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Hello, I am Katja Kasse.

Welcome to WAVE, a luxurious lesbian rehab treatment center located

in the heart of beautiful sunny California.

We offer a treatment program that meets your individual needs.

That's why our team creates unique programs for each and every client,

us to focus on the type of therapies and treatments that will prove most

effective in healing your core issues.

Our team of 10 therapists will provide you with more hours of excellent

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I'll be out there in just two seconds. I'm changing.

Give me two seconds.

You have so much more to do before the guests come here.

I'm coming.

Just let me put some clothes on. I'm coming.

You'll have so much more to do before the guests get here.

I'm coming.

How

many

times do I have to tell you that I want the same colors for every guest?

And how do you fold these anyway? And the fold goes to the inside.

You can't just do it the way you want. Everything has to be perfect.

I want this to be the correct way. If you need to write this down because you

can't remember it. I'll make sure it's right by the time they get here.

Daisy, what are you doing?

Watering the plant.

This type of plant, you know, everything I tell you, I just disregard it. And I

told you you should put more water on the leaves of my place that I'm running

from. You can't just be like so absent -minded. If you can't even keep the

alive, I'm going to take care of the plant. I'll have that.

Alright, I will talk to you later.

it's time that we have a serious talk right now okay so there's a couple of

things that i have to address with you first you are always late second

you're always on your phone all the time third you're spending too much time in

your room when you should be doing things that i'm telling you you never

notes even though that i tell you to because you don't remember anything and

then for fifth You never ever remember my instruction.

So now this is what I want you to do because obviously everything else

I want you to repeat after me. Do you understand that?

Here you go. I will leave my phone in my room.

Repeat after me. Come on. I want you to understand what I'm saying here.

Okay. I will leave my phone in my room during the day. I will leave my... phone

in the room during the day I am not allowed to leave my place of employment

while I'm on the job I am not allowed to

leave my place of employment which is here obviously during the workday

I am supposed to be

on time

I'm supposed to be on time. Yes, and that does not mean half an hour late.

And I will, from now on, follow instructions exactly.

From now on, I will follow instructions exactly.

I will take notes.

I will take notes.

Okay, do you got that?

Because you really need to interiorize all of that because we will have our

first client.

In a short time.

Yeah. Your son Beltran is coming, and you need to be on your best behavior.

I don't have time to tell you any of that twice, so you need to get on with

program. Yeah, I'll start now. I'll go write it down.

All right. There you go.

Did you get the door for them?

Yeah, absolutely.

Oh, this is going to ring the doorbell.

Okay. Thank you.

Hello. Hi. Hello. Hi.

Welcome to Waves.

I'm close.

I'm Yurizan.

Hi, nice to meet you. I'm Katya. Nice to meet you. I'm Stacy.

Stacy, hi. This is Marie, my sister.

Hi. She'll be helping me out here. Nice to meet you.

Wow, this is such a great place.

Thank you.

My friend Lindsay told me all about it. She was very happy here.

Yeah, Lindsay, I remember her. She left a very spiritual person.

Oh, that's so good.

It's really, really good.

Hope you do the same for me.

For sure. We don't doubt that you will enjoy your stay here.

So today is a day of relaxation.

And tomorrow's program starts.

Okay, was everything ready in my room when I got here?

Of course. Everything okay?

Yeah, Stacy prepared it herself, exactly how you said it in your email. Thank

you, Stacy. I appreciate that so much. No problem. Anything?

Just that.

Thank you.

Marie, would you go check my room and make sure everything's okay? Oh, yeah.

Would you like it? Definitely.

Which way is it?

Stacy can show you. It's right there, the first room.

And it's the best suite that we have.

Okay, check it out.

So, how was your drive here? Did you guys have a good time? Yeah, it was

It was really great.

Nice and warm and lovely. And I get to come here and relax.

That's what I need.

Yeah, well, the plan for today pretty much is just to relax. And tomorrow we

will have a meeting and figure out the rest of your stay.

Okay, that sounds perfect.

Really, really perfect.

Yeah, I would like to show you around so you know where everything is and so you

can get settled in.

Yeah? Okay. Okay, just come with me right over there. Okay.

It's a nice room.

Yeah, it's really pretty.

Does it smell like lilac to you? Did I not ask for lilac?

Oh, yeah, you did request that.

What does it smell like? It smells like...

Vanilla or lemon? I can't put my finger on it.

Maybe lemon?

Who knows?

I'm so tired.

Hopefully everything turns out right about the tour.

Did you see if they're going to ship my outfits here or to the arena?

I think they're going to ship them to the arena.

I think they're supposed to be delivered tomorrow.

Are you sure they're going to get there? Because if they don't get there, it's

just going to be the end of the world for me.

I'll double check for you.

Okay.

Oh, God, these are not goose feathers.

What's wrong with this bed?

Did you not tell them that either? I thought I confirmed the email with you.

Yeah, we just emailed them a couple days ago, though.

They probably didn't have time to change the mattress.

You know I'm going to dance for days.

I need my back support.

I need those feathers for my back.

Unbelievable.

I'll get it changed as soon as I can.

Not to mention how hot it is in here.

I'm pretty sure it's not 66 degrees like I always like.

Yeah, uh, I gotta figure out where the thermometer is.

I'll figure it out in a bit.

Ugh, it's so hot.

I can't take it.

Well, don't just stand there. Help me. Here.

Hold this dress.

Well, it gets... Hang it or something in a bit.

Yeah. Don't let it get wrinkled. Do you know how much that costs?

