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I'm here for my eight o'clock.
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- Your first name?
- Lenny.
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I know, doctor patient
romance is forbidden, but
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what's the etiquette on
patient cute receptionist?
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It's frowned upon.
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Up the stairs to the right.
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I don't know.
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Hey, you need a name tag!
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My demons are my own.
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My demons are my own.
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How long have you been
seeing Dr. Hedonia?
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I've been seeing the
doctor for about a year.
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First patient.
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For this uh...
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program that is.
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I just started.
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Alright.
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Is your incident recent?
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- Last fall.
- Not even a scar.
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Still a wound.
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Paroxetine?
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Venlafaxine.
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You're on that first mountain.
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It's not the tallest,
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but it's the hardest
one to conquer.
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Pills are a steady
rope and harness,
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but being physical, that's
some good hiking boots.
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Physical?
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You know, get into a fight.
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Even get your ass kicked.
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Maybe even a one night stand.
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I, I, I don't wanna fight.
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Then you definitely need to.
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At least I'm not the last.
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That's an interesting name.
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I'll take it as a compliment.
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Oh, please do.
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Dr. Hedonia says to make
a new friend each day.
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Break the cycle.
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Maybe that's
why we are here.
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To see how each of us does it.
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We're here because
we're fucked up.
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What about you, ginger?
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Are you fucked up?
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I see we're short a shipmate.
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Unfortunately, this is the only
room large enough for group.
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Let's start with a
present centered exercise
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and make use of the tardiness.
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Has anyone experienced
turmoil lately?
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Don't look at me, Doc.
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Dev?
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I've experienced frustration.
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What caused the frustration?
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I was being ignored.
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And what was
your core emotion?
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Anger.
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What was the reason
for your anger?
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Because I was ignored.
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I was at the bar and
this guy was ignoring me.
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What triggered you?
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- I felt marginalized.
- Unworthy?
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Alone.
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I feel alone a lot now.
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That's why I went to the
bar in the first place.
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Good. And what
was your action?
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I, I smashed a beer
bottle over their head.
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Okay. An overcompensation
for a feeling of inadequacy.
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I, I didn't want to hurt him.
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He, he, he just, he
just wasn't listening.
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Close your eyes, Dev.
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Take a breath.
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Now, imagine a wooden
table in front of you.
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On this table are four mallets.
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Mallets of all different sizes.
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On the far right is a
massive circus mallet.
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One that you would use
to swing in an attempt
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to hit a ball and win a
comedically large prize.
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The mallets lay in
ascending order. On the left
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is a tiny mallet
built for a mouse.
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Pick each up and
feel its weight.
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Select the mallet that you
chose to solve this situation.
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Do you have it in
your hand, Dev?
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Yes. It feels good.
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This mallet is too heavy,
but it's not the first time.
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Keep the mallet up, Dev.
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Remember the smashed
bottle over their head.
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Repeat this memory in your mind.
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The swinging of the bottle,
the shattering sound
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of the glass and the
spilling of the blood.
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The swinging of the bottle,
the shattering sound
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of the glass and the
spilling of the blood.
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The swinging of the bottle,
the shattering sound
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of the glass and the
spilling of the blood.
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The swinging of the bottle,
the shattering sound of glass
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and the spilling of the blood.
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It's heavy.
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If it's heavy why did you
use such a large mallet?
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I was scared.
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You were scared. Is it
okay to be scared Dev?
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It's okay to be scared.
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You don't have to
carry this weight.
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This is not the
mallet you should use.
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You reacted via
past experiences,
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not in the present
moment in the bar.
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That's trauma.
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Pick a smaller mallet.
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Really feel its
weight in your hand.
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Isn't it still powerful?
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Could you use that
mallet to solve problems?
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Open your eyes, Dev.
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Hmm.
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Welcome Oday.
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We are all here.
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And now that we're here,
we can help each other.
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You have the right
to feel anxious.
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Sharing in a group
setting isn't easy.
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It's vulnerable,
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but you'll have to
take the leap of trust
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with each other just as
you learned to trust me
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during our one-on-one sessions.
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Because you are all
bound by the limits
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of legal confidentiality.
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How are we sleeping? Are
we well rested today?
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I wouldn't call it sleeping.
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A lot of nightmares.
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Be vigilant in your
sleep plans and goals.
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Sleep deprivation is detrimental
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to your self care.
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Self care is how you regrasp
the reins of your minds.
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I'm following the plans
and sleeping better.
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Thank you, Dev.
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A few rules before we start.
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Rule number one,
stay in your seat.
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Group therapy can
be challenging,
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which leads to rule number two.
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No touching, be it
combative or comforting.
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There will be time for that.
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Here we use our words
to express our emotions.
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Rule three, group therapy
functions as a family unit,
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sharing and listening.
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Rule four, do not communicate
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outside of group.
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The work needs to be done here.
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Rule five, anonymity.
First names only.
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Protecting identities
is important,
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especially for this group.
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Final rule, which you
all know, cell phones.
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Put them in the basket.
And put them on silent.
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No interruptions.
We are here to work.
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It's okay. When you're ready.
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What? I don't have a phone.
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- Everybody has a phone.
- I don't.
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Lenny doesn't
do well with possessions.
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October, do you trust me?
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I do.
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Oday?
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Yes.
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If I trust everyone
in this room,
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can we momentarily extend
our faith to each other?
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I don't wanna
be afraid anymore.
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Who wants to share first?
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Ginger hadn't said
shit since she came in.
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Maybe she should go first.
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I am not going first.
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Trauma is emotional,
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but for some it is also
physical causing limitation.
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I guess that makes me the
asshole of the group. Fine.
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I'll go first. Where do I start?
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Why don't you start
with who you were before?
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Alright.
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I worked in an office.
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I was living the
American dream, well
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pursuing it at least.
I wanted to get a
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piece of that pie, a house.
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It was mine. And no
matter what happened,
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that was my slice.
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That was my dream.
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And inside was a vault of all
the possessions that defined
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who I was.
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From the wallpaper
to the furniture,
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to the paintings.
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It was a collection
of household erotica
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that set me into a state
of copacetic bliss.
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A bubble of comfort that,
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fed a thought, that I could
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and did control my world.
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I was lie.
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I'd always come home at
the same time each night.
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But that night,
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it was the last night
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and my heart sank.
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As I stood there
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and watched my house burn.
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The flames overwhelmed
everything I ever known.
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The sense of loss
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and pain that should have
spread through every fiber
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of my muscles,
dissipated like a fog.
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into the heat fueled
by burning possessions
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that scorched my face.
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Then beyond the night's
breach, the fire
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danced in my eyes
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and the man was liberated.
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Emancipated by the
weight of my life.
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I saw the crumbling
concrete walls
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and the false
securities I had built.
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And to further perplex
these taunting thoughts.
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I saw a ghostly image
drifting through the fire.
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He was a haunted
mirrored version.
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Staring back, defiant.
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Screaming without words,
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"You are free".
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And as he faded away with
the dying flames, I began
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to know this man
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unrealized, living inside me.
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I let him stride to
the front of my mind
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and welcomed him to breathe,
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heavy in suspiration.
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That's fucking bullshit.
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Yeah, it's traumatic,
but it's not trauma.
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You didn't get burned.
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You just lost stuff
in an accident.
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That's what insurance is for.
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An accelerant was used on a
timing device to ignite
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moments before I got home.
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Someone planned that.
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They knew my house
meant everything to me.
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The problem isn't
that, I lost my house.
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[♪Music Playing ♪÷}
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Or that someone had an unknown
vendetta against me.
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I watched my house burn
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and I began to love the
fire, the destruction.
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- That's fucked
- Oday.
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Well, he's right Doctor.
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It's a fine initial reaction,
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but I'll ask you to
elaborate, Oday.
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Don't stop.
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Tell Lenny what
you really think.
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[♪Music Playing ♪÷}
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Well listen, you
embraced it. That's fucked.
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But better land
on a new side than
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to be a forever rolling die.
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I'll watch anything, burn.
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Accidents happen.
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People been hurt
because of my addiction.
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So I fight it.
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It is every day, every hour.
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I get that struggle.
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Your secret's safe with me.
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Your secret's safe
with me. That's a bond.
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Let's use October's words
as a group affirmation.
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A little lame I know,
but it builds trust.
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1, 2, 3.
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Your secret's
safe with me.
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Group therapy only works
if everyone stays engaged.
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Your secret's
safe with me.
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You should share next.
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Doc, I can go. I...I don't mind.
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It's important that we
confront the doubt
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within the group
as we move forward.
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Lenny, do you trust her?
263
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Not yet.
264
00:23:06,625 --> 00:23:09,665
She going to type her
whole fucking story out?
265
00:23:51,125 --> 00:23:53,915
Would you care to share the
note with the group, October?
266
00:23:53,916 --> 00:23:55,540
It says, "Fuck off twat".
267
00:23:58,916 --> 00:24:03,957
I am always going to support
laughter in our group,
268
00:24:03,958 --> 00:24:08,208
but outward aggression is
directing away from your pain.
269
00:24:09,875 --> 00:24:12,582
In the future,
270
00:24:12,583 --> 00:24:16,041
let's stay with the emotion
and explore it together.
271
00:24:28,666 --> 00:24:31,541
The story I want to
share is not my own.
272
00:24:36,708 --> 00:24:39,874
My account isn't as important.
273
00:24:39,875 --> 00:24:42,582
His story, his pain, that's
274
00:24:42,583 --> 00:24:44,541
where I find strength.
275
00:24:46,125 --> 00:24:50,625
His story, his pain.
276
00:24:56,666 --> 00:24:59,916
That's where I find strength.
277
00:25:07,000 --> 00:25:10,208
There in the damp, in the cold,
278
00:25:11,291 --> 00:25:13,791
as his blood dries
279
00:25:16,916 --> 00:25:19,541
another day of beating,
280
00:25:22,791 --> 00:25:24,958
mixed with the
281
00:25:27,958 --> 00:25:32,666
putrid smells
of the underground.
