All language subtitles for Madi Has Cock on the Mind - Madi Collins, Clarke Kent - PervTherapy

Come on in.

Ah.

Addie? Hi, Dr. Kent.

Lovely to meet you. You can call me
Clark.

Okay. Welcome to my office. Come on,
take a seat.

How was your journey here, okay?

Yeah. Oh, my journey was good. I ate a
bagel, and the bagel was really yummy,

but I don't know. I wish I almost got
to. I really...

Should have gotten a little bit more,
but it's okay. Me and my family are

out to dinner tonight, and so I was
planning to eat, and yeah.

Okay. So you like bagels.

I'll make a note of that in case we ever
go out for bagels sometime.

So I'll tell you a little bit about
myself and our practice here.

I've been at this office for 20 years.

I graduated, yeah, 2002.

I help a whole range of different
clients, people like yourself.

We should be able to just have a
comfortable chat. So I really want you

to make yourself at home, to feel
comfortable here. So we can just have a

conversation. I've done this for years.

Family therapy. I really enjoy helping
and seeing lives

transform. And really, it's the habit
shift.

Habits.

are really what make our character, and
that's who we become.

And so it can be a very small thing that
will change, but the pattern will

repeat and grow.

I'm going to hope to change your
patterns and change your habits, and

able to help you as we progress.

I will be filming.

You see we've got a camera here, a
couple of cameras.

This is so that I have notes of our
conversations, and I can also monitor

behavior.

as we look back over the tapes and see
your improvements okay so i hope that's

good um before we begin i just want to
start you know with some simple

conversations uh when do you go to
school um is school fun for

you you enjoyed that yeah i mean
school's fun for me i don't really get a

lot of work done i just kind of like
hanging out with my friends

I don't know, I really like lunch
because like you can just talk and talk

entire time and like all my teachers get
super mad at me whenever I'm in class

because they always say I over -explain
myself or I tell too many stories or I

distract the other kids or I'm like a
student in the classroom or some other

things, but they usually just tell my
parents about the rest.

But, you know, school is super fun for
me. They're super like... A lot of stuff

to do and a lot of people and all
different kinds of people. You get to

meeting different kinds of people all
the time.

So, I don't know. It's really fun. But I
don't like my English teacher. My

English teacher does not like me at all.
And she really has it out for me. Just

because, like, silent reading is
supposed to be silent because it has it

in the name. Like, it doesn't mean that
we can't, like, discuss the books that

we're reading. So, I don't know.

School's fun.

School fun.

It sounds like there's a lot going on,
but not so much working and studying and

homework, for example. How does homework
go when you're left to your own

devices? Are you able to focus on that?

I guess I pretty well without.

doing homework and I don't think that's
bad but there's so many other things to

make use of your time with during the
day not more and more school personally

but I still take all my tests and I
still show up to every class so I still

maintain the average but without the
homework okay and then in your free time

when you're not having to study what
would you spend most of your time doing

what do you enjoy doing oh I love

cleaning the bathroom I'll like clean
the bathroom like three times a day it's

super fun or like rearranging all of my
pens that's super fun for me too um but

no I mostly just like annoy my older
sister or so she says she always looks

at me for popping in and out of her room
wanting to do her makeup and just

trying to like hang out and spend time
like get her up and going because she's

such a slow like So key person.

And I just really want to break her out
of her shell because I just can't

imagine a life like that.

You have to have a bunch of projects
going and get something to fulfill you

with. You can't just sit down and focus
on just one thing. That's so boring.

Well, sometimes it can be good to focus
on one thing.

I had it in your notes that this is one
of the things that you've been

struggling with is conservation.

Your attention is difficult to focus.

Do you ever find that happening when
you're... I mean, I wouldn't call it

struggling. I can focus on some stuff.
It's just a lot of the stuff that I

like focusing on, I just won't because
there's so many other fun things to look

around on. If you're in the classroom
and you look out the window and get to

a bird and a squirrel playing with each
other, wouldn't you rather do that than

read Shakespeare?