No, I'm sorry. I don't... Well, it's very expensive, so please take care of

It's so hot.

Here. What else do we need for the tour?

To make sure the checklist is written off.

All the dancers are there and everything? Yeah, the five dancers are

They're prepared. They know all the steps. They're ready to go.

I have to reconfirm with the makeup artist, but I'm pretty sure she knows

exactly how you want your makeup done.

Good. Just pick all this up for you.

Oh, my God.

Look at the pool.

Is it nice? It looks so refreshing.

Marie, go get me a bag.

And the girl, whatever her name is. Please, I need to get in the pool. Okay.

Yeah, definitely.

And make sure that I get in contact with the president of the arena so I can

make sure the lighting and everything is right.

I can't wait to jump in the pool. So much to do before the show.

I need this so bad.

Which one of my babies do you like the most?

Um... I think the black looks really nice on you.

You think so?

Yeah.

I think I'll go with blue then.

Okay. No offense.

So tell me, what else is going on with the tour?

Just, you know, getting things prepped for it.

Just making sure everything is set.

Everybody's in their place. What about the tutors?

Oh, uh, yeah, I need to reconfirm with them. Um, what is it that you said that

you specifically wanted?

I want black beans and white rice.

Okay, okay. And lots of fruit and lots of water, and you know what kind of

I like. And I like it for it to be there.

Did you want any meat or any chicken, steak? Fish,

preferably. Fish, okay.

Would you bring a bathing suit?

Uh, no, I didn't.

Well, I could let you borrow one of mine, but you won't fit in it.

Yeah, probably not.

Really skinny.

No offense, it would just fall right off.

But maybe you can come join me later when you're all done with your work.

Oh, maybe, yeah.

Yeah.

Look at that weird ladies out there.

I need some of her spiritual lifting.

Yeah, you've been super stressed recently. You could definitely use it.

Yeah.

I'm just worried about getting that dance number down.

I'm sure you'll get it down.

I'll definitely help you with it, you know, whenever you need help.

Thank you.

Now we're going to have to practice until we get it right, don't we?

Yes.

That one looks really nice, too. I like that one.

Do you?

Oh, thank you.

But you know what? Your outfit is making me really hot right now, so I need to

hurry up and get in the pool.

Okay. I can't take your outfit.

It just makes me hot.

Yeah, it is a bit hot.

Aren't you afraid?

Yeah.

I should check on the temperature for you while you're outside in the pool,

That might be a good idea. And please have all that work done while I'm in the

pool. Okay.

I'll see you in a minute.

Hi, how are you doing?

Oh, hi.

Good. I've been out here for a while. It's hot.

So have you had the chance to relax a little bit?

Yeah. How do you like the food and your room?

The room is great, yeah. I haven't really eaten anything.

Just trying to, you know, have some fun. Yeah, that's good. That's a good start.

Yeah, you know, I was wondering if...

You know, you would like to get a little bit out of the sun. We could go over to

the cabana and we could talk just to make a plan for the next few days for,

know, your therapy and all that stuff. Yeah, I've been getting a lot of sun.

That's actually a good idea. Let's go. Yeah, let's go over there.

Beautiful pool right there.

So much better in the shade, huh?

So much cooler than I think I should be.

Yeah, it's a good idea.

Relax.

That's why you came here in the first place, right?

Yes, I need it. I have a busy, busy schedule and I'm so excited about it.

you need a little bit of a break and, you know, let yourself go, have some

for yourself, you know, so you can find yourself again.

It's been so clean for a while. I just feel lifted and spiritual and I'm loving

it. Yeah, that's the reason why you're here, so you can find your peace of mind

and you can learn new techniques how to relax yourself when you get really

stressed out, because that is very important.

So eventually you're going to know how to do this yourself.

I have love, I have my career, I have my friends. What more can I ask for?

Yeah, you know, sometimes it's just important to slow down and just shut

all out and just focus a little bit on yourself.

All right.

I'm sorry.

What happened?

What happened?

That bastard.

What happened?

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

You can tell me.

I'm sorry. I can't talk about it. He broke up with me.

Oh, that's not very classy. But you know what?

We're just gonna put that here and... No, I just need to call them. No,

listen. I'm gonna tell you what you have to do, okay? Just leave it alone

because you're so beautiful. You don't need anybody to do this to you.

You know? You don't need to have anybody treat you like this.

I don't know how to feel. Like, I want to call them and... I don't know what to

do. You just don't do nothing. You just... You know, stay here and do what

you've been doing. Just relax, you know?

Don't be codependent on men like this, you know? You don't need any guy.

Who breaks up with their girlfriend at rehab, though?

Well, understand, you should just try to be your own person, you know? You are

powerful by yourself, you know? You don't need men to give you the feeling

you are loved.

Because you have to love yourself. It has to come from the inside.

Right?

So why don't we just use that opportunity to start with the program? I

you and show you how to relax.

And even, you know, when some things like this happen, in the future, you

have to get sucked into all this drama. You just, you know, do these techniques.

Yeah, the last thing you need to do is go back to drag.

Yeah, no, see, this is connected, you know?

unhealthy relationships and the drug use, that you're trying to escape from

that. And that's what we're trying to do. So we have to focus on

too, if we want to have a better life and be more healthy, you know?

But, you know, you should sit, like, with your back, like, right on there.

My back right here? Yes, because I will show you something that is very famous

in Germany.

So you have to give me your feet. It's called foot reflex massage.

