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♪ Everybody wants to live ♪

♪ like they wanna live ♪

♪ and everybody

wants to love ♪

♪ like they wanna love ♪

♪ and everybody

wants to be ♪

♪ closer to free ♪

♪ closer to free ♪

welcome to party of five:

a family album.

I got the script,

like any other,

sort of, audition,

um, and read it

and had a reaction to

this particular script,

like, I'm sure,

everyone who read it,

where, um,

I turned to the girl

that I was with

at the time,

I put it down,

and I just sort of

had tears in my eyes,

and I said,

"I have to do this."

we saw him the first--

the first day--

sec--he was, like,

the second or third actor,

and we both said, um,

yep...that's it.

shh.

listen. Just to keep you

up to date--

and don't take this

the wrong way--

but I'm going crazy here.

so unless I come up with

some kind of nanny soon,

I'm gonna have

to sell you off

to white-slave traders.

now, I know that's not

how you pictured yourself

growing up,

but, hey...

welcome to the club.

the next 2 people

we cast, uh, were,

uh, Lacey--Claudia--

and Matthew, as Charlie,

and we cast both of them

off a videotape

from New York,

which is a terrible way

to cast people.

you're eating

your lunch, and you're

fast-forwarding

through the tapes,

and everyone's going,

"that's bad." "Oh,

that's the wrong look."

"there's a blonde."

woman: Scene 2.

guess what. I'm gonna

be a screaming girl

in the crucible.

no kidding, claud.

a screaming girl?

sounds like

a great part.

yeah. Well, I don't

actually have any lines.

I just scream a lot.

wanna see?

aah!

stop it! Stop it!

god, you're good...

there was so much, sort of,

sunshine in her face.

and she was so--

it wasn't exactly

how she did the scenes.

it was just

an essence of her.

what do you mean,

you pawned it?

I had no choice.

look, I mean, lessons

are real expensive,

and we're kind of

strapped right now.

Owen has no one

to take care of him.

I guess I had to choose

between my violin

and a nanny

for my baby brother.

sorry, Ross.

I'm sorry.

we were having

a very difficult time

with the role of Charlie.

I was hurtin'.

I needed a job.

I was studying

in New York, um,

and just doing whatever

I could do to get by.

and, uh, went into

an audition in New York,

went on tape.

I remember with Matthew,

we were sitting

and looking at him,

and he was

kind of green--

it was

very bad lighting,

very bad sound--

and somebody said...

quiet! Wait a second.

look at this guy.

and we all stopped and looked

at Matt's--Matthew's tape.

and we went, "oohh..."

10 seconds later,

we would have gone

through that tape,

and we would never

have seen Matthew.

and I think I was

the one who said,

"I don't know if he's

attractive enough."

Matthew, on the back

of his headshot--

we joke about it--

it said, "can operate

farm equipment."

I'd grown up in Wyoming

my whole life.

that's the guy

we got to have.

that's the kind

of flexibility you need.

most likely

to appear on hee haw.

we flew him out...

to read with Scott,

who'd already been cast.

well, Matthew was

the first, uh...Person

I really talked to

of the rest of the cast,

actually,

at his audition.

we were walking

down the hallway,

and it was just one

of those awkward moments

when 2 people are just

getting to know each other.

and I was trying to find

some sort of common ground

or something.

and I turned

to him and said...

"it's funny.

you know, uh...

wolf, fox."

fox, wolf--you know.

I said..."Yeah."

kind of strange.

that was kind of--

that was our first

heart-to-heart.

you let everyone think

you're this great guy...

just trying to hold

his family together.

you're just like

a father to us.

even if we know

it's a lie.

in trying to cast Julia,

we were looking

for a 15-year-old.

and we couldn't

find anybody.

and we had gone

through everyone

in Los Angeles

and a lot of other

cities as well.

and every time

we went to the network,

they kept, um, they kept

sending us back out

and saying,

"please find someone

a little more mature,

a little more--"

I hate to use the word "sexy"

for a 15-year-old,

but essentially that's

what we were looking for.

neve came in,

read, walked out,

and I remember all of us

turning to Susan edelman,

who was our casting director,

and saying, "why are

you just sitting here?

get on the phone!"

