All language subtitles for The Affair s05e02_English

Previously on The Affair...

[Janelle]
When this job opened up,

I thought to myself,
here's my chance

to actually make a difference

with the kids
nobody else wanted.

[Joel] We gave your whole
nonnegotiable

discipline policy
a fair shake.

It didn't work.

[Janelle]
I'm your boss.

I'm your boss.

"My mother lives and breathes
academic success.

The only thing she hates
more than failure

is my father."

You and Carl,
you got to work

through whatever issues
you got going on.

And you're who the fuck?

People don't really know me,
you know?

They, they, uh,
know my movies,

they see me
as this action hero,

this sort of
modern-day James Bond.

But that's all an act,
of course.

When I picked up
your book,

[laughs]
it just spoke to me, man.

I know it's a real act
of faith,

putting your work in the hands
of another artist

to interpret,
but I want you to know,

I am not going
to let you down.

[Vik] You're saying you
actually think the producers

of Fun Home would give you
the rights to direct

-a student production?
-Yeah.

So practice your pitch
on me first.

You would do that?

I love you.

I love you.

[hospice nurse]
He's passed.

dramatic music

I was screaming
into the canyon

At the moment of my death

The echo I created

Outlasted my last breath

My voice it made
an avalanche

And buried a man
I never knew

And when he died,
his widowed bride

Met your daddy
and they made you

I have only one thing to do

And that's be the wave
that I am, and then

Sink back into the ocean

I have only one thing to do

And that's be the wave
that I am, and then

Sink back into the ocean

I have only one thing to do

And that's be the wave
that I am, and then

Sink back into the ocean,
sink back into the ocean

Sink back into the o...

Sink back into the ocean

Sink back into the o...

Sink back into the ocean

Sink back
into the ocean

[water running]

[faucet squeaks]

[shower curtain rattles back]

[inhales]

[exhales]

So, how is it?

How are your classes?
Have you made any friends?

Nah. No one talks to me.

What do you mean?

I'm kidding.

-Yeah, I've made friends.
-[sighs]

Actually, I'm thinking about
going for student government.

[chuckles]
Student government? Wow.

You can do that as a freshman?

Yeah, they set aside
spots for the first-years.

Trying to get people
involved early, I guess.

I don't know,
it kind of sounded fun.

I guess all your years
of, uh,

"Be the change"
finally got through.

Hey, you listening?

Of course. I'm sorry. My bad.

You okay?

Yeah, I'm fine.

So, have you, uh,
seen your grandparents yet?

Oh, they live,
like, an hour away.

You better get to it.

Yeah.

Hey, Ant.

I'm really proud of you.

Yeah, all right. Bet.

Well, I'll see you later,
Mom. Bye.

Okay, have fun, be safe.

Thank you for calling me.

I love you.

Hey, Noah.

[speaking indistinctly]

Janelle! Sorry.

Were you, were you waiting?
My phone was on silent.

Not at all.
I just got here. Um...

I didn't want to interrupt,

but I also
wouldn't want to be late.

Oh, no, we-- this is Janelle,
my girlfriend.

[Sasha]
Very nice to meet you.

Noah won't stop
talking about you.

-Really?
-[chuckles]

The school I was telling you
about, where I work?

Janelle is the principal.

-Oh. You're his boss?
-[Janelle chuckles]

I mean, I usually don't
lead with that, but...

She's worked for decades in...

with kids
in Compton and-and Watts

and kids that no one else
cares about.

[Sasha] You two
are doing amazing work,

I mean-- and, uh,
I know you have to run,

so I won't keep you.

[chuckles softly]

It was very nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you, too...

I'm sorry, Noah didn't
mention your name.

[Sasha chuckles]

-[laughs]
-That's funny.

Yeah.

-Sorry, did I miss something?
-[laughs]

What? You didn't tell me.
How was I supposed to know?

-[laughs]
-Noah.

The look on his face.

He's so huge.

He's-- have you never
seen the Maze movies?

-Nope. Never did.
-Snake Junction?

Fortitude?

He was in all those?
Wow, he's really big.

[chuckles]
Oh, my God.

[laughing]

[slapping knee]

[chuckles softly]

-[indistinct chatter]
- ambient music

Oh, and Martin's home
from his ROTC summer program.

