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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:00,901 --> 00:00:03,137 Previously on "The Path"... 2 00:00:03,171 --> 00:00:04,472 - What if we're wrong about 3 00:00:04,505 --> 00:00:06,474 our exemption application being recalled? 4 00:00:06,507 --> 00:00:08,442 - We don't have any money, Cal. 5 00:00:08,476 --> 00:00:10,644 - Please, take a seat. - Who the hell is that? 6 00:00:10,678 --> 00:00:12,113 - That's Sarah Lane. 7 00:00:12,146 --> 00:00:13,447 And that is why the exemption 8 00:00:13,481 --> 00:00:16,117 is so very important to us, Lisa... 9 00:00:16,150 --> 00:00:19,820 'cause what you did will never, ever go away. 10 00:00:19,853 --> 00:00:21,298 - I need you to get in the car, sweetheart. 11 00:00:21,322 --> 00:00:23,724 - Sean, listen to your mother. 12 00:00:23,757 --> 00:00:26,060 - Sean, my name is Wendy Kennair. 13 00:00:26,094 --> 00:00:29,397 - She's gonna help you, Sean... - You, Mary, and our grandchild. 14 00:00:29,430 --> 00:00:30,764 You're getting out. 15 00:00:30,798 --> 00:00:32,166 - Jacqueline Richards? 16 00:00:32,200 --> 00:00:34,202 You contributed on behalf 17 00:00:34,235 --> 00:00:36,370 of your daughter, Noa, to our cause. 18 00:00:36,404 --> 00:00:39,173 - I'm a friend of your son's. - My son? 19 00:00:39,207 --> 00:00:40,641 - I'm afraid he's out of town. 20 00:00:40,674 --> 00:00:45,146 - Your doctor, Steven Meyer... - He hurt him. 21 00:00:45,179 --> 00:00:48,449 - I picked a son, but he was the wrong son. 22 00:00:48,482 --> 00:00:50,818 - You will build The Garden, 23 00:00:50,851 --> 00:00:53,421 and we will follow you there. 24 00:00:58,759 --> 00:01:05,699 * 25 00:01:32,493 --> 00:01:36,764 Sometimes I was with both of them on the same night. 26 00:01:36,797 --> 00:01:39,233 Some nights, I would have dinner with Katie and the kids 27 00:01:39,267 --> 00:01:41,169 and then make up some excuse, 28 00:01:41,202 --> 00:01:43,337 like leaving for a business trip, 29 00:01:43,371 --> 00:01:46,174 and then go back to Tracy for the rest of the week. 30 00:01:49,243 --> 00:01:50,611 * 31 00:01:50,644 --> 00:01:52,313 Why are you doing this? 32 00:01:52,346 --> 00:01:56,684 * 33 00:01:56,717 --> 00:01:58,519 It's something I'm dealing with. 34 00:01:58,552 --> 00:01:59,753 It's my life. 35 00:01:59,787 --> 00:02:03,157 - Your lives, plural, Don. 36 00:02:03,191 --> 00:02:04,758 - Fuck you. 37 00:02:04,792 --> 00:02:07,628 You came to us drowning in guilt, 38 00:02:07,661 --> 00:02:10,464 overwhelmed, and talking about taking your own life. 39 00:02:10,498 --> 00:02:12,300 We helped you. 40 00:02:12,333 --> 00:02:14,235 We asked you to search within yourself 41 00:02:14,268 --> 00:02:17,638 to figure out why you were doing what you were doing 42 00:02:17,671 --> 00:02:21,509 and why you started two separate families 43 00:02:21,542 --> 00:02:23,377 both built on lies; 44 00:02:23,411 --> 00:02:26,347 to ask yourself why you felt so compelled 45 00:02:26,380 --> 00:02:28,749 to deceive so many people. 46 00:02:28,782 --> 00:02:30,784 And we talked you off the ledge of suicide, 47 00:02:30,818 --> 00:02:35,356 but you weren't willing to uncover the mystery of you. 48 00:02:35,389 --> 00:02:37,301 We talked to you, but you didn't want to do any real work, 49 00:02:37,325 --> 00:02:40,628 and now you've made a very successful life 50 00:02:40,661 --> 00:02:43,731 built on Transgressions. 51 00:02:43,764 --> 00:02:46,634 And it's all very delicate. 52 00:02:46,667 --> 00:02:50,204 Your fragile house of lies... 53 00:02:50,238 --> 00:02:52,606 It could collapse at any moment. 54 00:02:52,640 --> 00:02:59,613 * 55 00:02:59,647 --> 00:03:01,549 - Sorry for the delay. 56 00:03:01,582 --> 00:03:02,816 - No problem. 57 00:03:02,850 --> 00:03:05,686 * 58 00:03:05,719 --> 00:03:06,887 - I'll get you a receipt. 59 00:03:06,920 --> 00:03:13,861 * 60 00:03:29,710 --> 00:03:36,650 * 61 00:03:56,670 --> 00:03:59,507 - You look like you want someone to come over and talk to you. 62 00:04:01,709 --> 00:04:04,545 I'm Father Cates. 63 00:04:04,578 --> 00:04:07,315 - You know, I used to come to this church when I was a kid. 64 00:04:07,348 --> 00:04:09,016 - Really? - Yeah. 65 00:04:09,049 --> 00:04:10,851 - Welcome back, then. 66 00:04:10,884 --> 00:04:13,621 Ah, 20 years, so... 67 00:04:13,654 --> 00:04:15,856 Father Deans. 68 00:04:15,889 --> 00:04:17,958 - Yeah. 69 00:04:17,991 --> 00:04:19,660 Wow, Father Deans. 70 00:04:19,693 --> 00:04:24,332 Jesus, I never would've remembered that name. 71 00:04:24,365 --> 00:04:25,999 You weren't here then, were you? 72 00:04:26,033 --> 00:04:29,437 - No, I was still a kid in Washington State, 73 00:04:29,470 --> 00:04:32,039 thinking I wanted to be a doctor like my dad. 74 00:04:32,072 --> 00:04:34,742 - How did you decide to join the church? 75 00:04:34,775 --> 00:04:37,745 - Are you considering entering the priesthood? 76 00:04:37,778 --> 00:04:40,381 - No, no, I was just, uh... 77 00:04:40,414 --> 00:04:43,484 just curious. 78 00:04:43,517 --> 00:04:47,488 I mean, did something happen that made you sure 79 00:04:47,521 --> 00:04:50,524 that you were supposed to work for Him? 80 00:04:52,360 --> 00:04:54,895 - Uh, no is the short answer. 81 00:04:56,630 --> 00:04:58,632 Would it be helpful to tell me what it is 82 00:04:58,666 --> 00:05:00,701 you're deciding to do or not to do? 83 00:05:05,539 --> 00:05:09,577 Ah, I guess you could say that... 84 00:05:09,610 --> 00:05:11,679 I'm hearing a call. 85 00:05:11,712 --> 00:05:16,884 - Well, listening can be terrifying. 86 00:05:16,917 --> 00:05:19,687 But the thought of not listening can be even worse. 