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a man looking day and night

fearlessly hungry for life even in its late dream

and he writes that on

this idea people from their waking complacency was all

miller he was probably the most open person you

did not know he wanted others are open and she he felt that

the people are blind

his books are mostly about sex ruthlessly obscene but what is it about the pleasure gain

as an egomaniac or higher truth

who was henry miller

a kind of human amok with genitals

refresh the world when i give a boost to the world

consists only of the things he has can digest it now

that was the impression i got from him had quite sympathetic

asl who always have incredible

erotic dreams i said okay

and he said in my dreams I send it very well

So these are your two typing yes now that important all right

Müller grows in New York turn of the century on his grandparents were from germany

immigrated and had settled in Yorkville settled the quarter of

German-born in Manhattan henry is named heinrich

baptized the print in after his father a tailor workshop runs the

German close awakens toward the rebels

these dresses german words everything was discipline

they were brutal when i got mine friend went home said

defenders me help me he grabs anything when my father hits me

and get away all just brutality and discipline

he hated the submission she saw as dramatic mistakes

you participate because that's the way you run has this tunnel view and sees it

no longer around the world one is only focused on obedience

yes my mother she was a strange one woman the neighbors claimed they had

loved me I felt with her she kissed and never hugged me

great lack that mothers do something like that I only found out that he has a friend

his mother visited an english woman said how are you

she hugged and kissed him I had never heard such words

the tone was new to me

united here i think he was looking for in women for something that it does

did not exist he had this ideal idea

typical of his attitude women opposite is its limitless

admiration for a girl named coras

he knew her as a teenager in Brooklyn was crazy about he spoke to her

but sometimes he went to your house and looked longingly at her window

so he was already looking into young people years after something he was

corresponded

and he also rebelled against his she wanted her mother and her values ​​in question

therefore move with him prostitutes in strip clubs and had

affairs with older women he did things his mother did deeply

would have been kind of mission for him

back then he started writing that discover artistic in itself

working in the father's tailoring is not it the trial of a

marriage quickly fails due to boredom his memories of that time are

bitter

now i know where and how i am back in this crappy new york where i

was born he only knew me of hunger humiliation

despair frustration and others nothing but remember that was here the new york that i gave after my birth

knew when i later explored the city

it is already changing got a little more terrible though

I drove to the brooklyn bridge at that time the only bridge who often I passed with an empty stomach

this bridge back and forth on the unsuccessful search for alms

I sold newspapers at time square begged broadway and came up with 10 10

no wonder home that i She had nightmares all my life I don't know how I returned

I have survived and why I am still in my head am healthy

henry wants to be free from the start to be free for adventures

women and nocturnal manhattan

the chance acquaintance june mansfield he wants to get married right away

she was a taxi dancer back then in new york

you went to a dance club and gave one girls 25 cents then danced with them

customer and rubbed himself and accept have been alluring and

out of reach of henry because it was nothing but a big one

child a big little boy

and that was a nice big insane

sexual certain woman by the way had told me he always went

to the american express and wait that would be letters because in the letters 10 dollars notes were in it

he had already lived on this woman she worked and she agreed

so he's earned as a pacifier nothing it was telegraph boats and the like

year he has no money But gravediggers would all, I do

that also suits him I do not think that he was so nice that somehow worried or or just

complex was also belonged to the life protection that he feels for life

has with time henry do as one art muse to him as a writer

maybe believed more than himself

it was she who pushed him out of the nest and said when you become a writer

want you have to go to paris there

artist than in real artist

and paris is actually like one wake-up call for him had in new york

already written but here is the existential experiences matter

which he can draw later first of all the whole stack falls off notebooks he writes about people

street smells and about his poverty Eternal hunger looking for one

I think if you suffer deeply and cannot escape

you accept the situation at some point and finds wonderful things in it

of poverty and suffering i discovered that true paris the real french

ghosts i learn you love him that is of course difficult to understand how can you enjoy that at the bottom too

his

on the streets you can see the old and the ones who really bowed demented the

beggars and vagrants the drunk

you feel alive when you do that watch you love with yours

instinct like an animal for us that's great for civilized people

to be like a bird of prey the hunger woke me up i begged

got rather low over and over again was pushed down and accepted

came up again

every day is a miracle that you lived through

that's great it's about instinct and we do not drive

control consciously Müller believed we had to go with them

connected to be able to raise us

we need the top and the bottom one can't get up without getting dirty

stand it is the picture of the tree with the roots in the ground and the leaves in the sky around

