All language subtitles for Brilliant Minds s02e19 The Heros Journey.eng

- Previously
on "Brilliant Minds"...

- Earth to Oliver-
We're the same person.

- Do you remember
when you first arrived

and you were seeing things
that weren't there?

It is my job to keep you safe

and direct your course
of treatment, motivated by-

- Your patients' deep pockets.

Hudson Oaks isn't the problem.
You are.

- I want a life with you.

I just- I don't think you know
who you want it with.

- Beau thinks I still have
feelings for you.

- Well, what do you think?
- I'm figuring it out.

- I've been thinking about
what you said about Hudson Oaks,

and I've settled on
what I want to focus on

for my grant project.

I want to investigate
Amelia Fredrick.

If someone is exploiting
that system,

it could be really dangerous
for those patients.

- Then let's put a stop to it.

[ Thunder rumbles ]

- Somebody help me!

?

You'll never break me, heathen.

- Aye.
Then I shall break you free.

- Sir John! It's you.

- 'Tis I, milady.

?

- Raaah!

?

[ Moans ]

- You sent him
head over heels.

- I have a tendency to do that.

[ Hooves clopping ]

[ Horse neighs ]

?

- [ Bellows ]

- [ Gasping and grunting ]

?

- Finn?
Oh, my God!

Finn! Okay. God!
[ Sobs ]

?

?

- Tell us a story.

- Since the focus of my grant

is on the impact

of patient-centered leadership

in psychiatric care,

I have decided
to use those resources

to investigate potential
corruption at Hudson Oaks-

focus being on its director,
Dr. Amelia Fredrick.

Now, there are
conflicting reports on exactly

how Amelia got her start,

but here's what we know
for sure.

Beginning in 2017,

Amelia rose through
the corporate ranks

at Riverdale Healthcare, a chain
of psychiatric hospitals,

until she was named director
at Hudson Oaks,

one of their premier facilities.

Since her appointment,

inpatient care- and therefore
revenue- has soared.

But why is that?

I have spent every free minute
of the last few weeks

looking into this

and found online posts
from former Hudson Oaks patients

sharing their experiences.

One woman describes going in
to have her meds adjusted

and ended up being held
for seven days.

Another went for therapy
and was held for six days.

- And let's not forget Regan,
who was in and out for years

because she was misdiagnosed
as schizophrenic.

- Yes, I believe Amelia Fredrick
is holding patients

to milk their insurance.

- Very good work,
Dr. Dang.

- I agree.
It is a very good start.

But online forums
aren't enough.

We need someone
who can go on record

with facts
they can back up.

- Dr. Adler
treated me fairly

while I was at Hudson Oaks.

Maybe he's
worth contacting.

- Dr. Dang,
you reach out to Adler,

and I will check in
on my patient Hector.

- [ Exhales sharply ] Great.

- We send our most emotionally
fragile patients to Hudson Oaks.

I drove my best friend there
when he was in crisis.

So if they are taking advantage
of vulnerable patients,

I will take them down.

- Carol. Chills.

- Any particular reason why you
won't go on record against them?

- I mean, I don't have
enough concrete evidence.

Yeah, I should run.

I've got to go beg
the chief to buy

a transcranial
magnetic stimulation machine.

- You and the chief seemed pretty
cozy at your dinner party.

You know him and Beau
are on a break, right?

What's taking you so long?

When are you
gonna make your move?

?

- Oh, God.

- Wolf. Hey, we were
just talking about you.

- Um, we? Oh.
Dr. Pedrosa.

It's so good to see you.

Um, to what do we owe
this pleasure?

- This complex case
landed on my desk.

I could use a neurologist.

The patient has an aversion
to doctors,

and seeing you're the doctor
that everyone seems to love...

Patients, I mean.

- Oh.
- I thought, who better?

- Okay.

- 17-year-old presenting with
unexplained seizures

after a remote
spinal tumor resection

that left him paraplegic
postoperatively.

- Seizures can be
especially dangerous

in the setting
of paraplegia.

No orthopedic injuries,
respiratory complications.

Is there any neuroimaging?

- That's the problem.

Kid refuses to do a scan.

- Dr. Adler, hi.

This is Dr. Dana Dang
at Bronx General.