-He's the oldest?
-No, that's Whitney.

Got it. So,
it's Whitney,

Trevor, Stacey...

No, no. Martin
then Trevor then Stacey.

-Right. Okay.
-Okay, then there's Pr--

and then there's Vik's parents,

who are Priya and Abdul.

Then there's Helen
and then Helen's parents,

Bruce and Margaret.

Priya...

Abdul, Priya.

Helen's parents,

-Bruce...
-And Margaret.

-Margaret, sorry.
-No, don't be.

I'm just glad you're here.

This is so fucking
weird for me.

[exhales]

Noah.

Jesus. Fuck.

Helen never mentioned

a dress code.

Let's just go inside.

[low chatter]

[Noah] [quietly]
Guys. Hi.

Hi.

[quietly]
Guys, this is Janelle.

[whispering]
Hey, hello.

-Hey.
-Hi.

[whispering] You're Janelle?
I had no idea.

-Hi.
-You're gorgeous.

I can't wait for you guys
to get to know each other.

[priest]
The soul is spoken of

as invisible,

inconceivable,

and unchangeable.

[low chatter]

quiet, ambient music

[indistinct conversation]

-Excuse us.
-Oh, God.

Sorry...

for your loss.

[exhales]

[phone chimes]

[line ringing]

Hello?

No. No, Joel, I'm not gonna
FaceTime you, I'm at a...

[FaceTime ringing]

[sighs]

Hello?

Thanks for calling me back,
and for speaking this way.

I-I thought we should
talk face-to-face,

mano a mano, you know?

That's not what
mano a mano means.

Oops, sorry.

Not you.
I ran into somebody.

What is it, Joel?

I know that we have a more
formal commencement meeting,

but I just wanted
to call in advance

and say that I am humbled,
I am honored

-and I am so excited.
-About what?

Obviously, we both know that
I wanted your job, Janelle,

but I think this
is a perfect compromise.

How so?

Co-principals.

You and me,
both bringing our A game.

Look, I know
that you probably have

your reservations,
because you,

you and I had our tensions
in the past,

but I just wanted
to call and tell you

that I am putting
all of that behind me.

I am committed to starting
this position

with a clean slate.
Let bygones be bygones.

I'll be the yin
to your yang...

[grunts]

Uh...

thank you, Joel,
for, uh, calling.

Of course.
We're on the same team now.

I'll let you
get back to, uh...

Funeral, Joel.
I'm at a funeral.

Oh, wow. Okay.

Well, that's not great.

So, who died?

[sighs]

[Whitney]
Oh, uh, hey.

I just wanted to say
I think it's so awesome

that you're
my dad's girlfriend.

Dating a woman of color
might be

one of the coolest things
he's ever done.

"Girlfriend" is a strong word.

[iPhone clicking]

-[footsteps approaching]
-[ice clinking]

Who knew wearing white at a
funeral is a Hindu tradition?

It's crazy
Helen didn't tell me.

Her husband just died.
Maybe you weren't top of mind.

Yeah, well, I just didn't want
you to think it was my fault.

Of course not.
It was an honest mistake.

-[phone chimes]
-Ugh, God, these movie people.

They think they own you.

[Bruce] Sweetheart, would you
mind grabbing me a drink?

I'll take anything
with scotch in it.

Excuse me? I-I don't think
I'm who you're looking for.

And all these empty glasses...

[scoffs]
they could disappear.

It doesn't look very
professional, you know?

If you think that's bad,

you should see the way
he talks to me.

[footsteps approaching]

[sighs] The valet is
being impossible.

I don't know what to do.
I just need them

-to park the cars.
-[Noah] Uh...

Helen,
do you remember Janelle?

Oh, yeah. Hi.
Thanks for coming.

Hi, of course.
Um, I'm so sorry for y...

I'm so sorry. Um, if there's
anything we can do to help,

-if...
-Actually,

would you mind going
and talking to the valet?

You might have more luck
than me or Noah.

Of course. Happy to help.

[sighs]

[chuckles]
Okay.

You okay?

Yeah, I'm fine. Uh, are you?

I think I was sent

out here to help you
with something.

I was just trying to tell
the lady in charge

that someone took
their keys inside.

