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You know my life story?

Not really.

How would you summarize
your life in a couple of sentences?

Up and down.

I'm the kind of person I
wish I could stay forever young.

Because I still would have a lot to do.

Don't make a film out of this.

Whatever you do.

You wouldn't get the penny for it.

But, Peter, I guess I'm getting old.

And maybe I can't spend so
many birthdays with you anymore.

Maybe one more, but just hope for it.

Thanks for everything. For
your support. For your kindness.

And for loving me. That's it.

Thank you.

Is that okay?

It's quite a speech.

Was it?

You mean...

Did you write that ahead of time?

No, you're kidding.

No, I just took it as I came along.

Okay, very nice.

That's it?

Yeah.

Okay. Well, thank you.

Do you want me to
tell you the story of my daddy?

Sure.

When I was happy all day
long, then all of a sudden I got dizzy.

Until I fell to the floor.

What if a certain life was scared?

But things still
happen when you don't expect it.

Until I am, I'm much
better, but not quite myself.

Hopefully, it will all go
by and it will be in the past.

And I will kick my heels
again and go dancing somewhere.

He writes, "Sometimes people ask you,
when is your birthday?"

But you might ask
yourself a more interesting question.

For that day, which is
called my birthday, where was I?

If you ask a cloud, "How old are you?

Can you give me your date of birth?"

You can listen
deeply and you may hear a reply.

You can imagine the cloud being born.

Before being born, it was
the water on the ocean's surface,

or it was in the
river, and then it became vapor.

It was also the sun
because the sun makes the vapor.

The wind is there too,
helping the water to become a cloud.

The cloud does not come from nothing.

There has been only a change in form.

It is not a birth of
something out of nothing.

If one asks the
question, "How did I get here?"

Then an inevitable next
question would be, "Who were my parents?"

I recall a story
told many times of how my

mom, working as an
au pair girl in Europe,

was handed a note
over a neighbor's hedge,

scrawled with a name and
address of some nice people in Canada.

That was the prompt in 1955,
which led Julie and Freddie, my parents,

to sail the great
ocean into an unknown future,

with just enough
money to their name for a

return trip to
Switzerland, their homeland.

They married a couple
of years later, and I was born.

Many decades later, I stand here
on an island off the coast of Africa.

Contemplating the expression, "The
grass is always greener on the other side."

Wondering about
how that might relate to my

parents and the
migration of many of our ancestors.

Looking westward, I'm reminded of
the explorers and the havoc they've wreaked,

leading us to where I stand today.

Recording now an imprint of this horizon,

hoping to find
something that I cannot yet see.

Anyway, you're okay?

Yeah, I'm fine.

You had a good flight?

Yeah.

Okay.

Getting unpacked,
already filming a little bit.

But snow?

Yes, I'm pointing
the camera at Ray Toble.

Well, haven't you got
enough snow over there now?

I know.

It was like the last couple
of weeks was all green and sunny,

and the day I arrived, it starts snowing.

What else is new in good old Switzerland?

I mean, it was all
green, now it's all white?

Yeah.

You know, nature is crazy.

I mean, this is already the
middle of March for heaven's sake.

It's interesting.

Oh, it's about boiling.

I have lunch.

Good.

Okay, well, let's talk soon.

Okay, fine.

Okay, bye.

Thank you for calling Peter.

Yeah, bye-bye.

Stop the snow.

I'm trying.

Okay.

Okay, bye.

Bye.

Strange, isn't it?

These paper objects
can allow so much to happen.

It's too abstract.

It doesn't look like 50,000.

You have to find
the equivalent in real life.

Workers' years
earning or something like that.

It's just paper.

How did it come to
be that this is in your hands,

coming to my hands?

My personal family
version is there was this time,

100 years ago, where this
thing, the new thing was coming.

So it was electricity.

I don't come with
family who build power plants,

but our production does everything.

To distribute electricity.

But it was very simple, right?

On and off.

On and off.

Switches.

Yes.

And plugs.

Yes.

The most simple
answer is it's not history.

It's capitalism.

Someone in Oregon by the
seaside gets up every morning,

starts working at
the factory seven o'clock.

At the end of the year gets this.

And I get so much extra
that I can handle what you give.

As someone who
inherited, it's like the question,

how do I deserve it?

What is the work of mine?

What did I put in to get this?

So you have every freedom in life.

I don't know how you choose to live.

