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EPISODE 9

Are you okay?

Yes, I'm okay.

What is this?

You were crying so...

Didn't I tell you?

I'm more passive than I look.

Why do you have so many scars on your body?

I don't know.

Don't get injured.

Okay.

Do you love me?

Yes.

I don't believe you.

I don't think I love you too just yet.

It's okay.

You'll love me eventually.

Why were you crying?

I was thinking about something.

What were you thinking about?

When I fall in love with you later,

I'll tell you.

I'll tell you what I was thinking about then.

I'll also tell you just how selfish

and awful of a person I really am.

If you still love me even after I tell you all that,

then I'll believe you that you really love me.

But not today.

Despite what you'll say, I still love you.

Like I said,

I don't feel the same way about you.

Don't be like every other guy in this world.

Just because you slept with me once...

I...

I won't think that you completely belong to me yet.

I like you.

I'm also tired.

Get some sleep.

Let me sleep for just a little while.

Jae-bum...

If you die,

I'm sure Mom would be really sad.

Don't you agree?

What's wrong?

My stomach...

My stomach is bleeding.

Did you have a nightmare?

Was it a nightmare?

Kang-woo was in an accident...

and my brother stabbed me with a knife.

I'm sorry. It's all my fault.

I completely forgot that you only sleep in the bathroom.

I'm sorry.

It's going to be fine.

Take a deep breath.

Try inhaling slowly and exhaling deeply.

Okay?

I'm okay.

It was always like this.

Let's go inside.

Not yet.

Let's stay here a little longer until you feel better, okay?

I would like that

but people are coming this way.

Don't worry. No one is coming.

There are.

Two people.

No way. What do we do?

Quiet.

What should we do?

What should we do?

No, it's not that way.

-It's this way. -Where?

What are you doing?

As you can see, I'm preparing your bed for you.

It's not going to be appealing for you to see me sleep inside a bathtub.

But who cares, right?

If you don't like seeing me sleep in a bathtub,

then I guess we'll have to break up.

Close your eyes now.

You should go back to your room and sleep some more.

Our flight is in the afternoon.

I got plenty of sleep.

It's my turn to see you fall asleep.

Get some sleep.

I'm sleepy.

I don't think I can ever break up with you.

I feel comfortable around you.

I suddenly don't want you to sleep anymore.

Wake up.

Look at my shoes. Hey, take a look at my shoes!

Dr. Jo, when is Hae-soo coming back?

She'll come back eventually. It's not like she's going to live there.

Jeez, listen to you.

In your opinion, is Jae-yeol someone you can trust?

Is he someone Hae-soo can date seriously?

Why isn't anyone picking up?

What if they break up during the trip?

Hae-soo is going to get hurt and be miserable because of that.

There's no such thing when it comes to love.

Of course there is.

Love is either a blessing or a lasting memory.

I may not know about other people, but that's how Hae-soo thinks.

Don't you know your own sister by now?

I guess you're right.

Is Young-jin really thinking of not seeing me ever again?

-What? -Hi!

How did it go with your sister?

You were right.

My sister has been having an affair with the store manager.

She was just trying to avoid confronting her husband when he caught her in the act.

That's why she blamed it on his paranoia.

Like you said, I was just trying to run a countertransference.

So what happens now?

They've both agreed to seek couples' counseling at our hospital.

I think it's best to fix

my brother-in-law's trust issues and my sister's infidelity.

Don't you think we should meet?

You're not going to end our 20 years of friendship like this, right?

I'll call you when I'm ready.

Why are you acting like this?

You bought me new clothes but my shoes are so shabby.

Look for yourself and tell me if these shoes go well with my clothes.

Either take back the clothes you bought me or buy me new shoes.

Come on, make up your mind!

You're a really bad girl.

I won't buy you new shoes.

-Buy it for me! -Just buy it for her!

Just buy her everything! Buy So-nyu everything she wants.

The only way you'll get over her is by emptying out your pockets for her.

Just buy it for her.

Buy her everything she wants.

Buy her whatever.

Come out.

I'll be right out after I change.

