All language subtitles for (2008) - S03E24 - Adele Week Six (1080p HMAX WEB-DL x265 Silence)

-Amphetamines?
-No.

Um, corticosteroids,
either topical or inhaled?

Uh, no.

Excessive alcohol intake?

No.

Withdrawal from excessive
alcohol intake?

No.

And you said
you don't drink coffee.

That's right. I don't.

And you're not currently taking
anti-anxiety medication?

-I'm not.
-Um...

Do you have any interest
in trying

anti-anxiety medication?

No, thank you.

Okay.

I'm gonna, uh...

I'm gonna write down
some names for you

just in case you change
your mind.

Larry Friedman, my colleague,
is an excellent psychiatrist.

DR. PAUL WESTON:
He didn't recommend you,

by the way, so you might want
to beef up

on your contacts at Columbia.

Look, I-- I know you got
your degree there,

but they-- they seem
to have forgotten all about you.

And how did it feel
to get a second opinion?

It sounds as if he confirmed
what the first doctor told you.

-Uh-huh. Another non-diagnosis.
-Which is what?

I'd like to hear you articulate
what you heard him say.

"We'll have to wait and see."

-Which means...
-That I'll have to wait and see.

Because you're not exhibiting
enough symptoms?

Yet.

Not exhibiting them yet.

I mean, what am I supposed to do
after an appointment like that?

How-- how am I--

How am I meant
to live my life?

How am I supposed to make
informed decisions about my life

when I don't know for certain
whether or not I have

the goddamn disease
or how severe it's going to be?

Well, forgive me for saying so,
but that doesn't sound

too different from what we all
face every day.

The general state of being
for every person alive.

Well, I-- I, um...

I asked him for
a worst-case scenario,

you know, how-- how fast...

Parkinson's can
actually progress.

And he, you know,
resisted for a while,

but finally he confirmed what--

what I knew myself.

That in extreme cases

a patient can find himself
completely paralyzed

with advanced dementia
within four to five years.

Did he tell you what percentage
of those patients

face that accelerated form
of the disease?

Oh, it's a-- it's a...

-pretty small number but--
-Less than half a percent.

I confirmed it
with a bit of research

since you first came in.

So, let's be clear
about the facts.

We're talking about
less than half a percent

of people who have a disease

that you've been told
you probably don't have.

Probably.

You just talked
about the difficulty

of making decisions in your life
when faced with, what you see

as the real uncertainty
about your health.

Mm-hmm.

Let me ask you something.

What would you do
if you were told

with absolute certainty
that you were sick.

If you only had
a few years left to live,

how would you choose
to live them?

If I knew that were true...

well...
maybe I'd--

I'd lock up the office
and travel the world.

Maybe I'd move just closer
to my kids. I--

I don't really know.

And what if somebody
told you the opposite?

Told you with absolute certainty
that you were not sick?

Would you also lock up
your office, leave town...

move closer to your kids?

Or would you continue
with life as it is?

Continue seeing your patients,
dating your girlfriend?

I--

What-- what point are you--
are you trying to make?

I think this continued state
of wait-and-see

is enabling you to live
in a kind of... stasis.

-It's like purgatory.
-I'd say hell is more like it.

Okay, it's hell.

I want you to recognize

that in order to get
out of this hell,

you may have to make decisions
about your life,

what to change,
what not to change,

independent of this prognosis.

To take action, or not,
without knowing if you're sick.

Action? But what...

...what kind of action
do you mean?

No, I'm...
I'm really asking.

I know that
you've got this notion

that I'm some kind of
Hamlet incarnate.

Unable to act or-- or unwilling.

And I'm still not really sure

what it is that
you're referring to,

because your evidence
keeps shifting.

It's not as if I've been sitting
on my ass, doing nothing.

I'm seeing doctors,
I brought Max home.

That's true.

I mean, is there
something specific

you're looking for me to do?

You talk about action, but I--

I'm just not sure
what you want from me...

what exactly is so urgent.

Did I say something was urgent?

No, but you did call me at home.

You left me a message
at the beginning of the week.

Yes, I did.

I just wasn't clear what it was

that you were saying
in the message.

Are you asking why I called?

I am, yes.

Were you-- were you
encouraging me to act

on anything in particular?

Or was there some other reason?

I think I left the reason
why I called on your voicemail.

I felt we left a great deal
unfinished and...

-we ended abruptly last week.
-I remember.

I called to offer you
another session

if you felt you needed it.