Oh, I've never heard of such a thing.

What do I do? Just say? Just give me your foot.

And what happens is that there are spots on your soul that correspond with a

certain spot on your body.

Oh, really? So by pressing certain spots, you can

relax that particular body part.

And first of all,

Like I'm just gonna Massage you overall and warm it up a little bit

so And this is also very good for your skin. So it has a That feels

amazing. You know what you're talking about.

So See this is like very relaxing right

there The part here is supposed to be like your chest area

So, when I push here, you feel like a tingling in your chest?

I feel tingling in other places.

Yeah? Where is that?

It's really weird, but I'm sorry.

That feels good.

Very relaxing.

And you can do this by yourself too when you feel stressed out. When you learn

all these areas.

Wow. So, when I go a little lower.

You should feel it in your lower body.

Can you feel it?

It's so amazing.

Now you're a lot of help.

That's why you are here.

I want you to learn something.

So when you go home, you remember all these things that I've been teaching

And you don't go back to your old ways.

Thank you. And then you can give me the other one.

I'll keep that in mind.

Wow, that feels so good.

See, it's even more intense when you go to the other side.

It's like this feeling I've never felt before.

You just have to separate yourself from unhealthy people that are not good for

you.

Need to focus on your step if you want to love yourself

Would

you mind kidding my back a little bit I

will show you some other pressure spots So

when you feel really stressed out and your

heart rate goes up there's like Some spots like right here, when you push it

here, it will slow you down.

You already feel it?

Oh, I feel it already. It's very relaxing isn't it?

That is the power of haptics.

That is the science of touch and how you can cause someone to

feel much better. They can touch me any day. Yeah.

oh that damn paparazzi I guess he won't leave me alone.

I guess they will have a really good picture now, huh?

There's another very popular spot.

I can't remember that one. There's one here.

You're never going to take this off. Yeah.

Well, now I'm going to.

God.

Don't do dirty things.

oh my god oh

my

god she's so mushy

Shit.

That was such a good therapy session.

Well, you will be here for a little bit, so I'm sure we can expand on that.

Let's do.

So, why did you have sex with me?

Why?

So you really don't think you're beautiful, that someone would just fall

you?

No, usually people just do it because of who I am.

Oh, no.

It's not like this.

Good.

Really good.

You have to trust your natural beauty more.

You know?

I will.

Yeah? I learned so much from you.

It's because of that that people get attracted to you. Not of who you are,

the smile that you have.

And the way you walk.

where your hair falls over your shoulders, and these kind of things.

You just have to recognize them.

I do.

I really will.

I hope

you're learning something.

Oh yeah?

I learn so much about myself.

That's the whole point.

hmm hmm

If you should take a minute.

Why is it there in fucking toilet paper?

I'm getting it. I'm sorry.

I'm doing it.

Look at me.

Hey. Oh, hey.

What are you doing out here?

Um, just relaxing.

Where are you with your son?

Um, well, I was with her earlier.

I just need a break, you know?

I need a break from work sometime.

Yeah, I definitely know what you mean.

I need a break about 23 hours of the day from this place. But, whatever.

Are you okay? You just look really down.

Yeah, I'm okay.

I'll be fine. It's just, you know, it's a lot of work.

Pressure. Yeah, I mean...

Working for a pop star.

Yeah. Half the time, it's really, really great.

I mean, you get to travel all over, see different places, meet all the groupies.

Oh, that must be so much fun. Yeah.

But then the other half time, you're really working your butt off. It's like

nonstop. Get this for me. Get that for me. Make sure this is done. Make sure

that's done.

Just another day in the life of an assistant.

So it's a bummer, but...

I guess it pays the bills.

That's true.

How'd you even find her and start working for her?

Well, you know, I always wanted to be, like, an actress.

So I... She was taking applications. I just filled out an application. She

really liked me. We did a great interview.

And she accepted me, like, right on the spot. I guess she really liked me. I

don't know.

Oh, okay. So do you... I mean, do you figure...

Working for her might be able to put your foot in the door?

Yeah, I heard that helps a lot too.

I heard from other friends of mine that getting in with somebody who's already

famous will really help.

I don't know.

I guess you'll have to find out. How long have you been working for her?

Well, about a year now.

And have you met anyone?

Yeah, I've met a lot of people, but I don't know if it's going to really push

career.

actress or anything like that.

And you haven't tried to do anything on your own?

No, I'm just kind of shy, I guess.

Uh -huh.

How about you?

How'd you get here to this place?

Um, my parents sent me here. Oh, really?

Yeah, and Katja was really, really great to me. She took me in

and... Treated me like her own pretty much. She helped me out a lot Got me

and like where I was supposed to be but Now it's like I just haven't left

because I'm working for her and it helps because I need money, you

know, but Now it's just a little bit difficult she's just gotten a really

Edgy and kind of mean really like Recently?

She's always kind of been like that, but now it's just more she needs shit done

her way, like spot on.

Really? It freaks me out. Yeah, it freaks me out even, like, just standing

I don't know.

I don't know. She's a scary lady sometimes.

I know.

I try and, I don't know, I try and do it a lot, as much as I can, just to, like,

stay out of trouble with her.

Well, that's good.

What did you want to be before you?

got here.

Um... I kind of wanted to be something like an actress.

Oh, really?

Mm -hmm. Oh, that's cool. Maybe we could do it together. Like, go try to do

auditions together?

Well, I don't really... Well, I wouldn't think I would need to audition for

the acting I wanted to do.

