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the situation I'm in with Patrick.
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[Erica] Life, they say, can turn on a dime.
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We spend days, weeks, months,
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trudging through the darkness.
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And suddenly, something shifts.
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And we wake up to light and hope
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and the promise of a better day.
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It ruined our friendship
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and my relationship with Brian went nowhere.
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And if you could back?
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I wouldn't sleep with Brian obviously.
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Well, let's see how that works out.
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Oh, thank you everyone.
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As you were.
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So.
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You slept in.
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You're still wearing the same clothes.
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[laughs]
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Yeah, oh yeah.
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Just didn't have a chance to change.
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Hmm.
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I washed my hair this morning
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and I don't think I got all the sand out.
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[laughs]
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-What do you-- -Should we--
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Sorry, go ahead.
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I was just gonna suggest that
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after everything that went down,
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[laughs]
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we should probably just talk,
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you know, about what happened and everything.
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Definitely.
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Well, I'm free right now
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if you want to grab a bite.
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You know, I can't right now.
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But how about dinner?
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Yeah.
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Is everything okay back there?
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Yeah.
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Yeah, it's just, you know,
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things are complicated right now so.
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Oh, complicated how?
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Let's just talk about it tonight, okay?
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Yeah, yeah.
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-Okay. -Okay.
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-Bye. -Bye.
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[soft music]
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Adam.
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Erica, what are you doing here?
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-I-- -Adam.
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Shower's all yours.
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You can get a towel in the closet.
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[soft music]
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Who's that?
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[soft music]
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[Tom] Erica.
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[soft music]
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[Erica] Life, they say, can turn on a dime.
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Is everything okay?
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Yeah, yeah, everything's fine.
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[soft music]
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♪ It's clearer inside of me ♪
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♪ Who I will always be ♪
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♪ Open me up to my heart ♪
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♪ Feels like I'm singing the dark ♪
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♪ Waking me up to my life ♪
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♪ To do it all over again and again ♪
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♪ Back to the end ♪
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♪ Some of my dreams ♪
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♪ And everything I ever wanted to be ♪
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Oh no, that does not work.
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Okay, sparkling water, his request.
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And as for caffeine, did you arrange things with Ivan?
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Earth to Erica.
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Sorry, what?
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Okay, I should not have to remind you
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that the future of this company rides on
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us getting this book.
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Right, right.
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And Ivan, he is bringing in espresso and fresh pastry.
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Pastry is French for carbs.
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I bet he doesn't even look at carbs.
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-Oh geez, no please-- -It's fine.
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Ladies.
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I present to you
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Jay Manuel.
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Hello, I'm Erica Strange.
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Hey Erica, nice to meet you.
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Nice to meet you too.
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And this is my business partner, Julianne Giacomelli.
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Enchanté.
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Nice outfit.
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Oh this?
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Oh thank you, this is just
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a little something I threw on this morning.
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Ready to wear, that's me, so.
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Okay.
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Well, let's get down to business, shall we?
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[soft music]
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So I want this book to be an exposé
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on the fashion industry, from top to bottom.
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From who's the top to who's the bottom,
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is what I think he means.
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Well yes, there will be scandal.
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Juicy stories that only I know
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and only I can tell.
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But I want it to be truthful too.
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[Erica] Mm-hmm.
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[ringing]
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Do you want me to answer that?
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No, I'm so sorry.
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Tada, coffee and treats.
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And no, you don't have to tip but
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you do have to sign this.
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[laughs]
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Aww.
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[Jay] You're a big, handsome man, yes?
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I like to think so.
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Then why do you dress like a potato?
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All that extra fabric makes you look
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bigger than you are and those cutoff shorts?
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Honey, you put the bear in unbearable.
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Book off the afternoon
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for a fashion intervention.
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Jay Manuel style.
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Okay.
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And you two.
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With the phone calls.
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The glazed look in your eyes.
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And the Lady Gaga impersonation.
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You really expect me to entrust
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my words, my baby, to them?
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No way.
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Jay, don't make me say it.
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Okay, I will.
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New York Fashion Week, 1993.
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If it wasn't for me, someone would still be
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working the makeup counter
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at the Scarborough Town Center.
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You can only play that card once, Brent.
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So play it wisely.
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[Brent] Well, I'm playing it.
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Okay, I'm still, I'm still confused.
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This all goes back to Brent's modeling days.
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He brought me to New York, I met Tyra--
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So.
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Brent, you, you really were a model?
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Brent was Calvin Klein's Peter Pan, darling.
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I was boyish and I was mysterious.
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But--
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Brent turned down the advances
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of Calvin's favorite photographer.
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Favorite male photographer.
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I was blacklisted.
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If only I didn't love the ladies as much as I do.
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Your sexuality cost you your career.
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Are there, are there any photos floating around?
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Have you been holding out on them?
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Brent isn't one to toot his own horn.
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Heroin chic.
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Brent's invention, not Kate Moss', FYI.
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[Erica] Wow.
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[soft music]
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So you've completed your fifth week of radial therapy.
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How's that been?
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Well, other than being really tired
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and the burn on my skin,
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it's actually been okay.
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I'm gonna suggest one more week of radiation.
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Oh, all right.
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Just as a safety measure.
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After that, you see me once every six months
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for three years and then annually for a checkup.
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[sighs]
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And other than that,
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I suggest that you go out and celebrate.
