All language subtitles for Almost Family s01e10_English

ROXY: Previously on
Almost Family ...

I really care about you.

But I also have to respect

where they're at.

Do yourself a favor, Julia.
Don't try so hard.

ROXY: When I was competing,

I had this frenemy,
Nina Benett.

She one-upped me
every chance she got.

LEON: Tim told me.

Told you what?

That your marriage is over,
and that you've been

in a secret,
intimate relationship

with the prosecutor who intends
to send me to prison.

-Leon.
-You're fired, Edie.

No one's ever gonna
listen to you.

And stay away from me.

What is it, Rox?

It's about Nick.

He sexually abused me.

JULIA: I'm really proud of you
for telling your parents.

I want to stop that bastard
before he hurts anybody else.

[indistinct chatter]

-What's up, man?
-What's good, bro?

[razor buzzing]

Looking good.

You have a visitor.

[gentle music]

♪

I had a hundred
on you not showing up here.

I guess you lost that bet.

Um, I read your letter.
It was very powerful.

Must have been
if it got you here.

♪

Does the list
of milk options get longer

every time I come in here,
or am I imagining things?

Hemp milk?

Yeah, that's the one that's
made out of ropes, right?

Oh.

-Oh, I dare you.
-[laughs]

Hello, um, I have been
challenged to try

a hemp milk latte.

BARISTA: It's not as strange
as you might think.

Tastes kind of earthy.

I don't know.
You might just like it.

Mmm.
Can't wait.

When I saw you walk in,
I thought,

"That's a girl
with adventurous taste."

I'll have a whole milk
cappuccino, please.

Dry.

[mouths]

[upbeat pop music]

♪

SINGER: ♪ Whoa,
ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh ♪

♪ Whoa,
ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh ♪

I think she likes you.

EDIE: No way.

And if I'm not mistaken,
I think I saw you blush.

Will you stop it?
You're embarrassing me.

AMANDA: I completely understand
if you're curious

about other women.

It's natural.

You're new to this.

I'm not curious.

What makes you think
I'm curious?

I'm just saying,
maybe you want to know

what it feels like to be
with someone else.

I'm your first.

Maybe it's something
you should try.

Wait, how did--how did we go
from talking

about alternative milks
to me hooking up

with random other women?

-Are you breaking up with me?
-Not at all.

I want us for the long haul,
okay?

But it might not be that long

if you get curious
about other women,

and you have to admit
that you are,

at least a little bit.

Okay, yeah, sure, I guess,
but--

So then why not
get it out of the way?

Curiosity killed
your last relationship.

I don't want it to ruin ours.

I knew the search
for my biological father

wasn't going to be easy,
but I reached out to, like,

ten potential cousins
on Double Helix,

and I have yet to hear back
from any of them.

Maybe they're just busy,
and they don't

want to be distracted,
like me right now,

trying to jog.

And Donovan is totally MIA.

I asked him to dinner
two days ago,

and I haven't heard a peep,

not a text, not a tweet,
nada, nothing.

He's a single dad with a job.

He's probably got
a lot going on.

Or he's reconsidering
our relationship,

because I totally face-planted
with his kids.

Okay, the whole point of this

is to get out of our heads
and into our bodies.

It's a big part of my recovery.

Okay?
Come on.

I'm here for you
and your recovery.

I'm getting into my body,

but mine is just
a little slower than yours.

-ROXY: Come on, you can do it.
-JULIA: Okay.

[panting]

I finally catch up with you,
and you stop?

Are you okay?

Oh, no.

No, this can't happen.

[exhales deeply]

[door buzzes]

MILES: Freshman year at NYU,

these two white dudes,
my roommates,

wanted to do some coke.

I had never seen the stuff
before in my life

except in movies.

I was trying to fit in.

So, uh, Mike scored some,

and we parked behind the club
to, uh, partake,

when these cops pull up
behind us.

Jordan threw the bag
in my glove compartment.

Cops told me
to get out of the car

and accused me
of resisting arrest

when I was just trying
to get my registration.

And of course they found
the drugs,

which my friends said
they knew nothing about.

Good friends.

Man, it's crazy how quickly

I stopped being
their homeboy

once those cop lights
started flashing.

My parents had some resources,
not like most guys in here.

They could afford braces
and college, but, uh...

I don't know,
it was always a struggle.

They mortgaged their house
for me...

twice.

Wasn't enough.

It's very moving
how they fought for you

against those odds.

Are you moved enough
to help me get an appeal?

My attorneys have told me

that I really can't meddle
in anyone else's affairs

until my own court case
is over.