What kind of acting do you want to do?

You know, adult modeling?

Yeah, like porn.

Really? Wow, that's interesting.

I'm super infatuated with it. Really? Yeah.

What age did you start liking something like that?

Well, I wasn't really able to watch porn until I was 18.

Yeah. You know?

But whenever I was younger, I found a stack of magazines, and I was just like,

oh, these women, I love and wanted to be them.

That's so cool.

Yeah.

That's really neat. I don't know if I would be ballsy enough to do that,

I don't know. It's like I have to deal with a crazy boss, so I feel like if

got the balls to deal with her, I could have the balls for anything.

True, I guess.

Yeah.

But, I mean. Pornography is not like, to me anyways, it's not weird or nothing.

I just think it's just a freeing sexual thing, you know. I

don't know. I haven't done it yet, so.

Do you want to do it with boys or just girls?

Well, I don't know if I ever got into it, if they would just let me do girls.

Because that would just be awesome.

Yeah. Of course. Um, but if I had to do boy -girl scenes,

you know, I guess I would.

But I would much likely prefer girl -girl.

Just, I would prefer it. Yeah?

Yeah. That's, that's really cool.

It's not like I'm hitting on you or nothing. Just saying.

But, um, well, yeah.

And we've been outside for a while.

We better go in. I'm sure they're looking for us. I'm sure I'm getting

or something.

I'm probably just going to... I don't even want to deal with her. I'm pretty

sure all my chores are done. I'm going to go upstairs and just chill and listen

to music and whatever if you want to come hang out.

Oh, yeah. That'd be cool.

And if anything, we'll both get in trouble.

There you go.

Perfect idea.

Awesome. It's too hot out here anyways.

Right.

Pretty much. It's definitely alright for what Ketcher set me up in.

It's definitely bigger than I thought it was going to be.

Bigger than my room at home, that's for sure.

I bet you have a big closet, too. Is it big?

I know.

Um, no.

She actually freaking, like, renovated it.

Oh, really?

For another, like, little section for her shoes.

Oh, my God. For her shoes? Literally just for her shoes.

So I have, like, this little tiny spot with a drawer and a little

hanger thing.

And, like, the rest is hers.

I'm just like, this is supposed to be my room. And she's like, this is still my

resort house place.

And I'm like, whatever, lady.

What's the deal with this place? Do you get to leave?

Do you get to go to the mall or the movies or anything?

Yeah, I do and everything, but I don't listen to her.

I'm not here when I'm supposed to be here, or I'm always on my phone.

It's just so I don't try and... I don't know. Everything I do, I kind of mess it

up and get yelled at.

Do you have a curfew and stuff you have to follow?

Oh my gosh, I hate that.

I do, but I don't know. I can't really complain because she's really taking me

in. Yeah, even when we're on tour, like on the bus and everything, I have a car

for you too.

Really? Yeah.

She's like, make sure you're back at the bus by 11 o 'clock. I want to make sure

everything's ready for my day tomorrow.

And she walks in at like 2 or 3, 4 o 'clock in the morning.

Like, thanks for waking me up. I'm trying to sleep on the bus here.

I know.

I don't even know if they're, like, I'm just happy they're not busting in here,

like, super angry.

But, yeah, usually, most of the time, if I'm in here and I don't hear from her,

it's because she's either gone, but she'll send me a text, like, saying, you

need to get, and then a long -ass list, get it all done by this time, because

I'll... Like, she'll say she's home, and she sees the cameras or something, and

she won't even be here.

Oh, no.

So she, like, she'll tell me crap, get in my head, so I do

it, and then, like, there's no cameras. Like, she's never here in the first

place. Are you serious?

I am.

She doesn't, like, she lies and says that, like, she sets out, like, webcams

something to spy on you? I'm assuming.

I'm assuming.

And I'm just like, how are you going to do that? I've seen those things on,

like, different TV shows. They're like nanny cams. Yeah, like teddy bears and

stuff. Weird stuff.

Freaks me out a little bit right now, now. I know. Now I'm thinking.

I know they can put them anywhere, like in lights and everything.

Yeah. But I've been here by myself doing stuff, and she hasn't

pitched. So I don't think there's any cameras in here.

That's good.

Oh, that's really cute. Where'd you get that?

Um, I just got it at the mall, like, maybe about a month ago.

Can you sit up and let me see it? Oh, sure.

Oh, I love it.

Thank you.

Thanks. Your dress is pretty similar, too.

Oh, yeah, it's just one of those little cheap sundresses. Oh.

Yeah, I'm skipping this.

I know, that's wrong. Oh, I like that. I know.

I know.

We could have a pillow fight.

A pillow fight?

But... Your hair is really pretty, too.

Oh, thank you.

I like your nails.

Where do you go and get them done at? I have a car.

I could give them to you. Oh, really?

Oh, that'd be great.

Actually, I wouldn't get them done at the place I just got them done at.

Oh, crappy.

Oh, really?

I just needed to fill really fast, though.

But I have a, um... Like, In -N -Out? Yeah.

But I have this other place that do, like, they do their shit really good,

Hmm. I'll give you a call.

That sounds good.

Um, but... I hope your day gets better.

I know.

Well, it's really helped a lot, just like... chilling here with you and

with some music.

Yeah, I was just thinking, just like nails, like that's super relaxing, so

gotta get them done.

Yeah.

We can, whenever you want, if you ever have a, hold on, that might be hard,

because I never have really a free day here, but we can always sneak out or

something. Maybe while I'm here, you know, I'm always on the road with my

Yeah, you're here now.