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Celebrate?
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Results from your last imaging
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show no signs of a tumor.
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You are cancer free.
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Really?
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You're sure.
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I can tell people?
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Tell everyone.
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[laughs]
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Thank you, Doctor.
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Thank you.
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Yes yes, Tina, it's true.
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The press release doesn't lie.
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We are publishing Jay Manuel's tell all
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and we are just ecstatic to be working with him, so.
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Yes, of course we're still interested.
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I thought you said Jim Watt
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decided to go with Green Row.
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What?
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Reconsidered.
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Uh-huh.
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Great, great.
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Okay, bye bye.
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Tina Horowitz?
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In light of recent events,
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her client has reconsidered his decision
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to go with Green Row.
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Boom, we are back in business.
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So why don't you look happy?
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No, I am happy, I'm,
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-I'm just-- -[ringing]
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Where is my phone?
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Oh, it's that cutie patootie, Adam.
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-Should I-- -No, no.
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[ringing]
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Whoa, it's like that, huh?
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Yeah, it's like that, he is a jerk.
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And I have terrible taste in men.
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Do you want to talk about it?
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No no, I don't want to talk about it.
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I don't want to think about it.
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I just want to go home and watch
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mindless reality TV, but no.
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My mother is insisting that I'm
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coming over for dinner tonight.
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Well, tell her you're not up for it.
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Oh, I tried, but apparently Sam's new boyfriend is coming.
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Oh, Stalin.
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Lenin.
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And I haven't met him yet and my mother
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laid this major guilt trip on me so,
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I'm gonna go over and meet Sam's wonderful new guy.
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[groans]
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Do I sound bitter?
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Well, a little.
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-[sighs] -Oh, chicken.
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Oh.
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Hey, if I ever see that Adam again,
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I'm gonna punch him the nose,
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and then I'm gonna knee him in the balls.
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Okay?
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Okay.
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[soft music]
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You know, to be honest, I was beginning
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to think that you didn't exist.
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I was starting to think Sam
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didn't want you to meet me.
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Okay, enough with the conspiracy theories.
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It's not like you've introduced me to your new guy.
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A new guy?
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You have a new boyfriend?
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No Dad, Sam doesn't know what she's talking about.
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Well, I think dinner's nearly done, so.
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Have a seat, Gary, it's fine.
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The chicken needs another 10 minutes
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and that's okay because I wanted to talk
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to all of you before we eat.
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Mom, is everything okay?
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Actually, it's great.
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It's really great.
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I had an appointment with my oncologist today
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and I am cancer free.
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[Sam] Oh, Mom.
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Oh, Mom.
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That's incredible.
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Congrats, Barb.
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Really, that's great.
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Thank you, Lenin.
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Gary, can I get you anything?
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A Kleenex maybe?
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Or a glass of wine.
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A glass of wine would be great.
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-Okay. -Here, Dad.
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Because I'd like to make a toast.
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Oh, okay.
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They say you don't appreciate
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what you have until it's gone.
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Or until something threatens to take it away from you.
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This woman, this incredible woman
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gave me three beautiful children.
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One of whom isn't with us anymore and
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just the thought that I could
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lose another member of my family--
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[Barbara] Oh, Gary.
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I lost you once, Barbara.
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Through my own selfishness.
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I'm not gonna lose you again.
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To Barbara.
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And to a brighter future.
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To the future.
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[soft music]
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[knocking]
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I don't want to talk to you.
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I know.
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But you don't know the whole story.
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Oh what, you're here to convince me that
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the one night stand that I barged in on,
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it was a honest mistake?
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It wasn't a one night stand,
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so hear me out, please.
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Okay, go ahead.
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The woman today was Beatrice.
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Beatrice, is that name supposed to mean something to me?
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Beatrice is my wife.
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At least she is in the reality Dr. Tom showed me.
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Beatrice.
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The woman that you were married to.
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Had a child with.
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[sighs]
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So what, you went looking for her?
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No.
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It was an accident or fate.
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I don't know how or why it happened,
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but we met the other day when I was on the job,
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at her house.
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And you saw her and you recognized her and--
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We started talking.
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I asked her out.
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I felt almost like I had to.
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It was the same night that we ended up on the island
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and I didn't tell you because,
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well because we were fighting.
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Then why did you kiss me?
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I don't know.
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You don't know.
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I wasn't expecting this to happen, any of it.
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And I wasn't lying, Erica.
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I do feel something for you but--
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But how can I possibly compete with your wife?
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Even if she is from an alternate reality.
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I'm sorry.
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I am trying to hate you here
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and you're making it really hard.
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This is a messed up situation.
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Yeah.
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But what can I say?
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I hate it but I get it.
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[soft music]
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I should probably go.
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Yeah.
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[soft music]
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I really am sorry.
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It's okay.
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[soft music]
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[ringing]
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Hello?
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Hello, Beatrice?
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Adam, hey.
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[Adam] Hey, how's it going?
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Good, how are you?
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Good, really good.
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I'm actually just calling to see if you
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wanted to get together.
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When?
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[Adam] Whenever, tonight?
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Sure, I'd love to.
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Great.
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You want me to swing by and pick you up?
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Or I could swing by your place.
