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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:03,167 --> 00:00:05,567 June: I'M LIVING IN A NIGHTMARE. 2 00:00:05,567 --> 00:00:09,233 SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE, OR I'M GOING TO DIE. 3 00:00:09,233 --> 00:00:12,267 ** 4 00:00:16,967 --> 00:00:20,467 Man: MY WEIGHT HAS GIVEN ME A DEATH SENTENCE. 5 00:00:20,467 --> 00:00:23,333 Woman: THE THING I RELIED ON ALL THESE YEARS 6 00:00:23,333 --> 00:00:25,067 IS WHAT'S KILLING ME. 7 00:00:32,367 --> 00:00:34,133 -IT'S BROKEN! -WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? 8 00:00:34,133 --> 00:00:35,900 I DON'T KNOW. I CAN'T GET OFF. 9 00:00:35,900 --> 00:00:38,067 DON'T LET ME GO. -I'M NOT. 10 00:00:42,333 --> 00:00:45,500 Man: IT'S HARD TO BE A FATHER FROM A CHAIR. 11 00:00:45,500 --> 00:00:46,633 THANK YOU, HONEY. 12 00:00:46,633 --> 00:00:50,100 I SEE THAT UNWILLINGNESS. 13 00:00:50,100 --> 00:00:52,500 IF YOU WERE SERIOUS, YOU'D MAKE CHANGES. 14 00:00:56,967 --> 00:00:58,967 June: NO, BABY, I WILL NOT AGREE WITH YOU WITH THAT. 15 00:00:58,967 --> 00:01:02,400 IF YOU DON'T FOLLOW WHAT YOUR DOCTORS SAY, 16 00:01:02,400 --> 00:01:04,267 YOU SHOULD GO SEE SOMEBODY ELSE. 17 00:01:04,267 --> 00:01:07,267 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 18 00:01:07,267 --> 00:01:10,300 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 19 00:01:11,100 --> 00:01:13,900 June: PAIN IS ONE OF THE THINGS IN LIFE 20 00:01:13,900 --> 00:01:16,700 THAT WE HAVE NO CONTROL OVER. 21 00:01:16,700 --> 00:01:21,433 WHEN WE TRY TO AVOID IT, WE MAKE IT MUCH, MUCH WORSE. 22 00:01:33,667 --> 00:01:36,100 [ GROANS ] 23 00:01:37,700 --> 00:01:40,267 I'M LIVING IN A NIGHTMARE. 24 00:01:43,367 --> 00:01:45,900 I'M IN PAIN. 25 00:01:45,900 --> 00:01:49,133 I'M BREATHING HEAVY. 26 00:01:49,133 --> 00:01:51,067 AND IT JUST HURTS TO SIT UP. 27 00:01:53,333 --> 00:01:57,667 THE WEIGHT IS TOO MUCH. 28 00:02:01,300 --> 00:02:04,900 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE I CAN ACTUALLY PUT ON MY KNEES. 29 00:02:09,533 --> 00:02:13,533 AND IT'S JUST DIFFICULT TO DO ANYTHING ON MY OWN. 30 00:02:19,100 --> 00:02:22,267 I HAVE TO GET MY GIRLFRIEND, SADI, TO HELP BATHE ME 31 00:02:22,267 --> 00:02:24,067 AND MAKE SURE I'M CLEAN. 32 00:02:28,067 --> 00:02:29,300 OKAY. 33 00:02:29,300 --> 00:02:33,567 IT IS SO DIFFICULT EVEN TO GET IN THE TUB. 34 00:02:36,200 --> 00:02:40,067 YOU GOT IT? 35 00:02:40,067 --> 00:02:41,833 OHH. 36 00:02:45,133 --> 00:02:48,600 AND THEN I CAN'T STAND UP FOR LONG. 37 00:02:48,600 --> 00:02:49,867 OHH! -YOU OKAY? 38 00:02:49,867 --> 00:02:53,300 YEAH. YEAH. 39 00:02:53,300 --> 00:02:58,067 SO SADI DOES EVERYTHING PHYSICAL FOR ME. 40 00:02:58,067 --> 00:03:04,333 TO HAVE SOMEONE BATHE ME IS SO EMBARRASSING. 41 00:03:07,700 --> 00:03:12,967 BUT I FEEL LIKE MY BODY IS GONNA GIVE OUT AT ANY MOMENT. 42 00:03:12,967 --> 00:03:15,100 WHEN I'M WALKING THROUGH THE HOUSE, 43 00:03:15,100 --> 00:03:17,433 I HAVE TO SIT DOWN AND REST. 44 00:03:17,433 --> 00:03:21,300 BUT I ONLY HAVE THREE PLACES I CAN SIT -- 45 00:03:21,300 --> 00:03:24,900 MY BED, THE BATHROOM TOILET, 46 00:03:24,900 --> 00:03:26,567 AND MY CHAIR. 47 00:03:26,567 --> 00:03:28,600 YEAH. 48 00:03:28,600 --> 00:03:30,467 OW, OW, OW, OW. 49 00:03:30,467 --> 00:03:31,800 ARM. 50 00:03:31,800 --> 00:03:34,300 EVERYTHING I TRY TO DO 51 00:03:34,300 --> 00:03:36,900 PUSHES MY BODY TO THE LIMIT. 52 00:03:36,900 --> 00:03:40,233 AND MY WORLD IS CONFINED. 53 00:03:40,233 --> 00:03:45,300 I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING FROM A BED COFFIN 54 00:03:45,300 --> 00:03:48,900 TO A CHAIR COFFIN. 55 00:03:48,900 --> 00:03:51,900 THIS IS NOT THE LIFE THAT I THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE. 56 00:03:57,067 --> 00:03:58,633 WHEN I WAS A CHILD, 57 00:03:58,633 --> 00:04:00,533 I DIDN'T STRUGGLE WITH MY WEIGHT. 58 00:04:02,900 --> 00:04:06,700 BUT MY WEIGHT DID PROGRESS OVER THE YEARS. 59 00:04:06,700 --> 00:04:09,433 THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL AND MY EARLY 20s, 60 00:04:09,433 --> 00:04:12,967 I WAS VERY VOLUPTUOUS, VERY CURVY, 61 00:04:12,967 --> 00:04:16,700 BUT I WAS ACTIVE AND HAPPY. 62 00:04:16,700 --> 00:04:19,267 IT WASN'T UNTIL I STARTED HAVING CHILDREN 63 00:04:19,267 --> 00:04:21,700 THAT I STARTED STRUGGLING WITH MY WEIGHT. 64 00:04:21,700 --> 00:04:23,633 I'VE HAD FOUR CHILDREN, 65 00:04:23,633 --> 00:04:25,933 AND AFTER HAVING MY LAST CHILD, 66 00:04:25,933 --> 00:04:31,533 I WAS WELL OVER THE 300-POUND MARK. 67 00:04:31,533 --> 00:04:34,567 IT WASN'T UNTIL I LOST MY SON 68 00:04:34,567 --> 00:04:37,367 THAT MY WEIGHT GOT OUT OF CONTROL. 69 00:04:37,367 --> 00:04:38,700 OHH. 70 00:04:38,700 --> 00:04:40,067 FOUR YEARS AGO, 71 00:04:40,067 --> 00:04:42,867 MY WHOLE WORLD CAME CRASHING DOWN. 72 00:04:45,167 --> 00:04:48,467 MY SON MACK WAS IN THE WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME 73 00:04:48,467 --> 00:04:51,200 BEING AROUND PEOPLE HE HAD NO BUSINESS BEING AROUND. 74 00:04:51,200 --> 00:04:53,167 AND HE WAS SHOT AND KILLED. 75 00:04:55,733 --> 00:04:59,867 I REMEMBER MY DAUGHTER WALKED IN THE DOOR. 76 00:04:59,867 --> 00:05:02,800 SHE SAID, "MACK IS DEAD. MACK IS GONE." 77 00:05:02,800 --> 00:05:06,300 I INSTANTLY WENT NUMB. 78 00:05:06,300 --> 00:05:10,700 THAT WAS THE MOMENT WHERE EVERYTHING CHANGED. 79 00:05:10,700 --> 00:05:16,200 ONCE HER SON DIED, IT WAS LIKE SHE GAVE UP. 80 00:05:16,200 --> 00:05:18,733 THAT CHANGED HER DRAMATICALLY. 81 00:05:18,733 --> 00:05:20,067 OHH. 82 00:05:20,067 --> 00:05:23,967 SHE JUST BEGAN TO EAT HER PAIN. 83 00:05:23,967 --> 00:05:26,800 I SHUT DOWN. 84 00:05:26,800 --> 00:05:30,933 MY COMFORT REALLY WENT INTO FOOD AT THAT POINT. 85 00:05:30,933 --> 00:05:34,067 I NEEDED SOMETHING TO COPE WITH. 86 00:05:34,067 --> 00:05:36,800 I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT MY SIZE. 87 00:05:36,800 --> 00:05:40,933 AND I JUST ATE. 88 00:05:40,933 --> 00:05:43,367 Sadi: JUNE STILL STRUGGLES WITH THAT PAIN. 89 00:05:43,367 --> 00:05:46,067 SOME DAYS SHE DEALS WITH IT BETTER THAN OTHERS, 90 00:05:46,067 --> 00:05:47,933 BUT SHE STRUGGLES WITH IT. 91 00:05:47,933 --> 00:05:49,933 NOW, YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD BE NICE? 92 00:05:49,933 --> 00:05:53,467 SOME SESAME AND SOME EGG FOO YOUNG. 93 00:05:56,367 --> 00:05:59,833 I MISS HIM EVERY MOMENT. 94 00:05:59,833 --> 00:06:01,567 AND WHEN I THINK ABOUT MACK, 95 00:06:01,567 --> 00:06:05,567 I WANT TO EAT SOMETHING THAT I KNOW HE LOVED. 96 00:06:05,567 --> 00:06:07,400 I CAN'T COMPREHEND HE'S GONE. 97 00:06:07,400 --> 00:06:09,300 AND I FED HIM HIS WHOLE LIFE. 98 00:06:09,300 --> 00:06:12,167 SO IT'S LIKE HE NEED TO EAT, TOO. 99 00:06:12,167 --> 00:06:13,767 SO I'M FEEDING MY BABY. 100 00:06:16,200 --> 00:06:20,567 IT'S SO CRAZY BECAUSE I KNOW I'M NOT FEEDING HIM, 101 00:06:20,567 --> 00:06:25,233 AND I KNOW HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO KEEP EATING. 