Yeah. You can just hang out, relax, and whatever.

But, um...

It's really pretty hot in here. It's really hot in

here. Like, it really, really is.

I can't put all the lights on, but it's cool.

Like, are you hot?

Yeah, I'm a little hot.

Oh, yeah, maybe. Are they made up with feathers? Oh, my gosh. She was talking

about the feather mattress the minute we walked through the door.

That her mattress wasn't, like, full of feathers and all this stuff. You didn't

hear her? Oh, my gosh. She was, like, yelling.

No, I'm sorry. It's okay. I got yelled at because I was just

going to make sure that room was perfect.

So now I feel bad. Well, we just sent you the email like two days ago. So I'm

like, oh, you know, they probably didn't have time to change the mattress.

Yeah.

It's all right. I'm just looking over it.

I definitely heard the other end of that too, but I catch it. Because she was

just like, thought I told you.

Thought I told you.

I'm just like, hey, darling, darling.

What do you want to do?

But, um, how long do you want to even work for her?

Well, um, I don't know how long. I don't know. I guess just so it gets me

further in my career, hopefully.

Hmm. Let's see.

I don't know.

Probably end up being one of those people who end up working for her for,

ten years or something.

Getting nowhere.

Yeah, but, I don't know, with a pretty face like yours, I'm sure you'll go

somewhere. Oh, thank you.

Of course.

And if you ever, ever need anything, I'm always here.

I promise.

Thanks.

But, you know, you know.

I do kind of have, like, some questions. Like, you said you were interested in

porn and stuff like that. Like, what kind of things do you like to do with

girls?

Oh.

Well.

Like, get uncomfortable, but I'm, like, a lesbian.

And, um, I just, I love to appreciate a beautiful woman and make her feel good,

you know?

Like, how can you kind of explain or maybe show me? I was gonna

say it'd be a lot easier to show you than explain.

But, um...

Yeah, I can if you want me to.

I can give you a quick little run -through.

Okay. Have you ever been with a girl?

Only in my mind.

Oh, you love girls in your mind.

Yeah. Oh, that makes me so happy.

I'm going to change this song because it sounds like someone upstairs is

playing.

Much better than your boyfriend.

But I mean, what do you like? Do you like to kiss?

Well,

yeah. I guess since I've never been with a girl before, I guess I would like to

try kissing.

Mm -hmm.

Well, then you should just come here.

Okay.

How do I do it? Just don't even talk. Just don't even talk?

Because you're absolutely beautiful. I don't know why anyone wouldn't want to

hang out with you.

We'll just leave it.

I picked this up.

Yes, you are.

I'm not very good at this kind of thing.

Oh my gosh, you're not wearing it.

Any panties?

I usually never do.

A panty? Yeah, I'm more comfortable without them. I don't know if I could,

not be without panties.

Um, I can.

These are really pretty, too.

Oh, thank you.

I'll take a couple if I put my mouth on them.

Oh!

Thank you.

I forgot.

It smells pretty good.

You can't keep them.

You know what? He wouldn't bear them anyway.

No, that doesn't look good on your head.

I want to shave first.

my dreams.

Have you ever, um, like, deserted a girl?

What's that?

That's a little complicated, but it's kind of fun.

That looks really pretty.

I know.

Because they're so close together.

Your butt is so cute and round.

Welcome to our first group session.

How are you this morning?

Okay, I guess.

Yeah? Yeah.

Yeah? Okay.

Everything? Everything's much better than before.

Okay, so well, today and today's session, we wanted to focus on

ourselves, right?

And just, you know, you guys can tell me a little bit what brought you here.

and you know your background and that so who wants to who wants to start um i

guess i'll start yeah um my name is natalie hart um i actually am

in the porn industry that's where i met her and okay so you both are in porn

yeah yes okay um we actually did a scene with her and um that's where i felt you

know the most comfortable out of anything i ever did i just had a lot of

You know, I could tell there was something there between me and her. So

been together ever since, which is great.

But then, like, she was, like, my very first scene that I ever did.

Okay. So then after that, I just started getting, like, really nervous and

stuff. So I started getting more into, like, alcohol really bad because I feel

like, you know, it calms me down, keeps me, like, you know, takes my nerves away

and stuff. What about you? Do you also drink together? Are you guys always...

Drinking together when you go on that or oh, yeah, I drink and take Xanax so

Okay, I mean she brought me here. So I'm kind of here on her terms Okay,

so um and How often do you guys like

how often do you guys go on say how many times in in one week? I do would you

say you will drink?

Really, it varies with being on set, but I think that it's gotten gradually

worse over time.

Okay. Yeah, and I just want to, you know, get some help from that just

it's starting to get worse, you know. So do you just drink when you are on set,

or is it now already where you just drink every day?

It's getting to where it's starting to be every day now. Okay. So does it

you guys? Do you guys live together, or does it affect you guys' home life?

like what happens then like i think that we i mean we kind of do our own thing

at the same time but she's like i mean i don't want to like put you on the spot

so does it make you angry when she's too drunk that's why like take xanax to

calm you down or is that why no i mean i love her when she's drunk she's more

fun when she's drunk but um i mean the xanax thing this is another

Way I guess for me to forget things cope with them and stuff as I go You know,

okay my shoes So well, we we have someone you

wanted to say like Yeah, introduce yourself.

I was just listening.