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[upbeat music]
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♪ Let's go to the park awhile ♪
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♪ Bring your smile, your smile ♪
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♪ We could have a picnic too ♪
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♪ Just me and you, you and you ♪
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♪ Hold that pose, I must insist ♪
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♪ One good shot will help remember this ♪
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♪ Hmm hmm hmm ♪
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[knocking]
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♪ Make it clear to one and all ♪
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♪ Hang our family portrait on the wall ♪
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You okay?
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Yeah, why?
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You seem stressed.
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Is it because I wanted to come over?
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I don't know.
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Maybe.
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I'm not too sure actually.
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Thanks.
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Okay.
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I'm gonna admit something.
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Last night
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was a first for me.
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Meeting you.
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Going to bed with you on our first date, I've,
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I've never done that before.
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Really.
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Really.
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And it's not like it was a bad thing.
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It was just,
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oh this is coming out wrong.
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[clears throat]
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I think you're great,
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is what I'm trying to say.
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And I feel a real connection with you.
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And now I'm scaring you off, aren't I?
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No, no.
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Oh God.
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No Beatrice, you're not, you're not scaring me off.
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You promise?
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Because if I am, then I'll just
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absolutely stop being--
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[soft music]
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[Judith] It's his loss.
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No, don't say that.
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You know, I hate it when people say that
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because it's not true.
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It's my loss, all right?
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He met someone else, I get it.
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And you know, I don't think that
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I made the wrong decision.
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Erica, come on.
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Judith, I'm being serious.
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Look, this other woman, she's,
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well I can't explain it but, you know,
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she's the one that he's supposed to be with, so.
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I thought I was supposed to be with Anthony.
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But you are still with Anthony.
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Barely.
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Oh honey, look, you know.
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Every marriage, it goes through rough patches, right?
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I know but
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I kissed another man.
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What?
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Who?
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Will.
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That's all we did but
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I wanted to do more.
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So, this whole concept of he's the one and soulmates,
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life's a bit more complicated than that.
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You're not still--
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No, no.
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-Okay. -I ended it.
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Anyway, I'm the last person to be
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giving relationship advice but
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just don't sell yourself short, okay?
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Wow, I seriously need a drink.
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Oh hey Dave, can we--
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Sorry, Erica.
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Ivan's gone AWOL and Reggie called in sick.
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What can I get you?
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-Wine, red. -Yeah.
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And lots of it.
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Okay, cool.
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Ooh, our engagement brunch.
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Have you RSVP'ed?
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Of course, I wouldn't miss it for the world.
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Thanks.
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-Well that's-- -I always thought that
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pleated pants helped a boy with my figure.
446
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How does extra fabric help anyone look slimmer?
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[Erica] Ivan, you look incredible.
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Yep.
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I know, doesn't he?
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Wave your hairy flag,
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shout it out to the world and own who you are.
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I am bear, hear me woof.
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Woof!
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[soft music]
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What's going on, Adam?
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I don't know.
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Why did you do that?
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Do what?
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Flee.
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I don't know, I just, I couldn't breathe.
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I felt trapped and so I panicked.
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And is that what you're feeling, Adam?
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Panicked?
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I'm feeling like I shouldn't be
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talking about this in front of Erica.
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Why not?
467
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Because.
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She's already had to deal with enough of my shit.
469
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Oh.
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Let's bring this conversation
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back to what you're feeling.
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You've spent the night with women before.
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With Beatrice, in fact.
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And you didn't feel panicked then.
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This is different.
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How?
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I don't know, it's,
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it's not a one night stand.
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It's the beginning of a serious relationship.
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That's making you freak out?
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Maybe.
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Honestly, I have no idea why I felt
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like I was drowning back there.
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I want this, I do.
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You showed me what our life could
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be like together, Dr. Tom.
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And I want to be that guy.
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The guy who can commit.
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Well, changing a pattern of behavior,
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it's difficult, Adam.
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Yeah, I know.
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Old habits are hard to break.
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Because they bring us face to face
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with the reason why we developed them
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in the first place.
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And so, why did I?
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[Tom] Here.
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What's this for?
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This is to help you connect to what you're feeling.
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To what needs to come out but can't.
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So, I want you to take that racket and hit this
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as hard as you can.
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-Hit it. -Yeah.
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And as you hit it, I want you to open your mouth
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and say whatever you're feeling.
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I'm feeling like this is stupid.
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Good, well then hit it and say that.
508
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This is stupid.
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Again.
510
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Harder.
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I'm sorry, Dr. Tom, but this is stupid
512
00:22:03,000 --> 00:22:04,000
and it's ridiculous.
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And it's not helping.
514
00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:06,000
-Adam-- -No.
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All right.
516
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Well, in that case we'll back it up then.
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Let's, well, let's start at the beginning.
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Don't give me your goddamn lies, Joyce.
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Nothing happened, he's our neighbor.
520
00:22:21,000 --> 00:22:22,000
You smile at him like a whore.
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You would have him, wouldn't you?
522
00:22:24,000 --> 00:22:26,000
If you weren't so fat and ugly.
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Dad.
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[groaning]
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Don't know why I put up with this shit.
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Adam.
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-Are you okay? -I'm fine.
528
00:22:37,000 --> 00:22:38,000
I'm fine, Ma.
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Thanks, Mom.
530
00:22:48,000 --> 00:22:49,000
You okay?
531
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I am now, thanks to you.
532
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I just don't know how you turned out so well.
533
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-Ma. -It's true.
534
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If your dad was half the man you are, Adam.