87 00:05:19,720 --> 00:05:21,889 - I don't know. 88 00:05:21,922 --> 00:05:24,425 Just feels like a crapshoot either way. 89 00:05:24,458 --> 00:05:28,128 - Well, certainty that this is my life's work 90 00:05:28,161 --> 00:05:31,832 is tested every day. 91 00:05:31,865 --> 00:05:33,734 But if it's a mistake, 92 00:05:33,767 --> 00:05:34,935 I'd make it again. 93 00:05:42,142 --> 00:05:45,746 Faith is inspiring divisiveness, destruction, 94 00:05:45,779 --> 00:05:47,415 hate, and greed. 95 00:05:47,448 --> 00:05:49,049 And the tragic irony is that faith 96 00:05:49,082 --> 00:05:53,387 is meant to inspire compassion and empathy and love. 97 00:05:53,421 --> 00:05:56,790 - And would this Dr. Meyer himself be speaking, 98 00:05:56,824 --> 00:05:58,426 were we to find room in the schedule? 99 00:05:58,459 --> 00:06:00,728 - No, uh, my colleague and I 100 00:06:00,761 --> 00:06:02,963 speak on behalf of the Movement now. 101 00:06:02,996 --> 00:06:05,499 But we are deeply interested in participating 102 00:06:05,533 --> 00:06:06,700 in your conference. 103 00:06:06,734 --> 00:06:09,703 We... we have much to contribute 104 00:06:09,737 --> 00:06:11,872 and much to learn, as well. 105 00:06:11,905 --> 00:06:13,550 They must have squeezed some of their donors. 106 00:06:13,574 --> 00:06:14,875 No shit. 107 00:06:14,908 --> 00:06:16,610 And just like that, any leverage we had 108 00:06:16,644 --> 00:06:18,946 with them up to their ass in back taxes is gone. 109 00:06:18,979 --> 00:06:21,181 And you had no idea they were coming up with a plan 110 00:06:21,214 --> 00:06:22,583 to wiggle out of the noose. 111 00:06:22,616 --> 00:06:24,017 You're inside, 112 00:06:24,051 --> 00:06:26,520 and yet we learn about this before you do. 113 00:06:26,554 --> 00:06:28,656 Do you even recognize any of these people 114 00:06:28,689 --> 00:06:32,860 who coughed up cash to pay off their IRS debt? 115 00:06:32,893 --> 00:06:34,995 Don Hendren, Martina Bill, 116 00:06:35,028 --> 00:06:36,630 Pete Gilchrist... 117 00:06:36,664 --> 00:06:40,434 All of these people are level 3R at the highest. 118 00:06:40,468 --> 00:06:42,045 They're practicing Meyerists, but they... 119 00:06:42,069 --> 00:06:43,904 They're not living it full-time. 120 00:06:45,573 --> 00:06:47,083 - Just figure out what the hell is going on 121 00:06:47,107 --> 00:06:49,209 and how we can use it. 122 00:06:49,242 --> 00:06:51,445 - Listen, I-I don't know how this happened, 123 00:06:51,479 --> 00:06:53,146 but I will figure out what's going on. 124 00:06:59,853 --> 00:07:01,088 Damn it! 125 00:07:07,495 --> 00:07:14,434 * 126 00:07:23,043 --> 00:07:29,983 * 127 00:07:33,286 --> 00:07:34,788 Felicia, what are you... 128 00:07:34,822 --> 00:07:36,990 - Richard told me everything. 129 00:07:37,024 --> 00:07:38,726 But I need to hear it from you. 130 00:07:38,759 --> 00:07:45,699 * 131 00:07:55,075 --> 00:07:58,011 I just can't keep running from this. 132 00:07:58,045 --> 00:08:01,549 - He bears its mark on his back. 133 00:08:01,582 --> 00:08:02,983 - Or it's just a wound... 134 00:08:03,016 --> 00:08:04,217 A wound from the lightning. 135 00:08:04,251 --> 00:08:05,886 - Well... 136 00:08:05,919 --> 00:08:09,156 - He's meant to lead us, Felicia. 137 00:08:09,189 --> 00:08:10,658 I'm convinced. 138 00:08:10,691 --> 00:08:12,192 - Well, that must be nice. 139 00:08:12,225 --> 00:08:13,727 I-I'm sorry. 140 00:08:13,761 --> 00:08:16,029 This is difficult to process. 141 00:08:16,063 --> 00:08:18,065 Three days ago, I had every reason to believe 142 00:08:18,098 --> 00:08:20,668 that Steve had fulfilled his work for us. 143 00:08:20,701 --> 00:08:22,736 Now I have to accept this new story 144 00:08:22,770 --> 00:08:23,971 that you're meant to guide us. 145 00:08:24,004 --> 00:08:25,839 I get it. 146 00:08:25,873 --> 00:08:27,608 Certainty is a white whale. 147 00:08:31,679 --> 00:08:33,180 - There's only one way to know. 148 00:08:38,819 --> 00:08:40,153 Climb. 149 00:08:40,187 --> 00:08:43,824 You need to continue the climb, 8R. 150 00:08:46,827 --> 00:08:48,161 * 151 00:08:51,098 --> 00:08:52,633 Excuse me, sir? 152 00:08:52,666 --> 00:08:54,234 - What? 153 00:08:54,267 --> 00:08:55,769 - We're here. 154 00:08:55,803 --> 00:08:57,323 This is the address you gave me, right? 155 00:09:13,086 --> 00:09:17,791 * 156 00:09:17,825 --> 00:09:19,292 - Have you read it? 157 00:09:19,326 --> 00:09:21,361 - Uh, no, but I saw the movie. 158 00:09:21,394 --> 00:09:23,997 - It's black and white, right? - Yes. 159 00:09:24,031 --> 00:09:28,001 Well, Kansas is black and white, but Oz is in color. 160 00:09:28,035 --> 00:09:30,771 The land of Oz is entirely green, 161 00:09:30,804 --> 00:09:34,207 but the inhabitants are wearing these green-colored glasses, 162 00:09:34,241 --> 00:09:37,945 and they don't know that their world is the same colors 163 00:09:37,978 --> 00:09:40,247 as everyone else's. 164 00:09:40,280 --> 00:09:42,750 Their "leader" is called the Wizard of Oz, 165 00:09:42,783 --> 00:09:46,019 but really, he's just a regular guy from Kansas 166 00:09:46,053 --> 00:09:50,223 that has everyone fooled. 167 00:09:50,257 --> 00:09:53,694 - Thanks for letting us throw you a baby shower. 168 00:09:53,727 --> 00:09:56,096 - Uh, how do you two know each other again? 169 00:09:56,129 --> 00:09:57,631 - Oh... - College. 170 00:09:57,665 --> 00:09:59,132 - We're old friends. 171 00:09:59,166 --> 00:10:01,001 I hope you enjoy the book. 172 00:10:01,034 --> 00:10:02,970 I'll be curious what you see in it, 173 00:10:03,003 --> 00:10:04,404 living how you... 174 00:10:04,437 --> 00:10:06,373 Well, where you do. 175 00:10:06,406 --> 00:10:09,142 They don't tell you what you can and can't read, do they? 176 00:10:09,176 --> 00:10:10,811 - Can we be done, please? 