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Previously on The Real Housewives of
Beverly Hills.
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Dad and I are both walking in with you.
Yeah, you're going to walk me down.
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That's so crazy.
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My daughter, our daughter, is getting
married and we're not together.
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Okay, we're taking out eggs and the plan
is to fertilize them. If he doesn't
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have a child, which I know he really
wants, then what does that mean?
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This has to work.
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What's the actual...
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in every fair i actually thought the
whole mediation is so that this is not
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a huge loud public thing like it's
everywhere okay so i filed for divorce
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morning this is just to me a detail in
the process yes of moving forward so
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you're okay i'm great i'm great i know
rachel's saying that she's okay and
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fine but a part of it i think is just
putting on a brave face what did you
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about
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I started wondering, like, is her
talking to everyone going to end up
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the divorce in some kind of negative
way? Having an opinion from someone who
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doesn't know me.
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Can I be really, really honest?
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Bion died three years ago today, and I'm
holding on by a thread.
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What?
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Amanda, I'm so sorry you're going
through this. Just know. Touch me, man.
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see. Okay.
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I'd like to be able to have a
conversation with you. I need to be able
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a dinner party without being verbally
accosted.
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Well, you've got what I'm learning.
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Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa,
whoa. No, let me look at it.
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Accosted, I'm pretty sure is the right
word. Were you verbally accosted by me?
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That is how I experienced it.
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Approached and addressed boldly and
aggressively.
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Oh, my God. I can't even. Like, I know
what accosted means and the thing is. I
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heard that you had some concerns about
the way I was speaking about the father
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of my children.
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We can look up the chat GPT assistant
too.
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Who does Amanda think she's schooling?
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I don't see a single person here who has
a notepad out getting ready to write
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down what she's saying. Can you guys
talk a little louder?
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Do you think I approach you
aggressively?
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I do.
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We're in like another zip code. You guys
are perfectly hooked. We're in
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Calabasas. I want to know what's going
on.
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Welcome. Hi.
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Hello. I felt hurt and disappointed.
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That's all.
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I thought you were super, super sweet.
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It took me by surprise when I heard that
you were saying that behind my back. I
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didn't say anything behind your back.
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You could have just asked me, but you
didn't just ask me. You came at me with
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some pretty strong accusation and
aggression.
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And then when I told you it was the
anniversary of the death of my son, you
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didn't stop. You kept going.
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You kept going.
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You kept going.
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Amanda, I'm very sorry. I had no idea. I
told you. But I said, listen, I'm very
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sorry. I just wanted to have this
discussion because I had heard it.
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I just agreed with Kyle.
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They're talking about how he's parenting
and things like that. That worries me
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because there's no way he's not going to
hear about this down the road. No.
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It's going to spark a bigger fight and
he may retaliate. Adding fuel to the
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fire. Fuel to the fire.
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Kyle and I have known each other almost
a decade.
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Her having an opinion is one thing, but
you having the same opinion. I just
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agreed with her.
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What did you agree with? If last year
speaking about your ex's relationship
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alcohol was hard for you guys, then this
year speaking about his parenting style
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could also be hard. Kyle leading with, I
don't think she should be doing this,
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is a little peculiar. But that's
something with Kyle, and I'll deal with
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separately.
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What exactly is Kyle's point?
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of trying to color Amanda's image of me.
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She's not exactly talking to somebody
that has any idea who I am, no idea of
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situation, yet she's talking to Amanda
about her opinion about what I'm doing.
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The fact that you brought up how you
feel I'm behaving with regards to my
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divorce and speaking to my friends made
me...
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I want to question you. Why have a
judgment about somebody you don't know?
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you didn't question me. That's not
typically how you get down to people's
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thoughts is by getting really aggressive
with them.
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I wasn't trying to inquire about your
thoughts. I was trying to inquire about
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why you were talking behind my back and
judging me, especially about something
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as sensitive as my divorce.
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I have never in my entire life gone to a
dinner party and accused people of
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things and got aggressive with them. To
me, that was very strong.
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I'm sorry you thought it was strong, but
I'm in a place of openness, a place of
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transparency.
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So when I feel a certain way, I'm going
to be open and honest.
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You could have just said, Amanda, I hear
you have thoughts. Can you tell me
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more? You could have had curiosity.
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No, Amanda.
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I'm not going to say, I hear you have
thoughts. Can you tell me more? I'm just
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going to say, you said it behind my
back, and you're judging.
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Can I just say something really quickly?
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Going back to Tilly's house, you were
really upset. Like, I've never seen you
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cry. Exactly.
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Do you know what it's like to see my son
asking for my dad?
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He's asking for my dad, not his own
father, from my father. Do you know what
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that's like for me?
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You had very strong words, you know,
that night about PK, which was
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understandable. What strong words did I
have? You know, when you ask, I don't
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remember all the things. Well, then
don't say things like that. Don't say
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I didn't have strong words about him. I
had strong words about what I was going
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through. The things that Dorit is saying
about PK now is going to come back to
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him. PK, it's been a statement.
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Did he? He did.
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Dorit has made several
mischaracterizations about me, but the
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is the claim that I am a bad father.
That is deeply hurtful to me and, more
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importantly, to our children.
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It doesn't take a rocket scientist to
figure out that he may not like what
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you're saying.
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Why poke a bear?
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Right. So don't twist things. I'm not
twisting. I'm saying I don't recall
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exactly. Well, you are. But then if you
don't recall, then you really shouldn't
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be positioning it that way. Okay.
Because the way you positioned it is not
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nice way to position it. And it's not
actually true. Well, now you're
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hairs just because you don't want to get
into it. No, but you want splitting
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hairs. For me, it's the difference
between really big deal and nothing at
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Do you remember I said you... I was
talking about... Do you remember?