I really liked this guy,

and he dumped me, Bailey.

and you don't know

what to say

'cause you don't know

how that feels.

and you can't tell me

that it's gonna be ok

'cause you don't know

that it is.

god, there's no one.

you know, there's no one

to tell me what to do.

please, Bailey...

please just go away.

ok?

and finally, they brought us,

um, you know, to fox

and to Columbia,

and they paired us up,

you know, as a family,

and it was really special.

all of us were waiting

in the waiting room,

and then they invited

Lacey, neve, Scott,

and I into the room.

like, well,

"should we tell them?

should we tell them?"

and I thought it was

definitely bad news.

and they told

them that, you know,

guess what, you know,

you guys are our family,

our salingers and...

congratulations.

you're the salingers.

we got it. It was great.

it was very, very exciting.

salinger, party of 5.

wolf:

we just went nuts,

and we're hugging

each other,

and we all just

sort of huddled up

and just, sort of,

were looking around,

just looking at

each other's eyes.

and everyone was

sort of short of breath

and excited.

but you could

(snaps fingers)

sense right there

that this was gonna

be something

that was--was

very special.

you knew that we were

going someplace.

kids and dogs,

which has presented

problems throughout

the course of the show.

assistant director:

take 7.

one of the funniest things

that I remember was,

uh, we were

doing the pilot,

and it was

the first scene we shot.

and I think

it might have been

the first scene...

in--shot, ever,

of party of five.

and neve had

to hold the baby...

(baby fussing)

(crying)

and this baby

is just crying--

screaming and crying.

(crying)

shh shh shh...

a.d.: Party take one...

wolf: This baby

just does not want

to be changed,

doesn't want

to be on the set,

just is not interested

in anything, and

she has to hug him.

(baby talking)

(giggling)

(beep) A.D.: 28-David,

take 6, pickup lines.

(crying)

don't start.

(crying louder)

wolf: Just the look

on her face--i felt

so badly for her.

waaaaah!

I even offered

at one point--

I was, like, "Bailey

can change the baby

in this scene."

but she was just

struggling through it.

and that was, like,

our first taste

of what it was gonna

mean to be working

with babies...

(hiccups)

and with dogs.

(ruff)

I used to get all

the scenes with him.

not that I didn't like him,

but he was always

slobbering on me,

and he was fat.

he's sweet, though.

come on.

be a real dog for once.

we have this phrase, uh--

"just look at the dog."

(grrrr)

and it came from the pilot,

because--

it was about mid--

it was maybe, like,

12:30 at night.

and because of the permits

they had at this house,

we had to get this shot

and move on.

and, literally,

guys are running in

with stands and lights--

running--and things are

wobbling and they're--

"rolling! Rolling!

let's go!"

and someone leans in--

the director leans in

and says,

"at the end of the shot,

look at the dog."

and, you know, of course,

being, you know, actor boy,

I kind of said, "why?"

and about 8 people

turned and just went,

"just look at the dog!"

so that became

our little slogan

for "don't ask questions.

just do what we need you

to do."

Matthew: I think we had 3 weeks

to shoot the pilot

and to create a family

and to make these brothers

and sisters believable.

you missed dinner,

you know.

it's ok.

I'll grab something.

you know

what I mean, Julia.

you missed dinner.

so what? It's not

the end of the world.

it's the one thing

we agreed to do

together.

this is 6 months after their

parents have passed away.

and there's, sort of,

all these strange

dynamics going on.

ok. So tomorrow

we go to Mr. Graham

and we ask him

for an advance.

no.

why not?

it's an emergency.

because we've got

to seem in charge!

we've got to seem

like we can handle

everything ourselves,

like a normal family,

or else they

have an excuse

to split us up.

great, Charlie.

thanks.

thanks a lot.

Lacey: Towards the end

of the episode,

the most important thing

turned out to be

the family

and their relationships

and connections

with each other.