177 00:10:10,844 --> 00:10:12,980 I'm tired, and this food is terrible. 178 00:10:15,315 --> 00:10:17,417 - I'm ready to, uh, move ahead 179 00:10:17,450 --> 00:10:19,753 with the sale of the center in... In New York... 180 00:10:19,787 --> 00:10:21,722 - I have news. - Humble myself to the Council. 181 00:10:21,755 --> 00:10:23,891 And if they feel they need me to step aside... 182 00:10:23,924 --> 00:10:25,258 - Cal... - No, no. 183 00:10:25,292 --> 00:10:27,294 That is the best course of action right now. 184 00:10:27,327 --> 00:10:28,896 - It's over. 185 00:10:28,929 --> 00:10:30,230 I made a few phone calls, 186 00:10:30,263 --> 00:10:32,199 and a few donors stepped up. 187 00:10:32,232 --> 00:10:33,433 - What? 188 00:10:33,466 --> 00:10:35,669 - I paid the back taxes on this place. 189 00:10:38,305 --> 00:10:41,441 - I-I... 190 00:10:41,474 --> 00:10:43,744 How... how did you get donors to do that? 191 00:10:43,777 --> 00:10:45,879 - I didn't sugarcoat. 192 00:10:45,913 --> 00:10:49,182 I let them know how dire the situation was. 193 00:10:49,216 --> 00:10:52,185 It's a Band-Aid, but it buys us some time. 194 00:10:52,219 --> 00:10:55,388 Cal? 195 00:10:55,422 --> 00:10:58,025 - No, no, um... 196 00:10:58,058 --> 00:11:01,128 uh, I just, um... 197 00:11:01,161 --> 00:11:03,030 Everything's gonna be okay? 198 00:11:06,834 --> 00:11:08,477 - I mean, we're far from being in the clear. 199 00:11:08,501 --> 00:11:12,339 We still need to put other sources of revenue in motion. 200 00:11:12,372 --> 00:11:14,141 - Yeah, of course, yeah. 201 00:11:14,174 --> 00:11:18,145 - And there's the World Faith Conference in Boston. 202 00:11:18,178 --> 00:11:19,747 Very mainstream. 203 00:11:19,780 --> 00:11:22,883 Deepak Chopra, Tony Robbins... 204 00:11:22,916 --> 00:11:24,952 and we'll be speaking. 205 00:11:24,985 --> 00:11:26,186 - That's exciting. 206 00:11:26,219 --> 00:11:28,188 - I got us on the schedule. 207 00:11:28,221 --> 00:11:30,123 Main stage, second day. 208 00:11:30,157 --> 00:11:31,959 - Wow, you... 209 00:11:31,992 --> 00:11:34,795 Wow, that's great, Sarah. 210 00:11:34,828 --> 00:11:38,265 - This could be the beginning of something new for us, 211 00:11:38,298 --> 00:11:41,068 you know, a way to... 212 00:11:41,101 --> 00:11:44,337 monetize our message. 213 00:11:44,371 --> 00:11:47,340 Open it up to corporate events. 214 00:11:47,374 --> 00:11:50,343 You know, uh, executive training, you know. 215 00:11:50,377 --> 00:11:52,245 - Yeah. 216 00:11:52,279 --> 00:11:53,947 - We can do this. 217 00:11:53,981 --> 00:11:55,883 - Yeah, absolutely. 218 00:11:55,916 --> 00:11:58,886 - You know, we have to face reality, right? 219 00:11:58,919 --> 00:12:00,420 We've certainly had a... 220 00:12:00,453 --> 00:12:02,355 A good dose of that recently. 221 00:12:02,389 --> 00:12:06,059 You're gonna be great with this audience. 222 00:12:06,093 --> 00:12:08,395 - We'll be great. 223 00:12:11,064 --> 00:12:13,166 Uh, so, I, uh... I'll just, uh... 224 00:12:13,200 --> 00:12:14,802 I'll just settle back in, 225 00:12:14,835 --> 00:12:17,971 and I'll catch up with you later. 226 00:12:18,005 --> 00:12:21,041 - Is there anything that you want to talk to me about? 227 00:12:25,245 --> 00:12:27,190 - All... all the... - These donations, they were... 228 00:12:27,214 --> 00:12:28,515 They were voluntary, right? 229 00:12:31,051 --> 00:12:33,921 - Of course. 230 00:12:33,954 --> 00:12:35,355 - Yeah. 231 00:12:40,460 --> 00:12:42,395 * 232 00:12:57,010 --> 00:12:59,412 - Hey. - Did you hear? 233 00:12:59,446 --> 00:13:01,849 The IRS stuff... 234 00:13:01,882 --> 00:13:03,350 It's over. 235 00:13:03,383 --> 00:13:04,961 - I heard Cal might've had to go to jail. 236 00:13:04,985 --> 00:13:06,353 Is that true? 237 00:13:06,386 --> 00:13:08,155 - I don't... - Don't think so. 238 00:13:08,188 --> 00:13:10,323 Who said that? 239 00:13:10,357 --> 00:13:12,259 Please. 240 00:13:12,292 --> 00:13:13,861 Stop. 241 00:13:13,894 --> 00:13:16,063 - You're out of shape. 242 00:13:16,096 --> 00:13:17,898 - Chasing after you is exhausting. 243 00:13:20,033 --> 00:13:21,033 I like it, though. 244 00:13:24,104 --> 00:13:26,373 I'm sorry that I-I was a... 245 00:13:26,406 --> 00:13:28,375 - Dick? - Dick. 246 00:13:28,408 --> 00:13:30,343 I am. 247 00:13:30,377 --> 00:13:31,511 - It's all right. 248 00:13:31,544 --> 00:13:35,582 - I was wondering if you... 249 00:13:35,615 --> 00:13:38,218 if you want to come to dinner with me. 250 00:13:40,353 --> 00:13:42,589 - Yeah, fine. - Where you thinking? 251 00:13:42,622 --> 00:13:44,224 - My mom's? 252 00:13:44,257 --> 00:13:45,935 - You're really doing the "bring the girl home" 253 00:13:45,959 --> 00:13:47,036 "to meet the family" thing? 254 00:13:47,060 --> 00:13:48,228 - Yeah, yeah. - I am, yeah. 255 00:13:48,261 --> 00:13:49,338 - Why? - I've met your family. 256 00:13:49,362 --> 00:13:51,431 - I know. I-I just... 257 00:13:51,464 --> 00:13:54,301 I want you with me when I go home. 258 00:13:56,269 --> 00:13:58,538 - You're so "aww, shucks," it's incredible. 259 00:14:05,212 --> 00:14:07,514 Yeah, I'll go. 260 00:14:18,625 --> 00:14:21,194 This is a token of our appreciation 261 00:14:21,228 --> 00:14:23,330 for your incredibly generous donation. 262 00:14:23,363 --> 00:14:24,998 The Movement thanks you. 263 00:14:27,234 --> 00:14:29,636 Uh, you are an inspiration. 264 00:14:29,669 --> 00:14:32,072 Honestly, thank you. 265 00:14:32,105 --> 00:14:34,908 - What do you want? 266 00:14:34,942 --> 00:14:36,509 I've done enough. 267 00:14:36,543 --> 00:14:39,579 My family is in there. 