I'll cover the night shift.

My writing?

I'm not sure.

I don't think I'll be done until near the end of the year.

Why?

I think we need to get your OCD treated.

Are you going to fix me yourself?

I wish I could, but I can't.

I can't treat you objectively since we're dating.

Does that mean you're so into me that you can't be objective about it?

Jeez, you're such a player.

How come you never deny it when I call you a player?

Even though I know I'm not, I'll accept that you think of me that way.

So you're saying that you're not a player?

I know you stare at other women's breasts.

I saw you peeping before.

I caught you staring at the make-up artist's breasts at the talk show.

You also kept throwing side-glances at every pretty woman who walked by you.

Just know that I'm overlooking those because I'm a very generous person.

Fine. I admit peeping at the make-up artist's breasts at the talk show.

She intentionally lowered her body for me to see.

Why do you think that is?

It made me wonder.

Then I realized why she let me see it on purpose.

She felt confident about herself but I didn't think it was that great.

I also admit that I stared at every pretty girl who passed by.

But I thought to myself that you're way prettier than them.

So you compared me to other women?

Is that a bad thing?

Isn't it better than lying and getting cursed at?

I hope you will compare me to every man you encounter in this world.

The more you compare me, the more surprised you'll get.

You'll realize how charming I am.

Do you really love me?

Yes.

Don't you think it's too early to say that?

You have only known me for about two months.

But how can you love me so quickly?

You think it's ridiculous?

I just think it's too quick and meaningless.

Then when should I tell you

so that you will find it meaningful?

We kissed, embraced and slept together because we have feelings for each other.

But if I can't say that I love you,

then when is the right time to say that?

It just feels too quick right now.

Okay.

I don't love you now then.

-I feel uneasy all of a sudden. -Why?

You just told me that you didn't love me.

I want to sleep with you on the bed.

Let's treat your OCD, okay?

I will.

Kang-woo said he'll come out to the airport to greet you.

I'll return to this place for sure.

When?

Next year.

I'll take a sabbatical leave from work and come here alone.

This will be the starting point of my worldwide trip.

Just because we're dating, you don't expect me to get

your permission whenever I go somewhere, right?

Go ahead.

Go and experience various things from this diverse world.

Also be a kind doctor who treats patients suffering from all sorts of diseases.

That would be cool.

Do you want to travel together?

-Let's travel the world. -No.

No, I don't want to. You spend way too much money.

You do that whenever you get the chance.

Don't touch me.

Don't touch me.

Let go. I'm warning you.

Why are you doing this?

What's going on?

My goodness!

Goodness! Look at all these.

I can't decide.

What about this one?

Size 240, please.

Okay.

Let's date.

You're dating that motorcycle guy.

So?

We'll buy this.

Okay.

I'm sorry. Are you okay?

I'm sorry.

What are you doing?

He's always acting like a beggar.

I'm so frustrated.

Is that man your dad?

What if he is?

Then you shouldn't treat your dad like that.

Why do you care?

You little...

For the past year, I had feelings for you.

I know I shouldn't because you're just a student.

I tried to get over you by meeting other girls.

I really liked you.

But that all ends today.

Here's the last of my remaining feelings for you.

Take it.

Fine, just leave!

You think I'll get hurt just because you're walking away from me?

Even my mom abandoned me.

You walking away isn't going to change anything.

Can you move your arm?

Yes.

Did you get some writing done while I was sleeping on the plane?

Just two lines.

But I'm not satisfied with it.

There's no depth to it. It's just a jumble of words.

Just think that there are good days and bad days for writing.

Why are you letting that ruin your mood just because you couldn't write?

I heard writers are sensitive. I guess you're the same.

Hurry up. I thought you said that Kang-woo was waiting.

Right?

What?

You want me to go home on my own?

I think I need to go by his house.

Is it because of the dream you had before?

You said he sounded happy when he called you this morning.

You can either grab a cab here or ride the bus over there.

Jae-yeol, be careful!

Jae-yeol Jang!

I'm sorry.

What's with him? That's so dangerous.