Here's which line
here and what you do with it.

I came to the conclusion it's worth

given to you for a film project.

But not every possibility is in the money.

What's missing?

The knowledge of
telling the right story

at the right time,
that it really gets hurt.

Maybe the money gives
you time to tell the story

but if it's the right one.

What moves the world?

Where do things happen?

How was it possible that people started

to think
differently maybe, move differently,

got things into motion?

Money was sure involved but not only.

You lost your father way too soon.

And my father is coming here.

He's 90 years old.

I just wonder if you have any suggestions

about how I should spend my time

with my father when he's here.

Spend time with him.

We talked to me also as
someone who has children herself.

So it's a question
that accompanies me a lot.

It's like how to spend
good time with them, honest time.

I don't know, spend time together.

Don't film.

No, I will film.

Yeah, I know you shouldn't.

I do that all the time.

He is used to it anyway.

So I mean, that's how I process things

and that's how I
learn and that's how I share.

And I don't think it's a bad thing.

Even though I have
a love-hate relationship

with filmmaking.

I don't know if the word is tropes

or patterns of an individual's experience

that come out in their expression.

Like a painter will start a certain way

or will have a set of
gestures that repeat themselves.

That's that bad note.

And you think, oh, I'd like to play

outside of my familiar tropes.

Is it possible to do that?

You know, the things that you've learned

and responded to and resisted

and been attracted to, all those things

are what make you decide in the moment

to do a certain thing.

Habits.

Habits.

I think the way that that gets challenged

is like the wrong note, you know?

Or when something is presented to you

that you've never dealt with before

and you find a way to deal with it.

Of course, you're still
dealing with that wrong note.

With your familiar ways of responding,

but it's taking you somewhere new.

How do you get
prepared to react if you don't plan?

You get tuned.

I look up the meaning of
the name of the body of water

to which all these tributaries lead.

The Rhine River.

It turns out that
the word Rhine means flow,

finding the path of least resistance.

Like the water coming off the hills.

So I go letting
one thing lead to the next

until I find myself as a
passenger in my neighbor's car.

Milan, you call them?

Yeah, a red Milan.

There are black ones and red ones.

It's nice to be
the passenger for a change.

Right? Yeah, yeah.

I've been driving a lot.

Yes, sometimes it's really comfortable

to just sit there and look around.

This is
the place where I grew up.

Now it's just a run
through a village, you know.

The character is
lying beneath the castle,

the old part of this village.

Even the place where we go now,

last time I was there with 29.

After your performance in the cave,

it hangs to my mind.

And so next day I
went there where we go now

to look if it's still around.

What amazes me is the
stream is always flowing, always.

We are a part of the evolution

and maybe someday we are gone, maybe not.

Maybe something else is coming

like this artificial intelligence.

I'm not afraid about
the future of the planet.

I mean, future is a humankind...

But I must say I'm
glad I'm already in my age.

The good times and all
these change and everything,

we experienced it and
what's now is just the extreme of it.

Too much of everything, 24 hours a day.

Like these trucks here.

It's like the flow of the
river, the trucks moving stuff around.

I'm going to hurry.

- So I come with you or?
- Yeah, if you like,

you can come with me.
- The dogs are okay?

Yeah, yeah.

White.

That's what we need.

- We need this for our...
- Yeah, maybe, maybe.

I have to, you know, we
have to figure it out together

if we need it or not.

Hey.

Let's get on with it.

They took out the iron of this mountain.

They would send it down
with little cars down to the sea

and there it got loaded on ships.

And there was a
factory which they got the iron out

and transformed this stone to steel.

I remember to have my
29th birthday in this cave,

which is a long time ago.

I remember that some
guy gave me this kind of knife,

you know, the blade jumps out.

This I remember.

I remember just having a good time.

Three or four from
that guy's are already dead.

They're gone.

I have the tendency to hope after death,

we come together
and see each other again.

For me, as long as people remember you,

that's the life after death.

And no, it has to be enough.

I used to trade tattoos for things.

If I was in places where
people didn't have any money,

in Italy I had a nice house to live

and I had it in exchange
for doing tattoos on the guy's sons.

Some people still come to me

even if I live up there in the hills.

For me, it's like all
these things are already there.

My part is to get them out.

I make it visible.

Everybody wants to
leave tracks behind him.

To have something which
reminds you of a personality

and an individual.

