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EPISODE 14

How long do I have to stand like this?

I want to hug you.

Hey.

I love you.

Let's stay like this for a while.

Sure.

Wash up quickly and come out.

I'm going to take my time to make you yearn for me more.

Do you remember?

On the first night at the beach,

you said you would tell me why you cried.

You said you would tell me what you were thinking.

You said if I tell you that I love you even after listening to your story,

then you would believe that I really love you.

You also said

that you would tell me you love me then, right?

I'll tell you today what I couldn't tell you back then.

I'm afraid you might stop having feelings for me after listening to me.

But I'll tell you anyway.

Don't tell me if you aren't ready, Hae-soo.

No, I want to.

I've always been self-reliant, self-centered and stubborn,

but I feel like I can only rely on you.

That's what love is for me.

It was in my senior high school time.

A call came to school

saying that my dad was in the emergency room.

I wasn't even surprised,

because it happened several times before.

As I was running to the hospital that day,

I was hoping that my dad wouldn't make it.

But my dad came out alive again.

I wasn't happy.

It felt like everything went back to how it was before.

Mr. Kim, why aren't you seeing my mom?

How come you stopped seeing her and giving her money?

What am I going to do about my college?

Why aren't you seeing my mom?

Just why?

That's why my mom started seeing Mr. Kim again.

I sent my mom away to Mr. Kim for money.

That was how I went to medical school.

I love you.

I love you very much.

I love you, Hae-soo.

I love you very much.

KANG-WOO HAN

Jae-yeol.

You didn't forget about us meeting on the day I get released, right?

I'll call you.

Wait for me.

KANG-WOO HAN

YOON-SOO

YOON-SOO

I'm sleepy.

You're falling asleep in the bedroom.

You're right.

I'm on the bed.

You might be my cure.

Don't talk. Get some sleep.

Come to the place of the incident.

It's that horrible house where we used to live with Mom.

KANG-WOO HAN

Hello?

What's up, Kang-woo?

I can't right now. I'm sorry.

I'm with Hae-soo right now

and I need to meet my brother later.

What do you mean?

Why will it be the last time?

Yoon-soo, what is it?

Where are you right now?

Why are you calling so late at night?

I heard from So-nyu.

She told me that Jae-yeol is seriously mental.

-Hey! -Jae-yeol isn't mental. He's sick.

Give me my phone. Give it back!

Give it back!

YOUNG-JIN Seocho-gu Seocho 8...

Hello, Hae-soo.

Hi, Young-jin.

I just sent you a text message with Jae-yeol's address.

Bring the ambulance.

Is it okay to go right now?

Or should we go a bit later?

Do you want to be with him a bit longer?

Jae-yeol is sleeping comfortably on the bed for the first time.

I want to let him sleep like that a bit longer.

Okay. We'll leave in 30 minutes.

Thank you.

Please give him a sedative

so he can remain sleeping like that

while being transported.

Why is Jae-bum being released so early?

Stop talking. We don't have time.

Hurry and go meet his mom in Paju.

Okay, I got it.

Drive safely.

Hey, Hae-soo.

Is Jae-yeol with you?

Hae-soo, I'm sorry.

-I went to see Kang-woo. I'm worried. -Hae-soo, are you listening to me?

I'm bothered by the fact that he said he's calling me for the last time.

My brother is also already released.

I'll come back after seeing Kang-woo and my brother.

Dong-min, head towards Route 16 Yangsu-ri. Jae-yeol is heading over there.

JAE-YEOL JANG

KANG-WOO HAN

KANG-WOO HAN

If I fail the contest this time,

I'll just kill myself.

We'll get insurance money then.

I'll give that to my mom.

KANG-WOO HAN

HAE-SOO JI

HAE-SOO JI

Jae-yeol.

I'm sorry, Hae-soo.

Where are you?

It's about Kang-woo.

Kang-woo...

Hae-soo.

Can I call you back later?

Jae-yeol, just tell me where you are.

I'm going to Kang-woo's house.

I'm almost there...

Jae-yeol!

Jae-yeol...

Prepare the sedative.

What do you mean where?

I'm on my way.

-I might be a bit late though. -What?

Damn!

Son of a bitch!

Why are you running late?

I'm walking but you're coming by car.

JAE-BUM JANG

Are you afraid to see me?

Why would I be afraid of seeing my own brother?

I can't wait for us to go drinking together.

KANG-WOO HAN

Hold on, Jae-bum.

KANG-WOO HAN

Where are you, Kang-woo?

I'm on my way home from school.

I can't speak on the phone for long.

We're going to move soon, so I need to help my mom pack.

