Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated:
1
00:00:02,933 --> 00:00:05,633
Woman:
I FELT LIKE MISS AMERICA.
2
00:00:05,633 --> 00:00:06,933
I DECIDED, YOU KNOW,
3
00:00:06,933 --> 00:00:09,733
"WHATEVER SIZE I AM,
I'M JUST GONNA BE THIS SIZE."
4
00:00:09,733 --> 00:00:11,133
THE WEIGHT JUST PILED ON,
5
00:00:11,133 --> 00:00:13,100
TO THE POINT WHERE
I'D LOST COUNT.
6
00:00:13,100 --> 00:00:17,400
NOW I'M NOT LIVING A LIFE.
I'M JUST EXISTING.
7
00:00:21,833 --> 00:00:25,200
Woman #2: SOMETIMES
IT FEELS LIKE I'M DEAD,
8
00:00:25,200 --> 00:00:27,333
LIKE THAT I'M NOT ALIVE.
9
00:00:27,333 --> 00:00:29,067
Woman #3: IF I COULD DO IT
WITHOUT THE SURGERY,
10
00:00:29,067 --> 00:00:30,100
I WOULD HAVE DONE IT.
11
00:00:30,100 --> 00:00:32,067
MY WAY DOESN'T WORK.
12
00:00:39,467 --> 00:00:42,700
AND THIS IS A DYNAMIC
THAT WE NEED TO CHANGE NOW.
13
00:00:42,700 --> 00:00:46,100
I'M DONE WITH THIS!
I QUIT! [SOBS] I'M DONE!
14
00:00:50,033 --> 00:00:52,967
OH, IT HURTS.
15
00:00:52,967 --> 00:00:54,867
[ INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS ]
16
00:00:54,867 --> 00:00:56,600
I CAN'T BE THE REASON
YOU LOSE WEIGHT
17
00:00:56,600 --> 00:00:58,400
OR THE REASON YOU GAIN WEIGHT.
PERIOD.
18
00:00:58,400 --> 00:01:01,200
[ Crying ] I WILL MAKE THIS
WORK. I PROMISE.
19
00:01:02,533 --> 00:01:05,200
Zsalynn: I DON'T WANT HIM
TO LOOK LIKE HE DOESN'T CARE,
20
00:01:05,200 --> 00:01:09,500
'CAUSE I KNOW SOMEWHERE INSIDE
OF HIS HEART HE MUST CARE.
21
00:01:11,767 --> 00:01:14,767
-- Captions by VITAC --
www.vitac.com
22
00:01:14,767 --> 00:01:17,800
CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY
DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS
23
00:01:19,100 --> 00:01:20,700
Zsalynn: WHEN YOU REALIZE
24
00:01:20,700 --> 00:01:23,867
THAT YOU HAVE TO MAKE A CHANGE
OR YOU'RE GONNA DIE,
25
00:01:23,867 --> 00:01:25,800
IT'S SURPRISING WHAT YOU LEARN,
26
00:01:25,800 --> 00:01:29,300
NOT JUST ABOUT YOURSELF
BUT ABOUT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU.
27
00:01:49,067 --> 00:01:51,567
I'M MISERABLE.
28
00:01:54,100 --> 00:01:58,833
WHEN YOU'RE NOT JUST FAT
BUT SUPERSIZED,
29
00:01:58,833 --> 00:02:02,300
EVERYTHING IS REALLY HARD.
30
00:02:06,133 --> 00:02:09,433
I'M NOT LIVING A LIFE.
I'M JUST EXISTING.
31
00:02:09,433 --> 00:02:14,200
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
32
00:02:14,200 --> 00:02:18,667
I JUST HATE WAKING UP
AND BEING IN MY SKIN.
33
00:02:21,933 --> 00:02:26,067
[ Voice breaking ]
I REALLY HATE BEING THIS SIZE.
34
00:02:26,067 --> 00:02:30,433
I HAVE BECOME SO IMMOBILE.
35
00:02:30,433 --> 00:02:34,333
I DON'T DO ANYTHING.
36
00:02:34,333 --> 00:02:37,600
MY DAYS ARE FILLED WITH
EATING AND SITTING ON THE COUCH,
37
00:02:37,600 --> 00:02:39,500
EATING, TAKING A NAP.
38
00:02:39,500 --> 00:02:43,667
I PROBABLY WATCH
7 OR 8 HOURS OF TV A DAY.
39
00:02:43,667 --> 00:02:45,867
THIS IS NO LIFE.
40
00:02:45,867 --> 00:02:47,633
[ GRUNTS ]
41
00:02:47,633 --> 00:02:50,800
WHEN I STAND UP,
IT'S REALLY, REALLY PAINFUL.
42
00:02:53,233 --> 00:02:55,633
IT HURTS MY JOINTS --
MY KNEES, MY ANKLES, MY HIPS --
43
00:02:55,633 --> 00:02:57,300
SO MUCH,
44
00:02:57,300 --> 00:03:01,867
I WANT TO JUST SIT
RIGHT BACK DOWN.
45
00:03:01,867 --> 00:03:06,067
THE PAIN'S UNBEARABLE.
46
00:03:06,067 --> 00:03:09,733
IT'S JUST [SIGHS] YOU KNOW --
IT'S HARD.
47
00:03:13,067 --> 00:03:16,933
AS A CHILD, I WAS ALWAYS CHUBBY.
I WAS ALWAYS FAT.
48
00:03:16,933 --> 00:03:19,067
I CAN REMEMBER
GOING THROUGH A CATALOG
49
00:03:19,067 --> 00:03:21,367
AND CIRCLING CLOTHES
THAT I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE
50
00:03:21,367 --> 00:03:22,667
TO GO TO SCHOOL IN,
51
00:03:22,667 --> 00:03:25,833
AND MY MOM WOULD SAY THAT
THOSE AREN'T THE KIND OF CLOTHES
52
00:03:25,833 --> 00:03:27,433
THAT FAT KIDS WEAR TO SCHOOL.
53
00:03:27,433 --> 00:03:28,900
MY MOTHER WOULDN'T ALLOW ME
54
00:03:28,900 --> 00:03:30,933
TO LICK ENVELOPES
OR POSTAGE STAMPS,
55
00:03:30,933 --> 00:03:33,467
'CAUSE SHE THOUGHT
THEY HAD CALORIES.
56
00:03:33,467 --> 00:03:36,067
BEING FAT -- FOR MY MOTHER,
IT JUST WASN'T AN OPTION.
57
00:03:36,067 --> 00:03:39,800
Zane: ZSALYNN WAS A NORMAL
WEIGHT PROBABLY TILL AGE 5.
58
00:03:39,800 --> 00:03:42,333
ELEMENTARY SCHOOL,
FOURTH AND FIFTH GRADE --
59
00:03:42,333 --> 00:03:44,333
THEN IT REALLY STARTED
COMING ON,
60
00:03:44,333 --> 00:03:47,233
AND IT JUST SEEMED LIKE
SHE BALLOONED OVERNIGHT.
61
00:03:47,233 --> 00:03:50,567
AND MOTHER WOULD TELL HER,
"TILL YOU LOSE 10 POUNDS,
62
00:03:50,567 --> 00:03:52,933
YOU'RE NOT GETTING
ANY MORE CLOTHES."
63
00:03:52,933 --> 00:03:56,067
Zsalynn: MY MOTHER
DIDN'T HAVE TIME FOR ME,
64
00:03:56,067 --> 00:03:57,267
SO I FED MYSELF.
65
00:03:57,267 --> 00:04:00,600
FROM FRESHMAN YEAR
TO SENIOR YEAR,
66
00:04:00,600 --> 00:04:05,933
I WENT FROM 170
AND ENDED UP AT ABOUT 375.
67
00:04:07,667 --> 00:04:09,967
THE WEIGHT JUST PILED ON
FROM THERE,
68
00:04:09,967 --> 00:04:12,333
TO THE POINT WHERE
I JUST LOST COUNT.
69
00:04:12,333 --> 00:04:18,533
42 YEARS OLD,
AND I WEIGH 550-PLUS POUNDS,
70
00:04:18,533 --> 00:04:23,067
AND I -- I FEEL NOT TOO GOOD
ABOUT THAT.
71
00:04:23,067 --> 00:04:25,467
I BOUGHT A SCALE
THAT GOES TO 500,
72
00:04:25,467 --> 00:04:28,300
BUT IT --
IT JUST READS "ERROR" NOW.
73
00:04:33,500 --> 00:04:36,667
WHEN I SAW THE SWEET,
SUGARY CEREAL AISLE,
74
00:04:36,667 --> 00:04:40,633
MY CART
JUST AUTOMATICALLY TURNED.
75
00:04:40,633 --> 00:04:43,500
ONE OF THE MAIN REASONS
THAT I'M FAT
76
00:04:43,500 --> 00:04:48,433
IS BECAUSE I HAVE
THIS ADDICTION TO SUGAR.
77
00:04:48,433 --> 00:04:50,300
IT'S MY CRACK COCAINE.
78
00:04:50,300 --> 00:04:53,967
IT'S MY HEROIN.
IT'S MY EVERYTHING.
79
00:04:53,967 --> 00:04:57,667
GET SOME FROSTING
FOR MY BROWNIES.
80
00:04:57,667 --> 00:04:58,933
I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY HAVE
81
00:04:58,933 --> 00:05:01,267
ALL THESE DIFFERENT KINDS
OF BROWNIE MIXES.
82
00:05:05,367 --> 00:05:07,800
[ CASH REGISTER BEEPING ]
83
00:05:13,567 --> 00:05:15,067
MMM.
84
00:05:15,067 --> 00:05:16,133
[ SIGHS ]
85
00:05:16,133 --> 00:05:17,400
* AH *
86
00:05:17,400 --> 00:05:21,667
THERE'S, LIKE, A BIG,
BRIGHT LIGHT SHINING DOWN.
87
00:05:23,167 --> 00:05:25,067
MMM.
88
00:05:26,967 --> 00:05:30,167
[ Chuckling ]
IT'S REALLY, REALLY GOOD.
89
00:05:30,167 --> 00:05:34,667
IT'S SO SUGARY SWEET
AND DELICIOUS,
90
00:05:34,667 --> 00:05:38,200
I JUST WANT TO MAKE LOVE TO THEM
WITH MY MOUTH.
91
00:05:38,200 --> 00:05:41,133
EXACTLY, IT'S LIKE A SEXUAL
THING FOR ME, OBVIOUSLY.
92
00:05:44,667 --> 00:05:46,300
[ SIGHS ]
93
00:05:49,467 --> 00:05:52,733
I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING
IS LITERALLY KILLING ME,
94
00:05:52,733 --> 00:05:54,733
BUT I CAN'T STOP.
95
00:05:54,733 --> 00:05:56,433
FOR THE LONGEST TIME,
96
00:05:56,433 --> 00:05:59,333
I FELT TOTALLY FINE
ABOUT MY WEIGHT.
97
00:05:59,333 --> 00:06:02,700
I WAS ACTUALLY
KIND OF PROUD OF IT.
98
00:06:02,700 --> 00:06:08,467
I GUESS AT ABOUT 19 YEARS OLD,
I FOUND THE ORGANIZATION NAAFA,
99
00:06:08,467 --> 00:06:11,367
THE NATIONAL ASSOCIATION
TO ADVANCE FAT ACCEPTANCE.
