All language subtitles for Beyond the Gates s02e110.eng

LESLIE: This can't be happening.

Look at my baby all hooked up
to this breathing machine,

so still and pale.

She looks like she's about to cross over.

I don't think I can stand this, Ted.

I can't... I can't take
watching her suffer like this.

Look-look at me, Dana.

Look, I-I know you're scared,

but you cannot let yourself
think the worst.

It's not like I'm choosing to.

But a new liver?

Come on, we aren't even a match,
neither one of us.

I mean, what if... what if they don't find

- a donor in time?
- Okay, look.

This is where we let go of fear
and we hold on to hope.

We have to stay strong.

We have to stay positive for Eva.

No, you're right.

You're right, I-I raised
our daughter to fight,

and when she didn't have
any fight left, I told her,

"Baby, you just keep fighting.

"You fight, and-and when it's over,

you just dig deeper and
you fight a little bit harder."

So that's what we're gonna do.

Damn right.

We're gonna find a donor.

We're gonna save her.

Hey.

Don't.

I already know what you're gonna say.

You all right?

I'm fine.

Says the woman crying
by herself in the stairwell.

Eva's the one everyone
should be concerned about.

I just... I just want to be left out of it.

I know it's a lot to grasp, Kat,

but... but now is not the time
to be standing by, watching.

I mean, you could help save her life.

You don't know that.

You're right about that... I don't know,

- but the only way to find out...
- Don't say it.

[groans] Why is everyone
putting this on me right now?

Martin got tested, Smitty got tested.

They're more than willing to donate.

I'm grateful for that,

and-and I hope one of them
turns out to be a match.

But we can't waste time here, okay?

If your brother
and brother-in-law can't donate,

then we got to move on
to the next person

and the next person after that.

Well, then you all
had better start reaching out

to those next people because,

because I'm not stepping into that line.

I hope Izaiah caught up with Kat

and that he can get through to her.

Because Lord knows I love my sister,

but right now I don't know
what she's thinking.

She might not be thinking at all.

She's probably still overwhelmed
with what happened at the club.

She might still be in shock
like the rest of us.

Shanice.

I don't know if I've already
told you, but thank you.

You were pretty heroic
during the tornado.

You and Dad deserve major props.

Thanks, but it's what we train to do.

I would have Martin home
already, but then we found out

about Eva and volunteered to be
tested as potential donors.

We need more good people like you two.

[phone rings]

Nurses' station.

I'll let them know.

Your blood work is complete.
The doctor is on his way

to tell you your results.

??

[door closes]

Thank goodness you are home.

Oh, Mom, what are you doing
here? It's so late.

It wasn't enough to hear
your voice on the phone.

I needed to see you in person.

Oh, I know, it's been so crazy.

Thank God you're all right.

KIAL: Oh, I'm glad you're home safe.

Me too.

- When I couldn't reach you...
- I should have called you back

when I got cell service,
but it's just been so chaotic.

I can only imagine.

But I am home and showered now

feeling like I am part of the living,

and maybe... about to pour
myself a glass of wine.

Why not?

It's good to see your face.

Yours, too.

How are Martin and Smitty?
Are they okay?

Martin sustained a concussion,
but he will be all right.

Uh, we just thought
that Samantha and Tyrell

should stay with me tonight.

And Kat... is she there, too?

No, she's fine, she's with Tomas.

I can only imagine
what you all went through.

It was awful.

Can I come over?

Yes.

I'll leave the door unlocked.

Oh, sweetie, you must be
about ready to fall over.

I haven't had time to be tired.

And you know what? I still don't.

I only came home because I just wanted

to clean up and get a quick rest,

and then I need to head
straight back to Garland.

You aren't the only nurse, Ashley.

I know, and they mostly have
things under control now,

but there is still so much to do.

They really need the help.

I know you.
You have to do what you can.

Well, I only left
because Shanice insisted.

Well, Shanice is a smart woman.

You'll do better for having taken a break.

She's always looking
after everyone else's

emotional and mental well-being.

And her own, I hope.

Oh, Mom, she was so amazing tonight.

I mean, I can only dream of being

as calm under pressure as she was.

