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Previously on Survivor, 16 castaways
began their adventure as four tribes.

is Exile Island. Throughout this game,
tribe members will be banished to this

island. The tribes immediately faced off
in their first reward challenge.

Yeah. Get it on. The losing tribe will
choose one person to stay behind on

Exile Island right off the bat.

In a race to find three amulets, the
older men, the younger men, and the

women were all winners.

The young women finished last and chose
Misty to stay behind.

All right, I'm here.

And a secret of Exile Island was
revealed.

Hidden somewhere on this island is an
immunity idol. Along the way, you'll be

given clues as to the whereabouts of
that idol.

At the older women's camp, Tina emerged
as a natural leader.

Okay, here we go, kid.

Starting a fire was highly successful.

The young men floundered. That is the
stariest shelter I think we could have

possibly come up with. And the younger
women struggled with indecision. Are you

feeling it? I'm dead.

I started to get a little bit frustrated
with the whole, like, where we should

do the shelter.

The older men thrived. That's the best
smelling, stinking fire I've seen in a

long time.

And Dan, the astronaut, bonded with
Terry, the fighter pilot. I'll take on

But Shane was on edge.

I smoke three packs of cigarettes a day,
and I haven't had a cigarette in like

31 hours. It is unbelievably hard.

Alone on Exile Island, Misty toughed it
out. I'm hungry, and I'm really, really,

really thirsty.

And made a plan. When I see my tribe
mates at the next community challenge,

trick them into thinking that I found
the immunity idol.

Misty returned to her tribe at the
immunity challenge and helped the

women make a comeback.

Younger women have immunity.

Older men win immunity.

Younger men win immunity.

Older women go on to tribal council.

Before tribal council, Serene knew she
was in trouble. I'm really nervous. I

don't want to be the first one to go.

So she campaigned to have Tina voted
out. But when

Tina found a fit, the decision was
complicated.

But at tribal council, Tina ruffled
feathers when she criticized

her tribe mates.

Do you think these other three are
pulling their weight? Not as much as I

like. No offense to Tina, but it's not
like she's out there working and the

three of us are taking a nap. In the
end, Seri got her wish when the older

voted off their strongest member. Tina,
the tribe has spoken.

Fifteen are left.

Who will be voted out tonight?

Well,

the update is that we're in a torrential
downpour, and our canopy wasn't

completely built, so we rushed to try
and get the palm fronds on there.

And if we did it, the problem is that
the rain is coming in from the other

now, so a little bit of bad luck.

This place breathes bad luck.

We got a lot of work to do. We're going
to build something that can take this

barrel.

This stuff doesn't come up, dude.

We're dying, fellas.

We don't have enough stuff right here.

I feel like I'm going to want to hammer
the freaking thing.

Oh, shoot.

I got it.

That's just me stabbing it.

Nice job, girl.

Yeah! Woo!

I love it!

Ta -da!

Mmm, perfect!

Cheers. Salud. Salud. Pie love.

Pie love. Lots of love. Sisters of
Bayonetta, our first pie.

Mmm. Mmm. Oh.

Favorite.

I like it popped like that. It's really
juicy.

Mmm. Okay. This is just... Mmm.

I'm like, wow.

It's so good. Oh, it's like heaven.

I'm about to cry.

We have food.

It looks bad to the west, but it looks
bad to the north.

You know, I think about everything that
I'm missing right now. I think about my

kid. I think about, you know, it's
football practice.

We have a game Saturday, and I miss him
so much.

I miss my kid a lot. I don't, you know,
there's no, there's no reason for me to

be doing this. Like, we are going to,
I'm going to make more than enough

I don't know why I did this to myself.

I don't like you, San Flea.

I don't like Flea!

This whole scenario is so different from
the way that I live my life. Like, my

life is very...

busy and it's always all the time it's
like constant like add you know what i

mean psycho boy but i'm just i have a
real hard time with the nothing to do

i mean there's plenty to do but it's
monotonous and it's it's hard it's hard

no more torrential downpours sir

god no more

First look, the new group of older
women.

Tina voted out the last tribal council.

All right, let's get to it. Everybody
take a spot on the disc.

Men on the light disc, women on the dark
disc.

Your choice. Find one you like.

Okay, everybody take a step back. Flip
over your disc.

You see a buff, pick it up.

Terry, take a spot over here to the
left.