100
00:06:11,367 --> 00:06:14,067
AND THAT'S WHEN I DECIDED,
YOU KNOW,
101
00:06:14,067 --> 00:06:16,200
"WHATEVER SIZE I AM,
I'M JUST GONNA BE THIS SIZE.
102
00:06:16,200 --> 00:06:18,067
WHO CARES?"
103
00:06:18,067 --> 00:06:21,367
Bonnie: ZSALYNN AND I MET
AT A NAAFA GATHERING.
104
00:06:21,367 --> 00:06:24,500
[ Chuckling ] I SAW HER
AT THE POOL, WEARING A BIKINI.
105
00:06:24,500 --> 00:06:28,367
SHE WAS THE KIND OF GIRL
THAT HER HAIR WAS ALWAYS DONE,
106
00:06:28,367 --> 00:06:29,900
HER NAILS WERE DONE.
107
00:06:29,900 --> 00:06:32,500
SHE WAS THE FAT-GIRL ROCK STAR.
108
00:06:32,500 --> 00:06:34,533
SHE WAS IMPRESSIVE.
109
00:06:34,533 --> 00:06:37,800
I FOUND THAT APPEALING
IN A FRIEND.
110
00:06:37,800 --> 00:06:41,367
WE'VE STAYED GREAT FRIENDS EVEN
THOUGH I'VE LOST THE WEIGHT.
111
00:06:41,367 --> 00:06:43,167
Zsalynn: WHEN YOU GO TO NAAFA,
112
00:06:43,167 --> 00:06:45,967
YOU MEET LOTS OF MEN
FROM DIFFERENT COUNTRIES.
113
00:06:45,967 --> 00:06:49,567
IF THEY HAVE THE MEANS AND
THEY WANT TO HANG OUT WITH YOU,
114
00:06:49,567 --> 00:06:51,900
THEN THEY'RE GONNA PAY YOUR WAY.
115
00:06:51,900 --> 00:06:54,067
I WAS STAYING IN 5-STAR HOTELS
116
00:06:54,067 --> 00:06:57,100
AND SKINNY-DIPPING
IN THE MEDITERRANEAN.
117
00:06:57,100 --> 00:07:00,167
I'M HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE.
118
00:07:00,167 --> 00:07:02,667
I FELT LIKE MISS AMERICA.
119
00:07:02,667 --> 00:07:05,967
YOU KNOW, I HAD A CUTE LITTLE
MATCHING PANTY-AND-BRA SET,
120
00:07:05,967 --> 00:07:08,600
SO I TOOK A PICTURE
OF MYSELF IN IT,
121
00:07:08,600 --> 00:07:10,500
AND I PUT IT ON MY PROFILE.
122
00:07:10,500 --> 00:07:12,067
THAT'S WHEN I MET MY HUSBAND.
123
00:07:13,400 --> 00:07:16,067
Gareth:
SHE LOOKED SO BIG AND COMFY
124
00:07:16,067 --> 00:07:17,633
AND SOFT AND SQUISHY.
125
00:07:17,633 --> 00:07:19,367
YOU KNOW, I LIKE BIG WOMEN,
126
00:07:19,367 --> 00:07:22,400
AND SHE WAS -- SHE WAS
THEIR QUEEN AT THE TIME.
127
00:07:24,400 --> 00:07:28,067
Zsalynn: AT 29 YEARS OLD,
I WAS 520 POUNDS.
128
00:07:28,067 --> 00:07:30,267
THAT'S A QUARTER OF A TON.
129
00:07:30,267 --> 00:07:35,767
MY WEIGHT WAS STARTING
TO TAKE A TOLL ON MY HEALTH.
130
00:07:35,767 --> 00:07:39,667
I WENT FROM HAVING
THIS AMAZING OUTLOOK ON LIFE
131
00:07:39,667 --> 00:07:45,500
TO THIS RECLUSIVE PERSON
WHO DIDN'T LIKE HERSELF.
132
00:07:45,500 --> 00:07:48,100
I USED TO THINK AT NIGHT,
133
00:07:48,100 --> 00:07:51,767
"IF I DON'T WAKE UP,
I'M OKAY WITH THAT."
134
00:07:51,767 --> 00:07:53,800
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
135
00:07:58,333 --> 00:08:00,233
Gareth:
WHEN I FIRST MET ZSALYNN,
136
00:08:00,233 --> 00:08:02,633
IT WAS HER SIZE
THAT ATTRACTED ME TO HER.
137
00:08:02,633 --> 00:08:04,367
BUT NOW SHE'S GOTTEN SO BIG,
138
00:08:04,367 --> 00:08:06,867
IT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR US
TO DO ANYTHING.
139
00:08:06,867 --> 00:08:10,200
AND I GUESS YOU JUST GOT TO
BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR.
140
00:08:11,667 --> 00:08:13,667
Zsalynn:
DRIVING IS A LITTLE DIFFICULT.
141
00:08:13,667 --> 00:08:15,067
I WENT FROM FIRST TO THIRD,
142
00:08:15,067 --> 00:08:18,167
'CAUSE SECOND DOESN'T REALLY FIT
WITH MY THIGH.
143
00:08:20,667 --> 00:08:22,800
I NOW HAVE A MORE IMPORTANT
REASON THAN JUST MYSELF
144
00:08:22,800 --> 00:08:23,900
TO GET HEALTHY.
145
00:08:23,900 --> 00:08:26,600
MY WEIGHT IS AFFECTING
SOMEONE I LOVE.
146
00:08:26,600 --> 00:08:28,667
THERE SHE IS.
147
00:08:28,667 --> 00:08:30,867
[ VEHICLE DOOR CLOSES ]
148
00:08:30,867 --> 00:08:32,500
[ Voice breaking ]
I HAVE A DAUGHTER NOW,
149
00:08:32,500 --> 00:08:34,400
AND I DON'T DO SOMETHING,
SHE MAY NOT HAVE A MOM.
150
00:08:34,400 --> 00:08:36,067
SO, HOW WAS SCHOOL TODAY?
151
00:08:36,067 --> 00:08:37,733
GOOD.
WHAT DID YOU DO?
152
00:08:37,733 --> 00:08:40,800
NOW WE'RE DOING STUFF
ABOUT PLANTS.
153
00:08:42,500 --> 00:08:45,500
MY WEIGHT IS REALLY AFFECTING
HER LIFE...
154
00:08:45,500 --> 00:08:47,567
[ PARKING BRAKE ENGAGES ]
155
00:08:47,567 --> 00:08:51,933
...BUT I DON'T THINK
SHE REALIZES HOW MUCH.
156
00:08:51,933 --> 00:08:54,367
THAT'S THE ABSOLUTE
HARDEST PART.
157
00:08:56,867 --> 00:09:00,233
COME ON.
[ LAUGHS ]
158
00:09:00,233 --> 00:09:01,633
I'M HANNAH'S MOTHER,
159
00:09:01,633 --> 00:09:05,267
BUT BONNIE'S ABLE TO DO
ALL THE THINGS THAT I CAN'T DO.
160
00:09:05,267 --> 00:09:07,067
[ SPEAKING
INDISTINCTLY ]
161
00:09:07,067 --> 00:09:09,933
SHE'S PRETTY MUCH
RAISING HANNAH.
162
00:09:09,933 --> 00:09:11,433
[ BOTH LAUGH ]
163
00:09:11,433 --> 00:09:13,633
IT MAKES ME FEEL A LITTLE SAD
164
00:09:13,633 --> 00:09:17,233
'CAUSE MY MOM IS MISSING OUT
ON SOME FUN STUFF.
165
00:09:17,233 --> 00:09:19,633
Bonnie: IT'S AN AIRPLANE.
166
00:09:19,633 --> 00:09:23,467
[ Voice breaking ] I'M SURE THAT
SHE NEVER, EVER, EVER IMAGINED
167
00:09:23,467 --> 00:09:26,400
THAT SHE WOULDN'T BE ABLE
TO BE THE KIND OF MOTHER
168
00:09:26,400 --> 00:09:29,133
THAT SHE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE
FOR HER DAUGHTER.
169
00:09:29,133 --> 00:09:31,667
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
170
00:09:31,667 --> 00:09:36,300
I'M AFRAID THAT
SHE'S GONNA DIE PREMATURELY.
171
00:09:39,500 --> 00:09:41,367
[ SIGHS ]
172
00:09:45,467 --> 00:09:47,633
UH, NO. 20 MINUTES.
173
00:09:47,633 --> 00:09:49,100
JUST LET ME KNOW
WHEN IT'S READY.
174
00:09:49,100 --> 00:09:54,100
I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA BE DEAD
WITHIN 5 YEARS.
175
00:09:54,100 --> 00:09:55,933
TELL ME WHEN.
176
00:09:55,933 --> 00:09:58,133
THAT'S A SOPHOMORE
IN HIGH SCHOOL
177
00:09:58,133 --> 00:09:59,800
FOR MY DAUGHTER.
178
00:09:59,800 --> 00:10:01,767
I FEEL LIKE, IF I DIE,
179
00:10:01,767 --> 00:10:04,900
SHE'S GONNA BE THE ONE
THAT SUFFERS MORE THAN ANYBODY.
180
00:10:04,900 --> 00:10:09,900
Gareth:
IT WORRIES ME FOR MYSELF,
BUT IF TERRIFIES ME FOR HANNAH.
181
00:10:09,900 --> 00:10:11,900
I DON'T EVEN LIKE TO THINK
ABOUT IT, TO BE HONEST WITH YOU,
182
00:10:11,900 --> 00:10:13,567
BUT, I MEAN, IF ANYTHING DID
HAPPEN TO ZSALYNN,
183
00:10:13,567 --> 00:10:16,467
I KNOW HANNAH
WOULD BE DEVASTATED.
184
00:10:16,467 --> 00:10:19,333
MY DAUGHTER IS
AN INNOCENT VICTIM IN THIS,
185
00:10:19,333 --> 00:10:21,800
AND SHE DOESN'T DESERVE IT.
186
00:10:21,800 --> 00:10:25,700
I WANT HER TO BE ABLE TO SEE
THAT I CAN BE A GOOD PARENT.
187
00:10:25,700 --> 00:10:28,633
BUT SOMETHING IN MY LIFE
HAS TO CHANGE.
188
00:10:32,700 --> 00:10:35,600
Zsalynn: MY WEIGHT
HAS GOTTEN OUT OF CONTROL.
189
00:10:35,600 --> 00:10:38,900
I CAN'T CONTINUE LIVING
LIKE THIS.
190
00:10:38,900 --> 00:10:41,067
I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING.
191
00:10:50,567 --> 00:10:52,800
I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT
SCHEDULED TOMORROW
192
00:10:52,800 --> 00:10:55,600
WITH THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGEON,
AND I'M PRETTY NERVOUS.
193
00:10:55,600 --> 00:10:58,600
I'M NOT SURE
WHAT HE'S GONNA SAY.
194
00:10:58,600 --> 00:11:00,400
[ GRUNTS ]
195
00:11:00,400 --> 00:11:01,633
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
196
00:11:06,133 --> 00:11:09,467
AND JUST GOING TO GET ONE LOAD
OF CLOTHES FROM THE DRYER
197
00:11:09,467 --> 00:11:11,633
WIPES ME OUT.
198
00:11:17,833 --> 00:11:22,067
Zsalynn: I HAVEN'T BEEN
ON A SCALE IN A VERY LONG TIME.