It's no big deal, there's
just a car double-parked.

Won't matter
till people start to leave.

Right. Got it. Thanks.

Motherfucker.

[sighs]

You know, in many ways,
you've done a great job.

-The kids love you.
-It's true.

You really get them.

[Lois] As you'll see,
this is not a demotion.

No. Think of it as a chance
to develop your strengths

and work on those weaknesses.

Which are?

Oh, well, uh,
the student walkout,

uh, discontent
from the teachers,

a number of complaints

that you're uninterested
in the opinions of others

and dismissive
of their concerns.

Uh, to be honest,
uh, we'd expected

you to go above and beyond
when it came

to meeting us
and the staff halfway,

particularly as
an outside hire. I-Instead,

many people who worked
with you felt...

-ill at ease.
-[Wendy] Ron.

[Wendy]
The important thing is

that this co-principal
arrangement will help

you and Joel play
to your strengths.

Right. Exactly.

Since Joel's so fantastic
with people, we think

he can help ease some of
the school-wide tensions.

Work in some of
the restorative

justice techniques,
handle partnerships

and programs, attend, uh,
district meetings, and...

essentially be more of
a public face for the school.

While you will focus
your energy internally,

continuing the administrative
work you've tackled

so beautifully, and, uh, working
one-on-one with the students,

of course, we love that you have
such high expectations

for them... and sharing
the responsibility

of liaising
with the teachers.

The new contract

for you to review

and sign.

The sooner you get it
back to us, the better.

Only a few weeks
till the new school year.

[car alarm beeps]

melancholy music

[exhales]

[phone chimes]

[sighs]

[passing traffic noises]

[dog barks in distance]

Always the same knock.

Figured I'd give you a heads-up.

Since you tend to have company.

[chuckles]

Come in.

-It's, uh...
-Don't bother.

I know when you're about
to say something you don't mean.

[exhales] Fine.

Fine.

Could you take a look at this?

What is it?

It's a contract from CA.

They want me to...
co-principal.

With who?

One of the other teachers.
His name is Joel.

Do I know him?

[sighs] He's only
been there a, a few years.

Before that?

Grad school.
This is his first teaching job.

How old is he?

He's white.

Of course.

They want us to

split responsibilities.

I'd cover internal
administrative stuff,

he'd be the "face"
of the school.

You always drink
before giving legal advice?

Actually...
this is for you.

And my salary gets cut by 15%.

I can see that.

Well...
[clears throat]

from what I can tell,
it's standard.

And what you're telling me
matches what they have on paper,

so...

you can go ahead and sign.

Is that all?
Or do you need something else?

[scoffs softly]

-What's the matter?
-Nothing.

-You seem upset.
-[scoffs] I don't know

why I keep expecting you
to give a shit about me.

Why'd you come here
tonight, Nell?

[exhales] I have no idea.

Clearly, it was a mistake.

Oh, I'll tell you why.

You came 'cause you wanted me
to tell you not to sign that.

Well, you know what?
That's not my job anymore.

Excuse me?

If you wanted me
to be your heavy,

you should've never left me.

You're still a motherfucker,
you know that?

[chuckling]
I'm a motherfucker?

I left you because you
were having an affair

with your 26-year-old protégé.

Once. That happened once.

And for you to have the gall
to sit there and,

and reframe the narrative so
that you're still the victim?

-Somehow. Always.
-You want to

talk about playing the victim?

You show up on my doorstep

unannounced,
after all these years,

waving a piece of paper

talking about "Poor me!

How could the terrible
white people do this to me?"

I'll tell you how they can
do it to you.

Because you let them.

You always let them.

And I'll tell you
something else.

I've been seeing a therapist.

-You're what?
-And my therapist

thinks you relied on me

to be the militant ideologue
in our marriage,

so you could go out in the world
and be the compromise.

[scoffs] I don't have
to listen to this.

And you know what gets to me
after all that?

You went out
and told everybody

it was my fault
our marriage failed.

You needed me to behave
a certain way to legitimize you

and then you left me for it.

I left you because you
were having an affair, Carl.

Does your therapist
know about that?

-Once.
-Which is one too many times.

-That's not why you left me.
-Yes, it is.

You're not being honest
with yourself.

-Carl!
-What?

