All language subtitles for Two.Steps.From.Hope.2017.1080p.AMZN.WEB-DL.DDP2.0.H.264-NTb

What is hope?

It's a feeling of expectation,

a desire for something
good to happen.

It can be something
small and simple

or it can be something so big

that it changes
your life forever.

But we all need it
and we all have it.

I think we're all born with
a natural ability to hope,

to dream, and to believe in
something bigger than ourselves.

But then things
happen, life gets hard.

If you're not careful
and you don't protect it

you can lose your
hope and without it

bad situations only get worse.

But if you can hold
on to hope even in

the toughest storms
eventually you'll find peace.

It's Michael.

Daddy can
you play with me?

Hey Blake,
yeah good to hear from you.

Did you get the
paperwork I sent you?

Hey Dad,
can I talk to you?

Perfect,
how did it look?

Do you have any
questions for me?

Great.

Michael come
on, get off the phone.

Hey we're ready
to launch on our side.

You're
family needs you.

So whenever you guys

are ready let's get
this thing done.

Philly, tomorrow?

Yeah yeah I can be there.

Dad can
you please hang up?

I really need to talk to you.

Daddy?

Daddy?

- Yeah I'm fine.

I just had that dream again.

- Nevermind, just a dream.

- Michael honey it's
almost midnight.

You need to get
some serious sleep.

- I will, just give me
like 15 more minutes okay.

- Michael you're a
workaholic honey.

If I give you 15 more
minutes you're gonna be

on that computer until three
o'clock in the morning.

It's Saturday.

You didn't spend any
time with me or the kids.

We don't know the
difference between

your work week and
the weekends anymore.

- Look I feel terrible, Maria--

- We don't want you
to feel terrible.

We just want you around.

Alright dinner
Landez's tomorrow.

- Oh yeah.

- Oh yeah and hey no cell
phone tomorrow please.

- Promise.

I will I promise, got it.

- Alright.

- Goodnight.

- Goodnight, I love you.

Jamie I've noticed
lately that you've been

hanging out with Liam a lot.

- I guess.

- It's alright he's a
nice boy, I like him.

Are you two serious?

- No Mom we're just friends.

- Just friends okay
okay that's great.

- Just give me a second.

- No put it away, away.

- This could be
about the promotion.

You know I'm just glad

because I would
much rather have you

hang out with Liam
then with Rachel.

- Hey it's the Adams family.

That never gets old.

- Really, I think it would.

Come here
buddy, how you doing buddy?

- I'm doing good.

- Still working on it.

- You'd better get it.

You're the most qualified
for this position.

- I can't argue with that.

I have a meeting
tomorrow with my boss

so we should find out.

- Well we'll be praying
for God's will to be done.

Thank you.

- Hi Jamie, hey Graham.

You guys want to go
shoot some hoops?

- Sure.

- See you buddy.
- Bye sweety.

- Bye bye.

Those two right?

- We can pray for spouses.

- Absolutely.

- Oh let's do this okay.

- So anyway.

- Let's go check the grill.

- Great idea.

Hey Maria I have
som awesome news.

What?

- Hey bud.

I'm so happy.

Nice job.

- You're father
got the promotion.

- Well it means that your dad is

in control of a big
part of the company.

I'll be dealing with
some pretty major clients

and some pretty
significant corporations.

I will have to work
longer hours but I think

the vacation package
makes it well worth it.

Not to mention the raise.

Oh hey which reminds
me we're supposed to

get together with
my boss and his wife

at their lake house
Friday at 6:30.

I hear it's so
gorgeous up there.

Okay Jamie I'm gonna
need you home Friday

at three o'clock okay,
you need to watch Graham.

- Mom you knew I was going
to Rachel's party on Friday.

Number one I do not
like you hanging out

with Rachel and you know it.

Her family let's her
do whatever she wants.

And number two your
responsibility is to
this family first.

And when we need you,
you need to be here.

- Whatever.

I never get to do anything
in this dumb boring town.

- Yes.

- It's nothing.

- Come on sweetheart.

You want to tell me about it?

- I don't know,
it's this promotion.

You're gone all the time
whether it be work or business.

And when you're
home you're either

on your phone or your computer.

And this town is so boring
there's nothing to do here.

And my only friend
is a bad influence.

I just hate sacrificing
for everybody else.

- Hey I know how you feel.

But your mom and I, we also
know that Rachel drinks.

And we know she really
does make bad decisions.

Jamie she's just not
the kind of influence

we want to have on your life.

You and mom drink all the time

and a little drinking
doesn't hurt anybody.