Hey.

Can you hold the rabbit in the light?

I don't know if it's to see.

The rabbit smoking a pipe.

I was actually always
a kind of hot-blooded person.

So it took not much
and I would explode, you know.

So I hurt myself often through this.

And the meaning of it is the
rabbit is smarter than his enemies.

That's why he got
the time to smoke a pipe.

And before he does anything,

he relaxes and he thinks about it.

It helped me, I must say.

It often stopped me from making mistakes.

It helped.

It reminds me of subconscious somehow.

So this fits pretty much the expression

that some place else is
maybe nicer than where we are.

You just see the light out there,

but you don't even
know exactly what's there.

It's just light.

Yes, maybe there.

Maybe we can go back there.

It is a symbol of...

Shall we leave a couple of
marks so we can find our way back?

Yeah.

It's like a dream.

It's reality, but it doesn't look real.

Fire!

The dust is the end of everything.

Combined with water,
it's even possible that one day

some life crawls out of it again.

It's quiet.

And we picked a really nice day.

And there's still a bit of snow on it,

It's a snowdrop.

See this tree, it has like a branch

that grew out of it that
is bigger than the original tree.

Or almost as big.

Strange?

That's nature.

What does that thing,

the top on the right side?

It's sort of dying?

Yeah.

But the branch on the left is bigger.

Than the main tree?

Because the main tree is feeding

the little kid on the left side.

And I guess maybe the,

because the main tree is dying,

it's putting all
the nutrients to the kid.

Exactly.

So we have already
solved one problem of survival

in the Alps.

When you think of
Switzerland, when you're in Canada,

is this the kind of thing you think of?

Well, that's very much part of it.

So, so different.

You see the
perspective from the top of the world.

The air is good.

And I'm always astounded and amazed

at how many people still walk.

Bench, it's a bench.

Absolutely
surprising, I wouldn't think like that,

but it's still a lot of ash.

Little woman, lots of ash.

Yeah.

Goodbye.

Bye, Mum. See you up there.

Really real fast.

So now she's gonna
go all the way to Basel,

all the way to the North Sea,

all the way up in the air,

and rain down on us back in Canada.

And I will kick my heels again

and go dancing somewhere.

The two lights out there.

Yeah.

Below the...

Below the, the back?

Yeah.

Yeah.

And then you see a
long stretch of houses below.

Yeah.

And that's where
you, where Julie had a room.

Mom, I guess I was about 20 then.

So it's 70 years ago,
but it still looks the same.

So do you remember specific stories

when you look out there?

Not really, I
mean, we always in the school

had to go for major walks.

We had to walk a two day trip

along the top of that whole ridge.

Then next day walk down
and take the train back to Zurich.

But it was a
modest kind of a life we had.

It was also our life built as concern

as to what the route is going to end up.

It always happened at night,

the sirens went off,
it was frightening,

Then we had to take our belongings

and go down to the
basement nearly every night.

It was a fear beginning
when I was three, four years old.

To be on the
ground, never knew, you know,

that all it needed is one
guy not quite sure where they are

and drop the bombs.

It was a scary kind of sound

when you had two,
three hundred bombs flying over

you're not that high up.

And of course it
happened to Schaufhausen.

The Germans, they stopped Schaufhausen

for being on the wrong side of the train

and then they dropped
bombs on the side of the afternoon.

But that's war.

And it doesn't take much.

Now it just needs a push of a button.

Whoever is the strongest
bully in the neighborhood park

wins the war.

That's what I'm really concerned about.

That's part of life today.

There's competition for
food, there's competition for money.

The population
worldwide has increased to the point

when you have to really begin to worry

whether you'll have food
for all of us in a few years.

The question is how
much can the world support

and how can we take care to make sure

that the world
doesn't kill off all these species

because once they're gone, they're gone.

Ooh, it's getting cold.

It's going to dark fast.

Because the sun
has to have some rush too.

It's a beautiful view from up here.

It's interesting for us 55 year olds

to know what it's
like to be an 88 year old.

That's true too.

Except that

we behave like an 80 year old.

What does an 80 year old behave like?

I don't know myself.

Except I don't want to behave that way.

So do you think when
you look through binoculars,

you can see the future?

Oh yeah?

Yes, you can.

Do you think so?

I heard about that.

You did?

Yes.

Where did you hear about that?

I heard that from
an old professor ages ago.

