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I'm nervous.
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I'm going to take it one step
at a time.
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I'm absolutely petrified.
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12 virgins are travelling to
a unique island retreat...
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...that could change their
lives forever.
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This is maybe the strangest day
of my life.
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Being a virgin at the age of 22
feels very lonely.
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I've just sort of given up all hope.
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In a world saturated with sex,
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more young adults than ever
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are caught in an intimacy epidemic.
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The thought of having sex
with someone...
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Scares me.
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It gives me the ick.
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I don't feel confident.
I'm missing out.
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Terrified at the thought of it.
Nerve-racking.
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Gut-wrenching. Embarrassing.
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All I think about is
what I'm going to get wrong.
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Can you point to the outer labia?
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Nope.
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Now.... Oh, my God!
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...they're getting a crash course
in intimacy.
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Social media, porn, dating apps.
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There are so many negative messages
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and we can help them blossom.
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Use it by stimulating the area.
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Guided by a team of experts...
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You see yourself as... Repulsive.
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...they'll confront their
insecurities...
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I'm hiding how upset
I actually feel.
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...exploring intimacy in every form.
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Yes. Yes. Good.
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And maybe...
Do you want to put a condom on?
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...have sex with a trained therapist.
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Desperate times call for
desperate measures.
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Or even one another.
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Why are you nervous around me?
I don't know.
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That's so good.
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I really do need to change my life.
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The question is...
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Get a room, guys.
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...who will finally be ready...
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Just, like, a bit anxious.
...to go all the way...
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Touching you here good? Mm-hm.
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...on Virgin Island?
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It is such a beautiful day
to show up on the island.
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It's perfect.
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For the next three weeks... Hi.
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Hi. ..this ground-breaking
retreat
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will be home to 12 young people...
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Would you like a hug?
Yeah. Go on, then.
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...from all over the UK...
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Hello. You must be Tegan.
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Yes. ..who need help.
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Well, I didn't fall in the sea,
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so I've done better than I thought
I was going to do.
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I've never kissed anyone.
I've never dated anyone.
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I've never had sex with anyone.
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I am a grade-A virgin.
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My life just can't go on like this.
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I just need to take your phone.
Yes, of course.
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The retreat's rules include
a full break
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from the pressures of technology.
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So you can just, like, dive in.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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You see sex everywhere.
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Sex sells is the old cliche,
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be it from social media, porn,
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but always playing on my mind is
that I can't get an erection.
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Being a virgin at the age of 28,
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I feel almost a failure
in many ways.
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The group will live on the island
for three weeks...
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Oh, this is your accommodation.
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...totally cut off from
the distractions of modern life...
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Go ahead and get settled. OK?
There's clothes there.
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Thank you.
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...including the pressures
of their appearance.
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Oh, wow.
They're giving off jungle vibes.
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I've always hated my body
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and I've got badly bullied over it
in the past.
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I'm terrified to be naked
in front of someone.
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It does make me cry
when I think about it.
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Yeah, it makes me really upset.
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Before the course begins,
the group have a chance
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to get to know each other
at the hang-out.
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Hello.
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Callum. I'm Katie.
Hi. Nice to meet you. Hi.
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Where are you from? Blackpool.
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I'm from Peterborough.
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Peterborough? Yeah.
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Shithole.
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I literally don't do anything other
than sit on my computer 24/7.
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I'm definitely addicted to gaming.
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I don't really interact
with any girls.
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It makes me feel alone.
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Where are you from?
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Oh, so, born in the UK but raised
in South Africa but live in the UK.
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{\an8}I instantly don't trust men.
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Alex, nice to meet you. Hi.
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It makes me a bit sad
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and I don't really know
what to do about it, to be honest.
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So how old are you?
I'm 28. You're 28.
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I'm 23. I'm 22. 26.
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I'm quite robotic with... with
women.
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I've had no girlfriends.
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That's a bit sad, isn't it?
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We've got another person.
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Hi. Oh! Hiya.
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{\an8}With sexual intimacy,
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{\an8}I feel a little bit broken.
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I can't have sex.
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I have a condition called
vaginismus.
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If somebody tried to touch
my vagina,
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it would be pain
and it would be discomfort.
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And I'm living life in fear.
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The way that you're seen as a woman
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who can't physically have sex
is like, what's the point?
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{\an8}One of the reasons that people
are not having sex
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{\an8}is there's just
a lot more self-consciousness.
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{\an8}Everybody is being watched
all the time,
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you know, by their parents,
by social media, by their friends.
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Hello. So we're seeing
a lot more people
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just not getting out there
and connecting.
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There's lots of fear around being
cancelled
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and they're terrified of failing.
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But we got amazing results
last time,
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and I have really high hopes
for this new group of virgins.
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Hi, everyone. I'm Ellen.
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THEY ALL GREET ELLEN
Nice to meet you all.
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How old are you? Um, 35.
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Wow! Only just!
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I don't want to get to 40
and still be the virgin.
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The expectation of your marriage.
You've got kids.
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And, at 35,
I haven't got those things.
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I feel like a freak, really.
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And like,
I've, you know, let people down.
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Yeah.
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So is anyone else
in the LGBTQ+ community?
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Obviously. Yay!
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I'm not going to be the only gay on
the island.
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Trust me, you're not.
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I grew up in a very traditional
town.
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There wasn't a lot
of open queer people.
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When I knew I was bi,
I didn't tell my parents.
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I was actually quite scared.
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I identify as bisexual,
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but I'm quite a late bloom.
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At school, it was a discussion
about masturbation.
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I thought it was a game show.
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I thought it was Mastermind.
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Hello! Hello, hello. My name's Ed.
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What secret do you want to know
first?
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What's your star sign?
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That's always a question.
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{\an8}I feel like an outsider a lot of
the time.
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{\an8}A big part of that is my disability.
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I was born without a right pectoral.
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Restricted movement in my wrist
and my arm.
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It has impacted the way I am.
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I wouldn't have the confidence
to talk to girls.
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I find it really hard.
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Hey! You're the last one.
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Hi. My name's Will.
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I've just turned 30. I'm a virgin.
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Being a virgin,
it's not something I'm proud of.
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Something I experienced
when I was younger
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is premature ejaculation.
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I fear that may still be an issue
now.
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So I think when I have sex
for the first time,
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it's going to be really quick.
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HE LAUGHS
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The idea of, like, having sex is
like, it's a faraway dream for me.
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Yeah, yeah.
I've never had a girlfriend. Ever.
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Same. Yeah.
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One of the nicknames I have is
Posh Bertie.
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I'm a very well spoken individual.
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I've not told anyone
that I'm a virgin,
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but I think people would guess.
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"Yeah, he is a virgin to me."
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Definitely feel one
step behind everyone.
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Yeah.
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The group knows the weeks ahead
won't be easy,
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but they have a determination
to change their lives.
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Breathe into your own body.
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This unique course has been created
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by pioneering sex therapists
Celeste and Danielle.
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And let it out.
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The ethos at the retreat
is very supportive.
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There's so much for them to learn.
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We have new exercises, new experts
and some special surprises.
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Supported by a team of sex
therapists from across the globe,
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trained in a range
of touch-based therapies...
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Which finger would you
like to enter me with?
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...they'll address
the group's anxieties...
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She is terrified of lowering
the mask.
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...and push them to their limits.
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Amazing.
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Hidden away on the island
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are dedicated therapy spaces
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and private bedrooms where they'll
begin to explore intimacy.
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I'm hoping
that everybody gets to find out
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who they are as a sexual being,
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regardless of being a virgin,
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but it is going to be a huge
challenge.
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Each phase of the course
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will challenge the group
like never before...
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...as they take their first
steps towards...
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...sexual connection.
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And it all starts here...
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Oh, my God. I'm so nervous.
Yeah.
