Original subtitles

Brittani: EVERY SINGLE DAY, I LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR,

AND I'M LIKE, "WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOURSELF?"

Man: MY WEIGHT HAS GIVEN ME A DEATH SENTENCE.

Nikki: THE THING I RELIED ON ALL THESE YEARS IS

WHAT'S KILLING ME.

-AND IT'S BROKEN! -WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?

I DON'T KNOW! I CAN'T GET UP!

DON'T MAKE ME GO, PLEASE. -I'M NOT.

Man: IT'S HARD TO BE A FATHER FROM A CHAIR.

[ GROANS ] THANK YOU, HONEY.

I SEE THAT UNWILLINGNESS.

IF YOU WILL SEE THIS, YOU'LL MAKE CHANGES.

Dr. Nowzaradan: FOOD IS NOT GOING TO BE

A COPING MECHANISM FOR HER ANYMORE.

Brittani: MENTALLY, I FEEL LOST.

I HAD NO IDEA DOING THIS WAS GONNA HAVE

THIS KIND OF EFFECT ON ME.

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CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS

WHEN YOU'VE SPENT SO MUCH OF YOUR LIFE RUNNING

TO SOMETHING THAT'S KILLING YOU,

CHANGING THAT IS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE,

EVEN WHEN YOU REALIZE HOW IT'S GOING TO END

IF YOU DON'T.

I DON'T REMEMBER A TIME WAKING UP

THAT I DIDN'T HURT.

EVERY SINGLE MOLECULE IN MY BODY IS PAINFUL.

TO BE INSIDE OF MY BODY, IT IS PAIN.

IT IS SADNESS.

MOST OF THE TIME, I'M LIKE,

"MAYBE IT WOULD BE BETTER IF I JUST DON'T WAKE UP,"

BECAUSE EVERY SINGLE DAY I LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR,

AND I'M LIKE, "WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOURSELF?"

A HUMAN BODY SHOULD NOT LOOK THE WAY MY BODY LOOKS.

IT IS THE MOST DISGUSTING THING IN THE WORLD.

[ SIGHS ]

[ WALL CLACKS ]

I'M SO BIG, I'M ALMOST TO THE POINT

WHERE I CAN'T EVEN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

IT'S DIFFICULT TO EVEN TRY TO WASH MYSELF.

IT IS THE MOST EXHAUSTING PART OF MY DAY.

AND NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CLEAN MYSELF,

I STILL FEEL LIKE I STINK.

MY HUSBAND DOESN'T SEE ME UNDRESS MOST OF THE TIME.

I DON'T WALK AROUND NAKED BECAUSE I'M AFRAID

THAT HE WILL BE ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTED IF HE SEES ME

AND THAT HE WILL NEVER LOOK AT ME THE SAME WAY AGAIN.

SO I HIDE, AND I DO NOTHING ALL DAY.

I PROBABLY SPEND A GOOD SIX TO EIGHT HOURS ON MY COUCH

EVERY SINGLE DAY.

THE ONLY TIME I DO GET UP IS TO GET FOOD.

I THINK ABOUT FOOD NONSTOP

FROM THE MOMENT I WAKE UP TILL THE MOMENT I GO TO BED.

AND I KNOW THAT'S NOT NORMAL.

BUT I CAN'T REMEMBER A TIME

WHEN FOOD WASN'T THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME.

NOT MANY PEOPLE CAN PINPOINT WHEN THEIR LIFE CHANGED,

BUT I CAN TELL YOU MY LIFE CHANGED

WHEN I WAS 5 YEARS OLD.

I WAS MOLESTED BY A FAMILY MEMBER,

AND MY ABUSE WENT ON FOR SIX YEARS.

IT STILL FEELS LIKE IT HAPPENED YESTERDAY.

IT MADE ME SO CONFUSED ABOUT LIFE.

IF THAT'S WHAT LOVE IS, THEN JUST KEEP IT AWAY FROM ME.

I DIDN'T WANT LOVE, AND I BUILT A WALL.

THE ONLY THING I FOUND ANY TYPE OF HAPPINESS IN WAS

WHEN I COULD GO AND EAT MY FOOD.

AND NO ONE IN MY FAMILY KNEW.

WHEN BRITTANI WAS IN HER YOUNGER YEARS,

I JUST TOOK IT AS SHE WAS A CHUBBY LITTLE GIRL

AND DIDN'T THINK MUCH ABOUT IT.

I DIDN'T CARE. SHE JUST NEEDED TO BE HAPPY.

Brittani: AT DINNERTIMES, I WOULD EAT MY FOOD SO FAST

'CAUSE I JUST NEEDED IT IN ME.

ALL I WANTED WAS FOOD.

I WAS SO ALONE AND SCARED.

I DIDN'T WANT PEOPLE TO SEE HOW VULNERABLE I WAS,

SO I PUT ON MY HAPPY SMILE.

AND I KEPT THAT PAIN AND NEVER LET IT OUT,

AND IT'S NEVER GONE AWAY.

I JUST KEPT EATING,

AND BY THE TIME I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL,

I WEIGHED 400 POUNDS.

BUT AFTER I GRADUATED, THINGS GOT BETTER

BECAUSE I MET MY HUSBAND, BILL.

I HAD NEVER HAD A SERIOUS BOYFRIEND,

BUT HE LIKED BIG WOMEN AND THOUGHT I WAS BEAUTIFUL.

Bill: WHEN I FIRST MET HER, TO ME,

BRITTANI SEEMED JUST HAPPY.

HER PERSONALITY WAS BUBBLY,

AND I WANTED TO JOIN THE BUBBLE, I GUESS.

Brittani: SO, WE GOT MARRIED,

AND IT'S BEEN ME AND BILL AGAINST EVERYTHING SINCE THEN.

I NEEDED SOMEONE TO TELL ME THAT I'M OKAY,

AND THAT NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE IN MY LIFE.

BUT I'VE WONDERED IF I'VE BEEN A DISAPPOINTMENT TO HIM.

I WAS 400 POUNDS WHEN WE MET,

BUT I JUST KEPT EATING AND GETTING BIGGER.

AND NOW I RARELY GO OUT AND DO ANYTHING

BECAUSE IT STRESSES ME OUT JUST TO HAVE TO MANEUVER THIS BODY

AROUND THE WORLD.