Come see me before you go, Kang-woo.

You can't leave like this.

Where are you?

I've been really happy because of you.

I'm a nobody.

But you always took care of me

and adored me.

No one else ever treated me like that.

I wanted to win the contest

and be a good son to my mom just like you were to your mom.

I'm very grateful to you. You know that, right?

Stop saying that, Kang-woo.

It's not the time for farewell yet.

I'm sorry. Honestly, I felt a bit burdened by you.

That's why I didn't go see you even when I knew you were having a tough time.

I'm sorry.

I won't do that again, Kang-woo.

Kang-woo.

No!

Kang-woo...

Kang-woo...

Don't do it...

Jae-yeol!

Jae-yeol...

Jae-yeol.

Hae-soo.

Kang-woo

is over there.

Do something.

I'm...

I'm fine.

Help Kang-woo.

Do something about Kang-woo.

Do something...

His subconscious created his ALS,

with which he shared with Kang-woo. It's a pain and hallucination disorder.

It's an example of how the mind controls the body.

So-nyu...

admires you for not abandoning Jae-yeol and wants to become a doctor like you.

Hae-soo, you're such an awesome person.

I told her not to speak nonsense.

Get some sleep.

To sum up all of the situations so far,

Jae-yeol's reality-testing has been shattered.

The moment Jae-yeol was injured after his brother's release three years ago,

he unconsciously knew

that his brother's resentment will not be resolved unless he died.

That's when he first started to hallucinate Kang-woo.

His subconscious used Kang-woo to create a scenario that would end up in his death.

He would give his life to save Kang-woo.

His subconscious chose accidental death over suicide

because that would be the least hurtful to his beloved mom.

He thought of it

as the greatest compensation to his brother

who was unjustly imprisoned for 14 years.

In addition,

that is the perfect example to let his mom

remain in a dissociative state forever.

MENTAL HEALTH CLINIC

I'm not sure if I did the right thing

by telling Jae-bum everything.

The die has been cast.

Thank you.

Yes. I'll get going now.

EVIDENCE FOUR

SHARES RELEASE AGREEMENT

DONATION CONTRACT

At least he has a conscience, giving me all his assets.

That fool.

Let my mom know that she killed him.

Cure my mom and give her an Amytal sodium.

Giving Amytal sodium to someone who lied would make that person tell the truth,

but it's useless to someone whose memory was erased.

If you want to cure her, then you do it.

Do I look like a doctor?

Someone like you would cure her better than a doctor.

Go see your mom right now.

Once you tell her, there's no going back. Keep telling her until she remembers.

That's not medically approved,

but give it a try.

Hey. You.

Is that something a doctor should say?

It's your family matter, not mine.

It has to do with your brother and your mom.

The choice is up to you as the eldest son of the family.

Your brother is locked up because of schizophrenia induced by guilt.

Your mom lived all her life being beaten up,

and all she has now is a lowlife like you.

Isn't that enough for your revenge?

An immature child who only feels his pain and doesn't care about the pain of others.

You are nothing but a child with white hair.

You jerk!

You would have been dead by now if it wasn't for that CCTV in your room.

Dong-min! We can't let Jae-bum leave like that. You need to stop him.

Go to Jae-yeol's mom

and listen to what Jae-bum tells her.

-Tell me about it later. -Okay.

What do you want?

Did you eat?

All you care about is Jae-yeol. Why bother asking whether I ate or not?

Jae-yeol is in the hospital.

He'll get better soon.

That's what the doctors said

and I believe them.

I'm going to make soybean stew tonight. Should I put clams or meat?

Tell me, Jae-bum.

You like both meat and clams.

Tell me.

-What should I put? -Clams, clams!

Damn it!

Damn it!

Damn it!

Damn it!

Damn it!

I heard Dr. Ji is only seeing outpatients because of Jae-yeol.

Jae-yeol's active symptoms have been subsiding since yesterday.

It's already been two weeks, so it's about time.

Dr. Ji is quite amazing, don't you think so?

If I were her, I don't think I could do my work.

I know.

Ms. Choi.

Why did you come to a psychiatrist over your inability to sleep or eat?

Your thinking is quite progressive.

The internal medicine and surgical department said there's nothing

but it keeps occurring.

When did you first start having eating and sleeping disorder?

You really don't want to be separated from him.

Aren't you uncomfortable sleeping here?

I'm not.

During my internship and residency, I stayed in the dormitory.

Compared to that, this is like a hotel.

Why? Are people saying something?

They are worried about you.

By the way, I'm taking care of your patients right now.

The hospital requested that. You understand, right?

I want to see Jae-yeol.

