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How are you real?

Because my Deanna Doll
needed me.

Poison is slow-acting.

Well, it needs to move faster.

Do you fantasize about Ted
when we're together?

Not with you.

-With Carlton.
-JESSICA: And I'm sorry

for missing your big moment.

But I was having
a pretty big moment myself.

Hooking up with my brother?

Mr. Baldwin,
I didn't know you were in town.

I refuse to shake
the hand of the man

that's responsible
for my son's death.

ASHLEY:
Derek,

he gave us all
that he had to give.

IZAIAH:
That Derek would sacrifice
his own life...

...to save my brother.

It's a debt I can never repay.

-[moaning]
-MARTIN: Um!

I'm sorry. Um, I didn't know

you were getting busy.

I-I meant to say "occupied."

ANITA:
Oh, Vernon.

Thank you.

Uh, good morning to you, too?

I was coming in
to grab a cup of coffee

on my way to check out
some new fabric swatches,

but I figure I could spare
a minute to have breakfast

with my favorite stepfather.

Who, me?

-[chuckles]
-You've achieved
favorite status.

As opposed to "only"?

-Upgraded when you agreed
to that shoot in Korea...
-Mm-hmm.

...so that Mom can go to Tokyo

and watch our ChelseaKat bags
strutting all over the runway.

Yeah.

I didn't...
[sighs] I didn't realize

how much I wanted her
to be there until she told me.

So, thank you, Andre.

Yeah, it's no biggie.

There's nothing I wouldn't do
for your mom.

I know.

And I'm glad.

She deserves to be happy.

And she's found that with you.

Yeah, so have you.

With Madison.

-Mm-hmm.
-So, how's wedding planning
going?

[sighs] Just when you think
you've got a situation handled,

it grows wings

and starts sprouting
all kinds of new problems.

I'm pretty sure
that's not a saying, but, uh...

[chuckles]
I-I know what you mean.

[chuckles]
Well, I'm trying to be hopeful

-that I'll get organized...
-Mm-hmm.

...now that Naomi's able
to start pitching in.

Ah.

I'm guessing her mind
wasn't exactly on you

and Madison
jumping the broom with...

Jacob being away.

-Right.
-Mm.

I'm just...

I'm stunned she had
any headspace to help Dad

with Madison's lawsuit,

considering
all she was dealing with.

And all without saying a word
to any of us.

Yeah, yeah. It must have
really taken a toll.

Good morning, sleepyhead.

[both chuckle]

Good morning to you, too.

How did you know
I wanted breakfast in bed?

[both chuckle]

♪ ♪

-About time.
-I spoke

-to the Impaler's
right-hand man.
-And?

That dude is the only person
to ever have direct contact

with the blood man-in-chief.

Okay. Did they say
why they want to meet?

He didn't really offer much
in the way of details.

And I figured
you didn't want me to press,

this being
a new contact and all.

You figured right.

I want them to understand
that I do not want them

conducting business
in my territory.

I got you.
We're on the same page.

Same page.

Not just the same book.

I will make sure
the meeting is on your terms.

Good.

I'm not walking into an ambush

like what happened at
the warehouse the other night.

Especially now that I have
so much more to lose.

Hey.

You came.

Of course I did.

-Oh, I remember that album.
-[chuckles]

I found it in Doug's home office

when I finally started going
through his personal effects.

Haven't been able
to stop looking at it.

[chuckles]

Like this picture right here.

[chuckling]

That is adorable.

He loved making silly faces.

This is how I like
to remember him.

Not...

bitter, suspicious, addicted,

like he was in the end.

You've been avoiding
going through Doug's things.

Did Derek's passing
prompt you to start now?

[clicks tongue]
Uh...

Maybe that's part of it.

That memorial was so moving.

And... all the work he did

for the clinic
to honor Doug's memory.

Derek was such a nice guy.

He didn't deserve
being cut down in his prime.

No, he did not.

You said Derek was part of it.

What's the rest?

The twins.

I think maybe the reason

Deanna and Donnell can't, um...

accept me being with Joey
is because...

...they realize in some way
I haven't...

fully moved on
from their father.

You have to allow yourself

to feel all of your emotions,
Vanessa,

not just the ones
that you think are appropriate.

It's your psyche's way
of processing death.

And only then will they and you
know the answer to that.

Mm. It feels like...

-one step forward,
nine steps back.
-Mm.