Bill: WHEN I FIRST MET HER, SHE WAS WORKING EVERY DAY.

WE'D GO OUT.

YOU KNOW, WE'D GO TO DINNER, OR WE'D GO TO THE MOVIES.

WE WERE JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE.

CAN I HAVE A HAND?

NOW SHE ALMOST CAN'T DO ANYTHING ON HER OWN.

THANK YOU.

SHE NEEDS MORE HELP THAN I CAN GIVE HER.

AND I CAN'T MAKE IT BETTER.

I CAN'T FIX IT.

Bill: YOU GOT IT?

Brittani: THE ONLY TIME I EVER TRY TO GO OUT IS

TO SHOP FOR GROCERIES.

I KNOW, BUT I WANT TO MAKE SURE I GET WHAT I WANT.

Brittani: GOING SHOPPING SUCKS ON SO MANY LEVELS.

Brittani: LET'S JUST HURRY AND GET THIS OVER WITH.

Bill: I'VE GOT YOU.

Brittani: IT HURTS.

I HAVE TO RIDE THE LITTLE CARTS.

AND I FEEL LIKE

THE BIGGEST PERSON IN THE WHOLE WORLD,

AND I FEEL LIKE ALL EYES ARE ON ME.

SORRY. I'M SO SORRY.

I WANT TO MAKE BRITTANI HAPPY ANY WAY I CAN.

CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM OR THE -- THE CHOCOLATE ONE.

Bill: I AM A FULL-ON ENABLER,

AND I AM VERY AWARE I'M AN ENABLER.

YEAH.

OKAY. ARE WE DONE?

ACTUALLY, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO PARK HERE FOR A MINUTE.

WHY?

I'VE GOT TO GET THE MAC AND CHEESE.

OH [BLEEP]

HOW MANY?

[ SIGHS ] THREE, PLEASE.

THREE? I'LL BE RIGHT BACK.

Bill: I JUST HAD TO GET HER AND THE FOOD HOME AS FAST AS I CAN

BECAUSE SHE'S VERY SELF-AWARE THE WAY PEOPLE ARE LOOKING

AND WHAT PEOPLE SAY.

EVERY SINGLE PERSON WALKS BY ME AND IS LOOKING ME UP AND DOWN

LIKE I'M NOT A PERSON,

LIKE I DON'T HAVE ANY RIGHT TO BE HERE.

I'M A PERSON.

AND THEN, THE PATHETIC LITTLE SMILES THAT THEY DO AT ME

IS JUST ENOUGH TO MAKE ME NOT EVER WANT

TO COME OUT OF MY HOUSE AGAIN.

Bill: THE COMBINATION OF THE PAIN OF ACTUALLY MOVING

AND THEN THE ANXIETY WHICH CAUSES PAIN...

OW!

Bill: ...IT GETS TO A POINT WHERE SHE CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.

SO WHEN THAT HAPPENS,

THE ONLY THING THAT HELPS HER FEEL BETTER IS EATING.

Brittani: WHEN I'M EATING FOOD,

EVERYTHING'S OKAY FOR THAT ONE MOMENT.

NOTHING ELSE MATTERS. I'M NOT THINKING ABOUT THE PAST.

IT'S BLISS.

AND SO I'M CONSTANTLY TRYING

TO FIND THAT MOMENT WHERE I'M OKAY.

Bill: BRITTANI ALONE COULD EAT AS MUCH FOOD

AS A NORMAL FAMILY OF FOUR WOULD ORDER.

ARE THESE MY WINGS? THAT'S YOUR WINGS.

Brittani: I WILL EAT UNTIL I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA THROW UP,

AND THEN THAT DOESN'T EVEN STOP ME.

AND WHEN I'M DONE, I THINK I AM THE MOST NASTIEST,

MOST DISGUSTING PERSON IN THE WORLD.

AND THEN I NEED TO EAT MORE TO MAKE ME FEEL HAPPY,

AND IT'S JUST A VICIOUS CYCLE.

Bill: SHE ALWAYS WANTS TO EAT, AND I CAN'T TELL HER NO.

NOW BRITTANI'S SIZE IS PREVENTING US

FROM DOING EVERYTHING WE WANT TO DO.

I'M MISSING OUT ON TAKING MY WIFE OUT FOR DINNER,

TAKING MY WIFE ON A DATE.

OUR DATE NIGHTS ARE IN-HOUSE.

Brittani: ME AND MY HUSBAND LIVE VERY SEPARATE, DIFFERENT LIVES.

I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO BE AFFECTIONATE WITH HIM.

WE'RE INTIMATE IN WAYS THAT WE CAN BE,

BUT ACTUAL, PHYSICAL INTERCOURSE,

WE'VE NEVER HAD.

Bill: AS A MARRIED MAN,

I DO WISH THERE WAS MORE INTIMACY,

BUT THAT'S AN IMPOSSIBILITY.

Brittani: ALL I'VE EVER WANTED TO BE IS

A HOUSEWIFE AND A MOMMY,

AND WITH ME BEING THIS SIZE, IT'S PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE.

[BLEEP]

Bill: FOR HAVING CHILDREN, TIME IS RUNNING SHORT.

THE WAY BRITTANI'S BODY AND JOINTS ARE DETERIORATING,

SHE IS GETTING TO THE POINT

WHERE SHE'S PRETTY MUCH HOUSEBOUND.

THE NEXT PROGRESSION IS BEDBOUND,

WHERE SHE'S UNABLE TO TAKE CARE OF HERSELF AT ALL.

IN THE MORNINGS, WHEN I GET UP TO GO

AND SHE'S STILL ASLEEP, I ACTUALLY FIND MYSELF STOPPING

TO MAKE SURE SHE'S STILL BREATHING.

GOOD NIGHT. GOOD NIGHT.

Bill: I LIVE WITH THAT FEAR EVERY DAY.

THIS BODY THAT I'M IN IS

BECAUSE OF THAT LITTLE GIRL SCREAMING INSIDE SAYING,

"NO ONE PROTECTED YOU,

AND SO YOU HAVE TO PROTECT YOURSELF,"

BUT BY PROTECTING MYSELF, I'M KILLING MYSELF.

