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Don't call for me when I leave.

That's the only way I can come back to you.

Hae-soo.

Hae-soo.

Hae-soo.

Hae-soo has been referred to the disciplinary board

for visiting Jae-yeol the other night.

Some of the doctors believe that she interfered with a patient's treatment

because she let her emotions get in the way of her judgment.

She's not allowed to see any patients until the board decides the verdict.

She's only permitted to instruct her residents.

We should allow Jae-yeol's family to come visit him.

Just like how Papillon found his freedom by jumping off a cliff,

it's better for him to face them head on since he can't keep avoiding them.

How are Jae-bum and his mom doing?

It's been a week since he got out, but I haven't heard anything.

I guess that means everything is okay.

I told you.

Jae-bum is a child suffering from conduct disorder

and lack of affection who needs his mother's love.

Okay. In that case, let's have Jae-yeol see his brother first.

It's for my own self-defense.

Happy now?

Take him to a private room and do a full body search.

Yes, doctor.

How come you look so pretty?

Are you

an angel?

Come with me.

You might hear some loud noises coming from the room later.

Even if it gets loud, don't go in the room unless they get physical.

Have some security guards on standby.

Hey.

So our mom is the real culprit?

What are your thoughts?

For the price of spending fourteen years in prison,

you want me to take your money and get lost?

Jae-bum,

I'm

so sorry.

Damn it!

Hey.

What are you sorry about?

What exactly are you sorry about? Tell me.

Why aren't you saying anything?

Tell me what you're sorry about.

Are you sorry for telling the judge

that it was me and not our mom who killed him?

Tell me what you're sorry about!

What are you sorry about? Hey!

-Tell me! -What are you doing?

-Security! -What is it that you're sorry about?

Security!

What is it that you're sorry about?

Just because I was a delinquent,

did you think that I would've blamed Mom if I knew she had killed him?

You think I would've told them to arrest Mom?

You really think I would've told them that Mom turned crazy and killed him?

Did you think I would do that?

You crazy brat.

Do you think you're the only child that Mom gave birth to?

I'm her child, too.

Go clean up his blood.

Leave me alone.

Let me stay like this.

Everyone go outside.

Mr. Jang.

I'll be outside.

Then I'll send a nurse in after ten minutes.

You're not real.

You don't exist.

Luckily, he wasn't seriously injured.

How is Jae-yeol's emotional and mental state?

It's just as we had expected.

Maybe because he finally got the beating he's been expecting from his brother.

But whatever the reason, he looked much more at peace.

Jae-yeol seems to be a very strong person.

I saw him fall asleep before I left his room.

It's good that we allowed him to see his brother.

Dr. Uncle Jo

That's a relief.

We solved a big piece in the puzzle.

Okay, I'll talk to you later. Bye.

He's eating really well.

He's been like this ever since he came back from visiting Jae-yeol.

Maybe he has gotten over his anger towards Jae-yeol.

He even asked me yesterday when Jae-yeol would be discharged.

Really?

He must be out for an evening stroll.

He looks good.

My boyfriend is so handsome.

Hae-soo, you can't be doing this.

If the disciplinary board finds out, your suspension might get extended.

What are you thinking?

Okay.

Okay, I'm sorry. I'll go.

You're looking so much better.

Has Jae-bum said anything to you?

No, he hasn't.

He's been eating well ever since he visited you.

He finally looks like he's at peace.

Mom, I don't see Kang-woo anymore.

Dr. Lee called and told me.

I guess Kang-woo was never real.

Since I started taking my medication,

I haven't seen him even once for an entire week now.

I also heard that you've been taking your medication well.

You're such a good boy.

I want to be discharged.

You can't do that.

When I told Hae-soo that I was going to see you today,

she sent me a text saying that you can't be discharged yet, no matter what.

I'll stay with you.

You can monitor me 24 hours a day.

Isn't that enough?

If you keep saying things like that, I'm going to leave.

Mom...

I think Hae-soo

gotten herself into trouble with the hospital because of me.

Hae-soo is a doctor

but she's not allowed to see any patients because of me.

Mom, it's not often but every once in a while,

Hae-soo comes by my room at night to check on me from outside.

She would leave crying.

I pretend to be asleep but I know.

It's hard pretending not to notice.

I'll tell her not to come by your room anymore.

No.

I'll find myself waiting for her when she doesn't come. So that won't work.

She...

comes from a poor family.

Her dad is ill and her family is in a lot of debt.

Becoming a professor is her dream.

Mom.