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When you and I had dinner and I said to
you, I don't think it's a good idea to
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bash the father of your children, why do
you think I said that? Do I remember
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that? Yes. You've not only made it a
point to say that to me at least a dozen
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times, but you're clearly actually
sharing it with a lot of other people.
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point is... So I can remember.
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If you let somebody else talk, okay,
calm down. That's so old. It's boring.
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I only have concerns because I don't
want it to be more complicated for you
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later. Because I care about you.
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If she really had concerns, she would
have told me in private once.
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Not gone behind my back and talked about
it over and over and over.
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This is not bashing you or talking bad
about you behind your back. It's
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literally because you don't want to
create more problems for yourself. Can I
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something?
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It's really hard in these moments to not
speak how you feel. Thank you, Rachel.
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I'm just being really honest. I
understand that in a perfect world, we
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high road every minute of our lives and
smile. I've done that for a really long
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time. And here's the thing.
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I don't think that anyone has any place
to
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judge.
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There are days where we're strongest.
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There are days where we want to scream
at the top of our lungs. And at the end
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of the day, because of our children,
because of our businesses, you have to
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always do the right thing. You have to
smile through everything and be as
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as hell every minute of the day. And
there are these moments where you need
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just vent.
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I think to then be sort of here through
other people that it's like, this may
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not be the right thing or like, I don't
think you should do that or whatever.
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It's like our friends, even if they feel
that way, sometimes it's like, don't
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tell us that right now because we feel
so right now anyway.
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That's all I'm saying.
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If you can't vent and be fully open,
honest and vulnerable and truthful,
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authentically real.
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with your friends, with your people,
then I don't know what a friendship is.
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By the way, honey, let me tell you
something.
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What you have kicked off and started is
what's really going to come back and
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kick me in the ass. You need to calm
down. Who are you mad at? You're mad at
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her, you're mad at me, you're mad at
your situation.
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What have I done? I wanted to be your
friend. Really?
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So now you're going to do the same thing
Sutton did last year at your house.
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You're not angry at me. You're angry at
your life. My life sucks right now. And
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I have zero tolerance for more bullshit.
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I'm allowed to have emotions, especially
when it is emotions, too. And we're
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also allowed to have opinions about
emotions. Should I be saying to you,
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down when you have emotions?
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You can if you feel that. Okay, but I
won't. That doesn't mean I will.
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you know what? It minimizes your
feelings in those moments.
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I think he seems so angry and
aggressive, and I think it's not. I
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God when Rachel actually stepped in and
spoke, which I'm shocked that that
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didn't land for you and go, oh, you know
what? No, it doesn't. It doesn't.
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Not at all. No, but I don't feel that.
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That's my point. That's my point.
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Kyle loves to talk about how she has no
issues with Mo, not with finances or
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communication. So maybe that's why she's
having such a difficult time
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understanding why.
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I'm sharing what I'm going through. PK
is venting to his friends, Moe and all
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his friends and family. Is he protecting
me? Is he protecting me? I don't know
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what PK is doing. I only care about you.
You know exactly what PK is doing,
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Kyle, because you speak to Moe and Moe
speaks to PK. You know exactly what PK
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saying. So don't pretend that you don't.
No, no, no. Is he protecting me? Don't
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put words in my mouth. What did I put in
your mouth?
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If you say it's old to keep saying let
people talk, then let people fucking
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talk.
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Exactly what PK is saying. So don't
pretend that you don't. You keep saying
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old. You keep saying let people talk.
Well, then let people f***ing talk.
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I only know Mo is saying that PK is
saying completely opposite things from
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you're saying. Okay? I didn't speak up
in that night at Tilly's purposely
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because I didn't want to be like, well,
that's not what PK is saying. I kept my
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mouth shut and what?
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I didn't say anything.
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I didn't say anything. I came to you
later privately and I said, listen, I
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don't want you to create more problems
for yourself.
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Grow up, Dorit. Is it okay? Grow up. No,
because I just want to make sure I'm
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giving you a chance to speak, but is it
okay?
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Kyle talking to Mauricio about Dorit and
PK is 100 % keeping Kyle in
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the middle. If I didn't care about you,
I didn't like you, I'd think it's a
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barrier or something. I don't care.
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The best thing Kyle could do for she and
Dorit's friendship is stay out of their
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divorce. I promise you, Kyle, the more
you talk to Mauricio about Dorit and PK,
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the worse it's going to be for you and
Dorit.
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I believe that, Kyle, it has your best
interests at heart. What you are saying
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is you are willing to assume the risk of
speaking publicly about what is
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happening. And everybody has to accept
that. This is a good birthday party.
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This is a very good birthday.
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But, Doreen, no one here at this table
wants anything bad to happen to you.
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Exactly. Listen, you don't think that my
saying that is because I cared about
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you? You remember your health that day
when I said that, Doreen? Kyle, listen
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me. Now you shut up. Now you shut up.
You shut up for two seconds.
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Doreen. Okay? Come on. Erica, stop it.
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I'm not going to. No, I mean, you guys
are friends and you need that. You guys
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are on a way to repair. I know you're
upset.
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No, I'm either one of you telling me
what I should or shouldn't do.
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I'd love for Erica to chime in and say,
Kyle, that's not cool.
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Kyle, that's not cool.
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That's not cool.
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When things are happening in my life and
I'm with my friends, just like I showed
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up to Tilly's.
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Very broken. You want me to show up and
pretend like everything is fine? No. I
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can't do that.
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It is clear to me, based on some of the
dynamics tonight, that this is a
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communication style I am very not used
to. I mean, even had it not been the
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anniversary of Zion's death, I still
would have not liked being approached
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way. But here's the thing, Amanda. You
can't be in charge of how people want to
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respond. So that's an adult thing to
understand.