AND I WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING MY WALL TO COME DOWN.

Bill: SO, WE GOT EVERYTHING?

YEAH, I THINK SO.

Brittani: I'M BEYOND DESPERATE.

I'M, LIKE, SCRAPING THE BOTTOM OF THE BARREL RIGHT NOW.

AND I KNOW THAT IF I DON'T DO THIS,

THERE WON'T BE ANYTHING LEFT OF ME.

ANYTIME I WALK OUT MY FRONT DOOR,

IT FEELS LIKE THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE.

BUT I'M WILLING TO PUT MYSELF OUT THERE

TO GET THE HELP THAT I NEED.

Bill: THIS JOURNEY IS THE BIGGEST RISK WE'VE EVER TAKEN,

AND I'M AFRAID THIS IS THE LAST OPTION.

THERE'S NO OTHER OPTIONS FOR HER.

Brittani: I AM STEPPING WAY OUTSIDE OF MY COMFORT BUBBLE

BECAUSE I NEED HELP.

IT'S BEEN YEARS SINCE I'VE BEEN OUT LIKE THIS,

AND I'M SCARED.

BUT IF I DO NOT CHANGE, I WILL DIE.

Brittani: IT'S BEEN A LONG TRIP TO HOUSTON,

BUT WE'RE FINALLY HERE,

AND I'M ABOUT TO SEE THE DOCTOR FOR THE FIRST TIME.

I REALLY HOPE THAT HE SAYS

I CAN BE A CANDIDATE FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

MS. FULFER?

I WANT THIS MORE THAN I'VE EVER WANTED ANYTHING IN MY LIFE.

SO, I'M NERVOUS TO FIND OUT WHAT MY WEIGHT IS

BECAUSE I HAVE NOT BEEN WEIGHED IN A LONG TIME.

I DIDN'T REALIZE I HAD LET MYSELF GO THAT BAD.

I'VE NEVER WEIGHED THAT MUCH BEFORE EVER.

I FEEL LIKE A COMPLETE AND UTTER FAILURE RIGHT NOW.

I'M JUST SO DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF.

-HELLO. -HI.

I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.

IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU.

AND YOU'RE BRITTANI, HUH? YEAH, BRITTANI.

SO, YOU'RE OVER 600 POUNDS.

MM-HMM.

WHAT DO YOU THINK GOT YOU TO THIS WEIGHT?

EMOTIONAL EATING IN GENERAL.

STRESS, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, BUT I ALSO EAT

WHEN I'M HAPPY AND WHEN THINGS ARE GOING GOOD.

I JUST EAT.

BRITTANI CLEARLY IS A COMPULSIVE EATER.

THIS TYPE OF BEHAVIOR IS USUALLY THE RESULT OF EMOTIONAL TRAUMA.

WHEN AN ENABLER IS INVOLVED,

IT IS ONE OF THE MOST DIFFICULT DYNAMICS TO BREAK.

SO, YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT, AND HE'S OVERWEIGHT.

-YEAH. -YEAH.

IT'S GONNA BE VERY HARD TO CHANGE IT

UNLESS WE CHANGE THE WHOLE DYNAMIC OF THE HOUSEHOLD.

LET ME JUST LISTEN TO YOUR HEART.

DO YOU GET SHORT OF BREATH WITH ACTIVITY?

YEAH, JUST FROM WALKING FROM THE WAITING ROOM

TO THE SCALE EVEN, I WAS, LIKE...

-HUFFING AND PUFFING. -MM-HMM.

YOU'RE EATING YOURSELF TO DEATH,

AND YOU'RE HELPING HER TO DO IT.

THIS IS GOING TO BE VERY DIFFICULT FOR THEM BOTH.

BUT I HAVE TO SEE IF BRITTANI HAS THE ABILITY

TO GET CONTROL OF HER COMPULSIVE-EATING HABIT.

IF SHE DOESN'T, SURGERY IS NOT GOING TO HELP.

AT THIS POINT, YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE A CANDIDATE

FOR ANY KIND OF SURGERY.

BUT YOU CAN GET TO THAT POINT

BY LOSING SOME WEIGHT AND CHANGING YOUR EATING HABITS.

SO, FREQUENCY OF EATING HAS TO BE ONLY THREE TIMES A DAY.

NO -- NO SNACKS?

LIKE, NOT EVEN CARROTS OR NOTHING?

NO SNACKS. NO.

OKAY.

OKAY.

IF YOU CHANGE YOUR HABIT,

YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 40 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH.

-OKAY. -THIS IS GONNA BE SOMETHING

THAT YOU'RE BOTH GONNA HAVE TO WORK ON.

I CAN DO THAT.

THE TIME TO DO THIS IS NOW.

OKAY.

I AM DEFINITELY DISAPPOINTED

TO HEAR THAT I'M NOT A CANDIDATE.

BUT I KNOW THAT I HAVE TO CHANGE

AS SOON AS I WALK OUT OF THIS OFFICE.

I HONESTLY HAVE NO IDEA HOW I'M GONNA CONTROL MY ANXIETY.

IT'S GONNA BE THE MOST DIFFICULT THING I'VE EVER DONE.

BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS NO MATTER WHAT.

[ TRAIN BELL DINGING ]

Brittani: CAN YOU COME EAT BREAKFAST?

Brittani: SINCE MY VISIT WITH DR. NOW,

I'VE BEEN REALLY STRICT ON MY DIET,

LITERALLY WRITING EVERY SINGLE THING DOWN THAT I EAT.

Bill: THE DOCTOR WANTS US TO EAT PROTEIN.

WE'RE EATING PROTEIN.

AND MY HUSBAND'S BEEN DOING IT WITH ME, AS WELL,

SO TEAMWORK MAKES IT BETTER.

I'VE NEVER, EVER LOST WEIGHT IN MY LIFE,

SO TO TRY TO LOSE 40 POUNDS SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE.

IT'S BEEN HARD, BUT HOPEFULLY IT WILL PAY OFF.

I WANT THIS CHANCE TO LIVE, AND I KNOW THAT.

THE DOCTOR CAN'T TREAT ME IF I'M NOT CLOSE BY,

SO WE'RE MOVING TO HOUSTON.