199
00:11:22,067 --> 00:11:26,200
SO, GETTING ON A SCALE IS GONNA
BE PROBABLY A HUGE EYE-OPENER.
200
00:11:26,200 --> 00:11:28,367
I WANT TO KNOW
AFFIRMATIVELY
201
00:11:28,367 --> 00:11:31,300
IF HE'S GOING TO PERFORM
A SURGERY ON ME.
202
00:11:31,300 --> 00:11:33,533
IF HE SAYS NO, THAT I'M NOT
A GOOD CANDIDATE,
203
00:11:33,533 --> 00:11:36,767
[Voice breaking]
IT'S GONNA BE A LONG RIDE HOME.
204
00:11:38,333 --> 00:11:39,567
[ GRUNTS ]
205
00:11:39,567 --> 00:11:40,633
OKAY.
206
00:11:42,267 --> 00:11:44,567
Woman: MISS WHITWORTH?
207
00:11:44,567 --> 00:11:48,967
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
208
00:11:48,967 --> 00:11:50,700
[ SIGHS ]
209
00:11:50,700 --> 00:11:52,500
I DON'T WANT TO KNOW.
210
00:11:53,900 --> 00:11:57,533
YOU CAN STEP OFF.
211
00:11:57,533 --> 00:11:59,533
OKAY.
212
00:11:59,533 --> 00:12:02,100
Dr. Nowzaradan: HEY.
HOW ARE YOU?
213
00:12:02,100 --> 00:12:03,667
I'M OKAY.
HOW ABOUT YOU?
214
00:12:03,667 --> 00:12:04,933
I'M FINE, THANK YOU.
215
00:12:04,933 --> 00:12:07,300
I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.
ALL RIGHT.
216
00:12:07,300 --> 00:12:11,633
SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK
IS CAUSING YOU TO BE ALMOST 600?
217
00:12:11,633 --> 00:12:13,233
I DIDN'T LOOK AT THE SCALE.
218
00:12:13,233 --> 00:12:14,433
THAT'S WHY.
219
00:12:14,433 --> 00:12:15,433
SO...
220
00:12:15,433 --> 00:12:17,400
I'M A SUGARHOLIC.
221
00:12:17,400 --> 00:12:19,067
SUGAR IS MY DRUG OF CHOICE.
222
00:12:19,067 --> 00:12:21,900
HOW DO LOOK THAT SURGERY'S
GONNA CHANGE THAT?
223
00:12:21,900 --> 00:12:24,100
YOU'RE GONNA TAKE OUT
MY INTESTINES,
224
00:12:24,100 --> 00:12:26,433
AND THE SECOND
SUGAR HITS MY INTESTINE,
225
00:12:26,433 --> 00:12:27,800
I'M GONNA BE VERY SICK.
226
00:12:27,800 --> 00:12:29,300
YOU'RE GONNA TO HAVE
227
00:12:29,300 --> 00:12:32,233
SOME REALISTIC EXPECTATION
FROM SURGERY.
228
00:12:32,233 --> 00:12:34,200
ALL THE SURGERY
IS GONNA DO FOR YOU --
229
00:12:34,200 --> 00:12:37,067
KEEP YOU FROM EATING
A LOT AT ONE TIME.
230
00:12:37,067 --> 00:12:38,567
HOW MANY TIMES
YOU'RE GONNA EAT
231
00:12:38,567 --> 00:12:40,333
AND WHAT KIND OF FOOD
YOU'RE GONNA EAT
232
00:12:40,333 --> 00:12:44,067
IS GONNA BE THE KEY ISSUE
TO MAKE SURGERY BE SUCCESSFUL.
233
00:12:44,067 --> 00:12:45,133
OKAY.
234
00:12:45,133 --> 00:12:47,100
IF YOU HAVE A FALSE HOPE
235
00:12:47,100 --> 00:12:49,533
THAT SURGERY IS GONNA KEEP YOU
FROM EATING SUGAR,
236
00:12:49,533 --> 00:12:51,733
NO, THAT'S NOT
GONNA HAPPEN.
237
00:12:54,067 --> 00:12:55,767
AS MANY AS I CAN.
238
00:12:55,767 --> 00:12:58,567
LIKE, YOU KNOW, I FEEL LIKE
I HAVE A HOLE IN MY SOUL,
239
00:12:58,567 --> 00:13:00,867
AND I'M TRYING TO FILL IT UP
WITH SUGAR.
240
00:13:00,867 --> 00:13:04,133
I SEE.
241
00:13:10,967 --> 00:13:13,933
I NEED TO MAKE SURE
SHE UNDERSTANDS
242
00:13:13,933 --> 00:13:17,133
WHAT IT'S GONNA TAKE FOR HER
TO GET READY FOR SURGERY.
243
00:13:17,133 --> 00:13:19,533
ZSALYNN,
YOU NEED TO GET READY
244
00:13:19,533 --> 00:13:22,533
BY LOSING SOME WEIGHT
ON YOUR OWN FIRST.
245
00:13:22,533 --> 00:13:26,167
I NEED TO SEE YOU LOSE
AT LEAST 20 TO 30 POUNDS.
246
00:13:26,167 --> 00:13:29,067
YOU HAVE TO CUT
THE CALORIE COUNT DOWN.
247
00:13:29,067 --> 00:13:31,533
BUT THE KEY ISSUE
WITH IT WILL BE
248
00:13:31,533 --> 00:13:34,067
THAT YOU ONLY EAT
TWO OR THREE TIMES A DAY,
249
00:13:34,067 --> 00:13:37,100
NO SNACK IN BETWEEN.
250
00:13:37,100 --> 00:13:39,433
IF YOU DON'T ADJUST
YOUR MIND-SET,
251
00:13:39,433 --> 00:13:42,833
THIS BYPASS
IS GONNA FAIL.
252
00:13:42,833 --> 00:13:44,200
OKAY.
OKAY?
253
00:13:44,200 --> 00:13:45,533
AND WE'LL DO THAT,
254
00:13:45,533 --> 00:13:47,867
AND WE'LL SEE HOW YOU DO
ABOUT TWO, THREE WEEKS.
255
00:13:47,867 --> 00:13:49,500
THANK YOU.
MM-HMM.
256
00:13:54,500 --> 00:13:56,900
WELL, HE SHOULD BE HARD
257
00:13:56,900 --> 00:14:00,167
SO THAT YOU KNOW
IT'S GONNA BE REALLY HARD.
258
00:14:00,167 --> 00:14:02,433
WE'RE NOT JUST GONNA
LEAVE YOU OUT THERE,
259
00:14:02,433 --> 00:14:03,533
HANGING BY YOURSELF.
260
00:14:03,533 --> 00:14:05,333
WE'RE GONNA HELP YOU,
ZSALYNN.
261
00:14:07,367 --> 00:14:10,533
Zsalynn: I THINK, AT THIS SIZE,
I COULD DIE ANY DAY NOW.
262
00:14:10,533 --> 00:14:12,633
I MEAN, I COULD DROP DEAD
FROM A HEART ATTACK.
263
00:14:15,433 --> 00:14:18,233
I'VE WAITED TOO LONG
TO DEAL WITH THIS PROBLEM,
264
00:14:18,233 --> 00:14:20,333
SO I HAVE TO DO IT.
265
00:14:20,333 --> 00:14:22,200
THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE.
266
00:14:27,167 --> 00:14:28,900
Zsalynn: HERE,
GIVE ME A HAND-UP.
267
00:14:28,900 --> 00:14:32,533
EE-HEE! THANK YOU.
ONE, TWO, THREE, PULL.
268
00:14:32,533 --> 00:14:34,167
THANK YOU.
269
00:14:34,167 --> 00:14:35,933
STARTING TODAY,
270
00:14:35,933 --> 00:14:41,067
I HAVE TO CHANGE
EVERYTHING ABOUT EVERYTHING.
271
00:14:41,067 --> 00:14:43,267
I CAN'T DO WHAT I WANT TO DO.
272
00:14:43,267 --> 00:14:45,233
I'VE MISSED OUT ON SO MUCH.
273
00:14:45,233 --> 00:14:49,100
I WANT THAT TO STOP,
AND I WANT THINGS TO CHANGE.
274
00:14:49,100 --> 00:14:52,367
SO, YOU WANT ME TO LET YOU WALK
ALL THE WAY OVER THERE,
275
00:14:52,367 --> 00:14:53,633
THEN I'M GONNA DRIVE
276
00:14:53,633 --> 00:14:55,600
AND I'M JUST GONNA WATCH YOU
THROUGH THE FENCE?
277
00:14:55,600 --> 00:14:56,900
YES.
YOU'RE OKAY WITH THAT?
278
00:14:56,900 --> 00:14:58,200
SURE.
279
00:14:58,200 --> 00:14:59,900
YOU GONNA WALK
WITH THEM, AMY?
280
00:14:59,900 --> 00:15:01,333
YEAH, SURE.
281
00:15:01,333 --> 00:15:02,367
Zsalynn: THANK YOU.
282
00:15:02,367 --> 00:15:03,767
YOU'RE WELCOME.
OF COURSE.
283
00:15:03,767 --> 00:15:07,167
HANNAH, WALK SLOW, PLEASE.
IT'S NOT A RACE.
284
00:15:07,167 --> 00:15:09,067
Zsalynn: I'M TIRED OF HAVING TO
RELY ON OTHER PEOPLE
285
00:15:09,067 --> 00:15:12,267
TO DO THE THINGS
THAT I WANT TO DO.
286
00:15:12,267 --> 00:15:13,700
I CAN'T EVEN WALK
AROUND THE GATE
287
00:15:13,700 --> 00:15:15,400
TO GET INTO HANNAH'S
FAVORITE PLAYGROUND.
288
00:15:15,400 --> 00:15:17,500
THIS IS
THE MAIN PLAYGROUND, SEE?
289
00:15:17,500 --> 00:15:19,567
PEOPLE WILL COME OUT HERE,
AND THEY'D RIDE THEIR BIKES.
290
00:15:19,567 --> 00:15:20,900
THERE'S A WHOLE BUNCH
OF SWINGS.
291
00:15:20,900 --> 00:15:23,100
THERE'S LIKE 18
OR SOMETHING.
292
00:15:23,100 --> 00:15:26,700
Zsalynn:
I'VE MISSED OUT ON SO MUCH
OF MY DAUGHTER'S CHILDHOOD.
293
00:15:26,700 --> 00:15:28,900
I NEED TO DO THIS FOR HER.
294
00:15:28,900 --> 00:15:30,867
COME ON, LET'S SWING.
295
00:15:32,533 --> 00:15:34,433
Amy:
LOOK, YOUR MAMA'S COMING.
296
00:15:34,433 --> 00:15:36,367
MOMMY!
297
00:15:39,600 --> 00:15:41,900
Zsalynn:
ARE YOU HAVING FUN, HANNAH?
298
00:15:41,900 --> 00:15:43,767
YES! LOTS!
299
00:15:43,767 --> 00:15:45,100
CAN YOU DO THIS ONE?
300
00:15:45,100 --> 00:15:48,500
HANNAH SAYS IT DOESN'T BOTHER
HER, BUT I KNOW IT DOES.
301
00:15:48,500 --> 00:15:49,800
Girl:
WHERE ARE YOU GOING?
302
00:15:49,800 --> 00:15:51,067
YOU DON'T NEED
TO COME OVER HERE.
303
00:15:51,067 --> 00:15:52,467
I KNOW.