282
00:25:39,291 --> 00:25:43,250
His spirit broken.
283
00:25:48,125 --> 00:25:52,124
She came again
284
00:25:52,125 --> 00:25:53,665
and again
285
00:25:53,666 --> 00:25:58,000
to each unknown
286
00:26:01,083 --> 00:26:05,250
passing day outside,
to break him
287
00:26:10,166 --> 00:26:11,291
once more.
288
00:26:21,375 --> 00:26:24,041
It was her pleasure.
289
00:26:45,375 --> 00:26:50,249
Oh, no, no, no, no,
290
00:26:50,250 --> 00:26:52,666
no, no, no.
291
00:26:54,791 --> 00:26:56,124
Please.
292
00:27:02,125 --> 00:27:03,166
Please. Please.
293
00:27:04,916 --> 00:27:05,958
Please.
294
00:27:36,375 --> 00:27:39,083
No more, no more.
295
00:27:41,166 --> 00:27:42,208
Please.
296
00:27:51,000 --> 00:27:52,083
Pain is pleasure.
297
00:27:55,125 --> 00:27:57,083
Emotionally and physically.
298
00:28:55,458 --> 00:28:56,916
Do you hate me?
299
00:29:01,166 --> 00:29:02,875
I just want it to stop.
300
00:29:14,500 --> 00:29:16,083
My family died in a fire.
301
00:29:21,500 --> 00:29:22,958
I hear the screaming.
302
00:29:26,416 --> 00:29:28,125
I was cooked alive.
303
00:29:34,000 --> 00:29:35,499
Third degree burns head to
toe,
304
00:29:35,500 --> 00:29:37,333
third degree burns beyond pain.
305
00:29:40,583 --> 00:29:42,250
Then nothing.
306
00:29:48,583 --> 00:29:52,415
Severe nerve damage,
complete loss
307
00:29:52,416 --> 00:29:54,791
of skin sensitivity,
308
00:29:56,333 --> 00:29:58,540
complete loss of skin.
309
00:29:58,541 --> 00:30:01,249
The psychologists argue
310
00:30:01,250 --> 00:30:05,875
I put up a mental block on
all my senses. I disagree.
311
00:30:11,541 --> 00:30:14,000
I can't feel anymore.
312
00:30:23,250 --> 00:30:26,208
First I must feel.
313
00:30:28,291 --> 00:30:31,207
Then I'll set you free.
314
00:30:31,208 --> 00:30:33,041
To feel is to be human.
315
00:30:34,541 --> 00:30:39,250
Help me feel. Help me be.
316
00:30:57,375 --> 00:31:01,290
Oh yes, I taste it. The
anticipation of my strike.
317
00:31:01,291 --> 00:31:03,957
Stings your nerves and
contract your muscles.
318
00:31:18,416 --> 00:31:21,666
Exactly what I needed.
319
00:31:25,583 --> 00:31:27,250
Ah, but I don't
wanna be selfish.
320
00:31:31,041 --> 00:31:33,000
Let me give you pleasure too.
321
00:31:42,583 --> 00:31:45,958
Stop. I'm married.
322
00:31:47,708 --> 00:31:49,624
She's not gonna find out.
323
00:31:49,625 --> 00:31:52,000
I always dispose of
the bodies properly.
324
00:31:55,291 --> 00:31:56,666
Oh, here we go.
325
00:31:58,541 --> 00:32:01,124
I knew you'd enjoy it.
326
00:32:09,125 --> 00:32:14,040
I'll tell you what, if
you don't cum, I won't kill
327
00:32:14,041 --> 00:32:15,665
your wife.
328
00:32:52,875 --> 00:32:55,458
Just kidding. I
already killed her.
329
00:32:57,666 --> 00:32:59,541
Her torment was euphoria.
330
00:33:00,875 --> 00:33:03,166
She screamed out for you.
331
00:33:04,666 --> 00:33:06,208
Until I cut out her tongue.
332
00:33:07,875 --> 00:33:10,832
That silenced the
little ginger bitch.
333
00:33:10,833 --> 00:33:12,749
I don't believe you.
334
00:33:12,750 --> 00:33:14,333
You
don't believe me.
335
00:33:15,500 --> 00:33:16,666
I don't believe you.
336
00:33:30,333 --> 00:33:31,666
I cut it out.
337
00:33:33,833 --> 00:33:36,083
That little
tattoo on her right hip.
338
00:33:38,833 --> 00:33:43,291
Look at it Charles. So cute.
339
00:33:45,958 --> 00:33:47,750
Wish I had soft
skin for a tattoo.
340
00:33:53,500 --> 00:33:57,333
Oops.
341
00:33:59,833 --> 00:34:03,250
I'm sorry Claire.
342
00:34:33,833 --> 00:34:36,874
My skin is crawling.
343
00:34:36,875 --> 00:34:41,624
Thank you. My sweet pet.
344
00:34:41,625 --> 00:34:45,208
The
pleasure will endure.
345
00:34:54,666 --> 00:34:56,250
Cut me again.
346
00:35:15,958 --> 00:35:17,708
To feel is to be human.
347
00:35:38,833 --> 00:35:41,291
To feel is to be human.
348
00:35:52,208 --> 00:35:54,208
To feel is to be human.
349
00:37:29,916 --> 00:37:31,750
No, not fair.
350
00:37:49,500 --> 00:37:52,415
You know, I had this calico cat
351
00:37:52,416 --> 00:37:55,333
named Ghost as a child.
352
00:37:57,833 --> 00:38:00,000
She was a present from
my parents when I was 10.
353
00:38:03,041 --> 00:38:06,041
I think they wanted to
teach me responsibility.
354
00:38:09,458 --> 00:38:12,040
Ghost like to hide and
wait for the perfect moment
355
00:38:12,041 --> 00:38:14,540
to jump out and scare me.
356
00:38:14,541 --> 00:38:16,791
And then I'd playfully
chase her back.
357
00:38:20,125 --> 00:38:21,458
I loved that cat.
358
00:38:27,458 --> 00:38:29,833
And then when I was 17,
I got this beater car,
359
00:38:31,833 --> 00:38:33,416
so excited
360
00:38:36,541 --> 00:38:38,833
and backing it out of the
driveway for the first time
361
00:38:40,500 --> 00:38:41,541
I ran over ghost.
362
00:38:45,000 --> 00:38:47,541
I could feel her
squish under the tire.
363
00:38:48,625 --> 00:38:51,333
Her little bones crunch.
364
00:38:53,458 --> 00:38:57,124
She let out this
screeching meow.
365
00:38:57,125 --> 00:39:01,708
It stung my heart.
366
00:39:04,875 --> 00:39:06,165
And I knew right
away what I've done.
367
00:39:06,166 --> 00:39:08,125
I, I dashed to my pet.
368
00:39:11,000 --> 00:39:12,625
She'd been hiding.
369
00:39:16,833 --> 00:39:20,624
And breathing her last
breaths I could sense
370
00:39:20,625 --> 00:39:23,375
she wanted to tell
me something thing.
371
00:39:24,958 --> 00:39:27,540
So I leaned in.
372
00:39:27,541 --> 00:39:30,750
Her majestic eyes stared back.
373
00:39:34,583 --> 00:39:37,499
Do you want to know
what the eyes of my
374
00:39:37,500 --> 00:39:39,791
beloved childhood cat told me?
375
00:39:41,291 --> 00:39:45,665
Tell me my sweet pet.
376
00:39:45,666 --> 00:39:47,457
"Go fuck yourself!
377
00:39:47,458 --> 00:39:49,749
You ran over me with a car!"
378
00:40:11,916 --> 00:40:13,500
You win.
379
00:41:58,791 --> 00:42:02,665
My husband's dying words were
380
00:42:02,666 --> 00:42:06,291
fuck you in your mouth.
381
00:42:08,291 --> 00:42:13,207
He gave me, he gave me
382
00:42:13,208 --> 00:42:16,791
the courage to escape her.
383
00:42:20,875 --> 00:42:24,124
But every minute awake
384
00:42:24,125 --> 00:42:28,124
and asleep, I dream
385
00:42:28,125 --> 00:42:29,625
of killing her.
386
00:42:31,208 --> 00:42:34,665
Not for vengeance, though.
387
00:42:34,666 --> 00:42:38,040
I fear she'll find me again and
388
00:42:38,041 --> 00:42:42,583
place me back in the dark.
389
00:42:52,166 --> 00:42:54,708
Why didn't you kill
her when you escaped?
390
00:43:07,166 --> 00:43:09,750
There was a type of guard,
391
00:43:12,125 --> 00:43:16,957
someone like us converted into
392
00:43:16,958 --> 00:43:20,083
one of her obedient
393
00:43:22,416 --> 00:43:24,083
lit, little pets.
394
00:43:27,375 --> 00:43:30,041
Had to go through him to escape.
395
00:43:32,208 --> 00:43:33,791
I waited for her.
396
00:43:37,041 --> 00:43:39,415
She never came back.
397
00:43:39,416 --> 00:43:41,040
I heard about that
last year? Yeah.
398
00:43:41,041 --> 00:43:43,708
The police found all
those chained up gimps!
399
00:43:46,750 --> 00:43:50,040
I wouldn't have been able
400
00:43:50,041 --> 00:43:52,416
to face her then.
401
00:43:54,125 --> 00:43:56,083
I would've been
402
00:43:59,166 --> 00:44:01,083
crippled in terror.
403
00:44:03,333 --> 00:44:07,958
She still has a power
over me. I know that.
404
00:44:09,833 --> 00:44:12,375
I'm just, I'm ready
405
00:44:14,208 --> 00:44:15,333
to take it back.
406
00:44:21,333 --> 00:44:25,332
Your secrets are
407
00:44:25,333 --> 00:44:27,708
safe with me.