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Hello! Welcome.
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...by confronting one of the biggest
barriers to intimacy...
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Welcome to Virgin Island.
We're so excited to have you here.
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This phase is all about shame.
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Shame really interrupts pleasure.
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And so we are shame warriors.
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We want to wipe away the shame
that gets in your way.
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If I could shake off the shame
of being a virgin,
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I'd feel a lot happier in myself.
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I feel judged and it's not something
that I talk about, really.
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First,
Celeste and Danielle will perform
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an intimate demonstration designed
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to reveal the group's level
of awkwardness and shame.
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So this demo is called Pillow Talk.
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There's a bed. Oh, my gosh.
Starting to feel a bit sick.
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Yeah. Terrified.
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We want to find out
who is comfortable watching intimacy
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and the different kinds of talk
and touch that come with romance,
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that come with passion,
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that come with erotic energy.
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Oh, my God, your eyes
are so beautiful and sexy.
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And the way you hold yourself turns
me on so much.
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I think I'm going to have
to smell you.
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Mm.
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Oh.
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I feel so lucky...
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...to be able to touch you.
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Mm.
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Ah.
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Any feelings watching it?
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Quite weird having to watch it
with other people.
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It's a bit...
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Yeah, I think I just feel like
a little bit guilty.
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I think, like,
the idea of watching this
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and then being asked to, like,
do that,
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that's like sinful.
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Growing up as a Christian,
you kind of feel you,
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you should be one way.
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Um, which is usually a very good
way.
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I have to be kind.
I have to be soft,
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but I have a sexual side to myself.
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It kind of brings on these feelings
of shame
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and, and fear because you feel
you're,
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you're doing something sinful
for wanting to experience pleasure.
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And I don't see a light at
the end of the tunnel right now.
255
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We all have ideas and judgment
and what we think we should be,
256
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and all those
interventions frees us up.
257
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The best way to work your way out
of shame
258
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is to start to get
a different reaction to shame.
259
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To help the group do that...
260
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You are going to get
your scratch on.
261
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No, I ain't doing that.
262
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...Celeste and Danielle start with
a series...
263
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I am folding my arms.
264
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This is just so awkward.
265
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...of deliberately uncomfortable
exercises.
266
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Now, you're going to be
a choo-choo train.
267
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Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!
268
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Oh, my gosh.
269
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I see myself
270
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as very socially awkward
and sometimes weird.
271
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Shake it, shake it, shake it.
272
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I was diagnosed with autism.
273
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I get nervous, I get stressed.
274
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My eye contact goes all over
the place.
275
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Being a virgin,
you just feel very isolated
276
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and you feel very ashamed
of yourself.
277
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After the warm up,
Celeste and Danielle raised
278
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the stakes with a more
challenging physical exercise.
279
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So I want a brave volunteer.
280
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Somatic therapy
is not just focusing on the brain,
281
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it's helping people in
a more physical, experiential way.
282
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I'll do it. Go on, go on, Alex.
283
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For 28-year-old graduate Alex,
284
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going first is a chance
to face his fears.
285
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Anxiety has played a massive part
in my life.
286
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Going to private school,
287
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I put myself under a lot of pressure
288
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that if I didn't perform my best,
289
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I'd feel I'd let people down
290
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and never really knew how bad it was
291
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until I tried to have sex
and was too nervous to do it.
292
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Anything less than perfect
is not good enough for me.
293
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So I'm going to start
by touching you for my pleasure.
294
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And then you're going to touch me
for your pleasure.
295
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I'm starting by connecting
with myself and feeling my body.
296
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Mm.
297
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Ooh.
298
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Want to try? Yeah, sure.
299
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Mm.
300
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Was that OK? Really feeling it
in your body,
301
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that's what we're going for.
302
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After Alex's attempt,
others step up to give it a try.
303
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Can you, like, do it a bit
harder? Harder.
304
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While some get to grips with
the exercise...
305
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How does that feel? It feels nice.
Yeah?
306
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...others can't even bear to watch.
307
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Anyone else want to give it a try?
308
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Counting one...
309
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...counting two, counting three.
310
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All right.
311
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Oh, my God. That's hard.
312
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Personally, that was a little bit
creepy.
313
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I need to be able to be confident
in myself
314
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to do the whole touching exercise.
315
00:16:31,840 --> 00:16:34,479
I believe the cool kids
call it 'rizz'.
316
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I need to have good rizz.
317
00:16:36,280 --> 00:16:38,479
At the start, like,
when they was doing
318
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all the "mm, mm, mm," you know?
319
00:16:40,240 --> 00:16:42,359
Oh, that, yeah. I thought we'd have
to do that to each other.
320
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I was genuinely, I was petrified.
321
00:16:44,000 --> 00:16:45,239
No. Not today. Not today!
322
00:16:45,240 --> 00:16:47,239
That's intense for our first
workshop.
323
00:16:47,240 --> 00:16:48,919
To throw yourself in as much
as possible
324
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to experience all these cringe
things
325
00:16:50,560 --> 00:16:52,959
and embarrassing things
was a struggle.
326
00:16:52,960 --> 00:16:56,199
Joy, if you don't mind me asking,
why was it so hard for you,
327
00:16:56,200 --> 00:16:57,679
the whole touching thing?
328
00:16:57,680 --> 00:17:01,119
Why did you get, like, a bit of
a reaction to it?
329
00:17:01,120 --> 00:17:03,359
You don't want to talk?
Yeah. Not really.
330
00:17:03,360 --> 00:17:05,039
No. No worries.
331
00:17:05,040 --> 00:17:08,479
That workshop was such
an emotionally intense experience.
332
00:17:08,480 --> 00:17:10,319
To come on the island day one
333
00:17:10,320 --> 00:17:12,959
and be expected to have some kind
of erotic energy,
334
00:17:12,960 --> 00:17:14,679
it's a really hard thing for me.
335
00:17:14,680 --> 00:17:18,559
I didn't realise how uncomfortable
that might make me feel.
336
00:17:18,560 --> 00:17:21,480
Um, next time, I would walk out.
337
00:17:32,240 --> 00:17:34,359
It's so beautiful.
Yeah, it is, isn't it?
338
00:17:34,360 --> 00:17:37,359
Oh! Come here. Come here.
Lizzie!
339
00:17:37,360 --> 00:17:39,959
Oh, my God.
I've never seen a lizard before.
340
00:17:39,960 --> 00:17:42,599
Ew! I don't like it.
341
00:17:42,600 --> 00:17:44,039
Come out at night and nibble you.
342
00:17:44,040 --> 00:17:46,679
I might have to tuck my trousers
into my socks
343
00:17:46,680 --> 00:17:48,279
in case it crawls up my leg.
344
00:17:48,280 --> 00:17:49,800
And he's gone.
345
00:17:50,800 --> 00:17:54,319
It's halfway through day one on
Virgin Island.
346
00:17:54,320 --> 00:17:55,679
I don't want to name exact figures,
347
00:17:55,680 --> 00:17:58,599
but I think it was like one
in eight people are virgins at 25.
348
00:17:58,600 --> 00:18:01,319
So in a room this big,
it's like one and a bit people.
349
00:18:01,320 --> 00:18:04,399
Well, I think in this room,
it'd be all 12.
350
00:18:04,400 --> 00:18:06,479
Oh, yeah! On an island, on a virgin
island.
351
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THEY LAUGH
352
00:18:09,480 --> 00:18:13,039
Every day, the experts gather
to evaluate progress
353
00:18:13,040 --> 00:18:16,359
and work out which therapies
will be most effective.
354
00:18:16,360 --> 00:18:20,679
It's very interesting to see how
they reacted to different exercises.
355
00:18:20,680 --> 00:18:23,879
Oh, they've got one-on-one
sessions here, guys.