I KNOW I MIGHT NOT GET THE SURGERY,

BUT THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE, SO I'M GOING ALL-IN.

I AM LEAVING EVERYTHING I KNOW TO SAVE MY LIFE.

LET'S GO.

I'M SCARED BECAUSE I'M LEAVING MY HOME.

ALL MY FAMILY IS HERE. MY FRIENDS ARE HERE.

BUT THIS MOVE IS NOT JUST ABOUT ME.

THIS MOVE IS ABOUT ME AND MY HUSBAND AND OUR MARRIAGE.

I DON'T WANT TO BE SOMEONE WHO'S TAKEN CARE OF.

I WANT TO BE THE WIFE THAT HE DESERVES.

Bill: YOU READY TO DO THIS?

Brittani: YES.

Brittani: I'VE NEVER BEEN ON A ROAD TRIP LIKE THIS,

AND I'M SCARED I MIGHT NOT MAKE THE JOURNEY.

Brittani: FROM TUALATIN TO HOUSTON

WILL TAKE US SIX DAYS,

AND I'VE NEVER DRIVEN MORE THAN THREE HOURS IN A CAR

AT THIS WEIGHT.

SO THIS IS PRETTY TERRIFYING.

Brittani: BUT I KNOW THERE'S A WHOLE WORLD OUT THERE

FOR ME TO SEE.

Brittani: [ GASPS ] OH, MY GOODNESS!

THAT'S HUGE!

Brittani: IF IT'S NOT ON TV OR IN A GROCERY STORE,

I'VE BEEN MISSING IT.

I WANT TO GET MY LIFE BACK,

AND I'M WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES.

Bill: MUSHROOM CHICKEN WITH VEGGIES.

SO FAR, ON THIS TRIP,

I'M STICKING TO HIGH PROTEIN LOW CARBS.

A COUPLE MONTHS AGO, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN

BREADED CHICKEN AND THREE TIMES AS MUCH FOOD

AND A SUGARY SODA.

I'VE WASTED SO MUCH TIME.

I'M READY FOR A CHANGE.

IT'S BEEN SIX DAYS SINCE WE LEFT HOME,

AND WE'RE FINALLY HERE.

Bill: WE MADE IT.

YOU READY?

I DON'T KNOW. I KIND OF GOT SAD ALL OF A SUDDEN.

-WHY? -'CAUSE IT'S NOT HOME.

[ SIGHS ]

Brittani: I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS FAR AWAY FROM HOME.

I'M ANXIOUS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE THIS PLACE IS SO NEW.

[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

WELL, WHAT DO YOU THINK?

IT'S KIND OF SINKING IN, AND I DON'T LIKE IT.

Bill: BRITTANI IS MISSING HOME,

AND SHE'S PROBABLY ANXIOUS AND SCARED ABOUT WHAT'S TO COME,

SO I WANT TO GET THIS PLACE SET UP

AS QUICKLY AS I CAN SO BRITTANI CAN BE COMFORTABLE.

BECAUSE SHE CAN'T GIVE UP AND WANT TO GO BACK.

WE NEED TO BE HERE AND DO THIS.

Brittani: IT'S JUST HARD. AND IT IS SCARY.

BUT I KNOW THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO DO.

THE THING THAT SCARES ME THE ABSOLUTE MOST IS

THAT DR. NOW IS GONNA SAY NO,

SO THAT I DID THIS WHOLE THING FOR NOTHING.

[ BREATHES DEEPLY ]

MS. FULFER?

I HOPE THE DOCTOR APPROVES ME THIS TIME.

I'VE DONE EVERYTHING I CAN FOR THE PAST MONTH.

I HOPE THAT THIS HAS ALL BEEN ENOUGH,

BECAUSE I NEED THIS SURGERY MORE THAN ANYTHING.

I NEED THE SURGERY TO LIVE.

Brittani: I'M SO ANXIOUS RIGHT NOW.

I HAVE TO HAVE LOST THE 40 POUNDS

THE DOCTOR NEEDED ME TO TO GET APPROVED.

EVERYTHING I'VE DONE HAS TO HAVE BEEN ENOUGH.

Woman: OKAY, 570.

I'M A LITTLE DISCOURAGED RIGHT NOW.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT'S QUITE THE VICTORY I WANTED,

AND I'M SCARED THE DOCTOR'S GONNA TELL ME

THAT THIS ISN'T ENOUGH.

[ SIGHS ] [ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

-HELLO. -HI.

SO, HOW YOU DOING TODAY?

I AM OKAY -- TIRED. LONG ROAD TRIP FROM OREGON.

-AND YOU'RE STAYING? -YEAH, WE MOVED HERE.

-OH, SUPER, SUPER. -YEAH.

HOW IS YOUR DIET DOING?

I'VE DONE REALLY WELL, STAYED WITHIN 1,200 CALORIES,

VERY LITTLE CARBS.

SO, I THINK I'VE DONE REALLY WELL.

SO, THE DIET IS WORKING FOR YOU.

SO, AM I ON THE RIGHT PATH?

AM I DOING -- I'M DOING OKAY?

-YEAH, YOU'RE DOING GOOD. -REALLY?

YOU UNDERSTAND THE PROCESS, AND YOU WERE ABLE

TO MAKE CHANGES TO YOUR EATING HABITS,

SO YOU'RE A GOOD CANDIDATE FOR SURGERY.

-THANK YOU. -OKAY?

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Dr. Nowzaradan: BRITTANI HAS DONE VERY WELL.

SHE'S LOST 35 POUNDS.

IT'S NOT QUITE 40 POUNDS, BUT SHE SHOWED ME

THAT SHE'S ABLE TO CONTROL HER EATING HABIT.

AND SHE MADE THE MOVE TO HOUSTON,

AND THAT TELLS ME THAT SHE'S VERY SERIOUS

ABOUT BYPASS SURGERY.

CONTINUE TO STICK WITH YOUR DIET.

AND NEXT MONTH, I WANT TO SET YOU UP FOR SURGERY.

WOW. OKAY, WE CAN DO THIS.

-I'LL SEE YOU LATER. -THANK YOU, SIR.

ALL RIGHT, WELCOME TO TEXAS.

-THANK YOU. -[ CHUCKLES ]

SEE? I TOLD YOU NOT TO WORRY.