Danielle, over here to the right.

Four tribes are about to become two
tribes.

Barry,

you're the first member of Lamina.

Danielle, you're the first member of
Kasaya.

We're going to do a schoolyard pick. It
doesn't matter who goes first because a

man has to pick a woman. A woman has to
pick a man. Therefore, ladies first.

Danielle, you're choosing a man.

The cool guy with the Boston tattoo.

The cool guy. Shane.

There's the Buffs. Get rid of yours. Put
that one on.

Terry, you're picking a woman.

Hey, uh, green sweats.

Sally, here's the Buffs.

Shane, picking a woman. Uh, you're right
there, little lady. Get on over here.

Courtney, now a member of Kasaya.

Sally, picking a guy.

I'll pick the fast guy. John Deerhat.

Austin. Comes a member of Lamina. Nice
to meet y 'all.

Courtney. Red Shirt.

Aris.

Deep Sire Relief. Beyond a Tribe.

Austin. I'm going to go with Exile
Island over there.

Misty. Comes a member of Lamina.

Good to meet you.

Aris. You're choosing a woman.

Sari. Sari.

Sari becomes a member of Kasaya.

Aris.

Misty. Nick.

Nick becomes a member of Lamina.

Nice to meet you.

Zuri, your choice. You're choosing a
man.

This guy right here.

Bobby joins Kasaya.

Nick, your choice.

You're choosing a woman.

The young lady in the pink tank top.
Ruth Marie becomes a member of Lamina.

to meet you.

Bobby, your choice. What would have been
made for you?

A shirt.

Melinda joins Kasaya.

Okay, only one choice left. So, Ruth
Marie, you are in effect choosing your

tribe member and also telling one of
these two guys nobody wants him on this

list.

Not this young man right here.

Dan goes to Lamina. Okay, so that leaves
you, Bruce.

My own tribe.

How tough would it be four days in to be
going home?

I would be really disappointed because I
came here to win.

Well, not only are you not going home,
you, out of all 15, are the only

person guaranteed to be safe at the next
tribal council.

Yeah, thank you!

The next three days, you're going to be
spending on Exile Island.

You won't return back to this game until
the next tribal council, at which point

you will sit in and listen.

After that tribe has voted somebody out,
you will replace that person as the new

member of their tribe and be back in
this game. Wow. In addition, there's

a hidden immunity idol that may or may
not be out there.

Theoretically, Misty could already have
it.

I'm ready for this.

Well, go.

Vote's out there. You'll have Flint
waiting for you if you can make fire.

Okay,

two tribes.

Lamina in orange, Kasaya wearing purple.

Shall we get to today's reward
challenge?

Definitely. For today's challenge,
you're going to race through an obstacle

course collecting six wooden snakes
along the way.

One member of your tribe is responsible
for carrying all six snakes throughout

the entire course. On my go, you'll make
your way to the first station where you

will collect your first two snakes.

Once you have those, you'll crawl under
a fence over a 12 -foot A -frame wall.

Make your way under the bamboo crawl.

Grab two more snakes.

You now have one person carrying four
snakes.

You then go across a wooden ladder
bridge. If you fall off the bridge,

got to go back to the start and go
again.

For the last phase, you go through the
water and into a pit of leaves where you

must find the last two snakes.

First tribe to cross the finish line
with all six snakes wins reward.

Want to know what to plan for?

Yeah.

Fishing gear.

Beautiful.

In addition, waiting for you at camp,
one raft.

Four paddles to go with it.

Should help you trying to get some food.

Worth playing for?

Yeah. All right. Take our spots. We'll
get started.

Lamina, who's going to be your snake
wrangler?

Nick. For Josiah.

Courtney. Here we go. Four rewards.

Survivors ready.

Go.

Both tribes pushing people up quickly.

Got to get the snakes untied and one
person sharing them.

Danielle and Courtney have the first
snake untied for Josiah.

Lamina has their first snake.

Sally has the second snake for Lamina.

Both tribes have both snakes.

Got to get everybody on the mat.

Lamina, go.

Josiah, go.

Both tribes are dead even.

When you have all seven over to the
other side, you can go.

Go, go, go, go, go, go.

Go. Carry those snakes out of the way.

Josiah, go.

Two more snakes to collect on your way
through.

Both tribes are pretty even.

Both snakes are free for Lamina.