You used your own sperm
to conceive me.

Wouldn't you call that
meddling?

You know, the whole time
I was growing up,

I didn't fit in anywhere.

That story they told me
about who I was never added up.

But now, after meeting you...

I finally know why.

Did she really use the phrase
"try out other women"?

What,
are you test-driving a car?

No, I am getting my lesbian PhD
to prove to my girlfriend

that I know what I want.

Haven't you already
proven that?

Just saying.
It's tough.

You're in uncharted territory,
and I can kind of relate.

I mean, I've never dated
a single dad before,

and it's--it's different.

Like, when he doesn't
call me back for a few days,

I just have to understand
that he's--he's busy,

and that's all that it means.

-No, you're getting dumped.
-[door closes]

-Wait, seriously?
-Yeah.

Hey, guys.
I'm ready to do it.

I'm ready to make a statement
about Nick.

EDIE: Okay.

JULIA: Um, do you want to talk
it out first?

We can make some notes.

EDIE: Yeah,
I'll walk you through

the legal parameters,
make sure you're protected.

No, I want to do it now, okay,

while I have the courage
and the support of my sisters.

Here.
We'll go on action, okay?

-EDIE: Um...
-ROXY: Okay. And action.

-JULIA: Oh, God.
-[cell phone beeps]

Hi, I'm Roxy Doyle.

You may know me as an Olympic
silver medalist in gymnastics,

or you may know me from
some more recent encounters

with some inappropriate fans
that ended up on the internet.

I really don't like it
when people mess with me,

and I thought that was normal,
that I was just hot-tempered.

But then, because of some
caring people in my life,

I got the chance
to get some help,

and I discovered
that it wasn't.

I was masking my pain,
because I couldn't acknowledge

where it was coming from,

that I had let someone in
that ended up hurting me.

And that was a tough thing
to admit, but it happened.

Someone saw an innocent girl

and preyed on her need
for approval,

a girl who, when she was told
she was special and talented,

she fed off those words
and did things to earn them

she never wanted to do.

Nick Cameron,
you are a predator...

who uses the trust girls have
in you as their coach

for the worst possible gain.

I want anybody
who's watching this

who's ever been manipulated
and abused by him

and made to feel like
it was their fault--

I want you to hit me up,

and I promise
that I'll be there for you.

We'll do it together.

[cell phone beeps]

EDIE: So before you post it,
I think, uh...

-BOTH: Um...
-[cell phone chimes]

-Okay.
-Oh.

Okay. No going back now.

♪

Hey.

What's going on with the post?

Are there any more likes
or mentions or trolls?

-A few more.
-Yeah, a few?

Like, how many, three?

23. Some are positive.

How many are positive?

Rox, the whole point
of me monitoring

your social media is
so you don't obsess.

It's not healthy.

I'm not obsessing!
I'm terrified.

I put it out there,
and I can't take it back.

I know. Let's just give it
some time, okay?

You told the truth,
and that is a beautiful thing,

but let's just let it play out.

You did get a DM
from a producer,

something called Game Zine?

-GameZone?
-That's not right.

Let me see.

Oh, my God.

They want to interview me
on GameZone.

"We saw your brave statement,

and we'd like to invite you on
to tell your story."

Okay, but are you sure
you're ready for that?

Because those journalists
can be pretty tough.

Are you kidding me?
I was born for this.

I'm gonna be on GameZone.

[doorbell rings]

Okay, nope, not so fast.

Give me that.
Thank you.

Can you get that?

Tim, hi.

Come in.
what's wrong?

What isn't wrong?

I think I just need to see
a familiar face right now.

I'm sorry.
I--I--look, I know that you,

um, are probably upset with me
for knowing about Edie

and not telling you

and I was put in
a really awkward position--

I would not blame you for that.
That wouldn't be fair.

Thank you.
That's...

[sighs]
You're such a good--

Oh, I know.
Yeah, yeah, I know, I know.

"You're just a great guy,
the best person ever."

I know.
I hear it all the time.

Do you want to come in
and sit down?

-Sit, sit.
-Are you sure?

[sighs]

Edie and I,
we were a team in every way.

Yeah.

And I'm out here, and I don't
know what I'm doing, Julia.

I'm flying blind.

I am just--I'm so blind

that I...I joined a dating app.

Footsie?

That--that's good.

That's--that's great, kind of.

-Is it?
-Yeah.

It's a first good step.

But how am I supposed
to find love

answering questions
about whether or not

I like guacamole?

-Hmm.
-It's depressing is what it is.