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You don't ever set boundaries with
people around how they can and can't
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you? Well, how am I going to enforce
that?
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That sounds crazy.
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You can't walk around the planet
thinking that everybody's going to agree
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you. In my 40 years of life, I have
never left a dinner party crying.
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I thought you ran away from a cult.
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I did.
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To read. Okay.
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To read. No, I'm just curious. I did
leave a cult. I mean, what does the cult
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have to do with anything?
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This woman disrespected me and my son on
the anniversary of his death, and now
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she wants to bring up that I'm in a
cult?
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She's just scraping the bottom of the
barrel for anything she thinks will make
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me look bad.
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A cult?
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What kind?
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That's a whole different story.
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We can absolutely get to that anytime.
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I mean, I have an open book anytime.
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I knew that. I Googled Amanda just like
I Googled everybody in the group. I know
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all the history of Amanda. It's all out
there. I've read it everywhere.
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Even the people in the group that are
saying, oh, I never Googled anybody. We
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all Google everybody.
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It's like Meghan Markle saying, I never
Googled Prince Harry before I dated him.
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It's like, Meghan, please.
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You sort of maintain that you've lived a
life where intense interactions have
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happened.
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You're saying if you're in a cult, like,
intense interactions would be
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happening. I would imagine there's far
worse events than what happened the
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night. Far, far worse.
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I'm not saying it's worse than what ever
happened to me. I woke up. Let me
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finish. Let me finish.
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I woke up about every 30 minutes all
night long with my heart beating very
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My body interpreted that evening as a
physiological threat. Girl.
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Why are you shaking your head at that? I
mean, your expectations of not having
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confrontation in the way that you don't
like is unrealistic.
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That's true. So you need to understand
that and also accept that. But can there
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be disagreements without conflict? No.
You disagree, you sit, you speak, you
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have the intention to really hear each
other, and there's not a huge conflict.
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Girl, what are you talking about?
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No. How?
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Is this human experience?
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What fantasy world is Amanda living in?
Because in this reality, we've got to
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have real conversations that push edges,
that address conflict, that make us
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uncomfortable. Because I don't know any
world in which Amanda thinks that she's
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the sole power to be able to control how
people feel.
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We cannot control how people speak to us
or how people react to us. We can only
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control how we react to other things.
And trust me, if I could control how
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people speak to me, life would be a lot
different.
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Hallelujah.
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I know verbal assault.
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Listen,
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I'm in a vulnerable state today. I'm on
fire.
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Sorry.
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I mean, today's been an emotional day.
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The media is spiraling about my divorce,
and I was completely blindsided by
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that. It's not like, oh, my God, I'm so
sad. I wish I was still married.
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It's like, it's none of that.
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It's just all lies.
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Guys, I feel like an in -taking time
bomb about to explode right now. But I
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to really stay in, you know, gratitude
and strength all the time.
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And sometimes it just causes a crack.
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She was fiery. Are you? Wait, let me see
your eyes. Oh, no.
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What's going on with Rachel?
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For all of the stoicism, for all of the
professionalism, for all the fabulosity,
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she is human.
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And so this divorce is going to cut
really deep.
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I'm holding you together all the time.
Okay, you don't have to hold anything,
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honey.
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You don't.
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It's like you've been listening to
Amanda.
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It's like, is anything I said in
honesty?
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Is that going to like blow up in my
face?
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And I'm like, you know what?
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It's not okay. It's not like I can't. I
wrote every minute of my life. You don't
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have to.
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And it's like sometimes you just.
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I need to break.
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Yeah. And I break in my closet.
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And I break in my bathroom.
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And I break to my sister.
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Yeah. And, like, I make, like, 100
decisions a day, you know, between my
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my kids' life, my work life. At some
point, you just are paralyzed with
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exhaustion and just feeling overwhelmed.
And sometimes you've just got to break
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in your closet, at least surround
yourself with Chanel, for God's sake,
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know.
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That'll always make me smile.
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And it's like, are people going to
judge?
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And then you get judged. You shouldn't
be breaking because, oh, my God, it's
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going to come back to bite you in the
ass.
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But you.
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Then why are we worried about the
judgment?
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God forbid you actually don't hold it
together every two seconds. You don't
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have to tell me. I know that. I live it.
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It's hard enough to go through a
separation, divorce, grief, and hold it
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together. I had to put on a brave face
for my daughter while I grieved her
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father.
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And for me, a lot of the outlet was
having my friends who would not judge
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who would allow me to cry, who would
allow me to scream, and also give me the
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grace to be able to do it in a way that
was comfortable for me.
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It's like one step forward, two steps
back, but that's right now and I can't
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deal. It was a bad night. We need to
just leave it alone.
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I can't feel like my friend thinks that
every time I'm trying to help her that
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I'm actually trying to hurt her. And
she's in such a negative... place right
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that if we're going to be able to work
on our friendship, I can't do this with
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her like this.
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I need to see her change a little bit.
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Oh, wait, wait, wait.
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Put it back in the kitchen.
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Back in the kitchen. Back in the
kitchen.
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No, I want to leave. Okay.
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I'll go get her. I'll go get her.
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Hold on.
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Hold on. Hold on. Happy birthday to you.
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I hated this night, to be honest.
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It was annoying. I was looking cute.
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Happy birthday to you. Thank you. One,
two, three.
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Oh, this is probably the wrong time, but
Kyle brought out the cake since she
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wants you to come blow out your cake.
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I love everyone at that table. I can't
go anywhere. That's fine.
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I'm tired.
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And she's tired. I get it. I'm tired.
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I'm telling you.
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When I come play tennis with me in the
morning.
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I forget what I have to do tomorrow.
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And I wanted a hot girl somewhere and
I'm not having one at all.
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I'm having the opposite.