408
00:44:40,000 --> 00:44:43,999
Dev, I think you
reserve the right
409
00:44:44,000 --> 00:44:46,083
to share next.
410
00:44:54,166 --> 00:44:55,790
My incident happened
411
00:44:55,791 --> 00:45:00,207
because I had a friend
who cried out for help,
412
00:45:00,208 --> 00:45:03,291
but I wasn't listening.
413
00:45:07,833 --> 00:45:10,124
It wasn't her first attempt.
414
00:45:10,125 --> 00:45:11,916
I...I didn't hear her
until she was screaming.
415
00:45:18,166 --> 00:45:20,415
We tried to make up for it,
416
00:45:20,416 --> 00:45:25,125
but ended up in
a horrible place.
417
00:45:27,208 --> 00:45:28,916
At the wrong time.
418
00:45:34,208 --> 00:45:36,165
I can't remember the
last time it was just
419
00:45:36,166 --> 00:45:37,249
the three of us.
420
00:45:37,250 --> 00:45:38,375
It's like old times.
421
00:45:39,916 --> 00:45:42,374
I'm just happy
you dumped Chelsea.
422
00:45:42,375 --> 00:45:44,540
Usually the fourth
wheel's a good thing.
423
00:45:44,541 --> 00:45:46,332
But she was a flat tire.
424
00:45:46,333 --> 00:45:49,207
- She wasn't that bad dude.
- She was pretty bad.
425
00:45:49,208 --> 00:45:51,790
- Chelsea was fun.
- She lost your dog.
426
00:45:51,791 --> 00:45:53,082
And she blamed it on Dev.
427
00:45:53,083 --> 00:45:53,999
Is that true?
428
00:45:54,000 --> 00:45:55,332
Yeah.
429
00:45:55,333 --> 00:45:58,165
Okay. In that
case, Chelsea sucked.
430
00:45:58,166 --> 00:46:01,874
But she was hot. And
you said she was hot.
431
00:46:01,875 --> 00:46:03,374
So that kind of balances
her out a little bit.
432
00:46:03,375 --> 00:46:04,499
For you.
433
00:46:04,500 --> 00:46:06,457
For us she was just a bitch.
434
00:46:06,458 --> 00:46:07,374
You can do better Lane.
435
00:46:07,375 --> 00:46:08,875
Thank you Pam.
436
00:46:12,000 --> 00:46:15,290
I, I need to hydrate.
- What now princess?
437
00:46:15,291 --> 00:46:17,249
Of course, you
brought sparkling water.
438
00:46:17,250 --> 00:46:19,957
I didn't realize
this excursion was timed.
439
00:46:19,958 --> 00:46:21,457
Thought we were on a hike.
Not a frolic.
440
00:46:21,458 --> 00:46:22,499
I have weak ankles.
441
00:46:22,500 --> 00:46:24,124
Should have brought milk.
442
00:46:24,125 --> 00:46:25,332
I don't like the
viscosity of milk.
443
00:46:25,333 --> 00:46:26,499
Plus milk outs...
444
00:46:26,500 --> 00:46:28,541
I should have come by myself!
445
00:46:31,958 --> 00:46:33,000
Fuck.
446
00:47:02,166 --> 00:47:05,332
You guys hear that?
Is it an animal?
447
00:47:05,333 --> 00:47:08,124
We're in the woods. Nature
tends to have animals.
448
00:47:08,125 --> 00:47:10,999
Could be a squirrel,
deer, hare, fox...
449
00:47:11,000 --> 00:47:12,250
Could you shut
up for a minute?
450
00:47:16,666 --> 00:47:19,958
- Is that music?
- I hear something too.
451
00:47:27,625 --> 00:47:29,499
Definitely music.
Maybe.
452
00:47:29,500 --> 00:47:30,540
Sounds classical.
453
00:47:30,541 --> 00:47:32,207
Sounds like it.
454
00:47:32,208 --> 00:47:33,999
Maybe they can
join your band Lane.
455
00:47:34,000 --> 00:47:36,249
Not in a band, dick!
456
00:47:36,250 --> 00:47:37,957
You know, Mint broke
up in seventh grade.
457
00:47:37,958 --> 00:47:39,332
I don't like to talk about it.
458
00:47:39,333 --> 00:47:41,041
And you still haven't
joined a new one?
459
00:47:42,791 --> 00:47:45,000
Eat a dick. Both of you.
460
00:47:48,791 --> 00:47:49,875
It's coming from over there.
461
00:47:51,083 --> 00:47:52,125
Yeah.
462
00:47:53,541 --> 00:47:55,332
No, no, no, no. We're
not going over there.
463
00:47:55,333 --> 00:47:56,957
Let's stick to the path.
464
00:47:56,958 --> 00:47:58,624
I agree with the pea brain.
465
00:47:58,625 --> 00:48:01,540
This is a chance
for an adventure.
466
00:48:01,541 --> 00:48:03,125
Looks like a chance
for ticks.
467
00:48:04,333 --> 00:48:05,707
I need this.
468
00:48:05,708 --> 00:48:08,249
I know why you guys
agreed to come up here.
469
00:48:08,250 --> 00:48:10,249
You both hate hiking.
470
00:48:10,250 --> 00:48:11,457
No we don't.
471
00:48:13,625 --> 00:48:15,916
You're gonna pity me,
then I'm gonna use it.
472
00:48:18,125 --> 00:48:19,540
Did you really just
play the guilt trip card
473
00:48:19,541 --> 00:48:21,624
on your best friend?
474
00:48:21,625 --> 00:48:23,207
Not very subtle.
475
00:48:23,208 --> 00:48:25,332
And you are a distant
second BFF.
476
00:48:25,333 --> 00:48:26,457
Bullshit.
477
00:48:26,458 --> 00:48:28,332
Consider my card played.
478
00:48:28,333 --> 00:48:30,582
Noted. But you're
bear food first princess.
479
00:48:30,583 --> 00:48:32,250
How chivalrous!
480
00:48:33,375 --> 00:48:34,416
Shit!
481
00:48:35,541 --> 00:48:37,290
Instant karma.
482
00:48:37,291 --> 00:48:39,999
I don't think you comprehend
that concept completely.
483
00:48:40,000 --> 00:48:42,499
God, what is in your bag?
No wonder your slow.
484
00:48:42,500 --> 00:48:43,832
Just the essentials.
485
00:48:43,833 --> 00:48:46,290
It's a five hour
hike. Round trip.
486
00:48:46,291 --> 00:48:49,083
You never know. I got snacks.
487
00:49:55,791 --> 00:49:56,833
Wow.
488
00:50:02,375 --> 00:50:07,249
- It's a violin.
- Hillbillies.
489
00:50:07,250 --> 00:50:10,624
Hillbillies play the banjo
and live in West Virginia.
490
00:50:10,625 --> 00:50:12,166
Mountainbillies?
491
00:50:15,500 --> 00:50:17,500
There's a stone
house up there.
492
00:50:18,541 --> 00:50:19,540
Shit.
493
00:50:53,916 --> 00:50:57,583
Hey, we heard your music.
494
00:51:03,416 --> 00:51:07,624
Is that an original piece?
495
00:51:07,625 --> 00:51:10,125
I...I don't
think he heard you.
496
00:51:11,583 --> 00:51:13,333
I think he's deaf.
497
00:51:57,333 --> 00:51:59,125
That was beautiful.
498
00:52:35,666 --> 00:52:37,208
What's your name?
499
00:52:43,625 --> 00:52:45,583
Fuck! Sorry man.
500
00:52:49,375 --> 00:52:50,416
Lane.
501
00:52:58,375 --> 00:53:00,208
Yo, back
the fuck up, dude.
502
00:53:02,458 --> 00:53:03,500
Lane.
503
00:54:04,916 --> 00:54:07,416
Dev! Dev!
504
00:54:11,958 --> 00:54:13,540
Stop!
505
00:54:13,541 --> 00:54:14,582
Let go!
506
00:54:14,583 --> 00:54:15,499
Don't touch me!
507
00:54:15,500 --> 00:54:16,415
Stop please!
508
00:54:16,416 --> 00:54:17,665
Let me go.
509
00:54:17,666 --> 00:54:18,707
We're running
in the wrong direction.
510
00:54:18,708 --> 00:54:20,415
I don't care.
511
00:54:20,416 --> 00:54:21,874
We're going to
get lost if we aren't already.
512
00:54:21,875 --> 00:54:26,874
He cut his throat
open Pam! Pam, why?
513
00:54:26,875 --> 00:54:29,332
Why'd he do that? Why?
514
00:54:29,333 --> 00:54:30,249
I know.
515
00:54:30,250 --> 00:54:31,582
Lane's dead.
516
00:54:31,583 --> 00:54:34,332
I know, but if
we don't go back
517
00:54:34,333 --> 00:54:37,749
and find a path, we are
going to die in these woods.
518
00:54:37,750 --> 00:54:39,665
I can't. I can't.
519
00:54:39,666 --> 00:54:41,499
You wanna be alone in these
woods with that man at night?
520
00:54:41,500 --> 00:54:42,415
I get it.
521
00:54:42,416 --> 00:54:43,999
Okay.
522
00:54:44,000 --> 00:54:47,916
And then we go back together.
523
00:54:58,083 --> 00:55:02,875
Lane brought a knife.
We protect each other.
524
00:55:10,166 --> 00:55:12,333
We protect each other.
525
00:55:25,041 --> 00:55:29,375
Remember, if he comes at
us, we take him together.
526
00:55:32,125 --> 00:55:32,957
Something happened.
527
00:55:32,958 --> 00:55:34,665
Don't think...
528
00:55:34,666 --> 00:55:38,957
I've been a bad friend.
I wasn't there for you.
529
00:55:38,958 --> 00:55:41,665
I'm so sorry. You have to do
that to get our attention.
530
00:55:41,666 --> 00:55:42,957
I, I should have, I should
have.
