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Almost got me.

Argh!

RADIO: Good morning.
It's just gone 8:00.

Oh, hello.

They didn't say
that you were, er...

Oh, yeah, it's all right...

...not on my forms.

Catholic?

Yeah.

Got to say, haven't been
to confession

in close to ten years now.

Sadly, you're eternally damned.

Unless you fix my car... That is.

Anna.

Sister Anna, we've a visitor
needs feeding.

I'd like to bring a few girls
from my choir for a visit.

How old are they?

14 to 17...

...mostly still in education.

Devoted?

Some are finding their path.

Any dependents?

I'm sorry?

Sister, good.

Father Hicks has travelled
a long way.

Uh, only an hour and a half.

I was late because my car
decided to explode

when I was halfway here.

Oh, how dramatic.

Yeah, I had to burst something.

Which means a longer bus ride home.

You need to eat.

No, it's not a problem, I can just
get a snack

from the shop on the way.

Sister Anna can do better than
a Scotch egg from a newsagent.

She sets the bar so high.

Since she took over the kitchen,
all of us have put on weight.

Something simple?

Uh, yeah, yeah, thank you,

But don't put yourself out.

Scrambled eggs, some bread?

If you're sure? Thank you.

That's two thank yous, which
is one too many.

Good. Yes, no dependents.

If the girls have children...
Even for a visit?

The visit is to see whether they
might fit, no?

We are not here to be watched.

We are here to be joined.

No-one with children.

Or romantic entanglements.

Do you want me to give them a quiz?

Is that too hard a question
to answer?

Um...

Then let us agree a date.

I'll fetch our diary.

You're new to the kitchen?

Uh, no, it's been 11 years...

Oh. I think?

Time passes slowly here.

Been outside?

Ah, yes, yes.

Bulbing for the new season.

What are you growing?

Children...

Tiny, tiny little children
in the middle

of the flowers
which we pluck in May.

We dry them through the summer,
and then we eat them in September.

Uh, kale, lettuce, spinach,

garlic... My cabbages are legendary.

I don't like cabbage.

Well, then I judge you for that.

11 years?

It's a good long while.

It's been over 20
since I took my vows.

And you?

Where are you?

Uh, Bristol, Easton.

What do you grow in Easton?

Um, currently expending a lot

of energy trying to get needle
exchange opened.

Oh, uh, a basketball hoop
in the local park.

They sound like good things
to be doing.

Frustrating.

And I'm trying to convince people

to run a harvest festival
out of the church.

I can't know whether the girls
are in relationships.

It would be inappropriate to ask.

And I can't be involved
in any duplicity

against the abbess.

You'll find a way.
I fail to see how.

You should have talked to her
about this.

I'm sorry if I'm being...
It's the rules she set.

It's my job to protect all of them.

It'll mean we can't come.

Well, then don't come.

Ow! Cold water.

You weren't caught too badly.

Sorry.

No, no, I, uh...

I should say thank you.

I'm sorry if I, um...

...if that was the wrong thing to do.

Sorry.

No...

...thank you.

And that's, uh...

That's two thank yous,
which is one too many.

Uh, no, let me do that.

No, no, no.
You should sit down...

No, no, please.

Just tell me where...

This looks beautiful.

Just some eggs.

Uh, bless us, O Lord...

And these your gifts... For these
your gifts,

which we are about to receive
from your bounty.

And from the gracious work
of your servant, Sister Anna.

Through Christ our Lord,
Amen. Amen.

I don't like the word servant.

I don't like it either.

FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING

There's been an accident.

Morning, sister.

May the Lord bless this day.

Yes.

And if he could arrange
for it not to rain

so the polytunnel
doesn't get swamped again,

I'd really appreciate it.

PHONE RINGS

Molly, tell mum Uncle
David's in the bathroom.

Am I not allowed?

Mum put in a rota.

I didn't see a rota.

Jesus. Died for your sins.

VOICES CHATTERING

It's not hard to just switch it off.