Oh, I want to know
what it was like for you,

but I don't want to push.

You can tell me on your own time, okay?

Thanks, Mom.

When you wake up, baby,
you won't believe it

when you hear how many buckets
I've shed crying.

You're gonna think
your mama's gone all soft.

She'll think she has a mother
who loves her

more than anything in the world.

- Who never left her side.
- [knock at door]

I just need to check Eva
and document her vitals.

Also, Ted, Martin's hoping
for a word with you.

He didn't want to intrude,

but he's in the waiting area with Smitty.

Dana, uh, if you need me, text.

All right.

Uh, do your thing.

Hey, before I do,
I just want to let you know

how sorry I am
about what's happened to Eva.

Thank you.

And since you'll be here for
a while... I brought you this.

You're not a match.

No.

Just got word.

Same with you, Smitty?

Afraid so.

I'm sorry, Ted, we were really hoping

one of us would be able to donate.

Mm, mm.

I appreciate you tried.

Which is more than I can say
for my sister.

Kat is the only viable
family member left to test,

and I find it impossible

to believe that she's
not even considering it.

Look, I know she's scared,

but the way she's handling this...

She literally ran away
when I asked her to do it.

Izaiah had to go chase her down.

Kat is not wired like you, Martin.

You know how she is when
it comes to medical situations.

It takes her a minute
to wrap her mind around things.

We don't have a minute.
Eva needs help now.

I've seen the way
you've treated Eva, okay?

Like she's scum, not worth your time,

a-a parasite.

And while I haven't liked it... I got it.

Okay? Your... whole situation

with your dad and Leslie

and finding out that Eva's your half sister

that was messed-up.

But this is next-level, Kat.

Nobody's asking you
to become best friends.

It's just a blood test.

That's not all it is.

If I'm a match, then that means
there's gonna be more tests

and everyone trying to force me
to get a major surgery

to cut myself open
and give a piece of my body

to someone who cannot stand me,

to someone who slept with my boyfriend,

who helped her mother cover up
two attempted murders.

And I'm supposed to just be like, what

just forget all of that, right?

So this is how you get your revenge.

By refusing to step up,

standing by while you watch
your half sister die?

What the hell is wrong with you?

Hey.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God, just coming
over here to see you

was like nothing I'd ever seen outside.

It was like one giant
just stepped on a house

and then another three houses down.

And everything else...
in between was just untouched.

I still can't believe it,

and I was there when the tornado hit.

Okay, and you're sure you're not hurt?

Barely a scratch.

All right. And the rest of your family?

Beyond Martin,
Andre sustained a leg injury

that was painful
but thankfully not serious.

Mother twisted her ankle.

The rest of the family was lucky.

They all walked away.

I don't know what I would have done if...

Hey, hey, hey. Hey.

Your family is safe now.

You're safe.

I got you.

This isn't about revenge.

I swear.

No matter what I think about Eva,

I wouldn't wish this on her, ever.

Oh, so you just don't have
a shred of human decency.

Is that it? No compassion?

How dare you say that?

Because Eva is dying.

Kat, do you not understand that?
She is dying.

I know how bad it is!

From the moment those lights
went out in that ballroom,

I feel like I've been running
through a hellscape.

Trapped in the dark,
watching Eva pass out,

wondering if either one of us
was gonna make it out alive.

Her blood all over my hands.
I was terrified.

I... I

I still feel like my heart

is beating out of my chest,

so forgive me

if I'm hoping that
there might be another option

instead of offering myself up on a platter.

If Eva dies and you refused

to even consider saving her life

you, Miss Moral High Ground

how will you live with yourself then?

Not my favorite look, but it'll do.

You're welcome.

I figured you weren't
leaving here anytime soon.

Couldn't keep sitting around
in that dusty dress.

Yeah, it did feel pretty grimy.

Yeah.

I always keep extra shoes
and toiletries in my locker,

but don't get too comfortable
in those clothes.

I'm gonna need those back.

Hmm, well, if you're being
generous to score points

with Ted

Leslie, I do not need
to score points with Ted.

He is mine.

And unlike you, I don't do things

only when I can get something in return.

