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Well, I thought you liked working here. I did.

It's just that we always go to dinner. We haven't been to a movie in ages.

Any particular movie in mind?

Yeah, you know, the one with what's -his -name and the actress with the sibilant

S. Wow, that's scary.

No, it's a comedy.

No, I knew exactly who you were talking about.

It's Jordan.

I'm back from Spain.

Well, actually, I've been back for four months.

I'm running a new psychiatric counseling center, Quantico.

I'm built there on base in temp housing.

Anyway, I was thinking about you. Thought we might talk.

703 -555 -2694.

You want some wine?

Sure.

I think the elephant might want some, too.

What? The one you're ignoring.

You just received a message from your old girlfriend, Harm.

Renee. Call her back.

What was it?

5 -5 -5 -2 -6 -9 -4.

Want me to put it on speakerphone?

I already have.

Parker residence.

Hello. Is Lieutenant Commander Parker there, please?

Who am I speaking with, please?

Commander Harmon Rabb.

This is NCIS Special Agent Kenworthy, Commander.

Are you a friend of hers?

Yes, I am.

I'm sorry to have to tell you.

I was doing our laundry in back of the complex, and when I returned, my wife

calling 911.

She said she heard something that sounded like a gunshot.

Commander Rapp?

I'll be with you in a moment.

What time did you hear this sound, Mrs. Maple?

Um, around 6 .30. It startled me, so I cracked the door and looked out. I saw

officer exiting down the stairs, but I couldn't see his face.

Could you tell the branch of service or rank?

Look, my wife's been really ill. Do you mind if we continue this inside?

Of course, Colonel.

I'll be with you shortly.

Lieutenant Commander Parker.

That would be me.

Seems like you had some car trouble.

Yeah. No, me and half the city.

Hit an icy patch going out the main gate, went off the road.

Well, you're just lucky nobody was hurt, Doctor.

Unless you count Melchior and Balthazar. Who?

When I spun off the road, I wiped out a nativity scene.

Miraculously, I managed to avoid baby Jesus, but I decapitated two wise men

a donkey.

Hopefully God has a sense of humor and Mary and Joseph won't press charges.

Commander?

Commander?

Oh, I'm sorry, Agent Kenworthy.

What have you found out?

How well did you know Commander Parker?

I knew him pretty well. We dated.

I hadn't seen her in over a year.

What exactly happened?

Why were you calling her?

I was returning her call. She left me a message.

It was the first I'd heard she was back from Spain.

Brought the tape.

Thank you.

As a JAG attorney, I'd like to offer any and all assistance.

Why was she calling you?

She wasn't specific.

Was she murdered?

That would be my preliminary opinion.

Under what circumstances?

This may take a while, Commander.

Let me just finish up here and we'll go someplace where we can talk.

Admiral?

Commander, I heard Maya.

I give you sympathy, sir. Thank you, sir. Would you consider, sir, ordering a

Jagman investigation to run parallel to what NCIS is doing?

Why? We were all friendly with Commander Parker, sir. We think we should be a

part of it. Better reason.

They're keeping Commander Rav in the dark, sir. Why would they do that? I'm

the suspect list, sir.

He was alone in his car at the time of Commander Parker's death?

I was on my way to Montclair to pick up Renee.

Which is close to Quantico.

All right.

Colonel, you'll head it. Roberts will assist him. Thank you. Sir, may I enlist

the services of Lieutenant Commander Coulter for forensic pathology?

All right, done. Just stay in the background.

Yes, sir. Any appearance of impropriety? I understand, sir. Let's just hope you

do.

Admiral.

Detective Grady.

Why is it my mouth gets dry every time I see you?

Good news, Admiral.

Last night we arrested a 17 -year -old male for possession of marijuana.

He told us he and Danny Walden bought large quantities on the day Danny

your vehicle.

So that links Danny to the marijuana found in my truck?

We always knew it. Now we can prove it. This is a big break for us, Admiral.

Opens up a long -time investigation of teenage drug use in the community.

I assume you're going to prosecute Danny.

If you agree to testify against him.