I almost got a heart attack.

Jeez.

He's nice one moment and the next, he's not.

Sometimes he's sweet and sometimes he's not.

We definitely have a very long and difficult road ahead of us.

What is this?

You had me wait for more than an hour.

What? We never planned to meet here...

We planned to meet in front of gate seven.

Hae-soo left because of you.

She left by herself?

Why?

You sent her away.

To come to my house.

That's because you're worried about me.

Are you happy now?

Of course.

You're all I have in this world.

Here, I finished my manuscript.

A RAIN SHOWER OF YOUTH

What's with the sentimental title?

The content itself isn't sentimental.

I'll give you a ride, but only to the bus stop.

So this is how you act after getting a girlfriend?

That's right.

By the way, how is your mom doing?

Did you hit home-run with your girlfriend?

Stop fantasizing!

You did, didn't you?

If my girlfriend gets mad at me, just know that it's because of you.

Okay. So did you sleep with her?

-You did! -Get in the car.

-Get in. -Tell me!

I'm begging you.

You're the only one who can do it.

I can't. I don't want to.

Just do it for him!

What's so hard about teaching sex education when you're a psychiatrist?

Soo-kwang's making a big leap doing this despite his feelings.

That girl could ruin the rest of her life by hanging out with lawbreakers.

Has Soo-kwang ever spoken to you like a mature adult like this before?

Also you're fully aware of how men think.

Men do whatever they want with women without thinking of the consequences.

Why are you looking at me?

My eyes just turns to you without me knowing.

-Just do it. -Why don't you do it?

There's no mutual trust between me and So-nyu.

She doesn't see me as a doctor. She sees me as an old guy.

Me teaching her about sex education is absurd.

You should do it since you are a writer with a lot of knowledge.

Me?

How is he going to explain to her about the dangers of cervical cancer and such?

I gave So-nyu farewell money and said that it was over.

But she told me something.

She said even her mom abandoned her.

So me leaving her wouldn't be a big deal.

She didn't even cry but it made my heart sad.

If she had a mom, I wouldn't be asking you this favor.

I don't want So-nyu to suffer more as a woman.

So please help her.

Just tell her to search it up on the Internet about sex education.

There's more than enough information on the web...

Why are you so selfish?

Do you think there are only sick patients at the hospital?

I have more than enough on my hands with the patients at the hospital.

What did you say when we first lived together?

You said we should make a world where we can trust each other.

You said mental illness is caused by the lack of communication,

so we should be open and communicate with each other!

Why are you always so cruel and ruthless?

I don't think this is something that can be learned on the internet.

Like how Dong-min cares and treats you,

you want Hae-soo to do the same for So-nyu, right?

Even I would feel burdened if someone requests that to me.

Don't take sides.

Let's just all agree that I'm a ruthless girl and end it here.

You all knew that.

Hey!

It's not that Hae-soo is ruthless.

She's just afraid to open up to people.

You sure learned a lot about Hae-soo overnight.

For you to know that much about her, you must of went far with her.

Soo-kwang, don't worry.

I'm sure Hae-soo will come through.

Hae-soo will give in eventually if you keep asking,

just like how she gave in to Jae-yeol.

You know why?

Even though Hae-soo can be over-defensive sometimes,

in reality, she is a very compassionate human being.

You agree, right?

Just a little.

Whatever.

Don't worry, Soo-kwang. Hae-soo will do it.

Okay? Don't worry.

Are you upset?

Did you really sleep with her?

No matter how much I think about it, I'm not fit to live with others.

Mom, do you think Jae-bum will see you today?

Maybe.

He could agree to see me, but what can I do if he doesn't?

You're always so optimistic every time I see you.

The same with Jae-yeol.

I envy people like you.

Excuse me.

Yes, who's calling?

The police station?

Right, you called before.

I completely forgot because I was busy.

Do I have to...

How about delivery service? Can you just have it delivered?

You can't?

Okay, I'll come down to the station.

Bye.

Why did the police call you?

I don't know.

It seems that Jae-yeol went to visit

his old neighborhood and dropped his wallet there.

