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He needs to know the truth.

What's going on?

The cancer that's spread to my pancreas.

It's terminal.

What do we do now?

Radiation plus leukemotherapy.

No.

I won't be doing any of that.

Dad, what are you talking about?

I'm not going to spend the little time
that I had left in a hospital being

pulled and prodded by doctors.

Hey, Daniel.

Let's go.

If you're not getting any treatment, we
all got to go sometimes, son.

The only difference with me is I get to
choose when and I get to choose how.

Mom.

Are you okay with this?

Not my decision to make, Hal.

Marissa, I'm tired.

I need to go to bed. Okay. Can we talk
about this, please?

Let's just enjoy the time we have
together and not ruin this visit by him.

Talking about things that we can't
change

I'm

so sorry I can't believe they kept this
from me

Is it as good as it's gonna get?

I've given all I can give, but the river
still get wider, wider.

We've been here all along, through the
valleys we carry on.

The journey takes us higher, higher.

This could be a home if you try to build
it. This could be a life that's one in

a million. All the hard times, yet they
were worth it. Time and time and time.

What's this?

For me?

Picked them on the way over. Thought it
might help brighten this place up.

Are you feeling okay, Sully?

Yeah, great. Why?

You've never brought me flowers before.

Well, this is the first time for
everything.

You hear from Maggie yet?

Just to let me know that he arrived
safely.

I hope everything's going okay.

Yeah, me too.

Frank in the garden? No, he's home with
Jacob.

He'll be in later.

Well, I'm going to head over to Helen's
and finish up those repairs. Thought you

might like some coffee.

Are you sure you're feeling all right?

What? A person can't bring someone
coffee without getting a third degree.

What's so funny?

Nothing.

You get any sleep -off sleep?

She can't stop thinking about me, Dad.

Yeah.

Maybe if I had come home with her.

You're here now.

Yeah. Just need some fresh air, so...
I'm sorry, Cal. I...

I wish there was something I could do.

Hi there.

I didn't expect to see you today.

Thought I'd finish those repairs you
wanted.

Figured I'd save you a trip to the
outpost.

Well, that's very nice of you.

Thanks.

Can I come in? Yes, of course.

You have no idea how much I appreciate
this.

I was on a roll last night.

Stayed up pretty late working.

So I guess you got over your writer's
block.

Yes.

Our trip to the boardwalk really
inspired me.

I'm glad.

Well, I'll try and stay out of your hair
and, you know, I'll be as quiet as a

mouse. You won't even know I'm here.

Okay?

Okay.

Squeaky door, huh?

Which door is it?

Back door.

You weren't kidding when you said it was
quaking.

Hey, you know, I finally got a chance to
finish reading your book.

Really?

I'm glad to hear that.

And?

And I really liked it. I'm dying to know
if these two get together.

Well, I guess you're just going to have
to wait for me to finish the book.

Right.

Does this mean you've changed your mind
about romance?

I need to get back to fixing this thing.

Good morning.

Roger, goodbye.

Grab some breakfast before you get to
work.

Oh, that's a good idea.

What can I get you?

I'd love some scrambled eggs and bacon
if it's no trouble.

Coming right up.

Thanks.

So, did you have a nice time in
Lunenburg with Lola?

We did.

Wonderful.

Is she coming in today? I'm not sure.
Why?

I thought she might want to come out and
collect some lichen samples.

Well, if you're looking for company, no
one knows their way around these woods

better than Frank.

Jacob doesn't want me slowing him down.

Actually, it'd be nice to have an extra
pair of hands if you're offering.

We haven't had a lot of time to talk
since I got here.

Okay. I'm going to change my shoes.

Here, sit.

I am really glad you're here.

Me too.

Good morning. Morning.

Cal not up yet?

He went for a walk.

He just needed a little space.

I guess he's still upset.

Do you think Jed's making the right
decision, not accepting treatment?

I could buy him some time.

But to be honest, I don't know how much.

I didn't believe the doctors at first
when they told us.

Jed seemed fine.

Well, pancreatic cancer's easy to miss.

But there aren't a lot of symptoms.

I'm worried about Cal.

Yeah, me too.

This is going to be hard on him.

I've been angry with his father for so
long.

What did he tell you about Jed?

Just that life with him was difficult.

It would be unpredictable.

Managing Jed's condition with four kids
was hard.

I relied on Cal for help.

He grew up fast, carried more on his
shoulders than any child should have to.

I don't think he ever forgave Jed for
not being the father he needed.

What about the other?

Well, it was different for them.

They had Cal to lean on.

He was there for them.

I don't want you thinking it was all
bad.

Oh.

And we had plenty of good days together,
too. I just wish Cal could remember

that.

Hey, you ready?