356
00:18:23,880 --> 00:18:25,119
Oh, my God.
357
00:18:25,120 --> 00:18:28,599
Afternoons are dedicated
to individual therapy sessions
358
00:18:28,600 --> 00:18:32,479
for those working through
specific intimacy issues.
359
00:18:32,480 --> 00:18:35,800
I don't know if I feel more calm
or more stressed. Yeah.
360
00:18:37,040 --> 00:18:39,359
Everybody has this fear, like,
"Oh, my God,
361
00:18:39,360 --> 00:18:41,519
"it's going to be so scary
or uncomfortable,"
362
00:18:41,520 --> 00:18:44,679
but you have
to completely rewire your brain
363
00:18:44,680 --> 00:18:46,919
in order for change to really
happen.
364
00:18:46,920 --> 00:18:48,080
Hi there. Hi.
365
00:18:49,720 --> 00:18:52,199
How do you feel?
Kind of on edge, I guess.
366
00:18:52,200 --> 00:18:53,439
Mm-hm.
367
00:18:53,440 --> 00:18:54,799
The more you can be honest
368
00:18:54,800 --> 00:18:57,399
and drop into your truth
without too much humour...
369
00:18:57,400 --> 00:18:58,599
Yeah. I can't promise you that.
370
00:18:58,600 --> 00:19:00,879
That is going to allow us
to go somewhere.
371
00:19:00,880 --> 00:19:03,439
Oh, I don't like this.
I don't like crying.
372
00:19:03,440 --> 00:19:05,399
I feel like I just can't relax.
373
00:19:05,400 --> 00:19:07,400
I'm still really scared
and I'm not sure why.
374
00:19:10,720 --> 00:19:13,199
Out of all the reactions
from this morning,
375
00:19:13,200 --> 00:19:16,359
the experts were most struck
by Joy's.
376
00:19:16,360 --> 00:19:19,599
When Will and Marianne
were touching,
377
00:19:19,600 --> 00:19:22,999
I could see her...
Some tears came out.
378
00:19:23,000 --> 00:19:24,720
She really struggled with that.
379
00:19:28,120 --> 00:19:30,519
Something came up for you today
in the workshop.
380
00:19:30,520 --> 00:19:32,919
Well, I feel like I have this weight
on my shoulders
381
00:19:32,920 --> 00:19:34,199
of like, I'm a Christian.
382
00:19:34,200 --> 00:19:35,759
You have to be good. Yeah.
383
00:19:35,760 --> 00:19:39,159
And experiencing sexual
pleasure for, like, for fun. Mm-hm.
384
00:19:39,160 --> 00:19:41,359
How is that good? Yeah.
385
00:19:41,360 --> 00:19:43,119
But it isn't just feelings
386
00:19:43,120 --> 00:19:46,119
of religious shame
that are holding Joy back.
387
00:19:46,120 --> 00:19:48,719
I know I have a sexual side to me.
Mm-hm.
388
00:19:48,720 --> 00:19:51,359
But I have vaginismus.
389
00:19:51,360 --> 00:19:55,639
Vaginismus is a condition
related to your pelvic floor
390
00:19:55,640 --> 00:19:58,319
and also has a psychological
fear component
391
00:19:58,320 --> 00:20:00,959
around the idea of insertion
or entry.
392
00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:03,759
The moment I realised
that I had vaginismus,
393
00:20:03,760 --> 00:20:05,759
it was like this whole idea of
394
00:20:05,760 --> 00:20:08,959
a sector of my life
that could be just closed up.
395
00:20:08,960 --> 00:20:11,599
I can't wear a tampon,
I can't do a pap smear,
396
00:20:11,600 --> 00:20:13,639
and I definitely can't have sex.
397
00:20:13,640 --> 00:20:16,039
It's just, it's so hard.
398
00:20:16,040 --> 00:20:17,559
At one point, like,
399
00:20:17,560 --> 00:20:20,159
I literally thought that God cursed
me with vaginismus.
400
00:20:20,160 --> 00:20:24,239
I thought he, like, I thought he did
it to me to stop me from having sex.
401
00:20:24,240 --> 00:20:25,799
That's so intense.
402
00:20:25,800 --> 00:20:29,000
And I feel like it's hard to, like,
undo that, that feeling.
403
00:20:30,200 --> 00:20:35,160
Maybe that first piece
is about pleasure being good.
404
00:20:39,360 --> 00:20:42,319
I'm really tight.
I'm really, like, anxious.
405
00:20:42,320 --> 00:20:43,879
I feel like I'm like,
"No, it's not. No, it's not.
406
00:20:43,880 --> 00:20:45,159
"No, it's not."
407
00:20:45,160 --> 00:20:49,520
And that clench happens probably
all the way into your vagina.
408
00:20:50,600 --> 00:20:54,039
So I want you to feel all of the
tightness and the clenchedness.
409
00:20:54,040 --> 00:20:56,999
And then you can feel
the contrast.
410
00:20:57,000 --> 00:21:00,000
Let's feel the clench. And then,
uh...
411
00:21:08,000 --> 00:21:11,239
Like a little shakiness happened
in your...
412
00:21:11,240 --> 00:21:14,759
Did you feel it? Yeah.
You know what that is?
413
00:21:14,760 --> 00:21:17,679
What? It's like a little tiny
release of trauma...
414
00:21:17,680 --> 00:21:19,280
Oh, wow. ..from all the holding.
415
00:21:21,640 --> 00:21:25,079
You deserve to have
that circuit of pleasure.
416
00:21:25,080 --> 00:21:26,120
Thank you.
417
00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:33,319
Shame gets in the way
of sexual intimacy,
418
00:21:33,320 --> 00:21:37,759
and you cannot get to the other side
of shame until you expose it.
419
00:21:37,760 --> 00:21:41,239
I feel a bit like in shock.
It was... It was quite intense.
420
00:21:41,240 --> 00:21:43,879
I just hadn't even realised all the
tension I'd been holding in my body.
421
00:21:43,880 --> 00:21:45,839
It just made me realise, like,
422
00:21:45,840 --> 00:21:47,960
how much I need this experience.
423
00:21:51,320 --> 00:21:53,039
For a gold-star lesbian,
424
00:21:53,040 --> 00:21:54,639
my mind is constantly in the gutter.
425
00:21:54,640 --> 00:21:56,399
What's a gold-star lesbian?
426
00:21:56,400 --> 00:21:59,519
Gold-star lesbian is someone
who has never had sex with a man.
427
00:21:59,520 --> 00:22:01,239
Ah, OK.
428
00:22:01,240 --> 00:22:03,199
The thought of a penis
going near me scares me
429
00:22:03,200 --> 00:22:04,839
in a way that's like,
"Ew, get away!"
430
00:22:04,840 --> 00:22:06,879
Nothing to do with you guys.
No, no. It's cool.
431
00:22:06,880 --> 00:22:09,279
I get that. I'm like anything
below their tummy,
432
00:22:09,280 --> 00:22:10,599
I'm like, nope.
433
00:22:10,600 --> 00:22:12,159
I mean, you probably all have
amazing penises.
434
00:22:12,160 --> 00:22:14,239
I'm not saying that...
Oh, my gosh.
435
00:22:14,240 --> 00:22:17,520
It doesn't matter, cos I come so
quick, it don't matter.
436
00:22:22,720 --> 00:22:24,599
As the group starts to bond...
437
00:22:24,600 --> 00:22:27,999
Oh, this is really like giving
hippy vibes, isn't it?
438
00:22:28,000 --> 00:22:30,359
...Celeste and Danielle aim to push
them further
439
00:22:30,360 --> 00:22:31,479
in the next exercise...
440
00:22:31,480 --> 00:22:32,760
Hello. Hello.
441
00:22:33,840 --> 00:22:36,520
...to help release their shame
once and for all.