I would love
to connect with you

to discuss your work
at Hudson Oaks.

If you could give me
a call back,

I would
greatly appreciate it.

Thanks. Bye.
- Hey, stranger.

- Hi.
- Hi.

- It's nice to meet you.

I'm Dana, your girlfriend.

It's... Kathy, right?

- Between your research and my
night shifts, it has been a lot.

But at least we have
this weekend.

- Mm.

- My cousin Kara's wedding.

My parents are dying
to meet you.

- Right.

Plus, you know
I would never pass up

a road trip to Poughkeepsie.

- I'll come by your place
around 4:00 on Friday

before traffic gets bad?

- I'll have my bags packed
and ready at the door.

- Bye.

Hey.

- Oh, my God, I totally forgot
about Katie's cousin's wedding.

- That's this weekend?
- Yeah.

- Wow. Meeting the family.
That's big.

- Mm.

- Never mind, then.
We can talk later.

- Never mind what?
Hey. What's up?

- I just wanted to know if you
had any leads on my birth mom,

but you have enough
on your plate.

- Shut up.
I'm never too busy for you.

I haven't found anything yet.
But you know what?

What if you ask Charlie?

His P.I. managed to find
Wolf's dad's apartment,

Maybe he could find
your birth mom too.

?

[ Knocks ]

- Hey there. I'm Dr. Wolf.
I'm the head of neurology.

- Hi.

- Uh, are you more comfortable
in your chair than in the bed?

- Uh, he's okay. Thanks.

Uh, Finn had spinal surgery
a couple of years ago.

There were complications,

and he lost the use
of both of his legs.

Since then, we haven't been
the biggest fans of hospitals.

- Oh.
That is understandable.

Uh, would it be okay
if I conduct a brief neuro exam?

?

Could you hold your arms up
like this for me and make fists?

And now press against me.

Very good. Very strong.

That's a great necklace.
Is that hematite?

You know, in ancient Rome

it was known
as the "warrior stone."

Soldiers used to rub
ground hematite

on their bodies,
believing-

- That it'd
make them invincible.

Yeah, I know. It's a part
of this fantasy story I write.

- Oh. You're a writer
and an artist.

- It's nothing.
Just stuff I post online.

- Oh, that's not nothing.

Hey, Finn, I know that you're
hesitant to get an MRI,

but it would really
help us figure out

what caused that seizure.

How about I make
a deal with you?

You give me five minutes
in the MRI,

and I will give you
some of my ground hematite.

?

[ Machine buzzing
and whirring ]

- [ Grunting and gasping ]

- Finn, just try and stay calm,
okay?

It's only gonna take
a few minutes.

- Sorry. I'm trying.

- He's got to hold still.

- We're never gonna get
an image like this.

- Keep it running.
I'm going in.

?

Hey, Finn, it's Dr. Wolf.

Can you tell me more
about that story you're writing?

- Uh, it's a series.

A mix of sci-fi, fantasy,
and romance,

about Sir John Hart,

a fearless knight
sworn to protect the realm

and the heart of the woman
he loves-

Lady Lovegood.

- We're getting clearer images.

No more motion artifact.

- You're doing great, Finn.

?

- Left hemisphere.

- Posterior temporal lobe.

- I do not like the look
of that mass.

?

- Unfortunately,
we found a mass.

- I-It's happening again?
Well, is it cancer?

- The imaging
doesn't look malignant,

but we won't know
until we remove it.

- And we'll run further tests

and track down your
old records to determine

if this new mass is related
to your previous tumor.

It may not be.

- But I need surgery again.
- Yes.

The tumor is already large

and could be fatal
without removal.

As you know,
surgery comes with risks.

The mass straddles
the left insula

and surrounding
frontal operculum,

which sit at the crossroads
of the brain's

speech comprehension,
writing, and reading centers.

To access the tumor,

we could cause damage
to those areas of the brain.

- But that's because of
the limits of cortical mapping

on an unconscious patient.

If we were to consider
awake surgery,

your reading
and writing abilities

could be monitored in real time.

- Unfortunately,
Finn isn't an ideal candidate

for that surgery.

- I accept that Finn
is not an ideal patient

for an awake craniotomy,
but he deserves a chance.

