Original subtitles

Gideon: I HATE MY BODY.

I MEAN, I FEEL LIKE I AM DISGUSTING.

Man: MY WEIGHT HAS GIVEN ME A DEATH SENTENCE.

Woman: THE THING I RELIED ON ALL THESE YEARS

IS WHAT'S KILLING ME.

-IT'S BROKEN! -WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?

I DON'T KNOW. I CAN'T GET OFF.

DON'T LET ME GO, PLEASE. -I'M NOT.

Man: IT'S HARD TO BE A FATHER FROM A CHAIR.

[ GRUNTS ] THANK YOU, HONEY.

I SEE THAT UNWILLINGNESS.

IF YOU'RE SERIOUS, YOU'LL MAKE CHANGES.

Kayleigh: I LOVE GIDEON, BUT HE HAD HIS CHANCE TO CHANGE,

AND RIGHT NOW, HE'S NOT USING IT.

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**

Gideon: SOMETIMES YOU THINK YOU KNOW WHAT YOU NEED TO DO,

WHEN YOU REALLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT REAL CHANGE IS GONNA TAKE.

WHEN I WAKE UP, I INSTANTLY FEEL PAIN ALL OVER MY BODY.

MY WEIGHT PUTS PRESSURE ON ME, MAKES MY BACK HURT.

MY LEGS SWELL,

AND IT'S A CONSTANT BATTLE TO CATCH MY BREATH.

EVERYTHING IS EXTREMELY HARD AT MY SIZE.

AND I JUST FEEL LIKE MY BODY COULD GIVE OUT AT ANY MOMENT.

WHEN I GET IN THE SHOWER, I TRY TO STAY AS STILL AS I CAN.

'CAUSE FALLING'S NOT A GOOD IDEA AT 625 POUNDS.

THAT WOULD BE HUMILIATING FOR MY FAMILY TO SEE ME LIKE THAT.

I ALREADY CAN BARELY FUNCTION,

'CAUSE EVERYTHING THAT I DO REVOLVES AROUND MY WEIGHT.

PHYSICALLY, IT'S DIFFICULT IN EVERY ASPECT OF THE WORD.

LIKE, I HAVE TO USE DEODORANT NOT ONLY IN MY ARMPITS

BUT IN BETWEEN MY ROLLS BECAUSE I SWEAT A LOT,

SO THEY GET RAW AND CHAPPED.

AND I HAVE TO WEAR THREE SHIRTS EVERY DAY

JUST TO ABSORB THE SWEAT AND TO HIDE THE FACT

THAT MY MAN BOOBS ARE SO BIG AND MY FAT ROLLS ARE SO BIG.

I JUST FEEL LIKE I AM DISGUSTING.

I KNOW I LET MYSELF GET THIS WAY, BUT I STILL EAT.

AS SOON AS I START MY DAY, I AM STARVING.

I HAVE A WIFE AND A SON, AND I TRY TO GET UP BEFORE THEM

BECAUSE IF THEY SEE ME EATING AS MUCH AS I DO,

THEY'RE GONNA SAY SOMETHING.

AND I WOULD RATHER JUST EAT IN PEACE.

I CHOOSE TO EAT THINGS THAT AREN'T NECESSARILY

AS HEALTHY FOR ME AS I SHOULD.

BUT I JUST WANT TO EAT A SNACK WITHOUT SOMEONE GIVING ME LOOKS,

TELLING ME THAT I EAT TOO MUCH,

OR CRITICIZING ME ABOUT WHAT I EAT.

BUT THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENED ALL MY LIFE.

FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN A COMFORT FOR ME.

WHEN MY PARENTS GOT DIVORCED, I WAS ABOUT 8 YEARS OLD.

THAT DEFINITELY IS WHEN I THINK

EVERYTHING KIND OF WENT DOWNHILL FOR ME, YOU KNOW, EMOTIONALLY.

I REMEMBER NOT REALLY UNDERSTANDING,

BUT I KNEW I FELT BETTER WHEN I ATE.

SO, BY THE TIME I WAS 9, I WEIGHED OVER 150 POUNDS.

AND I WAS STILL EATING A LOT

BECAUSE OF THE STRESS FROM THE CUSTODY BATTLE.

I HAD TO PICK WHICH PARENT I WANTED TO LIVE WITH,

AND MY BROTHER WANTED TO LIVE WITH MY DAD,

SO I SAID I WOULD GO WITH HIM.

BUT I FELT REALLY HORRIBLE FOR MY MOTHER.

LOOKING BACK, IT MAY NOT HAVE BEEN THE BEST CHOICE

BECAUSE ME AND MY STEPMOM COULD NOT GET ALONG.

SO, FOOD WAS WHAT I TURNED TO TO

TRY TO FIND SOME TYPE OF A CALMNESS.

BY THE TIME I WAS 12, I WAS ALREADY SO BIG

THAT I HAD TO BUY MY CLOTHES FROM THE "BIG AND TALL" SECTION

IN THE MEN'S DEPARTMENT.

AND MY WEIGHT WAS A CONSTANTLY SOURCE OF RIDICULE

WITH MY STEPMOM, AND SHE DIDN'T REALLY WANT ME AROUND AT ALL,

SO SHE WOULD SEND ME TO FAT CAMP.

I REMEMBER THE STIGMA OF EMBARRASSMENT

ATTACHED TO THE WHOLE SITUATION,

BUT REGARDLESS OF WHAT I DID,

THERE WAS NEVER WEIGHT LOSS.

IT JUST WAS ALWAYS GRADUALLY CREEPING UP.

AND BY THE TIME I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL, I WAS OVER 400 POUNDS.

AFTER THAT, I WASN'T GAINING FOR A FEW YEARS THERE,

BUT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT IT WAS GONNA GET WORSE

AS QUICKLY AS IT DID.

WHEN I WAS 25, MY MOM DIED.

AFTER THAT, THE GUILT AND PAIN FOR LEAVING MY MOM CAME BACK,

AND I REALLY REMOVED MYSELF FROM...EVERYTHING.

I JUST KIND OF SHUT DOWN.

I PUT ON EVEN MORE WEIGHT AFTER THAT...