442
00:22:37,680 --> 00:22:39,519
All right. Well, as we said,
443
00:22:39,520 --> 00:22:41,919
this part of the course is all about
shame.
444
00:22:41,920 --> 00:22:44,919
What we want you to do is write
in your notebooks
445
00:22:44,920 --> 00:22:47,959
all the negative things people say
about you
446
00:22:47,960 --> 00:22:52,679
and all the self-critical thoughts
you keep repeating to yourself.
447
00:22:52,680 --> 00:22:54,239
We really need to get them out
448
00:22:54,240 --> 00:22:56,680
so that we can take the power
away from them.
449
00:23:00,320 --> 00:23:02,359
Be careful.
450
00:23:02,360 --> 00:23:06,599
The group have been sent off in
pairs to share their shame words...
451
00:23:06,600 --> 00:23:09,240
It's difficult.
Yeah, I'm not exactly an open book.
452
00:23:10,360 --> 00:23:13,999
People see me as fat, ugly.
453
00:23:14,000 --> 00:23:17,039
...and as they identify
their insecurities...
454
00:23:17,040 --> 00:23:21,479
I don't like how I'm not at all
that good socially.
455
00:23:21,480 --> 00:23:24,359
It's why I've never been on
a date before, really.
456
00:23:24,360 --> 00:23:27,599
...their barriers come down.
457
00:23:27,600 --> 00:23:30,479
Ugly, unattractive to girls.
458
00:23:30,480 --> 00:23:33,959
Haven't been able to get a date
in years.
459
00:23:33,960 --> 00:23:35,159
My anxiety,
460
00:23:35,160 --> 00:23:38,519
particularly around intimacy
and interacting with women.
461
00:23:38,520 --> 00:23:42,640
I...worry
that I'm just not good enough.
462
00:23:44,600 --> 00:23:46,679
But 23-year-old Katie...
463
00:23:46,680 --> 00:23:48,959
Bad things people are saying
about me.
464
00:23:48,960 --> 00:23:51,199
...is writing more than most.
465
00:23:51,200 --> 00:23:54,359
I was once labelled the ugliest girl
in school.
466
00:23:54,360 --> 00:23:58,519
Oh, my God. A whale, fat/obese,
467
00:23:58,520 --> 00:24:02,119
ugly, a liar, a monster,
disappointment...
468
00:24:02,120 --> 00:24:06,279
...and frigid, because I've never
gotten with anyone before.
469
00:24:06,280 --> 00:24:07,280
Yeah.
470
00:24:08,920 --> 00:24:10,959
Oh, Katie...
471
00:24:10,960 --> 00:24:13,799
I know how it feels to have
something horrible said to me.
472
00:24:13,800 --> 00:24:17,439
Sometimes I look
in the mirror to make myself upset
473
00:24:17,440 --> 00:24:20,399
because I need a good cry -
and it works.
474
00:24:20,400 --> 00:24:21,879
But I don't think there's ever been
475
00:24:21,880 --> 00:24:27,519
a time where I truly have felt good
in my looks...
476
00:24:27,520 --> 00:24:29,799
...ever, no.
477
00:24:29,800 --> 00:24:32,079
Are those things people
have actually said about you?
478
00:24:32,080 --> 00:24:35,079
To my face or online -
where I've seen. Online?
479
00:24:35,080 --> 00:24:37,719
Yeah, people that I know in person.
Oh, my God.
480
00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:40,120
Like, in real life.
Have commented publicly?
481
00:24:42,000 --> 00:24:44,560
Yeah. Oh, my gosh, I'm so sorry.
482
00:24:53,640 --> 00:24:57,759
Figuring out the words, though,
is only half the exercise.
483
00:24:57,760 --> 00:24:58,920
How did you find that?
484
00:25:00,200 --> 00:25:01,879
It was quite challenging.
I was going to say the same.
485
00:25:01,880 --> 00:25:03,239
Yeah. It was quite hard.
486
00:25:03,240 --> 00:25:06,079
So, Joy,
this one's for you. Thank you.
487
00:25:06,080 --> 00:25:09,999
Now the experts want them to write
their words down on a T-shirt
488
00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:12,959
to confront
and let go of their self-doubt.
489
00:25:12,960 --> 00:25:15,719
I'm going to invite you
to narrow down,
490
00:25:15,720 --> 00:25:17,679
from all the things
that you've written,
491
00:25:17,680 --> 00:25:20,079
which ones hold the most emotion,
492
00:25:20,080 --> 00:25:23,879
so that you can create a T-shirt
that's a symbol of all of that.
493
00:25:23,880 --> 00:25:24,920
Mm-hm.
494
00:25:27,440 --> 00:25:29,999
I'm scared
that I'm going to get upset.
495
00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:32,799
Thinking back about all the memories
and stuff from school,
496
00:25:32,800 --> 00:25:35,159
and all the bad things
that I got told
497
00:25:35,160 --> 00:25:37,960
and I say to myself
was quite difficult.
498
00:25:41,040 --> 00:25:44,800
But I really do want to be able
to get as much out of this as I can.
499
00:25:46,280 --> 00:25:47,640
It's scary, though.
500
00:26:03,720 --> 00:26:06,399
Good morning. Good morning.
Good morning.
501
00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:07,679
Hiya, guys! How are we going?
502
00:26:07,680 --> 00:26:09,119
Morning.
503
00:26:09,120 --> 00:26:10,799
Oh, we've got raisins.
504
00:26:10,800 --> 00:26:12,479
Don't tell me you're eating a lemon.
505
00:26:12,480 --> 00:26:14,999
I like lemons.
SHE GASPS
506
00:26:15,000 --> 00:26:17,240
It's the morning on Virgin Island...
507
00:26:19,080 --> 00:26:20,559
I'm really nervous for today.
508
00:26:20,560 --> 00:26:24,039
...and the sessions are set
to become even more revealing.
509
00:26:24,040 --> 00:26:26,159
As we go through this phase,
510
00:26:26,160 --> 00:26:29,719
I do feel
quite a big shame over myself,
511
00:26:29,720 --> 00:26:32,039
so I'm a little bit apprehensive.
512
00:26:32,040 --> 00:26:33,159
I was so nervous
in the first workshop.
513
00:26:33,160 --> 00:26:36,159
My heart was going.
I didn't realise how nervous I was.
514
00:26:36,160 --> 00:26:38,239
Sex and intimacy are meant
to be natural
515
00:26:38,240 --> 00:26:40,079
and experienced by lots of people
and enjoyed,
516
00:26:40,080 --> 00:26:42,639
whereas me,
I sort of feel scared of them.
517
00:26:42,640 --> 00:26:44,559
Let's go.
I never finish my food!
518
00:26:44,560 --> 00:26:47,719
I have no idea how far I'm going
to go with this.
519
00:26:47,720 --> 00:26:50,520
You know, it's only going
to get more intense from here.
520
00:26:53,640 --> 00:26:55,999
Having faced many hard truths...
521
00:26:56,000 --> 00:26:57,719
Hello!
522
00:26:57,720 --> 00:26:58,999
...Celeste and Danielle's
523
00:26:59,000 --> 00:27:02,519
next exercise will challenge
the group even further.
524
00:27:02,520 --> 00:27:06,519
Oh, dear. What is this? A bed?
Oh, no.
525
00:27:06,520 --> 00:27:10,719
...with some exposure therapy,
Virgin Island-style.
526
00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:12,879
Society gives these
negative messages
527
00:27:12,880 --> 00:27:15,639
to us about
what it means to be a sexual being.
528
00:27:15,640 --> 00:27:18,720
So it's really important
to get comfortable with intimacy.
529
00:27:21,600 --> 00:27:27,319
Today you're going to be exploring
erotic life drawing. Oh, no.