Both stakes are free for Kasaya.

Lamina, go.

Kasaya, go.

Take your time, Nick. Good.

Jane falls off, heads back to the start.

This is going to be a challenge for the
snake wranglers.

It's a lot to handle.

Nick's across.

Move on.

Courtney's across.

We are neck and neck again.

Two snakes left, buried in the leaves.

There, he's got his hand on one.

Got one, got one, got one. Orris has a
snake for Keziah.

I got it, I got it. Dan's released the
sixth one for Lamina. They've got them

all.

Got to get all six across the finish.

You guys worked well together. I don't
even think you were out hustled. You

lost. I got nothing for you. You're
heading back to Kasaya Beach, previously

older women's camp.

Head on out.

Lamina, nice effort. Won yourself a nice
reward.

Come get it. Head on out. Head into the
older men's camp.

I'm in a much better mood than I was
this morning.

I've always related better with younger
people. I'm 34, but I'm, you know what I

mean? I'm definitely young for my age
and the way that I think about life.

Like when I was at the older tribe, I
was thinking about every single minute

about when I was going to be leaving.
And here, I haven't really thought

you know what I mean? I haven't thought
about leaving yet.

Do you all want to see your new home?

We have not been wet at all. I'm so
impressed. Why?

This is how we made ours.

Wow. You see this, Bob? And we can add a
little bit more on this side to make it

wider, maybe.

How were the bugs?

Not bad. And this is definitely the best
spot. And the wind comes in that side.

You guys are awesome, man.

It's so great. We're going to have fun.

So much better.

I'm so excited.

Oh, my God. We have been invaded.

Fire!

Way to go.

Way to go. Way to go. I like our name. I
like our color.

I like our people.

First and foremost. People. I mean, some
of the people, like Danielle, she's

okay. And Courtney, like, I mean, you
know, like, she, um, like. I'm like.

So you're like Hollywood out here.

Gangsta Hollywood.

Gangsta Hollywood, man.

I'm like mere, like, Playboy liquor and
stuff. I'm like right where the hill

starts to rise, you know? But, like, I
can walk to, like, Avalon and Spider

-Man. It's like that game where you have
to figure out what doesn't belong in a

group. And Serena are the ones that
stick out.

It's so fun having so many more people.

It's fun for me having girls around.

I like having girls around. If our tribe
loses the Coming Up Immunity Challenge,

I think the three and I are screwed.

Yep, we're screwed.

I just had to get over on repeat, and
now I'm happy.

Yo, yo, yo. The three of us. The three
of us and Eris.

Totally. The four of us.

Here's the deal.

Can we not make it dramatic and like
cheat on each other? Five people in.

just the four of us. Go to the four.
Done.

No more discussion about it.

If I could just get through this part,
which is the surviving, and do well in

the challenges, we're going to be fine.
I got on the beach and I was right

there. I was like, here it is. You, you,
you, you.

Let's lock in right now.

You've just been welcomed into the
group.

I swear to you on my son's life.

It's us four.

Yeah, 100%. Never.

Here's the deal. If you get any of
these, I'll find you and kill you.

I'm serious.

For Shane, the first five minutes we
were there, he was just like, us four.

Shane, Eric, and Courtney. The people
that don't talk and communicate and see

what's going on and see how people are
feeling and look people in the eye,

they're the ones that get voted off.

No way.

Oh, my God.

This is so awesome.

This is really nice.

Let's make sure we get some photos.

I am thrilled with this outcome.

It was close call for me. It's the 15th
guy I picked, but Ruth Marie did pick

me, and this was the team I definitely
wanted to be on.

Oh, fire.

This is so good.

Thank you so much for letting us come
here.

Terry and I have a fantastic
relationship and a strategy that's going

all the way.

This is great.

Dan and I were talking that we'd like to
make a bond with you guys, look each

other in the eye, shake hands, and say,
you know, we're going to do our best to

get everyone to the merge. But if we
have to start dropping people, it's not

going to be one of us four guys.

It's in our best interest probably.

You have my word, you know. You have my
word, definitely.

What do you think?

It makes a lot of sense.

Terry just laid it out there. Him and
Dan.

are together, and they want Austin and I
with them.

I think him and Dan are both strong
players, both in the challenges and

camp. Okay.

Thanks a lot, man. I trust you, man. I
need you. We're going to do this. It

makes sense for the short term and the
tribe. The four of us really have

to worry about with the majority over
the three women.