-I'm leaving.
-Fine.

Oh, wait.

Don't forget
your social contract.

[exhales]

Just give me the fucking thing.

Are you gonna sign it?

Probably.
What choice do I have?

[shouts]

Damn!
[panting]

What is wrong with you?

What's wrong with me?
You're the one hitting things.

You've been in this field
20 years.

You really gonna give up
half your power

to a white kid who's gonna
take all the credit

and let you do all the work?

Maybe they're right.

Maybe I'm not good for this job.
I'm too opinionated.

I'm domineering,
I'm not maternal enough.

You're not what?

I don't play well
with others, Carl.

That's part of this job, right?

I mean, you can't just be
the visionary,

you have to make everyone
feel good about themselves

-while you're doing it.
-No, you don't.

There must have been
some reason for this.

If I was doing
a good enough job,

they would've just
let me keep doing it.

No, don't you get it?

They don't want you
to do this job,

because they don't want you
to do the job at all.

They don't want you.

[quietly]
Why not?

So you're saying
I never had a chance?

I don't know what you want me
to tell you anymore.

You wanted to change the system
from the inside.

I never thought that would work.

So you must feel pretty good
about yourself

knowing you were right.

I don't feel good about myself.

[exhales]

I have been...

teaching for half my life.
I have three degrees.

When is it gonna be enough?

[sighs]

Janelle, you're brilliant.

And I know you wanted that
to protect you somehow,

to lift you up and carry you
above all this bullshit,

and it should have.

You should've been
the one person in the world

where color just didn't matter.

[quietly]
I never said that.

But, baby...

I've been telling you
the same thing for 25 years.

But you never want to listen.

So I'm gonna tell you
this one last time.

After that, you're on your own.

It's not you.

It's them.

[exhales]

You want a water
or something?

Yeah.

Thank you.

-A therapist, huh?
-[chuckles]

-Yeah.
-[drink pours]

Just... trying new things.

She any good?

Nah.

It's a brother.

Which took a while.

You know how hard it is
to find

-a black therapist in L.A.?
-[chuckles]

Mm.

[exhales]

[grunts]

You need me...?

-Yeah.
-Oh, yeah.

[dress unzips]

Oh. [chuckles]

[sighs]

You know, someone thought
I was a waiter today.

[laughs]

And this dress cost $1,000.

Go ahead.

[chuckles]

You spent $1,000 on a dress?

[sighs]

What am I gonna do, Carl?

Anton's at school.

This job is my whole life.

How am I just gonna
walk away from it?

What am I gonna do instead?

I have one idea.

You know
Compton Academy's coming up

on their district performance
review next year, right?

What if,
instead of signing those papers,

you run for
Unified School District's board?

You'd set policy
for all the charter schools.

Plus, you'd technically be
Joel's boss.

[chuckles]
Hell, you'd be Ron's boss.

Don't come from within.

Come from above.

No.

I'd never win.

Not alone.

You know I helped Ava T.

get elected to the 44th, right?

Ava Tompkins
is gonna be a state senator?

You mean the girl
who used to babysit Anton?

-Mm-hmm.
-How old is she?

Thirty-four, and she's a star.

Defeated 12 candidates,
including the incumbent.

So, you fucking this girl?

-Are you serious?
-[chuckles]

No, I'm not.

Why not, if she's so amazing?

And you obviously make
such a good team.

soft, melancholy music

I'm not fucking Ava Tompkins...

...'cause Ava Tompkins is not
the woman I want to be with.

[woman]
I was happy.

[man]
So was I. But then I wasn't.

I'm in love with someone else.

[American accent]
No. Don't do that, Ellen.

Let's talk.

What is there to talk about?

No. If you want to go,
you should go.

Can't we at least
talk about this?

[sighs]

Was she here?

Did you...

In this house?

In our be...

[British accent]
Um... Th-This is, um...

Hey, this is not right.

I mean, something is...
Can we just cut there

-for a second, please?
-[woman] That's a cut.

-Um...
-Really? I thought that was...

-No?
-Hey, hey, hey.

You were devastating.

I'm entirely the problem here.

Um, can I watch playback,
please?

[woman]
Sure, you got it.

slow, quiet music

[yawns]

You okay?