530
00:27:27,320 --> 00:27:30,359
We're going to invite
our lovely models.
531
00:27:30,360 --> 00:27:32,320
There they are. Here they are.
532
00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:37,599
{\an8}The only time I've seen a vagina
or boobs is off, like,
533
00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:39,399
{\an8}Sticky Vicky,
when I went to Benidorm.
534
00:27:39,400 --> 00:27:43,239
{\an8}That is probably the only time I've
ever really seen it in real life.
535
00:27:43,240 --> 00:27:46,799
I have seen some images online
and I'm like,
536
00:27:46,800 --> 00:27:50,199
"Oh, actually,
penises are a bit ugly."
537
00:27:50,200 --> 00:27:54,519
I know the different parts
and the names of the female anatomy.
538
00:27:54,520 --> 00:27:55,639
But do you know what?
539
00:27:55,640 --> 00:27:59,839
I genuinely don't think
I've seen one in person.
540
00:27:59,840 --> 00:28:04,479
I'm the most white-meat virgin
you could possibly meet.
541
00:28:04,480 --> 00:28:08,480
Don't hide. Keep your eyes open
and be curious.
542
00:28:24,120 --> 00:28:28,199
Oh, my God.
So many naked parts right now.
543
00:28:28,200 --> 00:28:31,319
So, I don't want you to worry about
showing off your artistic talent.
544
00:28:31,320 --> 00:28:34,519
It's really about looking
at a naked body
545
00:28:34,520 --> 00:28:37,399
and letting yourself feel
the sensuality of that.
546
00:28:37,400 --> 00:28:38,679
Oh, my gosh. Oh, my gosh.
547
00:28:38,680 --> 00:28:40,959
THEY CHUCKLE
548
00:28:40,960 --> 00:28:41,960
Just draw.
549
00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:46,679
I don't know where to start
with this. Neither do I.
550
00:28:46,680 --> 00:28:48,999
Oh, we got this.
551
00:28:49,000 --> 00:28:53,839
We're expecting to see some
discomfort, embarrassment.
552
00:28:53,840 --> 00:28:59,199
To be exposed to naked bodies,
we can really see the comfort level.
553
00:28:59,200 --> 00:29:01,159
LAUGHTER
554
00:29:01,160 --> 00:29:02,640
Stop making me laugh, Jason!
555
00:29:04,080 --> 00:29:05,080
Embarrassing.
556
00:29:09,000 --> 00:29:10,119
I can't tell what's what.
557
00:29:10,120 --> 00:29:12,279
LAUGHTER
558
00:29:12,280 --> 00:29:14,280
All I can see is vaginas and boobs.
559
00:29:17,560 --> 00:29:21,080
Whilst the sight of naked bodies
has everyone giggling awkwardly...
560
00:29:24,440 --> 00:29:26,160
...Ellen is struggling the most.
561
00:29:30,640 --> 00:29:34,239
{\an8}Growing up, my parents would never
talk about sex,
562
00:29:34,240 --> 00:29:38,239
and at the time there wasn't
the internet, as there is now.
563
00:29:38,240 --> 00:29:42,639
I'm in my 30s, I am gay,
and I've not had a relationship
564
00:29:42,640 --> 00:29:46,359
and I've not had experience
around sexual intimacy.
565
00:29:46,360 --> 00:29:50,920
Sex - it's something
that I feel anxious about.
566
00:29:55,960 --> 00:29:59,639
No one is seeing mine
because it is absolutely terrible.
567
00:29:59,640 --> 00:30:01,239
You don't have to show me
if you don't want to.
568
00:30:01,240 --> 00:30:04,039
One-second sneak peek. Done.
569
00:30:04,040 --> 00:30:06,439
Can I have a two-second sneak peek?
No.
570
00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:09,799
So we really want
to thank our beautiful models here.
571
00:30:09,800 --> 00:30:13,799
APPLAUSE
572
00:30:13,800 --> 00:30:15,520
Any thoughts that you want to share?
573
00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:21,199
I was instantly like, "Oh, my gosh.
574
00:30:21,200 --> 00:30:22,599
"Oh, my gosh,
I shouldn't be watching this."
575
00:30:22,600 --> 00:30:25,360
I felt the discomfort of that.
Yeah.
576
00:30:30,080 --> 00:30:32,879
It felt like you were literally
watching, like, a group porno.
577
00:30:32,880 --> 00:30:34,119
I was like, "Oh, I want to look."
578
00:30:34,120 --> 00:30:36,479
But I was like,
"Oh, it feels wrong to look." Yeah!
579
00:30:36,480 --> 00:30:40,879
The nudity felt a bit too soon
for me.
580
00:30:40,880 --> 00:30:43,119
Despite being the oldest of
the group...
581
00:30:43,120 --> 00:30:44,199
When you kiss someone,
582
00:30:44,200 --> 00:30:47,399
do you do it with your eyes open...
No! ..or your eyes closed?
583
00:30:47,400 --> 00:30:50,039
Please don't be that person!
LAUGHTER
584
00:30:50,040 --> 00:30:53,040
...Ellen's lack of experience is clear
to everyone.
585
00:30:55,560 --> 00:30:58,039
She was having a hard time to look
at you. Yeah.
586
00:30:58,040 --> 00:31:00,919
I'm excited to have a session
with her,
587
00:31:00,920 --> 00:31:03,520
to introduce her to the first
steps of intimacy.
588
00:31:04,920 --> 00:31:09,559
With a storm approaching,
Ellen's feeling a little flustered.
589
00:31:09,560 --> 00:31:11,280
Hello! It's windy.
590
00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:17,200
Ellen...
591
00:31:18,440 --> 00:31:21,880
...you have a sexy smile.
OK!
592
00:31:23,960 --> 00:31:27,639
We had a tiny, tiny little exchange
of erotic energy.
593
00:31:27,640 --> 00:31:30,360
Yeah, OK. Yeah?
Did you feel it? Um...
594
00:31:32,160 --> 00:31:34,879
No, but I guess I don't know
what that feeling is
595
00:31:34,880 --> 00:31:36,879
because I've not experienced
it before.
596
00:31:36,880 --> 00:31:38,120
Yeah. Yeah.
597
00:31:44,960 --> 00:31:46,839
You know what I love?
598
00:31:46,840 --> 00:31:49,239
Awkward silences
where you just look at each other.
599
00:31:49,240 --> 00:31:50,240
OK, yeah.
600
00:31:56,440 --> 00:32:00,079
A lot of times, that's what happens
right before a kiss.
601
00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:01,080
Yeah.
602
00:32:03,160 --> 00:32:05,119
But I don't...
603
00:32:05,120 --> 00:32:06,359
I don't want that to happen!
604
00:32:06,360 --> 00:32:07,639
No, we're not doing that today.
605
00:32:07,640 --> 00:32:10,400
We're just talking
in a flirtatious way.
606
00:32:12,280 --> 00:32:13,879
What do you think? Um...
607
00:32:13,880 --> 00:32:15,999
...I'm thinking I'm fine
as long as you're on that chair
608
00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:17,119
and I'm on this chair.
609
00:32:17,120 --> 00:32:18,839
I'm staying over here. Don't worry.
610
00:32:18,840 --> 00:32:20,960
CELESTE LAUGHS
611
00:32:24,240 --> 00:32:25,280
Thank you. Bye.
612
00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:30,999
How was that, Ellen?
Um, in my head, I was like,
613
00:32:31,000 --> 00:32:32,079
"OK, I'm going to jump in."
614
00:32:32,080 --> 00:32:33,999
And then, when I got in there,
I was like...
615
00:32:34,000 --> 00:32:36,360
All of a sudden, just,
like, my body closed up.
616
00:32:38,400 --> 00:32:40,319
I don't like the idea
617
00:32:40,320 --> 00:32:43,399
of someone coming into
my personal space.
