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[intense music playing]

♪ Shoulda seen it coming ♪

♪ Oh, look what you have done ♪

♪ Burned all the ground around you ♪

♪ What's left is done ♪

♪ But that's what happens
When you play with fire ♪

♪ Fire ♪

[gasping and panting]

[moaning, heavy breathing]

[moaning continues]

♪ Fire ♪

♪ That's what happens
When you play with fire ♪

♪ I wanna be alone with you ♪

♪ I wanna be alone with you ♪

♪ I wanna be alone with you ♪

♪ I just wanna be alone ♪

♪ I wanna be alone with you ♪

I obviously feel terrible
about, like, how things happened,

and I'm sorry I made you
uncomfortable or like…

-You know?
-Mm-hmm.

Where I'm frustrated and hurt
is, like, I'm owning up

to my actions,

and you're not taking accountability
for, like, any of your actions,

-and that's where I'm just…
-Mm-hmm.

-Yeah.
-Just hurt.

-I just--
-No, I… I hear you, and I understand,

and I do take accountability
for what happened.

Giving mixed signals and stuff,
that, like, wasn't you, you know?

That was me.

I thought I was communicating,
like, this whole time,

and, like, making sure
that we were on the same page,

and I think things were
getting misinterpreted along the way.

I'm sorry. I was really hurt
that you thought I was playing the game.

I've been with one person.

You feel like
I'm some player or something.

This is just me just showing up,
like, as a partner.

I fucked up in that way, and I'm sorry.

I, like, see you for who you are,
and I think you're a really good person.

I've been, like, a shitty partner in this.

Conflict is, like,
I'm realizing, hard for me.

Or, like, healthy conflict.

Yeah, you're very jabby,

-which I didn't expect from you.
-I know. I'm sorry.

You're this like docile, gentle giant

-that can cut out of nowhere.
-[Kyle snickers]

-I'm like, what did that come from?
-I know.

Growing up with sisters
who are really mean, that's like…

In my family,
we didn't, like, work things out ever.

Things were either just fine,
or we'd get in little fights

and just, like, cut each other…

-and then get over it.
-Sure.

Right. Right.

So, I'm learning how to have
conversations like this

for the first time.

Yeah. No. This is great.

So… how do we move forward?

I feel like we can… like, start over.

Like, starting over
but from, like, a better place, you know?

Yeah. All I've ever wanted was just

to, like, hear how you're really feeling

and open up and be vulnerable,
and we're doing that work here,

and feel like I'm closer to you.

Thank you.

I just, like, I really appreciate
the way that you're able to,

like, express yourself
and also take the higher road.

That's really… [sniffles] …inspiring.

-Thank you.
-Yeah.

I feel like you still like…

Sorry, I don't know
why I'm getting emotional.

I just really appreciate, like…

I know we don't know each other that well,
but the fact that you see me

and don't think I'm a bad person.

No, exactly, I keep telling…
That's why I keep telling you this.

I mean when I said
you're so beautiful inside and out.

You don't know what you have to offer.

I want to bring that out of you

so that it's like you are so sure
of, like, who you are

that, whatever you're going through,
you can be confident

that your person will always choose you,
and you're human.

-That's what love and marriage is about.
-Yeah.

Don't be scared of changing
something about you

because you're scared that person's
gonna leave and think you're bad.

And if they think that,
they're not your person!

Yeah.

Pilar made me feel safe

when we were dealing
with a conflict like that.

I haven't really had that before.

Yeah. I don't know. It meant a lot to me.

[sniffles] Thank you.

It's okay.

♪' Cause I'm always all or nothing ♪

♪ But after all this time
I still can't shake you ♪

Okay.

♪ Yeah, it's true ♪

♪' Cause I'm always all or nothing ♪

♪ But after all this time
I still can't shake you ♪

[Magan] You nervous?

-I'm nervous. They gonna grill me.
-They won't.

I think they're gonna grill me.

[raucous laughter]
Come here! Oh my God!

[both laughing]

Hi!

-[Magan] This is Haley. My trial wife.
-Nice to meet you.

-AKA, my Trillie Willie.
-Nice to meet you.

-Trillie Willie?
-[Magan] Yeah.

This is, like,
the most surreal experience.

It's been insane.

So Dayna gave me an ultimatum.

We had to agree to, like, break up.

We spent the first week dating everybody.

So we went on, like, a date

and we literally had, like,
everything in common.

The way that we do things is the same.

Everything we said,
we'd be like, "That's how I feel."

[Magan] The way we live, the way we think.

Our perspective on stuff
is just all so similar,

and something in my gut was like,
I know that this is what I need,

because I've never had this.

It just was a game-changer.

-[Magan laughing]
-Holy hell. Okay.

-[Nikki] Do you mind me asking?
-Ask whatever you want.

Who gave the Ultimatum on your end?

-I gave the Ultimatum on my end.
-Okay.

Yeah. So…

I've been with my ex for ten years.

-Wow.
-[Ali] Ten years? Holy shit!

-Yeah.
-[Nikki] Okay.

Me and my ex are total opposites
in every way.

We would always just be like,
that's the fun, we challenge each other.

Living with Magan, it's been
a very different experience to not have

that baseline conflict.

We almost always are agreeing
on the same thing right away.

Even things as simple as
keeping the house a certain way.