But I don't know. You never know what's
going to happen.

So let's talk strategy for a minute.

I talked to Misty a little bit.

We were thinking if the four of us stuck
together, meaning you and Nick, we

would have the numbers.

And then it feels kind of even, you
know, two girls, two guys, and then we

figure it out from there, you know?
Right, yeah.

We would definitely want to vote with
you guys if you wanted to.

So talk to Nick when you can. All right,
I will.

Cool. It is definitely Austin and Nick
in the middle right now.

We are right in the middle of a tug -of
-war.

It lets me know that this game's
serious.

This isn't just all fun and games.
Somebody's going to have to get hurt out

here.

Who won day one?

You also have a lot of time to think
about why fate chose you to be the first

one out here.

Me too.

It is above the table.

I read the clue.

The clue just showed me a little section
where the idol is not.

Also, it said it's above the tide mark.

So I figured right again, it's a cliff
someplace.

I'm going to be ripping this island
apart, and I'm going to find that Muni

That's where I'm going to put most of my
energy.

After I get the fire set up and get a
little bit of miserable inconvenience,

that's all it is.

Oh, the cliff.

I hope people realize I'm crazy.

No, I won't.

My culture practice will really help me
clear my mind, focus, get my mind ready,

like for a battle, and then I get my
mind ready the same way to be on this

island. Bitch!

This place is horrible, evil.

It's not good to be here. I would not
wish this on my worst enemy.

You're going to do the spear and the
goggles?

I've never used one of those.

I haven't either. We've got to
experiment with that a little bit. Yeah,

play with it.

At the reward challenge, we won fishing
gear, spear gun, hooks, tackle, a couple

of drop lines, fins and a mask, and the
raft.

So it's pretty exciting.

It would be nice to get out there and
bring in some fish for everybody.

Point at the fish, hopefully, and there
you go. That's kind of fun.

Yeah, and you remember to hold on to it.

I was sitting on the edge of the raft,
and I

decided I'm going to try the spirit.

And I'm like, oh, let's do a practice
stop.

The first time I attempted to use that
stupid spear, it flew off my arm and I

dove down. It was so deep.

Any sign of it?

No. That's what I knew.

All right.

Is it down 30, 40 feet probably?

I can't see anything.

Don't, like, stress out. Don't, like,
hurt yourself. Don't worry about it. I

mean, if it stops, it's gone.

It's all right. Don't worry. It's just a
valuable time. It happens.

Nick was cool about it. He was just
like, don't worry about it. But I was

nervous to come back and tell the rest
of the tribe.

I had some bad news.

What?

I lost that gear.

It was stupid.

Did it fall over or something? Or fell
through?

I'm so sorry.

Did you try to go back down with the
mast? Yeah, it was so deep.

I couldn't get down. We were out about
100 yards. It was probably 30, 40 feet

water. I'm very frustrated about the
spear.

I have no doubt in my mind we would be
eating tons of fish if we had that

I lost my spear. I feel terrible. Don't
worry. We'll make it. I was telling him,

we can make one.

Okay, how's everybody doing? Misty, how
are you hanging in there? Pretty good.

The good part about our team is we're
all very upbeat, and that's kind of our

rule. Don't get down and out. Just be
thankful and stay positive.

Kasaya, how are things going for you?

I don't know how people want to feel
about stuff, but I'm not going to lie.

are in a dire situation.

And, you know, the whole, like, ooh,
let's act like we're doing all right so

other tribe thinks we're, you know what
I mean? Screw that. We are not in a good

way.

Physically, we're wrecked.

Okay, let's get to today's challenge.

Here's how it works.

Today's immunity challenge will test
your ability to work together while

transporting a giant zombie head from
the ocean to the beach.

Each tribe has a boat. That boat is
anchored to the bottom of the ocean

with a large wooden box.

In addition, each boat has six holes
filled with rubber plugs. On my go, five

tribe members.

Pull out the plug and begin bailing the
water that's now coming in the boat. The

other two tribe members jump into the
water, start moving the boat forward by

pulling the anchor. This is very heavy.

Once you get to shore, clip your boat
into the hitching post.

You must now transport the anchor up the
beach to your finish mat.

First tribe to get their zombie head on
the zombie body wins immunity.

Stay from tribal council.