It's--it's--

It's just people,
just looking for a connection.

I actually found someone
really great on there.

Although he's totally
ghosting me right now,

and so are
all the distant cousins

that I reached out to
on Double Helix.

But sorry,
I'm just--I'm feeling

very vulnerable right now,
because I'm just reaching out

to people and no one's getting
back to me.

And I'm just putting you
in an awkward position,

because you can't do anything
about this, and--

Not about the boyfriend,

but I can help
with the DNA matches.

You can?

There's actually
an investigator

that owes me a favor, so...

Of course someone does,

because you're such a good--

Ugh.
Don't...

-Lawyer.
-Okay.

You're such a good lawyer.

[mouths]

[distant phone ringing]

[indistinct chatter]

Hello.
How are you today?

Ah.
Okay. Thanks.

Have a nice day.

Okay.
That's okay.

[exhales]

You been here a while?

MAN:
We're moving the line along...

L28 shouldn't be long now.

[whimsical music]

WOMAN [over PA]:
Now serving C5.

Ah.

Uh, excuse me.

Uh, you are a public defender,
correct?

How could you tell?

Well, because you look like

a very hard-working
young woman.

Here's the thing. I want you
to do me a favor, please.

I'm here to ask about a case,
Miles Walker.

I really need to help this kid.

He's been dealt
a very, very bad hand.

Sir,
I'm glad you've just awoken

to the injustices
in this country.

The reason I took this job
is to actually fight them,

but I have about 500 of them
on my plate.

So please just take a seat
like everyone else.

WOMAN [over PA]:
Now serving C6.

[Moxi's "Terrible Disguise"]

[upbeat pop music]

♪

MOXI:
♪ A little restless again

♪ It's that time of night

♪ It's that time of year

♪

Hey.

Hey.

Here to order a drink
you don't really want again?

No, I'm actually pretty clear
on what I want this time.

I would love a cappuccino

with whole milk and extra foam.

Like, a lot of foam.

Like, a really wet cappuccino.

A wet cappuccino actually has
a lot of milk, not foam.

[laughs]
Well, um, then foam it up.

I'm sure you make
a great frothy foam.

Are you okay?

What?
Yes.

No, no.
I am so sorry.

Oh, my God.

Um, my girlfriend thinks

that I'm really green
at being a lesbian,

and she thinks
I'm a green lesbian.

[both laugh]

And I'm trying to prove to her

that I'm not a green lesbian,
even though

green is my favorite color,
weirdly.

Oh, my God, I am tanking.

I am so sorry.
Save yourself.

Okay, listen, you want to rip
the lesbian Band-Aid

off quickly?

I have a suggestion,
but you need to be willing

to get pretty dirty, so...

Oh, no.

I--I don't think
that's in the cards, 'cause--

oh, kickball.

You can join my team,

-the Dixie Kicks.
-Oh.

We play tomorrow
out at McCarren Park.

Should be 20 lesbians there

for you to make
awkward advances on.

Great,
that's a lot of "les" practice.

I probably need it.

But I've never--I mean,
I haven't played team sports

since I was a kid, so...

Can I tell you a secret?
[whispers] None of us are good.

We just play long enough
to earn beers after.

Oh, okay.
[laughs]

Then I guess I could--
I could try that.

-Yeah?
-Yeah.

You can't wear that jacket.

No, I--I will bring it.

You got it.

-Oh--oh, God.
-EDIE: Oh, sorry.

-I'm so sorry.
-Watch that.

-All right.
-Sorry, ma'am.

[knock at door]

I'm almost done, Isaac.

When I said "give me a second,"

I didn't think you were gonna
take me lit--oh.

-[bumps desk]
-Oh, careful.

Ow.
It's okay.

It's just a stupid desk.

Sorry, I, um--I...

What can I--what can I
do you for?

What can I do for you?
'Cause I'm very busy.

I have a very busy plate.

Yeah, I won't take up
too much time.

I just wanted to make sure
you were all right.

Um, I'm--I'm all right.
Are--are you?

I'm okay.

No, uh, I'm not.

I--I--I haven't heard back
from you in days.

Wait, you haven't heard back
from me?

Did I do something?
Did I make you angry?

I've been, like,
racking my brain

as to why you would ghost me.

I think it must be
what happened with my kids.

I--I mean, I--I texted you,
like, a million times.

I--I mean, not, like,
a million times.

I thought about texting you
a million times.

I actually only texted you,
like, four...five.

I did not get these texts
that you're referring to.

Oh, my gosh.

[giggles]
I'm so relieved.