Ne-- needed it for what?

To-- to talk about what?

-What do you imagine?
-Don't do that.

Please d-- don't play that game.

You called me.
I-- I didn't call you.

You said that you had...

lingering concerns...

at half past seven
in the morning.

I just want to understand
what you felt was so...

-pressing.
-I thought we should revisit

what you told me about Sunil.

Your reaction to your patient.

-That's why you called me?
-In part.

You're shaking your head.

Because last week

you didn't want anything
to do with Sunil.

You-- you barely let me
get a word in.

I think you're aware
of why I was resistant.

You don't want to be
my supervisor--

I don't, but I would like us

to discuss how you're responding
to Sunil,

or not responding,
for that matter.

If you're in some sort of stasis
as with your medical prognosis,

a wait-and-see mode.

I'd like to understand
what you're trying to accomplish

by telling me your concerns
or insisting on my involvement.

-Were you trying to alarm me?
-I was asking your opinion.

I thought,
given the stakes,

that you might be willing
to engage.

I'm engaging.

Well, I appreciate that.

Certain details you spoke about
have stayed with me...

beyond Sunil's volatile response
to his daughter-in-law.

There are small children
in the house.

Well, there-- there--
there's no issue with--

I mean, I--

I don't--

I don't think you hear
what-- what I was telling you.

That's why I bring it up now,
in order to be clear

about what you're telling me.

If there's a genuine risk
that needs to be addressed,

and if so, to find out
why you're not addressing it.

I don't think the children
are at risk.

You're certain of that?

-Mm-hmm.
-And Julia?

Now, you seemed very alarmed
last week,

and now I-- I can't tell
if you're as concerned.

Well, we had a very
intense session on Monday.

And I have to admit
that things looked

pretty grim at the beginning.

-Why was that?
-Julia came in to tell me

that this was gonna be
Sunil's last appointment.

She said that they...

weren't willing to...

-keep paying for it.
-Did she give any explanation?

There was a misunderstanding
at home.

Sunil pushed past her and she--
she fell into a bookcase.

-She had a bandage on her arm.
-He pushed her into a bookcase?

Well, he said that
he pushed past her. I...

Honestly, I-- I think it was...

I think it was an accident.

-Okay.
-But--

but, you know, it was
enough for her and Arun

to decide that...

therapy wasn't working.

The fact that Julia showed up
in your office with an injury,

did you take that opportunity

to sit down
with the both of them

and discuss
the potential for violence

that you've been
so concerned about?

Sunil came into the room.
I told him that I believed

it would be a mistake

if we discontinued
his treatment.

I felt that stopping
at this juncture

would be... wrong. I--

It took some work,
but I-- I convinced him

and he's coming back next week.

He's able to pay his own way?

No, he can't do that,
so I offered--

I offered to see him pro bono.

Really?

You know, I have to say this.

It's just curious
to me to hear you so...

suddenly invested
in-- in-- in this issue.

Aren't you conscious of the fact
that we're now playing out...

the fantasy that...

I revealed to you last week.

The one that you worked so hard
to get me to disclose?

What fantasy is that?

You know, that we would...

discuss our patients together.

Give each other advice
about our difficult cases.

-You don't remember that?
-I remember.

You described us
as having a dinner-- a meal.

Glass of red wine
while we talked.

I don't think I said "red wine."

Maybe not, but--

You must see that
what's going on...

might play into that fantasy.

I do see that.

Did you see it when you
picked up the phone to call me

on Tuesday morning?

I felt--

I found myself worried
that I was negligent last week.

I was concerned the situation
might deserve more attention.

-At seven-thirty in the morning.
-Sorry?

Don't you think that was...

I mean...

...don't you think
that was kind of early?

-Were you already at the office?
-Umm, why do you ask?

Because I know you weren't.

The caller ID on my phone
wasn't your office number.

Oh, that's right.
I don't think I'd gone in yet.

So you were at home...

having-- having breakfast maybe?

Were you hoping
to talk over a meal

about my patient's dream
and what I should or...

what I shouldn't do about it?

Is that the reason you called?

Or maybe-- maybe
it's more than that.

Look, I--

I guess--

You know, I just--

I just want us to be honest

about what's--
what's happening...

here.

Tell me what you think
is happening.

-I--

I'm sorry. I thought I'd turned
the ringer off.

Okay, I...

Sorry about that.

You said you wanted to be honest
about what's happening here.

No, no, it's--

It's fine.
It doesn't matter.