I can't even hear
what she's saying.

No. I asked you.

It's not hard to just switch
it off.

Hi. These are lovely.

You are lovely, Graham.

These are vegetables.

Morning. Morning.

They've put up the price
of dahlias again!

Bastards think we're a soft touch.

Nice try.

Oh, you know, I don't like hosts.

Father Christie agreed with me...

...there's considerably more oral
thrush around

than there used to be.

Do you think it's OK
for the Abbess for the trip

to ask that I only bring girls
who aren't in relationships?

Yes.

You do?

Felt small minded to me.

I am small minded both by profession
and inclination.

How's your mother?

Smiling on. Ah.

Tina's back.

Is she?

She's with her dad.

In the name of the father and
of the son

and of the Holy Spirit.

ALL: Amen.

The Lord be with you.

ALL: And with your spirit.

Lord, we have sinned against you.

Lord have mercy.

ALL: Lord have mercy.

Show us your mercy and your love.

ALL: And grant us your salvation.

May Almighty God have mercy on us.

Forgive us our sins,

and bring us into everlasting life.

ALL: Amen.

Amen. Amen.

Shall we start with a hymn?

Bless me, Father,
because I have sinned.

It's been 24 hours
since my last confession.

I remember.

During which I have
committed three acts

of blasphemy and two
of self-abasement.

I mean masturbation, Father.

Of course you do.

I don't mean to hurt...

...people...

...but I do.

I think you've been
very hard on yourself.

I am vile.

You're not.

You're not.

KNOCKING

Are you going to invite me in,
or are you going to

leave a lady on the doorstep?

Oh, you're a daft one.

Do you wish to say anything?

No.

Do you need absolution?

Yes.

CAR HORN TOOTS

How was it?

Well, half the kids look
as if they've got malnutrition

and half the adults jaundice,
The rest just seem depressed.

We'll pray for them and help
as best we can.

Has the school group arrived?

Yeah. Important, I'm told by the
prioress for them to see us.

For the recruitment push.

Does make one feel one is in
a zoo, rather.

Time for a whisky?

I got sent a rather fine malt
by the bishop.

Might chase away some of
the feelings of the day.

He shouldn't encourage you.

It's because he wants you
to make him some whisky marmalade.

Well, I can try.

I told him you're not a takeaway,
he'll take what he's given.

Bless me, father, for I have sinned.

It's been three weeks
since my last confession.

How have you been?

I'm OK.

You know, I'm supposed to pretend
I never know

who's on the other side of this?

I took a trip to the convent,
The Womack.

Going to take some members of
the girls choir.

And I'd like to ask your mum

if you'd like to join it, the trip?

Thanks.

It that what you want?

With...

...yeah,

Yeah. Hmm.

Then, uh, maybe I'll come
around the house,

talk to her?.

He's out most evenings...

...at the restaurant.

DOGS BARKING

DOORBELL RINGS

Hi, Bianca, it's Father Hicks.

Um, I'd hope to talk to you
about Tina.

She said tonight might be
a goodnight to come over.

TV: Ladies and gentlemen,
welcome to...

Thank you.

TV: So, audience, are you ready?

Tina?

Well, go on, what you got?

Do you need help?

There are things I can do to...

You can leave if you're going
to be trying that.

Tina?

Coming!

Um...

How would you feel about Tina making
the decision

to lead a consecrated life?

I think she's a kid who doesn't
know which way is up.

Did you grow up Catholic, Bianca?

Why is he asking all
the questions to me?

You're the adult.

He wants to check you're OK.

It's her who wants to hide in
a convent for her life.

Uh, I don't think it's hiding.

But I do understand why,
commitment...

...faith feels a strange thing
in this world.

The amount of people
that ask me things like,

"Do you have to wear it
all the time?"

"Do you never have sex?"

He's trying to shock us now.

Priest talking about sex!

And I do think celibacy is
an important part of Tina's

commitment, but it's not the most
important part.

