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I didn't choose this life.

I was born to live it.

So was Dad, Pa, his dad, and his dad before that.

I'll always remember these days. It's the happiest days of my life.

Together, as a family.

I learned from watching my mum and dad and how they work together.

So does my sister Sally. She's been asking the craziest questions lately.

What do cows think?

Don't know.

Maybe ask Dad.

Yeah, but I think that's a good answer.

Grab that last one, Eric.

Radio U2, ready for school.

See you after. See ya.

How do you know someone's a vegan?

Yeah. I'll fucking tell you.

I think I'm going to need a drink after this, mate.

Give me a ride to footy training.

As long as you behave yourself.

Yeah.

I'm supposed to be slowing down, you know.

This payback full of free labor you got out of me as a kid.

Yeah, you beat me to it. Well done.

Getting trained.

I know.

Feet up.

Ready? Here we go. And we're off. Going to get you, mate.

So I'm fucking driving, and I've had a few, you know, on the back roads, and I

see this sign.

It's just a talking dog.

We'll see.

Righto, quarter time. Next week, I'll see you over here. Home game. Let's go.

Who's going to win?

Daddy!

Here we go.

Nice work.

How'd you go?

All right.

Can we stay and come over with you?

No, mate. I've got a train. I've got to take a par home.

I've got some work to do when I get there, too.

You've had a big day, Miss Ted.

Come on, give Dad a hope. We'll see him in the morning. See you, Mum.

Have a good sleep.

Right now.

Behave.

See you, Bud.

You see, that dog's a fucking liar.

It hasn't done any of that shit.

This is a fucking bullshit dog.

You all right, Mad Paddy? Oh, look out, look out, the boss is here.

You'd better take me home, illustrate.

I'm going to go home, about 5 .10.

Can I have a beer, mate? Get him a beer.

No, I'm all right.

Jackie, I'm all right, mate. No, no, I'm good. No, I've got to get home and put

the sheep in the shed, mate.

Oh, the sheep.

Yeah.

Why?

I've got to get them up.

I can't afford to have wet sheep, can I? Just leave it. I can't have wet sheep.

Oh. I can't have sheep.

Fuck the sheep. Is that what he said?

Fuck your own fucking sheep.

Finish that. Come back and get some, all right? All right, mate. Jackie, love.

Got a couple on the tick. Just give me a couple.

I think you've had enough, haven't you? I'm going to have plenty more.

All right, all right, all right.

You needn't stop, eh? I don't forget.

Well, don't you forget.

You don't hang around with the blokes much these days, do you, son?

No.

When's the last time you got in a piss?

Just a busy.

Well, you know what they like.

Rest in peace.

You can come to bed.

Yeah, yeah, I've got a couple of things to do before tomorrow morning, but it's

almost done.

20 minutes.

And you're going to be in bed.

Let's go boys!

Fucking turn it up!

All right.

I'm a bit trisexual.

I'll try anything sexual.

I suppose we finish up those last ones we got, eh?

What is it? What do you think?

No.

Didn't fall.

Okay. Hello. Hello.

Hi.

It's been just crazy.

That's all right.

Yeah.

What are you up to today?

I have a meeting first thing with this guy who thinks he can swing his dick

around to get his own way.

I hate his guts. I truly fucking hate his guts. Catherine, the kids are here.

Hi, Catherine.

Oh, my God, I'm so sorry.

Hey, Eric, how are you going?

You taller than your mum yet?

Yeah.

Yep, Sal's here.

Hi. Thank you.

I miss you so much.

Well, if you moved home, you might meet a nice country guy.

Yeah, well, that's never going to happen in a million Sundays, so I'm sorry

about that.

They're not that bad.

Anyway, don't get me started on guys. We'll be here for an hour. I've got to

I've got to go.

Okay. Okay, well, we just got home. Okay, love you. Say love you on the

Okay, I love you. Bye.

Right you two, let's get inside.

Hey, what are you making yourselves?

Patterns. Patterns? That's a good girl.

What's wrong?

What's the matter?

What's going on?