Well, perhaps it does.
Is there anything more

you want to say about it?

You felt that

-by my calling in the morning--
-Could-- could we just not...

I can see how, given the kind
of scenario you envisioned,

-you might--
-Christ's sake, please,

let's just forget it, okay?

You're very upset with me.

I probably should have
thought more carefully

-about the timing of my call.
-I-- I just asked you

if we could stop.

I understand you don't want
to discuss that any further.

That's fine, we don't have to.

But I would like us to go back
to the reason I called you.

And, frankly, I felt you put me
in a difficult spot.

You brought up Sunil
in the last minutes

of our session
and it was hard for me to tell

if there was a legitimate danger

or if you were simply trying
to draw me in.

I do wonder if you're trying
to hand over your worry to me,

to somehow leave me
to deal with it,

-so you won't have to.

I gather you disagree.

Can you tell me
what you're thinking?

I'm thinking I should
never have asked you

about Sunil in the first place.

I guess I should have known
how you'd-- how you'd see it.

-How is that?
-You just said it.

You think he's a menace
to society and I'm some kind of

paralyzed fool.

You know, it's not as if
I haven't given serious thought

to what to do here,
but I think it's easy

from where you sit,
to jump to conclusions,

to twist the evidence.
You don't see the intricacies.

Do you wanna help me
with those intricacies?

I'd like to hear more
about your session this week.

Why you decided to see
Sunil free of charge,

what your thinking was.

I'm also curious about
what I see as

your clear identification
with Sunil,

-how strong it might be.
-What does that mean?

How much you see yourself
in him.

Look, I know what
"identification" means.

I'd like to know what
you're talking about.

You've spoken many times about
his experience as an immigrant,

the depth of his alienation.

Something you've
also encountered.

You're both around the same age,
lead somewhat isolated lives.

Do you have any reaction
to what I'm saying?

Oh, I'm--
I'm enjoying it immensely.

Just let me know
when you're done, okay?

I'm done.

Okay, so it's--
it's my turn now?

Yes, I do have a great deal
of sympathy for Sunil.

And I feel that I've got a...

um, a special window
into his struggles,

but it doesn't mean that I've
somehow lost perspective.

The truth is, I have
an instinct about him.

It's-- it's just--
I can't explain it.

It's a gut feeling that I have
sitting opposite him.

I just know-- I just know
he's not a violent man.

And I have to admit I'm-- I'm--
I'm kind of having

a hard time following
your reasoning.

I know you think that
I'm avoiding a decision,

that I'm overinvested,
that I'm in denial.

Whatever-- whatever way
you want to put it.

But you see, I see it
as me taking a bold step.

I've offered to see
this man for free

in order to keep him
in treatment.

The treatment he--
he desperately needs,

which, by the way,
it has been working.

And still you--

you-- you-- you seem
to criticize me for it.

Why are you convinced
it's working?

Because-- Look, the therapy

gives him an outlet
for-- for his anger.

I've gotten him
to express himself,

to reveal these--
these violent fantasies,

instead of letting them fester
inside of him.

The fact that we're openly
discussing them means

that he's keeping them
under control.

They're-- they're
just fantasies.

I mean, do I really need
to explain this?

You're sitting there like
I'm trying to sell you

a moldy carpet or something.

I'm simply listening
to what you're saying.

No, you're sitting there smug
and you're judging,

and you are superior
and you're remote...

like a-- a Freudian ice queen.

Convinced that I'm some kind
of cripple.

I think we ought to talk
about where this anger

-is coming from.
-It's coming from the fact

that you won't listen
to what I'm saying.

You don't trust me to judge
if my own patient is dangerous.

Look, if Sunil
wasn't coming back,

if he ended his therapy
and he was out there,

then I'd say sure,
there's a problem.

I'd say go ahead and worry.
But he is coming back.

He's talking. He trusts me.

Somebody who's actually
gonna hurt another person

doesn't-- doesn't hand you
a cricket bat and say,

"Take it away from me."

A man who's actually
gonna hurt somebody

doesn't-- doesn't say anything.

He just goes ahead
and he fucking does it.

Sunil handed you a cricket bat?

He gave it to me
for safekeeping.

His son was going away,
and he-- and he felt...

that I should hold on to it.

Why would he want you
to hold on to it?

Because he-- he was...

He didn't want to have it
around the house.

And you took this
as a good sign?

This is kind of pointless,
don't you think?