Marx is always quoted as saying,

"Religion is the opium
of the masses."

What he actually said was, "Religion
is the sigh

"of the oppressed creature,

"the heart of a heartless world,
and the soul

"of soulless conditions."

"It is the opium of the people."

I don't go to church, can't stand
the dither of it all.

Dither?

Well, it seems to me the Bible
says do good, then we'll do it.

Stop dithering about with incense
and myrrh.

Mum!

I think you're right about
the dither.

But I think what Marx was saying
is that the church,

by venerating virtue,
does something quite important.

And I think right now...

...society needs that virtue.

Look, she said she wanted it,
she goes.

Good.

Then I'd like to take you, Tina,

with a few other girls
to visit Womack.

I think that by visiting there,

she'll get much better sense
of whether that's what she needs.

Thank you.

Um...

...should I talk to Phil?
No!

Well, if that's everything,
Father Hicks?

DOOR CLOSES

SOBBING AND WAILING

Sister, it's your postulant,
she was found with a phone.

A phone?
She's been keeping it hidden.

SOBBING

It's not easy...

...when we lose track of ourselves
to find our way back.

Can I ask...

...why did you feel you
needed your phone?

Well, I don't know.

My parents were horrified...

...when I said I wanted to be a nun.

My mum said I was
throwing myself away.

She thought it was over
some boy.

Was... Was there a boy?

No.

You?

Not a boy.

My friend, Susie.

Is that OK?

With me?

Yes.

With God?

I would hope so.

With you?

Do you want to stay?

Do you...

...want me to stay?

Oh, Bimpe...

...if there is one choice...

...that has to be yours, it is this.

Do you ever doubt it?

Your... Your choice?

Faith is dependent on doubt.

Without doubt, there is no faith.

GASPS

KNOCKING

She seems much better
this morning.

Good.

So I've prayed upon it

and decided I have no choice
but to ask her to leave.

No, You can't.

When someone is a postulant...

She's been with us for over a year.

When someone is a postulant,

they are here to be judged by us
and by themselves

as to whether they can find
the patience and love to belong.

It's one mistake.

A crucial one.

I devote myself to God in every way.

I isolate myself and give
myself to prayer.

But I do want to keep checking
social media

for what my friends are up to.

May I speak?

I have been guiding her and I don't
think you understand.

She is a genuine, kind, good...

My role in this convent is to make
the decisions others won't.

It's to lead.

Your role is not to abandon
the poor girl.

Francesca, please... No, no,
you do not use that name...

...my name in anger!

It is not a weapon.

Look...

...I apologise, Abbess.

Our commitment cannot
be predicated on a lie.

She vowed to put away everything
from her other life.

She couldn't, she lied...

to her sisters and to God.

She made a vow and she broke it.

She was weak, yes.

But these young people,

they are growing up in an
unforgiving world.

Perhaps our commitment might take
them a little

bit longer to learn.

Please!

Please give her a chance
to find her path.

She remains a postulant
for at least another year.

She has to prove herself all over
again, yes?

Yes, thank you.

She's lucky to have you.

OK.

There will be a time when I am
ready to take quieter duties here.

I believe you're the right
person to succeed me.

But if you do, you may discover

that these decisions are harder
than they might appear.

Missed a wonderful deanery meeting
last night.

Falling congregations since Covid.

How to get people back believing.

Anyone suggest another Covid?

Make him beg for the
incoming flood?

Don't forget the accounts
need your sign off.

The bishop needs
to know precisely what

we've got to set terms for the
underfloor heating brigade.

Could you run this morning for me?
Sorry?

I realised I've got some
pressing business.

Could you lead Mass for me?

Bless me, father, for I have sinned.

It's been four days
since my last confession.

I've been angry with others, impatient.

I shouted at the Abess, I...

...I was cruel to Sister
Justine when...

...when she needed support.

And I have been having...

...immoral thoughts.

Lust.

You have to say something to that,
Father Clarey.