Sorry my turn. Hello everybody. My name is Chrissy. You may have heard of me You

may have seen me on television or heard about me in Hollywood. I actually am a

fitness trainer and I've made a

Great step in my career, but I seem to fuck it all up with pink pills It

wasn't any kind of recreational thing I actually just took them because I had

put so much stress on my body with my training that I Got hooked on them. I

taking them quite frequently and So How do you how would you

say like you realize that you just you know take started taking the pills for

more, like, other reasons than the medical reasons?

Like, was there, like, one, like, did something happen where you realized

or was that more like a... Oh, I mean, it just kind of snuck up on me. One day

realized, well, you know, you're taking these, and you don't really need them

anymore, but I just couldn't stop.

You know, I would try to stop, and my ears would ring, and my eyes would

from side to side, and I would get headaches,

Oh, it's just a horrible thing to go through. But I actually really grew to

enjoy the feeling of being on pain pills.

Now you just kind of say you feel only normal when you take the pills.

Otherwise, it's... I have to take a lot to get the same effect. But when I go

without them, it's hell.

And... So would you say like you're getting used to it and you have to up

doses? Yeah. Yeah, exactly.

So is that like for you the same with Xanax?

That you feel like you always have to take more or are you staying at the same

level? I mean, I up and off sometimes, but I guess like I take more

each time. But I mean, I usually have a certain point that I stay at.

Every once in a while, I'll take an extra one.

Okay, so if I was to ask you guys how you feel now.

like you know you you already did rehab so you're like off the pain pills now

it's probably still difficult for you guys you know um but do you already feel

like you made a big step or are you mostly feel uncomfortable how it is now

without the drugs or so what what would you guys say because that's the reason

why we are here because your guys already you know went into rehab and now

trying to focus on getting you ready to go into the real world so

I think that it's, for me, I mean, I still drink, you know, but it's,

I mean, I don't know how to explain it. I don't think that it's something I'm

going to be able to completely, you know, stop doing.

I mean, since it has, like, you know, gradually gotten worse, I think that I'm

just going to, you know, have to.

Well, you know, there's different situations.

Some people are able to, especially with drinking, like, that's typical.

just, you know, quit, but there's also people that are not going to get there,

so they will, well, the approach would be just drink less, some people are just

always going to, you know, but do you feel like you would drink less than

before?

Yeah, I definitely think that it was, you know, way less than it was before,

because I would drink, like, from the time I woke up to the time I went to

sleep, but I still think that, you know, it's pretty fast.

Hey guys, I brought water for everyone.

Thank you.

Hello. Thank you.

Here you go. Thank you.

You're welcome.

Well, Daisy, we don't really need you here, so can you go and clean the

and take care of the kitchen, please?

Yeah, I really can.

Well, sorry about that, guys.

She's one of the girls I took in, and I thought it would be good for her to have

a purpose or something, but right now she's going through a rough time, and I

don't really know how to control her, so don't be mad.

I mean, tension with her in the house, this is obviously not a good thing.

I actually happen to be a motivational speaker as well. Okay.

Okay, I know I can tell you care about her.

Obviously you guys are having some problems. That was a little bit awkward.

It was.

I can talk to her if you'd like.

I think that would be a good idea because at this point it's already, you

where it's like so much tension there.

You know what, let's not let this moment pass. I'm going to go speak to her.

Okay, yeah. I'll be right back. I think that would be a good idea.

Anyway, sometimes it's better to talk to someone else, you know.

That's why you guys are here, right?

It really does help because other people can sometimes see clear on the issue.

And people have different views on different things. Then they involve

when you are emotional about the situation.

It's better if someone else looks at it.

Yeah, it might help, Daisy.

Okay, so, well, I think that was a really good start, and we will see each

tomorrow again.

So now you guys are free to just, you know, use the pool or relax a little

And we'll see you guys tomorrow, okay?

Okay. Bye.

Bye.

Bye. We'll see you tomorrow. Thank you. Bye, you guys.

Hey, Stacey.

Hey.

Hope you don't mind me being in here. I just want to help.

No, help me do what? I'm good.

I saw the situation out there, and I know that doesn't seem fair to you.

But there's a reason why you're here. There's a reason why we are all here.

Okay? Yeah, I definitely get that.

But it's not like you're here on a daily basis.

You don't really know what goes on, but it's cool, you know? You know, that's

the thing is, I don't know your personal situation.

Yep, that's very true.

You're 18 years old, Stacey.

I've been there. I've been 18 once, too.

Yeah, you know, no offense.

I am 18, but I've grown up a lot really fast.

Obviously, I'm here.

Just, you know, your advice, I'll listen to it, but I probably won't really.

pay any mind to it.

I've just had so many people say so much crap to me about how I should be and

get better and whatever, and I'm good, you know? I'm not on drugs anymore or

whatever, and I definitely appreciate what college is doing for me, but, like,

am 18. I'm grown.

You are grown. And you know what? Just because you're grown doesn't mean that

you don't need people here for you.

I've been through it, Stacey, and I know.

But sometimes, you just need a friend.

Okay? I could help you, Stacy.

That's really sweet.

I don't really need a lot of help, though.

Obviously, I get enough. I think you do.

I think you need a lot of help, and I could be here to help you.

I want to help you. I care about you. A lot of you care about me.

Yeah, I do.

I care about you.

Yeah.

I don't...

I don't think you really do. I think you're just trying to fuck me.

Oh, yeah?

Kind of what it looks like.

What if I am, Stacy?

What if I just want a little play toy to fuck me?

I don't know.

Maybe I just want a little play toy.