No parent should have
to go through this.

I am just trying to lead with kindness.

I could have responded
with more... grace.

Thank you.

For once, you and I are
on the same side: Team Eva.

Please try and remember that.

How's she doing?

Her vitals are about the same
as they were post-op.

LESLIE: Hanging on, barely.

How long before that changes?

I can't speculate on that,

but you should ask Eva's doctors
any question you may have.

Oh, I don't need
to ask the doctor anything.

'Cause when I saw your expression

and how serious you were when
you walked through that door,

and then you talking about

Martin needed a word with his dad,

and how generous you've been to me.

Martin and Smitty...
they weren't a match, were they?

I'm sorry, I cannot reveal their
medical information to you.

No, no, it's okay, you don't
have to say another word.

I know... oh, I know you got
other patients to tend to,

and I understand. It's okay.

Hey, you should know

I'm already on the registry, too.

Lots of people are, so do not lose hope.

Buzz for a nurse
if you need anything at all.

Thank you.

[door opens]

[door closes]

I know you heard all that, baby,
but don't you pay it any mind.

You hear me?

Because, see, all you need
is just one person

one person to come through.

And I know they're out there
somewhere, baby.

I know they are.

Anybody got good news?

Unfortunately not.

And, given your question,

I assume you weren't able to get
Kat to reconsider her stance.

She dug in even harder.

Now, if this were anyone other than Eva,

- she...
- You don't know that.

I got a pretty good idea.

MARTIN: Is it really such a surprise?

Okay, that's enough, guys.

Now, look, we're all worried about Eva,

we're all aware her clock is ticking,

but heaping judgment on Kat
is not gonna help.

I'm sorry, Dad.

I was out of line. You're right.

Yeah, I didn't mean to pop off like that.

I'm not trying to add to your stress.

I think it's time
for me to get Martin home.

You're supposed to be taking it easy.

That's right.

A concussion is not to be taken lightly.

And for you, Izaiah, I need you
to walk and cool down, okay?

I don't want you bringing
that energy into Eva's room.

Understood.

I'll join you when I can.

But I... need you
to first tell me where Kat is.

I was so grateful to hear
that Vanessa was okay.

How is Naomi and her family?

They're going through a lot.

I know you can't divulge medical details,

so... I don't feel like I should push.

But after seeing those news reports...

And the pictures of the country
club after that tornado

looked like something
straight out of a nightmare.

And to think that you were
in the middle of all that.

No, hey, Mom.

Naomi and I were in a part of the club

that was really not hit as bad,

and when we eventually got out of there,

I... all I could think about

was just getting to the people
that actually were hurt.

You know, Mom.

I became a nurse to help people
on nights like this, but

it's so different when you actually know

the people that are involved and

seeing them hurt
and so scared and suffering

wondering if the people that they love

will make it out alive.

Trapped,

and not able to get to their loved ones

that must have been so frightening.

But having you there

I'm sure that that brought them
a lot of comfort.

[phone vibrates]

Who was that?

Grayson.

How are the grandkids?

They're not gonna freak out
if they find me, are they?

No, they passed out in the guest wing

almost as soon
as we walked through the door.

Being alone was horrific for them,

and then that this hit in
a place that they know so well.

It wasn't even that long ago

that Samantha had her debut
in that ballroom.

Kids are resilient.

Yes, but I am glad
that they are here with me

in case they need anything.

And to be honest

I would probably
have hovered at Martin's.

And not just because
of Samantha and Tyrell.

It doesn't matter
how amazing Martin's husband is

and how well he would look over him.

Your kids are your kids
no matter how old they get.

You have two grown kids. I'm
not telling you anything new.

No, it's totally understandable.

But, Nicole, I want to.

I want to know about you.

How you got through.

How'd you get to the other side?

Uh...

It, um...

It was horrific.

Sheer terror.

The wind was deafening.

Sirens going off all over town.

People screaming from the
building falling down around us.

We couldn't breathe.

The dust and the wind
were overwhelming.

And it was so dark.

Nobody could see anything

save what we could
by the light of our cell phones.

People were bumping into
each other, losing one another.