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Coming up.
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Hi, Dr. Duke. Hey, Dr. Duke. How are
you? Well, guys, we have an update on
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embryo. I know that there are embryos
who could become children.
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Oh, man.
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Okay.
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I've got a lot of things to say.
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I've been through a lot of challenges
from when I was young up until now. I've
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fallen. I've picked myself up.
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And I feel like it's the right time to
write a book.
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Oh!
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How do you like it?
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You also get a T -shirt. Yay!
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You deserve it.
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Hi,
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sweet boy.
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It is?
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I can already see the first issue. Is
there an elevator?
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Wait, no, for real, though.
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Hi. Nice to meet you. I'm Jen. Hi, I'm
Chloe.
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Hi, Chloe. Nice to meet you. Welcome,
welcome. Hi, Jen. Hi, Chloe.
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Kyle. Nice to meet you. Nice to meet
you. Welcome.
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It's a special place.
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We were just saying, you don't feel like
you're in L .A. at all.
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Right. Well, that's what she loves about
it.
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The wedding is a month away, so today
we're doing the final walkthrough so we
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can officially lock it in.
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Well, she was going to get married in
Aspen, and it proved to be too
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for multiple reasons.
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So she wanted something with the vibe,
you know, rustic and ranch vibe.
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We have alpacas.
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Oh, my God.
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As much as I would love to just change
the date maybe, the invitation already
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went out. That would be bad juju.
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There she is. What are you freaking out
about?
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No, I was talking about how you like the
moped with the tin can invitation.
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Oh, please. It was cute.
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You little cutie pie.
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I have an invitation, so it's a
paperless post.
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I went very classic and texted it to
most people.
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I'm worried about my sister Kathy even
seeing this text message.
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I mean, unless she gets a big envelope
delivered to her house, is she even
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to know what's going on?
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Hello.
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Hello. Oh, did you miss the link for the
moon board, Kathy?
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Shocker. What if she shows up in like, I
don't know, an orange dress?
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How are you? Good, how are you?
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I'm good.
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I'm the bride.
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Okay.
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Oh, my God, this is amazing. I love it.
We're going to be partying all night
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long in this room. Yeah, this room is
really cool.
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100%. Then we've got a really great
sound system, which is set up for vinyl,
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which is really fun. Well, now Dad's
taking DJ lessons.
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Let him do the party.
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Don't get me started.
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That's a hard no for me and a hard no
for Alexia.
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Are you doing this so you can have a big
debut at the wedding?
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No. I love music, and I have time on my
hands, so why not take on a new hobby?
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We already have enough rumors about you
going through a midlife crisis. Do you
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have to add fuel to the fire?
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His DJ name is going to be Momentum.
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Okay, let's go. Okay, so up next is
where we do the ceremony.
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I'm visualizing all the trees, and I'm
seeing myself in the middle of all of
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that. I like that. Wait, where are we
doing cocktails?
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Over there. Right, yeah. Should it be
here as well?
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We would have to do a build -out on that
for sure.
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It cannot accommodate 200.
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That'll increase the budget too.
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Alexia doesn't like the B word.
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No, that's a bad word. She said that the
B word wakes her up in the middle of
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the night, so please refrain from using
the B word with our child.
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Well, originally, Alexia wanted like 150
people, and that number has grown a
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lot. Of course, there's a ceiling to the
budget.
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Obviously, in the six figures would be
ideal.
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She is our first child getting married.
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I've got to take care of three of them.
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You know, it's his first daughter
getting married.
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We're going to exceed our unlimited
budget.
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Just pay for this.
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What do we need to do to lock it all
down and finalize everything so we can
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the show on the road? Because I'm
getting stressed with a little.
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There we go.
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You guys are ready to sign and send a
deposit.
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Let's go. I mean, I think it's perfect.
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Coming up.
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I was worried about you the other night.
It was not myself to begin with. And
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then Dorit's getting judged for
breaking.
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I need to know that I'm not being
judged.
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Hi, Ned. How are you? Hi, I'm good.
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Are you behaving?
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Always. Honey, I'm home.
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Come on in.
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Oh, my goodness. Hi. Are you going to
get a drip or a shot?
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I'll do a shot. Okay, great. I don't do
drips.
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I don't have good veins.
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Wait, is it in you?
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Kathy's a very unique person. In some
ways, she reminds me of my mother. Just
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sweet and so supportive.
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Do you want something? Do you want wine
or do you want... A little wine.
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White, white. Great. Thank you so much.
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Like, I remember at my dinner party
being like, where's Kathy?
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She's on the table.
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One of the girls is like, she's at the
caviar table.
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What do we have over here?
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Caviar. Of course we do.
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Oh, no.
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00:27:12,800 --> 00:27:13,800
What, what?
453
00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:17,620
A little more caviar. A little more
caviar. And leave it all over the place.
454
00:27:17,620 --> 00:27:20,780
by the time she sat down, she's like, I
just ate so much caviar, I'm just not
455
00:27:20,780 --> 00:27:23,580
even hungry. And I was like, that is
what my mother would do.
456
00:27:24,120 --> 00:27:25,120
You know, Paula.
457
00:27:25,620 --> 00:27:27,520
How are you? Nice to see you.
458
00:27:28,140 --> 00:27:29,200
I just died.
459
00:27:29,480 --> 00:27:31,540
I was worried about you the other night.
460
00:27:32,240 --> 00:27:38,020
It was interesting. Okay, so basically,
I saw Page Six. I saw Us Weekly. I'm
461
00:27:38,020 --> 00:27:39,360
like, what is happening?
462
00:27:39,680 --> 00:27:45,060
In my mind, Kathy, I'm doing this as a
mediation intentionally, quietly, so
463
00:27:45,060 --> 00:27:50,800
this doesn't happen and that my kids
don't have to hear it. I just don't want
464
00:27:50,800 --> 00:27:53,140
kids dealing with any of this.