to become a transcendent person you have to accept all of me and

understand that's what all the profanity was about

he wanted to say that belongs to us as people and i won't pretend

let's be different in paris his uncovered autobiographical form

novels tropic of black cancer spring tropic of capricorn and

later has quiet days in clichy miller his world found his biotope

the unloved america where his books not allowed to appear for a long time because they They are always considered obscene

further distant in kolberg he described america as

the air-conditioned nightmare he wrote a book with this title

he hated America abysmally

it was not too late i will never become European

but thank god i'm not one americans more i am what you

an expert I am in exile I don't have one country no borders no tax liability

no compulsory military service and love france

what the eye of paris i used to draw with him all night through paris and

got his equipment got through him I see many parts of Paris

I had never seen before

miller was an art he composite spent the next night here

sometimes he had a hotel room stayed for a long time in the hotel central in the

romanian in a small square with marc he later loved this place

all these are perhaps the most beautiful descriptions of paris it

gives

his parisian friendships from the 20s and 30s hold until the end

visited again and again in his life miller the photographer and artist brass

be his studio and admire them sculptures that are created there

holy sebastian in plaster for example don't spear in his body

but stick cigarettes when press pray to him, he is in what but

henry is interested in something completely different for a picture of precise wife happened different

were the women also the grades street life a lot of time it maybe

back then he was even more afraid of in paris different today in Paris gave the

accessibility of women or at all man that

the trip into people's shells and who the parisian will live the animals pieces are hungry for life who like to

let seduce to the unheard of yes, and that was the outrageous thing for him too

the chaotic the wild and above all for women and women from Paris yes keen to experiment and he loved

the novel was about nothing else silent days in clichy he 1940

has completed and later also is filmed

two friendly writers live together in the Parisian suburb of clichy where you

living a relaxed life is money in it becomes immediately for prostitutes

and debauched celebrations spent when miller celebrates its parisians here

adventure

of course the film becomes a scandal and not shown for this in some countries become

Müller has several versions of the novel written and in it 20 years of paris

processes it with a big bang had started

he is born again through everyone Paris reborn because he is outside

America lives then meets

anais nin is authors with french cuban roots

she shares miller's interest in sexual a stormy relationship

begins when they meet in 1932

he fell in love with her in the picture of her she was raving

erratic and unpredictable a strange woman astrid no rest

everything you live about on record heavy and about henry miller can me remember a

his eyes kalkar politically broad and sensual first

a man who has to devour life or something like that

yes of course she has that very strong impressed by how far he impressed them

is difficult to say I had the impression that you have

100 covers changed with each other, the 100 letters have been received

mainly about their sexual experiences but not necessarily

together to an author who famous diaries inspiration and

protector of many aspiring artists including henry miller

i just got this book about that writing finished i say in it though

people's dreams of the artist familiar and long a painting or

considered a mobile instead of drugs you could take your own dream kick off

anais lives in paris with her american husband hugo one

bankers are also happy to wants to belong to the art scene when he became like that after the filmmaker

abstract researched and made he showed them in the refrigerated counter in paris

and I went over there and there too chih fell asleep and is a

well and then we met ostriches and he stubbed out his cigarette like this he has long

I noticed that he was cooking inside or something like that even though he is a good american

best family of course held back yes and then he says

now i'm part of the become art history not only

my money i paid for everything I also paid for mister miller and he finished shaking me

lived with her on the houseboat and in the morning he got up and went in

his bank on the other side of the concorde place and made the money yes

and she was with miller and he has put up the

I may also love admiration for yours because you already get it

art figure was yes and I assume that lay in he was more a simple person

panahis is the muse he wrote the Tropic of Cancer after this

emotional explosion suddenly I'm the happiest

man i have no money no hope and am the happiest person that is

wonderful this exuberance, of course he crossed a line

what language could you read in a book use what human

experiences describe which characteristics of human anatomy ii you could

they describe in which words let's talk about sexual experiences

he said i write what i write this was a novel experience to

In 1963 the turning circle of cancer remains in the usa banned the puritan

relentlessly the censorship authority English language edition is only in

to have france everyone had it just like us at the toilet lying there was the turning circle of cancer