Maybe I could be your play toy.

And maybe you could take out all of your sexual frustrations.

Out on me.

How would you feel about that, huh?

Have an older woman completely take advantage of you?

Just let go of all responsibility for once and let me fuck you?

No.

What if I said yes?

I'm better than let me fuck you.

You're gonna be my place right there, Dad.

You're all mine.

Oh.

I'm gonna make my bed a little bit more comfortable in your bed.

Walked out

You don't even know how beautiful you are, do you?

You have no idea

Don't they make you want to pick them up with your teeth?

Why don't you take mine out first?

I'd love to.

Go ahead and take these out for me.

Oh, yeah.

Oh.

That's much better.

No, no. Oh.

Let me help you.

Thank you.

Oh, that sounds good.

I'm so glad your head's a little flat.

Lay down.

Oh, I don't think so. I don't think so. You lay down.

Put your face right here.

Right now.

I want your face right over here. You know why?

Because I'm going to spit on it.

Oh God you go for it

Your mouth is so warm.

Your mouth is so warm.

Oh.

Oh,

fuck.

That fell off my face. I knew you were a little slut.

I love to rub your foot with your fanny.

It's so sexy.

It's so sexy.

Oh, that's good.

You like it when I rub your foot on your fanny?

You love that, don't you?

I just got my foot up in your mouth.

You've had quite a bit of experience, it looks like haven't you?

Why don't you turn around? Let me see it.

It's so beautiful.

Naughty, dirty girl.

You deserve that.

You do deserve it.

I think I like it a lot. Thank you.

My sweet pussy.

Take your finger off. My fingers.

little bit of you at a time, just a little bit.

I couldn't help it. I had to go for your pussy first.

Amen.

Are you? You are not.

Please don't stop.

Overdress? Mm -hmm.

Yeah. Aw.

I left a wet spot.

That's okay. It's memories.

Stuck on it hard.

I like it nice.

Look at those feet.

This one too.

Sexy, sexy.

Kills you got on.

Let's do.

I think you might like something else.

That feels really good.

Maybe we should go take a shower.

So peaceful.

Well, I don't... You don't like it? No. Why not?

I'm just happy we're, like, back in, you know, in our place and just chilling

and hanging out.

Besides talking to that stupid lady in there.

Why don't you like it?

I mean, she's just trying to, like, help us out and stuff.

Oh, well, because I'm happy for who I am. I don't need some lady telling me

to be or, you know, what to say, why.

But I thought that, like, you were here to, you know, support me and stuff like

that. I am. It's the only reason why I came.

So you didn't want to come at all?

No, not really.

I mean, I want to change for us. I want to, you know, I want us to be, you know,

better for each other. That's the whole reason that, like, I came here. So that

they, you know, we can live better lives than what we have now.

I don't know. I like what I do. I like the whole porn industry.

And it's exciting, you know. Like, it's who I am. It's who you fell in love

with. Well,

I mean, I realize that. But where are you going to, like, what's going to

whenever it's, You can't keep doing this for, like, the rest of your life.

I mean, there comes a point where you're not going to be able to do porn and I'm

not going to be able to do porn, so what future are we going to have then?

Well, I mean, I've been saving money and, you know, for us, for

the future and for retirement and everything, but, you know, it's working

Why not?

Yeah, but what I'm saying, though, is, like, what happens whenever that money

supply runs out? You don't have anything else to save. Like, that's why I'm

trying to do what I'm doing here by, you know, us trying to better ourselves.

I don't know.

I guess.

I guess you're right.

I mean, I wanted to, like, make sure that, you know, we're going to get a

learning experience out of this. If you don't want to be here, there's, I mean.

obviously you're not going to change, unless you're willing to change.

No, I mean, our time that we've spent together, I've enjoyed.

But just me and you, I just don't like going to the meetings and things.

It's boring to me.

I mean, I'm not going to say it's the most exciting thing in the world, but

she's supposed to be there to help us, so it only makes sense to listen to what

it is that she has to say and the ways that she thinks and feels that we should

try to go about things to change them.

I guess you're right.

I guess.

I have to agree with you.

You're my everything.

Yeah. And just, I want to be sure that, you know, this is right for the both of

us. I only wish that, you know, you would like doing it, being here more,

like being here.

You know, so I was kind of hoping you had the same mind frame that I did about

it.

Well, um, I mean, I...

I guess, like, we're just going to disagree on things in life, but we'll

through this. I mean, through what you want to fix, you know, like, I'm there

for you.

But for me, I'm who I want to be, so.

Yeah.

But, I mean, do you have a plan for anything, I mean, after this? I mean,

you just going to continue day by day doing the same thing you do all the

I mean, you're going to get old eventually.

You know?

Right now, I'm just taking it, like, day by day, you know? Like, just, I mean, I

haven't really made any plans, but if you had those, so.

Oh, you were depending on my plans.

Yeah. Oh. Pretty much.

Yeah. It's nice.

Nice to know.

I'm just saying no, because, I mean, you can't do, you cannot do porn for the

rest of your life.

I mean, I don't see, like, really old people out there, like, you know, trying

to look sexy and stuff like that. It just doesn't work.

So, I mean, you have to have some kind of plan to get, you know, for future

references. You have to have something.

And us doing the whole alcohol and drug addiction thing and the whole porn,

like, it's just, like, I realize it's one big party for you, and that's great.

But we've got to start worrying about the future, like, now.

But we're young.

I mean, why?

Like, we shouldn't, you know, not yet.