You can't leave me on my own
with that one.

Go on.

Go on?

Go on!

What does that mean?

It means go on.

But I'm... They're not...

It's not like I haven't
had thoughts before.

I have struggled at times with...

...feelings of desire.

But this time, well, these times...

...these feelings, they're...

They're so specific.

Well, that's all I can say, really.

I am ashamed...

...and I'm confused.

Confused mainly.

Three Hail Marys.

Yes, Father.

And be careful.

God, the father of mercies,

through the death
and resurrection of his son,

has reconciled the will to himself
and sent the Holy Spirit

for the forgiveness of our sins.

Through the ministry of the church

may God give you pardon and peace,

and I absolve you from your sins.

In the name of the father and of the
son and the Holy Spirit.

Amen. Amen.

Hello.

Ah, this is a surprise.

I just thought I'd, um, I'd come
back to talk to the Abbess.

I felt like I'd left a few of her
concerns on the table.

Right.

And I was hoping for more beautiful
eggs, of course.

I knew you were the pushy sort.

May I see your cabbages?

Only if you get me really drunk.

Are you that nervous of the abbess

that you'd look around
a boring garden to avoid it?

Boring garden? Doubt it's that?

No.

But why are you here?

Uh, can I tell you about a girl I'd
like to bring here?

You can tell me about anything
you like,

but I am no use with the Abbess.

Um...

Uh, mother, uh, the girl's mother
is being...

...hit by the father.

I think it's possible the girl's
been hit, too.

I raised it with social services.

I raised it with the diocese
safeguarding unit

but they both do something,
but nothing ever happens.

Sorry, you're not interested.

What is it you're doubting?

Sorry?

Your ability to deal with
it, her response to it,

or what else it is that you should
be doing to help it?

Uh, you're remarkably frank.

Why are you looking at me like that?

I just wish I had your conviction.

You have certainty.

I mean, it's a good thing.

I haven't been certain
about anything since...

...2001!

What happened then?

I became a nun.

Well...

...here are my cabbages.

They're beautiful.

You like that word?

Although these might
actually be beautiful.

How do you keep the slugs away?

Look underneath.

They don't like eggshells.

Cuts them up. Ah-ha.

Helping the girl
and your needle exchanges,

your hoops, it's impressive.

Doesn't feel impressive.

And here was I, thinking you were
trying to impress me.

I am.

I struggle, I fail...

I intervene when I shouldn't, I...

You're a click of
the fingers, Christian.

I'm sorry.

You want everything solved
in a click of the fingers

and if it isn't, then it costs you.

You have a brutal
way of describing things.

But I'm sure you're right.

No, no, I admire click of the
fingers Christians.

They see a problem and they
try to solve it.

I'm about as far from the click
of a click of the fingers Christian

as you can get.

You followed your conviction to live
a consecrated life.

Yes, well...

...this has become my
home, for better or worse.

You make it sound like you're
not happy here?

It's a it's a good thing,
what you're doing.

And I'm sorry...

...conviction is another word
I don't like.

I'll fetch the Abbess.

You know, you are supposed to make
an appointment before coming here.

We are enclosed.

I can find the abbess, please.

Get on with your duties.

I shouldn't have disturbed you,
I'm sorry.

CHOIR SINGS

Father Hicks.

Father?

You're, uh, you're leaving already?

Oh, uh, well, you were right,
the Abbess told me

to make an appointment.

She's, um, she's quite formidable.

You all are.

I, uh, I didn't mean to...

...to be cruel before.

Uh, no, you weren't.

Brutal, cruel.

Oh!

I, I didn't mean...
When I used that word

I didn't mean... Yes, I just
thought, uh...

Thank you for sharing your
struggles...

...with me, I didn't mean to
be dismissive.

Sister, you've done nothing wrong.

Anna, call me Anna.

David.

The girl, whose mother's
being hurt...

...maybe, Maybe she could find
peace here,

but here is not the only peace.