102 00:06:25,233 --> 00:06:27,067 BUT I CAN'T STOP. 103 00:06:30,267 --> 00:06:31,900 SADI. 104 00:06:31,900 --> 00:06:33,133 OKAY. ONE MOMENT. 105 00:06:33,133 --> 00:06:35,233 I'M HUNGRY. 106 00:06:35,233 --> 00:06:37,767 Sadi: WHEN I FIRST MET JUNE TWO YEARS AGO, 107 00:06:37,767 --> 00:06:40,733 I LIKED THE FACT THAT SHE WAS A VERY CONFIDENT WOMAN 108 00:06:40,733 --> 00:06:42,800 AND SHE LIKED TO GET OUT. 109 00:06:47,267 --> 00:06:51,100 BUT NOW THE ROMANCE JUST, LIKE -- JUST FADED. 110 00:06:51,100 --> 00:06:55,233 AND IT'S LIKE I SETTLED INTO BEING A CARETAKER. 111 00:06:55,233 --> 00:06:59,633 I WANT SOME NACHOS AND A BURRITO. 112 00:06:59,633 --> 00:07:02,533 I WANT EXTRA BEEF, EXTRA CHEESE, 113 00:07:02,533 --> 00:07:03,733 AND EXTRA SOUR CREAM. 114 00:07:03,733 --> 00:07:05,267 OF COURSE. 115 00:07:05,267 --> 00:07:06,533 June: I EAT WHAT I WANT. 116 00:07:06,533 --> 00:07:08,633 ALWAYS HAVE, ALWAYS WILL. 117 00:07:08,633 --> 00:07:12,600 AND NOW AND THEN, SADI WILL SAY, "I'M JUST NOT GONNA GO GET IT." 118 00:07:12,600 --> 00:07:15,067 OKAY. I HAVE A CELLPHONE. 119 00:07:15,067 --> 00:07:18,633 SO EITHER YOU'RE GONNA DO IT, OR I'M GONNA DO IT. 120 00:07:18,633 --> 00:07:20,833 TAKE YOUR PICK. 121 00:07:20,833 --> 00:07:23,467 THAT AIN'T THAT MUCH. 122 00:07:23,467 --> 00:07:24,900 I'M JUST SAYING. 123 00:07:24,900 --> 00:07:27,233 I'M HUNGRY. 124 00:07:27,233 --> 00:07:29,200 Sadi: SHE'S TOTALLY DEPENDENT ON ME. 125 00:07:29,200 --> 00:07:30,433 I HAVE TO GO RUN ERRANDS 126 00:07:30,433 --> 00:07:32,633 'CAUSE SHE CAN'T EVEN GET IN HER VEHICLE. 127 00:07:32,633 --> 00:07:35,233 SO IT'S A CHALLENGE ALTOGETHER. 128 00:07:35,233 --> 00:07:37,667 IT'S A CHALLENGE. 129 00:07:37,667 --> 00:07:40,333 I GET FAST FOOD ANYWHERE FROM ONE TO TWO TIMES A DAY, 130 00:07:40,333 --> 00:07:42,067 SOMETIMES THREE. 131 00:07:42,067 --> 00:07:44,233 I'M CONFLICTED BY BUYING THIS FOOD. 132 00:07:44,233 --> 00:07:48,567 I GIVE IN BECAUSE I DON'T WANT A FUSS. 133 00:07:48,567 --> 00:07:50,200 OKAY, YOU READY? 134 00:07:50,200 --> 00:07:52,967 CAN I HAVE A NACHO GRANDE, 135 00:07:52,967 --> 00:07:54,600 TWO STUFFED BURRITOS, 136 00:07:54,600 --> 00:07:57,367 GORDITAS WITH EXTRA BEEF, 137 00:07:57,367 --> 00:07:59,500 A CHALUPA, 138 00:07:59,500 --> 00:08:01,867 AND TWO HARD-SHELL TACOS. 139 00:08:03,467 --> 00:08:05,167 NO, THAT'LL BE ALL. 140 00:08:05,167 --> 00:08:06,267 BUT, HONESTLY, 141 00:08:06,267 --> 00:08:08,467 I FEEL LIKE SHE DOESN'T HAVE MUCH TIME 142 00:08:08,467 --> 00:08:12,467 'CAUSE HOW LONG CAN A PERSON LIVE LIKE THIS? 143 00:08:15,500 --> 00:08:17,500 UH, DID YOU LOOK AT THE PAPER? 144 00:08:17,500 --> 00:08:19,067 YES, I DID. 145 00:08:19,067 --> 00:08:20,733 YOU COULDN'T HAVE. 146 00:08:20,733 --> 00:08:22,800 THEY MESSED IT UP? 147 00:08:22,800 --> 00:08:26,067 I HAD AN ORDER AND CAME THROUGH DRIVE-THROUGH, 148 00:08:26,067 --> 00:08:29,667 AND YOU GUYS DIDN'T PUT AN ITEM IN THE BAG AT ALL. 149 00:08:29,667 --> 00:08:31,267 SHE ACTS LIKE AN ADDICT, 150 00:08:31,267 --> 00:08:34,067 AND HER FIX IS FOOD. 151 00:08:34,067 --> 00:08:36,500 ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU. 152 00:08:36,500 --> 00:08:39,800 June: IF MY SON SAW ME RIGHT NOW, 153 00:08:39,800 --> 00:08:42,600 IT WOULD HURT HIM. 154 00:08:42,600 --> 00:08:44,800 I LOVE MY SON. 155 00:08:44,800 --> 00:08:48,667 BUT I'M NOT READY TO GO SEE HIM. 156 00:08:48,667 --> 00:08:52,600 SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE, OR I'M GOING TO DIE. 157 00:08:52,600 --> 00:08:55,633 ** 158 00:09:04,933 --> 00:09:07,067 THERE'S A DOCTOR HERE IN HOUSTON. 159 00:09:07,067 --> 00:09:09,167 THEY CALL HIM DR. NOW. 160 00:09:09,167 --> 00:09:12,733 HE DOES SURGERY ON PEOPLE MY SIZE. 161 00:09:14,933 --> 00:09:16,333 I'M GOING TO SEE HIM TODAY, 162 00:09:16,333 --> 00:09:19,967 AND I'M HOPING HE CAN HELP ME. 163 00:09:19,967 --> 00:09:21,767 BUT THIS IS SO HARD. 164 00:09:24,233 --> 00:09:29,900 I HAVEN'T BEEN OUTSIDE MY DOOR IN ABOUT FOUR MONTHS. 165 00:09:29,900 --> 00:09:31,633 YOU WANT ME IN FRONT OF YOU, RIGHT? 166 00:09:31,633 --> 00:09:33,233 YEAH. 167 00:09:33,233 --> 00:09:37,633 I'M NOT SURE IF I CAN EVEN MAKE IT DOWN THE STEPS. 168 00:09:40,533 --> 00:09:42,300 YOUR KNEES FEEL OKAY? 169 00:09:42,300 --> 00:09:45,133 -NO. -NO? 170 00:09:45,133 --> 00:09:47,633 OHH! OKAY. 171 00:09:47,633 --> 00:09:50,433 I'M LITERALLY FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. 172 00:09:55,667 --> 00:09:58,367 OUCH, OUCH, OUCH, OUCH, OUCH. 173 00:10:01,900 --> 00:10:05,233 I'VE BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL OVER 20 TIMES 174 00:10:05,233 --> 00:10:08,367 IN THE LAST THREE YEARS. 175 00:10:08,367 --> 00:10:12,733 NO DOCTOR HAS BEEN ABLE TO HELP ME. 176 00:10:12,733 --> 00:10:16,200 I'M PRAYING THAT'S NOT THE SAME WITH THIS DOCTOR. 177 00:10:20,933 --> 00:10:22,933 YEAH, PULL IT. 178 00:10:22,933 --> 00:10:25,433 THIS HAS TO WORK. 179 00:10:28,333 --> 00:10:29,667 OHH! 180 00:10:29,667 --> 00:10:32,867 BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE SCALE IS GONNA SAY. 181 00:10:35,000 --> 00:10:40,833 I'M REALLY AFRAID THIS DOCTOR MAY SAY I'M BEYOND HELP. 182 00:10:40,833 --> 00:10:44,533 IF HE DOES, IT'S GONNA BE MY DEATH SENTENCE. 183 00:10:49,000 --> 00:10:52,000 ** 184 00:11:02,400 --> 00:11:03,533 June: I'M NERVOUS. 185 00:11:03,533 --> 00:11:05,567 THE WORST THING I CAN FIND OUT RIGHT NOW 186 00:11:05,567 --> 00:11:08,067 IS MY WEIGHT IS TOO HIGH 187 00:11:08,067 --> 00:11:10,067 AND THE DOCTOR CAN'T HELP ME. 188 00:11:11,800 --> 00:11:14,067 OHH! 189 00:11:19,733 --> 00:11:21,300 IT'S SHOCKING. 190 00:11:23,900 --> 00:11:28,433 IT'S ACTUALLY DISTURBING. 191 00:11:28,433 --> 00:11:30,067 OKAY. 192 00:11:30,067 --> 00:11:32,067 I REALLY WASN'T READY FOR THAT. 193 00:11:35,067 --> 00:11:37,233 -HELLO. -HELLO. 194 00:11:37,233 --> 00:11:38,467 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 195 00:11:38,467 --> 00:11:40,133 I'M JUNE. HOW YOU DOING? 196 00:11:40,133 --> 00:11:43,700 SO, YOU ARE ALMOST 600 POUNDS. 197 00:11:43,700 --> 00:11:45,700 TELL ME HOW YOU GOT TO THIS SIZE. 198 00:11:45,700 --> 00:11:47,567 JUST EATING TOO MUCH. 199 00:11:47,567 --> 00:11:50,800 I'M A STEAK, POTATO GIRL. 200 00:11:50,800 --> 00:11:53,233 SWEETS ARE NOT MAJOR FOR ME. 201 00:11:53,233 --> 00:11:55,233 IN A WEEK'S TIME, IF I EAT SWEETS -- 202 00:11:55,233 --> 00:11:58,400 MAYBE TWICE, OR THE MOST IS THREE TIMES. 203 00:11:58,400 --> 00:12:00,067 Sadi: UNLESS YOU'RE STRESSED. 204 00:12:00,067 --> 00:12:01,300 YEAH, UNLESS I'M STRESSED. 205 00:12:01,300 --> 00:12:04,800 IF I'M STRESSED, THEN EVERYTHING IS OPEN, HONESTLY. 