Pretending to be mad at you
just now was--was really tough.

-How--how'd I do?
-Not great.

-Hmm.
-You know what?

I think I know
what happened here.

Phone bill, no judgement.

No, I think
that my daughter blocked you.

Ouch.

Well, that is way worse

than you being
financially irresponsible.

Yeah, she's kind of been
on the warpath

since we started dating,
and her phone skills

are pretty well honed
at this point, so...

I'm sorry.

Is there anything
that I can do?

Yeah, you can meet me somewhere

at a, you know--a restaurant
for a romantic dinner,

place of your choosing.

Aww, my choice.

[clicks tongue]

How do feel
about floating candles?

If they don't float,
what's the point, really?

[soft music]

Aww.

[indistinct chatter]

Roxy Doyle, just want to say
a quick hello and welcome.

Hi.
Um, longtime viewer,

first-time guest.

Thank you so much
for having me on

to tell my story.

Yeah, your statement was
extremely powerful.

It's the least we could do.

Thanks.

-Wait, what is she doing here?
-Oh.

Well, that's the thing
about stories.

There's always two sides,
right?

You'll be great.
I'll see you out there.

[dramatic music]

ROXY:
And then this man you idolize

handpicks you to be
his favorite,

and you feel untouchable.

The boys in high school become
pimply-faced, immature dummies,

and here's this mature,
charming man

who wants to be your prince.

But I was 16, and he was 27
and my coach,

and I was incapable of consent.

So you say this
inappropriate relationship

ended how many years ago?

Um, about ten.

And you're just coming forward
now.

Can you tell us why?

There's a lot of shame and fear

and a sense that
nobody'll believe you.

Uh, Nina, do you have
a comment to make

about Roxy's story?

Well,
I just think it's interesting

that all these accusations
are coming up

right as you're trying so hard
to get back in the public eye.

-That's--
-MARTY: Well, it sounds like

you're suggesting that
this is some kind of stunt

for attention.

You said that, not me.

I just think it's really sad
that she's trying to blame

all of her problems on Nick,
when he tried so hard

to help her all
over the years--

To help me?

We all tried, but Roxy is...

she's a really troubled person.

If we weren't on TV right now,

I would rip
your pretty little throat out.

NINA: I really hope
that you get some help, Roxy.

ROXY: Oh, no,
I wouldn't need help.

I would do it right here,
right now with my bare hands.

NINA: Do you see
what I'm talking about?

This is what Nick
had to deal with.

This is what we all
had to deal with.

[laughs]
You're doing great.

Let me rescue that little guy
for ya.

There you go.

I've logged a lot
of chopstick hours in my day

as a proud New Yorker.

My dad and I actually had

this Chinese food
weekly ritual,

'cause my mom hated spicy food.

And so he would--
he and I would, um...

[exhales deeply]

-Where'd you go just now?
-Sorry.

Ever since I found out
he's not my biological father,

it's just--it's just different.

Anyway, we've talked a lot
about my family.

Let's hear more about yours.

You told me that your mom
was a homemaker

and your dad was a salesman,
but I don't think

you actually told me
what he sold.

Well, buckle up,
because my dad worked

in the thrillingly fast-paced
world of refrigerator sales.

And when you are lucky enough
to meet him,

he will tell you endless,
hugely boring stories about it.

-I look forward to that.
-Oh, no, you don't.

-Well, I'm sure he's...
-[cell phone chimes]

A very "cool" guy.

-What?
-Oh, nothing.

That was just--ignore me.

That was a very
lame joke--attempt at a joke.

-Is everything okay?
-Yeah, yeah.

I'm sorry.
Uh, what was I saying?

You were talking about
your dad and refrigerators.

Ah, right, yeah, yeah.

-Uh, he was really...
-[cell phone chimes]

Jeez, okay.

If you need to check in
on them, it's totally fine.

-No, no, I really don't.
-[cell phone chimes]

They're fine,
everything's fine.

Let's do this date thing.

-[cell phone ringing]
-[sighs]

It's okay, answer it.

Hey, Olivia, what's up?

Yeah, I'm out.
Yeah, you know I'm out.

Okay, well,
did he throw up or...?

Okay, well,
what did you guys eat?

Cheetos and marshmallows?

No, I'm not blaming you,
but you're in charge.

No, please, don't send me
a picture of it.

I believe you.

Okay, I--I'll be right there.

We can do this another time.

I can text her and try to buy
a little time with some Pepto.

Don't be silly.
Go take care of him.

Really, it's fine.

-You sure?
-Positive.

Thank you for understanding.