Losers, somebody going home tonight.

Big enough stakes?

Yes. So I'm out.

We'll get started.

More immunity.

Survivors ready.

Go.

All right, in the water for Kasaya.

Bobby's right behind.

You're going to have to work together to
keep that water out of the boat.

Nick in the water for Lamina.

Kasaya's going backwards.

Nick and Austin are going to switch it
up for Lamina.

Hey, Terry, listen to me. I'm coming in.
I'm going to be pulling the rope while

you carry.

Bobby and Shane swapping out for Kasiya.

Shane made zero progress in the water.

Lamina still in the lead, but only
because Kasiya is absolutely inept.

Kasiya?

Wait, Kasiya, I'll take the probe.

I'm making up some ground.

Let's go, let's go.

Kasaya getting closer.

Lamina got to pick it up.

Carrie, pulling that anchor in.

Lamina's burst back to the beach. Kasaya
not giving up.

Get that anchor to the shore. Get that
boat clipped in.

Trying to muscle it in.

Still a few inches short.

Kasaya starting to close the gap.

Misty's got it.

Kasaya, Tribal Council tonight is going
to cost you a member. You have the

afternoon to figure out who that's going
to be. See you at Tribal tonight.

Whenever there's a competition of any
sort, I don't like to lose.

You know, I just, I hate to lose
anything.

I'm beat.

I'm wiped out.

I want a cigarette. I want a coffee. I
want to have a big sandwich. I want to

call my kid. I want to tell him I love
him and it's the stupidest thing I ever

did in my whole life.

I am not well without him. I'm not well
without him.

Hey, what are you doing?

It's not what I'm doing or what I'm not
doing. I'm telling you, I can't finish.

I'm going to quit. I have to quit.

Come on.

It only gets better from here.

Really? Give it a chance.

Don't fall down on this moment.

I'm not feeling so good right now.

You know, I don't want to be here.

I really just maybe want you guys to
vote me out.

And we need you, man.

I mean, you're dropping on us, too. You
know that, right? I'm not dropping on

you. Yeah, you are.

Shane is letting us down completely.

He's leaving us high and dry.

And I just feel like he snapped today
and threw in the towel.

I mean, it's just like, come on, man.

Pick it up.

Are you serious?

Are you serious? I swear to God, but
Courtney and Danielle are seriously...

him quit. If he wants to quit, let him
quit.

Just when we thought it was over, Shane
wants to quit.

You have people begging to stay here.

If somebody wants to quit, let them
quit.

Basically, this is what's going to
happen.

We're going to be here. We're going to
have water.

And we're going to have...

tomorrow will be set.

I will be eating not like a champion. I
don't want to be here.

I'm positive.

I'm positive.

You know that thought with me.

I just don't want me to get hydrated and
get food.

I don't want... Just

try it.

Okay. Okay?

All right.

Because it's not like they can do it.

Right. Okay? So who do you want to go
with?

We can just bring him up right now.

We got it?

Uh -huh.

I hate that he didn't want to bring him
up.

Oh, no. Shane wants to stay.

No, he doesn't want to go home.

I'm really sorry about my, like,
insanity flip -flop today.

It's like there's no reason why I
shouldn't try and stay. I haven't had

two days. It's like if I drink.

I might feel better in my brain and in
my head, and I might want to stay.

You know what I mean?

And so now we have to talk about who
we're going to vote off.

So I just want to do this with honesty
and, like, openness.

And where I stand here is, like, I want
our tribe to be as physically strong as

possible. So I think, like, for me...

And this is nothing against you two,
either one, but I'm going to throw my

either with you or you. And I haven't
decided yet.

See, you're looking at me like you hate
me.

No, I just don't. I don't know what to
say about this.

Anything over there?

Well, just drop the bomb on here.

I just wanted to put it out there. I'm
sorry. I just didn't want anyone to show

up at travel council and then have to
backstab.

Iris literally came over to the shelter.

not having spoken to anyone about what
he was about to do, and he said, Cherie

or Melinda are going to go home tonight.

It was so stupid.

And it was his decision. He just came
over and was like, boop.

There's been an arrangement obviously
made.

What he said sounded insincere. I don't
know what to tell you. I don't care

which one of you goes.

You know what I mean? I just don't.
Whoever doesn't go now is going next.

And then...