- Okay this little attitude,

you know it doesn't fly with Mom

and it's not gonna fly with me.

You're gonna get grounded.

Jamie look we love you and
we care about your future.

That's why we don't want
you to hang out with Rachel.

Can you please
try to understand?

- Fine, whatever.

- I guess.

- Okay.

Hey, I love you.

- I love you too.

- Hey I'm not so
sure about my tie.

What do you think?

Should I switch?

You like this one?

- I think you need to stop
stressing out about the dinner.

You don't have to dress
up for your boss anymore.

Daddy.

- Hey buddy, I love that shirt.

You like golfing?

- Yeah.

How about we go to
Fun Putt tomorrow

and celebrate my new job?

- Yeah.

- Yeah, alright.

Wait wait,
I gotta get a picture.

- Let me get a
picture of my guys.

Good job.

- Hey do you know
where your sister is?

- No.

- No, well she's
got to be somewhere.

So let's go find her okay.

Hey Jamie it's time to go.

Jamie?

Hey Jamie?

She isn't here.

- What do you mean
she isn't here?

She's not here.

- She has to watch
Graham tonight.

I'm gonna call her.

She's not picking up.

What?

- No.

- That girl.

I bet she snuck out and
went to Rachel's house.

I'll call her mom.

Hi this is Maria
Adams, Jamie's mom.

Is she at your house?

No?

Really?

No that's fine, that's fine.

No but if you do see her
send her home, thanks.

Apparently Rachel
told her parents

she was coming here tonight.

What?

- Yeah, so we don't know where
either of these girls are.

- Give Judy a call and just
see if we can bring Graham by.

Alright.

- We'll just deal
with Jamie later.

Okay.

- Oh that girl.

- I just don't understand it.

It's like they think they
can control my entire life.

Well I'm a grown woman now.

And I'm gonna decide from
now on what I'm going to do.

- At least your
parents care about you.

I got busted last week for
taking my dad's whiskey.

All he did was
make me pay for it.

They could care less
if I was alive or dead.

- I wish my parents
didn't care so much.

And it's like they
even care anyways.

They just want me to do be a
live in babysitter for Graham.

Here let me have some.

I don't need you
puking on me again.

- It wasn't the beer,
it was your face.

Yeah?

- My parents are gonna
be gone the entire time.

Rob and his cousin
are coming to stay.

You totally have to be there.

- Whoo!

- Yeah totally.

- Hey.
- Hey buddy.

- Hi sweetheart.

How'd it go?

- It went good, he was good.

- Oh thank you
thank you thank you.

I know it was last minute,
I really appreciate it.

- Thanks so much Judy.
- No problem.

- Have a goodnight.

- Bye hon.

- Jump in the car.

- Goodnight, drive
safe you guys.

Ambulance
one to Buraliard.

Buraliard, go ahead.

Buraliard we're
in route, trauma XP.

We got a really young patient

ejected from a car, hit a tree.

CPR's currently in progress,
nearly in completion.

Have not yet
established his vitals,

we can secure it along the way.

I wouldn't have
had to bury my son

if you'd just waited
to answer your phone.

Say something.

Say something!

- No you don't get
to put this on me!

Your work always come before us!

Graham would be here right now

if you didn't answer that phone!

- The message was from Jamie.

I was checking to see
where our daughter was!

Why would you stop
me, I'm not worth it?

Of course you are.

- You don't get
it, it's my fault.

All of this is my fault.

- It's not your fault Jamie.

It's not, it's painful
but not your fault.

- My parents can't
stand to look at me.

My best friend wants
to drink her life away.

And you, you deserve so much
better than garbage like me.

- You're not garbage Jamie,
and you're not worth this.

You're going through something

no one should ever
have to go through.

But you have someone who
loves you desperately

and is constantly pursuing you.

- Who could want me
after all I've done?

All I did to my family?

- Jesus.

Liam, I know the whole
church thing works for you.

But here in real life
where real things happen

there's no Jesus there to help.

- Look I don't doesn't
seem like much help

but I promise you
Jesus loves you

even when it seems
like no one else does.

- How can he love me
after all I've done?

- I don't have all the answers

and there's still a
lot I don't understand.

But I know who does
and I know who to ask.

If you come to church
with me tonight

I'm sure my youth
pastor can help

with some of your questions.

- I don't know.

I don't think it's
really for me.

- Just give it a
chance, you'll be fine.

- Fine.

- You must understand
that your value

does not come from
what you have.

It doesn't come from
what you have done,

nor what your friends say
about you or your family.

Your value comes from God.

Now have any of you
ever sold something?

