All language subtitles for My 600-lb Life S04E02

Brittani: EVERY SINGLE DAY,
I LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR,

AND I'M LIKE,
"WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOURSELF?"

Man: MY WEIGHT HAS GIVEN ME
A DEATH SENTENCE.

Nikki: THE THING I RELIED ON
ALL THESE YEARS IS

WHAT'S KILLING ME.

-AND IT'S BROKEN!
-WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?

I DON'T KNOW!
I CAN'T GET UP!

DON'T MAKE ME GO, PLEASE.
-I'M NOT.

Man: IT'S HARD TO BE A FATHER
FROM A CHAIR.

[ GROANS ]
THANK YOU, HONEY.

I SEE
THAT UNWILLINGNESS.

IF YOU WILL SEE THIS,
YOU'LL MAKE CHANGES.

Dr. Nowzaradan:
FOOD IS NOT GOING TO BE

A COPING MECHANISM
FOR HER ANYMORE.

Brittani:
MENTALLY, I FEEL LOST.

I HAD NO IDEA
DOING THIS WAS GONNA HAVE

THIS KIND OF EFFECT ON ME.

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WHEN YOU'VE SPENT
SO MUCH OF YOUR LIFE RUNNING

TO SOMETHING THAT'S KILLING YOU,

CHANGING THAT IS
ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE,

EVEN WHEN YOU REALIZE
HOW IT'S GOING TO END

IF YOU DON'T.

I DON'T REMEMBER
A TIME WAKING UP

THAT I DIDN'T HURT.

EVERY SINGLE MOLECULE
IN MY BODY IS PAINFUL.

TO BE INSIDE OF MY BODY,
IT IS PAIN.

IT IS SADNESS.

MOST OF THE TIME, I'M LIKE,

"MAYBE IT WOULD BE BETTER
IF I JUST DON'T WAKE UP,"

BECAUSE EVERY SINGLE DAY
I LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR,

AND I'M LIKE,
"WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOURSELF?"

A HUMAN BODY SHOULD NOT LOOK
THE WAY MY BODY LOOKS.

IT IS THE MOST DISGUSTING THING
IN THE WORLD.

[ SIGHS ]

[ WALL CLACKS ]

I'M SO BIG,
I'M ALMOST TO THE POINT

WHERE I CAN'T
EVEN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

IT'S DIFFICULT
TO EVEN TRY TO WASH MYSELF.

IT IS THE MOST EXHAUSTING PART
OF MY DAY.

AND NO MATTER
HOW MUCH I CLEAN MYSELF,

I STILL FEEL LIKE I STINK.

MY HUSBAND DOESN'T SEE ME
UNDRESS MOST OF THE TIME.

I DON'T WALK AROUND NAKED
BECAUSE I'M AFRAID

THAT HE WILL BE ABSOLUTELY
DISGUSTED IF HE SEES ME

AND THAT HE WILL NEVER LOOK
AT ME THE SAME WAY AGAIN.

SO I HIDE,
AND I DO NOTHING ALL DAY.

I PROBABLY SPEND A GOOD SIX
TO EIGHT HOURS ON MY COUCH

EVERY SINGLE DAY.

THE ONLY TIME
I DO GET UP IS TO GET FOOD.

I THINK ABOUT FOOD NONSTOP

FROM THE MOMENT I WAKE UP
TILL THE MOMENT I GO TO BED.

AND I KNOW THAT'S NOT NORMAL.

BUT I CAN'T REMEMBER A TIME

WHEN FOOD WASN'T
THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME.

NOT MANY PEOPLE CAN PINPOINT
WHEN THEIR LIFE CHANGED,

BUT I CAN TELL YOU
MY LIFE CHANGED

WHEN I WAS 5 YEARS OLD.

I WAS MOLESTED
BY A FAMILY MEMBER,

AND MY ABUSE WENT ON
FOR SIX YEARS.

IT STILL FEELS
LIKE IT HAPPENED YESTERDAY.

IT MADE ME
SO CONFUSED ABOUT LIFE.

IF THAT'S WHAT LOVE IS,
THEN JUST KEEP IT AWAY FROM ME.

I DIDN'T WANT LOVE,
AND I BUILT A WALL.

THE ONLY THING I FOUND
ANY TYPE OF HAPPINESS IN WAS

WHEN I COULD GO AND EAT MY FOOD.

AND NO ONE IN MY FAMILY KNEW.

WHEN BRITTANI WAS
IN HER YOUNGER YEARS,

I JUST TOOK IT
AS SHE WAS A CHUBBY LITTLE GIRL

AND DIDN'T THINK MUCH ABOUT IT.

I DIDN'T CARE.
SHE JUST NEEDED TO BE HAPPY.

Brittani: AT DINNERTIMES,
I WOULD EAT MY FOOD SO FAST

'CAUSE I JUST NEEDED IT IN ME.

ALL I WANTED WAS FOOD.

I WAS SO ALONE AND SCARED.

I DIDN'T WANT PEOPLE
TO SEE HOW VULNERABLE I WAS,

SO I PUT ON MY HAPPY SMILE.

AND I KEPT THAT PAIN
AND NEVER LET IT OUT,

AND IT'S NEVER GONE AWAY.

I JUST KEPT EATING,

AND BY THE TIME
I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL,

I WEIGHED 400 POUNDS.

BUT AFTER I GRADUATED,
THINGS GOT BETTER

BECAUSE I MET MY HUSBAND, BILL.

I HAD NEVER HAD
A SERIOUS BOYFRIEND,

BUT HE LIKED BIG WOMEN
AND THOUGHT I WAS BEAUTIFUL.

Bill:
WHEN I FIRST MET HER, TO ME,

BRITTANI SEEMED JUST HAPPY.

HER PERSONALITY WAS BUBBLY,

AND I WANTED
TO JOIN THE BUBBLE, I GUESS.

Brittani:
SO, WE GOT MARRIED,

AND IT'S BEEN ME AND BILL
AGAINST EVERYTHING SINCE THEN.

I NEEDED SOMEONE
TO TELL ME THAT I'M OKAY,

AND THAT NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE
IN MY LIFE.

BUT I'VE WONDERED IF I'VE BEEN
A DISAPPOINTMENT TO HIM.

I WAS 400 POUNDS WHEN WE MET,

BUT I JUST KEPT EATING
AND GETTING BIGGER.

AND NOW I RARELY GO OUT
AND DO ANYTHING

BECAUSE IT STRESSES ME OUT JUST
TO HAVE TO MANEUVER THIS BODY

AROUND THE WORLD.