And then a window came

crashing in when a tree was uprooted.

And there was glass everywhere.

People crying out from objects
inside pummeling them,

and the wind pulling people
apart that were holding hands.

I was a little frantic

when I couldn't find Kat
and Martin and my sister Dani.

And then, even after knowing

that everybody in my family
was gonna survive.

I just... I couldn't help
playing it over and over again

that we all could have died tonight.

I know.

Hey, hey.

Whatever you're thinking,
just say it, don't hold back.

It's just.

I can't stop thinking about the past.

There was a time when

this would be Ted and I

reflecting on this catastrophe

and being so grateful
that we got through it.

But now he has Shanice.

And you got me.

Yes.

I do.

[crying softly]

I'm guessing this isn't the first time

you've heard from Grayson tonight.

He texted and then he called to check in.

He didn't know that I was at the club.

He figured I was helping out
at the hospital,

and he said I didn't have to call him back,

which is good, because I so do
not want to deal with him yet.

Definitely not tonight.

Well, it is up to you
how you want to handle it.

But you have an opinion?

- I don't really have...
- Oh, come on, Mom, just say it.

I just think it would be nice
if you texted him back.

He's obviously worried,

and it has been a terrible night
for everybody in the area.

I am all right.

And I hope you and your mom are, too.

Sitting next to you like this

it's like the years have just slipped away.

And all I can see is my little girl

who had fallen asleep with a book

just so close and tight
on her chest, clutching it.

Do you know I had to peel
that book out of your hands?

And then I turned off the flashlight

that you had snuck under the cover

because you wanted to read after hours.

Right after the lights-out.

That's what you wanted to do, baby.

You were such a sweet child.

I mean

reading a book after hours

was the worst thing that you did.

And, yeah, you'd break my rules
of going to bed every time.

But

you had a mind of your own.

Then you got older.

And you wanted to dress
like you wanted to dress.

I remember this one time I

I took you to this big
thrift store... you know,

the one that was right around
the corner from the apartment,

and there I was at the rack,
picking up a blouse,

looking at it, and you wandered off.

I mean, it was in a matter of seconds.

And... I... Blouse, and you're gone, and

then the saleslady... she just came over

and helped me find you.

And where were you?

In the dressing room

trying on this big color-block sweater

that you had put a-a belt around it

to make it look like a dress.

And, oh, you looked so cute and
so ridiculous at the same time.

And we couldn't help it.

We just burst out laughing,

and then, in the same moment,
I bursted into tears.

Because,

for that moment I thought I had lost you.

I thought you were gone,

and that was
the worst feeling in the world.

Oh, Eva.

I am nothing without you, baby.

KAT: Dad?

TED: Hmm?

Did you come here to check on me

or are you here about Eva?

Can't it be both?

I love both my daughters.

I know you're desperate to save Eva,

but shouldn't I be allowed
to make up my mind

when it comes to my life?

Of course.

Well, it doesn't seem like it.

Everyone seems to think
there's a right answer,

and they have zero tolerance
for my answer.

They act like there's
only one choice to be made.

Go on.

Well, I understand the stakes,
but there are other people

who might be willing to donate to Eva.

I mean, I'm sure they're
scouring the donor registry.

They are. That-That's true.

But-but earlier, you were
wondering if there was something

that you could have done to help Eva

when you two were trapped together.

Now this... this is
an opportunity to do more.

Baby, look, I know
this is complicated for you.

Would you like to talk to your mother?

No.

Please don't tell her about this.

I don't want her involved.

I don't need one more person piling on.

Everyone's already putting
pressure on me... Martin, Izaiah.

You.

I don't want to pressure you, Kat.

But you are.

You're just doing the kinder,
gentler version.

But it's like no one wants to accept

that I don't want to be involved in this.

I-I... No one gives a damn

if I have reasons for my decision.

It's like no one sees me anymore.

They just... see a body

who should be willing to volunteer

to be used for spare parts.

That's how you really feel?

Yeah.

But no one seems to care
about my feelings but me.

I am so glad you're here,

and now that you are, I can't imagine

having you leave me.

Well, I have to leave tomorrow
night for an appointment.

But tonight I'm yours.