Capricorn's turning circle is yours Guests

when bored in the party read the book on the piano

but i was great written in europe there was only schelin similar to that

regulate the shooter language and the decency broke through

müller certainly influenced beat literati

So he is an important figure in the American literature of the twentieth

century

he had to spread what he wrote but it would have been the olympia price in paris

not given their books the people in smuggling suitcases into the usa

he would never have been published, they imagine this explosion

for the first time in his life he can do topics

he can buy things for this time actually has money for him no meaning money interested in one

dirt but rather left a new freedom was reborn with astonishment and

reborn in every phase of life

this time the rebirth takes place in california instead of on the cliffs of the

big sir henry miller wants to go there his third wife the poland janina

lexika and the two children valentine and toni come to rest

it became a hut vacant that he for ten rented dollars a month she was very

primitive

Müller writes and meditates in this paradise and paints his beloved

watercolors

there was no trade, no industry quite simply that spoke to him

so he moved there and stayed 17 years

aside from his youth in brooklyn he has never lived so long in any place

pixar was everything you could think of father and a place could wish the natural beauty from pixar

most of the children probably had no father like me a story

tell

we didn't have a tv on the radio only worked sometimes

we had no phone in the evening he told stories at the dining table

wonderful stories from all over world whether they voted or not didn't matter he took us on a journey in spirit

and we loved that

if we asked what does this word mean what was the name of this country he knew immediately the answer from all people i

knew and whom I believed he had to most about people places and that is

decisively believed it was wonderful he always had a good glass of wine with him

dinner before after dessert I snuggled in his lap, he

always wore this cord jacket the night away firmer missing and paul moor cigarettes

I still love this smell to this day

the books appearing in france brought him in

but he could get the money because of that do not create the legal situation outside the country

the books he made in the usa published were tame in comparison

to the French bestsellers and didn't bring much

that's why he didn't have much lived on advances from his publisher

and paid with my own paintings he gave watercolors to the dentist

the man a watercolor today the dentist would be happy

because the paintings bring 25,000 to $ 30,000 a piece

he did what he had to do as an artist believed and that was correct

1963 draws henry miller to los angeles only now 72 and likes it a bit The dishes are more convenient

decided that the tropic of the cancer are now sold in america

may and finally money comes into the he draws cash in pacific palisades

a mansion but he remains a seeker

she is beautiful

one of his women's labs found that for him house in pacific palisades because you're scared had he had to isolate a change

he always told in view so the day would come and night fans to his house it worked

like a stuffy on-site house white one should never have thought that

here a writer or poet artists have hardly opened it

you could feel this atmosphere door i'm at home i can do anything here

can be creative

the walls were full of posters sometimes even psychedelic hung everywhere

his watercolors in different places stood desks where he was on one

old-fashioned typewriter typed wrote letters and he had four visits

and after the wedding with hockey this japanese a constant stream

interesting people

concert pianist jakob gimpl bronislaw wrote the song heal heal heal

had who was funny it was easy always someone interesting to visit

hey

because No

dinner with him was like theater or literature

I always went swimming in the morning the pool

then suddenly he opened the sliding door and asked what is the water temperature

then I had to pull this thing out and read the temperature like a ritual

he always wanted to know the temperature

he had an erotic relationship a young woman in the

she had introduced her name was brandl inez this one looked incredibly good and had for

the playboy poses beautiful body beautiful woman back then maybe mid 30

So she was somehow nied henry known and soon belonged to the

inventory

she didn't live with him but she came to visit and he wrote her letters there are

a whole book you wrote the brender he constantly letters long letters 10 12 its pages very

the book is great sometimes she ran naked through the house from the very liked

but it was the romance of an 80 years probably a hd rather than reality

Müller likes the bizarre real side life here hollywood and its

stars attract him as much as the trash who also belongs to the city

everything here is somehow sexual charged and some things remind him

its time in paris

the ideal channel müller was looking for the all-consuming all-eating

woman who would eat him too he was not before so ideal in sense of how to idealize women

because of haid or untouched on the contrary, women represented the chaos of life

who wanted to take part yes and the women were his access

seems access to the chaotic of life yes he described one

incredibly brutal kind of gender share of women be yes

he described the sleep entrance into the we say underworld and wanted to go in there

he gave him the chance live out

than the turning circle of cancer finally appeared he was the man of the hour

let's talk about sex that was her name drawer in how to put it to me

the following anecdote comes to mind once a woman and a man came out

South America my father had it from some

reason invited they came whole with a poodle

big jumped very strange they only sat at noon

suddenly the woman got up and said something to the dog and pushed her dress up and