Julia, I figure there is

so much that I don't know

that all I can do...

is grab on to the stuff

that I'm sure of.

you know, like,

the five of us,

the five of us

have to stay together

as long as we can.

it just feels right,

doesn't it?

it's the same thing

with this dinner thing.

it's just--i know we

have to keep that going.

why?

because it matters.

it matters to me.

it matters

to the others.

and I know it would have

mattered to mom and dad.

wolf: I don't think people

tuned in at that point,

and to this point,

to see a group of actors

pretending

to love each other.

you actually see

a group of people

who care about each other.

how about that?

we just might manage.

Julia: So what's

everyone having?

shove over, Charlie.

glad you made it.

too bad Kirsten couldn't

come tonight, huh, bay?

Kirsten? Who's Kirsten?

she's our new nanny.

oh, yeah?

where's the sourdough?

he's got it.

so you finally

hired someone?

yeah. We have a new nanny.

I want the sourdough.

fine.

it's yours.

eww, gross! You took

a bite out of it.

so what's

this Kirsten like?

she--she's

very professional.

yeah...

do I need

a number 2 pencil

for the test?

Sarah.

"my darling Sarah..."

you're Sarah, too?

she's my namesake.

go on.

whoo-hoo!

I passed! Ok?

I got my cat, um...

I have no idea.

i--do I have a cat?!

you're giving me a cat?

I didn't even know

I had a cat, I swear to god!

I have a cat?!

when did I get a cat?

ok. So I guess

this is kind of like

a consolation prize,

right?

lose a mother,

gain a pet?

hey...

what episode

did that happen in?

was that my adoptive parents?

did they give me a cat?

so I was wondering

if you wouldn't mind

keeping an eye on her,

you know, while I'm gone?

the cat! I remember that.

I had a cat for one episode,

and he was in a cage

because he didn't want to

be held during the scene.

now I remember.

it's an orange cat.

I remember the cat. Ok.

all right.

I did have a cat.

the, uh--tshh--i didn't even

know I had a cat,

so that ques--trigger.

I have no idea.

Barney. I don't know.

what was the cat's name?

well, Amanda just hates

traveling with me.

I mean, stuck

in that box all day,

who can blame her?

the cat really--ok.

all right. Good.

announcer: Coming up,

the salingers' most

dramatic Thanksgiving...

and how the party almost ended

before it began

when party of five:

a family album continues.

Dinner is served.

Claudia: Bailey made dinner?

can you believe

they only give you

6 meatballs in a can?

is that a ripoff?

gosh, we must have done

6 or 7 episodes before

it even started airing.

and it was

doing really bad

in the beginning.

you think it's always

gonna be like this for us?

no.

maybe these are

the good old days.

fox: I remember that,

in the beginning,

I was a little bit

frustrated and--and,

like, you know,

"why aren't people

catching on to this?"

there's a way

to handle these people.

not that I have

the slightest clue

what it is.

wolf: All I could do

was keep working,

keep going to work

and hoping we weren't

gonna get told that morning

that we were done.

what do you got?

nothing!

what do you got? Nada!

what do you got? Zilch!

and for a while,

our first season,

that's what it was like.

you know, we'd come to work

and just really hope

that this wasn't gonna

be the day where they say

we couldn't do it anymore.

Walter alcott was released

from prison last week.

he wants to see you.

the Thanksgiving episode

in the very first season

was one of my favorites,

when they deal

with the drunk driver

who killed their parents.

are you saying

you want to see him?

I'm not sure.

forget it.

he can shove his apology.

it doesn't do me any good.

it was one of the first

more really, really dramatic

episodes that we had--

well, they're all

pretty dramatic.

but, uh, you know,

a really big episode

that we had done together.

I'm Claudia salinger.

(doorbell rings)

I'm their youngest daughter.

I just wanted to see

what you look like.

Bailey: My brother,

he's gonna walk soon,

and they're not gonna

see it because of you!

because you had

a few drinks!

and you got in your car,

and you went through

that intersection,

and you killed them!

the only thing

I can do for you...

is tell you that

we're gonna be ok.

go see him, Charlie.

it'll help.

yeah, him.

no, us!