531
00:55:42,958 --> 00:55:44,082
Listen. Listen.
532
00:55:44,083 --> 00:55:45,375
I should have.
533
00:55:46,541 --> 00:55:48,458
I don't wanna die anymore.
534
00:55:49,708 --> 00:55:50,750
Okay?
535
00:56:04,666 --> 00:56:05,999
He's really dead.
536
00:56:06,000 --> 00:56:08,541
Watch. I'll grab the knife.
537
00:56:14,750 --> 00:56:17,458
Okay. Okay.
538
00:56:20,041 --> 00:56:21,082
Lane.
539
00:56:21,083 --> 00:56:22,790
Have you got the knife yet?
540
00:56:22,791 --> 00:56:24,207
Fuck.
541
00:56:24,208 --> 00:56:25,458
Hurry.
542
00:56:28,041 --> 00:56:29,124
Got it.
543
00:56:29,125 --> 00:56:30,082
I should have been
nicer.
544
00:56:30,083 --> 00:56:30,999
Come on.
545
00:56:31,000 --> 00:56:31,915
I should have been nicer.
546
00:56:31,916 --> 00:56:32,957
Focus Dev.
547
00:56:32,958 --> 00:56:34,083
Look the path!
548
00:57:08,041 --> 00:57:09,083
Wake up.
549
00:57:11,125 --> 00:57:12,166
Dev, wake up!
550
00:57:14,625 --> 00:57:15,666
Wake up.
551
00:57:17,666 --> 00:57:20,125
Dev.
552
00:57:31,333 --> 00:57:33,124
Please, I don't wanna die.
553
00:57:38,791 --> 00:57:40,290
Why are you doing this?
554
00:57:45,791 --> 00:57:47,625
Dev.
555
00:57:51,166 --> 00:57:51,999
Dev go!
556
00:57:52,000 --> 00:57:52,957
Agh!
557
00:58:02,916 --> 00:58:03,958
Dev.
558
00:58:06,083 --> 00:58:06,999
Dev, don't leave me.
559
00:58:12,166 --> 00:58:13,208
Dev, please.
560
00:58:15,416 --> 00:58:16,708
Don't leave.
561
00:58:22,291 --> 00:58:24,041
Dev, you're my best friend.
562
00:58:31,083 --> 00:58:32,125
Please Dev!
563
00:58:33,208 --> 00:58:36,665
I'm sorry Pam. I'm sorry.
564
00:58:36,666 --> 00:58:39,082
No Dev.
565
00:58:39,083 --> 00:58:41,125
I'm sorry Pam. I'm sorry.
566
00:58:42,166 --> 00:58:43,833
Please no!
567
00:58:44,875 --> 00:58:46,541
I'm sorry!
568
00:59:09,458 --> 00:59:12,290
Certain music I can't listen to.
569
00:59:12,291 --> 00:59:14,332
It's why I have these.
570
00:59:14,333 --> 00:59:17,165
I have a seizure or worse.
571
00:59:17,166 --> 00:59:19,875
Enter into a fugue
state and blackout.
572
00:59:21,458 --> 00:59:23,790
Last time I came to, I was
573
00:59:23,791 --> 00:59:25,832
running down the
middle of the street.
574
00:59:25,833 --> 00:59:28,790
No shoes. Never found them.
575
00:59:28,791 --> 00:59:31,374
Don't know why
they were missing.
576
00:59:31,375 --> 00:59:34,708
That was four miles from home.
577
00:59:37,875 --> 00:59:41,915
Always four miles from home.
578
00:59:41,916 --> 00:59:43,958
And the few times
579
00:59:46,875 --> 00:59:50,125
I hear the bow hit the strings
580
00:59:56,083 --> 00:59:59,000
and then I hurt someone
581
01:00:01,458 --> 01:00:04,625
that doesn't deserve it.
582
01:00:06,333 --> 01:00:07,665
And I realize what I've done
583
01:00:07,666 --> 01:00:09,750
of course I run.
584
01:00:12,208 --> 01:00:17,000
Fight or flight,
flight that's me.
585
01:00:19,000 --> 01:00:21,166
A candy ass who left
his friends to die!
586
01:00:35,416 --> 01:00:38,291
Dr. Hedonia found me when
I was on 51-50 watch.
587
01:00:41,791 --> 01:00:44,165
That's why I'm here.
588
01:00:44,166 --> 01:00:46,166
There are several
ways to snap.
589
01:00:49,166 --> 01:00:52,416
No shame in one over another.
590
01:00:54,041 --> 01:00:58,708
Hell, you're not a pyro and
at least you got your tongue.
591
01:01:00,583 --> 01:01:01,875
The worst part,
592
01:01:04,458 --> 01:01:06,790
the police never
recovered their bodies
593
01:01:06,791 --> 01:01:09,125
or found any
substantial evidence.
594
01:01:12,041 --> 01:01:13,416
He's still out there.
595
01:01:15,000 --> 01:01:18,666
Did the violinist ever speak?
596
01:01:24,041 --> 01:01:28,790
As you see, it's not just
597
01:01:28,791 --> 01:01:32,999
deep trauma that you all share.
598
01:01:33,000 --> 01:01:36,125
It's uncertainty
and lack of closure.
599
01:01:37,583 --> 01:01:39,083
You are not alone.
600
01:01:40,375 --> 01:01:42,124
This next part
601
01:01:42,125 --> 01:01:45,958
and feeling is no different
than an A.A. meeting.
602
01:01:47,333 --> 01:01:48,790
Yeah.
603
01:01:48,791 --> 01:01:52,082
Well, I really could use a drink
604
01:01:52,083 --> 01:01:56,708
after Forrest Gump
and the mute's story.
605
01:02:00,583 --> 01:02:05,207
Hey, little bit
606
01:02:05,208 --> 01:02:08,750
of medicine helps
the demons go down.
607
01:02:11,500 --> 01:02:13,082
Wow!
608
01:02:13,083 --> 01:02:17,832
I do not condone
drinking during group.
609
01:02:17,833 --> 01:02:22,415
We're bonding doc. All
right, take it easy.
610
01:02:22,416 --> 01:02:24,374
Here marshmallow, take a swig.
611
01:02:24,375 --> 01:02:26,291
That'll keep you from running.
612
01:02:35,583 --> 01:02:37,916
Let's take a five
minute break. Hmm.
613
01:02:39,916 --> 01:02:41,791
Bathrooms are in the lobby.
614
01:03:36,333 --> 01:03:37,916
Do you mind?
615
01:04:08,750 --> 01:04:10,208
Moon is out.
616
01:04:20,250 --> 01:04:22,916
There's a dark
truth in that room.
617
01:04:27,291 --> 01:04:29,291
It's refreshing.
618
01:04:35,250 --> 01:04:36,916
We're like wolves.
619
01:04:40,041 --> 01:04:44,625
Either we'll eat each other
alive or we'll become a clan.
620
01:04:52,583 --> 01:04:53,916
Perhaps.
621
01:04:58,666 --> 01:05:00,332
Hearing everyone's story
622
01:05:00,333 --> 01:05:03,583
I have a feeling the
worst was left for last.
623
01:05:10,416 --> 01:05:12,000
And then there were two.
624
01:05:16,208 --> 01:05:18,624
In the land of the monsters,
625
01:05:18,625 --> 01:05:22,916
who is king or queen?
626
01:05:41,416 --> 01:05:46,041
The real monsters
are the ones who hide it.
627
01:06:02,291 --> 01:06:04,250
What are you writing?
628
01:06:38,375 --> 01:06:43,166
I used to be afraid like you.
629
01:06:44,666 --> 01:06:46,250
Even worse,
630
01:06:49,833 --> 01:06:52,790
I was terrified
631
01:06:52,791 --> 01:06:57,000
to breathe too loud.
632
01:06:59,375 --> 01:07:01,041
Want to know the secret?
633
01:07:02,916 --> 01:07:04,583
I can't go on like this.
634
01:07:14,291 --> 01:07:17,416
Always be ready.
635
01:07:20,333 --> 01:07:22,290
I can't kill anyone.
636
01:07:22,291 --> 01:07:25,208
Yes, you can.
637
01:07:27,875 --> 01:07:29,666
It's in all of us.
638
01:07:31,208 --> 01:07:34,041
And I don't guilt
you for running,
639
01:07:36,541 --> 01:07:39,540
but you may not have a choice
640
01:07:39,541 --> 01:07:40,708
next time.
641
01:07:42,750 --> 01:07:44,166
Next time?
642
01:07:47,333 --> 01:07:52,083
One way, our demons
will come for us again.
643
01:07:53,458 --> 01:07:56,125
And that at least I know.
644
01:08:03,000 --> 01:08:05,166
There are five main lines.
645
01:08:07,583 --> 01:08:11,165
And it's about how they cross,
646
01:08:11,166 --> 01:08:14,166
how they combine at the right
event, the right persons,
647
01:08:17,458 --> 01:08:20,125
and the perfect timing.
648
01:08:29,000 --> 01:08:31,666
Do the stars lineup?
649
01:08:40,041 --> 01:08:43,375
We'll find out soon enough.
650
01:08:52,625 --> 01:08:54,291
Don't trust them.
651
01:09:51,916 --> 01:09:53,750
Will you stop it?
652
01:09:59,708 --> 01:10:02,332
You think we're
her craziest group?
653
01:10:02,333 --> 01:10:05,957
Wait, there
are other groups?
654
01:10:05,958 --> 01:10:09,665
Hell, I just wanna know
what she does back there.
655
01:10:09,666 --> 01:10:11,625
She writes notes
on how mental we are.
656
01:10:15,000 --> 01:10:18,333
Lenny, what scares you
about having possessions?
657
01:10:20,375 --> 01:10:24,624
I guess I'm afraid
658
01:10:24,625 --> 01:10:26,332
of losing everything.
659
01:10:26,333 --> 01:10:28,125
You know, again.
660
01:10:29,583 --> 01:10:32,665
Would you extend that
to personal connections?