- Yeah I sold my phone to Luke.

- Yeah and it broke.

- 100 bucks.

- Okay so Jacob placed
a value on that phone.

And Luke had to pay that value

in order to claim
that phone as his.

Well the same goes for you.

You see God placed
a value on you.

And he wanted to
claim you as his own.

So he then purchased
you with his son's life.

You see you are God's creation.

You are a masterpiece.

You're value comes from
God through Jesus Christ.

It's through Jesus that
you have been saved.

Through Jesus that you
have been made new.

All of your past, your
faults and your failures

they have all been forgiven.

You have been set
free in Christ,

freedom from your old
self and your past.

See Galatians 3:29
it tells us that

sense we belong to Christ
we are now his heirs,

and that God's promise
to Abraham belongs to us.

Our value comes from this.

We are heirs to Christ.

We are his people, his
family, we are his.

When you accept
Christ into your life

you become a part of his family

and all else falls away and
you inherit the kingdom of God.

If you have ever wondered
if you have value

or if you are worth something,

when you accept
Christ into your life

you become a part of
God's royal family.

That is where your value lies.

That is where your worth lies.

That's awesome, hey let me
know what he says to that.

- Alright.

- Hey I'll see you next week.

- See ya.

- Liam, hey how's
basketball going?

- It's going pretty good.

Gonna make varsity?

- If I keep practicing I might
but I brought Jamie today.

- Jamie, Liam's told
me so much about you.

Do you have a minute?

- Sure.

- Come, sit with me.

I'm so sorry to hear
about your loss.

How are you holding up?

- Fine I guess.

- I understand it's
difficult to see

what God has planned for
us in times like these.

And it's far more
difficult to understand how

anything good can come
from something like this.

- How can he allow something
like this to happen?

Isn't he supposed to love us?

- Oh he does, he does love us.

In fact it's in times
like these that we

experience his love on
even a much deeper level.

You see God knows the pain
you are going through.

And he's walking with
you during this time.

You're not alone.

Take tonight for example.

You could be doing
anything else.

But your here, why?

- Well because Liam invited me.

- Yes true but why
did he invite you?

What was happening when
he asked you to come?

What could you have done that
God stopped you from doing?

You see what I mean?

There is a plan for you.

Your life is precious
and it has a purpose.

I have nothing to offer.

- That is a great place to be.

You see far too
many people think

that they have to have
something to offer to God.

But in reality there is nothing

that comes even close
to being worthy.

Only his son Jesus
Christ is worthy.

But Jesus died for you so
that when God looks upon you

he sees what Jesus did for you

and not what you have to offer.

You see Jesus changes
your worth and your value.

Listen Jamie next week our
group is going to a youth camp.

It's gonna be four
days where you can

spend time with
others who are walking

through this life
just like you are

and wondering the same
questions like you.

You know it's gonna
be a lot of fun,

there's gonna be a band, food,

and I happen to have an open
spot if you'd like to come.

- I don't know it
seems nice and all.

I just don't think
it's really for me.

- Just think about it.

We leave Wednesday morning
we come back on Sunday.

Okay I'll
think about it.

- Michael, you gonna be in
here all day again tomorrow?

Because Jamie needs her
dad and I need a husband.

It would be nice if you
could join us again.

Where were you?

- We were at church.

- Church won't
change what you did.

- I'm not trying to
change what I did.

I'm trying to change who I am.

Maybe you should too.

Oh hey.

- Liam go home.

- Look she didn't do
anything she just came to--

- Go home.

Yeah I'm fine.

See you later.

- You know where I was.

- I need to hear you say it.

- I was with Rachel okay.

We were at the old
bridge. I'm sorry.

- You've ruined this family.

Are you even gonna
help me with this?

I can not do this anymore!

I can't even look at you.

- I thought we had a deal.

For 25 years I've
given you everything.

You were not supposed to give
me more than I can handle.

I know I'm not perfect.

But I'm trying to be good.

I'm trying to do what's right.

How much more do you want?

How much more can I give you?

How much more will you take?

My son.

My wife.

What's next?

Is my life a game to you?

Then count me out.

Please.

I don't want to play anymore.

Please I'm done.

I'm done.

I'm done, I'm done, I'm done.

No more please no more.

Please.

No more, no more.

- I'm going to Liam's.

Are you okay?

- Of course, everything's okay.

- No Jamie I'm sorry he's at

open gym this
morning practicing.

He should be home
in a few minutes.

Would you like to
come in and wait?

- Yeah sure.

So Liam
tells me that you

might go to youth
camp next week.