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You just, you need to stop
536
00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:05,000
letting him back in.
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I just don't know what I'd do without you.
538
00:23:12,000 --> 00:23:14,000
[ringing]
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Hello?
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00:23:17,000 --> 00:23:19,000
Adam, what are you still doing home?
541
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John.
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Was I supposed to meet you?
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Half an hour ago, at the bowling alley.
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Bowling.
545
00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:26,000
I might skip it tonight.
546
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Oh come on, everyone's here.
547
00:23:28,000 --> 00:23:30,000
-Right. -It's okay, Adam.
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You go out if you need to.
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I'll be okay.
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I'll just watch a little TV, go to bed early.
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All right.
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I guess I can see you in 15.
553
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All right, we'll wait for you.
554
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Bye.
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You won't be too late.
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No.
557
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And promise me, if Dad comes back home,
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you'll call the bowling alley.
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I will.
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You sure you're okay?
561
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If you want me to stay home--
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No.
563
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Go have fun.
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Don't worry about me.
565
00:24:03,000 --> 00:24:05,000
♪ I was looking out the window ♪
566
00:24:05,000 --> 00:24:08,000
♪ At that school across the street ♪
567
00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:09,000
Oh my God, he's terrible.
568
00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:12,000
[clears throat]
569
00:24:12,000 --> 00:24:14,000
Come on, Adam, there's only five pins there.
570
00:24:14,000 --> 00:24:16,000
[laughs]
571
00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:17,000
Watch this.
572
00:24:18,000 --> 00:24:19,000
Oh.
573
00:24:19,000 --> 00:24:20,000
That's just brutal.
574
00:24:22,000 --> 00:24:23,000
You wanna know my secret?
575
00:24:23,000 --> 00:24:25,000
I imagine it's Dad down there.
576
00:24:25,000 --> 00:24:27,000
Really focuses me, you know?
577
00:24:27,000 --> 00:24:28,000
Yeah, you should've heard him tonight.
578
00:24:28,000 --> 00:24:30,000
Accusing Mom of flirting with Mr. Clemens.
579
00:24:30,000 --> 00:24:31,000
He's ridiculous.
580
00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:32,000
So is she.
581
00:24:33,000 --> 00:24:34,000
She knows it drives him mental
582
00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:36,000
when he sees her talking to Clemens.
583
00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:37,000
Blaming the victim there, aren't we, brother?
584
00:24:38,000 --> 00:24:39,000
Come on.
585
00:24:39,000 --> 00:24:41,000
Mom gets off on being the victim.
586
00:24:41,000 --> 00:24:42,000
And you keep falling for it.
587
00:24:42,000 --> 00:24:44,000
She does things that set Dad off
588
00:24:44,000 --> 00:24:45,000
and you're always there to pick up the pieces.
589
00:24:45,000 --> 00:24:47,000
Make her feel better.
590
00:24:47,000 --> 00:24:49,000
Our dad beats the crap out of her, John.
591
00:24:49,000 --> 00:24:50,000
I know, and that's wrong.
592
00:24:50,000 --> 00:24:51,000
Yes, it's wrong.
593
00:24:51,000 --> 00:24:52,000
Jesus Christ, what are you saying?
594
00:24:52,000 --> 00:24:54,000
That Mom gets him mad on purpose?
595
00:24:54,000 --> 00:24:56,000
I'm saying that she doesn't do anything
596
00:24:56,000 --> 00:24:58,000
to get out of the situation.
597
00:24:58,000 --> 00:24:59,000
She could leave him.
598
00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:00,000
Hell, she could stand up to him.
599
00:25:00,000 --> 00:25:02,000
But she won't.
600
00:25:02,000 --> 00:25:05,000
[soft music]
601
00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:11,000
[Adam] You sucked.
602
00:25:11,000 --> 00:25:12,000
I had six strikes in a row.
603
00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:14,000
Rachel was begging to go out with me.
604
00:25:14,000 --> 00:25:16,000
Good.
605
00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:17,000
I can go to bed now.
606
00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:21,000
You drank a whole bottle of wine.
607
00:25:21,000 --> 00:25:22,000
I drank a whole bottle of wine.
608
00:25:22,000 --> 00:25:23,000
-Why? -What happened?
609
00:25:23,000 --> 00:25:25,000
Nothing happened, except the two
610
00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:27,000
worthless pieces of shit I've got for sons
611
00:25:27,000 --> 00:25:29,000
abandoned me tonight.
612
00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:31,000
Come on.
613
00:25:31,000 --> 00:25:33,000
Don't touch me.
614
00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:34,000
Don't tell me what I should do.
615
00:25:34,000 --> 00:25:35,000
Who do you think you are?
616
00:25:35,000 --> 00:25:36,000
-Ma-- -I make you dinner.
617
00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:38,000
I make sure you're okay after you pick
618
00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:39,000
another goddamn fight with your father.
619
00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:40,000
I take your side.
620
00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:42,000
I put my marriage in jeopardy for you.
621
00:25:42,000 --> 00:25:44,000
And what do you do?
622
00:25:44,000 --> 00:25:45,000
You know that's not how it went down tonight.
623
00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:47,000
You said you weren't going to be late.
624
00:25:47,000 --> 00:25:48,000
It's late.
625
00:25:50,000 --> 00:25:52,000
Look, I'm sorry.