Yeah, I'm fine. I'm tired.

Of course she's not okay, Dad.
Look at her.

She's riddled with PTSD.

I'm fine.

They changed the schedule.

It was supposed to be a
family breakfast scene,

but then the kid
playing Martin,

he apparently twisted one
of his balls at the gym,

and they have to switch it.

You sure you're okay?

Will you fucking stop? I'm fine.

Okay, fine. Great.

So, what did you think?

Be honest.

I...

[clears throat]
You know, what do I know, Noah?

It was... it was...
it was super.

I'm gonna go get some coffee.

[yawns]

[Sasha]
Oh, no.

It was that bad, was it?

We actually put
you to sleep.

Oh, no.

Uh, I had a late night.

Are you with the studio?

[chuckles]
No.

S-So, you're...

Uh, so, I'm, uh...

Helen.

Helen?

Helen.

Oh, fuck me.

Noah didn't let on that
you were coming, the tosspot.

I'm so terribly sorry
you had to see that...

Oh, I don't care, really.

[chuckles]
But it was shit, wasn't it?

Please, be honest.
J-Just tell me the truth.

[Noah] I see
y-you've found Helen.

-This is my daughter.
-Whitney.

-Hi. [laughs]
-Who is very young,

very engaged.

-Jesus, Dad.
-[Sasha] Mazel tov.

You were amazing
in that scene.

-You were so vulnerable.
-Thank you.

I'm just trying to do justice
to your father's words, really.

Aren't we all?

Noah's told me
so much about you.

I'm dying to know
what you thought.

Did that feel just forced now?

I don't know what
you're talking about, man.

I... That felt
really right.

I don't know, N--
It seems that the dynamics

are off somehow.
Don't you think?

Um... In what way?

I keep finding myself
trying to comfort her, right?

But that's not the scene,
is it?

Sasha, w-we could talk
about this in the trailer.

-This is kind of weird
for Helen.
-Oh, fuck.

-Forgive me. I-I'm sorry.
-[Helen] No, it's okay.

It's really not weird at all.
I'm fine.

And you're not the problem,
she is.

You s... I thought
you said it was great.

Look, I don't know
anything about this,

it just seems to me
that the actress

is coming off kind of, I don't
know, broken, or something.

And I think she needs
to be more of a bitch.

Really?

Well, you want to like
your character, right?

What's his name? Daniel?

His hero?

Well, uh, maybe antihero.

Yeah, so she should f...

fight back.
You know, attack.

[laughs] That's it.
That's good, that's brilliant.

Great. She should
be strong, right?

Be more of a-a powerful foil
in this scene.

You could be stronger, too.

-[laughs]
-Jesus, Helen.

Uh, sorry, man.

No, it's fine.
I appreciate the candor.

-It's great.
-Hey, dude.

[Lisa] We got to be
done by noon

-if we're gonna get our day.
-Thank you, Lisa.

Thank you.

You're extraordinary.

-[laughs]
-Um...

We're almost done.
I don't suppose

you'd have lunch with me,
to finish this conversation?

Oh, no, uh... N-No.

This is really Noah's thing.

Uh, so we should
get an Uber-- what...

We have to get to
my son's dress rehearsal.

No? Really? That's odd.

Um, well, very nice
meeting both of you.

-You, too.
-You, too.

I'm gonna walk 'em out.

Hey, Helen.

If you change your mind,
Noah knows where to find me.

slow, quiet music

[yawns]

[grunts]

[Whitney]
Hey, so that scene we just saw,

was that really how it went down
with you and Dad?

Pretty close.

I mean, not exactly.

The bra was in
a different drawer.

Jesus. [exhales]

Was I home?

I don't know.

Yeah, I think...

I think
you must have been home. Yeah.

You shielded us from so much.

Well...
[chuckles]

what was I supposed to do,
tell you

your father was screwing
another woman in our bed?

No. But you did more than that.

You never gave up on him.

You didn't let us
give up on him.

He's your father.

Yeah, but when I think
about how painful

that must have been
for you, it's...

Thank you.

How come you and Vik
never got married?

Well, fool me once...

Oh, no. I'm sorry.
[chuckles]

I'm sorry.
I didn't mean it that way.

I didn't.

Not all men cheat.