618
00:32:43,400 --> 00:32:45,800
That's why I'm here. Like,
I've never been very good at it.
619
00:32:46,920 --> 00:32:48,760
And I feel like a failure.
620
00:32:58,240 --> 00:33:00,799
So, are you into females, then?
Or both?
621
00:33:00,800 --> 00:33:05,279
I am a straight,
heterosexual male. Nice. You are...?
622
00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:07,560
You're bisexual, aren't you?
Yeah. Yeah.
623
00:33:08,880 --> 00:33:09,999
Do you know what? It was so weird.
624
00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:11,639
I had a dream last night
of you guys.
625
00:33:11,640 --> 00:33:14,719
Mainly Alex. Weird.
LAUGHTER
626
00:33:14,720 --> 00:33:18,159
I can't wait to tell Alex that!
Hello!
627
00:33:18,160 --> 00:33:20,839
Did you know Katie dreamt
about you last night?
628
00:33:20,840 --> 00:33:23,239
No, that's not...
TEGAN LAUGHS
629
00:33:23,240 --> 00:33:25,599
So, what happened in the dream,
Kate?
630
00:33:25,600 --> 00:33:26,639
She doesn't really know.
631
00:33:26,640 --> 00:33:27,640
I don't remember at all.
632
00:33:29,760 --> 00:33:32,559
Though Katie was dreaming of Alex,
for him,
633
00:33:32,560 --> 00:33:35,559
yesterday's workshop
was a nightmare.
634
00:33:35,560 --> 00:33:38,559
I demoed with him yesterday.
635
00:33:38,560 --> 00:33:41,679
I felt he was really frozen.
636
00:33:41,680 --> 00:33:43,479
He can be a little in his head.
637
00:33:43,480 --> 00:33:46,039
So I'm curious,
if we're going through exercises,
638
00:33:46,040 --> 00:33:48,439
if he's just going
to perform them
639
00:33:48,440 --> 00:33:53,799
rather than actually experiencing
sensation and emotions. Yeah.
640
00:33:53,800 --> 00:33:56,719
What did it feel like when
you, like, touched him?
641
00:33:56,720 --> 00:33:59,399
Panicky.
I don't know how calm it looked,
642
00:33:59,400 --> 00:34:01,879
or how I looked,
but, yeah, my heart was going,
643
00:34:01,880 --> 00:34:02,920
I was shaking a bit.
644
00:34:06,040 --> 00:34:08,599
So Danielle's decided
to dig deeper...
645
00:34:08,600 --> 00:34:12,919
Hello. Come on in.
...into what's holding him back.
646
00:34:12,920 --> 00:34:15,039
I feel your heart beating
all the way to here.
647
00:34:15,040 --> 00:34:16,399
DANIELLE LAUGHS
648
00:34:16,400 --> 00:34:19,239
Sex for me has always been
quite a nervous thing.
649
00:34:19,240 --> 00:34:21,919
I've always had anxiety.
I've always had performance anxiety.
650
00:34:21,920 --> 00:34:23,879
Sports, homework, whatever.
651
00:34:23,880 --> 00:34:25,199
And so, the first time I tried
to have sex,
652
00:34:25,200 --> 00:34:28,439
I couldn't get an erection because
I was just too nervous. Mm-hm.
653
00:34:28,440 --> 00:34:32,759
Not being able to get an erection,
it's constantly playing on my mind.
654
00:34:32,760 --> 00:34:34,599
It feels embarrassing even to say
because it's like,
655
00:34:34,600 --> 00:34:37,159
"Oh, this is something
that old people deal with."
656
00:34:37,160 --> 00:34:41,359
But I just feel, like,
defeated by it.
657
00:34:41,360 --> 00:34:45,039
You spend a lot of time trying
to control your body from your head.
658
00:34:45,040 --> 00:34:47,599
I want to invite you to start
to let your body control -
659
00:34:47,600 --> 00:34:49,679
as opposed to the opposite. Yeah.
660
00:34:49,680 --> 00:34:53,199
So, what I want us to do now is
for you to touch me...
661
00:34:53,200 --> 00:34:56,199
Mm-hm.
...and really let yourself enjoy.
662
00:34:56,200 --> 00:34:59,359
And do what feels good?
What feels good to you.
663
00:34:59,360 --> 00:35:00,999
This time, Danielle wants to see
664
00:35:01,000 --> 00:35:04,719
if Alex can fully immerse himself
in his sensations.
665
00:35:04,720 --> 00:35:06,719
Are you OK for me to start?
Yes, please.
666
00:35:06,720 --> 00:35:07,999
DANIELLE CHUCKLES
667
00:35:08,000 --> 00:35:09,240
OK,
I'm going to start with your arm.
668
00:35:26,160 --> 00:35:28,639
DANIELLE EXHALES
669
00:35:28,640 --> 00:35:29,960
Then moving down to your chest.
670
00:35:37,640 --> 00:35:39,600
Mm.
671
00:35:47,160 --> 00:35:49,560
Mm. Penny for your thoughts.
672
00:35:52,000 --> 00:35:53,399
The main overriding thing is still
673
00:35:53,400 --> 00:35:55,799
that worry of
not getting an erection.
674
00:35:55,800 --> 00:35:58,439
But this is like the
building blocks.
675
00:35:58,440 --> 00:36:00,879
So I really want us
to have soft goals -
676
00:36:00,880 --> 00:36:02,759
as opposed to hard goals.
DANIELLE LAUGHS
677
00:36:02,760 --> 00:36:05,559
No pun intended! Yeah.
678
00:36:05,560 --> 00:36:08,639
Because your full body
is like a big erection.
679
00:36:08,640 --> 00:36:12,839
You know, like,
your full body is... a pleasure tool.
680
00:36:12,840 --> 00:36:17,479
It's not only your cock that's
a pleasure tool. Do you get it?
681
00:36:17,480 --> 00:36:18,880
Yeah, absolutely. Yeah. Yeah.
682
00:36:25,720 --> 00:36:29,199
What did you do?
Just mutual touching, really.
683
00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:31,879
But I think I went into it thinking,
"Oh, yeah, she'll cure me,
684
00:36:31,880 --> 00:36:34,399
"and I won't feel anxious ever
again around women."
685
00:36:34,400 --> 00:36:36,719
But you're not going to get cured
on the first session.
686
00:36:36,720 --> 00:36:37,720
Yeah.
687
00:36:41,200 --> 00:36:43,599
Oh, are you doing it like...?
You do it like that?
688
00:36:43,600 --> 00:36:46,599
Really?
I thought it was like that.
689
00:36:46,600 --> 00:36:49,799
Whilst the others
start to embrace island life...
690
00:36:49,800 --> 00:36:52,719
...Bertie is finding it harder
to adjust.
691
00:36:52,720 --> 00:36:55,479
OK? I'm a mixture of all nerves.
692
00:36:55,480 --> 00:36:56,759
I don't like you sitting
by yourself.
693
00:36:56,760 --> 00:36:58,959
I'm OK.
694
00:36:58,960 --> 00:37:01,719
I do feel like the weak link
and the odd one out
695
00:37:01,720 --> 00:37:03,479
because I'm not very sociable.
696
00:37:03,480 --> 00:37:05,919
I'm still cautious.
I'm still nervous.
697
00:37:05,920 --> 00:37:08,759
Are you OK, Bertie? I'm good.
You all right? I'm all right, yeah.
698
00:37:08,760 --> 00:37:11,719
Just going to go brush my gums
and do a dance.
699
00:37:11,720 --> 00:37:16,079
But what on earth am I going
to be like in the days to come,
700
00:37:16,080 --> 00:37:18,480
when it gets more challenging
and more intense?
701
00:37:19,760 --> 00:37:22,479
This whole island is...