206 00:12:04,800 --> 00:12:09,833 EATING FOOD, EATING SWEETS, DRINKING POP, DRINKING JUICE. 207 00:12:09,833 --> 00:12:11,267 WHO GETS YOUR FOOD FOR YOU? 208 00:12:11,267 --> 00:12:13,200 SHE'S GOING TO THE GROCERY STORE. 209 00:12:13,200 --> 00:12:16,167 SO SHE DOES EVERYTHING THAT YOU ASK HER? 210 00:12:16,167 --> 00:12:17,767 PRETTY MUCH. I'M BOSSY. 211 00:12:17,767 --> 00:12:19,233 OR SHE GETS SOMEONE ELSE IF I DON'T DO IT. 212 00:12:19,233 --> 00:12:20,767 OR I GET SOMEONE ELSE TO DO IT. 213 00:12:20,767 --> 00:12:22,067 YEAH. 214 00:12:22,067 --> 00:12:24,533 Dr. Nowzaradan: JUNE'S PARTNER IS ENABLING HER, 215 00:12:24,533 --> 00:12:27,200 BUT SHE'S NOT OVERWEIGHT. 216 00:12:27,200 --> 00:12:28,467 WHEN AN ENABLER 217 00:12:28,467 --> 00:12:31,700 IS NOT PARTICIPATING IN POOR EATING HABITS, 218 00:12:31,700 --> 00:12:34,700 THEY OFTEN FEEL THIS IS A FORM OF CONTROL, 219 00:12:34,700 --> 00:12:37,533 BUT THEY DON'T REALIZE THEY'RE BEING MANIPULATED. 220 00:12:37,533 --> 00:12:40,167 ACCORDING TO YOUR MEDICAL CHART, 221 00:12:40,167 --> 00:12:42,900 YOU HAD A NUMBER OF MEDICAL ISSUES. 222 00:12:42,900 --> 00:12:46,600 YEAH, I HAD A HEART ATTACK IN 2011. 223 00:12:46,600 --> 00:12:48,600 AND YOU HAD A STROKE. 224 00:12:48,600 --> 00:12:52,667 YEAH, I HAD A MAJOR STROKE IN 2010. 225 00:12:52,667 --> 00:12:54,633 AND YOU'RE TAKING ABOUT -- 226 00:12:54,633 --> 00:12:55,900 18, 19, 20 -- 227 00:12:55,900 --> 00:12:58,933 21 MEDICATIONS. -YEAH. 228 00:12:58,933 --> 00:13:01,800 THAT REALLY CONCERNS ME. 229 00:13:01,800 --> 00:13:04,733 JUNE'S BODY IS STARTING TO GIVE OUT. 230 00:13:04,733 --> 00:13:08,533 SHE MAY NOT HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT AT ALL. 231 00:13:08,533 --> 00:13:11,767 IT'S TOO RISKY FOR HER TO TRY TO GET HER HEALTH 232 00:13:11,767 --> 00:13:14,067 UNDER CONTROL ON HER OWN. 233 00:13:14,067 --> 00:13:17,167 WE NEED TO OPERATE TO START THE PROCESS. 234 00:13:17,167 --> 00:13:20,367 I AM VERY CONCERNED ABOUT YOUR HEALTH RIGHT NOW. 235 00:13:20,367 --> 00:13:23,567 IF I SEND YOU HOME, IT MAY BE THE LAST TIME I SEE YOU. 236 00:13:23,567 --> 00:13:26,333 SO I'M GOING TO ADMIT YOU TO HOSPITAL IMMEDIATELY 237 00:13:26,333 --> 00:13:29,733 TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU ARE NOT CLOSE TO ANOTHER STROKE 238 00:13:29,733 --> 00:13:31,433 OR WORSE RIGHT NOW. 239 00:13:31,433 --> 00:13:32,833 ONCE I'M CONFIDENT 240 00:13:32,833 --> 00:13:36,433 SHE'S NOT FACING ANY IMMINENT HEALTH ISSUES 241 00:13:36,433 --> 00:13:38,967 AND HER WEIGHT IS GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, 242 00:13:38,967 --> 00:13:40,533 I'LL SEND HER HOME TO TRY 243 00:13:40,533 --> 00:13:43,333 TO CONTINUE HER PROGRESS ON HER OWN. 244 00:13:43,333 --> 00:13:46,067 THAT IS WHEN SHE'LL NEED TO SHOW ME 245 00:13:46,067 --> 00:13:47,900 THAT SHE'S READY FOR BYPASS. 246 00:13:47,900 --> 00:13:50,367 YOU'RE NOT READY FOR BYPASS RIGHT NOW. 247 00:13:50,367 --> 00:13:53,200 AND I DOUBT YOU WILL SURVIVE THE PROCEDURE 248 00:13:53,200 --> 00:13:55,067 IN YOUR CURRENT STATE. 249 00:13:55,067 --> 00:13:57,800 THIS IS A TIME TO START MAKING CHANGES. 250 00:13:57,800 --> 00:14:00,267 ALL RIGHT. 251 00:14:00,267 --> 00:14:02,067 BUT RIGHT NOW MY PRIORITY 252 00:14:02,067 --> 00:14:05,733 IS SHE WILL LIVE ANOTHER MONTH TO HAVE THIS CHANCE. 253 00:14:10,533 --> 00:14:13,733 June: I WASN'T EXPECTING THIS OUTCOME TODAY. 254 00:14:19,100 --> 00:14:23,067 I DIDN'T THINK I WOULD END UP GOING TO THE HOSPITAL AT ALL. 255 00:14:26,400 --> 00:14:28,400 THIS IS VERY OVERWHELMING, 256 00:14:28,400 --> 00:14:32,700 BUT I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 257 00:14:32,700 --> 00:14:35,733 ** 258 00:14:40,833 --> 00:14:42,967 THIS HAS BEEN A LITTLE NERVE-RACKING 259 00:14:42,967 --> 00:14:47,733 BEING IN A HOSPITAL, HAVING ALL THESE TESTS RAN. 260 00:14:47,733 --> 00:14:51,067 I'VE JUST BEEN FOCUSING ON LEARNING THE MEAL PLAN 261 00:14:51,067 --> 00:14:54,367 THAT THE DOCTOR GAVE ME. 262 00:14:54,367 --> 00:14:57,600 LISTEN. ONE GRAM OF PROTEIN 263 00:14:57,600 --> 00:15:01,533 PROVIDES FOUR CALORIES OF ENERGY. 264 00:15:01,533 --> 00:15:02,467 HELLO. 265 00:15:02,467 --> 00:15:04,233 -HEY. -YOU DOING OKAY? 266 00:15:04,233 --> 00:15:05,500 I'M DOING OKAY. PRETTY GOOD. 267 00:15:05,500 --> 00:15:07,433 ALL RIGHT, SO, THE LAB REPORT 268 00:15:07,433 --> 00:15:12,100 SHOWS THAT YOU'RE SUFFERING WITH QUITE SEVERE MALNUTRITION. 269 00:15:12,100 --> 00:15:15,400 THIS IS SOMETHING WE HAVE TO FIX RIGHT NOW. 270 00:15:15,400 --> 00:15:19,600 DESPITE BEING OVERWEIGHT, JUNE IS SEVERELY MALNOURISHED. 271 00:15:19,600 --> 00:15:25,067 SHE HAS BEEN EATING FOOD WITH ALMOST NO NUTRITIONAL VALUE. 272 00:15:25,067 --> 00:15:28,633 YOU NEED TO BE ON ALMOST ZERO-CARB, 273 00:15:28,633 --> 00:15:29,933 HIGH-PROTEIN DIET. 274 00:15:29,933 --> 00:15:32,367 HERE IN THE HOSPITAL FOR THE NEXT MONTH. 275 00:15:32,367 --> 00:15:34,467 I DO HAVE ONE QUESTION. 276 00:15:34,467 --> 00:15:36,067 YOU SAID NO FRUIT. 277 00:15:36,067 --> 00:15:39,433 WHAT ABOUT STRAWBERRIES MAYBE ONCE OR TWICE A DAY? 278 00:15:39,433 --> 00:15:40,700 ONLY ONE OR TWO? 279 00:15:40,700 --> 00:15:43,167 YOU WANT TO ELIMINATE SUGAR AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. 280 00:15:43,167 --> 00:15:44,667 THE STRAWBERRIES -- 281 00:15:44,667 --> 00:15:46,567 I'M BEING VERY HONEST WITH YOU -- 282 00:15:46,567 --> 00:15:48,967 STRAWBERRIES ARE MY ADDICTION. 283 00:15:48,967 --> 00:15:52,933 I DON'T THINK JUNE GRASPS THE GRAVITY OF HER SITUATION. 284 00:15:52,933 --> 00:15:57,733 HER BODY IS NOT HEALTHY ENOUGH TO EVEN HANDLE A COLD RIGHT NOW. 285 00:15:57,733 --> 00:16:00,833 YOUR CONDITION HAS TO IMPROVE IMMEDIATELY. 286 00:16:00,833 --> 00:16:03,100 SO WE'RE GOING TO LIMIT YOUR DIET 287 00:16:03,100 --> 00:16:07,767 AND GET YOU A LITTLE BIT MORE ACTIVE OVER THE NEXT MONTH. 288 00:16:07,767 --> 00:16:11,167 AND JUNE IS GOING TO BE IN A CONTROLLED ENVIRONMENT. 289 00:16:11,167 --> 00:16:14,800 SHE NEEDS TO COMPLY WITH THE PROGRAM OVER THE NEXT MONTH. 290 00:16:14,800 --> 00:16:18,267 IF NOT, THERE'S NOT MUCH ELSE I CAN DO FOR HER. 291 00:16:18,267 --> 00:16:20,133 OKAY. YOU CAN DO THIS. 292 00:16:20,133 --> 00:16:21,767 ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU. 293 00:16:21,767 --> 00:16:24,800 ** 294 00:16:33,067 --> 00:16:36,567 June: IT'S BEEN ROUGH BEING IN THE HOSPITAL THIS LONG. 295 00:16:36,567 --> 00:16:39,700 OKAY, I NEED YOU TO START MOVING AROUND A LITTLE BIT. 296 00:16:39,700 --> 00:16:41,233 I FELT SICK A LOT, 297 00:16:41,233 --> 00:16:45,067 SO THAT'S MADE IT HARD FOR ME TO WALK. 298 00:16:45,067 --> 00:16:49,767 BEING RESTRICTED TO SUCH A LOW-CALORIE DIET 299 00:16:49,767 --> 00:16:53,233 IS A HUGE ADJUSTMENT. 300 00:16:53,233 --> 00:16:58,300 I JUST HOPE I'M MAKING THE PROGRESS I NEED. 301 00:16:58,300 --> 00:17:01,200 Dr. Nowzaradan: JUNE HAS BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A MONTH. 