...UNTIL I MET MY WIFE.

KAYLEIGH MADE ME HAPPIER THAN I'D EVER BEEN.

I WAS AROUND 500 POUNDS WHEN KAYLEIGH AND I MET,

BUT SHE DIDN'T CARE ABOUT MY WEIGHT,

AND WE STARTED SPENDING A LOT OF TIME TOGETHER.

THE FIRST THING THAT I NOTICED ABOUT GIDEON WAS HIS SMILE.

HE WAS JUST MAKING JOKES AND BEING REALLY FUNNY,

AND I LIKE THAT.

Gideon: I JUST FELL IN LOVE WITH HER.

AND SHE HAD A SON, JONATHAN.

AND AS WE STARTED TO SPEND TIME TOGETHER,

I STARTED TO FEEL THAT HE WAS MY SON, TOO.

SO WE GOT MARRIED AND BECAME A FAMILY.

Kayleigh: IT WAS A LOT DIFFERENT WHEN I MET HIM.

HE WAS ALWAYS HAPPY.

HE WAS CONFIDENT.

HE DID NOT CARRY HIMSELF LIKE HE WEIGHED AS MUCH AS HE DID.

BUT HE'S CHANGED SO MUCH SINCE I'VE KNOWN HIM.

THINGS DEFINITELY GOT BETTER FOR A WHILE,

BUT WITHIN A YEAR OF KAYLEIGH AND I GETTING MARRIED,

MY DAD AND MY SISTER BOTH DIED WITHIN THREE DAYS OF EACH OTHER.

ALL I CAN THINK OF NOW IS FOOD.

FOOD HELPS ME WITH THE PAIN, AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHANGE THAT.

AND NOW I KNOW I MUST BE OVER 600 POUNDS.

WHENEVER GIDEON'S DAD AND SISTER DIED, HE JUST GOT DEPRESSED.

AND NOW HE DOESN'T GET UP AND MOVE AROUND A LOT.

GIDEON, I'M GONNA GO OUT AND MOW.

OKAY. YOU WANT TO COME HELP ME?

HE DOESN'T REALLY DO ANYTHING

OTHER THAN PLAY ON HIS PHONE AND EAT.

IT'S VERY FRUSTRATING TO ME BECAUSE I DO NOT FEEL

LIKE WE ARE EQUAL PARTNERS IN THE HOUSEHOLD.

I WORK, I GO TO SCHOOL FULL TIME.

AND ON TOP OF TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF JONATHAN

AND TAKE CARE OF THE HOUSE, I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF HIM.

GO GET THE TRASH CANS AND DRAG THEM UP HERE FOR ME, PLEASE.

IT'S REALLY STRESSFUL, AND IT ALWAYS FEELS

LIKE I AM A SINGLE PARENT WITH TWO CHILDREN.

Gideon: I KNOW I SHOULD DO MORE TO HELP OUT WITH THE HOUSE WORK,

BUT IT'S SO HARD ON ME PHYSICALLY.

THAT'S BEEN THE BIGGEST HURDLE,

AND THE HARDEST THING TO KIND OF SWALLOW HAS BEEN

HOW IT AFFECTS THEM.

I DON'T KNOW WHERE I WOULD BE WITHOUT KAYLEIGH.

JUST TERRIFIED THAT MY WEIGHT'S GOING TO CAUSE KAYLEIGH

TO LEAVE ME BECAUSE SHE'S NOT HAPPY.

MY WEIGHT HAS BEEN DETRIMENTAL TO BEING THE FATHER,

THE HUSBAND, THE PROVIDER

THAT I'VE DREAMED OF BEING MY WHOLE LIFE.

BEING A DAD IS PROBABLY THE ONLY THING THAT I'M REALLY PROUD OF.

Jonathan: I LOVE MY DAD A LOT.

I WANT HIM TO LOSE WEIGHT AND BE HEALTHY

SO WE CAN PLAY OUTSIDE MORE OFTEN.

OOH.

Gideon: I HAD A GREAT DAD,

AND [SNIFFLES] HE DIDN'T LIVE LONG ENOUGH.

SO I'M AFRAID THAT'S THE MOMENTUM

THAT I'M CARRYING OVER FOR JONATHAN...

WHERE DID IT GO?

...IS THAT I'M NOT GONNA LIVE LONG ENOUGH.

LET'S GO INSIDE. OKAY.

[ GRUNTS ]

I'M TERRIFIED OF WHAT KIND OF BURDEN I'M BECOMING TO THEM.

AND I DON'T REALLY KNOW HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS

MY FAMILY'S WILLING TO TAKE.

Kayleigh: ARE YOU GUYS ALMOST READY?

BEYOND READY.

I ONLY REALLY GO OUT TO GET FOOD

OR IF THERE'S GONNA BE FOOD WHERE I'M GOING.

BUT EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I'M GOING SOMEWHERE TO EAT,

I HAVE A HARD TIME NOT STOPPING TO GET A SNACK.

JUST GRILLING, LIKE...

YEAH, WE'RE GONNA GRILL THE BRATS

AND JUST HANG OUT, PLAY SOME GAMES.

THAT'S COOL.

I'LL SEE A PLACE AND I'LL START TO CRAVE SOMETHING THEY HAVE.

GOOD MORNING.

DO YOU HAVE APPLE FRITTERS?

OH, I WANT TWO OF THOSE.

AND THEN A CHOCOLATE LONG JOHN -- TWO OF THOSE.

Kayleigh: GIDEON IS EATING HIMSELF TO DEATH.

DO YOU HAVE, LIKE, A MIXED DOZEN?

HE SAYS THAT HE'S FIGHTING TO LIVE FOR US,

BUT I DON'T THINK HIS ACTIONS SHOW THAT.

IF THERE'S ONE THING I KNOW, IT'S A GOOD APPLE FRITTER.

I JUST WANT TO SHAKE HIM AND JUST SCREAM AT HIM,

"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?

WHY CAN'T YOU CHANGE?

DON'T YOU WANT BETTER FOR YOURSELF?

DON'T YOU WANT BETTER FOR ME AND JONATHAN?

YOU ARE SLOWLY KILLING YOURSELF."