268 00:14:39,612 --> 00:14:41,448 - They blackmailed you too, didn't they? 269 00:14:44,484 --> 00:14:47,520 * 270 00:14:47,554 --> 00:14:49,990 - They played you your unburdening sessions? 271 00:14:50,023 --> 00:14:56,964 * 272 00:15:06,206 --> 00:15:07,374 - Welcome. 273 00:15:07,407 --> 00:15:09,142 - Thanks so much for having me. 274 00:15:09,176 --> 00:15:11,287 - Oh, I'm just so happy that Hawk wanted to bring you. 275 00:15:11,311 --> 00:15:13,513 - She's a good one, this one. - I know she is. 276 00:15:13,546 --> 00:15:15,182 - Hawk's back. - Hey, kid. 277 00:15:15,215 --> 00:15:16,649 I missed you. 278 00:15:16,683 --> 00:15:18,418 Hey, I got someone I want you to meet. 279 00:15:18,451 --> 00:15:21,154 - Noa, this is my sister Summer. - Nice to meet you. 280 00:15:21,188 --> 00:15:23,690 Are you Hawk's girlfriend? 281 00:15:23,723 --> 00:15:25,525 You've got something on your face. 282 00:15:25,558 --> 00:15:27,460 What you got on your face? 283 00:15:27,494 --> 00:15:29,429 No, on your face. 284 00:15:29,462 --> 00:15:31,564 You are Light in your world 285 00:15:31,598 --> 00:15:34,234 because you are your world. 286 00:15:34,267 --> 00:15:36,536 You are capable. 287 00:15:36,569 --> 00:15:39,606 You are... 288 00:15:42,675 --> 00:15:46,079 - Sorry, hon, I should have turned it off. 289 00:15:46,113 --> 00:15:47,347 - Uh, where was I? 290 00:15:47,380 --> 00:15:49,382 - Uh, "You are capable of summiting" 291 00:15:49,416 --> 00:15:51,018 the mountain of your spirit." 292 00:15:51,051 --> 00:15:53,386 - Okay, um, you guys don't have to do this. 293 00:15:53,420 --> 00:15:54,654 I can get Cal to run it... 294 00:15:54,687 --> 00:15:56,689 - Just relax. - Remember your breath. 295 00:15:56,723 --> 00:15:58,591 - I want to summit the mountain of my spirit. 296 00:15:58,625 --> 00:16:00,393 You don't have to do this, Mom. 297 00:16:00,427 --> 00:16:01,628 You saved the city center. 298 00:16:01,661 --> 00:16:03,063 You don't... 299 00:16:03,096 --> 00:16:04,697 have to go pump up a bunch of CEOs. 300 00:16:04,731 --> 00:16:06,566 - Well, it's not just a bunch of CEOs, Hawk. 301 00:16:06,599 --> 00:16:08,235 - Look, I'm just saying, 302 00:16:08,268 --> 00:16:10,370 we can focus on the real work now... 303 00:16:10,403 --> 00:16:12,439 The important work we're doing. 304 00:16:12,472 --> 00:16:14,574 - Hawk's right about one thing, though, 305 00:16:14,607 --> 00:16:16,676 and we should take a moment to, uh, 306 00:16:16,709 --> 00:16:18,345 acknowledge it. 307 00:16:18,378 --> 00:16:20,280 Sarah saved our asses. 308 00:16:20,313 --> 00:16:22,049 And I-I got to say, 309 00:16:22,082 --> 00:16:23,483 I was pretty nervous there. 310 00:16:23,516 --> 00:16:25,285 - Yeah, he couldn't sleep. - No. 311 00:16:25,318 --> 00:16:27,096 - I'd come downstairs; you'd just be sitting there. 312 00:16:27,120 --> 00:16:28,255 No, I honestly thought 313 00:16:28,288 --> 00:16:29,465 it all might be coming to an end. 314 00:16:29,489 --> 00:16:31,591 - They're heartless gangsters. 315 00:16:31,624 --> 00:16:34,294 - We're just happy that some people stepped up. 316 00:16:34,327 --> 00:16:35,728 - You got them to do that. 317 00:16:35,762 --> 00:16:38,231 You dragged us back from the brink. 318 00:16:38,265 --> 00:16:39,432 We're lucky to have you. 319 00:16:39,466 --> 00:16:40,800 And not just the family... 320 00:16:40,833 --> 00:16:42,235 The entire Movement. 321 00:16:42,269 --> 00:16:43,603 - Although we really should be 322 00:16:43,636 --> 00:16:45,148 thanking the people who wrote the checks. 323 00:16:45,172 --> 00:16:47,240 - All right, Nicole, just... 324 00:16:47,274 --> 00:16:49,709 - Nicole is right, Russel. 325 00:16:49,742 --> 00:16:51,611 - Thank you. 326 00:16:51,644 --> 00:16:53,780 I don't know; maybe that was wrong of me to say, 327 00:16:53,813 --> 00:16:56,649 but I feel like you're awfully critical of me lately. 328 00:16:56,683 --> 00:16:57,793 - What are you talking about? 329 00:16:57,817 --> 00:16:59,452 - I don't have a family. 330 00:16:59,486 --> 00:17:01,088 - I gave mine up. - They gave you up. 331 00:17:01,121 --> 00:17:02,231 - We're your family, Nicole. 332 00:17:02,255 --> 00:17:03,490 - They did. They gave me up. 333 00:17:03,523 --> 00:17:04,691 - We love you like our own. 334 00:17:04,724 --> 00:17:07,727 - Nicole is absolutely right. 335 00:17:07,760 --> 00:17:11,531 The people who wrote the checks made the real sacrifice. 336 00:17:11,564 --> 00:17:13,233 - But you worked for it. 337 00:17:13,266 --> 00:17:15,502 - Sorry you have to watch us like this. 338 00:17:15,535 --> 00:17:16,703 Not fun, I know. 339 00:17:16,736 --> 00:17:18,471 - You kidding? 340 00:17:18,505 --> 00:17:20,440 I'm always impressed when I see a family 341 00:17:20,473 --> 00:17:22,275 actually say anything to each other. 342 00:17:22,309 --> 00:17:24,411 My family doesn't ever talk. 343 00:17:24,444 --> 00:17:27,347 We just hate each other silently. 344 00:17:27,380 --> 00:17:29,149 - You should take the compliment, Mom. 345 00:17:29,182 --> 00:17:30,283 You deserve it. 346 00:17:32,785 --> 00:17:34,154 I'll be right back. 347 00:17:37,190 --> 00:17:44,131 * 348 00:18:08,821 --> 00:18:15,762 * 349 00:18:25,605 --> 00:18:28,508 - I'm going to Boston... 350 00:18:28,541 --> 00:18:31,778 Going to, uh, speak at a conference there. 351 00:18:36,549 --> 00:18:38,685 My mother died. 352 00:18:38,718 --> 00:18:40,720 - I'm sorry. - Yeah. 353 00:18:45,492 --> 00:18:47,694 It's just over, then, huh? 354 00:18:47,727 --> 00:18:50,730 Once they go, that's... That's it. 355 00:18:50,763 --> 00:18:51,763 Done. 356 00:18:55,935 --> 00:18:57,804 - Have you read "The Wizard of Oz"? 357 00:19:01,808 --> 00:19:03,643 - Um, I watched the movie. 