Like, Magan will take the trash out

and I'll have the bag in and
the trash put away by the time she's back.

It's just like we bounce off
of each other in that way.

It's been so freakin' easy.

Even though we're similar, we're able
to pick out the parts that it's like,

"Hey, this is something
that I notice in myself that, like,

I think I could work on,
and I think you could work on it too."

And we've talked a lot
about sitting in the discomfort

of difficult conversations,
and just because it's uncomfortable,

doesn't mean it's bad.

-That's been a very new concept for me.
-Yeah.

[Haley] I think she's great.

I'm super grateful to be
going through this experience with her.

-[Ali] She's all right.
-She thinks I'm great.

-She's like, "She's fine."
-I'm just kidding. That's great.

So, obviously your parents
feel some type of way…

-[Magan] Yeah.
-…about your lifestyle.

If this worked out,
do you think they'll come around,

or is it just gonna always be
like a stick point for them?

[Magan] Being in this environment
with so many queer people,

that's, like, not even talked about.

It's not worth
putting myself in a community

where I always feel I'm hiding
or living two separate lives.

Once you're, like,
starving for something for so long,

and then you feel like
you're kinda getting a glimpse,

you just want to protect that.

There's moments where
I'll stand up for myself to my parents.

But because I wasn't
very secure with myself,

and I just had
a lot of, like, uncertainty,

I never really, like, pulled through 100%.

With Haley and I,
honestly, it's just so different.

I've always been around people
who've been pushing me my whole life.

My exes, my mom, my coaches.

And this is the first time
where, like, I don't feel pushed,

so I have the room to push myself.

-You guys don't normally see me like this.
-[Nikki] Yeah.

-[Ali] No, this is a very different Mag.
-Yeah. Yeah.

[Nikki] Aw, shit.

[all laughing]

-[Magan] Opa!
-[all] Wow.

[Magan] Thank you.

I want to give you guys the…
that, like, Lebanese experience.

You can't eat this without garlic.

You guys are not sleeping
next to each other tonight.

[laughs]

[Nikki] The way you guys look at
each other, it's just, like, comfort.

-Nikki! Okay.
-I'm just saying!

It's… you look comfortable.

You look at ease. And don't get me wrong.

-I've seen that with you and Dayna too.
-Yeah.

-Is your ex masc?
-[Haley] Femme.

-Wow.
-[Magan] A femme couple.

[Ali] Interesting.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

How is that different now
dating a masculine lesbian?

In my relationship,
I am the more dominant person.

-Interesting.
-I'm the person that's, like,

the leader in holding hands.

[Magan] We hold hands.

At one point she was like,
"You gotta put your hand on the back."

And I was like, oh, okay!

[Ali laughs]

Do you guys feel like, at the end of this,
there's potential between you two?

[laughing awkwardly]

[Haley] It makes me feel
like there could be potential there.

Guaranteed, I can never have Magan
out of my life.

[Magan] Same.

Welcome to the squad.

[all laughing]

-Let's go!
-I hope you're prepared for all of us.

♪ I know you ♪

♪ I know you want ♪

♪ I know you want me too ♪

♪ I know you ♪

[Marie] I have never felt more alone.

But it's not your fault.

I didn't realize how much this process
would not just rip off Band-Aids,

but… there are things…

[sniffles]

…that I really thought
that I healed from years ago.

I learned that I did not.

And…

I never had to because the person
that I was processing it with

was literally living it with me.

And that person can't even look at me.

Mel's smile would have been enough.

[sniffles]

[Marie sighs]

I'm maybe a little resentful

that… you have that ability

to just have
two conversations with Britney,

and I can't even walk by my person

who has seen ten years of ups and downs,

and she can pretend
like she doesn't know me.

Should things go awry…

-Mm-hmm.
-…I literally lose everything.

[AJ] Mm-hmm.

I'm losing it.

[AJ] I'm putting aside things with my ex.

I want you to try to do the same
because it's more important

that we take this time very carefully now.

My main concern is my wife.

I care about you.

You just have to let me in.

There's a reason why you chose me too.

Yeah. I know.

I'm not here to hurt you.

I know. I never painted you as that.

I don't fault you for any of it.

Just envious, I guess.

We come from very different backgrounds.

-Mm.
-I stopped talking to my mother.

And then she died.

People don't look at me and think,
she's a victim of suicide, whatever.

People don't look at me
and think that shit.

Mm.

"Oh, you only talk about your dad."

Yeah, I do.

"Oh, da-da-da…?"

Do you want to know?

I mean there's so much
that comes with that, right? Like…

[sniffles]

You never get over it.

It doesn't get easier.

I hid from that for years.

And that shit just creeps up

in all these spare moments that I have.

I'm angry.

I'm very angry.
I'm a very angry person, deep down.

I am very angry at the world.

And I can't control that.

I think you're just in a place where
you're finally having to deal with things

you haven't dealt with in so long.

You work three jobs.
When do you have time to process?

I never had to.

I feel so fucking guarded. [laughs]

[AJ] It's okay.

You have every right to be.

I want you to trust me.

Lean on me
when you don't feel like it's okay.

Like, if you want a hug,
I would always give you a hug.

I want to feel at peace with myself.

And I don't know what that looks like.

♪ Where do we go from here? ♪

♪ Realizing that there's nothing to fear ♪

[Marie] I'm sorry.