I'm all yours.

So tempting, but...

You're exhausted.

Why don't you

let me hold you in my arms
while you sleep?

I would love that.

You know what I just realized?

What's that?

This is our first sleepover.

In the sense that you really
are here to sleep.

Not our hottest date yet.

We have time.

We don't have to talk anymore.

You desperately need
to get some sleep, sweetie.

Well, you know, at this point
maybe I should just stay up.

I really need to get back
to Garland in a little while.

You are running on fumes, Ashley.

I've seen you do this before.

There is still so much
going on at the hospital.

Yeah, I understand that,
but aren't you going

above and beyond?

I'm just trying to do right by the patients.

It's what he would have done.

I know this whole ordeal has been

incredibly emotional for you.

Of course you would be thinking
about Derek.

All night, his voice has been
in my head, you know

urging me on.

When I was triaging people at the club

and then later on in the ER, I

I mean, I half expected
to see him walk in the door

with the other first responders.

Oh, sweetie.

I know that sounds strange.

Not at all.

It makes all the sense in the world

that you would be thinking about him.

But I can promise you this.

He would be so proud of you.
Just like I am.

And I'm equally certain

that he would tell you now
that you deserve to rest.

I'm afraid if I close my eyes,

I'm gonna sleep through my alarm.

Well, then I will stay here

and wake you up when it's time to go.

Like you did when I was little

and I would stay up late
studying for school.

I know you're a grown woman

and you've been so brave
taking care of all those people.

But right now... you can just be
my little girl again.

You're the best part of me, Eva.

You're a better person
than I'd ever hoped to be.

And you've seen the worst of me.

But somehow you... you love me anyway.

I'm sorry.

I am so sorry for all those times

that I said or

did something that was mean

without even thinking
about the consequences.

And I'm-I'm sorry for staying
with Alan all those years

'cause, clearly, he didn't
give a damn about you.

And you deserved better, baby.

I should've told you about your father

a long time ago.

That he was a good man.

And that he would love you.

Oh, there's so much to make up for.

But I didn't tell you the truth,
baby, because

because I was... too proud,

or too resentful or,

or too vengeful.

And you deserve better than that.

And you and your father should've had

so many more memories together.

And if there's anything that I could do

to make that better,
anything to change it or

give that back to you, baby,
I promise you I would.

I would do anything in this world

to make that happen for you.

You really think I only see you as a body

to be used for spare parts?

My God, Kat.

Don't you know you're the heart
that I carry

outside of my own body?

You're my soul, a living miracle.

Your mother and I thought, for so long,

we couldn't have a second child.

And there you were

a toddler who started walking early

because she wanted to catch up
to her big brother.

Then you were at us about
teaching you how to swim,

and ride a bike and play Monopoly.

How could someone be so lucky
at every single game?

Not luck, Dad.

- Skill.
- Mm-hmm.

Sometimes I wish
things were still that simple.

- Yeah.
- Everything was so much easier back then.

Because your mother and I
protected you.

We made all the hard decisions
to guide you as best we could.

Now you have to make the hard choices.

Dad.

If I don't change my mind
about getting tested for Eva...

Mm-hmm.

If I say no

will you ever be able to forgive me?

You're safe now.

I'm here and I'm not going anywhere.

Thank you, Kial.

Thank you so, so much.

After the way I just let it all hang out,

it would be really, really nice if you

just let me know you heard me.

I mean, nod your head a little or

open those big, beautiful eyes
of yours again.

Just for a second.

Hi.

We'll get Eva through this.

Yeah? We'll find a way.

Yeah.

This is not about me forgiving you.

That's not really
an answer to my question.

The point is will you help?

Not if I will forgive you if you don't.

- I need to know what you...
- What I want is

for both of my girls to survive.

- I got to go.
- Well, Kat,

- Kat, wait.
- No,

I-I need to think.

Kat, wait, please.

Time is running out.

I just need to know
if you would just at least see

if you're a donor.
It's just such a small step.

I can't.

Why not?

Because I don't want to be a match.

Katherine, don't walk away from me.

Katherine, do it for me.

Not for Eva.

Do it for me.

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