HEY. WE'RE HERE. WE MADE IT.

HE NEEDS TO REALIZE THAT HE'S LOSING EVERYTHING.

MY FAMILY AND ME AND JONATHAN IS REALLY ALL THAT HE HAS.

COME HERE, SISTER.

WE WANT HIM TO BE SUCCESSFUL, BUT WE KIND OF FEEL LIKE

HE'S HAD THESE OPPORTUNITIES BEFORE TO LOSE THE WEIGHT,

AND HE HASN'T GRABBED AHOLD OF THEM AND DONE ALL THAT HE CAN.

[ GROANS ] GOOD GRIEF.

MY WHOLE LIFE, NEVER BEING ABLE TO LOSE WEIGHT,

HAS BEEN TOUGH ON ME.

I FEEL LIKE I'M CONSTANTLY FAILING AT EVERYTHING I TRY.

HI.

AND WHEN I SIT AROUND,

IT FEELS LIKE THEY'VE ALREADY WRITTEN ME OFF FOR DEAD.

THIS IS NOT WHAT I DREAMED OF FOR MY LIFE,

AND I DON'T THINK BEING MARRIED TO A FAT GUY

IS WHAT SHE DREAMED OF FOR HERS.

I GOT FOOD!

I DON'T THINK GIDEON REALIZES HOW CLOSE I AM TO...BEING DONE.

I WANT HIM TO LIVE, JONATHAN NEEDS HIM TO LIVE,

AND HE'S GOT TO BE HEALTHY TO LIVE.

BUT EVERYTHING HAS TO CHANGE,

AND I DON'T KNOW IF HE GETS THAT.

MMM.

Gideon: I'M AT THE POINT WHERE I'M SEEING MY FUTURE,

AND IT'S VERY BLEAK.

I'VE HAD TO BURY TOO MANY PEOPLE,

AND I DON'T WANT JONATHAN TO HAVE TO BURY ME.

SOMETHING'S GOT TO CHANGE,

BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO STOP EATING.

AND I KNOW THAT IF I DON'T TAKE CONTROL...I'M DOOMED.

**

Kayleigh: YOU READY TO GO TO HOUSTON?

I BELIEVE SO.

TODAY KAYLEIGH AND I ARE GOING TO HOUSTON

TO SEE A DOCTOR NAMED DR. NOWZARADAN.

HE DOES WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY ON PEOPLE MY SIZE,

AND I'M HOPING HE CAN HELP ME.

[ GRUNTS ]

I'M A LITTLE BIT NERVOUS BECAUSE I WANT HELP,

BUT I'M ALSO A LITTLE SCARED ABOUT HAVING TO GIVE UP FOOD.

BUT I KNOW MY MARRIAGE AND MY LIFE IS ON THE LINE.

DID WE FIGURE OUT LUNCH?

I WANT THE NUMBER FIVE.

I NEED A JUNIOR BACON CHEDDAR MELT,

A NUMBER FIVE, AND THEN A NUMBER NINE.

THANK YOU, MA'AM.

I NEED SOMEONE TO HELP ME,

BECAUSE I KNOW I'M NEVER GONNA CHANGE ON MY OWN.

BUT I'M A LITTLE ANXIOUS ABOUT WHAT THE DOCTOR IS GONNA SAY.

I WAS ABLE TO CHECK MY WEIGHT RECENTLY, AND I WAS AROUND 620,

SO I DON'T THINK IT'S GONNA BE MUCH HIGHER THAN THAT.

I'M SHOCKED.

WASN'T EXPECTING IT TO BE THAT HIGH.

THIS IS ABSOLUTELY THE HEAVIEST I'VE EVER BEEN.

REALITY JUST HIT ME IN THE FACE

AND MADE ME AWARE OF HOW BAD MY WEIGHT HAS GOTTEN.

THAT'S AN UGLY NUMBER.

IT'S JUST GONNA KEEP GOING UP.

YOU GOT TO KNOCK IT OUT.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

HELLO. HELLO.

I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU.

NICE TO MEET YOU. NICE TO MEET YOU.

SO, YOU'RE 650 POUNDS.

TELL ME HOW YOUR WEIGHT HAS CLIMBED THIS HIGH.

WELL, I'M OBESE.

THAT'S THE BIGGEST PROBLEM.

OKAY, SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE CAUSE OF THAT?

UH, A HISTORY, A WHOLE LIFE, OF BAD EATING HABITS.

WHAT DOES YOUR EATING LOOK LIKE?

I DEFINITELY DON'T EAT HEALTHY.

I HAVE A SNACK IN THE MORNING, THEN BREAKFAST,

AND THEN I EAT MAYBE ONE SMALL MEAL DURING THE DAY.

LIKE, I'LL GO THROUGH FAST FOOD,

GET LIKE TWO HAMBURGERS, THREE COOKIES.

SO YOU CALL THAT A SMALL MEAL?

WELL, I MEAN, COMPARED TO, LIKE, MY DINNER MEAL, IT'S SMALLER.

WELL, FOR A TYPICAL DINNER, WHAT DO YOU USUALLY HAVE AT HOME?

WE USUALLY HAVE QUICK MEALS,

SO LIKE SPAGHETTI, BECAUSE I DO WORK LATE.

SO WHO DOES THE GROCERY SHOPPING?

I DO, TYPICALLY.

YOU DO? YEAH.

GIDEON IS MAKING JOKES, AND HIS WIFE, KAYLEIGH,

IS MAKING EXCUSES ABOUT HAVING LITTLE TIME

TO MAKE HEALTHY FOOD.

THEY'RE LOOKING FOR A MAGIC PILL

TO SOLVE THEIR PROBLEM WITHOUT EFFORT.

YOU BOTH KNOW WHAT HEALTHY EATING IS.

YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO MAKE THE CHANGE.

BUT NOW IS THE TIME TO DO THAT.

I'M GIVING YOU A DIET PLAN,

AND I WANT YOU TO LOSE 50 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH

TO SHOW ME THAT YOU'RE READY AND WILLING TO WORK.

OKAY. OKAY?

YES, SIR.

ALL RIGHT, SEE YOU SOON.