661
01:10:32,666 --> 01:10:36,291
Sure. I don't trust people.
662
01:10:38,000 --> 01:10:39,582
You expressed to me
663
01:10:39,583 --> 01:10:43,875
before that your
relationships are superficial.
664
01:10:45,500 --> 01:10:46,666
They lack history.
665
01:10:48,625 --> 01:10:52,040
Before you can have a
relationship with others,
666
01:10:52,041 --> 01:10:56,333
you need to have a
healthy one with yourself.
667
01:10:58,750 --> 01:11:01,541
Tell the group who you
lost in the fire Lenny.
668
01:11:06,625 --> 01:11:07,916
No.
669
01:11:26,916 --> 01:11:28,750
Stay with the emotion,
but stay in your seat.
670
01:11:41,791 --> 01:11:44,958
I didn't lose anyone.
671
01:11:48,833 --> 01:11:50,375
I lived alone.
672
01:11:59,041 --> 01:12:00,708
Who did you lose Lenny?
673
01:12:07,000 --> 01:12:10,082
I don't want to do this.
674
01:12:10,083 --> 01:12:13,750
Underneath the rage
is pain. Identify it.
675
01:12:14,750 --> 01:12:17,040
This is the lost path back.
676
01:12:17,041 --> 01:12:18,165
Shut up!
677
01:12:18,166 --> 01:12:20,416
Stay with me. Don't run.
678
01:12:24,250 --> 01:12:26,291
I'm not like that bitch Dev!
679
01:12:28,791 --> 01:12:33,333
I like who I am! I
don't want to remember.
680
01:12:35,750 --> 01:12:38,749
I like who you are too Lenny.
681
01:12:38,750 --> 01:12:40,624
It's only a
dissociative disorder
682
01:12:40,625 --> 01:12:42,416
if the current
state is undesired.
683
01:12:45,083 --> 01:12:48,458
Stop staring at me.
684
01:12:50,500 --> 01:12:55,125
Step over the edge. No one
here is going to hurt you.
685
01:12:58,208 --> 01:13:01,540
I can't trust
these fucking freaks.
686
01:13:01,541 --> 01:13:05,500
Okay, that's a fair
expression to the group.
687
01:13:06,750 --> 01:13:10,458
Rip this scab off man.
688
01:13:14,166 --> 01:13:17,916
I don't remember who I was
689
01:13:21,000 --> 01:13:22,041
before the fire.
690
01:13:22,833 --> 01:13:24,749
Like amnesia.
691
01:13:24,750 --> 01:13:29,249
Most triggers that
could jog Lenny's memory
692
01:13:29,250 --> 01:13:32,165
were lost in his house fire.
693
01:13:32,166 --> 01:13:36,790
Lenny suffers from selective
dissociative amnesia.
694
01:13:36,791 --> 01:13:41,540
Specifically memories
linked to his core identity
695
01:13:41,541 --> 01:13:44,916
that were eclipsed
by his trauma.
696
01:13:46,708 --> 01:13:48,583
You don't remember
anything about yourself.
697
01:13:50,291 --> 01:13:53,583
The foundation is there,
698
01:13:56,333 --> 01:14:00,666
but nothing that
makes a house a home.
699
01:14:04,333 --> 01:14:09,707
Lenny was very brave,
but let's give him a moment.
700
01:14:09,708 --> 01:14:13,207
I know you all can
relate to his struggle.
701
01:14:13,208 --> 01:14:16,249
Someone, something
has been stripped
702
01:14:16,250 --> 01:14:18,541
away from your identities.
703
01:14:19,583 --> 01:14:21,832
Let's not address it as
704
01:14:21,833 --> 01:14:24,290
a positive or
negative attribute.
705
01:14:24,291 --> 01:14:26,083
Instead,
706
01:14:27,291 --> 01:14:30,207
understand your identities
707
01:14:30,208 --> 01:14:34,874
lack the tools
to deal with the new self.
708
01:14:34,875 --> 01:14:37,665
We're here to
acquire those tools
709
01:14:37,666 --> 01:14:41,000
and to direct that
metamorphosis.
710
01:14:42,250 --> 01:14:45,665
For Oday's case
711
01:14:45,666 --> 01:14:48,208
it was a very deranged
transformation.
712
01:15:01,791 --> 01:15:06,125
I can see why Dr.
Hedonia brought us together.
713
01:15:13,708 --> 01:15:16,500
I was also captured,
714
01:15:22,875 --> 01:15:24,666
but I was alone.
715
01:16:07,708 --> 01:16:11,291
I always took a
nap on the way home from work.
716
01:16:14,208 --> 01:16:15,791
Someone took notice.
717
01:17:12,458 --> 01:17:13,583
Hey!
718
01:17:15,791 --> 01:17:17,249
Hey!
719
01:17:17,250 --> 01:17:18,791
Can you hear me?
720
01:17:20,958 --> 01:17:22,666
The first
day of my capture,
721
01:17:24,333 --> 01:17:28,165
I howled screams, upon
screams, upon screams.
722
01:17:28,166 --> 01:17:29,291
[Yells÷}
723
01:17:30,500 --> 01:17:33,415
Until my voice unheard, faded.
724
01:17:33,416 --> 01:17:34,791
Help!
725
01:17:37,000 --> 01:17:38,750
Muzzling
even my mind.
726
01:17:58,500 --> 01:17:59,541
Hey!
727
01:18:01,916 --> 01:18:02,958
Hey!
728
01:18:04,458 --> 01:18:06,333
Help!
729
01:19:16,083 --> 01:19:20,791
Each day
the well felt deeper,
730
01:19:23,541 --> 01:19:25,415
the sky
731
01:19:25,416 --> 01:19:26,916
farther away.
732
01:19:28,208 --> 01:19:32,165
All your left is a denominator
733
01:19:32,166 --> 01:19:33,791
of thoughts
734
01:19:35,000 --> 01:19:37,332
and waiting.
735
01:20:54,083 --> 01:20:55,875
Please, please,
736
01:20:57,375 --> 01:20:59,041
you can't keep me in here.
737
01:21:01,083 --> 01:21:02,166
I have a family.
738
01:21:08,458 --> 01:21:12,416
Oday's Repetition
breaks the spirit.
739
01:21:13,583 --> 01:21:15,541
Drains the mind.
740
01:21:17,041 --> 01:21:20,290
Molds it in its liking.
741
01:21:20,291 --> 01:21:22,040
I must escape.
742
01:21:22,041 --> 01:21:25,583
You're mocking me! I
can hear your whispers.
743
01:21:27,208 --> 01:21:29,375
I can hear your secrets.
744
01:21:34,625 --> 01:21:38,958
It's then when the
desire for the pattern
745
01:21:40,541 --> 01:21:44,082
becomes its greatest.
746
01:21:46,250 --> 01:21:47,999
Oday's
Don't let him control you.
747
01:21:48,000 --> 01:21:49,457
Don't let him control you.
748
01:21:49,458 --> 01:21:50,583
Hey!
749
01:21:52,250 --> 01:21:53,290
Show yourself.
750
01:21:53,291 --> 01:21:55,665
You fucking cowards!
751
01:21:55,666 --> 01:21:57,374
Yeah, I'll come up there
752
01:21:57,375 --> 01:22:00,999
and throw you down here
and rip those arms off.
753
01:22:01,000 --> 01:22:04,332
Yeah. And ring the bell on you!
754
01:22:25,458 --> 01:22:28,000
After that,
the water continued,
755
01:22:29,125 --> 01:22:31,125
but not the food.
756
01:22:32,416 --> 01:22:37,166
Instead came the hunger.
757
01:22:48,458 --> 01:22:50,041
I'm not your anim...
758
01:22:51,291 --> 01:22:53,375
I'm not your animal!
759
01:22:59,333 --> 01:23:00,457
I'm not hungry.
760
01:23:02,291 --> 01:23:05,082
I'm not cold.
761
01:23:05,083 --> 01:23:11,082
I'm not hungry. No.
762
01:23:11,083 --> 01:23:12,208
Ah.
763
01:23:13,833 --> 01:23:14,665
Ugh. Ah.
764
01:23:24,666 --> 01:23:25,749
Maybe just a bite.
765
01:23:28,250 --> 01:23:29,291
With ice cream.
766
01:23:30,333 --> 01:23:31,582
With two scoops.
767
01:23:31,583 --> 01:23:32,665
Yeah.
768
01:23:32,666 --> 01:23:35,499
And a steak rare.
769
01:23:35,500 --> 01:23:36,582
No!
770
01:23:37,625 --> 01:23:39,041
Well done.
771
01:24:16,583 --> 01:24:18,708
I was starving.
772
01:24:19,916 --> 01:24:24,208
Yet, I knew what I felt.
773
01:25:21,416 --> 01:25:26,208
The blood
crystallized my starvation.
774
01:25:29,250 --> 01:25:33,333
And the moon murmured its
775
01:25:34,666 --> 01:25:36,208
secrets.
776
01:25:40,958 --> 01:25:44,915
There is no escape.
777
01:25:44,916 --> 01:25:49,624
There is only hunger.
778
01:25:58,333 --> 01:26:00,250
No! Take it back.
779
01:26:01,416 --> 01:26:02,625
I don't want it anymore.
780
01:26:03,541 --> 01:26:07,707
Then I felt a stir
781
01:26:07,708 --> 01:26:09,166
in my soul.
782
01:26:10,291 --> 01:26:11,750
I know what you want.
783
01:26:12,833 --> 01:26:16,957
Murky clouds arose.
784
01:26:16,958 --> 01:26:18,458
Their plotting.
785
01:26:20,708 --> 01:26:22,374
Their scheming.
786
01:26:22,375 --> 01:26:25,957
Primordial.
As in my own.
787
01:26:25,958 --> 01:26:30,750
So I stood in a vial of soup,
788
01:26:33,750 --> 01:26:36,208
beyond exhaustion.