Bill: WHEN I FIRST MET HER,
SHE WAS WORKING EVERY DAY.

WE'D GO OUT.

YOU KNOW, WE'D GO TO DINNER,
OR WE'D GO TO THE MOVIES.

WE WERE JUST LIKE
EVERYBODY ELSE.

CAN I HAVE A HAND?

NOW SHE ALMOST CAN'T DO ANYTHING
ON HER OWN.

THANK YOU.

SHE NEEDS MORE HELP
THAN I CAN GIVE HER.

AND I CAN'T MAKE IT BETTER.

I CAN'T FIX IT.

Bill: YOU GOT IT?

Brittani: THE ONLY TIME
I EVER TRY TO GO OUT IS

TO SHOP FOR GROCERIES.

I KNOW, BUT I WANT TO MAKE SURE
I GET WHAT I WANT.

Brittani: GOING SHOPPING SUCKS
ON SO MANY LEVELS.

Brittani: LET'S JUST HURRY
AND GET THIS OVER WITH.

Bill: I'VE GOT YOU.

Brittani: IT HURTS.

I HAVE TO RIDE
THE LITTLE CARTS.

AND I FEEL LIKE

THE BIGGEST PERSON
IN THE WHOLE WORLD,

AND I FEEL LIKE
ALL EYES ARE ON ME.

SORRY.
I'M SO SORRY.

I WANT TO MAKE BRITTANI HAPPY
ANY WAY I CAN.

CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM OR THE --
THE CHOCOLATE ONE.

Bill:
I AM A FULL-ON ENABLER,

AND I AM VERY AWARE
I'M AN ENABLER.

YEAH.

OKAY.
ARE WE DONE?

ACTUALLY, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE
TO PARK HERE FOR A MINUTE.

WHY?

I'VE GOT TO GET
THE MAC AND CHEESE.

OH [BLEEP]

HOW MANY?

[ SIGHS ]
THREE, PLEASE.

THREE?
I'LL BE RIGHT BACK.

Bill: I JUST HAD TO GET HER AND
THE FOOD HOME AS FAST AS I CAN

BECAUSE SHE'S VERY SELF-AWARE
THE WAY PEOPLE ARE LOOKING

AND WHAT PEOPLE SAY.

EVERY SINGLE PERSON WALKS BY ME
AND IS LOOKING ME UP AND DOWN

LIKE I'M NOT A PERSON,

LIKE I DON'T HAVE
ANY RIGHT TO BE HERE.

I'M A PERSON.

AND THEN, THE PATHETIC
LITTLE SMILES THAT THEY DO AT ME

IS JUST ENOUGH
TO MAKE ME NOT EVER WANT

TO COME OUT OF MY HOUSE AGAIN.

Bill: THE COMBINATION
OF THE PAIN OF ACTUALLY MOVING

AND THEN THE ANXIETY
WHICH CAUSES PAIN...

OW!

Bill: ...IT GETS TO A POINT
WHERE SHE CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.

SO WHEN THAT HAPPENS,

THE ONLY THING THAT HELPS
HER FEEL BETTER IS EATING.

Brittani:
WHEN I'M EATING FOOD,

EVERYTHING'S OKAY
FOR THAT ONE MOMENT.

NOTHING ELSE MATTERS.
I'M NOT THINKING ABOUT THE PAST.

IT'S BLISS.

AND SO I'M CONSTANTLY TRYING

TO FIND THAT MOMENT
WHERE I'M OKAY.

Bill: BRITTANI ALONE COULD EAT
AS MUCH FOOD

AS A NORMAL FAMILY
OF FOUR WOULD ORDER.

ARE THESE MY WINGS?
THAT'S YOUR WINGS.

Brittani: I WILL EAT UNTIL
I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA THROW UP,

AND THEN THAT DOESN'T
EVEN STOP ME.

AND WHEN I'M DONE,
I THINK I AM THE MOST NASTIEST,

MOST DISGUSTING PERSON
IN THE WORLD.

AND THEN I NEED TO EAT MORE
TO MAKE ME FEEL HAPPY,

AND IT'S JUST A VICIOUS CYCLE.

Bill: SHE ALWAYS WANTS TO EAT,
AND I CAN'T TELL HER NO.

NOW BRITTANI'S SIZE IS
PREVENTING US

FROM DOING
EVERYTHING WE WANT TO DO.

I'M MISSING OUT ON TAKING
MY WIFE OUT FOR DINNER,

TAKING MY WIFE ON A DATE.

OUR DATE NIGHTS ARE IN-HOUSE.

Brittani: ME AND MY HUSBAND LIVE
VERY SEPARATE, DIFFERENT LIVES.

I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE
TO BE AFFECTIONATE WITH HIM.

WE'RE INTIMATE IN WAYS
THAT WE CAN BE,

BUT ACTUAL,
PHYSICAL INTERCOURSE,

WE'VE NEVER HAD.

Bill: AS A MARRIED MAN,

I DO WISH
THERE WAS MORE INTIMACY,

BUT THAT'S AN IMPOSSIBILITY.

Brittani:
ALL I'VE EVER WANTED TO BE IS

A HOUSEWIFE AND A MOMMY,

AND WITH ME BEING THIS SIZE,
IT'S PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE.

[BLEEP]

Bill: FOR HAVING CHILDREN,
TIME IS RUNNING SHORT.

THE WAY BRITTANI'S BODY
AND JOINTS ARE DETERIORATING,

SHE IS GETTING TO THE POINT

WHERE SHE'S
PRETTY MUCH HOUSEBOUND.

THE NEXT PROGRESSION IS
BEDBOUND,

WHERE SHE'S UNABLE
TO TAKE CARE OF HERSELF AT ALL.

IN THE MORNINGS,
WHEN I GET UP TO GO

AND SHE'S STILL ASLEEP,
I ACTUALLY FIND MYSELF STOPPING

TO MAKE SURE
SHE'S STILL BREATHING.

GOOD NIGHT.
GOOD NIGHT.

Bill: I LIVE
WITH THAT FEAR EVERY DAY.

THIS BODY THAT I'M IN IS

BECAUSE OF THAT LITTLE GIRL
SCREAMING INSIDE SAYING,

"NO ONE PROTECTED YOU,

AND SO YOU HAVE
TO PROTECT YOURSELF,"

BUT BY PROTECTING MYSELF,
I'M KILLING MYSELF.

AND I WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING MY
WALL TO COME DOWN.