- I don't know.

It seems fun but I'm not
sure if it's really for me.

- I understand.

New things can be frightening.

So tell me how are
things going at home?

We have been praying
for your family.

- It's been difficult
but we'll be fine.

- How are your parents
handling things?

I know it can be very
hard to lose a child.

- Yeah, they're okay.

- Well I want you to know that

we're here for you if
you ever need anything.

And you can let your
parents know that too.

- Thanks.

- Perhaps you could all come
for dinner tomorrow night.

- I doubt that will happen.

- It's awful okay.

Dad lays around all day and mom,

I think she's leaving us
and it's all my fault.

- No it isn't sweety.

Sometimes bad things happen.

There's nothing that we
can do to change that.

You'll get through
this I promise.

- I can't go home.

I can't just keep pretending
that everything is okay.

- It's alright, it's
gonna be alright.

Mom I'm home.

- Hi sweety.

- Hey.

Hey Jamie.

Whoo, pancakes.

What are you doing here?

- I just needed to get out of
the house for a little bit.

- Well you couldn't have
gone anyplace better,

especially with
my moms pancakes.

Mom, I'm gonna go take a shower.

I'll be out in a minute.

- Does he always shower
with your pancakes?

- Not normally,
it must have been

a rough practice this morning.

Well Jamie I can make
you two promises.

Number one our door
is always open to you.

And number two if ever
need anyone to talk with

I'll be there.

- Thanks Mrs. Landez.

It really means a lot to me
that I have a safe place.

You know what?

- I think I might go
to that camp next week.

- Oh wonderful, oh
you're gonna love it.

They'll be so much
to do, and they'll be

many other young ladies
for you to get to know.

Oh you're gonna have a blast.

- Yeah, it'll be
nice to get out of

the house for a
little while anyways.

- Alright sweet, I'll
tell my youth pastor.

It's gonna be a blast.

- I don't know about this.

I don't know anybody here going.

- You'll be fine, just have fun.

- Hi I'm Rebecca.

- Hey Rebecca this is Jamie,

it's her first time
coming to camp.

Liam is always
talking about you.

- Yep he goes on and on.

Glad he finally brought you.

We were beginning to
wonder if you were real.

- If she was real,
real funny Rebecca.

- It's nice to finally
meat Liam's girlfriend.

Oh and hey I found out we're
gonna be in the same bunk.

We're gonna have a blast, bye.

- Well I never really said
girlfriend you know just

your my girl friend, friend
that's a girl you know?

Anyways I'm sure
you and Rebecca will

be good friends by
the end of camp.

- Yeah she seems nice but what
about this girlfriend thing?

- Alright guys
let's go, load up.

I'm not
bothered by the way.

- That you told people
I'm your girlfriend.

- I don't, I mean wait,
you're okay with it?

- Well, I.

- Well I'd be happy to
be your girlfriend Liam.

All you had to do was ask.

- Wait, so she wasn't
your girlfriend?

- Nope, but she is now.

- It's about time.

♪ You look at me in the eyes

♪ And tell me your not satisfied

♪ With the way that you
have lived your life

♪ You can't run
and you can't hide

♪ You've failed
time and time again

♪ Hating God but loved your sin

♪ You can't find the love
your heart craves for

♪ But if you let Christ come in

♪ Oh it's amazing he
never gave up on me

♪ Everything changed the
moment that I believed

♪ Let's make this
night unforgettable

♪ So unforgettable

♪ Let's make this
night unforgettable

♪ Let me rock the boat yeah

♪ Like freedom I'm about to flow

♪ If these guys can
talk then let them know

♪ That we made this
night unforgettable

♪ When brokenness
consumed my life

♪ And emptiness I could not deny

♪ There was a peace
that kept on passing by

♪ My hope I found in Christ

♪ I was dead without
a sign of life

♪ Heart was beating
but dead inside

♪ I found the one
I was longing for

♪ His name is Jesus
Christ Christ Christ

♪ Oh it's amazing he
never gave up on me

♪ Everything changed the
moment that I believed

♪ Let's make this
night unforgettable

♪ So unforgettable

♪ Let's make this
night unforgettable

♪ Let me rock the boat yeah

♪ Like freedom I'm about to flow

♪ If these guys can
talk then let them know

♪ That we made this
night unforgettable

♪ Let's make this night night

♪ Unforgettable

♪ So unforgettable

♪ Let's make this
night unforgettable

♪ Let me rock the boat yeah

♪ Like freedom I'm about to flow

♪ If these guys can
talk then let them know

♪ That we made this
night unforgettable

♪ Unforgettable

♪ Let's make this
night unforgettable

What do you
think of camp so far Jamie?