-I'M A CANDIDATE. -I TOLD YOU.

[ BOTH LAUGH ]

LET'S DO THIS.

Brittani: I'M REALLY EXCITED.

AFTER I SAW MY WEIGHT

AND I SAW THAT I HADN'T HIT THE 40-POUND LOSS,

I THOUGHT THAT WAS IT.

THIS IS PRETTY MUCH A DREAM COME TRUE.

I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE IN PAIN.

THEY'RE GONNA FIX YOU UP REALLY GOOD, OKAY?

-OKAY, MOM. -ALL RIGHT.

ALL RIGHT, LOVE YOU. -LOVE YOU, TOO.

I'M SUPER-NERVOUS, BUT MY MOMMY AND BILL ARE HERE,

AND HAVING THEM HERE HELPS A LOT.

WAITING FOR DR. NOW.

Brittani: I'M VERY SCARED OF THE RISKS OF SURGERY.

BUT THIS IS GOING TO GIVE ME A LIFE

OF BEING ABLE TO DO EVERYTHING I'VE EVER WANTED.

Bill: BRITTANI IS EVERYTHING TO ME,

SO IF SOMETHING DOES GO WRONG, IT WOULD BE DEVASTATING.

BUT THIS IS THE FIRST STEP IN A LONG JOURNEY

OF WEIGHT LOSS AND GETTING HEALTHY.

I'M JUST SCARED I'M NOT GONNA WAKE UP.

ALL I'VE EVER WANTED WAS TO BE A WIFE AND A MOTHER,

AND I'M NOT STOPPING FOR ANYTHING.

Woman: DEEP BREATHS, BRITTANI.

DEEP BREATHS.

Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE'RE GOING TO DO

GASTRIC BYPASS ON BRITTANI.

GASTRIC BYPASS IS THE MOST EFFECTIVE METHOD

OF WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

WE'RE GONNA START MAKING THE INCISION.

BEFORE SURGERY, THE PATIENT'S STOMACH CAN BE

AS BIG AS A FOOTBALL.

WE'RE GONNA REDUCE IT TO THE SIZE OF A TENNIS BALL.

THIS WILL LIMIT

THE AMOUNT OF FOOD THEY CAN EAT IN ONE SITTING.

Dr. Nowzaradan: PULL BACK ON THE CAMERA MORE.

THE RESULT IS THE PATIENT EATS LESS,

ABSORBS LESS, AND LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT.

Dr. Nowzaradan: COME ON DOWN. COME ON DOWN.

Bill: I'M WONDERING, AS SHE'S GOING THROUGH THE SURGERY,

HOW IT'S GOING.

THERE'S ALWAYS, IN THE BACK OF YOUR MIND,

THAT SOMETHING COULD GO WRONG

JUST 'CAUSE ANYTHING COULD HAPPEN.

ALL RIGHT. WE'RE DONE.

Dr. Nowzaradan: BRITTANI'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL.

WE WERE ABLE TO DO HER GASTRIC BYPASS,

AND SHE'S DOING FINE.

ALL THE WAY OVER. ALL THE WAY OVER.

THERE WE GO.

OKAY, SLOW, DEEP BREATHS, BRITTANI, OKAY?

THIS SURGERY IS GONNA HELP HER TO MAKE MUCH MORE PROGRESS.

BUT IN THE END, IT'S ONLY A TOOL.

BECAUSE OF THE SURGERY, FOOD IS NOT GOING TO BE

A COPING MECHANISM FOR HER ANYMORE.

SHE CAN CHOOSE TO MAKE IT ONE AGAIN

OR TAKE THIS CHANCE TO ACTUALLY COPE

WITH WHAT IS DRIVING HER TO EAT.

WE'RE GIVING HER AN OPPORTUNITY WITH THIS SURGERY.

WHAT SHE DOES WITH IT IS UP TO HER.

ARE YOU READY TO WALK?

-IF I HAVE TO. -YES, MA'AM.

Brittani: THE PAST FEW DAYS HAVE BEEN REALLY HARD.

I'M STRUGGLING WITH STAYING MOTIVATED.

WHEN I WOKE UP FROM SURGERY,

I WOKE UP TO A WHOLE NEW REALITY.

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I DIDN'T HAVE CRAVINGS.

I DIDN'T REALIZE

HOW MUCH I WAS USING FOOD TO HELP ME FEEL SAFE.

AND JUST THE FACT

THAT I KNEW IT WAS THERE WHEN I NEEDED IT WAS COMFORT.

OH, S-S-SHH...

-ARE YOU HURTING? -MM-HMM.

NOW IT'S NOT, AND I HAD NO IDEA THAT DOING THIS WAS GONNA HAVE

THIS KIND OF EFFECT ON ME.

I HAVE TO KEEP TELLING MYSELF IT WILL BE OKAY,

BECAUSE IF NOT, THEN I'LL FREAK OUT.

MY FOOD WAS MY BEST FRIEND.

I TURNED TO IT WHEN I WAS HAPPY. I TURNED TO IT WHEN I WAS SAD.

I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME,

SO IT IS A GRIEVING PROCESS.

MY WHOLE WORLD HAS BEEN TURNED UPSIDE-DOWN,

AND I'M NOT SURE HOW TO DEAL WITH IT.

Brittani: THERE COMES A MOMENT WHEN YOU HAVE TO TRUST

WHAT YOU KNOW IS TRUE

OR BELIEVE THE LIE THAT WILL EVENTUALLY KILL YOU.

MOMMY, ARE YOU READY FOR LUNCH?

Stacy: WAY READY.

MOVE, BABY BOY.

Brittani: I'VE BEEN HOME FROM SURGERY FOR OVER A MONTH NOW,

AND EACH DAY HAS SEEMED HARDER AND HARDER.

EVERYTHING IS SO DIFFERENT NOW.

MENTALLY, I FEEL LOST AND CONFUSED AND REALLY UNSURE.

BUT THE DRAW I HAD TO FOOD

AND THE COMFORT IT BROUGHT ME IS GONE.

SO I DON'T REALLY ENJOY EATING, WHICH MAKES ME SAD.

AND IT'S HARD TO FORCE MYSELF TO EAT.

