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Hank!

Dad?

Dad?

Hank, I need you.

Dad, I'm right here!

Hank!

Hank!

Dad?

Wait, please!

No, no, no, no!

Hey, guys, um,

I can help with the framing.

I used to build shit for...

Or, uh, sorry.

I used to build stuff with my dad.

Like, I built a... a deck once.

I-I, like...

When you speak, you do no work.

Would you like coffee?

Oh, yeah, sure, I'd...

I'd love some. I didn't know you guys drank coffee.

Thank you.

I'm Lucas.

Susannah!

I'm Susannah.

Lucas, come with me.

But, um, I'm working.

They can wait.

These were Amos'.

I let them out a bit, hoping they might fit you.

You need appropriate clothes for Vespers this evening.

Try this.

See how it fits.

Study Matthew 5:30.

My insurance.

Doesn't recognize domestic partnerships,

so even if we filed...

What are we gonna do?

Oh, my God.

Hey, come on.

You know what?

We're gonna get through this.

The most important thing is just to get you healthy.

Yeah, but I can't just sit here, you know?

I-I got to...

Okay, well, you know, let's just get married.

You and Henry would be on the policy next month.

Thomas...

I know. It's crazy.

Yeah, kind of.

I mean, it's not that crazy, 'cause I love you.

We've only been together for seven months.

Very true. Seven months and three days.

And we have been tested enough.

You know that I love you.

And you know that if I was to ask,

like, really ask...

I'd do it with a lot more hoo-hah.

Hoo-hah?

Oh, glitz, glamour.

It wouldn't be over shitty medical bills, you know?

Way more romantic than that.

Yeah, you make foil llama swans.

I do.

I do. I do do that.

Listen, Cleo,

I am certain about us.

The thing is, I'm just, um...

I'm not sure I can get married again.

- Hi. - Hey.

Hey.

Are you sure you're up for school today?

Yeah.

Are you up for me going to school today?

'Cause I could stay here.

Yes, yes.

You go. Learn.

You know what? Jenna's gone.

I'll give you a ride.

Okay, yeah. Thanks.

I love you.

I love you, too.

Bye.

Thank you so much for holding.

Hi, yes, this is Officer Hulce

from the Reston Sheriff's Department.

I'm calling to verify a few details

on an agent you have in the field here,

Ken Davidson.

How long has he been with you?

Well, it looks like he's been here

for about 11 years.

Huh.

And it doesn't say on his card which office he's based out of.

Is he local?

Uh, he spent a few years in our Akron offices,

and then he was transferred to our tristate offices.

Anything beyond that is privileged.

And if I wanted a list of his other clients...

Can you give me that?

Uh, that's a question for our legal department.

Okay. Thank you.

No problem.

We've got a problem.

Okay.

A sheriff just called asking about you,

Anna Hulce.

Hmm.

She asked a lot of questions...

and was a little condescending, to be honest.

I did the best I could, but I don't know.

I'll take care of it.

Henry.

Henry.

You did this to me.

You fucking bitch.

You tried to kill me!

What are you? Henry.

You're a goddamn monster!

Miss Coles,

this test is 40% of your grade.

Um...

I'm good. Thanks.

Jenna!

What a nice surprise.

How are you?

I'm okay.

Oh, I'm good.

Just, you know, junior year is a lot so far.

You know, group still meets on Thursdays

if you ever wanna come by and say hi.

Uh, yeah, I was... I was wondering if that was still a thing,

but I don't know.

It's been a long time.

Three years isn't long,

and grief is an ongoing process.

It doesn't go away. It just changes shape.

I know you and your mom were very close.

Jenna.

I should go.

Okay, I am here anytime,

group or no group.

Hey.

Everything okay?

Yeah, uh, just college stuff.

Okay, great, 'cause we're late to dance committee.

We're voting on themes, and I need your vote.

Are you gonna say anything or...

You're right. This is better.

I thought you wanted to call the shots.