Particularly if she's
leaving her mother behind.

We are not a refuge.

It doesn't work if we're a refuge.

and we can't save her
for you.

I know.

We've devoted...

We devote ourselves
to something better.

And I think the question we all have
to ask ourselves...

...David, is...

...is if we've done something right.

if we've listened to our hearts
and we've done something right.

You should have been a preacher.

You're laughing at me.

I don't think I ever want
to laugh at you...

...Anna.

I, um...

...must get to church.

Bye.

Bye.

Morning. Do you mind if you stay
away from my daughter?

Your daughter sought
spiritual guidance.

Yeah, well, just stay the fuck
away, yeah, big man.

Bit early in the morning for a
drink, isn't it, Phill?

Stealing kids off the port,
is that what you do?

Just take them, stick them
in a fucking castle

and throw away the key?

Look, why don't we go inside
and talk about this properly?

I do recognise your Tina's
spiritual guide too.

So...

Argh!

Argh!

Do not tell me or my daughter
or my fucking wife

what's right.

Meddling little fuck!

Oh!

Oh, I'm sorry, sister,

I was just going to wake you.

And then I caught sight
of this fawn.

I'm sure you want them chased
away before

they eat your vegetables?

No, my garden's well protected.

We had a deer that used
to come right up to the windows.

Must be 40... No, 60 years ago.

And would you feed it?

I once tried to stroke its nose.

It didn't like that.

I was scared it wouldn't come back.

But it did.

And then it didn't.

I always worried...

...perhaps someone took advantage
of its innocence

and killed it.

I did miss it.

Have you really been here
for 60 years, Polly?

74.

I came when I was 16.

A wonderful life.

I'm pleased you've stood
in defence of Bimpe.

I think she has what it takes.

I really do.

Good day.

I'd like to speak to Father
Hicks, please.

Um, I believe he's at home.

Can I help?

No.

Um...

...then I will call him on the phone.

Thank you.

PHONE VIBRATES

Hello?

Where is she?

Uh, no, no, no, I'll
come straight down.

Sister?

I'm sorry, Uh, Anna.

You asked for me?

What's happened to your face?

Oh, I, um,

I got into a fight with
a slippery cobblestone.

What are you...

Can we go somewhere a little
less quiet?

I always promised
myself that...

...I would see the problems
in front of me clearly.

I always promised myself...

Do you, uh, do you not want to sit
down? Uh, no, no, um...

Uh, I always promised myself
that I...

...would be honest.

That I could be honest
about how I feel.

Good.

And I see you, and I'm...

I'm cruel to you.

You weren't cruel.

I...

I think it's important
to understand why,

when you came to visit, why I...

I was casual with you.

Um, and I think it's important

to say and... Well, to act...

...on...

When... When you touch my hand.

And I, I believe I should listen
to my inner truth.

And I, I believe...

I believe that I have never felt
the way that you make me feel.

Does the convent
know you're here?

Anna, does the convent
know you're here?

Oh, they've probably worked
it out by now.

And...

...do you intend to...

Yes.

Why?

Simply because I touched your hand?

Because you felt feelings for me?

Well, there was nothing simple
about it.

I...

...I thought you felt the same.

Same sort of feelings.

I'm so sorry.

But you...

But came back?

You, you came back to the Womack.

I'm so sorry if I presented...

If, um...

I made you feel, think...

I can...

...um, there's someone here...

...can drive you.

Um, Muriel, she's
a parishioner.

She volunteers in the cafe here,
she's... She's nice.

And I know she has a car.

And you're suggesting I go back?

I don't know what to suggest.

You're... You're saying

that I read something
that isn't there?

Um, no.

No, I won't be going back.

Where will you stay?

I didn't come here to talk to you
about my accommodation.

Have you any money?

No, uh...

Ah.

Um...

I'm really sorry.

So you said.

DISTANT VOICES

SIRENS WAILING

DOGS BARKING

Yes...

Yes, I will need somewhere
to stay.

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