789
01:26:38,875 --> 01:26:42,875
I succumb to the moon.
790
01:26:48,583 --> 01:26:54,375
My hand ascends
791
01:26:55,750 --> 01:26:59,875
independent of its own.
792
01:27:02,833 --> 01:27:07,166
The rest of me followed
793
01:27:08,250 --> 01:27:10,000
shadow like.
794
01:27:14,958 --> 01:27:17,916
Hunger washing over me.
795
01:27:21,416 --> 01:27:25,665
The blood moon kissing my skin.
796
01:27:27,791 --> 01:27:30,332
I surrendered
797
01:27:30,333 --> 01:27:33,540
with tongue and teeth
798
01:27:33,541 --> 01:27:37,332
beyond the horizon
799
01:27:37,333 --> 01:27:38,875
of humanity.
800
01:28:16,791 --> 01:28:18,333
Let me get this straight.
801
01:28:19,958 --> 01:28:22,791
You ate...
802
01:28:25,041 --> 01:28:27,707
Fuck.
803
01:28:27,708 --> 01:28:30,540
I'm not trying to
make any excuses. Okay.
804
01:28:30,541 --> 01:28:34,375
I know what I did,
what I've done.
805
01:28:36,500 --> 01:28:40,083
Tell the group what you
discovered in the well.
806
01:28:41,541 --> 01:28:44,708
I never let myself get hungry.
807
01:28:46,916 --> 01:28:48,999
That's what causes an urge.
808
01:28:49,000 --> 01:28:50,582
I think I'm gonna be sick.
809
01:28:50,583 --> 01:28:52,458
What does a
bleeding moon look like?
810
01:28:53,916 --> 01:28:54,874
Claire!
811
01:28:54,875 --> 01:28:57,124
Huh? She has a name.
812
01:28:57,125 --> 01:29:01,624
How dare you use my name!
813
01:29:01,625 --> 01:29:03,958
That door only
leads to more pain.
814
01:29:05,666 --> 01:29:07,916
We are a better path.
815
01:29:10,875 --> 01:29:12,375
I wanted to get
my family back.
816
01:29:14,250 --> 01:29:17,125
But the man that came out of
that hole was not a husband.
817
01:29:19,083 --> 01:29:20,375
He was not a father.
818
01:29:22,875 --> 01:29:25,541
My wife saw what I became
819
01:29:27,625 --> 01:29:29,458
and she took my kids away.
820
01:29:31,500 --> 01:29:32,583
And I didn't stop her.
821
01:29:34,500 --> 01:29:39,665
Please. I am human.
822
01:29:39,666 --> 01:29:41,832
I don't wanna be
a monster anymore.
823
01:29:45,916 --> 01:29:48,500
Claire, It's human to survive.
824
01:29:49,875 --> 01:29:52,375
Oday is not your tormentor,
825
01:29:54,208 --> 01:29:56,500
but he arises the same anger.
826
01:29:57,708 --> 01:29:59,125
We can use that.
827
01:30:05,833 --> 01:30:06,875
Oday.
828
01:30:08,791 --> 01:30:11,458
Are you willing to
participate in an exercise?
829
01:30:14,291 --> 01:30:15,875
Yes.
830
01:30:18,333 --> 01:30:20,958
If it'll keep Claire
from leaving. Yes.
831
01:30:30,041 --> 01:30:33,040
This is stupid.
832
01:30:33,041 --> 01:30:34,791
It's the
meat and potatoes.
833
01:30:36,625 --> 01:30:39,458
If you're not convinced
afterwards, you can leave.
834
01:30:48,333 --> 01:30:50,166
Arms folded over your chest.
835
01:30:51,958 --> 01:30:55,165
Spin in three circles for me.
836
01:30:55,166 --> 01:30:56,625
One...
837
01:30:59,291 --> 01:31:00,666
Two...
838
01:31:03,625 --> 01:31:05,665
Three...
839
01:31:07,291 --> 01:31:11,624
Start with a small,
lean, gentle.
840
01:31:11,625 --> 01:31:13,250
Get used to everyone's touch.
841
01:31:15,125 --> 01:31:19,583
As Claire falls softly
push her onto someone else.
842
01:31:23,708 --> 01:31:26,166
A hypersensitive
reaction is normal.
843
01:31:28,291 --> 01:31:29,625
Tell us how you feel.
844
01:31:32,250 --> 01:31:36,040
Um, dizzy.
845
01:31:36,041 --> 01:31:38,083
And beyond the circle?
846
01:31:39,625 --> 01:31:41,915
Exhausted.
847
01:31:41,916 --> 01:31:47,582
Like, like I'm treading water.
848
01:31:47,583 --> 01:31:48,708
All the time.
849
01:31:50,750 --> 01:31:56,249
You're damaged. The
world is overwhelming.
850
01:31:56,250 --> 01:31:57,999
And now you have each other.
851
01:31:58,000 --> 01:32:00,708
Understanding is support.
852
01:32:03,416 --> 01:32:06,791
Lean more and
undress your fears.
853
01:32:10,291 --> 01:32:11,541
Is that a smile?
854
01:32:14,291 --> 01:32:15,999
How do you feel now?
855
01:32:23,208 --> 01:32:25,749
Huh? Like a...
856
01:32:25,750 --> 01:32:27,625
like a kid.
857
01:32:29,916 --> 01:32:33,749
When we have a good
time, we feel safe.
858
01:32:33,750 --> 01:32:37,790
And when we feel safe, our
subconscious can surface
859
01:32:37,791 --> 01:32:40,625
and let us digest our pain.
860
01:32:44,458 --> 01:32:46,583
Keep clear up. She trusts us.
861
01:32:50,458 --> 01:32:53,666
There is an impossible
wall in front of you.
862
01:32:55,375 --> 01:32:58,958
A goliath momentous burden.
863
01:33:01,041 --> 01:33:04,290
But when you finally set
your mind in a new direction,
864
01:33:04,291 --> 01:33:07,082
you'll suddenly
see that it is true
865
01:33:07,083 --> 01:33:08,790
and there is a clear path.
866
01:33:08,791 --> 01:33:13,207
No matter the outcome.
The horrible weight
867
01:33:13,208 --> 01:33:15,708
becomes light in your heart.
868
01:33:17,291 --> 01:33:22,041
Real clarity. Real
clarity. Stop.
869
01:34:06,166 --> 01:34:08,166
I think I'm ready to share.
870
01:34:11,333 --> 01:34:13,166
Wonderful.
871
01:34:14,458 --> 01:34:16,166
That's wonderful.
872
01:34:27,541 --> 01:34:29,666
It's rare I leave my house,
873
01:34:31,916 --> 01:34:36,666
I'm a paranoid agoraphobe.
874
01:34:40,291 --> 01:34:41,958
Though I'd argue my
fears have merit.
875
01:34:43,041 --> 01:34:46,832
Coming to this group and seeing
876
01:34:46,833 --> 01:34:48,708
Dr. Hedonia have
been steps I thought
877
01:34:52,875 --> 01:34:54,791
I wasn't capable of taking.
878
01:34:58,625 --> 01:35:01,040
I think it's important
I tell about the first
879
01:35:01,041 --> 01:35:02,750
time I broke the cycle.
880
01:35:04,541 --> 01:35:07,791
Because I recognize the
importance of accepting help.
881
01:35:11,916 --> 01:35:13,957
Alone
with my thoughts
882
01:35:13,958 --> 01:35:16,290
I prefer the company
of the macabre.
883
01:35:16,291 --> 01:35:18,832
Death is knowing,
884
01:35:18,833 --> 01:35:21,875
promising, comforting.
885
01:35:23,875 --> 01:35:25,208
It is myself that I fear.
886
01:35:28,166 --> 01:35:31,875
The long empty hall,
the empty rooms,
887
01:35:33,583 --> 01:35:35,500
the solitude in the dark.
888
01:35:37,208 --> 01:35:41,333
It is the screams unheard.
The screams unanswered.
889
01:35:44,083 --> 01:35:46,000
The sound of silence
that haunts my mind.
890
01:35:49,000 --> 01:35:52,958
In these quiet hours,
the darkest of night.
891
01:35:54,458 --> 01:35:56,458
Unatural thoughts
creep through my mind.
892
01:35:59,083 --> 01:36:01,875
Notions slither over
my skin, softly.
893
01:36:03,458 --> 01:36:07,291
They're cool, touch,
soothing, distracting.
894
01:36:10,125 --> 01:36:14,374
But here alone, my
demons are my own.
895
01:36:16,458 --> 01:36:18,082
The nightmare is the same.
896
01:36:19,041 --> 01:36:20,540
A figure approaching.
897
01:36:20,541 --> 01:36:22,000
Let me in.
898
01:36:23,125 --> 01:36:25,457
A knock at the door.
899
01:36:25,458 --> 01:36:27,332
A wrapping at the walls.
900
01:36:29,166 --> 01:36:32,916
A climax of all my senses.
901
01:36:59,208 --> 01:37:00,333
After the incident,
I became withdrawn.
902
01:37:01,541 --> 01:37:04,333
Not depressed, but numb.
903
01:37:15,333 --> 01:37:17,083
It starts with a knock.
904
01:37:20,500 --> 01:37:21,833
Always at night.
905
01:37:26,083 --> 01:37:29,500
A peculiar hour for most, but
my condition had worsened.
906
01:37:30,750 --> 01:37:32,500
Only nights were manageable.
907
01:37:54,250 --> 01:37:57,000
Take your little
pills, fool yourself.
908
01:38:23,416 --> 01:38:24,666
October Saquin?
909
01:38:28,291 --> 01:38:29,333
What's it to you?
910
01:38:31,500 --> 01:38:33,375
I got your
package by accident.
911
01:38:35,708 --> 01:38:38,083
I saw the lights on. I
meant to come by earlier.
912
01:39:16,791 --> 01:39:18,708
I catch you at a bad time?