304
00:15:52,467 --> 00:15:53,800
YOU CAN JUST GO AND SWING.
305
00:15:53,800 --> 00:15:56,167
I KNOW.
306
00:15:56,167 --> 00:15:57,800
[ Voice breaking ] I FEEL LIKE
307
00:15:57,800 --> 00:16:01,067
MY WEIGHT IS COSTING HER
A NORMAL CHILDHOOD.
308
00:16:01,067 --> 00:16:02,700
I KNOW I HAVE TO PICK
309
00:16:02,700 --> 00:16:05,667
BETWEEN BEING THERE FOR HER
AND MY ADDICTION,
310
00:16:05,667 --> 00:16:08,267
BUT I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT.
311
00:16:15,500 --> 00:16:17,867
Woman: MISS ZSALYNN?
312
00:16:20,633 --> 00:16:24,333
I'M NOT GONNA LIE.
THE PAST MONTH HAS BEEN TOUGH.
313
00:16:24,333 --> 00:16:28,833
BUT I'M EXCITED TO SEE
IF ALL MY HARD WORK HAS PAID OFF
314
00:16:28,833 --> 00:16:31,900
AND I CAN FINALLY GET
MY SURGERY.
315
00:16:31,900 --> 00:16:34,967
YEAH.
THAT'S REALLY AWESOME.
316
00:16:34,967 --> 00:16:36,067
[ LAUGHS ]
317
00:16:36,067 --> 00:16:37,900
I'M REALLY EXCITED.
318
00:16:37,900 --> 00:16:39,967
YOU DID GOOD.
THANK YOU.
319
00:16:39,967 --> 00:16:41,533
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
320
00:16:41,533 --> 00:16:45,233
HELLO.
HI, DR. NOWZARADAN.
321
00:16:45,233 --> 00:16:48,167
I SEE YOU LOST
A FEW POUNDS, HUH?
322
00:16:48,167 --> 00:16:53,067
ANY DIFFICULTY WITH YOUR DIET
OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT?
323
00:16:53,067 --> 00:16:54,567
NOPE.
SUPER.
324
00:16:54,567 --> 00:16:58,900
Dr. Nowzaradan:
ZSALYNN DID OKAY TODAY.
325
00:16:58,900 --> 00:17:02,733
SHE'S PROVEN THAT SHE CAN
CONTROL HER EATING HABIT.
326
00:17:02,733 --> 00:17:05,067
I THINK SHE'S READY
TO MOVE FORWARD
327
00:17:05,067 --> 00:17:06,233
AND GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.
328
00:17:06,233 --> 00:17:08,200
WE'RE ON RIGHT TRACK,
329
00:17:08,200 --> 00:17:11,667
AND WE'RE GONNA MAKE PROGRESS
AND GET YOU READY FOR SURGERY.
330
00:17:11,667 --> 00:17:13,467
OKAY.
OKAY? ALL RIGHT.
331
00:17:13,467 --> 00:17:15,633
THAT MAKES ME HAPPY.
THANK YOU.
332
00:17:15,633 --> 00:17:17,067
ALL RIGHT,
WE'LL SEE YOU, THEN.
333
00:17:17,067 --> 00:17:19,567
Zsalynn: THIS IS SO EXCITING.
334
00:17:19,567 --> 00:17:23,233
I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF
RIGHT NOW.
335
00:17:32,500 --> 00:17:35,833
YOU DON'T NEED
TO TAKE YOUR BIG SUITCASE.
336
00:17:37,200 --> 00:17:40,600
SO, THIS IS IT.
TOMORROW'S THE DAY.
337
00:17:40,600 --> 00:17:43,567
I AM GOING TO HAVE
WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.
338
00:17:43,567 --> 00:17:46,233
IT REALLY DID COME UP
REALLY FAST.
339
00:17:46,233 --> 00:17:47,567
SO, IS THIS THE STUFF
YOU'RE BRINGING?
340
00:17:47,567 --> 00:17:48,667
YEP.
341
00:17:48,667 --> 00:17:49,933
YESTERDAY MORNING,
342
00:17:49,933 --> 00:17:53,467
I TOLD GARETH
THAT SURGERY WAS ON WEDNESDAY.
343
00:17:53,467 --> 00:17:57,333
HE'S BEEN TELLING ME HE'S
BEHIND ME WITH THIS SURGERY,
344
00:17:57,333 --> 00:17:59,133
BUT I DON'T THINK
HE ACTUALLY THOUGHT
345
00:17:59,133 --> 00:18:00,600
I WAS GONNA GO THROUGH WITH IT.
346
00:18:00,600 --> 00:18:02,567
PAJAMAS?
CHECK.
347
00:18:02,567 --> 00:18:04,600
HE SAYS,
"I MARRIED YOU 10 YEARS AGO,
348
00:18:04,600 --> 00:18:06,233
"WHEN YOU WERE A HAPPY FAT GIRL,
349
00:18:06,233 --> 00:18:08,533
"AND I WAS HAPPY
TO MARRY A HAPPY FAT GIRL.
350
00:18:08,533 --> 00:18:10,067
"IF YOU'D HAVE TOLD ME
10 YEARS AGO
351
00:18:10,067 --> 00:18:11,533
"I WAS MARRYING
AN UNHAPPY FAT GIRL,
352
00:18:11,533 --> 00:18:13,167
THEN MAYBE
I WOULDN'T HAVE MARRIED YOU."
353
00:18:13,167 --> 00:18:15,633
IT'S REALLY HARD
TO TALK ABOUT GARETH,
354
00:18:15,633 --> 00:18:19,767
'CAUSE, YOU KNOW, HE --
HE WANTS A FAT WIFE.
355
00:18:19,767 --> 00:18:23,900
HE WANTS WHAT
HE'S PHYSICALLY ATTRACTED TO.
356
00:18:23,900 --> 00:18:26,767
THAT'S WHAT HE WANTS.
357
00:18:26,767 --> 00:18:30,933
HE HAS A PHYSICAL PREFERENCE
FOR HIS SEXUAL NEEDS
358
00:18:30,933 --> 00:18:36,067
THAT REQUIRES ME TO BE BIGGER
THAN, YOU KNOW, JUST FAT.
359
00:18:36,067 --> 00:18:38,667
I REALIZE I'VE BEEN
TELLING MYSELF A LIE,
360
00:18:38,667 --> 00:18:40,400
AND THAT LIE WAS KILLING ME.
361
00:18:40,400 --> 00:18:42,533
BIG CAN'T BE BEAUTIFUL
362
00:18:42,533 --> 00:18:45,567
WHEN IT MEANS MY DAUGHTER
MAY NOT HAVE A MOTHER.
363
00:18:49,200 --> 00:18:55,700
HE HAS NO IDEA HOW CLOSE
TO DEATH I FEEL EVERY DAY.
364
00:18:55,700 --> 00:18:58,433
WITHOUT THIS SURGERY,
365
00:18:58,433 --> 00:19:01,567
I'M GONNA DIE SOONER,
RATHER THAN LATER.
366
00:19:01,567 --> 00:19:03,067
[ Voice breaking ] WITH SURGERY,
367
00:19:03,067 --> 00:19:05,367
I'LL BE WALKING
AND MOVING AND GOING.
368
00:19:05,367 --> 00:19:07,800
YOU KNOW, HE TALKS ABOUT [SIGHS]
369
00:19:07,800 --> 00:19:11,967
IT'S NOT THAT HE WILL NOT BE
SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO ME,
370
00:19:11,967 --> 00:19:15,767
IT'S THAT
I'LL BE REPULSIVE TO HIM.
371
00:19:15,767 --> 00:19:17,700
I MEAN, I'M A LITTLE BIT SAD
372
00:19:17,700 --> 00:19:20,467
'CAUSE, YOU KNOW,
I LIKE BIGGER WOMEN,
373
00:19:20,467 --> 00:19:23,867
SO IT'S A LITTLE UPSETTING
TO LOSE WHAT YOU LIKE.
374
00:19:23,867 --> 00:19:26,733
BUT, YOU KNOW,
GONNA HAVE TO GET OVER IT.
375
00:19:26,733 --> 00:19:29,100
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE
SUCH A NEGATIVE NANCY?
376
00:19:29,100 --> 00:19:30,933
[ Chuckling ]
WE'LL SEE.
377
00:19:30,933 --> 00:19:33,567
LET'S HOPE IT DOESN'T TURN
'ROUND TO BITE US IN THE BUTT.
378
00:19:33,567 --> 00:19:35,800
I'VE ALWAYS LIKED BIGGER WOMEN,
YOU KNOW?
379
00:19:35,800 --> 00:19:38,067
WHY SETTLE FOR A HOT DOG
WHEN YOU CAN HAVE A STEAK?
380
00:19:38,067 --> 00:19:40,067
Zsalynn: WE'RE GOING NOW.
ALL RIGHT, ALL RIGHT.
381
00:19:40,067 --> 00:19:43,533
I DON'T KNOW WHAT
THE FUTURE HOLDS, GOOD OR BAD.
382
00:19:43,533 --> 00:19:46,233
THIS IS GONNA BE HARD
TO GET IN AND OUT OF.
383
00:19:46,233 --> 00:19:48,167
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
384
00:19:48,167 --> 00:19:50,433
[ GRUNTS ]
385
00:19:50,433 --> 00:19:53,333
BUT I KNOW THAT I'M MAKING
THE RIGHT DECISION
386
00:19:53,333 --> 00:19:54,700
FOR MY DAUGHTER AND I.
387
00:19:54,700 --> 00:19:56,067
OH!
388
00:19:56,067 --> 00:19:58,067
I'LL DO IT.
389
00:19:58,067 --> 00:20:02,333
GARETH ISN'T READY
FOR ME TO START THIS JOURNEY,
390
00:20:02,333 --> 00:20:04,967
BUT IF I DON'T DO
SOMETHING DRASTIC,
391
00:20:04,967 --> 00:20:06,267
I'M GONNA BE DEAD
392
00:20:06,267 --> 00:20:09,233
AND HE'S GONNA BE RAISING
A 9-YEAR-OLD DAUGHTER
393
00:20:09,233 --> 00:20:10,967
ALL BY HIMSELF.
394
00:20:23,167 --> 00:20:25,300
Woman: WE'RE DOING
A LAPAROSCOPIC PROCEDURE
395
00:20:25,300 --> 00:20:28,167
ON YOUR ABDOMEN,
REMOVING PART OF YOUR STOMACH.
396
00:20:28,167 --> 00:20:29,867
SO, YOU OKAY, SWEETIE?
397
00:20:29,867 --> 00:20:31,500
[ SNIFFLES ] YEAH.
YOU SURE?
398
00:20:31,500 --> 00:20:33,400
WE'RE GONNA TAKE REALLY GOOD
CARE OF YOU, OKAY?
399
00:20:33,400 --> 00:20:35,700
I HAVE
AN 8-YEAR-OLD DAUGHTER,
400
00:20:35,700 --> 00:20:40,200
AND, YOU KNOW, WHAT IF I DIE,
AND THEN SHE'S MOTHERLESS?
401
00:20:42,300 --> 00:20:44,167
Zsalynn: I WISH GARETH WAS HERE.
402
00:20:44,167 --> 00:20:47,233
SOMETIMES I WISH
HE WAS A DIFFERENT PERSON
403
00:20:47,233 --> 00:20:49,033
AND COULD BE HERE FOR ME.
404
00:20:49,033 --> 00:20:51,333
HELLO!