They said that my illness

isn't very curable.

I could get a relapse.

I might have to take medication for the rest of my life.

I know.

If you take medication steadily like diabetes and high blood pressure...

Don't be so greedy, Mom.

A person shouldn't be so greedy.

I'll fight through this on my own.

No.

It'll be you and me.

I want to leave Hae-soo alone.

Mom,

I don't want to humiliate myself any further

in front of the person I love.

So please take me with you.

Okay?

Put your faith in me.

Just as I've always done.

I'll get back on my feet on my own.

I'll take my medications well.

I'm serious. I'll take my medications on time.

If I start seeing Kang-woo again, then you can take me to another hospital.

Let's get out of here, Mom.

Mrs. Jang.

Jae-yeol still believes that Kang-woo exists.

Until he realizes on his own that Kang-woo doesn't actually exist,

his treatment isn't complete.

-Just trust us and... -Don't worry.

I'll give him his medications on time.

Medication alone isn't enough.

The reason why we want to keep Jae-yeol here is

so that we can lower his dependency on the medication

and help him become a writer again.

For the first time,

the three of us can live together as a family.

We'll bond together as a family and get through this together.

Thank you for everything.

Mrs. Jang.

Don't go.

No matter what you say,

I'm still leaving.

Why are you being so cruel to me?

Remember how much Yoon-chul was hurting when Hye-jin fell in the water?

I can't let that happen to you as well.

All you need is treatment.

If you love me, then please...

To you, love means...

that it's okay for me to become the pathetic man I once was.

That it's okay for me to stop pretending I'm fine and to depend on you.

But not for me.

When I was little

and used to get beat alongside my mom by my stepfather,

I made a vow to myself then.

That no matter who the person may be,

I'd never allow myself to become pathetic again.

Even if you think I'm being a macho, there's no helping it.

That's how I've always lived and that's what I'm comfortable with.

If it's better for you to think that I don't love you as much,

then please think that way.

That means

I'm going to do this my way.

What can I do to make you stay?

To practice saying farewells

will make life easier.

Trust me, Hae-soo.

Jae-yeol. Jae-yeol!

Jae-yeol!

You have to trust me.

Kang-woo is just a visual hallucination but I'm real.

The only person who can figure that out is not the doctors, but you.

What are you, Kang-woo?

OFFICE OF THE HOSPITAL DIRECTOR

How did the disciplinary hearing go?

Suspension of ambulatory practice for one month?

Suspension of ambulatory practice for two months.

These are the documents for the thesis. Get them organized.

How do you feel after the hearing?

I will be fine.

Why aren't you angry about this?

Because that's not my main concern right now.

Then what are you most concerned about right now?

I'm thinking of how I'm going to bring back Jae-yeol

to his sense of reality without Kang-woo.

That's all I'm concerned about.

Here.

Hello?

Really?

Okay, I'll relay the message.

That was Tae-yong. He said your books are selling well.

I guess it's fun for them to read something a crazy person wrote.

How come Hae-soo hasn't called you at all?

Jae-bum, I'm going out for a walk.

You have GPS installed on your phone, right?

Yes.

It's so hot in here.

Do you want me to give you a cold back rub?

KAKAO GROUP

HAE-SOO JI

Young-jin told me that you're taking your medication well.

Aside from missing you, I'm doing well.

-Hey! -What the...

Have you been well?

How are you?

It's okay, I'm fine.

Goodness, that hurts. Be gentle!

Hang in there, I'm almost done.

Damn it! Come on!

Do you think I'm dirty?

Why do you keep scrubbing?

You wash the rags and clean all day.

Do you think the whole world is filthy?

Are you the only clean person around?

I guess you're right.

Ever since me and Jae-yeol fell into the dumpster.

It probably messed with my head.

I feel like everything is dirty and smelly

I can't sleep in a closed room either.

You fell into a dumpster with Jae-yeol?

Why did you fall?

I don't remember when it happened.

Your stepfather started beating me early in the morning

and I ran away trying to escape from him.

I ended up hiding in a public outhouse.

I must've spent the whole day hiding in there.

I thought I was going to die.

As I was about to go out...

Jae-yeol!

I heard that man's voice again.

That's when Jae-yeol rushed in.

I can't forget the look in his eyes when he saw me in there.

Afterwards, we went to the creek to clean ourselves.

I felt like crying but Jae-yeol said

it was funny that we both fell into the dumpster.

Then he started to laugh.

So I just laughed with him.

We decided to have fun instead and just started playing.