What's going on?

So.

Good morning, brothers and sisters of Christ.

We are here this morning to celebrate the life of Alec.

To thank God for the life and to mourn and to honor him.

To rest his mortal body and to support the family and support one another

in this difficult time.

We are entrusting God that the death of Alec is a new beginning in his

relationship with God.

Pray for Alec's family to mourn and pray.

Let them know that the love of God is unconditional love.

Loving God, you alone are the source of life.

Your life -giving grace through Christ feeds us with Christ.

Shall we pray?

Greasy. I

won't.

Bye.

And I went on down the road.

On down the road. Oh, yeah, I went on down the road.

On down the road. Yeah, whoa, whoa.

Whoa,

whoa.

It's the rainy season of where I've been living at. Death comes leaping out of

every doorway, wasting your fucking money. Whoa, whoa.

Whoa, whoa.

And I went on down.

I'll take a sleep.

Well, come and hop in here then.

Thank you.

Hello, Alison, it's me again.

Yeah, can you just give me a call when you get a chance?

OK, bye. I love you.

Mom, we're ready to go.

We're ready for school.

Hi Owen.

Can you give me a hand tomorrow with the cuddle work?

Was that a lesson?

It still baffles me.

It keeps happening.

I wonder how he did it.

I just wonder how they're coping with it, to be honest. I mean, how do you

on from that?

What did you tell your kids?

I said it was a farm accident.

I didn't want to go into the details.

What's the tricky one? What did you say?

I don't know.

I just said he was upset.

How was school today?

Shit.

How about you both stay home and help me tomorrow?

Yeah.

Come on, love.

Oh, this one has to go straight. Sally, can you run down and change the gate for

me?

What's pardoning?

I

don't

know, hon. Just keep pushing that next cow up.

You're still not a pot.

Hi, you're in the way.

Hi.

You're in the way.

Hi.

What's wrong with Pa?

He just misses Dad, hon.

You alright, hon?

Yep.

Good work.

Come on, you two. Out we go. Time for school.

I'm not going.

Yes, you are. I'm not going to school.

Yes, you are. Mum, I'm not going.

Yes, you are. What's the point?

Because an education's important.

I'm just going to be a farmer.

I don't need to learn.

Farmers have the most important job in the world, Eric.

It's a huge responsibility.

How will you expect to be a farmer if you don't know how to do maths or

You're going to school.

Eric!

Love you too, doll.

Is that flower still in your ear?

Yes, but it's on the other side.

Don't make me any prettier.

Oh, are you serious? What the fuck are you doing? Get out, get out. I'm not,

Ben. No, you're not. I'm beating the cattle. Get out. I've fucking lived here

whole life. I know what I'm doing. No, you're drunk. You can't drive. Get out.

I'm fucking drunk.

It's too dangerous. I'm beating the cows. Give me the keys. Give me the keys

now. It's dangerous.

Dangerous. Dangerous.

Fuck off, Owen.

Fucking make that.

Look at me.

Owen, look at me.

Come on, if you don't get out now, I'm going to fucking throw you out by the

scruff of your neck. Get out.

Okay.

Okay. Come on, please, just get out. I'll get out of the fucking truck. And I

don't need any help.

Just don't.

Don't touch me.

No.

Jesus,

come on. Let's just get you up to the house. Come on.

Is he dead?

No, honey. He's just sleeping.

Quick, we'd better hurry.

One, two.

Go get your bag.

Let's go.

Come on.

Please.

Come on.

We've got to get the sheep.

Please.

Oh, come on.

Push, push, push.

Push him, come on. Hey, hey, push.

Push up, come on. Push up, girls. Oh, come on, we've got one down here.

Push up, push up.

Come on, Stella.

Hop in.

Hey, come on, push, push, push, push, push.

Stella, come on, please help me.

Stella.

Come on.

No.

Please.

Good girl. Come on, push up.

Push up.

Push up. Come on.

Push. Hey, hey, hey, hey. Come on.

You know, I don't want to be noisy or anything, Alison, but... Are you

travelling? Yeah, we're coping.