Bill:
SO, WE GOT EVERYTHING?

YEAH, I THINK SO.

Brittani:
I'M BEYOND DESPERATE.

I'M, LIKE, SCRAPING THE BOTTOM
OF THE BARREL RIGHT NOW.

AND I KNOW
THAT IF I DON'T DO THIS,

THERE WON'T BE
ANYTHING LEFT OF ME.

ANYTIME
I WALK OUT MY FRONT DOOR,

IT FEELS LIKE
THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE.

BUT I'M WILLING
TO PUT MYSELF OUT THERE

TO GET THE HELP THAT I NEED.

Bill: THIS JOURNEY IS THE
BIGGEST RISK WE'VE EVER TAKEN,

AND I'M AFRAID
THIS IS THE LAST OPTION.

THERE'S NO OTHER OPTIONS
FOR HER.

Brittani: I AM STEPPING WAY
OUTSIDE OF MY COMFORT BUBBLE

BECAUSE I NEED HELP.

IT'S BEEN YEARS
SINCE I'VE BEEN OUT LIKE THIS,

AND I'M SCARED.

BUT IF I DO NOT CHANGE,
I WILL DIE.

Brittani: IT'S BEEN
A LONG TRIP TO HOUSTON,

BUT WE'RE FINALLY HERE,

AND I'M ABOUT TO SEE THE DOCTOR
FOR THE FIRST TIME.

I REALLY HOPE THAT HE SAYS

I CAN BE A CANDIDATE
FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

MS. FULFER?

I WANT THIS MORE THAN I'VE
EVER WANTED ANYTHING IN MY LIFE.

SO, I'M NERVOUS TO FIND OUT
WHAT MY WEIGHT IS

BECAUSE I HAVE NOT BEEN WEIGHED
IN A LONG TIME.

I DIDN'T REALIZE
I HAD LET MYSELF GO THAT BAD.

I'VE NEVER WEIGHED
THAT MUCH BEFORE EVER.

I FEEL LIKE A COMPLETE
AND UTTER FAILURE RIGHT NOW.

I'M JUST SO DISAPPOINTED
IN MYSELF.

-HELLO.
-HI.

I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.

IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU.

AND YOU'RE BRITTANI, HUH?
YEAH, BRITTANI.

SO, YOU'RE
OVER 600 POUNDS.

MM-HMM.

WHAT DO YOU THINK GOT YOU
TO THIS WEIGHT?

EMOTIONAL EATING
IN GENERAL.

STRESS, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY,
BUT I ALSO EAT

WHEN I'M HAPPY
AND WHEN THINGS ARE GOING GOOD.

I JUST EAT.

BRITTANI CLEARLY IS
A COMPULSIVE EATER.

THIS TYPE OF BEHAVIOR IS USUALLY
THE RESULT OF EMOTIONAL TRAUMA.

WHEN AN ENABLER IS INVOLVED,

IT IS ONE OF THE MOST DIFFICULT
DYNAMICS TO BREAK.

SO, YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT,
AND HE'S OVERWEIGHT.

-YEAH.
-YEAH.

IT'S GONNA BE VERY HARD
TO CHANGE IT

UNLESS WE CHANGE THE WHOLE
DYNAMIC OF THE HOUSEHOLD.

LET ME JUST LISTEN
TO YOUR HEART.

DO YOU GET SHORT OF BREATH
WITH ACTIVITY?

YEAH, JUST FROM WALKING
FROM THE WAITING ROOM

TO THE SCALE
EVEN, I WAS, LIKE...

-HUFFING AND PUFFING.
-MM-HMM.

YOU'RE EATING
YOURSELF TO DEATH,

AND YOU'RE HELPING HER
TO DO IT.

THIS IS GOING TO BE
VERY DIFFICULT FOR THEM BOTH.

BUT I HAVE TO SEE
IF BRITTANI HAS THE ABILITY

TO GET CONTROL
OF HER COMPULSIVE-EATING HABIT.

IF SHE DOESN'T,
SURGERY IS NOT GOING TO HELP.

AT THIS POINT,
YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE A CANDIDATE

FOR ANY KIND OF SURGERY.

BUT YOU CAN GET
TO THAT POINT

BY LOSING SOME WEIGHT
AND CHANGING YOUR EATING HABITS.

SO, FREQUENCY OF EATING HAS
TO BE ONLY THREE TIMES A DAY.

NO -- NO SNACKS?

LIKE, NOT EVEN CARROTS
OR NOTHING?

NO SNACKS.
NO.

OKAY.

OKAY.

IF YOU CHANGE YOUR HABIT,

YOU SHOULD BE ABLE
TO LOSE 40 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH.

-OKAY.
-THIS IS GONNA BE SOMETHING

THAT YOU'RE BOTH GONNA HAVE
TO WORK ON.

I CAN DO THAT.

THE TIME
TO DO THIS IS NOW.

OKAY.

I AM DEFINITELY DISAPPOINTED

TO HEAR
THAT I'M NOT A CANDIDATE.

BUT I KNOW
THAT I HAVE TO CHANGE

AS SOON AS I WALK
OUT OF THIS OFFICE.

I HONESTLY HAVE NO IDEA HOW
I'M GONNA CONTROL MY ANXIETY.

IT'S GONNA BE THE MOST
DIFFICULT THING I'VE EVER DONE.

BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS
NO MATTER WHAT.

[ TRAIN BELL DINGING ]

Brittani: CAN YOU
COME EAT BREAKFAST?

Brittani: SINCE MY VISIT
WITH DR. NOW,

I'VE BEEN REALLY STRICT
ON MY DIET,

LITERALLY WRITING EVERY
SINGLE THING DOWN THAT I EAT.

Bill: THE DOCTOR WANTS US
TO EAT PROTEIN.

WE'RE EATING PROTEIN.

AND MY HUSBAND'S
BEEN DOING IT WITH ME, AS WELL,

SO TEAMWORK MAKES IT BETTER.

I'VE NEVER,
EVER LOST WEIGHT IN MY LIFE,

SO TO TRY TO LOSE 40 POUNDS
SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE.

IT'S BEEN HARD,
BUT HOPEFULLY IT WILL PAY OFF.

I WANT THIS CHANCE TO LIVE,
AND I KNOW THAT.

THE DOCTOR CAN'T TREAT ME
IF I'M NOT CLOSE BY,

SO WE'RE MOVING TO HOUSTON.

I KNOW
I MIGHT NOT GET THE SURGERY,

BUT THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE,
SO I'M GOING ALL-IN.