BRITTANI HAS BEEN EXPERIENCING LACK OF APPETITE IN GENERAL,

SO IT'S BEEN REALLY A CHALLENGE TO GET HER TO CONSUME

WHAT SHE SHOULD IN A DAY.

IT LOOKS GOOD.

COME ON, SHELDON.

I NEED A PIECE OF BACON.

WELL, WE CAN'T HAVE BACON.

Brittani: BEFORE, I COULD EAT ANYTHING I WANTED.

NOW IT JUST ISN'T FUN TO EAT.

IT DOESN'T BRING ME ANY PLEASURE,

SO EVERYTHING REALLY TASTES DISGUSTING,

AND I DON'T WANT TO EAT IF IT'S DISGUSTING.

I'M HUNGRY.

Stacy: BRITTANI'S BEEN HAVING ANXIETY

ABOUT IF SHE MADE A MISTAKE OR NOT.

I REALIZED THAT THERE WOULD BE SOME REALLY, REALLY ROUGH TIMES

FOR BRITTANI'S RECOVERY,

BUT TO WATCH HER STRUGGLE WITH IT SO WORRIES ME.

I KNOW.

HERE, SHELDON.

I'M DONE. [ SNIFFLES ]

Brittani: IF THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO LIVE,

I'M NOT SURE IT'S WORTH IT.

MY MOM'S BEEN REALLY WORRIED ABOUT ME

THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS,

SO SHE CONVINCED ME TO GO SEE A THERAPIST TO TALK ABOUT THINGS.

I'M STILL NOT EATING MUCH AND STILL REALLY DON'T WANT TO.

AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

-HI, BRITTANI. -HI.

COME ON BACK.

SO, BRITTANI, WHY DON'T YOU JUST START

WITH WHAT YOU'D LIKE TO TALK ABOUT THE MOST TODAY?

Brittani: I JUST HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY,

AND FOOD IS MY COMFORT,

AND I'VE ALWAYS JUST TURNED TO IT.

-RIGHT. -AND NOW IT'S GONE,

AND I'M JUST LIKE, "WHAT DID I GET MYSELF INTO?"

IS IT JUST ABOUT FOOD?

I WENT THROUGH SEXUAL ABUSE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER.

AND I DIDN'T FEEL SAFE, AND SO FOOD MADE ME SAFE.

RIGHT.

BECAUSE AT THAT TIME THAT I WAS EATING,

I WAS LIKE, "LIFE IS OKAY RIGHT NOW.

LIFE IS OKAY RIGHT NOW."

-YOU NEEDED IT. -I DID, YEAH.

YOU NEEDED SOMETHING TO HELP YOU TO SURVIVE.

IT SEEMS WEIRD TO ME THAT SOMETHING 28 YEARS AGO

CAN STILL AFFECT ME TILL THIS DAY.

IT'S TRAUMA.

SOMETIMES, IT'S JUST KIND OF HARD

TO JUST SORT OF ACKNOWLEDGE THE PAIN

THAT YOU REALLY HAVE EXPERIENCED.

I WANT TO BE THE PERSON WHO'S ABLE TO COPE WITH THINGS

AND JUST NOT FEAR THE WORST OF EVERYTHING.

PART OF THAT IS RECOGNIZING THAT THAT FEAR --

THAT'S A SYMPTOM OF TRAUMA.

YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM IS ACTUALLY STRESSED, RIGHT?

-MM-HMM. -AND FOOD CALMS

YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM.

SO, IT'S NOT ACTUALLY SILLY. IT MAKES A LOT OF SENSE.

-OKAY. -'CAUSE IT'S VERY EFFECTIVE.

THEN, LIKE, I GET THAT GUILT OF, "WHY DID YOU DO THAT?"

-THEN, YOU HAVE SHAME, RIGHT? -YEAH.

SO, IT'S NO LONGER EFFECTIVE.

WHEN YOU WERE 5, YOU NEEDED A COPING STRATEGY TO SURVIVE,

AND NOW IT'S BECOME A SOURCE OF A SHAME.

IT'S BECOME A SOURCE OF PUNISHMENT.

MM-HMM.

AND IT'S KEPT YOU BOTTLED UP INSIDE,

AND IT'S TIME FOR YOU TO COME OUT.

YES.

AND THAT MEANS FINDING NEW COPING STRATEGIES,

RIGHT, BESIDES USING FOOD

BECAUSE WHAT YOU'RE EXPERIENCING,

THE ANXIETY THAT YOU'RE DESCRIBING,

YOU'RE GOING BACK TO THE PAST, RIGHT?

"I'M NOT SAFE. I'M NOT SAFE."

BUT YOU'RE RIGHT HERE, AND RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE SAFE.

-YES. -RIGHT?

SO, WHEN YOU CAN FIND THAT GROUNDING,

THAT'S PROBABLY THE MOST IMPORTANT SKILL

THAT YOU CAN USE FOR RIGHT NOW.

THIS IS SOMETHING YOU CAN DO INSTEAD OF TURNING TO FOOD.

YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY.

-THANK YOU. THANK YOU. -MM-HMM.

Brittani: I ATE FOR COMFORT WHEN I WAS A KID,

BUT I'M NOT THAT KID ANYMORE.

I'M NOT LONGER POWERLESS WHEN I DON'T FEEL SAFE.

I KNOW IT'S TIME THAT I LEARN TO COPE.

OKAY.

AFTER TALKING WITH THE THERAPIST,

I DECIDED TO WORK ON SOME THINGS.

IT HASN'T BEEN EASY,

BUT I'VE BEEN MAKING SOME PROGRESS.

I'M NOT LETTING MY FEAR OF FEELING UNSAFE

CONTROL ME LIKE IT DID.

I STILL HAVE A LOT OF PROGRESS TO MAKE,

BUT I'M FINDING MY MOTIVATION AGAIN.

PRODUCE.

I'M PUSHING MYSELF TO DO MORE.

I HAVEN'T WALKED THROUGH A GROCERY STORE

IN, LIKE, FIVE YEARS.

SO, THIS IS A REALLY BIG DEAL.

IF I MAKE IT THROUGH WITHOUT THE MOTORIZED CART,

IT WILL BE AMAZING.