702
00:37:22,480 --> 00:37:26,080
I-I-It's not just Virgin Island,
it's Unpredictability Island.
703
00:37:36,480 --> 00:37:38,119
{\an8}Do you know what most women say
704
00:37:38,120 --> 00:37:40,440
{\an8}is the length
they want to have sex for?
705
00:37:42,600 --> 00:37:46,199
4.5 minutes. Four and a half? Yeah.
No!
706
00:37:46,200 --> 00:37:48,199
They WANT to have sex?
No, surely not!
707
00:37:48,200 --> 00:37:50,159
Yeah. Yeah, they want sex -
708
00:37:50,160 --> 00:37:52,479
the actual P in V -
to be 4.5 minutes.
709
00:37:52,480 --> 00:37:56,039
Really? What's "P in V"?
Penis in vagina.
710
00:37:56,040 --> 00:37:59,320
Oh. That's good to know!
WILL CHUCKLES
711
00:38:02,720 --> 00:38:05,359
It's mid-afternoon on Virgin Island.
712
00:38:05,360 --> 00:38:06,879
SING-SONGY: Bertie!
713
00:38:06,880 --> 00:38:07,999
How are you? Are you all right?
714
00:38:08,000 --> 00:38:09,759
I don't know.
When everyone's all together,
715
00:38:09,760 --> 00:38:11,799
it just gets a bit awkward for me,
you know?
716
00:38:11,800 --> 00:38:13,199
I like my... Oh, my God,
I nearly fell off!
717
00:38:13,200 --> 00:38:14,639
I like my...
718
00:38:14,640 --> 00:38:16,319
My space a bit more.
719
00:38:16,320 --> 00:38:18,119
Just going to just take it easy
for a bit, yeah?
720
00:38:18,120 --> 00:38:19,600
OK, I'll see you soon.
No worries.
721
00:38:20,960 --> 00:38:23,359
In terms of sex, I've got no clue,
722
00:38:23,360 --> 00:38:28,359
which is pretty embarrassing coming
from someone who's 24 years old.
723
00:38:28,360 --> 00:38:31,639
But I don't want to be alone
my whole life.
724
00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:34,879
I just want to be able
to live normally...
725
00:38:34,880 --> 00:38:40,319
...and just find more confidence
in myself.
726
00:38:40,320 --> 00:38:42,079
Hi.
727
00:38:42,080 --> 00:38:44,079
Celeste aims to start Bertie's route
728
00:38:44,080 --> 00:38:47,479
to intimacy by helping him
with connection.
729
00:38:47,480 --> 00:38:49,280
Hello. Oh, hello!
730
00:38:53,120 --> 00:38:55,439
How do you feel about eye contact?
731
00:38:55,440 --> 00:38:56,719
A-ha! I knew
that was going to come up.
732
00:38:56,720 --> 00:38:57,839
I am terrible at it. Yeah.
733
00:38:57,840 --> 00:39:00,239
My eye contact goes
all over the place,
734
00:39:00,240 --> 00:39:02,439
no matter who I'm talking to.
735
00:39:02,440 --> 00:39:03,839
Well, I do feel like you...
736
00:39:03,840 --> 00:39:05,159
You think a lot.
737
00:39:05,160 --> 00:39:06,239
I am an overthinker.
738
00:39:06,240 --> 00:39:07,919
So I want too slow it
down a little bit and,
739
00:39:07,920 --> 00:39:10,399
like, let your brain
relax a moment,
740
00:39:10,400 --> 00:39:13,279
and then see what it's
like to come back more deliberately
741
00:39:13,280 --> 00:39:15,200
and connect and look at me.
742
00:39:24,240 --> 00:39:26,999
This is a bit awkward, isn't it?
Intimacy is super awkward.
743
00:39:27,000 --> 00:39:29,439
I know. That's not going to go away.
Yeah.
744
00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:30,800
So let's just be awkward together.
745
00:39:42,120 --> 00:39:44,839
It's hard to take it seriously.
It is.
746
00:39:44,840 --> 00:39:46,519
And you don't have to take it
so seriously.
747
00:39:46,520 --> 00:39:49,279
You can think
we're just having fun together.
748
00:39:49,280 --> 00:39:50,480
Yeah. Yeah.
749
00:39:55,840 --> 00:39:57,839
Yeah!
750
00:39:57,840 --> 00:39:59,919
You've got some good
sexy eye contact.
751
00:39:59,920 --> 00:40:01,040
You might not know it.
752
00:40:03,320 --> 00:40:05,559
And now you're looking at me
so much more.
753
00:40:05,560 --> 00:40:07,080
I feel connected to you.
754
00:40:09,360 --> 00:40:12,039
After Bertie perfects
the sexy eyes...
755
00:40:12,040 --> 00:40:15,559
Great. So, if you want to
scooch over a little bit. Yeah.
756
00:40:15,560 --> 00:40:18,360
...Celeste decides to increase
the intimacy.
757
00:40:20,880 --> 00:40:23,520
What if I, like,
came in right there for a second?
758
00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:27,759
I mean, that was a bit weird,
but OK.
759
00:40:27,760 --> 00:40:28,760
Yeah?
760
00:40:32,320 --> 00:40:33,959
Oh, that's so nice.
761
00:40:33,960 --> 00:40:37,319
You just perfectly,
like, invited me and cuddled me.
762
00:40:37,320 --> 00:40:38,320
Wow.
763
00:40:41,120 --> 00:40:42,280
Mm.
764
00:40:44,720 --> 00:40:47,599
I really like it when you
kind of rest your cheek
765
00:40:47,600 --> 00:40:48,959
against my forehead.
766
00:40:48,960 --> 00:40:51,199
Yeah, you're very nat...
It feels natural.
767
00:40:51,200 --> 00:40:53,559
It feels natural - exactly.
768
00:40:53,560 --> 00:40:54,720
That feels good.
769
00:40:56,760 --> 00:41:01,560
It's not long before Celeste's
technique boosts Bertie's confidence.
770
00:41:03,680 --> 00:41:05,679
I was thinking of giving you
a little kiss on the forehead.
771
00:41:05,680 --> 00:41:07,999
I felt that. I love that.
772
00:41:08,000 --> 00:41:09,039
What about...
773
00:41:09,040 --> 00:41:10,560
Can I... Go on. Yeah?
774
00:41:12,240 --> 00:41:13,240
Mm.
775
00:41:14,800 --> 00:41:17,199
Have I got a lipstick stain on it?
Now you have a kiss. Excellent.
776
00:41:17,200 --> 00:41:21,599
You were hoping for a kiss.
CELESTE LAUGHS
777
00:41:21,600 --> 00:41:22,959
Thank you very much.
778
00:41:22,960 --> 00:41:25,599
Love you! Bye! OK, bye!
779
00:41:25,600 --> 00:41:28,879
So, Celeste was...
She was brilliant.
780
00:41:28,880 --> 00:41:31,279
And this has happened.
781
00:41:31,280 --> 00:41:34,919
And I feel a lot more relieved
782
00:41:34,920 --> 00:41:37,519
and a lot more at ease
with everything.
783
00:41:37,520 --> 00:41:39,799
That was a bit of a confidence boost
for me.
784
00:41:39,800 --> 00:41:41,999
Hi, Bertie. Hello! Are you OK?
785
00:41:42,000 --> 00:41:43,519
If you want to know how it went,
786
00:41:43,520 --> 00:41:45,919
what do you think? Let's go! Yay!
787
00:41:45,920 --> 00:41:47,800
LAUGHTER AND APPLAUSE
788
00:41:48,960 --> 00:41:50,359
Bertie is not going
to wash his cheek.
789
00:41:50,360 --> 00:41:52,840
LAUGHTER
790
00:41:58,800 --> 00:42:00,959
As the sun sets on the retreat,
791
00:42:00,960 --> 00:42:03,320
the first phase
of the course draws to a close.