[AJ] I just want you to trust me enough
to lean on me.

We'll see.

♪ Where do we go from here? ♪

♪ Realizing that there's nothing to fear ♪

♪ Let's enjoy this time ♪

♪ On this side of life ♪

[Britney] I notice you're very

happy.

Even if you vocalize,
"I had a shitty day at work,

I'm about to have a mental breakdown."
But you're still not sad.

-[Marita laughs]
-Okay, was it that shitty? I can't tell.

[Marita]
You're like, "How do you actually feel?"

Yeah. I don't want you to feel like
since I'm here, now you have to be happier

and not what you would do
even if I wasn't here.

Yeah.

I do put on this… happy Marita face.

I just feel extremely selfless,
like, almost in a bad way.

I don't pay attention to what I need

or how to make myself happy

because I make everybody else
around me happy.

Mm.

I feel like it also kind of
goes back to my childhood.

I'm the youngest of my family,

and there was
a lot of turmoil in my family.

And I had to be the one
with the positivity and the happy face

and make sure that everyone,

if they didn't have
good relationships with each other,

they all could have
good relationships with me

or I could mend an issue.

I have carried that into my adult life.

It's a weird place to be in.

Because I'm not trying to tell you
don't be a people pleaser,

but I want you to put yourself first.

If you need to say no, say no.

Once you do, you're like,
"Oh, this feels so good!"

"I actually did something for me
and I'm not, like, spreading myself thin!"

-Yeah.
-So…

Even with work,
I feel like I owe everybody everything.

I'm not getting fulfilled
in any type of way.

Economically.

Emotionally.

Physic-- Like, nothing from work.

But I feel like I owe them my best.

[Britney sighs]

That sounds very similar
to other things in your life.

[Marita laughs]

-What do you mean?
-You know exactly what I'm referring to.

I want you to stand up for yourself.

Know what you want. Demand what you want.

And like, and accept
absolutely nothing less.

Don't feel like
you have to suppress your feelings

for the comfort of somebody else.

[Marita] Mm.

[Britney] 'Cause you feel how you feel.

-Yeah.
-And you kind of have to develop that.

'Cause if not,
your own peace is gonna suffer.

Wow.

I'm growing.

You are.

[Marita laughs]

I'm done with the spiel.

I loved that. I needed to hear that.

-Should we watch Norbit now?
-Yes.

Okay.

[Britney laughs]

♪ They know how to stop me and ♪

♪ Well, let's run it anyway
Run it anyway ♪

[Mel] I tried to grow a palm tree
in my backyard when I first moved here.

-Really?
-Yeah, and it died.

I don't have a green thumb.
Like, anything I plant dies.

Even my cactus. How do you kill a cactus?

[Dayna] That's concerning.

Should we take our shoes off?

[Mel] Only if you want.
Do whatever makes you happy.

[Dayna] Whatever makes me happy.

Hmm. That's loaded.

Why are you smiling?

I'm people watching.

[Dayna] I talked to my mom today.

Tell me about her. What should I know?

She's truly my best friend.

I feel like no one understands me
as much as her because

I, like, am her in a weird way.

[Mel laughs] Your mom?

Yeah. But, like,
part of saying that is, like, scary,

because I don't want
to be dating around at her age.

I want to have love and a family and…

I don't want to devalue relationships
the way that she has.

And I feel like if I keep getting
let down, I will become like that.

So I don't want to keep putting myself
in a position to be let down.

That was deep.

I don't know. Most people are like,

"My parents had a great marriage.
I want the same thing."

I never had that.

I had to decide how I wanted
to create my vision of marriage on my own.

And I feel like
you just don't have the, like…

will to do the same, but I think
you want the same things that I want.

Don't bring me into this.

You just haven't sat down and been like,

"How can I have something that I want?
In my way, though?"

[Mel] It's not that at all, actually.

I just…

I don't know, bro. It's…

Okay.

I don't know
what you want me to… offer you.

I'm an Ultimatum giver,
you're an Ultimatum receiver.

Like, that's just to start it off.

And then, I think, like,
family isn't your priority,

nor is, like, children.

I want to know you're open-minded
to the things that I want and need

and believe in as much as if I'm willing

to open my mind to the things
you believe and want.

-But you're not, at the same time.
-I'm not?

Okay. How am I not?

If you're talking kids, you're not.

You're trying to have me
come to where you're at.

I think that you don't actually not want
the things you say you don't want,

you just are scared.

Makes me sad, though.

Um…

Growing up, let's say like 14, 15,
I was always, like, weird around kids.

I didn't like holding babies.

People show me pictures of babies,
and I'm just like, eh, you know, whatever.

-Like, "Okay, next."
-Oh my God.

And then when I was 16,

and I got diagnosed
with everything I got diagnosed with,

they told me I couldn't have kids.

And that… if I tried to carry,

I would die or it would die, like…
one of us wouldn't make it out.

And so I kind of thought to myself,

"Well, I didn't really want this anyway,
so… what does it really matter to me?"

Does your ex know this?

-Nobody knows it, Dayna.
-Oh my God.

Why have you never told her?

She's never hounded me for kids,
that's the thing.

I just know she wants it.

She's nurturing, she's caring.

She was one of those people
born to be a mother.

-You could just feel it.
-Yeah.