Ages ago?

Yep.

Was he living through binoculars?

Yes, yes.

I just thought to think where that was.

And I laughed and said to his cool, cool.

But now you think it's true?

I don't know, yeah.

So if you look through
these, you can see the future.

The future.

Can you see the future?

You can make up the future.

If you can't see it,
make it up and believe in it.

Much of the world has gone into lockdown.

Many of us confined in our own
homes with extra time for introspection,

for rummaging through basements,

exploring forgotten
items that characterize who we are.

I find old tins of celluloid
containing images etched as memories

that need only a bit of light
to be brought back into recognition.

Okay.

The very first film I ever
made from high school in Super 8

proves the theory that one always
makes the same film over and over again.

It is the story of a young man who
has mistakenly sold a most well-kept secret.

The dream of death.

This will be the interview with the Dalai Lama

on the 28th of
December 1985, take one.

Marker.

In another tin are images of first visits

to India where I
encountered the Dalai Lama.

I recall him
explaining in broken English how

matter and consciousness
are two different things.

And then laughing as he does, exclaiming,

"Why would there be a
limitation on life in this universe?"

And my parents, who I see
here as younger than I am now,

like friends I might have had,

instead of elders who I
always needed to impress or obey,

or love in that way,
you can only love a parent.

These images I see again after 37 years
are like visiting an old version of myself.

Feels like a forgotten reincarnation,

a glimmer of
recognition to this life I once lived.

Never have I been so aware
of the treasure that is memory,

which knows we've been alive.

Okay, Freddy, so this is how we can talk.

But I don't have a camera.

No, I'm just filming this right now,
but it's confusing

because there's cameras
pointing at cameras giving feedback.

That's you in Skype.

That's me in Skype.

So this is how we can
communicate in the day of day and age.

Corona virus.

Oh, it sounds like this.

These are here.

Moving back.

There's mum.

So you feel like you're
getting weaker like every day?

Well, not every day,

but my whole body gets,
you know, truly weaker.

Yeah, you don't get much exercise, right?

I go up and down the
stairs, ten times a day or more...

Hey.

There.

The rabbit.

Rabbit.

My rabbit.

How old do rabbits get?

I don't know.

He's been around for a while.

He was here when Mom was here.

Yeah.

He's your buddy, isn't he?

Yeah.

Oh, he's changed since then.

I've got a good life.

I always wonder
what's going to happen to me.

I'm in good spirit. I'm in good health.

So you're gonna live to 105?

If the body hangs on and my mind is still

halfway there, it
wouldn't be a bad life, actually.

You know, I have a house paid off.

I have a little bit
of money left in the bank.

I don't need anybody.

I have a rabbit.

But eventually you
still need some company.

You always need to meet someone.

Otherwise you become morose.

To speak directly to
everyone who's lost a loved

one, if you're
grieving, know that you're not alone.

We are here for you, even
through this incredibly tough time.

And you remind us
why it's so important to

do everything we can
to keep one another safe.

We all need to do our part.

We can't let up now.

So to everyone, stay at home.

And no matter what, stay two
meters apart if you do have to go out.

When it gets hard, let's
remember that we're all in this together.

Thank you.

I'm now ready to take your question.

Thank you.

The first question,
Kate Bongaro, Bloomberg.

I don't know how many
million people on this earth.

The virus is a way of one of
the higher forms of God upstairs.

There are too many of you here.

And I will send a virus down that
will get rid of a third of the population.

And then we can start again.

So you think it's a God, not nature?

Nature is God.

And God is nature.

Do you believe in reincarnation?

I have a feeling that mankind as
it is today is not the final addition.

If I should come again,
I wouldn't want to be a leader.

You wouldn't want to?

No.

What would you want?

A follower.

How come?

You're too exposed as a leader.

You're no damn good
if you're my age anymore.

Six o'clock of the rain.

You know the expression that
grass is green around the other side?

Yeah.

How do you interpret
that, first of all, into your life?

You always have the
feeling that somewhere else is better.

I wanted to see the world.

I didn't want to necessarily see Toronto

and be staying here
for the rest of my life.

It just so happened.

In many ways, a lot
of unexpected happenings.

There are a number of things in our lives
that just were points of new direction.

You know, these are the
things in life that you can't foresee.

So what do you think
about, you know, us making

a film that explores
the world in a similar way?