I'M LEARNING TO HAVE A DIFFERENT RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD.

HUH?

OH, NEVER MIND. THERE'S A WHOLE BUNCH OF CARBS.

OH.

Brittani: I STILL DON'T LIKE GOING OUT IN PUBLIC

BECAUSE I'M STILL BIG,

AND PEOPLE STILL LOOK AND EVERYTHING,

BUT I'M MORE COMFORTABLE NOW.

Bill: BRITTANI'S DOING BETTER IN PUBLIC

'CAUSE SHE'S MORE FOCUSED ON GETTING OUT

'CAUSE SHE KNOWS THAT'S WHAT SHE NEEDS TO DO,

SO I THINK THINGS ARE DEFINITELY GETTING BETTER.

Brittani: ARE YOU GONNA GO?

OKAY, THANK YOU.

I'M NO LONGER LIVING IN FEAR.

THESE HAVE BEEN STEPS IN A GOOD DIRECTION FOR ME.

BUT THE BIGGEST STEP I WANT TO TAKE IS WITH MY HUSBAND.

I WANT US TO HAVE A DEEPER RELATIONSHIP,

AND I WANT IT TO BE ONE WHERE I'M NOT AFRAID.

AND I WANT TO START WORKING ON HAVING A FAMILY.

Bill: SUCCESS.

Brittani: YEAH, I CAN'T BELIEVE

I WALKED THROUGH THE WHOLE THING.

NO CART, NO NOTHING.

Brittani: TODAY, I'M GONNA GO SHOPPING FOR SOME CLOTHES,

BECAUSE EVERYTHING I OWN IS PRETTY MUCH FALLING OFF.

I'M REALLY EXCITED RIGHT NOW.

I'M DOING REALLY WELL, AND I MADE A HUGE LEAP RECENTLY.

I ASKED MY HUSBAND TO GO OUT ON A DATE WITH ME.

SO, I'M GONNA GO GET A NEW OUTFIT TO WEAR.

I FEEL LIKE THIS IS A HUGE STEP

TOWARDS US HAVING A NORMAL RELATIONSHIP.

I HAVEN'T BEEN IN A STORE SHOPPING

IN, LIKE, PROBABLY 10 YEARS.

OH, THIS -- ACTUALLY, I SAW THIS ONLINE.

OKAY, OH, YOU WENT ONLINE ALREADY?

YEAH.

I LIKE THIS COLOR.

-THANK YOU SO MUCH. -YOU'RE WELCOME.

I'M STARTING TO FEEL NORMAL.

IT FITS ME.

I HAVEN'T HAD SOMETHING FIT ME THAT'S THIS CUTE IN A LONG TIME.

I FEEL LIKE I'M A FEMININE WOMAN.

I'M GONNA TAKE THIS. -OKAY.

Brittani: AND I'VE NEVER FELT THIS HAPPY WITH MYSELF.

IT'S AMAZING, AND I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW.

TONIGHT, I AM GOING ON A DATE WITH MY HUSBAND.

SO, I'M PRETTY EXCITED.

OKAY. I'M DONE.

THANK YOU.

Brittani: I HAVEN'T BEEN OUT TO DINNER

OR ANYTHING NICE IN A LONG TIME.

LIKE, YEARS.

I'M PRETTY EXCITED TO BE OUT LIKE AN ADULT.

I FEEL LIKE THIS IS A FRESH START FOR BILL AND ME.

WE'VE NEVER HAD A NORMAL HUSBAND-AND-WIFE RELATIONSHIP.

AND I FEEL LIKE I CAN START BEING A WIFE TO HIM.

AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OUR MARRIAGE,

WE CAN START TO GET CLOSER.

LIKE, THAT GRILLED CHICKEN BREAST

LOOKS REALLY GOOD.

THAT'S WHAT I'M GETTING.

Bill: IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE WE'VE BEEN OUT TO DINNER.

IT'S NICE TO GO OUT AND DO WHAT WE WANT

AND BE LIKE A REGULAR MARRIED COUPLE.

-THANK YOU SO MUCH. -THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

[ BOTH LAUGH ]

-I'M GLAD WE CAME OUT. -I AM, TOO.

Brittani: IT FEELS LIKE I'M NORMAL.

IT IS NICE NIGHT, THOUGH.

YEAH, IT'S BEAUTIFUL.

LOOK AT THE HORSEY. -I SEE THE HORSE.

HI.

OKAY, LET'S DO THIS.

Brittani: I'M NOT GONNA, LIKE, BREAK IT, RIGHT?

-NO, NO. -ARE YOU SURE?

-NO, YOU'RE GOOD. -OKAY.

[ GRUNTS ]

I CAN'T DO IT, YOU GUYS.

-WHAT'S THE MATTER? -I CAN'T DO IT.

-OKAY, THEN BACK DOWN. -I CAN'T.

THAT'S FINE.

EVERYONE'S LOOKING AT ME.

THIS IS REALLY EMBARRASSING RIGHT NOW.

TAKE THIS, PLEASE.

[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

[ SNIFFLES ]

Brittani: IT'S JUST ANOTHER HURDLE OF ME BEING HEAVY,

AND I WANT TO QUIT RIGHT NOW REALLY BAD.

I THOUGHT I WAS DOING SO WELL.

I WAS REALLY EMBARRASSED ON MY DATE WITH BILL.

WHEN I COULDN'T GET UP ON THE CARRIAGE,

I WAS REALLY UPSET.

ONCE I CALMED DOWN,

I THOUGHT ABOUT ALL MY HARD WORK AND HOW FAR I'VE COME.

SO, I'VE DECIDED, INSTEAD OF SEEING IT AS A SETBACK,

I'M GONNA TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO WORK HARDER

AND MAKE EVEN MORE PROGRESS.

SO, I GOT A TRAINER,

AND I'M GONNA WORK OUT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.

Brittani: OKAY, SO, I JUST STEP ON IT?

Donovan: YEAH, JUST STEP ON IT, UH-HUH.

OH, GOD.

OKAY. -THERE YOU GO.

I'VE NEVER BEEN ON A TREADMILL.

SEE HOW EASY THAT IS?

[ TREADMILL BEEPS ]

Brittani: I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING IT TAKES

TO KEEP LOSING WEIGHT AND MAKING PROGRESS...