I'm telling you,

it's hard.

but it's not

the hardest thing

in the world

to say, "I forgive you."

yes, it is.

out of these sad,

hard moments

come these revelations,

and you see

these characters

go through that

and come out better

or smarter or, um,

or just, you know,

wise, more wise.

hey, how come

some of the headstones

have stones on them?

some people like to leave

something behind,

kind of as a way

of showing they were here.

topolsky:

I think the one thing

about party of five

and the salinger family

are the issues

they face

are timeless.

it doesn't matter

whether you're living

in the 1930s,

the 1970s, or the 2010s.

the issue of family

getting along

with one another,

loving one another,

frustrating one another,

the issue of family

helping one another

are issues that have

always existed

and will always exist.

pez?

Julia: Ha ha! Sure.

Charlie: Why not?

that's a good idea.

hey, you know what, claud?

you're it.

what? Hey, no fair.

hey, no fair!

(laughing, shouting)

Wolf: During the period

of time where it looked

like we were going

to get canceled

and they started

these letter-writing

campaigns

and these, uh,

save-our-show campaigns,

and we--people

really responded well

to the show,

and had a lot to do

with keeping us around.

the response

we got was over--

I mean, really,

like buckets and buckets

and buckets of fan mail,

and not the fan mail

that you'd think.

we'd get these petitions

from law firms

signed by lawyers

and, uh, paralegals

and secretaries and

the janitorial staff.

I mean, everyone

would sign these big--

big petitions.

yeah. I remember we got--

we got one petition,

uh, with something

like 300 names,

um, all written in exactly

the same handwriting.

that small,

loyal audience

that we did have

is what made us

stay on the air.

I, uh,

had an imaginary friend

when I was a kid.

no kidding?

that's supposed

to be a sign

of real sensitivity.

trivia.

interrogator:

what was the name of

the imaginary friend

you made up

to impress Kirsten?

uh, ha ha ha!

what is his name?

does it start

with a "h"?

(whispering) Damn.

uh, there's

a middle initial,

isn't there?

um...

(droning)

how am I doing?

could be wolfman--

what's the first one?

Lloyd.

Lloyd l. Loomis.

Lloyd. W. Loomis.

Lloyd w. Loomis.

Lloyd w. Loomis.

oh, man. It could've

been--i...

uh, 900.

well?

well?

900.

yes!

Uh,

what college

did I want to go to?

uh...

(softly)

Boston university?

(suppressed giggling)

you got into college?

Hampshire state?

Hampshire state?

How can clau--oh!

my no--oh!

my dimples do something.

it's the dimples.

what?

my dimples quiver

or something.

when something's

going on,

they...

pulse.

they pulse.

interrogator:

how old was Bailey when

he had his tonsils removed?

oh, that's a recent one.

say ahh.

ahh.

that was just

from last episode.

ahh, you had them out

when you were 12?

is it my tonsils,

Dr. Bob?

you don't have

any tonsils, fella.

took 'em out

when you were 8.

(buzzing)

8.

(whispering) Damn.

announcer: Love is in the air...

but marriage isn't...

when party of five:

a family album returns.

So,

school starts tomorrow.

(surf pounding)

would you believe it?

where did the summer go?

who knows, you know?

maybe it'll be

a great year.

maybe.

Hewitt: I don't think

I was really

what they had in mind

originally for Sarah.

when I was sitting

in the waiting room

full of--

full of girls

with tons of makeup on,

and, you know,

like these--these

great figures

and bombshell-looking,

and, um,

they were older.

they were probably, you know,

like, mid 20s,

and I was 16.

I'm not her, Bailey.

I'm not Jo.

I came around,

and I'm kind of--

kind of goofy and nerdy,

and so Sarah

became that, too.

I was trying

to figure out something

to say to you--

something helpful--

and all I could

think of is...

oy.

that pretty much

sums it up.

oy.

yeah.

somehow, the two of us

have a chemistry

or I don't know what.

you know, there's a lot

of different words for it.

what?

do I have something

on my face?

we're here.

oh.

well, thanks

for the lift.

thanks for all

the lifts this summer.

sure.

oh. Here.

you gotta...

jiggle it.