You don't know
exactly what you're looking for

but you move
from one thing to the next.

You react and you make
connections and make discoveries.

Doesn't mankind do that already?

They went from here to the moon.

It's expanding your
knowledge beyond where we are.

Consciousness has its own identity.

When we are
getting deep sleep or dreaming,

it's at that time the level of
consciousness is more further deeper.

When someone is
completely faint, no more breathing,

during that moment the
consciousness level still reaches deeper.

The furthest or the deepest level of
consciousness we believe when we are dying.

The green grass rose all around,
and on that limb, there was a little nest,

the bread is little
nest, that's your evidence, see.

Now the nest on the limb, on
the tree, on the roots, and the roots,

and the dirt, and the
hole, and the hole in the ground,

the green grass
rose all around and around,

the green grass rose all around.

Ever yell at your little darlings?

Breeders takes you
behind the front door for a

painfully hilarious look at
the reality of raising children.

Covid-19 and not the flu.

So this is still
an issue, and I hope that

in the midst of this very big decision...

...the president.

...that we anticipated this year.

The stores are stocking up
at a level that's beyond Christmas time.

Go and buy, enjoy it, have a nice
dinner, relax, because there's plenty,

but you don't have to buy
the quantities because it's...

Toilette paper!

A basis is rapid,
it's definitely filling them,

but it's something that
we have tremendous control of.

I think very important to
young people, people of good health,

and groups of
people just are not strongly

affected, elderly
people that are not well.

Mr. Vice President, why
don't you plan to build more

hospital beds so tens of
thousands of Americans don't die,

and how many more ventilators are you

looking at ordering
so people don't suffocate?

Let me let the Secretary step up.

Do you feel like it's
giving you anxiety in your place?

Uh, yes.

We've been dehumanized
a lot of the natural world,

and trying to make humans not pedestal.

And I think the psychedelics have really

helped us to realize
that we are all part of nature.

I still try to
understand what is behind all this,

and because I have the feelings
of all virus things, like a curtain,

and behind this curtain
things have to be done, I just do it.

And this makes me
more nervous than the virus.

After all, poison also likes meaning,
and gardens, and dances on the beach.

Unfortunately, it also
light the faces of our lovers.

Some things lose their importance, some

others gain
importance, that's also interesting.

What gain importance?

Hum, the humor.

Now we're in Colombia, it's been
like, they're right at the beginning.

It's such a small place, it's so well identified
that people came from Spain,

and they gathered the plane, and
it's all traced back to two or three flights.

Of course, I thought
also that it's a way of the

nature to defend
itself against the human being,

which hurts the nature so
much, and for such a long time.

There's a moment when it's
enough, and when it reacts somehow.

The virus creates a lot of bullshit, and

it's a lot of
disaster going on, of course.

But there are so many
other beautiful things happening,

the dolphins that are
swimming through the canals again.

I have one friend
who's very sick with it.

The view from inside is very
different from what we hear on the outside.

I tend to think it is a force of nature.

Hmm, it's so difficult to find the truth.

This is a blood thinner too, or it's not?

Okay, okay, okay, thank you.

Sorry.

It is alright.

No one knows what the
fuck is going on, basically.

And so they're just throwing wrapping stuff
at me to try to see if it works.

On paper, it's
perifarditis, and like, pleurisy, whatever.

It was like when you
have water around your heart.

But it's so much
more than that now, because

I've started having
like, urologic symptoms.

I still can't taste and smell anything.

I have tasted for
like, probably 37 days now.

And the people here at the House of
the Walnut right now, it's like the insane.

They're wearing like, construction goggles
and like, surgical masks.

And it's crazy,
like, there's no protocol.

There's people
walking around with that proper gear

like, everyone's just going to get so sick.

But you're strong with being sick.

You're good at it.

You're good at overcoming.

I hope so.

I remember her during
our audience with the Dalai Lama.

Our director asks the question,
"Can you tell us what reincarnation is?"

And to this day, I recall
an elaborate analogy of a response,

comparing the actual physical
matter of celluloid to the human body.

And the image exposed
by light into that celluloid,

to the consciousness
that occupies the body.

At least that is how I remember it.

"Inpermanent" does not mean the end.

Rather, they say it means transformation.

The monks explain.

It is continuity,
the continuation of things.

Like the rebirths we take for
granted, every year in the forest.

Why did they get the name of "Ephemeral?"