[chuckles]
Sorry.

Made of little marks...

Fly...

- Up so high
- Fly...

- Fly...
- Fly...

- Up so high
- Fly...

- Fly...
- Fly...

- Up so high
- Fly...

[piano playing gentle melody]

[Small Alison]
I can see all

Of Pennsylvania

[Alison]
Caption...

Every so often,

there was a rare moment
of perfect balance

when I soared
above him.

[piano plays final notes]

-[whooping, applause]
-[woman] Great job!

[whistling, whooping]

Can we bring
the house lights up?

I got to go deal with my face.

[clears throat]

[clears throat]

-Hey, lady!
-Hey, Lauren.

[chuckles]

Oh. Oh, God.

Oh, will you look
at those two?

Yeah.
Thick as thieves.

How are you, sweetie?

I'm fine.

You keeping busy?

I mean, they say that's
the most important thing.

Yeah.

Um, my ex-husband
is making a movie.

So we were
on the set today and--

Oh, my God.
Did you see him?

-Noah?
-No, you whore.

-Sasha Mann. [chuckles]
-Did she see him?

-He asked her out.
-What?

-He did not.
-Yes, he did.

He asked her out
and she blew him off.

Oh. Helen, you have to go.

I mean, he is
the perfect man.

No, I'm serious. He donates half
of every paycheck to charity.

He teaches acting in prison.
And I've heard that,

on all of his movies,
he buys the whole crew,

like, super expensive
motorcycles as wrap gifts.

How do you know all this?

I read Us Weekly, Helen.
Oh, my God.

-Baby, that was so amazing.
-Hi. Hi.

-Hi.
-[chuckling]

-I'm serious.
-No.

The second act
was a disaster.

-No way. It was genius.
-Total Titanic.

-[Trevor] No, stop. Really.
-[Whitney] No. No, look at us.

We were bawling.
Look at my eyes.

I was bawling the entire time.

We were both bawling.
Weren't we, Mom?

What was your, uh...

what was
your favorite part, Mom?

I'm just so proud of you, Trev.

[chuckles]

I think Vik would've liked it.

somber music

[inhales deeply]

[exhales]

[exhales]

[laptop chimes]

[keys clacking]

[chuckles]

[keys clacking]

[inhales deeply]

[exhales]

[keys clacking]

[chuckles]

No.

soft music

[tapping]

So, do you actually call him
Mr. Mann?

Hi.

Thank you for coming.

I have no idea
what I'm doing here.

Why don't you just start
by coming in?

Did you just move in?

Uh, four years ago.

You need some furniture.

No. I find
I feel healthier with less.

Um, I've made us
some tea.

And the way that I'm preparing
our tea actually dates back

to sixth-century
Buddhist monks.

That's old.

That is old.

Please, sit.

Legend has it
that the Bodhidharma

struggled so badly
to stay awake

during meditation that he,
in a desperate moment,

ripped off his eyelids
to keep his eyes open.

And from the fallen lids
sprung the tea plants.

Huh.

Well, point being

that what began
as a practical thing,

over time,
became its own ritual.

I mean, its own form
of-of meditation.

Thank you for coming
all this way.

I'm up every night agonizing
over this film.

I'm desperate to get it right.

I'm sure you will.

It's a very personal
story for me.

The novel was formative,
and it gave me

tremendous insight
into my own behavior.

Really? Did you leave a wife
and four kids, too?

Sorry. Bad joke.

Noah speaks as if you and he
are the best of friends.

Well, we are friends.

But are you, maybe,
still harboring resentment

after all these years?

Okay, you said you wanted
to talk to me about the movie.

Are there any specific questions
you wanted to ask or...?

Mm-hm. When you said that Ellen
should be more of a bitch--

I didn't s--
I don't think I said that.

-I think you did.
-I don't--

Let's check it.

"Ellen should be more
of a bitch so that...

-Daniel can be our hero."
-You wrote that down?

Yes, I did.
And it was a great note.

Listen, you should've stayed.

The next take was electric.

But what is it that makes
her character so aggressive?

Childhood?
Issues with her dad?

I mean,
is she lashing out at people

because she's frightened
she will never know love again?

[laughs]

Can I ask you
an honest question?

-Please.
-Do you like the book?