(unbuckling)

there you go.

thanks.

good night.

good night.

Scott came on a show

that I was doing

called kids incorporated.

I was 12,

and I remember,

like, being

oh, my gosh,

this guy is

the older guy,

and here he comes,

and he's so cute,

and he's got dimples,

and he's going to be

on our show.

aren't you just dying

to see him? I mean,

you know, he'll

probably have an accent.

he'll probably say,

"hello, darling, it's me."

when I saw him

the first day,

um, my first day

on party of five,

it was very weird,

'cause I didn't think

he'd remember me,

and he did.

being a new cast member,

I can--i can imagine

how exciting

it must be for them,

you know,

being on the show,

before I'd--Scott being

the hunk that he is!

um...

so I was pretty nervous,

and I remember it

just kind of, like,

walking, walking

on the lot, going,

"ok, I'm going

to go in there.

I'm going to try

not to be a dork.

let's hope

this goes well

and they don't fire me

my first day."

originally, Jennifer

was supposed to be on

the first 9 episodes,

but after 2 hours

of working with her,

you saw what

a marvelous, marvelous,

incredible talent she was.

once we recognized what kind

of a wonderful talent

we had in Jennifer,

we would've been fools

had we let her go.

Charlie:

what a woman, huh?

if I were you,

I'd marry her.

hey, Kirsten,

teach me

how to do that.

I thought

the wedding episode

where Charlie,

uh, backs out

of his marriage

with Kirsten

was, uh, was beautiful,

and Matthew did

some beautiful work

in that episode.

I want to get married.

I want to marry you.

ha! That's a good thing,

because 9,000 bucks says

there's a wedding

in our immediate future.

no. You don't understand.

I want to spend

the rest of my life

with you, Kirsten.

I know that. I do.

only, I'm not ready.

I'm not ready

for the rest of my life

to start today.

I think

that his experience

through his relationship

with Kirsten--

you know, he learned

a lot from that...

photographer: Give Bailey

a little room there.

here we go.

he learned a lot

about himself.

little closer in.

now, everybody say

forever!

forever!

forever!

forever!

forever!

the wedding

was really--ha ha!

that was, uh, uh,

f-for me that

was really great

as an actress

to play

what happened

to that couple.

Charlie, where

have you been?

nowhere.

just...

driving.

just driving and--

and--and thinking

and trying to

figure it all out.

and, ok!

ok?

I love you.

and--and I'm sorry.

and--yeah.

yes. I'm saying yes.

'cause saying no is

pretty much saying

good-bye, right?

and I don't want

that, Kirsten.

I don't.

so.

so let's do it, ok?

let's just do it.

the truest part

of that episode

and the hardest to feel,

because it was so hard,

was when she--

she knew

she couldn't marry him

because she didn't

believe him anymore.

I'm afraid to marry you.

I'm afraid of the day

you're going to walk

in that door and say,

"I don't want you

anymore."

I won't say that.

I don't believe you.

I love you,

but I don't

believe you,

and I can't

take that chance,

because I would die,

Charlie.

That's why

I'm going to walk

away from you.

and from these

children who I love.

devicq: I believe in

happily ever after.

to be honest

with you,

I still want

Charlie and Kirsten

together.

I want them

together. I mean,

other people come

up to me and say

they want them

together. I want

them together.

I want them

to find their way

back to each other.

I don't know that--

if that'll happen.

we'll see.

The nominees for best

television series drama are...

And the winner is

party of five.

♪ everybody wants to be... ♪

one evening full

of all this, so exciting.

I watched the tape,

and I, like,

jumped up on my chair.

I'm, like,

such an idiot.

but I was so shocked.

I was just, like,

glued to the television

watching them,

and I was so

incredibly happy

and proud

and just amazed.

Lacey and Scott

and neve and Matthew

and Paula

like, all jumping up and down

in their chairs,

tears falling

down their face,

and they were

going to the stage

with Chris and Amy,

and I was bawling.