IT WAS AWESOME TO MEET YOU, SIR.

Dr. Nowzaradan: GIDEON HAS AN EXTRA 400 POUNDS ON HIS BODY.

THAT'S GOING TO START TAKING A GREATER TOLL ON HIM.

IT'S TIME FOR BOTH OF THEM TO MAKE A CHANGE

IF GIDEON IS GOING TO TURN HIS HEALTH AROUND.

DO YOU THINK YOU CAN LOSE 50 POUNDS IN A MONTH?

I THINK THAT I'M GONNA GIVE IT EVERYTHING I CAN

TO LOSE 55 POUNDS IN A MONTH.

Kayleigh: 50 POUNDS IS A BIG STEP FOR HIM.

I WANT TO BE THE DUTIFUL WIFE AND BE LIKE, "MAN,

YOU CAN KNOCK OUT 50 POUNDS EASY,"

BUT I DON'T KNOW, REALISTICALLY, THAT HE CAN.

I NEED GIDEON TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT SO HE CAN LIVE,

[Voice breaking] SO HE CAN BE HERE FOR JONNY AND FOR ME.

Gideon: NOW IT'S NOW OR NEVER.

YOU KNOW, I'M HURTING KAYLEIGH AND I'M HURTING JONATHAN,

AND THOSE ARE THE ONLY TWO THINGS I HAVE LEFT.

SO, WHATEVER IT TAKES, I'M GONNA DO IT.

**

Kayleigh: IT'S HOTTER THAN HADES TODAY.

GIVE ME THE DRAWERS, PLEASE.

IT'S BEEN A HARD COUPLE OF WEEKS,

AND I KNOW AT THIS POINT, I'M EITHER ALL IN OR ALL OUT.

SO, I'VE BEEN ADAPTING TO NEW EATING HABITS.

WE ARE LOADING UP TO HEAD SOUTH TO TEXAS.

WE FOUND A HOUSE THERE, AND WE'RE MOVING DOWN THERE

SO THAT I CAN BE CLOSER TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE.

THE FACT THAT KAYLEIGH, JONATHAN, AND I ARE MOVING

FURTHER AWAY FROM FAMILY JUST PUTS MORE ADDED PRESSURE ON ME

BECAUSE I HAVE TO SUCCEED.

OTHERWISE, I'VE PUT THEM THROUGH CHAOS AND STRESS FOR NO REASON.

BUT I'VE GOT TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES

FOR ME TO GET MY HEALTH TOGETHER.

Kayleigh: THIS IS LIFE CHANGING FOR GIDEON AND FOR US AS A FAMILY, TOO.

WE GAVE UP GOOD JOBS TO PURSUE HIS DREAM.

I'M JUST SCARED IF WE GET DOWN THERE

AND HE DOESN'T HAVE THE SURGERY, THEN WE'RE OUT OF OPTIONS.

ONE, TWO, THREE.

Gideon: THIS IS DEFINITELY MY LAST CHANCE

TO GET MY HEALTH UNDER CONTROL,

BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M PUSHING MYSELF TO THE LIMIT,

PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY.

I WAS SUPPOSED TO DRIVE MY TRUCK,

BUT I'VE BEEN ON THE VERGE OF JUST HEAT EXHAUSTION.

I HATE FEELING GUILTY BEING IN THE AIR CONDITIONING,

AND ANY TIME I AM PUTTING KAYLEIGH AND JONATHAN OUT,

I FEEL LIKE IT'S JUST ANOTHER CONSTANT REMINDER

OF HOW I'M KIND OF LETTING THEM DOWN,

MAKING IT HARDER ON THEM BY BEING...FAT.

BUT THAT'S WHAT WE'RE HERE TO CHANGE.

Kayleigh: GIDEON HAS DONE REALLY WELL ON THE JOURNEY SO FAR,

BUT IF WE MOVE DOWN HERE AND UPROOT OUR WHOLE LIVES

AND HE STARTS TO FAIL,

WE WILL BE REEVALUATING OUR RELATIONSHIP.

**

OKAY.

Gideon: IT WAS A LONG JOURNEY HERE, BUT WE MADE IT.

AND I DIDN'T STOP FOR FAST FOOD ONCE.

WE'VE HAD MY WIFE'S FAMILY OVER HERE HELPING,

BUT UNTIL WE MOVE IN,

I KNOW WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO DO FOOD RUNS.

AND FAST FOOD IS THE NATURAL CHOICE...

DO YOU WANT ANYTHING TO EAT?

UM, YEAH.

I WANT... THAT SPICY CHICKEN.

...WHICH MAKES IT HARDER TO RESIST.

FOOD ADDICTION IS A UNIQUE TYPE OF ADDICTION.

IT'S LIKE NEEDING HEROIN TO LIVE, BUT JUST A LITTLE,

SO YOU HAVE TO GO AND FACE YOUR DEMONS EVERY DAY

AND STILL RESIST IT.

I NEED TWO OF THE GRILLED MARKET SALADS

AND THEN A KID'S MEAL, THE SIX.

I'LL BE HONEST --

THINKING ABOUT DOING THIS FOR A LIFETIME IS SCARY.

THIS ONE'S YOURS.

I KNOW KAYLEIGH IS SKEPTICAL,

AND THAT'S BECAUSE I'VE LET HER DOWN SO MANY TIMES BEFORE.

IN THE PAST ON DIETS, GIDEON HAS ALWAYS CHEATED,

BUT I'M TRUSTING THAT HE'S GOING TO STICK TO THE PLAN

AND NOT SLIDE BACK.

I'M TRYING TO SHOW HER THIS TIME IT'S GONNA BE DIFFERENT

BY NOT FAILING AT THIS, BECAUSE IF I DO,

I'LL LOSE EVERYTHING I CARE ABOUT.

**

Gideon: IT'S BEEN A MONTH SINCE I SAW THE DOCTOR,

AND HE TOLD ME THAT I NEEDED TO LOSE 50 POUNDS

AND GET TO 600 POUNDS.

MR. YEAKLEY?

I'M MORE NERVOUS THIS TIME THAN THE FIRST TIME,

'CAUSE NOW I HAVE A GOAL I NEED TO HIT.