Well, I think
because of their nature, that

they're only here
for a short period of time.

So it's literally what they are.

In every flower, there's a
kind of logic with its morphology,

and the flower
shaped downwards to attract

low-flying native bees
that come around this time of year,

and approach things from
below as opposed to from above.

This wasn't here yesterday.

This is something, it's actually
called "Furie Bell's" rather quaint name,

but the yellow flower right there.

The viruses aren't actually alive,
which is one thing that kind of throws me,

like they're on a mission to replicate

themselves, just
like everything in nature is.

But the purpose it serves...

is there any intention
beyond replicating itself?

We're all about replicating
ourselves too, at whatever cost,

up to the environment
that makes our lives possible.

Normally we're all in the
position of being the top predator.

Our replication is the
supreme priority, above all.

Perhaps in some way
the virus is a mechanism

within nature itself for
bringing things into alignment.

And unfortunately for
us, we're in the position of

being the victims in a
kind of a cosmic reckoning.

And yet if you look at
it more objectively, it's also

something that happens
within the course of evolution,

that viruses will strike
every so many decades or centuries,

and they have a huge levelling effect
on the state of the planet at that time.

I think we thought that humanity in
a way was beyond nature and beyond history,

that we were so much more ultimately
important than any other species.

And I say that in that kind of, you
know, that selfishness that we can have.

Well nice you got me waving.

Yeah.

Because I was actually filming you,

and I could see my shadow
on the tree in front of me.

It's quite interesting.

Nothing here exists in isolation.

And that our normal state of
survival right now is to isolate ourselves.

I got Tony in the foreground.

I should get a shot at that.

Sure.

That situation just doesn't exist
in a naturally occurring habitat like this,

where everything is interdependent.

Nothing is isolated.

Wow. You love the sound of the water.

Mm-hmm.

Oh yeah, it's the whole water.

I love this. I love the air.

With the pandemic,
we've had the feeling of

like, you know, the
time has virtually stopped.

And it's because everything about the

normal course of
human affairs is all in frozen.

It's in limbo.

And yet here you
see that things continue.

It creates the possibility of an after.

When we walk through the
forest looking at ephemerals,

we're looking at these
glimmers of life that are coming and going.

And we ourselves could be like that.

I like the idea of it.

I mean, I love the
idea as a child, especially.

Can you tell me the, uh,
what happened to you as a child again?

Um, it was so real.
It was so... it was not a dream.

You knew it wasn't a
dream. It was just too real.

I've only had that
feeling once in my whole life.

And that was when I
was about three years old.

I told everybody
that, uh, I had another life.

I called it my olden days.

I was in Poland. I lived in Poland.

And the only part of my old life that I

remember was sitting
at a table with my sister.

And I was facing her. She was
very blond, had sort of a roundish face.

I knew that we
lived in a very tall house,

tall, skinny house
in Poland, um, in a city.

It was like a row house.

And all of a sudden, I got up, and I
went running down a very, very, very long

flight of stairs and out into the street.

And that's it. That's all I remember.

Um, it's kind of a mundane memory.

When I talk about it, I can
remember what my sister looked like.

But I remember people, grown-ups

especially, saying,
"Well, it must have been a dream."

And I was adamant that it wasn't.

More of a grown-up thing that I put
onto it is that it was the last seconds of my

life, or the last
couple of minutes of my life.

Because that's not necessarily true.
I don't think I told people that as a child.

That's something you've put on top of it.

Possibly, yeah.
Yeah, possibly. In other words,

it might have just
been a fragment of a memory.

Um, like, not
really an event. Just a little

fragment, a little bit
of residue of the last life.

- Hello?
- Hi.

Hi, Peter. How you doing?

Oh, I'm not sure.
Um, I've been bad still.

What are you feeling?

Oh, uh, I don't know.

Uh, where are you?

I'm at home.

You're at home.

And I am where?

You're at your home.

If I am at my home,
um, well, I would appreciate if

you could perhaps come
here one of these, uh, hours.

Okay.

Okay.

Um, have you, uh, like,
did you sleep? How are you feeling?

Well, I, I think I'm okay.

Um, I'm really not quite sure.

And we don't want to
bring you to the hospital, right?

No, no. Don't take me to the hospital.

Okay.

But I like to talk to somebody.

Okay, well, I'll
come over. I'll be there.

Okay.

Mm.

All right.

Hey there.