405
00:20:51,333 --> 00:20:53,900
LOOK AT ME
IN MY FANCY HAT.
406
00:20:53,900 --> 00:20:55,400
I LOVE YOU.
407
00:20:55,400 --> 00:20:57,100
I LOVE YOU, TOO.
408
00:20:59,367 --> 00:21:04,267
I KNOW SURGERY IS RISKY,
BUT NOT HAVING IT IS RISKIER.
409
00:21:04,267 --> 00:21:05,967
BYE.
BYE.
410
00:21:05,967 --> 00:21:08,933
I'M -- I'M SO SCARED.
411
00:21:08,933 --> 00:21:11,767
Bonnie: I'M NOT HERE
TO MAKE YOU CRY.
412
00:21:11,767 --> 00:21:13,567
I KNOW. OKAY.
413
00:21:15,367 --> 00:21:18,800
WE'LL COME SEE YOU WHEN
YOU COME BACK FROM SLEEPY LAND.
414
00:21:18,800 --> 00:21:21,267
Zsalynn: IF YOU DIE, YOU DIE.
I MEAN, THAT'S A FACT OF LIFE.
415
00:21:21,267 --> 00:21:22,967
EVERYBODY HAS A TIME.
416
00:21:22,967 --> 00:21:27,700
BUT I JUST WORRY ABOUT HANNAH.
417
00:21:27,700 --> 00:21:30,967
I JUST WANT HER
TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE...
418
00:21:30,967 --> 00:21:32,300
[SNIFFLES]
419
00:21:32,300 --> 00:21:33,900
...A MOTHER
WHO CAN WALK WITH HER
420
00:21:33,900 --> 00:21:35,567
AND BE WITH HER
AND PLAY WITH HER.
421
00:21:38,233 --> 00:21:43,167
SO I HAVE TO COME THROUGH
THIS SURGERY WITH FLYING COLORS.
422
00:21:51,567 --> 00:21:55,533
USUALLY, THIS TYPE OF SURGERY
IS MUCH MORE DIFFICULT
423
00:21:55,533 --> 00:21:58,900
IN PATIENTS
THAT ARE VERY HEAVY --
424
00:21:58,900 --> 00:22:02,433
LIKE, ZSALYNN
IS ALMOST 600 POUNDS.
425
00:22:02,433 --> 00:22:05,833
SO, HER SURGERY IS GONNA BE
A LITTLE BIT CHALLENGING.
426
00:22:10,300 --> 00:22:13,867
THE GASTRIC BYPASS
IS A GOOD TREATMENT
427
00:22:13,867 --> 00:22:16,767
FOR THESE PEOPLE
THAT ARE MORBIDLY OBESE.
428
00:22:16,767 --> 00:22:18,067
GO FORWARD.
429
00:22:32,600 --> 00:22:34,533
Bonnie: ARE THESE PENCILS
OR MARKERS?
430
00:22:34,533 --> 00:22:36,700
LET'S TRY THE BROWN.
OKAY.
431
00:22:36,700 --> 00:22:38,367
Bonnie: I'M AFRAID.
432
00:22:38,367 --> 00:22:40,200
I KNOW IT'S A MAJOR SURGERY.
433
00:22:40,200 --> 00:22:45,300
I JUST WANT THE RISK OF HAVING
THE SURGERY TO BE WORTH IT.
434
00:22:45,300 --> 00:22:48,267
ALL RIGHT, THAT LOOKS GOOD.
435
00:22:48,267 --> 00:22:51,467
I WANT HER TO BE
AS SUCCESSFUL AS SHE CAN,
436
00:22:51,467 --> 00:22:53,233
AND I WANT HER
TO GET HER LIFE BACK AGAIN.
437
00:22:55,100 --> 00:22:57,367
Dr. Nowzaradan:
ZSALYNN DID VERY WELL,
438
00:22:57,367 --> 00:23:00,067
AND WE'RE ABLE TO DO
THE BYPASS ON HER.
439
00:23:00,067 --> 00:23:03,233
IT WAS A LITTLE BIT DIFFICULT
BECAUSE OF HER SIZE.
440
00:23:03,233 --> 00:23:05,400
[ INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS ]
441
00:23:10,267 --> 00:23:12,467
YOU CAN GIVE HER A LITTLE RUB
RIGHT THERE.
442
00:23:12,467 --> 00:23:13,633
YOU WON'T HURT HER.
443
00:23:13,633 --> 00:23:15,067
HI, MOM.
444
00:23:16,400 --> 00:23:20,333
YOU OKAY?
MM-HMM.
445
00:23:20,333 --> 00:23:22,767
SHE'S OKAY, HON.
446
00:23:22,767 --> 00:23:24,167
[ CHUCKLES ]
447
00:23:24,167 --> 00:23:28,433
I PROMISE SHE IS.
SHE'S JUST SLEEPY.
448
00:23:28,433 --> 00:23:30,267
DO YOU WANT TO GO OUT
AND WALK FOR A LITTLE BIT?
449
00:23:30,267 --> 00:23:32,900
YEAH, OKAY, LET'S GO.
450
00:23:32,900 --> 00:23:34,500
AND IF YOU NEED A SNACK
OR A DRINK,
451
00:23:34,500 --> 00:23:36,167
THERE'S VENDING MACHINES
RIGHT THERE.
452
00:23:36,167 --> 00:23:37,600
YOU WERE REALLY,
REALLY BRAVE
453
00:23:37,600 --> 00:23:38,933
ALL DAY LONG TODAY,
HANNAH.
454
00:23:38,933 --> 00:23:44,300
YEAH, WE'RE JUST REALLY RELIEVED
SHE'S OKAY.
455
00:23:52,333 --> 00:23:54,800
ROOM SERVICE.
456
00:24:10,500 --> 00:24:12,833
Zsalynn:
MY APPETITE IS A LITTLE LESS,
457
00:24:12,833 --> 00:24:14,433
BUT I STILL WANT TO EAT.
458
00:24:16,500 --> 00:24:20,833
I'M SURPRISED THE FOOD CRAVINGS
ARE STILL HERE.
459
00:24:20,833 --> 00:24:24,500
BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS.
460
00:24:24,500 --> 00:24:28,967
I JUST WANT TO GET UP AND WALK.
461
00:24:30,800 --> 00:24:32,667
Bonnie: WOW.
462
00:24:32,667 --> 00:24:35,067
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?
463
00:24:35,067 --> 00:24:38,567
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
464
00:24:38,567 --> 00:24:42,300
WHAT IS GOING ON
WITH THAT?
465
00:24:42,300 --> 00:24:45,867
YOU ARE BURNING UP RUBBER
UP THERE.
466
00:24:45,867 --> 00:24:48,833
I DID NOT THINK YOU'D BE
MOVING ALONG LIKE THAT.
467
00:24:48,833 --> 00:24:51,133
[ CELLPHONE RINGS ]
468
00:24:55,400 --> 00:24:56,733
IS IT DAD?
IT'S DAD.
469
00:24:56,733 --> 00:24:58,233
DO YOU WANT TO
TALK TO HIM?
470
00:24:58,233 --> 00:24:59,700
NO WAY.
471
00:24:59,700 --> 00:25:02,733
Zsalynn: I HAVEN'T TALKED
TO MY HUSBAND SINCE SURGERY,
472
00:25:02,733 --> 00:25:05,533
AND I DON'T KNOW
IF HE'S GONNA BE SUPPORTIVE
473
00:25:05,533 --> 00:25:07,400
OR IF HE'S JUST NOT.
474
00:25:07,400 --> 00:25:08,833
HELLO?
475
00:25:11,133 --> 00:25:14,067
OH, MY GOD,
I'M SO HAPPY YOU ASKED.
476
00:25:14,067 --> 00:25:15,667
I'VE LOST 78 POUNDS.
477
00:25:17,700 --> 00:25:20,133
SO, YOU'RE SICK?
WHY DIDN'T YOU GO TO WORK?
478
00:25:25,633 --> 00:25:29,100
OKAY. ON THAT NOTE,
I'M GONNA GO AHEAD AND GO.
479
00:25:29,100 --> 00:25:30,500
I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER.
480
00:25:30,500 --> 00:25:34,567
ALL RIGHT.
TALK TO YOU LATER.
481
00:25:34,567 --> 00:25:37,467
Zsalynn: I HOPE MY HUSBAND WILL
REALIZE THAT I MIGHT NEED HIM
482
00:25:37,467 --> 00:25:40,433
AND I MIGHT NEED HIS SUPPORT
TO DO THIS.
483
00:25:40,433 --> 00:25:43,200
I DON'T NEED TO HEAR ABOUT
WHAT THEY HAD FOR DINNER.
484
00:25:43,200 --> 00:25:44,267
I'M SCARED.
485
00:25:44,267 --> 00:25:45,733
OH, I LOVE YOU,
PUMPKIN BEAR.
486
00:25:45,733 --> 00:25:47,433
I DON'T KNOW
WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN.
487
00:25:47,433 --> 00:25:48,967
LOVE YOU.
LOVE YOU, TOO.
488
00:25:55,933 --> 00:25:58,333
GARETH INSISTED
ON PICKING ME UP TODAY,
489
00:25:58,333 --> 00:26:00,800
AND OF COURSE,
HE'S GONNA BE LATE.
490
00:26:00,800 --> 00:26:04,233
ASKED HIM TO BE HERE AT 11:00,
491
00:26:04,233 --> 00:26:08,200
BUT AT 8:45, HE STILL
HADN'T LEFT HOME YET.
492
00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:11,267
[ Voice breaking ] I KNOW
SOMEWHERE INSIDE OF HIS HEART
493
00:26:11,267 --> 00:26:13,200
HE MUST CARE.
494
00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:15,867
[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]
495
00:26:15,867 --> 00:26:17,500
YEAH.
496
00:26:21,967 --> 00:26:24,467
WELL, I'M SORRY
TO DISAPPOINT YOU,
497
00:26:24,467 --> 00:26:26,700
BUT I HAVEN'T LOST
75 POUNDS.
498
00:26:34,933 --> 00:26:36,733
I DON'T THINK GARETH
499
00:26:36,733 --> 00:26:39,267
IS GONNA BE SOMEONE
WHO'S GOING TO HELP ME.
500
00:26:39,267 --> 00:26:42,400
GOODBYE. TAKE CARE.
ALL RIGHT.
501
00:26:52,967 --> 00:26:54,733
[ SMOOCHES ]
502
00:27:02,533 --> 00:27:06,567
I'M NOT EVEN
A LITTLE BIT TEMPTED.
503
00:27:08,500 --> 00:27:11,633
IF HE'S GOING TO GO AHEAD
AND TRY AND TEMPT ME LIKE THIS,
504
00:27:11,633 --> 00:27:13,867
IT'S HURTFUL.
505
00:27:13,867 --> 00:27:16,267
IT'S A LITTLE BIT NAUSEATING,
TO BE HONEST.
506
00:27:17,900 --> 00:27:19,933
I THINK I MARRIED A JERK,
507
00:27:19,933 --> 00:27:23,467
BUT I THINK HE DOESN'T KNOW
ANY OTHER WAY.
508
00:27:25,500 --> 00:27:27,967
I DON'T KNOW IF I'M GONNA HAVE
GARETH'S SUPPORT,
509
00:27:27,967 --> 00:27:30,767
BUT I CAN'T TURN BACK NOW.