Why would he go there?

Does he think the police is a delivery service?

Officer Lee, take a look at this.

-What is it? -Come here.

What is that?

Is something wrong with that guy?

Who knows?

SHE...

TODAY HE...

TODAY HE...

RAIN SHOWER OF YOUTH

"Rain Shower of Youth."

HAE-SOO JI

Yes?

What are you doing?

I was just writing.

I just called because I left in a rush this morning without seeing you.

But how come you never call me? We're dating, right?

Yes, we are.

I don't like talking on the phone when I'm working.

-Anyone there? -I thought you were the same.

But I guess not.

Is no one in the house?

I can forgive pretty much everything,

but I can't for those who call me during my work hours or treatment sessions

unless it's an absolute life or death situation.

Don't be too forgiving.

I need to get back to work.

I'm hanging up.

I also hate people who call me when I'm working, Hae-soo.

He's so my type.

Hello, everyone!

-Hello. -Hello.

So what's our topic for today?

Don't you think that you should at least tell me?

I don't know you that well but you're in my house.

Is it wrong for me to ask you why you're here?

I came to see Dong-min, but he's with a patient.

So I'm waiting for him here.

Did I answer you?

You could wait at the cafe.

I should just throw him out.

JAE-YEOL JANG

Jae-bum Jang Attacks Brother, Jae-Yeol Jang

Bestseller Jae-yeol Jang Attack Case The Final Decree Will Be Today

Jae-bum doesn't want to see you but told me to give you this.

I see. Thank you.

Would you please give this to him?

He doesn't want to see me either?

He refuses to see anyone from now on.

He said he'll only see Dr. Dong-min Jo.

I'll give this to him for you.

I could've lived in a beautiful place.

But why am I taking a path that is unmarked on the map?

How long must I continue living this miserable life?

Only one thought lingers in my mind.

What can I do to live a normal life?

Jae-yeol

stabbed him with this knife.

Why didn't you believe me?

Jae-yeol is the one who killed him.

Wait and see what the son you abandoned

will end up doing to the son you love.

MY LOVELY MOM

I have to write.

I'm hanging up after the song finishes.

So don't be disappointed.

MY LOVELY MOM

The couple are in their early 50's and came in last Thursday.

They were admitted into the emergency room with clear abrasions and bone fractures.

But then,

their son came to me on Friday morning

and gave me their home CCTV footage, which we are about to witness.

The couple's son and daughter live in their university dorms

and stated that their parents have been complaining for months

of being tormented by cockroach infestation,

which pest exterminators could not find.

So they had the CCTV installed to see where the cockroach came from.

What's the name of the disorder?

It's SPD.

It's a disorder where both patients experience

and see the same hallucinations.

What about treatment?

First, we need to separate them.

If that doesn't treat their hallucinations,

then we need to treat them with medical drugs.

There are many instances when a patient is quickly cured

of their hallucinations after the separation.

This case will be very helpful to you in building your psychoanalytic skill-set.

We are not these patients' doctors.

We're like guides to help these patients regain a healthy life on their own.

Please be attentive to every word and breath uttered by our patients.

-You're dismissed. -Yes.

You're aware that the husband is possibly schizophrenic, right?

Don't forget that during his sessions.

I'm sorry, Young-jin.

About what happened the other day,

I'm sorry for behaving like a jerk when you were talking about Dong-min.

You know that I know Dong-min's wife.

-So I just got angry... -Hey.

-I'm not the kind to... -I know that you're not a child.

I'm well aware of that.

Throughout weekend,

I thought about why I was so low about it and where things started to go wrong.

I tried to psychoanalyze myself, and that's when I realized.

Rather than thinking the feelings that I have for Dong-min as love,

I realized it was more of a sense of guilt.

Dong-min wanted to have a child right away,

but I secretly took birth control.

Having a baby would've affected my career.

Then I got caught.

I kept pretending I didn't know what he was talking about.

There's no way someone as sharp as Dong-min wouldn't have known.

He didn't say anything after that.

I think I need to apologize to Dong-min for what I did.