I AM LEAVING EVERYTHING I KNOW
TO SAVE MY LIFE.

LET'S GO.

I'M SCARED
BECAUSE I'M LEAVING MY HOME.

ALL MY FAMILY IS HERE.
MY FRIENDS ARE HERE.

BUT THIS MOVE IS NOT JUST
ABOUT ME.

THIS MOVE IS ABOUT ME
AND MY HUSBAND AND OUR MARRIAGE.

I DON'T WANT TO BE SOMEONE
WHO'S TAKEN CARE OF.

I WANT TO BE
THE WIFE THAT HE DESERVES.

Bill:
YOU READY TO DO THIS?

Brittani: YES.

Brittani: I'VE NEVER BEEN
ON A ROAD TRIP LIKE THIS,

AND I'M SCARED
I MIGHT NOT MAKE THE JOURNEY.

Brittani: FROM TUALATIN
TO HOUSTON

WILL TAKE US SIX DAYS,

AND I'VE NEVER DRIVEN
MORE THAN THREE HOURS IN A CAR

AT THIS WEIGHT.

SO THIS IS
PRETTY TERRIFYING.

Brittani: BUT I KNOW
THERE'S A WHOLE WORLD OUT THERE

FOR ME TO SEE.

Brittani: [ GASPS ]
OH, MY GOODNESS!

THAT'S HUGE!

Brittani: IF IT'S NOT
ON TV OR IN A GROCERY STORE,

I'VE BEEN MISSING IT.

I WANT TO GET MY LIFE BACK,

AND I'M WILLING TO DO
WHATEVER IT TAKES.

Bill: MUSHROOM CHICKEN
WITH VEGGIES.

SO FAR, ON THIS TRIP,

I'M STICKING TO HIGH PROTEIN
LOW CARBS.

A COUPLE MONTHS AGO,
IT WOULD HAVE BEEN

BREADED CHICKEN
AND THREE TIMES AS MUCH FOOD

AND A SUGARY SODA.

I'VE WASTED SO MUCH TIME.

I'M READY FOR A CHANGE.

IT'S BEEN SIX DAYS
SINCE WE LEFT HOME,

AND WE'RE FINALLY HERE.

Bill: WE MADE IT.

YOU READY?

I DON'T KNOW. I KIND OF GOT SAD
ALL OF A SUDDEN.

-WHY?
-'CAUSE IT'S NOT HOME.

[ SIGHS ]

Brittani: I'VE NEVER BEEN
THIS FAR AWAY FROM HOME.

I'M ANXIOUS RIGHT NOW
BECAUSE THIS PLACE IS SO NEW.

[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

WELL,
WHAT DO YOU THINK?

IT'S KIND OF SINKING IN,
AND I DON'T LIKE IT.

Bill:
BRITTANI IS MISSING HOME,

AND SHE'S PROBABLY ANXIOUS
AND SCARED ABOUT WHAT'S TO COME,

SO I WANT TO GET
THIS PLACE SET UP

AS QUICKLY AS I CAN
SO BRITTANI CAN BE COMFORTABLE.

BECAUSE SHE CAN'T GIVE UP
AND WANT TO GO BACK.

WE NEED TO BE HERE AND DO THIS.

Brittani: IT'S JUST HARD.
AND IT IS SCARY.

BUT I KNOW
THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO DO.

THE THING THAT SCARES ME
THE ABSOLUTE MOST IS

THAT DR. NOW IS GONNA SAY NO,

SO THAT I DID THIS WHOLE THING
FOR NOTHING.

[ BREATHES DEEPLY ]

MS. FULFER?

I HOPE THE DOCTOR APPROVES ME
THIS TIME.

I'VE DONE EVERYTHING I CAN
FOR THE PAST MONTH.

I HOPE
THAT THIS HAS ALL BEEN ENOUGH,

BECAUSE I NEED THIS SURGERY
MORE THAN ANYTHING.

I NEED THE SURGERY TO LIVE.

Brittani:
I'M SO ANXIOUS RIGHT NOW.

I HAVE TO HAVE LOST
THE 40 POUNDS

THE DOCTOR NEEDED ME TO
TO GET APPROVED.

EVERYTHING I'VE DONE HAS
TO HAVE BEEN ENOUGH.

Woman:
OKAY, 570.

I'M A LITTLE DISCOURAGED
RIGHT NOW.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT'S QUITE
THE VICTORY I WANTED,

AND I'M SCARED
THE DOCTOR'S GONNA TELL ME

THAT THIS ISN'T ENOUGH.

[ SIGHS ]
[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

-HELLO.
-HI.

SO, HOW YOU DOING
TODAY?

I AM OKAY -- TIRED.
LONG ROAD TRIP FROM OREGON.

-AND YOU'RE STAYING?
-YEAH, WE MOVED HERE.

-OH, SUPER, SUPER.
-YEAH.

HOW IS
YOUR DIET DOING?

I'VE DONE REALLY WELL,
STAYED WITHIN 1,200 CALORIES,

VERY LITTLE CARBS.

SO, I THINK
I'VE DONE REALLY WELL.

SO, THE DIET IS WORKING
FOR YOU.

SO, AM I
ON THE RIGHT PATH?

AM I DOING --
I'M DOING OKAY?

-YEAH, YOU'RE DOING GOOD.
-REALLY?

YOU UNDERSTAND THE PROCESS,
AND YOU WERE ABLE

TO MAKE CHANGES
TO YOUR EATING HABITS,

SO YOU'RE A GOOD CANDIDATE
FOR SURGERY.

-THANK YOU.
-OKAY?

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Dr. Nowzaradan:
BRITTANI HAS DONE VERY WELL.

SHE'S LOST 35 POUNDS.

IT'S NOT QUITE 40 POUNDS,
BUT SHE SHOWED ME

THAT SHE'S ABLE
TO CONTROL HER EATING HABIT.

AND SHE MADE
THE MOVE TO HOUSTON,

AND THAT TELLS ME
THAT SHE'S VERY SERIOUS

ABOUT BYPASS SURGERY.

CONTINUE TO STICK
WITH YOUR DIET.

AND NEXT MONTH, I WANT
TO SET YOU UP FOR SURGERY.

WOW.
OKAY, WE CAN DO THIS.

-I'LL SEE YOU LATER.
-THANK YOU, SIR.

ALL RIGHT,
WELCOME TO TEXAS.

-THANK YOU.
-[ CHUCKLES ]

SEE?
I TOLD YOU NOT TO WORRY.