358 00:19:03,676 --> 00:19:06,213 - Mothers are like Oz. 359 00:19:06,246 --> 00:19:08,481 Everyone expects them to be able to give you 360 00:19:08,515 --> 00:19:10,717 a home, a heart, and a brain, 361 00:19:10,750 --> 00:19:14,621 but mostly they're just fucked-up people. 362 00:19:19,526 --> 00:19:21,794 Why are you reading "The Wizard of Oz"? 363 00:19:21,828 --> 00:19:23,430 - Why are you here? 364 00:19:26,599 --> 00:19:32,472 * 365 00:19:32,505 --> 00:19:35,208 I'm a husk, Mary. 366 00:19:39,579 --> 00:19:41,414 I want to be vapor. 367 00:19:45,518 --> 00:19:47,620 I want to metamorphose. 368 00:19:51,258 --> 00:19:53,426 We could do it together. 369 00:19:53,460 --> 00:19:55,595 You know... 370 00:19:55,628 --> 00:19:58,365 Swim in the sea. 371 00:19:58,398 --> 00:20:00,800 What do you say? 372 00:20:00,833 --> 00:20:02,269 - He's kicking. 373 00:20:04,371 --> 00:20:07,607 - Oh, holy shit, he really is. 374 00:20:07,640 --> 00:20:08,975 Does he do that all the time? 375 00:20:09,008 --> 00:20:10,377 - Yeah. 376 00:20:15,782 --> 00:20:17,550 You're tired. 377 00:20:20,420 --> 00:20:21,554 - Yeah. 378 00:20:24,457 --> 00:20:27,594 - So am I. 379 00:20:27,627 --> 00:20:34,567 * 380 00:20:45,778 --> 00:20:47,547 - The Eighth Rung of The Ladder 381 00:20:47,580 --> 00:20:50,617 is devoted to the pursuit of mending. 382 00:20:52,852 --> 00:20:56,489 There's a tapestry that is our collective existence, 383 00:20:56,523 --> 00:20:57,757 and it's frayed. 384 00:20:57,790 --> 00:20:58,925 Find a tear, 385 00:20:58,958 --> 00:21:01,461 and think about ways to sew it up. 386 00:21:04,497 --> 00:21:11,438 * 387 00:21:22,782 --> 00:21:25,852 - Has the 27 bus come yet? 388 00:21:25,885 --> 00:21:27,387 - You know, I-I don't know. 389 00:21:27,420 --> 00:21:30,490 I'm just... just sitting here. 390 00:21:30,523 --> 00:21:32,725 Not waiting for a bus or... 391 00:21:32,759 --> 00:21:34,761 anything, specifically. 392 00:21:34,794 --> 00:21:38,698 - I'm not sure if that sounds wonderful or horrible. 393 00:21:40,867 --> 00:21:42,769 - Yeah, me neither. 394 00:21:50,843 --> 00:21:53,946 Hey, sir, it's right... 395 00:21:53,980 --> 00:21:55,415 Sir? 396 00:21:58,385 --> 00:22:05,392 * 397 00:22:43,162 --> 00:22:45,164 - Uh, we have time to go over our speech, 398 00:22:45,197 --> 00:22:46,666 grab some lunch. 399 00:22:46,699 --> 00:22:48,635 I'd love to see Mata Amritanandamayi. 400 00:22:48,668 --> 00:22:50,136 She comes on the main stage at 4:00. 401 00:22:50,169 --> 00:22:52,138 - If you have an M.Div., what degree is that? 402 00:22:52,171 --> 00:22:53,906 Is it Master of Divinity? 403 00:22:53,940 --> 00:22:55,551 - Uh, I believe so. - That sounds about right. 404 00:22:55,575 --> 00:22:56,909 - M.T.S.? 405 00:22:56,943 --> 00:22:59,111 - Theological Studies, I think. - Master. 406 00:22:59,145 --> 00:23:01,548 - Master. - Yeah. The shuttle's this way. 407 00:23:01,581 --> 00:23:03,650 - Uh, I think I'm just gonna walk around a bit, 408 00:23:03,683 --> 00:23:05,117 maybe take in some of the lectures. 409 00:23:05,151 --> 00:23:06,662 - We should probably go over this at least once. 410 00:23:06,686 --> 00:23:08,096 - No, best to keep it fresh. - But, Cal... 411 00:23:08,120 --> 00:23:09,889 - Don't want it to sound rehearsed, you know. 412 00:23:09,922 --> 00:23:11,467 That's the worst thing we could do with this crowd. 413 00:23:11,491 --> 00:23:12,971 Call me when you're heading back over. 414 00:23:18,665 --> 00:23:20,600 It's hurtful, it's hateful, 415 00:23:20,633 --> 00:23:23,903 not to mention counter-fucking-productive. 416 00:23:23,936 --> 00:23:26,573 - It's a big idea, certainly. 417 00:23:26,606 --> 00:23:28,741 - This wasn't some idea 418 00:23:28,775 --> 00:23:31,043 I came up with out of the blue, okay? 419 00:23:31,077 --> 00:23:32,979 This was a vision... 420 00:23:33,012 --> 00:23:35,882 Same as when I saw that Steve was sick. 421 00:23:35,915 --> 00:23:37,884 You are either with me, or you are not. 422 00:23:37,917 --> 00:23:40,553 - Envisioning faceless people doesn't necessarily mean 423 00:23:40,587 --> 00:23:43,490 unraveling a policy that's been around for... 424 00:23:45,658 --> 00:23:48,661 - See, you don't even remember when the Denier policy started. 425 00:23:48,695 --> 00:23:51,230 - '81 or '82. 426 00:23:51,263 --> 00:23:53,065 - No, when The Movement started to grow, 427 00:23:53,099 --> 00:23:56,135 Steve realized that he needed to find a way 428 00:23:56,168 --> 00:23:58,070 to contain the people... That is it. 429 00:23:58,104 --> 00:23:59,806 - You're suggesting he was corrupt? 430 00:23:59,839 --> 00:24:01,941 - It was never a policy to shun Deniers. 431 00:24:01,974 --> 00:24:04,644 Some of us chose to say good-bye to people in our lives 432 00:24:04,677 --> 00:24:06,946 because they became toxic to our growth... 433 00:24:06,979 --> 00:24:07,947 To our climb. 434 00:24:07,980 --> 00:24:09,181 Really? 435 00:24:09,215 --> 00:24:10,750 So that's why you said good-bye 436 00:24:10,783 --> 00:24:12,885 to Jeremiah when he stopped believing? 437 00:24:12,919 --> 00:24:14,821 Because he was toxic to your growth? 438 00:24:14,854 --> 00:24:16,055 - Yes. 439 00:24:16,088 --> 00:24:18,625 - That is bullshit. 440 00:24:18,658 --> 00:24:23,029 Once we decided that even our own loved ones were dead to us 441 00:24:23,062 --> 00:24:26,733 because they didn't believe exactly in what we did, 442 00:24:26,766 --> 00:24:30,537 we probably stopped truly... 443 00:24:30,570 --> 00:24:31,971 loving then too. 444 00:24:32,004 --> 00:24:33,806 - I can see why you want this. 445 00:24:33,840 --> 00:24:35,975 You've suffered by that ideology. 