Tyner, give me some water.

Harm? Daydreaming?

Unfortunately.

Nice to see you, Teresa. I wish it was under more pleasant circumstances.

Well, I hope I can be of some help.

Did you examine the body?

I just got back from the morgue.

The muzzle mark, the powder residue pattern on the clothing, and the muscle

displacement all indicate that the gun was placed directly against her chest

fired.

What about the crime scene?

Well, NCIS will only clear me for forensic pathology.

They won't let us near the rest of the evidence until they've concluded their

own investigation.

But their preliminary report indicates that the weapon, a .38 airweight,

belonged to Commander Parker.

Are you okay?

When Clark Palmer was threatening Jordan, I insisted she buy the weapon.

Good morning, Commander. Agent Kenworthy.

Is this the JAG team?

Lieutenant Colonel McKenzie.

Lieutenant Robert.

Do you believe it's proper, Colonel, to be associating with an NCIS suspect?

We're associating with a fellow mourner special agent.

We all knew Commander Parker, and we're not about to nod to each other from

across the chapel.

Jesus.

When we met three months ago at the PX,

I was totally taken with her.

She nailed my relationship with my mother in one sentence.

You couldn't hide anything from Jordan.

And that's why I fell for her.

I assume he's on your list.

We see him today.

She helped me learn to commit.

And I helped her get over the last guy who couldn't.

Good news or bad?

AJ.

What are you doing here?

How do doctors do it? I mean, I've never understood that. I mean, how do you

tell someone that their cancer's spreading and their heart's failing

They're being dumped?

Actually, I'm the messenger this time.

The P?

It's about Danny.

Isn't it always?

Police have linked him to the marijuana found in my truck.

I'm here to tell you why I'm testifying against him.

Prosecution needs me to establish his presence in the vehicle.

Why are you telling me this? Because I didn't want you to be surprised.

That doesn't make it hurt any less.

You're still willing to help put my son in jail.

Reluctantly. That's gratifying.

Have you ever considered that you're too close to your son to make objective

judgments? And have you ever considered that maybe you're too much of an

outsider to make a judgment?

Now please leave.

Never answered my question.

She's going to live.

So are you.

Hey.

Hey, what's up?

Um, how do I put this?

I had to move you and Renee off the head table. It, um, it only seats eight.

when with the bridal party, Bud, Harriet, the Admiral, Chloe, the chief

chaplains, there was only room left. It's okay, Mac.

Are you sure?

Yeah. Look, have you looked into Jordan's patient file? Because she

everything from anxiety to post -traumatic stress disorder. I think we

assume some of these patients have the potential for violence. I think that we

can assume that all plausible theories are still on the table. Harm, look, I

know that you're frustrated, but coaching from the sidelines isn't

Well, what would you prefer I do? Be grateful.

You've been cleared commander who's the new suspect the victim we now believe

commander Parker took her own life

Suicide

What are they basing this on?

There was no sign of forced entry. She died seated in a chair, which is a

scenario. Also, the witness spotted an officer leaving officer housing.

If he'd been leaving Jordan's quarters, it would have been another story.

What about forensics? Well, the only prints on the gun are Commander

and the angle of entry is consistent with a self -inflicted wound from a

-handed person.

A clever killer could have arranged all that.

NCIS has also conducted a psychological autopsy. Oh, God, not that.

Why? What's your take on it?

Those who knew the dead person are interviewed as a way of reconstructing

her mental state.

The tendency is to seize on any life happenstance, no matter how trivial.

So you're not buying it?

Well, a psychological autopsy could have helped determine how my mother died

harm. I mean, I don't like them, but I'm not willing to ignore them. The NCIS

are saying I'm responsible for Jordan's death.

Why? Her boyfriend told them her relationship with harm wounded her

psychologically. The theory is that...

Because I didn't return Jordan's phone call immediately, she became depressed

and used the weapon I insist she buy to punish me for hurting her.

Lieutenant, inform NCIS I need access to the crime scene before they release it.

Yes, ma 'am. And request all relevant documents.