We need a way for him
to tolerate this procedure

without having
another panic attack.

- It would be so much easier
if we could just give him

a few benzos
to calm his nervous system.

- But that would affect
his mental clarity.

He can't just be awake.
He needs to be alert.

- Exactly.

- We could try CBT,
exposure therapy, biofeedback.

- I'll talk to Finn
and his mom.

Even with meds, Finn's risk of
drug-resistant epilepsy is high.

The next time he seizes
could cause permanent damage.

?

[ Indistinct conversations ]

- Hector,
the last time I was here,

you and I both decided that you
were ready for outpatient care.

What happened?

- Dr. Fredrick,

she said I was still
in the acute phase of illness

and I needed more time
to heal.

- Did you push back at all?

- I tried. She said
I was being combative, paranoid.

As soon as anyone sees
those words on my chart,

there's nothing I can do.

Resisting just makes it worse.

- Hector, you have to
say something.

Would you be willing to go on
record with these allegations?

- What? No way.

If she found out,
she'd make me pay.

I'd lose the few privileges
I still have.

- No. I can help you.

- Just leave
before you get me in trouble.

- Can you explain to me exactly
what awake surgery means?

- In order to have
the best chance

of getting through the surgery
without any lasting deficits,

the patient is kept awake during
key portions of the surgery

so the surgeons can test
your brain as they work,

asking questions as they go,
to make sure they stay away

from the areas you need
to talk and move.

- If I can't use my arms...

- Awake surgery
is the best chance

of preserving that function.

But going into
a surgery awake

means that you'll have to remain
completely calm.

With even
the slightest movement,

things can become
dangerous quickly.

- How does
anyone get through that?

- Few do.

- [ Exhales sharply ]

Finn used to be
such an adventurous kid.

But after that surgery
on his spine, he was different.

And not just
because he can't walk.

I keep saying to him,
he can still do anything

he puts his mind to.

- That's just a thing
moms say.

- Do you think I can do it?

- I think
anyone can be brave.

They just need the chance
to prove it.

?

- There's this villain
in my story.

An executioner.
An invader of the realm.

Maybe this tumor
is my invader.

?

I want to do the surgery.

?

- Uh, what about the surgeon?
The one who said no?

- Oh. Don't worry,
I'll talk to him.

?

- Finn's a very, uh,
evocative writer.

- He's definitely not shy
on paper.

How is this
anatomically possible?

- This is
some top-tier romantasy.

I wish I could rock
a silk cloak like Lady Lovegood.

Hot.
[ Cellphone chimes ]

Oh, my God.

Dr. Adler was fired
from Hudson Oaks,

and he's agreed to meet.

- Dana, that's huge.

This could be
your smoking gun.

- An investigator's work
is never done, but one can hope.

Oh, speaking of,
isn't there something

you wanted to ask Charlie?

- What can I do for you, milady?

- Oh, God.

- I was wondering
if you could

put me in touch with your P.I.

I need help tracking down
my birth mom.

- Sure thing.
On one condition.

- Oh, classic.

You know what?
- What? Come on.

All I need you to do
is read the final words

of Lady Lovegood to me.

Page 213.
About halfway down.

?

- "Oh, Sir John!

Please lift
your noble... sword..."

...and stick it up your-
- Okay.

You two play nice.

- Fine.
I'll do you this favor.

Then can we be friends?

- Well, let's just see
what your guy comes back with.

But don't hold your breath.

[ Sighs ]

?

- Hey.

My team has a plan in place
to get Finn safely optimized

for the awake craniotomy.

- [ Sighs ]

Wolf, do you know
what I like about the O.R.?

I like the process.
I like the protocols.

I like knowing
that I've done everything I can

to stay in control
and keep things optimally safe.

And you want to bring something
entirely uncontrollable

into my O.R.

- People are all
uncontrollable, Josh.

Disease is uncontrollable.

You've done awake craniotomies
a million times.

- On suitable patients.

Not on an anxious teenager

who can't even make it through
an MRI-

- Who I will work with
to make sure he is in control

of his fear response.

- One of my first awake cases
was a surfer.

Okay, mid-40s, one of
the most Zen guys I've ever met.