-I'M A CANDIDATE.
-I TOLD YOU.

[ BOTH LAUGH ]

LET'S DO THIS.

Brittani:
I'M REALLY EXCITED.

AFTER I SAW MY WEIGHT

AND I SAW THAT I HADN'T HIT
THE 40-POUND LOSS,

I THOUGHT THAT WAS IT.

THIS IS PRETTY MUCH
A DREAM COME TRUE.

I JUST DON'T WANT
TO BE IN PAIN.

THEY'RE GONNA FIX YOU UP
REALLY GOOD, OKAY?

-OKAY, MOM.
-ALL RIGHT.

ALL RIGHT, LOVE YOU.
-LOVE YOU, TOO.

I'M SUPER-NERVOUS,
BUT MY MOMMY AND BILL ARE HERE,

AND HAVING THEM HERE HELPS
A LOT.

WAITING FOR DR. NOW.

Brittani: I'M VERY SCARED
OF THE RISKS OF SURGERY.

BUT THIS IS GOING
TO GIVE ME A LIFE

OF BEING ABLE TO DO EVERYTHING
I'VE EVER WANTED.

Bill:
BRITTANI IS EVERYTHING TO ME,

SO IF SOMETHING DOES GO WRONG,
IT WOULD BE DEVASTATING.

BUT THIS IS THE FIRST STEP
IN A LONG JOURNEY

OF WEIGHT LOSS
AND GETTING HEALTHY.

I'M JUST SCARED
I'M NOT GONNA WAKE UP.

ALL I'VE EVER WANTED WAS
TO BE A WIFE AND A MOTHER,

AND I'M NOT STOPPING
FOR ANYTHING.

Woman:
DEEP BREATHS, BRITTANI.

DEEP BREATHS.

Dr. Nowzaradan:
TODAY, WE'RE GOING TO DO

GASTRIC BYPASS ON BRITTANI.

GASTRIC BYPASS IS
THE MOST EFFECTIVE METHOD

OF WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

WE'RE GONNA START MAKING
THE INCISION.

BEFORE SURGERY,
THE PATIENT'S STOMACH CAN BE

AS BIG AS A FOOTBALL.

WE'RE GONNA REDUCE IT
TO THE SIZE OF A TENNIS BALL.

THIS WILL LIMIT

THE AMOUNT OF FOOD
THEY CAN EAT IN ONE SITTING.

Dr. Nowzaradan:
PULL BACK ON THE CAMERA MORE.

THE RESULT IS
THE PATIENT EATS LESS,

ABSORBS LESS,
AND LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT.

Dr. Nowzaradan: COME ON DOWN.
COME ON DOWN.

Bill: I'M WONDERING, AS SHE'S
GOING THROUGH THE SURGERY,

HOW IT'S GOING.

THERE'S ALWAYS,
IN THE BACK OF YOUR MIND,

THAT SOMETHING COULD GO WRONG

JUST 'CAUSE
ANYTHING COULD HAPPEN.

ALL RIGHT.
WE'RE DONE.

Dr. Nowzaradan: BRITTANI'S
SURGERY WENT VERY WELL.

WE WERE ABLE
TO DO HER GASTRIC BYPASS,

AND SHE'S DOING FINE.

ALL THE WAY OVER.
ALL THE WAY OVER.

THERE WE GO.

OKAY, SLOW, DEEP BREATHS,
BRITTANI, OKAY?

THIS SURGERY IS GONNA HELP HER
TO MAKE MUCH MORE PROGRESS.

BUT IN THE END,
IT'S ONLY A TOOL.

BECAUSE OF THE SURGERY,
FOOD IS NOT GOING TO BE

A COPING MECHANISM
FOR HER ANYMORE.

SHE CAN CHOOSE
TO MAKE IT ONE AGAIN

OR TAKE THIS CHANCE
TO ACTUALLY COPE

WITH WHAT IS DRIVING HER
TO EAT.

WE'RE GIVING HER AN OPPORTUNITY
WITH THIS SURGERY.

WHAT SHE DOES WITH IT IS
UP TO HER.

ARE YOU READY TO WALK?

-IF I HAVE TO.
-YES, MA'AM.

Brittani: THE PAST FEW DAYS
HAVE BEEN REALLY HARD.

I'M STRUGGLING
WITH STAYING MOTIVATED.

WHEN I WOKE UP FROM SURGERY,

I WOKE UP
TO A WHOLE NEW REALITY.

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE,
I DIDN'T HAVE CRAVINGS.

I DIDN'T REALIZE

HOW MUCH I WAS USING FOOD
TO HELP ME FEEL SAFE.

AND JUST THE FACT

THAT I KNEW IT WAS THERE
WHEN I NEEDED IT WAS COMFORT.

OH, S-S-SHH...

-ARE YOU HURTING?
-MM-HMM.

NOW IT'S NOT, AND I HAD NO IDEA
THAT DOING THIS WAS GONNA HAVE

THIS KIND OF EFFECT ON ME.

I HAVE TO KEEP TELLING MYSELF
IT WILL BE OKAY,

BECAUSE IF NOT,
THEN I'LL FREAK OUT.

MY FOOD WAS MY BEST FRIEND.

I TURNED TO IT WHEN I WAS HAPPY.
I TURNED TO IT WHEN I WAS SAD.

I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST
SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME,

SO IT IS A GRIEVING PROCESS.

MY WHOLE WORLD HAS BEEN TURNED
UPSIDE-DOWN,

AND I'M NOT SURE
HOW TO DEAL WITH IT.

Brittani: THERE COMES A MOMENT
WHEN YOU HAVE TO TRUST

WHAT YOU KNOW IS TRUE

OR BELIEVE THE LIE
THAT WILL EVENTUALLY KILL YOU.

MOMMY, ARE YOU READY
FOR LUNCH?

Stacy: WAY READY.

MOVE, BABY BOY.

Brittani: I'VE BEEN HOME FROM
SURGERY FOR OVER A MONTH NOW,

AND EACH DAY HAS SEEMED
HARDER AND HARDER.

EVERYTHING IS SO DIFFERENT NOW.

MENTALLY, I FEEL LOST
AND CONFUSED AND REALLY UNSURE.

BUT THE DRAW I HAD TO FOOD

AND THE COMFORT
IT BROUGHT ME IS GONE.

SO I DON'T REALLY ENJOY EATING,
WHICH MAKES ME SAD.

AND IT'S HARD
TO FORCE MYSELF TO EAT.