So she's never pressed me,

but I know that I would be doing
a disservice to her…

-Oh, God.
-…if we were together forever

and we didn't have kids.

You're so lucky you're gay.

Because you have another woman to carry!

You got, like, two bodies
instead of one like everyone else!

I want you to have optimism,

'cause you deserve to,
like, have the things you want.

♪ You might wanna rush
But I will take my time ♪

[Bridget] I love how
he's already made this place home.

I know. Do you think I love him more
than I would love the person I'm dating?

I don't think
I should answer that question.

[Ashley] She's jealous of you.

[laughs]

♪ Yeah, I think you know that
I think you're also fine ♪

-[Britney] Let me get your sauces out.
-Thanks, wifey.

-Careful!
-[Britney laughs]

-So--
-Don't make Wendy squirt.

[both laughing]

-[Marita] Okay, that's so…
-Not making her… cream. [laughs]

[Marita] Stop it! I know.

God, they can't put two lesbians together
for five minutes!

No, for real, five minutes!

-Here you go.
-Thank you, wifey.

You handed me a fork.

That was so sweet.

♪ You say I think you got
the soul in the… ♪

-Did you just break the pasta?
-[AJ] You saw what I did.

Don't bunch your panties in a twist.

Ah!

-[Marie laughs]
-Relax.

You're not allowed to make dinner anymore!

♪ I'm that good
I'm that good ♪

[Mel] What did I just see?

Dayna, you're naked, bro!

♪ Baby is too fine
Keep on running after me ♪

♪ I'mma let you be mine ♪

♪ Maybe I might ♪

You want popcorn?

♪ Let you be mine ♪

♪ Tonight, tonight, tonight ♪

♪ Bet you were the type
Who gets it how they like ♪

[Pilar] You sleeping on the couch tonight?

[Kyle] Yeah. I just, like,
want to be intentional.

I think we both have our boundaries.

-Yeah. We've been explicit about that.
-But… Yeah.

I feel like it's the right choice.

-I agree. I think we're on the same page.
-Mm-hmm.

-[Kyle] I love that.
-[Pilar laughs]

[ice in drink rattles]

♪ You're the one who could be the one ♪

♪ You could, you could, you could
Be the one that I'm looking for ♪

-[Bridget] Okay, you gotta make it wet.
-Yeah.

You get the mound wet

-and then stick your palms in the side.
-[Ashley giggles]

-Turn it on. Yeah.
-That's what she said. [laughs]

You know, like, at hibachi,
the tower of onions that they make,

that's what yours looks like right now.

That's kind of rude. You need to be better
at giving compliments.

-That's just… We're not--
-I'm sorry. It's beautiful, sweetheart.

[Bridget] Thank you.

You're the best pot maker I've ever seen.

-Or flower pot maker.
-That's right. That's more like it.

-Thank you so much.
-You're welcome.

I think that mine's fantastic.

[Bridget] Yours looks incredible.

-That's a work of art.
-[Ashley laughs]

Are you gonna keep it forever?

-You better.
-That's for me?

-Yeah! I don't know what I made you.
-Wow! Thank you.

[laughing]

It's a little plate
that you can use for whatever you want.

You want me to come help you?

Yeah! What do I do?

-Let me show you.
-It's our time to shine.

Oh yeah. You're messing up my bowl!

You have to center it a little bit.

You're making it off-centered.

[Bridget] Forward and on top.
Yeah. There you go.

[Ashley] There, look at it go!

[laughs]

[Bridget] And push in,
and then see how it goes up?

Now you can kinda go like that, and
then just smoothly take it up together.

But you want it to just be
your hands going like that.

Put your fingers… perfect.

-[both laughing]
-[Ashley] Okay. And then pull out?

You want some extra clay?

[Bridget] That's so dry.

I don't know how Ashley feels,
but I feel like

this is kind of a breakthrough
in our relationship

in that it just felt like
we were only thinking about each other.

I feel like Bridget
is being a little flirty.

I feel like tonight, she's been
looking at me different and stuff.

I want to just embrace this relationship
and explore it.

I think it's, like, cute,
and it makes me feel, like, good inside.

She's doing it more often,
like, way more often.

So, I don't know.

We'll see what happens.

I think it's fun for me to just, like, see
how when you put your finger somewhere,

it moves it.

[both laughing]

♪ I think we both know
Where your head's at tonight ♪

♪ She's in your heart
But it's me on your mind ♪

♪ Show me what you mean
'Cause I can't hear what you say ♪

♪ But hold on ♪

I got something for you.

♪ I hope you know that it's up to you ♪

-[exclaims]
-Did I hit you?

It just splashed in my face.

♪ Don't need to know my name
I could be the perfect stranger ♪

♪ Let's have a night we don't remember ♪

♪ Feel me
Want you to need me ♪

[Magan moans]

♪ Feel me ♪

♪ Need you to see me ♪

♪ But in the morning when you call her ♪

♪ She's gonna know that something's up ♪

-That watermelon salad looks bomb.
-Bomb.

-Cheers.
-Cheers.

-Actually, I want that one.
-You do?

-You like that one better?
-Yeah. Sorry.

Anyways. Okay.

I'm just in a silly, goofy mood. [giggles]

[Magan] Silly, goofy.

Goofy, silly. I'm joking.

Yes.

Yeah.