crawled under it and made kun lingus

my father was shaken to think so so it happened to him such things

constantly

he invented this persona of this rebel that was always fixed but it was done not he was very romantic and

tenderly I think he has this westling invented because of it

opposite

henry rushed into relationships women

if he then weaken them and vulnerability unless he realized that

she was human and not the ideal corresponded

he couldn't with most women lead mature realistic relationship

that's probably why he had so many relationships and never found what he

was looking for that didn't exist

In 1967 he married a fifth time, the japanese hockey a nightclub singer

serve exploit and leave much alone she leaves henry three years later

his age afflictions soon increase will need 24/7 support

that wasn't a big drama at all he didn't stop almost every evening

table yard almost to the end as a head a lot forward and we do it again

he sits there in his pajamas always clean he said we have to accept what

comes there is this beautiful story that he would go into the middle of the night

Bad sat down on the floor and the tour far too much about him

took care of him the next morning sitting on the floor and with people

talk on the photos on the wall famous and not famous people

he talked to this man once

i travel around in my bathroom world it is a microcosm to the

heard magical things in this room closed for me neuschwanstein the

masterpiece the crazy ludwig king from Bavaria

he would have the kingdom

for me it is a magic castle inside and wonderful on the outside and over here I have some photos especially for people

hung up to be shocked

actually you don't see anything here obscene interesting but have this

I hung it up especially for people like to look at the dirty

here is a wonderful sam story it is about the Munich bobo what

master of fix means one should not be put off by that

to let this fish is exceptional and

unlike everyone else in the story will be a young man 15 years

old of his parents in a zen sent to monastery where to become human

and enlightenment to experience something for him failed

and then after 15 years in the monastery he finally wanted to live the earthly

so he sneaked one away at night and went to the

red light district

he met a woman and went immediately you to bed and in the middle of it he had a wonderful experience

suddenly what he did not do in the monastery had achieved

The entitlements he was last end of his life he has more legal certainty

given to life wisdom yes he was yoga trailer and so on well now

why not if sexuality if you look for a replacement but in the soul in the spiritual yes

maybe that was looking for but the was always on the lookout

I also walked more secularly there hurry Hollywood is no substitute for Paris

that he's always in his daydreams now thinks more often and that the turning point in

his life was

in Paris he was starving and homeless but in france he got it too

highest recognition as a writer in america they are denied until

the end there always stays in outkast

the order of the french legion of honor which you give him shortly before his death

is a last for henry miller climax father received the

french consul general in bathrobe a wonderful man

of course he spoke the most beautiful French that one has ever heard

so he talked for 15 minutes french told my father about

its contribution to the culture of france and the world as I cried now

my father also back then then the consul gave him the medal

the bathrobe afterwards you thrust yourself to prostete

and then it was over it was great

anais take perhaps the most important woman in his life visits henry

miller a few more times and talks to him about old Parisian times before you

1977 three years before he died of cancer

i never got to your alleged death obsession believed remembered

I never believed that you were in your own words over and over again

played but you never worried about made the destruction of the world

Yes exactly much worse is he death in live people who are already dead in life

yes yes yes but you never knew that but I was always aware of it

but there are people in life dead are right and that's the only one

the stretcher death not when you have the body leaves being dead while you live that is the real dead

great suffering poverty without money in paris begging the street for bread crumbs

he was at the bottom and then he saw that light he let himself down to the very bottom he also advises me if you

being depressed is as depressed as possible but you come back to the

legs being big is that enough sometimes

did he say doing nothing is okay there is so much social pressure

to earn money utter nonsense he said sometimes

the pure existence exactly

if we all the crap on earth here we can survive all gods

thank and the highest being among all mother brand what we're not here for

to enjoy eternal life solve problems for our fellow human beings

live peace and joy to donate and this beloved crazy planet

to leave something better than at our brought he wanted to his

but believe in something better about we have the existence of god at

example never spoken he was afraid of the way of dying

because this family in any any his mother gives a horror story

for example

we still remember how he flew to her it takes six months to die as she was finally laid out

he drew them as if they were hers eyes soak out again as she called my last fuck you