You know, if there's anything I can do to help, just reach out.

I will, thank you.

We have spare lunches, just in case they forget their lunchbox.

I forgot, didn't I? Sorry.

Hey, it's OK.

So what do they have on their sandwiches?

Just in case.

You have a lot on your plate.

We'll make sure they get them. I'm all over it. Don't worry. You sure? It won't

happen again.

Look after yourself.

The grasshoppers have parents.

Yeah, I reckon.

Where's Heaven?

What? Where's Heaven?

Uh...

The sky, I think.

Can we go there?

Not really.

How do people get there?

Well, that's where they go when they die.

Will I go there when I die?

Yeah, I reckon.

Hi.

How are you?

Good.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry it took me so long to get here.

It's all right. You didn't need to come.

Well, hell, of course I had to come.

You didn't answer my calls.

I've just been busy.

Good to see you.

It's good to see you too.

Come here.

I'll get a cuppa.

Okay.

Looks like an atomic bomb just hit in here.

How long are you staying?

I don't know.

Would you want a cup of tea?

I'll put the jug on.

When was the last time you had a shower?

Your hair is as greasy as fuck, like it's rank.

Thanks, Catherine.

Sorry.

Well, it just, your hair is really greasy.

Is black tea okay?

Because I've got no milk.

Have you got oat milk or?

No.

Okay, yep, no worries.

Say hello to Aunty Catherine, you two.

Oh, hello, Sally.

You don't know me, do you?

Oh, Eric.

Oh, so nice to see you.

You are taller than your mum.

Aren't you?

Is chicken nuggets and veggies okay for dinner?

Yeah.

Why don't you go and have a bath or something? I can serve them up.

Really? Yeah.

Right, will you two help Aunty Catherine?

I'm here now and I will help you do things.

Okay, okay.

Let's clean up the table so that we can at least eat at it. I just...

Jesus Christ, is that Vegemite or poo?

Ah!

Boy, that looks good.

Alec, you're not sitting at the table covered in shit.

Go and get changed.

You're not sitting at the table in that. How much do you want,

darling? Heaps, please.

You're going to eat me out of house and home.

Thank you.

Is that all right?

Hey, mate, I'm glad you appreciate it.

Been working on them all day.

A little bit of this.

The lady.

Look at the girl. Oh, you're so lucky I love you. Really? Yeah.

Is that about right, is it?

Come on. Actually, this looks good.

Oh, fuck! No!

No! No!

No, don't you dare!

Don't you dare!

Sally!

You're out with the dogs tonight. You're not even there.

Get down there!

You're going to have a fucking death.

You are going to have a fucking

death.

And... Ooh, yeah.

Chicken nuggets.

Thank you.

Would you like some water?

Yes, please.

This is very civilised, isn't it?

There you are.

I bet that feels better now.

It does, thank you.

Good.

What are you up to tomorrow then?

We have to get up early to clean the shearing shed out for crutching.

Want to help?

I'll pass.

Stinky places they are.

Yeah, you know what I need?

Nice cold beer, man.

So you reckon it's going to take another two days or so to get the rest done?

Yeah, I reckon.

We're going to have to come back on Monday to finish the last of them.

I would have come on the weekend, but this lot have got a party on. It's all

right. Eric's got footy.

Oh, yeah, Cleo too. We're going to be there.

It's going to be hard, huh?

Yeah, it will be.

Look, I'm going to come in tomorrow, 6 o 'clock. I'll get started.

And if we can push through, we might get it done in one day.

I don't know.

Can I get an advance payment to pay Sonny?

I've got to pay you to rent tomorrow.

Yep, just send me an invoice tonight and I'll get paid.

I'm taking the coast road.

I'm going to ride a load. I will be there by two. Like a cat.

You can put it there.

There by two.

So far today.

you go and finish the table okay

this is nice

yeah i didn't do it alone i had a little apprentice it's the best

little helper

Eric was a good help in the yard today.

I think I've got the dogs figured out.

Stella's the boss, and if you tell her what to do, she'll need to follow us.