They may resist, ma 'am.

Well, then tear them out of their hands, Lieutenant.

Admiral.

Morning.

This is my attorney, Miller Josephson. Admiral.

You know my mother, of course.

How you doing?

Maybe I should be asking you that question.

Fine.

Sorry it came down to this.

What?

Same to you.

Yeah. Come in.

Commander Harmon Rabb, Bruce Gasden, hospital toxicologist. Oh, hi, Bruce.

Pleasure to meet you. My pleasure.

What brings you here?

Well, I didn't have a chance to catch up, so... You want to see where we are?

Yeah, I do.

NCIS discounted evidence we think may be relevant.

Like what?

Well, for one, some of the blood collected at the crime scene was from an

animal. Well, how would they know that?

Well, it's tender to check for antibody precipitates.

Well, maybe Jordan had a pet.

No, there's no indication that there was one on the premises.

Conclusions? They felt it was a dead end.

We're going to stay with you.

I also revisited the gunshot evidence.

The residue appears to be evenly distributed on both of Jordan's hands.

If she'd shot herself, there'd be more coverage on the top of the shooting

Well, where did that put her hands when the gun was fired? Away from the weapon.

Well, what about her fingerprints on the weapon?

Prints on metal parts indicate handling, not shooting.

We weren't able to get anything off the handle because it was textured.

and there was a smeared partial print on the trigger that we couldn't positively

identify.

Harm, I feel sure this was a murder.

Well, then that's what we'll assume as we investigate further.

You on the team?

I am now.

Admiral, to whom did you lend your vehicle on November 3, 2000?

Danny Walden. What happened to it?

It was found abandoned in West County Park with eight ounces of marijuana in

front seat.

What was Danny's explanation when confronted?

He claimed that the vehicle had been stolen.

Did you believe him?

Well, no, it didn't add up. Why would somebody steal a vehicle and walk away

empty -handed? Why wasn't the radio missing, the cell phone?

Why would they leave behind the drugs?

Did you ask these questions of Mr. Walden?

I asked him if he put off calling the police because he was stoned.

You're a witness.

What was Danny's answer to that question, Heather?

He claimed he was getting up his nerve before he called the police.

Let's say the car was stolen and the thief got stoned.

Lost control of the vehicle and stumbled away in a drug stupor. Did that

possibility occur to you?

In reference to Danny, yes.

Why? Personal experience.

Did you ever see Danny do drugs?

No. Ever see him steal, cheat, commit a crime?

No. Then isn't the only personal experience your relationship with Danny

Walden's mother?

I don't understand. Dr. Walden believed her son, correct?

Yes. Weren't your differences on this issue the reason for your breakup?

Yes. Admiral, aren't you testifying because of the anger and hurt you felt

being rejected by the mother of the son she was protecting?

You're a scorned lover, Admiral.

Aren't you using this incident to get back at Dr. Walden? Weren't you

me, Counselor? I've never sustained a witness's objection before, Admiral, but

think he is.

Mr. Josephson, would you kindly back off that approach?

No more questions.

Hey.

Hey.

What's up?

Well... I thought we could extend your lunch and catch that movie.

You want me to play hooky?

Try it. You'll like it.

Renee, I'm about to jump into the investigation.

It's about this guy who keeps putting his job above his girlfriend.

She leaves him for George Clooney.

Sounds good.

Yeah, then he's so miserable that he ends up babbling to himself in subway

stations. Well, you know what? Let's do it tonight.

I'm late for an interview.

Put the information on my desk and I'll meet you there, okay?

But she can't live without him. See, so she tracks him down and...

Buy some soup.

Excuse me.

Permission to sit in, Colonel?

I'm not sure that's necessary, Commander. Hi.

Agent Lynch, this is Commander Harmon.

Rob, I recognized you at the funeral from a picture that Jordan had showed

Would it make you uncomfortable if I say I didn't, Major?

No. Then consider me a fly on the wall.

The Major is aware that our investigation is ongoing and focuses on

scenario. What do you believe happened, Major?

I'm open to all theories, Commander.