Made an appointment with another
realtor.

We've already looked at everything
available.

What are you doing?

Looking to see if anybody's hiring a
chef.

That seems to be a dead end, too.

I think I'm going to have to move
somewhere with more options.

Like leave Timberlake?

But you can't just move.

This is your home.

Your friends are here.

What other choice do I have?

I don't care about my kids.

No, of course not. I know what's best
for this family. We can't keep doing

The kids need stability.

I want us to have a proper home.

Hey.

Chopped enough firewood for a month.

Blowing off some steam.

I can see that.

Maybe talking would help.

Honestly, I don't really. know what I'm
feeling right now.

Why don't we get out of here?

Get a little distance from all this.

Where do you want to go?

I think I know a place might help give
you a little perspective.

I appreciate this, Maggie. I do, but I
really don't know if I'm up for a

ride right now. Trust me. I've been
once, and it is.

It's amazing.

There's something comforting about
looking at the world from way up there.

Hi. Hi. Do you have a booking? Yeah, I
called ahead. Maggie Sullivan.

I've got you here. You're with me.

Come on. I'll get you out of your head.

Nice work today, everyone.

How's that schedule coming along, Rafe?

Left it on your desk.

How about those incident reports?

I figured I'd get to them tomorrow.

Rules say they need to be submitted
within 24 hours, Rafe.

Yeah, we always get them done by the end
of the week.

I'm getting the impression that Connie
let a lot of things slide around here.

That's not true.

Well, in any case, I'm running things
now, and I want them done by the book.

That means I expect those reports on my
desk.

before you go today.

Copy that?

How about this one?

That is Parmelia silcata.

Cracked shield lichen.

Lives on deciduous trees.

It's a lot more sturdy than some of the
other species out here. How long have

you been interested in this stuff?

I cook and practice traditional
medicine.

I should actually help use it to treat
my diabetes.

Why Nova Scotia?

To be honest, I was hoping I'd get to
know you and Edna a little better.

We didn't really get to spend a lot of
time together when you came to the res.

I'm sorry about that.

I'm just glad you and my father were
able to work things out.

Me too.

They actually wanted me to let you know
that...

He'd love to see you again.

Let him know I'd like that too.

You ever think about moving back?

It's cost my mind from time to time.

Just know you're always welcome whenever
you're ready.

Of course, I thank you.

Smells good.

I'm not done with those yet. I'm hungry
from having to finish all those repairs

I'm doing at Helen's.

Are they finished?

No, I'm going to head back over there
tomorrow.

They're taking a long time.

Well, it takes as long as it takes.

Morning, Edna.

Sally. Hey, Sidney.

Hey.

Thought I'd stop by and see if you
needed a hand with anything.

Perfect timing.

These need frosting. Sure.

I'm sorry to hear that Rob lost his new
diner space.

Yeah, we've been trying to find another
location, but no luck.

I'm starting to get a little worried.

Why?

Because Rob's talking about moving.

Moving? Where?

Somewhere he can find work as a chef.

No, no, no, we can't let that happen.
There's got to be something we can do.

I'm not sure there's anything to do,
unless you happen to know of a location

haven't looked at yet.

I think I might have an idea.

So peaceful.

It's like we're disconnected from
everything that's going on down there.

You know, seeing the world from way up
here helps remind me that I'm not the

only one in the world with problems.

I know things between

you and your father haven't been good
for a long time.

But I think if you want to, you could
fix it.

I don't think that's possible.

Well, whatever you decide, I just... I
want you to know that I'll be here to

help you get through it.

It means a lot.

Thank you for doing this for me.

My great -great -grandfather built this
place as a social hall.

Used to hold Scottish tailies here.

It's been sitting empty for years.
Always meant to fix it up one day.

Put it to good use, but I just never got
around to it.

This place is huge.

So what do you think?

This place is incredible.

I can't accept it, Billy.

Why not?

I still owe you the money you gave me
and Sarah when we opened the diner.

That was a gift, all right? You'd be
doing me a big favor by taking it off my

hands. How so?

Well, uh... All right, Glenn bought some
land next to the crossing.

Tell him you're joking.

He's developing a fancy resort on it.

Oh. So, we're gonna need all the help we
can get.

Having a restaurant with a talented chef
on location is going to draw a lot of

people to us.

It'll need a little TLC, but it really
is perfect, Rob.

Do we got a deal?

Sully, we got a deal. All right.

Cal, can we talk?

Why don't I go wash up and check on
Jess?

You should have told me, Mom.

I wanted to.

Your father made me promise not to say
anything. I'm sorry.

I thought maybe things had changed.

Clearly, they haven't.

You're always letting him tell you what
to do.

Putting him first.

Is that really how you felt?

We were just kids.