What's there?

It's me with the camera.

Who?

That time you woke up.
Usually you don't wake up when I come in.

Who?

Were you dreaming?

It's the, uh...

- Is there any room open there?
- Yeah.

Do you have trouble breathing at all?

No.

And nothing hurts?

No.

You just feel weak.

Yeah.

Do you feel like a nervous energy at all?

No.

But what about your thoughts?
Are they clear? Can you think clearly?

Or is everything a bit cloudy?

What about?

Your thoughts.

My what?

Your thoughts. Your thinking.

Not really.

Not really what?

Are you sure you
don't want to go see a doctor?

No.

So what do you
think the best thing to do is?

Just relax?

Oh, I don't... I don't know what to say.

I can make that.

I can't tell you.

Are you sentimental about certain things?

Which happen or gives them to you?

Your wife?

Like attached to certain things?

Attached to the feeling for it.

Yeah. Nostalgia.

Nostalgia?

You know what nostalgia is?

No.

Well, nostalgia is a feeling
when you look back on something and you...

you reminisce on it or you miss it.

Yes. Yes.

I do.

Learning much so.

Some people don't.

Do you?

Yeah.

Well.

That means you have feelings.

You have feelings for certain things.

Which your life or out
grows to you and you can't forget.

You remember it.

No?

Yeah.

Good.

Because in my opinion,

that is important in life.

To have feelings.

Yeah.

Are the birds out there?

A little one.

Yeah, yeah.

Oh dear.

What have you been feeling lately?

Home.

I've been feeling
a little bit not so well.

What would you want to do
now the most?

Well, relax a bit.

So you're happy sitting in your chair?

Yeah.

Lying in your bed?

Relax, meet, the cloak and mail.

Is there anything
else that would make you happy?

No.

So you feel content?

Yeah.

Are you more in your
dreams or more in this world out here?

I don't know.

A little bit more here.

And you still like it here in this world?

Yeah.

You want to stay here
in this world for a while?

Yeah.

Have we reached the end of our walk?

No, we haven't... you
haven't made it to the stream yet.

Just around the corner.

Shall I leave the camera here and just go look,
or shall I take the camera with me?

I think you might want the camera.

All right.

I think nature's pretty opportunistic.

Each thing wants to survive.

In humans, it feels like a kind of vanity

to always be
concerned about your survival.

Trying to enhance your conditions,
get more, eat better, have a nicer house.

It feels like a vanity in
humans, but I don't know if it is.

It might just be nature.

I feel... when I get into the
rhythms of nature, I feel at ease.

And I've been more
able to attune myself to those

rhythms because
there's been fewer distractions.

I think I've just felt
great relief in being able to

be out in the natural
world watching the spring come.

That's Daisy.

Daisy the bird?

Daisy the dog.

I think because my parents died recently

a lot of under thinking,

a lot of the thinking that my
body's doing

that I'm not doing consciously,
I think it is about them.

If I have space in my brain, if I'm
out walking or gardening

and I pay attention to what I'm thinking
about, it's usually about them.

It's funny you say that
because there is this kind of

processing that goes on in
spite of your brain and your intellect.

It's almost like you can
turn all that off and there's

the living body underneath
that that's dealing with things.

I feel like somehow I've
processed a lot about their deaths

in the last two months,
but in a way I can't articulate it.

I mean, I think that we just
understand complexity better as we age.

As we gain experience, we understand that
things are more than they appear to be.

Does that make you want to say less?

Maybe it does.

It makes me resist drawing conclusions.

There is something
that's changed about the

way I want to learn
or the way I'm learning.

I actually feel resistant. I didn't
want to read anything that anybody

had written about the death of
their parents or death in general.

Even though I know
there would be a lot to learn.

There's also the thing that's very real
as you age of realizing or understanding

your insignificance in
the greater scheme of things.

And I think that's one of the reasons
why it's more wonderful than ever to be in

the woods because it supports the feeling
that starts to take over you as you age.

That you really don't mean a jot.

And I don't have a problem with that.

I don't have a
problem with not meaning a jot.

Two-thirty.

Freddie managed to
avoid COVID, but he kept falling

down, eventually hitting
his head and breaking his hip.

Freddie, baby. Hi. Hi.
I'm taking another picture of you.

I spent nine days with Freddie in the hospital,
reading passages of books out loud,

playing music,
speaking in improvised monologues.