302 00:17:01,200 --> 00:17:03,333 SHE MADE IT CLEAR A NUMBER OF TIMES 303 00:17:03,333 --> 00:17:07,067 THAT SHE IS NOT HAPPY WITH THE DIET AND EXERCISE. 304 00:17:07,067 --> 00:17:09,700 I THINK SHE'S USED TO TELLING EVERYBODY 305 00:17:09,700 --> 00:17:12,233 SHE'S SICK SO PEOPLE WAIT ON HER 306 00:17:12,233 --> 00:17:16,367 AND SHE GET THE ATTENTION THAT SHE WANTS. 307 00:17:16,367 --> 00:17:19,600 SHE STILL HAS HER PARTNER TAKING CARE OF HER. 308 00:17:19,600 --> 00:17:23,300 THAT ENABLING DYNAMIC HASN'T CHANGED. 309 00:17:23,300 --> 00:17:26,233 BUT DESPITE HER PUSHBACK TO THE PROGRAM, 310 00:17:26,233 --> 00:17:31,633 WE STUCK WITH IT, AND SHE MADE SOME PROGRESS OVER THE MONTH. 311 00:17:31,633 --> 00:17:34,167 JUNE, HOW ARE YOU DOING? -[ SIGHS ] BETTER. 312 00:17:34,167 --> 00:17:36,400 SO, WE'RE GONNA CHECK YOUR WEIGHT TODAY. 313 00:17:36,400 --> 00:17:37,500 PERFECT. 314 00:17:46,300 --> 00:17:47,700 HEY! 315 00:17:47,700 --> 00:17:50,900 OKAY. SUPER. 316 00:17:50,900 --> 00:17:53,433 RIGHT NOW, SHE'S HEALTHY ENOUGH TO GO HOME 317 00:17:53,433 --> 00:17:57,633 AND TRY TO MAKE PROGRESS ON HER OWN. 318 00:17:57,633 --> 00:18:02,067 FOR NEXT MONTH, I WANT JUNE TO JUST LOSE FIVE POUNDS 319 00:18:02,067 --> 00:18:04,767 AND SHOW ME THAT SHE CAN KEEP THINGS 320 00:18:04,767 --> 00:18:07,067 MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 321 00:18:07,067 --> 00:18:09,633 IF SHE DOES, THEN I WILL APPROVE HER 322 00:18:09,633 --> 00:18:11,700 FOR GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY. 323 00:18:13,833 --> 00:18:16,400 BUT RIGHT NOW I HOPE SHE DOESN'T THROW AWAY 324 00:18:16,400 --> 00:18:18,133 ALL THE PROGRESS AND HELP 325 00:18:18,133 --> 00:18:20,567 SHE RECEIVED OVER THE PAST MONTH. 326 00:18:20,567 --> 00:18:23,600 ** 327 00:18:27,233 --> 00:18:28,833 Sadi: WHAT DO YOU FEEL LIKE FOR DINNER? 328 00:18:28,833 --> 00:18:31,567 WE GOT STEAK STILL? 329 00:18:31,567 --> 00:18:33,600 YES. 330 00:18:33,600 --> 00:18:37,167 POTATOES WITH SOUR CREAM ON IT? 331 00:18:37,167 --> 00:18:38,967 YEAH. 332 00:18:40,967 --> 00:18:45,067 June: SINCE BEING AT THE HOSPITAL, I HAVEN'T BEEN FEELING WELL. 333 00:18:45,067 --> 00:18:48,233 I WAS HOPING TO HAVE MADE MORE PROGRESS BY NOW. 334 00:18:50,300 --> 00:18:52,300 YOU ABOUT READY TO COME TO THE TABLE? 335 00:18:52,300 --> 00:18:54,633 -YEAH. -OKAY. 336 00:18:54,633 --> 00:18:56,533 MY LYMPHEDEMA HAS BEEN SWELLING 337 00:18:56,533 --> 00:19:00,067 AND CAUSING A LOT OF PAIN IN MY LEGS. 338 00:19:00,067 --> 00:19:05,133 THEY COLLECT A LOT OF FLUID WHEN THEY'RE SWOLLEN LIKE THIS. 339 00:19:05,133 --> 00:19:09,067 IT JUST MAKES IT HARD FOR ME TO GET UP. 340 00:19:09,067 --> 00:19:11,067 -ALL RIGHT, HERE YOU GO. -THANK YOU. 341 00:19:11,067 --> 00:19:12,900 YOU'RE WELCOME. 342 00:19:12,900 --> 00:19:15,067 I DIDN'T THINK IT WOULD BE THIS HARD 343 00:19:15,067 --> 00:19:18,700 BECAUSE I'M STARVING MYSELF AT TIMES. 344 00:19:18,700 --> 00:19:20,133 IT'S ONLY WHEN I'M SICK 345 00:19:20,133 --> 00:19:24,133 THAT I EAT THE FOODS I KNOW I SHOULDN'T 346 00:19:24,133 --> 00:19:28,967 BECAUSE THEY HELP GET MY STRENGTH BACK UP. 347 00:19:28,967 --> 00:19:33,200 I'LL SEE WHAT KIND OF PROGRESS I MAKE AT THE NEXT DOCTOR VISIT 348 00:19:33,200 --> 00:19:34,833 AND GO FROM THERE. 349 00:19:40,700 --> 00:19:43,700 ** 350 00:19:49,233 --> 00:19:52,700 WHEW. 351 00:19:52,700 --> 00:19:55,933 June: I'M NERVOUS ABOUT SEEING THE DOCTOR TODAY. 352 00:19:57,967 --> 00:20:00,433 I HOPE I'VE GOTTEN DOWN FIVE POUNDS. 353 00:20:02,467 --> 00:20:04,400 IT'S BEEN A HARD MONTH. 354 00:20:04,400 --> 00:20:07,400 I HAVE TO ADMIT I DID CHEAT, 355 00:20:07,400 --> 00:20:10,967 BUT IF I CAN JUST GET TO SURGERY, 356 00:20:10,967 --> 00:20:13,000 IT WOULD CHANGE MY LIFE. 357 00:20:13,000 --> 00:20:14,633 IT WOULD SAVE MY LIFE. 358 00:20:16,467 --> 00:20:18,267 HMM. 359 00:20:22,767 --> 00:20:25,367 WHICH ROOM? -ROOM 5. 360 00:20:25,367 --> 00:20:26,867 I'M NOT SHOCKED, 361 00:20:26,867 --> 00:20:29,867 BUT THEN, IT'S A LITTLE DISHEARTENING, 362 00:20:29,867 --> 00:20:33,433 ESPECIALLY AFTER LOSING AND DOING GOOD ON THE DIET. 363 00:20:33,433 --> 00:20:35,467 OKAY, JUNE, YOU GAINED 20 POUNDS. 364 00:20:35,467 --> 00:20:36,767 WHAT HAPPENED? 365 00:20:36,767 --> 00:20:38,000 FLUID. 366 00:20:38,000 --> 00:20:42,300 YOU MAY THINK THAT THIS IS WATER WEIGHT, BUT IT'S NOT. 367 00:20:42,300 --> 00:20:44,367 IT'S FAT. YOU GAINED WEIGHT 368 00:20:44,367 --> 00:20:47,767 BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T STICK WITH YOUR DIET AND EXERCISE. 369 00:20:47,767 --> 00:20:48,967 I HAVE NOT DONE ANY -- 370 00:20:48,967 --> 00:20:50,733 I'M GONNA TELL YOU THE HONEST-TO-GOD TRUTH. 371 00:20:50,733 --> 00:20:53,033 I DID CHEAT. I HAD CHINESE FOOD 372 00:20:53,033 --> 00:20:54,433 ONE DAY, HONESTLY. 373 00:20:54,433 --> 00:20:57,700 JUNE, I WATCHED YOU IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A MONTH, 374 00:20:57,700 --> 00:21:01,633 AND I SEE THAT UNWILLINGNESS TO CHANGE. 375 00:21:01,633 --> 00:21:03,267 YOU'RE ALWAYS GONNA BE SICK 376 00:21:03,267 --> 00:21:05,567 BECAUSE IF YOU ENCOUNTER SOMETHING 377 00:21:05,567 --> 00:21:07,933 YOU DON'T WANT TO DO, YOU SAY YOU'RE SICK. 378 00:21:07,933 --> 00:21:09,500 I RESPECT YOU TOTALLY, 379 00:21:09,500 --> 00:21:11,667 BUT I'M GONNA SAY THIS -- YOU'RE WRONG. 380 00:21:11,667 --> 00:21:13,100 LET ME TELL YOU WHY YOU'RE WRONG -- 381 00:21:13,100 --> 00:21:17,533 BECAUSE I KNOW THIS IS MY TIME TO LOSE WEIGHT. 382 00:21:17,533 --> 00:21:20,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: JUNE CAN SAY WHATEVER SHE WANTS. 383 00:21:20,067 --> 00:21:22,500 I CARE ABOUT HER ACTIONS. 384 00:21:22,500 --> 00:21:25,100 I THINK SHE NEEDS A WAKE-UP CALL. 385 00:21:25,100 --> 00:21:28,967 THE MENTAL ATTITUDE THAT I SEE IN YOU -- 386 00:21:28,967 --> 00:21:33,133 THAT YOU ARE NOT LETTING YOUR DISEASES GO AWAY -- 387 00:21:33,133 --> 00:21:34,500 IS BOTHERING ME. 388 00:21:34,500 --> 00:21:36,167 SWEETHEART, I'M GONNA BE HONEST. 389 00:21:36,167 --> 00:21:40,067 I DON'T AGREE WITH YOU WHERE I'M HOLDING ONTO A DISEASE. 390 00:21:40,067 --> 00:21:43,500 NO, BABY, I WILL NOT AGREE WITH YOU WITH THAT. 391 00:21:43,500 --> 00:21:46,067 IF YOU WERE REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT THIS, 392 00:21:46,067 --> 00:21:48,433 I WOULD SEE EVIDENCE OF THAT. 393 00:21:48,433 --> 00:21:50,533 YOUR WALKER IS A GOOD EXAMPLE. 394 00:21:50,533 --> 00:21:52,133 YOU DON'T NEED THE WALKER. 395 00:21:52,133 --> 00:21:53,733 YOU WANT THE WALKER. 