626
00:25:52,000 --> 00:25:53,000
Why don't you just go upstairs
627
00:25:53,000 --> 00:25:54,000
-and I'll finish up here? -Oh no.
628
00:25:54,000 --> 00:25:56,000
Don't start being the good son now.
629
00:26:00,000 --> 00:26:03,000
[shattering]
630
00:26:03,000 --> 00:26:04,000
Put those dishes down.
631
00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:05,000
-Ma. -Get out!
632
00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:07,000
[John] Ma, stop, now stop it!
633
00:26:07,000 --> 00:26:10,000
[clanging]
634
00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:11,000
You're both selfish and useless
635
00:26:11,000 --> 00:26:13,000
and you make me sick.
636
00:26:14,000 --> 00:26:15,000
Please, Ma.
637
00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:18,000
Enough.
638
00:26:20,000 --> 00:26:21,000
Okay?
639
00:26:22,000 --> 00:26:24,000
Come on.
640
00:26:24,000 --> 00:26:26,000
[soft music]
641
00:26:48,000 --> 00:26:50,000
Hey, hold up, can I give you this?
642
00:26:52,000 --> 00:26:53,000
Oh.
643
00:26:54,000 --> 00:26:55,000
Perfect timing.
644
00:26:58,000 --> 00:27:03,000
Are you gonna hand me that?
645
00:27:03,000 --> 00:27:06,000
So?
646
00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:07,000
You tell me, Dr. Tom.
647
00:27:07,000 --> 00:27:08,000
Tell you what?
648
00:27:08,000 --> 00:27:09,000
What I'm doing here.
649
00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:12,000
This isn't a regret, this isn't anything.
650
00:27:12,000 --> 00:27:14,000
[clanking]
651
00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:15,000
You sure about that, are you?
652
00:27:16,000 --> 00:27:17,000
Okay, let me rephrase that.
653
00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:19,000
This isn't anything I don't already know.
654
00:27:20,000 --> 00:27:21,000
So what's the point?
655
00:27:21,000 --> 00:27:23,000
Because if it's come to terms with how
656
00:27:23,000 --> 00:27:25,000
screwed up my parents were,
657
00:27:25,000 --> 00:27:27,000
been there, done that.
658
00:27:27,000 --> 00:27:29,000
So all those years of dysfunction.
659
00:27:31,000 --> 00:27:32,000
You've come to terms with them.
660
00:27:33,000 --> 00:27:34,000
Yeah.
661
00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:36,000
As much as I can.
662
00:27:38,000 --> 00:27:39,000
All right.
663
00:27:39,000 --> 00:27:41,000
Well Adam, then you tell me.
664
00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:44,000
What do you see going on here?
665
00:27:44,000 --> 00:27:47,000
The same thing that happened my whole life.
666
00:27:47,000 --> 00:27:49,000
My dad would attack, my mom would withdraw.
667
00:27:50,000 --> 00:27:51,000
I'd come in and rescue her and then
668
00:27:51,000 --> 00:27:53,000
she'd drink and dump her shit all over me.
669
00:27:53,000 --> 00:27:55,000
So the same pattern.
670
00:27:55,000 --> 00:27:57,000
Over and over again.
671
00:27:57,000 --> 00:27:58,000
This is my parents' crap.
672
00:27:58,000 --> 00:27:59,000
It's got nothing to do with me.
673
00:28:01,000 --> 00:28:03,000
What?
674
00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:04,000
Why do you look at me like that?
675
00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:05,000
Nothing.
676
00:28:05,000 --> 00:28:06,000
No, I'm just thinking.
677
00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:07,000
About my parents?
678
00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:10,000
No, the garbage actually.
679
00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:12,000
You know, you put it out and some stranger
680
00:28:12,000 --> 00:28:15,000
comes along and tosses it into the back of a truck
681
00:28:15,000 --> 00:28:17,000
and takes it away.
682
00:28:17,000 --> 00:28:18,000
But even though it's out of sight
683
00:28:18,000 --> 00:28:23,000
and out of mind it never actually disappears, does it?
684
00:28:25,000 --> 00:28:26,000
It just keeps building up.
685
00:28:27,000 --> 00:28:29,000
[banging]
686
00:28:29,000 --> 00:28:31,000
[soft music]
687
00:28:48,000 --> 00:28:49,000
John?
688
00:28:53,000 --> 00:28:54,000
What's going on, are you okay?
689
00:28:55,000 --> 00:28:57,000
I'm sorry about earlier.
690
00:28:58,000 --> 00:29:01,000
I had too much to drink and my mouth started running.
691
00:29:04,000 --> 00:29:05,000
I'm a terrible mother.
692
00:29:08,000 --> 00:29:09,000
Like you said.
693
00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:11,000
It was the drinking.
694
00:29:13,000 --> 00:29:15,000
When you left tonight, I tried to watch TV.
695
00:29:15,000 --> 00:29:18,000
I was going to go to bed early but
696
00:29:20,000 --> 00:29:22,000
I felt so lonely.
697
00:29:23,000 --> 00:29:24,000
You know?
698
00:29:27,000 --> 00:29:28,000
Ma.
699
00:29:33,000 --> 00:29:35,000
[Judith] I'm just gonna sleep here tonight.
700
00:29:35,000 --> 00:29:36,000
-Ma. -Okay?
701
00:29:41,000 --> 00:29:43,000
I don't know what I'd do without you, Adam.