446 00:24:36,008 --> 00:24:37,910 - This has nothing to do with me. 447 00:24:37,944 --> 00:24:39,912 - You sure about that? 448 00:24:39,946 --> 00:24:42,181 Don't forget it's ego of the individual 449 00:24:42,214 --> 00:24:45,151 that always threatens the good of the whole. 450 00:24:57,263 --> 00:25:00,299 - Fuck! 451 00:25:00,332 --> 00:25:03,002 - Fuckin' shelf. - You okay? 452 00:25:06,005 --> 00:25:08,875 - Hey. - Hey. 453 00:25:15,114 --> 00:25:16,983 - Are you okay? 454 00:25:17,016 --> 00:25:20,286 - Uh, I don't know. 455 00:25:20,319 --> 00:25:23,890 No. 456 00:25:23,923 --> 00:25:28,027 Sorry, maybe it's just postpartum. 457 00:25:28,060 --> 00:25:30,897 Ugh, that's such a shitty excuse. 458 00:25:30,930 --> 00:25:32,198 - Excuse for what? 459 00:25:35,735 --> 00:25:38,237 - It's all Russel. - Mm. 460 00:25:38,270 --> 00:25:41,173 - His family, his world. 461 00:25:41,207 --> 00:25:43,843 My family disowned me when I left their church, 462 00:25:43,876 --> 00:25:45,778 The Scent of Jesus in Flushing. 463 00:25:45,812 --> 00:25:47,914 - What does Christ smell like again? 464 00:25:47,947 --> 00:25:50,116 - You're not a member. - Mm-mm. 465 00:25:54,086 --> 00:25:56,098 - Sometimes I wonder if every move I've made in my life 466 00:25:56,122 --> 00:25:57,657 has been to spite them. 467 00:25:59,158 --> 00:26:02,061 - Yeah, I've felt like that. 468 00:26:02,094 --> 00:26:06,365 - Have you ever felt like the choices you made 469 00:26:06,398 --> 00:26:08,167 were never choices? 470 00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:11,103 Like the life you have has been... 471 00:26:11,137 --> 00:26:13,840 assigned to you? 472 00:26:13,873 --> 00:26:16,575 - Yeah, I have felt like that, yeah. 473 00:26:18,711 --> 00:26:20,179 Kind of feel like that now. 474 00:26:27,153 --> 00:26:28,688 You know, Nicole, 475 00:26:28,721 --> 00:26:30,289 I, uh... 476 00:26:30,322 --> 00:26:34,093 - Yeah? 477 00:26:34,126 --> 00:26:37,229 - You know, I... 478 00:26:37,263 --> 00:26:39,298 I like you. 479 00:26:39,331 --> 00:26:41,801 I really do. 480 00:26:41,834 --> 00:26:43,770 I-I just, you know... 481 00:26:43,803 --> 00:26:46,272 I-I can't, um... 482 00:26:46,305 --> 00:26:47,774 - I just... 483 00:26:51,343 --> 00:26:54,146 Sometimes I want something... 484 00:26:54,180 --> 00:26:55,648 One thing... 485 00:26:55,682 --> 00:26:57,884 That's just mine. 486 00:26:57,917 --> 00:27:00,787 Not the family, not The Movement... 487 00:27:02,689 --> 00:27:03,890 Just about me. 488 00:27:11,964 --> 00:27:12,999 - I want you to know, 489 00:27:13,032 --> 00:27:15,835 whatever happens in this moment... 490 00:27:15,868 --> 00:27:17,937 It's real... 491 00:27:17,970 --> 00:27:19,005 for me. 492 00:27:26,713 --> 00:27:28,323 Okay, okay, okay, okay. Wait, w-wait a minute. 493 00:27:28,347 --> 00:27:30,449 You're not gonna go and unburden out loud 494 00:27:30,482 --> 00:27:32,752 about this afterwards, are you? 495 00:27:32,785 --> 00:27:35,254 - This is not the kind of thing I want on tape, 496 00:27:35,287 --> 00:27:38,891 hanging around the archive room. 497 00:27:38,925 --> 00:27:41,060 - The unburdening tapes are in the archive room? 498 00:27:46,999 --> 00:27:53,973 * 499 00:27:54,006 --> 00:27:57,243 * It don't matter anymore * 500 00:27:57,276 --> 00:28:01,113 * Who's keeping score 501 00:28:01,147 --> 00:28:03,449 * Nobody wins 502 00:28:03,482 --> 00:28:05,985 * When the hurtin' stones begin * 503 00:28:06,018 --> 00:28:07,219 * I'm too tired tonight 504 00:28:12,759 --> 00:28:14,193 * I'm too tired to fight 505 00:28:14,226 --> 00:28:16,929 - Hey, uh, Tessa? - Yes? 506 00:28:16,963 --> 00:28:20,767 - Hi, um, my name's Eddie Lane. 507 00:28:20,800 --> 00:28:23,002 I, uh... 508 00:28:23,035 --> 00:28:26,472 I married your sister, Sarah. 509 00:28:26,505 --> 00:28:28,074 - Wow. - Yeah. 510 00:28:28,107 --> 00:28:29,275 - You're the one, huh? 511 00:28:29,308 --> 00:28:31,978 Holy shit. 512 00:28:32,011 --> 00:28:34,189 Listen, I'm sorry, but I'm gonna have to ask you to leave. 513 00:28:34,213 --> 00:28:36,015 I'm done with Meyerism and all its bullshit. 514 00:28:36,048 --> 00:28:38,150 - I left too. 515 00:28:38,184 --> 00:28:40,252 - You left... out? 516 00:28:40,286 --> 00:28:41,921 - Yeah. 517 00:28:41,954 --> 00:28:44,023 - Well, shit. 518 00:28:47,126 --> 00:28:49,328 Um, why don't we go downstairs? 519 00:28:49,361 --> 00:28:50,830 I'll buy you a cup of coffee. 520 00:28:50,863 --> 00:28:52,098 - That sounds great. 521 00:28:52,131 --> 00:28:53,933 - One cup of coffee. 522 00:29:19,158 --> 00:29:21,994 - Cal, where the hell are you? 523 00:29:31,403 --> 00:29:32,939 What have you been doing? 524 00:29:32,972 --> 00:29:34,182 I've been looking everywhere for you. 525 00:29:34,206 --> 00:29:37,209 - Sorry, uh, um... 526 00:29:37,243 --> 00:29:38,210 I can't do this. 527 00:29:38,244 --> 00:29:39,478 Um... 528 00:29:39,511 --> 00:29:41,180 you're gonna have to go on alone. 529 00:29:41,213 --> 00:29:42,949 - Cal, listen. 530 00:29:42,982 --> 00:29:44,483 I know losing your mom... 531 00:29:44,516 --> 00:29:47,419 - No, no, no, Sarah, you should do this, all right? 532 00:29:47,453 --> 00:29:48,955 You're the one who saved us. 533 00:29:48,988 --> 00:29:50,465 You're the real Guardian of the Light. 534 00:29:50,489 --> 00:29:51,891 You... you can do this. 535 00:29:51,924 --> 00:29:53,068 - I don't want to do this alone. 536 00:29:53,092 --> 00:29:54,460 - Yeah, but I can't do it. 537 00:29:54,493 --> 00:29:56,162 I can't do it. I can't do it at all. 538 00:29:56,195 --> 00:29:58,364 - That's not fair. - It's not a choice. 539 00:29:58,397 --> 00:30:00,032 - It's not for me either. 540 00:30:00,066 --> 00:30:02,401 I can't articulate my conviction right now. 541 00:30:02,434 --> 00:30:04,370 - Well, I'm... 542 00:30:07,206 --> 00:30:10,309 I'm not sure I have any conviction left to articulate. 