Yeah, but sometimes it's important to
have to shut out the other distractions

you can...

get this more important thing um i think
this is what we should try and work on

is to focus your concentration a little
better okay so moving

forward is there something you would
like to pursue in the future a career

but what was it you would like to focus
your whole life on um i mean ever since

i was little i wanted to be like a brain
surgeon so like cutting open brains

and, like, being all inside of people
and stuff. I really like that.

So, I don't know. I think you have to
have, like, a fast mind to do that. And

have a really fast mind. And my mom
always says I have a really fast mouth,

But, like, I don't know. I think I'd be
really good at it.

And, I mean, I didn't start, like,
getting all, like, jittery and crazy

like, a few years ago.

But nothing's really helped with it.

But if I could stop you there, brain
surgery is normally quite focused and

calculated.

they can't sort of be distracted and
wandering off looking at the squirrels

the window. That's why I need to fix
this.

Okay, so you would like to fix it. You
see that there's a lacking

a problem with the behavior.

I mean, it's fun and all, and it makes
me who I am, and I just kind of started

to accept it because nothing's working.
We've tried pills, we've tried shock

therapy, we've tried all sorts of
things, and nothing really works.

Hopefully I can just still be a brain
surgeon if I'm like this, but we can't

it.

Well, I think we can fix it because I
know I've seen people with the same kind

of symptoms, the same signs, the same
attention deficit that you have, and we

fixed it. But we didn't use medication.
We used alternative methods.

I practice what can be a little
different, a little unusual behavior

shifts here and pattern changes.

And over time, if we can focus, for
example, on one task, then we could

repeat that possibly.

If we could focus, for example, for one
minute, then it's possible we could

focus for two minutes.

And then for three minutes. And before
long, you'd be able to focus for a whole

ten minutes.

Ten minutes is a long time. Yeah.

I can't even focus on it for ten
minutes.

No. But if you're going to do some brain
surgery, that would take longer than

ten minutes, wouldn't it?

We'll slowly wake up. Yeah, it takes
many hours actually.

But it's possible. I want you to know
that it's possible. I mean,

I've heard good things about you and
you've been trying all sorts of

methods on me and I'm really willing to
try anything at this point to fix this

because this isn't the life that I
really want to be living for all of my

I mean, right now it's fine. It's making
me popular in school and popular with

everybody, but...

Because I don't know how to shut up.

A brain surgery client or a patient

probably doesn't want me to tell them
everything on their chart, you know?

Yeah, you will have to learn what
information is relevant and what

is not relevant. It's kind of like a
filter that you're going to...

You're going to have to... I wish I had
those.

Well, you do. It's just we're going to
have to work on it a little bit.

We're going to strengthen your focus,
strengthen your filter, so you can

distractions and focus on the important
things.

You really think that you can try and
make that happen?

Absolutely. I'm very confident.

I want you to trust me.

It's an important first step that you
believe this is possible.

Because if you don't believe it, then we
can't even take that first step.

And I can tell you that there's...

You know, always the first step and the
second and the third and the fourth. And

I can tell you there's, you know, many
more steps.

But if we just take the first one
together, then we'll have confidence to

the second one, the third one, and so
on.

You know, I've heard it before.

I've put my trust into a lot of doctors
in the past over the course of this

illness. And I'm willing to put my trust
in you for this appointment.

If I see something I like or it's
something that helps.

We can keep moving and keep trying to
fix this thing, but I just need to keep

moving forward if not.

Yeah. Well, my goal is that when you
leave here today, you'll walk out and

you'll think, wow, I was able to focus
and concentrate on that task. And you'll

take that with you. And this is just day
one, remember. You'll come back. We'll

review the tapes. We'll go to step two,
step three.

You will see progress, but it will be
small.

But progress is progress. Think of a
tree.

The tree starts from just a small little
seed, an acorn, and it grows to a big

tree, but it happens very slowly.

We're going to take our time.

All right?

Let's start there.

How about we start with a little test?

This is just for me to be able to
observe how you focus on this little

Think of it like a little game that
we're going to play.