THIS ONE IS PASS/FAIL

AND WILL DETERMINE IF I GET THE SURGERY OR NOT,

AND I HAVE TO GET APPROVED TODAY.

PART OF ME IS EXCITED TO SEE PROGRESS,

BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I'M DISAPPOINTED

IT WASN'T AS MUCH AS THE DOCTOR WANTED,

AND I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW

THAT HE'S NOT GONNA APPROVE ME FOR SURGERY,

AND I WAS COUNTING ON TELLING KAYLEIGH

THAT I WAS APPROVED TODAY.

HI, GIDEON. HELLO, SIR.

SO, YOU LOST 30 POUNDS THIS PAST MONTH.

YEP. THE DIET CHANGE, I THINK, WAS THE BIGGEST EFFECT.

I'M PROUD OF THE PROGRESS YOU MADE,

BUT YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO LOSE 50 POUNDS

IN THE LAST MONTH. YES, SIR.

Dr. Nowzaradan: GIDEON IS A BIG, TALL MAN.

LOSING 50 POUNDS IS THE SAME AS ASKING OTHER PEOPLE TO LOSE 20.

HE SHOULD HAVE HAD NO PROBLEM TO MAKE THE PROGRESS HE NEEDED,

SO HE'S STILL NOT DOING ALL HE SHOULD BE.

YOU'RE STILL NOT FULLY MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION,

AND I AM CONCERNED ABOUT YOUR TEST RESULTS RIGHT NOW.

SO I'M NOT APPROVING YOU FOR SURGERY.

GIDEON'S HEALTH HAS DETERIORATED,

AND THAT IS CONCERNING FOR ME.

A PERSON'S BODY AT THIS WEIGHT STARTS TO GIVE OUT.

IT'S SOMETHING THAT HAPPENS RAPIDLY.

GIDEON, I'LL TELL YOU WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO

SINCE YOU MADE SOME PROGRESS.

I'M GOING TO SEND YOU TO THE HOSPITAL FOR A WEEK.

I WANT TO RUN SOME MORE TESTS ON YOU TO MAKE SURE

THERE ARE NO LIFE-THREATENING ISSUES RIGHT NOW.

AND IF YOU STICK WITH THE PROGRAM DURING THAT TIME

AND LOSE ANOTHER 10 POUNDS,

THEN I'LL SEE THE EFFORT IS THERE

AND I WILL APPROVE YOU FOR SURGERY.

THANK YOU, SIR. OKAY?

YES, SIR.

ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU LATER.

Gideon: THE DOC DIDN'T SAY NO, BUT HE DIDN'T SAY YES, EITHER,

AND I'M WORRIED WHAT KAYLEIGH IS GONNA SAY.

LOOKING BACK, YOU KNOW, I KEEP THINKING

I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER.

I AM SO USED TO BEING AN UNDERACHIEVER, YOU KNOW,

THE FAT KID THAT'S LOOKED AT AT EVERY GROCERY STORE,

AND I DON'T WANT TO BE THIS FAILURE ANYMORE.

THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE, AND I'M TAKING IT.

**

IT'S BEEN INTERESTING BEING IN THE HOSPITAL THIS PAST WEEK.

BUT I'M STUCK WITH THE DIET THEY'VE GIVEN ME HERE,

AND I'VE GOTTEN UP AND DONE ALL THE EXERCISES THEY'VE ASKED ME,

BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MUCH IS RIDING ON THIS.

Kayleigh: IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME

THAT GIDEON GETS APPROVED FOR THE SURGERY TODAY.

YOU KNOW, WE'VE SACRIFICED A LOT MOVING DOWN HERE,

SO IF HE DOESN'T GET THE SURGERY,

I'M GONNA BE REALLY DISAPPOINTED.

HELLO.

HELLO, DOC. HI.

HOW YOU DOING TONIGHT?

I'M GOOD. HOW ARE YOU?

ALL RIGHT. I'VE REVIEWED ALL THE PROGRESS YOU MADE

OVER PAST WEEK, AND I THINK YOU'RE READY FOR SURGERY.

AWESOME. AWESOME.

OKAY? THANK YOU, SIR.

YEAH, THAT'S AMAZING.

GREAT NEWS! THANK YOU.

YOU'RE WELCOME.

ALL RIGHT. THANK YOU, SIR.

GIDEON HAD SOME MEDICAL ISSUES

THAT WERE RESOLVED OVER THE PAST WEEK,

SO I USED IT AS A CHANCE TO PUT HIM ON AN EXERCISE AND DIET PLAN

TO SEE HOW HE STUCK WITH IT, AND HE'S BEEN COMPLETELY COMMITTED,

AND HE'S READY FOR GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY.

I THINK HE JUST NEEDED A LITTLE MORE GUIDANCE WITH THINGS.

HOW DO YOU FEEL RIGHT NOW?

[ CHUCKLES ]

ARE YOU GONNA, LIKE, JUMP OUT OF THE BED?

NO, BECAUSE MY SCIATIC HURTS 'CAUSE I'M FAT.

THIS MEANS A LOT TO ME THAT YOU GOT ACCEPTED,

'CAUSE YOU'RE GONNA LIVE NOW.

YOU'RE GETTING YOUR WISH.

HE DID JUST BASICALLY TELL ME LIKE,

"I'M GONNA EXTEND YOUR LIFE."

YEAH. I LOVE YOU.

I LOVE YOU.

YOU WANT TO GET IN HERE, GIVE YOUR DADDY A HUG?

IT'S A HUGE SENSE OF RELIEF

THAT HE GOT THE ACCEPTANCE FOR SURGERY.

I'M VERY EXCITED FOR US AS A FAMILY,

AND HE... BETTER BE SUCCESSFUL.

**

Gideon: TODAY'S THE DAY FOR MY SURGERY...

GIVE YOUR DADDY A HUG AND A KISS.

...AND I'M VERY ANXIOUS.

IS IT TOO LATE TO BACK OUT?

YES. THIS IS DEFINITELY TOO LATE TO BACK OUT.