792
00:42:05,920 --> 00:42:09,599
The first phase of the course
has been really intense.
793
00:42:09,600 --> 00:42:11,959
Getting rid of shame is foundational
to being able
794
00:42:11,960 --> 00:42:14,079
to have a pleasurable sex life,
795
00:42:14,080 --> 00:42:18,399
but the way that they have taken it
on, it's unprecedented.
796
00:42:18,400 --> 00:42:20,519
They all have challenges.
They all have traumas.
797
00:42:20,520 --> 00:42:23,679
But every individual is beautiful
and unique,
798
00:42:23,680 --> 00:42:26,560
and the sky is the limit
in terms of what's possible here.
799
00:42:27,760 --> 00:42:31,959
To move forward, the group must let
go of their negative emotions.
800
00:42:31,960 --> 00:42:35,079
Oh, my gosh, there's a fire!
801
00:42:35,080 --> 00:42:37,399
Hello, everyone! Hello!
802
00:42:37,400 --> 00:42:40,519
So the experts have arranged
a ceremonial bonfire
803
00:42:40,520 --> 00:42:43,040
to burn away their lifetime of shame.
804
00:42:45,560 --> 00:42:48,399
We've asked you
to face your shame directly.
805
00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:51,959
You have talked about it,
put it on your T-shirts,
806
00:42:51,960 --> 00:42:55,279
and now it's time to let it go.
807
00:42:55,280 --> 00:42:58,199
The hope is this ritual marks
a turning point
808
00:42:58,200 --> 00:43:01,279
and the start of the rest
of their lives.
809
00:43:01,280 --> 00:43:05,799
So, for me, shame is feeling ugly.
810
00:43:05,800 --> 00:43:07,919
Um...
811
00:43:07,920 --> 00:43:09,559
Sorry.
812
00:43:09,560 --> 00:43:14,080
Um, yeah, I felt ugly,
like, most of my life.
813
00:43:15,200 --> 00:43:21,399
And I feel ashamed of myself for,
you know, putting on weight.
814
00:43:21,400 --> 00:43:22,559
So brave.
815
00:43:22,560 --> 00:43:24,919
APPLAUSE
Are you ready to let it go?
816
00:43:24,920 --> 00:43:27,439
- Yeah, it's going in the fire.
- Yes!
ELLEN CHUCKLES
817
00:43:27,440 --> 00:43:31,799
Let it go, let it go, let it go!
818
00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:34,159
THEY ALL CHEER
819
00:43:34,160 --> 00:43:37,159
Physical appearance
is a common theme.
820
00:43:37,160 --> 00:43:38,359
I look at everyone else around me
821
00:43:38,360 --> 00:43:39,999
and I think they're
far more attractive.
822
00:43:40,000 --> 00:43:41,319
Never getting matched
on dating apps.
823
00:43:41,320 --> 00:43:42,639
And it's...
824
00:43:42,640 --> 00:43:45,079
It makes me feel really crap
about myself.
825
00:43:45,080 --> 00:43:48,639
Fat and ugly, unlovable,
and I take up too much room -
826
00:43:48,640 --> 00:43:50,239
quite literally.
827
00:43:50,240 --> 00:43:53,479
I actually got voted ugliest girl
in the whole school.
828
00:43:53,480 --> 00:43:55,719
Oh, my God!
And depending on the people,
829
00:43:55,720 --> 00:43:58,719
I could be too loud or too quiet,
so...
830
00:43:58,720 --> 00:44:02,959
Let it go, let it go, let it go!
831
00:44:02,960 --> 00:44:06,639
Woo!
APPLAUSE
832
00:44:06,640 --> 00:44:08,919
NGE is "not good enough".
833
00:44:08,920 --> 00:44:11,879
I always feel like I'm falling short
of a lot of things.
834
00:44:11,880 --> 00:44:16,839
Deep-rooted issues around self-worth
are also shared across the group.
835
00:44:16,840 --> 00:44:20,319
I feel as though, like, I might be
perceived as childish
836
00:44:20,320 --> 00:44:23,599
and that I'm a bit unambitious.
837
00:44:23,600 --> 00:44:27,599
I've been told I'm too loud,
I'm too much for some people.
838
00:44:27,600 --> 00:44:29,759
And then that kind of leads on
to the second point,
839
00:44:29,760 --> 00:44:33,759
which is
that I'm unlikeable and unlovable.
840
00:44:33,760 --> 00:44:37,119
I've not had an adult
relationship at all.
841
00:44:37,120 --> 00:44:40,799
I feel terribly unwanted -
I seriously do.
842
00:44:40,800 --> 00:44:42,880
Are you ready to let it go? Yeah.
843
00:44:44,600 --> 00:44:49,519
Let it go, let it go, let it go!
844
00:44:49,520 --> 00:44:53,519
Let it go, let it go, let it go!
845
00:44:53,520 --> 00:44:56,520
CHEERS AND APPLAUSE
846
00:44:58,320 --> 00:45:00,999
JOY SOBS SOFTLY
847
00:45:01,000 --> 00:45:02,000
It's OK to cry.
848
00:45:04,000 --> 00:45:06,799
I think I've been carrying
with me some feelings
849
00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:09,400
about myself since I was about 12.
850
00:45:11,640 --> 00:45:13,799
And I think having
these horrible thoughts
851
00:45:13,800 --> 00:45:16,319
that I'm a horrible person
852
00:45:16,320 --> 00:45:20,839
and that people don't like me, and
that I'm really dirty and sinful.
853
00:45:20,840 --> 00:45:22,599
JOY SOBS
854
00:45:22,600 --> 00:45:27,079
Let it go, let it go, let it go!
855
00:45:27,080 --> 00:45:30,999
CHEERS AND APPLAUSE
856
00:45:31,000 --> 00:45:33,359
Writing it down
on the T-shirt was one thing,
857
00:45:33,360 --> 00:45:37,319
but to actually speak it out
was liberating.
858
00:45:37,320 --> 00:45:38,399
Yeah.
859
00:45:38,400 --> 00:45:41,999
I found it really difficult
to throw my top in the fire.
860
00:45:42,000 --> 00:45:45,680
I'm just hoping I can become
more at one with myself.
861
00:45:47,040 --> 00:45:49,719
Shame is something that I
specifically struggle with a lot.
862
00:45:49,720 --> 00:45:51,879
I feel a lot lighter.
863
00:45:51,880 --> 00:45:55,239
All of my worst things I think about
myself are finally, like, out there,
864
00:45:55,240 --> 00:45:56,800
and I burned them.
JOY CHUCKLES
865
00:46:00,160 --> 00:46:01,319
Next time...
866
00:46:01,320 --> 00:46:03,959
Your dick is connected
to my pussy. Oh, God!
867
00:46:03,960 --> 00:46:05,519
...it's the turn-on phase,
868
00:46:05,520 --> 00:46:08,279
where the group
discover their animal instincts.
869
00:46:08,280 --> 00:46:11,240
There's another animal next to you.
870
00:46:12,480 --> 00:46:13,679
Oh, no!
871
00:46:13,680 --> 00:46:15,399
Emotions are laid bare...
872
00:46:15,400 --> 00:46:17,879
Quite sad that I'm still stuck
with that feeling.
873
00:46:17,880 --> 00:46:19,119
MARIANNE SNIFFS
874
00:46:19,120 --> 00:46:20,279
MARIANNE SIGHS
875
00:46:20,280 --> 00:46:22,719
...and for some, things are on the up.
876
00:46:22,720 --> 00:46:25,239
It felt really nice when you were
brushing past my genitals.
877
00:46:25,240 --> 00:46:27,840
Would you like me to do that?
Yeah, yeah.
67982
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