The Major was telling us about one of Commander Parker's clients, an assistant

dispersing officer by the name of Lieutenant George Fontenot.

Major was present when the Lieutenant called the Commander in an agitated

What did Jordan say about him?

Only what you just heard, sir.

Jordan, as I'm sure you're aware, was bound by the ethics of her perfection.

Did you tell NCIS about Lieutenant Fontenot?

They had already concluded it was suicide when it occurred to me. You

consider it your responsibility to inform NCIS?

I'm not sure what you're implying, sir.

You ever get agitated, Major?

Ma 'am, I'm wondering about objectivity here.

Where were you the night Jordan was murdered? Excuse me?

You have an alibi?

I know you don't have one, Commander.

We'll check on Lieutenant Fontenot, Major. Thank you for your time.

Colonel. Commander.

Why would you do that? I could ask you the same thing. You're not an official

part of this investigation.

I'm an official part of Jordan's life, okay? And I expect to be notified when

something breaks. Common sense demands that you stay out of it, Harm.

Is it common sense, Mac, to allow him to walk out of here without telling us

where he was when Jordan was killed?

Sir, we already asked him the question.

The Major was shopping for an engagement ring for Commander Parker at the time

of her death.

He planned to propose that night.

He told the same story to NCIS and they confirmed it.

The testimony clearly puts the defendant together with the marijuana he is

accused of possessing.

It also links him to the vehicle in which the marijuana was found.

And despite the defense's attacks on the credibility of the prosecution

witnesses, I see no real convincing reason to doubt them. Therefore, I find

Daniel Arthur Walden, guilty of the charge of possessing an illegal

Mr. Walden, you will return here tomorrow morning at 10 o 'clock for

Thank you, Admiral.

Sorry for the pounding you had to take for your troubles.

You know, Detective, a kid's sharp.

He's got presence, confidence.

With a little guidance, you ought to be lurking for a judge instead of turning

before one.

Hey, you still interested in being a part of the investigation?

Surprised you'd want me.

Jordan was a part of your life. It's unfair for me to leave you out. Just try

and stay objective.

Well, I'm sure you'll remind me if I'm not.

Bud tracked down George Fontenot, the lieutenant who made the troubled call to

Jordan. Are you serious, Lee? Why don't you tell me? Last night, Quantico's

commanding general had him admitted to Bethesda Naval Hospital for special

evaluation. Why? He attacked a fellow officer with a baseball bat.

It was the base playoffs, sir.

Every time I stepped to the plate, the catcher was talking trash.

Eight innings of stuff about my intelligence, my mother, my sexual

You hit him with a baseball bat.

He was wearing a mask and a chest protector, sir.

Lieutenant Fontenot, your records indicate that you recently shoved a

The private was unruly.

And I did receive official counseling today.

With Commander Parker?

Yes, ma 'am. Who felt you had an anger problem?

Yes, ma 'am.

Witness tells us that you called the commander on her cell phone a week and a

half ago.

He heard you screaming on the other end.

She'd canceled my appointment for that afternoon by leaving a message.

Is that a yes, Lieutenant?

You're right.

I'm sorry.

I was probably taking it personally.

Your wife died recently, didn't she, Lieutenant?

In a car crash.

Did you talk to Lieutenant Commander Parker about this?

Yes, sir.

Did you get angry then?

Is there something you want to tell us, Lieutenant?

that I would like to speak to an attorney, sir.

Lieutenant Fontenot's last session with Jordan was April 27th.

I still can't believe you were able to get his patient file released.

An exception in Rule 513 allows disclosure of normally privileged

the communication contemplates the future commission of a crime. But the

lieutenant's in custody.

Yeah, for the moment.

April 27th.

Remains in a sensitive and agitated state due to wife's death who was a

stabilizing influence.

Condition exacerbated by a painful adolescence. Mother passed away when he

12. Was frequently bullied. Need for maternal guidance significant, leading

an uncommonly respectful attitude toward women in general.

That takes the wind out of that sail. His wife was gone. He was clearly

dependent on Commander Parker for help.