I think he died in the morning last secretary said i'm calling to expand

springs in i believe your father is dead the next day I flew there

expected

i don't know if i watch or loyal my entire past appears

me like a long nightmare permeated

he can be beyond need to reconstruct mother was left to him

until the end he never had his own femininity

integrate and always carried instead this ideal with you

maybe he was after completion that's why he is so disappointed by nexus

knew the transformation he did had not hoped for through art

had occurred he had his literary goals

but achieves its ultimate goal transcendence equal to the highest itself

he reached a Buddhist monk Henry Miller does not see his life

therefore not as a failure not someone like him from the moment

lived right now who was handy müller maybe we are

others to the answer to this question more interested than he was

I sold newspapers at time square begged on broadway and came at 10 10 home no wonder i

She had nightmares all my life I don't know how I returned

I have survived and why I am still in my head am healthy

henry wants to be free from the start to be free for adventures

women and nocturnal manhattan

the chance acquaintance june mansfield how to marry leather

she was a taxi dancer back then in new york you went to a dance club and gave one

girls 25 cents then danced with them customers and rubbed themselves against them

have been djokovic and seductive and out of reach for henry

because it was nothing but a big one child a big little boy that was

a nice big insanely sexual certain woman from whom he lived, by the way

had told me he always went to american talk and waiting for your

letters because in the letters 10 dollars notes were in it

he had already lived on this woman she worked and she agreed

as a founder, he is not deserving of anything it was telegraph boats and the like

year he had no money gravedigger was once but I think that also suits him

I do not think that he was so nice that somehow troubled or or im

complex was also belonged to the life protection that he feels for life

has henry june as one over time art muse to him as a writer

maybe believed more than himself

it was she who pushed him out of the nest and said when you become a writer

you have to go to paris there outlaw artists

and paris is actually like one wake up call for him also in new york

already written but

here he bumped says I always have incredible erotic

dream i said okay henry tell times and he said in my dreams

I send it very well So these are your two typing now

I have everything on you

miller grows in new york turn of the century on his

grandparents were from germany immigrated and had settled in

Yorkville settled the quarter of German-born in Manhattan

henry is named heinrich baptized the print in after his father

a tailor workshop runs the German tight wakes up the rebels

this stupid German words was everything discipline

they were brutal when i got mine friend home against said the

defenders help me you attack he anything when my father hits me

and get away all just brutality and discipline

he hated the submission she saw as dramatic mistakes

you participate because that's the way you run has this tunnel view and sees it

no longer around the world one is only focused on obedience

yes my mother she was a strange one asked the neighbors who said they did

honored me I felt her kiss and hugged me

never a big defect that mothers like that I only learned to do one

friend visited his mother one Englishwoman said

how are you immigrated to germany and had each other in yorkville

settled the quarter of the German-born in Manhattan

henry is named heinrich baptized the print in after his father

a tailor workshop runs the German close awakens toward the rebels

this stupid German fourth was everything discipline they were brutal when i got mine

friend went home said the defenders help me

do you grab anything when my father I propose, and let's get out of all

brutality and discipline

he hated the submission she saw as dramatic mistakes

you participate because that's the way you run has this tunnel view and sees it

no longer around the world one is only focused on obedience

yes my mother she was a strange one woman the neighbors claimed they had

loved me I felt with her she kissed and never hugged me

big man

I only found out what mothers do has a friend visited his

mother an english woman said

How are you she hugged and kissed him

I had never heard such words

i think he was looking for women something that is not there at all

he had this ideal idea typical of his attitude women

opposite is its limitless admiration for a girl named coras

he knew her as a teenager in Brooklyn was crazy about he spoke to her but sometimes he went there to her house

he wanted to go in that gave him the chance to live out

than the turning circle of cancer finally appeared he was the man of the hour

let's talk about sex that was her name drawer in how to put it to me

the following anecdote comes to mind once a woman and a man came out South America

my father had it from some reason invited

they came whole with a poodle big sworn very strange

they only sat at noon suddenly the woman got up and said something

to the dog and pushed her dress up and crawled under it and made kun lingus

incomprehensible my father was shaken to think so

so it happened to him such things constantly

he invented this persona of this rebel that was always fixed but it was done

Not he was very romantic and tender me

think he invented this westling on the contrary henry plunged into relationships with women