I can't get them to do anything.

Things could just sound like Dad.

Hey. Hey.

It's good to see you. You too.

Yeah.

So I've been hard at it.

Yeah? How's it all going?

It's no good, Alison.

It's rooted.

I think it only got through the last season because of all the patch -up

You're not going to get anything out of this, Baylor, until you fix this belt,

because it's frayed.

Well, that's just what needs to happen.

Well, yeah, fix it all.

Well, you're buying new, aren't you? I can't do that.

All right, better get started.

I'll have all the parts back at the workshop, so don't worry, Alison.

Pat, Sonny and I, we've got your back, you know.

We'll work it out.

Thank you.

Having a footy training?

Sure, I'll grab my gear. Right.

No, we've got jobs to do.

Do you want one, please?

No, Eric, we've had a big few days.

Just not Eric.

Fuck,

sorry.

All good. It's a lovely gesture, though.

You've got footy on the weekend.

I'll come to the game.

Yeah? You will?

How's the tractor thing going?

It's rooted.

How much is it going to cost?

Enough.

Well, if it's too expensive, then maybe you should not fix it.

If I don't get it fixed, I can't bough the hay.

Then you won't. I won't bough the hay.

If I don't bough the hay, I can't feed the stock.

I don't know how you're going to deal with all this.

Deal with what?

I think a million dollar debt.

Most farmers are in this amount of debt.

Really? Yeah.

As farmers, we gamble with the weather every day. And when you get a season

we did last year and the rain ruins the crop, we don't get a harvest.

It's a risk we take.

I don't know how people can live like this It is what it is

Hello

I'll come down and get him now. Thank you.

Hey,

Jackie. I'm sorry, Ellie. I would have taken him home myself, but I just don't

have anyone else to close up. I know, right?

Stop.

I know.

You do realize you're going to have to go out.

I'm going to.

What's going to happen is I'm going to have to take you to rehab. All right.

All right.

I'm hungry.

I'm going to get you hungry. I need some Tucker.

Thank you.

You know, just a little one. A little one.

How are you doing, Allison?

Yeah, all right.

Oh.

Alan's been a little out of control tonight, but he's okay.

What's the plan?

To get you home.

Oh, great.

You ready to get up?

On three. Oh, Jesus.

One, two, three.

Here,

Jackie. I want a pie.

Behave.

I'll be back, darling. I'll be back. No, you will.

I would have taken it, but I've had a few myself.

It's okay.

You going to be okay?

Yeah.

Sweet dreams, Alan.

He's going to sleep.

All right, be drive safe.

Thanks.

Sorry.

Oh, okay.

Oh,

and for Christ's sake, you just pissed yourself.

There. Through here? Yeah, on the couch. Oh, okay.

Oh, I think we're dancing.

Oh, Owen!

No, no, no, I'm here.

Oh, this is my spot.

We're going to have to clean him up.

No, we aren't.

Yeah, really.

All right, Owen, I'm going to have to... Oh, no, no, no, no, pencil.

No, no, pencil. At least let me... Oh, far out.

Far out.

You'd better not bloody shit yourself for not cleaning it up.

Alec's mum was so beautiful.

How old was he when she died?

Alec was just a baby. She had a heart attack.

Oh my God, they were so young.

That's why Alec was so paranoid about his heart.

I can't believe that Owen raised Alec all on his own.

He always said Alec was just like his mum.

I know he wishes he got to spend more time with her.

Right. He should be okay here.

Let's go.

Are you coming?

You

look

great.

Dickhead.

Hey, language!

Yes, yes!

Didn't Alec have been in the toilet?

I need Dad's couch.

Hey, boy!

I'll play a game of footy, all right?

Okay?

I would totally have an affair with him

She just heard everything you said, okay?

You okay?

I'm not going to let them get away with that.

You should just stop looking at me.

You've just got to go. No, no, I'm not going to leave it alone.

If you don't go and hit that bitch's face in, I will.

Okay, I'm going, I'm going.

Just saying all that shit makes you feel better about yourself.