BRITTANI HAS BEEN EXPERIENCING
LACK OF APPETITE IN GENERAL,

SO IT'S BEEN REALLY A CHALLENGE
TO GET HER TO CONSUME

WHAT SHE SHOULD IN A DAY.

IT LOOKS GOOD.

COME ON, SHELDON.

I NEED A PIECE OF BACON.

WELL, WE CAN'T HAVE BACON.

Brittani: BEFORE,
I COULD EAT ANYTHING I WANTED.

NOW IT JUST ISN'T FUN TO EAT.

IT DOESN'T BRING ME
ANY PLEASURE,

SO EVERYTHING
REALLY TASTES DISGUSTING,

AND I DON'T WANT TO EAT
IF IT'S DISGUSTING.

I'M HUNGRY.

Stacy:
BRITTANI'S BEEN HAVING ANXIETY

ABOUT IF SHE MADE
A MISTAKE OR NOT.

I REALIZED THAT THERE WOULD BE
SOME REALLY, REALLY ROUGH TIMES

FOR BRITTANI'S RECOVERY,

BUT TO WATCH HER STRUGGLE
WITH IT SO WORRIES ME.

I KNOW.

HERE, SHELDON.

I'M DONE.
[ SNIFFLES ]

Brittani: IF THIS IS
WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO LIVE,

I'M NOT SURE IT'S WORTH IT.

MY MOM'S BEEN
REALLY WORRIED ABOUT ME

THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS,

SO SHE CONVINCED ME TO GO SEE A
THERAPIST TO TALK ABOUT THINGS.

I'M STILL NOT EATING MUCH
AND STILL REALLY DON'T WANT TO.

AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

-HI, BRITTANI.
-HI.

COME ON BACK.

SO, BRITTANI,
WHY DON'T YOU JUST START

WITH WHAT YOU'D LIKE
TO TALK ABOUT THE MOST TODAY?

Brittani: I JUST HAD
WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,

AND FOOD IS MY COMFORT,

AND I'VE
ALWAYS JUST TURNED TO IT.

-RIGHT.
-AND NOW IT'S GONE,

AND I'M JUST LIKE,
"WHAT DID I GET MYSELF INTO?"

IS IT JUST ABOUT FOOD?

I WENT THROUGH SEXUAL ABUSE
WHEN I WAS YOUNGER.

AND I DIDN'T FEEL SAFE,
AND SO FOOD MADE ME SAFE.

RIGHT.

BECAUSE AT THAT TIME
THAT I WAS EATING,

I WAS LIKE,
"LIFE IS OKAY RIGHT NOW.

LIFE IS OKAY RIGHT NOW."

-YOU NEEDED IT.
-I DID, YEAH.

YOU NEEDED SOMETHING
TO HELP YOU TO SURVIVE.

IT SEEMS WEIRD TO ME
THAT SOMETHING 28 YEARS AGO

CAN STILL AFFECT ME
TILL THIS DAY.

IT'S TRAUMA.

SOMETIMES,
IT'S JUST KIND OF HARD

TO JUST SORT OF ACKNOWLEDGE
THE PAIN

THAT YOU REALLY HAVE
EXPERIENCED.

I WANT TO BE THE PERSON
WHO'S ABLE TO COPE WITH THINGS

AND JUST NOT FEAR
THE WORST OF EVERYTHING.

PART OF THAT IS RECOGNIZING
THAT THAT FEAR --

THAT'S A SYMPTOM
OF TRAUMA.

YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM IS
ACTUALLY STRESSED, RIGHT?

-MM-HMM.
-AND FOOD CALMS

YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM.

SO, IT'S NOT ACTUALLY SILLY.
IT MAKES A LOT OF SENSE.

-OKAY.
-'CAUSE IT'S VERY EFFECTIVE.

THEN, LIKE, I GET THAT GUILT
OF, "WHY DID YOU DO THAT?"

-THEN, YOU HAVE SHAME, RIGHT?
-YEAH.

SO, IT'S
NO LONGER EFFECTIVE.

WHEN YOU WERE 5, YOU NEEDED
A COPING STRATEGY TO SURVIVE,

AND NOW IT'S BECOME
A SOURCE OF A SHAME.

IT'S BECOME
A SOURCE OF PUNISHMENT.

MM-HMM.

AND IT'S KEPT YOU
BOTTLED UP INSIDE,

AND IT'S TIME
FOR YOU TO COME OUT.

YES.

AND THAT MEANS FINDING
NEW COPING STRATEGIES,

RIGHT,
BESIDES USING FOOD

BECAUSE
WHAT YOU'RE EXPERIENCING,

THE ANXIETY
THAT YOU'RE DESCRIBING,

YOU'RE GOING
BACK TO THE PAST, RIGHT?

"I'M NOT SAFE.
I'M NOT SAFE."

BUT YOU'RE RIGHT HERE,
AND RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE SAFE.

-YES.
-RIGHT?

SO, WHEN YOU CAN FIND
THAT GROUNDING,

THAT'S PROBABLY
THE MOST IMPORTANT SKILL

THAT YOU CAN USE
FOR RIGHT NOW.

THIS IS SOMETHING YOU CAN DO
INSTEAD OF TURNING TO FOOD.

YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY.

-THANK YOU. THANK YOU.
-MM-HMM.

Brittani: I ATE FOR COMFORT
WHEN I WAS A KID,

BUT I'M NOT THAT KID ANYMORE.

I'M NOT LONGER POWERLESS
WHEN I DON'T FEEL SAFE.

I KNOW IT'S TIME
THAT I LEARN TO COPE.

OKAY.

AFTER TALKING
WITH THE THERAPIST,

I DECIDED
TO WORK ON SOME THINGS.

IT HASN'T BEEN EASY,

BUT I'VE BEEN MAKING SOME
PROGRESS.

I'M NOT LETTING
MY FEAR OF FEELING UNSAFE

CONTROL ME LIKE IT DID.

I STILL HAVE
A LOT OF PROGRESS TO MAKE,

BUT I'M FINDING
MY MOTIVATION AGAIN.

PRODUCE.

I'M PUSHING MYSELF TO DO MORE.

I HAVEN'T WALKED
THROUGH A GROCERY STORE

IN, LIKE, FIVE YEARS.

SO, THIS IS A REALLY BIG DEAL.

IF I MAKE IT THROUGH
WITHOUT THE MOTORIZED CART,

IT WILL BE AMAZING.

I'M LEARNING TO HAVE A DIFFERENT
RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD.

HUH?