Yes, I do. Do you?

No, I don't.

Because it's
about male ego?

No, because it's not very good.

But... so many people
really like it.

Yes, but I'm not sure
that they're very smart.

[chuckling]
Well, um...

Well, I just said
that I really like it.

[chuckles]

Are you always this honest?

Uh...

no.

I'm going through something.

It's really strange.

Um, you haven't touched
your tea.

I don't like green tea.

I think it tastes like mulch.

Have you tasted mulch?

Listen, I know matcha
can be bitter, but, I mean,

properly brewed,
it's actually quite good.

You let it get cold.

[sighs]

Sorry.

This conversation
is not really working, is it?

It's me.

I'm just very tired.

Thank you for the tea.

Hey. Helen, please,
you came all this way.

P-Perhaps something
brought you here today.

-Your Tesla.
-Oh, come on.

Listen, I just want
to get to know you.

Can we just try something else?
I mean, a walk or a swim

or I've got
these amazing yoga hammocks.

Yoga hammocks?

[chuckling]
Yes.

They're really something.

Um, no. I think
I'm just gonna get an Uber.

No. Please. Basketball.

Come on.

You just want to go home and
keep googling your own demise?

[basketball bouncing]

I don't know
why I said yes to basketball.

I really don't know how to play.

I love basketball.

It's such an American game.

And your son Martin
used to play, didn't he?

-Yep.
-And, Helen,

would you go to all his games?

Can we just fucking play?

Oh.

[groans]

-Ha!
-Hey, I thought

you said you didn't play.

Maybe a little bit
when I was in school.

Aah.

Obviously you didn't.

Well, it's the
shirt, isn't it?

It's too tight.

Let me have
another go.

[Helen laughs]

Whoa!

You're such a baller.

Hey, Helen, think fast.

Ow!

Fuck!

[muffled]
Fuck.

Jesus. What the fuck?!

[seabirds calling]

[Sasha]
Hey, I'm truly sorry.

I really thought you saw me.

You like Pinot
Noir, right?

How did you know?

Chapter three.

I really don't
understand my life.

-Can I see it?
-No.

-Do you think it's broken?
-Probably.

-Well, let me just have a look.
-Uh! Don't touch me!

I'm not gonna
touch you.

[sniffles]

Oh, no. You're fine.

-[scoffs]
-It's not broken.

-How do you know?
-Well, my nose was broken

a few times. It swells
a lot more than that.

You got lucky.

[laughing]
Sorry.

I got lucky. Yeah.

Listen...

one fine day, we'll look back on
this, and we'll laugh and laugh.

I have to...
I don't... I don't,

uh, know what I'm doing here.

You seem like
a very nice... psychopath.

-Well, I promise you, I'm not.
-I'm just...

I really... I need to go.

[clears throat, sniffles]

-[sighs] Oh.
-Whoa. Whoa.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

Hey, you need
something to eat.

-Can I make you something?
-Uh, no. Mm-mm.

What about a
little sugar, then?

I think I'm gonna,
uh, throw up.

-You serious?
-Yeah.

-When?
-Now.

Fuck.

Here. Here you go.
Here you go.

[retching, coughing]

[guttural coughing]

I'll just...

go dispose of this.

[sighs, pants]

[sighs]

[Vik]
Helen?

I'm so sorry.

I never meant for
any of this to happen.

[Sasha]
Are you okay?

Oh. [stammers]

-Ooh.
-Hey, hey.

-[Helen groans softly]
-Sit over here.

Come on. Come on over here
and sit down.

[sniffles]
Oh, God.

Just sit down here.

-I'm sorry.
-No, no. Don't be.

It's my fault.
I hit you in the head

with a ball. I mean,
we should go to the ER.

-You might have a concussion.
-[sniffles] No.

I don't have...

What?

[crying] I don't have
a concussion. I...

[sniffles, pants]

Um, I lost my partner.

[sniffles]

I lost my partner
a few months ago.

[sniffles]

Oh, my God.

[loud panting, sniffles]

[loud panting]

[sniffles]

Something's just
not right with me.

I can't wake up,
and I fell asleep on the 405...

[sniffles]

...last week and just now,

I fell asleep at my kid's play,
and I almost fainted.