All right, well,
rain check, I promise.

And next time,
double the romance,

no intestinal distress.

-JULIA: Okay.
-It'll be amazing.

Just go.

♪

LEON: He's a good kid,
you know.

He doesn't deserve
the sentence he got.

It's tragic, actually.

I've been
looking over his case,

and I just--I think this would
be great for you.

Well, I don't need
your handouts, Leon.

I'm doing just fine
since you fired me.

-Thank you.
-I have no doubt that you are.

I just think you're the
right person for the situation.

He needs the best of the best.

Well, I'm sure he has
a public defender.

You should start there.

Well no--no,
I went down that road.

I mean,
that's how I got his file.

So you tried one thing,

and you think that's enough
to help a kid

in this type of situation?

You did a little research
and then you came to me

to try to convince me
to take the case

to clear your
guilty conscience?

Oh, be careful
getting on too high a horse.

Oh, please don't compare
my situation to yours, Leon.

You are on a whole other level.

Okay, I'll just leave this here

in case you want
to have a look.

EDIE: [scoffs]
Don't hold your breath.

[Edie sighs]

♪

You know what's worse
than your "date fail"?

Trolls, mean ones, who are
saying things I can't see.

That's the way
the world is now.

You have a phone,
you can have an opinion.

You just got to shut it out.

Yeah.

Whoa!
Oh, that was so fast.

"Liar, liar, career on fire"?

All right, "Flossing at Fifty",
I have something for you.

-No, no.
-Hey, come on!

I had a response for that!

Fighting trolls
only makes them stronger.

-It's my phone. Give it back.
-No.

You asked me to do this.

Yeah, well, I changed my mind.
Phone, please.

You know, this is Nina's fault,
okay?

I need to call her out.

-Come on!
-No.

We are taking the high road.

Okay.

Fine.
Can I check my weather app?

-Nice try.
-I have tornado anxiety.

It's Brooklyn, not Kansas.

Global warming is real.

-Come on!
-I am protecting you.

-[Julia squeals]
-ROXY: No.

[gasps]

You did not just do that.

JULIA: I think I did.

Oh.

-Well...
-Sorry.

I can still look
at my computer.

-You'll have to find it first.
-Damn it.

[doorbell rings]

Hi, Tim.
Come in.

Sorry to come by so late,

but I thought you'd be
excited to see this.

Our investigator found
a cousin of yours

on your mother's side.

On my mother's side?

She could still be helpful.

Right, um, "Patti Fletcher."

I don't remember my mom
ever talking about her.

ROXY: Patti Fletcher.

Patti Fletcher sounds like
a librarian

with, like, a bunch of cats.

Sorry.

[people exclaiming in distance]

-Edie!
-Hey.

Hi.

-Welcome.
-Hey.

Um, I wasn't sure
what I was supposed to wear.

I clearly overdid it.
I--I do that.

No, you look amazing.
Come on.

Let me introduce you
to the squad.

Dixies!

Edie, she's dope,
she's looking to play.

All right, ladies, let's send
these kitty cats back to Queens

licking their wounds.

Come on, everybody, huddle up!

Whoo!
Whoo!

-Come on!
-[all whooping]

-Okay, bring it in.
-Okay, here we go.

Dixie Kicks on three!

ALL: One, two, three.
Dixie Kicks!

[upbeat hip-hop music]

SINGER: ♪ Don't get me wrong,
had some ups and downs ♪

♪ They made me strong,
and that helps me now ♪

♪ Ain't a thing
I can't handle ♪

♪ Try to take me down,
that'll be a scandal ♪

♪ You can call me
an optimist ♪

♪ My accomplishments,
I needed no assist ♪

♪ I need you to bow for me

♪ Yeah, when I come through,
call me Your Majesty ♪

♪ Bow to the queen,
touchdown for the queen ♪

♪ Ride for the queen,
get live for the queen ♪

♪ Bounce for the queen,
get loud for the queen ♪

♪ Yeah, when I come through,
call me Your Majesty ♪

♪ Floss for the queen,
take a loss for the queen ♪

♪ Groove for the queen,
take two for the queen ♪

Fight!

SINGER:
♪ Call me Your Majesty

Yes!

You guys headed to Hotbox?

Carla's paranoid she's gonna
see Jacque there,

so probably not.

I can't believe she pretended
not to know me

when we all lined up
at the end.

She's a hetero-flexible
pillow queen.

What did you expect?

Um, not for her to
literally use me

and then throw me away.

There's nothing worse
than a goldfish.

-[laughs]
-[chuckles] Yeah.