We needed you too.

But what about us?

I wanted you to have a father in your
life, Cal.

Even if that meant having one that
wasn't perfect.

He loved you.

Did you really want me to turn my back
on him when he needed us?

I know I wasn't there for you the way I
should have been.

And I will never be able to forgive
myself for that. But I... I did

I could.

And I wish your father hadn't been sick.

And I wish things could have been
different for all of us.

I'm sorry.

I never thought about how hard it was
for you to...

The person it's hardest on is your
father.

Remember that.

How are you feeling?

A bit better.

Glad to hear it.

Come sit with me.

I'm really happy that I got a chance to
meet you, Maggie.

Me too.

Marissa and I, we worry about Cal.

Losing Lynn, that was hard for him.

We weren't sure if he'd be able to find
his way back from that.

But now he's got you.

And I'm grateful.

And I can leave this world knowing he's
going to be okay.

It really broke my heart, you know, when
he moved away.

And I never understood why he did that
until

now.

And it just tears me up knowing that I'm
the reason that he's going to carry

around all that anger for the rest of
his life.

I always hoped one day we'd get a chance
to just talk things out.

And he would forgive me.

But I don't think that's going to
happen.

Maybe it's not too late.

I think Cal's made it pretty clear how
he feels.

I'm a little tired.

We're going to go lay down.

No way.

What is it?

It's boreal felts.

It's a rare species of lichen. I can't
believe this.

Something wrong?

See this black spot here? I think it
might be dying.

And why is that?

This particular lichen is sensitive to
environmental toxins.

Environmental toxins, huh?

Follow me.

time to get to nearby construction.

Hey.

Things feel okay with your mother?

Yeah.

Had a good chat.

Cleared the air.

I'm glad.

Yeah.

What about Chad?

Are you going to talk to him, too?

I can't.

You know, I don't want to say anything
else I'll regret.

He really wants to make things right
with you, Cal.

I think it's a little late for that,
don't you, Maggie?

This is your chance.

I need to tell him how you feel and to
hear what he has to say.

Look, if you can't do it for yourself,
can you maybe do it for him?

Now he finally decided to take
medication.

Now he wants to talk.

What about all those years ago when I
needed it?

I know.

I get it.

I knew that's how I felt about Sully
until I heard his side of the story.

Do you think you at least owe it to him
to let him explain?

I don't think I can Why not?

this isn't easy, Cal.

I'm just worried that if you don't do
this, that you're going to regret it.

Happy 9th.

Hey, you can't sleep?

I heard a noise.

I think it was a monster.

You think it was a monster?

Oh, no.

Okay, those monsters.

Any monster comes near you, they're
going to have to go through me first.

So I'm going to roar those monsters
away.

How about I give you a piggyback ride
back to bed?

Hop on, California.

Giddy up.

Here we go.

Can you howl?

Howl! Howl!

Throw those monsters away!

You back?

How'd it go?

We found some rare lichen, but it looks
like something's killing it off.

Really? And Jacob thinks that it might
be coming from the new development.

You mean Glenn's construction site?
That's the one.

Wow.

That might be what we need to shut him
down.

You can't go around accusing people
without evidence.

We have evidence.

What's that?

A sample of the dying lichen.

I'll get it tested.

See if there's any signs of toxic
chemicals.

How long will that take?

Probably a few weeks.

If he's using something toxic, we have
to shut him down now.

Let's go talk to somebody at the Nova
Scotia Environmental Agency.

Maybe we should think about this first.

Come on.

I'll show them what you've got.

Thank you for being here

for Cal.

I can see how much it means to him.

I understand what it's like to be
estranged from your father.

I didn't see mine for a very long time.

You understand how he feels.

I do.

But I also know what it feels like to
finally let go of all that hurt you

around inside you.

And I want Cal to be able to do that.

I can tell you love my son very much.

I do.

When I first met Jed, I was hitchhiking
across Colorado.

Jed picked me up.

Things were good at the beginning.

But then he started developing symptoms
and complaining that the world had lost

its color.

Eventually things got worse.

Doctors prescribed pills, but Jed didn't
like the way they made him feel.

He decided to manage his condition
through diet, meditation.

And that worked.

A lot of the time.

I know my husband isn't perfect.

But he always tried to be the best dad
he could be.

By just condition.

I can't imagine how difficult that must
have been for you.

It is surprising what you learn to live
with when you love someone.

I spent my entire life taking care of
Jed.

He's been my world, my everything.

I don't know what I'm going to do when
he's... You are always

welcome to stay with us.

Thank you, Maggie.

I appreciate that.

I want things to run smoothly around
here, too.

I know I need to make a change.

So we understand each other better.

Yes.