702
00:29:45,000 --> 00:29:46,000
I'd be lost.
703
00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:49,000
[soft music]
704
00:30:09,000 --> 00:30:11,000
I didn't need to go back there.
705
00:30:11,000 --> 00:30:13,000
Yes, Adam, you did.
706
00:30:13,000 --> 00:30:16,000
I already knew my mom was messed up.
707
00:30:16,000 --> 00:30:18,000
Well, we're talking about patterns.
708
00:30:18,000 --> 00:30:20,000
And you can't break them unless you know
709
00:30:21,000 --> 00:30:23,000
what they are and where they come from.
710
00:30:23,000 --> 00:30:24,000
I know where they come from, okay?
711
00:30:24,000 --> 00:30:26,000
So can I just go?
712
00:30:26,000 --> 00:30:27,000
Why do you want to go?
713
00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:28,000
Because.
714
00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:32,000
I'm feeling it again like
715
00:30:32,000 --> 00:30:35,000
I'm choking, like I'm drowning.
716
00:30:35,000 --> 00:30:36,000
I need to escape.
717
00:30:36,000 --> 00:30:38,000
And this is what you were feeling before.
718
00:30:40,000 --> 00:30:42,000
With Beatrice, yes?
719
00:30:52,000 --> 00:30:56,000
Look at me.
720
00:30:56,000 --> 00:30:58,000
You went back there and you faced what happened.
721
00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:03,000
And now, you have to face how it made you feel.
722
00:31:06,000 --> 00:31:07,000
And that's how you break the pattern.
723
00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:17,000
Okay?
724
00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:18,000
Dr. Tom, I don't want to do,
725
00:31:18,000 --> 00:31:20,000
I don't want to do this.
726
00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:23,000
Just look around and tell us what you're feeling.
727
00:31:24,000 --> 00:31:25,000
Just try it.
728
00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:31,000
See if it helps you.
729
00:31:31,000 --> 00:31:33,000
I feel angry with her.
730
00:31:35,000 --> 00:31:36,000
What does the anger want to say?
731
00:31:39,000 --> 00:31:40,000
Get away.
732
00:31:40,000 --> 00:31:41,000
Good.
733
00:31:43,000 --> 00:31:44,000
Don't ask me,
734
00:31:45,000 --> 00:31:47,000
don't ask me to listen to you.
735
00:31:49,000 --> 00:31:50,000
Don't guilt me out.
736
00:31:52,000 --> 00:31:54,000
I'm not your friend.
737
00:31:54,000 --> 00:31:55,000
I'm not your husband.
738
00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:57,000
I'm your son.
739
00:31:58,000 --> 00:31:59,000
Leave me alone.
740
00:32:01,000 --> 00:32:03,000
Leave me alone.
741
00:32:03,000 --> 00:32:04,000
Let
742
00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:05,000
me
743
00:32:05,000 --> 00:32:05,000
be
744
00:32:05,000 --> 00:32:06,000
your son!
745
00:32:08,000 --> 00:32:10,000
[soft music]
746
00:32:19,000 --> 00:32:20,000
It's okay, Adam.
747
00:32:20,000 --> 00:32:21,000
It's okay.
748
00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:23,000
Every time she would tell me things,
749
00:32:23,000 --> 00:32:26,000
come to me, telling me that her life was shit.
750
00:32:27,000 --> 00:32:28,000
I didn't know what to do for her.
751
00:32:29,000 --> 00:32:32,000
I couldn't help her.
752
00:32:32,000 --> 00:32:33,000
I couldn't give her what she needed.
753
00:32:34,000 --> 00:32:37,000
[soft music]
754
00:32:57,000 --> 00:32:59,000
You were her child, Adam.
755
00:32:59,000 --> 00:33:01,000
And you were being suffocated
756
00:33:01,000 --> 00:33:03,000
by emotional needs that you couldn't meet.
757
00:33:05,000 --> 00:33:06,000
But you survived.
758
00:33:08,000 --> 00:33:11,000
And so, the fear that you'll drown
759
00:33:11,000 --> 00:33:13,000
if you allow yourself to
760
00:33:13,000 --> 00:33:15,000
emotionally connect with another person,
761
00:33:17,000 --> 00:33:19,000
well, that's no longer serving you.
762
00:33:21,000 --> 00:33:22,000
And you need to let that go.
763
00:33:24,000 --> 00:33:26,000
[soft music]
764
00:33:34,000 --> 00:33:37,000
[knocking]
765
00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:40,000
[Barbara] Oh, hi.
766
00:33:41,000 --> 00:33:42,000
For you.
767
00:33:42,000 --> 00:33:43,000
Aww.
768
00:33:43,000 --> 00:33:44,000
Gary, they're beautiful.
769
00:33:46,000 --> 00:33:48,000
[sighs]
770
00:33:52,000 --> 00:33:53,000
I should put these in water.
771
00:34:00,000 --> 00:34:03,000
[Gary] Is everything okay?
772
00:34:03,000 --> 00:34:06,000
I really appreciate these flowers, Gary.
773
00:34:06,000 --> 00:34:08,000
But.
774
00:34:08,000 --> 00:34:10,000
But I think we need to put a hold
775
00:34:10,000 --> 00:34:13,000
on everything else.
776
00:34:13,000 --> 00:34:14,000
Everything else meaning?
777
00:34:15,000 --> 00:34:16,000
Us.