- It's been pretty fun.

I really enjoyed the glow
in the dark dodge ball

even though I ran
into some girls.

- Yeah that can happen.

- Well it was pretty dark

and we were going
for the same ball.

I guess we really didn't
notice each other and splat.

I still have a
bruise on my head.

- Oh my gosh that is so funny.

- So what's something that
you girls need prayer for?

I really feel like we should
be praying for each other.

- Well my grandma, she's
having surgery next week,

and it's kinda serious.

- We think or dog may die soon.

He's really old and everyone
is really attached to him.

Murphy.

What do you need prayer for?

- Oh nothing really.

- Come on there has
to be something.

How about for better
lunch tomorrow.

- Well I mean my parents
could use some prayers.

I think they're splitting up.

- I'm really sorry to hear that.

Divorce can be very
hard to deal with.

When my parents got
divorced it was a nightmare.

They couldn't even
be in the same room.

It was like they fought
just to make sure

they stayed mad enough
to get divorced.

Sometimes they didn't even
have anything to fight about.

I'm still not sure
why they got divorced.

- I won't have to wonder why

my parents are
getting a divorced.

- A little while ago
my little brother

died in a car accident.

I think my mom blames my
dad, and my dad blames mom.

They don't even talk.

They're ignoring each
other and I just wish

they would be strong for
each other and strong for me.

- I'm really sorry Jamie.

We'll pray that God brings
your family back together.

Daddy I pray for
Jamie and her family

I ask that you'd do
whatever you must

to bring her family
back together.

Give Jamie strength to
endure the road ahead

and your peace so she
knows you love her

and that you're with her.

And Daddy if they don't know you

I ask that you help
them to know you

and that you give them
peace for the days ahead.

Hey can I
ask you something?

- Sure anything.

- You prayed to Daddy.

I thought you were
supposed to pray to God.

- Yeah well here's the thing.

God, he is our father.

Like he made all
things and he made me.

But there's more
to it than that.

God sent his son to Earth to
show us a new way of life.

They way we were intended to
live through Jesus Christ.

But he knew that the only way

to bring us home
was to die for us.

- So God sends his son
to Earth as a human.

He lives and dies
for us but how do you

go from that to
calling him your daddy?

- That's the best part.

He died for us so
that we could be

presented blameless
before the father,

and that when we accept him
as the atonement for our sins

we became a sister to Jesus
and a daughter of The King.

But God gives us
something more than that.

He gives us himself so that
we can become his family

and his children, and
he is one awesome daddy.

- But I failed him, just
like I failed my dad.

I can never live up to
him as his daughter.

- Jamie do you
know what grace is?

You've done things, things
that deserve punishment.

We all have.

We make stupid decisions
and we miss the mark.

Grace is when we
deserve a punishment

but the judge let's us off.

Grace is the love that
exists even when we fail.

- I wish I had that now.

It's my fault my brother's dead.

How can he forgive me?

If I had just
listened to my parents

Graham would still be alive.

- Jamie God loves you and
he wants you to know that.

What happened with your
brother, it's been forgiven.

You just have to accept it.

God's given you grace now,
you just have to take it.

- I want that.

I want to be more
than just this.

How do I get it?

- Just pray with me.

- Jamie come on, time to get up.

I'm really sorry,
Jamie are you okay?

- You're bleeding
like really bad.

Did I hit your nose?

- No you hit my ear.

What do I do?

- Go get a leader now!

- Kara hurry.

- Go!

Are you okay?

- Are you sure
you're gonna be okay?

- Yeah I told you it was
just a nosebleed I'm fine.

- Alright.

- Hey thanks for
inviting me, it was fun.

- Yeah it was, well
see you tomorrow Jamie.

- Yeah.

I'm so sick of it!

You're not the only one affected

by Graham's death around here?

- You're the one laying
around the house all day long!

You haven't said
anything to Jamie!

You don't say two words to me!

I'm doing it all
by myself Michael!

- Have you seen the
way you look at me?

I'm not the only one
who's checked out!

- Michael I'm giving it my
everything just to exist!

It's not enough though is it?

It's never enough, I'm
not enough for you.

- Here we go.

It's always about you.

- Maybe I should go.

- Well maybe you should.

Get out of here!

- Jamie sweetheart we are
dealing with something.

Just go to your room.

Please just go to your room.

- So things get hard
and you want to leave.

Things get a little difficult
and you want to run away.

Really?

- You're turn.

- Jamie you're so young.

You cannot understand
what we're going through.