What's a--what's a goldfish?

I'll, uh, explain it
at the bar.

Your mother and I were
two peas in a pod

back in the day.

I really wanted to see
how much you resembled her.

Dead ringer, really.

I don't see any Leon.

Yeah--yeah, um, actually,

that's one of the reasons
I'm here.

I recently learned some news
about him.

About him using
his own swimmers at his clinic?

Doesn't surprise me.

-Why not?
-Never cared for the guy.

[cat growls, meows]

Your mother and I were
big rule-breakers.

Did she ever show you
the tattoo we got?

No, I--I didn't even know
that she had a tattoo.

She was so against it
when I wanted to get mine.

She regretted it instantly,
talked about removing it,

but I like mine.

-It suits me.
-[chuckles]

Oh, there was this lake
we used to swim in

late at night, nude.

Lots of rocks,
but we didn't care.

We felt like we were
invincible.

We'd blast our music and dance.

My mom wasn't much of a dancer.

Are you kidding me?

Your mother could have danced
professionally,

almost did, in fact.

There was a time...

[stammers]
"There was a time," what?

There was this dance troupe,

had a studio in a church
downtown somewhere,

Saint Paul's maybe.

There was a time she wanted
to run away and join them.

I--I didn't know
any of this.

I...when I wanted to take up
dancing when I was a kid,

she said it was not for me.

It's too painful, I imagine,
the road not traveled and all.

So what happened?
Why'd you lose touch?

Leon happened.

When Sarah married him,
she made herself smaller,

shrunk herself
to fit into his world.

I just--I hated that.

We argued about it a lot.

Eventually, she'd had it
with me and my opinions.

Do you know if, um,

she cheated on Leon?

It wouldn't surprise me.

In a room that's suffocating,
you're bound to open a window.

♪

-Cheers, ladies!
-We killed it today.

To the Dixie Kicks!

[all cheer]

That's just the beginning.

Crushed it.

[pop music playing]

So has everyone here,
at some point,

dated everyone else here?

You want to be part
of this world,

you got to stay friends
with every woman

you've been
in a relationship with

or even made out with once.

You're exaggerating, obviously.

[laughs]
Maybe a little.

Will you please tell me
what a goldfish is?

A gold star is a lesbian
who's never been with a man,

so a goldfish is...

Me.

-You asked.
-Okay.

-I didn't want to say anything.
-Got it.

So cheers to that.

Right, great,
learning so much today.

Mm.

Ah.

Okay, what do you want to hear?

I got four songs for a dollar.

I don't know, you know,

just, like, some
Melissa Etheridge or, um...

Ani DiFranco,

Tracy Chapman.

You don't have to name
an artist

that you think "our kind" like.

What do you like?

I'm looking at what I like.

Okay.

[laughs]

Mm.

[gasps]

Okay.
Oh, okay.

Okay, that's--that's a little
aggressive for me.

I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry.

It seems like you have
a girl that you're into,

and it feels like
you're kissing me to prove

that you want to be with her.

You see how that's, like,
a little unfair to me?

I have no idea what I'm doing.
I am so sorry.

If you were my girl,
I would never push you to go

and make out with other women.

That's not a lesbian thing.
It's an insecure thing.

♪

[car horns honk
in distance]

Hey.

Good workout?

Roxy,
you scared the crap out of me.

I do that too,
my keys between my fingers.

It makes a decent weapon.

I'm not like you, Roxy.
I'm not brave.

Come on, I've seen you
back tuck on a balance beam.

Yeah, after you did it first.

Look,
I can't come forward like you.

Okay?
I can't be that person

that you Google
and the sexual abuse scandal

is the first thing
that comes up.

You don't have to let it
define you.

But it will.

It'll be the only thing
anybody knows about me.

I can't have that.

You know what keeps me up
at night?

The younger girls.

I mean,
if we don't say anything,

who's gonna protect them?

I know that it can be scary

to come forward alone,
but you don't have to.

We can do it together.
We can be a team.

We're not a team anymore.

I'm sorry, Roxy.

[somber music]

♪

Chamomile.
[chuckles]

Thanks.

To what do I owe
this unexpected visit?

Do you know a Patti Fletcher?

I do, your mother's cousin,

big personality, big hair.

Yeah, that's her.
I never met her,

because she and Mom
drifted apart?

She didn't like me,
never liked me.

She, um--I found her to be
quite pretentious, actually.

I thought she judged me
unfairly.

She thought that I wasn't good
for your mom.

She was a bit of a wild card,
never married.