396 00:21:53,733 --> 00:21:56,500 IF YOU'RE SERIOUS ABOUT BEING ACTIVE, 397 00:21:56,500 --> 00:21:58,867 THIS WOULD BE FIRST THING TO GO. 398 00:21:58,867 --> 00:22:00,300 I WANT THIS. 399 00:22:00,300 --> 00:22:03,100 I GAINED THEM 20 POUNDS, AND I'M WRONG FOR THAT. 400 00:22:03,100 --> 00:22:06,067 I FEEL SOME OF IT'S LYMPHEDEMA AND THE WATER, 401 00:22:06,067 --> 00:22:09,400 BUT I BELIEVE I AM A GOOD CANDIDATE 402 00:22:09,400 --> 00:22:12,067 FOR YOU TO DO SURGERY ON ME. 403 00:22:12,067 --> 00:22:15,867 AND I WILL BE A GREAT SUCCESS FOR ME. 404 00:22:15,867 --> 00:22:18,633 OKAY. I WANT YOU TO UNDO THE DAMAGE 405 00:22:18,633 --> 00:22:21,067 YOU HAVE DONE IN THE PAST MONTH. 406 00:22:21,067 --> 00:22:23,700 LOSE THE 20 POUNDS THAT YOU'VE GAINED. 407 00:22:23,700 --> 00:22:25,600 I'LL GIVE YOU TWO WEEKS. 408 00:22:25,600 --> 00:22:28,233 -TWO WEEKS, 20 POUNDS? -YOU CAN DO THAT? 409 00:22:28,233 --> 00:22:29,767 -YES, I CAN. -ALL RIGHT. 410 00:22:29,767 --> 00:22:32,067 SO YOU'RE GONNA BE GOOD? -YES. 411 00:22:32,067 --> 00:22:33,433 AND YOU'RE GONNA BE PROACTIVE? 412 00:22:33,433 --> 00:22:35,600 -YES. -AND LOSE YOUR WALKER. 413 00:22:35,600 --> 00:22:37,367 -YES. -SEE YOU IN TWO WEEKS, 414 00:22:37,367 --> 00:22:38,900 AND YOU START WORKING HARD, OKAY? 415 00:22:38,900 --> 00:22:40,300 GOTCHA. 416 00:22:40,300 --> 00:22:42,067 JUNE HAS TO MAKE PROGRESS, 417 00:22:42,067 --> 00:22:43,667 AND SHE HAS TO DO IT NOW. 418 00:22:43,667 --> 00:22:45,433 HOPEFULLY, THIS APPOINTMENT 419 00:22:45,433 --> 00:22:49,500 HAS BEEN A SMALL WAKE-UP CALL FOR HER. 420 00:22:49,500 --> 00:22:51,167 June: IT HURTS TO HEAR THE DOCTOR SAY 421 00:22:51,167 --> 00:22:53,233 HE DOESN'T THINK I'M GONNA CHANGE. 422 00:22:55,900 --> 00:22:59,267 I DON'T WANT TO KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS. 423 00:22:59,267 --> 00:23:02,333 SO NO MORE EXCUSES. 424 00:23:02,333 --> 00:23:04,133 I CAN DO THIS. 425 00:23:09,067 --> 00:23:10,567 YOU GOT IT, OR YOU WANT ME TO PULL YOU UP? 426 00:23:10,567 --> 00:23:12,900 NO, I'M GOING TO GET UP. 427 00:23:12,900 --> 00:23:15,433 OKAY. 428 00:23:15,433 --> 00:23:17,800 OKAY. 429 00:23:17,800 --> 00:23:21,300 MY LAST DOCTOR APPOINTMENT, IT WAS A WAKE-UP CALL. 430 00:23:21,300 --> 00:23:25,233 I'M WAY MORE FOCUSED THAN I'VE EVER BEEN. 431 00:23:25,233 --> 00:23:27,100 I'VE CUT BACK ON MY EATING, 432 00:23:27,100 --> 00:23:28,500 AND I'M GETTING INTO THE KITCHEN 433 00:23:28,500 --> 00:23:30,967 AND HELPING TO PREPARE MY OWN FOOD. 434 00:23:32,967 --> 00:23:35,833 AND I'M TAKING SOME OF THE BURDEN OFF SADI. 435 00:23:35,833 --> 00:23:37,500 Sadi: JUNE'S BEEN PUSHING HERSELF. 436 00:23:37,500 --> 00:23:39,067 I KNOW SHE HAS A CLEAR VIEW 437 00:23:39,067 --> 00:23:41,900 ON WHAT SHE NEEDS TO STICK TO ON HER DIET. 438 00:23:41,900 --> 00:23:45,133 SHE'S BEEN DOING PRETTY GOOD. 439 00:23:45,133 --> 00:23:47,800 June: BEFORE MY LAST DOCTOR VISIT, 440 00:23:47,800 --> 00:23:50,333 I WAS DOING THINGS MY WAY, 441 00:23:50,333 --> 00:23:52,867 AND THAT WASN'T GETTING ME VERY FAR. 442 00:23:52,867 --> 00:23:55,900 SO NOW I'M DOING THE THINGS THE DOCTOR TOLD ME. 443 00:23:58,700 --> 00:24:03,700 I REALIZE IF I DON'T PUSH MYSELF, 444 00:24:03,700 --> 00:24:06,067 I WILL NEVER LOSE THIS WEIGHT 445 00:24:06,067 --> 00:24:09,300 AND I'LL NEVER GET SURGERY. 446 00:24:09,300 --> 00:24:11,900 WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M ABOUT READY TO GIVE UP, 447 00:24:11,900 --> 00:24:14,467 MY MOTIVATION KICKS RIGHT BACK IN LIKE, "UNH-UNH." 448 00:24:14,467 --> 00:24:16,633 AND MY SON IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD IS LIKE, 449 00:24:16,633 --> 00:24:19,167 "MA, KEEP IT MOVING." 450 00:24:21,467 --> 00:24:24,367 I'VE GOT A ROUTINE, AND I'M GONNA STICK TO IT. 451 00:24:26,700 --> 00:24:31,267 I HAVE WORKED SO HARD. 452 00:24:31,267 --> 00:24:36,300 I HOPE AND PRAY IT'S ENOUGH TO GET THE SURGERY. 453 00:24:36,300 --> 00:24:38,467 TASTY. 454 00:24:38,467 --> 00:24:40,733 MY BEST ONE YET. 455 00:24:40,733 --> 00:24:42,800 I'M SEEING THE DOCTOR SOON, 456 00:24:42,800 --> 00:24:46,067 AND I'M MAKING SURE THAT SCALE SHOWS ME AND HIM 457 00:24:46,067 --> 00:24:48,600 THE PROGRESS I KNOW I CAN MAKE. 458 00:24:48,600 --> 00:24:51,633 ** 459 00:24:55,967 --> 00:24:59,400 Woman: JUNE? 460 00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:02,867 June: SO MUCH IS RIDING ON THIS APPOINTMENT TODAY. 461 00:25:02,867 --> 00:25:07,367 THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE TO GET THE SURGERY I NEED. 462 00:25:07,367 --> 00:25:11,067 EVERYTHING IS RIDING ON THIS NUMBER BEING LOW ENOUGH. 463 00:25:13,233 --> 00:25:15,167 I HAVE TO HAVE DONE THIS. 464 00:25:20,700 --> 00:25:23,733 ** 465 00:25:34,567 --> 00:25:38,267 June: I NEED TO GET BACK TO 536 POUNDS. 466 00:25:38,267 --> 00:25:40,867 IF THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE HASN'T GONE DOWN, 467 00:25:40,867 --> 00:25:43,167 I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE I CAN DO. 468 00:25:45,500 --> 00:25:47,467 THAT'S IT. 469 00:25:47,467 --> 00:25:48,767 THAT'S IT RIGHT THERE. 470 00:25:48,767 --> 00:25:51,700 OKAY. OKAY. 471 00:25:51,700 --> 00:25:54,200 I'M PROUD OF MYSELF. 472 00:25:54,200 --> 00:25:58,100 I'M SHOWING HIM THAT I'M DEFINITELY DEDICATED. 473 00:25:58,100 --> 00:25:59,600 I KNEW I CAN DO THIS. 474 00:25:59,600 --> 00:26:02,533 -HELLO. -HI. 475 00:26:02,533 --> 00:26:05,367 YOU HAVE COME DOWN ABOUT 60, 70 POUNDS 476 00:26:05,367 --> 00:26:07,133 SINCE I SAW YOU THE FIRST TIME? 477 00:26:07,133 --> 00:26:09,267 -YEAH, PRETTY MUCH. -SUPER. 478 00:26:09,267 --> 00:26:11,967 ANY PROBLEMS WITH YOUR DIET OR ANYTHING? 479 00:26:11,967 --> 00:26:13,267 ACTUALLY, NO. 480 00:26:13,267 --> 00:26:15,600 I AM DOING AWESOME. 481 00:26:15,600 --> 00:26:18,633 I'M WALKING EARLY IN THE MORNING, WALKING AT NIGHT. 482 00:26:18,633 --> 00:26:20,733 I'M ACTUALLY GOING DOWN THE STEPS. 483 00:26:20,733 --> 00:26:23,167 AND WHAT DON'T YOU SEE IN FRONT OF ME? 484 00:26:23,167 --> 00:26:25,600 -YOU MISSING SOMETHING? -YEAH, I'M MISSING SOMETHING. 485 00:26:25,600 --> 00:26:27,933 -WHAT? -THE WALKER. 486 00:26:27,933 --> 00:26:30,067 -WHAT WALKER? -EXACTLY. 487 00:26:30,067 --> 00:26:31,733 NO WALKER. 488 00:26:31,733 --> 00:26:36,533 I THINK THE WAKE-UP CALL MADE SOMETHING SINK IN FOR JUNE. 489 00:26:36,533 --> 00:26:38,233 SHE MADE THE PROGRESS, 490 00:26:38,233 --> 00:26:41,167 AND AFTER SHOWING ME THAT SHE'S TAKING THINGS 491 00:26:41,167 --> 00:26:42,400 SERIOUSLY NOW... 492 00:26:42,400 --> 00:26:44,500 WE'RE GOING TO THEN SET YOU UP 493 00:26:44,500 --> 00:26:47,500 FOR YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, OKAY? 494 00:26:47,500 --> 00:26:50,967 AWESOME. AWESOME. 495 00:26:50,967 --> 00:26:52,700 I'M PROUD OF YOU BOTH. 496 00:26:52,700 --> 00:26:54,233 -THANK YOU. -OKAY. 497 00:26:59,333 --> 00:27:03,233 June: THIS SURGERY MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME. 498 00:27:03,233 --> 00:27:04,833 I'M PROUD OF MYSELF, 499 00:27:04,833 --> 00:27:08,833 AND I KNOW MY SON WOULD BE PROUD OF ME. 500 00:27:08,833 --> 00:27:11,433 I CAN'T WAIT TO START GETTING MY LIFE BACK. 501 00:27:12,700 --> 00:27:15,733 ** 502 00:27:28,667 --> 00:27:33,200 I'M NERVOUS THAT SOMETHING COULD GO WRONG. 