A little game?

Yes.

Okay, so these are just random.

ink blot images and what we do is we
just make a fun game and we say what can

you see there what does it look like to
you can you guess what's that okay okay

what's a gape like a game oh

okay like a hole in the ground uh how
about this

it'd be another way up it could be this
way what do you think what comes to mind

Butt plug.

A butt plug?

Like that would be the plug going into
the butt.

Okay.

Okay.

Well, I'm happy that you seem to be
focusing on the game. You're enjoying

game.

I can see that.

I like games.

What do you think now?

Come.

Come?

Big splatter of come.

OK.

Well,

you've actually done very well there
because that was at least a minute.

Oh, really? Of focusing on... Well,
that's a good game.

Yeah. I'm happy you enjoyed that one.
We'll come back to that.

Another game, sometimes your attention
can be drawn, like you get out the

window, there's squirrels, there's all
different things in the room. I like

squirrels. You like squirrels.

Squirrel. So what we should do, no, I
was just joking.

Squirrel.

No, stay here with me in the room.

Let's bring our focus to the room.

And then very specific, find things
like, for example, shoes are white,

So let's count how many white things are
in the room. So it's like one, two.

Can you see any other white things?

Let's look around for white things,
shall we?

Look behind you.

There's a white thing there.

Yeah, I mean... So I want you to name
the white thing so we got the, you know,

you could say, like if I was playing the
game, I would say shoes.

And I'd say, the blinds.

Um, two.

That's it.

Blinds. Keep looking around.

Um. How many are the white things?

Desk. Desk is white.

Um, and the back.

And those are the back.

And, um, what were we doing?

The white things.

Oh. Remember?

Right. What white? Count the white
things. Any more white things in the

Um... The crowd?

Um... Light?

Um... Hey, is that a picture of your
dog?

He's a cute puppy.

Yeah. How old is he? That's my puppy.

He's four.

He was a puppy in the photo. That
picture helps look good.

Just to let you know. Oh, thank you.

I'll straighten up the picture.

I feel like... I feel like your
concentration lacked a little bit on

didn't it? The pick the white things.

Were we playing a game? Yeah, trying to
focus you here in the room. Where we are

here and now.

Sorry.

Yeah,

well that's why you're here.

Let's get back to this. You were able to
focus on these. Remember this one?

I don't remember that one. Yeah. So,
let's play a game, okay?

I like games.

You like brick?

It's not the best.

Okay.

Draw an interpretation of things you
see, and we'll see how you do with

for a minute.

Remember to go back with the images
you've seen already.

Remember the plug?

You said it was like a plug of some
sort.

I remember.

Uh -huh.

You're actually quite good. You're a
good little artist, aren't you?

I try my best.

I enjoy what comes to mind.

Yeah, I can see what's in your mind.

Oh, quite graphic detail you've gone
into for us.

Okay, so you like spaceships. I can see
them all, the rockets taking

off.

I call them cockets.

Cockets?

It seems that a little...

If you don't mind me saying it, a little
sexual theme here that you

really focus on the drawing. The drawing
game is... Yeah, I always kind of like

drawing. It's kind of just a good way
to, like, express yourself.

And, I don't know, nobody, like, can
hold a conversation with me long enough

me to, like, express one's thoughts,
sort of thing.

So drawing's really, like, a good outlet
for that.

What do you normally draw when you're...
when we're drawing.

Is this pretty?

Yeah.

Do you always draw these kind of images
when you're doodling?

I mean, whatever comes to mind.

Is it this that seems to come to mind
most? Oh, this.

Oh.

See, it's pointing at me. Yeah.

I can see that you're focusing on...

on sexual activities yeah okay um

if i could just take your pen there just
for a second oh i'm using it yeah this

was only an exercise to see how focus
and concentrate which you did very well

you did more than a minute right so i'm
very impressed it seems your

concentration comes alive in the realm
of imagination

rather than in the here and now in the
room remember when we did the white

things or you know if I remind you like
we're here and here's a pen I just want

you to follow with your eyes the pen
that's the only we're just going to

minute just going oh it's over there
let's just follow look look at the pen

there and then we'll come over here
that's it

That's it, and I'm just going to keep
moving the pen, but I'm going to go, oh,

it's a different direction. Oh, it's
different. You never know where it's

to go.