-Grief is a strange animal.
-[sighs]

You hear a song
or someone walks the same way

as the loved one you lost.

Next thing you know,

you're in tears.

You really know your stuff,
Dr. Dupree.

That and I definitely know you.

Stop policing your feelings,
Vanessa.

Process your past with Doug
in your own time

on your own terms.

But be sure you really allow
yourself to go there.

Yeah.

Whew.
[chuckles softly]

Are you giving yourself
the same wise advice?

Or are you still beating
yourself up

for fantasizing
about your ex-husband?

Shanice.

Shanice?

Oh. I'm sorry.

I didn't see you standing there.

Clearly.

What's going on?

Just having a really tough time
dealing with Derek.

Although Nicole
was very comforting

when we spoke about it
the other day.

I knew Nicole would have
the perfect thing to say to you

in your time of need.

Wait, you...

asked Nicole to talk to me
about my grief over Derek?

I could see you were hurting
and-and needed someone

to talk to.

Then why didn't you
just talk to me yourself?

Because she is uniquely
qualified to help you with this.

She's one of the best
psychiatrists in the area.

So you thought
I needed professional help

more than I needed you
to just simply talk to me?

Things have been pretty tense
between us recently.

I didn't want to say
the wrong thing

and then have us
end up back at one.

I am noticing a pattern
with you, Ted.

First you ask my aunt
to speak to me

-about not giving up
on our relationship.
-[sighs]

And now I find out you asked
your ex-wife to comfort me

over the death of a dear friend

because you were too scared
to do it yourself?

I was not scared.

What was it then?

I never said
I was beating myself up

about a few stray thoughts.

Well, you may not have laid it
out in exactly that way,

but I know my bestie well enough
to know how much you value

coloring inside the lines.

Always the proper lady.

That may have been true
once upon a time,

before I learned
about my husband's affair

and his child with someone else.

That Nicole,

the proper lady,

she is long gone.

She would never have dated
two men at the same time.

Or have X-rated fantasies
about a third.

They are not fantasies.

They are...

intrusive thoughts.

Fantasies are something
that you want to happen.

Intrusive thoughts just thrust
themselves into your brain.

Nice use of the word "thrust."

[sighs]
You really are too much.

Maybe even for Joey.

Oh, no.

-I am precisely enough woman
for Joey Armstrong.
-[laughs]

Who incidentally occupies
all my fantasies

and please-intrude-more
thoughts.

[laughing]

But doesn't it give you pause

that neither Carlton

nor Kial does that for you?

Spit it out.

I just noticed
you've been different lately.

-Have you now?
-Mm.

Just a bit more cautious.

I chalk it up
to Vanessa's positive influence.

Oh, so you're saying that,

before Vanessa entered my life,

I would go to this meeting
with the, uh...

Impaler with, what,

guns blazing?

No, boss.
[chuckles]

You know, I'm the last person
to ever think

that you would do
something so stu--

so... reckless.

High praise.

Boss.

Just... before,

you were all about the business,
all right?

To hell with the risk.

But now...

I have a stronger sense
of self-preservation.

Is that
what you're tiptoeing around?

Hey, boss, you're the one
with the words, not me.

I'm more of a connect-the-dots
kind of guy.

Well, it's good
to be self-aware, Randy.

And, yes,

my priorities have shifted.

Back to the matter at hand.

This Impaler,

he has a serious body count,

including Derek Baldwin.

And I'll be damned if I
or anyone in my organization

ends up the same way.

This meeting
has to go down my way

and only my way.

Naomi could have been a widow

if Derek hadn't done
what he did.

Yeah.

We'd be mourning Jacob
instead of Derek.

Don't get me wrong--

I'm totally sad.

But... you seem really upset.

What am I missing here?

I guess I've been feeling some
guilt ever since Derek died.

And thank God for Dani.

She's been helping me...

dig through this.

Oh, that's right.

Before you and Mom got serious,

you and Ashley
were almost a thing.

Yeah. And because of that,

there was some awkwardness
between me and Derek.

In a way,
I-I believe that Derek and me...

...ended up
in a good place though.

And now we have...

to thank him.

Thank him for more
than we ever could repay.

It's because of him that Jacob
was able to make it home safely

to Naomi

and to everyone else
who loved him.

[Naomi moans]

-[sighs]
-[chuckles]

[panting]

-[sighs]
-Wow.