She told me that mom
was a dancer,

and I guess she was
pretty serious about it.

She even was thinking about
pursuing it professionally.

I--I guess she had
these big dreams

that I didn't even know about.

Honestly, Julia, I'm just
a little too preoccupied

with the present
to be dredging up the past.

-So...
-Right.

I'll--I'll figure it out
on my own.

[exhales deeply]

Your mom had a world
I wasn't a part of.

She went to a dance studio.

She felt a kind of kinship
with the people there.

And on those nights
when she'd come home,

she was different...

like she left a piece
of her heart there.

Sorry.

Uh, it's not much, but...

It's something.

♪

I tried to devour her whole
in the bathroom.

[laughs]

As naive as I am
about the whole lesbian thing,

I'm pretty sure
it wasn't a turn-on.

-[laughs]
-It's not funny.

I'm sorry.

Did you enjoy it at all?

No.
I embarrassed myself.

I came on so strong,

all because I was trying
to prove something...

to you.

Babe.

I risked so much
to be here with you.

What makes you think
I want to run off

and make out
with some stranger?

All I think about is
kissing you.

When you told me
you were falling for me, I--

I felt a kind of happiness
I just--

I don't allow myself
to feel anymore.

The kind that
if it's ever taken away...

Why would it be taken away?

I guess a part of me
just couldn't believe

that you were choosing me.

And then Margaret made it
worse.

Margaret?

Oh, she gave me
this cautionary tale

about getting caught up
with someone

who only had one experience.

Wait.

This--this whole thing is
about your ex-wife?

She was just being protective
and--

And still holding on,
apparently.

I'm gonna get some air.

Edie.

We both know that relationships
with our exes--

it's complicated.

Yeah,
but you could have been honest

about where it was coming from.

You made me look like a fool.

[door slams]

NICK: Okay, are you gonna do
two at once?

[laughs]

[engine rumbling]

Hey, honey, why don't you go
inside and help your mom?

What in the hell
are you doing here?

You're lucky I saw you
before my wife did.

Are you crazy?

Crazy? No, I don't think so.

I don't think
I've ever felt more sane.

What you did was messed up,
Nick.

Okay, we need to go talk
somewhere else, okay?

My kids are in there.

You should have thought
about your kids

before you were
taking advantage

of innocent young girls.

Roxy, you had no complaints

when I was giving you
everything that you wanted.

I never forced you
to be intimate with me.

You gave that up freely.

Freely?
I was a child.

You took advantage of my trust
and my vulnerability

and my brokenness.

Just admit what you did!

Why are you trying to ruin
both of our lives?

I'm not!

The gym, everything those
other girls are working for,

you're putting that at stake.

If you destroy that,
it's on you, not me.

-I just want an apology.
-For what?

Because you fell in love
with me? Huh?

For my generosity
and my kindness?

For your mistakes?

Go screw yourself.

Truly.
[laughs]

What do you want, huh?

Do want to break
my wife's heart?

Because she's the nicest woman
in the world.

I bet.
[sniffles]

Are you here to tear apart
my family?

Is that the goal?

I'm just trying to tell
the truth.

Oh, "the truth."
Here's the truth.

You are not gonna turn
my life into the disaster

that's become of yours.

Get off my property
before I call the police.

[knock at door]

Oh, did I forget
daylight savings again?

-I'm terrible at that.
-I'm two hours early.

-Oh, welcome.
-Thanks.

I'm actually here to,
um--I'm here to talk to Olivia.

Oh.

She and I have more in common
than she thinks.

I mean,
I understand why she hates me.

I would have hated me.

And she's going through a lot,

and I get it.

I just need the opportunity
to convince her of that,

you know.

She's even feistier than usual,

but if you want to have
a crack...

I'm going in.

I'll be right here
if you need me.

Okay. All right.

[knock at door]

I'm working.
Is there something you need?

Can I talk to you
about something

that happened to me today that
I'm hoping you'll understand?

Okay.

So, um...

I lost my mom too,
about eight years ago.

And I very recently found out
all of these things about her

that I had no idea about
when she was alive.

Like, she had a tattoo,

and she was this total
free spirit.

And, um,
I would--I--I feel like

I would give anything
to talk to her...

to ask her why she felt like
she needed to hide

so many aspects of who she was.

I know you lost your mom too.

[solemn music]

I know what it's like to want
to ask her these things.

I know what it's like
to want to ask your mom

these questions, these really
important questions.

♪

You know...

it's actually really different.

I'm 16.
You're like, what, 40?

Well, no.