Your father and I have
tried but it's just,

I think it's best I go.

- No I don't think
you understand.

I need my parents.

I can't go through this alone.

So figure it out.

I've been texting you all week.

- I've been busy, sorry.

- Whatever, let's go.

Go where?

- Hello, the best weekend
of your life dummy.

- I can't, not right now.

- Yeah right, let's go.

- I'm sorry I have to go.

- I'm sorry Graham, so sorry.

It's my fault.

It's all my fault.

You died because of me and now
mom and dad are separating.

Why didn't I just stay home?

I'm so sorry Graham.

I'm sorry.

- I thought you needed a friend.

Do your parents know?

- That's why my mom's leaving.

- It's not your fault Jamie.

You can't blame yourself.

You have to hold on.

- Hope.

What is that?

Jamie?

Jamie, Jamie.

- Yeah yeah.

- Angry, why do you
think I'm angry?

Who could I be angry at?

- You.

- I'm sorry I left you Graham.

- It's okay I forgive you.

You need to let go.

- It's not okay,
I'm sorry Graham.

- Let go.

Let go.

You need to let go.

Jamie, Jamie.

Jamie.

- Jamie, hey Jamie.

- Graham.

Graham.

Graham.

Where's Graham, where'd he go?

- Hey hey hey hey, hey hey hey.

It's gonna be okay
alright Jamie.

We're here for you.

Where are we?

- We're in the hospital sweety.

- Honey we don't know
but we're gonna find out.

- It's gonna be okay.

- Michael, Maria.

Hi.

- Okay so, so
what'd you find out?

- The results from the MRI
aren't what we were hoping for.

Unfortunately, Jamie's gonna
require some intensive care.

- I'm afraid it's more
complicated than that Michael.

Jamie has a form of cancer
called Hodgkin lymphoma.

I mean seriously,
that's not possible.

She's a healthy kid I mean
she is never sick Paul.

- This form of cancer often
shows very few symptoms.

Fever, night sweats,
coughing, nose bleeds,

flu like symptoms that
are often overlooked.

- But we caught it
fast enough right?

I mean it's curable,
we can fix it right?

- I only wish it
was that simple.

It is treatable but we
didn't catch it early.

The cancer is in the fourth
stage and has moved into

the cerebral spinal
fluid around her brain.

- Paul are you telling me I'm
going to lose my little girl?

- Our insurance
policy requires me to

prepare you for the
worst case scenario.

So as our doctor
my answer is yes.

But I'm a man of faith.

And we've known each
other for years.

So as your friend my answer is

never lose hope, never.

I've seen a lot of
miracles in this place.

God is very much alive.

And he's more than able
to heal your daughter.

When people lose hope bad
situations only get worse.

Your family has a rough
journey ahead of you.

My recommendation in times
like this is Romans 12:12.

Rejoice in hope, be
patient in tribulation,

be constant in prayer.

I mean I get that I have cancer

but I didn't show any symptoms

so it can't be that bad right?

- That's not exactly true.

The doctor said that

you're stage four with
Hodgkin's lymphoma.

- And it shows very few
signs as it's progressing.

It's like you had
the flu or a bad cold

over the development
of the cancer.

- So it is bad.

- Cancer's never good baby.

We're gonna beat this okay?

Look with the
medicine they have now

I mean we'll find you a
treatment that will work.

Jamie, you will be fine.

- Hi Michael.

How's Jamie?

Liam.

- Whoa, you should visit
a hospital more often.

- Liam.

- I was just kidding.

- No it's okay, I'm just
really happy to see you guys.

Do you want to go outside?

- Yeah let's go.

So what's going on?

What's with the nosebleeds?

- I have cancer.

Seriously?

- Yeah seriously.

- Well they must have
caught it early then right?

- I don't know, mom
and dad never said.

But I mean it can't
be good because

I have more tests next week so.

- Well it can't be that bad.

I mean the nosebleeds
just started.

And shoot I have
nosebleeds all winter long.

- I think we're talking about
different kinds of nosebleeds.

- Yeah that's true.

I don't bleed on people.

- Liam that's disgusting.

- What you did.

- Yeah I'm sorry about that.

- That's okay, I'm just glad
I was there when it happened.

What if I wasn't?

- Yeah, no it could
have been bad.

- Yeah it could have been bad.

I guess that makes me your hero.

- My hero, how could
I ever repay you?

- I mean a thank you's fine.

I'd be okay with a thank you.

Too soon?

- Yeah a little bit.

- I'm good.

I mean okay, just day by day.

- Good.