-[chuckles]
-I missed that.

What, you mean
our occasional hookups

while you were undercover
wasn't enough?

When it comes to making love
to you,

-there's never enough.
-Mm.

-[Naomi moans]
-[gunshots]

What? What's wrong?

Nothing. Nothing.

Wait, wait, wait. What happened?

Why did you pull away?

I just wanted to see
my sexy wife better.

It's been way too long
since I've been in my own bed

with the woman I love.

Now, where were we?

NICOLE:
I assure you,

Carlton and Kial

leave me very satisfied
in the bedroom.

Hmm. Well, then maybe
you're craving satisfaction

in less traditional places.

Like the Hall of Presidents,
for example.

Oh, I knew it was a mistake
telling you about that.

How often do I get to be the one
standing on high moral ground?

-Climb down before you trip.
-Here I am,

back in a monogamous
relationship...

-With a criminal
-...while you're sleeping

with not one, not two,
but three men.

Mentally speaking, of course.

I am so happy that you find
my dilemma so entertaining.

I promise I will be serious
for the rest of our conversation

if you'll be straight with me.

Okay. Fine.

You're right.

I ambeating myself up

about having steamy thoughts
about my ex.

I-It's just it makes me really
uncomfortable to be around him.

And-and the two of us just
finally got to a decent place.

And now there's this whole

-chief of staff nonsense.
-Mm, explain, please.

Ted went off half-cocked

and recommended to
the Garland board of directors

that I should take over
Lia's old job.

Kial thinks that he's doing it
to score points with me.

And if he did?

I pray for Shanice's sake

that Ted isn't playing
those kind of games,

especially since I have
absolutely no desire

to get back together with him.

So you keep saying.
Let me offer you

the kind of advice that
Dr. Nicole Dupree would give me.

Oh, boy.

I think you need to talk to Ted.

And say what exactly?

"Ted, I know I said I would
never get over you lying to me

"while I was having miscarriage
after miscarriage,

"your affair with a psychopath,

"and your illegitimate child
that you brought into our lives.

"But...

I can't stop thinking
about jumping your bones."

That about sums it up.

You give terrible advice.

Do you know that?

I am not listening to you.

Mm.

Stop pressuring me.

[groans]
Okay, fine.

Maybe you're right.

-Took you long enough.
-You know what,

I should.
I should go to Ted's office,

hash this all out
once and for all.

And maybe you can ask him
directly

if he put you up
for the chief of staff position

because he's trying
to win you back.

No. That is irrelevant.

The two of us are done.

Stop doing that.

Mm-hmm.

[sighs]
I am going to tell him

about the fantasies though.

Really?

What do you think he'll say?

It doesn't matter.

It's me taking control

-of my emotions.
-Mm.

And hopefully,
once they are out in the open,

they will lose

all of the hold that they have
on my subconscious.

Or maybe you'll sweep
everything off his desk

and get after it
right there in his office.

Why do I even talk to you?

Because you love me.

[both chuckling]

Where are you going?

To the casino.

To hang with the subject
of all my carnal fantasies.

[chuckling]

You go do that.

Hmm. Let me know
how it goes with Ted.

SHANICE:
I guess

I can understand
why you may have been cautious

about approaching me...

...considering how I reacted
when I saw you comforting

She Who Shall Not Be Named.

But I told you
that I was not going to let fear

or my insecurities
get in the way of us.

And I meant that.

I know you did.

And I should have trusted
that we were good

instead of letting my own issues

get the better of me.

Yes. You should have.

You can talk to me now.

It's not like
I haven't lost somebody before.

But Derek was
just so unexpected.

-Mm.
-And he was so damn young.

-Mm.
-It's, like,
really hitting me hard.

He was your friend.

[chuckles]

Eventually.

Lord knows
Derek was not perfect.

That boy made
all kind of mistakes.

But he almost always was...

...easy

and open with me, you know?

Mm-hmm.

We had a lot
of good times together.

I'm just really gonna miss him.

I know
what you're going through.

I thought the Earth was knocked
off its axis when, uh,

I lost my brother
and my sister-in-law.

Mm. Andre's parents.

You know, the pain, it never...

goes away,
but it gets better with time.

The memories stop being painful
and become...

comforting, oddly enough.

Well, let's just pray
that you're right.

It will take time.

But one day,
you'll be able to...

remember Derek and smile.