465
00:27:53,530 --> 00:27:58,810
And rightfully so, right? Like, hi, how
are you? How are you? I'm good, thank
466
00:27:58,810 --> 00:28:03,190
you. We're going to be doing a niagen IV
today, the niagen shot. We're doing
467
00:28:03,190 --> 00:28:07,010
magnesium. Right. No, no, no, it's
better for you. We're doing a bunch
468
00:28:07,010 --> 00:28:08,190
This is way better.
469
00:28:08,470 --> 00:28:11,930
Yeah. I just have, like, bad veins, so I
just don't. I know.
470
00:28:12,450 --> 00:28:17,050
Thank you so much. Honestly, Kathy,
like, I just was not myself to begin
471
00:28:17,090 --> 00:28:21,770
And then I was, like, down at the end of
the table, Dorit's getting judged.
472
00:28:22,440 --> 00:28:24,400
For breaking in this group.
473
00:28:24,740 --> 00:28:29,580
Right. And I think it was just the
breaking point for me because I need to
474
00:28:29,580 --> 00:28:33,500
that I'm not being judged because being
judged really sucks.
475
00:28:34,140 --> 00:28:35,140
You want support.
476
00:28:35,360 --> 00:28:39,520
You want support. So what I was saying
is, guys, are you judging what I'm
477
00:28:39,520 --> 00:28:42,220
right now? Am I not safe to speak freely
here?
478
00:28:42,980 --> 00:28:48,320
I don't think it's that we don't want or
value other people's opinion. I just
479
00:28:48,320 --> 00:28:51,720
think everyone in this group, whether
they agree or not.
480
00:28:52,080 --> 00:28:55,860
With how she's handling it, they need to
just be here to hold her and cheer for
481
00:28:55,860 --> 00:28:56,860
her. That's it.
482
00:28:57,340 --> 00:28:59,120
It's grace. There needs to be grace.
483
00:29:00,000 --> 00:29:01,000
Honestly,
484
00:29:01,220 --> 00:29:05,300
I miss my family so much. Right. I
really... You need them now. I do. I
485
00:29:05,300 --> 00:29:08,600
need to go out. You know, I'm always in
the Hamptons all summer and in Europe
486
00:29:08,600 --> 00:29:13,220
and obviously working all summer now in
LA, which is new for me. And I think
487
00:29:13,220 --> 00:29:15,060
it's like starting to affect my whole...
488
00:29:15,260 --> 00:29:16,059
Mental health.
489
00:29:16,060 --> 00:29:16,859
It is.
490
00:29:16,860 --> 00:29:19,460
Like, I actually, like, I need to go
out. I need to laugh.
491
00:29:19,720 --> 00:29:23,300
Right. And have a hot girl. I need, I
mean, listen, it's not the south of
492
00:29:23,300 --> 00:29:26,200
France, but it's as close as we're going
to get right now. That's right. Just be
493
00:29:26,200 --> 00:29:29,280
careful. Are you scared I'm going to
make out with a cute boy or something?
494
00:29:30,160 --> 00:29:31,160
What's bad about that?
495
00:29:46,480 --> 00:29:47,479
Get in here.
496
00:29:47,480 --> 00:29:51,880
Hi, Dr. Duke. Hey, Dr. Duke. How are
you? Good, good, good. How are you?
497
00:29:52,560 --> 00:29:54,500
I'm good, I'm good. Happy Thursday.
498
00:29:54,780 --> 00:29:56,460
Happy Thursday. Happy Thursday.
499
00:29:58,940 --> 00:30:02,240
Well, guys, we have updates on the
embryos.
500
00:30:03,820 --> 00:30:10,240
Okay. I have even more intense feelings
today than I did when the eggs were
501
00:30:10,240 --> 00:30:11,240
retrieved.
502
00:30:13,860 --> 00:30:14,860
You did great.
503
00:30:19,140 --> 00:30:20,720
I am more anxious.
504
00:30:20,960 --> 00:30:22,080
I am more excited.
505
00:30:22,360 --> 00:30:26,400
I am more nervous. I am more fearful.
I'm more joyful.
506
00:30:26,900 --> 00:30:31,920
All of those feelings have intensified
because I know that there are embryos
507
00:30:31,920 --> 00:30:32,920
could become children.
508
00:30:33,600 --> 00:30:34,600
Oh, man.
509
00:30:34,680 --> 00:30:36,640
All of my emotions are on high.
510
00:30:36,970 --> 00:30:41,830
We had two eggs. Both were successfully
fertilized with sperm.
511
00:30:42,030 --> 00:30:48,010
Ideally, the sixth day, we would want to
see what's called a blastocyst. It's
512
00:30:48,010 --> 00:30:52,010
like a tiny planet that's capable of
implanting in the womb.
513
00:30:52,610 --> 00:30:56,330
Unfortunately, neither has made it to
the blastocyst stage.
514
00:30:58,290 --> 00:31:00,350
Is this entirely unexpected?
515
00:31:00,990 --> 00:31:03,870
No. Is it sad and disappointing?
516
00:31:04,230 --> 00:31:05,230
Yes.
517
00:31:07,440 --> 00:31:12,580
I feel really overwhelmed. Right now, I
can barely hear anything else beyond the
518
00:31:12,580 --> 00:31:16,220
roar in my ears that this hasn't worked.
519
00:31:16,660 --> 00:31:21,220
The biggest egg factor, unfortunately,
is the age of the eggs. What we can do
520
00:31:21,220 --> 00:31:25,760
try to support them, but there's nothing
we can do to restructure eggs.