Keep following the pen for me.

That's it.

Over here.

There it is.

Whoa. There it is.

I noticed you struggle to focus in the
here and the now.

You seem to have a very active
imagination when it comes to sexual

Is that a bad thing? That's not a bad
thing.

It's something I can help you with.

Just touch me for one second.

We're going to do another little
experiment. Another little game.

Okay? Whatever you think will help, Doc.

Okay. So, close your eyes.

All right.

And look.

Oh.

Surprise.

I mean, are you really supposed to be
doing that? I mean, you just kissed me

your office. It's a little
interventional.

Yeah. Is that, like, is that okay? Like,
you're going to kiss me?

I'm going to kiss you some more.

Now, I know it seems strange, but you've
focused on you.

You weren't thinking about what you're
going to have for dinner. You weren't

thinking about the squirrels.

You weren't even drawing. You weren't
thinking about your homework that you

don't do, that you haven't done yet.

Where were your thoughts while we were
kissing?

I guess just in the moment.

But I was feeling not anything else.

In the moment. The current feeling.

It's what we're calling the here and the
now.

I don't know if I've been there before.

The here and before.

I think you have been, just when you've
had the sexual

time.

That's where you're here and now.

Do you want to go there again with me?

Do you want to try it?

What do you mean?

Just another kiss.

Mm -hmm.

Thank you.

Very good.

Yeah. You're here in the room.

I'm here in the room.

Mm -hmm.

How does it feel? Clear?

Sharp?

I can't believe that it worked, even if
it's for a

second.

If you can do a second, then we can do a
minute. If you can do a minute, we can

get to ten minutes. We can get to an
hour.

I don't know if I'd ever be able to do
an hour of that.

you know, fully focused in, but I've
heard it's possible.

Not today, but let's try and get to five
minutes.

We can do ten minutes, or an hour.

I just need you to focus here in the
room with me, okay?

I don't think I can.

Well, this might seem a little
unconventional, but we're gonna

play a little battle game.

We're going to... Kind of special game.

Well, I think you've played this one
before.

You're able to focus here on this,
right?

Yeah, yeah.

I'm able to focus on it.

Now, when you see there, what comes to
mind?

It's a little bit like your drawings,
isn't it?

Pretty realistic.

Yeah. I guess I want to fuck it.

Uh -huh.

Sounds like a good idea.

You think you could do that for one
minute?

You want to try?

Could we focus on putting it in your
mouth to begin with?

Uh -huh.

That's not going to be weird, right?

That's why we're here.

Day poker.

Day in the room.

on to something here. You're focusing,
you're concentrating.

Keep doing what you're doing.

I'd like you to take your clothes off
for me, okay?

So it's still sexy. We're still doing
sexy time.

That's it. Stay focused on the cock.

Good girl.

Very good.

Ta -da!

Okay,

why don't you kneel down for me? You've
got the drawings. Remember those cups.

I love cups.

I love cups. I love cups.

That's it.

Stay focused.

Aww.

Yeah. Yeah.

Stay focused. The longer we can achieve
this concentration, the better.

That's it.

Stay with the good feelings.

minutes is this. It's a lot. I feel you
keep track.

Exactly. That's how you know you're in
the moment.

You keep curving me, Doc.

concentrate a little longer

keep

that tongue out keep your mouth open

that's it there you go big look that's
it remember the

tongue

Keep your tongue out. Concentrate.

Concentrate on your tongue.

That's a good girl.

There you go.

Ready?

Yeah.

You focused for all that time, didn't
you?

I think I'm cured, Doc.

You'll never be cured, but we can work
on your habit patterns.

It's going to get better and better and
better.

I like this new medicine.

Does it taste good?

Yeah, Doc.

Same time next week? Mm -hmm.

That

concludes

our session for today.