Fine.

So what happens now?

You're gonna teach me how to control this thing,

and then what?

Nothing happens till you get in the truck.

I already told you I'm not gonna do that.

You want control, you have to take control.

That's what I'm doing.

You need to control yourself, not me.

So what are we doing here?

Do you just hate eating alone?

Surf's up.

Wow.

What?

You picked this place.

Reston's too small.

We shouldn't be seen together.

Took me a while to find this place.

I assume that's Bill.

Or was.

Where is this?

Sri Lanka.

Any idea why?

Did you see anyone?

Well, someone saw the arm of the man you killed,

then probably got a hold of a handgun

that is registered to our good friend Bill Boone.

So I need to find them before anyone else does.

How good a cop is your friend there?

Anna?

Should we worry about her?

She's fine.

She's not a problem.

Okay.

You're on your own for a few days.

Next time I see you...

Should be in the garage.

And you're sure your dad doesn't have any connection to Sri Lanka?

I mean, the only thing that I really know about him

is his name, so...

Oh, maybe the hacker can help us with your dad.

Or with Nikolai,

or... or both.

They haven't even gotten back to you, Townes.

How would they tell us anything?

Right.

I might have something

that could help that Nikolai doesn't know about.

I've been having these dreams about my dad,

but I'm going to wherever the dream is

even though what's happening in the dream isn't real.

Does that make sense at all?

- Yes. - No.

Like you're sleepwalking

or sleep-teleporting and then sleepwalking.

Yeah, I guess.

Well, what did the GPS say?

Uh, whatever happened last time scrambled the receiver.

I'm trying to fix it.

I'm sorry. I-I will fix it!

I just need more time.

I don't...

Townes, it's okay. It's... It's fine.

Yeah. Yeah.

Uh...

Is anyone else in the dream

and any other focal points or symbology?

I mean, there's that picture that I saw in Sri Lanka, but that's it.

And you're going back to the same place every time?

Kind of. I mean, some things change, but...

But my dad is always there.

There is precedent for communicating through dreams.

Dr. Who's Dream Lord, for one.

Also Hiyori Iki, the half-phantom.

I can look into dream telepathy and astral projection.

That might help.

Um, in the meantime, the more you can find out about your dad,

the better.

That's... That's the only advantage we have over Nikolai.

Do you think he's okay?

No.

None of us are.

- What? - Nothing.

Jenna.

It's just that when my mom couldn't understand what was happening,

she'd make up stories.

Jenna, your mom had Alzheimer's.

She was sick.

- I'm not. I'm... - I know.

I'm not your mom.

But you said it yourself.

Don't do that.

Don't use something that I said against me.

I'm not using it against you, Henry.

I'm not making up my dad.

He is real, and he is out there,

and he might know something.

But you're putting so much weight on him,

and what... what if he's not what you expect?

- I'm so done with this conversation. - What if he's something...

- No, Henry... - Please get out. Jenna, leave.

Leave my room, please.

Together we have lost our way.

In doing so, we have suffered many losses.

If we do not correct ourselves,

more suffering will be visited.

You are not without sin.

Who better should confirm the danger of our wrongs

than one who walked neck-deep in them?

Lucas, come.

This is Lucas Boone.

He has come here to learn from us,

but we must also learn from him.

Matthew 5:30.

"And if thy right hand offend thee,"

"cut it off and cast it from thee,"

"for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish"

"and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell."

My...

My right hand has offended me.

Both of my hands, actually.

I haven't had...

Much of a chance to become anyone

other than who I've been up until now.

My father...

I trusted him.

I trusted his judgment.

I trusted his reason.

And I thought that being a good man

meant being a good man in his eyes.

But I was wrong.

Bad things have a way of looking right sometimes.

That's not an excuse. That's just the truth.

It's worse...

to not be able to see how bad you really are.

But I see it now,

and I'm cutting off those parts for good.

The first step in a recovery is reparations.