521
00:31:26,340 --> 00:31:31,360
The big question now is any openness to
the idea of using eggs from someone
522
00:31:31,360 --> 00:31:32,360
younger.
523
00:31:42,740 --> 00:31:48,660
All of the hopes and dreams and
aspirations that I had for these two
524
00:31:48,660 --> 00:31:53,620
embryos that I had already started to
picture who they were going to become
525
00:31:53,620 --> 00:31:57,620
gone. Are we still scheduled for the
second round?
526
00:31:58,020 --> 00:32:02,760
Yeah, it's up to you guys ultimately,
but I want her continuing the daily
527
00:32:03,040 --> 00:32:04,840
the supplements, the vitamins.
528
00:32:05,080 --> 00:32:07,400
It feels like grief.
529
00:32:07,760 --> 00:32:12,980
It feels like losing a baby because
that's how I envision them.
530
00:32:13,300 --> 00:32:18,160
And so these aren't just inanimate
objects out in the world.
531
00:32:18,540 --> 00:32:21,200
These are Keely and I's babies.
532
00:32:21,520 --> 00:32:24,260
Okay, she's coming back. Okay, she's
back.
533
00:32:24,540 --> 00:32:25,540
All right.
534
00:32:25,940 --> 00:32:27,560
Just need to get some tissue.
535
00:32:28,000 --> 00:32:29,000
That's all right. Yeah.
536
00:32:29,200 --> 00:32:30,200
All right.
537
00:32:30,420 --> 00:32:32,480
Thank you, Dr. Deuce.
538
00:32:33,080 --> 00:32:39,880
I think knowing that doing all of that
539
00:32:39,880 --> 00:32:46,740
again may not result in great eggs
again, you know, is
540
00:32:46,740 --> 00:32:48,640
what is disappointing to me.
541
00:32:49,540 --> 00:32:53,660
We'll cross that bridge when we get
there, okay? Right now, let's just focus
542
00:32:53,660 --> 00:32:56,300
being as healthy as we can, right? For
this next round.
543
00:32:56,660 --> 00:32:58,580
I need some breakfast. I need something
to eat.
544
00:32:58,800 --> 00:32:59,539
All right.
545
00:32:59,540 --> 00:33:00,820
Same, same, same.
546
00:33:01,120 --> 00:33:02,420
Okay. I'm out.
547
00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:03,640
Oh.
548
00:33:10,980 --> 00:33:11,980
Coming up.
549
00:33:12,400 --> 00:33:16,320
Isn't a cult, like, something you don't
want to actually say that you're a part
550
00:33:16,320 --> 00:33:17,740
of? It's not a good thing.
551
00:33:18,490 --> 00:33:19,790
There's something amiss.
552
00:33:20,210 --> 00:33:21,570
Let's see the chip.
553
00:33:39,650 --> 00:33:41,630
Hi. Hi,
554
00:33:42,430 --> 00:33:43,430
honey.
555
00:33:49,100 --> 00:33:52,540
Hi. This color is so pretty on you.
Thank you.
556
00:33:52,820 --> 00:33:54,540
I'm not getting up because I'm lazy.
557
00:33:56,880 --> 00:33:59,440
Can I get a drink started or any
appetizers?
558
00:34:00,360 --> 00:34:03,980
Is it the Cunard Grigio dryer or the
Sancerre? The Sancerre. I would have a
559
00:34:03,980 --> 00:34:06,860
glass of that. I'm going to order a few
appetizers. Just order anything.
560
00:34:07,100 --> 00:34:10,620
Okay. Spicy tuna crisp. They have a
vegan roll, you guys.
561
00:34:10,820 --> 00:34:12,719
Let's do that. I mean, a solid wine.
562
00:34:13,120 --> 00:34:14,520
A baby green salad? A dressing, yeah.
563
00:34:14,820 --> 00:34:16,199
Perfect. Thank you so much.
564
00:34:16,730 --> 00:34:19,929
Do I look like I slept one hour? No. No,
you don't.
565
00:34:21,510 --> 00:34:23,790
First of all, where did you go?
566
00:34:24,010 --> 00:34:25,010
Where did I go?
567
00:34:25,190 --> 00:34:28,130
I've just heard that you said it behind
my back, and you're judging.
568
00:34:28,949 --> 00:34:31,810
Sutton's the one who told me that Amanda
was talking behind my back.
569
00:34:32,270 --> 00:34:33,710
She's the one who started this show.
570
00:34:34,010 --> 00:34:35,310
Let me tell you what she said about you.
571
00:34:35,670 --> 00:34:40,610
Oh, gosh. She's concerned that you're
talking too much about the divorce and
572
00:34:40,610 --> 00:34:44,070
that it might come back to bite you. But
instead of calling Amanda out for
573
00:34:44,070 --> 00:34:46,210
lying... She was radio silent.
574
00:34:47,630 --> 00:34:49,230
You are very strong.
575
00:34:49,830 --> 00:34:51,969
You fight your own battles really well.
576
00:34:52,409 --> 00:34:55,350
No, I didn't want you to fight my
battle. Amanda,
577
00:34:56,510 --> 00:35:00,410
she basically is echoing how Kyle feels.
Here's the thing, though. She made it
578
00:35:00,410 --> 00:35:02,330
out at Kathy's.
579
00:35:02,590 --> 00:35:08,470
She was asked, what did you and Kyle
talk about when you got together? No,
580
00:35:08,470 --> 00:35:14,330
had an opinion. She did say, oh, he's a
raging alcoholic, and he didn't like
581
00:35:14,330 --> 00:35:17,140
that. But if it's true... Well, still.
582
00:35:17,680 --> 00:35:20,240
Maybe you shouldn't say it about the
father of your children.
583
00:35:22,320 --> 00:35:25,780
I'm sorry. I thought that that was clear
that she had an opinion.