Why would he want to kill her? Maybe she wasn't helping him and his impatience

got the best of him.

The man who attacks people.

Discretion has always been focused towards men, though, Mac. I mean, he was

responsive to your questions than ours.

I agree with Juan. Yeah, sit in line, man. If the man or Parker felt that she

was in danger from him, she would have made note of it, but she confirms the

opposite. Yeah, and he was on duty that night. He would have had to have snuck

away from his post just to get near her.

Excuse me.

Renee.

Hey, how are you?

You tell me.

The movie.

I'm sorry, I got caught up here.

How was it?

I wouldn't know.

I was waiting outside for my date.

Renee!

Everything all right?

Yeah. Yeah.

She went home.

Angry? Oh, yeah.

You probably don't want company.

No. Have a seat. Hey, we still need to catch up.

She thinks I'm self -absorbed.

Well, you are, and for good reason.

When your mother died, did you feel guilty?

Harm.

Jordan didn't kill herself.

I don't know.

The gun, the fact that she was trying to get a hold of me.

Breakup.

Those aren't the reasons she's dead.

You don't know that.

Why was she trying to reach you?

I think she needed my help for something.

Well,

you're working our case.

How did you end it?

I just walked out.

You never said goodbye.

Anyway, how are you doing?

I'm fine.

Good.

Son, since this is your first defense, I've decided to give you a choice.

You can serve one year in a county facility or five years probation.

Now, the conditions of the probation are that you're to live at home under the

supervision of your mother and abide by a strict curfew.

Do you have a preference?

We'll take the probation, Your Honor.

Your Honor, will you listen to argument against the second option?

Are you opposed to the probation, Admiral? If it involves supervision by

mother, yes, I am.

Cindy Walden is a loving parent who is easily manipulated by her son.

No lesson will be learned here. Your Honor, the Admiral couldn't be farther

the truth.

My son has always been respectful of my position and judgment.

Have you ever warned him about doing drugs, Doctor?

Yes, of course.

Well, what do you believe when Arai here?

He was in the wrong place at the wrong time.

He was in the place he chose to be.

I have already made that evaluation. Do you not agree?

I'm willing to accept your judgment, and so is Danny.

But do you disagree?

Danny's my son.

He wouldn't lie to me.

Admiral, do you have a suggestion for this second option?

Military service?

No way. Son, I'll allow you to express an opinion, but you don't have a vote

here.

I imagine you're talking about the Navy.

Any branch of the service can provide character building, Your Honor. However,

do know that marijuana possession can be waived by Navy recruiters for otherwise

exceptional applicants. Your Honor, I made a mistake here, okay? And I fully

intend to correct the behavior, but I don't understand why I can't be trusted

abide by the rules of probation.

Son, you couldn't be trusted to treat the Admiral's car with respect.

Probation is a much tougher challenge.

Look, I don't like boats.

I mean, I don't even swim. I really don't think that three years in the Navy

going to make me a better man.

Made me one.

Max, listen to what's written in Jordan's date book. April 28th, the

before the murder.

Mistake to be seeing him. The late night visits are intrusive, particularly

tonight.

I'm not getting any privacy. Tell him it has to stop.

So why isn't he identified?

Oh, I think he is.

Major Lynch was a frequent visitor to the building.

I used to see him coming in and out of Jordan's quarters.

Fred liked him. They used to play. He was very nice.

Did you ever see him, Colonel?

Once, I think. We were never introduced.

Mrs. Maples, were any of the visits late at night?

Um, I do recall some.

Why are you asking these questions? Didn't NCIS determine it was a suicide?

We have a different take on the incident, Colonel.

Do you think the Major was involved?

Do you remember seeing him that night, ma 'am?

No. I find this very hard to believe.

Did you see him?

Which night?

The night before?

Yes.

Look, you're making her nervous. Why do we have to keep going through this?

Please, answer the question, ma 'am.

I want you to leave, now.

It's a simple question, Mrs. Maples.

Yes.

I believe I did see him that night.

Where were you at the time of Commander Parker's death, Major?