I was solely responsible in ruining my marriage.

I realized that yesterday.

I want to remain good friends with Dong-min.

You have a big heart.

Just like how you just opened up to me,

I'll open up to you as well.

I...

slept with Jae-yeol.

Wait. Let go of my hand.

Are you bragging right now?

What about your anxiety disorder?

I probably sweated a lot.

Sweat can be wiped away.

What about being reminded of your mom when kissing?

Goodness.

About that...

I must be out of my mind.

We all lose our mind at some point.

It's all right.

I was reminded of her.

The image of my mom smiling and kissing Mr. Kim.

I used to think that what my mom did was so dirty and filthy,

and I hated seeing her face in my head because she looked so ugly.

But that night,

she looked pretty.

With a paralytic husband who has a child's mind and mentality,

and a selfish daughter

who insisted on going to medical school when the family was already so poor.

I realized at that point that Mr. Kim could have been

my mom's only solace when she was struggling so much.

I can't imagine how lonely my mom must have felt.

So you got over your presumption

that a mom has to always act like a mom, didn't you?

Keep this up, and you're going to become an excellent doctor.

Do you know what I once heard?

One of the most violent things you can say to a person

is telling others how masculine, feminine or maternal they are.

Or what a model student or brilliant doctor they are.

We all fumble around because we're still adapting to our roles.

So we should be empathetic and know that it's okay to make mistakes.

The truth is, I have a confession to make.

But it's for Jae-yeol.

Is Jae-yeol your destiny?

Most likely.

It sounds like you might even marry him.

Why would I get married? I like living alone.

FROM SOO-KWANG

Despite how you look and talk, I know that you're not selfish at heart.

This is So-nyu's number. Please do this for me.

Hello?

This is Hae-soo Ji, Dr. Jo's housemate. You know me, right?

I need to meet with you.

Why do you need to see me?

It's my mom.

Hi, Mom! Have you been well?

THE YOO'S RESTAURANT

This restaurant is full of people.

It must be nice being the daughter of the owner.

You make money being a doctor and your mom with her restaurant.

Where do you use all that money?

I pay off debts.

We have several hundred million won in debt.

There's my school tuition and the loan we took out to open this place.

Only one percent of the people on this earth are truly rich.

My mom and my brother-in-law both work about 20 hours a day here.

I used to work about 80 hours a week at the hospital.

It's gotten a lot better now, but I still work long hours.

As you can see, my dad is sick.

But he always watches over us from there.

In his own way, my dad works very hard too.

Why did you want to see me?

-Did Soo-kwang... -Don't talk as if he's your friend.

Keep that in mind.

What did he want you to tell me?

I heard you have a boyfriend.

Did you take sex education course in school?

I learned it on the Internet.

I have a lot of interest for things like that.

The correct usage of condoms, birth control for women,

and even the dangers of pregnancy and cervical cancer risks.

Thanks for the delicious meal. I'll get going now.

Honey, look at this picture!

Mother!

Not that picture! Hae-soo is here!

Dad, I looked good in that picture, right?

Are you hot?

By the way,

I don't like it when you talk to Jae-yeol secretly behind my back.

Don't do that again.

Dad, I love you.

What has gotten into her?

I don't know.

Dad, I'm leaving now.

Honey!

Honey! Jae-yeol, I'm home.

Jae-yeol!

It's been awhile.

What brings you to this house?

I came to talk with Dong-min.

I wanted to see you too.

I don't like it when you come by this house.

I know you're uncomfortable around me,

but I really don't care.

Come with me.

Honey!

Jae-yeol!

What's your opinion on my ex-boyfriend coming to this house?

He said he came to see Dong-min.

Also...

can't you see that I'm trying to write?

Are you asking me to leave?

Forget the project if you're going to involve Jae-bum.

We're trying to show

how a former convict can return to society with therapy and counseling.

Why do we need an adult prisoner?

Are viewers' ratings all you guys care about?

Is it funny to you that the prisoner's hair turned white due to stress?

That's my boss' concern.

I'm interested in why his case was not considered a crime case, but a felony.