913
01:39:20,791 --> 01:39:22,541
It's always a bad time.
914
01:39:28,125 --> 01:39:29,958
Did you call earlier?
915
01:39:32,750 --> 01:39:36,041
I don't have your
number. We just met.
916
01:39:39,291 --> 01:39:40,333
Right.
917
01:39:45,791 --> 01:39:47,250
Come in.
918
01:40:08,500 --> 01:40:12,250
Little dark for my taste,
but your place is lovely.
919
01:40:21,333 --> 01:40:23,041
You going to open it?
920
01:40:25,791 --> 01:40:26,833
Drink?
921
01:40:29,375 --> 01:40:31,500
Don't really drink that often.
922
01:41:23,500 --> 01:41:27,665
Been hearing
weird noises at my place.
923
01:41:27,666 --> 01:41:29,333
Are there wild animals
around here at all?
924
01:41:31,500 --> 01:41:35,833
I'm pretty skittish.
Probably just my imagination.
925
01:41:39,833 --> 01:41:44,625
If you're quiet enough
houses speak.
926
01:41:49,666 --> 01:41:51,416
They have stories to tell.
927
01:41:59,375 --> 01:42:00,416
Boo.
928
01:42:10,375 --> 01:42:11,625
Can I use the ladies' room?
929
01:42:30,750 --> 01:42:34,290
Okay. Make friends Heidi.
930
01:42:34,291 --> 01:42:36,291
Don't be a weirdo.
931
01:42:38,916 --> 01:42:41,541
You are not going
to be lonely here.
932
01:42:43,833 --> 01:42:45,916
Get a new start.
933
01:42:47,333 --> 01:42:49,333
New start.
934
01:42:50,875 --> 01:42:52,750
'Cause you're not a loser.
935
01:42:55,083 --> 01:42:57,249
You're not a loser.
936
01:43:50,791 --> 01:43:53,915
I'll come
back. Let me in.
937
01:43:56,875 --> 01:43:58,541
Let me in.
938
01:44:11,875 --> 01:44:13,833
Let me in!
939
01:44:22,875 --> 01:44:25,707
Never thought I'd
move cross country.
940
01:44:25,708 --> 01:44:29,000
I'm a small town girl. It
all happened so quickly.
941
01:44:54,625 --> 01:44:56,583
She's prettier than you.
942
01:45:19,375 --> 01:45:21,458
Cut that little cunt's face.
943
01:45:22,250 --> 01:45:23,999
I'll tell you one thing.
944
01:45:24,000 --> 01:45:26,499
No boyfriends, no distractions.
945
01:45:26,500 --> 01:45:29,082
At least for a couple of
months.
946
01:45:29,083 --> 01:45:31,458
Or if he's really cute.
947
01:45:36,708 --> 01:45:38,541
What are you doing
with that knife?
948
01:45:46,500 --> 01:45:51,083
I get paranoid too. I
thought I heard something.
949
01:45:52,541 --> 01:45:57,375
Oh, do you always
keep late hours?
950
01:46:02,125 --> 01:46:04,957
Adults with a acute nocturnal
parasomnia can act out
951
01:46:04,958 --> 01:46:07,040
violently in their sleep so,
952
01:46:07,041 --> 01:46:11,000
I have to stay awake until dawn.
953
01:46:12,083 --> 01:46:13,791
That's your neighbor.
954
01:46:23,750 --> 01:46:25,375
I'm bulimic.
955
01:46:30,291 --> 01:46:32,000
To our issues.
956
01:46:35,541 --> 01:46:37,208
Do you wanna
stay awake with me?
957
01:46:39,625 --> 01:46:41,291
Are you down to share that
pizza?
958
01:46:42,750 --> 01:46:44,374
If you don't throw it up.
959
01:46:55,583 --> 01:46:57,541
I hear sound that aren't there.
960
01:47:00,458 --> 01:47:01,833
I know it isn't real.
961
01:47:03,750 --> 01:47:05,541
But my fear is.
962
01:47:12,291 --> 01:47:13,500
I'm not fat.
963
01:47:17,750 --> 01:47:20,000
But when I look in the
mirror, I'm disgusted.
964
01:47:23,000 --> 01:47:25,125
I gag at the first
sight of food.
965
01:47:28,250 --> 01:47:30,583
I eat what I want,
but I purge it.
966
01:47:33,083 --> 01:47:36,208
My medication keeps
my delusions at bay.
967
01:47:38,083 --> 01:47:40,500
The pills are numbing.
968
01:47:44,125 --> 01:47:46,583
It feels borderline suicidal.
969
01:47:53,708 --> 01:47:55,707
I lived with my
disorder for three years
970
01:47:55,708 --> 01:47:57,791
before telling anyone.
971
01:48:01,916 --> 01:48:03,541
I live alone,
972
01:48:05,875 --> 01:48:08,208
because my night
terrors are incurable.
973
01:48:10,416 --> 01:48:11,958
At some point
974
01:48:13,708 --> 01:48:17,916
looking good became more
important than feeling good.
975
01:48:25,166 --> 01:48:26,291
Aren't we a pair?
976
01:48:34,208 --> 01:48:37,249
Fuck everyone.
977
01:48:37,250 --> 01:48:39,083
Fuck everyone.
978
01:48:40,291 --> 01:48:41,332
You can't trust her.
979
01:48:49,333 --> 01:48:51,083
Do you like to dance?
980
01:48:52,958 --> 01:48:55,541
I love to dance.
981
01:48:58,666 --> 01:49:01,666
We should go out.
Pick out an album.
982
01:49:58,291 --> 01:50:02,708
We both have demons and mine
wait for me to fall asleep.
983
01:50:05,000 --> 01:50:06,625
A chance to take over my mind.
984
01:50:09,375 --> 01:50:11,791
So if you really
wanna stay up with me.
985
01:50:28,416 --> 01:50:29,708
They're strong.
986
01:50:31,458 --> 01:50:34,083
I need them to be
to leave the house.
987
01:50:41,166 --> 01:50:46,374
It, it's been a while.
Isn't everything closing soon?
988
01:50:46,375 --> 01:50:48,333
I know good after hours.
989
01:51:36,250 --> 01:51:38,125
We don't deserve it.
990
01:51:43,041 --> 01:51:45,833
Come on, lets get you
in something else.
991
01:53:44,000 --> 01:53:45,041
Heidi.
992
01:53:49,416 --> 01:53:54,041
Oh my God, thank you.
Oh, I could drink an ocean.
993
01:54:28,250 --> 01:54:32,207
I must give
you the message.
994
01:54:36,333 --> 01:54:37,540
Let me in.
995
01:54:39,750 --> 01:54:41,041
Let me in.
996
01:55:23,541 --> 01:55:24,583
October?
997
01:55:33,791 --> 01:55:35,083
Let me in.
998
01:55:45,500 --> 01:55:47,082
Let me in!
999
01:56:05,166 --> 01:56:07,958
There's a
silence that haunts me.
1000
01:56:11,375 --> 01:56:13,208
Thoughts that lurk.
1001
01:56:15,250 --> 01:56:16,583
Biding their time.
1002
01:56:18,333 --> 01:56:23,000
Holding their breath,
waiting to strike.
1003
01:56:27,708 --> 01:56:28,750
You're not well.
1004
01:56:30,750 --> 01:56:32,332
Alone in my house
1005
01:56:32,333 --> 01:56:35,166
I can harbor my sickness
without hurting others.
1006
01:56:36,750 --> 01:56:38,583
If there's a memory
haunting you here,
1007
01:56:40,625 --> 01:56:42,416
you should move away.
1008
01:56:45,583 --> 01:56:46,625
No.
1009
01:56:50,250 --> 01:56:52,041
I need to face my terrors
1010
01:56:54,708 --> 01:56:56,291
to truly know them.
1011
01:57:02,750 --> 01:57:05,041
Then you don't
need to do it alone.
1012
01:57:12,666 --> 01:57:14,708
Friends are hard to come by.
1013
01:57:21,208 --> 01:57:23,374
I've never had
many girlfriends or
1014
01:57:23,375 --> 01:57:25,457
friends that were genuine.
1015
01:57:27,458 --> 01:57:30,499
Ever walk in on
someone talking about you?
1016
01:57:30,500 --> 01:57:32,208
You know, behind your back.
1017
01:57:37,125 --> 01:57:38,707
You worthless slut.
1018
01:57:38,708 --> 01:57:41,250
No one will ever want you
for more than fucking.
1019
01:57:49,416 --> 01:57:51,290
Taste the rainbow bitch.
1020
01:57:53,375 --> 01:57:55,457
I hate you.
I hate you. I hate you.
1021
01:57:55,458 --> 01:57:59,249
My demons are my
own. My Demons are my own.
1022
01:58:36,791 --> 01:58:38,249
Good morning, ma'am.
1023
01:58:38,250 --> 01:58:41,415
What a beautiful sunny day.
1024
01:58:41,416 --> 01:58:44,541
And you look beautiful
too if I may say.
1025
01:58:52,833 --> 01:58:57,249
You see, I was chosen
to give you this message,
1026
01:58:57,250 --> 01:59:00,166
from our a savior and master.
1027
01:59:03,625 --> 01:59:04,791
No thank you.
1028
01:59:07,000 --> 01:59:08,333
Please take it.
1029
01:59:15,875 --> 01:59:16,916
Let me in.
1030
01:59:22,666 --> 01:59:24,541
I must give you the message.
1031
01:59:25,833 --> 01:59:27,666
For her way is divine.
1032
01:59:28,875 --> 01:59:31,375
Her truth, pleasure.
1033
01:59:33,041 --> 01:59:36,625
Rejoice!
I liberate you!
1034
01:59:39,791 --> 01:59:40,833
No! No!
1035
01:59:42,000 --> 01:59:43,041
Please!
1036
01:59:52,875 --> 01:59:54,040
No!
1037
01:59:55,875 --> 01:59:57,582
Please!