I'm sorry your mom got a tattoo

and didn't tell you,

but I can never tell my mom
about my first kiss.

She won't be able to help me
pick out a prom dress

or see me graduate
or help me pick a college

or see me become
the badass environmentalist

I will eventually be.

So no, we are not the same.

One dead mom doesn't
equal another.

I know.
I'm sorry.

Your mom got
to watch you grow up

and become whatever this is.

♪

Now can you please,
like, disappear?

♪

Suffice to say
she was pretty upset.

It wasn't exactly the hug
and feel-good moment

that I was hoping for.

I'm so sorry.

You know, Luke's grief has
always been right there,

but Olivia just keeps it
all inside.

I never know what's going on
with her.

It's really hard.

Yeah,
I know that game pretty well.

You know, give her some time.

You know, circle back
and in a few weeks,

maybe she'll be more open.

You and I both know
that's not gonna happen.

She's made a decision
about me.

But she's not the one
deciding here.

You're my girlfriend, not hers.
She's a teenager.

She thinks she has power,
but she doesn't.

She lost her mom

at such a tough
and fragile time in her life.

And she needs you.

She needs all of you,

and I can't stand in the way
of that.

I won't.

This can't be happening.

I can't have met someone
as amazing as you

and not get to be with you.

♪

I happened to be up all night

for reasons that are
none of your business.

So I read his file.

[exhales deeply]

You know, during my fancy
law school education,

I feel in love with
the principle of blind justice.

I--I found a poetry
in legal language

that was so invigorating,
I couldn't wait to practice.

And then I got my first job
as a clerk,

and I saw
how it really goes down,

how hopelessly flawed

and deeply unfair
the system really is.

And so I thought, "Screw it.

"If it's already rigged,

"I might as well make
money off it, right?

"I'll go work for some

"high-profile
white shoe law firm,

"and I'll take care of myself
and I'll take care of my mom

"and I'll be a kick-ass,
self-made black woman

at the top of her game
in a rich white man's world."

But when I look at who I am
and what I've done...

You don't feel proud.

I think I can do something
for Miles.

I think I can do something
meaningful for him.

It's a drop in the bucket,
but...

♪

It's a start.

Uh-uh.
No, don't smile.

You don't get to own this one.

♪

You know, you're gonna find
somebody as great as Donovan.

You will.

You really think so?

No, there's no one out there.

Everyone is terrible.

Everybody has baggage,
exes, kids.

Nobody's a blank slate.

Yeah, an ex-wife is one thing,
but kids are different.

-It's not fair.
-Nothing's fair.

It really isn't fair.

I hate to break up
this little pity party of ours,

but, um, Rox,
I got you something.

-Drumroll, please.
-Just give it to her.

-Can I just--
-Not a drumroll?

-Can I look?
-Okay.

Thanks.

Hey, nice.

I'd say you didn't have to,
but you kind of had to.

I know.

They managed to save
your SD card,

so all of your info
should be accessible.

Um, you know, I think
the last thing I need right now

is to see what they're saying
about me on social media.

Can you just--can you look
for me?

I don't really have
the strength.

[cell phone chiming]

Whoa, Rox, I think you need
to see this.

No, I can't.
I know that everybody hates me.

They're gonna say I'm a liar

and that I'm a stupid,
crazy bitch.

"Thank you for having
the courage to jump

before I did, #TeamRoxy."

Give me that.

Hey, that's from Nina.

Holy crap, you guys.

"Roxy, you're the bravest
person I know.

Thank you for telling
your story, #TeamRoxy."

I think you're trending.

"Because you came forward,
Roxy, it gave me the courage

"to own what actually happened
and realize it wasn't my fault,

#TeamRoxy."

"I used to be such a fan
of yours as a gymnast,

"but now I'm an even bigger fan
of you as a human being.

Thanks for speaking your truth,
#TeamRoxy."

Hey, this one's
from Izzy's mom, Natalie.

"Believe women, #TeamRoxy."

WOMAN: Today, every woman
who's ever been

taken advantage of is
on #TeamRoxy.

We love you.

WOMAN:
I can't keep silent anymore.

Thank you for giving me
the courage to speak.

WOMAN: Thank you
for being brave, #TeamRoxy.

WOMAN: This is what champions
are made of:

talent and courage.

WOMAN: You are not alone,
#TeamRoxy.

WOMAN: Truth is truth.
I believe women.

I believe Roxy Doyle and...

WOMAN: Your courage
inspired me to share my truth.

WOMAN: I'm not alone anymore.

WOMAN:
Your story is my story too.

WOMEN: #TeamRoxy.