I've already established that, ma 'am. You didn't establish it, Major. Your

gunnery sergeant did.

We just spoke with her. She told NCIS you were at the jewelry store because

that's what you told her.

And this is the problem? I assume you can provide a receipt proving the

of this engagement ring.

I never bought the ring, sir.

Well, then a salesperson who'll confirm your presence in the store at the time,

Major.

Let me try to understand this, sir.

You, a suspect, without an alibi in Jordan's murder, are asking me if I can

support mine.

I'll ask you, Major.

Can you?

I wasn't in the store, ma 'am.

My gunny assumed that because I had asked her about what to buy.

Well, then where were you?

In Lafayette Park, ma 'am.

Well, why don't you clarify this for NCIS?

Because I didn't want to be suspected of something I didn't do, ma 'am. Why were

you in the park?

I was thinking, ma 'am. About what?

About how I was going to win Jordan back.

She'd broken up with you? About an hour before.

That's why I considered buying the ring. Thought it might... Thought it might

convince her to change her mind.

Why didn't you buy the ring, Major?

Because I realized it wouldn't work.

I made my commitment too late.

Look, I'm being straight with you because I want to be clear that I loved

Jordan.

I did not kill her. I would not kill her.

So... So let's talk about this in the spirit of finding out the person who

Let's talk about where you were the night before Jordan died.

Is this part of your murder theory, Commander?

Did you visit her, Major?

That would be a no, sir.

I was visiting my sister in St. Louis.

Shall I get her on the phone to confirm, sir?

Why would Mrs. Maples lie about seeing Lynch leave Jordan's quarters the night

before? Maybe because she was a frail woman who was pushed into falsely

identifying a suspect by an overzealous attorney.

I didn't push her, Maggie. You're pushing everybody hard. You pushed Bud

out of the investigation.

Yeah, well, Lynch could still be guilty.

Our theory is that the person in Jordan's date book killed her and that's

Lynch.

Yeah, well, she writes about not wanting to see him anymore and that is Lynch.

Unless she broke up with two people.

What do you want to do now?

Regroup in the morning and start with an open mind.

What obsessions have you been having?

Well, there's a certain Navy psychiatrist I think a lot about.

Well, sometimes the best way to get rid of these obsessions is to indulge in

them. Oh.

Did you hear what I just said?

Yeah.

What was it?

I don't know. I'm sorry, Renee. I'm a thousand miles away.

Just let me get through this, okay? I'll make it up to you.

Do you get through things, Harm?

Eventually.

What about your father?

That is resolved, Renee.

Until next Christmas when you revisit the wall?

How about your flying career?

It's out of my system.

When are your quals?

In two weeks. And don't mention Mac, okay?

How about Jordan?

Why'd you guys break up?

Jordan broke up with me.

When I got back from sea duty, I wanted to pick things up, but we left off.

She didn't think I could commit. She didn't want to get pulled back in.

Pull me an arm.

I just did that, Renee.

No.

No, you've made gestures.

Do you know, I still don't even know what drives you.

You know, you share all these stories about your family members, but never

yourself.

It would just be helpful to know how you grew into this person that you are.

I don't have that kind of insight into myself, Renee.

Tell me about your childhood.

I mean, did you wear braces?

Did you cause a lot of trouble? Did you have an imaginary friend?

Renee, I'm just really tired right now. I can't even think straight. I'm sorry.

I'm going home.

Just give me a week, okay?

Am I going to have to die for you to commit to me?

Harm, you should hear this.

I just got back the analysis on the animal blood. I tested for dog and cat,

it came up dog.

What does that mean?

That means there could have been a dog at Jordan's quarters on the night of her

death. I told her there was one in the opposite unit.

That's right.

Let's find out if it was injured.

What are you doing here?

Well, it was my idea.

I wanted to follow through.

That can make me salute now, are you?

Not yet.

You know, I don't know, maybe it's you or the trial or both, but the only

specialty I can think of is legal affairs.

Well, it's a career choice. It might take you a few years.

Well, maybe I'll end up a jag.