543 00:30:14,446 --> 00:30:16,515 Quite the pickle we're in, 544 00:30:16,548 --> 00:30:19,051 being that we are at the World Faith Conference. 545 00:30:19,085 --> 00:30:22,588 - We're scheduled to go onstage in less than an hour. 546 00:30:28,961 --> 00:30:32,131 * 547 00:30:32,164 --> 00:30:34,500 I blackmailed them. 548 00:30:34,533 --> 00:30:36,235 All of them. 549 00:30:36,268 --> 00:30:39,071 The donors. 550 00:30:39,105 --> 00:30:40,839 You knew that, though, right? 551 00:30:43,109 --> 00:30:44,643 So do this for me. 552 00:30:44,676 --> 00:30:46,913 Do this for what I have done. 553 00:30:46,946 --> 00:30:48,647 Do it for me, if for nothing else, 554 00:30:48,680 --> 00:30:52,384 or we have nothing. 555 00:30:52,418 --> 00:30:55,521 Make people believe. 556 00:30:57,656 --> 00:31:01,593 Make me believe. Okay? 557 00:31:01,627 --> 00:31:03,395 Okay? 558 00:31:03,429 --> 00:31:10,369 * 559 00:31:12,538 --> 00:31:14,974 - First... - Yes? 560 00:31:17,143 --> 00:31:19,245 - I want to be clean in your Eye. 561 00:31:21,180 --> 00:31:23,215 Yes. Yes. 562 00:31:25,251 --> 00:31:27,186 - I want to wash away our Damage. 563 00:31:36,395 --> 00:31:38,230 - I want to be clean in your Eye. 564 00:31:43,635 --> 00:31:47,239 - Because I... 565 00:31:47,273 --> 00:31:50,009 I see myself... 566 00:31:50,042 --> 00:31:52,078 reflected in you. 567 00:31:54,713 --> 00:31:58,150 With my Eye... 568 00:31:58,184 --> 00:32:00,386 I see you anew. 569 00:32:04,723 --> 00:32:07,193 With my Eye, I see you anew. 570 00:32:11,663 --> 00:32:15,301 - I see you anew. 571 00:32:15,334 --> 00:32:22,274 * 572 00:32:28,447 --> 00:32:29,615 It's over. 573 00:32:29,648 --> 00:32:31,083 - What's over? Us? 574 00:32:31,117 --> 00:32:32,518 We never were, Kodiak. 575 00:32:35,187 --> 00:32:37,289 - I wish I was referring to us, Gab. 576 00:32:37,323 --> 00:32:39,258 I mean this... 577 00:32:39,291 --> 00:32:41,160 What Steve built. 578 00:32:41,193 --> 00:32:42,594 - But Sarah saved it. 579 00:32:42,628 --> 00:32:44,630 We're gonna be fine. 580 00:32:47,099 --> 00:32:49,635 - Things are gonna get ugly. 581 00:32:49,668 --> 00:32:52,438 - What? Why? 582 00:32:52,471 --> 00:32:53,672 Tell me. 583 00:32:53,705 --> 00:32:56,442 You're scaring me. 584 00:32:56,475 --> 00:32:58,410 Did Sarah do something? 585 00:32:58,444 --> 00:33:01,213 - It's all smoke and mirrors, Gab... 586 00:33:01,247 --> 00:33:02,714 All of this. 587 00:33:02,748 --> 00:33:05,317 I needed Steve to be a God, 588 00:33:05,351 --> 00:33:07,119 and so he was. 589 00:33:07,153 --> 00:33:09,155 He needed me to be this madman, 590 00:33:09,188 --> 00:33:11,690 a... a victim he could save, 591 00:33:11,723 --> 00:33:13,225 and so I was. 592 00:33:13,259 --> 00:33:16,095 - I don't understand. - Escape. 593 00:33:16,128 --> 00:33:19,498 Don't go down with it. 594 00:33:19,531 --> 00:33:21,600 Come with me. 595 00:33:24,636 --> 00:33:31,610 * 596 00:33:31,643 --> 00:33:36,482 - Don't you want to just scream in your family's face, 597 00:33:36,515 --> 00:33:38,750 "I exist. You can't ignore me. 598 00:33:38,784 --> 00:33:40,352 I'm a fucking human being"? 599 00:33:40,386 --> 00:33:41,629 - Of course I do. - Don't you think I do? 600 00:33:41,653 --> 00:33:43,222 I've obsessed about this for years. 601 00:33:43,255 --> 00:33:45,391 I've had hundreds of hours of therapy. 602 00:33:45,424 --> 00:33:47,259 But you can't change other people. 603 00:33:47,293 --> 00:33:48,803 You cannot get them to see what you see. 604 00:33:48,827 --> 00:33:50,338 - No, no, I don't... - I don't buy that. 605 00:33:50,362 --> 00:33:52,198 Okay? That's giving up. 606 00:33:52,231 --> 00:33:54,100 This needs to be fixed. 607 00:33:54,133 --> 00:33:56,502 All those broken families... It's not fucking fair. 608 00:33:56,535 --> 00:33:58,204 - Grow the fuck up. 609 00:33:59,671 --> 00:34:02,408 - Hey, Tessa, I'm... I'm sor... - Tessa. 610 00:34:02,441 --> 00:34:04,410 - Hi, I'm... I'm taking over for Andrea. 611 00:34:04,443 --> 00:34:05,677 Can I get you a refill? 612 00:34:10,516 --> 00:34:13,285 - Ashley? - Hi. Oh, my God. 613 00:34:13,319 --> 00:34:16,822 - Wow. - Uh, how's Hawk? 614 00:34:16,855 --> 00:34:18,290 - I don't know. 615 00:34:18,324 --> 00:34:20,292 We're not talking right now. 616 00:34:20,326 --> 00:34:22,494 It's a long story. 617 00:34:22,528 --> 00:34:26,332 Uh, I do know he's living in the city. 618 00:34:26,365 --> 00:34:27,433 Did you know that? 619 00:34:30,369 --> 00:34:32,604 - A clear sensorium 620 00:34:32,638 --> 00:34:35,674 and complex perceptual processes 621 00:34:35,707 --> 00:34:39,678 during a period of apparent clinical death 622 00:34:39,711 --> 00:34:41,713 challenge the concept 623 00:34:41,747 --> 00:34:43,482 that consciousness 624 00:34:43,515 --> 00:34:46,485 is localized in the brain. 625 00:34:46,518 --> 00:34:49,788 This is a concept shared by every faith tradition 626 00:34:49,821 --> 00:34:51,323 around the world. 627 00:34:51,357 --> 00:34:53,225 - And yet today... - I don't want this. 628 00:34:53,259 --> 00:34:56,428 Science is proving it as fact. 629 00:35:11,177 --> 00:35:15,747 - How can this really be all there is? 630 00:35:17,249 --> 00:35:19,151 How can there not be more? 631 00:35:19,185 --> 00:35:21,187 And how do we not find ourselves 632 00:35:21,220 --> 00:35:24,190 on the fast track to the grave? 633 00:35:24,223 --> 00:35:27,726 - We only have five minutes on this planet. 634 00:35:27,759 --> 00:35:30,696 How do we make the most of those five minutes? 