584
00:35:26,180 --> 00:35:28,000
Was it a loud and strong opinion?
585
00:35:29,700 --> 00:35:34,520
She's basically playing this down like,
Dorit, you're taking this too far.
586
00:35:34,800 --> 00:35:39,020
This was a nothing thought. She had her
own opinion about it. But I have to say,
587
00:35:39,120 --> 00:35:42,140
it was pretty ballsy to punch it to Kyle
last night.
588
00:35:42,890 --> 00:35:48,670
When you do not own something, all it
does is enrage the other person.
589
00:35:48,950 --> 00:35:54,850
What I'm doing in that situation is, I'm
sorry, I barely know you. I gave my
590
00:35:54,850 --> 00:35:57,690
opinion. I was probably out of line. I
apologize.
591
00:35:58,370 --> 00:36:01,610
And going forward, I will keep my
thoughts to myself.
592
00:36:02,470 --> 00:36:05,970
If someone owns it and apologizes, you
can't keep it going.
593
00:36:06,170 --> 00:36:10,590
Okay, but, but, but. It's like, no. They
took it on the chin. They said it. I
594
00:36:10,590 --> 00:36:12,050
mean, this isn't hard.
595
00:36:13,390 --> 00:36:14,470
It's called being an adult.
596
00:36:14,990 --> 00:36:21,890
I was waiting for Kyle to be like,
Amanda, stop putting this on me because
597
00:36:21,890 --> 00:36:25,030
this has nothing to do with me. This is
your opinion.
598
00:36:27,790 --> 00:36:30,810
This weather is so perfect. It's so
good. It's such a nice day.
599
00:36:31,190 --> 00:36:34,590
You did a really beautiful job on the
house, by the way. Thank you. So
600
00:36:34,590 --> 00:36:39,690
beautiful. My life is so peaceful, like
with my family. These friendships are
601
00:36:39,690 --> 00:36:41,390
the only things not really feeling
peaceful.
602
00:36:41,899 --> 00:36:46,180
I genuinely believed that Dorit and I
could easily clear the air around this.
603
00:36:46,340 --> 00:36:48,920
But now I don't know what the f*** to
think. I have to get something out of my
604
00:36:48,920 --> 00:36:49,960
shoe. Can you set it up for me one
second?
605
00:36:50,300 --> 00:36:51,360
She doesn't want to resolve.
606
00:36:51,980 --> 00:36:53,060
She doesn't want to understand.
607
00:36:53,760 --> 00:36:56,020
She doesn't want to see where each other
is coming from.
608
00:36:56,500 --> 00:36:58,440
And she didn't even apologize.
609
00:36:59,320 --> 00:37:00,440
It was so...
610
00:37:02,190 --> 00:37:05,970
It's stressful, and like that whole
dinner from the beginning, and it's
611
00:37:05,970 --> 00:37:06,970
just was so annoyed.
612
00:37:07,010 --> 00:37:10,550
The energy she was directing at me, she
switched it to you and then switched it
613
00:37:10,550 --> 00:37:14,750
back to me. My frustration with Dorit
is, both could say the exact same thing
614
00:37:14,750 --> 00:37:18,230
that I said, and she would have a
completely different reaction than she
615
00:37:18,230 --> 00:37:21,370
I say it. If he wants to go to Florida
in a hotel, let them do that. They don't
616
00:37:21,370 --> 00:37:23,410
have to go with your parents. Who do you
think you understand, Kyle?
617
00:37:23,970 --> 00:37:28,010
You need to let him be the bearer of the
bad news. Exactly.
618
00:37:29,860 --> 00:37:33,600
You told me you experienced him as a
good father, so I see how you could be
619
00:37:33,600 --> 00:37:38,280
conflicted. Regardless of what I know or
don't know and all that, I still stand
620
00:37:38,280 --> 00:37:41,720
by the fact that it's smarter just to
not put the stuff out there.
621
00:37:42,120 --> 00:37:44,200
But I think she's so angry, she doesn't
care.
622
00:37:44,620 --> 00:37:48,540
Dorit is completely blinded to any help
or advice that I want to offer as her
623
00:37:48,540 --> 00:37:49,359
friend right now.
624
00:37:49,360 --> 00:37:53,680
And I don't know if there's a way to get
back on track until she's in a better
625
00:37:53,680 --> 00:37:55,820
place. I don't think she's open to that.
626
00:37:56,060 --> 00:37:58,900
I think she's too angry right now with
everything.
627
00:37:59,560 --> 00:38:03,660
It's so crazy to me how everything
switched. I had such a good time.
628
00:38:03,860 --> 00:38:06,580
I was getting to know both, talking
about entrepreneurship.
629
00:38:07,040 --> 00:38:12,600
Really, it was kind of like a self
-empowerment girlfriend pep talk. And
630
00:38:12,600 --> 00:38:14,420
seemed really into it and receptive.
631
00:38:14,860 --> 00:38:17,940
I have no idea when we flip.
632
00:38:20,840 --> 00:38:24,940
All I've heard is about her business.
I've not heard anything about...
633
00:38:25,490 --> 00:38:27,270
Her past, her upbringing.
634
00:38:27,630 --> 00:38:29,410
Like, I want to know more about the
cult.
635
00:38:29,630 --> 00:38:32,470
That was insane. I just want you to
know. I was not armed for that. The cult
636
00:38:32,470 --> 00:38:35,710
part? I just wasn't armed for it. It's
okay to talk about it because it's on
637
00:38:35,710 --> 00:38:40,810
website. You guys, am I an idiot? Like,
isn't cult like something you don't want
638
00:38:40,810 --> 00:38:43,790
to actually say that you're a part of?
Maybe if you survived it.
639
00:38:44,150 --> 00:38:45,530
She claims to be very open and
transparent.