778
00:34:20,000 --> 00:34:21,000
Barb.
779
00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:23,000
I still love you.
780
00:34:23,000 --> 00:34:24,000
Oh, Gary.
781
00:34:24,000 --> 00:34:25,000
And it took me nearly losing you
782
00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:26,000
to realize how much.
783
00:34:28,000 --> 00:34:31,000
Gary, you know, when I was sick,
784
00:34:31,000 --> 00:34:33,000
I was living in the moment and
785
00:34:34,000 --> 00:34:35,000
now that I'm better,
786
00:34:36,000 --> 00:34:38,000
I feel I need to take a step back and,
787
00:34:39,000 --> 00:34:40,000
and just reevaluate.
788
00:34:42,000 --> 00:34:44,000
Did you enjoy it?
789
00:34:44,000 --> 00:34:45,000
It's not that simple.
790
00:34:46,000 --> 00:34:47,000
Yes, it is.
791
00:34:47,000 --> 00:34:49,000
Life is simple and short.
792
00:34:50,000 --> 00:34:51,000
If something makes you happy,
793
00:34:51,000 --> 00:34:53,000
you have to hold onto it because at any moment,
794
00:34:53,000 --> 00:34:55,000
it could be taken away.
795
00:34:57,000 --> 00:34:58,000
It's your choice.
796
00:34:59,000 --> 00:35:00,000
You know how I feel.
797
00:35:08,000 --> 00:35:09,000
Gary.
798
00:35:11,000 --> 00:35:12,000
I did enjoy it.
799
00:35:13,000 --> 00:35:14,000
A lot.
800
00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:17,000
[soft music]
801
00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:42,000
Where were you?
802
00:35:42,000 --> 00:35:44,000
I was worried.
803
00:35:44,000 --> 00:35:46,000
Couldn't sleep.
804
00:35:46,000 --> 00:35:48,000
[soft music]
805
00:35:51,000 --> 00:35:53,000
Have you been crying?
806
00:35:53,000 --> 00:35:54,000
Yeah.
807
00:35:54,000 --> 00:35:55,000
Why?
808
00:35:58,000 --> 00:35:59,000
Adam, what's wrong?
809
00:36:07,000 --> 00:36:09,000
Friedkin's chapters are lacking clarity.
810
00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:11,000
Every time I try to rewrite him he gets all--
811
00:36:11,000 --> 00:36:12,000
Oh whoa, whoa.
812
00:36:12,000 --> 00:36:15,000
Oh no, you try to rewrite him?
813
00:36:15,000 --> 00:36:18,000
Oh my God, Brent, that is, that is mistake numero uno.
814
00:36:18,000 --> 00:36:19,000
You can't do that.
815
00:36:20,000 --> 00:36:21,000
So what do I do?
816
00:36:22,000 --> 00:36:23,000
Okay.
817
00:36:24,000 --> 00:36:29,000
Thomas' mind is like a sieve, right?
818
00:36:29,000 --> 00:36:31,000
So you have to remind him
819
00:36:31,000 --> 00:36:34,000
that in an earlier draft of The Mystery of Tomorrow,
820
00:36:34,000 --> 00:36:36,000
he, he put it a different way.
821
00:36:39,000 --> 00:36:42,000
Oh, you are naughty.
822
00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:43,000
Naughty, naughty, naughty.
823
00:36:43,000 --> 00:36:45,000
Guilty, guilty as charged.
824
00:36:45,000 --> 00:36:47,000
[giggles]
825
00:36:49,000 --> 00:36:50,000
[clears throat]
826
00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:51,000
Anywho.
827
00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:53,000
That should be enough to
828
00:36:53,000 --> 00:36:57,000
get through until Friedkin delivers his next chapter, so.
829
00:36:57,000 --> 00:36:58,000
Yes it should, thank you.
830
00:36:59,000 --> 00:37:00,000
Julianne.
831
00:37:01,000 --> 00:37:04,000
Yes?
832
00:37:04,000 --> 00:37:06,000
I know I've said this before,
833
00:37:07,000 --> 00:37:09,000
and I know you didn't believe me or want to hear it.
834
00:37:11,000 --> 00:37:12,000
But I'm really sorry.
835
00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:14,000
I was awful.
836
00:37:20,000 --> 00:37:21,000
Why?
837
00:37:22,000 --> 00:37:25,000
I'm serious, Brent.
838
00:37:25,000 --> 00:37:28,000
Why, was it because I gave Erica the sex scoop?
839
00:37:29,000 --> 00:37:30,000
I mean, I bruised your ego
840
00:37:30,000 --> 00:37:33,000
so you tried to ruin my whole career?
841
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:34,000
It wasn't just the sex scoop.
842
00:37:36,000 --> 00:37:37,000
I was hurt, Julianne.
843
00:37:38,000 --> 00:37:41,000
You really hurt me.
844
00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:42,000
Let's just leave it at that.
845
00:37:42,000 --> 00:37:43,000
What are you talking about?
846
00:37:44,000 --> 00:37:45,000
I don't know what I could've done.
847
00:37:45,000 --> 00:37:46,000
Can we please just drop it?
848
00:37:46,000 --> 00:37:47,000
No, we can't.
849
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I can't.
850
00:37:49,000 --> 00:37:52,000
[soft music]
851
00:37:56,000 --> 00:37:58,000
Thank you for your help.