But as soon as we got him awake,
he panicked,

tried to throw his body
off the table.

Nearly pithed himself
with the Mayfield frame.

That was a good candidate.

- Oh, come on,
you and I both know

you can't make decisions
based on one bad case.

Sometimes you've just
got to take a chance, Josh.

[ Cellphone vibrating ]

- I have to get this.

Nichols.

- [ Sighs ]
[ Indistinct conversations ]

?

?

?

?

- Can you sign this for me, sir?

?

- Ever since I was your age,

I've been fascinated
by the brain.

- You must not have had
many friends growing up either.

- Finn!
- Uh, no. He's- He's right.

Actually, I did
not have many friends.

Unless you count the ones
on the periodic table.

This area here
is the parietal lobe.

This is vital for sensory
perception and integration.

- So when you wake up
in the surgery,

your head will be in this clamp
to keep you very still.

The surgeons
will check in with you

to make sure
that everything's-

- [ Gasps ]

- The frontal lobe.

This controls all
of our higher mental functions.

So this is where the creativity
in your writing stems from.

- Okay, but Lady Lovegood
double-crossing her own father

to save Sir John?

God, it's such a brilliant way
to show

how she totally lied about
her feelings for him.

- Hey, man,
do you want to know

how I get through
the difficult things in my life?

- Your life is difficult?
What's the matter?

You're too handsome?
- [ Snorts ]

- Hey, I may seem
like I have it all together,

but I need help too.

Whenever I get overwhelmed,

I meditate
by deep breathing.

Might be worth a try?

- This is the temporal lobe.

This manages language,
memory, senses.

And this almond-shaped spot
within the temporal lobe,

this is the amygdala.

This is where you process

all of your emotions,
including fear.

- But it's so small.

It feels like fear takes up
my entire brain.

My entire body sometimes.

- Fear is
an important emotion, Finn.

It helps us
to protect ourselves.

It keeps us alive.

But we cannot let it overwhelm
everything else.

Take the fear,
you understand it,

you harness it
so you can move forward.

It's such
a tiny little piece.

There is so much more
to your brain- to you-

than the fear.

- Inhale for four.
Fill up all the way.

Exhale for six.

[ Exhaling slowing ]

- Um, Oliver.

Look, you're a very
compassionate doctor.

Finn is lucky to have you.

But I hope you remember you're
not the one with the scalpel.

You're not the one taking out
a tumor around eloquent brain.

It's not you on the line.

- He's my patient too.

- Yes, but in that O.R., the ones
at risk are Josh and Finn.

They will be the ones
to deal with the fallout.

- Josh wouldn't agree
to this surgery

if he didn't think
it was the best possible choice.

- Are you sure?

Because from where I sit,

I think he'd be willing
to do this just to please you.

- I think Amelia fired me
because she saw me as a threat.

I pushed back
on her recommendations for care.

- That's why the idea
of Hudson Oaks

without you worries me.

Good care stems
from good physicians.

If Amelia gets rid of them,
the patients will suffer.

- But I'm hitting a dead end
in terms of finding

concrete, actionable evidence
against her.

- Well, Amelia is smart.

She knows how to stay just
within the bounds of legality.

- Would you testify
against her?

- Oh, of course,

but she'd label me
a disgruntled former employee.

Unless you got
the court records.

- Court records?
For what?

- Well, if you look,
you'll find a pattern.

Amelia petitions the courts
to keep patients

on an emergency psych hold.

By the time
the cases make it to a judge,

weeks have passed
and Hudson Oaks

has already collected payout
from the insurance company.

- That means there'd be
a paper trail.

It's not illegal, but it is
sure as hell not ethical.

This is exactly what we need.

Thank you so much, Dr. Adler.

Thank you.

- You have
a very caring intern there.

I'm glad she called.

How have you been, Oliver?

- Surviving.
I'm back to my routines.

I started baking.
Much to everyone's horror.

- [ Chuckles ]
- I feel really good.

Like myself.

- What happened with Josh?

You were excited
about pursuing things with him?

- I am.
Uh, I mean I thought I was.

Something is holding me back.

I don't know what it is.

And worse...

God, I don't even
want to say this out loud.

- Nothing you say can scare me.

- I saw Sofia again.