AND STOP. GOOD JOB.

-LORD HAVE MERCY. -I KNOW. THAT'S RIGHT.

[ LAUGHS ]

...SO THAT WHEN I GO OUT AGAIN WITH BILL,

THERE WILL BE NOTHING I CAN'T DO.

GOOD, I LIKE HOW YOU SQUEEZE AT THE TOP.

I WAS REALLY NERVOUS ABOUT TODAY IN GENERAL

AND WORKING OUT, BUT I'M REALLY GLAD I DID IT.

AT MY ABSOLUTE HEAVIEST,

I WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN ABLE TO DO THIS -- NO WAY, NO HOW.

8, 9, AND 10. OKAY.

I'M MAKING IT TO MY GOALS, AND MY BIGGEST GOAL IS

FOR BILL AND I TO GROW OUR RELATIONSHIP.

AND I WANT TO HAVE KIDS SOMEDAY.

THAT'S MY DREAM, AND I'M NOT GONNA GET TO THAT DREAM

UNLESS I KEEP WORKING HARD TO DO IT.

Brittani: YOU NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH CHANGE YOU'RE CAPABLE OF

UNTIL YOU'RE LOOKING BACK ON IT.

HI!

THE PAST FEW MONTHS HAVE BEEN AMAZING.

I HAVE MADE SO MUCH PROGRESS.

I AM DOING SO MUCH MORE, AND I HAVE SO MUCH MORE ENERGY.

I'M ABLE TO HELP BILL IN THE MORNINGS MAKING BREAKFAST.

I DO THE LAUNDRY, AND I CLEAN.

AND IT MAY SOUND REALLY BORING TO SOMEONE,

BUT IT'S WHAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED.

Bill: AS BRITTANI'S LOSING THE WEIGHT,

SHE'S DEFINITELY BACK TO THE BRITTANI I KNEW

WHEN I FIRST MET HER.

WE'RE ABLE TO DO MORE AND MORE TOGETHER,

AND THE MORE AND MORE SHE DOES, THE HAPPIER SHE GETS.

ISN'T IT AWESOME YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS FOR ME?

Bill: DEFINITELY.

Brittani: IT'S THE MOST AWESOME THING

THAT I CAN JUST PUT MY SHOES ON BY MYSELF

AND GO TAKE SHELDON FOR A LITTLE WALK.

BEFORE I STARTED THIS JOURNEY,

I HAD NEVER LOST A POUND IN MY LIFE.

I HAVE MY NEXT DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT IN A MONTH.

I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HOW MUCH I'VE LOST.

IT'S BEEN ALMOST A YEAR SINCE I DECIDED

TO START GETTING HEALTHY AND TO DO WHAT IT TAKES

TO GET MY LIFE BACK.

I'M REALLY HOPING THAT I SEE AROUND 380,

'CAUSE I HAVE BEEN WORKING REALLY HARD.

Brittani: I'VE HAD MOMENTS OF DOUBT

AND MOMENTS OF FEAR,

BUT I'VE SLOWLY MADE GOOD PROGRESS,

AND I'M STARTING TO LET THOSE FEARS GO.

Woman: 375.

375. THAT'S AWESOME.

THAT'S A LOT OF WEIGHT LOST. [ LAUGHS ]

I HAVE NOT WEIGHED THAT MUCH

SINCE I WAS A SENIOR IN HIGH SCHOOL.

EXCITING.

[ Laughing ] YES!

-HELLO. -HI, DOCTOR.

YOU'RE DOWN TO 375 POUNDS.

IT'S EXCITING.

THAT'S VERY GOOD.

BRITTANI HAS DONE EXTREMELY WELL.

I'M VERY PROUD OF HER.

SHE'S WELL ON HER WAY

TO HITTING HER TARGET WEIGHT NEXT YEAR.

YOU HAVE COME A LONG WAY FROM BEING ALMOST 600 POUNDS.

YES, I HAVEN'T BEEN THIS WEIGHT IN A LONG, LONG TIME.

I EXPECT THAT, IN A YEAR,

YOU'RE GONNA BE UNDER 200 POUNDS.

THAT'S EXCITING.

-YOU'RE DOING GREAT. -THANK YOU.

-AND I'LL SEE YOU ALL LATER. -THANK YOU SO MUCH.

OKAY.

HE'S HAPPY. I'M HAPPY.

Brittani: I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF RIGHT NOW.

I FEEL LIKE I CAN DO ANYTHING.

BILL AND I HAVE GOTTEN MUCH CLOSER

IN THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS.

OUR RELATIONSHIP IS DEEPER THAN IT'S EVER BEEN.

I LOVE HOLDING HIS HAND AND LEANING ON HIM

AND JUST BEING CLOSE WITH HIM.

* *

BEFORE THE WEIGHT LOSS, WE WEREN'T INTIMATE.

I HAVE TO GET UP ON MY TIPPY-TOES.

Brittani: WE ARE INTIMATE NOW,

AND WE'RE GETTING TO BE MAN AND WIFE

COMPARED TO JUST ROOMMATES.

AND IT'S EXCITING,

AND IT'S KIND OF LIKE WE'RE NEWLY MARRIED AGAIN.

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

IT'S GOOD.

Brittani: IT'S BEEN A BIG CHANGE.

IT'S LIKE, "WOW, THIS IS WHAT A MARRIAGE IS

SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE,"

AND IT'S A DEEPER CONNECTION THAT WE HAVE NOW.

IT'S NICE BEING OUT WITH YOU. -IT'S NICE.

[ CHUCKLES ]

BRITTANI'S WEIGHT LOSS HAS HELPED OUR MARRIAGE BECOME

MORE LIKE A MARRIAGE.

IT MAKES ME HAPPY, AND THIS IS HOW IT SHOULD BE.

* *

Brittani: I'M SO MUCH HAPPIER,

AND I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF.

AND I HAVE SO MUCH MORE CONFIDENCE,

AND I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO STARTING MY FAMILY WITH BILL.

A YEAR AGO, I WAS ON MY COUCH,

AWAY FROM THE WORLD, HIDING, ASHAMED.

TODAY, I'M OUT IN THE WORLD, PROUD OF WHO I AM.