503 00:27:33,200 --> 00:27:37,233 BUT THIS IS SOMETHING I HAVE TO DO TO CHANGE MY LIFE. 504 00:27:37,233 --> 00:27:38,333 JUST CALM DOWN. 505 00:27:38,333 --> 00:27:41,500 IT'S NOT GOOD GOING IN LIKE THIS. 506 00:27:41,500 --> 00:27:42,700 RIGHT? -ALL RIGHT. 507 00:27:42,700 --> 00:27:44,267 -YOU CAN DO THIS. -I KNOW. 508 00:27:44,267 --> 00:27:47,433 -IT'S OKAY. -I GOT THIS. 509 00:27:47,433 --> 00:27:52,233 I'M TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT HOW DANGEROUS THIS SURGERY IS, 510 00:27:52,233 --> 00:27:58,633 BUT I'M RISKING MY LIFE FOR A BETTER LIFE, 511 00:27:58,633 --> 00:28:01,067 A HEALTHIER LIFE. 512 00:28:01,067 --> 00:28:03,300 SO, I KNOW I HAVE TO DO THIS. 513 00:28:04,667 --> 00:28:10,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, I'M ATTEMPTING TO PERFORM GASTRIC BYPASS ON JUNE. 514 00:28:10,067 --> 00:28:13,333 WITH ALL HER MEDICAL CONDITIONS AND HER SIZE, 515 00:28:13,333 --> 00:28:16,667 SHE IS EXTREMELY HIGH-RISK. 516 00:28:16,667 --> 00:28:18,300 SO, THERE'S A CHANCE 517 00:28:18,300 --> 00:28:21,733 THAT WE WON'T BE ABLE TO COMPLETE THE BYPASS TODAY. 518 00:28:23,700 --> 00:28:25,767 IF THERE ARE ANY COMPLICATIONS, 519 00:28:25,767 --> 00:28:29,467 IT WILL BE TOO DANGEROUS TO CONTINUE THE OPERATION. 520 00:28:31,733 --> 00:28:32,867 THAT'S OKAY. 521 00:28:32,867 --> 00:28:35,067 GASTRIC BYPASS IS A WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 522 00:28:35,067 --> 00:28:36,867 THAT WE TAKE THE LARGE STOMACH 523 00:28:36,867 --> 00:28:41,467 AND WE MAKE IT INTO A VERY SMALL POUCH. 524 00:28:41,467 --> 00:28:44,867 THE NEW POUCH IS CONNECTED TO THE SMALL INTESTINE, 525 00:28:44,867 --> 00:28:47,833 BYPASSING THE UPPER PART OF THE INTESTINE. 526 00:28:47,833 --> 00:28:51,633 SO, THIS PROCEDURE WILL LIMIT THE AMOUNT OF FOOD 527 00:28:51,633 --> 00:28:53,800 THAT PATIENT CAN EAT IN ONE SITTING 528 00:28:53,800 --> 00:28:57,133 AND REDUCE THE AMOUNT OF ABSORPTION OF CALORIES. 529 00:29:00,433 --> 00:29:03,767 Sadi: JUNE HAS BEEN IN SURGERY FOR OVER TWO HOURS NOW. 530 00:29:03,767 --> 00:29:06,600 I PRAYED ABOUT IT. I PUT THE FAITH IN GOD, 531 00:29:06,600 --> 00:29:08,167 AND THAT'S WHERE I'M LEAVING IT. 532 00:29:08,167 --> 00:29:11,067 I'M JUST LOOKING FORWARD TO GOOD RESULTS. 533 00:29:17,400 --> 00:29:19,833 Dr. Nowzaradan: ALL RIGHT. ROOM LIGHT ON. 534 00:29:22,333 --> 00:29:24,067 ALL RIGHT. 535 00:29:24,067 --> 00:29:27,533 EVERYTHING WENT SMOOTH, AND THERE WAS NO COMPLICATION. 536 00:29:27,533 --> 00:29:30,600 EVERYTHING WENT VERY WELL IN THE SURGERY. 537 00:29:33,533 --> 00:29:35,800 NOW COMES THE REAL WORK. 538 00:29:35,800 --> 00:29:40,433 THIS BYPASS IS GOING TO BE A MAJOR ADJUSTMENT FOR HER. 539 00:29:40,433 --> 00:29:43,633 ALL HER ANXIETY AND DESIRE TO BE IN CONTROL 540 00:29:43,633 --> 00:29:46,567 IS GOING TO HAVE TO FIND ANOTHER OUTLET 541 00:29:46,567 --> 00:29:49,400 IF SHE'S GOING TO BE SUCCESSFUL LONG-TERM. 542 00:29:49,400 --> 00:29:53,367 June: UGH. 543 00:29:53,367 --> 00:29:56,400 ** 544 00:30:10,900 --> 00:30:14,333 UGH. I GOT UP TO GO TO THE BATHROOM, 545 00:30:14,333 --> 00:30:18,633 BUT IT FELT LIKE SOMETHING TORE OR RIPPED. 546 00:30:18,633 --> 00:30:24,067 AND IT -- I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN EVER SINCE IN THAT ONE SPOT. 547 00:30:24,067 --> 00:30:25,667 OW! OH, YEP, YEP! 548 00:30:25,667 --> 00:30:27,433 RIGHT THERE. -RIGHT HERE? 549 00:30:27,433 --> 00:30:30,333 YEP. 550 00:30:30,333 --> 00:30:35,100 JUNE IS USED TO SAYING SHE'S SICK OR THERE'S AN ISSUE. 551 00:30:35,100 --> 00:30:37,267 IT GETS HER ATTENTION 552 00:30:37,267 --> 00:30:41,400 AND USUALLY GETS HER WHAT SHE WANTS. 553 00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:44,467 OHHH. 554 00:30:44,467 --> 00:30:47,400 ANOTHER DAY. ANOTHER DAY. 555 00:30:47,400 --> 00:30:49,433 JUST TO MAKE SURE THAT'S OKAY. 556 00:30:49,433 --> 00:30:51,000 I -- -ALL RIGHT. 557 00:30:51,000 --> 00:30:53,367 -OH, GEEZ. -ALL RIGHT. 558 00:30:53,367 --> 00:30:56,767 Dr. Nowzaradan: THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG WITH JUNE, 559 00:30:56,767 --> 00:30:59,867 BUT OLD HABITS ARE DYING HARD. 560 00:30:59,867 --> 00:31:01,700 SHE WANTS TO STAY IN THE HOSPITAL 561 00:31:01,700 --> 00:31:04,433 BECAUSE SHE GET CATERING HERE. 562 00:31:04,433 --> 00:31:06,900 THE NURSES CLEAN HER UP. 563 00:31:06,900 --> 00:31:10,167 BUT WE NEED TO GET HER HOME TO LEARN A NEW ROUTINE, 564 00:31:10,167 --> 00:31:12,567 TO GET HER TO BECOME INDEPENDENT. 565 00:31:12,567 --> 00:31:13,933 -YOU GOT IT? -YEP. THANK YOU. 566 00:31:13,933 --> 00:31:15,100 IN THE HOSPITAL, 567 00:31:15,100 --> 00:31:17,700 SHE'S NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT. 568 00:31:24,533 --> 00:31:27,533 ** 569 00:31:48,933 --> 00:31:52,733 June: I'VE BEEN WORKING TO STAY ACTIVE AND EAT WHAT I SHOULD. 570 00:31:52,733 --> 00:31:55,933 BUT I'M CONCERNED THAT I'M NOT WHERE I NEED TO BE 571 00:31:55,933 --> 00:31:57,567 AFTER SURGERY. 572 00:31:57,567 --> 00:32:01,300 I'M DONE. -OKAY. 573 00:32:01,300 --> 00:32:04,667 MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER HAS BEEN STAYING WITH ME. 574 00:32:04,667 --> 00:32:07,233 AND IT'S BEEN NICE. 575 00:32:07,233 --> 00:32:09,133 BUT I JUST DON'T FEEL WELL. 576 00:32:14,067 --> 00:32:15,400 IT'S BEEN FRUSTRATING, 577 00:32:15,400 --> 00:32:19,167 BECAUSE I EXPECTED THE SURGERY TO MAKE THINGS EASIER. 578 00:32:19,167 --> 00:32:22,467 YOU ALL RIGHT? 579 00:32:22,467 --> 00:32:25,967 IT HASN'T, AND I FEEL WEAKER THAN EVER BEFORE. 580 00:32:25,967 --> 00:32:27,800 I MEAN, IT'S NOT GOING DOWN. 581 00:32:27,800 --> 00:32:30,233 YOU ALREADY KNOW THE SITUATION. 582 00:32:30,233 --> 00:32:31,733 IF THIS GETS MUCH WORSE... 583 00:32:31,733 --> 00:32:34,067 [ COUGHING ] 584 00:32:34,067 --> 00:32:35,867 ...I'M GOING BACK TO THE HOSPITAL. 585 00:32:35,867 --> 00:32:37,867 ARE YOU ALL RIGHT, MOM? 586 00:32:37,867 --> 00:32:42,700 [ COUGHING ] 587 00:32:42,700 --> 00:32:45,067 I KNEW IT WAS GONNA BE TOUGH. 588 00:32:45,067 --> 00:32:47,333 BUT LORD HAVE MERCY ON MY SOUL. 589 00:32:47,333 --> 00:32:49,300 I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS GONNA BE THIS BAD. 590 00:32:56,767 --> 00:32:58,333 IT'S BEEN A HARD FEW MONTHS. 591 00:33:00,133 --> 00:33:04,100 Nurse: CAN I HAVE JUNE? 592 00:33:04,100 --> 00:33:05,933 June: I'VE BEEN IN AND OUT OF THE HOSPITAL 593 00:33:05,933 --> 00:33:08,933 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN REALLY SICK. 594 00:33:08,933 --> 00:33:11,567 BUT I STILL MADE GOOD PROGRESS. 595 00:33:16,067 --> 00:33:17,867 HEY! 596 00:33:20,067 --> 00:33:24,667 LOSING THIS MUCH WEIGHT, I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF. 597 00:33:24,667 --> 00:33:28,567 I HOPE THE DOCTOR IS TOO. 598 00:33:28,567 --> 00:33:29,567 HELLO. 