LAST FEW NIGHTS, I'VE BEEN HAVING DREAMS

THAT THERE'S COMPLICATIONS THAT ARISE DURING SURGERY,

SO THE CLOSER I GET TO SURGERY, THE MORE TERRIFYING

IT'S BECOMING BECAUSE OF WHAT'S AT STAKE.

WHAT IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG?

WHAT IF I DON'T MAKE IT OUT OF IT?

I'M SCARED I'M ABOUT TO DIE,

AND PART OF ME WANTS TO JUST BACK OUT RIGHT NOW.

BUT I KNOW THAT'D BE THE END OF MY MARRIAGE,

AND THAT WOULD BE WORSE TO ME, SO I'M DOING THIS.

Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE'RE ATTEMPTING TO DO

GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY ON GIDEON.

BIGGEST CONCERN WITH GIDEON

IS MOST OF HIS WEIGHT IS IN MID PORTION ABDOMEN.

SO, IT'S GONNA BE CHALLENGING TO DO GASTRIC BYPASS ON HIM.

GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY IS A WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY THAT WE DO

TO REDUCE THE SIZE OF THE STOMACH ABOUT 90%.

WE CREATE A SMALL POUCH, AND WE HOOK THAT TO THE SMALL BOWEL.

AND WE REROUTE THE FOOD FROM GOING TO PART OF THE STOMACH

AND SMALL INTESTINE.

WE HAVE AN ISSUE WITH ACCESS.

WE HAVE TO TRY SOMETHING DIFFERENT RIGHT NOW.

Kayleigh: I'M REALLY ANXIOUS FOR HIM TO BE DONE.

I HOPE THAT THIS SURGERY

JUST IMPROVES THE QUALITY OF HIS LIFE.

OUR RELATIONSHIP'S GONNA GET BETTER.

HE'S GONNA BE A BETTER FATHER TO JONATHAN.

IT'S GONNA BE GOOD FOR ALL OF US.

ALL RIGHT, THAT'S BETTER.

WE HAD AN ISSUE FOR A MOMENT, BEING ABLE TO MAKE INCISIONS

TO GET INSTRUMENTS IN THE RIGHT POSITION,

BUT WE'VE BEEN ABLE TO REPOSITION

AND GET THE ACCESS WE NEED.

GIDEON'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL.

WE DID A BYPASS ON HIM.

TOOK A LITTLE BIT LONGER THAN EXPECTED,

BUT THERE WERE NO MAJOR ISSUES.

GIDEON HAS TO KEEP MAKING RIGHT CHOICES

AND PUSH HIMSELF TO DO THAT, BUT IF HE DOESN'T,

THEN HE WILL EVENTUALLY FAIL AND START TO GAIN AGAIN.

IT'S ALL UP TO HIM NOW.

**

Boy: I'M HUNGRY.

YOU WANT ME TO MAKE YOU A SANDWICH?

YEAH. OKAY.

DO YOU WANT TO GO WAKE YOUR DADDY UP

AND SEE IF HE WANTS TO EAT SOMETHING, TOO?

SURE. OKAY.

I AM REALLY WORRIED ABOUT GIDEON RIGHT NOW.

ONCE HE GOT THE SURGERY, HIS GOAL WAS TO GET A JOB

AND START HELPING MORE AROUND THE HOUSE,

AND HE'S NOT DOING THAT.

HE SLEEPS MOST OF THE DAY,

BECAUSE HE DOESN'T GET UP TO EAT ALL DAY.

I CAN TRY.

I CAN'T EAT A SANDWICH, BUT I CAN COME FIND SOMETHING.

I'M HOPING THIS IS JUST PART OF THE RECOVERY.

Gideon: SINCE SURGERY, I'VE HAD NO PROBLEM STICKING TO THE DIET.

BUT I'VE JUST FOUND IT HARD TO GET UP

AND STAY ACTIVE ALL DAY.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT?

IT'S HARD, BECAUSE WHEN I FELT ANYTHING,

I COULD JUST GO EAT.

NOW, I CAN'T DO THAT.

Kayleigh: WE DIDN'T COME ALL THIS WAY

FOR GIDEON TO END UP THE EXACT SAME WAY.

IF HE DOESN'T FIGURE THIS OUT,

I'M TAKING JONATHAN AND MOVING BACK TO OKLAHOMA.

Kayleigh: YOU FEEL UP TO GOING OUT?

I'M GONNA GO LAY DOWN.

IT'S REALLY HARD BECAUSE I KNOW THAT MOVING HERE

AND HIM BEING ABLE TO HAVE THE SURGERY

IS SOMETHING THAT POTENTIALLY SAVED HIS LIFE,

BUT ON THE FLIP SIDE, KNOWING EVERYTHING THAT WE GAVE UP,

IT MAKES IT REALLY HARD TO SAY, "YEAH, IT WAS WORTH IT."

Gideon: I KNOW KAYLEIGH IS GETTING FRUSTRATED.

AND I'M HOPING WHEN I GO TO MY NEXT APPOINTMENT

WITH DR. NOWZARADAN, HE CAN HELP ME FIGURE THIS OUT,

BECAUSE I JUST HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO RIGHT NOW

OR IF SOMETHING IS WRONG.

JUST LET HIM REST FOR A LITTLE BIT.

**

IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS SINCE SURGERY,

AND I'M SEEING THE DOCTOR AGAIN TODAY.

I'M MAKING GOOD PROGRESS,

AND I'M GETTING CLOSE TO BEING UNDER 500 POUNDS.

OH.

I CAN STRIP DOWN.

BUT IT'S MY ENERGY

I'M HOPING THE DOC CAN GIVE ME SOME HELP WITH.

15 POUNDS.

I HOPE HE HAS A FIX OR SOMETHING.

[ KNOCK ON DOOR ] HELLO.

HOW ARE YOU, SIR? I'M DOING OKAY.

HOW ABOUT YOURSELF? OKAY.

SO, YOU LOST SOME WEIGHT. CAN YOU TELL THE DIFFERENCE?

MY LEGS ARE THANKING ME ALREADY, YEAH.

SO, YOU'RE WALKING MORE NOW?