[chuckles softly]

I am looking forward to that.

-Mm.
-Okay.

I can't do this right now.

Not here.
[sniffles]

Of course.

[clears throat]
I, um...

-Thank you for your words.
-Mm-hmm.

And for asking
and for listening.

I got to get back to work.

All right.

I'm glad you're slowly getting
to a better mental place

with it all.

Yeah, me, too.

But, okay... [chuckles softly]
enough with the sad.

You said that you were en route
to check out some swatches.

-Mm-hmm.
-Outer leather,

the lining, or both?

[laughs] You really want
to hear the boring details

of my meeting
with our manufacturer?

It's far from boring.

Chelsea,
your-your color palettes

-and your swatches...
-Mm.

...they're just like my flashes
and my-my-my lenses.

-Oh, okay.
-Yeah.

-What's up? How y'all doing?
-Pretty good.

Shouldn't you be heading
to the police station?

No worries. No way I'm-a be late
for Jacob's commendation.

I just needed to grab
a little breakfast

and run a quick errand.

The food at these cop things
tends to be...

-inedible.
-[chuckling]

-I'll catch y'all later.
-CHELSEA: Bye.

Later, man.

You know, Derek would have loved
to be there today for Jacob.

I didn't know him very well,
but...

with what happened and...

and everything Gran
just went through,

it really stresses that life
is too short to waste any of it.

I want to spend
every waking moment

cherishing the people
that I love.

Especially Madison.

Yeah. I feel the same way
about Dani.

In a short amount of time,

your mother has become
the center of my world.

And I never could have
anticipated any of this.

But now I...

...I don't know
what I would do if I lost her.

-[sighs]
-I can lay like this all day.

Yeah, that would be heaven.

But not today, unfortunately.

-You have a commendation
ceremony to get to, Detective.
-[sighs]

And your mom would certainly
knock me upside the head

if I made her son
miss his big moment.

Yeah.

Right.

What is wrong?

And I want the real answer
this time.

It's just that...

I'm back home now

and about to be made a fuss over

when the whole time
Derek is the real hero.

[sighs]

Hey.

Hey, look at me.

I will be grateful to Derek

till the day I die.

But that doesn't mean you're
not every bit of a hero, too,

Jacob Hawthorne. Do you hear me?

It's just hard
to see myself that way.

Well, that would make you
the only one.

Aunt Nicole would call that
impostor syndrome.

Because you...

are one of the most authentic
people I know.

You were beaten up,

shot at.

Jacob, you risked your life to
bring down the Red Market ring.

Only to have
the ringleader get away.

This isn't over.

Not by the longest shot.

Not until everybody responsible
answers for Derek's death.

I won't stop until the Impaler

and everybody associated
with him is behind bars.

RANDY:
What do you need me

to spell out
for the Impaler's guy?

The meet will happen here
at the casino.

No weapons.

One bodyguard each.

Set it for the end of this week.

-[door opens]
-I'll reach back out,

make it happen.

And I'll be on my way.

Something I said?

Uh, no.

He just knows
that we like our privacy.

Which seems to be
something we need right now.

Something's on your mind.

Are you still going
through Doug's things?

Yes.

But that's
not what's bothering me.

So what is?

This business with Jacob.

Telling you that the issues
with the Impaler aren't over

and he plans to bring him down.

So?

He clearly thinks you're the man
behind the Red Market ring.

Is there a question in there?

Yes.

What are we going to do
about it?

Good morning, Shanice.

How are you holding up?

Depends. Are you asking for
yourself or for your ex-husband?

I'm sorry how that came out.

I take it that Ted admitted

that he asked me to speak
to you the other day.

He did.

I hope you know
I was concerned enough about you

that I would've done it
on my own.

Of course.

Don't mind me. I-I don't know
why I'm being so sensitive

about this.

Nicole, I've always
considered you a friend.

You know that.

It's just...

It's weird for the guy
that you're seeing

to be asking his ex-wife
to console you

in your time of need,

especially when he should be
doing it himself.

-That part. [scoffs]
-[chuckles]

I remember way back
when we were struggling

with our fertility issues.

Communication
wasn't exactly Ted's strong suit

-in a time of crisis.
-Mm.

I'm sorry that you're
experiencing it for yourself.

No offense, Nicole,

because you know I've always
looked at you like a role model,

but the last thing
I want to copy

is the mistakes you and Ted made
during your marriage.