[both chuckling]

[Ashley] It's crazy to think
we're halfway done with this.

I couldn't imagine
doing it with anybody else.

I feel like we just found
so much comfort with each other,

and I think we were so surprised
of the depth of our connection.

-Clearly, like, there's something here.
-Yeah.

You know, clearly some lines
are getting blurry.

Yeah. I do think, like,
a door did open of connecting sexually.

When we did connect physically,

I feel like it did help us
get, like, deeper…

-Yeah.
-…because there is

this aspect of vulnerability,

when it does come to sex,
it just opens another part of you that…

we're just learning together.

I do think we could have gone through
this experience and not done it.

-Yeah.
-I think we would've left with regret.

I think so too.

I'm here to have
an authentic relationship with Haley.

I'm here to have
an authentic relationship with Dayna.

And I think it's important
to be vulnerable.

Haley and I hooking up,
it was definitely more than just kissing.

We hooked up, all the way,

and it's something that we don't regret.

-It's a crazy experience.
-Yeah.

It's just scary to me

because it's so different
than what I have with Dayna.

It's almost, like, incomparable.

They're just two completely…
separate things.

I feel like I learned a lot with you.

Me too.

It's kind of sad.

-Don't be sad. You're gonna make me sad.
-I know, I'm just kinda sad.

-I just feel like my whole life changed.
-Agreed.

This is sparking something new
that I've never had.

I feel like I chose myself choosing you.

Sorry.

[Ashley] No.

-[Magan] What are you doing?
-I'm doing…

♪ How to live things
Late at night ♪

♪ Everything about you
Light up all around you ♪

♪ Show 'em how to shine
Just like you know ♪

♪ You looking like gold ♪

[Mel] Hi.

[Dayna] This is Mel.

-Hi! How are you?
-Lovely to meet you.

[Mel] Good. Good.

It's so lovely to meet you.

Are you having fun?

-Uh, I am now.
-Good. Good.

-[Angela] So what's going on?
-[Dayna laughs]

-[Delanie] We want all the drama.
-Um… Yes.

[Angela] She wants the drama.
I just want to know the good stuff.

So Dayna and I are in a trial marriage.

I think it's going pretty well.

-That's really good.
-Right?

We're so similar.

Like, she's spicy like me,

and hard-headed like me,
and stubborn like me.

Well, at least we didn't have to say it.

-You already know.
-[Mel laughs]

-[Delanie] Yeah.
-Did you know

she beats people up in her sleep?

She'll, like, put her arm around me,
and I go to, like, reach for her arm,

and then she'll like hit me away like,
uh-uh! And I'm like, "Girl, what?"

-[Delanie] Yeah.
-[Mel] That's her personality.

-[Dayna] You're like that too.
-She gets hot and cold, I think.

-She gets colder moods, then she gets hot.
-She came to me. I was fine where I was.

So my whole personality is,
"Come here, go away"?

-Yeah.
-How much longer do you have together?

-This is our two-week anniversary.
-[Angela] Oh!

One more week,
and then we literally won't speak.

She's been my whole life
and support system for two weeks.

My world revolves around her every day.

You know I've been close
to very few people in my life,

and with Mel, the way that I was able
to get so close to her so fast

is still mind-blowing to me.

Talking about my emotions,
you know I hate that shit.

So scary to think that she's just gonna be
gone from me for the rest of this time…

You guys are going to be back
with your other safe places.

-What if it's not the same?
-You aren't going to be separated then…

It's not going to be the same!

[Dayna] You've learned
to need this person.

-We're all different than three weeks ago.
-I know. It's not going to be the same.

Dayna became a different person
when she started dating Magan.

She was definitely,
in her older teens, younger twenties,

like, more aggressive, more just kind of--

More than this?

-Yes.
-[Magan and Dayna laughing]

When she started dating Magan,
she got a new vibe to her.

Like, she was just a lot happier.

Yeah.

Softer.

Magan has really made her
a better person, I think.

I mean, I love Magan.

[Angela] I love her too.

Yeah.

[Angela] If you're ready
for the next step,

and I know you guys love each other,

then… I mean, you have to figure that out.

Yeah.

-♪ In the rearview mirror ♪
-♪ Mirror ♪

♪ Checking all my nightmares
Thinking they're in… ♪

♪ In the rearview mirror ♪

[Dayna] My mom and my sister's opinion
is very important to me.

Magan brought so much to my life.
I haven't spoken to her in two weeks.

I was like, "My God,
what's going on with her? Is she okay?"

I just couldn't take it anymore,
and I call her…

♪ In the rearview mirror ♪

[Dayna] How can you talk to me like this?

[crying] What did I do?

Magan, please just tell me.

How can you say that?

I don't even know
who I'm talking to right now.

How could you do this to me?

You're treating me like I'm nothing.

Who are you? Because you're not the person

that I came here with,
and I thought I was going to marry you.

I'm going back to Michigan.

My whole world is upside down right now,
and I don't understand.

I just don't understand
how like… you're my person!

[indistinct dialog]

I would never abandon you,
you are so bullshit to even say that.

You're treating me like I'm nothing.

I'm so disappointed in you too.

[sniffles] I still love you.

I don't think
I've ever fallen apart like that.

I've never needed
anyone like that in my life.

And she just didn't care.

It's the worst feeling
I've ever felt in my life.

[Mel] What happened?