How about Michael,
how's he holding up?

- He's pretty quiet lately.

- I understand.

Jon was very disconnected
when we lost our daughter.

- We'd been married a few years.

We wanted a child desperately.

We found out it was a
girl we were thrilled.

We were all outside
on a Saturday.

It was a beautiful day.

It was hard, very hard.

It took, it took a along time
for me to stop blaming Jon.

Just found it
easier to deal with

if I could point the
finger at someone else.

- I understand how easy
it is to blame, I do.

- It was the hardest thing our
family had ever gone through.

But thank God we made it.

- How do you come back
from something like that?

- The only reason
we're still together

is because of a very kind lady
who introduced us to hope.

- So Hope was like
a counselor to you?

- No no, hope.

- So what did she tell
you that helped you?

- She told me three
things will last forever

faith, hope, and
love and the greatest

of these is love, the
love God has for us.

We find hope when we have
faith that God love us.

It is his in his
love we have hope.

- I'm sorry Lanae but how
is God showing his love?

He took McKennah,
he's taken my Graham.

- I know it's hard to grasp.

And I don't have the answer
as to why these things happen.

But I do know we have
the choice to choose.

Are you gonna have faith
that God loves you?

If so hope comes.

If not hopelessness.

- I want to have hope
but he's taken my son,

my daughter is sick.

How do I do this?

- I know the anger and hurt
are very strong right now.

You're dealing with
a loss and now Jamie.

- There is, there's
a lot of anger yes.

- The hardest thing for
me was looking at Jon.

Every time I thought
things were getting better

I'd remember it all.

- Lanae I, I hate that
I think this but I,

I just hate him.

And how do I come
back from that?

- You can, it does take time.

But Maria you need to be
focused on Jamie right now.

She needs you both.

- I know.

I'm falling apart and I...

I don't know how to do this.

I do not have the strength
to hold this all together.

- You're right you don't
have that kind of strength.

And you'll only exhaust yourself

trying to pretend
that you're okay.

- When I was little I remember

climbing this big tree
in our front yard.

I completely lost track
of time and it got dark.

When I was coming
down I realized that

I couldn't quite
reach the ground.

So I'm hanging there on a branch

so afraid to let go because

I couldn't tell how far
away the ground was.

And I can remember screaming
for my mom to come help me.

She finally heard me
from inside the house.

It felt like I was
hanging there for hours.

I'm sure it was only seconds.

But when my mom came out
she wouldn't help me.

I can remember crying so hard

that it became
difficult to breathe.

She just stood there
telling me softly to let go.

Can you imagine how that felt?

I mean I was terrified
and exhausted

and she was right
there and wouldn't help

no matter how much I
pleaded for her to save me.

Did that mean that my
mom didn't love me?

- No no, we have to teach
our kids to trust us.

- Yeah but at the time I
thought for sure she was

just gonna let me hang there
until I fell to my death.

- We think silly
things when we're kids.

- Yeah and be so
certain of things

that we won't listen
to those who love us

and can see the bigger picture.

- Okay.

So I know he's my father.

And I know I'm
supposed to have hope.

And that he loves
me and my family.

I don't know what I'm
supposed to be learning.

- We're just to close to the
situation to see God's plan.

Look the loss of Graham and
McKennah are horrific situations

but God is already
using the loss

of my daughter in
allowing me to sit here

and let you know that
you're not alone.

I don't know how God is
gonna use the loss of Graham.

But I have faith that
God loves you enough

and that if you have
faith and trust in him

that you will have hope.

And in that hope you
will find the strength

to get through this
situation with Jamie.

- I want that hope I do.

- You are only ever
two steps from hope.

Step one recognize that the hope

you need comes
from trusting God.

And step two let
go of the branch.

- Okay.

Thank you.

So how are
you holding up?

- Not good.

- I know it's hard.

First Graham and now...

I'm losing everything else?

- I just meant I know it's hard.

No one wants you
to go through this.

You're not gonna lose anything.

Jamie is gonna be fine.

- None of us are fine Jon.

My family's falling apart

and there's nothing
I can do to fix it!

Maria's leaving.

She's just checked out
man and ever since Graham.

And now all of this--

- You know Mike she's upset.

Maria's not gonna
walk out on you.

She's a fighter.

- Yeah.

She is a fighter.

But unfortunately I'm the
one she's fighting now.

And I used to be her hero.

She used to look at me to
solve all of her problems.

And I miss that look.

I miss the light in
her eyes and her smile.

I miss her.

She's gone man, she's just gone.

Jamie is all, all I have.

- Look I know as guys we
try to fix everything.