I mean, the show

was kind of lingering.

is it gonna go?

is it not?

I think

the golden globe really

kind of gave us

a push, and I think

a lot more people started

watching it, actually,

because of that exposure.

Here we go.

Uh...

his almost-wedding

with Kirsten.

god, are you

handsome, Charlie.

and a potential

furniture design job

in Seattle.

he shaved?

Charlie?

one for one.

$32,000 a year?

$65,000!

ha ha! Can you say

rich, Owen?

wow.

oh, man.

That's a tough one.

how many women

have you slept with?

I have no idea.

30.

30.

do you even remember

all their names?

I'm not 100% sure

I knew them all

to start with.

this is horrible.

well, I've failed.

announcer: Coming up,

we go behind the scenes

with Jeremy London

and Jennifer Aspen...

plus scenes from the landmark

intervention episode,

when party of five:

a family album continues.

The show

couldn't have been

as successful

as it's been

without great casting,

and not only did that mean

getting the family intact,

but also all the people

that they've brought in,

the love interests

and the people

that have really become

part of the family

are all just

such great actors

and great people.

♪ solid gold ♪

hey, Scott,

would you make me

a sandwich, please?

wolf:

what do you need?

uh, peanut butter

and spinach.

I get to wear, like,

the coolest threads ever.

look at these pants.

milk?

it's time to get naked.

shut up, Jeremy.

heh heh!

you're gonna get me

in trouble.

yeah.

they're airing this,

you know.

I have a boyfriend

who's going to be

watching, going--

oh, come on.

oh, my god!

these guys are so after

my hottie girlfriend.

you can tell him

about us. It's ok.

(shrieking)

shut up!

that's how rumors

get started,

you dummy!

I really don't mind.

shut up.

I'll take him on.

shut up.

where is he?

who is he?

shut up!

I'll beat his ass. Pfft!

♪ fillin' up my life ♪

♪ with music ♪

interrogator:

how much fun

do you guys have

on this show?

whenever Jennifer

actually really

does get naked,

we have

a lot of fun,

but besides that--

Jennifer, shrieking:

Jeremy, stop it!

it's, like,

the best to be Daphne

and to be, like,

this free spirit

and to be able

to be goofy and dorky.

it's so much fun.

you have no idea.

you should all

try it at home.

All I need is

for you to get the hell

out of my way.

bay--

I mean it, Charlie.

no!

get out of my way!

no!

come on.

you son of a bitch!

aah!

oh, my god.

Bailey!

the most gratifying thing

for me, personally,

was the--

the story revolving--

my character's alcoholism.

Claudia on answering machine:

it's me.

when are

you coming home?

call. Bye.

gonna need

another pitcher first.

give me

another pitcher, please.

I gotta cut back

on the partying.

can we get another?

you are all

my witnesses.

I am swearing off

all forms of partying

until I write 10 pages

on a poem about

a guy named...

prudence.

this was just

a bonus beer

for setting a new

personal record--

180 minutes

of consecutive

studying.

they basically

built the story

over an entire year.

♪ happy birthday to you ♪

whoo!

whoo! Whoo!

well, that

pretty much sucked.

woman: Blow it out,

sweetie.

yeah.

whoo!

uhh.

Bailey.

w-who the hell

put that there?

what's goin' on?

Charlie: He's ripped.

oh, my god.

he's what?

drunk.

really drunk.

ok, so it's

a little messed up,

but it's more fun

that way, right?

hey, what did you expect?

I never done this before.

you expect a first-time clown

not to make any mistakes?

huh?!

I want my mommy.

oh, god, don't cry.

he's crying.

hey, come on.

let's get out of here.

I'm talking

to my friend here.

I'm teachin' him

how to be a man.

bay, I said come on.

I said I'm talk--

Charlie!

oh, my god.

if I had to pick

like a--a scene that

would be my favorite,

it's probably the scene

where Scott sort of

loses it with everybody.

Charlie:

god, do you--

what? What, now you want

to give me a lecture

on screwing up?

talk about hearing it

from the master.