No offense taken.

I understand.

But I do think
that you should learn from them.

Like keeping
the lines of communication

as open as possible.

Thanks for that great advice.

Really.

Here's hoping it brings
Ted and I even closer.

Here's hoping.

[chuckles softly]

Oh. Duty calls.

I've got to go check
on a patient.

Of course.

What are we going to do
about Jacob's suspicions?

Yes.

We can't have Dani's son-in-law
coming after you, can we?

Especially because you had
nothing to do

with the whole plasma thing.

You've had much more experience

evading law enforcement
than I have.

So, again,

what are we going to do to...

redirect Jacob?

Find him another crime to solve?

As long as it distracts him
from my favorite casino owner.

[chuckles]

Don't worry about it.

It's been handled.

Mind elaborating?

I would.

But you redirected very quickly

from my question about whether
you've been going through

Doug's things, if you...

if you made any progress.

I found an old photo album

with photos of Doug and I
over the years.

All the way back
to when we were teenagers.

I can see why
that would stir things up.

Yeah.

That's putting it mildly.

It reminded me
of the kids we used to be.

How exciting it was
sneaking Doug behind the gates.

Oh, you loved sneaking around
even at that young age.

Yes.
[chuckles softly]

But the man himself
was pretty damn appealing, too.

He was so focused
on the dreams we had,

making himself fit
into my world,

making sure I had
the life I was used to.

He did everything for me, Joey.

How did we start out
so connected

and then end up miles apart?

Is that gonna happen to us, too?

You and Doug were kids
when you met.

We're adults who know who we are
and who we are to each other.

So, no.

That's a relief.

-I aim to please.
-[chuckles softly]

And if I ever bore you,

please tell me right away.

I'll do everything I can
to fix it.

You... could never bore me.

You are not gonna lose my mom.

Okay, at one point, it did seem

like my mom
would never get over my dad.

But now she's as all in
on you as you are on her.

I'm not worried
about losing Dani to Bill.

She is finally starting to heal
from everything

-he put her through.
-Mm.

She won't be going back.

This is more about
how random life is.

I mean,
look at your grandparents.

One minute, Vernon and Anita
are this ultimate power couple

reigning over Fairmont Crest.

And the next, Anita is
literally fighting for her life.

And Vernon's powerless
to help her.

You're worried that my mom will
develop breast cancer like Gran,

aren't you?

You got Lia, Ren,
and some of their associates.

You brought an end to their
entire operation in the DMV.

You won, Jacob.

It's not enough.

It will never be enough
until the Impaler's doing life

in a maximum security prison.

I owe that to Derek.

[knocking]

It's open.

You got a minute?

Oh, for you, always.

Please tell me
you've come to say

you've reconsidered going after
the chief of staff position.

[chuckles]
Not in the least.

Okay. What can I do for you?

I think it's time you and I
have an honest conversation.

I'm all ears.

I think that you have noticed
that things have been

a little awkward between us.

-Definitely.
-Well, that was
a rapid response.

Because I've been wondering
about it myself.

I mean, sometimes
you're perfectly civil,

like when you agreed
to talk to Shanice for me.

And other times you're so abrupt

you practically bite
my head off.

What's going on with you?

It started around the time
of our anniversary.

"Started"?

What exactly are you trying
to tell me?

My beautiful Nicole.

-[panting]
-TED: Nicole?

Um...

You caught that quick.

I've never even told Dani
about that.

-About my fears for her.
-[sighs]

You have
to just keep telling yourself

that it's just a possibility.

It may never happen.

Except things
that may never happen,

they happen all the time.

And then it blows
your life apart.

When I lost my parents, I...

I was determined
to never allow myself

to become too attached
to anyone anymore.

Even Uncle Ted and Aunt Nicole.

I bet they weren't having that.

You know it.

But I...

I kept trying
to build those walls.

It was like
if I didn't really love them,

then I wouldn't get hurt
if I lost them.

They say grief is love
with no place to go.

So if you don't love,

then you'll never have
to grieve anymore.

What a terrible way to live.

I'm sorry.

I shouldn't have said that.

Nah.

No, you're right.

When I look back at my life

and how I kind of designed it
over the years,

it's like I was living
with this hollow space

where my heart should be.

Mm. Made it easier
to be a player, I guess.

Yeah.

If you don't become
too attached,

you can't get hurt.

Or worse--

lose the person you love.