Is that right? Then I'll get you another case.

Okay?

Are you obsessing over this because Jae-bum is Jae-yeol's brother?

That is one of my reasons.

Hello.

This is Dong-min Jo.

Yes, I've been well.

I called because

I was hoping to do an amytal-induced interview with Jae-bum.

Yes. I was wondering if that would be possible.

I see.

It has already been tried before?

In that case, please allow me.

I'm leaving.

See you again, Hae-soo.

Bye.

Can you prevent Ho from coming into this house?

He came because it was work-related.

You can meet him elsewhere.

Meeting elsewhere costs money.

Hey, what's your opinion on Ho coming over to the house?

I'm fine with it.

So-nyu came to me and told me that you didn't try your best.

This is what you get.

Hae-soo, we need to talk.

Talk about what? Go back to your writing.

How can I write when my mood is like this?

You can't write because of your mood?

How do you think I feel right now?

I told you I was writing.

That's the best you can come up with?

You should have asked me nicely to leave because you were writing.

If you explained it like that, then I would understand.

Couldn't you have spared five seconds of your time?

I didn't know.

All I needed was five seconds.

We really don't know anything about each other.

How can we date like this?

Hey, if this is a couple argument, then go argue someplace else.

I agree. You're not the only ones living here.

Have some respect for the rest of the people living here.

Don't misunderstand me!

Jae-yeol isn't the only one I'm arguing with right now.

I'm arguing with all three of you here.

Hey, what was I supposed to do when Ho said he was going to come over?

Also did you even once love Ho during the 300 days you dated him?

You didn't, did you?

Don't you think you owe him an apology for that at least?

-Apologize for not loving him. -He's right.

The last time you two fought on the lawn,

Ho couldn't stop crying and told you over and over that he loved you.

But you only talked about your anxiety and betrayal issue.

Let's be honest.

You used Ho this entire time.

Break up on good terms if you don't want him cursing at you.

How can I break up on good terms?

You want me to mislead others into thinking that there is still

something going on with Young-jin

just so everyone thinks I'm a nice person like you?

What did you just say?

You guys really don't know a thing about me.

I'm not the least bit afraid of having someone curse at me.

You want me to tell him that we should remain as friends?

That will only create misunderstanding

and eventually someone's feelings will get hurt.

How else am I supposed to treat him aside from being cold and distant?

What I'm doing to Ho is out of my consideration and friendship for him.

Also you...

I was going to see So-nyu again out of consideration for you.

But you can forget about that now.

Hae-soo!

Hey, you brat!

What do you know about me and Young-jin to even say all that?

-Calm down. -Dong-min.

-Hae-soo was just upset... -What is your deal?

If your girlfriend's ex-boyfriend came by the house, you should've have punched him.

Why did you pretend as if everything would turn out to be okay?

What a brat.

You're so full of yourself!

You like things that are fizzy and bubbly?

Like that sparkling water and the same with Hae-soo.

Dating Hae-soo isn't easy, right?

It'll be our secret, so tell me.

Don't tell anyone.

It's hard.

You said your motto was to give as much as you're given, right?

In that case, if your ex-girlfriend comes over to this house,

should I welcome her in like you did today?

I thought you wanted Ho to think that you're cool.

That's why I held myself back even though I was jealous.

Let me make myself clear to you.

I'm going to pull your ex-girlfriend's hair

the minute she steps into this house...

I've got work tomorrow. Let's end it here.

You should put up a sign when you work

so that no one disturbs you.

No need because I'm moving soon.

The renovation on my house in Seocho-dong is almost done.

Good night.

What? You're moving?

Yes, I'm moving.

You're moving?

You heard me right.

I don't have a space of my own. You can come in whenever you want.

I sure met a peculiar person.

I miss him already.

Even I can't trust myself now.

I don't know if what I remember is the truth or not.

Do you even love me?

Yes, madly.

What is this?

Writing might be everything for Jae-yeol.

I missed you a lot, Hae-soo.

So should I turn off the lights?

I love you.

Subtitle translation by Alif Ayob