I got a better idea,

Charlie.

how about we talk

about you instead?

actually--actually,

you know what?

I bet some of this

would be educational

for grace.

Charlie: Bailey--

I don't wanna hear it.

sure you do.

of course you do.

I mean, how much do you

actually know

about Charlie's

sexual history?

stop it, Bailey.

has he cheated

on you yet?

give it time. He will.

he's cheated

on every other girl he's

been with. Why not you?

shut the hell up, Bailey!

yeah, the whole episode

she's struggling with--

she feels like she's

betraying her brother

by, you know,

ganging up against him,

and--and--yet inside,

she knows she's actually

helping him.

has anyone seen my coat?

that's it?

yeah, claud, that's it.

no.

no, no, no,

no, no, no.

no, no, I can't

take this, Bailey.

I mean, you can't

do this anymore.

Claudia--

no, Bailey, I mean it.

that's it. That's it.

I mean,

if--if you don't--

if you don't get help,

I don't wanna see you.

you can't talk

to me, and--and...

and you can't

talk to Owen,

and you can't

come over to the house,

and I'm not gonna

come see you,

and I'm not

gonna call you, and...

I'm not even gonna

think about you.

Claudia, just--

no!

I love you...

more than anyone else.

I love you the best.

you know that.

this is the only thing

that I have that I can

take away from you...

to make you stop.

either you get help

right now...

or get out of here.

Hewitt: In that scene,

he was so--

he was so angry and so sad

and so vulnerable,

and it's amazing to me

the things that--

that he pulls out of--

he pulls out of himself

and out of his heart

and his soul.

group: Grant me the Serenity

to accept the things

I cannot change,

the courage to change

the things I can,

and the wisdom

to know the difference.

announcer: Coming up...

highlights

from last season...

and Lacey chabert

takes her trivia challenge,

when party of five:

a family album returns.

Oh, gosh. I mean,

this is really

making me nervous.

oh! I know this. Um...

Whitman or something

or waltman or...

some poet or something.

oh, what is it?

Whitman. Walt Whitman.

the teacher...

even one of Whitman's

most popular teachers.

ding ding ding!

very good.

The incredi-bra.

the incredi-bra.

yes, that's right.

I can't believe

I remembered that.

Uh, which of those?

Claudia has avoided,

uh, gambling and swearing.

right, and that's

why you're acting

like such a bitch.

don't say, "bitch"!

oh, no.

Charlie,

what happened to you?

how long am I

gonna be stuck in here?

woman: How are

you feeling?

ok.

(coughing)

any soreness

in the throat?

a little.

Owen and claud ok?

yeah.

they're fine.

Owen's at home

with Sarah.

difficulty

swallowing?

mm-hmm. Some.

loss of appetite?

yes.

fatigue?

yes.

wanna take a minute?

nausea? Vomiting?

(vomits)

Charlie.

yes.

ok. You know the drill.

Lots of shows have done

stories about ill--illness,

and they've done it

incredibly well.

we thought, how can we tell

a story about illness

that is specific

to this family?

I mean, guys...

take a look at me.

I'm...

when I'm feelin'

like this,

which is more every day,

I can't--i can't cook,

I can't eat,

I can barely move.

I mean, how am

I supposed to take care

of claud and Owen?

what happened to the family

when the person

who's in the position

of responsibility

becomes the person

who needs the care?

you guys are great

when I feel like hell,

when I'm flat

on my back, or I've got

my head in the toilet.

you make me dinner.

you bring me

the cold washcloth,

tuck me in by the TV.

but let me feel ok

for one day,

let me want

to do something else

besides being sick--

wait. I-is this

about that fishing trip?

what, are you mad that

we didn't want you to go,

we didn't

want you wading around

in freezing cold water

in the middle of nowhere?

you--you made me afraid

to take a chance.

you could have

gotten sick.

heh. Claudia,

I am sick.

but staying in that bed

with the covers

pulled up to my chin

and the two of you

spoon-feeding me

chicken soup...