510
00:27:35,133 --> 00:27:40,733
Zsalynn: THIS IS REALLY HARD.
CHANGE IS HARD.
511
00:27:40,733 --> 00:27:44,167
CHANGING IS A WORK IN PROGRESS.
512
00:27:56,933 --> 00:27:58,467
OVER THE PAST MONTH,
513
00:27:58,467 --> 00:28:01,633
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO ADJUST
TO A NEW DIET.
514
00:28:01,633 --> 00:28:03,567
IT'S NOT BEEN EASY.
515
00:28:03,567 --> 00:28:07,733
I NEED TO HAVE A LOT OF PROTEIN,
AND EGGS HAVE A LOT OF PROTEIN.
516
00:28:09,633 --> 00:28:13,867
MY APPETITE IS A LITTLE LESS,
BUT I STILL WANT TO EAT.
517
00:28:13,867 --> 00:28:16,633
AND I'M SUPPOSED TO BE EATING
RUNNY EGGS STILL
518
00:28:16,633 --> 00:28:20,067
BUT I WOULDN'T EVEN ATTEMPT
TO EAT A RUNNY EGG.
519
00:28:20,067 --> 00:28:22,900
NOT EVEN IF I EAT SOMETHING BAD,
520
00:28:22,900 --> 00:28:27,500
MY STOMACH HURTS,
I FEEL NAUSEATED.
521
00:28:27,500 --> 00:28:31,933
I THOUGHT MY BIGGEST CHALLENGE
WOULD BE OVEREATING.
522
00:28:38,367 --> 00:28:41,433
DEFINITELY,
THE BIGGEST CHALLENGE SO FAR
523
00:28:41,433 --> 00:28:44,067
IS JUST EATING
THREE TIMES A DAY.
524
00:28:44,067 --> 00:28:47,167
FOOD WAS MY COMFORT
AND MY FRIEND,
525
00:28:47,167 --> 00:28:49,733
AND NOW IT'S JUST FOR SURVIVAL.
526
00:28:49,733 --> 00:28:52,400
I THINK I'VE HAD
ABOUT ALL I CAN HAVE.
527
00:28:52,400 --> 00:28:55,733
IT'S SO STRANGE WHEN YOUR WHOLE
RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD
528
00:28:55,733 --> 00:28:58,500
IS TURNED UPSIDE DOWN,
529
00:28:58,500 --> 00:29:01,467
BUT I'M TAKING IT
ONE STEP AT A TIME.
530
00:29:12,133 --> 00:29:16,067
SINCE THE SURGERY,
PROBABLY AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK,
531
00:29:16,067 --> 00:29:19,133
I HAVE A BREAKDOWN
WHERE I JUST CRY
532
00:29:19,133 --> 00:29:21,967
BECAUSE I MISS
MY OLD FRIEND SUGAR.
533
00:29:21,967 --> 00:29:23,800
AND THEN I GET OVER IT,
534
00:29:23,800 --> 00:29:27,500
'CAUSE THE CHOICE I MADE
WAS BEST FOR ME.
535
00:29:36,333 --> 00:29:37,600
HELLO.
536
00:29:37,600 --> 00:29:38,833
HI.
537
00:29:39,967 --> 00:29:43,967
LET'S SEE, HOW IS YOUR SCAR
AND INCISION DOING?
538
00:29:43,967 --> 00:29:47,700
UM, ALL OF THEM LOOK GOOD.
539
00:29:47,700 --> 00:29:50,433
HOW IS YOUR DIET
COMING ALONG?
540
00:29:50,433 --> 00:29:52,733
UM, MY DIET --
I REALLY HATE TO EAT.
541
00:29:52,733 --> 00:29:54,467
NOTHING TASTES GOOD.
542
00:29:54,467 --> 00:29:58,333
I'VE BEEN EATING COTTAGE CHEESE,
YOGURT, AND SOUP.
543
00:29:58,333 --> 00:30:00,933
Dr. Nowzaradan: ZSALYNN IS
MAKING SOME DECENT PROGRESS.
544
00:30:00,933 --> 00:30:04,133
SHE HAS LOST 150 POUNDS
FOR HER FIRST FEW MONTHS,
545
00:30:04,133 --> 00:30:09,233
BUT SOMEBODY IN HER SIZE
SHOULD LOSE AT LEAST 200 POUNDS.
546
00:30:09,233 --> 00:30:11,933
SHE SHOULD BE LOSING
MORE WEIGHT.
547
00:30:11,933 --> 00:30:13,867
HOW IS YOUR ACTIVITY?
548
00:30:13,867 --> 00:30:17,700
ACTIVITY IS MORE THAN
IT HAS BEEN IN THE PAST,
549
00:30:17,700 --> 00:30:20,133
BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA BE
ABLE TO KICK IT UP.
550
00:30:20,133 --> 00:30:24,500
OKAY. LET'S SEE IF WE CAN GET
ANOTHER 50 POUNDS NEXT MONTH.
551
00:30:24,500 --> 00:30:25,700
OKAY.
552
00:30:25,700 --> 00:30:27,500
YOU'RE GONNA BE
UNDER 400 POUNDS.
553
00:30:30,833 --> 00:30:32,833
Zsalynn:
THE DOCTOR WAS POSITIVE,
554
00:30:32,833 --> 00:30:34,533
SO I'M REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT.
555
00:30:34,533 --> 00:30:38,600
BUT I'VE GOT TO MAKE
MORE PROGRESS.
556
00:30:50,033 --> 00:30:53,000
I'M EXCITED
ABOUT SEEING THIS TRAINER.
557
00:30:53,000 --> 00:30:54,400
HELLO.
HI.
558
00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:59,033
I'M NERVOUS THAT GARETH IS GONNA
FLIP OUT WHEN HE FINDS OUT,
559
00:30:59,033 --> 00:31:00,567
BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR ME.
560
00:31:00,567 --> 00:31:02,167
SO, YOU HAD GASTRIC BYPASS,
RIGHT?
561
00:31:02,167 --> 00:31:03,267
YES.
562
00:31:03,267 --> 00:31:04,833
PRIOR TO THAT,
WERE YOU DOING ANY EXERCISE?
563
00:31:04,833 --> 00:31:06,133
NONE.
OKAY.
564
00:31:06,133 --> 00:31:08,733
WHAT I WANT TO DO NEXT IS
DO SOME BASIC ASSESSMENT
565
00:31:08,733 --> 00:31:10,767
SO I CAN KIND OF SEE
WHERE YOU'RE AT.
566
00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:14,233
BREATHE IT OUT FOUR.
567
00:31:14,233 --> 00:31:15,833
ROLL IT BACK. UP FIVE.
568
00:31:15,833 --> 00:31:16,967
Zsalynn: I WANT TO BE A MOM.
569
00:31:16,967 --> 00:31:18,900
I WANT TO BE ACTIVE.
I WANT TO BE MOBILE.
570
00:31:18,900 --> 00:31:21,400
COUNT THEM OUT.
28 AND TIME. RELAX.
571
00:31:21,400 --> 00:31:23,267
JUST MAKING MYSELF GO.
572
00:31:23,267 --> 00:31:24,633
Julia: YOU GOT THIS,
YOU GOT THIS, YOU GOT THIS.
573
00:31:24,633 --> 00:31:26,467
PUSH IT OUT.
PUSH IT OUT.
574
00:31:26,467 --> 00:31:27,633
ZSALYNN IS THE LARGEST PERSON
575
00:31:27,633 --> 00:31:29,133
THAT I'VE EVER
PERSONALLY TRAINED.
576
00:31:29,133 --> 00:31:30,467
[ Laughing ] I CAN'T.
577
00:31:30,467 --> 00:31:33,100
I'M JUST CONCERNED
ABOUT HER STAYING CONSISTENT
578
00:31:33,100 --> 00:31:35,667
AND REALLY GRABBING ON TO THIS
AS A LIFESTYLE CHANGE,
579
00:31:35,667 --> 00:31:37,767
BECAUSE IT'S GONNA TAKE HER
A LOT OF TIME
580
00:31:37,767 --> 00:31:39,300
TO GET TO WHERE SHE NEEDS TO BE.
581
00:31:39,300 --> 00:31:42,267
AND TIME. 45.
GREAT JOB. GREAT JOB.
582
00:31:42,267 --> 00:31:43,700
YOU KNOW, OVERALL,
583
00:31:43,700 --> 00:31:45,733
I'M ACTUALLY PRETTY IMPRESSED
WITH WHERE YOU'RE AT.
584
00:31:45,733 --> 00:31:48,600
YOU DON'T HAVE A TON
OF RESTRICTIONS, HONESTLY,
585
00:31:48,600 --> 00:31:50,667
CONSIDERING YOUR WEIGHT.
586
00:31:50,667 --> 00:31:52,267
GREAT JOB.
587
00:31:52,267 --> 00:31:53,767
ALL RIGHT.
588
00:31:53,767 --> 00:31:55,700
THANK YOU.
589
00:31:55,700 --> 00:31:58,467
Zsalynn:
I FEEL REALLY GOOD RIGHT NOW.
590
00:31:58,467 --> 00:32:02,333
I FEEL LIKE
I'M ON TOP OF THE WORLD.
591
00:32:02,333 --> 00:32:04,400
BUT NOW I HAVE TO GO HOME
AND TELL GARETH,
592
00:32:04,400 --> 00:32:07,333
AND HE'S PROBABLY NOT
GONNA BE SO EXCITED FOR ME.
593
00:32:21,967 --> 00:32:23,767
YES.
594
00:32:23,767 --> 00:32:24,867
I DON'T KNOW.
595
00:32:24,867 --> 00:32:27,367
I'D RATHER HAVE A SALAD.
596
00:32:27,367 --> 00:32:28,433
I'M NOT BUYING YOU
A SALAD.
597
00:32:28,433 --> 00:32:29,467
IF YOU WANT TO EAT GRASS,
598
00:32:29,467 --> 00:32:30,900
YOU CAN GO IN THE GARDEN
AND GRAZE.
599
00:32:38,633 --> 00:32:40,433
[ HANNAH CRYING ]
600
00:32:42,367 --> 00:32:43,733
HANNAH, I MARRIED HIM
601
00:32:43,733 --> 00:32:46,100
BECAUSE IF I HADN'T MARRIED HIM,
I WOULDN'T HAVE YOU, BABY.
602
00:32:46,100 --> 00:32:48,067
SO?
603
00:32:48,067 --> 00:32:52,800
NO, I AGREE WITH HANNAH.
IT WASN'T WORTH IT.
604
00:32:52,800 --> 00:32:56,133
Zsalynn: THIS IS AN UNHEALTHY
RELATIONSHIP FOR ANYONE.
605
00:32:56,133 --> 00:32:58,400
IT MAKES EVERYTHING HARDER.
606
00:33:02,367 --> 00:33:04,867
HUH?
607
00:33:04,867 --> 00:33:06,267
[ DOOR SLAMS ]
608
00:33:06,267 --> 00:33:10,800
Zsalynn:
I KNOW THAT MY RELATIONSHIP --
609
00:33:10,800 --> 00:33:13,233
I NEED TO MAKE A CHANGE,
610
00:33:13,233 --> 00:33:16,067
BUT I DON'T THINK I CAN DO
TWO HARD THINGS AT ONCE.