When will you allow me to visit him?

Wait until he's stable.

It's not just you but his mom and brother can't visit him also.

We're going to have him verify the CCTV video today.

Do you understand why we had to

hospitalize you?

We had no choice...

because you kept getting injured.

EVIDENCE NUMBER ONE

EVIDENCE NUMBER TWO

EVIDENCE NUMBER ONE EVIDENCE NUMBER TWO

EVIDENCE NUMBER THREE EVIDENCE NUMBER FOUR

Mom...

My mom

is

innocent.

She's innocent.

I know.

I feel bad

for my brother.

If only I had...

If only I had...

Jae-yeol.

Where is Kang-woo now?

Is Kang-woo here?

We're inside the hospital.

This is a secure area but why would Kang-woo be here?

Jae-yeol.

Why do you think that?

Why is it that I can't see him, but you can?

Kang-woo wasn't in the video earlier.

But how is it that you see him?

Something doesn't make sense?

You think so too, right?

But do you still think that Kang-woo exists?

What do you think Kang-woo is?

Is he something your mind created?

No.

Kang-woo

exists.

Kang-woo

only depends on me.

He has no one

if I'm not there for him.

He has absolutely nothing.

Everyone

is uncomfortable with him

and avoid him.

Do you think Hae-soo and I would do that?

I miss

Hae-soo.

Did people treat you like that when you and your mom were being beaten?

Did those people get uncomfortable and avoid you?

My brother as well...

Jae-yeol.

Are you Kang-woo?

No.

Kang-woo is

Kang-woo.

After he was given the medication,

his visual and auditory creation of Kang-woo has decreased.

But he's still not aware of his illness.

He finds it strange that we can't see Kang-woo.

But he firmly believes that Kang-woo exists.

It's good that he doesn't show

the common schizophrenia symptoms of paranoia or megalomania.

However, his obsession of Kang-woo is on a larger scale than we thought.

He won't be able to see you for a while.

We're leaving.

Jae-bum, have some food.

Jae-bum, you should eat some food.

I'm not going to eat.

Shouldn't you go inside?

Dong-min told me

that I should just watch them and not interfere.

You didn't eat anything in the morning.

Are you not hungry?

Do you want me to make you porridge instead?

You like porridge, right?

Damn it!

Damn, stop pestering me!

Why are you mopping the floor?

Why do you keep cleaning over and over again when it's already clean?

You...

It's okay. Go eat.

I haven't had this before but it's pretty good.

It's delicious, right?

It's our new menu.

Are you sure that Hae-soo broke up with Jae-yeol?

Yes.

Why isn't she answering her phone?

Either her phone is dead or she's busy.

Tell Hae-soo

that if she's lying to me, then I'm going to die.

Tell my sister-in-law

that her sister and mom are going crazy.

Tell her not to do something crazy.

I told you they broke up.

I may look slow but I'm quick.

You only came in today to pry about us for her.

It's difficult enough caring for her sick dad.

You have to make sure that she isn't seeing him.

Welcome. Please sit here.

What?

I asked if you're going to help pay for my tuition if I go to college.

How come you're not answering me and avoiding me?

Why should I help pay your tuition? I'm just your boyfriend.

That doesn't mean I have to support you.

You take care of it.

You don't like me anymore because I said my friend thought you were cool, right?

Do you think I'm you?

Our love does not mean we share financial problem.

Got it?

I got it.

I love you, Soo-kwang.

Enjoy.

I'm quitting as of today.

Tell the boss for me.

Hae-soo is a talented doctor, so once she cures Jae-yeol...

I have conduct disorder.

Please understand.

It's time to take your medicine.

That wasn't too hard. Please get some rest.

Nurse.

Do I...

look like someone with schizophrenia?

You have gotten much better.

In these situations, it's difficult for them to endure just with love.

I actually don't believe that they would be together forever even now.

But I want to cheer them on.

If the two of them can really be happy,

I might be able to believe in love.

So I light a candle in my house for them.

I pray that the heavens look after them.

It's the family of a schizophrenia patient who we have met before.

The patient had a relapse.

They are heartbroken.

Hye-jin can't get careless. She needs to be careful

for the rest of her life.

Goodness, what is this?

Is it possible for you to improve this much?

I even go to school now.

You need to thank me for that.

The Internet is going crazy

saying that writer, Jae-yeol Jang, has schizophrenia.

Do you know that?

I heard he's in this hospital.

I know. He's my boyfriend.

You can go now. I have work to do.

Thanks for the drawing.

Dr. Ji.

Don't forget

the numerous patients that you have cured.

Cheer up.

-I'm going now. -Okay.