I mean, maybe if

I got out of here

once in a while

and lived a little bit,

maybe that'd

be what makes

the difference.

all of the time

that we've seen Charlie,

he's always been this person

that sort of felt like...

fate was against him.

and if

any phone call were to ring

in the middle of the night,

it was gonna be bad news.

how's the patient?

(coughing)

Does that answer

your question?

well...

the congestion's

loose.

that's a good sign.

how long am

I gonna be stuck in here?

well, ahh,

what can I tell you?

um, your

color's got room

for improvement.

but it's not--

is it that serious?

no. He--he's just

got a ways to go

before

the infection's gone.

but...

judging

from his energy

and the fact

that he's alert,

I'd say it looks,

you know...

not that bad.

I'm sorry.

could you, um...

could you say that again?

No, it's just, um...

right.

right.

could you give...

I'm sorry, could you just

give me a second here?

fox: When he found out

that he was in remission

and that he was fine,

that was really the first time

that we've seen him

that he felt like, "my god,"

you know,

"I got a second chance here."

I'm back.

announcer: Coming up,

Lacey chabert and

Claudia salinger

both grow up

and a very special

thank-you to the fans,

when party of five:

a family album returns.

Salinger, Claudia.

size?

um...

medium?

how about

extra-small?

(girls laugh)

um, small's fine.

I guess.

locker 38.

suit up.

ok.

burgess, Kate.

ooh! Sorry. Sorry.

wolf: Lacey, obviously,

is the--the one

of the four of us

who has changed the most

since we began.

it's just unbelievable.

what is this, claud,

like some big emergency

or something?

yeah, it is.

I just got my period.

oh.

these have wings.

wings?

what is that about, huh?

uh, I don't think

these are right. Here.

it's a little strange, you know,

growing up in real life

and on television,

knowing that all these people

are watching you and kind of

monitoring, you know...

monitoring what

you look like every week

and how you're changing.

why is it so impossible

that I could have feelings

about--about...

you know, guy stuff?!

I mean, just because,

I don't know, I mean,

I may be small for my age--

well, I do, ok?! I mean,

i--i do have those feelings.

so you better

just get used to it.

I remember

when I was 13, you know,

I was--i wouldn't

have been able to handle

all what she handles.

ay, Claudia.

sometime, the heart

do what it want

without asking the head.

I had never

kissed anyone before,

and I hadn't had

a boyfriend or anything yet,

and so, you know, I read

the script and went, "ok."

you know, I had no idea,

like, what to do.

(time after time playing)

chabert: It was really

nervous, you know?

I was pretty nervous on set.

I'd never done this before.

And even knowing

it's fake, you know,

it was still--

there was some part of me

that, you know,

felt it was real.

Doing a--a show like this

is the--one of the few chances

we get to actually sort of...

talk directly

to the audience.

(fans clamoring)

woman: Oh, my god!

my god!

if they hadn't

stuck with the show,

there may not have been

the second season

for my character

to even exist,

um, so I owe them

an especially huge thank-you.

our fans have really...

you know, they've

been so supportive

of our show,

and I believe

they're a huge reason,

you know,

why we're still on.

and it's great to know

that they're supportive

because

they--they really care

about the characters.

devicq:

thank you. Heh heh.

I would say

just thank you,

and we're glad that,

you know, we're glad

that they're there.

everybody that comes up

to me on the street

and, you know,

says something

about the show

is always so positive.

girl: Hey, Matthew!

I've never had

people come up to me

and say bad stuff,

which is really nice.

stage announcer:

Jennifer love Hewitt!

I would just say thank you,

and I'd give them all

a big hug if there was time,

but there's not.

neve Campbell

and Paula devicq!

and Scott wolf

and Lacey chabert!

wolf: I hope that, uh...

that everybody out there

who is a fan of the show

and has been

a fan of the show

knows how grateful

we are for your...

for how loyal you guys are.

and you, first of all,

had a lot to do

with keeping us on the air

in the first place,

and we've tried to continue

working hard here

to give you

the best show we can,

and I hope you're

still enjoying it.

from the bottom

of my heart, thank you.