I am ashamed

of Jeremiah's charge.

His actions are not mine, though I aim to right them.

This money will be redistributed

evenly among us so we may start over in strength.

Let us pray.

Mom?

Hey, honey.

Is everything okay?

Yeah.

I think I wanna know more about my dad.

I know that, um, before, I said that I didn't care.

- No. - But I...

Of course. I get it.

What would you like to know?

Um...

Do you have any pictures of him

or, like, birthday cards or... I don't know,

something that could help me remember what he's like?

I'm sorry, I don't have anything like that, really.

I didn't...

I didn't really take anything like that with us.

Oh.

But after he left,

I did put a box of his stuff together,

of our stuff, and I left it with a friend.

Where is it?

Massachusetts.

But I think she, Fran, she probably still has it.

I could call her and find out.

Maybe we could take a trip down there.

You know, it's not much, but something.

Yeah.

Yeah, I would...

I-I need that.

Okay.

Then I need it, too.

Do you wanna go tomorrow?

Ah, thank you.

Thank you.

Nothing in this car works.

The heat works.

We can't do a three-and-a-half-hour drive

without any music.

Oh, are you asking me to sing to you?

- I accept. - No.

- Yes. - I wasn't.

Ooh, what is this?

Oh, no. No, no, no.

"Boomtown Gulch."

Look at you.

I mean, we're listening to this. That's just what we're doing.

No. No, no, no, no, no. We're not gonna listen to that.

It's basically the same thing as me singing to you right now.

We have to listen to this.

Can we listen to this?

No, I don't want to.

I don't wanna listen to it.

Nope.

Okay, well, mystery CD it is, then.

Oh.

Do you think that she gets high

from the breath that she takes in the morning

like in a yoga way?

Or do you think that she actually goes and gets high after that?

Judging from the top hat she wears in the video,

I would say... she gets really high.

There's a video for this song?

Oh, yes!

How could you not know that?

Thank you, mystery CD.

Your time with us was brief,

but your memory shall live on.

I'm okay. I'm just...

I'm so sick of this sling.

It's so nice to be out of the house, though.

Yeah.

How you doing?

After... everything, are you okay?

Yeah, I'm fine.

Really.

What about you? Are you...

Don't worry about me.

What about everything else?

What do you mean?

I mean, you know,

have you had any more contact with Clay?

Um, no.

Have you thought anymore about maybe talking to the police

about what happened with you guys?

No, I'm not gonna do that.

I really think they could help you, you know?

Mom, how? They can't undo it.

I just... I'm...

I just really don't wanna do...

I don't wanna do that. I don't wanna tell anyone, so...

Okay.

Have you heard from Dad at all?

I mean, just since...

No.

I would have told you if I had.

He's never tried to get in touch with you or...

Any news on Bill yet?

Why are we whispering?

Well, Bill has a lot of enemies in this town,

but he also has a lot of friends, you know?

Hey, Ken.

Hi there, uh...

Iris, is it?

That's my name.

Well, Iris, could I get a cup of coffee to go?

Black?

We're out of to-go cups,

so you'll have stay if you want coffee.

Well, twist my arm.

I'll be right with you.

Thank you.

Hello, Officer.

Nice to see you again.

Hi.

Mind if I plant here a minute?

Not at all, no.

You know, Iris is just being nice.

Hmm?

They don't have to-go cups at The Yolk.

There's nowhere to go in Reston,

so why stock the cups?

That's good, yeah.

Took me a while to get used to the pace around here, too.

Yeah.

I imagine it's, uh, a lot slower than the city.

You don't work in the city much?

Try not to.

Well, that must be hard, being on the road like this.

What's it like being away from your family?

Oh, you know, same as it is for anyone.

Fun for a couple days. Then it gets old.

You planning on a long stay?

Whoa.

Well, this job has turned out

to be a little more complicated than usual, considering,

so I'll stay as long as I have to.