I thought I was doing so well,

but my brain
has lied to me before.

- Sofia was with you
for quite some time.

- Yes, but she wasn't real.

- For you she was.

It's natural
that that memory

will take some time
to fully fade.

- What if it's happening again?

- Then we will
get through this again.

Your brain created the delusion
of Sofia to protect you.

And it worked.

And whatever she was
protecting you from,

I believe you'll be
strong enough to face it.

When you're ready.

?

- What'd you find out?

- The court records
just got sent over.

Amelia has been tying up
patient cases in the system

just long enough to cash in
on thousands in insurance.

The paper trail is undeniable.

- I can't say I'm surprised.

I can see why patients
don't want to come forward.

- You don't think
she would do anything drastic

in retaliation, do you?

- We need to consider
the possibility

that if we go forward with this,
it could backfire.

And even worse, it could
discourage future patients

from seeking psychiatric care.

- So what do we do?
- We need to expose her.

But we got to do it
the right way,

without risking patient care.

Amelia is a tumor

that needs to be
resected surgically.

One wrong cut could damage
the entire system.

I'll take this.
- Yeah.

?

?

[ Thunder rumbles ]

[ Hooves clopping ]

[ Horse nickers ]

?

[ Horse snorting ]

[ Horse bellowing ]

?

[ Thunder crashes ]

[ Alarm beeping ]

- Finn?
Finn, can you hear me?

Somebody help!
We need help in here!

Help, please!
- Finn.

Finn.

He's unresponsive,
bradycardic, and hypotensive.

- We need to prep him
for surgery now.

- Finn's worsening
cerebral edema

just made
this urgent surgery emergent.

We have zero margin for error.

- There's a warrior
inside that kid.

Give him a chance to unlock it.

- Let's do this, then.

?

[ Indistinct conversations ]

- Where am I?

- Finn, you're okay.
You're in the O.R.

We had to move up the surgery

because of increased
brain compression.

- It's happening?
Right now?

- Right now.
But you are ready.

- You're sure about this?

- Wait a minute. Uh...

- Josh.

- By order
of the Council of Medicine,

I hereby knight you into
the Fellowship of the Brave.

?

Let's begin cranial mapping.

Ojemann stimulator, please,
at my standard settings.

- Yes, Doctor.
- Right away.

- Finn, can you tell me
who this character is?

- That's Sir John Hart,

protector of the realm
of Lustmore.

[ Thunder crashing ]

- Where are we?

- Kingsfell Castle.

I'd recognize
this sigil anywhere.

- Is anybody there?

- Lady Lovegood.
I've got to help her.

I cannot guarantee
your survival.

You've been in battle before?
- No, but I'm a quick study.

- Let's hope.
Stay behind me.

- Somebody help me!

?

- Lady Lovegood.

- We'll get her out.
We can find a key.

- Key, jacket, veil, block.

Finn, can you repeat
these words back to me?

Key. Jacket. Veil. Block.

- Key, jacket...

Sail? And socks.

- Marking this area of superior
temporal gyrus as eloquent.

- I didn't get it right?

- No, no.
You're doing great, Finn.

Now we know to avoid
that area of the brain.

- Let's keep going.

- Finn, can you make a fist
with your right hand?

?

- That works too.

- Oh, Sir John!
You found me.

Who's your friend?

- I'm a healer.
I'm here to help.

- We can't stay.

We have to go
before he finds us.

- Before who finds us?
- The executioner.

Quick,
I need to get you out of here.

This is my battle.
You have to leave.

There's a tunnel
that leads outside.

You'll be safe.

- What happened the last time
you faced the executioner?

- He nearly killed me.
I wasn't strong enough.

- Well, believe me, I know
how fear can hijack the brain.

But the way we take back control
is by facing it.

- What are you afraid of, healer?

[ Horse neighs ]

?

That's the executioner.

- John, beware!

[ Both grunting ]

[ Weapons clanging ]

?

- [ Grunts ]

That's heavy.

?

John, here!

- Aah!

?

[ Sword clangs ]

- Can you try and make another
fist with your right hand?

[ Monitor beeping ]

- I can't.
What did you do to me?

[ Alarm beeping ]
- His blood pressure is rising.