[Dayna] She literally told me to fuck off.

[Mel] What was her reason?

[Dayna] She said,
"I do not care about you. I'm done."

"Go home if that's what you want.
I don't give a fuck."

"Stop calling me
or you're getting blocked."

I'm telling you,
Magan has never spoken to me--

I literally do not believe
that this is her.

Now I can't breathe. I cannot breathe.

I feel like I'm going to die right now.

♪ I'm with my girls ♪

♪ Tonight I'm in my zone
I'm with my girls ♪

♪ Yeah, we're here alone ♪

[Mel] Why do I feel so small?

-[Pilar laughing] You've been shrinking!
-You're not small!

-Hi!
-Hi, guys.

-Hey!
-[Bridget] Hi.

-What's up?
-Okay. Whatever. That was awkward.

[laughing]

[Marita] How's Bentley?

[Bridget] Ah, so good. So cute.

Ashley's mad because he cuddles with me
more than he does with her.

-Nuh-uh! Don't tell me that.
-[Bridget] Yeah. Oh, sorry.

-Bridget!
-Dogs love me.

-[women] Hey!
-[Magan] Ah!

-What's up, guys? How are you?
-[Bridget] Hi.

Good. How are you?

[Magan] Good. Good.

-[Marita] Hi, Magan. How are you? My God.
-How are you?

[laughing]

Cool. Glad you're here.

[Marita]
So we're all brought here by our exes.

Yeah. We were all issued the Ultimatum.

Yeah, I feel like
I really just realized this today,

but having a wife as a femme,

which I never considered or thought,
because I need to be the femme.

Anyways, um, she'll do my lip liner
and I'm like, okay, this is hot.

Do you guys feel like
you have like an emotional connection?

I would say for me,
I think the emotional connection

comes from, like, what I'm looking for.

She makes me feel like I am her wife.

-Like I'm there.
-I love that.

Like, I am always
going to be her first priority.

I'm not saying Ashley doesn't do that,
but she needs to do more of that.

-Mm-hmm.
-Which I don't think should be an issue.

-[Bridget] Mm-hmm.
-Britney is more attentive.

I hope whatever she's learned from you,
Marita,

that she can put back into, like, us,

because that could be,
like, the it factor for me.

Yeah. Yeah.

♪ I like the way
You look at me so endlessly ♪

♪ You comfort me ♪

[Dayna] Thank you.

This is wild.

[Dayna] Wild.

-How you doing?
-[Dayna sighs]

I don't even know anymore.

Sometimes I just don't know
if I'm losing my shit.

-[Ashley] Oh no.
-[Haley] All of us resonate

-because we're the Ultimatum givers.
-Right? We all do.

-Yeah.
-Yeah.

It's just like, why am I not good enough?
That's how I feel.

It's not that.
You're good enough in your own way.

It is, and I know
exactly what she expects.

-It is top-freaking-tier.
-Top-tier.

[Ashley] No, I'm not even kidding.
It really is.

[Britney] It is a lot,
but for some reason,

the way I naturally show up
for my partner, like, it's not a lot.

-Because I just genuinely want to do that.
-Yeah.

I'm not saying
you guys don't belong together,

but either it's going to take
a lot of work or just…

They're going to be like, "I'm settling."
You have to meet in the middle.

Yeah.

How are you guys? Oh my gosh.

Like, how's your life? How's it going?

It was really hard the first week.

AJ wasn't exactly feeling
the same things I was. Right? Like…

How so?

[Marie] I was not speaking to my ex, Mel.

But… you guys were talking.

And that was really hard.
It was a hard pill to swallow.

AJ made a commitment to you
in this experience,

like we all did for somebody here,

to be your support system
in this with you.

And you were robbed of that.

-She robbed you?
-You deserved so much better than that.

Than AJ?

She wasn't supportive even though you were
living two different struggles, I guess?

How can you be supportive
if we're living different struggles?

It was a very lonely road at first.

-I had to find myself very quickly.
-Yeah.

And, literally, I lost my shit doing it.

[quiet, uncomfortable laugh]

[Dayna] I so get it.

I'm sure I wouldn't be as scared
if I was your ex.

And you're with Marita.

You are probably just going to be
best friends and have a great time.

Whereas, like, being Marie?

Like I get it.
There's more there to be threatened by.

And that's so uncomfy
and so, like, terrible of a feeling.

Mel is truly amazing.
I will never, ever not love that girl.

I don't know how real
any of your guys' experiences have been,

but mine has been very real.

But, like, that's the whole point.

We're supposed to truly figure out
if this is somebody we want to be with,

-and do they want to be with us back?
-[Britney] Yeah.

We're all in agreement on that for sure.
That's the point of this process.

We're all here
because we issued an Ultimatum.

And we all agreed to this.
No one forced any of you guys to do this.

I feel like I'm getting
more and more ready.

-Mm-hmm.
-So almost yes.

My biggest fear is that
Haley realizes that, like, it's not us.

I feel like I can really obsess with,
like, what is my ex-partner doing?

Is she falling in love?
Did I wait too long?

Yeah, it's hard.

[Magan] I want you to know
that I respect you.

I would never do anything to hurt you.

[Pilar] It's hard not to spiral.

What has everybody liked and disliked
the most about their trial marriage?

[AJ] There was a time where Marie,
she was having a really hard time, in…

like, getting over… Mel.