OH, NEVER MIND.
THERE'S A WHOLE BUNCH OF CARBS.

OH.

Brittani: I STILL DON'T LIKE
GOING OUT IN PUBLIC

BECAUSE I'M STILL BIG,

AND PEOPLE STILL LOOK
AND EVERYTHING,

BUT I'M MORE COMFORTABLE NOW.

Bill: BRITTANI'S DOING
BETTER IN PUBLIC

'CAUSE SHE'S MORE FOCUSED
ON GETTING OUT

'CAUSE SHE KNOWS
THAT'S WHAT SHE NEEDS TO DO,

SO I THINK THINGS ARE
DEFINITELY GETTING BETTER.

Brittani:
ARE YOU GONNA GO?

OKAY, THANK YOU.

I'M NO LONGER LIVING IN FEAR.

THESE HAVE BEEN STEPS
IN A GOOD DIRECTION FOR ME.

BUT THE BIGGEST STEP I WANT
TO TAKE IS WITH MY HUSBAND.

I WANT US TO HAVE
A DEEPER RELATIONSHIP,

AND I WANT IT TO BE ONE
WHERE I'M NOT AFRAID.

AND I WANT TO START WORKING
ON HAVING A FAMILY.

Bill: SUCCESS.

Brittani:
YEAH, I CAN'T BELIEVE

I WALKED
THROUGH THE WHOLE THING.

NO CART, NO NOTHING.

Brittani: TODAY, I'M GONNA
GO SHOPPING FOR SOME CLOTHES,

BECAUSE EVERYTHING I OWN IS
PRETTY MUCH FALLING OFF.

I'M REALLY EXCITED RIGHT NOW.

I'M DOING REALLY WELL,
AND I MADE A HUGE LEAP RECENTLY.

I ASKED MY HUSBAND
TO GO OUT ON A DATE WITH ME.

SO, I'M GONNA GO GET
A NEW OUTFIT TO WEAR.

I FEEL LIKE
THIS IS A HUGE STEP

TOWARDS US HAVING
A NORMAL RELATIONSHIP.

I HAVEN'T BEEN
IN A STORE SHOPPING

IN, LIKE, PROBABLY 10 YEARS.

OH, THIS -- ACTUALLY,
I SAW THIS ONLINE.

OKAY, OH,
YOU WENT ONLINE ALREADY?

YEAH.

I LIKE THIS COLOR.

-THANK YOU SO MUCH.
-YOU'RE WELCOME.

I'M STARTING TO FEEL NORMAL.

IT FITS ME.

I HAVEN'T HAD SOMETHING FIT ME
THAT'S THIS CUTE IN A LONG TIME.

I FEEL LIKE
I'M A FEMININE WOMAN.

I'M GONNA TAKE THIS.
-OKAY.

Brittani: AND I'VE NEVER FELT
THIS HAPPY WITH MYSELF.

IT'S AMAZING,
AND I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW.

TONIGHT, I AM GOING
ON A DATE WITH MY HUSBAND.

SO, I'M PRETTY EXCITED.

OKAY.
I'M DONE.

THANK YOU.

Brittani: I HAVEN'T BEEN
OUT TO DINNER

OR ANYTHING NICE IN A LONG TIME.

LIKE, YEARS.

I'M PRETTY EXCITED
TO BE OUT LIKE AN ADULT.

I FEEL LIKE THIS IS
A FRESH START FOR BILL AND ME.

WE'VE NEVER HAD A NORMAL
HUSBAND-AND-WIFE RELATIONSHIP.

AND I FEEL LIKE
I CAN START BEING A WIFE TO HIM.

AND FOR THE FIRST TIME
IN OUR MARRIAGE,

WE CAN START TO GET CLOSER.

LIKE, THAT
GRILLED CHICKEN BREAST

LOOKS REALLY GOOD.

THAT'S WHAT I'M GETTING.

Bill: IT'S BEEN A WHILE
SINCE WE'VE BEEN OUT TO DINNER.

IT'S NICE TO GO OUT
AND DO WHAT WE WANT

AND BE LIKE
A REGULAR MARRIED COUPLE.

-THANK YOU SO MUCH.
-THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

[ BOTH LAUGH ]

-I'M GLAD WE CAME OUT.
-I AM, TOO.

Brittani:
IT FEELS LIKE I'M NORMAL.

IT IS NICE NIGHT, THOUGH.

YEAH, IT'S BEAUTIFUL.

LOOK AT THE HORSEY.
-I SEE THE HORSE.

HI.

OKAY,
LET'S DO THIS.

Brittani: I'M NOT GONNA,
LIKE, BREAK IT, RIGHT?

-NO, NO.
-ARE YOU SURE?

-NO, YOU'RE GOOD.
-OKAY.

[ GRUNTS ]

I CAN'T DO IT, YOU GUYS.

-WHAT'S THE MATTER?
-I CAN'T DO IT.

-OKAY, THEN BACK DOWN.
-I CAN'T.

THAT'S FINE.

EVERYONE'S LOOKING AT ME.

THIS IS REALLY EMBARRASSING
RIGHT NOW.

TAKE THIS, PLEASE.

[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

[ SNIFFLES ]

Brittani: IT'S JUST ANOTHER
HURDLE OF ME BEING HEAVY,

AND I WANT TO QUIT RIGHT NOW
REALLY BAD.

I THOUGHT
I WAS DOING SO WELL.

I WAS REALLY EMBARRASSED
ON MY DATE WITH BILL.

WHEN I COULDN'T GET
UP ON THE CARRIAGE,

I WAS REALLY UPSET.

ONCE I CALMED DOWN,

I THOUGHT ABOUT ALL MY HARD WORK
AND HOW FAR I'VE COME.

SO, I'VE DECIDED, INSTEAD
OF SEEING IT AS A SETBACK,

I'M GONNA TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY
TO WORK HARDER

AND MAKE EVEN MORE PROGRESS.

SO, I GOT A TRAINER,

AND I'M GONNA WORK OUT
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.

Brittani: OKAY, SO,
I JUST STEP ON IT?

Donovan: YEAH,
JUST STEP ON IT, UH-HUH.

OH, GOD.

OKAY.
-THERE YOU GO.

I'VE NEVER BEEN
ON A TREADMILL.

SEE HOW EASY THAT IS?

[ TREADMILL BEEPS ]

Brittani: I'M GONNA DO
EVERYTHING IT TAKES

TO KEEP LOSING WEIGHT
AND MAKING PROGRESS...

AND STOP.
GOOD JOB.