852
00:37:58,000 --> 00:38:00,000
[Julianne] Brent.
853
00:38:00,000 --> 00:38:03,000
[soft music]
854
00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:08,000
[knocking]
855
00:38:09,000 --> 00:38:11,000
[soft music]
856
00:38:17,000 --> 00:38:18,000
[Adam] Hi.
857
00:38:18,000 --> 00:38:21,000
Hi.
858
00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:22,000
Can I come in?
859
00:38:22,000 --> 00:38:24,000
Yes, of course.
860
00:38:27,000 --> 00:38:28,000
I was gonna call you to see if
861
00:38:28,000 --> 00:38:30,000
you were doing okay but I just thought that
862
00:38:30,000 --> 00:38:32,000
I'd give you some space to deal with
863
00:38:34,000 --> 00:38:36,000
whatever, so, I hope that that was
864
00:38:36,000 --> 00:38:37,000
the right thing to do.
865
00:38:37,000 --> 00:38:39,000
I ended things with Beatrice.
866
00:38:42,000 --> 00:38:43,000
You did.
867
00:38:43,000 --> 00:38:44,000
[Adam] Yeah.
868
00:38:46,000 --> 00:38:47,000
Why?
869
00:38:49,000 --> 00:38:50,000
Because.
870
00:38:53,000 --> 00:38:56,000
I may have been married to Beatrice in another life but
871
00:38:58,000 --> 00:39:00,000
here and now, my feelings aren't for Beatrice.
872
00:39:02,000 --> 00:39:03,000
They're for you.
873
00:39:06,000 --> 00:39:07,000
Oh.
874
00:39:07,000 --> 00:39:08,000
I avoided them.
875
00:39:08,000 --> 00:39:10,000
I did everything I could to avoid them.
876
00:39:10,000 --> 00:39:12,000
I even convinced myself I didn't have them.
877
00:39:13,000 --> 00:39:14,000
Hoping that would make them go away but,
878
00:39:16,000 --> 00:39:20,000
I know I haven't been exactly stand up in all of this.
879
00:39:23,000 --> 00:39:27,000
But I,
880
00:39:27,000 --> 00:39:29,000
I actually have never met a woman
881
00:39:29,000 --> 00:39:31,000
I cared about more than you.
882
00:39:35,000 --> 00:39:37,000
So I came here to tell you that and
883
00:39:38,000 --> 00:39:39,000
to see if you'll have me.
884
00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:41,000
♪ Chills you to the bone ♪
885
00:39:41,000 --> 00:39:42,000
♪ I will hold ♪
886
00:39:42,000 --> 00:39:45,000
♪ You tight ♪
887
00:39:47,000 --> 00:39:48,000
Come here.
888
00:39:48,000 --> 00:39:53,000
♪ Can't go on ♪
889
00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:59,000
♪ I will give you a life ♪
890
00:40:02,000 --> 00:40:03,000
♪ When the pressure's on ♪
891
00:40:03,000 --> 00:40:04,000
♪ And your will is gone ♪
892
00:40:04,000 --> 00:40:06,000
♪ I will lend ♪
893
00:40:06,000 --> 00:40:09,000
♪ A hand ♪
894
00:40:09,000 --> 00:40:11,000
♪ No one seems to care ♪
895
00:40:11,000 --> 00:40:12,000
♪ About the frown you wear ♪
896
00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:15,000
♪ I will give a damn ♪
897
00:40:15,000 --> 00:40:17,000
What can I do to help you?
898
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:19,000
I don't know.
899
00:40:20,000 --> 00:40:22,000
Not thinking straight right now.
900
00:40:23,000 --> 00:40:25,000
I'm so happy but
901
00:40:25,000 --> 00:40:27,000
I'm so tired.
902
00:40:27,000 --> 00:40:28,000
I haven't slept in 48 hours.
903
00:40:33,000 --> 00:40:34,000
Come with me.
904
00:40:37,000 --> 00:40:39,000
Life, they say, can turn on a dime.
905
00:40:43,000 --> 00:40:47,000
♪ And it's built on solid ground ♪
906
00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:50,000
Lie down.
907
00:40:50,000 --> 00:40:51,000
And in a world that constantly
908
00:40:51,000 --> 00:40:53,000
shifts beneath our feet,
909
00:40:53,000 --> 00:40:55,000
the only thing we can know for certain
910
00:40:55,000 --> 00:40:56,000
is how we feel.
911
00:40:58,000 --> 00:41:01,000
♪ Should never let you down ♪
912
00:41:01,000 --> 00:41:02,000
Erica.
913
00:41:03,000 --> 00:41:05,000
Just close your eyes.
914
00:41:05,000 --> 00:41:09,000
♪ I'll be by your side ♪
915
00:41:09,000 --> 00:41:11,000
♪ Holding you so tight ♪
916
00:41:11,000 --> 00:41:12,000
The love we have,
917
00:41:14,000 --> 00:41:16,000
the fear we hide from,
918
00:41:16,000 --> 00:41:18,000
the pain we push away.
919
00:41:18,000 --> 00:41:22,000
Give it a voice and the rewards are peace of mind
920
00:41:22,000 --> 00:41:23,000
and a peaceful heart.
921
00:41:27,000 --> 00:41:30,000
♪ You will take my heart ♪
922
00:41:31,000 --> 00:41:33,000
[soft music]
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