611
00:33:23,067 --> 00:33:24,600
Zsalynn: EVEN THOUGH I KNOW
612
00:33:24,600 --> 00:33:27,833
THERE ARE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE
WHO ARE GONNA BE AGAINST ME,
613
00:33:27,833 --> 00:33:29,567
I'M FINDING NEW WAYS
614
00:33:29,567 --> 00:33:32,067
TO MAKE THE MOST
OF THIS EXPERIENCE.
615
00:33:32,067 --> 00:33:34,267
BUT TO BEAT THIS ADDICTION
616
00:33:34,267 --> 00:33:37,200
IS THE HARDEST DAILY STRUGGLE
I HAVE.
617
00:33:50,833 --> 00:33:53,833
THIS IS THE LOWEST I'VE BEEN
IN A LONG TIME.
618
00:33:53,833 --> 00:33:55,533
I'M LESS THAN 400 POUNDS.
619
00:33:55,533 --> 00:33:59,600
NOW MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD
IS ALL ABOUT FUEL.
620
00:33:59,600 --> 00:34:03,100
THIS PACKET
HAS 18 GRAMS OF PROTEIN
621
00:34:03,100 --> 00:34:05,767
AND ONLY 80 CALORIES
FOR THE WHOLE PACKET.
622
00:34:05,767 --> 00:34:07,767
[ CAT MEOWS ]
623
00:34:07,767 --> 00:34:10,567
TUNA AND AVOCADO.
624
00:34:10,567 --> 00:34:13,567
IT TAKES WORK EVERY SINGLE DAY.
625
00:34:13,567 --> 00:34:16,667
THE FOOD CRAVINGS
ARE STILL THERE.
626
00:34:16,667 --> 00:34:18,933
I WOULD VERY, VERY EASILY
627
00:34:18,933 --> 00:34:22,600
BE ABLE TO GO BACK
TO THE PLACE I WAS AT.
628
00:34:22,600 --> 00:34:25,600
BUT I HAVE TO MOVE FORWARD
ONE STEP AT A TIME.
629
00:34:25,600 --> 00:34:29,767
HANNAH AND I HAVE A GOAL
OF DOING A 5K IN APRIL,
630
00:34:29,767 --> 00:34:32,133
SO I REALLY HAVE TO STAY
ON THE DIET,
631
00:34:32,133 --> 00:34:34,133
I HAVE TO CONTINUE
TO LOSE WEIGHT,
632
00:34:34,133 --> 00:34:37,533
STAY FOCUSED ON THIS WEIGHT LOSS
AND PHYSICAL FITNESS
633
00:34:37,533 --> 00:34:40,533
SO THAT OUR GOAL CAN BE REACHED.
634
00:34:40,533 --> 00:34:44,433
OKAY, SO, WE'RE GONNA HEAD UP
CEDAR FLATS TRAIL TODAY.
635
00:34:44,433 --> 00:34:46,433
AT EVERY BENCH,
WE'RE GONNA DO
636
00:34:46,433 --> 00:34:48,600
AN UPPER-BODY EXERCISE
TO REST YOUR LEGS.
637
00:34:48,600 --> 00:34:50,133
OKAY.
638
00:34:50,133 --> 00:34:51,867
THIS WILL BE
A REALLY GOOD VISUAL FOR YOU
639
00:34:51,867 --> 00:34:53,167
TO SEE
HOW MUCH YOU IMPROVED.
640
00:34:53,167 --> 00:34:54,267
OKAY.
641
00:34:54,267 --> 00:34:55,300
YESTERDAY MORNING,
642
00:34:55,300 --> 00:34:56,467
YOU GOT ON THE SCALE
AND WEIGHED HOW MUCH?
643
00:34:56,467 --> 00:34:57,633
399.
644
00:34:57,633 --> 00:34:59,300
THAT'S AWESOME.
645
00:34:59,300 --> 00:35:02,067
I WAS LIKE, "IF I COULD JUMP
FOR JOY, I WOULD."
646
00:35:02,067 --> 00:35:03,900
THERE YOU GO.
647
00:35:03,900 --> 00:35:06,100
OKAY, HAVE TO SLOW DOWN.
THAT'S ALL RIGHT.
648
00:35:06,100 --> 00:35:07,633
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
649
00:35:07,633 --> 00:35:08,833
GRAB THE HANDLES.
650
00:35:08,833 --> 00:35:10,833
WORK THE UPPER BODY
FOR ABOUT A MINUTE.
651
00:35:10,833 --> 00:35:12,300
CURL IT UP. GOOD.
652
00:35:12,300 --> 00:35:13,467
CURL IT UP.
BREATHE IT OUT.
653
00:35:13,467 --> 00:35:14,667
SLOW ON THAT RELEASE.
GOOD.
654
00:35:14,667 --> 00:35:17,467
I FEEL LIKE
I CAN FEEL FAT BURNING.
655
00:35:17,467 --> 00:35:18,733
THAT'S AWESOME.
656
00:35:20,800 --> 00:35:23,767
Zsalynn: IT FEELS SO GREAT,
AFTER WORKING OUT.
657
00:35:23,767 --> 00:35:26,467
THAT HALF-MILE WAS AMAZING.
658
00:35:26,467 --> 00:35:28,833
I'M HAPPY TO DRINK WATER,
659
00:35:28,833 --> 00:35:32,200
BUT EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE,
I DO STILL INDULGE.
660
00:35:32,200 --> 00:35:36,500
MAY I GET A LARGE
DIET DR. PEPPER, PLEASE?
661
00:35:36,500 --> 00:35:40,167
NO. NO, NO, NO.
NO FRIES.
662
00:35:40,167 --> 00:35:43,633
WELL, YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED
TO DRINK CARBONATION, BUT...
663
00:35:53,767 --> 00:35:56,767
...IT TASTES LIKE LIQUID GOLD.
664
00:35:56,767 --> 00:35:59,167
AND NOW IT'S GONNA HURT
FOR A MINUTE
665
00:35:59,167 --> 00:36:02,167
'CAUSE ALL OF THE AIR
IS IN MY LITTLE STOMACH.
666
00:36:02,167 --> 00:36:05,067
I HAVE TO BREAK DR. NOW'S RULES
667
00:36:05,067 --> 00:36:08,533
IN ORDER TO MAKE THIS DIET
REALLY SUCCESSFUL,
668
00:36:08,533 --> 00:36:12,633
'CAUSE, YOU KNOW, I DO STILL
HAVE TO LIVE AND ENJOY LIFE.
669
00:36:16,400 --> 00:36:18,400
GUESS HOW FAR I WALKED.
670
00:36:18,400 --> 00:36:20,833
UM, 3 FEET?
671
00:36:20,833 --> 00:36:22,267
10 FEET?
MOVE.
672
00:36:22,267 --> 00:36:24,400
GARETH HAS JUST BEEN
CHIPPING AWAY AT ME.
673
00:36:24,400 --> 00:36:27,367
Gareth: SO I GUESS YOU'RE GONNA
CRY ALL AFTERNOON NOW
674
00:36:27,367 --> 00:36:28,900
ABOUT YOUR LEGS
AND KNEES HURTING.
675
00:36:28,900 --> 00:36:30,533
YOU KNOW,
I LEARNED A LONG TIME AGO
676
00:36:30,533 --> 00:36:31,833
YOU CAN'T CHANGE OTHER PEOPLE.
677
00:36:31,833 --> 00:36:33,933
[ Sarcastically ]
YOU'RE SO SWEET, HONEY.
678
00:36:33,933 --> 00:36:36,533
THAT'S NICE.
679
00:36:36,533 --> 00:36:39,900
NOW I HAVE TO RELY ON MYSELF
FOR HAPPINESS.
680
00:36:51,067 --> 00:36:55,100
I'M GOING TO SEE DR. NOW,
AND HANNAH CAME WITH ME.
681
00:36:55,100 --> 00:36:56,533
HA.
682
00:36:56,533 --> 00:36:59,633
I HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH WEIGHT
I'VE LOST SINCE I WAS HERE LAST.
683
00:37:02,900 --> 00:37:04,567
OKAY.
684
00:37:06,400 --> 00:37:08,333
ARE YOU GONNA LOOK?
NOPE, I'M NOT LOOKING.
685
00:37:08,333 --> 00:37:11,900
Dr. Nowzaradan:
YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT.
686
00:37:11,900 --> 00:37:13,767
HOW MANY TIMES
ARE YOU EATING?
687
00:37:13,767 --> 00:37:16,333
THREE, SOMETIMES TWO TIMES
A DAY, NO SNACKING.
688
00:37:16,333 --> 00:37:17,767
WHAT ARE YOU DRINKING?
689
00:37:17,767 --> 00:37:18,933
WATER.
690
00:37:18,933 --> 00:37:20,500
MAYBE I HAVE
A DIET COKE...
691
00:37:20,500 --> 00:37:22,500
DIET COKE?
692
00:37:22,500 --> 00:37:24,633
ONCE A WEEK, MAYBE.
693
00:37:24,633 --> 00:37:26,967
DIET COKE IS NOT RECOMMENDED
AFTER BYPASS SURGERY.
694
00:37:26,967 --> 00:37:28,267
I KNOW. I DON'T --
695
00:37:28,267 --> 00:37:30,300
IT'S NOT SOMETHING
THAT I NORMALLY DO, RIGHT?
696
00:37:30,300 --> 00:37:33,067
WHAT DO I NORMALLY GET
WHEN WE GO SOMEWHERE?
697
00:37:33,067 --> 00:37:34,100
WATER.
698
00:37:34,100 --> 00:37:35,933
WATER OR TEA. YEAH.
699
00:37:43,267 --> 00:37:47,333
SOMEHOW YOU NEED TO SHARPEN UP
THESE EATING HABITS
700
00:37:47,333 --> 00:37:50,900
TO BE HEALTHY, LOW-CALORIE,
LOW-FAT DIET.
701
00:37:50,900 --> 00:37:52,600
THANK YOU, DR. NOW.
702
00:37:52,600 --> 00:37:53,867
BYE-BYE.
703
00:37:59,433 --> 00:38:02,233
LET'S GET OUT OF HERE,
PUMPKIN.
704
00:38:02,233 --> 00:38:04,100
Zsalynn: I THINK IN MY HEAD,
705
00:38:04,100 --> 00:38:05,167
"WHAT COULD YOU
HAVE DONE BETTER?
706
00:38:05,167 --> 00:38:06,233
YOU SHOULD HAVE
DONE THIS BETTER."
707
00:38:06,233 --> 00:38:08,567
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
ALL RIGHT.
708
00:38:08,567 --> 00:38:12,067
I HAVE TO DO IT.
I HAVE TO FIGURE IT OUT.
709
00:38:12,067 --> 00:38:13,067
NOT NOW. IN THE BACK.
710
00:38:18,067 --> 00:38:20,400
Zsalynn: I STILL HAVE TRIALS
AND TRIBULATIONS.
711
00:38:20,400 --> 00:38:22,167
I STILL HAVE STUFF
I'M GETTING ACCUSTOMED TO,
712
00:38:22,167 --> 00:38:24,833
BUT I DEFINITELY CAN LOOK
IN THE MIRROR
713
00:38:24,833 --> 00:38:27,867
AND BE OVERJOYED
WITH WHERE I'VE COME FROM.
714
00:38:35,200 --> 00:38:38,500
I REALIZE
THIS IS A LONG JOURNEY,
715
00:38:38,500 --> 00:38:42,133
BUT I HAVE TO STAY FOCUSED
SO THAT I CAN BE HEALTHY
716
00:38:42,133 --> 00:38:45,133
AND BE THE MOM
THAT HANNAH NEEDS ME TO BE.