635 00:35:30,729 --> 00:35:33,599 It's possible to take the best parts of ourselves 636 00:35:33,632 --> 00:35:37,269 and take the five minutes that the universe has given us 637 00:35:37,303 --> 00:35:39,838 and break it down into seconds, 638 00:35:39,871 --> 00:35:42,741 into milliseconds, into nanoseconds 639 00:35:42,774 --> 00:35:45,377 and live in between those seconds 640 00:35:45,411 --> 00:35:49,881 content, happy, and free. 641 00:35:49,915 --> 00:35:51,883 - My mother, 642 00:35:51,917 --> 00:35:54,953 who died recently, 643 00:35:54,986 --> 00:35:57,689 never once told me she loved me... 644 00:35:57,723 --> 00:36:00,292 Never once. 645 00:36:00,326 --> 00:36:03,629 How do I make the most of my five minutes 646 00:36:03,662 --> 00:36:05,897 knowing that? 647 00:36:05,931 --> 00:36:09,401 Acceptance, that's how. 648 00:36:09,435 --> 00:36:12,204 I-I accept that I have no... 649 00:36:12,238 --> 00:36:15,507 I had no control over my mother 650 00:36:15,541 --> 00:36:18,277 or her love. 651 00:36:18,310 --> 00:36:20,912 And I-I let her go. 652 00:36:20,946 --> 00:36:24,616 And I surround myself with people who do love me. 653 00:36:26,918 --> 00:36:30,556 - Loving begins with you. 654 00:36:30,589 --> 00:36:32,724 Love begins with you, 655 00:36:32,758 --> 00:36:35,794 but it rarely ends with you. 656 00:36:35,827 --> 00:36:39,231 - It will lead you into your own heart... 657 00:36:39,265 --> 00:36:41,467 Into yourself. 658 00:36:41,500 --> 00:36:44,436 And you will love yourself, 659 00:36:44,470 --> 00:36:48,340 and you will love others. 660 00:36:48,374 --> 00:36:52,344 And you will realize just how much more there is 661 00:36:52,378 --> 00:36:54,446 to this existence. 662 00:37:21,507 --> 00:37:25,311 - Your mother said some things before she died... 663 00:37:26,712 --> 00:37:28,647 Things that were hard to hear. 664 00:37:30,081 --> 00:37:33,385 - Yeah, well, she tends to do that. 665 00:37:35,521 --> 00:37:37,656 Sorry you had to suffer her venom. 666 00:37:42,394 --> 00:37:45,931 - Thank you. - Thank you. Yeah. 667 00:37:48,467 --> 00:37:49,868 - That's me. 668 00:38:15,794 --> 00:38:17,329 - I just, um... 669 00:38:19,598 --> 00:38:21,967 I couldn't let you walk away. 670 00:38:25,371 --> 00:38:28,807 You're everything that... 671 00:38:28,840 --> 00:38:31,510 Everything I said up there 672 00:38:31,543 --> 00:38:33,011 was about you. 673 00:38:41,620 --> 00:38:48,560 * 674 00:38:54,433 --> 00:38:57,969 * This is a world that I created * 675 00:38:58,003 --> 00:38:59,871 * 676 00:38:59,905 --> 00:39:03,975 * I created light 677 00:39:04,009 --> 00:39:05,744 * From sweetness 678 00:39:05,777 --> 00:39:07,613 * And darkness 679 00:39:07,646 --> 00:39:08,947 * Created light 680 00:39:08,980 --> 00:39:12,851 * This is a world that I created * 681 00:39:12,884 --> 00:39:14,653 * 682 00:39:14,686 --> 00:39:18,857 * I created light 683 00:39:18,890 --> 00:39:23,829 * Created light 684 00:39:23,862 --> 00:39:28,066 * This is a world that has been spoken * 685 00:39:28,099 --> 00:39:29,801 * 686 00:39:29,835 --> 00:39:33,639 * I created light 687 00:39:33,672 --> 00:39:36,141 * Created light 688 00:39:36,174 --> 00:39:39,978 * Oh, oh, oh 689 00:39:40,011 --> 00:39:43,782 * Oh-oh-oh 690 00:39:43,815 --> 00:39:47,486 * Oh, oh, oh 691 00:39:47,519 --> 00:39:51,189 * Oh-oh-oh 692 00:39:51,222 --> 00:39:54,726 * Oh-oh, oh 693 00:39:54,760 --> 00:39:58,530 * Oh, oh, oh 694 00:39:58,564 --> 00:40:02,568 * Oh-oh-oh 695 00:40:02,601 --> 00:40:06,037 * Oh-oh, oh 696 00:40:06,071 --> 00:40:09,475 * Oh, oh, oh 697 00:40:09,508 --> 00:40:13,178 * Oh-oh-oh 698 00:40:13,211 --> 00:40:16,782 * Oh, oh, oh 699 00:40:16,815 --> 00:40:20,652 * Oh-oh-oh 700 00:40:20,686 --> 00:40:26,124 * Oh-oh, oh 701 00:40:26,157 --> 00:40:33,098 * 702 00:40:36,067 --> 00:40:38,036 * Well, here it comes 703 00:40:46,211 --> 00:40:53,151 * 704 00:41:31,657 --> 00:41:33,925 - Hank. 705 00:41:33,959 --> 00:41:36,161 - Why are you contacting Tessa? 706 00:41:36,194 --> 00:41:37,796 - Wait, she told you? 707 00:41:37,829 --> 00:41:39,565 - She's my daughter. - I talk to her, Eddie. 708 00:41:39,598 --> 00:41:41,967 Why are you contacting her? 709 00:41:42,000 --> 00:41:43,000 - Come in. 710 00:41:49,575 --> 00:41:54,512 Look, our families need to be mended, Hank. 711 00:41:57,315 --> 00:41:59,551 I'm doing 8R. 712 00:41:59,585 --> 00:42:00,619 - What? Why? 713 00:42:00,652 --> 00:42:02,120 And with whom are you doing 8R? 714 00:42:02,153 --> 00:42:03,822 You've left The Movement. 715 00:42:03,855 --> 00:42:06,958 - I have. 716 00:42:06,992 --> 00:42:08,994 But I haven't left everything. 717 00:42:12,097 --> 00:42:15,601 Steve chose me. 718 00:42:17,202 --> 00:42:19,705 I'm climbing the rungs with Richard and Felicia, 719 00:42:19,738 --> 00:42:22,941 and when I am ready, I am going to replace Cal. 720 00:42:24,943 --> 00:42:28,880 Things can be better, Hank. 721 00:42:30,782 --> 00:42:33,685 We can all be back together. 722 00:42:33,719 --> 00:42:35,654 - Where did you get that? 723 00:42:35,687 --> 00:42:38,890 - Steve wanted me to have it. 724 00:42:41,893 --> 00:42:46,231 We can put all of this back together. 725 00:43:01,412 --> 00:43:03,314 - Are you bleeding? 726 00:43:03,348 --> 00:43:10,221 * 727 00:43:21,700 --> 00:43:25,671 * Every day 728 00:43:25,704 --> 00:43:29,340 * In every way 729 00:43:29,374 --> 00:43:34,112 * I'm getting better and better * 730 00:43:34,145 --> 00:43:39,284 * Despite what you say 731 00:43:39,317 --> 00:43:42,888 * I know I will 732 00:43:42,921 --> 00:43:46,391 * Climb up to heaven 733 00:43:46,424 --> 00:43:53,398 * And never look down 734 00:43:53,431 --> 00:43:57,302 * 735 00:43:57,335 --> 00:44:00,939 * Never coming down 49434

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