- Finn. Finn, we need you to try
to calm down.

- Deep breaths, Finn.
This is only temporary.

You'll regain function
in a moment.

- What if I don't?
What if I...

[ Gasping ]

- Intracranial pressure
is rising.

- Brain's swelling.
It's starting to herniate out.

- We need ice-cold saline!

[ Alarms beeping ]
- [ Gasping ]

?

- He's stable.

- That's it.
We need to sedate him.

- That is not what
the patient wants.

- He's right, Wolf.
He can't handle another seizure.

Unless you have
a better idea-

- I have a better idea.

- I'm not doing good, am I?

- You're doing great, Finn.

One thing I learned
fighting my own battles

is you don't have to
do it alone.

- Finn, your cavalry's arrived.

- Ericka the Knowledgeable.

Dana the Heartfelt.
Charlie the Redeemer.

We're all here for you, Finn.

?

- Are you ready
to finish this?

[ Both grunting,
weapons clanging ]

?

- I've defined a safe corridor
around the tumor.

Preparing to resect.

Wait. You see that?

[ Alarm blaring ]

- What's happening?

- There are vital MCA branches
intertwined with this tumor.

- We need more time.
- Stay strong, Finn.

?

- Aah!

[ Blade plunges ]

Aah!

[ Gasping ]

?

- Finn? Finn?

Finn, look at me.

You are not your fears.

And you are not
Sir John Hart.

He is a fantasy.
You are real. You are strong.

You are brave.

- I can do this.

- Finn, I need you
to count down from ten for me.

Can you do that, pal?

- Ten, nine...

- Neuro patty.
Counter-traction.

I'll cut with microscissors.

CUSA. Tumor forceps.
- ...seven, six, five...

- Let's resect that piece
of tumor.

- ...four, three...

...two...

...one.

- [ Moans ]

[ Body thuds ]

?

- I am not afraid of you.

?

?

- Finn,
your exam is looking great.

And the genetic tests
all came back negative.

We found no underlying cause
for your two separate tumors.

- So I've just got bad luck?

- Oh, that depends on
how you look at it.

The first tumor
made you scared,

but the second one
made you brave.

This is the best
possible outcome, Finn.

The tumor is gone,
and you are completely yourself.

- Thank you.

And thank you
for taking a chance on him.

- I was just
following Finn's lead.

?

- St. Barts is my happy place.

God knows I need
a little sunshine.

Do we have to fly commercial?
[ Laughs ]

[ Door closes ]

I'm gonna
have to call you back.

- Have a seat, Dr. Fredrick.

- Why do I feel like I'm
the guest at my own funeral?

If this is about Dr. Wolf,
the man is unwell.

- Have a seat, Amelia.

- [ Clears throat ]

- Can you tell me how many times
you petitioned the courts

for continued
inpatient commitment?

- Um, I would have to
look at my records.

- I'll save you the time.
More than 500.

- I don't see the problem.

Some patients need
a little extra care.

- Only four of those petitions
were granted by a judge.

That's less than 1%.

- And before I was fired
without cause,

I recommended Ruby Barish
for discharge.

Instead, you filed a petition
to keep her here.

- I've been in limbo for days,

waiting for a judge
to weigh in on my mental health.

- As doctors, we need to be able
to refer patients to Hudson Oaks

with every assurance
that our patients are safe.

I cannot in good faith do that
if Dr. Fredrick stays in charge.

The fish rots at the head.

- This is ridiculous.
I-I've done nothing wrong.

- We went over the numbers.

Hudson Oaks is filling beds
at a higher rate

than its last two quarters,

and yet somehow
profits have decreased.

The math is not mathing.
You drive a Porsche, right?

- I'm sorry, I don't even know
who this person is.

- She's your worst nightmare.

- We've had our suspicions
about you for some time,

but Dr. Dang's research
has been very illuminating.

We're opening an investigation,
and in the meantime

Dr. Adler will take your place
as CMO.

- What?

- You will need to vacate
the premises.

- Security will escort you out.

- Uh...

This is outrageous!

- Dr. Fredrick,
you sound combative. Paranoid.

- Irrational.
Uncooperative.

- Downright hostile.

- What?

- Fine, fine.

?