Shane piped in, you know, that, yeah,
it's the four of us. Like, literally

said right out loud that we have an
alliance.

You don't let, you don't tell everyone
what's going on.

If this total instability continues,
it's going to be very hard to know that

will be there for us.

I think it's me.

Let me stop.

I don't know who's going to go first.

Three seems to think she'll go first,
but I'm not so sure that it won't be me.

I feel so awful. I don't like this.

Yeah, there's a lot about it that's not
fair.

There really is.

I was the last one picked of our group,
so that's one reason that I think it

might be me. And I'm not all, ooh,
meditative, cool, yeah.

I mean, that's just not me.

I mean, it's one or the other at this
point. Sari and Melinda are going to go

one, two, or whatever.

You know, they're the first two to go.

The thing that I don't feel safe about
is my brain and giving up. Like, I have

this part of me that wants to go in
there to tribal council tonight and just

say, listen, clip me out because I don't
want to be here anymore.

For those of you who don't have torches,
there's one behind you. Go ahead and

grab it and approach the flame.

Dip it in and get fire.

This is part of the ritual at Tribal
Council because in this game, fire

represents your life. As long as you
have fire, you're in the game.

Fire's gone, so are you.

We'll now bring in Bruce from Exile
Island.

During tribal council, Bruce is just
listening in, trying to get a gauge of

tribe dynamics.

Once the vote's over, he will join this
tribe, go back to camp with you guys.

Shane, you made no bones about it at the
challenge today. You said, Jeff, I'm

not going to pretend for the other tribe
that everything's fine. It's miserable.

Yeah, it's the worst thing that's ever
happened to me in my entire life. Like,

wanted to quit, I wanted them all to
write my name down, and I wanted to

here because I couldn't get... out of
the mania of dehydration not being able

eat and on top of that i smoked three
packs of cigarettes a day and quit the

i got here so i'm in the midst of this
insane withdrawal from that and i was

done i wanted out of here so is this
like a detox for you it's like it's some

kind of psychotic bad idea detox siri
let's talk about

what's going on at camp life up until
today what happened today Well, no

how happy you try to be, it's hard to
stay like that when you're told it's us

four.

And that's basically what it was.

And either one of y 'all are going to go
home today.

It's hurtful. I mean, I'm human.

Especially when I think in the
challenges that we have competed

team, I don't think that there's
anything that three or I did or didn't

they could point out to and say, you
should have done that better.

So up to you tonight.

Just the way it goes?

No. I mean, I'm disappointed. I'm
pissed.

I'm hurt. It bothers me when somebody
even remotely had the thought to quit.

And you have me here who is trying my
best to stay.

Serene, if it's you tonight, six days is
not bad.

Six days isn't bad, but the
disappointment that my family would have

Why would they be disappointed in you?

You're giving it your all.

My family might not be disappointed, but
I would be disappointed for them

because part of the reason I came here
was to help them.

So they probably wouldn't be
disappointed, but I would.

To me, this tribe seems a little all
over the map. Curious to see how it

out. It is time to vote. Sari, you're
up.

I'll go tell him to vote.

Once the votes are read, the decision is
final. The person voted out will be

asked to leave the tribal council area
immediately.

I'll read the votes.

First vote.

Shane.

Shane. Two votes, Shane.

Melinda. One vote, Melinda.

Melinda. Two votes, Shane. Two votes,
Melinda.

Three votes, Melinda. Two votes, Shane.

Second person voted out of Survivor
Exile Island. Melinda. That's four.

enough. You can bring me your torch.

Melinda, tribe has spoken.

Bruce,

drop your buff. Join your new tribe,
Kasaya.

How you doing?

Good. Yeah, brother.

Brother. Here's your buff.

Grab your choices. Get back to camp.
Good night.

Stay tuned for scenes from our next
episode.

Next time on Survivor. I came out here
to play the game.

The Lamina women have a plan.

Is it working?

I think it is. Things get dirty at the
challenge.

And sparks fly at Josiah. Out of your
mind, man. You are crazy.

I want one! This one!

I just want mine!

I just found myself on the tribe that's
like the, hey man, yo, dude, what's

up? And that's just not me. It won't
ever be me, nor do I think I want it to

me. So I just wish...

Look, because I know she didn't want to
go back there without me. It's just

going to be hell. But I'm going to have
a shower, and I'm going to drink water,

and I'm going to eat food.