I FEEL LIKE -- I MEAN, I WANT TO BE DOING MORE ACTIVITY,

BUT I HAVEN'T HAD THE ENERGY TO REALLY DO A WHOLE LOT.

THIS CAN BE A NORMAL REACTION TO LOSS OF COPING MECHANISM.

IT'S A PERIOD OF ADJUSTMENT THAT MAY LAST A FEW MONTHS.

IT'S NOT UNUSUAL FOR SOMEONE WHO USED FOOD TO COPE FOR SO LONG

TO EXPERIENCE WHAT GIDEON'S DESCRIBING.

HE'S SHUTTING DOWN WHEN HE FEELS ANYTHING

BECAUSE HE'S TRYING TO ADJUST TO HOW THINGS WORK NOW.

IF YOU FIND YOURSELF FATIGUED AND YOU STILL FEEL

YOU HAVE NO ENERGY OVER THE NEXT FEW MONTHS,

WE SHOULD GET YOU A THERAPIST SO YOU CAN KEEP MAKING PROGRESS.

GIDEON NEEDS TO START LEARNING HOW TO DEAL WITH HIS EMOTION

AND THE STRESS IN A HEALTHY WAY.

KEEP WORKING ON IT. I'LL SEE YOU NEXT MONTH, OKAY?

ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU, SIR. YOU'RE WELCOME.

IF HE DOESN'T, AND GIDEON GOES BACK TO HIS OLD EATING HABITS,

THE SURGERY WILL BE INEFFECTIVE.

Gideon: IT'S A RELIEF TO FIND OUT MY LOW ENERGY IS SOMEWHAT NORMAL,

BUT I DON'T LIKE THE REASON BEHIND IT

AND THAT I'M GOING TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH SOMETHING,

'CAUSE I NEVER REALLY PLANNED ON DEALING WITH IT.

I'D RATHER SOME THINGS JUST STAY BURIED.

**

HONEY, DO YOU WANT THE BLENDER IN STORAGE?

Kayleigh: YEAH, THAT'S FINE.

IT'S BEEN A TOUGH MONTH.

I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO FIND A JOB,

SO KAYLEIGH DECIDED TO MOVE BACK TO OKLAHOMA WITH HER PARENTS.

THE NICE THING ABOUT JUST MOVING IN HERE

IS A LOT OF STUFF IS STILL IN BOXES.

I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD STAY CLOSE TO THE DOCTOR FOR LONGER,

BUT I KNOW IF I DON'T GO WITH HER,

THEN OUR RELATIONSHIP IS GOING TO SUFFER.

Kayleigh: I LOVE GIDEON, BUT HE HAD HIS CHANCE TO CHANGE,

AND RIGHT NOW, HE'S NOT USING IT.

AND THAT'S WHY IT'S REALLY HARD NOT TO RESENT HIM RIGHT NOW.

I'M JUST NOT SURE WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO.

**

Gideon: WE'VE BEEN BACK IN OKLAHOMA

LIVING WITH KAYLEIGH'S PARENTS FOR A COUPLE MONTHS,

AND I STILL FEEL TIRED AND JUST DRAINED ALL THE TIME.

I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO DO SOMETHING

TO REPAY MY IN-LAWS, THOUGH.

SO, I GOT A LIST OF CHORES OF THINGS TO DO AROUND THE HOUSE.

HOW DO I TURN IT ON?

WE HAVE WATER.

I'M LIKE A KID RIGHT NOW THAT HAS TO HAVE HIS HAND HELD

TO DO THINGS, AND THAT'S NOT RIGHT.

I KNOW I HAVE TO FIGURE THIS OUT QUICKLY -- LIKE, YESTERDAY.

SO, I'M TAKING DR. NOW'S ADVICE AND GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST.

I JUST WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS FUNK,

'CAUSE I JUST FEEL LIKE

I'M GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS WITH THINGS.

AWESOME.

AND WHAT'S REALLY SCARING ME

ARE THE CRAVINGS AND THE DESIRE TO STRESS EAT ARE COMING BACK.

I DON'T WANT TO END UP LIKE I WAS,

SO I'M REALLY HOPING THIS THERAPIST IS ABLE TO HELP.

**

TODAY KAYLEIGH AND I ARE GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST.

IF HE'S NOT ABLE TO HELP US,

I LITERALLY DON'T KNOW WHERE ELSE TO GO,

BUT I'M STEPPING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE

TO TRY AND SAVE MY MARRIAGE.

HI, GIDEON.

KAYLEIGH. NICE TO MEET YOU.

COME ON BACK.

SO, TELL ME WHY YOU'RE HERE TODAY.

I FEEL LIKE I HAVE A LOT OF ANXIETY AND ANGER,

DEPRESSION FROM LIFE IN GENERAL.

SO, IF OUR SESSION TODAY GOES AMAZINGLY WELL,

WHAT WILL BE THE END RESULT?

FIGURING OUT WHY I TURN TO FOOD,

BECAUSE I'VE LIVED MY WHOLE LIFE BEING, YOU KNOW, "THE FAT GUY."

YOU KNOW, I'VE HAD WHAT I WOULD CONSIDER TO BE A VERY HECTIC,

YOU KNOW, CHILDHOOD, ADOLESCENT, YOU KNOW, 20s, ALL THE WAY UP

TILL, YOU KNOW, BOTH OF MY PARENTS DIE AT 50,

YOU KNOW, JUST A FEW YEARS APART.

FROM OBESITY OR...?

NO, MY MOM DIED FROM A PAIN MEDICATION

THAT EXPLODED HER HEART, BASICALLY.

AND THEN MY DAD HAD A LONG HISTORY OF DRUG ABUSE.

AND, I MEAN, I FIGHT BACK TEARS OVER MY DAD'S DEATH

DAILY ALMOST BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I COULD HAVE PREVENTED IT.

BUT YOU DO FEEL RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR FATHER'S DEATH.

YEAH.

ALL RIGHT, TAKE YOUR TIME, GIDEON.

MM.

Kayleigh: I'M HEARING GIDEON SHARE THINGS

THAT I HAD NO IDEA HE WAS DEALING WITH.

ALL THIS PAIN AND GUILT THAT HE'S BEEN SHOULDERING

FOR YEARS -- IT JUST BROKE MY HEART.