Serious?

Just saying what I heard.

Why can't you say another thing about my family?

I seriously will beat the living fucking shit out of you.

Just what I heard.

Listen, what are you doing?

What are you doing?

I'm looking at Alex!

Right, you need to be honest with me.

Yeah? With Alec having an affair.

You haven't changed, have you?

Ollie, it's killing Alison.

Catherine, Alison was his whole world, and now Alec was not having an affair.

But I just need...

I just don't understand why we'd leave her behind.

I don't understand... why.

Her son.

Her son.

We lost him, Jean.

Nothing.

You cleaned my room.

Alison, it was a mess.

I washed my sheets.

You can't keep doing this on your own, and so I'm here to help you. You have no

idea what I'm going through. Maybe you should talk to someone.

Oh, my God, no, I'm fine.

No, you're not, Alison.

Alison, it's like you're thinking that Alex will come through the door any

moment and fix everything.

Fuck, you haven't even told the kids what actually happened.

Catherine, how am I supposed to tell them?

How do I tell them that their dad left on purpose?

How do I tell a 12 -year -old boy that his dad left because he didn't want to

here anymore?

Catherine, how do I do that?

What I need to do is just make sure that the farm is always here for them.

That's what Alec wants.

Alec.

Your kids are the most important thing right now.

You've had a stroke.

You're a shit. You're an asshole. You scared me.

Gene? Gene didn't die of a heart attack.

Gene, talk to me.

What's wrong?

Where are you going?

Look, Alec's in there. He's upset.

About his mother's illness.

Maybe my Paul would still be here.

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

No, it's not.

I can't take this out on you.

You don't deserve this.

Yeah, I deserve it.

You're right.

I'm not handling Alec being gone at all.

I need to get better at it.

You will.

You just need time.

Your only time.

Just wish he was here.

He is here.

Maybe you should talk to Jackie.

You're wearing my shirt.

Yeah.

You tried a baby.

But you just did it.

I am sophisticated.

Don't tell anyone.

It's mine now.

Come in.

I'll put the kettle on.

Please, have a seat.

There we go.

Thank you. I bought these, but they're probably stale.

Sorry.

I don't know.

No. Of course you don't.

It's a hard journey.

And no one knows how to navigate it.

But you are so loved by so many people.

It's okay to tell us what you need.

How do I know what I need?

I just want Alec to come back.

That's okay.

It's not going to happen.

Everywhere I look, I'm reminded of him.

I just wish I could go back in time and stop him and help him and see him.

Remembering him is a good start.

Alec may be physically gone, but you will remember him.

You'll always remember him.

With love.

I think of Patrick every day.

And my memories of him are very precious.

Your relationship with him will never die.

You don't have to let him go or move on.

You're forming a new relationship with him.

And it will be hard for you and for the kids.

Have you talked to the kids about this?

Oh, Ali.

You need to talk to them, sweetheart.

Let them... I can tell you how they feel.

Okay.

Yeah.

Let's have one of these.

Oh, yeah.

Mm.

Good God.

Thank you.

Anytime.

Anytime, sweetheart.

What am I supposed to tell them?

You have left me here and I'm so lost.

Shit, we're fucking with you, Alec. We miss you so much and we love you.

We're scared they're going to hate you and forget your love and who you really

were.

on my own.

How would I ever understand?

Guess what?

What?

Pa is getting out of hospital tomorrow and he's going to stay with us for a

little while.

Can he stay in our room?

Well, I was thinking you could sleep in with me and he can sleep in your bed.

Yay. Yay.

And then when Aunty Catherine's gone, he can sleep in the spare room.

Sounds good.

And I'm sorry that we haven't talked about Dad much lately.

I've been struggling.

It's because Dad's gone.

Yeah.

We just need to talk about how we feel.

And let ourselves understand why we feel that way.

Because if we talk about how we feel, then we'll

understand why we're angry and why we're sad and why we feel guilty.

I miss him.

Me too.

And we always will.

But we just need to remember that he...

He'll always love us.

Well, how did he do it?