I explained how
making films, recording images

and sounds, was
something like a religion to me.

With the hope that there might
be lessons learned as we look back.

You want to talk about the future?

What about the future, Freddie?

The future of the house.

Right.

You were on that
street for such a long time.

Did you think you had lived
there for fifty-three years?

Sorry, I have to sent him upstairs.

I understand.
Yeah, thank you for the time.

Ta-ta!

What?

Slightly nibbled at by our son, Peter.

A delicious treat
for Thanksgiving Day.

There we go.

Ta-ta!

Ta-da!

Okay. Now.

Does our chief executive appreciate this...

What do you see, Freddie?

I see a guy with too much hair.

I need to go to the hairdresser.

I see a guy who I
don't quite like the eyes.

Yeah, it's funny.

It's sort of...

Sad.

Too stern.

You always had stern eyes.

Stern eyes.

God, you could...

And my...

My...

...mouth hangs down too much.

It should be born.

How did that...

Do you see the Freddie you
know, or do you see a different Freddie?

I... I... You know,
I see the Freddie you know.

And here, I have a
guy, I think 86 years of age.

86.

Five years ago, Freddie.

You should grow a long hair.

So, do you think when you look
through binoculars, you can see the future?

Oh, yeah?

Yes, you can.

Do you think so?

I heard about that.

You did?

Yes.

Where did you hear about that?

I heard that from
an old professor ages ago.

Ages ago?

Yep.

Was he looking through binoculars?

Yes.

Yes.

I just thought to think where that was.

And I laughed and thought he was nuts.

But now you think it's true?

I do, yeah.

So if you look through
these, you can see the future.

The future?

Can you see the future?

You can make up the future.

If you can't see it,
make it up and believe in it.

I mean, it's funny, when I
was going into the hospital yesterday,

I was thinking about giving birth.

Hmm.

Even though this involves pain
and departure and all these things,

it's as poignant as
birth, you know, and as important.

It's like, it's actually like a labor.

Death is like a labor.

It's not that it just comes around.

It's like a deep, deep
thing that you're kind of working on,

emotionally, but also in the
material world, on all kinds of levels.

You're laboring the death.

Yes, and I sort of
realized the whole last

two years of my mom's life was the labor.

Well, I'll talk to you soon, maybe.

Okay.

Okay.

Enjoy the beautiful day.

It is, isn't it?

Yeah.

Okay.

All right.

Yeah.

Bye-bye.

Bye.

Hey, thanks for the coffee.

It is all right.

Now, as we go, the sun shines again.

I hope it didn't keep you too long.

No.

Can we maybe see the clip
before we are buried?

The clip?

That film you made today.

Yeah.

It's more than a clip.

It takes almost as long
to look at as it did to shoot it.

Oh, God.

I'm scared.

And then people will
say, "Who the heck are they?"

You don't need to tell that.

And put Mom's name on top.

For what?

- Well, you're the star of the movie.
- Yes, I am.

And then mine in
very small print down below.

And you have to say, "Also appearing..."

Right?

Yeah.

Oh, dear.

Does it run?

There are certain
things you cannot forget.

You don't lose.

It's in you.

You think back at the good times.

However, there are other times too.

What will happen to us afterwards?
Will we disappear completely?

Or do we get to reborn?

You know, we have to communicate with
Peter when we're up there.

Yeah, how are we gonna do that?

Well, maybe some way it's going
to be found by fast email.

By that time, we know something
new like anyone, like everything else.

Looking good, Freddy?

Tongue and groove.

It slides on by itself and stays closed
during the entire operation.

- That's perfect.
- Okay.

It's not required, but this is just
a little tiny dowel that

secures the lead in place. It's usually
kind of warped a bit from the moisture.

We'll get Dad in here.

- Hi, how are you?
- I'm fine, thanks.

- This is Caine and Derek.
- Hi, there.

They're going to help us today.
This is Peter and Bruce.

So, do we lift?

Bruce, if you want to come in, we ask you
please leave your camera...

The gentleman will open the door here,

see a little kind of cubby,
if you will, look

at crypt. And when
this container gets rolled

inside, it makes a
small sound just with friction.

If you wish, sir,

you can do it yourself,
just press a button.

Okay, I'll push the button.

Freddy, are you going to dance with Mommy?

I almost cut myself...
maybe we should go over there...

That's it.

That's it.

Wow.