That was hard to watch her go through.

I think it was just acknowledgement.

What do you mean?
Like, me not acknowledging her?

-[AJ] Mm-hmm.
-Doing what I'm supposed to do?

We saw you at the pool.

If I see any one of y'all, I say…

We don't need to have
a five-minute conversation.

-I had the same experience.
-But yeah, just saying hi.

That's hard.

Especially for somebody
you've known for ten years.

Like, I could never imagine that.

Because she went through two weeks of hell
and could not focus on our relationship.

It took her literally three days ago
to turn shit around.

For me, when I see Dayna,
and she can't even, like, look at me…

I didn't come here to run off
in the sunset with anybody else.

I came here
to supplement my own relationship.

Damn, I can't even get a hello.
That really hurts.

If my partner can't acknowledge me,
I'm not going to sit there

and run after this person
like a puppy dog.

I'm going to create space,
because I can't rely on you.

I have to learn how to rely on myself.

I don't think you should
continuously punish her.

I'm not punishing her.
I'm just creating my own space.

-If she needs you, are you always there?
-Yes.

Every time?

I mean, I don't think anyone's perfect.

If my partner reaches out to me
hysterically and needs me, I'm there.

'If my partner says, "I need you,
you're the only person I need,

-this is what I want, nobody else…"
-I'd be there in a second.

…I'd be there in a second.
I would answer every call.

I wouldn't tell her not to call me again.

Between yesterday, I think you guys
have punished each other enough.

What happened yesterday?

-What… I… Never mind.
-No, I mean…

Yeah, I don't want to get into it a lot.

I feel like I've been hurt a lot.

Would you like to talk to me?

Like, privately?
I would like to talk to you.

-Yeah.
-Okay. Come on.

[AJ] That was intense.

♪ Broken ♪

That affects everyone here.

♪ You left me in the darkness ♪

[Marie] How have you been?

-[Haley] It's been a lot.
-Yeah?

I didn't even realize how bad I am
at talking about my own feelings.

But what I've seen in Magan
is that she's very open

about talking about her feelings.

And it does make me feel very comfortable
to, like, share how I'm feeling.

It has felt very intimate.

Magan and I have been having
an emotional experience.

My hope is that me and Pilar,
we can have our work

that we've done on ourselves,
come together and, like, mesh.

But I recognize that
the other option is that

the work we've been doing
on ourselves will push us apart.

I think she's fully recognizing that
and being like,

"I have not been showing up for Haley."

"I've been putting my needs first
and fully neglecting her."

That's something that she's realizing.

So I'm just encouraging her to like…
You guys will have your time together…

[Haley] It's terrifying.
It's very scary. It's a risk.

Now that I have decided to go all in,
it is a big question mark

because I'm not saying, like,
I'm 100% confident

where I'm coming out of this at the end.

I think Magan will always be in my life
just because she's had

-such a profound impact on me.
-Mm-hmm.

I just never could have imagined

that's what I was gonna get
out of this experience.

To be perfectly honest,
as an Ultimatum giver,

was not what I was expecting.

Um…

This shit is just so hard.

I didn't expect any of the things
that have happened to happen.

I feel like I've just cracked.

I almost left last night, to be honest.

I don't know
that I have a future with Magan.

-[Haley] Why do you say that?
-Yeah, I was gonna say why?

[Dayna] Um, well, we spoke.

She actually just simply
didn't give a fuck that I exist.

Magan knows how much it takes
for me to, like, ask for help…

or, like, fall apart.
I don't do that shit. Um…

And, like, knowing that she is,
like, who she is to me,

to, like, tell me
that she just doesn't care,

I don't recognize
the person I came here with.

I feel like Pilar is feeling similarly.

If Pilar is feeling some kind of way
about the way that I'm acting,

I have put my feelings aside
for a long time.

I don't want to be a tyrant
to Pilar after this,

but I just want
to meet in the middle a bit more.

But, Dayna, I think that this is just
how Magan wants to deal with it.

I know that you guys had a conversation.

I was not present for it, I didn't hear.

See, I don't believe that though.

I am telling you,
I have known this girl my whole life.

I did not recognize this person.

I literally was like, is this Magan?

Like, I genuinely… I misread you,

and I'm a little confused
on your intentions.

Why is Magan, like, fueled by anger?

From what Magan's been hearing,

you've been taking
the experience very seriously.

-Mm-hmm.
-The fact you haven't been speaking,

I think that neither of you
were assuming good intent from the other.

I'm sad that she's just going
in an opposite direction.

I don't think it's fair
to say she's reverting.

She's done so much work.

She is resenting me and hating me.

Is that your own brain
playing tricks on you?

No, I talked to her
and then she confirmed everything I said.

She was like, "Go home.
Have a safe flight."

I'm sorry, Haley,
but what has she learned?

Because she's actually, like,
digressed, in my opinion.

[Haley] She's making a ton of growth.

It just might not be
the growth that you're expecting.

[Mel] Speaking as her trial wife,

Dayna and I are very similar
in a lot of things.

And that's why we chose each other.

What she explains to me is
that she's there for you a lot,

and you are always her person.

She loves you,
she relies on you, she needs you.

And I know that she felt yesterday,

she really needed you,
and you didn't show up.

But there's a difference, and I want you
to understand what the difference is,

because it's important.