But now you have caught
feelings.

And they're for a woman who has

a potential ticking time bomb
inside of her.

Yeah. And the deeper
I fall with Dani,

the more terrified I am
of losing her.

And if I have
all of this circulating in me

and I'm not even living
with the damn gene,

then I can imagine
how she actually feels.

NAOMI:
You owe yourself

a life, baby.

And I know how important it is
for you to honor Derek's memory,

but...

But?

So I should just forget
about him?

No.

Of course not.

I just want you to remember that
you have other responsibilities.

To me,

your mom, your dad,
your brothers,

and everyone else
who love and depend on you.

You know to some level

the hell I went through
when you were undercover.

I couldn't sleep.

And every time the phone rang,
I couldn't breathe

because I didn't know
what I was about to hear.

And now you're talking
about going back

and putting us
through that again?

I know it was difficult
for you, babe.

It was hard as hell for me, too.

My God, especially
with all the other things

that I've been going through.

What else have you
been going through?

I apologize for interrupting.

Oh, nonsense, Izaiah.

I was just leaving.

-Joey, I'll see you later.
-Okay.

Nice seeing you, Izaiah.

You, too.

[door opens]

To what do I owe the pleasure?

I was just stopping by before
I went to the police station.

Ah. Your brother's commendation.

You know about that?

Not much gets by me.

That's actually why I'm here.

This is a judgment-free zone.

Unburden yourself.

You've always been straight
with me.

And always will be.

Just tell me
if you had anything to do

with my brother
almost being killed.

[sniffles]

For a moment, I...

I thought
I needed someone to talk to.

And I called the only person,

the one person...

...that was guaranteed
to make it worse.

The one person

who could break
what little heart I had left.

[shuddering]

JOEY:
I want you

to hear this, Izaiah.

Really hear this.

I will never harm
any member of your family.

Even if...

Never.

Full stop.

That's how much you mean to me.

[exhales]

[chuckles softly]
I knew that.

Or at least I hoped it.

[chuckles]

Count on it.

Here it goes.

I've been...

[knocking]

Oh. Excuse me.

I didn't know
anyone was in with Ted.

-I can come back later.
-No, no, no, no, it's fine.

Um, I can come back later.

You sure? Sounded like you had
something urgent on your mind.

It wasn't as pressing
as I thought, actually.

I'll leave the two of you to it.

[phone chimes]

Uh, was there something
you needed from me?

I thought
about what happened earlier.

-Mm.
-And I did overreact

about you asking Nicole
to talk to me.

I know Nicole
was nothing like your other ex,

and I have no reason
to be sensitive about it.

Especially since you're
the only woman in my life.

Come here.

Okay. Look, I'm sorry.

I know this BRCA situation
affects you, too.

I wasn't trying to start
my morning off on this note.

-[sighs]
-It's okay.

Really, it is.

I'm just glad
you felt comfortable enough

to open up to me.

-Yeah.
-[chuckles softly]

The evolution of your marriage
to my mother

-is crazy.
-[chuckles]

I never expected to be excited
to grow old with someone.

But now I'm-I'm looking forward
to, uh...

to meeting all the different
versions of Dani...

...and having
different experiences.

I'm sure she wishes

-the same. Mm-hmm.
-Yeah?

I just hope
she's not hiding her fears

about this variant like I was.

My mom isn't one to hide what's
in her heart or on her mind.

She's so relieved

that she didn't pass the gene on
to Naomi and me.

I think whatever
she's expressed so far

is how she actually feels.

Well, if that ever changes
for whatever reason,

I'll be there with her

to power through.

It's nothing. Uh, I just meant,

you know,
having to be there for Gran

and the rest of my family
while she was battling cancer.

Babe, that isn't nothing.

I know dealing with this
stirs up your own worries

about Dani having
the BRCA trait.

[sighs]
I'm sorry.

We've been talking nonstop

about everything
I've been going through

and my grief over Derek.

The last thing I want
is for you to think

I don't recognize
how hard this has been for you.

So if anything important
has happened in your life

since I've been undercover,

I want to know.

I need to know.

♪ ♪

You know, I-I will catch you up
on everything you missed later.

But today,

today is about you.

And we've got to get going,
so, um...

Mmm. To save some time,

you want to hit the shower
together?

Absolutely.

[chuckles softly]
Okay.

I'll be in there soon.

All right.

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