I just... I don't know
what's wrong with me.

-Just breathe. Just-just...
-[exhaling]

-You're okay.
-[inhaling]

-Just breathe.
-[sniffles, exhales]

I-I just wasn't prepared for
how permanent it is, you know?

I get it. He made his point.
He died. Now...

Now when's he coming back?

Death is relentless.

I lost someone,
too, a few years ago.

-I can't. I just can't.
-No.

No, no, no, no,
it's not... No.

All I'm trying
to say is that...

after... after that,
I f.... I felt truly lost.

I did.

And then, I started to
study with this Zen master,

and-and he suggested
that I simplify my life,

and-and that's when
I moved up here.

And I gave away most of my
stuff, and it actually worked.

[sighs]

You think that
I'm full of shit.

[waves breaking]

I... I haven't decided yet.

Before you write me off
completely,

can I show you
just one last thing?

Might help.

-[waves breaking]
-[gull squawking]

How you doing in there?

Admit it. You do
feel better, don't you?

You know there's nothing
actually Buddhist

about this, right, Sasha?

Like, monks in Tibet are
not spending their time

doing aerial yoga?

[laughs]
I know nothing.

[waves breaking]

[bird squawking]

gentle, peaceful music

[insects trilling]

[sighs]

[sighs]

soft, dramatic music

[Vik]
Hey.

Hey.

I love you.

And I'm...

I'm so sorry for what
I'm putting you through now.

[Vik sighs]

And if I know you,
you're trying to do this alone.

You don't want
to worry anyone, so

you're hiding your feelings
from everyone.

Maybe you're even
a little bit surprised

by how much you miss me.

[sighs]

But Helen, I need you
to listen to me now.

For once in your life, just...

Would you concentrate
on yourself now?

Be a little selfish.

You've taken care
of everyone else for so long.

I just... I want you
to spend the rest of your life

enjoying yourself.

[sighs]

And... if you can't
do it for you,

then do it for me.

Live now for us both.

Okay?

[sniffles]

Okay.

Okay.

[coughs]

[soft plop, retching]

[beeps]

[automated female voice]
Unrecognized deposit.

Cannot compute biome levels.

Shh. Shh. It's fine.

Searching database
for unknown substance.

No. No. Stop. Just-just flush.

-Flush.
-One moment, please.

[beeps]

Stop it, you asshole. Override.

-Override!
-Code?

Two-three-eight-two.

[toilet flushes]

[sighs heavily]

dramatic music

Hmm? Mm. Mm.

I... I just had breakfast
an hour ago,

and I'm already
fucking famished.

Want a cricket?

-No, thanks.
-Mmm.

God, I can't get
enough protein.

How were the Keys?

Bleak.

I hope you were a pinch more
political with the client.

I was honest.

-Oh, boy.
-I told them

mangroves were
the only chance they have

to save the coast
in the long term.

And?

They went
with the swinging gate,

which is barely
even a Band-Aid.

Hmm.

But construction starts
next month,

and now I'm available
for something else.

Joanie, you just got back
from your third trip this month.

You know, chill a little.

Take time with your family.

Laine, I don't judge you for
that carbon bomb in your belly.

Don't judge me
for wanting to do my job.

That was a joke.

Hmm.

Well, you're not gonna
like what I have.

DOD's trying to
save an old base.

Hmm. It'll be an erosion study,
probably a swinging gate.

Where is it?

[smacks lips]
Montauk.

Well, that's how we stay
in business, right?

Planned obsolescence,
keep 'em coming back

every two years for more?

I'll go.

[train humming]

[indistinct chatter]

dramatic music

[clicks]

[chime sounds]

[man over P.A.]
Our apologies.

The tracks are flooded.

We should be moving shortly.

[Paul]
Hello?

Hey.

Hey. Did you make it?

Almost.

You still in Houston?

We came back early, actually.

They had to cancel the game.

The entrance to the park
flooded again.

-[clink]
-[soft electrical hissing]

[chime sounds]

How are the girls?

They're, uh, they're great.
They miss you.

Yeah, I know.

Laine was desperate.

She practically begged me
to take this assignment,

so, here I am.

Where are you going to stay?

Dad's place.

Is that a good idea?

It's fine.

[glass breaking]

atmospheric music