Um, though I must say, uh,

I've had about enough of the tristate.

Hopefully Bill shows back up again.

That'd move things along for me.

Speaking of,

how is all that?

I'm not at liberty to comment on the investigation

since it's ongoing.

Right.

Of course.

Well, it seems like you have your hands full,

and I... hate to be a distraction.

Um...

This is my personal number,

in case you need to get in touch again.

It's much easier than going through the red tape of the main office.

Yeah, they seem a little short-staffed around there.

Website's down, too.

Well, we do our best.

Mr. Davidson.

Ken, please.

You gave Henry Coles your number as well.

But she's just a kid.

It's easy to forget that sometimes.

Yeah, well, if I reach out to her,

I'll keep you in the loop.

Thank you, Iris.

Hey, come sit.

Um, no, I don't wanna interrupt,

and I have homework, so...

Please.

I miss you.

I saw the VCR was out.

Been watching the wedding video, huh?

Do you wanna talk about it?

I...

just wanted to remember what you looked like with a full head of hair.

Well, the tape is up in your bedroom.

So it's there when you want it.

I didn't wanna leave it out,

and I didn't wanna...

I didn't wanna put it away.

Thanks.

Someday,

you're gonna make a wedding video of your own.

You'll look just like your mom.

So beautiful.

And whoever marries you is gonna be the luckiest man in the world.

Yeah, um...

I actually kind of have a boyfriend.

Um, I mean, I do.

Zach.

Um, we're not getting married or anything, obviously,

but I-I just thought you should know that it was happening.

Wow, okay.

Okay, my daughter has a boyfriend.

I don't know. Maybe I could invite him over for dinner sometime.

What about tonight?

I mean, it's just the two of us.

Sure.

Yeah, I'll ask him.

I thought I heard you pulling up.

Hi. It's been forever.

- Oh, oh. - Gentle. Sorry.

Oh, jeez, what happened?

I slipped on some ice in the driveway.

It was stupid.

Oh, my God.

And who's this? Friend from work?

Kidding. I'm just kidding.

Oh, my God, Henry, look at you.

Hi.

Okay. Okay, come on. Come in, come in.

I found Simon's box. I pulled it out of the basement.

We were so nervous.

I mean, we had never opened for a big band like that before.

It's Marcy Playground, right?

Yes, Marcy fucking Playground.

I mean, pardon my French.

No, that's okay. Henry speaks French.

Right.

So we were getting ready for the show

and we were nervous, so we had a couple of beers to calm ourselves down.

Then after sound check, we were getting pumped,

and we thought, "Hey, we'll have a couple of shots."

Hey, I only had one shot.

No, you lie.

- Mmm-mmm. - Ugh.

Needless to say, we were not asked to go on the tour.

You missed the best part.

We got kicked out of the bar.

What?

Why?

There was a fight, capital F.

No, it wasn't that bad.

Simon got into it with one of the other band's bass players

because he thought that that guy was hitting on me,

which he was not.

My dad was there?

Nearly broke that guy's arm.

It wasn't a big deal.

Seems like a big deal to me.

She okay?

Yeah.

She's just a teenager, you know?

Mm.

Okay, I'm not trying to suck up to you, Mr. Hope,

but this is the best lasagne I've ever had.

Nice. That's Jenna's mom's recipe.

I try my best, but nothing compares to Elizabeth's.

No, Dad, it's good, really.

All right.

Jenna's mom and I, we were high school sweethearts, too.

Dad, let's talk...

I would tape love poems to her locker.

Oh, my God, she actually showed me one once.

Oh? Was it good?

Well, they got better.

They got better, seriously.

Um, if you want more, Zach, there's tons.

- Yeah, that sounds great. - All right, good.

Oh, no, I got it. I got it.

- Okay. - Thank you.

I know that I'm supposed to hate my daughter's boyfriend,

but, you know, I think he's pretty great.

Good.

I'm glad.

Where have you been?

Did you get my messages?