Wait for me at home. I'll be there after work.

I'll wait for you.

Dad's feces are a bit watery, Mom.

Two liters of water is too much for a patient who lies down all day.

Decrease it to one liter.

It will make your work easier.

You need to live comfortably.

What did I do?

Don't pretend you don't know.

I broke up with Jae-yeol...

How dare you lie to your mom?

I'm telling the truth.

You'll have to apologize to me later for slapping me.

I'm telling you the truth.

If it's the truth, then I'm relieved.

If not, you're going to get hit a thousand times more than now.

-Mom. -Don't say that you learned it from me.

Yoon-soo told me

that you learned to be loyal to men from watching me.

Is that true?

Maybe what I saw...

Is that all you learned while living with me?

Why did you forget that I cheated on your dad with Mr. Kim?

I used to put you guys to sleep and date him. Did you forget that already?

I told you not to go to medical school.

How could you go when our family is such a mess?

Why did you forget that I called you a selfish and inconsiderate bitch?

If your dad wasn't sick,

why would I say something like that to you when you wanted to study?

Do you know what it's like to live with a patient?

He doesn't even know his wife or his children.

Don't say things like that about Dad.

Your dad doesn't know anything!

Even now, he's not coming here even though I hit you.

It's just my delusion to think that your dad's mind is fine

and that he just can't talk.

I've been telling that lie to myself so that I can live with that!

Mom...

I'm still your mom even if you don't call me that.

Whatever it is,

I want you to end it with Jae-yeol for good.

I'm being serious.

You can leave now.

I didn't ask you to wash the dishes.

Just leave!

Don't cry.

I can't tell Hae-soo to live like me.

Even if you're disappointed, I can't let that happen.

I quit working at the cafe.

I'm going to believe wholeheartedly

that you've broken up with Jae-yeol.

Remember when I had to go to community college because of you?

Do what's right if you have a conscience.

You can't do this, Hae-soo.

You know that it's not right.

He didn't see Kang-woo at the third interview.

That's a relief.

Let me just see his face.

If he sees you, he might feel guilty about himself.

You need to wait a bit longer.

I'll just see his face.

You'll face severe disciplinary action from the management.

I just have to do it without them knowing.

I won't tell Young-jin.

It will be fine as long as you don't tell the director.

Are you going to tell them?

Then see him outside the room.

I want to be with him inside the room.

Are you getting in my way?

You're not going to budge when I'm your senior?

You'll be a fine doctor.

I'm giving you ten minutes.

Make it 15 minutes.

Hi.

I changed the picture on my phone.

Should I look at what book my boyfriend is reading?

"When the wind blows, let it come and go as it wants.

When the yearning comes, let it come and go as it wants.

Eventually the pain will come.

It will stay for a while.

It will stay and leave."

This poem is so good.

Jae-yeol.

Just like this poem,

everything will eventually pass by.

You look good.

It's...

It's not easy for me to speak.

Walking is hard too.

It's because of the medication.

I missed you

and I'm sleepy.

Just wait a little longer.

It will get better later.

It seems

I haven't seen you in such a long time.

I want to make you laugh.

But

I don't know how.

I can't think of what to say.

You'll be able to later.

I want to hug you.

But I don't think I can.

I'm not so appealing, right?

Hae-soo.

What?

Let me

out of here.

I'm not myself in here.

This isn't like me.

If seeing Kang-woo

is a disorder,

then I'll cure myself with my willpower.

Believe in me and let me out.

I'll never see

Kang-woo again.

I feel so helpless

and useless in here.

I don't like this feeling.

Please

get me out of here.

Should I not say things like this?

Are you

going to leave?

I will come back.

If I hold on to you,

they are going to give me another shot, right?

You have to trust me.

Kang-woo is just your hallucination but I'm real.

There's a limit to the medication.

You can only be cured when you realize that Kang-woo is just a hallucination.

Kang-woo

is just a figment of your imagination that you created.

The doctor can't help you decide your reality.

You have to decide what's real and what's not by yourself.

Let me decide at home.

Don't call for me when I leave.

That's the only way I can come back to you.

Hae-soo.

Hae-soo.

Hae-soo.

Hae-soo.

Hae-soo...

You were right. I shouldn't have seen him.

He had another breakdown.

Tell Young-jin not to reduce the medication.

I think he needs to be hospitalized longer than we expected.

When you see Kang-woo, look at him carefully.

Remember that he's just a figment of your imagination.

How long have we known each other, Kang-woo?

Mr. Jang!

I know you can find it, too.

Goodbye, Jae-yeol Jang.

Subtitle translation by Alif Ayob