1038
01:59:57,583 --> 01:59:58,499
No!
1039
02:00:42,500 --> 02:00:45,291
When your screams
are unanswered,
1040
02:00:46,750 --> 02:00:48,000
they're silent.
1041
02:00:49,375 --> 02:00:52,291
October, what do you see?
1042
02:00:56,416 --> 02:00:58,416
Torture.
1043
02:01:01,125 --> 02:01:04,958
You heal, but
you never escape.
1044
02:01:09,791 --> 02:01:13,582
No one's there
and no one's coming.
1045
02:01:13,583 --> 02:01:15,040
Whatever happened
it's in the past.
1046
02:01:15,041 --> 02:01:16,541
I know it can't hurt me!
1047
02:01:17,916 --> 02:01:20,332
Stop torturing yourself.
1048
02:01:20,333 --> 02:01:21,790
Blah, blah, blah.
1049
02:01:21,791 --> 02:01:23,708
You can trust me.
1050
02:01:26,541 --> 02:01:30,375
Som... Somethings wrong.
1051
02:01:36,000 --> 02:01:39,416
- What have you done?
- Me? Bitch? You poisoned her.
1052
02:01:41,458 --> 02:01:43,457
She's dead.
1053
02:01:43,458 --> 02:01:44,875
Like the others.
1054
02:01:46,625 --> 02:01:47,875
The others?
1055
02:01:49,458 --> 02:01:51,500
Get rid of of the body.
1056
02:02:34,791 --> 02:02:37,416
Chop that pretty little
cunt up into pieces.
1057
02:03:27,958 --> 02:03:31,125
I'm so sorry.
1058
02:03:33,000 --> 02:03:34,582
Damn it.
1059
02:03:34,583 --> 02:03:36,833
I really wanted to watch
you chops this one up.
1060
02:03:52,958 --> 02:03:56,583
Sweet little cunt.
1061
02:04:06,708 --> 02:04:09,500
Don't think about
telling anyone.
1062
02:04:11,333 --> 02:04:12,875
I'll come back.
1063
02:05:09,333 --> 02:05:11,500
Get rid of the body.
1064
02:07:01,375 --> 02:07:02,875
You fainted.
1065
02:07:06,875 --> 02:07:09,041
It must have been
all the dancing.
1066
02:07:11,416 --> 02:07:13,125
Or the drugs.
1067
02:07:31,208 --> 02:07:35,833
Last year someone broke
into my home and um...
1068
02:07:42,291 --> 02:07:44,375
That's horrible.
1069
02:07:46,833 --> 02:07:49,041
More than you can imagine.
1070
02:08:04,875 --> 02:08:06,333
Tell me.
1071
02:08:45,000 --> 02:08:47,790
You may live with the horror,
1072
02:08:47,791 --> 02:08:51,208
but you can let go of the pain.
1073
02:08:54,875 --> 02:08:57,958
Break the cycle, October.
1074
02:09:29,208 --> 02:09:30,916
I did.
1075
02:10:23,708 --> 02:10:25,333
Death is boring,
1076
02:10:28,583 --> 02:10:29,625
shallow.
1077
02:10:34,583 --> 02:10:36,500
Now I prefer the torture.
1078
02:10:41,041 --> 02:10:42,958
Her cool touch soothing,
1079
02:10:45,625 --> 02:10:47,583
beautifully distracting.
1080
02:10:51,041 --> 02:10:53,166
I prefer the long empty hall,
1081
02:10:56,750 --> 02:10:58,416
the empty rooms,
1082
02:11:02,666 --> 02:11:04,541
the solitude in the dark.
1083
02:11:11,000 --> 02:11:13,625
The sound of silence
that never ends.
1084
02:11:19,208 --> 02:11:21,958
The sound of
silence that haunts.
1085
02:11:28,416 --> 02:11:31,041
Suddenly I
don't feel crazy.
1086
02:11:32,541 --> 02:11:34,374
And I am?
1087
02:11:34,375 --> 02:11:35,957
We're all
in the same boat.
1088
02:11:35,958 --> 02:11:38,333
But you're at the helm.
1089
02:11:45,458 --> 02:11:50,165
You look anxious Dev.
Run towards your feelings.
1090
02:11:50,166 --> 02:11:51,499
There's at least two people
1091
02:11:51,500 --> 02:11:53,208
that have killed
someone in this room.
1092
02:11:55,250 --> 02:11:57,290
You're god damn animals!
1093
02:11:57,291 --> 02:11:59,624
Whoa.
- How can you kill someone?
1094
02:11:59,625 --> 02:12:02,290
She didn't leave her
friends to die.
1095
02:12:02,291 --> 02:12:05,082
Shut up! I escaped.
1096
02:12:05,083 --> 02:12:07,124
You're
upset. Breathe.
1097
02:12:07,125 --> 02:12:09,999
Their death is not your
fault.
1098
02:12:10,000 --> 02:12:11,457
I'm freaking out because
1099
02:12:11,458 --> 02:12:13,249
she chopped someone
up with an ax!
1100
02:12:13,250 --> 02:12:16,540
She's crazy! You're
all freaking crazy.
1101
02:12:16,541 --> 02:12:21,332
Okay, we're all
crazy. I'm crazy.
1102
02:12:21,333 --> 02:12:25,375
The world is crazy
and it's full of pain.
1103
02:12:28,333 --> 02:12:31,000
But we are here to
navigate through it.
1104
02:12:37,583 --> 02:12:42,416
Your secrets are
safe with me...
1105
02:12:43,791 --> 02:12:46,040
October.
1106
02:12:46,041 --> 02:12:48,165
Thank you Claire.
1107
02:12:48,166 --> 02:12:52,082
Everyone's stories are not
1108
02:12:52,083 --> 02:12:54,041
easy pills to swallow.
1109
02:12:56,291 --> 02:13:01,374
Within each you can
discover empathy
1110
02:13:01,375 --> 02:13:06,000
because you all share the same
level of pain, the same fear.
1111
02:13:08,541 --> 02:13:13,375
Your emotional
depth is fathomless.
1112
02:13:14,833 --> 02:13:18,750
Much, much deeper than most.
1113
02:13:21,750 --> 02:13:24,624
The ability to feel
1114
02:13:24,625 --> 02:13:28,750
and not shut yourself off
1115
02:13:32,166 --> 02:13:34,458
is what defines you as human.
1116
02:13:49,791 --> 02:13:54,082
Before we end our
session, I would like
1117
02:13:54,083 --> 02:13:58,708
to do one last
exercise as a group.
1118
02:14:02,291 --> 02:14:04,333
We attempt to avoid pain,
1119
02:14:06,208 --> 02:14:07,625
but it is a part of life.
1120
02:14:09,708 --> 02:14:13,707
For this exercise,
I encourage you
1121
02:14:13,708 --> 02:14:15,541
to embrace it.
1122
02:14:18,875 --> 02:14:20,791
Trauma isn't always purposeless.
1123
02:14:22,958 --> 02:14:25,375
It can be a profound experience.
1124
02:14:37,500 --> 02:14:41,332
For a moment, let's imagine
1125
02:14:41,333 --> 02:14:44,290
you knew who caused your pain.
1126
02:14:53,583 --> 02:14:56,832
The self hatred, the
doubt, the rage, the fear,
1127
02:14:56,833 --> 02:14:58,832
the psychosis.
1128
02:14:58,833 --> 02:15:03,250
A face with cold
eyes and sharp teeth.
1129
02:15:04,833 --> 02:15:08,457
The monster who sent the man
1130
02:15:08,458 --> 02:15:10,291
to your house October,
1131
02:15:11,625 --> 02:15:16,290
kidnapped you off
the subway Oday.
1132
02:15:16,291 --> 02:15:20,415
That there was a puppeteer
behind the violinist Dev.
1133
02:15:20,416 --> 02:15:23,332
And that we knew who lit
your house on fire Lenny
1134
02:15:23,333 --> 02:15:27,291
and sent you down
a destructive path.
1135
02:15:34,875 --> 02:15:36,915
They did these atrocities
1136
02:15:36,916 --> 02:15:40,875
because they knew exactly
what would trigger you.
1137
02:15:42,791 --> 02:15:47,582
If that one person stood
right in front of all
1138
02:15:47,583 --> 02:15:51,291
of you, what would
be the outcome?
1139
02:15:58,500 --> 02:16:04,332
- It wouldn't be pretty.
- Pure hate.
1140
02:16:04,333 --> 02:16:07,874
And as a group
we would bring them
1141
02:16:07,875 --> 02:16:10,666
endless pain.
1142
02:16:11,958 --> 02:16:13,499
And what if...
1143
02:16:13,500 --> 02:16:16,750
They took pleasure
in the pain?
1144
02:16:18,791 --> 02:16:22,957
Yes, Claire, what if pain
1145
02:16:22,958 --> 02:16:25,500
for them is to feel human?
1146
02:16:51,958 --> 02:16:55,500
Now that you've exposed your
bare skin to each other,
1147
02:16:57,500 --> 02:16:59,291
I can show you mine.
1148
02:17:37,000 --> 02:17:39,250
You can get out
of your seats now.
1149
02:17:51,458 --> 02:17:53,708
Come to me,
my pets!
1150
02:18:35,125 --> 02:18:37,624
You're not, you're not full
from everything?
1151
02:18:37,625 --> 02:18:38,540
No.
1152
02:18:38,541 --> 02:18:40,374
Yeah. Shut up.
1153
02:18:40,375 --> 02:18:43,541
Hey Claire, are you sure
you don't need a ride back?
1154
02:18:45,875 --> 02:18:47,375
I'm okay.
1155
02:18:48,583 --> 02:18:49,999
Positive?
1156
02:18:50,000 --> 02:18:51,125
I need to walk.
1157
02:18:52,250 --> 02:18:54,000
See you in group.
1158
02:19:00,458 --> 02:19:02,041
Latter twat.
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