I think that's when it started.

That's when Jae-yeol started sleeping in the bathroom

and I slept with opened windows.

That memory keeps popping up in my head a lot lately.

Back then,

maybe we should've embraced it and cried.

It makes me wonder if Jae-yeol's illness

is related to that traumatic event from his childhood.

Keep scrubbing.

My goodness, Jae-bum!

Your hair's turning black again!

Just continue scrubbing my back.

Hey, you're growing black hair.

Goodness, this is amazing!

You're growing black hair!

Hold still.

That's cold.

Isn't that refreshing? It feels good because I'm washing your back, right?

This is so refreshing!

Isn't he cute?

Are you eating well?

I'm sleeping well, too.

Hae-soo has to face severe penalties from the hospital.

You broke up with her because of your cold and picky personality.

I'm sure you don't care how she's living but she got punished for visiting you.

She jeopardized her career as a doctor for love.

She'd be lying if she told you that she was doing fine.

She's not fine.

Soo-kwang said your wife is coming back from the States.

I want to be in love again,

seeing how much you and Hae-soo love each other.

If my wife hadn't agreed to come back, I might just end up cheating on her.

We've agreed to see each other more often.

I'm an adolescent adult who needs a lot of love.

So are you.

Stop pretending to be cool and let Hae-soo comfort you.

Receive treatment from the hospital and get back together with Hae-soo.

I know that you still see Kang-woo.

If you don't, there's no reason for you to avoid seeing Hae-soo.

Be careful heading back home.

We'll visit again.

Soo-kwang, let's go.

Thank you for promoting me to cafe manager.

Did you kiss So-nyu so much that it's become a habit for you?

Bingo.

Bye.

Jae-yeol.

Me, Dong-min and Hae-soo are real.

But Kang-woo isn't.

We're all waiting for you to come back to us.

If you don't, then you can forget about our friendship.

Bye.

Why is Mom selling the restaurant when it's doing so well?

She said she'll give you the money from selling this place

so that you can pay back Dr. Jo.

Use the rest of the money to study abroad or go on a vacation.

I just want you to leave here.

I can't study abroad or go on a vacation.

I have to help Dr. Lee with her thesis.

That's ridiculous.

Listen here, you wench!

Did you become a doctor to write other people's thesis papers?

You got suspended and can't even see any of your patients.

I'm selling either the restaurant or the house, so go study abroad.

HAE-SOO JI

JAE-YEOL JANG

Hello?

It's me, Hae-soo.

HAE-SOO JI

What is it?

It's been over a week since you left me.

How are you doing after abandoning me?

Does that make you feel better?

I'm not feeling better at all.

JAE-YEOL JANG HANG UP

HAE-SOO JI

Hae-soo...

HAE-SOO JI

JAE-YEOL JANG

What's the matter?

The day your stepfather died,

Dong-min understands it and says you had no other choice.

But I don't think so.

You made a very big mistake that day.

You made a mistake by not telling your brother and your attorney.

Even now, you're making a very big mistake.

Abandoning me was a huge mistake.

Refusing my help was a huge mistake.

After I end this call,

I won't ever call you again even if my life depends on it.

Like you, when I say something, I'll stick to it.

As long as you believe that Kang-woo is real,

we can never be together.

Jae-yeol Jang,

listen carefully to what I'm about to say.

After I end this call, you'll probably see Kang-woo again.

When you see Kang-woo, look at him carefully.

Remember that he's just a figment of your imagination.

That's the only way for us to be together again.

Kang-woo exists, Hae-soo.

When you see Kang-woo,

think of all the moments we shared together lovingly.

The moments when we both touched each other affectionately.

The moments when I laughed and cried in your arms.

Think of those moments. Those moments were real.

Kang-woo exists.

I don't understand why you're saying that he doesn't.

What do you mean that he's just a figment of my imagination?

You'll figure it out.

I know you can.

Take a very close look at Kang-woo.

From the top of his head to the tip of his toes.

Take your time and look closely.

Stop breathing and look at him slowly.

There is always some sort of contradiction in every hallucination.

If you take a closer look, you should be able to find out.

All my other patients have found theirs, so I know you can find it, too.

Come back to me once you realize what the contradiction is.

I'll be waiting.

I love you so much.

You're not real.

Hae-soo is right.

You really think that?

Then am I a younger version of you like Dr. Jo said?

I'm me. How can I be you?

I can't be you.

We don't even look alike.

Those people are lying to you.

Just like how everyone ignored you

when you used to get beat up.