if he then weaken them and vulnerability unless he realized that

they were human and not ideal corresponded

he couldn't with most women lead mature realistic relationship

that's probably why he had so many relationships and never found what he

was looking for that didn't exist

In 1967 he married her a fifth time japanese hockey a nightclub singer

serve exploit and leave much alone she leaves henry three years later

whose age afflictions next to him soon will need 24/7 support

that wasn't a big drama at all he didn't stop almost every evening

table yard almost to the end as being Already head a lot and we him

never again spoken on eg he was afraid of the way of dying

because there is something in every family his mother gives a horror story

for example

we still remember how he flew to her took six months to die as

she was finally laid out he drew them as if they were hers

eyes soak out again as she called my last fuck you I think he died in the morning

last secretary said i call from palm springs in i believe your father is dead

the next day I flew there expected

i don't know if i watch or loyal my entire past appears

me like a long nightmare prevailed

he never got over the need to reconstruct his mother that remained him until the end

he never had his own femininity integrate and always carried instead

this ideal with you

maybe he was after completion from max it therefore disappointed him

knew the transformation he did had hoped for through art he hadn't happened

but achieved his literary goals his ultimate goal is the transcendence to

highest yourself like a he reached Buddhist monks Henry Miller does not see his life

therefore not about failed not someone like him from the moment

lived right now who was handy müller

maybe we are the others answer this question more

interested than he was

the books appearing in france brought him in

but he could get the money because of that do not create the legal situation outside the country the books he made in the usa

published were tame in comparison to the French bestsellers and

didn't bring much

that's why he didn't have much lived on advances from his publisher

and paid with my own paintings he gave watercolors to the dentist

the man a watercolor today the dentist would be happy because the paintings bring 25,000 to

$ 30,000 a piece he did what he had to do as an artist

believed and that was correct

1963 draws henry miller to los angeles only now 72 and likes it a bit

The dishes are more convenient decided that the tropic of the

cancer are now sold in america may and finally money comes into the

he draws cash in pacific palisades a mansion

but he remains a seeker

red

it 's nice

one of his women's labs found that for him house in pacific paris because you're scared

had he had to isolate a change he always said index would come every day and

night fans to his house it looked like a bourgeois on-site house with white you should never have thought that here

a writer poet or artist hardly ever lived you opened the door

you could feel this atmosphere i'm at home i can do anything here

can be creative

the walls were full of posters sometimes even psychedelic hung everywhere

his watercolors in different places stood desks where he was on one

old-fashioned typewriter is typing Letters were written and carried his

I got a lot of equipment from him to see parts of paris that I usually

had never seen

where from

miller was a kind of fa cup and he spent the next time here

sometimes he had a hotel room stayed for a long time in the hotel central in rue

the mane in a small place with marc he loves this place later

he described all of these are perhaps the most beautiful descriptions

from paris that exists

his parisian friendships from the 20s and 30s hold until the end visited again and again in his life

miller the photographer and artist brass be his studio and admire them

sculptures which there arise the holy sebastian in plaster for example

don't spear in his body stick cigarettes if the egg

He prays to him in some henry is interested in

something completely different for a picture of precise wife also the grades street life a lot of time it maybe

back then, even more joy in paris today otherwise in paris gave accessibility

women, or even the human the the lab in the shells of the people and the

the parisian animal life is important hungry for life who like to seduce

leave to the unheard of yes and that lay in school heard that too

chaotic the wild and especially at women and the paris women are yes

keen to experiment and he loved it

Roman Still was not about anything else days in clichy which he completed in 1940

and which will be filmed later two friendly writers live

together in the Parisian suburb of clichy where you live a relaxed life

it's about instinct and drive it we don't control consciously

Müller believed we had to go with them connected to be able to raise us

we need the top and the bottom you can’t climb up in the dirt

to stand it is the picture of the tree with the roots

in the ground and the leaves in the sky like came to a transcendent person

you have to be your entire self accept and understand

that's what all the profanity was about he wanted to say that belongs to us as

people and i won't pretend let's be different in paris

its undisguised autobiographical wild novels tropic of cancer

black spring tropic of the ibex and later silent days in

clichy miller has its world its biotope found

the unloved america where his books not allowed to appear for a long time because they

They are always considered obscene further distant

he called america that Air-conditioned nightmare

he wrote a book with this title he hated America abysmally

that was not too late i will never become European

but thank god i'm not one americans more i am what you

I call an expatriate wanted exile

i have no country no borders no no compulsory military service and dear france what the eye of paris