599 00:33:29,567 --> 00:33:30,567 -HELLO. -HI. 600 00:33:30,567 --> 00:33:31,800 HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 601 00:33:31,800 --> 00:33:33,300 -GOOD. -ALL RIGHT. 602 00:33:33,300 --> 00:33:37,133 SO, HOW YOU GETTING ALONG SINCE YOU LEFT THE HOSPITAL 603 00:33:37,133 --> 00:33:39,067 A COUPLE DAYS AGO? -PRETTY GOOD. 604 00:33:39,067 --> 00:33:41,700 I'M GETTING PAST THE VOMITING PART, 605 00:33:41,700 --> 00:33:43,967 SO ONLY ISSUE I GOT NOW 606 00:33:43,967 --> 00:33:46,300 IS THE RIGHT KNEE JUST A LITTLE BIT. 607 00:33:46,300 --> 00:33:49,733 SO, HOW MANY TIMES YOU BEEN IN HOSPITAL? 608 00:33:49,733 --> 00:33:52,867 SINCE I DISCHARGED JUNE AFTER HER BYPASS, 609 00:33:52,867 --> 00:33:55,733 SHE'S RETURNED TO HOSPITAL THREE TIMES, 610 00:33:55,733 --> 00:33:58,267 CLAIMING THAT SHE WAS UNABLE TO EAT, 611 00:33:58,267 --> 00:33:59,567 SHE WAS GETTING WEAK, 612 00:33:59,567 --> 00:34:02,467 AND SHE HAD WHOLE HOST OF SYMPTOM. 613 00:34:02,467 --> 00:34:05,833 WHEN I EXAMINED HER, THERE IS NOTHING WRONG. 614 00:34:05,833 --> 00:34:08,400 YOU KNOW, YOU'VE BEEN IN AND OUT OF HOSPITAL 615 00:34:08,400 --> 00:34:12,100 WITH SOME SYMPTOM THAT IS NOT REALLY PRESENT 616 00:34:12,100 --> 00:34:14,133 BUT IT WAS PRESENT IN YOUR MIND. 617 00:34:14,133 --> 00:34:17,900 THE SUGGESTION IS YOU WANT SOMETHING TO BE WRONG 618 00:34:17,900 --> 00:34:20,533 OR SOMETHING ELSE IS GOING ON. 619 00:34:20,533 --> 00:34:25,067 WHAT I RECOMMEND THAT WE GET YOU TO SEE A PSYCHOTHERAPIST 620 00:34:25,067 --> 00:34:28,100 TO START HELPING YOU WITH THIS. 621 00:34:28,100 --> 00:34:30,633 THE ISSUE THAT HAS DRIVEN HER TO EAT 622 00:34:30,633 --> 00:34:34,200 AND IS DRIVING HER TO GET ATTENTION HAS TO BE ADDRESSED 623 00:34:34,200 --> 00:34:37,500 IF SHE'S GOING TO SUCCEED IN LONG-TERM. 624 00:34:37,500 --> 00:34:39,067 I'VE GOT A LOT OF ISSUES GOING ON. 625 00:34:39,067 --> 00:34:40,967 I AIN'T GONNA LIE ABOUT IT. I DO. 626 00:34:40,967 --> 00:34:42,100 I'M A LITTLE CRAZY. 627 00:34:42,100 --> 00:34:43,433 I'M NOT GONNA LIE TO YOU ABOUT THAT. 628 00:34:43,433 --> 00:34:46,567 AS FAR AS YOUR THERAPIST THAT YOU WANT ME TO SEE, 629 00:34:46,567 --> 00:34:49,367 I'M GONNA BE VERY HONEST. I'M GONNA DENY THAT. 630 00:34:49,367 --> 00:34:52,067 WHAT'S THE HARM IN SEEING A THERAPIST? 631 00:34:52,067 --> 00:34:54,200 I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO SOMEONE THAT DOESN'T KNOW ME. 632 00:34:54,200 --> 00:34:56,267 THIS IS PART OF YOUR TREATMENT, 633 00:34:56,267 --> 00:34:59,400 AND IF YOU DON'T WANT TO FOLLOW THAT DIRECTION, 634 00:34:59,400 --> 00:35:01,267 THAT'S NOT VERY GOOD SIGN. 635 00:35:01,267 --> 00:35:02,367 OKAY. NO OFFENSE. 636 00:35:02,367 --> 00:35:04,533 I KNOW YOU'RE GOOD AT WHAT YOU DO. 637 00:35:04,533 --> 00:35:06,800 BUT YOU'RE WRONG. -JUNE, LET ME TELL YOU. 638 00:35:06,800 --> 00:35:09,600 SIX MONTH DOWN THE ROAD, YOU AND I GOT TO SPLIT. 639 00:35:09,600 --> 00:35:12,500 BECAUSE THERE'LL BE NOTHING I CAN DO FOR YOU. 640 00:35:12,500 --> 00:35:14,067 YOU WILL LOSE A LITTLE WEIGHT, 641 00:35:14,067 --> 00:35:15,467 THE PROGRESS WILL SLOW, 642 00:35:15,467 --> 00:35:17,767 AND YOU START TO GAIN WEIGHT AGAIN. 643 00:35:17,767 --> 00:35:20,500 THINGS WILL GET WORSE FOR YOU AFTER THAT. 644 00:35:20,500 --> 00:35:23,833 IF YOU DON'T FOLLOW WHAT YOUR DOCTORS SAY 645 00:35:23,833 --> 00:35:28,167 AND IF YOU DON'T TRUST THEM, YOU SHOULD GO SEE SOMEBODY ELSE. 646 00:35:28,167 --> 00:35:31,133 BITE THE BULLET AND GO SEE THE THERAPIST. 647 00:35:31,133 --> 00:35:35,167 MAYBE SOMETHING GOOD COME OUT OF IT, RIGHT? 648 00:35:35,167 --> 00:35:37,900 THE FACT THAT SHE IS RELUCTANT TO SEE A THERAPIST 649 00:35:37,900 --> 00:35:41,500 THAT TELL ME THAT SHE KNOW WHAT THE ISSUE IS 650 00:35:41,500 --> 00:35:44,167 BUT SHE DOESN'T WANT TO FACE IT. 651 00:35:44,167 --> 00:35:47,967 WE'RE GONNA SEE IF WE CAN CHANGE THAT MIND-SET. 652 00:35:47,967 --> 00:35:50,500 June: NOT EVERYBODY NEEDS THERAPY. 653 00:35:50,500 --> 00:35:52,533 AM I MANIFESTING THE ILLNESSES? 654 00:35:52,533 --> 00:35:53,767 HELL NO. 655 00:35:53,767 --> 00:35:55,967 DO I WANT THE THERAPIST DIGGING? 656 00:35:55,967 --> 00:35:58,700 MAYBE NOT. OHH, MY KNEES. 657 00:35:58,700 --> 00:36:00,633 I RESPECT DR. NOWZARADAN. 658 00:36:00,633 --> 00:36:03,233 I WANT HIM TO CONTINUE TO BE MY DOCTOR, 659 00:36:03,233 --> 00:36:05,300 SO I'LL TRUST HIM ON THIS. 660 00:36:05,300 --> 00:36:08,333 ** 661 00:36:17,100 --> 00:36:21,367 I'M NOT EXCITED THAT I HAVE TO SEE A THERAPIST TODAY. 662 00:36:21,367 --> 00:36:23,400 THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS I DON'T TALK ABOUT 663 00:36:23,400 --> 00:36:26,733 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THEM. 664 00:36:26,733 --> 00:36:28,167 -JUNE? -HI. 665 00:36:28,167 --> 00:36:29,600 HI. I'M LOLA. 666 00:36:29,600 --> 00:36:32,100 JUST COME ON IN AND HAVE A SEAT. 667 00:36:35,833 --> 00:36:37,700 OKAY. SO, MISS JUNE, 668 00:36:37,700 --> 00:36:39,667 NOW, WHY DO YOU THINK YOU'RE HERE TODAY? 669 00:36:39,667 --> 00:36:41,233 HONESTLY, BECAUSE DR. NOWZARADAN 670 00:36:41,233 --> 00:36:42,467 WANTS ME TO COME SEE YOU. 671 00:36:42,467 --> 00:36:46,067 HE FEELS THAT I'M MANIFESTING ILLNESSES. 672 00:36:46,067 --> 00:36:49,067 TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON WITH YOU. 673 00:36:49,067 --> 00:36:52,967 ABOUT FIVE YEARS AGO, MY 17-YEAR-OLD SON WAS KILLED. 674 00:36:52,967 --> 00:36:56,167 AND I HAD A HEART ATTACK ABOUT A MONTH AFTER THAT. 675 00:36:56,167 --> 00:36:58,067 FROM THE STRESS OF LOSING YOUR SON? 676 00:36:58,067 --> 00:36:59,333 YES. 677 00:36:59,333 --> 00:37:01,067 I'M SO SORRY. 678 00:37:01,067 --> 00:37:03,700 SINCE THEN, I'VE BEEN IN AND OUT OF THE HOSPITAL A LOT. 679 00:37:03,700 --> 00:37:06,700 I'M DEALING WITH A LOT OF HEALTH ISSUES. 680 00:37:06,700 --> 00:37:09,700 CAN YOU TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOUR SON THAT YOU LOST? 681 00:37:09,700 --> 00:37:11,933 MACK. HE'D LIGHT UP A ROOM. 682 00:37:11,933 --> 00:37:16,067 BUT HE WAS INFLUENCED A LOT, AND HE MADE A MISTAKE. 683 00:37:16,067 --> 00:37:19,667 CAN YOU SHARE A LITTLE BIT WITH ME ABOUT THAT? 684 00:37:19,667 --> 00:37:21,333 I'D RATHER NOT EVEN GO THERE. 685 00:37:21,333 --> 00:37:23,133 WELL, IN YOUR OWN BEST INTEREST, 686 00:37:23,133 --> 00:37:24,800 IT'S DEFINITELY IMPORTANT 687 00:37:24,800 --> 00:37:27,667 THAT YOU KNOW THESE SORTS OF BARRIERS 688 00:37:27,667 --> 00:37:32,433 WILL CONTINUE TO INHIBIT YOUR TRULY MOVING FORWARD. 689 00:37:32,433 --> 00:37:34,200 WHY CONSTANTLY DWELL 690 00:37:34,200 --> 00:37:35,900 ON SOMETHING THAT YOU CANNOT CHANGE? 691 00:37:35,900 --> 00:37:39,867 THE POINT IS FOR YOU TO BE ABLE TO SIT WITH THE FEELINGS 692 00:37:39,867 --> 00:37:41,933 THAT CAME ABOUT FROM WHAT HAPPENED. 