717
00:38:46,700 --> 00:38:50,533
HANNAH IS DEFINITELY
MY BIGGEST MOTIVATION.
718
00:38:50,533 --> 00:38:53,967
DOING THINGS WITH HER
IS REALLY IMPORTANT.
719
00:38:53,967 --> 00:38:56,767
I CERTAINLY CAN FEEL
THE DIFFERENCE IN WHAT WE DO
720
00:38:56,767 --> 00:38:58,500
AND THE TIME WE SPEND TOGETHER.
721
00:38:58,500 --> 00:39:00,733
HANNAH, HAVE YOU EVER SEEN ME
SIT IN A SWING BEFORE?
722
00:39:00,733 --> 00:39:01,733
NO.
723
00:39:01,733 --> 00:39:04,167
A YEAR AGO,
I COULDN'T WALK THIS FAR
724
00:39:04,167 --> 00:39:05,933
AND PLAY WITH HANNAH
AT THE PLAYGROUND.
725
00:39:05,933 --> 00:39:08,100
I WOULD HAVE TO SIT ON THE OTHER
SIDE OF THE FENCE AND WATCH,
726
00:39:08,100 --> 00:39:12,700
SO IT FEELS AMAZING THAT
I CAN MAKE IT THIS FAR AND BACK.
727
00:39:12,700 --> 00:39:15,067
IT'S REALLY AMAZING.
728
00:39:18,067 --> 00:39:22,233
I'M GOING TO SEE DR. NOW
FOR MY APPOINTMENT.
729
00:39:22,233 --> 00:39:25,900
I HAVE NO IDEA
WHAT THE SCALE'S GONNA SAY.
730
00:39:25,900 --> 00:39:27,267
HELLO.
HEY.
731
00:39:27,267 --> 00:39:30,700
I JUST FEEL REALLY HEALTHY.
732
00:39:32,933 --> 00:39:35,667
THAT'S A BIG DIFFERENCE.
HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THAT?
733
00:39:35,667 --> 00:39:37,367
THAT'S AWESOME.
734
00:39:37,367 --> 00:39:39,867
Dr. Nowzaradan: YOU'RE DOING
EXCELLENT, EXCELLENT.
735
00:39:39,867 --> 00:39:41,533
FROM 600 POUNDS TO 350.
736
00:39:41,533 --> 00:39:43,367
IF YOU KEEP IT UP,
737
00:39:43,367 --> 00:39:45,067
PRETTY SOON YOU'RE GONNA BE
UNDER 200 POUNDS.
738
00:39:45,067 --> 00:39:46,067
YEAH, DEFINITELY.
739
00:39:46,067 --> 00:39:47,200
I'LL SEE YOU LATER.
740
00:39:47,200 --> 00:39:49,200
ALL RIGHT, SOUNDS GOOD.
THANK YOU.
741
00:39:49,200 --> 00:39:50,400
SHE FEELS GOOD.
SHE'S EATING GOOD.
742
00:39:50,400 --> 00:39:52,067
THANK YOU, JESUS.
743
00:39:52,067 --> 00:39:56,700
SHE'S GOING BACK ON TRACK
AND START MAKING PROGRESS AGAIN.
744
00:39:56,700 --> 00:39:59,633
Zsalynn: I'M PROUD OF MYSELF
EVERY SINGLE DAY.
745
00:39:59,633 --> 00:40:01,533
IT'S JUST LITTLE TINY VICTORIES
746
00:40:01,533 --> 00:40:04,400
THAT MAKES THIS JOURNEY
REALLY UNBELIEVABLE.
747
00:40:08,200 --> 00:40:10,500
HANNAH,
HOW'S YOUR HOMEWORK COMING?
748
00:40:10,500 --> 00:40:11,767
Hannah:
WE'RE DOING THIS ONE.
749
00:40:11,767 --> 00:40:14,000
AND WE'RE GONNA DO
THIS ONE NEXT.
750
00:40:14,000 --> 00:40:17,000
TODAY I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO A 5K,
751
00:40:17,000 --> 00:40:19,267
DOWNTOWN SAN ANTONIO
WITH HANNAH.
752
00:40:19,267 --> 00:40:21,700
UNFORTUNATELY,
I TWISTED MY ANKLE,
753
00:40:21,700 --> 00:40:27,000
AND NOW I'M LAID UP WITH THIS
BIG BOOT ON MY LEG AND CRUTCHES.
754
00:40:29,700 --> 00:40:33,567
I DON'T CONSIDER THIS DAY LOST,
EVEN THOUGH WE CAN'T DO THE 5K.
755
00:40:33,567 --> 00:40:36,933
WE'RE STILL JUST GONNA HANG OUT,
MAKE A HEALTHY DINNER,
756
00:40:36,933 --> 00:40:39,433
AND JUST MAKE THE BEST
OF THE DAY.
757
00:40:39,433 --> 00:40:40,933
WHERE DO I POUR IT?
758
00:40:40,933 --> 00:40:42,067
NOT YET.
759
00:40:42,067 --> 00:40:44,533
WE'RE GONNA MAKE
SPAGHETTI SQUASH
760
00:40:44,533 --> 00:40:46,367
WITH SOME CHICKEN BREASTS.
761
00:40:46,367 --> 00:40:48,400
Gareth: IS IT READY?
762
00:40:48,400 --> 00:40:50,900
IT SHOULD DEFINITELY
BE READY.
763
00:40:50,900 --> 00:40:53,667
IT ACTUALLY DON'T TASTE BAD.
I'M KIND OF SURPRISED.
764
00:40:53,667 --> 00:40:56,500
COOKING IS DEFINITELY NOT
YOUR FORTE IN LIFE.
765
00:40:56,500 --> 00:40:59,733
Zsalynn: I DON'T KNOW WHY
GARETH IS THE WAY HE IS.
766
00:40:59,733 --> 00:41:02,167
I THINK THERE MIGHT BE A POINT
IN OUR MARRIAGE
767
00:41:02,167 --> 00:41:04,133
WHEN I'M NOT ABLE
TO TAKE IT ANYMORE.
768
00:41:04,133 --> 00:41:07,767
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT POINT IS.
I DON'T KNOW.
769
00:41:07,767 --> 00:41:11,067
BUT WHEN I'M THERE,
I'LL KNOW IT.
770
00:41:11,067 --> 00:41:13,800
COME HERE, HANNAH,
LET ME BRUSH YOUR HAIR, BABE.
771
00:41:13,800 --> 00:41:17,067
SO, UNTIL THEN,
THE GREATEST JOY IN MY LIFE
772
00:41:17,067 --> 00:41:20,233
IS BEING
THIS LITTLE GIRL'S MOTHER.
773
00:41:20,233 --> 00:41:22,767
SHE'S THE REASON
I'M DOING ALL OF THIS.
774
00:41:29,533 --> 00:41:32,600
OH, MY GOD. THEY FIT.
775
00:41:32,600 --> 00:41:36,067
IT'S BEEN LIKE 7 YEARS SINCE
I'VE WORN A PAIR OF JEANS.
776
00:41:36,067 --> 00:41:38,133
GET MOVING, BABE, PLEASE.
777
00:41:38,133 --> 00:41:42,400
I'M REALLY EXCITED TO GO RIDING
HORSES WITH MY MOM TODAY.
778
00:41:42,400 --> 00:41:43,700
[ ENGINE TURNS OVER ]
779
00:41:43,700 --> 00:41:46,833
Zsalynn: THIS JOURNEY
IS A LONG, LONG ROAD, BUT...
780
00:41:46,833 --> 00:41:47,933
HELLO!
781
00:41:47,933 --> 00:41:49,067
...FOR HANNAH...
782
00:41:49,067 --> 00:41:50,967
HE JUST LICKED ME.
783
00:41:50,967 --> 00:41:53,167
...I FEEL LIKE
WE ARE ON THE RIGHT PATH.
784
00:41:53,167 --> 00:41:54,933
I'M SCARED
I'M GONNA FALL.
785
00:41:54,933 --> 00:41:56,700
YOU'LL BE FINE.
786
00:41:56,700 --> 00:41:58,800
I LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH
TO MAKE BETTER CHOICES...
787
00:41:58,800 --> 00:42:01,267
YOU CAN SMILE AND WAVE.
GIVE A LITTLE...
788
00:42:01,267 --> 00:42:03,233
...AND TO BE STRONGER.
BEAUTIFUL!
789
00:42:03,233 --> 00:42:06,167
Hannah:
IT'S GOOD TO HAVE MY MOM,
LIKE, EVERY STEP OF THE WAY,
790
00:42:06,167 --> 00:42:08,233
NOT JUST, LIKE, A FEW STEPS.
791
00:42:08,233 --> 00:42:10,500
I HAD FUN TODAY.
792
00:42:10,500 --> 00:42:12,233
I'M A WORK IN PROGRESS.
793
00:42:12,233 --> 00:42:14,700
BUT I HOPE THAT HANNAH LEARNS
794
00:42:14,700 --> 00:42:17,967
THAT NO MATTER WHAT
THE OBSTACLE,
795
00:42:17,967 --> 00:42:20,100
YOU CAN OVERCOME IT.
796
00:42:21,167 --> 00:42:23,200
LIFE IS AMAZING NOW.
797
00:42:23,200 --> 00:42:24,533
I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF.
798
00:42:24,533 --> 00:42:27,133
EVERY DAY IS A BRAND-NEW DAY,
799
00:42:27,133 --> 00:42:30,833
AND IT BRINGS BRAND-NEW,
AWESOME CHALLENGES.
800
00:42:30,833 --> 00:42:32,300
DO YOU WANT TO DO IT AGAIN?
801
00:42:32,300 --> 00:42:32,533
Hannah: YEAH.
59097
Can't find what you're looking for?
Get subtitles in any language from opensubtitles.com, and translate them here.
Afrikaans
Akan
Albanian
Amharic
Arabic
Armenian
Azerbaijani
Basque
Belarusian
Bemba
Bengali
Bihari
Bosnian
Breton
Bulgarian
Cambodian
Catalan
Cebuano
Cherokee
Chichewa
Chinese (Simplified)
Chinese (Traditional)
Corsican
Croatian
Czech
Danish
Dutch
English
Esperanto
Estonian
Faroese
Finnish
Galician
Georgian
German
Greek
Guarani
Haitian Creole
Hausa
Hawaiian
Hebrew
Hmong
Hungarian
Icelandic
Indonesian
Irish
Italian
Japanese
Kazakh
Kinyarwanda
Kirundi
Kongo
Korean
Krio (Sierra Leone)
Kurdish
Kyrgyz
Laothian
Latin
Latvian
Lithuanian
Luganda
Luo
Luxembourgish
Macedonian
Malagasy
Malay
Maltese
Maori
Mauritian Creole
Moldavian
Mongolian
Myanmar (Burmese)
Montenegrin
Nepali
Norwegian
Pashto
Persian
Polish
Portuguese (Brazil)
Portuguese (Portugal)
Quechua
Romanian
Romansh
Russian
Samoan
Scots Gaelic
Serbian
Sesotho
Setswana
Seychellois Creole
Shona
Sindhi
Sinhalese
Slovak
Slovenian
Somali
Spanish
Swedish
Tajik
Thai
Tigrinya
Tonga
Turkish
Turkmen
Ukrainian
Uzbek
Vietnamese
Welsh
Wolof