- Katie, we did it.

We took down Amelia
and lived to tell the tale.

- I came up to bring
your bags down to the car,

but you're
not even packed yet.

- Packed?

Okay.
Ah, today is Friday.

I was just so focused
on the board hearing.

Just- Just give me
two minutes to pack, okay?

- We were supposed
to leave hours ago.

- [ Clears throat ]
Okay.

- What are we doing here,
Dana?

- Okay, I know I've been busy,
but I-I promise I'll do better.

This will never happen again.

- This is bigger
than you standing me up.

You don't want to go to
the wedding or meet my family.

I let it go when you
didn't want to move in together.

But you don't like
my friends.

My job freaks you out.

Where are we even going?

- Poughkeepsie?

- I said I love you
weeks ago.

You still
haven't said it back.

We're going on a year now.

Do you really
not feel that way?

- I don't know.

I, uh...

- And there's my answer.

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Bye, Dana.

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[ Door opens ]

[ Door closes ]

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- What's going on in there?

- Finn posted an update
on his forum

that he was in the hospital,
and it turns out his biggest fan

was right upstairs
in the oncology wing.

- [ Sighs ] Cute.

You know, he kind of reminds me
of you when we first met.

- Oh, you mean
effortlessly charming

and wise beyond his years?

- I mean gifted.

Not enough doctors fight for
their patients the way you do.

- Well, I'm just glad
Finn faced his fears.

Maybe it's time
I start facing mine.

Hey. Would you go somewhere
with me later?

- Of course.

?

- I've never sat in
on an awake craniotomy before.

That was pretty cool.

- [ Chuckles ] Yeah.

Finn did amazingly in there.

- Speaking of amazing...

Information on your birth mom,

I didn't look.

Even though
I was very tempted to.

- ? Do what, do fallen ?

? Blue what, stay ?

? Blue what ?
- ? Turning around ?

- ? Do fallen ?
- ? Come around ?

- Mm.
My mom's name is Joan.

- ? Turning around ?
- ? Come around ?

- I can't make it
another ten blocks.

There's a bar
around the corner.

Let's, uh, grab a drink,
warm up, huh?

- Josh...
- Yeah?

- I've given you some time
to think about us.

And it's given me time
to think as well.

It made me realize that,

yes, I'm scared
of getting hurt, but...

...even scarier is
the idea of losing you again.

Josh, I want to be with you.
I want to get married.

Marry me.

- Did you ever
play the game KerPlunk?

- Uh, sure.

The one with the sticks
and the marbles?

- Eventually you pull out
the wrong stick

and all the marbles fall.

This is where
I was sitting

when all the marbles fell.

When I hallucinated Sofia
for the first time.

- Wolf,
we don't have to do this.

- Yes, we do.

I had a lot of bravado when
I first came out of Hudson Oaks.

I said I was ready
to get Josh back.

But you're right.
Something was holding me back.

Something I've been
terrified to face.

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- On the house.

Sorry about you and Katie,
Dr. D.

- Thanks, Shane.

- Can I get a Syrah?

- Lady,
if you're looking for wine,

we got red or we got white.

- I'll just do a whiskey.

[ Indistinct conversations ]

- What?

- Syrah? Really?

- Says the woman drinking
well tequila and a beer.

- Touch�.
[ Clears throat ]

So, are you from out of town?

- Is it that obvious?
- Mm-hmm.

- I'm just in from California.
Los Angeles.

- Oh, cool.
For work or pleasure?

- My dad used to work
in the area.

But I don't really want
to think about that right now.

- Well, then...

To the things we do
to forget.

?

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- It wasn't easy
when my father came back,

and it wasn't easy
when he left again.

But in time I think
I would have reconciled it.

I think I could have accepted
not knowing

where he'd been
for the last 30 years.

But then I found out.
I created a protective delusion.

But I never told anyone
what it was protecting me from.

?

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?

?

I didn't hallucinate Sofia
out of thin air.

?

- You created a fantasy version
of her to help you.

- Tolerate the intolerable.

He didn't abandon me, Carol.
He left.

And he started
a whole new family.

He got to be happy.

She got to have him
her whole life.

?

Sofia is my sister.

She is real.

I just haven't met her...

...yet.

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