I've said I made a mistake

bringing Sunil up
in the first place.

You've said you don't want
to supervise me.

You'd rather not
indulge my fantasy.

I'm not sure
that I still have it, but--

So why don't we just both...
respect that?

Several minutes ago
you were quite happy

that I'd engaged with you
on this topic.

Please, can we go back
to talking about

something more pleasant.

Parkinson's, maybe.
Max and Steve.

-Global warming.
-My pregnancy?

How your noticing it earlier

might be affecting
our discussion?

Is this your way
of telling me that...

you are pregnant?

I was under the impression
you noticed a few minutes ago.

-So, you are pregnant.
-I am.

Hmm, well...

are you also planning to tell me
where you've registered,

so I can send you
a baby shower gift?

I wasn't planning on doing that.

Am I wrong? Had you not noticed?

-When are you due?
-March.

-Does it upset you to hear that?
-No.

I have to say, you seem upset,
as if--

As if what?

As if it's some kind
of betrayal, as if--

This is fucking ridiculous.

-What is?
-And it's cruel.

It's narcissistic.

You deliberately encouraged me
to talk about these...

stupid fantasies.

I have to wonder if all analysts

simply get off
on their patients'

imagined relationships
with them.

Are you?

While I sit here and make a--
a fool of myself,

spinning out these...

idiotic tales of...

having drinks together
and dinner

and discussing our work and how
you might be lonely and...

how you might understand
my miserable fucking life.

And you just sit there
and you nod placidly and you...

You encouraged me to indulge
in these delusions.

And all the while you...

you hoard this information
that...

you're in a happy
relationship...

with a growing family.

-Is that what you assume?
-Stop it.

Just fucking stop it, okay?
Who cares what I assume

or don't assume?
It's all a crock of shit anyway.

Yeah, it's all designed
to give power and thrills

to the sphinx like doctor and...

at the expense
of the humiliated patient.

I never intended
to humiliate you--

Oh, well, that's comforting
to hear. Unintended humiliation

is much easier to swallow,
don't you think?

-You're really angry with me.
-I don't even know you.

How could I be angry
with you?

-Paul.
-What? Are you--

are you gonna
encourage me to talk

about how furious I am
at some self-projected phantasm?

How absurd
and navel-gazing can one get?

I-- I wanna go.

There's something I wanna say
to you, before you leave.

-I'm worried about you.

I don't think you understand

the gravity of the situation
you're in with Sunil.

I don't-- I-- I don't understand
the gravity?

I don't think that you see
the danger in-- in what

you're telling me to do,

what it would mean
to be wrong,

to compromise
the confidentiality

of a patient like Sunil.
Do you understand

what it took to earn that trust
in the first place?

The time, the care, the--

-Talk about a betrayal.
-Paul, he handed you a weapon.

A weapon?

You need to take a step back

and look at
this situation clearly.

You have options.
You don't need to jump

to notifying the authorities.

You can include
his family first.

Tell them about
his violent impulses.

We just talked
about the different ways

you identify with Sunil.

I think I'm becoming aware
of yet another connection.

What are you talking about?

Sunil's a lonely man in his 50s,
attracted to a younger woman

who's unavailable to him.

Amazing.
It's amazing, really.

I mean...

are you not--
are you not embarrassed

to bring everything back to you?

I-- it's really
that irresistible?

Sunil has obviously shown
a tremendous rage

towards Julia.

The way you looked
at me just now--

Are you suggesting
that I can't distinguish

my own anger from Sunil's?

It's a radically
different situation.

It is, and you're
a radically different man.

I can feel how angry
you are at me. It's visceral.

And yet I don't feel worried
that you're going

to come across this coffee table
and strangle me.

I'm not as certain
that your patient

is as in control
of his emotions.

You don't even know Sunil.

That's right. I don't.
Now, how well do you know him?

Now, how clearly, would you say,
you're able to see him?

You talked to me so many times

about feeling dissatisfied
in your work.

You called psychotherapy
a crock of shit, this afternoon,

and yet you've done nothing
about that dissatisfaction.

Are you secretly hoping

this situation with Sunil
might explode,

and that it'll save you
from having to make a decision

to change your life on your own?

Because if it does explode,

you will have destroyed
your career.

And you will always know
you could have done something

to protect a woman
and her children.

-JULIA: Hello.

Hello?

Hello, uh... is this Julia?

JULIA: Yes.

Hello, Julia.
This is Paul Weston.

Do you-- do you have
a minute?