Do you know the guy from the picture?

Hey.

How you doing in here?

Fine.

I shouldn't have told that story. I'm sorry.

I don't know.

She just, like, never talks about him, so...

Right, right.

Yeah.

You know, um, sometimes...

the good stuff is harder to talk about than the bad,

and the bad's really hard to talk about, you know?

Did you like him?

Your dad?

Yeah, sure.

I mean, he was great.

You know, funny, sweet.

Could be a little difficult to be around towards the end.

I'm sure your mom just wants to protect you from all that, Henry.

Was he, um...

Was he ever, like, violent at all?

I mean, did he ever,

like, hurt her or...

No.

No, I'm sure she would have told me

if anything like that happened.

Yeah.

But, uh, he could be a little paranoid.

Off in his own world, you know?

But hey... hey, Thomas sounds great, right?

Different from the guys your mom used to date.

Very different, yeah.

Mm. So you like him?

Yeah.

Good.

Maybe then she'll finally get divorced and move on.

You know, she deserves to be happy.

Sorry, I...

I imagine the barn's been cold at night.

No, it's fine.

You should sleep in here tonight.

Amos' room can be yours for now.

I don't mind the barn.

I insist.

That's wrong.

I've been praying...

But I don't feel relieved of anything.

How do I know if it's working?

You must make peace with yourself before you can make peace with God.

But I don't know how to do that.

It takes patience...

And faith.

Stay strong, Lucas.

I have big plans for you.

You wanna talk about it?

Are you still married to Dad?

Yes.

Why?

And why do I not know that?

I don't know.

It's hard to divorce someone who isn't there.

Mom...

I don't know what you want me to say.

It doesn't mean anything.

- That's bullshit. - Henry.

You've been dragging me around from boyfriend to boyfriend,

fully knowing that it's not going to work

because you're fucking married.

That's not fair.

I know!

It's not fair.

It's not fair that you keep putting me through this shit.

It is not fair that you don't tell me anything!

This is my life, too!

I understand that.

Do you?

You didn't even look for Dad.

He was fucked up, so you just left.

You just left...

He abandoned me!

He abandoned us, Henry!

He abandoned us.

Why would I look for him?

For me!

You're supposed to look for him for me!

You don't remember him.

You don't remember what it was like.

He made things very hard for us.

Mom, maybe he was afraid of something

and he didn't think he could tell you or trust you.

Maybe he thought you wouldn't fucking believe him.

You don't know.

If he doubted me or didn't trust me,

I mean, that's... that's on him.

Talking to him, it was like talking to a brick wall.

It's like talking to you.

You won't tell me about Clay.

You won't tell me about the hospital.

You won't tell me about the shooting.

I'm so s...

I'm so sorry it's so hard for you to be my mom.

I'm so sorry that so much terrible shit has happened to me

and that you have to deal with it.

You have to deal with it, and you're not.

Are you fucking kidding?

Look, your father is the one who left us, okay?

And I understand if you want to blame me.

That's not what happened. He didn't leave.

Okay.

Will you please fucking tell me what happened?

Enlighten me, Henry, because I would really like to know.

Forget it.

I'm entitled to my pain.

Everyone hurts in a different way.

And you don't get to judge me for that.

And I'm sorry if it hurts you.

I'm sorry I'm a person.

And I'm dealing with it the best way that I can.

You're not dealing with it.

Neither are you.

Terry, what do you got for me?

Yeah, the blood sample you gave me was ID'd.

Came back as Bill Boone.

Okay.

You kept that off the books, right?

Of course. You don't ask for favors, Hulce,

so when you do, I trust it.

Thanks.

Okay, I got to go. Working.

Always.

This is Officer Hulce on the 40-mile mark, Route 242.

I need an ambulance and backup to my location stat.

I got a body in the road.

Copy that.

Are you all right?

You okay?

Officer Hulce, we have backup en route to your location.

Three minutes out. Do you copy?