God forbid.

You know, son, I know you think I ruined your life, but I want you to do me a

couple of favors.

One, I want you to write your mother every week.

And two...

I want you to visit her on every leave because she's going to miss you.

She's going to miss you a lot.

Let's go.

Major Lynch didn't visit Commander Parker the night before she died, ma

He was in St. Louis.

Oh, thank God.

Oh, good. I genuinely like him.

Oh, you didn't see him?

No, I guess not. I'm very sorry.

I... Spent most of the year in a hospital. I don't think I'm quite with

So I hope I haven't wasted your time.

Hey, buddy.

You know what? He can get a little feisty.

Looks like he has a problem there. Skin infection. We're treating him for it.

He's been scratching it.

Yeah, I'm afraid it's time to put him in one of those, um, cones.

He'll hate it.

So when you say that you weren't quite with it, Mrs. Maples, do you mean that

you didn't see anyone that night or you saw somebody else?

I didn't see anyone. Really, I was under the impression that you did see

somebody. Well, that's... I was confused.

Or you're protecting somebody.

Where was your husband that night, ma 'am?

Here. Doing what?

Doing... He takes care of me. He didn't leave at some point that evening?

Maybe. I don't know.

Well, which is it, ma 'am?

Did Lieutenant Colonel Maple visit Jordan that night?

Colonel, were you having an affair with Lieutenant Commander Parker? What the

hell are you talking about, Commander?

We know you were with Jordan the night before she died.

We have a witness, Colonel.

Yes, I was in her quarters, but we were not having an affair.

And why were you there?

I was seeing her for counseling.

I went two, three times a week.

It was informal. We would talk in her living room. What about?

My wife.

She's unstable.

Capable of irrational, even violent behavior.

Been in and out of institutions over the last eight years.

It's become increasingly difficult for me.

I was struggling whether to put her away permanently.

Obviously, I didn't want her to know about that, so I would visit Commander

Parker after Jane had gone to bed.

Who was it that saw me at her quarters?

Fred needed to go.

The scratching at the bed finally woke me up.

So I took him outside.

As I was heading back, I saw Peter coming out of Jordan's quarters.

When he went to the bathroom, I snuck back in bed.

Did you confront him?

I haven't been much of a wife.

I understood that he might have.

Impulse.

How did you feel about Commander Parker?

Less sympathetic.

Did you visit her?

The next night, when Peter was doing the laundry, I went over there. He answered

the door, said hello.

I said...

Too upset to answer back. I think this frightened her. Anyway, she said that

was busy and she really, she couldn't talk to me just then.

And I remember thinking, you make it

very clear how you feel.

What did you do?

I pushed my way in.

And did she react?

Well, she...

She tried to calm me down at first, but... I'm so

familiar with those tactics.

Laughter. I think that's when she went to the door and got a gun.

Told me to leave.

Did you take the gun from her?

No.

Fred ran in, started barking.

Startled her, she fell back into a chair.

Dropped the gun. It was right there by my feet. Picked it up and...

I held it to her chest.

This was only to warn her.

The gun went off, and I let go of it.

I didn't know what to do.

So I left.

I just...

I left a message on your machine today, but then thought you'd probably moved on

and might not want to call me back.

So I'm sending you this note.

Even after I left, I have to admit I remained in conflict about you.

Until this morning.

I awoke with the sense that our relationship was not a lost opportunity

had thought, but a gift.

I'm a better person for having known you, and I hope you feel the same way

me. I've been seeing somebody, but feel the need to be with myself for a time.

This is a good thing.

I don't know what choices you've made, but I can only hope you're embracing

with the same confidence.

My best wishes, always.

Love, Jordan.

We just wrapped.

Listen, how do you like to see a movie?

It's not playing anymore.

No, no, this is a different movie.

That's me.

It's Mary Kelly.

I was 13.

My mom filmed it.

She found it a little while ago and sent it up.

Do you remember this?

Like it was yesterday.

What were you thinking?

I was thinking I wanted to dance with her.

Then why are you just standing there?

I don't know.

Talk about that.