I went with him all night paris and carried his equipment through

I got many parts of Paris from him see that I had never seen before

miller was a kind of driver bund er spent the next night here

sometimes he had a hotel room stayed for a long time in the hotel central in rue

de mail on a small square with marc he will love this place later

maybe all of these are most beautiful descriptions of paris it gives

or or in complex then he also disturbed life felt for life

over time , henry should be done as a kind muse to him as a writer

maybe believed more than himself

it was she who pushed him out of the nest and said when you become a writer you have to go to paris there

artists become real artists

and paris is actually like one wake-up call for him had in new york

already written but here is the existential experiences matter

which he can draw later first of all , the whole stack fills up

notebooks he writes about people street smells and about his poverty Eternal hunger looking for one

I think if you suffer deeply and cannot escape

you accept the situation at some point and finds wonderful things in it

of poverty and suffering i discovered that true paris the real french

spirit i learned to love him that is of course difficult to understand

how can you enjoy that at the bottom too his

on the streets you can see the old and the ones who really bowed demented the

beggars and vagrants the drunk

you feel alive when you do that watch you live with yours instinct like an animal for us

that's great for civilized people to be like a bird of prey

the hunger woke me up i begged was humiliated again and again

accepted it was pushed down and came up again

every day is a miracle that you lived through that's great it's about

instinct and we do not drive control consciously

Müller believed we had to go with them connected he said nothing

doing is okay there is so much social pressure money too

to earn utter nonsense he said sometimes

sheer existence enough

if we all the crap on earth here we can survive all gods thank and the supreme being and the

mother brand what we're not here for to enjoy eternal life solve problems for our fellow human beings

live peace and joy to donate and this beloved crazy planet to leave something better than at

our brought he wanted to his but believe in something better about

we have the existence of god at example never spoken he was afraid of the way of dying

because to every family at some his mother gives a horror story

for example

we still remember how he flew to her took six months to die as she was finally laid out

he drew them as if they were hers eyes soak out again as

she called my last fuck you I think he died in the morning last secretary said i call from palm

springs in i believe your father is dead the next day I flew there

expected

i don't know if i watch or loyal my entire past appears

me like a long nightmare permeated

he never got over the need to reconstruct his mother that remained

him until the end he never had his own femininity

integrate and always carried instead this ideal with you

maybe he was after completion from max it therefore disappointed him

knew the transformation he did had not hoped for through art

had occurred

he always said i have incredible erotic dreams i said and he said in my dreams

I send it very well So these are your two typing yes

now I've hit you all

Müller grows in New York turn of the century on his grandparents were from germany

immigrated and had settled in Yorkville settled the quarter of

German-born in Manhattan henry is named heinrich

baptized the print in after his father a tailor workshop runs the

German close awakens the rebels to him

this stupid German fourth was everything discipline

they were brutal when i got mine friend went home said

defenders help me he attacks me anything when my father hits me

and nothing like away from all brutality and discipline

he hated the submission she saw as dramatic mistakes you participate because that's the way you run

has this tunnel view and sees it no longer around the world one is only focused on obedience

yes my mother she was a strange one woman the neighbors claimed they had

honored me I felt her kissing her and

never hugged me a big lack that mothers I only learned what to do

a friend visited his mother an english woman said how are you

she hugged and kissed him I had never heard such words and didn't bring in much

that's why he didn't have much lived on advances from his publisher

and paid with my own paintings he gave watercolors to the dentist

the man a watercolor today the dentist would be happy

because the paintings bring 25,000 to $ 30,000 a piece

he did what he had to do as an artist believed and that was correct

1963 draws henry miller to los angeles he is now 72 and likes it a bit

The dishes are more convenient decided that the tropic of the

cancer are now sold in america may and finally money comes into the he draws cash in pacific palisades

a mansion but he remains a seeker

red

it is nice

one of his women's labs found that for him house in pacific palisades because you're scared

had he had to isolate a change he always told in view so the day would come

and night fans to his house it worked like a stuffy on-site house white one should never have thought that

here a writer or poet artists are hardly opened

you could feel this atmosphere door i'm at home i can do anything here

can be creative

the walls were full of posters sometimes even psychedelic hung everywhere

his watercolors in different places stood desks where he was on one

old-fashioned typewriter typed wrote letters and he had four visits

and after the wedding with hockey this japanese a constant stream

interesting people

concert pianist jakob gimpl bronislaw keeper of the song heal heal heal

wrote who was funny just always someone interesting too

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