[ Crying ] I LOVE YOU.

I WANT US TO WORK THROUGH ALL THIS CRAP

THAT WE'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH.

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I'VE EVER LOVED ANYBODY OR ANYTHING.

I KNOW A LOT OF OUR ISSUES IN MARRIAGE

AND IN OUR RELATIONSHIP

STEMMED FROM YOU BEING AFRAID OF LOSING ME

BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT

AFTER YOU FOUND MY DAD IN BED...DECEASED.

IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR DAD,

YOU'VE GOT TO RESOLVE HIS DEATH.

YOU'VE GOT TO WALK THROUGH IT.

Gideon: I NEVER REALIZED HOW MUCH PAIN CONTROLLED MY LIFE

AND HOW IT'S NOT ONLY HURTING ME,

BUT EVERYONE I LOVE AROUND ME.

JUST LIKE I'M LOSING THE WEIGHT, I KNOW I HAVE TO WORK

TO LOSE THIS PAIN AND GUILT IF I WANT TO CHANGE.

**

IF YOU WERE LOOKING AT THE WHOLE -- THERE YOU GO.

SINCE SEEING THE THERAPIST,

I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN ABLE TO MAKE SOME PROGRESS.

IT'S NOT LIKE RIGHT AFTER I CAME HOME,

I HAD ALL THIS ENERGY,

BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M ABLE TO GET UP AND SPEND TIME WITH JONATHAN

AND HELP AROUND THE HOUSE.

JUST KNOWING THAT I'VE HAD ALL THIS EMOTION AND PAIN

THAT I'VE NEVER DEALT WITH HAS HELPED ME.

AND I'M SETTING UP A GOAL OF GETTING A JOB

IN THE NEXT MONTH AND A HALF.

BABE! Kayleigh: YEAH?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT A JUVENILE-DETENTION OFFICER?

DO YOU THINK THAT THAT'S SOMETHING

THAT YOU'LL FEEL COMFORTABLE DOING?

I FEEL LIKE THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I COULD DEFINITELY

MAKE A CAREER OUT OF INSTEAD OF JUST A JOB.

HOPEFULLY, I'LL GET BACK TO WORK

AND START TAKING CARE OF MY FAMILY

SO WE CAN GET A PLACE OF OUR OWN.

I JUST KNOW THAT THAT'S GONNA BE HUGE FOR OUR MARRIAGE.

**

Gideon: YOU READY FOR SCHOOL?

YEAH.

Gideon: THINGS HAVE REALLY GOTTEN A LOT BETTER THIS PAST MONTH.

I GOT THE JOB THAT I WANTED AS A JUVENILE-DETENTION OFFICER,

AND I'M BACK WORKING AGAIN AND PROVIDING FOR MY FAMILY.

IT'S THE BEST FEELING.

I WAKE UP EACH MORNING,

AND INSTEAD OF GETTING DRESSED AND STARTING TO EAT...

LOVE YOU, BUDDY. LOVE YOU.

...I TAKE JONATHAN TO SCHOOL, AND THEN I HEAD TO WORK.

I FEEL LIKE I'M THE FATHER I SHOULD BE NOW,

AND I'M GETTING BETTER AT IT EACH DAY.

I'M MAKING A LOT OF PROGRESS WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS.

THANK YOU, SIR.

I STAYED ON TRACK AND FINALLY MADE IT BELOW 500 POUNDS.

THAT'S SUCH A GREAT FEELING.

THANK YOU, SIR.

I'M PRETTY EXCITED TO GO OUT AND NOT FEEL EMBARRASSED

OR, LIKE, UNDESERVING TO BE WITH KAYLEIGH.

I'M LOVING THE CHANGES THAT I'M SEEING IN GIDEON.

THINGS ARE MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, AND I'M REALLY HAPPY.

I FEEL LIKE THE RESENTMENT THAT KAYLEIGH HAD FOR ME IS GONE,

AND NOW WE'RE CLOSER THAN EVER.

I DON'T KNOW THAT I WOULD HAVE MADE IT THIS WHOLE YEAR

THROUGH EVERYTHING WITHOUT YOU,

SO I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU BEING PATIENT AND SUPPORTING ME,

AND THAT'S THE TRUTH.

YOU'RE WELCOME.

IT WAS WORTH IT.

THIS LAST MONTH, I'VE BEEN TO THE GYM A LOT,

AND I'VE PUT IN THE WORK.

YES.

WELL, I'M PROUD OF YOU. YOU'RE DOING VERY WELL.

I WAS CONCERNED WHEN GIDEON

MOVED BACK TO OKLAHOMA SO QUICKLY,

BUT HE'S COPING WITH LIFE IN HEALTHY WAYS

THAT ARE KEEPING HIM ON THE RIGHT TRACK.

Gideon: THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

WE MADE IT. WE MADE IT.

Kayleigh: GIDEON HAS HONESTLY BLOWN MY MIND.

HE HAS SURPASSED ALL OF MY EXPECTATIONS,

AND I HONESTLY COULD NOT BE PROUDER.

Gideon: I CAN'T BELIEVE MY LIFE NOW.

I'M NO LONGER A BURDEN TO THE PEOPLE AROUND ME,

AND IT'S BEEN AWESOME JUST ENJOYING BEING A FAMILY.

**

IT'S LIKE A DREAM.

AND MY LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER NOW.

I LIKE SPENDING TIME WITH MY DAD.

HE'S MORE ACTIVE, AND HE CAN PLAY WITH ME A LOT MORE.

All: OHH!

[ IMITATES GUNSHOTS ]

LET'S GO LASER.

Gideon: I'M NOT THE FAT GUY THAT I USED TO BE.

I'M CHANGING, MY BODY'S CHANGING,

MY MIND IS CHANGING, MY CONFIDENCE IS CHANGING.

AND THIS IS NOT THE END OF MY JOURNEY.

THAT WAS A GOOD WORKOUT.

OH, THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN! I WAS THIRD.

WE KILLED MOM.

MY GOAL WEIGHT IS 220,

AND I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO GET DOWN TO THAT

BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M CAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING NOW.