693 00:37:41,933 --> 00:37:44,600 HOW DID YOU FEEL FOLLOWING HIS DEATH? 694 00:37:44,600 --> 00:37:47,133 I SHUT DOWN. I MEAN, I'M VERY NUMB, 695 00:37:47,133 --> 00:37:48,367 STILL TO THIS DAY. 696 00:37:48,367 --> 00:37:49,733 SO, YOU SHUT DOWN, 697 00:37:49,733 --> 00:37:54,067 AND THEN YOUR BODY STARTED TO BREAK DOWN ON YOU. 698 00:37:54,067 --> 00:37:55,733 YES. BUT IT'S THE BEST WAY 699 00:37:55,733 --> 00:37:57,333 THAT I CAN DEAL WITH IT. 700 00:37:57,333 --> 00:38:02,567 THE SIGNIFICANCE, IN YOUR CASE, OF WEIGHT LOSS 701 00:38:02,567 --> 00:38:07,067 ISN'T JUST ABOUT WEIGHT IN THE PHYSICAL. 702 00:38:07,067 --> 00:38:10,133 IT'S ABOUT LOSS WITH A CAPITAL "L" 703 00:38:10,133 --> 00:38:12,967 AND THE TRAUMA YOU'VE EXPERIENCED. 704 00:38:12,967 --> 00:38:16,367 WHAT DO YOU GRIEVE THE MOST REGARDING MACK? 705 00:38:16,367 --> 00:38:18,767 JUST WHAT HIS FUTURE COULD HAVE BEEN, PERIOD, 706 00:38:18,767 --> 00:38:21,267 THE THINGS THAT I KNOW THAT HE WANTED TO DO. 707 00:38:21,267 --> 00:38:26,333 IF YOU COULD GO BACK TO THE DAY YOUR SON WAS KILLED, 708 00:38:26,333 --> 00:38:28,733 WHAT WOULD YOU DO DIFFERENTLY? 709 00:38:28,733 --> 00:38:31,367 JUST TELL HIM I LOVE HIM. 710 00:38:31,367 --> 00:38:33,100 I CAN TELL THAT YOU DO A GREAT DEAL 711 00:38:33,100 --> 00:38:35,067 TO TAKE CARE OF OTHERS, 712 00:38:35,067 --> 00:38:36,967 BUT YOU'RE NOT AS ATTENTIVE 713 00:38:36,967 --> 00:38:39,433 TO YOURSELF AND YOUR OWN NEEDS 714 00:38:39,433 --> 00:38:40,667 AS YOU SHOULD BE. 715 00:38:40,667 --> 00:38:42,067 YEAH, I'LL AGREE WITH THAT. 716 00:38:42,067 --> 00:38:43,600 SO, I THINK IT WOULD BE GREAT 717 00:38:43,600 --> 00:38:46,067 IF YOU KEPT THAT THOUGHT 718 00:38:46,067 --> 00:38:49,100 CONSCIOUSLY AT THE FOREFRONT OF YOUR MIND, DAILY, 719 00:38:49,100 --> 00:38:54,333 AND NOT MINIMIZE YOUR FEELINGS OR EMOTIONS. 720 00:38:56,400 --> 00:38:57,633 OKAY. 721 00:38:57,633 --> 00:38:59,067 THAT'S A DEAL. 722 00:38:59,067 --> 00:39:00,867 ALL RIGHT. 723 00:39:03,567 --> 00:39:06,067 IT'S OKAY TO TALK A LITTLE. 724 00:39:06,067 --> 00:39:08,633 IT MADE ME REALIZE THAT I COULD START THIS PROCESS 725 00:39:08,633 --> 00:39:11,367 OF DEALING WITH MY PAIN. 726 00:39:11,367 --> 00:39:13,067 I'M NOT READY YET, 727 00:39:13,067 --> 00:39:17,467 BUT I'M SEEING HOW NOT DOING IT HAS AFFECTED ME 728 00:39:17,467 --> 00:39:20,700 AND HOW I NEED TO DEAL WITH EVERYTHING AT SOME POINT. 729 00:39:26,367 --> 00:39:28,400 June: THERE ARE MOMENTS IN LIFE 730 00:39:28,400 --> 00:39:31,933 THAT SHOW YOU WHAT YOU'RE MADE OF. 731 00:39:31,933 --> 00:39:36,767 AND YOU DISCOVER YOU'RE A LOT STRONGER THAN YOU EVER REALIZED. 732 00:39:47,333 --> 00:39:49,467 IT'S BEEN ABOUT A MONTH SINCE I SAW THE THERAPIST 733 00:39:49,467 --> 00:39:50,900 FOR THE FIRST TIME, 734 00:39:50,900 --> 00:39:55,100 AND I WRESTLED WITH A LOT OF WHAT WE TALKED ABOUT. 735 00:39:55,100 --> 00:39:58,600 TODAY'S REAL SPECIAL BECAUSE IT'S MACK'S BIRTHDAY. 736 00:39:58,600 --> 00:40:01,900 AND MY BABY GIRL AND I ARE GOING TO RELEASE BALLOONS 737 00:40:01,900 --> 00:40:05,100 AND REMEMBER MY SON. 738 00:40:05,100 --> 00:40:07,567 I'M TELLING MACK I LOVE HIM, I MISS HIM, 739 00:40:07,567 --> 00:40:10,033 AND IT HURTS NOT HAVING HIM HERE WITH ME. 740 00:40:13,600 --> 00:40:17,233 IT WILL HURT EVERY DAY UNTIL THE DAY I DIE. 741 00:40:17,233 --> 00:40:20,500 BUT I WILL LIVE WITH THAT PAIN. 742 00:40:20,500 --> 00:40:23,267 IT WON'T BE EASY. 743 00:40:23,267 --> 00:40:26,033 I'LL NEVER BE OKAY WITH HIS PASSING, 744 00:40:26,033 --> 00:40:28,900 BUT I WILL LEARN TO BE STRONG 745 00:40:28,900 --> 00:40:30,167 AND THAT LIVING MY LIFE 746 00:40:30,167 --> 00:40:32,833 DOESN'T MEAN I'M FORGETTING HIS. 747 00:40:32,833 --> 00:40:35,867 ** 748 00:40:41,933 --> 00:40:44,133 I'M MAKING GREAT PROGRESS WITH MY WEIGHT, 749 00:40:44,133 --> 00:40:46,467 AND I'M TAKING CARE OF MYSELF NOW. 750 00:40:46,467 --> 00:40:47,733 I'M TAMMY. HOW YOU DOING? 751 00:40:47,733 --> 00:40:49,333 I'M GREAT. I'M JUNE. 752 00:40:49,333 --> 00:40:51,900 I'M DOING SO MUCH MORE ON MY OWN RIGHT NOW, 753 00:40:51,900 --> 00:40:54,167 AND I'VE MADE MORE PROGRESS IN THIS PAST YEAR 754 00:40:54,167 --> 00:40:57,267 THAN I THOUGHT I WOULD EVER DO. 755 00:40:57,267 --> 00:41:00,067 A YEAR AGO, THE THOUGHT OF BEING ABLE TO GO OUT 756 00:41:00,067 --> 00:41:03,667 AND EVEN FIT IN A SALON CHAIR WAS JUST A DREAM. 757 00:41:07,467 --> 00:41:10,633 NOW I'M LIVING THAT DREAM. 758 00:41:10,633 --> 00:41:13,100 I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING THE DOCTOR AGAIN 759 00:41:13,100 --> 00:41:16,067 AND SEEING HOW FAR I'VE COME THIS PAST YEAR. 760 00:41:23,333 --> 00:41:25,500 I LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING THAT NUMBER ON THE SCALE 761 00:41:25,500 --> 00:41:28,233 EVERY TIME I SEE THE DOCTOR NOW. 762 00:41:28,233 --> 00:41:30,800 THERE'S A PART OF ME THAT'S ALWAYS GONNA BE NERVOUS, 763 00:41:30,800 --> 00:41:34,133 BUT NOT LIKE I WAS. 764 00:41:34,133 --> 00:41:36,500 AWESOME! THAT'S GOOD. 765 00:41:36,500 --> 00:41:40,133 JUST LOSING THAT MUCH WEIGHT IN A YEAR -- 766 00:41:40,133 --> 00:41:42,900 IT MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME. 767 00:41:42,900 --> 00:41:44,633 HELLO! HOW ARE YOU TODAY? 768 00:41:44,633 --> 00:41:46,200 I'M GOOD. 769 00:41:46,200 --> 00:41:47,933 I SEE YOU'RE LOSING SOME WEIGHT. 770 00:41:47,933 --> 00:41:49,467 CAN YOU TELL THE DIFFERENCE? 771 00:41:49,467 --> 00:41:50,767 YES. I FEEL GOOD. 772 00:41:50,767 --> 00:41:52,233 EVERYTHING IS LOOKING GOOD. 773 00:41:52,233 --> 00:41:54,333 WHEN YOU RECOMMENDED ME TO THE THERAPIST, 774 00:41:54,333 --> 00:41:56,067 I'LL GIVE IT TO YOU. IT WORKED. 775 00:41:56,067 --> 00:41:57,767 I HAD A FEELING IT WOULD. 776 00:41:57,767 --> 00:42:01,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: JUNE HAS LOST OVER 200 POUNDS. 777 00:42:01,067 --> 00:42:03,700 I'M PROUD OF HER FOR GOING TO THERAPIST 778 00:42:03,700 --> 00:42:05,967 AND TALKING ABOUT SOME OF THE ISSUES 779 00:42:05,967 --> 00:42:08,300 THAT SHE NEED TO DEAL WITH. 780 00:42:08,300 --> 00:42:10,567 YOU'RE DOING WELL, AND IN A YEAR TIME, 781 00:42:10,567 --> 00:42:13,067 WE'LL GET YOU DOWN TO 200 POUNDS, HUH? 782 00:42:13,067 --> 00:42:15,100 -THAT'S A GOOD GOAL. -ALL RIGHT, JUNE. 783 00:42:15,100 --> 00:42:16,300 -THANK YOU. -I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 784 00:42:16,300 --> 00:42:18,567 -THANK YOU. -OKAY. 785 00:42:18,567 --> 00:42:20,367 June: LOOKING BACK A YEAR AGO, 786 00:42:20,367 --> 00:42:23,567 I WAS CONFINED TO MY HOME. 787 00:42:23,567 --> 00:42:25,767 NOW I GET TO BE OUT IN THE WORLD. 788 00:42:28,267 --> 00:42:30,733 I AM LIVING LIFE, 789 00:42:30,733 --> 00:42:32,300 AND I'M LOVING EVERY SECOND OF IT. 57259

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