐

at least I hope it's great.

It's‐‐it is very hard
to move forward

when‐‐when one partner hasn't

and the other one has.

And you are not interested
in a word that I'm saying.

‐ No, uh, I am.

It's just that something
came to me today.

So I'm...

I thought of something.
I'm feeling

a little distracted.

‐ Okay.
There you go.

I'm an expert at this now.

Um, can you move it forward
to the part where, uh,

Steve was in the cave
with the ropes?

‐ Yeah.

Sarah,
I don't know you very well.

But if you choose to‐‐
if you want to

let me in to what
you're looking for,

what you're going through, I‐‐
‐ Thank you.

‐ I've done what you're doing
now and it's terrifying

to go through it alone.

- Like this?
- Yes.

But get on your knees.

‐ There.
Pause it.

What is it?

‐ He had inappropriate urges.

He was...

trying to choke them
from his consciousness.

What if, um...

What if all of this was built

on the cravings
of a very sick man?

Hey, can I talk to you?

‐ Look,
now's not a good time, Hawk.

What do you want?

‐ Right now, with the fight
and the bomb scare

and everything,
but I just wanted

to speak to you about‐‐
‐ I can't.

I can't.

Look, I said good‐bye to you.

You should probably go.

Now.

‐ Can we‐‐can we talk
somewhere privately?

‐ There's no earthly reason why
we need privacy right now.

Just say whatever
you came to say.

I, um‐‐look,
I have a lot of work to do.

I'm giving a youth homily
on Sunday.

‐ You were a real asshole
to Joy.

You know that?

You shouldn't just
ghost people like that.

It's a shitty thing to do.

She didn't deserve that.

You took everything!

You fucked her!

I was the son!

To stay or to go

amounts to the same thing.

‐ Steve?

‐ Do not listen to that man.

‐ Who?

‐ Do not listen to Steve.

You are the true light,
not him.

‐ I believe you.

Cal?

Cal.

Are you okay?

‐ No, Eddie.

No, I'm not okay.

Who did this?

Did I do this?

‐ We have to keep walking.

‐ Sarah.

Sarah!

Hey!

Stop!

Sarah!

Try and call her.

‐ Sarah!

Sarah!

Sarah!

Hey.

‐ Where are you coming from?

‐ Long night.

‐ Apparently.

‐ So I have decided to let Cal

live off campus
and speak for The Movement.

But there will be
a higher price.

‐ At least you've learned
not to ask

for my opinion first.

He has nothing to do with me.

‐ I took the medicine
last night.

You were there.

I was on one path,

and you were on
a different one,

heading in
a different direction.

You weren't lost.

But you weren't coming back.

I tried calling out to you
and...

nothing.

Is there something
you wanna talk about?

‐ Is there something
you wanna talk about?

‐ Where were you going?

Where did that path lead?

Sarah.

Where are you going?
‐ I can't.

‐ Tell me.
‐ I don't‐‐

Let go of me.

‐ Sarah.

You just stop?

Just answer me.
Where are you going?

And why?

Sarah.

‐ We don't use
the white rooms anymore.

‐ Well, I'm reinstituting them.

‐ You're punishing me?

‐ This is not a punishment.

This is an intervention.

‐ I can't be in here.
What about my kids?

‐ That is what
the community is for.

To take care of things
while you get the time

to deal with the things
that you need to deal with.

Before walking away from
a marriage,

you need to think
long and hard

and silently.

You need to fast and struggle.

You need to rip
your fucking hair out.

And then you decide

if you really want to walk.

Because once it's over,

it's over.

‐ Did you get the dumplings?

You are the best.

‐ Did you know that my father
preyed on little boys?

‐ I didn't know that.

That is very sad.

I tried to help him
with his urges,

but he didn't tell me
what they were.

How did you find out
about this?

‐ Cal.
Cal Roberts.

‐ I know who he is.

‐ Yeah.
Steve abused him.

‐ Does Eddie know?

‐ No.

Cal blackmailed me.

He wants a bigger audience.

I help Eddie accept him
into the fold

and he doesn't say a word.

Everything works out
in your favor.

‐ In our favor.

Our favor.

Okay.

‐ Mom‐‐
‐ No.

‐ Mom‐‐Mom‐‐
‐ Vera.

‐ I want to be normal.

Okay? I just want to be
a normal person

I want to be
the Secular Liaison

for the Meyerist Movement.

And I want to be ignorant
of the signs and the end.

I don't want to know these
horrible things that happen

and that will happen.
‐ Nobody wants to.

We live in the world
where horrible things happen,

and we just do our best
to be good.

‐ Eddie is good.
I'm lying to him

and I don't feel good
about that.

‐ He is good.

And that is why
our work is so important.

Eddie can spread The Light
that I encountered

when I was a young girl.

And that was a light
that was so‐‐so beautiful.

And you‐‐you're helping him
to do that.

So wash your hands,
eat something.

Things will look different
in the morning.

‐ You will fail.

And others will fail you.

Because that is
what humans do to each other.

But through it all,

you will have a father.

A real father.

Who will never fail you.

And whom you can never fail.

I am your spiritual father,

Forest Roberts,
always and forever.

I am yours

and you are mine.