640
00:38:45,850 --> 00:38:46,850
But the term cult.
641
00:38:47,030 --> 00:38:48,190
It's not a good thing.
642
00:38:48,970 --> 00:38:52,730
There's something amiss. And I would
like to know and understand Amanda.
643
00:38:53,900 --> 00:38:55,560
It's not what you see, it's what you
get.
644
00:38:55,880 --> 00:39:01,040
At the end of the day, this is a process
of it's going to roll out who she
645
00:39:01,040 --> 00:39:05,040
actually really is. And I think we have
the right to ask those questions.
646
00:39:07,220 --> 00:39:08,220
Let's hear the truth.
647
00:39:19,900 --> 00:39:21,200
There's something amiss.
648
00:39:22,540 --> 00:39:24,160
Not what you see is what you get.
649
00:39:25,480 --> 00:39:32,200
What do you think that we can do to make
her feel more
650
00:39:32,200 --> 00:39:35,320
open to tell us stuff like, how'd you
end up in a cult?
651
00:39:35,540 --> 00:39:41,240
And how did you escape? I can do that.
How can we make her feel more included?
652
00:39:42,320 --> 00:39:47,180
Amanda is an enigma to me. It seems very
quiet.
653
00:39:49,140 --> 00:39:50,640
But what's going on?
654
00:39:51,180 --> 00:39:52,180
in there.
655
00:39:52,980 --> 00:39:58,680
I do want to know the story of your
business. That's exciting to me. You're
656
00:39:58,680 --> 00:40:01,060
self -made entrepreneur.
657
00:40:01,640 --> 00:40:03,600
You're killing it. That's awesome.
658
00:40:04,340 --> 00:40:08,220
But that could be a deflection because
she identifies herself as her business.
659
00:40:09,380 --> 00:40:10,380
Do you understand?
660
00:40:10,500 --> 00:40:13,240
Because a lot of people do that. When
you have a successful business, some
661
00:40:13,240 --> 00:40:18,760
people are trying to hide and they go,
the work is their identity.
662
00:40:19,080 --> 00:40:23,780
All I can do is share my truth right i
thought it was vulnerable and authentic
663
00:40:23,780 --> 00:40:29,280
for me to say that i have never left a
dinner party crying before that i woke
664
00:40:29,280 --> 00:40:32,620
through the night with my heart beating
out of my chest i was just sharing what
665
00:40:32,620 --> 00:40:38,340
was real for me and she brought up the
most random irrelevant it was like she's
666
00:40:38,340 --> 00:40:42,800
trying to dig up dirt but there was no
dirt there i'm not hiding the cult story
667
00:40:42,800 --> 00:40:46,740
i'm not hiding anything about my life at
some point i'm gonna have to hear more
668
00:40:46,740 --> 00:40:48,100
about this cult anytime
669
00:40:49,450 --> 00:40:52,650
I'm actually a wealth of information
about cult. I mean, yeah, sure.
670
00:40:53,030 --> 00:40:57,650
Looking at Amanda, she doesn't exactly
scream cult member, but by doing this
671
00:40:57,650 --> 00:41:03,870
deep dive on Amanda, Dorit was trying to
get information to embarrass her. What
672
00:41:03,870 --> 00:41:08,050
is she gaining from this? I don't really
understand, except that she's in a bad
673
00:41:08,050 --> 00:41:10,410
place right now and not her best version
of herself.
674
00:41:10,690 --> 00:41:14,050
But to her, this isn't a bad version of
herself. This is open and honest.
675
00:41:14,710 --> 00:41:18,750
I need to be able to be open and honest.
I need support from my friends right
676
00:41:18,750 --> 00:41:22,290
now. I'm in a place where I don't want
to hold it inside me. And then I have to
677
00:41:22,290 --> 00:41:24,110
go through this without support. That's
poisonous.
678
00:41:24,570 --> 00:41:28,230
I came into this year and truly believed
that Kyle and I were going to rebuild
679
00:41:28,230 --> 00:41:32,210
our friendship. But her actions and her
words are telling me something totally
680
00:41:32,210 --> 00:41:38,110
different. And until she starts showing
up as an actual friend who supports
681
00:41:38,110 --> 00:41:43,490
me, I can't continue to play this game.
682
00:41:44,110 --> 00:41:46,250
of faking friends.
683
00:41:46,650 --> 00:41:48,570
I have protected Kyle for years.
684
00:41:49,490 --> 00:41:56,470
I have protected Kyle at all costs, even
when I felt the most
685
00:41:56,470 --> 00:42:00,470
betrayed, the most hurt, where her and I
had no friendship whatsoever.
686
00:42:00,950 --> 00:42:02,430
I still protected her.
687
00:42:02,630 --> 00:42:06,050
I don't think you think she wants the
best for you. You just don't trust her.
688
00:42:06,150 --> 00:42:08,530
You just don't. Like, you just don't
trust her.
689
00:42:12,509 --> 00:42:17,470
Next on The Real Housewives of Beverly
Hills. With regards to the kids, I would
690
00:42:17,470 --> 00:42:19,830
like for Pete and I not to be on
opposite sides.
691
00:42:20,030 --> 00:42:21,090
I'm hearing different stories.
692
00:42:21,450 --> 00:42:25,110
I was going to invite Jory to the
Hamptons. I'm a little annoyed with her.
693
00:42:25,110 --> 00:42:26,410
guys cannot fight all weekend.
694
00:42:26,710 --> 00:42:33,050
I talked to my sweetheart today. Why do
I like dating John? He's just not
695
00:42:33,050 --> 00:42:36,230
shakable. I really believe in life that
intention matters.
696
00:42:36,550 --> 00:42:40,010
You can't be such a wimp. They're in my
home. Don't call me a wimp.
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