We haven't made it there. But I guess you're thinking ahead of the game.

Yeah, I mean, I just see it as, like, you know, we need to be prepared for

what's going to come. And one of these days somebody's going to be like, we

don't want to work with you guys because you're old, you know?

I mean, and I don't think that either one of us want to hear that. So to save

ourselves from...

The disappointment and all.

I just, I want to, you know, better myself.

And I was hoping that you wanted to do the same thing, but I know that you're

not ready to do that yet.

Um, not really.

Oh, yeah. I mean, I'll be there for you, baby. I promise.

Yeah. As long as I have, like, the future references and the plans and

like that, I'll take care of.

Mm -hmm.

Uh -huh.

Okay.

Oh. Wow.

So now I know that I'm the one doing all the smart decisions for the

relationship here.

Yeah. Uh -huh.

Okay.

Wow. Yeah.

You do do a lot for me, baby, so I'm sorry, and I'll try to be there for you

from now on.

Yeah. So... That's really all I ever asked for, you know? I mean, I'm glad

you're here for me, and I'm glad that you came.

to the, you know, I don't really, I don't want to argue with you about this.

just want to, you know, I want you to know that I'm trying to do something for

the better for the both of us.

Sounds great.

I just want to be sure that, you know, like we're both on the same page.

Yeah. Amazing.

I just don't want us to be like, you know, upset with each other because you

want to do one thing and I want to do something else.

I don't know.

I mean, I don't see this pulling us apart, you know? Like, I mean, we're

together, so... But, I mean, I'll be there, and I'll stick it through

with you, maybe, but... Yeah.

Love that bit.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I miss you.

Hmm.

Mm.

Mmm.

fucking believe you right now.

You know that this is something that I want to do for the both of us and you

want to fucking leave?

Like, that doesn't make any fucking sense.

Well, I have a shoot tomorrow.

I mean, I fucking want to make some money.

I love fucking doing porn.

Oh, okay, but listen to me. If you honestly care about me the way that you

fucking say you do and you came here for me, then the fucking shoot tomorrow

can't fucking wait. It doesn't... What about shit that matters for me, man?

Like, fuck.

Like, it's always about you. Like, why the fuck can't one thing be about me?

Yeah. Oh, it's all about me. Yeah.

And so the whole fucking reason that I came here today wasn't about, you know,

me and you and fucking future plans and all kinds of shit. What about whenever

we had sex? You never fucking asked me if I ever wanted to do this. Oh, yeah?

No. That's fucking bullshit. You know it. No.

That's fucking bullshit.

I can't even believe you right now. To the extent to know that we've been in

this together for a long time and you want to fucking worry about yourself and

only yourself, that's fucking selfish.

That's bullshit.

No. You know what? Whatever, man.

Like...

I'm done, and good luck with what you do, because I can't handle this.

Hey,

what's up?

Shannon, are you okay?

Yeah, I'm okay.

I just kind of overheard.

Sorry. I mean, like, what is she doing?

I'm fucking leaving. I told her I was leaving because I want to go shoot in L

.A. tomorrow for a job and everything. I do porn, so I fucking love my job, and

she wants to change me, make me into a totally different person. So you're

to leave today?

Yeah, I'm thinking about it. I mean, fuck, we just... Pretty much.

You really hate it here?

I fucking hate it. I hate everything about this place. I hate the freaking

Conchay girl, whatever her fucking name is. I hate everything. I just call her

bitch. So it's pretty easy to remember.

Well, is she going to stay?

I don't care what she does at this fucking point. Does she know you're

I just want to get the hell out of here. I told her, yeah.

I told her I was leaving.

So, I mean, if you want me to.

I really love porn, and I've always wanted to do it.

You want me to teach you some techniques or something?

I kind of just want you to sneak me the hell out of here.

All right, I'll do that.

Let's go get a piece of paper and write a mean note to my boss.

All right, I'll try to see if she's out of it. Okay,

come on.

Do I yell by myself?

Freaking Dylan, like, I left her because she wants to live the drug head

lifestyle that she lives, and she wants to keep being in porn, and that's not

for me. That's not what I came here to do. I want to, you know, better myself

for me and her, and I guess she just didn't. She didn't see it that way, and

wants to go do all these things and stuff, and she doesn't get, you know,

whole reason that I came here, and I thought.

You know, she was here for me and she was supporting me, but I guess, you

I was completely wrong about that.

Well, I think that it's the right decision that you're making. So you want

stay here and go ahead with the program, right?

I mean, I want to, but at the same time, it's like, you know, I don't have my

other half here to, you know, be able to help me through it. She was helping,

you know, she was there for me for a little while and she was helping me, you

know, my support system and my background. But that's okay.

I'm here for you. You're not alone.

You don't have to worry about that.

Okay.

But I was going to ask you, actually, I came out here, I was looking for Stacy.

Have you seen her?

You've been sitting here. Maybe you know where she's at.

I honestly think that Stacy ran off with Dylan to help be in porn and

everything. So I don't honestly know what's going on, but I'm pretty sure

they left together.

Oh, wow. Well, that's really bad for me because I don't have an assistant now.

Hmm. Well, but wait a minute. I have an idea. Well, so, since you're staying

here anyway, maybe you would be interested in being my new assistant.

Okay? Because it, you know, it will give you a purpose and it will, like,

reintegrate you and you... I mean, since you're quitting porn, you'll need the

job anyways, right?

Mm -hmm. So, then we'll just go with that.

Nada!