-LORD HAVE MERCY.
-I KNOW. THAT'S RIGHT.

[ LAUGHS ]

...SO THAT WHEN I GO OUT
AGAIN WITH BILL,

THERE WILL BE NOTHING
I CAN'T DO.

GOOD, I LIKE
HOW YOU SQUEEZE AT THE TOP.

I WAS REALLY NERVOUS
ABOUT TODAY IN GENERAL

AND WORKING OUT,
BUT I'M REALLY GLAD I DID IT.

AT MY ABSOLUTE HEAVIEST,

I WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN ABLE
TO DO THIS -- NO WAY, NO HOW.

8, 9, AND 10.
OKAY.

I'M MAKING IT TO MY GOALS,
AND MY BIGGEST GOAL IS

FOR BILL AND I
TO GROW OUR RELATIONSHIP.

AND I WANT
TO HAVE KIDS SOMEDAY.

THAT'S MY DREAM, AND I'M NOT
GONNA GET TO THAT DREAM

UNLESS I KEEP WORKING HARD
TO DO IT.

Brittani: YOU NEVER KNOW HOW
MUCH CHANGE YOU'RE CAPABLE OF

UNTIL YOU'RE LOOKING BACK ON IT.

HI!

THE PAST FEW MONTHS HAVE BEEN
AMAZING.

I HAVE MADE SO MUCH PROGRESS.

I AM DOING SO MUCH MORE,
AND I HAVE SO MUCH MORE ENERGY.

I'M ABLE TO HELP BILL IN
THE MORNINGS MAKING BREAKFAST.

I DO THE LAUNDRY,
AND I CLEAN.

AND IT MAY SOUND REALLY BORING
TO SOMEONE,

BUT IT'S
WHAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED.

Bill: AS BRITTANI'S LOSING
THE WEIGHT,

SHE'S DEFINITELY BACK
TO THE BRITTANI I KNEW

WHEN I FIRST MET HER.

WE'RE ABLE TO DO
MORE AND MORE TOGETHER,

AND THE MORE AND MORE SHE DOES,
THE HAPPIER SHE GETS.

ISN'T IT AWESOME YOU DON'T HAVE
TO DO THIS FOR ME?

Bill: DEFINITELY.

Brittani:
IT'S THE MOST AWESOME THING

THAT I CAN JUST PUT MY SHOES ON
BY MYSELF

AND GO TAKE SHELDON
FOR A LITTLE WALK.

BEFORE I STARTED THIS JOURNEY,

I HAD NEVER LOST A POUND
IN MY LIFE.

I HAVE MY NEXT
DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT IN A MONTH.

I JUST CAN'T WAIT
TO SEE HOW MUCH I'VE LOST.

IT'S BEEN ALMOST A YEAR
SINCE I DECIDED

TO START GETTING HEALTHY
AND TO DO WHAT IT TAKES

TO GET MY LIFE BACK.

I'M REALLY HOPING
THAT I SEE AROUND 380,

'CAUSE I HAVE BEEN WORKING
REALLY HARD.

Brittani:
I'VE HAD MOMENTS OF DOUBT

AND MOMENTS OF FEAR,

BUT I'VE SLOWLY MADE
GOOD PROGRESS,

AND I'M STARTING
TO LET THOSE FEARS GO.

Woman: 375.

375.
THAT'S AWESOME.

THAT'S A LOT OF WEIGHT LOST.
[ LAUGHS ]

I HAVE NOT WEIGHED THAT MUCH

SINCE I WAS
A SENIOR IN HIGH SCHOOL.

EXCITING.

[ Laughing ] YES!

-HELLO.
-HI, DOCTOR.

YOU'RE DOWN
TO 375 POUNDS.

IT'S EXCITING.

THAT'S VERY GOOD.

BRITTANI HAS DONE
EXTREMELY WELL.

I'M VERY PROUD OF HER.

SHE'S WELL ON HER WAY

TO HITTING HER TARGET WEIGHT
NEXT YEAR.

YOU HAVE COME A LONG WAY
FROM BEING ALMOST 600 POUNDS.

YES, I HAVEN'T BEEN THIS WEIGHT
IN A LONG, LONG TIME.

I EXPECT THAT,
IN A YEAR,

YOU'RE GONNA BE
UNDER 200 POUNDS.

THAT'S EXCITING.

-YOU'RE DOING GREAT.
-THANK YOU.

-AND I'LL SEE YOU ALL LATER.
-THANK YOU SO MUCH.

OKAY.

HE'S HAPPY.
I'M HAPPY.

Brittani: I AM SO PROUD
OF MYSELF RIGHT NOW.

I FEEL LIKE I CAN DO ANYTHING.

BILL AND I HAVE GOTTEN
MUCH CLOSER

IN THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS.

OUR RELATIONSHIP IS DEEPER
THAN IT'S EVER BEEN.

I LOVE HOLDING HIS HAND
AND LEANING ON HIM

AND JUST BEING CLOSE WITH HIM.

* *

BEFORE THE WEIGHT LOSS,
WE WEREN'T INTIMATE.

I HAVE TO GET UP
ON MY TIPPY-TOES.

Brittani:
WE ARE INTIMATE NOW,

AND WE'RE GETTING
TO BE MAN AND WIFE

COMPARED TO JUST ROOMMATES.

AND IT'S EXCITING,

AND IT'S KIND OF LIKE
WE'RE NEWLY MARRIED AGAIN.

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

IT'S GOOD.

Brittani:
IT'S BEEN A BIG CHANGE.

IT'S LIKE, "WOW,
THIS IS WHAT A MARRIAGE IS

SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE,"

AND IT'S A DEEPER CONNECTION
THAT WE HAVE NOW.

IT'S NICE BEING OUT WITH YOU.
-IT'S NICE.

[ CHUCKLES ]

BRITTANI'S WEIGHT LOSS HAS
HELPED OUR MARRIAGE BECOME

MORE LIKE A MARRIAGE.

IT MAKES ME HAPPY,
AND THIS IS HOW IT SHOULD BE.

* *

Brittani:
I'M SO MUCH HAPPIER,

AND I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF.

AND I HAVE
SO MUCH MORE CONFIDENCE,

AND I'M LOOKING FORWARD
TO STARTING MY FAMILY WITH BILL.

A YEAR AGO,
I WAS ON MY COUCH,

AWAY FROM THE WORLD,
HIDING, ASHAMED.

TODAY, I'M OUT IN THE WORLD,
PROUD OF WHO I AM.