Because... he's...

He was struggling with his mental health.

And he didn't get help.

And he got so sick that he lost himself.

It's just shit.

He didn't do it to hurt you or anyone, okay? He did it to escape his own pain.

And if he knew how much it would hurt us to not have him anymore, he would never

have done it.

No.

No, no, no.

I'm working on getting better, okay?

And if you two need help feeling better, you need to come to me and talk to me.

Because I'll do my best to listen and answer any questions that you have.

Hey, Mum.

Can I help you?

feel any better yeah you just keep being you

because you're an amazing young man

You just grab its head. Yeah.

Thank you.

All good.

I, uh... I'm sorry.

It's okay.

I just really miss him.

We're always gonna miss him.

You know I never would have done anything to hurt you.

I know.

Come here.

You know you, it's time for school.

Owen, I've made a decision.

Decision about what?

The farm.

Yep.

And?

We're probably going to have to look at leasing out some of the farm or even

selling some of the land.

Okay.

You and I are going to have to come up with a way that we can realistically run

the place together.

You mean I'm staying?

Yeah, what do you mean?

I thought you were going to tell me that, you know, you're going to ship me

to her home somewhere.

Do you think you need to talk to someone,

though, about everything?

What is there to talk about?

Lots.

And you need to talk about all of it.

Crikey.

First you want me to give up the sauce and then you want me to go talk to some

shrink.

Is it working?

Yeah.

That's... Oh, God, that's the best news.

That net wrap's a bit sticky, so when it beeps, make sure you stop before you

let the bail out.

Right.

What are you up to this hour, though?

Hey, uh... Thought I might go to the pub.

Haven't been since Alec.

Catherine, you might want to go.

Smooth, Hudson.

Who knows, you might have fun.

What do you think?

That's cool. You can come along.

Don't think anything's going to happen, though.

You'll be lucky.

All right, watch this.

Watch this.

It's the magic way.

See?

About four minutes.

I don't think I'm all locked in the microwave.

Mate, you'll love them.

They'll be awesome.

So, what else have we got? We've got the carrots.

God, look at him, super careful.

He's all right, isn't he?

Found his calling.

What's your favourite food?

Chocolate. Chocolate.

What's your favourite food?

Well, I'd say beer, yeah.

That's my favourite food, but we're going to give it a spell for a while.

Yeah. The problem is when I get off the beer, I become too slim and attractive.

I just thought it was ridiculous.

You believe me?

No. Yeah, you do.

Of course she does.

Oh, what's that?

What's that?

Boing.

Yeah.

Thought you might like some dinner.

Ooh, which is Mike.

Major sausages.

Ha! Cook them in the microwave.

Oh, you, don't give away my trade secrets now.

Hey, Mum, can I go on the track with you for a bit?

Yeah, only if you help me eat this.

I'm coming too.

Are you? Okay, hurry up then.

Hey, I'll come back in about an hour and pick them up.

Yeah. Oh, can you give me a coffee, please?

No worries.

Alison.

Yeah.

I reckon you're a better option than a shrink.

You already know I'm batshit crazy.

Aren't we all, Owen?

Pick you two.

Say bye to Pa.

See ya.

Bye.

We've lit the candle once again, mate, like we often do.

It's a tip that someone gave us for when we think of you.

I've learned a lot of things, mate, in the time that you've been gone.

I've learned there's such a thing as heartache.

It's not just a turn of phrase.

It's physical and quite intense.

I'll leave you in a daze.

I've learnt the power of family, community and friends.

The comfort and the empathy.

The warmth of people at their best.

And broken -hearted, mate.

That's a tag I'll never wear.

Battered and bruised, I will accept.

And a scar that heals the tear.

be in so much pain, and we never fully understood.

I have a memory of a dream that's vivid in my head.

One night, just after you had gone, the days were okay, but nights

were long.

It was like you touched my shoulder to rouse me from my sleep.

There you were beside our bed.

He said, I'm really sorry, Dad, but I just couldn't carry on.

I had reached to touch you, and just then you were gone.