But if it's all right, I'd like this to
stay between us. I don't want the other

firefighters catching wind of it. No
problem.

How long have you been sitting there?

Not long.

I was just remembering.

We all used to sleep in that old tiny
tent together.

You were afraid of the dark.

I wouldn't go to bed until I checked for
monsters.

You said you'd protect me.

I tried.

But you didn't take the pill.

And you weren't there for us.

The medication, it was so strong back
then.

It had a lot of side effects.

It just left me feeling numb.

Just disconnected from the world.

And from you kids.

Okay, be a good father if I was on them.

I spent my childhood walking on
eggshells, Dad.

I know, I know. I'm sorry, Cal.

I wish things could have been different.

I thought I made the right choice.

That what I was doing was best for my
family.

And maybe I was wrong.

Maybe you would have been better off
without me.

I don't think I've ever understood, to
right now,

the monster you were always so afraid
of.

With me.

I guess I wasn't the only one running
for monsters, was I, Dad?

It's a hard thing to live your whole
life being just so...

Scared of losing yourself.

That you end up driving people that you
love away.

Well, Dad...

I'm

so... So sorry.

I didn't understand.

Yeah.

What smells so good?

Your father's favorite.

Uh, roast beef and mashed potatoes.

How'd it go, Janet?

You were right.

I didn't even hear him out.

I just wish I would have done that years
ago.

Thank you for pushing me.

Yeah.

I'm just cutting the table.

I shouldn't have judged you.

I am just so happy that you finally had
a chance to talk them through your

father. Me too.

I love you, Mama.

I love you too, California.

You're back.

That went well.

What happened at the NSCA?

They took one look at Jacob's Rare Lake,
and they were all over it.

They're going to send the inspector to
pay Glenn a visit first thing in the

morning. Frank and I can't wait to see
the look on his face.

You two are going?

Wouldn't miss it for the world.

I think poking a hornet's nest is a
mistake. Ah, you worry too much.

I hope you're right.

I'm too hungry to wait. But there's a
bowl for you in the oven. It should

be warm.

Well, I'm glad you're home.

I've got some good news.

Oh, yeah?

Yeah.

Turns out there's an old lot that has
been sitting empty at the crossing for

years. And guess what?

What? Kelly just offered it to Rob to
use as his restaurant.

Did you even hear what I said?

Yeah.

Sally gave Rob his old mug.

You don't seem that excited.

I got it all on my mind.

Is Bruce still giving you a hard time?

Yeah.

Look, I'm sorry, Rafe. I didn't mean to
get you into trouble.

It is what it is, Sydney.

I'm just going to have to deal with it.

Here we go.

This looks delicious.

Favorite.

Okay.

I want to tell you how grateful I am
you're here.

And how happy it makes me that you found
each other.

Because I know it's a really hard thing
to come by.

You know...

I've always lived my life on my own
terms.

And I intend to continue doing that with
the time I have left.

Okay.

Your mother and I, we talked it over.

And we would like to take one last
adventure together.

We're going to drive the old bus to the
Grand Canyon.

Let's take a look around. Nothing
appears to be of the ordinary here. Glad

hear. You had me a little worried there.
My father's a contractor, does a lot of

business with the government, and he
would kill me if I did anything to

his reputation.

I apologize for the inconvenience, but
certainly appreciate your cooperation.

Anytime. Thank you.

You crossed the line this time, Sully.

If I were you, I'd watch my back from
now on.

Is that a threat?

No, that's not a threat.

It's a promise.

Have a great day.

I think that's everything.

Just the food.

You sure you don't want me to come with?

You've got your own life to worry about.

Now, Cal, don't worry. I will take very
good care of your father.

He'll keep in touch. Let us know how
he's doing.

Of course.

Just remember how much I love you, Cal.

I love you too, Mama.

I said I was going to come get you. I
told you, I told you. But you fought

over me.

Why don't I help you in the kitchen with
that cooler?

I'd appreciate that.

I just want to tell you how proud I am
of the man that you have become.

Like I said, Maggie, she's a smart woman
with a good heart.

I hope you hang on to her.

I'm planning on it.

I'm just really glad that we had this
time together.

Me too.

Cal, I wanted to say I know I wasn't the
easiest person to

live with.

But I just hope that one day you'll be
able to look back and just remember the

good times.

Maybe share some stories about your old
man with your kids, yeah?

You can count on that.

Make sure you live your life to the
fullest.

Because you only get one shot.

If you do things right, it's a hell of a
ride.

We had some fun times in this whole
thing, didn't we?

We sure did.

I love you, Dad.

I love you too, son.

I love you too.

Okay,

we better get going. I love you,
driving.

This is just a little something.

And, uh, why not open it after we're
gone?

Okay.

Do you remember?