People don't care about a child like me.

They just ignore me...

After I end this call, you'll probably see Kang-woo again.

Take a very close look at Kang-woo.

From the top of his head to the tip of his toes.

Take your time and look closely.

Stop breathing and look at him slowly.

There is always some sort of contradiction in every hallucination.

If you take a closer look, you should be able to find out.

KANG-WOO HAN

Please don't ignore me.

You and me...

How long have we known each other, Kang-woo?

Three years.

What grade are you in, Kang-woo?

I'm in 11th grade.

Who are you?

I'm your fan, Kang-woo Han.

I'm in 11th grade.

KANG-WOO HAN

What's wrong?

Mr. Jang!

Mr. Jang!

Mr. Jang!

Mr. Jang!

Tae-yong, track down Jae-yeol's GPS and follow him. Hurry!

When you see Kang-woo,

think of all the moments we shared together lovingly.

The moments when we touched each other affectionately.

The moments when I laughed and cried in your arms.

Think of those moments. Those moments were real.

No!

-What did she say? -She knows your name now!

TAE-YONG

Kang-woo is behind me.

Hae-soo, Kang-woo doesn't exist.

Kang-woo can't be me.

But he is me.

Hae-soo, please help me.

Hae-soo, please help me.

You did well.

You're going to be okay now, Jae-yeol.

Here.

I made this for you while I was in prison.

I made it from rice.

Don't make a big deal about it.

HOPE NEVER GAVE YOU UP, YOU ARE THE ONE WHO GAVE IT UP.

Dr. Jo said Jae-yeol can be cured for good if he goes back to the hospital this time.

So don't cry.

Smile, Jae-yeol.

Does this mean we're still friends?

I'm going to brag that I took a picture with a famous writer.

Hae-soo, he doesn't think of me as a friend.

We should beat him up.

If you do, I'll beat you even harder.

Knock it off.

Hold his arm.

It's time to inject the shot.

You're going to start feeling sleepy, so get some sleep.

Soo-kwang, let's get out of here.

No, I'm sleeping here.

You only listen when I hit you.

I have a boyfriend.

Be nervous, Jae-yeol.

Dong-min, I don't want to see him.

I'm sorry to tell you this but I like Soo-kwang better than you.

You're the best.

We should do a couple battle and see which one of us can be more affectionate.

Why did you hit me?

You two

better not make any moaning noises in the middle of the night.

If you do, I'm going to listen.

Give that to me!

Let's go, Soo-kwang.

Get some sleep.

Don't wake him up.

Okay, let's get some sleep.

Let's sleep.

You see Kang-woo, don't you?

As you told me to,

I try to admit Kang-woo is just over there.

You're doing great.

You're doing well.

Let's get some sleep.

Pack your things and move back home.

Don't make your Mom and sister come down here and make a scene.

I've stopped drinking, which I know you hate.

Please understand that your family is trying to support you.

Hae-soo, cheer up.

What has gotten into you? That was very considerate of you.

Because I don't want you to leave me.

I'll be a good girl and listen to you, so don't leave me.

Okay?

Welcome!

I think it's time for you to leave Kang-woo behind.

Right?

Yes.

When you were 16,

you had no other choice but to blame your brother. You must understand that.

Only then, you can leave Kang-woo behind.

If you can't get over what you did when you were 16 years old,

then Kang-woo will show up again.

I'll try.

Let's go.

MRS. JI

Jae-yeol, this is Hae-soo's mom.

I'm begging you.

Please don't hold on to Hae-soo.

I know you're ill, but I'd like to believe that you're not that self-centered.

PSYCHIATRY CLINIC

I'd go to the hospital with you but you know we have to go separately, right?

Yes.

You also know we have to pretend that we don't know each other, right?

You received a penalty because of me but I won't get you fired.

You're always good with your words.

So you don't like me then?

No, I'm head over heels for you.

If you see Kang-woo today, give him a message for me.

I want to thank him for accompanying you this entire time when you were lonely.

Tell him...

that I'm truly grateful.

Now that you have me by your side,

tell him it's okay for him to leave in peace.

Okay.

I have a gift for Kang-woo in the car.

Give it to him, okay?

You should leave first.

Okay.

It's time to turn off the lights now.

Please return to your own rooms. Thank you.

Just when it was about to get fun, she tells us to go.

Kang-woo,

let's wash your feet.

My girlfriend chose the perfect gift for you.

Mr. Jang,

do you want me to stop coming back?

Subtitle translation by Ayesya Johan