When I feel like
I need help, I will ask for help.

-You know she doesn't do that.
-She doesn't.

She didn't initiate a conversation saying,
"I'm going through a really tough time,

I need you to show up for me.
I don't know what to do."

It's, "I'm breaking up with you,

I'm going home, this isn't for me,
I don't want to marry you."

It's like, why would I even think
that you would need me in this time

when you're just telling me this?

Who in their right mind would think that?

You know her though.

Yeah, but here's the thing,

just because I know,
doesn't mean I'm going to enable it.

-You're being extra.
-No, I'm not.

-Personally, that's how I feel.
-But that's your opinion.

-Do you show patience, understanding?
-Yes.

Are you sure? Because I don't think so.

She's so scared that, like,
well, something's going on with Haley.

-She's freaking out.
-Who wouldn't be scared?

I'm doing my own thing
with my trial partner.

But are you willing to let it all go

just because you can't communicate
on the same level?

Are you willing to work on that
during your three weeks?

It depends on Dayna's growth.

I mean, honestly,
from yesterday's conversation…

It put a really bad taste in my mouth.

[women laughing]

…what she's saying, I'm trying to figure
a way to meet in the middle or not.

-[Marie] Ah, God.
-[woman] No, I know.

-[Dayna] Do you want to talk?
-Do you want to talk?

-I think we should. Right?
-Oh God.

It's funny how much
you feel like you know somebody

from hearing about them from an ex.

I want to make sure you're okay.

The fact that you're asking me
if I'm okay right now, that's crazy.

There's obviously a lot of reservations
that you and Mel ended up together.

Surface level, like, you and Mel are hot.

I don't know what the fuck you're doing.

Me and Mel were transparent
that we do have a connection,

that, like, we do have an attraction.

We were very transparent
from day one about that.

But I also, I feel like,
expect you to, as our partners,

to give us some, like…

Give us a little bit of fucking trust
or benefit of the doubt, goddamn.

Is that what you're doing
with Magan right now?

Giving her the benefit of the doubt?

I was this entire experience
until I spoke to her.

No benefit.
I heard it from the horse's mouth.

It, like, physically tears my life apart.

Magan, she's my whole existence
and, like, being.

But I can't live without Mel either.

So I don't really know what to do,
and I know it sounds so selfish…

Do you guys like each other?

There's feelings there.

Whatever capacity it is,
I just need her in my life.

-Um, I haven't had, like…
-Really?

…the safe space
that she's given me in so long.

She is just so there.

I don't even know
how to, like, ever repay her.

If she comes back and says,
"I'm in love with Dayna,"

okay. I can't do anything about that.

Yeah, that hurts and stings.
Maybe that isn't the case. I don't know.

But that's not a conversation
you and I are going to have.

Oh…

Okay, yeah, I mean, that makes sense, but…

-[Marie] Hi, pals.
-Yeah.

-Hi.
-[Dayna sighs]

[inaudible] Do you want to talk?

[Marie] How are you? You okay?

Yeah, actually,
I would regret not saying this to you.

I don't know
if I'll have another opportunity.

Jesus Christ. Okay.

I'm just not trusting
where Dayna and Mel are at.

Why?

I… have heard things.

What have you heard?

Just like… I don't know,
it's hard because…

-I feel like now we're…
-Just say it. Just say it.

I've heard that they've been
much more romantically involved

than they're, like, letting on.

[sighs]

There's lots of receipts.

Not from me.

Anything that anybody does
is going to come to light,

no matter what it is.

♪ There's something in the darkness ♪

♪ Hiding in the heartless now ♪

[Marie] I'm, like, shaking.

♪ X is where we mark this ♪

♪ Watch it while it all burns down ♪

I… I'm going to, like… Hm.

I don't really know
how to take that right now.

-I'm sorry.
-Don't be sorry.

♪ How do you sleep at night? ♪

I… genuinely, I think you deserve better.

♪ Secrets, secrets
What have you done? ♪

♪ Secrets, secrets
Three, two, one ♪

-Hey.
-Hi.

How are you?

Fucking peachy, darling.

I can tell, you need a hug. You look…

-Very angry. But…
-Yeah.

Um…

Haley came up to me…

And she basically told me
that she has proof

that Mel and Dayna are fucking.

And this is, mind you,
like, the last five minutes.

And I'm really angry.

Yeah.

The fact that I can…

feel the way that I felt…

while she's playing house.

Hm.

Fuck that.

♪ On the edge of it all ♪

And the fact that Dayna sat next to me…

♪ On the edge of it all ♪

♪ Who will fall? ♪

Am I an idiot?

How did I not, like…

Mm. Well, we're going to find out.

Because I'm literally not going to bed
tonight without talking to Mel.

I'm not.

I'm not sitting on this.

I need to know. Like, immediately.

You have every right.

Go get your answers.

♪ On the edge of it all ♪

I will literally fucking go
on every single floor screaming her name.

I will find her ass.

Because that's bullshit.

♪ On the edge of it all ♪

♪ Who will fall? ♪

♪ Who will fall? ♪

[dreamy EDM music playing]

♪ Go, go ♪

♪ Go ♪

♪ Is it everyone or just me? ♪

♪ Go, go ♪

♪ Go ♪

♪ Is it everyone or just me? ♪

[song ends]