That's how we're wired.

But sometimes we
need a little help.

Can I ask you when
is the last time

that you prayed about this?

- I haven't prayed,
not since Graham.

- God and I had a deal.

I go to church, I pray,
I do all the things

that I'm supposed to
do to be a good person,

and in return he protects me,

he doesn't let stuff
like this happen.

- So you cut a deal with God.

Was he aware of it
because I'm pretty sure

I've never read in
the word that God

cuts side deals for us
to have a perfect life,

no matter how good
you and I are.

He promises to be there
with us through the storms.

- Where was he in
the storm that night?

He was right there with Graham.

And he's right here with you.

- If he was there and
if he let Graham die

then he's not a God I can trust.

It's time I run my own life.

And take care of my daughter.

I lost Graham, I lost Maria
but I will not lose Jamie.

- You are not everyone's
savior Michael, Jesus is.

You need to learn to let go.

You need to learn to trust God.

Until you do, you're never
gonna have that peace.

You've got to let
this go and trust God.

Daddy.

Daddy.

Daddy.

Daddy.

Daddy.

Hey sweety.

Daddy.

Hey hey hey, it's okay baby.

- Please don't leave me.

- Sweetheart I'm
not gonna leave you.

And Daddy please
don't leave my parents.

Please don't let them be alone.

Don't let them fall
apart please Daddy.

Make them love each
other again please.

Oww!

Daddy, Daddy!

- Call 911.

Go!

Daddy.

- Mommy's right here.

Jamie, Jamie please.

Baby I'm right here.

Jamie.

I need the
two of you to stay back.

- No!

Let go of her!

Ma'am stay back.

- Please, Jamie I'm here!

- You're no use to
your daughter right now

so let us do our
jobs, stay back.

- No!

Jamie I'm right here!

- Please don't.

Please don't do this.

I deserve to be sick not Jamie.

I shouldn't have
said what I said.

I didn't mean it.

Even when I said it.

I am nothing without you.

Please forgive me.

Tell me what I gotta do.

Please.

What do I need to do
to save my baby girl?

Tell me I will do it.

Say what you need to say.

I deserve it.

- You do.

You deserve to hear
me say I'm so sorry.

It's not your
fault, it was mine.

I didn't buckle him in.

- Maria no.

- No.

- No even if--

- I need to say it please.

When I was in the
ambulance with Graham

looking at him he
was in so much pain.

All I could think about,

how did I not
buckle the seatbelt?

I'm his mom.

I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry.

I couldn't talk to you about it

because I thought if
I admitted how I felt

that you would hate me and I
couldn't handle that Michael.

So I just blamed you and I
blamed Jamie and I blamed God.

Everybody but myself.

I just became so empty the
more I pushed you away.

Michael how do I get back?

I don't know how I get back.

I thought you'd be
better off without me.

- No.

No.

Don't you ever believe
that for a moment.

Maria when I said I
do I meant forever.

All that is good,
all that is bad.

I would never hate you.

Do you understand that?

You would never have to
do anything to earn my...

to earn my love.

Oh God I'm so sorry for thinking

that I needed to earn yours.

- Michael, Maria she
doesn't have much time.

- Hey sweetheart.

Baby can you hear me?

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry I
wasn't there for you.

You needed me and I was gone.

Please forgive me.

I would do anything, anything

if I could trade
places with you now.

Are you in pain?

Can you squeeze my hand?

Use your teddy, squeeze my hand.

I was so angry that I forgot
to tell you you're so amazing.

Graham was the luckiest brother

to have you as his big sister.

I did not deserve you.

I'm so sorry forgive
me sweetheart please.

Please don't leave us, please.

- Hey.

And Jamie

there was something

we used to do when
you were a little girl

together as a family.

We'd come in your room and

take your little hands and

and we would pray together
before you'd go to sleep.

I would like to do that one
more time as a family together.

Dear God,

Father,

I don't know really
know what to say.

But no more games,
no more deals.

I give you all of
me, everything.

I just want you to
know how thankful I am

for Graham,

for Jamie, for my wife.

I'm so grateful for every memory

that we've had
together as a family.

You're a good God

and I trust you
with my little girl.

I trust you.

Take care of our little baby.

Another
interesting thing about hope,

about prayer, about
believing for a miracle

is that God knows what we need
even before we ask for it.

And sometimes when things seem
to be at there very worst,

and there seems to be no hope,

if we surrender our
situation to God,

put it in his hands,

and put our trust
completely in him,

we find that even before we ask

the answer to our prayers
is already on the way.

Mom, Dad?